Quote from: Arch on July 04, 2010, 11:55:04 PM
I hope transition helps you. It helped me.

I'm hoping so.  I'm seriously wondering if the problems I'm having has to do with my brain not liking the female hormones.  I know when they put me on progesterone, I haven't felt that depressed in ages.  My body and mind hated that stuff.

In other news...I am SO pissed right now. Last week my therapist said she would see about writing my letter for T.  Today she says she's concerned that I'm doing all this for attention. WHat the hell? First she was concerned that I didn't want to tell people about my gender issues and now that I'm out about it, I'm doing this for attention?! Now that most of the people who know me think I'm some sort of freak and having people preaching at me that God's going to get me or people telling me how weird I am...yeah, I just love all that attention.

I'm going to have to start all over with a new therapist. More expense, more waiting, waiting, waiting...Geez, does it ever end?

Can't you explain all of this very rationally to your therapist? That you're out because you need to be out, she encouraged you to be out...and now she seems to be doing a one-eighty? If it helps, write it down in a letter and tinker with it so that you say exactly what you need to say in the way you need to say it. I would hate to see you start over again from scratch. Maybe your current therapist is salvageable, at least until you can get a T letter.

I see one positive thing about this possible delay: in your latest post, your position seems to have solidified. Are your doubts and second thoughts less tangible now? It does seem so. But then, that would be a double-edged sword if you might not get the T letter right away after all.

Hang tough, buddy. You'll get there.

Thanks man.

I could try explaining it but the thing is, she doesn't want to take responsibility for writing the letter...she wanted me to get my pdoc to write it...I told her it had to be from a therapist.  So now she's wanting to talk to the pdoc before writing it...I really doubt the pdoc will recommend it.  Hope I'm wrong there, but... 

I still have some doubts but I was really disappointed to not get the letter.  Kind of a paradox I guess.  My mom, however, is thrilled.     She's still hoping I'll change my mind.

eta:  You know, maybe this is a good thing...gives me more time to think, more time for my family to get used to the idea...more time...I don't know.  Wish I didn't have to deal with this.