Thank you Danielle and Rachel
. Here's a little venting about something that happened a few hours ago. My spouse and I haven't been going out together to places for a few weeks. Today I asked her to go walking because the weather was nice, the sun was out. So we went to the park in Louisville where we were married 14 years ago. I needed to use the BR so we stopped by the public golf course country club to use the BR and I was a little nervous since both the men's and women's are multi stalls with showers in the very back. I've been full time for a while and decided the women's BR was best since there's usually no women at all the likely hood of running into someone in the BR was slim. I didn't want to use the men's for obvious reasons, especially since there is a good chance of running into guys, and the guys there are usually not too progressive from my experience. So I used the women's without issue and once I left the BR, on my way back outside I hear my dead name yelled out from the front concession stand. I could have died. It was my wife who had decided to come in and get food. She never uses my dead name or my real name, but instead will always say Honey... I could have died in that moment
Once outside I told her to please not use my dead name and she said, well then what should I call you? I said, how about, Hey! Or how about my name! She then said she didn't even think about it. But it's really strange since she NEVER uses my name. Later tonight I couldn't stop thinking about it and brought the issue back up while she was talking about wanting me to take off work in a few weeks for vacation. Because of what happened today it really spooked me and makes me not want to go out in public with her at all. She obviously denied doing it on purpose which is most likely true, strange but probably true. She then told me that I look like a man still and the rest is history. The night just ended with a laying on of hands from her and praying a demon would come out of me, that she was happy with herself and why can't I just be happy too. Sigh.
