Quote from: pebbles on December 28, 2010, 04:00:42 PM
I didn't know until age 10 or 11ish I was raised kinda androgynous and was close to my sister yet I was generally fine with the idea of begin a boy it was only then I realized that I would turn into a MAN at that age and what that implied that things begun turning foul.

If I share a narrative, this is what I share.  Even now its only really made sense to me recently, since getting back in to therapy.  I was pretty well balanced about things growing up until about 10/11.  Yes I played with my female cousin almost excluisvely, yes I could pretty much do whatever girl or boy things I wanted to.  There wasn't really a sense of right or wrong, boy or girl in what I was doing - I just did the things I wanted to and didn't think much about it.  She moved the summer I turned 11.  My world fell apart after that, I think I first started thinking "I'm supposed to be a girl" or something like that about the same time.  The best I can think is that I lost my social outlet for being a girl and it wasn't until then that I realized that maybe I was a girl.  Before then I was just me.

Well, I new I was not like other boys from a very young age. I identified as an androgyne/non-binary for about 5 years, considered myself transgendered for a long time. I did not try to be as macho as possible to compensate, just could not stomach that. I was always openly rather queer, though I do enjoy hunting and building.

I only identified as a woman the start of last year. Not sure why it took so long to figure out, but hormones seemed to give me some clarity.