Split because of the size of the previous thread. Carry on
What am I thinking right now, absolutely nothing.
I'm vegitating.
Well, I'm on the first page! Yay! :P
I'm thinking that I need to reschedule my next therapist appointment because my parents are going to be staying at my place the night before, and I don't expect them to leave before 11AM.
I'm thinking about food. I'm famished.
Quote from: Simon on February 06, 2013, 05:50:14 PM
I'm thinking about food. I'm famished.
Ironic, my dinner is cooking while I type this. Obviously it's making you hungry :P
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 06, 2013, 05:43:08 PM
I'm thinking that I need to reschedule my next therapist appointment because my parents are going to be staying at my place the night before, and I don't expect them to leave before 11AM.
Yeah, definately reschedule.
I speak from experience. :P
Why do most animals have tails but humans don't?
Damn, missed this new thread! XD
I did it! (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,135258.0.html) :)
Quote from: V M on February 06, 2013, 06:17:42 PM
Why do most animals have tails but humans don't
*Puts on nerd glasses*
Well, the portion of your spine known as the coccyx, or your tail bone, is a vestigial structure, similar to your appendix in the sense that it no longer serves an important function, that was once a tail. Your tail was present during 4 weeks of your prenatal development, but eventually recedes into your insides, never to be a tail, unless it naturally protrudes; however, it never becomes the traditional sense of a tail, so much as a protrusion of flesh. Technically, we still have tails, as the coccyx doesn't provide support and still protrudes out of the rear of the spinal collumn, only not far enough to be visible externally.
*Takes off nerd glasses*
:)
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 06, 2013, 06:21:31 PM
Damn, missed this new thread! XD
I did it! (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,135258.0.html) :)
Congratulations! ;D
Quote from: DianaP on February 06, 2013, 06:24:35 PM
Congratulations! ;D
Thank you!
Quote from: Shantel on February 06, 2013, 06:24:10 PM
Excellent! :eusa_clap:
When you're ready will a report be forthcoming?
^_^
>.> What kind of report?
Quote from: DianaP on February 06, 2013, 06:24:35 PM
*Takes off nerd glasses*
You might want to reconsider this, nerdy is a cute look for a girl.
Quote from: V M on February 06, 2013, 06:17:42 PM
Why do most animals have tails but humans don't?
Quote from: DianaP on February 06, 2013, 06:24:35 PM
*Puts on nerd glasses*
Well, the portion of your spine known as the coccyx, or your tail bone, is a vestigial structure, similar to your appendix in the sense that it no longer serves an important function, that was once a tail. Your tail was present during 4 weeks of your prenatal development, but eventually recedes into your insides, never to be a tail, unless it naturally protrudes; however, it never becomes the traditional sense of a tail, so much as a protrusion of flesh. Technically, we still have tails, as the coccyx doesn't provide support and still protrudes out of the rear of then spinal collumn, only not far enough to be visible externally.
*Takes off nerd glasses*
:)
Congratulations! ;D
Bzzzzzzz, wrong. It's because people are more like snakes!
Wha? Snakes have tails! I think.
I don't have to be back at work until Friday afternoon. That's a relief after working so much the last few weeks. And then it will be time for me to train the other newb on the closing shift.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 06, 2013, 08:21:37 PM
Looking at hydroponics fodder systems, and they're very expensive but they seem like a really good investment. Exciting stuff. I could cut my feed bill in half and make up the money in hay I would no longer be buying, I wouldn't have to abuse my pastures, I wouldn't have to feed hay in July, I wouldn't have to downsize or be guilty about not wanting to downsize, I could sell more lambs and have more wool by not downsizing, I could grow extra fodder in the off (lamb-less) season and sell it, I would have health benefits for the sheep, I would supposedly see improvement in wool quality, I could grow my lambs more efficiently and pack 'em off sooner, which would let me tan my sheepskins before it freezes, then I could sell those, too. :eusa_think: maybe I have the rose-colored glasses on. too soon to tell.
Hydroponics is really cool. I'd like a system set up for it at some point. ^^
Hey look, a new thread! The awesome is strong in this one :3
Saw therapist just to talk to someone, went well except for one thing: I gripe about my stick figure friends (seriously, screw those people who eat a whole bucket of KFC and look like really pale Ethiopians), and she says it's mostly boys (not at all true in my school), how they're more active while we aren't up and about as much (also untrue, these kids are all couch potatoes).
I'm sorry, what? Who is this "we"? >:( I am one of the boys- I'm just anatomically challenged.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 06, 2013, 09:58:26 PM
It seems cool. What kind of system do you want?
I want a small one, something that will fit on a table. It will be entirely home made...probably. Kind of like this (http://www.instructables.com/id/Table-Top-Hydroponics/). Though a big fancy one that has to be bought would be awesome.
FA asked a page back in the old thread which blogger I was going to see talk. It's Cliff Pervocracy, if you still wanted to know.
This thread seems to grow exponentially.
Quote from: V M on February 06, 2013, 06:17:42 PM
Why do most animals have tails but humans don't?
Sometimes I wish I had a tail but I broke my tailbone once and if it was longer I'd probably end up breaking it again somehow. And I don't want that. So yay for how our butts are already configured. ;D
If we had tails, we could use them for balance and to propel and steer with :) Plus we could swak aggressors like an Iguana 8)
Quote from: V M on February 06, 2013, 11:52:30 PM
If we had tails, we could use them for balance and to propel and steer with :) Plus we could swak aggressors like an Iguana 8)
Okay then I want mine to be big like a kangaroo's.
What if you could have a kangiguanaroo tail?
I really have zero desire to have biological children. I would love to adopt, but something about...bringing a kid into the world bothers me. The world is a harsh place. I'd rather care for and help the ones who are already alive and need someone. Deliberately bringing in a new life just seems cruel somehow.
That makes me seem so cynical. I'm not, just...hm.
Quote from: V M on February 07, 2013, 12:04:29 AM
What if you could have a kangiguanaroo tail?
Oh my god I laughed too hard at that stupid idea. XD
Caleb I agree with you. As long as there are kids out there who don't have parents it seems crazy to be making more of them.
I had a dream recently that I got some girl pregnant and she didn't tell me. Then this teenaged boy showed up at my door and I had to take him in because his mom had gone away. He was cool and I liked him enough but the whole thing was rather bewildering.
Quote from: Felix on February 07, 2013, 12:58:43 AM
Oh my god I laughed too hard at that stupid idea. XD
If I made you laugh, then my mission has been accomplished
I am thinking of how cold and heartless people are.
Now that I am unemployed, it just hit home that I don't know just how well I pass as female. I mean physically, I'm sure I pass just fine. But my voice, mannerisms, etc. I am still paranoid about. It's just at Valeo Sylvania, I was like a celebrity. Although I sure as heck didn't want that. People knew I was trans and they told new hires. So, I kind of gave up on really trying.
One thing I will miss though are my co-workers. Management might be a group of A-holes, but I couldn't ask for a better crew to work with nor a better bunch of press operators.
Best wishes on finding new employment Keaira, you can do it
Hugs
Keaira I saw some of this in other threads but I'm so sorry and frustrated for you regarding your old job. I hope it will turn into some cool new beginning or something that doesn't suck too much.
Quote from: Damian Valentine on February 07, 2013, 02:26:15 AM
I am thinking of how cold and heartless people are.
You okay?
I shouldn't jump in to break up fights in my apt. complex, I I should just stay inside and call the police
Don't worry, I'm okay, but I'm sure I'll be a bit stiff and sore from straining a few parts is parts come morning
Quote from: V M on February 06, 2013, 11:52:30 PM
If we had tails, we could use them for balance and to propel and steer with :) Plus we could swak aggressors like an Iguana 8)
Like an iguana? Probably not. I'd pretend my tail is a lightsaber instead...
He's just sitting there staring at me again.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 07, 2013, 11:55:35 AM
He's just sitting there staring at me again.
???
>.> I have a SAGA meeting tonight. ^^ I can't wait to go!
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 07, 2013, 11:58:55 AM
The dog. I think he's up to something.
Oh. xD He's a dog. :P Of course he's up to something.
Quote from: Cain on February 06, 2013, 11:34:13 PM
FA asked a page back in the old thread which blogger I was going to see talk. It's Cliff Pervocracy, if you still wanted to know.
This thread seems to grow exponentially.
Have to look that one up. Thanks for the info. :)
As for me, I'm think I've lost myself. I've become so grossly effeminate. I want my power back.
Torturing my Tumblr followers by spamming them with Finnish music is pretty nice. It would be even nicer to know some of them would actually listen to those songs. I even translated the lyrics into English for better understanding. :I
The next person to call me young lady will receive the service of having a new one ripped for them, free of charge.
Quote from: V M on February 07, 2013, 04:14:40 AM
Best wishes on finding new employment Keaira, you can do it
Hugs
*hugs* Thank you VM. I know I'll be okay. At least I've been full time for 2 years. ^_^
Quote from: Felix on February 07, 2013, 04:17:06 AM
Keaira I saw some of this in other threads but I'm so sorry and frustrated for you regarding your old job. I hope it will turn into some cool new beginning or something that doesn't suck too much.
You okay?
Yes, I'm fine. Like I said, It's just another scary step I'll be taking. I'm hoping to find a job where no one knows me so I won't have to deal with all that BS regarding pronouns and stuff again. I don't plan on being stealth, but I don't plan on making my being transsexual the thing that defines me either.
I picked up my stuff from work today and filled a big tote with stuff I had accumulated. It's amazing how much crap you can build up in 4 years. Such a stressful job and yet I hate to leave my friends. I'm sure it will lead to better things later on though ^_^ But thank you for asking Felix.
Mew.
I'm the last person to post in the old what are you thinking thread before it was locked.
VICTORY!
I am sad because now I have no more chili dogs.
There is a fictional trans couple on "Grey's Anatomy" tonight as a big part of the story line.
Quote from: Simon on February 07, 2013, 08:17:06 PM
There is a fictional trans couple on "Grey's Anatomy" tonight as a big part of the story line.
Cool!
__
I went to the SAGA meeting tonight and had fun. Even wore my binder [goddamn is San Antonio too hot for that] and my guy jeans and shoes. :3 I talked to some awesome people and then went out to dinner afterwards with two lovely ladies. ^_^ I had a lot of fun! One lady is totally a pick-me-upper. I voiced worries on passing and my likes and she was like "Own that sh*t." x3
I changed my avatar in honour of the day.
I'm thinking how nice it would be to be snuggled up with my GF..
Quote from: Caleb. on February 08, 2013, 12:27:01 AM
I changed my avatar in honour of the day.
Cute girl. What day?
I hope we can get all of the power back on in my house soon.
Quote from: Malachite on February 08, 2013, 04:18:43 AM
I hope we can get all of the power back on in my house soon.
Are you able to check the fuse box? You may just need to change out a fuse if it's just in a particular part of the house
Quote from: V M on February 08, 2013, 04:35:45 AM
Are you able to check the fuse box? You may just need to change out a fuse if it's just in a particular part of the house
We have checked the box and tried flipping the switches several times but we still can't get power in some parts of the house. I wonder if the whole thing needs to be replaced. We had the power company come over and check things from the outside and they said it's good from their end.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 08, 2013, 12:27:01 AM
I changed my avatar in honour of the day.
You now have that infernal song stuck in my head. Caleb, I'll be sending you bad thoughts all "Friday, Friday". :laugh:
Quote from: DeeperThanSwords on February 07, 2013, 06:42:58 PM
Mew.
I always had to use Gameshark to capture that Pokemon...
My new scarf got to the post office at 6AM... I wonder if that means I'll get it today?
Quote from: Malachite on February 08, 2013, 04:55:19 AM
We have checked the box and tried flipping the switches several times but we still can't get power in some parts of the house. I wonder if the whole thing needs to be replaced. We had the power company come over and check things from the outside and they said it's good from their end.
Could be a bad connection on one of the legs coming into the main box inside. That would explain partial power. Do any of the 220/240v appliances work?
1. My mom wants me to go to counseling for 18 months before start T. I finally got her to get it down to 6 months [as if; once the psychologist says I can get T I'm ->-bleeped-<-ing getting it.] She just wants to meet up with them and I think she might say "But he didn't act like a boy!" No, sh*t. I immersed myself in being a girl to make everyone happy and to see if I could be happy. Gah!
2. My grandma was admitted to the hospital this morning. =/
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 08, 2013, 09:30:48 AM
2. My grandma was admitted to the hospital this morning. =/
Oh no! * hugs *
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 08, 2013, 09:34:42 AM
Oh no! * hugs *
-hugs-
I think she'll be fine though she may have to have surgery, but hopefully no surgery will have to happen.
I don't know what's bothering me more the pimple on my face or the gym clothes I'm wearing today don't match.
Quote from: Fat Admin on February 08, 2013, 03:52:25 AM
Cute girl. What day?
Friday - Rebecca Black - Official Music Video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfVsfOSbJY0#)
lol
Quote from: Caleb. on February 08, 2013, 12:27:01 AM
I changed my avatar in honour of the day.
This made me smile a bit.
TFCIF.
(Thank Fencing Couches It's Friday)
Nice little blizzard outside, orchestra is cancelled tomorrow morning which means I don't have to drag my lazy hindquarters out of bed at some ungodly hour. Still have a ridiculous amount of homework, but I got a head start on it, so maybe I can actually sleep at some point.
...Sleep? What is this madness?
I'm at my sisters house to get some power.
Good news: My grandma is all right. :) She got sent home.
Bad news: The ride home ended horribly. My parents don't believe I'm trans* and they don't think I've researched this. They don't believe I've looked at all of the different angles. I'm so goddamn tired and pissed off and upset by this because of how they were saying it.
Aaron, you said that your parents were cool with you coming out. Or at least your mom. What happened?!
Good: We got snow!
Bad: My friends are busy, so I'll have to have a snowball fight with my imaginary friends. :(
Quote from: DianaP on February 08, 2013, 10:09:27 PM
Aaron, you said that your parents were cool with you coming out. Or at least your mom. What happened?!
She still says she's supportive, but I haven't heard a thing that suggests that. It's like she's attacking me and she says it's because I'm not making it sound like I've thought this through. My dad is right alongside her. "Every story I've heard of has it where the person knows they were different from a young age!" or "It was easy to tell from a young age." Goddammit. So I was girly and I played with girl things and had girl friends. I also played with guy things and had guy friends. Toys were toys and friends were friends. I didn't think I was any different because I couldn't have given a damn about my inner workings when I was young. I was just me and I never truly felt the social pressure of gender roles until I was much older and changes became far more evident.
Apparently I'm not ->-bleeped-<-ing masculine enough for them to believe me.
Really sorry to hear that, Aaron. But the upside is that they're at least saying that they are supportive, in which case they should be open to learning more about it with some guidance towards helpful resources from you. Yeah, it sucks that you have to justify who you are, but there are much worse alternatives. Best of luck, man!
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 08, 2013, 10:19:02 PM
Apparently I'm not ->-bleeped-<-ing masculine enough for them to believe me.
Yeah, because all guys are masculine. Have your parents never met a hipster? :laugh:
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 08, 2013, 10:21:44 PM
Really sorry to hear that, Aaron. But the upside is that they're at least saying that they are supportive, in which case they should be open to learning more about it with some guidance towards helpful resources from you. Yeah, it sucks that you have to justify who you are, but there are much worse alternatives. Best of luck, man!
I'll believe she's supportive when she acts like it. I've given her "True Selves" and I've linked her to Susan's. She's also more than welcome to come to the trans support group. She also knows she can contact the HRC and PFLAG for further help. She has not done a damn thing. The book has been on the counter for the last three days and they even stuck a bunch of papers on it that I promptly moved.
I'm trying to give her resources, but she's not taking me up on them. And she won't talk to me about it without trying to convince me I'm not male. Hell, I can't possibly dislike sex because of my bits. "It's a sign of a deeper mental issue than that." Why can't it just be because my bits aren't fun for me? Edit: Then she throws out some b.s. that you have to have anal if you're with a man in a gay relationship and that if I don't like sex now then I won't like sex after transition [which is always possible, but it's not like I care].
@DianaP: XD Hahaha, apparently not.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 08, 2013, 07:21:46 AM
Could be a bad connection on one of the legs coming into the main box inside. That would explain partial power. Do any of the 220/240v appliances work?
Not anymore they don't-now there isn't any power in my house.
Grapes of Wrath is on. I remember reading the book when I was in my teens. So far, the movie is good.
It'll be OK, Aaron. It's not about you. A lot of how people respond is based on how they feel...if you were super masculine as a kid they'd probably still say there were no signs. Or if they acknowledged it, they'd say you didn't try hard enough to be a girl or something. They're just trying to find ways because it's transitioning itself they have an issue with, not any part of you.
Ok, I have to say that I am ticked off. Two of my favorite Saturday morning cartoons are being cancelled: Young Justice and Green Lantern: The Animated Series.
What's worse is that one of the shows replacing them is "Teen Titans: Go." It's a show about the Teen Titans' antics outside of saving the world. I don't watch Saturday morning cartoons for a sit-com! >:(
Quote from: Keaira on February 07, 2013, 05:47:52 PM
Yes, I'm fine. Like I said, It's just another scary step I'll be taking. I'm hoping to find a job where no one knows me so I won't have to deal with all that BS regarding pronouns and stuff again. I don't plan on being stealth, but I don't plan on making my being transsexual the thing that defines me either.
I picked up my stuff from work today and filled a big tote with stuff I had accumulated. It's amazing how much crap you can build up in 4 years. Such a stressful job and yet I hate to leave my friends. I'm sure it will lead to better things later on though ^_^ But thank you for asking Felix.
I have a hard time leaving even godawful jobs so that's not abnormal. I do think it's a good turn of chance that you won't have to be defined by your transition at your next workplace. Sometimes that can be helpful but it gets in the way too.
I need to do laundry so badly. I have no clean clothes, and I wore dirty ones today and yesterday.
Aaron I'm sorry they're hassling you so much. If I were you I'd give up on fighting them and just wait until you're out on your own. My gosh if I had to depend on other people's permission to do things I'd have seven kids and live as a woman and go to church all the time and live off of fried chicken and hush puppies. I'd never have had a real job and I certainly wouldn't be on testosterone.
Also, anal sex? Really? If that's not a mandatory part of parenting or childhood for cis and straight kids there's no reason it should be leverage in any argument with you. I wish it were possible for you to be somehow distanced enough to laugh when people bring up that kind of stuff.
Why do people get cataracts but cats just lay about and expect to be waited on?
Quote from: V M on February 09, 2013, 02:22:27 AM
Why do people get cataracts but cats just lay about and expect to be waited on?
Wait what? Does laziness prevent cataracts?
What a lot of gay men don't even like anal sex and don't have it.
Oh and also, even though I responded to the post alreadyt i have more to add. if one can't be a man because of certain behaviours, well I guess i'm not one and T is a horrible mistake. But oh wait. I might be a bit feminine for a guy but I was masculine for a woman so opposy daisy i guess I'm not a woman either. Actually one of my good friends who was brielfy a girlfriend told me that I am the most gender neutral man she's ever met, in terms of respression anyway because i am binary in terms of my transition itself.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 09, 2013, 03:41:00 AM
What a lot of gay men don't even like anal sex and don't have it.
Oh and also, even though I responded to the post alreadyt i have more to add. if one can't be a man because of certain behaviours, well I guess i'm not one and T is a horrible mistake. But oh wait. I might be a bit feminine for a guy but I was masculine for a woman so opposy daisy i guess I'm not a woman either. Actually one of my good friends who was brielfy a girlfriend told me that I am the most gender neutral man she's ever met, in terms of respression anyway because i am binary in terms of my transition itself.
Okay, so because your avatar is a video game character I mindlessly assumed you were Malachite. I was like whoa this is such flowery language for him. XD
Anyway yeah me too. If behavior determined it I'd be some kind of neuter/girl/boy creature in constant flux.
Haha! Yeah, i guess it kind of does make me seem like him.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 09, 2013, 03:41:00 AM
Oh and also, even though I responded to the post already i have more to add. if one can't be a man because of certain behaviors, well I guess i'm not one and T is a horrible mistake. But oh wait. I might be a bit feminine for a guy but I was masculine for a woman so oopsy daisy i guess I'm not a woman either. Actually one of my good friends who was briefly a girlfriend told me that I am the most gender neutral man she's ever met, in terms of expression anyway because i am binary in terms of my transition itself.
Actually I think you're just perfect Caleb. You listen most of the time. When you don't you soon realize that, Holy Cow! Keaira was right. When I pour my heart out, you listen. You're sweet too and you always put a smile on my face when I see you. And yet you can just as gross and as bad as both of your brothers. You're also not afraid to share your feelings either. And you're very smart. I can play video games with you and we tease each other like it was when I was with my college buddies.
So what if you're not the most masculine guy in the world. the mix of both male and female qualities you have is a really nice balance. So don't worry and embrace them. Enjoy being you because no one else can do it better. :)
P.S. I cleared up your bad spelling. :P I care ;)
^ Keaira sounds like an awesome friend.
Speaking of awesome friends, I was pissed at Cindy James earlier for no good reason, but now she's helping me anyway. Love her.
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 09, 2013, 05:53:11 AM
^ Keaira sounds like an awesome friend.
Speaking of awesome friends, I was pissed at Cindy James earlier for no good reason, but now she's helping me anyway. Love her.
Yes, sounds like you have one there too. ;)
But yea, I'm not usually into guys but Caleb I would date. ;)
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 09, 2013, 05:53:11 AM
^ Keaira sounds like an awesome friend.
Speaking of awesome friends, I was pissed at Cindy James earlier for no good reason, but now she's helping me anyway. Love her.
That's because friends help friends, and if they don't, then they are not friends. And you know your friends when you are you feel like ->-bleeped-<- and they love you anyway.
Thank you for being my friend.
Hugs Big Man
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on February 09, 2013, 06:19:02 AM
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 09, 2013, 05:53:11 AM
^ Keaira sounds like an awesome friend.
Speaking of awesome friends, I was pissed at Cindy James earlier for no good reason, but now she's helping me anyway. Love her.
That's because friends help friends, and if they don't, then they are not friends. And you know your friends when you are you feel like ->-bleeped-<- and they love you anyway.
Thank you for being my friend.
Hugs Big Man
Cindy
aww love you hon. <hugs>
Imagining what I'd look like in my cosplay.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 09, 2013, 08:44:56 AM
I'm also going to be snooty and say I don't like strangers around my critters, because it stresses them out even when the people aren't dumb about it, which they inevitably are.
So they're... sheepish? :P
My mom sent me an email titled "I miss this guy's hair" and inside were pictures of me when I had my hair buzzed short... I have no idea how I'm supposed to respond to this (the rest of my family and my friends all seem to agree that they like my new hair).
Quote from: Caleb. on February 09, 2013, 03:41:00 AM
What a lot of gay men don't even like anal sex and don't have it.
Oh and also, even though I responded to the post alreadyt i have more to add. if one can't be a man because of certain behaviours, well I guess i'm not one and T is a horrible mistake. But oh wait. I might be a bit feminine for a guy but I was masculine for a woman so opposy daisy i guess I'm not a woman either. Actually one of my good friends who was brielfy a girlfriend told me that I am the most gender neutral man she's ever met, in terms of respression anyway because i am binary in terms of my transition itself.
>.> I was like "not everyone does that" and the response was "Yes, they do."
Gender neutral is good. :P It's about where I am in terms of roles and that might be what's throwing them for a loop. I did what I want when I wanted. It didn't matter if it was masculine or feminine [or considered such]. Well, until high school when they only way I could get guys to date me was by being feminine out the wazoo.
Quote from: Felix on February 09, 2013, 01:59:17 AM
Aaron I'm sorry they're hassling you so much. If I were you I'd give up on fighting them and just wait until you're out on your own. My gosh if I had to depend on other people's permission to do things I'd have seven kids and live as a woman and go to church all the time and live off of fried chicken and hush puppies. I'd never have had a real job and I certainly wouldn't be on testosterone.
Also, anal sex? Really? If that's not a mandatory part of parenting or childhood for cis and straight kids there's no reason it should be leverage in any argument with you. I wish it were possible for you to be somehow distanced enough to laugh when people bring up that kind of stuff.
I'm hoping to have some sort of job soon where I can get out on my own comfortably, preferably in a place where I have friends who can support should I lose my job over being trans* [San Antonio happens to not have protections for trans* people and they can fire you over it.]
They can't seem to grasp that not everyone behaves that way. "But if you love someone you'll do anything for them." Sorry, but no. I'm not going to have sex because someone loves me and wants it, and if I love them. I've done that and it made me a rather hateful person. If I laugh at anything like that, they get mad. My mom's always been like that, though. -.-;
Quote from: Caleb. on February 08, 2013, 11:58:19 PM
It'll be OK, Aaron. It's not about you. A lot of how people respond is based on how they feel...if you were super masculine as a kid they'd probably still say there were no signs. Or if they acknowledged it, they'd say you didn't try hard enough to be a girl or something. They're just trying to find ways because it's transitioning itself they have an issue with, not any part of you.
They can have an issue with transitioning all they want. I'm still doing it. They just need to bugger off and not be talking to me about it at the most inopportune of moments. It's adding more stress already onto of an already stressful life.
@.< It's not like I bring up the conversations. They do it and it annoys me because I know their position and I personally don't want to deal with it at midnight or even at a 9 at night as I'm tried by then.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 09, 2013, 10:30:19 AM"But if you love someone you'll do anything for them."
That is highly unhealthy.
I feel lonely. :(
On the subject of gender roles, the lead singer of a metal band I listen to has a stage name that translates to The Last Unicorn.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 09, 2013, 10:30:19 AM
"But if you love someone you'll do anything for them."
Nope. I'm not going to become an axe murderer for somebody I love...
Quote from: Edge on February 09, 2013, 10:42:54 AM
That is highly unhealthy.
I feel lonely. :(
That's what I thought!
-hugs- =( I'm sorry you're lonely.
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 09, 2013, 10:47:13 AM
Nope. I'm not going to become an axe murderer for somebody I love...
xD Hahah, yes. I'm in the same boat.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 09, 2013, 10:48:47 AM-hugs- =( I'm sorry you're lonely.
*hugs back* Thanks. I've got Sam and Dean Winchester to keep me company though. :D No wait... I finished the last dvd I had. Gorrammit!
Quote from: Edge on February 09, 2013, 10:57:38 AM
*hugs back* Thanks. I've got Sam and Dean Winchester to keep me company though. :D No wait... I finished the last dvd I had. Gorrammit!
Netflix. ;)
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 09, 2013, 10:47:13 AM
Nope. I'm not going to become an axe murderer for somebody I love...
I bet every axe murderer in history said the same thing...
People do strange, lovely, horrible things for love. It can push aside all reason and sanity in its wake.
I don't know. Anyone that wants me to kill for no good reason isn't the type of person I should be loving. ???
Then again, everyone loves the bad boy/girl. :laugh:
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 09, 2013, 11:09:42 AMAah good post, my two favorite shows ;D :P
You too? What other shows do you like?
Quote from: DianaP on February 09, 2013, 11:04:37 AMThen again, everyone loves the bad boy/girl. :laugh:
That's a little too bad though. At least outside of fiction. I read something recently about why popular fictional characters would be really bad boyfriends. (Interestingly, both Sam and Dean were on the list as was Loki and many other people.)
Quote from: Edge on February 09, 2013, 11:11:28 AM
That's a little too bad though. At least outside of fiction. I read something recently about why popular fictional characters would be really bad boyfriends. (Interestingly, both Sam and Dean were on the list as was Loki and many other people.)
I'm not at all surprised that Dean and Sam and Loki made that list. Sam is comes across as a brutal, yet clingy, sociopath and Dean has some issues that he seriously needs to work out including being a serial womanizer and his father. Loki is trying to kill the human race/enslave the human race and that's not exactly a good quality in a man. :P
Oh well. I'll still fantasize about Loki and Dean [I can't fantasize about Sam because he's so damn emo.]
Quote from: Edge on February 09, 2013, 11:11:28 AM
That's a little too bad though.
It was a joke. *Chirp* *Chirp* :-X
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 09, 2013, 11:03:03 AM
I bet every axe murderer in history said the same thing...
People do strange, lovely, horrible things for love. It can push aside all reason and sanity in its wake.
True, but...
Quote from: DianaP on February 09, 2013, 11:04:37 AM
I don't know. Anyone that wants me to kill for no good reason isn't the type of person I should be loving. ???
I would like to think that most people agree with this. I know I do.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 09, 2013, 11:15:35 AMSam is comes across as a brutal, yet clingy, sociopath
And everyone he loves dies.
Why doesn't my hair stylist have a bowl and brush? That's my thought.
Yay the power is back on!
Quote from: Malachite on February 09, 2013, 08:29:06 PM
Yay the power is back on!
I'm thinking that's pretty great! Now let's hope that blizzard I hear is planning an attack on the Midwest doesn't affect any of us out in that area too badly or decided to dump another boatload of snow on our heads over here :P
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 09, 2013, 09:47:27 PM
I'm thinking that's pretty great! Now let's hope that blizzard I hear is planning an attack on the Midwest doesn't affect any of us out in that area too badly or decided to dump another boatload of snow on our heads over here :P
It is! Even after the electrician changed everything, our power still wasn't working and plugins started to pop like jiffy pop. Come to find out it was a squirll chewing on the wire.
I'm thinking that I hope those in the Midwest stay safe.
Yay for power!
Sherbert, my betta, got an awesome new tank buddy. :) It's a snail that currently has no name. XD [Gary is not an option.]
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 09, 2013, 10:26:16 PM
Yay for power!
Sherbert, my betta, got an awesome new tank buddy. :) It's a snail that currently has no name. XD [Gary is not an option.]
How about "Snaily"?
You could call it "Lefty" since snails only have one foot.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 09, 2013, 10:59:40 PM
You could call it "Lefty" since snails only have one foot.
XD That's cute. <3 I just can't decide what I want to name him. XD He's a Black Mystery Snail and is currently hanging on the side of the tank and pissing the betta off. >.>
Or Pat, cause, well, you know...
or Swifty!
Apparently, I was pretty hungry. Ending up eating 6 sloppy joes, could have likely eaten the other two, but figured they'd be an easy lunch tomorrow or a snack maybe.
You okay?
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Yep yep,was just what i was thinking at that moment lol *was* having a bad time but just as the sun always rises yes?
Quote from: Malachite on February 09, 2013, 11:34:44 PM
or Swifty!
That gave me an idea...I like Speed Racer. :P
How 'bout Schwarze Geist the Mysterious?
Quote from: V M on February 10, 2013, 12:44:45 AM
How 'bout Schwarze Geist the Mysterious?
XD <3 He got Speed Racer though. :P
>.> I'm thinking I'm hungry.
I'm thinking I want to move someplace far away right now.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 09, 2013, 11:38:34 PM
Apparently, I was pretty hungry. Ending up eating 6 sloppy joes, could have likely eaten the other two, but figured they'd be an easy lunch tomorrow or a snack maybe.
No fair. I'd gain weight if I even looked at a sloppy joe (not that I would). And, and look at you!!! The world is unjust I tell ya. Unjust! :laugh:
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 10, 2013, 11:02:09 AM
>.> I'm thinking I'm hungry.
This reminds me that I need to go to the grocery store today if I want to keep eating food this week...
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 10, 2013, 11:18:12 AM
No fair. I'd gain weight if I even looked at a sloppy joe (not that I would). And, and look at you!!! The world is unjust I tell ya. Unjust! :laugh:
well, trust me, its no fun being able to pretty much eat a horse without gaining weight either. I have to eat quite a bit just to maintain my weight or it starts going down again.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 09, 2013, 10:26:16 PM
Yay for power!
Sherbert, my betta, got an awesome new tank buddy. :) It's a snail that currently has no name. XD [Gary is not an option.]
How about Brian?
http://m.guardiannews.com/society/2011/may/13/brian-the-snail-london-marathon (http://m.guardiannews.com/society/2011/may/13/brian-the-snail-london-marathon)
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 10, 2013, 11:25:18 AM
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 10, 2013, 11:18:12 AM
No fair. I'd gain weight if I even looked at a sloppy joe (not that I would). And, and look at you!!! The world is unjust I tell ya. Unjust! :laugh:
well, trust me, its no fun being able to pretty much eat a horse without gaining weight either. I have to eat quite a bit just to maintain my weight or it starts going down again.
Must be eating well then, cause you got a great figure there. :-*
Thanks, I know I don't eat right because vegetables just aren't appealing to me, but I make sure to eat a fair bit of protein and lots of carbs to keep weight.
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 10, 2013, 11:18:12 AM
No fair. I'd gain weight if I even looked at a sloppy joe (not that I would). And, and look at you!!! The world is unjust I tell ya. Unjust! :laugh:
Agreed! I gain weight just thinking about a sloppy joe.
My itunes is the most messed up thing ever. Lol.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 10, 2013, 06:05:09 PM
My itunes is the most messed up thing ever. Lol.
Hahahaha. Itunes. Paying for music. Haha. :P
Quote from: Malachite on February 10, 2013, 02:30:40 PM
Agreed! I gain weight just thinking about a sloppy joe.
I would gain weight eating a sloppy joe. How much? Well, how much did it weigh? :P
Quote from: Caleb. on February 10, 2013, 06:05:09 PM
My itunes is the most messed up thing ever. Lol.
I forgot about itunes... I had trouble finding a music player I liked, so instead I wrote my own! :D
Every time a sloppy joe is made, I gain weight. Damn you, cruel world!
Speaking of which, one week into my gluten-free dairy-free nut-free low cholesterol red meat-free (except on occasions) diet. I hate this with a burning passion. Weight loss so far: Pfffft, yeah right.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 10, 2013, 08:17:38 PM
Speaking of which, one week into my gluten-free dairy-free nut-free low cholesterol red meat-free (except on occasions) diet. I hate this with a burning passion. Weight loss so far: Pfffft, yeah right.
Dude, is there anything you do eat?! :o
Also, I just realized that by the next election, I'm going to be the ultimate demographic combination that the republicans will try to will over: Young, single, childless, Hispanic, bisexual, transgender, female.
Quote from: DianaP on February 10, 2013, 08:34:33 PM
Dude, is there anything you do eat?! :o
...Kind of? Breakfast: Egg whites with turkey bacon (never again, would rather gain the weight thinking about bacon). Lunch: Lolnope. Dinner: Egg whites with a yam. Dessert: One square of bittersweet dark chocolate (only junk food I can have). 130 calories of pain as my diet jumps off a cliff. I think I burned off pretty much everything with the sheer back-breaking amount of laundry I did today. Must have been at least three months since our last laundry day for that much clothing to need washing, especially with my practice of turning shirt inside out = brand new clean shirt :P
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Also, I just realized that by the next election, I'm going to be the ultimate demographic combination that the republicans will try to will over: Young, single, childless, Hispanic, bisexual, transgender, female.
