Hey all, so I finally hit the one year mark on HRT.
It has been one hell of a ride, starting hormones for me is something that put me in an instant calm, and I have been that way ever since. I have experienced none of the ups and downs and moods swings that apparently can happen with the flip of hormones. I was put on full dose blocker (Androcur) from day one and a half dose of estrogen, that was a massive relief knowing my body would no longer develop as a man, and at 26 I do believe my body was still developing. I hope atleast.
I experienced the begining of softening skin within a month, my smell changed almost instantly which was very strange. My breasts started to tingle and grow aswell in around a month, my hairline began growing in new baby blonde hairs in the forehead corners, they would eventually turn brown and grow longer in the next month's, with new blondes constantly appearing infront of what became proper fully formed hair.
My face I think has changed slightly, it's hard to tell as I see it all the time but my brothers and family back home say there is huge differences, so I take there words on that.
My hair continues to grow long and strong, I don't see much difference in it mind, I have always had it somewhat long before, until forced to cut it.
My body has also begun to really flare out at the hips which is amazing, I don't even know how they are fit to grow like this. And with hips and boobs forming my waist is starting to look great.
I have lost alot of muscle mass and I now sit at around 65kgs at 5'11" instead of my once 73kgs.
This will be my last harvest year here in Switzerland after 7 years, I will be returning home in December, much to everyones shock in the caller and bottling line, as I was a great worker and everyone loved me there, the boss has made me leave my appartement and is threatening to fire me. Nobody understands his motives, and I am beginning to wonder has he figured out I am trans and has panicked?
Anyway I don't care, I must move on, my manager in the cellar has been begging me to stay, but I have told him a thousand times it's not my choice.
I will have alot of organising to do when I get home with new doctors and endos, new apartment and get the Supra MOT'd, and hopefully now that I am back on home ground, I can make my name official :')
One last thing I am pushing for before I leave Switzerland is an Orchie, as it should be covered by my insurance.
I am so affraid of going home and not being able to find the same drugs I have been using. So atleast the Orchie would get rid of half of that problem.
Anyway that is about it for my rant, for anyone starting out, try pay no heed to the changes, some things you will notice, somethings you will not, it's the things we don't expect, that hit us the hardest, for me that was the hair in the corners of my hairline.
My boobs are still very small still, hardly and AA, but I am happy with them even so :')
I have avoided social things quiet abit, that doesn't bother me too much, as an oddball when I was young I was always content in being alone.
Hopefully now with me going home and hopefully coming out 100% in December this shall really advance the social side of my transition, advance my voice abit more too.
Anyways I hope I have got most of this down, I ramble quiet abit, and can be fail in my typing lol.
Goodluck to everyone on this journey, and those waiting to begin.
Love, Rachel
