I think I have a not-too-uncommon trans condition, which is that I'm male-to-something, primarily attracted to men, but knowing underneath that I also want to be with women. At the moment, I see women as people to aim to be like, people I want to be friends with. But I know that there's something there. I just can't bear the thought of waking up next to a woman and the contrast between our bodies. If anyone's seen "herstory", I guess I'm a bit like Vi in this respect (and as an example, Jen Richards is both a transition goal and a girl crush).