Hello everyone.

I have a question for you and hope you can help me.
(Sorry for my bad English)
I am a 34 years old man and I'm from Germany.
And I'm a transgender. I live in my "normal life" as a straight guy and Transform me with my outfit into a women.
And that makes me happy
I have a great girlfriend who knows and likes it.
My problem / question is: I am built sporty, I do ballet for many years and I´m in good shape.
But for me or my "second me" I´m too muscular and manly.
I try a lot, constantly keep diet, starting also with yoga and pilates. It works fine but I habe big muscles. I know a lots of guys love big muscles and say: " you looks great.....blabla"
Then I read a lot about hormones. (Normaly guy read about testosteron to tranform into a Hulk) I read about Estrogen. After a view weeks I ordered tow different medications
I oredered Aldoctan and Premarin .(Tablets)
I started in the morning to take a Aldoctan and Premarin and in the evening again a premarin.
Everything was OK, I had no "negative" side effects. I noticed that i lost a little little bit musclemass. Not much and maybe it was imagination but I was happy.
But after around one month me libido was very very low. And it was hard work to make the small friend "hard".
I have a girlfriend and i love to sleep with her. And my girlfriend love also my small friend.
So I stopped with the tablets. After two weeks, everything was fine. I have an erection in the morning and no problem to make him hard.
Now my question. What can I do to change my body without to lose my sex life . I like my penis and wants to keep him well.
Maybe I have to use other hormones or maybe I sopped to fast and the low libido was just mentally. Then "I think" after one month with this lower dosage should not be felt.
I know it's dangerous, not allowed and some will also say'm an idiot. But I have this life- and it is my life, my body. I will try to become the body i dream for. Skinny with small waist, small arms....
I hope anyone understand me and maybe anyone has an idear.
Thank you.
Greetings Sebastian
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