Hello world...

I am a 26 years old male-to-female transsexual from Zagreb. I am taking my hormones and all the stuff...

Everybody knows. My mother is very supportive...

Of course, SRS is also the part of my goal. Hopefully, I will undergo that in the next year...

But, despite all these breakthroughs, I felt somewhat incomplete...

Lonely...

Unhappy...

Until last year, when I met my best friend. She was also a transsexual. Very beautiful, only 20 years old. I loved her so much and everything seemed promising...

She committed a suicide on March 2011...

That devastated me. Every day is the pain for me. I will never met anyone like her...

Everyone turned their backs on me after that tragedy. Even a local trans group...

I am an outcast now. A loner. I don't have any friends...

My life became a true despair...

The most of time I play an electric guitar to keep myself sane. That was my inspiration since high school days...

But I can't wash away a terrible pain...

Maybe I should stop typing this...

Hi Futura, welcome to Susans! I'm sorry you are going through such hard times, big hugs. We are always here for each other at Susans. I'm glad you joined us, hugs, Tracey

Thanks...

Hi Futura and welcome,

Very sorry to hear about your friend. Try to remember her young and beautiful and your dearest friend as she always will be. The love of my life did the same many years ago, it's really hard but eventually you will move on though she will always be in your heart.

Ti abbraccio

welcome Futura,

I am sort of excited to see someone from Croatia! I would love to hear how do you manage life as a transsexual in Croatia!
Your English seems to be really good but if you'd rather say few words in Croatian please pm me!
I am so sorry about your friends suicide!
I am originally from Sarajevo and I probably wouldn't be alive if I had tried to come out prior to moving away!

Welcome to the site, Futura. I'm sorry that you lost your friend. Remember her for the joy she brought to you.