Hi:
"Gabby!" I like it!
I, Kate, concede when I finally get my name legally changed it will be Kathryn.
I'm praying that as you get closer to your appointment, your apprehension is replaced with 'HOPEium'. (High on Hopeium was a project management term we used when we thought a promise of a delivery was a bit unrealistic.)
So yes I'm praying you get your scripts, and respond to them very, very well and quickly.
I also had a problem finding an endo. The first one that was close to me, wouldn't / couldn't see me until June of this year.
Then I had an epiphany. I have known a trans-female, Kim, who lives in the Kansas City Area. We worked together for 13 years. So I called her, out of the blue, came out, and asked her who her endo was.
She first congratulated me for finally coming out. She said I was always the most understanding and empathetic person of her, in the office. She added she could always see some gender dysphoria in me. She said there had to be a strong female in me to function & excel as the only male on the team. She finished saying she thought I will be much happier facing my GD head on vs. denial and repression. She put me in touch with her endo, and left her (the endo) a message that I would be calling for an appointment.
It's a 3 hour drive up to KC, but it's any easy drive. I had my first appointment roughly a month later.
My PCP, who I had come out to when I felt I had to start my medical transition, and referred me to the endo that couldn't see me for a while, was kind enough to order the labs the endo would need.
So when I got to my endo appointment , and Patty went with me, she and I talked about my feelings, my history with the feelings, what I wanted to accomplish, my sessions with my 'Transition Coach,' and my conversation with my PCP. She asked me if I wanted breasts. My answer was a sheepish yes. (Yes I hope to grow to a D cup, but it's a bit uncomfortable to discuss with your wife preasent when she's not yet fully on board.) We then went over the Labs my PCP had ordered. It had everything covered that my endo wanted to see.
Then she reached out to Patty and talked to her about the changes she could expect to see in me, and answered every question Patty had.
I left that first visit with scripts for Spiro and Estradiol patches.
I had a hiccup with my pharmacy plan so it took a couple of weeks to get the Estradiol filled.
I started HRT the first Sunday of December. I didn't notice much until Christmas; 3 weeks later. We cantor for church. So Christmas and the Easter Triduum usually means many services in a couple or few days.
So after singing 2 Masses and finally getting home about 2 AM Christmas morning, I sat down on the sofa to relax a moment before bed. In the quiet of the still house, with a fire burning in the Fireplace, I realized I had finally found peace with myself. The anger, agitation, anxiety, frustration, disappointment, general feeling of being a freak or being wrong was gone.
That peaceful feeling was all I ever wanted. I now / still have it. And that is the best Christmas gift I've ever received.
I pray that as you find peace; Kenna, also finds peace, and realizes that when you're finally at peace, you can be more loving and attentive to her needs.
Patty struggled for months. Then one day after a period of prayer she told me and our counselor, she understood it will be all right.
Since then, she occasionally addresses me as a woman. We were going to a show together and she asked me; "What are we GIRLS going to wear?" After my hinitial dumbfoundness, we did coordinate our outfits with me enfemme (as close as it gets at the moment.)
She noted I am far more patient and peaceful. She says it shows in my face.
And finally, a funny note, since I'm developing a bust: Patty feels I need to be more modest. I'm coming off a late in the season case of Flu A. The Flu, along with Spiro will dehydrate you! It caused me to end up in the ER. Any chest pain gets you an EKG. So when the hospital gown fell off my shoulder during the EKG, exposing my B cup breast, Patty felt it needed to be covered up, and made sure I covered it back up.
My whole purpose is to share that there more things to be excited for, than to be apprehensive about.
Praying for your success.
Kate
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