How do you deal when the dysphoria's really bad?

[Lachlann]

Dysphoria isn't that bad currently so it's easy to ignore... but beforehand I would focus on someone else instead of me.

[Silver]

Pre everything is when I did that to get through. I don't need that measure anymore.

I must be doing it wrong then. Either that, or I'm just really easily disappointed/bad at dealing with problems.

[LordKAT]

I must be doing it wrong then. Either that, or I'm just really easily disappointed/bad at dealing with problems.

Either that, or you are just not me so what works for me don't work for you.  And that is A-OK.

[no_id]

I probably don't get the dysphoria kicks most guys 'round here get, but it's something I can relate to either way.
Whenever my dysphoria tries to gnaw off my toe there's the 'and it ain't ever gonna change' taking the lead role.

In the past I cut, I did liquor, and I punched my wall.
Nowadays I put on some clothes in which I know I look fine, put on some music, and bring out my kendama or poii's and start rocking it. Either that or I work out, but I usually feel more agressive that way and push my limits a bit too much.

Whatever the remedy I always lock myself up since I hate having people around when I'm down plus I don't want to burden them with something they likely won't understand.

[LordKAT]

Whatever the remedy I always lock myself up since I hate having people around when I'm down plus I don't want to burden them with something they likely won't understand.

My reason for saying curl up in a ball and stew in it for a while. My room, my pain,  I'm not willing to share.

[Roro]

Mmm pain stew, that sounds pretty delicious. Pity you're not willing to share... oh.

Lately the dysphoria has been kicking my ass. I've been writing a little each day, but then the depression kicks in and I lose my steam. I play WoW... lots of wow. I have a toon to play specifically when I'm feeling crap about myself. It's 79 now. Yeah. I don't drink, or use drugs, but I kinda wish I could smoke a little weed to take the edge off. It makes me even more on edge and screws me up in an unfun sort of way.

Last night apparently dancing with the stars was my reality escape. Didn't work all that well, but I wasn't in the mood for much else. I used to play with my poi when I was pissed off, then decided that I should probably save it for when I'm happy and can actually enjoy the experience.

I know it's silly, but if there's extra money available I go out and buy something manly clothing wise. Yesterday I got a brand new pair of vans for 5 bucks... marked down from 60. That cheered me up for a few hours, but then the bottom fell out when I saw a photo taken of me looking super terrible. Not only femme, but just a bad capture of my face between expressions.

I guess that's all for now.

[Doveglion]

I deal by running across this field by my house until my legs start to feel like noodles and if I still feel bad after that I watch Red Dwarf because no matter how miserable I am for whatever reason it always makes me laugh and forget what's bothering me. If it's extremely bad I usually just stay out of the house and as some other people said let my pain stew the reason is I know if I stay inside I'll either take some sort of medication to get high or cut myself I've done neither in a while because of this method, but it still crosses my mind. I've been having a lot of problems with dysphoria recently because I keep having to pretend to be a girl when I go out with my grandma because if I dress like myself she spends the whole time putting me down and telling me I'm not a man and that I never will be. If it wasn't for the fact I respect my elders and am a gentlemen I probably just wouldn't go out with her at all because either way I'm miserable, but she's crippled so I feel bad if she has to go out shopping on her own.

On the upside of my recent misery due to spending pretty much all my time outside I've gained quite a nice tan.

[Just Kate]

Dysphoria isn't that bad currently so it's easy to ignore... but beforehand I would focus on someone else instead of me.

This.  100% this is what I have found to be the quickest path out of the tailspin caused by severe dysphoria.  Thinking of and subsequently serving someone else in need gets me out of my own head and helps me feel useful, confident, and important again - all aspects that the dysphoria attempts to take away from me.  It isn't easy to do, because all I want to do is curl up and die, but it is totally worth it when I can force myself to do it.

[zombiesarepeaceful]

Ohhh yeah. I punch walls alot. My knuckles are still out of place and I'm not sure when/if they'll go back in place. But when I punch walls, i get drugs when I go to the ER. It's sort of a destructive cycle, the only destructive cycle being the punching of the wall. I do other drugs too. And I used to cut. Now I'm trying to move onto more healthy methods..I still do some drugs and dont' see a problem with it unless I'm harming anyone or myself, even if I am, it's no one's business.

[shanetastic]

I normally just write and try to hang out with friends to stay busy or preoccupy myself in something other than dwelling.  Like school, reading, or something else.

[Lex]

I have found that if I allow myself some time to stew in it a while, it passes faster than if I just tried to work past it.  Have any of you found the same to work?

Yeah, every once in awhile, when the dysphoria isn't too bad. Sometimes I can get myself into the mindset to analyze the situation more than feel the situation.. if that makes sense lol.

[LordKAT]

It does. If you are like me, it gives a chance to figure out what set it off this time so that I can try to avoid whatever it was or find an answer for it next time.

[Al James]

I seem to be stuck in a cycle at the minute. I pack cos it makes me feel good. Then it stops being good cos it reminds me that its just a piece of plastic that can't do anything naturally. So i stop wearing it and then i'm going mental cos i've nothing there. And then i can't talk to people without wanting to kill them i hate myself and anyone associated with me.

[LordKAT]

mmporgs are great,...until you have no life outside of that. I did that. My kids were very worried. One year later, name change and move on.

[LordKAT]

I didn't leave the house, I played for 30 hours straight, nap for maybe 5 then play again.  Not good.

[Roro]

I suppose it's good then that WoW makes me a bit twitchy so I can only play for a couple of hours at a time. I can't even imagine sitting for 30 hours straight, much less wowing. Wow... literally. Now that's some stamina.

[cynthialee]

Funny...It wasnt to many months after I quit my WoW acount that I had my meltdown.
(yes I played mostly female toons)

[Radar]

I have found that if I allow myself some time to stew in it a while, it passes faster than if I just tried to work past it.  Have any of you found the same to work?

That's me.

[Hurtfulsplash]

I drink, daydream (of the real me), sleep, do research and come here...or sometimes I just sit and worry about it.

[kyle_lawrence]

I deal WAY better than I used to.  5 or 6 years ago (when I identified as a lesbian and owned push up bras and skirts  ) I was cutting, putting out cigarettes in my arms, taking tequila shots and/or vicoden before class, and alternating between caffeine pills and sleeping pills to survive school and work.  My worst point was when I took a handful of whatever pills were around my room (likely a mix of cold medicine, vicodine and sleeping pills) with a vodka and orange juice that was probably 75% vodka.  I think my last conscious thought was "I wonder If I'll wake up tomorrow?"  I don't think I was trying to kill myself, but more so testing the limits.  I was in therapy but with the wrong diagnonsense. Treatment for a Borderline personality disorder doesn't work on GID.

I ended up transferring schools a couple months later, starting hanging at a GLBT youth center where I met a couple trans guys, and things gradually got better.  I found some new friends I didn't have to pretend around (although I didn't realize at the time how hard I was trying to be a girl).  I now find it kinda funny that I was ->-bleeped-<-ing a guy (who claimed to be straight at the time) with a strap-on (before I realized I'm trans) the first time ANYTHING felt right. (He's since come out at bi, and cross dresses.  He stole all my "girl clothes".)

Now I cope by getting lost on my bike with my camera, avoiding mirrors at all costs, playing with the hair on my legs and stomach, and playing video games so I can laugh at my self, because I'm horrible at every video game ever made. I smoke a little weed and drink (beer only), but just when I'm hanging out with friends.

I went a little off track... sorry.