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Re: Here I go again :-( 2.0

Started by Shy, January 17, 2018, 02:38:45 PM

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Jayne01

Hi Laurie, as usual, I'm late to the party. So much happens while I'm away. If I didn't know better I would take that personally, but I do know better. I'm glad you are feeling better, even if it's only due to the pills. At least the pills clear your head so that you can have the mental clarity to resolve the issues. We all need you. Look at what you made Faith do. She got herself all dolled up and sent you a photo of herself looking incredible and smiling! Laurie, that's on you! You help so many of us, more than you know. Thank you for being you!

I love you sister!

Jayne
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Laurie

Thanks Jayne,

We all got together to cheer you up after you landed and rested a bit. That's what we came up with. It seems to have worked. And EVERYONE Loves Faith's new picture.

Hugs,
  Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Jayne01

I do feel better after a little rest and rebooting my brain into whatever timezone I'm in. Im quickly catching up on everyone now, and will post an update on my thread soon.

Jayne
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p

Thanks for letting us in a little bit more into where your thoughts have been and how you are progressing. I am really glad to hear that you now know that the medication is working. Sending you lots of love!!!  :-*
Patti

Something is off - 2016-17
Out to husband - 2/14/17
Full-time - 3/9/17
HRT - 6/14/17
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davina61

As the saying goes "keep taking the tablets"!!!!! We can all see the change in you, welcome back and may the improvements continue, Got that truck fixed yet, I can hear the road trip coming-------
a long time coming (out) HRT 12 2017
GRS 2021 5th Nov

Jill of all trades mistress of non
Know a bit about everything but not enough to be clever
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Faith

Quote from: davina61 on January 25, 2018, 01:59:57 PM.....Got that truck fixed yet, I can hear the road trip coming-------
FLORIDA! FLORIDA!  ;D
I left the door open, only a few came through. such is my life.
Bluesky:@faithnd.bsky.social

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steph2.0



Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Anne Blake

You have to stop in Colorado along the way!
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Cassi

HRT since 1/04/2018
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Sarah_P

ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD TRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP!!!!
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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Laurie

 Patti - my thoughts were where none of us should go.

They say it a bad thing to be thinking those thoughts. They say it is worse if you have a plan. Then of course it's too late once you act upon that plan. I had the first two and was just waiting on spring to act.  Today my therapist asked if I had had a plan and I said yes. Then he asked if I would tell it to him, and I did. after he wanted me to get rid of my guns and when I said I did have anyone here that I could trust with them (besides it being against the law w/o doing a background check on them first) het gave me 3 gun locks and asked me to give the keys to my sister.

Davina - now see what you've started? You HAD to say road trip didn't you? Too bad there isn't a bridge over that pond you keep talking about.

   Calm down you southeastern girls I said I will come visit and it looks like I might hang around long enough to do so. You do realize I have 2 cis-lady friends there and at least three of you to meet. there.

  And you too Tia do you realize there are five ladies in the Denver area?  I'll have to use your place as a base of operations for a few days....

I am going to be getting out a bit once the pickup is reregistered.  If have to take it back to the dealer when a part comes in. This repair round is costing over $1100.00 and I will still need and alignment and the 4wd fixed.

  I saw my therapist today. He was please to see I was feeling better. He said today he was reminded of the laurie he met when we started before all this crap came over me. I told him yes I was feeling better because of the pills and that I don't trust it. I also said I'm still not sure I want to be here but then again I'm not sure I don't anymore either. He seemed to think that somehow it made sense. The session was more of a chat session than anything heavy.

   I haven't said anything about Sara for a few days. She's still with us. I got her to talk a little the other day and she was a bit angry sounding towards me and the world I think. She still has no hope and only pain of her existence. I know hows she feels having been there myself so recently. All I can do for her is to let her know I'm here for her and keep urging her to seek help.

Hugs girls, and thank you for being my friends.
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Laurie

Quote from: Sarah_P on January 25, 2018, 05:55:32 PM
ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD TRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP!!!!

I saw that Sarah
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Anne Blake

Laurie,

You are always welcome. You know where we live and we have a room available. You even said the bed was comfortable. You may be required to put together a breakfast now and then.

Tia Anne
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steph2.0

Quote from: Laurie on January 25, 2018, 06:32:32 PM
Calm down you southeastern girls I said I will come visit and it looks like I might hang around long enough to do so. You do realize I have 2 cis-lady friends there and at least three of you to meet. there.
I hate to make holes in my ceiling, but I'll install eyebolts if I have to. I wonder where I can rent honey badgers? Might have to substitute alligators.


- Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Roll

Quote from: Steph2.0 on January 25, 2018, 07:35:32 PM
I hate to make holes in my ceiling, but I'll install eyebolts if I have to. I wonder where I can rent honey badgers? Might have to substitute alligators.


- Stephanie

It's Florida, just find someone on flakka or bath salts and put them in a badger costume. Close enough.
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

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8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Sarah_P

--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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Laurie

You goofy gals. I just don't know about all of you.

Thank you Tia and Deb. I do know that I am welcome in your home and I am honored to be. I'll see if I can remember to bring Deb's Mom a rock from here when I come. I think a breakfast or two could be arranged provided we can find proper ingredients. I still have a bag with frozen pablano sauce in it for you from my first batch ever.

Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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steph2.0

Quote from: Roll on January 25, 2018, 09:11:19 PM
It's Florida, just find someone on flakka or bath salts and put them in a badger costume. Close enough.

In this part of Florida, the best you'll find is someone strung out on Metamucil and prune juice who'll gum you to death.


- Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Cassi

Quote from: Steph2.0 on January 25, 2018, 10:00:19 PM
In this part of Florida, the best you'll find is someone strung out on Metamucil and prune juice who'll gum you to death.


- Stephanie

Good thing you didn't mention Geritol or I'd be worried.
HRT since 1/04/2018
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Jayne01

Hi Laurie, I am very happy to see you starting to enjoy life again. It is such a pleasure to see this renewed appreciation for life in you. You are doing really great, keep up the good work.

I am also very happy to know Sara is still with us. It's good that she is angry, it means she is feeling her pain and hasn't given up yet. Keep being here for her.

Jayne
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