Quote from: Axélle on September 04, 2011, 09:03:07 AM
PS: Ja da schaungs Frau Baronin, geins :-)

heans, woher kennans den des? Sie werden doch net a gebürtige sein? XD

I don't like that thing at all and I get despersonalization and oniric feelings just by looking at it, a terrible angst that can't quite be explained. I never tried to cut it off, but back when I was being hit hard by dysphoria I often tried to pull it out.

If they didn't use it for GRS I'd have just cut if off on my own and to hell with what the folks at ER would say. I feel such a HUGE necessity to have it gone that I won't mind if GRS leaves me completely unsensitive and incapable of orgasming, because using it in those fashions already are horrible experiences and I can't bring myself to it. Just plain having it gone wil be a large progress towards my well being whenever if I do have GRS or just cut it myself.

It is NOT part of my body, it is an appendage, a deformity. I want it gone one way or another.

TBH I've never been particulary bothered by mine. It doesn't cause me any dysphoria at all. It's more the social dysphoria that kills me, and passing as a girl does not directly link hugely to my penis. I use it an awful lot for pleasure..and I still feel female. I try not to think of it as male or female, and I just try to enjoy what it can offer. Personally I've never been a huge fan of vagina haha. But eventually along the line I will definitely undergo SRS. When I begin to transition, my feeling towards it may change - because if I will start tucking then I imagine.. For the moment I enjoy it.

That's just me.

Frau Test setup,

* heans, woher kennans den des? Sie werden doch net a gebürtige sein? *
Ja dann genans scho weida, ge herst. Naa i bin a gebürtige Badenerin (Gelbfüsslerin...)

I was married to a Bavarian girl, just from the other side of the border, Kraiburg a. Inn :-)
She, the good girl, and at least for some time, provided me with a 'proxy' for not having girl parts.

These days I just have to stand more often much closer to the mirror not to see what I do not want to see.

It still provides some pleasure the poor miscreant but gets more bothersome for ever having to pack all this bloody extra skin into place... BIG TIME for a change!

Axelle

If it wasn't going to be used for SRS (at which point I'll have no problems with its remains being inverted and inserted) I'd want the thing as far from the rest of my body as possible.  But for now, it's strictly don't look and don't touch.  Even feeling its presence sickens me.

Never tried to cut it off when I was younger, but I used to tie rubber bands around it for hours on end hoping that it'd become necrotic and need amputation.  Figured that if I did that, I could fool everyone into thinking it was some sort of mysterious medical condition.  Of course, then I'd have to pee and had to remove the rubber bands, foiling my plans.

Hey girls,

I asked that question about age because I'm interested in the whole transition stage. At 35 I've kind of dealt with my demons, and actually come to accept my flaws - both physical and mental.

At a guess I'd say that the older girls - 30+ are more comfortable with their appendances (even though they want it gone) than the younger girls.This interests me because the hardest part of this journey is realizing the fact they I will never actually be a woman. I will only ever 'pass'.

I consider this important because things like medical trips – like asking for prostate exams, taking blood tests- I will need to inform the doctors of my history(being male), as this will clearly skew my results and not bring a healthy outcome, as flattering as a doctor calling me miss might be. Even a gynecologist!! Imagine that!

My question is - Will it be easier for me to do explain this than my younger counterparts ? To actually admit who I was?
In regards to post op I've heard (yes.. I've no first hand account) that sexual organs retain the ability to orgasm if they were used in such a fashion before.
Now I'll have the operation even if it means the loss of sensation, but I'd certainly not want to miss out of such a delightfully, energetic and be honest- important part of a female's life. Will my younger counterparts miss out of this because of such a deep dysphoria/hatred for their gentials?

I'd be really interested in your thoughts girls.

Chat away,

Jenny

Quote from: Jenny_B_Good on September 07, 2011, 04:45:26 AM
At a guess I'd say that the older girls - 30+ are more comfortable with their appendances (even though they want it gone) than the younger girls.This interests me because the hardest part of this journey is realizing the fact they I will never actually be a woman. I will only ever 'pass'.

I consider this important because things like medical trips – like asking for prostate exams, taking blood tests- I will need to inform the doctors of my history(being male), as this will clearly skew my results and not bring a healthy outcome, as flattering as a doctor calling me miss might be. Even a gynecologist!! Imagine that!