Dear cthulhu that's priceless :laugh:
I was looking at the birthday post I made a year ago and thought about what I have done to further my transition since.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 10, 2013, 09:18:32 PM
...Kind of? Breakfast: Egg whites with turkey bacon (never again, would rather gain the weight thinking about bacon). Lunch: Lolnope. Dinner: Egg whites with a yam. Dessert: One square of bittersweet dark chocolate (only junk food I can have). 130 calories of pain as my diet jumps off a cliff. I think I burned off pretty much everything with the sheer back-breaking amount of laundry I did today. Must have been at least three months since our last laundry day for that much clothing to need washing, especially with my practice of turning shirt inside out = brand new clean shirt
Boy, stop starving yourself. Plus, I like your practice. :laugh:
Quote from: DianaP on February 10, 2013, 09:21:59 PM
Boy, stop starving yourself. Plus, I like your practice. :laugh:
Please, this is nothing. Starving myself is when I was going through a kind of weird necromancy phase (no don't ask I really was that much of a nerd) and would be black fasting for certain...rituals. I'll leave it at that >_>
Then I was trying to be on a diet and decided the only way to lose weight was to consume nothing but water and exercise until I dropped into a dead faint from my hypoglycemic tendencies. Mind you, I gained weight.
And thank you :3 *bows*
I know I'm working too much when I come home, step on the scales to weigh myself and when I look down I say "oh, a dollar forty-two."
Man, that sucks...feel better, Liam. And no one needs to know that you do on Tuesday :3
Things do indeed sound crazy at the coast. What a workday you must have!
I just watched the 1970 video of a whale being blown up.
Now I am watching a transman on Youtube talk about his obesity issues. Finally a guy on there I can somewhat relate to.
I had an issue with my shot last week and lost over half the oil from the injection site...so my T is probably really low (getting period like cramps too, ugh). Tried to do a half dose tonight to tide me over til next time and lo and behold, I hit a vein. That did it for me, since I had family issues today and was misgendered. Broke down and stuff.
Fortunately Keairaface was there and she basically had to tell me I turn into a wreck every time my T is too low and that it needs to stop, lmao. Somehow that put it into perspective for me...I guess knowing that having low T makes dysphoria and things go sky high, reassures me that it will end when I get the hormones sorted out.
I'm lucky to have her around. She understands that it hurts but she also knows sometimes I need to be brought back down to earth to be OK.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 11, 2013, 03:45:58 AM
I had an issue with my shot last week and lost over half the oil from the injection site...so my T is probably really low (getting period like cramps too, ugh). Tried to do a half dose tonight to tide me over til next time and lo and behold, I hit a vein. That did it for me, since I had family issues today and was misgendered. Broke down and stuff.
Fortunately Keairaface was there and she basically had to tell me I turn into a wreck every time my T is too low and that it needs to stop, lmao. Somehow that put it into perspective for me...I guess knowing that having low T makes dysphoria and things go sky high, reassures me that it will end when I get the hormones sorted out.
I'm lucky to have her around. She understands that it hurts but she also knows sometimes I need to be brought back down to earth to be OK.
Just some tough love dear. TBH, I've not been taking my full daily dosage of Estrogen and spiro lately. My schedule is so messed up since I don't have a job to be at every day. But anyway, I'll always be here to pick you up and get you going again.
Quote from: Keaira on February 11, 2013, 04:49:32 AM
Quote from: Caleb. on February 11, 2013, 03:45:58 AM
I had an issue with my shot last week and lost over half the oil from the injection site...so my T is probably really low (getting period like cramps too, ugh). Tried to do a half dose tonight to tide me over til next time and lo and behold, I hit a vein. That did it for me, since I had family issues today and was misgendered. Broke down and stuff.
Fortunately Keairaface was there and she basically had to tell me I turn into a wreck every time my T is too low and that it needs to stop, lmao. Somehow that put it into perspective for me...I guess knowing that having low T makes dysphoria and things go sky high, reassures me that it will end when I get the hormones sorted out.
I'm lucky to have her around. She understands that it hurts but she also knows sometimes I need to be brought back down to earth to be OK.
Just some tough love dear. TBH, I've not been taking my full daily dosage of Estrogen and spiro lately. My schedule is so messed up since I don't have a job to be at every day. But anyway, I'll always be here to pick you up and get you going again.
I'm guilty of the same. I just held off taking my T shot for weeks. Too lazy really. I got out of the habit during my dope relapse. Oddly, it seems to have no effect on me. I can only tell it's probably low if I'm suddenly able to cry. Then, I'm like 'oh when was the last time I had my shot? A few weeks ago? A month ago?' :laugh:
It's amazing how fast pectoral muscles can disappear. When you stop doing upper body workouts. And start taking estrogen. :)
Bought a sparkly new LBD and trying to decide where I can wear it to first! ;D
x
I need a more androgynous haircut. >.>
And...my dragon trees have sprouted! :D I've got two tiny saplings! They're maybe an inch high right now, but the trees can grow upwards of 12 feet a year if I'm lucky!
So much schoolwork to do. >.>
Quote from: Malachite on February 11, 2013, 01:09:52 PM
So much schoolwork to do. >.>
I feel ya brother. I've been procrastinating listening to Eazy E. :laugh:
Aaaand my dog just puked all over my bedroom carpet.
Time for herbal tea and a walk by the river with a friend.
I may have accidentally outed myself today. We were playing European handball, and each class split into 3 different teams: girls, boys, and "aggressive," a co-ed team made of the most aggressive players.
Well, I was watching the girls play, and they were WALKING and couldn't even score a goal because they threw so dang softly. I yelled, "C'mon, ladies, you're giving us a bad name!"
Anywho, everyone laughed, so I'm sure they didn't take it seriously. I maintain cover pretty well. I'd say that trans people could make the best actors... or spies. :icon_suspicious:
Quote from: DianaP on February 11, 2013, 05:15:55 PM
I may have accidentally outed myself today.
You seem to do that a lot :P
It's been over a day since I've put nicotine in me and I'm feeling pretty bat->-bleeped-<- insane.
What's so bad about DVTs and pulmonary embolisms again?
HRT is way cooler than smoking. But quitting smoking is brutal.
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 11, 2013, 05:19:28 PM
You seem to do that a lot :P
No, I actually only did it once. No one took my statement seriously. That sentence is what people in the literature world would call a clincher sentence. Got your attention, didn't I? :P
Quote from: encircle me on February 11, 2013, 05:20:19 PM
HRT is way cooler than smoking. But quitting smoking is brutal.
Um...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ftupeusa.com%2FPics%2Fhealthy%2520vs.%2520cancerous%2520lung.jpg&hash=057669ddb29f77287319fa85a03fa192c3caff25)
Feel better about your decision? ???
Quote from: encircle me on February 11, 2013, 05:20:19 PM
It's been over a day since I've put nicotine in me and I'm feeling pretty bat->-bleeped-<- insane.
What's so bad about DVTs and pulmonary embolisms again?
HRT is way cooler than smoking. But quitting smoking is brutal.
Good luck! Smoking can be hell to quit.
I'm currently on my second day of no caffeine. I've gone from 4 or 5 cokes a day to none. >.>; I'm going nuts.
Quote from: DianaP on February 11, 2013, 05:22:20 PM
No, I actually only did it once. No one took my statement seriously. That sentence is what people in the literature world would call a clincher sentence. Got your attention, didn't I? :P
Yes, it definitely worked. But between this, your post about tutoring girls looking at pretty dresses, and your youtube...incident you do seem to be coming close to outing yourself fairly often.
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 11, 2013, 05:28:59 PM
Yes, it definitely worked. But between this, your post about tutoring girls looking at pretty dresses, and your youtube...incident you do seem to be coming close to outing yourself fairly often.
I guess I exaggerate the severity of the situation often. The youtube incident was the only time I ever came close to actually having everyone know. I denied being trans, and everyone believed me. The other two incidents ended with everyone, myself included, laughing. Thus, I'm pretty sure they assumed I was joking. Or was I? Spy! :icon_suspicious:
Hmm...sometimes it does seem like we're a bunch of gender ninjas.
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 11, 2013, 03:33:57 PM
I feel ya brother. I've been procrastinating listening to Eazy E. :laugh:
No kidding man. It was my intention to start my schoolwork around 9 am and it's 6:3 pm now. I haven't done anything productive in that area.
Quote from: DianaP on February 11, 2013, 05:33:09 PM
I guess I exaggerate the severity of the situation often. The youtube incident was the only time I ever came close to actually having everyone know. I denied being trans, and everyone believed me. The other two incidents ended with everyone, myself included, laughing. Thus, I'm pretty sure they assumed I was joking. Or was I? Spy! :icon_suspicious:
Well, keep spying on the cis-girls. I expect a report on my desk at the end of the week! :P
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 11, 2013, 05:37:22 PM
Well, keep spying on the cis-girls. I expect a report on my desk at the end of the week! :P
No problem, Mac! I'll bake those biscuits of them ankle-biters before you can say Daddy-O.
Well, I have the 1950s slang down, so all I need is a trench coat and a top hat... :icon_suspicious:
Quote from: Malachite on February 11, 2013, 05:35:05 PM
No kidding man. It was my intention to start my schoolwork around 9 am and it's 6:3 pm now. I haven't done anything productive in that area.
I always did the same thing. :P School work's just so easy to procrastinate on. xD
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 11, 2013, 05:44:14 PM
I always did the same thing. :P School work's just so easy to procrastinate on. xD
Ew, homework. I don't like it. Just teach me what I need to know in class and let me get on with my life! :-\
Quote from: DianaP on February 11, 2013, 05:45:30 PM
Ew, homework. I don't like it. Just teach me what I need to know in class and let me get on with my life! :-\
The best thing about being done with school is the lack of homework. I can come home and do whatever I feel like! Plus, occasionally I get paid to go to California.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 11, 2013, 06:27:19 PM
The down side is that I dropped my phone in the river and it's...dead. Lmao. So I'm going to just go buy myself a little dumb phone from 7/11. Hopefully the SIM card still works, or I will have to have a new telephone number as well. Maybe we should stop somewhere for dinner too.
Did you try putting your dead phone in rice?
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 11, 2013, 05:44:14 PM
I always did the same thing. :P School work's just so easy to procrastinate on. xD
7:32 and still no work completed. >:-)
Quote from: Malachite on February 11, 2013, 05:35:05 PM
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 11, 2013, 03:33:57 PM
I feel ya brother. I've been procrastinating listening to Eazy E. :laugh:
No kidding man. It was my intention to start my schoolwork around 9 am and it's 6:3 pm now. I haven't done anything productive in that area.
Yep. It's now 7:42 pm here and still no productivity. :laugh: What music are you procrastinating to?
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 11, 2013, 06:43:40 PM
No kidding man. It was my intention to start my schoolwork around 9 am and it's 6:3 pm now. I haven't done anything productive in that area.
Yep. It's now 7:42 pm here and still no productivity. :laugh: What music are you procrastinating to?
Should be doing homework. Am I? Nah.
Music? Lost Cause by Imagine Dragons. Heard it was in Frankenweenie or something, which I plan to see at some point. Procrastinators unite! ...Tomorrow.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 11, 2013, 06:27:19 PM
I've had a few times where I've been really high anxiety and needed to quit caffeine to help. Actually, now is one of those times. I find the best thing to do, for me, is to cut out the Cokes and energy drinks, but to replace them for a while with some caffeinated tea just in the morning, for that initial jolt. But none throughout the day. That makes the transition easier...then I move to decaffeinated and herbal teas so caffeine is gone. The only reason I start drinking caffeine any time after that is because I choose to, because I think it's safe to enjoy them because the anxiety has gone down.
I have to quit because my body relies heavily on the stuff to function. If I don't get a coke, I can't think about anything else and I get migraines from hell. I'm trying to remove caffeine as much as possible, which means for the last two days I've had none. :P It's getting better as time goes by, but I still want a damn coke. -.-;
@ Malachite: :P Did the same thing. I'd wait until about an hour before it was due a lot of the time. XD
My friend is taking dance class for PE in my school. He did the same thing I did: Blast "Footloose" on the boombox and got funky! ;D
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 10, 2013, 11:04:32 PM
I'm sick now and disoriented. I'm vacillating between I hope this goes away, and I hope this lasts until Tuesday so I can miss class. My face hurts.
I keep waking up and forgetting who I am and then being disappointed. I sound like Trace Adkins.
I've been thinking about perspective. My problems have no credibility beyond Susanland. I don't require sympathy but it's bizarre to function in a world in which my very real practical issues are an ethereal, mystical being that, if they aren't in my head, certainly belong in my head. I keep 'em there anyway. I wrote a piece of it down for my shrink, who was very empathetic about it, and my reaction was whoa, really? whether that surprise was over me actually believing him or him actually believing me.
I'm very good at dissociating. I turn it on at will. Nothing gets through. I'm not sure where the off switch is.
Be careful with yourself Liam.
I could stare at Keaira's signature all night.
I have the feeling there should be more time on my ticker than I've got. I should fix that or at least change it. That's how long I've admitted the situation to myself...anyway, I'm oscillating back and forth between possibly losing someone I love because of a fundamental difference. He's the light contrasting my dark, and I'm the dark to his life, but at my center I'm a dark soul and every ounce of pain from love and loss makes it grow darker still.
I'm afraid of turning into my father.
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 11, 2013, 06:43:40 PM
No kidding man. It was my intention to start my schoolwork around 9 am and it's 6:3 pm now. I haven't done anything productive in that area.
Yep. It's now 7:42 pm here and still no productivity. :laugh: What music are you procrastinating to?
RIght now I have me some Motley Crue (Wild Side) playing in the background.
It's 9:45 pm and I'm realizing that I should at least do one school assignment tonight.
I'm also thinking about how my sister gave me .25 cents but it dropped in the couch so when I went to retrieve it, I also found a dime and a penny. All three coins are going into my top surgery fund. :D
Now I'm thinking about reposting my top surgery fund again like I did in the past. It was a nice little motivator for me.
I wonder if in ten years I will look back at myself and feel the same way I do when I look back at stuff from ten years ago currently.
I also put this on my ipod. I have issues.
Bon Qui Qui "I'M A CUT YOU" - Anjelah Johnson (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-KdXdfmWa0#)
Irritated that I paid seven dollars for a calendar instead of waiting for the inevitable fundraising-attempt freebie. Also second-guessing myself because I'm happy and being productive tonight but I slept like 2 hours in the day and another 3 hours in the late evening and that can't possibly be enough. Lol I have no sense.
Also I don't think I was really thinking until I started thinking about what I might be thinking.
I'm thinking some rather peculiar thoughts about some rather odd thoughts that I was having about some rather strange ideas that I was thinking about in weird dream I had last night
Quote from: V M on February 12, 2013, 05:07:58 AM
I'm thinking some rather peculiar thoughts about some rather odd thoughts that I was having about some rather strange ideas that I was thinking about in weird dream I had last night
Care to divulge?
I once had an exhiliratingly-realistic dream where Robert Downey Jr and I were dry-humping a nuclear missile as it was flying through the sky, then we slid off as it went vertical and I narrowly avoided being hit by the X-Men's blackbird plane as I plummeted through the clouds...
I was at my grans earlier that day, so she must have slipped something pyschotropic into her soup!
I am thinking that I am getting addicted to the forum :P
I am also happy that the forum has helped me work through my issues and I feel like I am reaching a resolution :)
I have a skype call with a coworker in 15 minutes. I've decided to be sneaky and take it half crossdressed (by changing into a male shirt). I love working from home!
Quote from: encircle me on February 11, 2013, 05:20:19 PM
HRT is way cooler than smoking. But quitting smoking is brutal.
Yes, but here's the good you can expect over the next 15 years (somebody posted this to graphjam earlier today):
(https://i.chzbgr.com/maxW500/7056147200/h9E88B02F/)
I'm about worn out after chasing the dog all over the house. Little bugger can really run.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 12, 2013, 12:19:12 PM
I'm about worn out after chasing the dog all over the house. Little bugger can really run.
They're good exercise. xD
I finally have a list of all of my pets. :3
My snail is Speed Racer and my betta is Sherbert. There's Cherry the rabbit and Harley Quinn the dog. The hermit crabs are: Lupin, Tonks, Norbert, Harry, Cedric (no longer with us, he passed on the trip to Texas), Ron, Professor X, Fred, George, Horus, Viktor, Anubis, Spunky, Citizen Snips [formerly Katniss and no longer with us], and Zoidberg [formerly Peeta].
Are they really hermit crabs if they live with other crabs? :-\
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 12, 2013, 01:46:11 PM
Are they really hermit crabs if they live with other crabs? :-\
The name is a misnomer. Hermit crabs are far from hermit-like. You have to keep at least two crabs together because they're social creatures. If you keep only one, it's cruelty. It's also cruelty to keep them in those plastic tanks you get at stores and to put pebbles in the tank. People often take poor care of their hermit crabs because they don't either don't realize that the stuff that the kiosks and stores like Surf Shop sell you is actually bad for the crabs or they view them as a throw away pet that only lives a couple of months [they can live upwards of 30 years if cared for properly]/
/rant
Sorry! I just get going in regards to hermit crabs. XD
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 12, 2013, 01:52:50 PM
The name is a misnomer. Hermit crabs are far from hermit-like. You have to keep at least two crabs together because they're social creatures. If you keep only one, it's cruelty. It's also cruelty to keep them in those plastic tanks you get at stores and to put pebbles in the tank. People often take poor care of their hermit crabs because they don't either don't realize that the stuff that the kiosks and stores like Surf Shop sell you is actually bad for the crabs or they view them as a throw away pet that only lives a couple of months [they can live upwards of 30 years if cared for properly]/
/rant
Sorry! I just get going in regards to hermit crabs. XD
I know, I'm just crazy. We have a lot of fiddler crabs here, they're pretty neat, kind of like a crab version of hellboy.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 12, 2013, 01:59:31 PM
I know, I'm just crazy. We have a lot of fiddler crabs here, they're pretty neat, kind of like a crab version of hellboy.
o.o I want a fiddler crab! I think they're really cool. ^^
I just did not give a crap today.
I don't usually dress up super fancy since I'm self-conscious, but I wear something decent...today though, I just threw on a binder, big black hoodie, and jeans, shoved a bunch of crap in my backpack hoping to God I had everything and headed out. I also had the mindset that I wasn't out to impress anyone. Oddly enough I felt a lot better for it. I've had a lot of anxiety lately, for reasons I can't entirely explain, but it felt like I just sort of threw away that entire mindset for once.
I also forgot quizzes at home, so when the class ended, I BOLTED before students could approach me. Lol. Saw my friend afterwards and she said "you really are a guy. You are so full of s*. And somehow you manage to get away with it too."
When I think about it, basically my entire life I have gotten away with things that girls can't but guys can. Even when I was trying to be the perfect little girl, there were a lot of days I just threw on something random and baggy, no makeup, no hair done, pretty much a hot mess and never got a hassle for it. It was only when people thought I was a lesbian that it came back to haunt me. And I do get away with a lot of BS...again, something all the guys around me do a lot but the girls don't because they would get hassled.
Not that you have to be a guy to do any of the things I just described. I just noticed that considering how much crap I do I got away relatively unscathed.
I'm thinking amourous thoughts.
I'm thinking things are going to work out alright, eventually.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 12, 2013, 05:25:28 PM
I'm thinking things are going to work out alright, eventually.
Good :).
Gotta call Six Flags tomorrow to schedule an interview. ^_^
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 12, 2013, 05:48:33 PM
Gotta call Six Flags tomorrow to schedule an interview. ^_^
Get any response from Washington State so far?
I don't like it when people disregard what I have to say due to my age. I was talking about how you don't need a credit card to build a good credit score, and everyone scoffed at me simply because a 40-year-old English teacher said she disagreed with me. Guess what, everybody, my ECONOMICS teacher with a degree in ECONOMICS agrees with me. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 12, 2013, 06:05:57 PM
I don't like it when people disregard what I have to say due to my age.
Yeah, I have met a lot of older people who, honestly, I am amazed are even alive at this point due to their lack of thinking.
I cannot WAAAAAIT to have this house to myself this weekend.
Diana's right, you don't need a credit card to build a credit rating.
Don't be rude to Diana, she may be the EMT that responds when you're having a heart attack! >:-)
Quote from: Shantel on February 12, 2013, 05:50:30 PM
Get any response from Washington State so far?
No, not yet. I'd love for that job because I need to get the hell out of my parents' house. My mom is pitching a fit because I don't want to teach. I talked to her about this in October/November and she said "Oh, it's not a waste of time or money. I'm not upset because you learned you didn't want to do something." Now she's yelling that she's "angry" and feels "short-changed" because I don't want to teach. I'm so ->-bleeped-<-ing pissed off right now and upset and a general mess. If I had money, I would have gone to a hotel for the night.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 12, 2013, 06:15:22 PM
No, not yet. I'd love for that job because I need to get the hell out of my parents' house. My mom is pitching a fit because I don't want to teach. I talked to her about this in October/November and she said "Oh, it's not a waste of time or money. I'm not upset because you learned you didn't want to do something." Now she's yelling that she's "angry" and feels "short-changed" because I don't want to teach. I'm so ->-bleeped-<-ing pissed off right now and upset and a general mess. If I had money, I would have gone to a hotel for the night.
Come to think of it I was meaning to ask you how they were about the letter? You can pm me if that's uncomfortable for you.
Quote from: Shantel on February 12, 2013, 06:17:52 PM
Come to think of it I was meaning to ask you how they were about the letter? You can pm me if that's uncomfortable for you.
They said they were okay and they asked to keep it. There wasn't much other indications to go off of and I'm not inclined to ask in the near future. >.>; I'm much more inclined to stay up in my room and only come out when my mom's not around.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 12, 2013, 06:19:25 PM
They said they were okay and they asked to keep it. There wasn't much other indications to go off of and I'm not inclined to ask in the near future. >.>; I'm much more inclined to stay up in my room and only come out when my mom's not around.
Ok honey good luck then! My gut feeling is that it was something they had been expecting all along, your letter was just a confirmation.
Good job though, I'm proud of you!
Quote from: Shantel on February 12, 2013, 06:25:12 PM
Ok honey good luck then! My gut feeling is that it was something they had been expecting all along, your letter was just a confirmation.
Good job though, I'm proud of you!
Thanks. :) I wish they acted like it was something they had been expecting, but apparently not because I never reported any feelings of wishing to be the opposite sex as a kid, never showed discomfort in dressing rather femininely in high school, chased guys, etc. Ugh...But I can deal with that.
Now if I can get her to leave me the hell alone about my choice in job.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 12, 2013, 06:24:57 PM
My parents kept a very angry letter I wrote them as a teen. I found it like 5 years later in their safe box when I was snooping. My brother and I burned it ASAP. I still have no idea why they kept it...
o.O I don't know why they'd do that.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 12, 2013, 06:27:21 PM
Now if I can get her to leave me the hell alone about my choice in job.
Parents have to get past the idea that they can manipulate their kids into living the lives they want for them and finally realize that they are unique individuals and will do what
they decide
they want to do with their lives.
Quote from: Shantel on February 12, 2013, 06:36:51 PM
Parents have to get past the idea that they can manipulate their kids into living the lives they want for them and finally realize that they are unique individuals and will do what they decide they want to do with their lives.
I agree, but I doubt she'll ever leave me alone until I get a "real" job [i.e. a career job]. Right now I am applying to those jobs, but my degree is getting me nowhere in this city and I utterly refuse to teach. And if I mention applying to other jobs, she gets pissed off because I can't support myself fully on them [right now I just need something to fill the gap between the end of school and getting the job I want]. I am applying everywhere that I can to get some sort of income to help out. She can't grasp the idea and keeps insisting that I get my license to teach in TX and that I should teach [so many factors are going into why I don't want to teach, particularly why I don't want to teach in TX].
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 12, 2013, 06:39:47 PM
I agree, but I doubt she'll ever leave me alone until I get a "real" job [i.e. a career job]. Right now I am applying to those jobs, but my degree is getting me nowhere in this city and I utterly refuse to teach. And if I mention applying to other jobs, she gets pissed off because I can't support myself fully on them [right now I just need something to fill the gap between the end of school and getting the job I want]. I am applying everywhere that I can to get some sort of income to help out. She can't grasp the idea and keeps insisting that I get my license to teach in TX and that I should teach [so many factors are going into why I don't want to teach, particularly why I don't want to teach in TX].
Sounds like you're both beating a dead horse. You won't teach and she won't listen. Guess you are right in wanting to put some space between you both. Good luck Aaron!
God damn I'm a fatass. This entire bag of funyuns is almost gone.
My dad randomly came over and talked about how I felt he wasn't concerned with my mother's violent reactions. He said it's a serious thing (believe me, I know) and that it's stressful for the both of them and that my- well, my ex-boyfriend may have pushed me into it. Yeah, about that...you're going to tell me that because this boy leans towards homosexuality, he caused something years before I ever met him? That's a big freaking influence. ::)
He agreed that her behavior is inappropriate (you think?) and said she doesn't know any better. Then he went on to say he doesn't think I'm getting the right kind of help and would be happier if he heard it from someone skilled in these things that "this is what she needs and what's best for her".
Who is this "she" he was talking about? ???
Oh joy, string of swear words is coming out of the living room. I wonder who has done my mother a terrible injustice this time.
I'm looking foward to future improvements of bottom surgery, no matter how small they are. I was watching a video on Youtube that a guy made and he had his phalloplasty consultation and the doctor told him about the option to use bone fragments from the hand and incorporate it with his phallo.
Quote from: Malachite on February 12, 2013, 09:00:00 PM
I'm looking foward to future improvements of bottom surgery, no matter how small they are. I was watching a video on Youtube that a guy made and he had his phalloplasty consultation and the doctor told him about the option to use bone fragments from the hand and incorporate it with his phallo.
wow, talk about having a boner...
And I am actually cooking a real meal for a change. Gonna have a nice peppercorn and garlic tenderloin with some garlic smushed taters. No veggies though, I still can't stomach those things.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 12, 2013, 09:09:34 PM
wow, talk about having a boner...
LOL
Oh dear Cthulhu, my sides...they burn!
Quote from: Malachite on February 12, 2013, 09:00:00 PM
I'm looking foward to future improvements of bottom surgery, no matter how small they are. I was watching a video on Youtube that a guy made and he had his phalloplasty consultation and the doctor told him about the option to use bone fragments from the hand and incorporate it with his phallo.
Um, so they have to cut your hand open too? No! Plus, a penis never actually "gets hard", even when erect; it only gets engorged with blood via vasodilation. I don't like that phrase because it's biologically inaccurate. Heck, it would actually be easier to chop off an erect penis with a machete since it wouldn't squish as easily, giving you a better chop. It doesn't get harder, so bones would just make it feel creepy. :(
Quote from: DianaP on February 12, 2013, 09:19:42 PM
Um, so they have to cut your hand open too? No! Plus, a penis never actually "gets hard", even when erect; it only gets engorged with blood via vasodilation. I don't like that phrase because it's biologically inaccurate. Heck, it would actually be easier to chop off an erect penis with a machete since it wouldn't squish as easily, giving you a better chop. It doesn't get harder, so bones would just make it feel creepy. :(
For me, a boney penis is better than no penis.
Quote from: Malachite on February 12, 2013, 09:35:45 PM
For me, a boney penis is better than no penis.
I keep forgetting that as an MTF, I have a bias against penises. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 12, 2013, 09:19:42 PM
Heck, it would actually be easier to chop off an erect penis with a machete since it wouldn't squish as easily, giving you a better chop.
Well, mine is crying now (no not in a good way) :-\
My left breast has been sore for a week or so, maybe I'm getting a growth spurt. I could use a few, that's for sure.
Quote from: Shantel on February 12, 2013, 06:14:28 PM
Don't be rude to Diana, she may be the EMT that responds when you're having a heart attack! >:-)
I would never not perform my best on a patient. I would always try to save a life that can be saved, but I won't like it! >:(
Oh... I'm so threatening. *Sarcasm* ::)
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 12, 2013, 10:12:43 PM
My left breast has been sore for a week or so, maybe I'm getting a growth spurt. I could use a few, that's for sure.
I'd gladly give you all of mine :P
Came out to the UK part of my Family via email last monday but I've received no response so far, which is kind of upsetting as I honestly thought they'd be cool but now I'm starting to worry.
But then I've been in a general malaise this last week of feeling like carrying on with transition is a stupid idea and that it'll never work out/getting angry that I didn't get to start sooner. I keep seeing an old tired looking guy in the mirror and it's killing me.
So yeah, guess I just need to moan a bit.
Quote from: Rowan Rue on February 12, 2013, 10:29:28 PM
But then I've been in a general malaise this last week of feeling like carrying on with transition is a stupid idea and that it'll never work out/getting angry that I didn't get to start sooner. I keep seeing an old tired looking guy in the mirror and it's killing me.
So yeah, guess I just need to moan a bit.
You did mention though that you haven't been able to eat properly for a week. That's probably a big part of it, you won't feel your best or even look your best when you're not properly nourished. I think you'll feel better again when you can eat. *hugs*
FWIW, you look really great, you were having huge changes at only 2 months in (not ure where you're at now, I just remember the last pic I saw being 2 months on HRT).
Thanks Caleb. You're totally right, although knowing that I'll feel better in a few days doesn't do much right now, it's good to be reminded that this too shall pass.
I came out to my mom... I think. I think she still doesn't quite get the idea. I just... I just really hope I'm going in the right direction. I really hope that I'm on the road to happiness.
I thought that it was T that was making it harder to cry. But I think it's a bit more than that. I have probably zero T in me considering my last proper shot was...ages ago, probably like a month since I screwed the last two up so badly.
My emotions do feel more intense now, and I am more irritable/prone to anxiety, but I still struggle to cry in the same way. I'm cool with it though, I hated crying with a passion.
I caught a snag in my favorite stretch pants.
I shall punish myself by not wearing them for the next few hours.
My mattress really is deadly.
I could go for a sloppy joe or a philly cheesesteak about now.
I need to find more things to sell on Craigslist.
I just noticed there's a paper cup full of slugs sitting on the arm of the couch. Huh. Not sure what to think.
I'm thinking Eris must like me a lot.
I think I'm tapped out of positive emotions.
I put my created fighter in a com vs vom PRIDE match against Bob Sapp and my CAF won. I'm so proud of him! He's the man I always wanted to become. Though, I did get KOed by Bob twice afterwardsonce the controller went back into my hands lol.
I'm about to walk into a best buy in full girl mode by myself. I'm so scared! :icon_nervious:
Quote from: Heather on February 13, 2013, 11:55:38 AM
I'm about to walk into a best buy in full girl mode by myself. I'm so scared! :icon_nervious:
Good luck! I'm sure you'll be fine :)
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 13, 2013, 11:59:56 AM
Good luck! I'm sure you'll be fine :)
Thanks I survived! I'm just used to being out with other people when in girl mode. I was just nervous being by myself. Don't know how we'll I pass? But I have been called mam several times today. :eusa_dance:
My dog loves to fall asleep between my legs. It's cute and she is obviously warm and happy, yet she is old and tiny, so I fear rolling over and hurting her badly in the process.
I also think it's really cool that my friend still wants to go out and spend time with me even though we were seen as lesbians a few days ago and bashed. She's a straight cis girl, really no experience with anything like that, and yet she doesn't let it stop her.
I've been kind of thinking of coming out to all of my Facebook friends recently. (Which includes friends from pretty much my entire life... preschool, elementary school, middle school, high school, college, teachers and professors from all of those, and two different jobs, including my current one.)
I've really been feeling like the time is now, since I've pretty much reached the point where I know I'm going for it all, and there's pretty much no possibility of me changing my mind anymore, but it still feels like a big thing to get the timing right on, so I've just been thinking about what the right time might be. Whether I should wait until I've feminized a bit more, or just come out with it and get it over with. And I've been thinking about what the right way to word the whole thing will be, and a million other things.
Transition issues really have pretty much consumed my mind ever since I started HRT... so many things to think about what the right time is, so many people I need to tell, so many little personal joys and worries about everything, it's like I can't think of anything else at all right now.
Hoping these being a human guinea pig pays well enough so I can get my laser hair removal treatment.
I should really get started on my briefing paper.
Got a second interview at Six Flags on Sunday. @.<
I do my work in a timely, effective manner and always behave. However, when a degenerate in my class decided to turn a new leaf, everyone fawns over it. I never got so much as a word for doing what he's been doing for a week for years. Weird. ???
Quote from: DianaP on February 13, 2013, 04:14:50 PM
I do my work in a timely, effective manner and always behave. However, when a degenerate in my class decided to turn a new leaf, everyone fawns over it. I never got so much as a word for doing what he's been doing for a week for years. Weird. ???
Probably because they expect it of you? They don't expect him to behave properly so when it happens it's something new and awesome...It's kind of cruddy, though. The same thing appears to happen in many families, particularly those with more than one child.
We are both slightly tipsy and heading out for a walk along the river. ;D Fortunately, neither of us are extremely obnoxious, but we have become that trashy.
I just thought I saw my avatar wink at me... I think that means it's time to get off my computer and eat dinner.
I think I need a break from doing stuff. Too much effort ;D
English is a stupid language. Not only are there a ton of silent letters and strange spellings, but you park in a driveway, drive on a parkway, and have to pay to use a freeway... ???
On Elysium I don't have to try to write out a good roleplay with another uke. Thank you, gods. I seriously hate having to play a seme.
I want to have top surgery within the next 4 years. Lets see if I can make that happen! :)
Why do car dealership commercials tend to be cornier than most other corny commercials?
Quote from: V M on February 14, 2013, 12:35:08 AM
Why do car dealership commercials tend to be cornier than most other corny commercials?
I challenge anyone to find a car dealership commercial as great as this one from my area a few years ago.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=7b5CKSqlz60 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7b5CKSqlz60#)
LOL... That's hilarious Simon :laugh:
I'm thinking I should be asleep right now and I why does the Insomnia Monster have to bother me so often?
Some man keeps shoving his arm in front of my screen >:(
Quote from: Kayle Sky on February 13, 2013, 03:00:37 PM
Hoping these being a human guinea pig pays well enough so I can get my laser hair removal treatment.
I make a little extra money most months by participating in medical research and helping social scientists study class and mental illness and families and all that. It adds up. For me it's not reliable enough to budget with so it tends to end up going towards luxuries and quality of life stuff.
Got called in to take a career assessment test tommorrow
My dad is going to take me but I'll have to figure out a way to get back.
I went to bed around 11 last night, pretty early for me. Left a few conversations to do that, only to end up not being able to sleep and working on my thesis until 4 am. And being exhausted now that I have to go in anyway. -_-
Quote from: Felix on February 14, 2013, 09:58:49 AM
I make a little extra money most months by participating in medical research and helping social scientists study class and mental illness and families and all that. It adds up. For me it's not reliable enough to budget with so it tends to end up going towards luxuries and quality of life stuff.
Trying to see if I can donate eggs for the same reason. :P Though the fertility clinic here will pay up to 5000 a month to harvest eggs.
