Maiara,
It is a blessing that you are feeling led to go to church.
Many times those "feelings" are the leading of the Spirit of God.

Considering the title of the thread I would now say, "my life to date".   

Non-belief in the idea  that I have intrinsic worth would not have led me to anywhere but an early grave. I reached a point where I had no alternative answer to where to turn.

Instead of reading the Bible from cover to cover;  attending churches where the congregation speak in tongues, worship saints, or follow some self-appointed fount of all wisdom; I just stopped looking and waited for an answer to came into my head.

I just knew, I can't explain it.  I can talk about what led up to it, but not what happened.  English lacks a word for it.  Although 'Grace' is close, the closest I can come is the Arabic word Islam in it's most commonly accepted translation. "Submission to the will of God", but not in a fatalistic sense.

Sorry I can't do better than that.

Karen.

My life has had its ups and its downs.  Shouldn't I be in an early grave due to my lack of belief?  I'll tell you what though, nothing has given me more drive and determination to make the best of my own life than the acceptance of the fact that this is the only life I get.  For me there is no afterlife to make up for anything I did right or wrong in this one.  Why then, would I want to just throw in the towel?  If this is my one chance to do some good for others, why give that up early?

For those who believe because they are blessed, who do you blame for all the bad stuff that happens?  If someone is giving you great things, it stands to reason they could also be throwing you under the bus.

I dont believe because nowhere in the history of man has there ever been any strong sound evidence that a god even exists........at least in the form in which most believe today.  I believe that "The Communist Manifesto" authored by Karl Marx summed it up best...........Religion and the concept of a god and afterlife, diverts believers attention from their life misery and how it helps them thru their day.  If there is one argument that I stand by, it's this:  believers are always making excuses for their god.  If a "prayer" is answered, it's a miracle and if not, "it wasnt god's will"........what a crock of $hit in my opinion.
Supposedly, this is an "all loving god"....if that's the case, why are there so many children in the world starving to death, why are women and children permitted to be abused, why are so many homeless, so forth and so on?  I love my son and I would certainly never permit him to starve or be homeless!
Here in the US, it is the religious right wing that is always persecuting and discriminating against the LGBT community.  Religion, in my opinion, is the root cause of all the worlds problems and the disagreements in different religions.  I also think that religion is the biggest con job ever........either believe in this concept or you're going to spend an eternity in this place called hell...........and a very vivid pertrayal of this place called hell provided as well.  If their is one thing that republicans and religion have in common it's this: scare tactics using fear to get you to believe something!
Naturally, since my degree is in biology and my grad work is in biology, I adhere to the theory of evolution as the evidence has shown us how we came to be.
If you dont believe in evolution, think about this.......why do we require a flu shot every year and why have bacteria become resistant to antibiotics?? it's simple........the influenza virus and bacteria have evolved to ensure it's own survival! nuff said

For those who believe because they are blessed, who do you blame for all the bad stuff that happens?

Non-believers.  Sinners.  People like you and me really.

To me : 

God is love

not god is loving

Love is God

sins are what a person knows in their own heart

no one can see in our hearts

we judge ourselves

Jesus understood the connection to the Love / God

Individually, we try to make a resting place in our hearts for love/god

Jesus understood the false teachers / pharisee's

Religion isn't where one will find God because God is love, but there are people who do know love/god in most religions 

most Religions push the opposite of love because they do judge others

I am forgiven for my sins (that i judge myself of) when i realize that i should feel forgiven because to not feel forgiven is to hold onto the evil that would try to destroy me / us and because Jesus / yahshua taught us to accept that forgiveness.