Quote from: Jenna Marie on February 01, 2017, 01:52:35 PM
In that case, maybe it's just that different bodies end up differently. (I was thinking that if he'd switched to stitching skin to urethral lining with no "filler," that might lead to a flatter result, but obviously that's not it.)
I have had to accept that by now, my feelings are more akin to a cis woman who wishes something were different - so long as what I ended up with is within the range of cis normal, it may not be perfect, but it's mine. I'm not interested in further surgery (of any kind) without a REALLY compelling reason, though; someone else might feel differently.
I have a similar result, with puffy outer lips and thickish inner lips. I have seen such a look on cis women before, though I would have loved a 'porn star' look, instead, but that can be achieved with a labiopasty somewhere down the road, if I ever feel the need. For me, I was looking for a natural look, but with the least amount of stitch work, so as to not disrupt the sensations in the area unnecessarily. My sensation is better than I hoped, the look is plenty realistic, and I lubricate very well. I quit using lube while dilating in month four. I have had internal orgasms from day 11 onward, and I started having clitoral orgasms pretty easily after I had my first one at 6 months. Orgasm is pretty routine for me now, as long as I am warm, calm, happy, and thinking about giving myself to somebody I love, or at least, lust after, ha ha!
I did have a revision, my V scar did not heal well, and I didn't pee straight, and I wanted a more pronounced clitoral hood. My original clitoral hood was repurposed into a neo-scrotum as an infant, long story, ugh, and my neo-phallus was circumsized to look like a real penis, so there just wasn't much tissue there to work with. Dre. Belanger did my revision, and also improved the symmetry to my vagina in the process. The new scars are healing far faster than the old ones, with no pinched painful places, and they already lie flat, only 3 months later. I was born female, and that area was always very, very sensitive, and not like a cis male's skin in that region at all, more like baby skin than man skin, for sure. I don't know how one can have such a surgery without leaving a visible scar, but my feeling now is that I couldn't really ask for a less obvious set than I currently have. I like my pubic hair, it has always grown in a cis female pattern, and it is already long enough to hide my scars, even though they are still reddish in a lot of places. About 40% of the V scar is almost indistinguishable from the surrounding skin. Maybe I am lucky that I have very fair skin, only porcelain skin is lighter than mine, so the scars blend in easily.
I am also now thinking of my vagina like any cis woman does, yes it is great, but hmm, if I could, I would like this or that different, but do I need it improved? No, I need other things improved above my neck waaay before I would consider spending a dime on any changes down there. Plus, I want more time with it pain-free, lol, it has only been 2 years since the reconstruction, and I just want to enjoy her now, lol..
Missy