After looking at my facebook newsfeed briefly, I think I'm going to avoid it for a few days til the crap from today is far enough down the page that I won't see it anymore.
They showed two guys kissing on "Days of Our Lives" and my mom said "Eck. That's nasty. It's unnatural." Way to go, mom. Thank you for that. You're perfectly aware that the person sitting in the room with you identifies as male and has homosexual tendencies.
Then when I said, "Except it happens in the animal kingdom all of the time." she said "Shut up, [legal name]." She irks me so much.
Valentines Day is the day that people with love rub it in the faces of the lonely people. Or that's how it's seemed to me in the past. My day's been okay though, despite all that.
I love Mafia movies entirely too much.
Today is Valentines Day. I'm broke and completely unromantic (seriously, I'm probably a really bad bf in many ways). She loves me anyways.
Quote from: Simon on February 14, 2013, 02:08:48 PM
I love Mafia movies entirely too much.
Today is Valentines Day. I'm broke and completely unromantic (seriously, I'm probably a really bad bf in many ways). She loves me anyways.
Random question but did you ever get your Papa John's pizza?
I am thinking that I am bored as I am waiting in Caleb's office while he has a meeting. So I am thinking about what I will say if someone comes in and says that I am not in this department and I need to leave. I am also thinking that I may be sitting here for a very long time because he talks to the proffessor that supervises him for ages at a time.
Quote from: Malachite on February 14, 2013, 02:13:10 PM
Random question but did you ever get your Papa John's pizza?
Yeah, got it last week, why?
Quote from: Simon on February 14, 2013, 02:32:11 PM
Yeah, got it last week, why?
The instructions to redeem it were a little confusing. Did you have to create an account to use the promo code?
Quote from: Malachite on February 14, 2013, 02:51:30 PM
The instructions to redeem it were a little confusing. Did you have to create an account to use the promo code?
No idea. My gf used the code (her choice won) and she did it on mobile so not sure if she had to make an account. I'd ask her but she is in school right now.
Quote from: Simon on February 14, 2013, 02:55:14 PM
No idea. My gf used the code (her choice won) and she did it on mobile so not sure if she had to make an account. I'd ask her but she is in school right now.
Okie doke, my mother won on her end, though she doesn't know how to use the internet. If I have to make an account then I want it in my name. I just don't want them to disqualify me or anything when she shows up but if they look the accounts in my name.
I love American Gods by Neil Gaiman!
It's got Thoth in it. And Loki. And Anubis [-insert girlish squeal-]. I'm most of the way done with it and I'm dying! xD I love this book so much!
Augh, that sucks Aaron, on so many levels. I don't understand homophobic people at all. Like, why do they even give a crap if two guys want to kiss? It doesn't affect them at all.
Well, at least I'm done with page 1 of my briefing paper, only one more to go!
Quote from: Caleb. on February 14, 2013, 05:55:56 PM
Augh, that sucks Aaron, on so many levels. I don't understand homophobic people at all. Like, why do they even give a crap if two guys want to kiss? It doesn't affect them at all.
That's what I think! But she's not a 'homophobe' since she says she doesn't mind if someone's gay as long as they don't do anything in front of her. -.-; And then proceeds to make comments like the one stated earlier. I'm like "what are you going to do when I bring home a guy for the holidays after transitioning?"
Lol, oh yeah, the whole "I don't care if you're gay but don't shove it in my face" line. :P
I'm getting Valentine's Day dinner. ;D As soon as my friend is done getting dressed she's going to pick me up and we will be good to go. I have to admit, I am actually a little nervous about homophobia since, yeah, I can't really seem to pass and we've been called out twice this week already. We're "proximity Valentines." :) I have to say, although I don't care much one way or the other for V-Day, it's nice to just celebrate it anyway.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 14, 2013, 07:44:59 PM
Lol, oh yeah, the whole "I don't care if you're gay but don't shove it in my face" line. :P
My mom said that once, so I told her, "I appreciate that you gave birth to me, but don't shove it in my face all of the time." :P
I'm thinking I want my mom to stop putting my birth name before and after every sentence just to annoy me.
Also thinking violent thoughts of breaking someone's face for making me hurt myself by insistently asking to help with the laundry basket and calling me darling while doing it. I don't care that I'm short and you're tall and work in my building- I can deadlift that cart all by myself. I'm a big boy now, okay? Acting like I'm a little girl will make me injure my neck by snapping it up as I whip the cart from ground up the whole flight of stairs in one shot just to prove that I don't need your help. Even if I were really a cisgirl, you should know better >:(
Edit: Not that I'd do that. I'm really aggressive, but in control of how I channel that anger and hate the idea of ever hurting someone.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 14, 2013, 08:05:19 PM
Acting like I'm a little girl will make me injure my neck by snapping it up as I whip the cart from ground up the whole flight of stairs in one shot just to prove that I don't need your help. Even if I were really a cisgirl, you should know better >:(
I'm sorry to hear that someone belittled you, but he didn't hurt you, at least physically... ???
Watching Forbidden Planet alone for valentines day. One of the girls from work was sent a barbershop quartet. It was amazing! They came and sang twice! She was off site when they came the first time, so they sang for the rest of us and came back later to sing for her. I hope somebody loves me enough to know to embarrasses me this way someday.
I found a great groupon for laser hair removal. Can't wait to be beard free!
Quote from: DianaP on February 14, 2013, 08:11:52 PM
I'm sorry to hear that someone belittled you, but he didn't hurt you, at least physically... ???
Yeah, the injury is indirectly his fault because he wouldn't go away or even get out of my way after clearly offending me. Therefore it's all his fault :P
Quote from: Caleb. on February 14, 2013, 07:44:59 PM
Lol, oh yeah, the whole "I don't care if you're gay but don't shove it in my face" line. :P
I'm getting Valentine's Day dinner. ;D As soon as my friend is done getting dressed she's going to pick me up and we will be good to go. I have to admit, I am actually a little nervous about homophobia since, yeah, I can't really seem to pass and we've been called out twice this week already. We're "proximity Valentines." :) I have to say, although I don't care much one way or the other for V-Day, it's nice to just celebrate it anyway.
:P It's a silly line. >.>
Hahah, awesome. ^^ >.> I got spaghetti at home and a card from my parents. My dad even bought me flowers yesterday. I'm a sucker for flowers. :P Any guy I land in the future has to get me flowers. XD
@ Diana: XD I'm not brave enough to say something like that to my mom.
@ Liminal: Sue him! j/k. XD But that dude was a prick. -.-;
I'm thinking about when I came out to my sister and asked her if she remembered the convo we had in the 5th grade when I told her that I wish I was a boy and that I'm going to get surgery to be a boy. She said she doesn't remember. It's been over 10 years so she probably doesn't remember that phone convo and I don't expect her to but there's a little part of me that wonders if she really does remember (if she thought about it hard enough at least) but doesn't want to give me any "ammo" for my confirmation. Perhaps she's trying to deny it.
Meh she probably did forget, but I remember like it was yesterday. I was laying on my stomach and looking through the cubby hole of my bedrest. I remember her words when I told her that. She told me, "well I'm going to pray that you don't get the surgery." Heck, at the time, I didn't even know it was really possible.
It's funny how things don't change 10 years later. That may be a good indication that she won't accept me in the future.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 14, 2013, 08:26:59 PM
@ Diana: XD I'm not brave enough to say something like that to my mom.
Yeah, I just don't like it when women try to use childbirth as a weapon to justify their misdeeds. In my class, one kid was talking about how his mother doesn't do any work around the house or at his dad's podiatry office and that he does all of the work, and two girls had the temerity to say, "Well, she did give birth to you."
While that is a true statement, she did it 17 years ago and knew what she was getting into when she got pregnant. Pregnant = Inevitable delivery. Was she expecting people to invent teleportation technology in the time of her pregnancy so that she could warp her baby out of her uterus without feeling any pain? Heck, she was also too selfish to gain much weight, so her sons (yes, fraternal twins) were skinny premature babies. I don't care if she gave birth to anyone; doing so doesn't justify her wrongdoings. Hmph. >:(
Quote from: DianaP on February 14, 2013, 08:38:25 PM
Yeah, I just don't like it when women try to use childbirth as a weapon to justify their misdeeds. In my class, one kid was talking about how his mother doesn't do any work around the house or at his dad's podiatry office and that he does all of the work, and two girls had the temerity to say, "Well, she did give birth to you."
While that is a true statement, she did it 17 years ago and knew what she was getting into when she got pregnant. Pregnant = Inevitable delivery. Was she expecting people to invent teleportation technology in the time of her pregnancy so that she could warp her baby out of her uterus without feeling any pain? Heck, she was also too selfish to gain much weight, so her sons (yes, fraternal twins) were skinny premature babies. I don't care if she gave birth to anyone; doing so doesn't justify her wrongdoings. Hmph. >:(
My mom does say something similar. She got mad at me for not wanting to teach and said "Well, I had to put with you all these years. I had to deal with your attitude so you can deal with 130 students." And I was like "except you chose to have me and you wanted to have me."
>.> Some people just appear to be ungrateful parents...Don't have kids if you don't want them and don't want the responsibility that comes along with having kids.
Time needs to speed up so I can get out of here and start transitioning.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 14, 2013, 10:44:58 PM
Time needs to speed up so I can get out of here and start transitioning.
I hear ya comrade, you and I both!
Quote from: Malachite on February 14, 2013, 10:46:08 PM
I hear ya comrade, you and I both!
Best of luck, bro. Everything feels like it's just out of reach.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 14, 2013, 10:47:05 PM
Best of luck, bro. Everything feels like it's just out of reach.
Same to you. I know that feeling. Just got to take it one goal at a time.
Quote from: Malachite on February 14, 2013, 10:54:37 PM
Same to you. I know that feeling. Just got to take it one goal at a time.
Words of truth, my friend. I'll take what I can get and correct the new people I meet who think I'm a freshman, and eventually I'll build up the courage to out myself to the friends who know me from before I knew I couldn't live like that so that everyone uses my preferred pronouns and at least a masculine nickname, if not Max. Want to save that name for when I'm well into transition so that I'm not accidentally outed by an old friend once I go stealth.
Winter sucks because my hot food/drinks go cold far too quickly :P But then on the bright side, I don't have to worry about my beer getting warm too soon 8)
I'm thinking that because of the botched shot I may get a period. I've obviously felt PMS-y (world is dark, aaaah) due to having low T for a while, but I'm getting really vague cramps that I can see turning into full blown period cramps and some bleeding. kdsjfweignerw.
It's always really funny when people point stuff out though. Because historically, whenever I've had those issues, I've just made surviving the day a priority because of dysphoria, pain, and generally bleh. Someone at the university noticed I was just wearing a baggy hoodie, clinging to my caffeinated elixir for dear life, and obviously just trying to get through the day, lol, and he just looks at me and says "next week will be better, it happens to us all." And smiles awkwardly like "what is wrong with you...ok, have a great day!" I'll really need to clean up my act over the next week because it's obvious I am off balance.
Dinner was amazing too. Deliciousness. Uncertain if we looked straight or like lesbians.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 14, 2013, 03:13:36 PM
I love American Gods by Neil Gaiman!
It's got Thoth in it. And Loki. And Anubis [-insert girlish squeal-]. I'm most of the way done with it and I'm dying! xD I love this book so much!
I agree that book is so fun. ;D
My trans-related stuff is all hidden away, except for the clothes on my back (those will be packed away as soon as I change). I think I'm ready for my parents to get here in a few hours...
Ready to go home and put on a bra. My nipples are tender. Stupid rubbing fabric and wearing button down guy shirts.
Nervous. Trying to figure stuff out. So I'm thinking round and round about Big Important Things, with a dash of stupid thrown in from all the sleep deprivation.
Pondering whether or not to go and get myself some pepsi...
And possibly chips.
Quote from: Felix on February 15, 2013, 09:54:24 AM
I agree that book is so fun. ;D
I'm having nerdgasms all over the place. xD Since I follow the Egyptian gods, I'm dying. XD [And I follow Loki...now, I'd truly die if Arawn and Cailleach showed up. xD]
I have discovered Starfighter (http://starfightercomic.com/chapter_01_page.php?page=Chapter_01_Page_01.jpg)! It is a totally awesome comic filled with yummy guys in leather suits! [The two main characters are gay...probably all of the characters are since it's that type of comic.] Anyway, I read chapter two this morning and I giggled really hard. I'm surprised my dad didn't ask me what was going on. xD
Speaking of...my dad is in the hospital. He had chest pains yesterday and back pains so he had an appoint today and they took him to the E.R. in the fort across town. He sounded fine on the phone so I'm not terribly worried.
On another note...
I think I should write a small blurb of my view of sex changing a little since coming out, but I dunno if anyone would read it and understand or having anything to say to it.
Just got back from taking a career assesment test. Now to wait and see if they call me in for an interview next week. If they do, great, if not, oh well more sleep time.
Quote from: V M on February 14, 2013, 11:57:58 PM
Winter sucks because my hot food/drinks go cold far too quickly :P But then on the bright side, I don't have to worry about my beer getting warm too soon 8)
Well, I like to eat my food fast, so I prefer it cool. If it's hot, it becomes too hard to inhale. :P
I', thinking about getting my old RPG going again. I miss creative writing and I miss my ship, the USS Exploration. And I'm working on my models again.
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Keaira, do you have a brother just as nerdy as you? :P
I think that's a pretty awesome ship. ^^ And I miss RPGs...
On a sad note, my dad's being kept over night for observation. He'll be fine, but they sill want to keep an eye on him.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 15, 2013, 03:38:17 PM
Keaira, do you have a brother just as nerdy as you? :P
I think that's a pretty awesome ship. ^^ And I miss RPGs...
On a sad note, my dad's being kept over night for observation. He'll be fine, but they sill want to keep an eye on him.
Aww. I hope he's okay. As for my brother, No... he's the opposite. he smokes, lifts weights, loves sports, etc. I'd post pictures but I'm worried he would trigger dysphoria because he is buff. Why do you ask? and you're welcome to join in on my little RPG. It's Star Trek based. It used to be my escape from my dysphoria. its all creative writing. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira on February 15, 2013, 04:04:28 PM
Aww. I hope he's okay. As for my brother, No... he's the opposite. he smokes, lifts weights, loves sports, etc. I'd post pictures but I'm worried he would trigger dysphoria because he is buff. Why do you ask? and you're welcome to join in on my little RPG. It's Star Trek based. It used to be my escape from my dysphoria. its all creative writing. ^_^
Because I can't have you as you're a girl. :P [That sounds incredibly sexist...but I like nerdy people...preferably guys. :P] I'm very much a not-buff-leaning guy. xD [I almost but "not-butt-leaning"...I can't type.]
o.o Star Trek..omg...marry me? :P XD I love Star Trek. Roleplaying is actually my escape and it's what I use to keep from going nuts. >.>
And my dad's fine. ^^ The doctors are just being safe than sorry.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 15, 2013, 12:41:34 PM
I have discovered Starfighter (http://starfightercomic.com/chapter_01_page.php?page=Chapter_01_Page_01.jpg)! It is a totally awesome comic filled with yummy guys in leather suits! [The two main characters are gay...probably all of the characters are since it's that type of comic.] Anyway, I read chapter two this morning and I giggled really hard. I'm surprised my dad didn't ask me what was going on. xD
I love that web comic! :D Always eagerly waiting for a new page. Tumblr is a good way to know when the next page is up. ;)
MMA Fighters
My grandma who has been fighting tooth and nail to deny my transition, and flat out refused to use my name, just sent me an email that started with "Hi Caleb."
What the...? When did this happen? What? Why? I can't even be happy about it because I can't comprehend it. This literally came out of nowhere, she made no effort previously to even...anything...what...why...how. Does this mean I don't have to confront her about the old name now? I was planning to this Sunday and it was making me angsty as hell. No, it can't be that easy. But I was convinced the...what.
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Legend of Zelda rap. My cheeks hurt from laughing so hard! :laugh:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mO1QBTG6EXs (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mO1QBTG6EXs)
"I'm the real Ada Wong!"
"No you aint, you tryin though"
Lol I love theradbrad
Quote from: Tossu-sama on February 15, 2013, 06:51:09 PM
I love that web comic! :D Always eagerly waiting for a new page. Tumblr is a good way to know when the next page is up. ;)
I'll just bug you about it. :P I don't have a Tumblr. And I'm so glad another person on here shares this love with me. XD [I'm a yaoi addict, I swear. xD] I'm also waiting for Teahouse to update...and Elan Meets Rafe, which is also a pretty awesome comic. I love all three dearly. x3
>.><.<
I really do like my therapist. If I could afford to see her weekly then I would. In our latest session, I discussed with her about how it didn't feel right for me to go to women's group meetings at our church, even though I liked the socialization of it. She asked me if there was anything they talked about that was gender-specific and after I thought about it, not really. She was like "well they don't sit around talking about their periods do they?". That made me laugh and feel better about going. It's still a little awkward but hey free food there so it isn't all a lost.
Speaking about periods, I should be on the look out next week.
Quote from: Malachite on February 15, 2013, 11:30:46 PM
I really do like my therapist. If I could afford to see her weekly then I would. In our latest session, I discussed with her about how it didn't feel right for me to go to women's group meetings at our church, even though I liked the socialization of it. She asked me if there was anything they talked about that was gender-specific and after I thought about it, not really. She was like "well they don't sit around talking about their periods do they?". That made me laugh and feel better about going. It's still a little awkward but hey free food there so it isn't all a lost.
Speaking about periods, I should be on the look out next week.
I bet it's weird. I couldn't do it even though I'm more than capable of holding conversations with girls and enjoying them. xD Just my mannerisms turn much more into those of your stereotypical gay guy and not another woman. o.O
Annnnnnnnd....I'm up at 4:20 am because I had a dream about a ghost trying to drown me. It's the second time in a week she's made an appearance in my dreams...I feel like a sissy because I don't want to go to sleep. xD The ghost is scary as hell.
I'm confused as hell now. Everything just got complicated again.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 15, 2013, 10:40:07 PM
I'll just bug you about it. :P I don't have a Tumblr. And I'm so glad another person on here shares this love with me. XD [I'm a yaoi addict, I swear. xD] I'm also waiting for Teahouse to update...and Elan Meets Rafe, which is also a pretty awesome comic. I love all three dearly. x3
>.><.<
Oh yeah, I follow Teahouse, too. XD Not my usual cup of tea when it comes to that kinda stuff but I like the characters and storyline.
If you're not yet aware, Teahouse updated yesterday btw.
I want to watch my fiancé play Silent Hill: Downpour but she says she's gonna play it later in the evening.
BUT I WANT IT NAO.
Starfighter is quite enjoyable if a little distracting.
I'm thinking that I'm going to be so happy when (if) my kid is self-sufficient and moves out. I owe her the world but not only is she very dependent and disturbed/disturbing, when she's around I can't do most of the things I love. I have to be very careful what music I play, what food I cook, what I talk about, who I talk to, where we go, etc. A lot of what I care about is inappropriate for her, but even more of it is in danger from her. I wish there was a way to know that she was safe and reasonably happy without having to be constantly on guard and on call and strategizing.
Also thinking I feel kinda scrabbly and neurotic these days since I stopped making any kind of art.
My way of drawing isn't very efficient... Few minutes of drawing, then about half hour surfing the net. Rinse and repeat and achieve basically nothing in couple hours.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 16, 2013, 04:21:41 AM
I bet it's weird. I couldn't do it even though I'm more than capable of holding conversations with girls and enjoying them. xD Just my mannerisms turn much more into those of your stereotypical gay guy and not another woman. o.O
I won't lie, it's VERY weird for me. I participate in the games and what not but once they actually start to get into the talking part, I just conk out.
Quote from: Tossu-sama on February 16, 2013, 02:07:51 PM
My way of drawing isn't very efficient... Few minutes of drawing, then about half hour surfing the net. Rinse and repeat and achieve basically nothing in couple hours.
I'm exactly the same way, ha. Every once in a great while I'll really get in the zone on something, but those moments are a bit too rare.
Only a few more nights of training the new girl, hope she gets more comfortable with how busy it gets. Then maybe I can go to first shift all the time.
Quote from: Trixie on February 16, 2013, 03:12:40 PM
I'm exactly the same way, ha. Every once in a great while I'll really get in the zone on something, but those moments are a bit too rare.
Not to talk about art blocks when nothing works.
My worst block lasted for two months... Felt badly out of touch when I could pick up my pencil again. x_x
I need to draw fanart of Silent Hill: Downpour's Bogeyman some day.
Love his design.
Leg chokes and Craigslist sales
Quote from: Tossu-sama on February 16, 2013, 05:07:50 PM
Not to talk about art blocks when nothing works.
My worst block lasted for two months... Felt badly out of touch when I could pick up my pencil again. x_x
I need to draw fanart of Silent Hill: Downpour's Bogeyman some day.
Love his design.
I've quit drawing for months at a time. Mostly because I get discouraged and want to quit. Lately I've been in a bit of a dry spell actually.
I despise my English class. We have to read and annotate a whole lot of short stories (9), and they're not even short! 30 pages is not short! To top it off, they're not even good, just "classic". Honestly, if these are the classics, I would not want to see the mediocre short stories.
Quote from: DianaP on February 16, 2013, 05:45:20 PM
Honestly, if these are the classics, I would not want to see the mediocre short stories.
lol. What are you reading?
Quote from: GreenThumb on February 16, 2013, 08:36:44 PM
lol. What are you reading?
"A&P" by John Updike
"The Lottery" by Shirley Jackson
"The Most Dangerous Game" by Richard Connell
"Araby" by James Joyce
"Hills Like White Elephants" by Papa Hemingway
...and other "classics". :eusa_wall:
Quote from: Malachite on February 16, 2013, 02:24:29 PM
I won't lie, it's VERY weird for me. I participate in the games and what not but once they actually start to get into the talking part, I just conk out.
>.> Women are rather weird. I generally ignore the talking...unless shiny clothes come up. xD
And...
...I'm starting to count down until I can finally leave. I love my parents, but they're not being very nice in regards to me being trans*. My mom said "I can see you doing that; becoming a boy and doing drag." My reply was, "Well, at least you'd be somewhat happy then." [this was ignored] My mom said, "But I can't see you doing that." Me: "Doing what?" -couple of seconds- "Doing what, mom?" She never answered.
She doesn't believe I'm going to transition and she doesn't believe me about being trans*.
I wish I could have babies. Having another moment where I'm sad about that. It's been months since I cared about that. :embarrassed:
Quote from: DianaP on February 16, 2013, 08:43:06 PM
"A&P" by John Updike
"The Lottery" by Shirley Jackson
"The Most Dangerous Game" by Richard Connell
"Araby" by James Joyce
"Hills Like White Elephants" by Papa Hemingway
...and other "classics". :eusa_wall:
Really? Do you actually not like those? Maybe you just don't like school. Those are good stories, and I know that some classes can suck the joy out of everything.
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I've missed rendering computer models. I'm glad to see that I'm not too rusty at it either. I still run circles around the others in Bravofleet. But sometimes it's fun to pop up and leave them drooling for more. They call me the Graphics Goddess over there.
I felt like a damn genius when I pulled both pants up at once and saved few measily seconds by doing that, haha...
Life is full of simple joys.
Had a dream where my dog was going to be killed. :( I'm tired, but don't want to go back to sleep now.
Quote from: Felix on February 17, 2013, 06:18:32 AM
Really? Do you actually not like those? Maybe you just don't like school. Those are good stories, and I know that some classes can suck the joy out of everything.
The authors focus more on sounding smart than they do on the story, making most of each of them redundant. Superfluous details do not make for a good story. The stories are fine (at least some of them are), but shrouded by bad writing that makes their delivery poor.
PS - "A&P" is a story about some perv cashier who stares at 3 girls in bikinis for 5 pages and then quits his job when his boss tells the girls to dress more decently. I would find it more questionable for someone to actually like that story. ???
Quote from: Keaira on February 17, 2013, 06:36:08 AM
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I've missed rendering computer models. I'm glad to see that I'm not too rusty at it either. I still run circles around the others in Bravofleet. But sometimes it's fun to pop up and leave them drooling for more. They call me the Graphics Goddess over there.
I've really, really thought about getting into Star Trek roleplaying. It's something I might do, though I'm sure it'll be very time-consuming.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 16, 2013, 08:50:40 PM
...I'm starting to count down until I can finally leave. I love my parents, but they're not being very nice in regards to me being trans*. My mom said "I can see you doing that; becoming a boy and doing drag." My reply was, "Well, at least you'd be somewhat happy then." [this was ignored] My mom said, "But I can't see you doing that." Me: "Doing what?" -couple of seconds- "Doing what, mom?" She never answered.
She doesn't believe I'm going to transition and she doesn't believe me about being trans*.
I wonder what happened and why the switch up?
Quote from: Malachite on February 17, 2013, 10:00:38 AM
I wonder what happened and why the switch up?
Unfortunately, I think it's just a natural reaction. I oscillated between "Yes, I'm trans" and "No, I'm not" for a while before I was able to accept myself. And that's with having to live with everything for my entire life. If parents are just hearing about it now, for the very first time, then it's reasonable that they'll have a denial phase too.
Quote from: Malachite on February 17, 2013, 10:00:38 AM
I wonder what happened and why the switch up?
Probably this:
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 10:14:25 AM
Unfortunately, I think it's just a natural reaction. I oscillated between "Yes, I'm trans" and "No, I'm not" for a while before I was able to accept myself. And that's with having to live with everything for my entire life. If parents are just hearing about it now, for the very first time, then it's reasonable that they'll have a denial phase too.
Lately my mom's just been rather rude, though, and irritated with me. She's been flat out mean to me in regards to getting a job [particularly one that involves teaching]. Being trans* probably doesn't help though I don't know if she remembers that or not...not after the "discussion" we had this morning about me not wanting to teaching. She asked, "Well, we need a good reason as to why you don't want to teach and your experience during student-teaching doesn't count." I was just sitting there thinking, "Well, I have one, but it's not like you'll accept it so I'm not going to say it." That was just a small portion, though, and the rest was my mom saying how she "feels robbed" and I "take her and dad for granted" and that "she gave up so much for" me so I should be willing to teach for at least "three years". Pretty much the entire time I felt a bit like an unwanted child...She kept saying how she worked terrible jobs to take care of me and my sister and that she gave up so much for us...I get it, but it doesn't make me feel at all like I'm wanted. It just makes me feel like a burden.
And I have to somehow get over these feelings in the next 30 minutes because I have an interview at Six Flags and I need to look good.
Quote from: Keaira on February 17, 2013, 06:36:08 AM
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I've missed rendering computer models. I'm glad to see that I'm not too rusty at it either. I still run circles around the others in Bravofleet. But sometimes it's fun to pop up and leave them drooling for more. They call me the Graphics Goddess over there.
Sweet!
I'm finding myself being more dysphoric about my body, the more I'm accepting of my gender and the less I stop denying it. Crappy situation. I don't wish to look at my drivers license, or in the mirror and see my dudeliness. :(
I'm glad I'm starting to accept myself for who I am though. Finally.
I'm thinking I might have to replace the drive belt on my washing machine. You'd think the things would last longer than 27 years, wouldn't you?
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 17, 2013, 12:46:50 PM
I'm thinking I might have to replace the drive belt on my washing machine. You'd think the things would last longer than 27 years, wouldn't you?
27 years? You beat the odds on that machine's life expectancy I'm sure!
Quote from: Shantel on February 17, 2013, 12:59:50 PM
27 years? You beat the odds on that machine's life expectancy I'm sure!
Honestly, I'm surprised it and the dryer is still going after they were both under salt water during the storm that flooded the house. But a good hosing and spraying with some electrical cleaner and they lived and that was ten years ago.
I just have to get a new belt for it is all, otherwise it's ok. Just slips a little with heavy loads.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 17, 2013, 01:08:52 PM
Honestly, I'm surprised it and the dryer is still going after they were both under salt water during the storm that flooded the house. But a good hosing and spraying with some electrical cleaner and they lived and that was ten years ago.
I just have to get a new belt for it is all, otherwise it's ok. Just slips a little with heavy loads.
Sounds like you got nice set! I had an expensive tankless gas water heater installed two years ago and it's now serving me alternating hot and cold showers. Piece of crap! Grrrrrrr!
Guess who just cleaned her basement! It only took 4 months of procrastination...
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 04:12:06 PM
Guess who just cleaned her basement! It only took 4 months of procrastination...
Lol Procrastination is normal human behavior! :eusa_dance:
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 04:12:06 PM
Guess who just cleaned her basement!
Hillary Clinton? ??? I heard she was out of commission due to some brain hemorrhage thing, but 4 months?! Must've been serious.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 05:16:09 PM
Hillary Clinton? ??? I heard she was out of commission due to some brain hemorrhage thing, but 4 months?! Must've been serious.
N... no. It was me. I cleaned my basement.
Hilary Clinton probably has secret service people she can pay to do it for her.
I know. I just like to take silly guesses when people say "guess..." :P
I figured, I just couldn't think of any other way to reply. When people start with "Guess what?" I usually say "Oh... uh... I'm going to guess... 'what'?"
Y'all is a little a touched in the head. :P
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 17, 2013, 05:28:40 PM
Y'all is a little a touched in the head. :P
What? If that's an insult, then you can go... fly a kite! :P
Its windy enough to fly a kite, but way too cold for me.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 17, 2013, 05:28:40 PM
Y'all is a little a touched in the head. :P
I figured everybody here is...
What does touched in the head mean? ???
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 05:49:08 PM
What does touched in the head mean? ???
Crazy? Insane? Not right? Take your pick :)
Sanity is subjective. Therefore, everyone is insane. :P
After all, I went to the local playground yesterday night with my jump rope. I was exercising in a t-shirt, shorts, and nothing else. Not even shoes. People couldn't stop staring at me. :P
The Sandman was the original Stone Cold Steve Austin. He was a beer-drinker and trash-talker long before Stone Cold entered the picture. I love them both though.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 06:01:44 PM
Sanity is subjective. Therefore, everyone is insane. :P
After all, I went to the local playground yesterday night with my jump rope. I was exercising in a t-shirt, shorts, and nothing else. Not even shoes. People couldn't stop staring at me. :P
Uhh... I know some people doing a "once a month skinny dipping" pact (to be inside you have to skinny dip with somebody you're not in a relationship with). You don't seem quite as insane as that...
=( I don't think I'm ever meant to be happy. =( Yeah, I'll laugh and giggle, but deep down I never feel truly happy. It's like I'm just moving through life and waiting to die.
This feeling has got to go away. I hate it. ><;
I remember going skinny dipping as a teen. It was with a bunch of neighborhood girls. no way would I do that nowadays.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 17, 2013, 07:43:58 PM
=( I don't think I'm ever meant to be happy. =( Yeah, I'll laugh and giggle, but deep down I never feel truly happy. It's like I'm just moving through life and waiting to die.
This feeling has got to go away. I hate it. ><;
There's been times I've had to force myself to hold a smile so people don't think there's anything wrong. It's tough, but you can get through it. * hug *
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 17, 2013, 07:44:28 PM
I remember going skinny dipping as a teen. It was with a bunch of neighborhood girls. no way would I do that nowadays.
One of my friends warned me what it was ahead of time, since they recruit by asking "Hey! Do you want to join a pact?" without giving any more details.
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 07:41:54 PM
Uhh... I know some people doing a "once a month skinny dipping" pact (to be inside you have to skinny dip with somebody you're not in a relationship with). You don't seem quite as insane as that...
Oh snap, silly me! I forgot to mention that it was 24 degrees F. Sorry, I got distracted while typing.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 07:50:18 PM
Oh snap, silly me! I forgot to mention that it was 24 degrees F. Sorry, I got distracted while typing.
I figured. The people I know were complaining about January Pact for a similar reason...
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 07:48:16 PM
There's been times I've had to force myself to hold a smile so people don't think there's anything wrong. It's tough, but you can get through it. * hug *
-hugs- It's pretty much been like this since middle school. =/ Only time it was getting any better was when I was in therapy and at the same time got Prozac. >.>; I'm crap out of luck with that right now and just gotta power through, but it's fairly tough on my own.
Ice cream might help.
...and skinny dipping...I don't think I could ever do that. xD 1. The body is all wrong. 2. I have stretchmarks galore. 3. Being naked in front of people is so nerve-wracking!
I once rode my bike home 5 miles from school through a nor'easter in nothing but a pair of shorts, a t-shirt, and sneakers. It's like I always say: staying warm encourages you to ride harder. :P
They came up with the idea as a way to make people less awkward about their bodies, actually. It's supposed to help people get over the nerve-wracking part.
But I also don't want to be naked in front of people, which is why I didn't join. Also, I thought ahead to Winter.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 07:57:29 PM
I once rode my bike home 5 miles from school through a nor'easter in nothing but a pair of shorts, a t-shirt, and sneakers. It's like I always say: staying warm encourages you to ride harder. :P
That's intense!
xD It doesn't sound very much like it would make things better in that way. xD It sounds scary to skinny dip to me!
...On another note: It's kind of crazy how my view of my sexuality and ability to enjoy stuff has changed since coming out. Granted I haven't had sex and probably won't as I can't find myself a nice gay guy. XD
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 07:58:38 PM
That's intense!
Well, I didn't know that there was going to be a storm, so when it hit, I just figured that I might as well just ride back fast. :P
I actually felt good for a few minutes when I got home since my balls rode up so high that it felt like I didn't have any. :)
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 17, 2013, 07:55:22 PM
Only time it was getting any better was when I was in therapy and at the same time got Prozac.
You know that the main ingredient in SSRI drugs is Fluoride (also in rat poison)? Just a random fact I thought of while reading your post.
I'm thinking that I am cold and hungry. Trying to save money so the heat is turned down to 65 degrees. Why is 65 degrees outside comfortable but inside it's shivering cold? ???
Quote from: Simon on February 17, 2013, 08:05:48 PM
I'm thinking that I am cold and hungry. Trying to save money so the heat is turned down to 65 degrees. Why is 65 degrees outside comfortable but inside it's shivering cold? ???
Maybe it's not 65 degrees? That or you're more active when outside.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:07:29 PM
Maybe it's not 65 degrees? That or you're more active when outside.
Has to be related to activity, I guess.
Time to grab my big purple corduroy comforter and a cat to snuggle with. =^.^=
Quote from: Simon on February 17, 2013, 08:05:48 PM
You know that the main ingredient in SSRI drugs is Fluoride (also in rat poison)? Just a random fact I thought of while reading your post.
It's also in a lot of toothpastes and in mouth washes. :P Albeit it's in a different form that doesn't get digested the same way, from what I can find. I also can't find anything saying that it negatively impacts a person unless they're predisposed for a sensitivity to it [which I'm not].
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 07:57:29 PM
I once rode my bike home 5 miles from school through a nor'easter in nothing but a pair of shorts, a t-shirt, and sneakers. It's like I always say: staying warm encourages you to ride harder. :P
That's just crazy! :o And people accuse me of over doing my workouts. You won't catch me in shorts in any thing below 55 degrees outside.
