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I feel so angry, sad, yet hopeless over the tinniest thing

Started by harlee, April 16, 2010, 04:47:43 AM

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harlee

So I had it all planned out! The binder I was gonna buy off Underworks was up on my computer screen, the money for it...in my room! ;D All I had to do now was to convince my parents that it was what I truly wanted! It was going good, I thought it were gonna work, but then my dad asked what I wanted it for, read further into the details and straight out said..."woah! come have a chat with me in my room"  :-\

I went and had a chat and he was like "so you want this to flatten out your boobs? you dont need this! You have a perfectly good body, it would be soo uncomfortable!" yeah like he doesnt know how much more uncomfortable it is wearing a tight swim suit under neath multiple layers of shirts aaah. And then he went on to say "is this about telling people your a boy? cause you know thats lying, and your really only hiding yourself when you do so" :( It gets to me so much, but I guess it isnt that bigger deal. I just feel so lost, and it upsets me to see any sign of breast when I put on my clothes. :'( They arent massive but still!

I guess I just needed to get that out, Im seeing my first therapist on Tuesday! ;D Ill try and squeeze some horome blocker information out of him! Yaaaaayayayyaa!!!





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no_id

First off; way the go for at least attempting to purchase a binder - not shooting is always a miss. Your father's response does fall into the more negative category, but at least he's responding and maybe slowly, steadily becoming more aware - that'll probably increase once you start therapy (if your parents know that is?).

Either way, best of luck and all that. You've taken the first few steps - definitely something to be proud of.  8)
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VampyreAri

Well congrats for at least making the effort! ...I probably would have just gotten it without telling them... Prepaid credit cards and getting the mail before Mum does are my friends. :laugh: But then again I've never been good at 'discussing' why I want something with someone.

Sucks about your dad's opinion on it though... :-\ My sympathies. But who knows, he could come around with you starting therapy. Which yay on by the way. :) Until then, just stay positive and keep working for what you want!
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GothTranzboi

Try the big brothers binding program thats where I got my first binder. you mail them 5 dollars and they send you one. I don't know if there is an age limit tho. I was 19 when I got it. I didn't tell my parents but I was really desperate at that point.
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jimmymot

Quote from: GothTranzboi on May 01, 2010, 01:07:07 AM
Try the big brothers binding program thats where I got my first binder. you mail them 5 dollars and they send you one. I don't know if there is an age limit tho. I was 19 when I got it. I didn't tell my parents but I was really desperate at that point.

I could use something like that. Got a link perchance?
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Ryan

Just Google "Big Brothers Binders" and it should come straight up.
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jimmymot

Quote from: Ryan on May 01, 2010, 08:30:33 AM
Just Google "Big Brothers Binders" and it should come straight up.

Yeah, I resorted to that shortly after and applied. lol. thanks
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