That is awesome sarah!!! My "supportive" sister-in-law recently used my transitioning to hurt my wife while they were arguing.... she didn't intend for me to see it, but it was through text and my wife asked me to read them before she did, so she wouldn't get too upset and say something too mean.... well, her sister has no idea how long I will hold a grudge and that she seriously screwed up this time... she thinks she can just show up whenever she wants and everything will be fine... but, I want nothing to do with her now.... some people....

Sorry to hear about your sister in law tasha.

I never gave much thought to ratios I just want to be happy with how I look. Flat belly, what I consider nice hips. which frankly I have no idea exactly what that means for me but I will know it when I see it i think. and of course nice boobs which I'm sure I'm going to have to get implants to get.

I keep forgetting to mention... a few weeks ago I saw my doctor again and got some more referrals. I'm starting to feel like I must be crazy or something. So, I got a referral to the other Psychiatrist in my area that specializes in Gender dysphoria. And all on his own my doctor also referred me to another psychiatrist. Which I'm thinking is just to help me move along 'cause I can see him sooner then the specialists. I actually got my appointment with him in early December. So, now I got referrals to three different Psychiatrists and there's the Psychologist I've been seeing... what a pain in the ass. I just want to be me damnit!!!!! why do they have to make it so difficult?

Sorry to hear all that Tasha and Sarah. I hope it all works out. Tasha, I know how you feel about your sister in law. I pretty much have the same issue with my oldest sister and my parents. Still not talking to any of them. It's interesting that they are willing to lose me again after just getting me back into their lives after 8 years of me not being around due to arguments. At least I have my middle sister. She has many of the same issues as I do with them as well so we have each other at least.

Sarah, are all these psychiatrists preventing you from getting hormones?  That sucks. Be yourself no matter what anyone says.


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Jenny,
no the psychiatrists are my ticket to hormones. The Endocrinologist wouldn't accept the referral from my psychologist. She wanted one from the gender Psychiatrists. Which is stupid!! they've updated the policies for changing the gender markers on drivers license and other gov't ID's. ANY doctor or psychologist can sign off on it now. Before you also couldn't do it before you had SRS, GCS or whatever you prefer to call it.  That's no longer the case. You just have to sign a little thing that says you are going to live as your identified gender and have the neccessary form from your doctor or psychologist. Sorry I digress..

Unfortunately the gov't doesn't have any policies about treatment so I'm up against the medical profession and their practices based on out dated approaches and practices. I did raise quite a fuss and called them out on their bull...  I'm going to call the endocrinologist and see if she will accept an assessment from my psychologist now. Last I talked to her she was going to get some guidance from the gender specialists.

if I can get started on estrogen then the only reason I really need to see the gender dysphoria psychiatrists is for the referral for surgery. At this time they are still the only ones authorized by the gov't to do it. So basically the way it works here, if anyone is interested, is: You see the Psychiatrist usually for 6 - 9 months, Potentially up to 18 months, before they will sign off on it. Then you apply for funding as they only pay for so many a year. Once you get your funding approved then your surgery is booked with Dr. Brassard in Montreal. It is the only place they will pay for you to get it done. Their wait is currently about a year and then off you go. So based on all that I'm hoping for surgery in 2019. realistically i think late 2019 is possible.

Sorry to hear about the family problems Tash and hope your wife is ok.

Hell of a song and dance they are putting you through Sarah just hope they finally get moving for you.

Totally off topic I'm starting to feel like a pokemon and I'm about to evolve again this time from Jerrica into Alice.
Got a bit of cold feet over it as Jerrica has been good to me but too many people use Jerri which obviously sounds like Gerry and that's a problem for me so clean break to Alice I think.

2019 seems forever away but it's good to have a date in mind to work towards.
I'm not that organised so goodness knows when I'll be finished.

Nice to meet you, Alice.


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He he.... so funny you say that.... I chose Tasha because it was so close to my real name that I figured it would be easy to answer to it. My name was Taj.... so tash is real close... doesn't bother me... I just realized how easy it was to earn a nickname with my new name that is almost exactly my real name.

That's all good though, so, hi Alice!! Glad to be a part of you journey!!!! 😊

Oh, and wife is good... she is 💯 % supportive and is just as angry as I am....

Fantastic news your wife is 100% it would have been horrible if someone was able to shake her or you.

At first I had picked my name for similar reasons it allowed me to get from "He who shall not be named" through Jerri to Jerrica which was cool.

Only problem was once I was on the other side I really wanted to close that door but couldn't do it and it made it feel at times like people were talking to him instead of me. Never really bothered me at first as I was just that glad to be increasingly seen as me but being referred to as he and him really does bother me now particularly from those that have known me long term but seem to think it's ok because to them I was just Jerri.

Alice though gives a total break from my history and sets me up as female before people even meet me as it's a pretty "normal" name. I expect it to help people separate me from him with using the appropriate pronouns as trying to use male stuff with a name like Alice takes effort.

Good plan, Alice.


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Eeesh.... thinking about it like that.... I hope I don't decide I feel the same way in the future.... would hate to have to "retrain" the family with yet ANOTHER new name.... but, I have come this far.... so I'll just have to see how it plays out....

I LOVE my wife!!! She knew I was trans before I did. I told her about some of my surface feelings and she was like, "well, maybe you're trans...." and I denied it for a few months before realizing and admitting to her that she was right..... lol....

Very interesting. Wish my wife was that understanding. She hates me because of me being trans. She said our marriage was a sham.


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I've heard that story a lot Jenny, it always make me feel bad that I have that so good when it is so hard for so many people..... I truly wish it didn't have to be that way for you....

That's ok. There are actually other reasons why it is good the marriage is done. Much happier in my own anyway.


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Well I'm glad it was all for the better at least

Good news for me.... I'm still me.

When it came to changing all my stuff I just couldn't do it.

I'm Jerrica and if it makes things complicated at times so be it at least I'll be me.

On the plus side with my announcement on FB and subsequent back pedal everyone knows how I feel about being Jerri so kinda worked out well for me as they will be making a proper effort to call me Jerrica.

So good to be me I'm so not ever going to think about changing my name ever again

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Your wife is totally awesome Tasha ♡

Got it all the wife, the name, the body it's defo good to be you but I'll settle for being me

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It's not all cherries love, but I do love being me.... I'm sure it's nice being you too!! Glad you are able to work thing out!!!

And yes, my wife is THE best...

Life is indeed very good but do admit I still do envy you on the wife side of things at times.

Mine is great say 80-90% so far (and rising) but she although she makes great strides forwards she does have times of being really really low. I'm sure she'll get there in the end but likes of tonight I really needed a shoulder to cry on and help to work out who I should be. She wasn't interested at all like totally noncaring which obviously only made me worse. 

It was my wonderful kids that picked up the pieces and put me back together. I feel so guilty at them having such a job thrust upon their tiny little shoulders but marvel at the power of my 3 kids simply giving me a hug and saying "I love you Jerrica".