Quote from: Simon on February 17, 2013, 08:05:48 PM
You know that the main ingredient in SSRI drugs is Fluoride (also in rat poison)? Just a random fact I thought of while reading your post.
I'm thinking that I am cold and hungry. Trying to save money so the heat is turned down to 65 degrees. Why is 65 degrees outside comfortable but inside it's shivering cold? ???
Probably because of the sun and not getting that exposure. Heck 75 inside for me is freezing
I'm thinking about this year's E3. I wonder what they will have to show. Sony didn't do a good job last year so hopefully they will bring something to the table this year. I remember 2 years ago where Sony stole the show and Microsoft had nothing on them. I'm going to be a fanboy screaming over some of the new games but since I'm more heavily focusing on saving for top surgery, it will be a while before I can even buy some of those games. Besides, I'm more skeptical this year since I saw Far Cry 3 at the last show and was addicted. It was nothing like what they showed and it was borderline false advertising. Because of that, I'm sure as heck ain't getting Splinter Cell: Blacklist until it's about $25. I was originally going to preorder it but screw that. I put that money in my top surgery fund instead.
Well, my room is 28 degrees F, yet I feel fine. Hm. ???
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:33:34 PM
Well, my room is 28 degrees F, yet I feel fine. Hm. ???
We're reaching the time of day when my thermostat drops from 68F to 65F... do you live in a freezer?
No. I just don't have heat, and my room has no insulation. :P
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 17, 2013, 08:18:24 PM
It's also in a lot of toothpastes and in mouth washes. :P Albeit it's in a different form that doesn't get digested the same way, from what I can find. I also can't find anything saying that it negatively impacts a person unless they're predisposed for a sensitivity to it [which I'm not].
There's a reason fluoride toothpastes have poison warnings on the label (if swallowed). Fluoride makes people docile (it's also industrial waste, yum) that's why it was first put into the water supply in Nazi Germany. Docile people are far easier to control.
I'll go mute on the topic before I get labeled a conspiracy theorist (I'm not). There is a lot of info on Fluoride out on the interwebs though.
I'm making homemade mashed potatoes and steak (medium rare) now. I'm STARVED.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:40:45 PM
No. I just don't have heat, and my room has no insulation. :P
I would freeze to death or be rubbing my legs together like a cricket trying to get some heat through friction. :laugh:
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:40:45 PM
No. I just don't have heat, and my room has no insulation. :P
I hope you're wearing lots of layers. Maybe you should get one (or both) of the heat and insulation problems fixed? :P
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 08:43:25 PM
I hope you're wearing lots of layers. Maybe you should get one (or both) of the heat and insulation problems fixed? :P
"Layers"? Waste money on heat? Oh, you slay me! :laugh:
I sleep nude in here. :P
Thinking after top surgery when I go to AX that I'm going to wear a Hawaiian shirt on the way there.
My church is trying to figure out where they should take the kids on a trip next. I say Disney World but my sister says no since we have been like four times. You can never have enough of Disney World....or I can't at least.
I need to keep an axe in my room. I usually keep a bat in case of intruders but having an axe may be slightly better, if I can build up more strength to wield it. Perhaps I'll paint my face like a clown and start wielding that around if an intruder comes. Juggalo Style!
Mardi Gras
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:48:59 PM
"Layers"? Waste money on heat? Oh, you slay me! :laugh:
I sleep nude in here. :P
This post made me cold. I'm going to have to add another layer to what I'm wearing now...
Quote from: Malachite on February 17, 2013, 08:51:25 PM
I need to keep an axe in my room. I usually keep a bat in case of intruders but having an axe may be slightly better, if I can build up more strength to wield it. Perhaps I'll paint my face like a clown and start wielding that around if an intruder comes. Juggalo Style!
I sleep with a knife under my pillow. :)
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 17, 2013, 08:52:22 PM
This post made me cold. I'm going to have to add another layer to what I'm wearing now...
Seriously, what are these "layers" of which you speak? ???
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:55:08 PM
I sleep with a knife under my pillow. :)
I should start doing that, but with the way I sleep, I may end up slitting my own throat by mistake.
Then sleep with a knife by your bed on the dresser or something.
Quote from: Simon on February 17, 2013, 08:40:59 PM
There's a reason fluoride toothpastes have poison warnings on the label (if swallowed). Fluoride makes people docile (it's also industrial waste, yum) that's why it was first put into the water supply in Nazi Germany. Docile people are far easier to control.
I'll go mute on the topic before I get labeled a conspiracy theorist (I'm not). There is a lot of info on Fluoride out on the interwebs though.
Yeah, I read it can make people docile in large enough doses. I'm fairly docile anyway. :P I'm not going to be running around saying "Down with the government" or even "down with the mayor" or "hey, maybe you should put your trashcan elsewhere". I just don't care all that much about what others do as long as they leave me along. [This docile-ness totally vanishes the second someone yells at my dog or teases her...or if someone attacks my gender identity...maybe a few other cases]. Overall, I'm just like "-shrug- Whatever floats your boat." :P It's gotten me labelled as a hippy by my parents.
I'm just aware that without Prozac I had suicidal thoughts and that I was far from happy. On Prozac, I was happier and less likely to think I should probably just off myself. Unlike Zoloft which made me crazy/nearly made me crazy. I happened to get the luck of the draw in that I was one of the few who got some of the worst side effects [it was so rare that my psychiatrist didn't even warn me about it. He did tell me, though, once I went in one day nearly in tears because I "felt" my mind braking...something which my mom had experienced as well while on Zoloft. -.-;]
But oh well...it's a moot point as I can't afford a psychologist or psychiatrist or any meds of any kind.
One slice of pizza left- getting it!
The last week at work, not having to do much physical stuff due to training a new girl, I've gained a few pounds. I'm up to 145.
Having a drunken landlord sucks when you just want the broken, rust-filled pipes to cough up a bit of heat because there are 27 drafts in your room coming from all different directions, including one from within the doorjamb.
Quote from: DianaP on February 17, 2013, 08:57:52 PM
Then sleep with a knife by your bed on the dresser or something.
In my cubby hole, right next to my packer. :D
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 17, 2013, 09:12:48 PM
The last week at work, not having to do much physical stuff due to training a new girl, I've gained a few pounds. I'm up to 145.
145 is a good weight for your height, anything less and you'd be skin and bone crazy girl! :icon_peace:
I've been reading a book called Monkey Mind: A Memoir of Anxiety. And it's incredibly disturbing how much this man's story resembles my own. Down to the tiniest details. Not just of the anxiety, but his life history...
On one hand, I like having days off for US holidays (Today is President's day). But I've been out of stuff to do since 11, so I'm just vegetating and watching Netflix.
I like having days off. :3 Though currently two months without a job is killing me. xD
But, soon, I might go buy this really cool salt and pepper shaker set from the 1950s. :D It was made in Japan and is so cute!
I need to find a hair stylist! I've been growing my hair out since last June and it's time to make it look decent. Oh well maybe this weekend. :)
I need a haircut. Why am I back to agonizing over my hair? Wwwhhhhyyyyy?
Money!
Every time the hissing comes back and I get my hopes up, they are subsequently crushed by the inevitable clank of the heat shutting off. My room is an excellent refrigerator.
Quote from: V M on February 06, 2013, 06:17:42 PM
Why do most animals have tails but humans don't?
We have a vestigial tail.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coccyx (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coccyx)
Sometimes, you get a genetic "throwback"
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffunstuffcafe.com%2Fimg%2Fstrange-weird%2Ftail%2Ftail07.jpg&hash=145315f09bc83f2bfdfb1e16e3f7d4dcf0c11552)
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 18, 2013, 05:10:12 PM
Every time the hissing comes back and I get my hopes up, they are subsequently crushed by the inevitable clank of the heat shutting off. My room is an excellent refrigerator.
That sucks, it wouldn't happen if I was there, I know how to intimidate people who don't care about others.
Quote from: Shantel on February 18, 2013, 05:30:42 PM
That sucks, it wouldn't happen if I was there, I know how to intimidate people who don't care about others.
Thanks. The problem is that it's not just people, it's also the pipes. Metaphorically and literally it's cold in here- something always breaks on the coldest of days.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 18, 2013, 05:57:39 PM
Thanks. The problem is that it's not just people, it's also the pipes. Metaphorically and literally it's cold in here- something always breaks on the coldest of days.
Yeah, but people are suppose to get these things fixed and their renters ought not to have to suffer on account of their failure to be pro-actively involved in taking care of these important things.
Limes vs Lemons
Quote from: Malachite on February 18, 2013, 06:26:54 PM
Limes vs Lemons
I prefer lemons. Although, I've always wondered why glasses of lemonade come with a lemon wedge instead of a lime wedge...
Lemons would kick the snot out of limes! >:(
I've been reading a book called Monkey Mind: A Memoir of Anxiety. And it's incredibly disturbing how much this man's story resembles my own. Down to the tiniest details. Not just of the anxiety, but his life history...
You also look a little bit like the man who wrote the book too! When I read the blog of his that you forwarded to me I saw that his mother mentioned that he was sometimes lazy with doing things he needed to do like breathing and avoiding situations that make it worsen. Another way you two are similar but I will not take on the role of your Jewish mother so smarten up. :P
I can't choose between lemons or limes. Limes are cuter though.
Limes are sexy, lemons are crap cars
Lemons taste better. I don't see anyone drinking limeade. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 18, 2013, 07:16:28 PM
Lemons taste better. I don't see anyone drinking limeade. :P
Kroger sells (sold?) a cherry limeade that was really good. I haven't looked for it in a few years, though.
Then it must not have been that good. :P
I started buying orange juice again, and forgot about the cherry limeade. I'll look for it the next time I'm in the store :)
This house sucks and so does living in it.
I found my heater for my hermit crab tank. :D They're going to enjoy their new warm tank! It has pretty new flowers [fake], too, and a deeper water pool! They're busy enjoying everything and destroying the new decorations. XD
Quote from: hummingbird on February 18, 2013, 07:01:16 PM
You also look a little bit like the man who wrote the book too! When I read the blog of his that you forwarded to me I saw that his mother mentioned that he was sometimes lazy with doing things he needed to do like breathing and avoiding situations that make it worsen. Another way you two are similar but I will not take on the role of your Jewish mother so smarten up. :P
That is true. And yes, don't be my Jewish mom, thanks. :P Lol.
We're taking a proper (i.e., the official) MBTI. Turns out it's not as easy as I thought. seems a lot of the questions, in an indirect way, appeal to emotions. For example, part of it is word choices like "objective" and "passionate." Well, I know plenty of people who say "I'm so objective about things, huff huff, I'm smart and fact-based and harsh blah blah"...when in reality, they're just uninformed and being dicks, using the harshness as proof that they're "objective."
So I'm inclined not to pick objective, because to me, when people say they're objective, that's a red flag that they are butts. :P But in terms of what the words actually means...
8)
Harry Nilsson - Coconut (1971) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tbgv8PkO9eo#)
I hurt so bad. T.T :icon_cry: It's making me feel nauseous.
I sent a coming-out email to one of my friends about an hour and a half ago. Waiting for a reply is stressful...
Bad Edge! Go do my homework!
Quote from: Edge on February 18, 2013, 08:53:46 PM
Bad Edge! Go do my homework!
LOL I know that feeling.
Screw it, I'm coming out in school to whomever I feel should know. This has gone on long enough.
Edit: Hey look, post count is 314. TIME FOR PI- oh wait, I can't have gluten. Never mind.
:eusa_boohoo:
The new Fionna and Cake was so good! :laugh:
Oh, and I'm going shopping tomorrow! I ain't leaving without a cute dress and a lovely pair of boots. ;D
It's weird, stuff really has changed. Just, in terms of me as a person. And for the better, but some of it is weird.
like, I used to really enjoy Dexter and get really into it. Now, I find most of what he says pretty annoying. I always scored INTJ on the MBTI thing (for years, on and off tests), but now I got INTP...and reading INTP, it actually seems like me instead of INTJ. Just little shifts in thinking came with transition, it seems. I'm still the same person, obviously, but...yes.
I also feel like a huge ahole. :(
I either get INTP or INTJ depending on what day I take the test, so that's interesting.
Starting to think my mom is bipolar or something. We were just joking around about stuff and how I really do act like a teenage boy and she goes "no you don't" out of nowhere. Still in a brighter mood, I say "C'mon, I'm exactly like one" and give her all the reasons why, joking around, and she starts screaming to stop it. So I leave, and she's yelling about how, you know, both of my pediatricians wanted me to see a psychiatrist and how she didn't take me but she should've known.
Where the hell did that come from? ???
Is it wrong to loop this guy playing tuba while making smores and singing Kum Ba Yah?
Kum Ba Yah - Tuba Solo (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqsW_noBIjQ#)
NERD! :P
I've taken the MBTI twice and each time I got a different answer. In 2010 I got ISTJ and in 2012 I got INTJ [same in 2013].
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 18, 2013, 11:18:00 PM
I either get INTP or INTJ depending on what day I take the test, so that's interesting.
Starting to think my mom is bipolar or something. We were just joking around about stuff and how I really do act like a teenage boy and she goes "no you don't" out of nowhere. Still in a brighter mood, I say "C'mon, I'm exactly like one" and give her all the reasons why, joking around, and she starts screaming to stop it. So I leave, and she's yelling about how, you know, both of my pediatricians wanted me to see a psychiatrist and how she didn't take me but she should've known.
Where the hell did that come from? ???
Moms do that, she's stressed over your stress!
Sleep
My good hip hurts. Body, what are you doing :(
I love the Smurfs, it's an awesome show.... I wonder if smurfs have genitalia. They don't breed with eachother or anything, plus none of the female smurfs have boobs. Would that mean they all physically have no sex? But then Papa Smurf and Grandpa Smurf have beards and Nanny Smurf doesn't. Hrmm.............
Maybe they reproduce asexually, the women are flat-chested, and everyone but Papa Smurf and Grandpa Smurf prefer to shave their beards. Now that you've pointed this all out, it's smurfin' weird. ???
I have no idea how baby smurfs are made, as Baby Smurf came from a stork. >.<
Or so they want you to think. :eusa_think:
I guess it's entirely possible that he's the result of a love affair Smurfette had and she simply staged the stork. :laugh:
I was under the impression that Smurfette was the only female Smurf? She must be popular with the guys ;)
False! There are three female smurfs; Smurfette, Sassette Smurfling, and Nanny Smurf. ;D But yes, Smurfette's the only one who's not a kid or an old woman.
Sometime's I wish I was a smurf. ::)
And...I feel better after ranting about my ex. :P
I just feel sad right now. I need a hug. :icon_tears:
Quote from: DianaP on February 19, 2013, 06:43:56 PM
I just feel sad right now. I need a hug. :icon_tears:
-snuggles-
Quote from: DianaP on February 19, 2013, 06:43:56 PM
I just feel sad right now. I need a hug. :icon_tears:
*big hug*
Quote from: DianaP on February 19, 2013, 06:43:56 PM
I just feel sad right now. I need a hug. :icon_tears:
* hug * I hope you cheer up soon!
Thanks, everyone. I felt sad, but then I found some coconut water in my fridge, and now I feel better. I'm so easy to please. ;D
Quote from: DianaP on February 19, 2013, 06:49:06 PM
Thanks, everyone. I felt sad, but then I found some coconut water in my fridge, and now I feel better. I'm so easy to please. ;D
xD I need a gf like you. <3 XD
I just learned that a band I haven't listened to in awhile has a cd I don't have yet. :D
Also, I have no idea who decided that running away is "manly," but I think they're dumb.
Quote from: DianaP on February 19, 2013, 06:49:06 PM
Thanks, everyone. I felt sad, but then I found some coconut water in my fridge, and now I feel better. I'm so easy to please. ;D
:laugh: :)
Thinking of going to bed. It's been a long day and I'm bushed and headachey.
Having a working garage door opener again is really nice. I even have one with sensors now :)
I'm off to go throw things into the air (and hopefully not into my face...)
I suppose that this crease line on my clothes that appears between my nipples when I slouch forward means I've gone from starting to develop breasts to actually having them.
Not quite sure when that happened!
I wish I had straight hair instead of constantly uncooperative hair.
Two weeks in with this diet and nothing.
I wish I didn't carry all this fat on my chest and rear end. And that I were of legal age and could transition already. And that I could find the courage to correct people in school, tell them why, do something...there are evil monster hormones feminizing my body and I hate it.
I didn't like my curly hair when I was younger and in boy mode but kinda like my curly locks now except that it's kind of a pain brush the knots and tangles and such out
Thinking of going back to bed.
I think my eventual goal in life is what I'm going to call "second order passing". I want to pass (as a girl) while passing (multiple person juggling tricks)!
Gotta find more things to sale on Craigslist
I am Pandora, and I have no idea what will happen because of what I've done.
I was going to go shopping at a thrift store to save some cash, but these 2 girls walked in at the exact same time I did, so I chickened out. This sucks. :(
It may cost more, but I'll go to sears since it's a bit more anonymous, making it easier for me to shop.
Quote from: Sarah Blomsterhatt on February 20, 2013, 02:04:21 PM
I am Pandora, and I have no idea what will happen because of what I've done.
But will you play us music? :P
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 20, 2013, 03:47:52 PM
But will you play us music? :P
No I won't, I'm doing theater, not music. :P
Long story short, I have feeling for and want my ex girlfriend, she got feelings for and want me. And it got spoken, and I have no idea what will follow.
I feel so lazy today. I don't want to work out, I don't want to clean the bathroom, I don't want to grade, I don't want to answer emails, I don't want to work on my thesis. But I know I will feel infinitely better afterwards if I force myself to do some of these things, preferably all of these things.
Me: They had Chaz Bono on the show. He's lost 43 lbs! He's looking a lot better.
Mom: She needed to lose it.
I. Am. Done.
Once I get a job, I'm gone. I'm leaving this damn house.
I just had the thought that this ladder thing that I will hopefully be able to describe applies well to passing aswell.
The bottom stage: Unaware of you being unaware. - You're doing it wrong and you don't even know it.
The first step up: Aware of you being unaware. - You're aware that you're doing it wrong.
The next step: Aware of you being aware. - You're aware that you're doing it right.
Mastery: Unaware of you being aware. - You're doing it all right and you don't even know it.
I hope it made some sort of sence, I've only seen the ladder thing written in Swedish so it's very rouchly translated. I think it's used to determen levels of mastery, I first heard it described in details in a seminar about mastery of things. I know this applies to my own ability at some things in life, some competative games being some of them, I don't even think about doing the right things, reacting correctly to what happens, it comes naturally for me and in more then one competative game I've been top 5 in the world at it. I love to master things. :)
The New York Times costs $2.50! Who the heck can afford that on a daily basis? ???
I'm finally watching Game of Thrones Season 2. Can I get through all 10 episodes before I go to California on Sunday? Place your bets now! :)
Quote from: DianaP on February 20, 2013, 05:45:33 PM
The New York Times costs $2.50! Who the heck can afford that on a daily basis? ???
People who can afford to live in New York?
When the day comes when I will be able to see Dr. Garramone for my top surgery, I'm going to send him a gift like some of his other patients do.
That's awesome, Malachite. ^^
I can't wait for top surgery.
Though right now all I want is for my mom to possibly give my being trans* a chance instead of not remotely trying to learn about the subject.
What is wrong with me? I have to fight the urge to correct the grammatical mistakes of others. ???
Quote from: DianaP on February 20, 2013, 06:28:02 PM
What is wrong with me? I have to fight the urge to correct the grammatical mistakes of others. ???
Grammar Nazi. :P
Nah, I'm the same way. XD
There sure are a lot of space problems lately. I guess the world is going to end afterall.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on February 20, 2013, 08:26:53 PM
There sure are a lot of space problems lately. I guess the world is going to end afterall.
Be on the lookout for suspicious looking moons...
The first time I can recall observing suspicious moons was when a bus load of cheerleaders from an opposing football team was leaving the parking lot of the high school after a game >:-)
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 20, 2013, 06:26:16 PM
That's awesome, Malachite. ^^
I can't wait for top surgery.
Though right now all I want is for my mom to possibly give my being trans* a chance instead of not remotely trying to learn about the subject.
me too
I hate that you're mother is being like that. Maybe you can find some type of online flyer to give her about the subject?
Quote from: Edge on February 20, 2013, 09:08:30 PM
Me as well.
Yeah, well I can't wait to have breasts. Wanna make a donation? :icon_help:
Quote from: DianaP on February 20, 2013, 09:10:18 PM
Yeah, well I can't wait to have breasts. Wanna make a donation? :icon_help:
Wish I could.
Quote from: Edge on February 20, 2013, 09:11:50 PM
Wish I could.
Same here.
I wish there could be a transgender swap market.
Quote from: Malachite on February 20, 2013, 09:03:45 PM
I hate that you're mother is being like that. Maybe you can find some type of online flyer to give her about the subject?
I've done that. I gave her two physical fliers, the book "True Selves", and even linked her to Susan's. The book and fliers remained untouched for a week and they were only touched because I was sick of seeing them on the counter. As far as I can tell she hasn't even looked at Susan's.
Tomorrow is a meeting so I'd like for her to go, but I doubt she will. She is showing no inclination to get to know this aspect of my life more. She loves to say "well, you didn't say you wanted to be a boy as a kid!" No sh*t. I had over concerns like the fact I walked differently or if I got sick I could get sent to the hospital and possibly even die. Sorry, but I had bigger worries than what was between my legs.
>.><.< I'd be willing to give women-in-need my breasts. I have enough for at least 4 people if they want As...though I can probably give 2 people C-cups if they wanted. XD
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 20, 2013, 09:29:15 PM
>.><.< I'd be willing to give women-in-need my breasts. I have enough for at least 4 people if they want As...though I can probably give 2 people C-cups if they wanted. XD
I'll take a B on the left and a AA on the right. Oh, and a D to go. Thanks. :)
Why would you be sent to the hospital and possibly die? (If you don't mind me asking. I'm just curious.)
I'm wondering if I should get a mohawk or if that would be stupid. I'm also wondering if I'm just considering it because I've been reading comics with Daken and I like him so far.
Quote from: Edge on February 20, 2013, 09:34:48 PM
I'm wondering if I should get a mohawk or if that would be stupid.
Mohawks are stupid. They cost a lot of hair gel and make it look like there's a buzz saw on your head. :P
I think mohawks are sexy.
Don't encourage him. ::)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fupload.wikimedia.org%2Fwikipedia%2Fcommons%2F8%2F85%2FUser-Ich_with_Mohawk.jpg&hash=6f390273c32b13d692868c32c24a981c71dfc2ba)
See? Stupid.
I had a pretty cool multicolored Mohawk in younger days when I was playing in rock bands ;D Yeah, looked a lot like that but with somewhat neon coloration
Don't encourage him! Virginia, you're a bad influence! Just for that, I'll reveal the truth: Santa Claus isn't real! :icon_chainsaw:
Don't be absurd Diana, how come he's always at the mall during Christmas time then? HRMM??
How is he at every mall? Only one can be real, or at least if he were real. The mall person is a guy in a suit. :P
He just freezes time or whatever, like he does on Christmas to go around the world in one night. Didn't you ever watch cartoons? ::)
Then why did my dad never get a Christmas present? :P
Because he was a NON-BELIEVER!!! > : O
Quote from: Edge on February 20, 2013, 09:34:48 PM
Why would you be sent to the hospital and possibly die? (If you don't mind me asking. I'm just curious.)
When I was 3 I was diagnosed with Guillain-Barre Syndrome. Throughout my childhood I would have flare-ups [later to be diagnosed with CIDP]. My immune system would essentially attack my nerves. It attacked my lungs once and it could attack anything it wanted and we wouldn't know which. I had to go to the hospital to get an IV-Ig to calm it down. [Laymens terms. :P I'm not a doctor.] If I didn't, there was the real possibility of paralysis for life or even death.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on February 20, 2013, 10:07:21 PM
Because he was a NON-BELIEVER!!! > : O
Well, it's actually the same reason I never believed. We had crap growing up, and we got nothing, not even a Happy Meal-level toy. There ain't no Santa. :P
I'm sorry, Aaron. That sounds awful.
Quote from: DianaP on February 20, 2013, 10:17:32 PM
Well, it's actually the same reason I never believed. We had crap growing up, and we got nothing, not even a Happy Meal-level toy. There ain't no Santa. :P
I'm sorry, Aaron. That sounds awful.
:P Santa, to me, was always the joyous spirit of the holiday. But apparently that's blasphemy because apparently the holiday is supposed to be about Jesus and not family.
And it was icky, but I lived. :3 And in high school I was like "hey. I have that sexy model walk that lots of girls want. Hell yeah! I'm gunna rock this sh*t." :P I figured if I couldn't be male I might as well rock my body. XD
I'll encourage whoever I feel like encouraging
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 20, 2013, 10:21:27 PM
And it was icky, but I lived. :3 And in high school I was like "hey. I have that sexy model walk that lots of girls want. Hell yeah! I'm gunna rock this sh*t." :P I figured if I couldn't be male I might as well rock my body. XD
I like that attitude.
I don't understand why the spirit of Jesus (particularly the loving aspect), the spirit of Santa, and the spirit of the winter solstice can't all be celebrated. Good feelings all around.
Quote from: V M on February 20, 2013, 10:22:58 PM
I'll encourage whoever I feel like encouraging
Geez, I was being facetious. :P
I frankly don't mind whether or not someone gets a mohawk. It's not my head. ;)
Quote from: Edge on February 20, 2013, 10:27:34 PM
I like that attitude.
I don't understand why the spirit of Jesus (particularly the loving aspect), the spirit of Santa, and the spirit of the winter solstice can't all be celebrated. Good feelings all around.
:3 I liked it, lol. It's now counting against me, though. -.-; My mom won't believe me because of it.
I agree. x3 I personally celebrate the Winter Solstice. ^^ I got to celebrate it one year at Stonehenge! On
my birthday! So many pagans showed up! It was so fantastic even if I was up at 2 in the morning to get there. -.-;
Wow! That's so cool!
Quote from: Edge on February 20, 2013, 10:37:30 PM
Wow! That's so cool!
I about had a heart attack. x3 It was great! I'd do it again in a heart beat. x3
I'm homesick for England. T.T
I really want that Metal Gear Rising Collector's Edition Plasma Lamp
http://youtu.be/lHDxibOqWq8 (http://youtu.be/lHDxibOqWq8)
The whole edition is just way overpriced though.
Here's where my Malachite thinking comes into play.
"Malachite, stop being a fanboy. If you buy that edition, you will have buyer's remorse."
"But the lamp is so cool!"
"That lamp won't last forever. "
I would type more but laziness has hit me.
That I'm crazy. I don't think I can trust my own mind anymore. I don't know who I am.
I wish I could just be angry and say yes, the reason I've had so many problems is because I'm trans, but I don't trust myself anymore. why do I have to doubt everything in my life?
Seems you're pretty analytical, Rowan. I am much the same so I go through the same sort of issues. I can never be entirely settled on something because I am always considering alternate universes I guess...
Though, at the same time, I am certain as well. It's weird I guess.
I'm thinking that I should of followed my heart in the first place, rather than going for the second best option.. But I never thought I could get the straight girl.. I did though.. :)
Watching tv and realizing I have the HUGEST crush on Rachael Ray. :-*
I just realized that, even though I love science and do really want to be a mad scientist, I pretty much live for folklore. Or maybe that's just because sometimes one interest holds more sway over me than others at a time and then they switch.
Maybe that's why I like Dr. Doom so much (aside from the power). He has science and magic.
I'm thinking that projectile vomiting into a trash can isn't fun.
I'm thinking I need to learn how to choose better peaches from the grocery store. Half of the one I tried to eat with lunch was mushy and gross :(
Doubting again. :(
It seems I always start to doubt again before I'm about to do something positive to better myself. Or... maybe I'm just being sensible.
I had planned on really making an attempt to get therapy and sort this all out this week, but doubts kept me from doing so.
No idea why I still miss England.
I want to go to Walmart and get some plastic boxes for my socks and stuff. I've been getting them piecemeal.
Video games
"What's 0.35 divided by 2?"
That was a question asked to me by a freshman at my high school. We're talking about a specialized school that requires students pass a test to get in. How easy has that test gotten, for crying out loud?
An indictment of the US education system. Honestly, it infuriates me beyond belief when someone pulls out a calculator to perform basic arithmetic. >:(
Quote from: DianaP on February 21, 2013, 07:39:51 PM
"What's 0.35 divided by 2?"
That was a question asked to me by a freshman at my high school. We're talking about a specialized school that requires students pass a test to get in. How easy has that test gotten, for crying out loud?
An indictment of the US education system. Honestly, it infuriates me beyond belief when someone pulls out a calculator to perform basic arithmetic. >:(
Yeah, the world is a disgrace. I don't think people care anymore if everyone is stupid.
Raiden from Metal Gear Rising is sexy.
Quote from: DianaP on February 21, 2013, 07:39:51 PM
"What's 0.35 divided by 2?"
That was a question asked to me by a freshman at my high school. We're talking about a specialized school that requires students pass a test to get in. How easy has that test gotten, for crying out loud?
An indictment of the US education system. Honestly, it infuriates me beyond belief when someone pulls out a calculator to perform basic arithmetic. >:(
If it involves decimals of a high percentage and division I'll generally pull out a calculator. I have a hard time understanding math and always have.
Anyway...
I went to the SAGA meeting and I'm glad. A friend convinced me to go. It was just the pick-me-up that I needed.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 21, 2013, 09:24:28 PM
If it involves decimals of a high percentage and division I'll generally pull out a calculator. I have a hard time understanding math and always have.
Well, that's fine, I suppose, Mr. history major, but if a kid wants to attend a TECHNICAL high school, s/he should learn how to perform basic arithmetic. It's not really that hard. 0.35 divided by two is basically asking, "What number when added to itself gives you 0.35?"
Answer: 0.175. Done. :(
My thoughts exactly, Diana. Division by two is easier than Pi ;D
Also, bacon is mocking me right now. Had a piece this morning because I've been on this starvation diet for two weeks.
Why does bacon taste so delicious :'(
Dude, starvation diets never work. They just stress you out, which isn't healthy.
In addition to my earlier tale, the girl said, "That's what I hate about modern society. Just because you don't feel like doing some math, people think you're a dumbass."
Saying that you don't feel like doing something means that it requires effort on your part, which shouldn't be for such a simply operation. The funny part is that she even used the computer calculator wrong. :laugh:
I inadvertently ended up losing a bunch of weight by starving...I had been sick and then it just was harder and harder to eat proper amounts even when I was better. I looked really sick for a long time. It took like 6 months to begin looking human again.
Quote from: DianaP on February 21, 2013, 09:29:48 PM
Well, that's fine, I suppose, Mr. history major, but if a kid wants to attend a TECHNICAL high school, s/he should learn how to perform basic arithmetic. It's not really that hard. 0.35 divided by two is basically asking, "What number when added to itself gives you 0.35?"
Answer: 0.175. Done. :(
>.>; I wouldn't have gotten that answer without some long division on a sheet of paper. XD
But if you're getting into a technical school you should know basic math. I know enough to divide, multiply, and do averages [all that's needed to be a history teacher]. Sometimes I can actually do other types of math, but it's rare. Overall, it just confuses me.
I second starvation diets. It also makes the body want to hold onto fat more instead of letting you lose it, at least at first.
Not that I have room to talk. I've had a total of one meal [two tuna sandwiches] and a coke or two in the last 24 hours. I just woke up too late for breakfast, didn't have time to make dinner before the SAGA meeting, and after the meeting I didn't feel like stopping to eat...Then when I got home all I wanted to do was lay in bed [which I've been doing the last hour]. -.-; But now I have a migraine from hell. @.< It just makes me want to eat even less.
It's not a starvation diet so much as something to get my cholesterol down and try to ease up the inflammation in my body. I'm just complaining because I like red meat and mushrooms and potatoes and grilled cheese and salt, and all of those are a big red no on this diet. Plus salmon is just terrible IMO.
SNOW!!! I think I was warmer before I opened my blinds...
Quote from: DianaP on February 21, 2013, 09:29:48 PM
Well, that's fine, I suppose, Mr. history major, but if a kid wants to attend a TECHNICAL high school, s/he should learn how to perform basic arithmetic. It's not really that hard. 0.35 divided by two is basically asking, "What number when added to itself gives you 0.35?"
Answer: 0.175. Done. :(
This is my gripe too! Kids graduate from high school and want a job as a cashier in a store but can't do simple general math to tally up the customer's items, add in tax and make change when there is a temporary power outage. I saw an 8th grade quiz sheet from the late 1800's that today's college grads would surely fail. America's scholastic institutions are passing out big GPA's to people destined to failure. The dumbing down of America is operational and on full speed ahead!
I want food but I don't want to spend money on the food and I don't want to deal with the dishes in the sink.
Being home sick is great. It's just the sick part that sucks.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 10:35:32 AM
Being home sick is great. It's just the sick part that sucks.
Aww... feel better! * hug *
... well, maybe I'll take the hug back if you're contagious :P
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 22, 2013, 10:36:42 AM
Aww... feel better! * hug *
... well, maybe I'll take the hug back if you're contagious :P
Yes, very contagious >:-) :icon_evil_laugh:
Not really. Thanks for the hug though. At least I'm better than I was Wednesday afternoon ;D
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 10:48:32 AM
Yes, very contagious >:-) :icon_evil_laugh:
Not really. Thanks for the hug though. At least I'm better than I was Wednesday afternoon ;D
Good to hear! I preemptively answered your groundhog question, sorry :P (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,136070.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,136070.0.html))
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 11:53:10 AM
getting up at 4:45 then going to work for only a few hours makes it seem like a long day and its just now lunch.
An old roommate once told me that days felt longer after he started sleeping at night...
I've worked 2 pm to 10:30 pm for the last couple years, but since we have new people, I'm going to opening shift. More hours and it's going to be nice to be at home in the evenings. It means I have a lot of paperwork to do now along with going to the bank every day I work to make the deposits, but I don't have to do all the cleanup stuff that I did before. My dog has to get used to the new schedule though. He got mad at me this morning though and peed on my pillow in the living room, the little s**t.
That I got a 20 year backlog of PMS all in one go this week.
Quote from: Rowan Rue on February 22, 2013, 12:08:10 PM
That I got a 20 year backlog of PMS all in one go this week.
*hugs and then runs away in case of sudden fire-breathing* Feel better!
And darn it, but I asked a variation anyway :P
Supposed to be going to Hooters tonight with my cousin.
Hooters!
Quote from: Malachite on February 22, 2013, 12:20:03 PM
Supposed to be going to Hooters tonight with my cousin.
Hooters!
