I once got caught by my grandma when I was around 10. i was wearing my mother's bathing suit. She didn't say a thing. She just smiled, kissed me on the cheek and walked out of the room. Nothing was ever said, as far as I know. It was both terrifying and exciting at the same time.
Beth

Yes by my X wife! She Just could not except my wearing silky womans, soft comfortable, delicate and pretty things (sexy too). We are good friends, but she now has a girl friend and is bi. So I'm very confused ,embaressed and betrayed .

Quote from: pantymancan on November 19, 2010, 03:24:46 PM
Yes by my X wife! She Just could not except my wearing silky womans, soft comfortable, delicate and pretty things (sexy too). We are good friends, but she now has a girl friend and is bi. So I'm very confused ,embaressed and betrayed .

Can you describe a little more of your situation?

It sounds like you're going through a rough time. Be really interested to hear about it.

It's a long story. only have time for bits and pieces. It start 35 years ago, she was my friend.
20 years ago she became my lover and best friend. I let her know all about my crossdressing, she never liked it and told me not to do it around her. That was fine and she knew my fantasy was her dressing me up and makeing love to my wonderful wife (never happend). so in the closet I lived. alone embaressed and ashamed, we still had regular hetro sex. It deminished over the years as she was secretly haveing an affair with a woman. gotta go

Quote from: pantymancan on November 19, 2010, 05:56:19 PM
It's a long story. only have time for bits and pieces. It start 35 years ago, she was my friend.
20 years ago she became my lover and best friend. I let her know all about my crossdressing, she never liked it and told me not to do it around her. That was fine and she knew my fantasy was her dressing me up and makeing love to my wonderful wife (never happend). so in the closet I lived. alone embaressed and ashamed, we still had regular hetro sex. It deminished over the years as she was secretly haveing an affair with a woman. gotta go

Do you think she was trying to immasculate you?

I'm not sure? she later had a boy friend , her girl friends husband. she said he said that stuff is sick without telling him who she was talking about ( yea right ). Any way the situation has become rather nice, do what I want when I want and wear sexy stuff for myself. Still lonley and confused. She tells me now,that she would take a man like me any time, honest careing sensative. I can not take a woman like her. I forgive her for the adultry but I cannot forget and she understands. so we remain friends who never speak.

Quote from: ani on October 05, 2010, 01:42:21 AM
One night they left and I went to get dressed up and opening a drawer I found a note that said something like: "go do the dishes, and then finish your homework, love mom".  I was obviously busted, but she never said anything, and neither did I.

I wanted to comment on Ani's post from 05 Oct.  What ever happened between your Mum and you with respect to this.  Your Mum to me sounds very understanding and loving and perhaps would be open to anything you need or want to tell her.  Our son came home during his first year of uni announcing that he was gay or at least had a fluid sexuality as he calls it.  It really was no surprise to us and all that worry on his part keeping it to himself was just that............a worry.  I think you would be surprised if you spoke with her about it and you would feel a bit better within yourself.

Love Rebecca xx

PS if this format doesn't look right.............sorry......I haven't done a quote before.

(I fixed it for you hun - Nicole)

Quote from: pantymancan on November 19, 2010, 06:43:04 PM
I'm not sure? she later had a boy friend , her girl friends husband. she said he said that stuff is sick without telling him who she was talking about ( yea right ). Any way the situation has become rather nice, do what I want when I want and wear sexy stuff for myself. Still lonley and confused. She tells me now,that she would take a man like me any time, honest careing sensative. I can not take a woman like her. I forgive her for the adultry but I cannot forget and she understands. so we remain friends who never speak.

I don't want this to come out the wrong way, but if you never speak, can you really consider yourselves friends?

Do you think she was trying to immasculate you?
No woman - or man - can do this to somebody without the victims consent - unless you are being literal.

Good point, I should have said, we remain civil to one another when we bump into each other. (small town)

Quote from: tekla on November 22, 2010, 08:13:43 AM
Do you think she was trying to immasculate you?
No woman - or man - can do this to somebody without the victims consent - unless you are being literal.

Possibly. In as much as victims seek bullies.

But, in the context, I got the impression that the woman was attempting to undermine Pantyman and ultimately, to attack his sexual legitmacy.

Quoteshe knew my fantasy was her dressing me up and makeing love to my wonderful wife (never happend). so in the closet I lived. alone embaressed and ashamed, we still had regular hetro sex. It deminished over the years as she was secretly haveing an affair with a woman.

These seem hostile acts. Knowing Pantyman's fantacies, yet enforcing 'hetro sex'. Knowing Pantyman was alone embaressed and ashamed. Then embarking on an affair with a woman, (insult to injury), letting Pantyman discover it when, presumably, she thought it might achieve the desired effect.

every ones insight is very good, many of the emotions I felt were warranted. And it's comforting to know that this place is a place of understanding. I'm so glad to know my true feelings and there are others who are a inspiration.

First time i got caught, well maybe not so much caught but i was playing football for our works team when during a somewhat nasty tackle i broke my leg, got taken to hospital and i realised i had nail varnish on my toe nails, now this was early 80s when a bloke wearing nail varnish was more of an issue than what it is nowadays, was the laughing stock of the hospital ward,but some how managed to scrape it all off with my finger nails, which wasnt easy with my leg in plaster.

Few years back my wife phoned our neighbour to say she was going to be late back from work and asked if they would run down to tell me, now  our neighbours got a habit of knocking but then walking straight in and this is what happend on this occasion and there was me sat on the sofa in my full glory, short denim skirt blouse wig the works, think i went from 0 to top of the stairs in about 3 seconds, just wanted the ground to open up and swallow me. Nowadays though if the same happend i would just sit there and ask if they wanted a coffee, oh how things have changed since those days of actually being ashamed of what i am and feeling the need to hide it  away from everyone

I know this thread is for the girls, but I had one experience, were I had hung my binder out to dry, and then completely forgot about it. Hours later, while watching TV, I remembered it and hurried to the kitchen, where it was.
By then my husband had come hoem already and also removed the binder because he needed the space to dry other clothes.
You know how sometimes when you're afraid your sweat gets this really sour smell suddenly? This is what happened. I stood there, looking at my binder, and couldn't really move. I don't know if he realized what that thing was, which was much heavier that the usual t-shirt and also a different cut.
He never asked.
But ever since I've grown to be much more careful about where to keep my items.

Hi Kev,  sorry my english is limited sometimes and i couldnt get the whole idea of your story, can you pls explain or give a synonym of "binder", cheers

I was in middle school when my mom found one of her nighties between my bed cushions.  She wrote me a letter and left it on the table.  She said that she didn't know why it was there, was dumbfounded, but that I had violated her trust and she was having my dad put a lock on their bedroom door.  I panicked but told her that I would hold it when I would look at Dad's Playboy magazines and masturbated, taking extra care to look ashamed.  This was a total lie, I wore it to bed every night and hadn't even started masturbating at that point.  I had figured that it'd be better to be a perverted regular boy than whatever I actually was.   She hugged me and said she was sorry for being mad.  Though they did try to keep their bedroom door locked from that point on.

I was wearing stocking, shoes, a dress and makeup and watching TV on the couch after school in eight grade when by brother came home from school.  I ran into the bathroom then heard a giggling from outside the bathroom door.  He was peeking under the door.  "You're wearing girl's shoes!"  I told him that I put them on as a joke, I was going to throw my legs over the edge of the couch when he got home and fake seduce him.  It was going to be REALLY FUNNY but then I had to go to the bathroom right when he got home and it ruined the joke.   He bought it and never brought it up again.

I stole clothes and makeup from friends and family all through middle and high school and was never caught.  I would wear tights under my pants to school.  One day a kid pushed me into a locker, started hitting me and ripped my shirt off of me as I fell to the floor.  I had to walk shirtless to the principles office through full hallways. After that I stopped wearing girl clothes under boy clothes....just in case.

I've been semi-busted a few times when I lived at home. I used to keep a drawer of panties and tights and stockings I would wear to school under my uniform. My mother was helping me tidy my room and opened the aforementioned drawer, "That one's full!" I managed to muster miliseconds before she noticed the contents.
Furthermore, I would keep some panties in my own underwear drawer and i was confronted by my parents a couple of times, "they must have got bundled up in the wash" was my excuse each time and I think they bought it (I think the lie was more comforting than the other possibilities).

The other day I had been wearing my wife's stuff (she does not yet know, but she will soon...) whilst she was out eventually I had to change back into my work clothes but hadn't put her underwear in the proper place... There was no excuse given this time as there was nothing really I could say.

The only comment she made though was "as long as you're not gay".

I've been caught while been full dressed once, both of my sister went to school and my parents were at work, so I immediatly took the chance. When I was in lingerie and in full waterproof makeup one of my sisters came home with a friend (also female) of her. I noticed the sound of a door slamming, so I quickly ran to the bathroom to undo from everything. My sister came upstairs and then I found out that there were no clothes (male) of mine and no makeup remover in the bathroom. I kept in the bathroom for about 15 minutes, but my sister kept asking me what I was doing. So I only had 2 options:
- Stay in the bathroom till she left, but that could take a long time
- Or come out of the bathroom in full dress and makeup and embarrasing my sister and here friend

I choose for option two... It was a very hard decision...

After this happend she told my parents and they have forbidden me to do something like that ever again, but I just can't ignore my feelings, so I will keep doing it...

This was the worst moment of my life, but I felt like being caught several times before that. My parents sometimes noticed some black smugged lines under my eye and then they asked me what the black stuff was, I always pretended that it must have been some dirt or something and thought they took it, but a little voice told me they didn't...

I'm still busy telling people about my feelings, so this post is a step in the right direction and I want to have some contact with people who have the same thoughts as me, so I found this forum. I'm very glad about that...

Cindy

I finally got "caught" about three weeks ago. It was difficult to be properly caught before because I have told and shown so many people that there is no chance to be caught by people who don't know already. Anyway I was all dressed up (in short shorts) and wigged up and made up after a day showing an old school friend around the city here, and I was looking after another friend's house and his dog over the Summer. There was another dog owner, a woman who I used to bump into and chat to as we both took the dogs for a walk at the same time. That night for the first time her dog had worked out where we were, and come crawling undeer the fence and into the garden.....so I had to go out to let him back out through the garden gate and sheepishly explain to his owner that I liked doing this and dressed whenever I went out socially....and what do you think happened after that?

She invited me to dinner in a few days' time with her family, and said I could come dressed like that if I wanted! Phew!

(I ran out of time to change for the dinner, and unfortunately had to go in man mode, but next time...)

For Pantymancam,
I was in a very similar situation....
My ex was aware of the "other me".We even went out together with with me being fully dressed with makeup and a wig.Alas,she had a few affairs with other women and we divorced.I was a very dark and confusing time for me.It is comforting to know that I am not the only one to have experienced this.
Thank you SO much for sharing!Please excuse me if I wandered from the topic.
Hugs,
Susan S.