Thanks for all the comments.
I am truly flummoxed by my ex's flippant attitude, though.
I don't get it.
I don't know if what she says about wanting to transition is true, or if this some shallow sexual fetish (she said she thought the "she-males" she found on-line were "hot' and wanted to be like them), or some ploy to get back with me for kinky fun.
She has been keeping in touch with occasional Skype messaging and emails and sometimes I can believe she has a female side. For instance..her last email she went on and on about the details of clothing, jewelry, and boots worn by a cross-dresser, without sexual comments.
This struck me as very "female." Perhaps almost middle school, but that would be expected with someone newly allowing a female personality to manifest. I know it was that way with me when I finally allowed "Raell" out.
Of course the trustworthy part is still a question mark, but the whole thing seems unreal, like a strange dream.
Like I've said before, I had been trying to make a wish for a "perfect partner" a few months ago, but because I'm asexual and androgynous, I didn't even know which gender to wish for. I remembered how perfect in most ways my ex is; his two-hour foot rubs each night, face massages, the way he quickly did my housework for me every time my back was turned. how much fun it was traveling the world with him, hiking, camping, ballroom dancing with him most weekends. VERY treacherous, but the good parts were very good.
I found myself thinking that the perfect life companion person would be a female version of my ex, then laughed it off. But When I next checked my email there was a message from my ex out of the blue saying that he had decided to transition to female and wanted to move to Thailand to be with me, that I was "the only man" for him.
I've been confused, wondering if I somehow "made" him do it with my wish. Wondering if it was a joke, some silly notion of his, or just what.
Or maybe I'm just dreaming.