Well, hey...nothing wrong with enjoying the view as long as you're there :3
And somehow turning my head resulted in a half-awake and very disgruntled puppy, who glared at me and then went back to sleep.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 12:30:13 PM
Well, hey...nothing wrong with enjoying the view as long as you're there :3
I will certainly try to get an eye-full, well as much as I can at least while not setting off any red flags to my cousin lol. I wanted to go for my gradauation but everyone in my family was being a jerk about it.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 12:03:33 PM
My dog has to get used to the new schedule though. He got mad at me this morning though and peed on my pillow in the living room, the little s**t.
How
dare you get more hours and wake up early? :P
and....baby Dragon Trees (http://i654.photobucket.com/albums/uu261/MauvaisAnge/9bece342-2734-4f4b-8a6b-2bd740fcf83e.jpg)! :3 I'll eventually be able to get dragon's blood from them. ^^
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 22, 2013, 02:52:05 PM
What does that mean, Aaron?
Dragon's blood is the name of the red sap that comes out of the trees if you cut them just right. I can't get it out of them until they're a lot bigger and older, but I can't wait.:) The resin is often used in religious and spiritual ways. I plan on using it for myself [though I am giving some to a friend once I can because he'd love some] and then I'll be selling the rest. :)
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 12:03:33 PM
I've worked 2 pm to 10:30 pm for the last couple years, but since we have new people, I'm going to opening shift. More hours and it's going to be nice to be at home in the evenings. It means I have a lot of paperwork to do now along with going to the bank every day I work to make the deposits, but I don't have to do all the cleanup stuff that I did before. My dog has to get used to the new schedule though. He got mad at me this morning though and peed on my pillow in the living room, the little s**t.
He's still alive? :icon_peace:
I am wondering how anyone actually passes their driving tests! It seems like very few people actaully use their turn signals or use the passing lane for actual passing. But come to think of it I think I actually ran a stop sign during my driving test & still got my license....maybe this is why there are always so many accidents!
Quote from: spring0721 on February 22, 2013, 03:08:05 PM
I am wondering how anyone actually passes their driving tests! It seems like very few people actaully use their turn signals or use the passing lane for actual passing. But come to think of it I think I actually ran a stop sign during my driving test & still got my license....maybe this is why there are always so many accidents!
You have a good point there Miss Spring, however in your case the driving tester probably wasn't paying attention to your driving skills anyway. :laugh:
Quote from: spring0721 on February 22, 2013, 03:08:05 PM
I am wondering how anyone actually passes their driving tests! It seems like very few people actaully use their turn signals or use the passing lane for actual passing. But come to think of it I think I actually ran a stop sign during my driving test & still got my license....maybe this is why there are always so many accidents!
Some people don't really have driving tests. :P I held my permit for 9 months and then took two weeks of "driving instruction" and it was ridiculous at how easy it was.
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 09:54:02 AM
America's scholastic institutions are passing out big GPA's to people destined to failure. The dumbing down of America is operational and on full speed ahead!
I know! It's why I think college is overrated. :P
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 12:03:33 PM
My dog has to get used to the new schedule though. He got mad at me this morning though and peed on my pillow in the living room, the little s**t.
That's how people settled things back in the day...the Stone Age.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 12:30:13 PM
And somehow turning my head resulted in a half-awake and very disgruntled puppy, who glared at me and then went back to sleep.
Too cute!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fth03.deviantart.net%2Ffs13%2F200H%2Ff%2F2007%2F064%2F2%2Fd%2FHalf_awake_Puppy_by_smilexquirky.png&hash=13f6e646bcf1ccee33dc126f47d7baf53e8999b4)
Anywho, what do you all think about which is cuter: Baby Emperor Penguins or puppies? ??? (I vote on penguins)
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 03:31:24 PM
Anywho, what do you all think about which is cuter: Baby Emperor Penguins or puppies? ??? (I vote on penguins)
I can't decide! T.T I think all baby animals are cute. x3 I go gaga over freshly hatched baby birds...and lizards....just about any baby animal. >.>
How can you not vote for those wittle faces?!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F-eP7vbE0wdUU%2FTZ79uo334FI%2FAAAAAAAACHk%2FkrBa8WjRJi8%2Fs400%2Fbaby%2Bpenguins%2B1.jpg&hash=91a9ade46802ee3cb60dc160ecc3c58ced4f946f)
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 03:39:12 PM
How can you not vote for those wittle faces?!
What about these guys?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fgallery.photo.net%2Fphoto%2F8504624-md.jpg&hash=f43f6492444b30a0e16b5329e1bdf3971c1c3234)
Baby ravens. x3 They're so adorable!
I just love babies...Well, non-primate animal babies.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F24.media.tumblr.com%2Ftumblr_lvunlcN9JU1qhn8tao1_500.jpg&hash=fa25abc9a0ee988952d3fa357cd124f359ac549a)
...and then we have the abomination known as human babies. No pics needed.
In other news, just came back from the doctor's office and apparently I dropped 11 pounds. Woo :P
I still feel fat though.
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 03:31:24 PM
I know! It's why I think college is overrated. :P
Well, I spent how many years in college and in graduate classes, and I can honestly say I haven't learned anything there that I couldn't have learned from the library. Those pieces of paper...aka degrees....come with a big price tag too!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 04:03:11 PM
...and then we have the abomination known as human babies. No pics needed.
Uh-oh are you telling us that you were never a baby after all that projectile vomiting? I'm not buying it!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 04:03:11 PM
In other news, just came back from the doctor's office and apparently I dropped 11 pounds. Woo :P
I still feel fat though.
Now you've got me going, you can't fool us with that comment Liminal Stranger, we've seen your photo and you are not hardly or ever will be faaaat!
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 04:12:53 PM
Uh-oh are you telling us that you were never a baby after all that projectile vomiting? I'm not buying it!
I acknowledge that I am the biggest mistake my parents ever made, so that "you were a baby once too" argument won't work on me. I still don't want kids. :P
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 04:12:53 PM
Now you've got me going, you can't fool us with that comment Liminal Stranger, we've seen your photo and you are not hardly or ever will be faaaat!
I haven't seen your photo...
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 04:12:53 PM
Uh-oh are you telling us that you were never a baby after all that projectile vomiting? I'm not buying it!
Oh, I was a demon baby. I just recognize that most are monsters, even though they were never as evil as me >:-)
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 04:12:53 PM
Now you've got me going, you can't fool us with that comment Liminal Stranger, we've seen your photo and you are not hardly or ever will be faaaat!
But I'm shoooorrrrttttt! And admittedly squishy. I dislike that and want to fix it when I have time.
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 04:17:26 PM
I haven't seen your photo...
Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain :3
Quote from: Edge on February 22, 2013, 03:48:23 PM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F24.media.tumblr.com%2Ftumblr_lvunlcN9JU1qhn8tao1_500.jpg&hash=fa25abc9a0ee988952d3fa357cd124f359ac549a)
I saw this the other day...I about died. xD They're so
cute!
....random thought...I think I'm the only gay, feminine/andro guy in my trans* support group. All of the other guys are rather "manly" and like girls [solely like girls] for relationships. It's not that I'm adverse to dating a women romantically, but there just couldn't be sex. At least not in my current mindset.
They are adorable, I want one!
So long as we're talking about cute animals...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fthedesigninspiration.com%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2009%2F09%2Fcute-animals%2Fbaby01.jpg&hash=eda272ea70737840d377711ed6f610b3a85e27ab)
2 in one! ;D
Bonus points, how many opossums?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1279.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fy537%2FDevlynMarie%2Fpossums_feelsru-080310_zps616bdb90.jpg&hash=ddec8b97676dccd7be092a8303203254166be916)
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 22, 2013, 05:28:10 PM
Bonus points, how many opossums?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1279.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fy537%2FDevlynMarie%2Fpossums_feelsru-080310_zps616bdb90.jpg&hash=ddec8b97676dccd7be092a8303203254166be916)
Nine!
That's good varmint countin, lady!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 22, 2013, 05:46:33 PM
That's good varmint countin, lady!
I saw that extra pair of ears sticking up, where's my prize?
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 05:55:11 PM
I saw that extra pair of ears sticking up, where's my prize?
Here's your prize!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Femuisemo.com%2FFoodie%2FTNpork%2Fcreamedpossum.jpg&hash=083337c82994ca6d021f926fa511faad5d9537d0)
Poor possums =( They're too cute to be eaten.
And...
"Godzilla Raids Tokyo" is on. :D
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 06:05:14 PM
Here's your prize!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Femuisemo.com%2FFoodie%2FTNpork%2Fcreamedpossum.jpg&hash=083337c82994ca6d021f926fa511faad5d9537d0)
Gee thanks Crazy Girl!
Did you get a raise at work?
Quote from: Shantel on February 22, 2013, 06:14:42 PM
Gee thanks Crazy Girl!
Did you get a raise at work?
You're quite welcome. you might want to make some cornbread to go with it.
And no, not since last fall.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 06:20:43 PM
You're quite welcome. you might want to make some cornbread to go with it.
And no, not since last fall.
Think I'll pass it on to the church ladies who come by collecting canned goods for the homeless.
You should get a raise if you're handling all that extra new responsibility. I'll have to have a talk with your employer.
-.- My mom says she wants to learn, but at the same time won't go with me to any SAGA meetings and won't talk properly about this stuff. Ugh.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 22, 2013, 07:19:23 PM
Cute? To me they look like evil. :P
:P You don't know what's good for you. :P
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 06:05:14 PM
Here's your prize!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Femuisemo.com%2FFoodie%2FTNpork%2Fcreamedpossum.jpg&hash=083337c82994ca6d021f926fa511faad5d9537d0)
This is sad but people in Kentucky and Tennessee out in the hills really shoot possums to eat them:( they think they're good.
When ever I start to feel dysphoric about my chest I need to start thinking to myself, "Well at least I'm not Norma Sitz".
Quote from: Malachite on February 22, 2013, 08:20:53 PM
When ever I start to feel dysphoric about my chest I need to start thinking to myself, "Well at least I'm not Norma Sitz".
I know I feel so bad for her, she must have back problems :(
Quote from: spring0721 on February 22, 2013, 08:33:09 PM
I know I feel so bad for her, she must have back problems :(
102ZZZ and 56 pounds EACH?!?!?!?!?! :o
Holy crap, her govt. should get her a breast reduction and pay her for her suffering. :o
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 08:36:24 PM
102ZZZ and 56 pounds EACH?!?!?!?!?! :o
Holy crap, her govt. should get her a breast reduction and pay her for her suffering. :o
...Those put together weigh around as much as me, and I'm fat .-.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 08:40:10 PM
...Those put together weigh around as much as me, and I'm fat .-.
How tall are you? If 112 pounds makes you fat, you must be a gnome!
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 08:41:44 PM
How tall are you? If 112 pounds makes you fat, you must be a gnome!
I'm anywhere from 4'9 to almost 4'11 depending on where I'm measured and what my spine feels like doing.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 08:43:00 PM
I'm anywhere from 4'9 to almost 4'11
Congratulations, you're "medium." :P
I don't want to know how much I weight. Entirely too much.
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 08:44:33 PM
Congratulations, you're "medium." :P
But I have small bones ;-;
Seriously, I have too much fat for my liking. I don't care if it sounds girly- I can be a boy and also want to be thin.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 08:47:52 PM
But I have small bones ;-;
Seriously, I have too much fat for my liking. I don't care if it sounds girly- I can be a boy and also want to be thin.
:eusa_wall:
No one's saying you can't. We're just saying that you may not actually be fat. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 08:48:58 PM
:eusa_wall:
No one's saying you can't. We're just saying that you may not actually be fat. :P
B-but....
I have to sit around and cry about it otherwise I'll eat bacon until I weigh 500 pounds :'(
>.> If it's off of the BMI, that thing is crap. It doesn't take into build and whether or not you have muscle. I'm 5'10" and am at 192 lbs. According to the BMI, I need to be 42 lbs lighter to be at a "proper" weight. >.>;
I understand wanting to be thin. :3 I want to be thin, too, but not so thin that my bones are sticking out.
And almost done with my DoDEA application. :D
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 22, 2013, 08:50:51 PM
>.> If it's off of the BMI, that thing is crap.
Taking into consideration average bodily composition, it's the closest thing possible. If there are any extenuating circumstances, then it's crap, but it's good for "average" people.
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 08:53:16 PM
Taking into consideration average bodily composition, it's the closest thing possible. If there are any extenuating circumstances, then it's crap, but it's good for "average" people.
The issue is the idea of "average". I've met so many healthy, toned people who are constantly being told they need to lose weight because their BMI is high due to muscle mass. Likewise I've met unhealthy people who could stand to tone up, but they're in the right BMI range. Then I've met people in the middle. The BMI is infuriating to me because it won't take build [small, medium, large, etc] into mind.
I couldn't healthily be at 150, but I've had people I need to get down to it to be healthy. @.< It frustrates me to no end.
It uses build...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F-VMPk30w9VDo%2FTb8FNOP8vkI%2FAAAAAAAAAHk%2FuxS2k8k0g6k%2Fs1600%2Fheight-weight-chart.gif&hash=75c4cbce9d5652c2a6ec48fdbbd5f5fd77797670)
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 09:20:46 PM
It uses build...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F-VMPk30w9VDo%2FTb8FNOP8vkI%2FAAAAAAAAAHk%2FuxS2k8k0g6k%2Fs1600%2Fheight-weight-chart.gif&hash=75c4cbce9d5652c2a6ec48fdbbd5f5fd77797670)
That must be new. Every generator on the health sites I've been on won't take build into consideration. =/
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 09:20:46 PM
It uses build...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F-VMPk30w9VDo%2FTb8FNOP8vkI%2FAAAAAAAAAHk%2FuxS2k8k0g6k%2Fs1600%2Fheight-weight-chart.gif&hash=75c4cbce9d5652c2a6ec48fdbbd5f5fd77797670)
...but what about guys under 5'2? :c
I need more muscle and to eat healthier.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 09:29:14 PM
...but what about guys under 5'2? :c
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.timigustafson.com%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2009%2F05%2FWeight-Height-chart.jpg&hash=072d3c2c8f3382ce0541d4bc6204e40a125ac35b)
Since you're 4'11'', 5' is close enough. Sorry, but short men aren't considered on most charts. ???
Now, isn't there an interesting discrepancy in the numbers on those charts? Also, boo. At least we find all the spare change and then use it to buy useful stuff to shove in our pockets :P
There isn't a discrepancy. One gives you a range, while the other gives you one number. It's pretty close, which is impressive considering all of the variation on this info.
I like the male one better. :P I don't have to lose so much weight there.
I really need to get more PS2 games. Sims Castaway, DBZ BT 2, and GTA Vice City are in the mix of what I need to get
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 09:20:46 PM
It uses build...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F-VMPk30w9VDo%2FTb8FNOP8vkI%2FAAAAAAAAAHk%2FuxS2k8k0g6k%2Fs1600%2Fheight-weight-chart.gif&hash=75c4cbce9d5652c2a6ec48fdbbd5f5fd77797670)
I'm very overweight no matter how you slice it. I miss being skinnier. Losing weight has always been excruciatingly difficult for me. :(
It's going to be months before I'm a decent weight even if I go crazy with the dieting and exercise. So much work, and I'll probably end up failing, so I save myself the disappointment and don't even try. I've failed dieting and failed with my exercise enough times.
Too much squishy. I can see my ribs and yet my pathetically sparse-haired stomach is squishy.
Shaved a ridiculous amount of white fuzz off my chin and surrounding areas. Now it's all itchy.
Quote from: Trixie on February 22, 2013, 10:13:59 PM
It's going to be months before I'm a decent weight even if I go crazy with the dieting and exercise. So much work, and I'll probably end up failing, so I save myself the disappointment and don't even try. I've failed dieting and failed with my exercise enough times.
Then keep on trying! You only failed once: when you stopped trying!
When I first came to the US, I gained weight. I lost it with effort! :icon_pelvic_thrust2:
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 10:22:37 PM
Then keep on trying! You only failed once: when you stopped trying!
When I first came to the US, I gained weight. I lost it with effort! :icon_pelvic_thrust2:
I used to have access to exercise equipment, and healthy good food, and nice things when I lived at home. Nowadays, I don't have many ways to lose weight other than run or something, and I'm very self-conscious about appearing out in public like that.
I'm sorry to be so negative. I really, really want to be thinner.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 22, 2013, 10:26:06 PM
Giggling has got to be one of the most annoying sounds there is.
Are you sure?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xkp7wsJc8MI (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xkp7wsJc8MI)
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 22, 2013, 10:21:45 PM
Too much squishy. I can see my ribs and yet my pathetically sparse-haired stomach is squishy.
Shaved a ridiculous amount of white fuzz off my chin and surrounding areas. Now it's all itchy.
My stomach's squishy. :P So's my hips and my butt. :P
[Yes, that isn't proper grammar, I'm aware.]
Anyway...
...Alien show on t.v.! I love it. x3
There is no such thing as a non-squishy stomach. Humans are all squishy, except for our bones. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 10:33:19 PM
There is no such thing as a non-squishy stomach. Humans are all squishy, except for our bones. :P
I've got a little more squish than necessary. :P
But I'm lazy so it probably won't go away anytime soon. >.>;
And...there's something wrong with me, I swear. There's a subgenre of yaoi that I absolutely love, but it's so weird.
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 10:33:19 PM
There is no such thing as a non-squishy stomach. Humans are all squishy, except for our bones. :P
But this one is really squishy. Too squishy. Must be leaner and not squishy like the hideous things growing on my chest. Those need to be not squishy too.
Quote from: DianaP on February 22, 2013, 09:20:46 PM
It uses build...
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F-VMPk30w9VDo%2FTb8FNOP8vkI%2FAAAAAAAAAHk%2FuxS2k8k0g6k%2Fs1600%2Fheight-weight-chart.gif&hash=75c4cbce9d5652c2a6ec48fdbbd5f5fd77797670)
I'm underweight almost no matter how you look at at it compared to my height.
I'm watching an online lesbian drama on Youtube and I look at the comments and a lot of people are like "I'm not really gay but I love this." or "I'm straight but this show is the best." etc. I'm thinking to myself "are you serious?" You don't have to be gay to enjoy a show that's centered around gays/lesbians. It's good that you enjoy the show but please be a bit more secure in your identity. You don't see gay people watching a straight show but saying "I'm gay/lesbian but I just love this show!!!!" Just say you love the show. Gosh it almost seems like people are scared of others thinking they are gay because they like a gay show. I can understand that logic of other people were physically around but online?
Rant over
I agree with your rant.
I'm also still mad at myself. *sigh*
I agree with Malachite's rant as well.
I also have a rant on eating disorders and healthy eating, but... no one tends to listen when I rant about such things.
Why are you mad at yourself, Caleb?
My friend wants me to go see a movie with her that I don't want to see. I want to see another one instead. Oh well.
Quote from: spring0721 on February 22, 2013, 08:07:53 PM
This is sad but people in Kentucky and Tennessee out in the hills really shoot possums to eat them:( they think they're good.
Way to put down someone's lifestyle. Opossum is a common meal for people who hunt for their own food. The internet is loaded with possum recipes. I've never tried it, but I wouldn't hesitate to sit down at the table for this:
Ingredients:
1 large possum, skinned, dressed, and washed
1 quart beer
4 tablespoons Tabasco sauce
1 1/2 tablespoon salt
2 onions, chopped
1 clove garlic, minced
2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
4 sweet potatoes
2 ribs celery, chopped
1 ounce whiskey
directions:
Mix the beer, whiskey, salt, Tabasco sauce, and Worcestershire sauce together. Place possum in a large roasting pan. Sprinkle the celery, onions, and the garlic all over the possum. Pour the liquid mixture over the possum as well. Cover and refrigerate overnight. Preheat oven to 350F. Place the sweet potatoes around the possum. Bake covered for 1 1/2 hours. Baste once or twice with the marinade from the pan as the possum cooks.
Now doesn't that sound like any roast? Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Malachite on February 23, 2013, 01:37:58 AM
I'm watching an online lesbian drama on Youtube and I look at the comments and a lot of people are like "I'm not really gay but I love this." or "I'm straight but this show is the best." etc. I'm thinking to myself "are you serious?" You don't have to be gay to enjoy a show that's centered around gays/lesbians. It's good that you enjoy the show but please be a bit more secure in your identity. You don't see gay people watching a straight show but saying "I'm gay/lesbian but I just love this show!!!!" Just say you love the show. Gosh it almost seems like people are scared of others thinking they are gay because they like a gay show. I can understand that logic of other people were physically around but online?
Rant over
I concur!
I think people think that eating an opossum is creepy because they look like large rats. I used to have a Belgian Schipperke, they kill rats. This dog suffocated two large Opossums in my back yard thinking they were rats.
Right now i'm thinking my ex is an idiot, she had the chance to have Poopie on weekends when I move into my new place in a month but she's shown her true self & blown it, she'll probably never see him again now.
I'm also thinking i'm over the moon that poopie is back with his rightful owner. . . . .me!
Happy, happy, joy, joy!!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 23, 2013, 07:44:48 AM
Way to put down someone's lifestyle. Opossum is a common meal for people who hunt for their own food. The internet is loaded with possum recipes. I've never tried it, but I wouldn't hesitate to sit down at the table for this:
Ingredients:
1 large possum, skinned, dressed, and washed
1 quart beer
4 tablespoons Tabasco sauce
1 1/2 tablespoon salt
2 onions, chopped
1 clove garlic, minced
2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
4 sweet potatoes
2 ribs celery, chopped
1 ounce whiskey
directions:
Mix the beer, whiskey, salt, Tabasco sauce, and Worcestershire sauce together. Place possum in a large roasting pan. Sprinkle the celery, onions, and the garlic all over the possum. Pour the liquid mixture over the possum as well. Cover and refrigerate overnight. Preheat oven to 350F. Place the sweet potatoes around the possum. Bake covered for 1 1/2 hours. Baste once or twice with the marinade from the pan as the possum cooks.
Now doesn't that sound like any roast? Hugs, Devlyn
Devlyn,
Not exactly putting it down, as MY family are the ones shooting , killing and eating the things! :) I just am not fond of all my childhood memories here that involved my grandfather making me watch while he gutted the nasty possum and then made me eat it. I kind of thought it was just people here in TN (where I live) and KY that actually ate them. My grandfather always just said it was a 'southern hills tradition'.......
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 09:05:54 AM
Devlyn,
Not exactly putting it down, as MY family are the ones shooting , killing and eating the things! :) I just am not found of all my childhood memories here that involved my grandfather making me watch while he gutted the nasty possum and then made me eat it. I kind of thought it was just people here in TN (where I live) and KY that actually ate them. My grandfather always just said it was a 'southern hills tradition'.......
Hopefully possum-eating will stick to the southern hills and not make its way farther north :P
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 23, 2013, 09:13:15 AM
Hopefully possum-eating will stick to the southern hills and not make its way farther north :P
Here in Washington state we drive our cars over them. Possum road pizza anyone?
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 23, 2013, 09:13:15 AM
Hopefully possum-eating will stick to the southern hills and not make its way farther north :P
Yeah, I brought a friend home from college with me once, she was from Chicago, when my grandfather tried to serve her possum, first she thought he was joking, then I think she got sick in the bathroom.....but it's probably just one of those things that's not weird if that's what you grew up eating all the time. She never came back to visit with my grandparents again, hey it's diverse cultures that make the world go round! :)
Quote from: Malachite on February 23, 2013, 01:37:58 AM
I'm watching an online lesbian drama on Youtube and I look at the comments and a lot of people are like "I'm not really gay but I love this." or "I'm straight but this show is the best." etc. I'm thinking to myself "are you serious?" You don't have to be gay to enjoy a show that's centered around gays/lesbians. It's good that you enjoy the show but please be a bit more secure in your identity. You don't see gay people watching a straight show but saying "I'm gay/lesbian but I just love this show!!!!" Just say you love the show. Gosh it almost seems like people are scared of others thinking they are gay because they like a gay show. I can understand that logic of other people were physically around but online?
Rant over
Exactly! Do you have to be a bird to enjoy a documentary about birds? Or a woman to enjoy a show where the protagonist is a girl? In the end, it doesn't significantly impact your life that some people on the internet now know of your status as a heterosexual fan of this show. It's like saying "no homo" after a sentence because you think it sounded a little sexual or weird or whatever. Point is, no one cares. Now get on with life and focus on something more trying than your quest to prove awesomeness as a heterosexual person because that just makes you lame.
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 09:05:54 AM
Devlyn,
Not exactly putting it down, as MY family are the ones shooting , killing and eating the things! :) I just am not found of all my childhood memories here that involved my grandfather making me watch while he gutted the nasty possum and then made me eat it. I kind of thought it was just people here in TN (where I live) and KY that actually ate them. My grandfather always just said it was a 'southern hills tradition'.......
I hope that tradition stays in the hills and doesn't migrate down to GA. Even though with some people it may have. :eusa_think:
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 23, 2013, 07:44:48 AM
Way to put down someone's lifestyle. Opossum is a common meal for people who hunt for their own food. The internet is loaded with possum recipes. I've never tried it, but I wouldn't hesitate to sit down at the table for this:
Ingredients:
1 large possum, skinned, dressed, and washed
1 quart beer
4 tablespoons Tabasco sauce
1 1/2 tablespoon salt
2 onions, chopped
1 clove garlic, minced
2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
4 sweet potatoes
2 ribs celery, chopped
1 ounce whiskey
directions:
Mix the beer, whiskey, salt, Tabasco sauce, and Worcestershire sauce together. Place possum in a large roasting pan. Sprinkle the celery, onions, and the garlic all over the possum. Pour the liquid mixture over the possum as well. Cover and refrigerate overnight. Preheat oven to 350F. Place the sweet potatoes around the possum. Bake covered for 1 1/2 hours. Baste once or twice with the marinade from the pan as the possum cooks.
Now doesn't that sound like any roast? Hugs, Devlyn
:eusa_snooty: No Thanks
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 09:05:54 AM
Devlyn,
Not exactly putting it down, as MY family are the ones shooting , killing and eating the things! :) I just am not fond of all my childhood memories here that involved my grandfather making me watch while he gutted the nasty possum and then made me eat it. I kind of thought it was just people here in TN (where I live) and KY that actually ate them. My grandfather always just said it was a 'southern hills tradition'.......
Uh-oh! I hope that wasn't your grandfather's recipe I stole! I understand it to be like a pork roast, although I have no tastebuds-on experience. There's plenty of the critters around here, I should put my money where my mouth is and roast one up. Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 23, 2013, 09:36:42 AM
Uh-oh! I hope that wasn't your grandfather's recipe I stole! I understand it to be like a pork roast, although I have no tastebuds-on experience. There's plenty of the critters around here, I should put my money where my mouth is and roast one up. Hugs, Devlyn
Haha...I don't think that was his recipe! Although he did like to marinate the possum in homemade moonshine! :) I always found the meat to be a little tough tho....I think you should.....you need to make a possum roast, devlyn!
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 09:50:03 AM
Haha...I don't think that was his recipe! Although he did like to marinate the possum in homemade moonshine! :) I always found the meat to be a little tough tho....I think you should.....you need to make a possum roast, devlyn!
I have a tendency to post pictures of my cooking.........brace yourselves, forum!
Quote from: Shantel on February 23, 2013, 07:59:48 AM
I think people think that eating an opossum is creepy because they look like large rats. I used to have a Belgian Schipperke, they kill rats. This dog suffocated two large Opossums in my back yard thinking they were rats.
Or because they're cute. :P I generally have an aversion to eating cute things.
@ Devlyn: I don't think it was putting someone's lifestyle down anymore than saying you* won't eat dog because you* think dogs are pets. Or horses. Or rabbits. Or cats. And yet plenty of people in a variety of cultures eat those critters. I personally won't eat those critters [except to try it because I'll try just about anything once, but it won't become a habit] due to viewing them as pets. I won't eat baby animals, either, on the grounds they're babies [veal, lamb, etc. are
not allowed in my home or mouth though I have tried them for the reason stated earlier...well, except for veal, but I know about the cruel treatment they receive prior to being killed]. However, other people can eat if they want. I just won't agree with the decision.
* = general 'you' and not a specific 'you'
Breaking news! As much as I have my heart set on a possum dinner, just look at the cholesterol numbers in the chart!
http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/lamb-veal-and-game-products/4645/2 (http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/lamb-veal-and-game-products/4645/2)
That's assuming you ate 6 servings! :laugh:
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 23, 2013, 10:11:16 AM
Breaking news! As much as I have my heart set on a possum dinner, just look at the cholesterol numbers in the chart!
http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/lamb-veal-and-game-products/4645/2 (http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/lamb-veal-and-game-products/4645/2)
Good gosh! No wonder my poor granddad died of a heart attack & had very HIGH cholesterol!
Onto more tempting foods......this has made me realize I want something to eat without ANY meat in it today:) time to bake a yummy chocolate cake!
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 10:19:19 AM
Good gosh! No wonder my poor granddad died of a heart attack & had very HIGH cholesterol!
Onto more tempting foods......this has made me realize I want something to eat without ANY meat in it today:) time to bake a yummy chocolate cake!
Be right there! ;D
Quote from: Shantel on February 23, 2013, 10:25:39 AM
Be right there! ;D
Haha! Hey yeah why not.....party at my house:) everyones invited
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 10:19:19 AM
Good gosh! No wonder my poor granddad died of a heart attack & had very HIGH cholesterol!
Onto more tempting foods......this has made me realize I want something to eat without ANY meat in it today:) time to bake a yummy chocolate cake!
Inspired me might make some cupcakes tonight still got icing kicking around the pantry that my sister is slowly going through one small spoonful at a time speaking of her ill get her to help always says she likes baking and cooking but never helps when i do either^^
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 10:28:22 AM
Haha! Hey yeah why not.....party at my house:) everyones invited
I knew it, Party Girl! Is that what you took as your graduate course in college? :D
Am I really not allowed to be myself because people think they should be in control of me and don't like who I really am? Like it or not, I'm all boy and this is only making me angry. Legal age can't come fast enough.
Quote from: Shantel on February 23, 2013, 10:37:46 AM
I knew it, Party Girl! Is that what you took as your graduate course in college? :D
Oh yes, auntie shan.....that's me, party party. Getting a masters in it :) haha TOTALLY being sarcastic here...in case you couldn't tell!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 23, 2013, 10:42:03 AM
Am I really not allowed to be myself because people think they should be in control of me and don't like who I really am? Like it or not, I'm all boy and this is only making me angry. Legal age can't come fast enough.
Sorry liminal:( I'll be hoping time flies by until your bday!
@kitten.....cupcakes! Yum......I hate keeping leftover icing in the refrigerator because I'm like your sister, I'll eat a spoonful......it's so bad but so good!
"I'm not scared of heights; I'm scared of falling."
...No you're not. The fall is fun. It's the collision with the ground that's scary. :P
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 10:19:19 AM
Good gosh! No wonder my poor granddad died of a heart attack & had very HIGH cholesterol!
Onto more tempting foods......this has made me realize I want something to eat without ANY meat in it today:) time to bake a yummy chocolate cake!
Chocolate cake? Don't tell me the nutrition facts, I'm eating it anyway!
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 10:51:01 AM
@kitten.....cupcakes! Yum......I hate keeping leftover icing in the refrigerator because I'm like your sister, I'll eat a spoonful......it's so bad but so good!
It's that or she refrains to just smelling it which can look kinda weird but when she is off on an angry rant it calms her right down^^ Will say I'm guilty of having an extreme need for sweets least gotta get something sweet after i eat supper or i just don't feel right :P
Quote from: spring0721 on February 23, 2013, 10:47:59 AM
Oh yes, auntie shan.....that's me, party party. Getting a masters in it :) haha TOTALLY being sarcastic here...in case you couldn't tell!
I got a masters in it without ever going to college! :icon_peace:
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 10:51:25 AM
"I'm not scared of heights; I'm scared of falling."
...No you're not. The fall is fun. It's the collision with the ground that's scary. :P
It's not the fall that hurts, it's that sudden stop that will get you every time! :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on February 23, 2013, 10:56:05 AM
It's not the fall that hurts, it's that sudden stop that will get you every time! :laugh:
Exactly! Curse you, linear momentum!!!!!
Which brings me to my next point: all of the problems in your life can be blamed on physics! :P
I want chocolate cupcakes, but I can't have milk or egg yolks or gluten or processed sugar. This diet sucks. On the other side of everything, my boyfriend is 5'2, something around 108 pounds, and would vacuum up an entire cake in 3 seconds flat.
Also my dad is being kicked out of his housing in the hotel because Red Cross is ending the stay there for displaced people. My grandmother isn't likely to take him and he's been being picky about finding a place. For ->-bleeped-<-'s sake, I'm NOT sharing my bed with him again. It just makes my life that much worse, not even mentioning the fisticuffs that went down when he stayed here the first time. Why.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 23, 2013, 11:03:42 AM
but I can't have milk or egg yolks or gluten or processed sugar. This diet sucks.
I agree. I agree with cutting down/out gluten and processed sugar (and starch), but milk and egg yolks are healthy. Egg yolks are full of nutrients and milk is a good source of calcium and stuff.
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 10:51:25 AM
"I'm not scared of heights; I'm scared of falling."
...No you're not. The fall is fun. It's the collision with the ground that's scary. :P
Nah, I'm actually scared of the fall. I don't like the sensation which is why I won't skydive. I'm fine with the collision because, if it's high enough, I'd die and not really care. :P And if it's short enough, I'll just hurt myself badly or not-so-badly. :P
Quote from: Edge on February 23, 2013, 11:51:13 AM
I agree. I agree with cutting down/out gluten and processed sugar (and starch), but milk and egg yolks are healthy. Egg yolks are full of nutrients and milk is a good source of calcium and stuff.
Yolks are good with nutrients but also bad with cholesterol. Here's hoping my numbers went down after this. Right now I'm on calcium, vitamin D, and a multivitamin for the past decade or so with a year in between. The doctor said I was old enough to stop them, we did, and a year later my levels came back so low (especially vitamin D) that I had to go right back on everything to get them in a more normal range.
But the problem? My mother's side of the family is Italian. Also she's going to get pizza now. :'(
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 23, 2013, 12:00:18 PM
Nah, I'm actually scared of the fall. I don't like the sensation which is why I won't skydive. I'm fine with the collision because, if it's high enough, I'd die and not really care. :P And if it's short enough, I'll just hurt myself badly or not-so-badly. :P
Do you like the sensation of being on a roller coaster? Wind flowing through your hair, fast pace, and flips? You can experience all of that when free-falling. The fall is fun, the collision is what hurts. :laugh:
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 23, 2013, 12:08:58 PM
Yolks are good with nutrients but also bad with cholesterol.
Cholesterol has an undeserved stigma. You actually need it for cell membrane fluidity. It's not all bad. Plus, I eat a dozen eggs per day at minimum, and I am perfectly healthy. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 12:11:03 PM
Do you like the sensation of being on a roller coaster? Wind flowing through your hair, fast pace, and flips? You can experience all of that when free-falling. The fall is fun, the collision is what hurts. :laugh:
Nope. I'm not a fan of roller coasters because I have an insane fear that they're going to break or that I'm going to get out of the restraints...and being so high up...it's scary. If I went wind in my hair and a fast pace, I'll go motorcycle riding. :P
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 23, 2013, 12:12:29 PM
Nope. I'm not a fan of roller coasters because I have an insane fear that they're going to break or that I'm going to get out of the restraints...and being so high up...it's scary.