My question is - Will it be easier for me to do explain this than my younger counterparts ? To actually admit who I was?
In regards to post op I've heard (yes.. I've no first hand account) that sexual organs retain the ability to orgasm if they were used in such a fashion before.
Now I'll have the operation even if it means the loss of sensation, but I'd certainly not want to miss out of such a delightfully, energetic and be honest- important part of a female's life. Will my younger counterparts miss out of this because of such a deep dysphoria/hatred for their gentials?

I'd be really interested in your thoughts girls.

Well, I guess an "older" girl says (1) please say more experienced! (2) I never got more comfortable with the damned thing - I just continued to adapt having it to living, always a preferable choice over dying.

Never actually be a woman!!!  I'm as much a woman as any female that was born missing important female attributes; or had a hysterectomy or double mastectomy. I bet they would object strenously to being drummed out of the female corp because they may have less then 100% of the standard equipment or attributes! I am not a second class woman. I am a woman born with massive gender related birth defects that have somewhat been redressed medically.

It undoubtedly might be uncomfortable first introducing yourself to a new doctor - that should quickly dispell, or you have the wrong doctor. Obviously you need to inform your doctors.

The alternative to admitting who you were is to deny it. I was, and can not change that; I choose not to hide. It's only American society's repressed, sordid and repressive view of sex in general that causes our problems - not our problems that cause our problems.

Sexual response is important. Females often have do not so quickly find their response, but more do. Transsexual persons often do not quickly find their response - I know I have not as yet. I also have found that it does not matter very much. For me, having the right body that doesn't function fully is much more important then having the wrong body that does. So much more so with females is the fact that the mind is their mort important sex organ. With males - well, we know what's important there.

Susan Kay

Quote from: Forever21Chic on September 01, 2011, 01:05:45 AM

     I tried to cut "it" off a few times when i was younger & still have a scar on "it" to this day. If i didn't need it to pee i'd prolly have cleaved that thing off by myself years ago. 

same here  , I just knew that I needed it to have SRS. I can't stand it either, I just can't wait until the day I have a vag.

I also feel that it is something that keeps me from being in a relationship, or getting physical.

im indifferent to it.

I don't use it sexually. My BF doesn't mess with it. But at the same time, I don't get upset and break down if I see it.

I'm in between one and two, myself. It is not the thing I hate most, and honestly, I don't get much opportunity to see it, and certainly never to use it. I'm happy with it being a non-factor in my life, and will be extremely happy to get SRS next year.

It can burn in Hell as far as I'm concerned, but what I hate a lot more are the testosterone-makers. I was tempted for quite some time do DIY those.

I'll say this though. It ruins sex. It is difficult to be intimate without crying because of that darned downstairs neighbour... and his two kids. To that end, I'm more option one. It has caused me a lot of pain... I remember the last time I tried, I ended up crying and screaming. If I had psychokinetic powers, those emotions would have torn the city apart.

November 28th, 2011 goes bye bye 

I'm a MtF transsexual who enjoys and uses her penis.  I always feel in the minority around other TS, but I've learned to accept who I am and not care what anyone else thinks.  TS who hate their penis are no more "genuine" TS than I am.  I pass, I'm a woman through and through.  I just like being the dominant partner in the bedroom.  (I'm attracted to men.)

I've heard it all, that I'm really just a gay man taking it too far, that I'm a pervert, that I'm this that and the other.  But if lesbian and transbian is accepted, why can't top TS?  Is it really so bad that I accept what I have and love it?  I have a lot to offer to a man, and my boyfriend couldn't be happier.

Just wish there was a voice for top TS like there are for so many who bash us.

Quote from: Susan Kay on September 07, 2011, 03:00:18 PM
Well, I guess an "older" girl says (1) please say more experienced!

LOL.... experienced it is. I mean seriously- where are my manners? 

Quote from: parasol on September 08, 2011, 09:00:34 AM
Just wish there was a voice for top TS like there are for so many who bash us.

Well I hear your voice loud and clear !

...and I'd like to think that TS's would accept TG's. Isn't that what this forum is for ?

Love and Respect,

Jen