Misgendering causes way worse dysphoria for me than anything about my body specifically.
I can remember several occasions where I've been in tears after having to indicate my birth sex on forms and paperwork and things.

Quote from: aggressivelyconfused on May 31, 2014, 10:04:35 AM
Misgendering causes way worse dysphoria for me than anything about my body specifically.
I can remember several occasions where I've been in tears after having to indicate my birth sex on forms and paperwork and things.

I admit this used to be a big problem. It ended since I no longer have to use the wrong check boxes and such.

Mtf
I dont get it as much anymore but seeing my junk before a shower, and just getting insulted (tho thats more of a human thing).

Usually seeing my fat behind fixes the shower problem tho i have a new problem of feeling fat. :/

emo, that has to be the first time I heard of a fat behind being both wanted and not wanted by the same person.


I haven't seen the wanted poster yet though, so it might be OK.

Quote from: LordKAT on May 31, 2014, 12:03:26 PM
emo, that has to be the first time I heard of a fat behind being both wanted and not wanted by the same person.


I haven't seen the wanted poster yet though, so it might be OK.

Its a strange paradox. Lol
My fat has become pretty feminine in a very short amount of time but now theres too much of it. Yep. I gained weight. So now im gonna have to go walking 10 miles to get down to like 120 hopefully. But ill probably be fine if i can just lose 15-20 pounds.

FTM, pre-everything.

- Looking in the mirror (which I've hardly ever been doing for over a decade because I know it makes me feel bad).
- Seeing men with typically masculine features (facial hair, jawline, etc.). Sometimes that gets bad enough to make me cry.
- When I'm wearing layers. When I wear baggy clothes, I can't really see my chest, but when I wear layers, it feels more obvious, and I find myself looking down and running my hands over them in an attempt to flatten them, knowing that that's impossible.
- My damn VOICE.
- The thought of certain sexual activities that are extremely common in people with the genitalia that I possess.
- Trans guys who are already on testosterone or have also had surgery and etc.

When I  used to catch myself in a feminine posture, and have to self correct so noone noticed.  Now I dont stop myself, but there are a couple of people that mock me by making the same pose (one in spite, another more in humor) but both trigger dysphoria

The word "spike".

pregnant women It makes me feel incomplete and that I never will be and that even the breasts I have grown will never be used for what they were made for.
I just found out a close friend of mine that I see all the time is pregnant too. The next 9 months are going to be hard. She is super lovely though and I am really happy for her.

My voice

And in the shower.

Getting misgendered, catching a glimpse in the mirror when I'm not expecting it, and lately especially talking on the phone. I hate that years of a female "phone voice' from various jobs is so hard to overcome, and it's not even like I can blame the other person. Any time a woman wants to commiserate about "that time of the month" or anything about bras, my day is pretty much ruined.

I share the problem that some people have with seeing young transpeople being able to transition. I am always happy for them, and I want their lives to go well and their identities to be affirmed and respected, but it's hard to avoid thinking if I'd been born just a decade or two later I might have suffered a lot less. It's hard sometimes to just accept that this is the way it is and I can't ever alter how things used to be and what that did to the body and mind I have now.

I am sad about how many people feel dysphoria with showering. I feel better about myself when I'm in the shower than almost anywhere else. It's so abstract. I have my body, and it has some "wrong" parts and it isn't movie-star sexy, but I like it. Even all the weird curves and scars are fine, because they're mine, and in the shower nobody gets to tell me that I'm not amazing. If I felt bad in the shower, and everything else was also wrong with my life, I'd work on the shower thing first. Enjoying how you look and feel while alone can carry you through a lot when you're not alone.

I think what gets me is when people start after I do but can get their surgery(s) way before I can.

Couples, and pretty women

now a days since my mirror is right across from my bed, basically every morning (night time since i dont wake until like 5 pm) my dysphoria hits me like a bullet to the skull.

Lately?

Breathing. Seriously, my dysphoria has been pegged since mid May. It goes away for a few minutes at a time.

Being willfully misgendered by family members.

FTM

I am a larger guy and have never been fond of wearing a binder, as there is a lot to bind and I find it uncomfortable.  However, learning that I have a hiatal hernia and need to stop wearing my binder due to the extensive upward abdominal pressure it creates lent well to chest dysphoria.

Also, I have high T and low E.  As a result, I do not menstruate on my own.  My doctor prescribed Provera to induce it and reduce my risk of endometrial cancer (family history).  Every morning for two weeks each month I have to take one of said pills, and I find that each passing day it becomes harder to bring myself to do so.  I actually skipped this month entirely due to the overwhelming sense of injustice I experience.  It is a moment of, "I did not ask for these parts.  I do not want these parts.  The least they could do is work properly."

In all honesty, I think my minor dysphoria spikes (which are nothing more than an inconvenience) are caused when I haven't expressed my feminine side in too long.

Dysphoria hits me pretty bad when I get my monthly gift.