So you're afraid of hurting yourself? Well, the fall doesn't hurt at all! :P
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 23, 2013, 12:00:18 PMNah, I'm actually scared of the fall. I don't like the sensation which is why I won't skydive. I'm fine with the collision because, if it's high enough, I'd die and not really care. :P And if it's short enough, I'll just hurt myself badly or not-so-badly. :P
Same with me. It's the complete lack of control during the fall I don't like.
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 12:11:03 PMCholesterol has an undeserved stigma. You actually need it for cell membrane fluidity. It's not all bad. Plus, I eat a dozen eggs per day at minimum, and I am perfectly healthy. :P
Indeed. Not all cholesterol is bad. Besides, I figure it's better to have the nutrients than not have the cholesterol.
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 12:11:03 PM
Cholesterol has an undeserved stigma. You actually need it for cell membrane fluidity. It's not all bad. Plus, I eat a dozen eggs per day at minimum, and I am perfectly healthy. :P
Hey, I'm in AP Bio :P
My body just seems to be really bad at processing...well, everything. Also, bone age came back as 17. I've heard many mixed reactions to that method of determining potential for growth, but c'mon. Can't I at least be 5 feet?
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 12:16:34 PM
So you're afraid of hurting yourself? Well, the fall doesn't hurt at all! :P
I'm fine with getting hurt. :P It's the fall itself that gets me. It's seeing something rush up so quick and having no control over the speed of it.
I'm afraid of elevators.
Liminal Stranger reminded me that I'm feeling squishy today too, so today I'm taking in only low sodium chicken broth. Besides daily workouts and normally a low-fat, zero sugar and low sodium diet I find that a quarterly denial of my gut and broth only keeps me from being Faaaaat!
I am thinking that having given my son a room to stay in (back in January), helped find him employment, helped buy him a car, and helped get him into an apartment... subtlety failing it's goal, I am now going to have to go wake him from his slumber, and tell him it's time to get packing.
Hate to be that way, but my life is a little nicer with an empty nest.
Quote from: Sadie May on February 23, 2013, 12:25:28 PM
I am thinking that having given my son a room to stay in (back in January), helped find him employment, helped buy him a car, and helped get him into an apartment... subtlety failing it's goal, I am now going to have to go wake him from his slumber, and tell him it's time to get packing.
Hate to be that way, but my life is a little nicer with an empty nest.
Been there Sadie, it's tough love! I did the same with my youngest and came home early one day. There he was asleep on the couch drooling on the cushion. I said, "Where's that job you were going to get?" He says, "I'm having a hard time finding one!" I say, "You sure won't find one with your face buried in those cushions, give me your key, you just moved!" If I had let him be a deadbeat he would never have grown up and probably still be lounging on my couch. I don't sponsor any flops!
Quote from: Shantel on February 23, 2013, 12:21:10 PM
Liminal Stranger reminded me that I'm feeling squishy today too, so today I'm taking in only low sodium chicken broth. Besides daily workouts and normally a low-fat, zero sugar and low sodium diet I find that a quarterly denial of my gut and broth only keeps me from being Faaaaat!
No, that's not right! :'(
I'm sure you're at a healthy weight. I just have really bad issues with being squishy because I associate it with not being tough, which pulls up another set of issues I don't like to think about.
I must become a titanium wall.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 23, 2013, 01:33:36 PMI must become a titanium wall.
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Quote from: Edge on February 23, 2013, 01:58:23 PM
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Yes.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 23, 2013, 09:21:07 AM
Exactly! Do you have to be a bird to enjoy a documentary about birds? Or a woman to enjoy a show where the protagonist is a girl? In the end, it doesn't significantly impact your life that some people on the internet now know of your status as a heterosexual fan of this show. It's like saying "no homo" after a sentence because you think it sounded a little sexual or weird or whatever. Point is, no one cares. Now get on with life and focus on something more trying than your quest to prove awesomeness as a heterosexual person because that just makes you lame.
That's exactly what I'm talking about. There was this girl in my class that told another girl in my class that she looked good in a picture but she immediately raised her hands up and said "no homo". That's just childish. People act like being anything other than straight is a disease.
I showered in my underwear. =/ Dysphoriaaaa.
People are so defensive about their sexuality. I remember one guy posted lyrics from Katy Perry's "Teenage Dream" on his FB, and then underneath he goes "I'm not gay, it's just a catchy song!!" Lol. I wouldn't be surprised if he was gay or bisexual, because on a lot of other occasions he was like that too.
oh and Max...you want squishy, I am squishy. Ha. Over the past two years I've gained...70 pounds. -_- I only want to lose 50 of them though. but still.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 23, 2013, 02:54:07 PM
I showered in my underwear. =/ Dysphoriaaaa.
People are so defensive about their sexuality. I remember one guy posted lyrics from Katy Perry's "Teenage Dream" on his FB, and then underneath he goes "I'm not gay, it's just a catchy song!!" Lol. I wouldn't be surprised if he was gay or bisexual, because on a lot of other occasions he was like that too.
LOL!
"Lady Doth protests too much, methinks"
What a lovely person faved couple of my artworks in y!Gallery...
QuoteDislikes: cultural blending, awful art, wretched story telling, interracial marriage/procreation, annoying people, trolls (both fae and not), ->-bleeped-<-ty software and technology, math, most sciences, you get the idea.
Sure, everyone has their likes and dislikes but... Is it totally wrong to have this lingering thought in my head not to want my artworks in that kinda person's favorites?
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 23, 2013, 01:33:36 PM
No, that's not right! :'(
I'm sure you're at a healthy weight. I just have really bad issues with being squishy because I associate it with not being tough, which pulls up another set of issues I don't like to think about.
I must become a titanium wall.
The secret to not being squishy is crunches, men and women can get great abs & lats doing crunches and become a titanium wall.
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B-but that's work! D:
On another note, been searching the web but nothing ever turns up. Can anyone else remove the color blue from their vision at will if they focus hard enough?
My parents had such a dumb/funny fight. They were driving to the store and my dad wouldn't stop going on about an issue he is having with our neighbour. So my mom tells him to stop being so negative about it, and that the attitude "wouldn't serve him well if he want back to teaching", and he got really mad. So she said "fine, we're going home, we'll shop later" and does a u-turn. He then gets angry at her for doing a u-turn, jumps out of the car, and slams the door.
She drove away and came home by herself. Lmao. All he has is his wallet...maybe. :P
Quote from: Caleb. on February 23, 2013, 05:43:25 PM
My parents had such a dumb/funny fight. They were driving to the store and my dad wouldn't stop going on about an issue he is having with our neighbour. So my mom tells him to stop being so negative about it, and that the attitude "wouldn't serve him well if he want back to teaching", and he got really mad. So she said "fine, we're going home, we'll shop later" and does a u-turn. He then gets angry at her for doing a u-turn, jumps out of the car, and slams the door.
She drove away and came home by herself. Lmao. All he has is his wallet...maybe. :P
Usually when a woman says "Fine" it's not fine! You're dad's in deep do-do! ;D
Oh, she's over it lol. He's the one who is steaming. He still ins't home.
I'm willing to bet money he called his mom and is crying at her house right now. :P
Icy patch - 1, me - 0 * limps away from computer to do laundry *
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 23, 2013, 06:57:15 PM
I am in a down swing in terms of unhappiness and anxiety the likes of which I have not experienced since I've been on T. It's been several weeks now. Not sure what I should do. (how bout tell your shrink, idjit :-X) It's a mite scary, having been in the best run of my life and now fallen off the wagon when things seem objectively good.
Not fun, my Best! (((Hugs)))
I can't pass up post #666!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 23, 2013, 07:22:25 PM
I can't pass up post #666!
Haha nice.
Posted my ranting question, crossing my fingers for advice. My head knows I'm ready, but someone upstairs is repeatedly slamming on the panic button.
Looks like the devil got it though.
I'm thinking I must be worthless.. The woman who claimed to love me (and who I loved) hit me and threw me out of her house at 4AM.. And I have no idea what I did wrong - one moment I was asleep, the next I was being hit and being told to get out.. :'(
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on February 23, 2013, 07:42:51 PM
I'm thinking I must be worthless.. The woman who claimed to love me (and who I loved) hit me and threw me out of her house at 4AM.. And I have no idea what I did wrong - one moment I was asleep, the next I was being hit and being told to get out.. :'(
Sorry, hon. Big hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on February 23, 2013, 07:42:51 PM
I'm thinking I must be worthless.. The woman who claimed to love me (and who I loved) hit me and threw me out of her house at 4AM.. And I have no idea what I did wrong - one moment I was asleep, the next I was being hit and being told to get out.. :'(
Don't know much about your prior situation, but it's best to steer clear of her. Feel better, and you are most certainly not worthless. You are a beautiful girl with a beautiful heart. Mine goes out to you.
Many hugs, and I hope everything works out for you.
Kelly, if you don't mind me saying it, she sounds like a real...jerk! >:(
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 22, 2013, 06:05:14 PM
Here's your prize!
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That's not real, is it?
HOOTERS!
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 23, 2013, 08:17:26 PM
Of course it is, I saw it on the internet.
I thought maybe you had it in your store. :icon_confused2:
Of course, my kinfolk go for this ...
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Squirrel on a stick"Them's good eatin'!"
No Jamie, we have much worse things, like grits and mountain dew...
Quote from: Malachite on February 23, 2013, 08:16:45 PM
HOOTERS!
"Family restaurant"! More like home- :laugh:wreckers!
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 08:34:49 PM
"Family restaurant"! More like home- :laugh:wreckers!
Lol hey it's family friendly! The nice lady gave my cousin's two year old some crayons and a picture so he can draw but his main focus was grabbing her legs. I'm jealous of him because he could do that and get away with it. They would throw me out of I tried that. :(
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 12:11:03 PM
Cholesterol has an undeserved stigma. You actually need it for cell membrane fluidity. It's not all bad. Plus, I eat a dozen eggs per day at minimum, and I am perfectly healthy. :P
Have you had your LDL, HDL, Total Cholesterol, and triglycerides measured?
I said the same thing at your age, before two angios and a three-way bypass.
Quote from: Malachite on February 23, 2013, 08:40:43 PM
Lol hey it's family friendly! The nice lady gave my cousin's two year old some crayons and a picture so he can draw but his main focus was grabbing her legs. I'm jealous of him because he could do that and get away with it. They would throw me out of I tried that. :(
Oh my gosh, a bad influence! :laugh:
Quote from: Pleasingly Plump Jamie D on February 23, 2013, 08:40:52 PM
Have you had your LDL, HDL, Total Cholesterol, and triglycerides measured?
I said the same thing at your age, before two angios and a three-way bypass.
2 doctors measured them, gave me an EKG, and gave me an echocardiogram. I was given a clean bill of health by both of them, so I'm pretty sure I'm fine. I'm insanely active to the point where I incinerate the stuff. :P
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 23, 2013, 08:26:53 PM
No Jamie, we have much worse things, like grits and mountain dew...
I love grits, fried in leftover bacon grease, and topped with shredded cheese.
No one can deny my southron roots.
Aw, Kelly. :( *hug* It's not you, it's obviously her if she's going to be so rash about things.
Quote from: Pleasingly Plump Jamie D on February 23, 2013, 08:46:03 PM
I love grits, fried in leftover bacon grease, and topped with shredded cheese.
I don't think that eggs are why you needed that bypass! :o
Mal: "How drunk was I last night?"
Jayne: "I don't know, I passed out."
Quote from: DianaP on February 23, 2013, 08:52:35 PM
I don't think that eggs are why you needed that bypass! :o
Whole lot of bad choices over many years, and sucky genetics too,
I had better get a job teaching in the UK through the DoDEA. -.-; I'd be willing to put off transition for a year or two in order to live in England.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 23, 2013, 10:54:45 PM
I'm very excited for my twenty-first birthday even though it's a ways off. Not because I can legally drink to celebrate, but because I can see the next Hobbit installment to celebrate. :icon_clap:
That's cool. ^^ I'll get to see it for my 25th birthday. :3
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 23, 2013, 10:54:45 PM
I'm very excited for my twenty-first birthday even though it's a ways off. Not because I can legally drink to celebrate, but because I can see the next Hobbit installment to celebrate. :icon_clap:
I thought you were 22 for some reason. o.O
I'm thinking about how was out a couple of hours ago to celebrate my first drink and i didn't even get carded while my cousin did. I told my mother about it and she made big googly eyes at me and said I'm not her baby anymore and that I'm a grown woman now. She said that she can't deny it anymore. I told her to keep denying it....though I doubt she knew I meant the "woman" part.
I strained my back....ouch.
Lap dances
Quote from: kkut on February 23, 2013, 11:25:17 PM
People actually eat these?
Ugh! They are rodents, just rats with fluffy tails! :icon_yikes:
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on February 23, 2013, 07:42:51 PM
I'm thinking I must be worthless.. The woman who claimed to love me (and who I loved) hit me and threw me out of her house at 4AM.. And I have no idea what I did wrong - one moment I was asleep, the next I was being hit and being told to get out.. :'(
No Kelly you are by no means worthless, don't waste another moment thinking that way. Obviously the woman has some huge mental issues, there could be no other reason for that kind of sudden insane drama at 4AM. I'm sorry that happened to you, it must be a huge disappointment because things seemed so blissful for you both earlier. Get past it and get well in your heart and soul hon, you are a worthy human being. ((Hugs)
I'm gently prodding at my boundaries by signing on here while sitting in an airport :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 23, 2013, 10:24:56 PM
I've had the Hero of Canton going round and round in my head since yesterday. :D
;D
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 24, 2013, 10:10:13 AM
I'm gently prodding at my boundaries by signing on here while sitting in an airport :)
Good for you! Just remember, most of those people are probably people you don't know and will never see again. Even if you do see them again, they likely won't remember you. :P
Jayne! The man they call Jayne! He robbed from the rich and he gave to the poor, stood to the man and he gave him what for. Our love love for him now ain't hard to explain. The hero of Canton, the man they call Jayne.
Quote from: Shantel on February 24, 2013, 08:29:18 AM
No Kelly you are by no means worthless, don't waste another moment thinking that way. Obviously the woman has some huge mental issues, there could be no other reason for that kind of sudden insane drama at 4AM. I'm sorry that happened to you, it must be a huge disappointment because things seemed so blissful for you both earlier. Get past it and get well in your heart and soul hon, you are a worthy human being. ((Hugs)
Agreed. Don't give her the time of day.
I have homework and tons of cleaning to do, but I'm lazy, ran out of garbage bags and have a headache.
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 24, 2013, 10:10:13 AM
I'm gently prodding at my boundaries by signing on here while sitting in an airport :)
Uh-oh watch out for the TG police! :icon_suspicious: :police: ;D
Wondering WHY my sons dad just had to give him a name with 9 letters in it! I've been trying to teach him to write it for the past 5 months. Without fail he always leaves the same letter out! I'm thinking it may be easier just to change the spelling of his name:)! It will save me a big headache.
UFC
Hooters
Alcohol
Video Games
Sleep
My life is currently procrastination and music with a helping of dysphoria on the side.
My hair is a frizzy mess today! :-\
Quote from: spring0721 on February 24, 2013, 01:33:26 PM
Wondering WHY my sons dad just had to give him a name with 9 letters in it! I've been trying to teach him to write it for the past 5 months. Without fail he always leaves the same letter out! I'm thinking it may be easier just to change the spelling of his name:)! It will save me a big headache.
He's pretty young still, be patient mommy! :)
I can tell my father is secretly pushing for me to just rather take money from him for my birthday instead of going out to eat. He always does that.
Quote from: DianaP on February 24, 2013, 10:39:34 AM
Good for you! Just remember, most of those people are probably people you don't know and will never see again. Even if you do see them again, they likely won't remember you. :P
:D That's the idea! And it's helped me to sign back on while waiting for my connecting flight. I'm going to try to avoid looking here when I'm working in an auditorium full of people I know and will see again (I suppose they'll have to find out sooner or later, but I would prefer later :P).
Quote from: Shantel on February 24, 2013, 11:04:23 AM
Uh-oh watch out for the TG police! :icon_suspicious: :police: ;D
Will they bring me food? Otherwise I'm just going to go to the first restaurant I find in LAX.
Quote from: EmSchuma on February 24, 2013, 04:27:46 PM
Will they bring me food? Otherwise I'm just going to go to the first restaurant I find in LAX.
Sounds like the better plan! :)
Quote from: Shantel on February 24, 2013, 04:33:37 PM
Sounds like the better plan! :)
The clock may say 2:30, but my stomach says it's 5:30!
Definitely time to go back to school/work. When I have nothing to do, the crazies start to settle in.
I had the funniest exchange today with some guy at a pool hall.
Him - "Soccer sucks."
Me - "You only say that because your team sucks. Let me call Ghana and have them teach you another lesson."
We were in a Hispanic neighborhood, so needless to say, a lot of soccer fans were present and they laughed so hard! :laugh:
Quote from: DianaP on February 24, 2013, 04:41:12 PM
I had the funniest exchange today with some guy at a pool hall.
Him - "Soccer sucks."
Me - "You only say that because your team sucks. Let me call Ghana and have them teach you another lesson."
We were in a Hispanic neighborhood, so needless to say, a lot of soccer fans were present and they laughed so hard! :laugh:
Hmmmm I sense that there is trouble in River City Diana, hope you don't take after your Auntie Shan who bounced off a lot of hardwood floors for being smart when she was young and impetuous like someone we know.
People actually PLAY Rick Astley's "Never gonna give you up"?!?! Or maybe airport restaurants are just weird...
Apparently I can read more French than I originally thought. o.o I was able to make out most of the posts in this one blog. I'm proud of myself. xD I haven't taken French in 7 years or so. >.>
Quote from: Shantel on February 24, 2013, 05:05:30 PM
Hmmmm I sense that there is trouble in River City Diana, hope you don't take after your Auntie Shan who bounced off a lot of hardwood floors for being smart when she was young and impetuous like someone we know.
She's talking soccer and that begins with an S which doesn't rhyme with T.
I liked that movie.
Quote from: Shantel on February 24, 2013, 05:05:30 PM
Hmmmm I sense that there is trouble in River City Diana, hope you don't take after your Auntie Shan who bounced off a lot of hardwood floors for being smart when she was young and impetuous like someone we know.
It's not that kind of neighborhood. Trust me. :laugh:
Quote from: DianaP on February 24, 2013, 05:38:08 PM
It's not that kind of neighborhood. Trust me. :laugh:
As I recall I was in a nice middle class neighborhood tavern at the time, there were beer muscles and then there was my foot shaped mouth, all the elements of a perfect storm. Thankfully I graduated from that lesson plan and have long since moved on. Advice and experiences both good and bad is what we older people share for the the sake younger folks here. I can cheerfully admit that I tried to crack that piece of granite with my head and it hurts, so honey you needn't repeat that exercise as we already know the outcome.
Well, alright, but it was an early Sunday afternoon and everyone laughed, so I don't think feelings were hurt. :laugh:
Quote from: DianaP on February 24, 2013, 06:13:55 PM
Well, alright, but it was an early Sunday afternoon and everyone laughed, so I don't think feelings were hurt. :laugh:
Guess you knew your audience which is always smart if you're going to say something that might be taken wrong by someone. BTW Like you new dress, what kind of bike is that in the corner of your room?
There were two bikes: one's my mountain bike and the other is my racing road bike.
Quote from: DianaP on February 24, 2013, 06:22:45 PM
There were two bikes: one's my mountain bike and the other is my racing road bike.
A racing road bike! That is so awesome. I'm always afraid I'm going to get hit by cars if I ride on streets. You must be quite the biker Diana....do we see a tour de france in your future:) ?
Quote from: spring0721 on February 24, 2013, 06:38:11 PM
You must be quite the biker Diana....do we see a tour de france in your future:) ?
Nah, probably just some local bike tours/biathlons.
The moon is very beautiful tonight and I saw two flying objects which appeared to be airplanes but for the sake of it I'm going to say one of them was Nikki Haley on her broomstick while the other was good buisness leaving South Carolina.
I have too much body wash and shampoo in my bathroom. This is not something that should drive me nuts, but it does, lol.
And what's worse is it is my fault! Some of it was a gift, but the rest was stuff I bought because a) they're good brands and were on sale for a dollar a bottle and b) I couldn't decide which one I liked best, so since they were cheap...I bought them all.
I should be forbidden from spending money.
Quote from: Malachite on February 24, 2013, 06:58:52 PM
The moon is very beautiful tonight
For some reason, I can only read this as "my mom is very beautiful tonight." Lmao.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 24, 2013, 07:08:55 PM
For some reason, I can only read this as "my mom is very beautiful tonight." Lmao.
Lol oh gosh!
Quote from: Malachite on February 24, 2013, 06:58:52 PM
The moon is very beautiful tonight and I saw two flying objects which appeared to be airplanes but for the sake of it I'm going to say one of them was Nikki Haley on her broomstick while the other was good buisness leaving South Carolina.
Three years ago, in England, my parents' saw lights in the sky. It was on New Year's Eve of 2009/2010. The lights were filmed by my parents and other people within the area of England. It even made the newspaper. There was no sound with the lights and the lights were just still. It's kind of cool. :3 No one's been able to come up with a reason for the orange lights.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 24, 2013, 07:29:50 PM
Three years ago, in England, my parents' saw lights in the sky. It was on New Year's Eve of 2009/2010. The lights were filmed by my parents and other people within the area of England. It even made the newspaper. There was no sound with the lights and the lights were just still. It's kind of cool. :3 No one's been able to come up with a reason for the orange lights.
The Hooters girls were celebrating.
The Oscars are stupid. I honestly don't understand what people see in lazing around on the couch drooling over people in expensive clothing.
Quote from: Malachite on February 24, 2013, 07:31:48 PM
The Hooters girls were celebrating.
I hope not...I don't like the Hooter's girls. >.> But I'm not a fan of skimpy clothing...unless it's in the bedroom.
@ Liminal: Especially when "The Walking Dead" is on!
Quote from: Malachite on February 24, 2013, 07:26:40 PM
Lol oh gosh!
Yeah, I thought "well, sometimes my mom wears nice clothes...and looks nice...but uh, I wouldn't call her beautiful outright on the forum." lol.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 24, 2013, 08:39:06 PM
Yeah, I thought "well, sometimes my mom wears nice clothes...and looks nice...but uh, I wouldn't call her beautiful outright on the forum." lol.
You would be an awesome son if you did. :P
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 24, 2013, 08:16:55 PM
@ Liminal: Especially when "The Walking Dead" is on!
Yeah! >:(
I'm thinking that I might take a huge leap right now.
Having the Metal Gear Solid codec for a ringtone would be awesome but for now, I'm sticking with the dude Love theme song.
I'm thinking that I am a little wierded out that i had a interior freak out that one of my nails broke (Father was around so I refrained from visibly showing that it bothered me :-\ ) considering I used to chew them to stubs (Though that was most likely caused by stress due to my subconscious trying to keep me from realizing i wasn't really a male.)
I'm not comfortable saying "we" if I'm talking about woman in general. I wish I was, but whatever.
I just avoid saying that if at all possible, even to the people who I'm out to. I see other transgirls who're more secure in their identity do it, and I get somewhat jealous, but I don't really think I have the right to do it.
/random
The PS4
Quote from: Malachite on February 24, 2013, 10:05:53 PM
The PS4
Is looking pretty good from what I've seen so far.
About to make that jump- creating a facebook *and* coming out on it. Here's hoping I don't fall in the middle of the leap.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 24, 2013, 10:13:31 PM
Is looking pretty good from what I've seen so far.
About to make that jump- creating a facebook *and* coming out on it. Here's hoping I don't fall in the middle of the leap.
To hope!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 24, 2013, 10:13:31 PM
About to make that jump- creating a facebook *and* coming out on it. Here's hoping I don't fall in the middle of the leap.
Good luck! :D
I think I might change my name to Meredith. On an unrelated note, I love you estrogen but it'd be swell if you'd let me stop ->-bleeped-<-ing crying for at least a few minutes. Everything is craaaaazy.
Games I want:
Tomb Raider
Watch Dogs
Splinter Cell: Blacklist
I need to start trading games in to get store credit and clear up more space.
Thanks, guys!
I feel sucky and dysphoric right now. My shoulders feel like they're bigger even though they don't look it.
Happy, happy, joy, joy :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_dance: :icon_geekdance: :eusa_dance:
I'm thinking that I have to get up for 6:30/7:00 for my appointment on Wednesday (way too early imo :P ), in which I'm going to be coming out to one of my doctors, and that'll be pretty nervwracking but hopefully he can help with referrals. And I'm changed for bed, and hating that I can't wear my binder to sleep, I can feel them there and it's making me angry and dysphoric >:(
A video of a rabbit giving birth on the run LOL can't stop laughing
If Far Cry 3 was any indication of how Ubisoft will handle their upc
He will blame the alchohol, but I doubt it's true. Caleb wrote on his belly, "KEAIRA NO SAD" across his belly and drew eyes and a smiley face around his belly button. Dear lord he is crazy. but he is still so sweet. It certainly made me smile and ask, "WHY?!" lol.
Well, you were sad and you have to admit, it worked. :P
Btw, I don't blame the alcohol, I know something else made me do it.
Love
Quote from: Caleb. on February 25, 2013, 03:52:10 AM
Well, you were sad and you have to admit, it worked. :P
Btw, I don't blame the alcohol, I know something else made me do it.
Are you on drugs? :P
Nope. :P
Oh for the goddess's sake, will you two get a room.. :P
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on February 25, 2013, 04:17:07 AM
Oh for the goddess's sake, will you two get a room.. :P
Nothing going on here. :icon_paper:
Quote from: Keaira on February 25, 2013, 04:30:09 AM
Nothing going on here. :icon_paper:
Sure there isn't... ::) :icon_suspicious:
Tinking about purchasing Red Faction: Armageddon
This is another Caleb Appreciation Post. He made me smile as well last night after my angry feminist rampage. :)
Gamestop
Mom: Are you wearing a bra?
Me: No
Mom: You've got perky breasts.
Me: No, they're sagging a little and have stretch marks.
Mom: Well, you should wear bra. You don't want saggy breasts.
Me: I don't want perky breasts either. It's not like I plan on keeping them.
Mom: Yes you will.
Me: No, I'm not. I don't want them. I want them gone.
Mom: No, you don't. You're going to keep them.
Me: No, I'm not.
Mom: Yes, you are.
Me: No, I'm not. It's not like I have any use for them anyway.
Mom: Yes, you are.
::) ::) ::) Honestly...they're my breasts and if I want them gone then I want them gone.
Quote from: Jayne on February 24, 2013, 11:51:10 PM
Happy, happy, joy, joy :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_dance: :icon_geekdance: :eusa_dance:
I'm glad to see that some things are finally going your way and you have your doggie back with you to boot. :)
Yes, answering a post on my male FB page by saying "Yeah she was having withdrawals." is totally going to make me want to be supportive of you and want to talk to you some more. My mom is driving me bonkers.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 25, 2013, 02:58:19 PM
Me: I don't want perky breasts either. It's not like I plan on keeping them.
Mom: Yes you will.
Me: No, I'm not. I don't want them. I want them gone.
Mom: No, you don't. You're going to keep them.
Me: No, I'm not.
Mom: Yes, you are.
Me: No, I'm not. It's not like I have any use for them anyway.
Mom: Yes, you are.
::) ::) ::) Honestly...they're my breasts and if I want them gone then I want them gone.
Something tells me that if my kid was better at talking we'd have a conversation like this with an added, "But Dad, they're squishy!" Unless I win the lottery, he'll be over it and have developed a sense of my personal space by the time I get them removed though.
Quote from: Edge on February 25, 2013, 03:17:02 PM
Something tells me that if my kid was better at talking we'd have a conversation like this with an added, "But Dad, they're squishy!" Unless I win the lottery, he'll be over it and have developed a sense of my personal space by the time I get them removed though.
xD I was half expecting that in this conversation. >.>; I'm just like "ugh...leave my chest alone. If want I want it gone then don't hound me about keeping them."
*hugs Aaron* Admittedly, I couldn't help but laugh at your mom's one response...saying "yes you are!" over and over. A) it's pretty childish lol and b) as if she has a choice in the matter. :P But I'd be pretty upset if I had anyone making suspect comments about my chest as well.
And *hugs Cain and Keaira*
Also...I just...need...TO CONCENTRATE. -_- I used to be able to focus on anything for hours, non-stop, but now I can't even get going on my work. It seems I've lost a number of good habits lately.
What I'm thinking right now:
"I don't wanna be at work!"
That I really don't use my brain very much, and I could probably charge a large family of mice monthly rent to use the space inbetween my ears to reside in permanently.
Quote from: Shodan on February 25, 2013, 03:28:33 PM
What I'm thinking right now:
"I don't wanna be at work!"
And I'm thinking I don't want to go to work! :laugh:
It sucks that the new infmous game will be a PS4 exclusive. Then again, it won't be the same without Cole.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 25, 2013, 03:28:18 PM
*hugs Aaron* Admittedly, I couldn't help but laugh at your mom's one response...saying "yes you are!" over and over. A) it's pretty childish lol and b) as if she has a choice in the matter. :P But I'd be pretty upset if I had anyone making suspect comments about my chest as well.
-hugs-
It's just frustrating me. ><; The other day she asked if FtMs primarily like girls and I was like "according to a recent survey, no". It heavily felt like she was trying to use my sexuality as a reason as to why I'm not trans*.
I feel like: :eusa_wall:
Quote from: Malachite on February 25, 2013, 07:17:22 AM
Tinking about purchasing Red Faction: Armageddon
Do you have an Xbox? I would love to play the survival mode if you do have an Xbox & get it. Most shops are almost giving it away it's so cheap.
If i'm stressed then I put on ruin mode free play & take each building apart with the sledgehammer, it's the best stress buster in the world!
Quote from: Jayne on February 25, 2013, 04:47:44 PM
Do you have an Xbox? I would love to play the survival mode if you do have an Xbox & get it. Most shops are almost giving it away it's so cheap.
If i'm stressed then I put on ruin mode free play & take each building apart with the sledgehammer, it's the best stress buster in the world!
I have a PS3. :( The xbox controllers were a bit too clunky for me. I do love the environmental destruction one can do in that game!
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 25, 2013, 02:58:19 PM
Mom: Are you wearing a bra?
Me: No
Mom: You've got perky breasts.
Me: No, they're sagging a little and have stretch marks.
Mom: Well, you should wear bra. You don't want saggy breasts.
Me: I don't want perky breasts either. It's not like I plan on keeping them.
Mom: Yes you will.
Me: No, I'm not. I don't want them. I want them gone.
Mom: No, you don't. You're going to keep them.
Me: No, I'm not.
Mom: Yes, you are.
Me: No, I'm not. It's not like I have any use for them anyway.
Mom: Yes, you are.
::) ::) ::) Honestly...they're my breasts and if I want them gone then I want them gone.
Moms can be such pain-in-the-butts huh? Bet you could work an amicable trade with any flat chested MtF in a pair od seconds. :icon_peace:
Quote from: Shantel on February 25, 2013, 06:05:38 PM
Bet you could work an amicable trade with any flat chested MtF in a pair od seconds. :icon_peace:
I'll take two B's upfront, and a AA in a doggy bag, please. :laugh:
Today has been a battle to keep myself from having a break down.
Quote from: Trixie on February 25, 2013, 06:07:35 PM
Today has been a battle to keep myself from having a break down.
Hang in there Trixie, things will get better, they always do!
Quote from: Trixie on February 25, 2013, 06:07:35 PM
Today has been a battle to keep myself from having a break down.
:icon_hug:
That 50 percent trade-in bonus at Gamestop is looking pretty tempting.
Quote from: Trixie on February 25, 2013, 06:07:35 PM
Today has been a battle to keep myself from having a break down.
You and me both, sister. My self-discovery is still new so I've been really raw emotionally for the past month or so. Work is being really tough on me since I answer phones for a living, and I've come to hate the sound and the feeling of my baritone voice vibrating my head and neck.
So. Yeah. Don't wanna be at work. :(
109 thumbs on on a Youtube comment I made a year ago and it's at the top of the page.
It feels good to be the king.
Quote from: Shantel on February 25, 2013, 06:05:38 PM
Moms can be such pain-in-the-butts huh? Bet you could work an amicable trade with any flat chested MtF in a pair od seconds. :icon_peace:
xD If only! I'd be willing to trade this body with an MtF though I'd happily keep my disability. xD
Thinking mixed thoughts. Stressed because of people and too much homework and too many tests all on the same day, happy because bf is being awesomesauce. He told me my chest looks flat with the layering I use involving control top tights, has been using my preferred name even though I know it's weird for him, and doesn't think anything of what I'm doing or who I am so long as it's what makes me happy. Oh, my parents could learn a thing or two from the boy. Sad because he's a socially awkward guy like me :P
I should really trade my controller in at Gamestop while they have that good trade-in deal going on. The controller isn't working right anyway.
This is the best thing ever! Cuddle parties!
http://www.cuddleparty.com/faq/#cpis (http://www.cuddleparty.com/faq/#cpis)
I'm thinking about a childhood friend who I just learned had a heart attack a few hours ago, through his sister's posting. Now she has not updated any news and people are jumping the gun saying he died. So I'm sad for what his family is going through at this time, and angry at the people who are saying the worst. Unless they know something I don't. :(
Quote from: DianaP on February 25, 2013, 07:53:13 PM
This is the best thing ever! Cuddle parties!
http://www.cuddleparty.com/faq/#cpis (http://www.cuddleparty.com/faq/#cpis)
I won't lie, that sounds really, really appealing.
Quote from: DianaP on February 25, 2013, 07:53:13 PM
This is the best thing ever! Cuddle parties!
http://www.cuddleparty.com/faq/#cpis (http://www.cuddleparty.com/faq/#cpis)
I would love to go to one of those. That sounds amazing.
Quote from: Bethany Dawn on February 25, 2013, 07:55:14 PM
I'm thinking about a childhood friend who I just learned had a heart attack a few hours ago, through his sister's posting. Now she has not updated any news and people are jumping the gun saying he died. So I'm sad for what his family is going through at this time, and angry at the people who are saying the worst. Unless they know something I don't. :(
:( I'd say something, but I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry. *hugs*
I wish I hadn't dithered so long about whether or not to have a bath, because now it's too late.
Quote from: Trixie on February 25, 2013, 08:05:43 PM
:( I'd say something, but I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry. *hugs*
Thanks Trrixie, I needed that hug. I'm at a loss for words myself. I just needed to vent my frustration at the people who might be assuming just a little to much.
Spec Ops: The Line is fun-I kind of want to keep it but it's short....very short.
