Quote from: Adio on August 27, 2011, 05:43:08 PM
I wanted to be on T as soon as I heard about it and understood the effects.  My original plan was to graduate university and then start T and have top surgery.  But after the issues I had my first semester (3rd year), I decided I had to start sooner.  The only reason I was putting it off was because I didn't want to hurt my mom and family by starting "too early."  (I came out when I was 15, started T when I was 20.)

Negative consequences...I honestly can't think of anything major.

Word. As soon as I realized it was an option (by watching YouTube videos about it) I knew that was what I wanted...

When it came to me and T, I never questioned it. As soon as I realized that I was trans, it wasn't a question of 'Do I want to go on T?' it was more along the lines of, 'What do I need to do to get on T?' For me, I just knew that I'd have no chance of passing without it (Mind you, I don't pass yet, but I'm getting there,) and for me, passing to the general public as a man is extremely important to me. My natural voice was way too high, and I've always been very curvy, so there was just no way to do it realistically for me other than T. Plus, I'm not with anyone, so I didn't have to worry about that. I know that I should care how my family feels about it, but I didn't care. I knew I wanted it, and if they really care about me, they'll understand that I need it to make me happy. That's all there was to it for me.

Oy, sorry about the really late reply, it's been hectic with moving, work and school >.<

But it's really good to hear from you guys. I hear a lot of familiar themes--fear of the unknown, lots of contemplation, an early draw to T as well as hesitation to take that step unless absolutely necessary whether out of fear or prudence or both.

Everybody's path is different, but hearing from your experiences put one crucial thing back in perspective--that at the end of the day, this is my transition. Sometimes I forget that my decision needs to primarily meet my needs :/ If I lived on a deserted island, I would start T in a heartbeat. But as is I'm scared as hell. But as Miniar and Bojangles [so sorry, haven't picked up your name] put it so well,

Quote from: bojangles on August 29, 2011, 12:58:20 PMMy process was similar to what Miniar posted.
Research, talk, deep thought, prayer and a list of pros and cons. Seeing the cons on paper next to the pros made them look tiny.
They were all about fear of the unknown. The unknown will always be there. The fear needed to be put in it's place.

Guess that's where I'm at now. Except putting the pro's next to the con's might make it impossible for to try to put this off longer .//////.

I love that there are so many different cases - but a lot are similar.

For me, it started out as "I wish everyone could see I'm a guy..." and I started researching things and that same day I started my research I came out to my gf. She was much less than impressed, but she has always been as supportive as she can be with all of this. Yesterday she looked at me and told me that she thinks it's finally sunk in and she's getting used to the idea.

I started transitioning about a month or two ago, but not medically. I need to become a Canadian citizen first before I do anything like starting T. But since my test for dual citizenship is literally the day after tomorrow, things might happen sooner than I had hoped. I see my dad and sister tomorrow evening for the first time in a while. I'm out to my sister already but I plan on coming out to Dad either before or after the test so that I can do it in person.

After I'm out to Dad and we are finally citizens I'll be able to do my name change and all that.

I had been putting off finding a therapist and talking to my doctor and all that until after my citizenship goes through. I never expected it to happen so fast though!

Hopefully I can start T in the nearish future. I know that it's what I want. I do also know that I don't necessarily NEED T, I can survive without it, but it would be a less meaningful and happy life than if I start it.

I didnt really questionate it that much, for me it felt kinda natural that I as a boy would grow up one day to be a man like my friends around me started to grow as well. my question where more, when and how?

however I where concerned how it would infect me and I also wanted top surgery more than T.
I got a small dose gel if I am not satified I can stop anytime,
I did that because I had talked to my doctor about T and about taking T first or surgery and since I got told it where best to start T first then thats what I did.
I guess by talking to people and your doctors and getting time to think it over it helpfull, I felt like doing something anyway and I knew I wanted T so my only question where just what to pick first, or if I would get hairy or bald because I dont wanna be XD and im not so far.. (luckely)
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I went back and forth about T for a number of years. When I first found out about it, I wanted to start right away, but then didn't want to rush into anything and got scared of making permanent changes to my body that I would end up hating. Basically I over-thought the whole thing for way too long. I waited until I got so miserable I could barely function. I was sick of looking like a twelve year old, and decided that if I ever wanted to function in society like a mature adult, I was going to have to look like an adult on the outside. In retrospect, I really wish I hadn't waited for so long, but maybe I just wasn't mature enough to make the decision a few years ago.

There was little questioning for me.

T is testosterone. Boys often cherish puberty and the effects of testosterone. I want those effects too.