So I had it all planned out! The binder I was gonna buy off Underworks was up on my computer screen, the money for it...in my room!

All I had to do now was to convince my parents that it was what I truly wanted! It was going good, I thought it were gonna work, but then my dad asked what I wanted it for, read further into the details and straight out said..."woah! come have a chat with me in my room"

I went and had a chat and he was like "so you want this to flatten out your boobs? you dont need this! You have a perfectly good body, it would be soo uncomfortable!" yeah like he doesnt know how much more uncomfortable it is wearing a tight swim suit under neath multiple layers of shirts aaah. And then he went on to say "is this about telling people your a boy? cause you know thats lying, and your really only hiding yourself when you do so"

It gets to me so much, but I guess it isnt that bigger deal. I just feel so lost, and it upsets me to see any sign of breast when I put on my clothes.

They arent massive but still!
I guess I just needed to get that out, Im seeing my first therapist on Tuesday!

Ill try and squeeze some horome blocker information out of him! Yaaaaayayayyaa!!!