Mom: All that computer time has fried her brain. [laugh]She does think she's a he after all.[/end laugh]
I swear she's trying to piss me off today. I'm glad it's night time and I can ignore her now.
I'm probably just reacting negatively, though, because I'm just emotionally drained...or maybe she's really trying to get a rise out of me.
><;
She's definitely prodding you, Aaron.
:icon_poke:
Maybe you can attend a cuddle party!
:icon_hug:
lol, I had to go to the store to let the new girl out, her key is messed up or something. She's lucky I live so close.
Quote from: DianaP on February 25, 2013, 09:46:02 PM
She's definitely prodding you, Aaron.
:icon_poke:
Maybe you can attend a cuddle party!
:icon_hug:
Prodding me into craziness. :P
xD A cuddle party sounds great, but only if people I know. xD
The entire point of a cuddle party is to meet new people and touch without awkwardness while in a safe environment. Dang it, now I want a cuddle party! :(
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 25, 2013, 09:49:20 PM
lol, I had to go to the store to let the new girl out, her key is messed up or something. She's lucky I live so close.
Or what? You would've just left her? More like heartless at the coast.
:P :P :P
Just seems weird to me, strangers in jammies wanting to touch you. *shudders*
Quote from: DianaP on February 25, 2013, 09:54:15 PM
Or what? You would've just left her? More like heartless at the coast.
:P :P :P
I did actually ask her if she had any blankets first, just in case she had to stay the night, lol. That was before I told her I would go and let her out.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 25, 2013, 09:55:19 PM
Just seems weird to me, strangers in jammies wanting to touch you. *shudders*
I have faith in people. :P
However, that's starting to diminish. I help my old mechanical engineering teacher with students during my lunch period. These freshman are so infuriating! "What's 0.35/2?"
Also, one kid seriously has an $800 belt, and he sags his pants! An $800 belt, and it doesn't work?!
Quote from: DianaP on February 25, 2013, 09:54:15 PM
The entire point of a cuddle party is to meet new people and touch without awkwardness while in a safe environment. Dang it, now I want a cuddle party! :(
But...people are dirty. D: And smell odd. T.T
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 25, 2013, 10:20:25 PM
But...people are dirty. D: And smell odd. T.T
Hey, don't typecast your own demographic! Bad boy! :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 25, 2013, 10:22:36 PM
Hey, don't typecast your own demographic! Bad boy! :P
XD Lol. :P I'll admit I think I smell odd. :P But humans are odd smelling to me. xD
I should really play my Call of Duty: MW 2 game.
I got told I look like a "hot Dyke" -_- I am not, I dont hold back water, thank you. :P
Just watched the first walkthrough of the new Tomb Raider game HECK YES! It was awesome and I can't wait for the next part to come out. Now I'm finally about to open my Call of Duty MW 2 game that I got on Black Friday. I'm going to play some sexy music in the background while I open it......hehe....deflower it.
Quote from: Malachite on February 26, 2013, 01:47:50 AM
Just watched the first walkthrough of the new Tomb Raider game HECK YES! It was awesome and I can't wait for the next part to come out. Now I'm finally about to open my Call of Duty MW 2 game that I got on Black Friday. I'm going to play some sexy music in the background while I open it......hehe....deflower it.
I have the survivor edition of Tomb Raider pre-paid for. I can't wait!! :D
Quote from: Keaira on February 26, 2013, 01:53:45 AM
I have the survivor edition of Tomb Raider pre-paid for. I can't wait!! :D
I want that figurine of her. It looks sick. It would look nice next to my Cole MacGrath figurine. He needs a buddy.
Wow, I don't sign in for almost a day and you all manage to make four pages of posts in this thread... we'll be on 4.0 in no time! :P
I'm disappointed I can't cuddle with one of my sisters cats without my stomach tying itself in knots because the cat was confined to my sisters room for the past 10 days and now he is permeated with perfume for a while. :'(
I'm a horribly insensitive ->-bleeped-<-.
Please no tornadoes :(
Mybe I'll keep my PS3 controller since I'm so used to it....even though it's messed up. Hmmm
Quote from: Anna Michele on February 26, 2013, 06:53:30 AM
Wow, I don't sign in for almost a day and you all manage to make four pages of posts in this thread... we'll be on 4.0 in no time! :P
We have a lot of thougts. >:-)
Quote from: Malachite on February 26, 2013, 12:54:48 PM
Mybe I'll keep my PS3 controller since I'm so used to it....even though it's messed up. Hmmm
We have a lot of thougts. >:-)
You just like to spam this page. :P
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 26, 2013, 01:02:11 PM
You just like to spam this page. :P
I won't lie, I really do just like to spam this page. LOL
Quote from: Malachite on February 26, 2013, 01:03:41 PM
I won't lie, I really do just like to spam this page. LOL
Hah! I knew it! XD
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 26, 2013, 01:05:49 PM
Hah! I knew it! XD
But hey, the bulk of the things that I'm thinking about are related to gaming-it's so necessary!
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 26, 2013, 08:30:17 AM
I'm a horribly insensitive ->-bleeped-<-.
That's not the impression i've got from your posts on this forum, you shouldn't be so negative about yourself as it's the starting point of a very slippery slope with some very sharp, jagged rocks at the bottom
Quote from: Malachite on February 26, 2013, 01:09:06 PM
But hey, the bulk of the things that I'm thinking about are related to gaming-it's so necessary!
Uh-huh, suuuuuuuuuure. :P <3
I'm thinking that Sunday is going to be the start of a new life for me. I will start working out daily.
Why wait until Sunday? Because it's the first day of a new week and it sounds good to me. :)
I'm thinking the mirror is not my friend today. :'(
Quote from: Shodan on February 26, 2013, 01:31:57 PM
I'm thinking the mirror is not my friend today. :'(
*hugs* I'm sorry, I know the feelings. It'll be okay.
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 26, 2013, 08:30:17 AM
I'm a horribly insensitive ->-bleeped-<-.
I actually know otherwise.
I'm such a progressive woman, I should be posting in the "you look badass thread" because I Dont look fabulous these days. I look Badass. >:-)
Yay I have a few chin hairs!
I've had a pretty good day :).
Quote from: Keaira on February 26, 2013, 02:16:21 PM
I actually know otherwise.
I'm such a progressive woman, I should be posting in the "you look badass thread" because I Dont look fabulous these days. I look Badass. >:-)
I concur. You're totally badass looking!
I actually had the mind to post over there this morning but I chickened out lol.
discussion questions....blah I hate having to back up my replies
Quote from: Malachite on February 26, 2013, 05:06:05 PM
discussion questions....blah I hate having to back up my replies
Same, hahaha. :P
I need to remember to answer the questions asked of me...I just keep forgetting because of stress.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 26, 2013, 05:30:45 PM
Same, hahaha. :P
I need to remember to answer the questions asked of me...I just keep forgetting because of stress.
You can have mine as
target practice. ::)
Some lady told me how much I reminded her of when she was in middle school because I was standing by myself, and was saying "I know, you aren't supposed to talk to strangers, but don't worry I'm nice!".
I want T so badly ;-;
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 26, 2013, 05:46:39 PM
Some lady told me how much I reminded her of when she was in middle school because I was standing by myself, and was saying "I know, you aren't supposed to talk to strangers, but don't worry I'm nice!".
I want T so badly ;-;
Hey Max, it's going to be fine. Some day you'll look back on all this and think, gee people used to say I looked young and card me and it doesn't happen anymore, now I'm getting wrinkled and old...wtf! Just remember Auntie Shan said I told you so. Meanwhile quit the coffee and cigarettes, you'll stunt your growth kid! :icon_peace:
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on February 26, 2013, 05:46:39 PM
Some lady told me how much I reminded her of when she was in middle school because I was standing by myself, and was saying "I know, you aren't supposed to talk to strangers, but don't worry I'm nice!".
I want T so badly ;-;
She might have just been picking up on personality for the most part. I've been told similar by guys and girls -- it didn't matter what I looked like and more about what I was doing.
But you'll get there one day. :3
___
My thought is that this depression needs to leave. I haven't been happy in...ever. I don't remember a time when I was truly happy nd now it's just getting worse. >.<; This is so frustrating.
I am never having sex. We just got done with HIV/AIDS week at my school. Of course, I didn't actually learn anything since I already studied HIV/AIDS and had to go through several of these special weeks. It did get me thinking though: sex lasts on average 3.5 minutes. Is that really worth the risk of STDs?
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 06:22:13 PM
I am never having sex. We just got done with HIV/AIDS week at my school. Of course, I didn't actually learn anything since I already studied HIV/AIDS and had to go through several of these special weeks. It did get me thinking though: sex lasts on average 3.5 minutes. Is that really worth the risk of STDs?
Haha, I have considered that as well. Fortunately, I don't have sex with anyone until I know them well. Though it'd be weird to ask someone to get an STD test when you know them well and trust them...it'd almost be easier to ask a stranger lol.
Quote from: Malachite on February 26, 2013, 06:25:58 PM
High five!
:eusa_hand:
Quote from: Caleb. on February 26, 2013, 06:24:58 PM
Haha, I have considered that as well. Fortunately, I don't have sex with anyone until I know them well. Though it'd be weird to ask someone to get an STD test when you know them well and trust them...it'd almost be easier to ask a stranger lol.
I would not have sex with ANYONE without a recent negative test result for everything! :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 06:22:13 PM
I am never having sex. We just got done with HIV/AIDS week at my school. Of course, I didn't actually learn anything since I already studied HIV/AIDS and had to go through several of these special weeks. It did get me thinking though: sex lasts on average 3.5 minutes. Is that really worth the risk of STDs?
3.5 minutes? :D :laugh: You're kidding of course?
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 06:27:58 PM
3.5 minutes? :D :laugh: You're kidding of course?
Actually, no. Don't worry, though, This being an average means that some guys last longer than 3.5 minutes. It also means that some men last less time. :P
Way back in my twenties, when I did actually have sex, it usually lasted from 45 minutes to an hour, not counting any foreplay. Of course, I had "issues" with sex and my body and really had no libido, so it wasn't very often that we even had sex.
I think I need physical and romantic love, to be complete. It's very hard for me to get, but I do want that. I won't consider my life anywhere near "full" if I don't have both. Good luck on that though.
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 06:33:11 PM
Actually, no. Don't worry, though, This being an average means that some guys last longer than 3.5 minutes. It also means that some men last less time. :P
I have heard about those jackrabbits, they are always the brunt of jokes among women!
That's why Peggy Lee used to sing "Is that all there is" in such a forlorn voice.
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 08:08:50 PM
I have heard about those jackrabbits, they are always the brunt of jokes among women!
Well, I remember reading that fat men last longer in bed since their adipose tissue produces estrogen, which inhibits male orgasm. Men who don't last as long actually have more testosterone running through their systems, which is why, on average, muscular men don't go as long as they do in the movies. Therefore, those jackrabbits are technically more manly. :P
Besides, you should be grateful. I'm sure men put everything they have into those 2 minutes, which probably explains why they fall asleep so soon afterwards. Badum tsh! :laugh:
If it only lasts 3.5 minutes, someone is doing it wrong :laugh: .
Quote from: DeeperThanSwords on February 26, 2013, 08:21:09 PM
If it only lasts 3.5 minutes, someone is doing it wrong :laugh: .
Or the person can be doing it right, depending on how you look at it. From a biological standpoint, faster sex means that people can move on to more partners faster, leading to a greater likelihood of pregnancy, more babies, and a greater continuation of the species. Food for thought. :eusa_think:
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 08:13:40 PM
Well, I remember reading that fat men last longer in bed since their adipose tissue produces estrogen, which inhibits male orgasm. Men who don't last as long actually have more testosterone running through their systems, which is why, on average, muscular men don't go as long as they do in the movies. Therefore, those jackrabbits are technically more manly. :P
Besides, you should be grateful. I'm sure men put everything they have into those 2 minutes, which probably explains why they fall asleep so soon afterwards. Badum tsh! :laugh:
Oh Please, you have stepped into something that is over your head Diana, don't go on with this, it's just balderdash!
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 08:13:40 PM
Well, I remember reading that fat men last longer in bed since their adipose tissue produces estrogen, which inhibits male orgasm. Men who don't last as long actually have more testosterone running through their systems, which is why, on average, muscular men don't go as long as they do in the movies. Therefore, those jackrabbits are technically more manly. :P
Ugh, my ex lasted a long time. He was rather heavy set [see: he was at least 75 lbs to 100 lbs overweight] and he would last ->-bleeped-<-ing forever. I hated it. -.-; I was like "damn, I just want to get this over with". It doesn't help that I'm fairly asexual and don't like sex, but being coerced into sex that lasted longer than 10 minutes was hell.
Granted, once I transition fully and have both surgeries done I might be more willing to engage and sex and some foreplay [though no one will ever get a bj from me ever again].
But right now...the thought makes me shudder and I'd be very very happy just in a romantic relationship without the physical intimacy.
And on STDs...I won't sleep with anyone who hasn't had an STD test done and I won't sleep with anyone who has ever had a test that came up positive with something. >.>
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 08:24:41 PM
Or the person can be doing it right, depending on how you look at it. From a biological standpoint, faster sex means that people can move on to more partners faster, leading to a greater likelihood of pregnancy, more babies, and a greater continuation of the species. Food for thought. :eusa_think:
What a chilling thought...
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 08:25:06 PM
Oh Please, you have stepped into something that is over your head Diana, don't go on with this, it's just balderdash!
I can't tell if you're being facetious, but I swear on my life that the following is true:
Kids in my school who have a certain teacher (who shall be unnamed) for Advanced Placement Statistics actually looked into sex statistics for some assignments. These are real statistics. :laugh:
Gotta love the US education system. :laugh:
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 26, 2013, 06:41:13 PM
Way back in my twenties, when I did actually have sex, it usually lasted from 45 minutes to an hour, not counting any foreplay. Of course, I had "issues" with sex and my body and really had no libido, so it wasn't very often that we even had sex.
Well, it's just an average from a large, but not all-inclusive study sample, and he's far above it. Good for you! :laugh:
Quote from: DeeperThanSwords on February 26, 2013, 08:30:53 PM
What a chilling thought...
Somewhat Neanderthal! 'Come with me, [smack] [crunch bam,bam,bam...next!]
Crunch? What kind of messed up S&M were they doing?!
Nonetheless, if it weren't for those Neanderthals, the human race may not have grown enough to survive. :P
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 08:32:08 PM
I can't tell if you're being facetious, but I swear on my life that the following is true:
Hah, you're cute Diana, don't swear on you life even if your teacher told you this as it's now just hearsay and unless you have some in depth experience (no pun intended) I wouldn't come across so authoritatively on this of all subjects.
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 08:37:15 PM
Crunch? What kind of messed up S&M were they doing?!
Nonetheless, if it weren't for those Neanderthals, the human race may not have grown enough to survive. :P
You are too young to have known about Alley Oop and Oola! ;D But I have it on their say so that it was done like that. :laugh: :D
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 08:41:43 PM
Hah, you're cute Diana, don't swear on you life even if your teacher told you this as it's now just hearsay and unless you have some in depth experience (no pun intended) I wouldn't come across so authoritatively on this of all subjects.
I'm not speaking from my own experience, just from the studies of some very creepy people that like to time how long it takes for someone to finish. :laugh: I don't need experience to communicate someone else's data, just eyesight and the ability to read. :P
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 08:44:01 PM
You are too young to have known about Alley Oop and Oola! ;D But I have it on their say so that it was done like that. :laugh: :D
How can you be sure that
that's not hearsay? Perhaps you need some... in-depth experience? (Pun totally intended) :eusa_think:
...
:P
Ready for another Metal Gear Rising upload!
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 08:34:57 PM
Somewhat Neanderthal! 'Come with me, [smack] [crunch bam,bam,bam...next!]
:laugh:
The moon is very beautiful tonight....so majestic.
...
I just wrote several paragraphs about me. I feel drained now.
Thinking about my ex.
Quote from: Shantel on February 26, 2013, 08:41:43 PM
don't swear on you life even if your teacher told you this
I just understood this. I was swearing on my life the fact that there are kids in my school who study sex statistics, not that the statistics are 100% true.
Anywho, I despise homework! >:(
Mom: "[legal name], I wish I saw less of Aaron on facebook."
Me: "What?"
Mom: -gives look before leaving-
::) ::) It's not like she ever noticed any of my statuses on my FB page under my legal name. She rarely commented on them or anything so I don't see why she gives a damn about whether or not my preferred FB page is used more [which it isn't -- I use both about the same amount].
I used to try and learn russian phrases in my spare time a few years back and now this game I'm watching has a Russian speaking familiar phrases but I can't remember them. :(
Есть пердеж собаки едят пауков-птицеедов?
(Do farty dogs eat tarantulas?)
I feel pissed off >=[, but....O_o I don't really know why as of yet.
The bits of facial hair that are popping up have probably been, hands down, the most exciting change of T. I am really happy with my voice drops and fat changes too, but you can always doubt those, you know? You can think 'oh, it's only a bit deeper, the rest is in my head.' Or 'the fat hasn't changed, I just lost/gained weight and I am fooling myself.'
But when dark brown hairs begin appearing on your chin...you can't feel insecure or uncertain about that. They're there right in front of me.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 27, 2013, 05:39:16 AM
The bits of facial hair that are popping up have probably been, hands down, the most exciting change of T. I am really happy with my voice drops and fat changes too, but you can always doubt those, you know? You can think 'oh, it's only a bit deeper, the rest is in my head.' Or 'the fat hasn't changed, I just lost/gained weight and I am fooling myself.'
But when dark brown hairs begin appearing on your chin...you can't feel insecure or uncertain about that. They're there right in front of me.
You may be able to grow more facial hair than me and I'm a biological male. I feel slightly jealous of this. ;D
I'm thinking: what the hell? That was one weird dream.
Basically it's one if those dreams where you're really not a participant but more the director. This was a grind house movie called "Rise if the Chicken T-Girls."... I'll let your imagination fill in the rest. ;D
I'm thinking this pounding headache is telling me if you want to play games using the tv get some glasses, haven't even been playing disgaea 30 minutes and my head is killing me. :-\
Most folks I meet give me a headache after awhile because most are back stabbing gossips that can't be trusted... Trust No-One
Quote from: kitten on February 27, 2013, 06:16:36 AM
I'm thinking this pounding headache is telling me if you want to play games using the tv get some glasses, haven't even been playing disgaea 30 minutes and my head is killing me. :-\
I got a pounding headache from being on my computer for the better part of the last, oh, 10 hours or so.
QuoteMost folks I meet give me a headache after awhile because most are back stabbing gossips that can't be trusted... Trust No-One
I am sorry that most folks are like that. It sucks, but what can you do?
Right now I'm still pissed off due to the fact that I'm just doing this now. If my parents were so damn hard headed and so godly religious, I could've done this a long time ago.
Do I want to eat breakfast at the restaurant in the Hilton or at the Starbucks right next to it?
Save some bucks at Starbucks!
I'm expensing the meal back to my company either way
Quote from: DianaP on February 26, 2013, 06:22:13 PM
I am never having sex.
You're not missing much. Just jump straight to cuddling!
Starting your morning off with glam rock is always good.
Diabetes suck. Stuck out in the middle of nowhere and my blood sugar levels are getting low, and my wife has all the money. :P
Quote from: Shodan on February 27, 2013, 02:33:35 PM
Diabetes suck. Stuck out in the middle of nowhere and my blood sugar levels are getting low, and my wife has all the money. :P
My family members with diabetes usually care some life savers around or jolly ranchers around just in case. >.>; I used to carry them, too, because my own blood sugar would often dip way below than what it should have.
__
And I'm thinking I feel better now I wrote that stupid "essay".
Wow, the "optional" scene in MW 2 was truly disturbing and made me realize that I'm not completely desensitized.
Quote from: Anna Michele on February 27, 2013, 08:11:34 AM
I'm expensing the meal back to my company either way
Then go with the Hilton. You might not get another opportunity.
Quote from: Anna Michele on February 27, 2013, 08:19:30 AM
You're not missing much. Just jump straight to cuddling!
I will!
Quote from: Shantel on February 27, 2013, 08:08:53 AM
Save some bucks at Starbucks!
I never thought I would have ever heard that sentence. $5 for a cup of coffee... ::)
100 calories wasted on crappy jello
Time to go let out a lot of pent up emotions. Perfect place, the gym.
If my medical insurance will cover eye surgery, and, if my eyes are too bad for LASIK, whether or not I can get intraocular implants done.
Well, since we have 4 clerks at the store now for two shifts, I'll only be working 4 days a week, but I'll still get the same hours I did before since first shift is longer than second. I think I'm going to like that.
=( I feel sick.
Hope you feel better, Aaron.
Me, I'm all tickered out now.
Same here Aaron, feel better!
I'm thinking about the responses I have to give to other student's answers for the discussion quesiton. Meh :/
Quote from: Malachite on February 27, 2013, 06:07:12 PM
Same here Aaron, feel better!
I'm thinking about the responses I have to give to other student's answers for the discussion quesiton. Meh :/
You, too! I don't what got into me, but it hit all of a sudden. D: I was doing fine until after the bath I had and now I just feel sick all over.
@ Crazy at the coast: ^^ Thanks. <3 Had a productive day to be worn out?
I'm thinking I need to feel better because I really want hot wings. D:
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 27, 2013, 06:10:14 PM
You, too! I don't what got into me, but it hit all of a sudden. D: I was doing fine until after the bath I had and now I just feel sick all over.
@ Crazy at the coast: ^^ Thanks. <3 Had a productive day to be worn out?
I'm thinking I need to feel better because I really want hot wings. D:
Just a rough day actually, but the tickered out part is about adding another ticker, had to drop some of the code they give you though to fit both within the limitations on characters in the sig.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 27, 2013, 05:36:19 PM
=( I feel sick.
Hope you feel better soon =]. I am going to shower as I just got back from the gym and make an appointment to see a dr cause I think I just blew out my right shoulder again :'(. For being a biological man I am incredibly frail.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 27, 2013, 06:10:14 PM
You, too! I don't what got into me, but it hit all of a sudden. D: I was doing fine until after the bath I had and now I just feel sick all over.
Yes! Discussion questions tend to do that to people.
Quote from: Malachite on February 27, 2013, 07:15:41 PM
Yes! Discussion questions tend to do that to people.
Can discussion questions hurt also?
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 27, 2013, 07:57:49 PM
Would it traumatize anyone to read this? maybe don't, then.
Once there was a little lamb who was the dumbest of the flock and always got left behind even though he was a big bruiser, so I had to carry him from field to field, and then he grew up to be the sweetest of any and calm and a right good boy. That was last week and tonight I'm eating him.
:-X
sorry fella, you smell good though.
What kind of marinade did you use? I'm quite interested in meat eating. I love cooking also ;D
Sounds quite delicious. I have never had good cooked lamb. The last actual animal I ate was 4 years ago during training for Afghanistan. We had to kill a goat, skin it, chop it, cook it up and eat it in the field. Wasn't the best tasting, but that's survival training for you.
Sometimes I think my life would be more suited to pursuing a career more exciting and dangerous and traditionally masculine, like wrestling down a snake or saving random strangers from their house that's burning down, rather than just being a fracking nurse.
Oh well!
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on February 27, 2013, 08:19:14 PM
Sometimes I think my life would be more suited to pursuing a career more exciting and dangerous and traditionally masculine, like wrestling down a snake or saving random strangers from their house that's burning down, rather than just being a fracking nurse.
That's my job! :P
Nothing wrong with being a nurse. ???
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on February 27, 2013, 08:19:14 PM
Sometimes I think my life would be more suited to pursuing a career more exciting and dangerous and traditionally masculine, like wrestling down a snake or saving random strangers from their house that's burning down, rather than just being a fracking nurse.
Oh well!
Don't worry, it's not all what its brought out to be. I just got out of the Marine Corps just less than a year a go and it was much less than I expected.
My heart goes out to that lamb :(
I like mangoes.
Lamb is tasty. Last night I had gnocchi with lamb meatballs in a cream sauce for dinner.
Niagara Falls is welling up behind my eyes for no feasible reason. I don't cry very much at all, but now the urge just hits me quite often. Why?
Dear cthulhu, why did I join facebook, how is it that I know so many people if I'm anti-social, and why can't I focus on my research paper?
video games
Quote from: encircle me on February 28, 2013, 02:02:32 AM
fux yah
Only thing I really think about. If I'm not playing video games then I'm watching them online. :)
Look at this robot.
http://news.yahoo.com/photos/humanoid-robot-comes-to-life-slideshow/#crsl=%252Fphotos%252Fhumanoid-robot-comes-to-life-slideshow%252Fdominik-brumm-artificial-lab-university-zuerich-checks-humanoid-photo-153751108.html (http://news.yahoo.com/photos/humanoid-robot-comes-to-life-slideshow/#crsl=%252Fphotos%252Fhumanoid-robot-comes-to-life-slideshow%252Fdominik-brumm-artificial-lab-university-zuerich-checks-humanoid-photo-153751108.html)
My first thought was "he looks a lot fancier than Bender".
I need to lose weight. Right now my belly jiggles more than my boobs and I already have enough body issues between being trans and my fraked up leg.
Quote from: DianaP on February 27, 2013, 03:17:13 PM
I never thought I would have ever heard that sentence. $5 for a cup of coffee... ::)
Making it a difference between a $10 breakfast or a $20 breakfast... Starbucks is cheaper but the food is lower quality :-\
Quote from: Anna Michele on February 28, 2013, 07:26:24 AM
Making it a difference between a $10 breakfast or a $20 breakfast... Starbucks is cheaper but the food is lower quality :-\
Always go Dunkin for a nice morning breakfast ;D
Quote from: Anna Michele on February 28, 2013, 07:26:24 AM
Making it a difference between a $10 breakfast or a $20 breakfast... Starbucks is cheaper but the food is lower quality :-\
Yeah, but it tastes good and they always show the caloric values on everything which is helpful to me.
Listening to people eat and drink is a sure fire way to sap my hunger away. I -hate- the sound.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 28, 2013, 10:34:56 AM
Listening to people eat and drink is a sure fire way to sap my hunger away. I -hate- the sound.
Then you'd hate to be around me. It's not that I intentionally eat loud, but I have teeth like steel. When I chew, you can hear my teeth hitting against each other.
Quote from: Mellysia on February 28, 2013, 11:10:39 AM
Then you'd hate to be around me. It's not that I intentionally eat loud, but I have teeth like steel. When I chew, you can hear my teeth hitting against each other.
It's not the teeth clicking, it's the slurping and the food grounding.
And my mom...I'm not trans* because I like guys, I'm not trans* because I'm feminine, etc. I'm emotionally done.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 28, 2013, 11:17:08 AM
It's not the teeth clicking, it's the slurping and the food grounding.
Oh well then I'm safe with you then. I've had people look up at restaurants and look at me cause they could hear my teeth clicking together from across the room. I'd try to play it off, but most times that happens is early when they first start serving so the place is pretty much empty.
QuoteAnd my mom...I'm not trans* because I like guys, I'm not trans* because I'm feminine, etc. I'm emotionally done.
Took me a bit to understand that.
I feel less dysphoric when I look at myself naked in the mirror than with clothes on. You may think that sounds odd, but these baggy clothes aren't exactly helping my figure.
Quote from: Mellysia on February 28, 2013, 11:20:59 AM
Took me a bit to understand that.
Lol. It's something my mom brought up as to why I can't be trans*, or am not "as trans* as" I "think".
I wish it was next week already so I can get my glasses.
I wish it was two weeks from now, so that I could be at the Andre Rieu concert.
Quote from: Mellysia on February 28, 2013, 11:20:59 AM
Oh well then I'm safe with you then. I've had people look up at restaurants and look at me cause they could hear my teeth clicking together from across the room. I'd try to play it off, but most times that happens is early when they first start serving so the place is pretty much empty.
I eat with my hands, so people stare at me in restaurants all of the time. Thus, I'm with you, sister! ;D
With my birthday coming up I think I should celebrate. So I think its time to get my ears pierced. :) How I'm going to explain it at work should be interesting. Maybe with my hair getting longer I can tell them I'm trying to be a rock star.
Torn between changing my name on my facebook account now because I can, waiting until I add more people, or making a new account under my preferred name.
Friend of mine added me last night, I was a bit worried but did it anyway. She comes up to me in school and goes, "Hey, Max!" and tells me that she read my whole long coming out post and that it was really well-written. That made my whole week right there.
Wishing that I could calm down a bit when I type cause I apparently am a ditz. I think one thing while I type, but the wrong thing is typed and then I gotta straighten it out and i feel stupid.
Quote from: Mellysia on February 28, 2013, 03:56:59 PM
Wishing that I could calm down a bit when I type cause I apparently am a ditz. I think one thing while I type, but the wrong thing is typed and then I gotta straighten it out and i feel stupid.
Me, do that too! I'm kind of dyslexic and my brain is way ahead of what I'm typing previous thoughts.
Quote from: Liam Erik on February 27, 2013, 07:57:49 PM
Would it traumatize anyone to read this? maybe don't, then.
Once there was a little lamb who was the dumbest of the flock and always got left behind even though he was a big bruiser, so I had to carry him from field to field, and then he grew up to be the sweetest of any and calm and a right good boy. That was last week and tonight I'm eating him.
:-X
sorry fella, you smell good though.
Liam you are soooo baaad! Is he good roasted?
Quote from: Shantel on February 28, 2013, 04:10:05 PM
Me, do that too! I'm kind of dyslexic and my brain is way ahead of what I'm typing previous thoughts.
I say that because I started a thread about me starting therapy and what I typed was NOT what I wanted to say and it was misleading. I feel like I have to go back over what I typed just to make sure I don't do it again. I made the poor Dr sound like a retard, when actually from his credentials highly referred. Gahh I just want to curl up in a corner.
Quote from: Mellysia on February 28, 2013, 04:31:04 PM
I say that because I started a thread about me starting therapy and what I typed was NOT what I wanted to say and it was misleading. I feel like I have to go back over what I typed just to make sure I don't do it again. I made the poor Dr sound like a retard, when actually from his credentials highly referred. Gahh I just want to curl up in a corner.
It's usually best hit [preview] and proof read it before posting, then again if it's still bad you can always hit [modify] and make changes then hit [save]. People will think you're smarter than you really are, and thank God for spell check huh?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi686.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fvv228%2Fjaime_r_d%2FhidingfromLiam.jpg&hash=ebad2d95122c0d7f6d5ebbf91102c141becdba44)
Quote from: Keaira on February 28, 2013, 06:08:46 AM
I need to lose weight. Right now my belly jiggles more than my boobs and I already have enough body issues between being trans and my fraked up leg.
Hey, don't make me pull out my belly again. :P Don't be so hard on yourself. Nothing wrong with trying on new habits, but you're beautiful just as you are. :) A bit of a tummy can't take that away from you.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 28, 2013, 05:04:14 PM
Quote from: Keaira on February 28, 2013, 06:08:46 AM
I need to lose weight. Right now my belly jiggles more than my boobs and I already have enough body issues between being trans and my fraked up leg.
Hey, don't make me pull out my belly again. :P Don't be so hard on yourself. Nothing wrong with trying on new habits, but you're beautiful just as you are. :) A bit of a tummy can't take that away from you.
Yep. Some belly is better than no belly. We guys got to have something to play with as we're spooning you.
I can safely say if I was spooning a woman (ugh, been too long) it probably wouldn't be her belly I was playing with. Lmao. But I get your point. ;)
Actually, I really enjoy playing with a girl's fingers as I hold her hand for some reason. And I do that whilst spooning.
I'm not sure where this train of thought wants to take me.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 28, 2013, 05:42:32 PM
I'm not sure where this train of thought wants to take me.
Ride it out for all it's worth. :laugh:
Fingers, huh? That sounds kinda sweet and romantic. Do girls like that?
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on February 28, 2013, 05:54:13 PM
Ride it out for all it's worth. :laugh:
Fingers, huh? That sounds kinda sweet and romantic. Do girls like that?
Girls do like that!
This VW Bus resto mod is kicking my butt. I could rant about all the problems with it that are running me into the ground but I'd sit here typing for a long long time. But I think by Spring it'll run. With a nice little Porsche 1.7 ;)
Have to be back at work bright and early Monday. Its weird getting three days off in a row.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 28, 2013, 06:33:27 PM
Have to be back at work bright and early Monday. Its weird getting three days off in a row.
All that lounging around will make you faaaat! ;D >:-)
Quote from: Shantel on February 28, 2013, 06:41:15 PM
All that lounging around will make you faaaat! ;D >:-)
Or give you more time to exercise and get fiiiiit! :P
Quote from: Shantel on February 28, 2013, 06:41:15 PM
All that lounging around will make you faaaat! ;D >:-)
good, then I can be ugly, dumb and fat. A triple threat!
Quote from: DianaP on February 28, 2013, 06:49:01 PM
Or give you more time to exercise and get fiiiiit! :P
Actually, I'm probably in better physical shape than your average person half my age.
Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 28, 2013, 06:50:15 PM
good, then I can be ugly, dumb and fat. A triple threat!
(Theme to Jaws playing in the background) Just think......Only 25 days left and all that! >:-)
Been a while since I've watched pro wrestling, up next is Bellator Fighting!
That I have got to figure out what it is I'm doing that gets me gendered male so often, coz it certainly isn't the way I look anymore.
A guy ame by to drop of some mail that had been miss delivered to his address, and after a half second double take decided to gender me male. I hadn't even said anything at this point, literally just opened the door. I'm so confused!!
Quote from: Rowan Rue on February 28, 2013, 07:30:58 PM
That I have got to figure out what it is I'm doing that gets me gendered male so often, coz it certainly isn't the way I look anymore.
A guy ame by to drop of some mail that had been miss delivered to his address, and after a half second double take decided to gender me male. I hadn't even said anything at this point, literally just opened the door. I'm so confused!!
I wouldn't lose any sleep over it, should be a no biggie Ms Ru!
I'm thinking I need to stop procrastinating on my hobbies, haha! And yet, here I sit, chillin' on Susan's. I need some inspiration.... *sigh* Or a swift kick in the nethers.
Also, I'm thinking the porno-novel my friend is writing (and I'm editing) is getting pretty darn steamy. I know that's the whole point, it's supposed to make '50 Shades' blush, but the girl's a virgin, and her characters are doing things I've never even heard of! (And wish I had, like, years ago...) Again, *sigh*
"Wow, that didn't go as planned. Never thought this would go...how it went."
I've just spent the last hour or so playing the co-op mode on Far Cry 3 with an Irish friend, my mothers side of the family were all Irish so i love the Irish accent, my friend has a lovely Irish accent, it's not the harsh Dublin accent but the lyrical accent (if you know what I mean).
Add into the mix the fact that he's a really nice person & he has the sexiest voice EVER & i'm feeling rather hot under the collar right now, I mean my thoughts are seriously steamy!!
I could spend the rest of my life listening to that voice (He's good looking as well)
I couldn't honestly type what i'm thinking right now without lowering the tone of the whole site & probably getting myself banned!
