Quote from: Lexi Nexi on February 25, 2018, 02:37:14 AM
I was wondering that too. Figured it was a date. For me the name Lexi was a whole bunch of coincidences that I can't explain. Even filtering out confirmation bias and calculating the odds it defied all the odds. The word Lexi told me to transition. I often tell people I never decide things in my life: I just wake up one day and suddenly realize I have been doing things wrong my whole life I change that instant for good and never go back. I didn't pick that name it picked me. If I believed in god I would call it a sign.

I decided to transition one day at the doctors when I asked for a form to switch to the HRT specialist. It asked what is the reason why I needed to see the doctor and wrote down "starting MTF HRT" and signed the bottom. It probably took me 20 minutes to write that one line as I had told no one about any of this for the last 30 years: almost my entire life. I knew once I wrote that down I could never go back. I'm so glad I did. Its like people transition one time or three times never two. I didn't even realize how miserable I was because I had just accepted that life sucks for some people and you can never be happy. I can't wait for this summer when I can give away all my boys clothes, have long hair and look like me: a short little blond girl that loves pink. Every time I dream thats what I always look like. Best feeling in the world is looking in the mirror and saying "you did it!". For the first time ever this week I could see a definite out line of my breasts not just a puffy chest.