@JulieAllana :
Dear Julie: Oh my, oh my.... over a month since your last update and posting... on YOUR own thread ! ...
We will all forgive you of course once you get back on track and start keeping your followers and readers up to date about you and your journey.
You are not alone with your feelings, not many of us here have escaped having doubts and fears about transitioning... somewhere in our journeys we can come up with all kinds of doubts and fears about our transition goals, particularly if we hit a pothole or two while on the transition road.
No need to be terrified when and if you start HRT... you have at your disposal a veritable treasure trove of other members postings and experiences to let you know what your might expect.
The important thing to always remember is that HRT will work differently, faster, slower, more significant changes, less significant changes, etc.... depending on how your
unique body responds. As it is said here, "YMMV" ... meaning that "Your mileage may vary."
Check out the various threads by other members here and look at their pictures if they post them... you can read and also see for yourself some of the before and after results... again the results vary according to each body's response to HRT and of course other factors which include grooming, makeup, jewelry, clothing, actions and movements, voice, etc.
Just be certain to keep going to your therapist on a regular basis, especially at the beginning.
So, now that I have admonished you to keep your thread up to date, please, if you feel comfortable doing it, do so and keep your followers and readers happy. Plus, just sharing your transition experiences is very good therapy in itself for you and instructional and perhaps encouraging for those that read it.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle