I just had my first appointment and I seem to remember something different everyday he metioned. One interesting thing he said is since I am a semi emtional person the emotional stuff from T and the beginning will a big change for me. He said that I will be dealing with a single emtion at a time where as a women I tend to emtionaly multi task. Basically I will go from emotional multitasking to emotoinal single tasking. Thought that was interesting. I think it's one of the things that will go away after I am done being a teenager.
We also talked about how I will be a 14 year old boy for 6 months and I won't notice the difference. I will try my best to remember that I am 39 years old and try and be reasonable, not saying I will be I'll just try to be.
Myles

........er.........umm........a therapist said this?

My therapist said something very different, like that hormones would not change my thought process much due to already being emotionally female, rather that any changes would come with physical adjustments or that I may experience enhanced femininity. 

Essentially, if you are minded to be male, then you are already emotionally male and likewise the oposite for M to F types such as myself.  I don't give much thought to multitasking perhaps because I am unaware of being that way. Only others can tell me if I do multitask at all and no-one has mentioned it to me as yet.

I think I became less emotional after I started HRT.

It will be intersting to see what happens on my emotional side. I know I have already come down a notch when I finally made the decision to transition. SO now I  am not nearly as emotional as I used to be. One thing about T I guess is it affects averyone differnetly.
Myles

One of the effects T can have on some persons its that it blocks the emotional discharge. Thats the reason some guys are less emotive.

The opposite can also be true. When taking antiandrogens or reaching andropause since the emotion blocking effects lessen or dissapear.


Hormones do rule our bodies.

you won't act like a fourteen year old boy as a result of testosterone, you'll act like a fourteen your old boy if you choose to regress and become an idiot.  testosterone has nil to do with it.

I am hoping not to regress and act like a 14 year old boy. I think I can keep things in check and make logical decisions.
I am getting frustrated with a few friends who have said I will no longer be a nice caring person.  I called them last weekend to make sure their son was ok becasue he had a bad day. They say I won't do things like that anymore. It was my understanding T does not turn you into something you are not in the long run so I am not sure what to say to them. It seems like they are taking every male stero type and throwing it on me. You won't be considerate, you can't dress that way, you name it and I'm no longer suppose to be doing it. Did anyone else have this problem?
Myles

Listen, dude... unless your therapist is FtM, I highly doubt he/she really knows how it will affect you emotionally. Contrary to the popular belief of those who have no idea and no right to say anything in the first place, testosterone does NOT make you a robot, nor does it make you a jerk. I heard all the rumors before I started T, and all were quickly debunked after I'd been on it a bit.

People told me I'd never be able to cry again. 1) I definitely cry on T, and 2) my tears are always for more appropriate reasons, rather than being because my hormones are a little high or low, as it was before T. They told me I'd be an insufferable jackass with uncontrollable anger problems. 1) My anger problems that I'd been dealing with for probably a decade or more prior to starting T all but vanished. I actually ended up far calmer. 2) If I was a jackass on T, I was a jackass before.

Testosterone (or estrogen/progesterone) does not make you a different person. Now, you can choose to become a different person due to numerous factors from feeling more like yourself to thinking you should be someone else and acting accordingly. Honestly, the best way to look at it is that a change in hormones will change your physical appearance, but you are mostly in control of your emotions and mind.

SD

He's FtM and said this based on my personality, should have been a bit clearer. Sebastien thank you for confimring what I thought. I keep telling people I will be the same person and its good to have this confirmed from someone who has been on T before. I think they really have just decided they can now throw male stereo types on me, driving me crazy. I like the it only changes your physical appearance and you are mostly in control of your emotions and mind. I will definitely be using that on friends the next time they say I won't be as kind and thoughful as I am now.
Thanks Myles