I am scared about my consult tomorrow. Like, terrified, nauseated...I'm scared he's going to say I need another appointment with the gender clinic. That means another 9-10 month wait, JUST for the letter, and then the surgeon's waiting list...
I've been at the gender clinic for three years. On two occasions now, they effed up my top surgery referrals and now, having my surgery funded by the government is not an option as there are literally no doctors left (at least, that's what they told me). I don't want to have a longer wait or to have them screw up a third time somehow.
I actually might be sick. -_- I doubt I will sleep tonight. If there is a God I hope he will at least let this part of my transition be an easy path.