Another thing (new post but sort of continues), I have identified as asexual but now I am no longer sure about this either. Not sure exactly what I am, but I have started noticing all the "cute girls" which feels a little silly at my age (no they are not "girls" but adults). Even so, there is something a little pre-teen about this. Would be interesting to start T and actually go into adolescence.

--Jay Jay

Maybe it's just something you are discovering as you are finding out more about yourself?

Although I knew my sexual orientation before T, I definitely found that T...illuminated some things. Lol. So that may happen for you, or you may remain somewhat asexual...that's part of the fun I suppose.

Yeah this aspect I am enjoying a bit. It's sort of fun to notice something that you didn't before--whatever (or whoever) it might be.

--Jay Jay

well just wait and see what happent, maybe your fellings isnt sexually maybe they are?

a couple of trans people have said they learned more about themself sexually during transition they didnt knew before,
I belive its because many trans folks tend to hold themself back alittle, and then during your transition your start to come out and learn alot about yourself.

Natkat, I think the "holding back" might be due to feeling so dysphoric. I wouldn't say I feel less dysphoric but that I am aware that that is what it is.


--Jay Jay

the same thing happened to me, i was asexual but after i came to terms with myself i started noticing girls, my intrest in girls has increased since i started T

I notice girls too. I might have a short fantasy... nothing sexual though. I'm pretty much not interested in intimate relations with anyone.

Well Cindi, I know that asexual can include people who are romantic vs what I have felt myself to be a-romantic. So maybe you have just changed that way. I might be changing that way as well. Haven't exactly done anything.

Justin, wonder if I started T, which I don't feel ready for. I know it increases sex drive. I wonder re: the thing of being in a body you don't feel comfortable with. Just changing appearance and so on makes me more comfortable.

--Jay Jay

I guess you are asexual until you aren't, really.  It really isn't any different in it's result to what a lot of us have experienced, nothing happening.

For the first three years of my transition I totally self-identified as a lesbian, and had absolutely no interest in men.  Over the last couple of weeks I have managed to sort out a lot of personal issues, and now have noticed an emerging sexual interest in men.  This has coincided with a definite increase in my desire for SRS, so something interesting is going on. 

I think a lot of us change over time as we deal with various issues, and make changes.
Personally I think it is all good.  As you have been asexual there is no partner to be hurt, confused  or upset by your changes, so that is a plus.

Karen.

exciting.. I went from

being indifferent - feeling only attracted to males because of social expectations though i did find boys cute (but feeling i'd only be attracted to females if that was social expectation) - to transition.. where i continued to have some physical attraction to males, but started noticing females - to becoming sexual - and realizing i have no real interest in having sex at all and therefore identifying as mostly asexual and that partially ruining a long term relationshop- to starting testosterone and realizing that i very much like to think about sex.. with whatever - no set anything - but with presented with the opportunity i really can't be bothered about it.

So yeah, my orientation has changed. Now that I don't feel pressure to pair up and like get married.. being trans has taken that pressure off, I don't really care that much about relationships or sex anymore. I classify myself as somewhere between autosexual-asexual-bisexual. I don't really care what my orientation is. If I come across the right person some day, I'll make it work. I just like to orgasm, and I'm more then happy to meet my own needs at this time.

I consider myself Asexual. However, I may in fact be Bi (a realization I find deeply unsettling, to be frank). The chief distinction between the two (for me) is that I have no plans nor intentions to act upon those feelings, seldom as they are. Which, I suppose, again comes back to the Asexual side of things. Every single human being alive has urges and desires where sexuality is concerned, even Asexuals.

That said, there is only one woman I had some attraction to, shamed as I am to admit it, because she was one of my teachers (to which, I'd feel sparks whenever we had occasion to hold hands or otherwise innocently touch). It has nothing to do with physical appearances for me either. I could care less. Its the person themselves, their soul, that attracts me. And yet it still is not sexual, somehow.

And the only man (and actually, now I remember correctly, that's not true... used to have somewhat of an attraction to Ozzy Osbourne too -mostly while dreaming-... >_<) I have had attraction too... again, embarrassingly, is Alan Rickman. But then, even perfectly straight and cismales confess the same. So it isn't unduly odd. And again, it has absolutely nothing to do with physicality for me. I can appreciate "good looks" but they mean almost nothing to me, I guess you could say.

No. But sometimes I do long for companionship. Non-sexual companionship. Just someone to be there. To hold and be held. To talk to and share life with, but not merely out of lust or to shag. I, again, have very little if any desire to bugger anyone. It's just me, the way I am. And that of course fairly well ensures I will never have that companionship because so many people out there seem only interested in sex...

I'm a little weary about T for that reason. I don't want purely primal urges to destroy this for me. But I'll be forging ahead with it regardless. The consequences otherwise, I don't believe I could bear. Then again, I'm already somewhat on T (endogenously) and have not noticed any changes where sexuality is concerned, so far. I hope that is the same when I'm taking the synthetic and higher doses.

And to be even more direct... really, the only time I "get my rocks off" is through unbidden dreams. Which, again, for me is disturbing. They are, for whatever reason, always with other... men. Not random ones, and not ones I even know, but, well. I already gave you a clue who they are so I'll be stopping there.


So I suppose that is my rather long-winded way of saying: I have no answers. 

Well I don't know that being asexual means you don't do relationships. I had a friend a couple years ago, if I had known about this, it might have worked. It was totally platonic, but it seemed deeper or something. I didn't make the connection til recently.  He moved out of town.

As to T and asexuals-- I've heard via someone named maddox on tumblr that it can be an issue. Your sexual drive becomes crazy esp the first months/year on T.

I wasn't exactly looking for "answers" as I don't think there are any-- or that I really need one anyway. Just was curious how many other people might have experienced the same thing. The odd one for me as that I have experienced so many changes and have not really started taking T (yet?). Some of them seem to be associated with T (like sexual orientation change, more angry-- not roid rage or anything, more assertive, etc.)

--Jay Jay