Quote from: trapthavok on August 18, 2008, 02:45:10 PM
Phate: I think it was Lutin who asked about the pill not me....Idk I forget. I'm wary of pills too just so you know, as in...I think they're all placebos set to make us THINK we're getting better but don't actually work and we pay a lot of money for these BS placebos. But I make an exception for my cancer/cramp pills cause they actually work so think about it? It really helps. I have a high tolerance to medication and it takes stronger doses to really affect me, so maybe you just need the right dosage for you.

Just now saw this reply, thanks. I don't know alot about BC pills/shots/patches but I know they're controlled doses of hormones; I just know what the side effects to some of them are and my body is always pretty sensitive to stuff like that so I'm pretty way of the side effects. It's not an option right now but like I said before I might do something about it in the future.

For now I just try my best to get through the pain and take things like extra-strength tylenol or advil, cause I loathe taking straight aspirin.

I've been mulling this over quite a bit before trying to post.

Presentation:
-Ideally, I would like to dress in my normal tight tshirts and jeans as well as button down shirts, ties, slacks. Men's casual and formal wear. I am, however, too small to wear most men's clothing. I have a few pieces that were tailored for me, including a tuxedo. I have very fine, very expensive tastes in clothes, tend to prefer monochrome, deep reds and blues, and anything with a bit of historic or dramatic flair.
I wear my hair rather short, dyed black usually, either spiky or mohawked, depending on having a job and all that.

-I would like to be perceived primarily as male to the world at large, but need the freedom to express my femininity as well. I am a thespian and would like to play predominantly male roles in theatre.


Body Dysphoria:
-I have desire for a penis. I bought a very expensive prosthetic because I needed realism, packing practicality, as well as sexual function.
-I think that my breasts are beautiful for someone else, but aren't right for me. I am hesitant to have top surgery because I don't want to mar the natural beauty of my form, but I feel the intense desire to have a male-appearing chest. I am rather small and lithe and I am happy about that, though I would like to build muscle after beginning HRT. I would very much like to have facial stubble. I would like to have a bit more body hair.

Transition?

-I'm being rather slow about doing it, if I ever do. I will change my name, regardless.

-I don't know if I'm ready to seek out T, but I know that I want it.

-I don't need to think about top surgery much yet, so I don't.

-If I could have a surgically procured penis that functioned like a real male penis, I would go for it in a heartbeat. Otherwise, probably not.

Sexually

-I wish I was a man. I wish I had the erection/natural feeling in penis thing going for me. {{Ditto}}

-In my present body, I am fully capable and comfortable regarding sex.

-I want to be seen as a sexually functioning, legally recognized (possibly stealth?) bisexual male.