(Yes I know I did a topic like this before but...)
Before puberty really hit me, I LOVED crossdressing. At first it was just playing with pantyhose/bras, but I later actually dressed up. It felt great, I looked in the mirror and I was just smiling at how cute I looked. I can't really describe it pass this emoticon: ^_^. But when puberty hit, well... I get depressed when I see myself crossdressed. Even more so when the thought that I'll keep getting more and more masculine.. my god my face can't pass anymore... it... used to look cute.

Sigh. Anyone felt the same before?

When I was still living in drab, I would get very depressed.  And it was over the fact that I wasn't living how I felt.  When I began to live more and more as me, I got to hate being dressed in drab.

The day I walked out of my house as me, I never looked back.

Janet

I got fully made up last night. It felt great. I looked in the mirror and saw the person I like to see. Just a bit older than I'd like

Think and act positive,

I feel very comfortable how I look made up. Nothing wrong with makeup, we ladies have been using it for ever to look how we want to look. Don't get depressed about your look, work on it. Girls come in all shapes and sizes, we cannot all be fashion models. So just try your best, get some nice clothes that complement your style. Practice your makeup. Plenty of help on this site about that. And hey, You are beautiful, 'cos all girls are

Cindy

Quote from: lostandconfused on June 12, 2009, 01:01:30 AM
Before puberty really hit me, I LOVED crossdressing. At first it was just playing with pantyhose/bras, but I later actually dressed up. It felt great, I looked in the mirror and I was just smiling at how cute I looked. I can't really describe it pass this emoticon: ^_^. But when puberty hit, well... I get depressed when I see myself crossdressed. Even more so when the thought that I'll keep getting more and more masculine.. my god my face can't pass anymore... it... used to look cute.

Sigh. Anyone felt the same before?

Yes.

When I was a closeted crossdresser, I thought I looked pretty good but knew I wouldn't pass becasue I had a full beard.  (That's another story...)  Somehow I managed to filter the beard out when I looked at myself in the mirror.

At some point eitther my body changed or my filter stopped working.  I wasn't able to see a cute girlish figure in the mirror anymore.  For me, that was the beginning of finally coming to grips with it all.  Eventually Kate emerged. (Yay Kate! )

We go through a lot of physical and psychological changes as we go along.  Maybe you are getting ready to move on to the next phase, whatever that may be.

*hugs*
Kate

Belly.
Fat.

Until that is gone, I'll always be very unhappy with my female presentation.

Hopefully by next spring that won't be an issue.

(not happy with the shadow either but that's a lesser thing at the moment)

I also concern on aging. To maintain the status quo of my physique is my primary goal, but I have to acknowledge that it is impossible and unrealistic. I just do not think what I will do when my physique become too old.

At least, it is beneficial to my health and family because I exercise regularly to maintain the physique of a slim girl at her 20s. Just ago, I ran about 15 km and will go to my home on bike.

Barbie~~

Well not not quite.  I can't stand the sight of me in drab.  I would rather see this middle aged girl in the mirror any time, even as imperfect as I can be.  One of them is me, the other not.

Kristi

Quote from: Kristi on June 12, 2009, 09:02:43 AM
Well not not quite.  I can't stand the sight of me in drab.  I would rather see this middle aged girl in the mirror any time, even as imperfect as I can be.  One of them is me, the other not.

I agree, although I'm pushing the other end of middle age.  I'm only 9 weeks on HRT and my breasts are still really small, but it occured to me that I'll probably never have young breasts even though they are new.   I excercise so I won't look too awful, but I'd rather be an old woman than a buff man.  (I'm working on being a buff old woman. )

- Kate

No, never. Sometimes I don't like my attire so I just change. One of the great advantages to being a woman is to have the prerogative to change your mind at any moment. If you don't like what you see then make it better. We can always become  better women.

I confess I also agree with Kristi (sorry, I just came from reading the "confessional" thread)

Kate hon, we might not ever have teenage boobs but then we also don't have an entire life since puberty's worth of gravity tugging them down either. Hey we gotta take our small condolences where we can get them 

Quote from: Virginia Marie on June 12, 2009, 02:21:51 AM
I got fully made up last night. It felt great. I looked in the mirror and saw the person I like to see. Just a bit older than I'd like

I just dressed up for the first time tonight. I see myself with makeup on, and I see the possibilities. Feels pretty darn good. I'm not for sure where all of this is going, but I like it. Time to go shopping! 

And may I add, I now have a new appreciation for the ladies that can walk in heels!

Quote from: riven_one on June 13, 2009, 10:55:37 PM
Time to go shopping! 

A little off subject. Sorry

But wouldn't it be fun for a group of us to go shopping together and help each other out like girls do? I get so jealous watching them and wish I had friends to go shopping with 

Also,I want to get my ears pieced. But I want some girlfriends to go with me 

I've been crossdressing many years.  Until recently I've had little opportunity to do so, and so I still enjoy seeing myself crossdressed.  I can imagine a time though, where it won't be enough, and just dressing might be depressing, instead of enabling.  I guess I'll have to deal with that if and when that happens.

So, when do we go shopping and get my ears pierced 

Love to go shopping with a bunch of you and hang out in the mall. I've got the week off and talking myself into getting my ears pierced. I was thinking of small gold hoops that looked androgenous until the piercing heeled. Then of course I can wear anything. I'm also having a practice laser.

Oh well ten steps at a time

Cindy

I would love to get another set.  I have one set already.

Janet

Hi Janet,

Were you full time fem when you got pierced? I'm having to work in drag for a while at least. I'm 56 so suddenly getting pierced is a bit confrontational. But.... I want to

Luv Hun
You are looking great BTW
Cindy

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Going back to the original thread.

I absolutely hate seeing myself cross dressed. But due to work commitments I have to appear as male. I wear as much female clothing as I can, but I have to present as male. Pisses me off .

When I go to the gym, I'm increasingy wearing female body suits, that actually fit me unlike male track pants. I'm starting to get a few looks from a few guys. Not sure?
I am very small for a guy, and average for a girl so I confuse the dandies out of everyone. Including me.

Sorry getting a bit peed

Cindy

I feel that way alot of times. i hate my body (weight wize) and my face so much work to be done. but then again i have my good days.

Quote from: CindyJames on June 14, 2009, 03:00:22 AM
Were you full time fem when you got pierced? I'm having to work in drag for a while at least. I'm 56 so suddenly getting pierced is a bit confrontational. But.... I want to

Hi Cindy.  (Off topic again.)  My wife gave me pierced ears for my 54th birthday.  When I showed up for work (military installation), my boss said I probably got them both done because I couldn't decide on which one to get pierced.   No problems.

-Kate