I've had a pretty busy week, at work and at home, but nothing too exiting. The weather is improving, so I've had to do some jobs around the garden.
I have had a good diet week, haven't cheated at all, I have no idea if I've lost anything but my clothes feel better, I am trying to stay off the scales and go as long and hard as I can and hope I get a nice surprise when I do. I've been neglecting my morning walks, I still don't have any female exercise clothes, I still wear my old man t-shirts and shorts. Last week I put them on before my walk, saw myself in the mirror and saw a man, that set me off on a massive dysphoric downer and had to cut the walk short, I can't face putting them back on, oh well shopping trip coming up [emoji16].
I'm maintaining a really positive mood at the moment, and feeling a lot stronger, I think that has a lot to do with presenting as myself full time. My boobs have changed a little more, my hair is still growing and getting thicker but frizzier, I've tried lots of conditioner but it doesn't seem to be helping, my hair is definitely getting drier.
I have zero sex drive at the moment, there is nothing going on down there, which is fine by me, using it brings on dysphoria, but worries me sick that my wife is missing out, it's one of those things we are going to have to work through, I don't want it there, and hopefully want be for too long.
My dad went to see the specialist, he has an operation scheduled soon to hopefully remove the cancer, let's hope it does the trick, and it hasn't already spread to other parts.
I heard off my sister! She denied having received my communication from a couple of weeks back, and says she had replied to other messages I had sent, which I did not receive, I'm having trouble believing that to be the case. We had a frank discussion and I think we have a truce for now, time will tell.
My wife received a promotion, she works in childcare this has added to her workload and I can tell she is stressing at the moment so it's time for me to pay back the support she has given me through my transition. She also mentioned recently that she has reached another level of acceptance, so I'm feeling much better about that. We have our twentieth wedding anniversary in few weeks, last year was a complete disaster, having not long dropped the gender bomb she was in no mood to celebrate. This year I checked and we are ok ❤️.
I got my new credit card, with correct name, however the online account showed my old middle name still and I had to phone up to get that changed, they said it would be changed straight away, however it took 4 days, better late than never.
Nicole
