Unless you're experiencing dysphoria that is messing up things, you seem to be able to make your own choices.
This is important. Some of us spent a lot of time getting to that point.
If you think you need help, a therapist who knows about being transgender, especially non-binary, is a big help.
Are you doing better than say, a year ago? It takes time, careful thinking, and finding resources that work.
Just remember not to become what you read, and to always be yourself.
Your gender just a part of who you are. Be yourself and it should fall into place, become apparent.
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