Quote from: teeg on May 29, 2014, 09:25:20 PM
To me this is extremely confusing and concerning. If someone is a more feminine male, or a more masculine female, this I can understand. I don't understand how someone could logically say they are neither female nor male when these are the only two options available, and more importantly how physicians could ethically prescribe either male or female hormones to a patient who says they don't feel male nor female...
I'd be concerned for the patient's mental and physical health upon the administration of hormones. If one thinks they are not a female, but wants to take female hormones which will turn their body into a female's, or thinks they are not a male, but wants to take male hormones which will turn their body into a male's, how will this help anything?
Women have estrogen only for a reason -- men have testosterone for a reason. You can't start adding a little estrogen here and there unless you're indifferent to probably experiencing Gynecomastia, infertility, stroke risk, cardiac risk, prostate issues, weight gain, low sex drive, and probably more than I can't remember. It's unfortunate that so many people seem to underestimate the seriousness of hormonal effects on the body and seem to think that this is something that can be played around with.
Hi there dear-
Yes I am non binary, yes I have a very complicated diagnosis, and yes I need hormones. On Testosterone I am manic, depressed, anxious, insane, on the edge of meltdown, driven, and extremely dysphoric.
On Estrogen and I have very little T left due to meds, on E I am calm, focussed, relaxed, brilliant (brain fires better), able to concentrate longer, and I feel physically great, and my dysphoria becomes relaxing and not overbearing.
So physically, that is the end on that one. Mentally, I am quite happy - real happy, sustained, for the first time in nearly a half century - and I am convinced that it is because of the estrogen receptors in my brain and elsewhere, and my God given design for living and health.
On the mental side, I am fluid. I can be male, female, anything in the middle, depending on social circumstances. My body is wired totally female sexually and perceptually. Yet I maintain a male GQ appearance, the only give away is my nails when I work. And I am comfortable with that. I am amuzed at the application of the male female extremes to myself, because they are false. And after 15 months of therapy and help at Susans, I am quite mentally healthy as a GQ transsexual. It is a totally honest place, genuine, authentic, without deception of any kind.
So the short answer is, it would be unethical not to treat me with hormones, it would be unethical to force FTE with its dire familial consequences in my case, and I prefer hormones to death.
I was fortunate to have a gender therapist and an endo who both have 40 years experience treating all forms of trans.
My suggestion would be that you get the best one you can buy, as the real danger of transition is self deception, which frankly can kill you. I have been down that road, I have escaped it, and i will not return to it, all because of denying the male components, and a huge desire for acceptance in the mtf community. The funny thing is that I have that acceptance now.
Too much about me here. I just hope it can help. Our cases are all different, complicated, and with different stakes involved.
Also my definition of transition is that I have a female body with no surgeries now and that is the full transition FOR ME. It cannot be argued that I am not mtf transexual without disqualifying every preop/no op in here, BUT it CAN be argued that I am not a complete woman soul living in a mans body, because I am not. I am a free neutral spirit. The body is a house I live in and enjoy, and I have the right to design it to where I feel comforable, happy, and have a safe nurtuting environment for me, all under the outerwear. Look beneath the surface clothing and you have - good luck with that one - . Unique beauty and quite the woman.
When I do present fully I am a knock-out androgyne GQ TS. I worked hard to get there.
I am happy. I am comfortable in my own body and socially. Isn't that the goal of all responsible therapy and endo treatment?
God Bless your journey Teeg, may it fulfill you needs and joys. And same to all here.