Well after lurking here for quite some time, I thought I'd finally make a post.

My back story is very similar to many on here.  Feeling out of place, never comfortable with who I am, years of not knowing what to do, buying/wearing women's clothes followed by the inevitable purge.  Married, kids, divorce.

So I'm going to hopefully find out more about myself by actually participating in the forums here.  I've never told anyone about these feelings and have worked hard to keep it hidden all my life so I hope to give myself a chance to explore this further with a little support rather then keeping it bottled up.

I have many regrets about what my life might've been like if I'd done this when I was younger.  But I wouldn't change anything since I do have three wonderful children that'd I wouldn't trade for anything.

So now here I am, a 40 something who knows what, trying to figure out where to go from here.  But I do look forward to joining the conversation here and see what happens.

Katie,

Welcome to the site.

My usual question applies. Are you in therapy? If not, you should think about starting. In particular, a gender therapist if possible. They help us work through the mazes of doubts, fears, thoughts and feelings to arrive at a spot where we can safely make decisions for ourselves.

I am 51. Three teen daughters. Going on 26 year anniversary. Not presenting publicly yet(just therapy and a support group). Out to my wife and a few friends but working on it. That's all to give you an idea of where I am coming from.

I also want to share some links with you. They are mostly welcome information and the rules that govern the site. If you have not had a chance to look through them, please take a moment:

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Once again, welcome to Susan's. Look around, ask questions and join in.

With warmth,

Joanna

Hi Katie 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M