My mom and therapist accused me of having symptoms of anorexia, or actually having an eating disorder. I don't think I do though? Not to get into detail, but there is a part of me I don't like, and exercising was not solving the problem, so I decided to eat less instead. The goal is to eat less calories, and the best way to do that is to cut out food. Honestly, I am just afraid of weight gain because that would make things worse.
I ate a piece of pizza tonight, and I feel grossed out and ashamed of the fact though. Usually I will just eat an apple with water if I get hungry, so that I would avoid the situation above. That sounds bad, and I am not trying to starve myself it is just that I don't want to gain weight.
Its not like I don't eat or anything, as I will have toast in the morning, and then a sandwich at night, and if I still get hungry then I will eat an apple or something. Personally, I don't see it as anorexia because its not like I am throwing up my food or anything weird like that.
I don't know. I am just writing down my thoughts or whatever.
