Being told that I'm a gorgeous woman!   

I present male in public but I'm letting my hair grow.  The other day I was having lunch with a female colleague of mine.  We were cleaning up the table to leave when a guy came up from behind me and said "are you ladies leaving?"

So I guess from behind I pass.

P.S.  This is the same women who 3 months ago misheard something I said and almost choked on her lunch.  She said she pictured me in a dress flashed for a second.  That made me almost choke on my lunch.  Funny thing, she is on my very short list to come out to first.

I am finally getting out of my hotel and moving into my new apartment tomorrow! Can't wait to get on with my life. Had my first appointment with a gender specialist the other day. She seemed great. Can't wait to get to talk to her more to help me figure out where I am going.


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Second voice therapy session. She said I have the pitch and, while there's some work towards getting proper intonation, I'm in a good starting point. If I practice talking with high pitch as much as I can, the resonance would come on its own. Who knows, maybe I won't have to undergo VFS after all?

Two things

I had my first 'girl' hair cut this week, it's transitional as it's been about 3 months since I'd grown it out long enough to keep in a ponytail. Layered to soften facial features and so as to look less like a guy with long hair. I don't wear it down much, usually the ponytail is just more practical.

Then yesterday with hair down had just been seated for coffee with my GF and a server approached from behind asking 'what would you ladies like?'.

It's working! ... At least from behind :-).

I got my ears pierced!

Flying to Spain to spend a week there!!!!

Last Sunday it was sunny in London and I wrote in my diary that I'd happily trade that for a stormy day in my home town. I guess my wish has been granted because the sun will stay here in the UK and I'm traveling to a rainy Madrid

Yea, I'm selling something old & male like for a lot of $, a boat, good riddance. More time & money to enjoy being a woman. Maybe a new man one day that owns his own boat......I've always enjoyed sex out on the water. 

Yea, a nice FB women friend is sending me some of her marigold seeds. That will be great to plant & see them grow. It's sure nice to be a woman & have so many women friends

This sounds odd, but I think I finally spent an entire day with the old male persona shut down.  All day in what I call 'girl mode', the state of mind where I'm up front running myself instead of trying to pass as male.  That may have been the happiest day I've had in decades.  (And no, I wasn't even properly dressed much of the day.  Just underdressing, and I managed to stay in control in spite of wearing some andro clothing on the outside.)

I know, weird, but I was really happy.  Small steps...

Today I had some tight black jeans on and a light blouse that I wore to work.  Needing coffee I went into the kitchen and started the coffee maker.  I then turned around to get some creamer and caught a guy checking out my butt.  He looked away embarrassed.  On the one hand wtf, I'm at work.  On the other hand, cool, somebody checked out my butt!   

Got my HRT letter from my Psych yesterday and have an appointment at the end of the month to get my first scripts so I rang to say I had my letter that we had been waiting on and very tongue in cheek asked if they had any appointments sooner than the 31st of the month...and just like that I have a new appointment for next Tuesday...the lady did suggest I would have to wait and I told her I would bring a packed lunch if needed but would be there with bells on and all day if that's what it takes. 

Got my first haircut since I started growing it out (again!). I couldn't get as much layering as I would have liked because I still need to be able to put it back in a ponytail, but I like the change. The hair dresser also gave some tips on products to use and how to use a hair dryer properly (a friend of mine had given me absolutely terrible advice!)

I went shopping with a couple friends a few days ago, and that was just amazing! I felt so much more confident in the stores with other people, and was able to enjoy the experience much more. Not nearly enough for a wardrobe, but it's a start. I've already worn a few of the outfits to work, and gotten some good reactions

I may start HRT by Thursday.

I was in a group photo this weekend that was posted on Facebook.  Of course being tagged in the picture it showed up in my timeline.

The picture was with a bunch of cyclists and we were in our cycling gear.  If you are not familiar with such attire, it's very form fitting.  And the jersey I had selected to wear that day was an extra small so it was a little tight.

This morning my sister forwarded me a message from my cousin, who I have not seen in 15-20 years, sent my sister an email that said "Wow - I had to zoom way in on that picture, I thought he was a girl!"  Funny thing - I agree.  I'm only out a a few people and she is not one of them so my sister and I got a big laugh out of it.

BUT I'm sitting here with a smile on my face!

After 5 months of manic work I have my life back.
Spent Monday and Tuesday in Melbourne for work and much less stressful than the 18 hour days of the past.

I will be able to focus back on me for once.

Today I had my first laser hair removal treatment! Even though it was kind of painful, it really made my day! I think I haven't been this energized in weeks. It's great to see what a little hope and perspective can do.

Today I finally started on Hormones! Ive  been on Estrogel for 1 and a half weeks, but i finally had my first Leuprorelin jab this afternoon!!! Was mega nervous, but its done, and three yars after being reffered to the gender clinic im finally where i want to be xx

Congrats! An exciting day! Enjoy your journey. Be patient in regards to results. It really depends on the individual. I know it was a day I won't forget. I was smiling from ear to ear with tears of joy running down my face. Such a long wait and then.......

Received the results from virtualffs.co.uk. Wow, really impressive job, and I like the result a lot! Ok I could be prettier but I'm definitely 100% a woman even under the most demanding eyes, which are always your own. My bestie and her mother, who know about it, were also amazed.