I need a very cold shower indeed >:-)
Quote from: Jayne on February 28, 2013, 09:11:05 PM
I've just spent the last hour or so playing the co-op mode on Far Cry 3 with an Irish friend, my mothers side of the family were all Irish so i love the Irish accent, my friend has a lovely Irish accent, it's not the harsh Dublin accent but the lyrical accent (if you know what I mean).
Add into the mix the fact that he's a really nice person & he has the sexiest voice EVER & i'm feeling rather hot under the collar right now, I mean my thoughts are seriously steamy!!
I could spend the rest of my life listening to that voice (He's good looking as well)
I couldn't honestly type what i'm thinking right now without lowering the tone of the whole site & probably getting myself banned!
I need a very cold shower indeed >:-)
Well you have turned up my thermostat. I can't be honest and say I'm not interested in what you were thinking. >:-) Have fun in the cold shower. I think you'll boil the water if you keep having those thoughts.
Quote from: Mellysia on February 28, 2013, 09:32:06 PM
Well you have turned up my thermostat. I can't be honest and say I'm not interested in what you were thinking. >:-) Have fun in the cold shower. I think you'll boil the water if you keep having those thoughts.
What makes it
hard difficult is that I use a turtle beach headset, they're such good quality that it's like he's sat right next to me whispering in my ear.
When he called it a night he said he'll be on tomorrow afternoon so we can "have a long session", it's lucky I was sat down when he said those words or my legs would have buckled! I know he meant a long session on the Xbox but that's not what my brain was thinking
Quote from: Jayne on February 28, 2013, 09:50:08 PM
What makes it hard difficult is that I use a turtle beach headset, they're such good quality that it's like he's sat right next to me whispering in my ear.
Ooooh I know that feeling. I have turtle beach as well, and one of my friends that I play xbox with has a really sexy voice. And she is attractive as well, so. Sometimes I'm just like "aaaaaah it's so nice." Lol.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 28, 2013, 09:52:58 PM
Ooooh I know that feeling. I have turtle beach as well, and one of my friends that I play xbox with has a really sexy voice. And she is attractive as well, so. Sometimes I'm just like "aaaaaah it's so nice." Lol.
Listening to someone with a sexy voice through turtle beaches is great, my ex (evil cow!!) found one of my friends voice really sexy but then she met him a that burst her bubble.
My friend with the sexy voice sent me a friend request on FB & I was scared to look in case my bubble popped but when I saw his pictures it wasn't the bubble that popped, he's the all round perfect package.
He's so laid back about me being trans that if he found out what thoughts I get about him he's just take it as a compliment.
I'll never let him know though as he's married with kids, she's one
very lucky woman
I'm off to bed now, i hope the dream fairy is kind to me tonight >:-)
I'm about to play a rock show with my band for the first time as a girl. I'm really f*ing nervous >.< wish me luck!
Quote from: Caleb. on February 28, 2013, 09:52:58 PM
Ooooh I know that feeling. I have turtle beach as well, and one of my friends that I play xbox with has a really sexy voice. And she is attractive as well, so. Sometimes I'm just like "aaaaaah it's so nice." Lol.
I used to have one, but when I gave my xbox to my brother the turtle beach went with it. Have a good night to you and I'll just sit here a while with steam coming out of my ears. Usually I'm the one doing the sexy talking, but now I want to hear some. Damn it all :P
Quote from: encircle me on February 28, 2013, 10:03:09 PM
I'm about to play a rock show with my band for the first time as a girl. I'm really f*ing nervous >.< wish me luck!
GO GET IT GIRL!!!
Quote from: encircle me on February 28, 2013, 10:03:09 PM
I'm about to play a rock show with my band for the first time as a girl. I'm really f*ing nervous >.< wish me luck!
So cool! Rock it, girl!
Quote from: encircle me on February 28, 2013, 10:03:09 PM
I'm about to play a rock show with my band for the first time as a girl. I'm really f*ing nervous >.< wish me luck!
Best of luck to you, girl! Go out there and knock 'em dead!
...Not literally, though :P
Spaghetti noddles are much better if fried a short while in a bit of olive oil after boiling
Quote from: V M on March 01, 2013, 12:10:20 AM
Spaghetti noddles are much better if fried a short while in a bit of olive oil after boiling
Quinoa spaghetti is much better if you add a bit of olive oil into the water. The box says so :P
Finally, something that actually tastes like pasta.
Quote from: V M on March 01, 2013, 12:10:20 AM
Spaghetti noddles are much better if fried a short while in a bit of olive oil after boiling
If you want really good fried noodles, try your way at home made egg noodles. Those always taste good friend and keep their noodlely consistency without tasting weird.
What I used to do was get lots of good pre-made ravioli and eat them by myself twice--once boiled, then the second time fry the leftovers gently in butter and pepper. Though I suppose you could use olive oil if you aren't (as I was) a calorie-deprived student.
Quote from: Marion on March 01, 2013, 02:30:42 AM
What I used to do was get lots of good pre-made ravioli and eat them by myself twice--once boiled, then the second time fry the leftovers gently in butter and pepper. Though I suppose you could use olive oil if you aren't (as I was) a calorie-deprived student.
If I knew you then, I'd cook for you. If there is one thing in this world I can do well man or woman is cook a serious breakfast, lunch, dinner, whatever you want. I'm and down south person so being hungry is never allowed nor does it happen often unless you over sleep and miss something.
Quote from: encircle me on February 28, 2013, 10:03:09 PM
I'm about to play a rock show with my band for the first time as a girl. I'm really f*ing nervous >.< wish me luck!
I was there! I can confirm that She totally kicked ass!!!!!!!
Seriously the best show I've been to in ages :) Go Shotty!
Wanted to play black ops 2 but its updating -_-
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 01, 2013, 02:52:38 AM
If I knew you then, I'd cook for you. If there is one thing in this world I can do well man or woman is cook a serious breakfast, lunch, dinner, whatever you want. I'm and down south person so being hungry is never allowed nor does it happen often unless you over sleep and miss something.
Much appreciated, thank you! I'm also from the South, and I usually eat pretty well (though I'm not a particularly skilled cook;) this was part of my "going to France to study abroad without enough money" phase. Which I do and do not regret. I guess most accurately I wish I had done it better.
But thanks! there's nothing like a good hot breakfast, really.
Quote from: Biscuit_Stix on February 28, 2013, 08:59:22 PM
I'm thinking I need to stop procrastinating on my hobbies, haha! And yet, here I sit, chillin' on Susan's. I need some inspiration.... *sigh* Or a swift kick in the nethers.
Also, I'm thinking the porno-novel my friend is writing (and I'm editing) is getting pretty darn steamy. I know that's the whole point, it's supposed to make '50 Shades' blush, but the girl's a virgin, and her characters are doing things I've never even heard of! (And wish I had, like, years ago...) Again, *sigh*
I want to take a read at this novel. I can add some steamy texture of you like. I used to write on forum based rpg's and its something I am really good at when I can get things going in my brain.
Quote from: Marion on March 01, 2013, 03:03:48 AM
Much appreciated, thank you! I'm also from the South, and I usually eat pretty well (though I'm not a particularly skilled cook;) this was part of my "going to France to study abroad without enough money" phase. Which I do and do not regret. I guess most accurately I wish I had done it better.
But thanks! there's nothing like a good hot breakfast, really.
Go and get some good chicken fried steak, grits, eggs with a nice meat gravy and home made biscuits. Damn I'm hungry.
Quote from: Caleb. on February 28, 2013, 09:52:58 PM
Ooooh I know that feeling. I have turtle beach as well, and one of my friends that I play xbox with has a really sexy voice. And she is attractive as well, so. Sometimes I'm just like "aaaaaah it's so nice." Lol.
I have a Turtle Beach headset too and yes, it is like they are next to you. So much better than the xbox headsets. Especially if you're laying in bed, chatting away with people you like and watching a movie together.
Can't relax until I take this refresher test -_-
Quote from: Malachite on March 01, 2013, 06:56:18 AM
Can't relax until I take this refresher test -_-
And then you'll feel refreshed?
Quote from: Shantel on March 01, 2013, 07:25:15 AM
And then you'll feel refreshed?
Far from it
Edit:
FINISHED!! Now there's a 5 page paper I have to do but I'll do that next week.
I wish I could figure out why my self esteem, low as it usually is, simply got up and left on vacation these past couple of days.
Quote from: Keaira on March 01, 2013, 07:33:46 AM
I wish I could figure out why my self esteem, low as it usually is, simply got up and left on vacation these past couple of days.
I may be a little slow, but isn't low self esteem going on vacation mean that it's high now?
I fly home today! And just when I was getting used to mid-60s and sunny every day...
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 01, 2013, 07:47:09 AM
I may be a little slow, but isn't low self esteem going on vacation mean that it's high now?
No, it means it got up, gave me a dirty look and slammed the door on the way out, leaving me with no self esteem at all.
Feeling pretty gosh darn low.
Quote from: Keaira on March 01, 2013, 08:44:47 AM
No, it means it got up, gave me a dirty look and slammed the door on the way out, leaving me with no self esteem at all.
Quote from: Steph21 on March 01, 2013, 08:45:39 AM
Feeling pretty gosh darn low.
A huge hug to both of you! I hope your day gets better from here!
Does anyone know of any support groups for parents of trans* people? I think my mom needs one, and one that is hopefully positive and will help her realize I'm still the same person.
Quote from: Keaira on March 01, 2013, 08:44:47 AM
No, it means it got up, gave me a dirty look and slammed the door on the way out, leaving me with no self esteem at all.
I has a few thoughts.
Quote from: Keaira on March 01, 2013, 08:44:47 AM
No, it means it got up, gave me a dirty look and slammed the door on the way out, leaving me with no self esteem at all.
I'm sorry that happened. If you'd like I can stick my Marine foot in its ass and get it up for you :-*
"He will ride across land and time to find a way through this endless night. There's a storm in his heart and the fire burns his soul, but the wanderers part is to ride alone."
I need to work on my time management skills. I was running earlier than I normally do so I decide to do a little shopping well I spent over an hour shopping. Now I'm totally running late to the gym.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on March 01, 2013, 09:38:45 AM
Does anyone know of any support groups for parents of trans* people? I think my mom needs one, and one that is hopefully positive and will help her realize I'm still the same person.
As far as I know, PFLAG includes trans people and friends and family of trans people (at least, it does officially in Canada).
Quote from: Edge on March 01, 2013, 11:17:32 AM
As far as I know, PFLAG includes trans people and friends and family of trans people (at least, it does officially in Canada).
I found that, at least in the US, officially doesn't mean a lot when it comes to the individuals running the chapters though. I'm sure some are great, but even gay people and their supporters can have issues with trans people.
My puppy just lost her baby tooth, I'm playing with it right nao.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 01, 2013, 11:50:23 AM
My puppy just lost her baby tooth, I'm playing with it right nao.
I almost freaked out when my little guy lost his baby teeth, I thought something was wrong with him as I didn't know dogs had baby teeth like that until I looked it up. I still have a couple of them too.
I love my sister. She really is a good person.
I'm thinking, as a result of reading the last series of posts made by Keaira and I, that I am really lucky to have her friendship. Sometimes, I rant and rave and yell over some not-so-important stuff. ESPECIALLY a day or two before a T shot, although I am getting better. And sure, she can have a laugh at it when it's silly, or maybe tell me I'm being whiny. :P I know it can really "grind her gears" :P But she never does that while I'm talking. She always sits there and listens to me and lets me finish. And she makes sure I'm OK before she has a laugh or jab at my expense, and lets me get it out before she gives the tough love. I appreciate it, because honestly, I don't know if I'd ever listen to myself. :|
She's a really good friend and a really good person. Which is why I am making an effort to be more mature and in control of the crappiness I feel before a shot.
Quote from: Caleb. on March 01, 2013, 12:47:08 PM
I'm thinking, as a result of reading the last series of posts made by Keaira and I, that I am really lucky to have her friendship. Sometimes, I rant and rave and yell over some not-so-important stuff. ESPECIALLY a day or two before a T shot, although I am getting better. And sure, she can have a laugh at it when it's silly, or maybe tell me I'm being whiny. :P I know it can really "grind her gears" :P But she never does that while I'm talking. She always sits there and listens to me and lets me finish. And she makes sure I'm OK before she has a laugh or jab at my expense, and lets me get it out before she gives the tough love. I appreciate it, because honestly, I don't know if I'd ever listen to myself. :|
She's a really good friend and a really good person. Which is why I am making an effort to be more mature and in control of the crappiness I feel before a shot.
Awwww that's so sweet!
To the sneaky little editor, I see what you did there, lol.
Quote from: A lovely lady on March 01, 2013, 03:56:42 PM
To the sneaky little editor, I see what you did there, lol.
Well, you are not a thing, you self-deprecating little lady. :P :)
Quote from: A lovely lady on March 01, 2013, 11:35:36 AM
I found that, at least in the US, officially doesn't mean a lot when it comes to the individuals running the chapters though. I'm sure some are great, but even gay people and their supporters can have issues with trans people.
The local PFLAG chapter has a transwoman in it. :3 But that's all I really know.
In regards to puppy teeth...I didn't realize dogs lost theirs until my sister found three of Harley's and gave them to me. :3 I still have them.
It turns out I'm also "in tune" with my dog. I can hear whining downstairs when my dad is getting snacks for the dogs, but apparently the whining is really low and he says he can barely hear her. o.o But I can hear her all the way in my bedroom.
Quote from: A lovely lady on March 01, 2013, 03:56:42 PM
To the sneaky little editor, I see what you did there, lol.
Well, I like the tongue better than the claws. :laugh:
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on March 01, 2013, 04:09:23 PM
Well, I like the tongue better than the claws. :laugh:
I almost put one of me giving the finger for whoever changed my screen name, but I figured I would get fussed at for it. :-\
Quote from: miffed at the coast on March 01, 2013, 03:56:42 PM
To the sneaky little editor, I see what you did there, lol.
It wasn't me!! I swear. :angel:
That's NUMBERWANG!
Quote from: miffed at the coast on March 01, 2013, 03:56:42 PM
To the sneaky little editor, I see what you did there, lol.
You look kinda miffed about something! :laugh:
Sometimes I wish I could just be a lesbian.
I wonder if there's actually someone named Chuck Wagon
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on March 01, 2013, 03:59:59 PM
The local PFLAG chapter has a transwoman in it. :3 But that's all I really know.
Mine has 2 or 3. including myself.
Kids from way back in elementary school are telling me over this facebook thing how it's amazing that I'm embracing my true self and all. I changed the name on my account, and just put my birth name as an alt so people know who it is. Every time I see the new messages on it, I grin within and without. Things are looking up even in the shadow of family.
Quote from: V M on March 01, 2013, 05:45:46 PM
I wonder if there's actually someone named Chuck Wagon
I wonder about Pete Moss and Mal Content. :D
what is that flashing thing on Keaira's signature, is it a pen or ???
My mother can be so unfair at times.
Quote from: Daniella on March 01, 2013, 06:24:50 PM
what is that flashing thing on Keaira's signature, is it a pen or ???
A transdimensional light saber? Yes, it is. :P
Quote from: Malachite on March 01, 2013, 06:50:20 PM
My mother can be so unfair at times.
That sucks, man. What happened?
That one should never try to drive in downtown seattle when there's a convention on.
Chimichangas are a good make yourself feel better food, especially when fried.
Quote from: Rowan Rue on March 01, 2013, 07:15:53 PM
That one should never try to drive in downtown seattle when there's a convention on.
I'd like to second that!
Thanks to a kick in the butt from someone who is rapidly becoming a very, very dear friend, I came out to my HR rep at work today.
Its as though I'm actually transitioning! I'll be full-time in no time.
Quote from: encircle me on March 01, 2013, 08:35:26 PM
Thanks to a kick in the butt from someone who is rapidly becoming a very, very dear friend, I came out to my HR rep at work today.
Its as though I'm actually transitioning! I'll be full-time in no time.
Congrats! :D Hope to hear updates
Quote from: encircle me on March 01, 2013, 08:35:26 PM
Thanks to a kick in the butt from someone who is rapidly becoming a very, very dear friend, I came out to my HR rep at work today.
Its as though I'm actually transitioning! I'll be full-time in no time.
What are friends for huh? Kudos!
Quote from: encircle me on March 01, 2013, 08:35:26 PM
Thanks to a kick in the butt from someone who is rapidly becoming a very, very dear friend, I came out to my HR rep at work today.
Its as though I'm actually transitioning! I'll be full-time in no time.
=^.^=
and that news has kept my day on the good side of meh ;)
Holy crap! It's dawn!
I wonder if its snowing outside. I'm too lazy to check.
I'm thinking I wish I could sleep. :-\
I love how a person can cut almost everything to pieces in Metal Gear Rising, but there's cat in the game that apparently can't be sliced up no matter how hard you try. I respect the developers for doing that. I have no problems cutting up pixalized bad guys but I don't have it in me to slice up a pixalized cat. Heck I had a problem hunting and killing the panthers and tigers in Far Cry 3....as well as the other animals and they were attacking ME! I just don't have it in me. Now pixalized bad guys and even pixalized civilians at times, yes, but pixalized animals....no.
I just don't have the energy to smile.
I'm really cold
Ever look back and think, "Crap. I've known longer than I thought, but was so far in the closet I was tripping over Cair Paravel?" A lot of things make sense now at least.
Quote from: Edge on March 02, 2013, 08:17:36 AM
Ever look back and think, "Crap. I've known longer than I thought, but was so far in the closet I was tripping over Cair Paravel?" A lot of things make sense now at least.
I realized it a week ago. That's why I came out so hard in my mind. It's not every day that your family finds out your out of the closet not long after you come out yourself.
Quote from: Edge on March 02, 2013, 08:17:36 AM
Ever look back and think, "Crap. I've known longer than I thought, but was so far in the closet I was tripping over Cair Paravel?" A lot of things make sense now at least.
Nope. :P I never behaved in a stereotypical male or female fashion as a kid. I just did what ever wanted including wrestling my best friend (male), playing horses with my sister, cooking in an Easy Bake Oven, playing with wrestler action figures, etc. I also dressed fairly tom-boy-ish so there was no real indication outwardly of anything going and inwardly I just never cared to think about it since I had more important things going on in my life. >.>
I always gain 5 pounds when I travel :(
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 02, 2013, 10:29:09 AM
I always gain 5 pounds when I travel :(
Then perform more healthy habits while in travel.
Quote from: DianaP on March 02, 2013, 10:31:09 AM
Then perform more healthy habits while in travel.
I started off the week eating salads, and finished off the week with pizza and pasta. I'll add "willpower" to my self-improvement list :P
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 02, 2013, 10:29:09 AM
I always gain 5 pounds when I travel :(
I went to New Orleans for a month and gained 10 lbs. Had to try all the Cajun foods. Later a friendly black customer insisted I go to a soul food restaurant with him, then later I discovered french fried sweet potatoes. (burp...oh excuse me!)
Quote from: Shantel on March 02, 2013, 10:55:01 AM
I went to New Orleans for a month and gained 10 lbs. Had to try all the Cajun foods. Later a friendly black customer insisted I go to a soul food restaurant with him, then later I discovered french fried sweet potatoes. (burp...oh excuse me!)
We black people can fry up anything and it'll taste good hehe
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 11:55:42 AM
We black people can fry up anything and it'll taste good hehe
So true, but the deep fat fried foods so familiar to the south is loaded with fat and calories. My metabolism doesn't need any extra help there, seems like I manufacture plenty on my own even with a low-fat lean diet. Of course HRT is a contributing factor!
Debating if I should go to Gamestop
Quote from: Malachite on March 02, 2013, 01:34:53 PM
Debating if I should go to Gamestop
Yes, go (I'll be decisive for you if it'll help :P)
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 02, 2013, 01:36:25 PM
Yes, go (I'll be decisive for you if it'll help :P)
Lol Okay! Getting ready now. Thanks!
EDIT
No wait- I love this mission too much ARRRGH can't decide!
Quote from: Edge on March 02, 2013, 08:17:36 AM
Ever look back and think, "Crap. I've known longer than I thought, but was so far in the closet I was tripping over Cair Paravel?" A lot of things make sense now at least.
I'm thinking I lost six years of my life denying it to myself.
Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on March 02, 2013, 09:14:29 AM
Nope. :P I never behaved in a stereotypical male or female fashion as a kid. I just did what ever wanted including wrestling my best friend (male), playing horses with my sister, cooking in an Easy Bake Oven, playing with wrestler action figures, etc. I also dressed fairly tom-boy-ish so there was no real indication outwardly of anything going and inwardly I just never cared to think about it since I had more important things going on in my life. >.>
I never said anything about behaving in a stereotypical "male" or "female" fashion. Please don't quote me and associate that stuff with things I have said. That's like quoting an atheist and associating something religious to what they've said.
I want to transition so badly. It'll probably never happen though, for a number of reasons, and I wonder how I'll get over it.
Video games!
I'm thinking my kid makes the most entertaining noises when he eats. He has his own "Om nom nom" soundtrack going on over there, complete with slurping and smacking sounds. It's awesome. I'm glad he likes my cooking :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on March 02, 2013, 12:58:54 PM
So true, but the deep fat fried foods so familiar to the south is loaded with fat and calories. My metabolism doesn't need any extra help there, seems like I manufacture plenty on my own even with a low-fat lean diet. Of course HRT is a contributing factor!
Well I know a nice form of exercise that can help with that lean, mean, girly machine. I have a feminine figure with hormones due to genetics, but to keep it there I move like a girl and therefore dance like one. You will be surprised at how much you burn off by moving those hips around.
Also diet, doesn't always help. Keep active and eat less, but more times a day. Instead of 3-4 balanced meals, try smaller size, but 4-5 or even 5-6 times a day. The more you keep the metabolic process going the faster it slowly becomes. =]
Quote from: Malachite on March 02, 2013, 07:04:40 PM
Video games!
A high school / college friend and I were playing with LEGOs instead :)
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 11:55:42 AM
We black people can fry up anything and it'll taste good hehe
I was trained in the art of frying by a black girl in Texas, and a white girl from Dothan, Alabama. I knows my hot grease. My handiwork, codfish:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1279.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fy537%2FDevlynMarie%2F20130130_192832_zpse29fbc60.jpg&hash=ce6060a89f829f0f4c95cc0f0682bd2bab336cc3)
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 02, 2013, 08:29:40 PM
A high school / college friend and I were playing with LEGOs instead :)
LEGOs are fun fun.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on March 02, 2013, 08:34:37 PM
I was trained in the art of frying by a black girl in Texas, and a white girl from Dothan, Alabama. I knows my hot grease. My handiwork, codfish:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1279.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fy537%2FDevlynMarie%2F20130130_192832_zpse29fbc60.jpg&hash=ce6060a89f829f0f4c95cc0f0682bd2bab336cc3)
That looks tasty. I may have to come raid your kitchen.
That's what Simon posted, too!
I have one Lego.
Quote from: Malachite on March 02, 2013, 09:02:05 PM
I have one Lego.
Only one? That's sad :(. You should buy a second one and stick the two together! :)
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 02, 2013, 09:03:52 PM
Only one? That's sad :(. You should buy a second one and stick the two together! :)
I wonder if they sell legos seperately lol. One lego for a penny.
Quote from: Malachite on March 02, 2013, 09:09:50 PM
I wonder if they sell legos seperately lol. One lego for a penny.
They do. Pick your favorite: http://shop.lego.com/en-US/Pick-A-Brick-ByTheme (http://shop.lego.com/en-US/Pick-A-Brick-ByTheme) (although they'll probably get you on shipping costs...)
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 02, 2013, 09:12:09 PM
They do. Pick your favorite: http://shop.lego.com/en-US/Pick-A-Brick-ByTheme (http://shop.lego.com/en-US/Pick-A-Brick-ByTheme) (although they'll probably get you on shipping costs...)
Wow....I have no words lol.
Quote from: kkut on March 02, 2013, 09:23:01 PM
I think I'm turning Japanese, I really think so................
The Vapors - Turning Japanese (http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=gEmJ-VWPDM4#)
Nothing wrong with that. I will gladly join you.
T.M.Revolution - The party must go on [LIVE at 'Inazuma Rock Fes 2011'] |720p HD| (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-s5hfzkzyU#)
I know this song by heart and regularly practice Japanese.
:icon_blink: ... only in Japan... ???
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 10:10:05 PM
??
The stage, the outfits, and (mostly) the exorbitantly elaborate drum set. Did you not see that thing?!
Pause at 1:11
Noise music RULES!! ;D
Quote from: DianaP on March 02, 2013, 10:20:04 PM
The stage, the outfits, and (mostly) the exorbitantly elaborate drum set. Did you not see that thing?!
Don't make fun of Taka. I'll come find you :icon_anger:.
Quote from: Snickerdoodle on March 02, 2013, 10:27:20 PM
Noise music RULES!! ;D
That song is the ending to the anime movie Sengoku Basara: The Last Party. I even know the dance
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 10:30:21 PM
That song is the ending to the anime movie Sengoku Basara: The Last Party. I even know the dance
Huh? ???
I have no idea what you are talking about. :D
I was listening to this:
http://ghostsofdeadtables.bandcamp.com/track/random-object-roundabout (http://ghostsofdeadtables.bandcamp.com/track/random-object-roundabout)
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 10:30:21 PM
Don't make fun of Taka. I'll come find you :icon_anger:.
I'm not making fun of them. I'm just saying that they are a unique group of people. Heck, a lot of stuff from Japan is unique.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimg.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fv497%2Funcannylilmanny%2Fwtf_pikachu.png&hash=2cc684b5ae85e69331724fc4f1dadfa812a71b38)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fdisgrasian.com%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2011%2F02%2Felectro-smile-japan.png&hash=45e714d35c5d040bd9bb0c417117896b34ef3626)
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Quote from: DianaP on March 02, 2013, 10:33:24 PM
I'm not making fun of them. I'm just saying that they are a unique group of people. Heck, a lot of stuff from Japan is unique.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimg.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fv497%2Funcannylilmanny%2Fwtf_pikachu.png&hash=2cc684b5ae85e69331724fc4f1dadfa812a71b38)
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I have those boobies accept mine are pink.
I just realized something interesting. After doing some reading a bit about hormones and such, I know why I have such a female body to being with. Soy products have an testosterone repressing effect which limits the bodies ability to produce it. I used to eat and drink soy product cause I liked the taste. Now I know why I could never build up like I wanted to when I was younger. I pushing my body in the female direction without even knowing.
I think, I would like to go see Chaos Chaos at Rickshaw:)
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 11:08:36 PM
I have those boobies accept mine are pink.
I just realized something interesting. After doing some reading a bit about hormones and such, I know why I have such a female body to being with. Soy products have an testosterone repressing effect which limits the bodies ability to produce it. I used to eat and drink soy product cause I liked the taste. Now I know why I could never build up like I wanted to when I was younger. I pushing my body in the female direction without even knowing.
Yep. My dad doesn't eat soy for that reason. [He's in the medical profession.] He has no problem with it in small, small doses [usually just the beans], but he won't eat a lot because of the effects it can have on the male body.
And...I'm thinking I need a break to figure out who I am and to just focus on me.
This is my 500th post! Took me long enough :)
I'm annoyed because in the ABC soup thread I have food for L and when I went to look there all that's standing in my way is a K. > : O That's not a coincidence, it's God taunting me! So I guess I'll just wait until someone fills in a food that starts with K....
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 03, 2013, 12:55:05 PM
I'm annoyed because in the ABC soup thread I have food for L and when I went to look there all that's standing in my way is a K. > : O That's not a coincidence, it's God taunting me! So I guess I'll just wait until someone fills in a food that starts with K....
I know how you feel. I had to wait for 3 rounds to be able to write "bull balls." :P
MMA
Everything sucks.
Chris Rock has the funniest opinion on gun control EVER! :laugh:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OuX-nFmL0II (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OuX-nFmL0II)
I shouldn't have gone there. Shouldn't have done it. I knew it would turn out this way.
What's up, Melly?
Went to see the priest who is part of an organization called Courage that helps people get help whether your straight/gay/bi etc. I thought it would be non biased, but it ended up being that way. It went straight to the spiritual the whole way which isn't everything. He then referred me to a Dr he knows who knows about this subject, but is also biased. He thinks that GID is only caused by something in our lives. He believes in cause and effect only and thinks that we can be changed to grow up liking ourselves. I'm not doing this cause something happened in my childhood or something that happened later in life. It was triggered and brought out by events in later life, but I felt and thought I was a girl fro as far as I can remember. I knew as soon as he said he wasn't a therapist it was a bad idea, but he said he wanted to talk anyway so I kept an open mind. Now I am fully regretting talking to him and I feel like I've been backed into a corner. He wants me to talk to someone he knows and tell him that I was referred by him, like he wants to keep tabs. I feel like wanting to run and jump off a cliff before turning into someone's experiment.
I told him EVERYTHING!! I want to cry my eyes out now.
Well, you can't change the past. Just don't see him or anyone like him again.
I'm going to do a bit of double blind testing of my own and see if I can find an unbiased person. I'll talk to this guy and another dr at the same time and see what the diagnosis is from each dr. I want to make sure I'm getting the best treatment for me and not have my life influenced by some wrinkly old man who has a thing against trans people.
I can say this for sure and that is my brain is fine. I didn't start thinking or feeling this way because of an event in my life. I know what I am and I know its not a mistake. Screw anyone else who thinks otherwise.
I'm thinking it wasn't a half bad idea to do a little day drinking today, I'm feeling fiiiiiine :)
Quote from: DianaP on March 03, 2013, 03:14:05 PM
Well, you can't change the past. Just don't see him or anyone like him again.
Direct, to the point, and absolutely correct.
I'm sorry that happened to you. :( You don't need that sort of stuff when you're trying to figure it all out. The best thing you can do is just politely decline if it's brought up again. You don't have to do anything you don't want to; just say something along the lines of "I appreciate your help, but I think right now I just need to work on myself and think it over before I talk to anyone else." I've had people try to pressure me into "talking" to someone or doing something that I didn't feel was right for me, and it's hard but you've got to be your own advocate in these types of situations. because they certainly have their own agenda in mind and feel like it's their obligation to lead people in a certain way.
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Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 03, 2013, 03:27:00 PM
I can say this for sure and that is my brain is fine. I didn't start thinking or feeling this way because of an event in my life. I know what I am and I know its not a mistake. Screw anyone else who thinks otherwise.
Then why bother listening to someone who is probably anti-trans? I would never go to a church for an answer as to whether I am trans or not. If you know who you are, then why not go around and ask some doctors who actually specialize in GID to help you work through the nitty gritty of it and decide where to go next? To me, it just seems awfully masochistic to talk to a guy that has connections to a church that generally doesn't support transition.
I'm considering starting a blog. The problem is, how should I organize it? I don't want it to be personal. I make personal posts on here but I don't feel a very strong need to document everything that has happened in my life. But, I don't really have a topic for it. I think about so many sorts of topics and issues throughout the day, so the blog would be really scattered. A tagging system would certainly help with that, I guess, but even at that.
I realized his position after reading about him. I didn't know before hand what he was like when it came to the subject of trans men and women. I read a couple articles about him and it was clear to me what his position was. I haven't talked to him or met him. The priest I talked to didn't really get weird with it like I thought he would. He said some things I can agree with, but this Dr he knows I wouldn't set foot near him even if he was the last Dr alive. I feel like I'd be backed into a corner talking to him, like he would pick apart my life and try to find something to attach my feelings to. I don't want something like that.
I started a blog on here and I am telling everything in my life from start to finish.
This month sucks and I'm only three days in. Ugh.
I'm Loving the way my hair has been behaving this weekend wish it would be this manageable everyday. :)
school
"Show me a hero, and I'll show you a tragedy." My teacher told me that once. He's right...
-Superman- Planet exploded.
-Batman- Parents killed. His one true love, Andrea Beaumont, left him, came back as an anti-hero, then faked her own death.
-Richard Grayson- Parents killed.
-Jason Todd- Parents killed.
-Tim Drake- Mom's dead, dad's crippled.
-Stephanie Brown- Raised by a neglectful criminal father.
-Damian Wayne- Born solely to become a weapon of the League of Assassins meant to replace Bruce Wayne.
-Barbara Gordon- First Batgirl. She was shot and paralyzed by the Joker, only to become Oracle, computer hacker extraordinaire.
Terry McGinnis- Dad gets killed by corrupt employer.
-Spider-Man- Parents die in plane crash, uncle gets shot and killed.
-Anti-Venom- Parents die in same plane crash, possessed by Venom.
-The Punisher- Whole family gets killed by the mob.
-Iron Man- Kidnapped, bombed, and permanently bound to a machine to keep from dying.
-All of the X-Men- Outcasts for being "freaks." Particularly Wolverine, who was experimented on against his own will.
...I think you get the point.
Hm, I interact in a more stereotypical male way with my neighbours now.
Funny thing is, I think they think I'm a girl so I wonder if they find me somewhat abrupt.
I don't care.
What's the "male" way of neighbor interaction?
Well, I say stereotypical because this obviously isn't the case for all guys...or all girls for that matter...
But before, I would have struck up a conversation even though I hardly know them, tried to make my voice sound higher/more agreeable, etc.
But this time, the guy just said "hello". I said "how it's going?" He said "good, you?" I said "I'm all right." And that was it. Lmao.
I should add...I actually prefer it now. Being a bit more short and just having that mutual acknowledgement between myself and other guys. Before, I always thought it was very rude, but it really isn't.
Spec Ops: The Line is truly a great game.
Quote from: Malachite on March 03, 2013, 09:47:57 PM
Spec Ops: The Line is truly a great game.
As far as I'm concerned, all of those games are exactly the same, just with different camera perspectives...
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Quote from: DianaP on March 03, 2013, 09:50:48 PM
As far as I'm concerned, all of those games are exactly the same, just with different camera perspectives...
The thing about Spec Ops that sets it apart from all the others is it's narrative. It's basically a retelling of Conrad's
Heart of Darkness, much like Frances Ford Coppola's
Apocalypse Now, just set in Dubai instead of the Amazon and Vietnam, respectively. They even throw a nod and wink to both source materials during the game. It's rare to have a nearly pure FPS have a worthwhile and engaging single player storyline, and this one succeeds at it immensely.
Oh. I'm also thinking that I really don't want to go to work tomorrow.
Quote from: DianaP on March 03, 2013, 09:50:48 PM
As far as I'm concerned, all of those games are exactly the same, just with different camera perspectives...
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I just got done beating MW 2 the other day. It was an okay game. Very action packed. I kind of miss Killzone 3. The gameplay was fun but the ending was a let down. I had the Trilogy. Killzone 2 was pretty decent. I enjoyed the knife combat the most while Killzone 3 had the better graphics.
I'm thinking that I hope I hope I hope I hope I HOPE my mom will allow me to have top surgery done one day while I'm still living under her roof.
Quote from: Shodan on March 03, 2013, 09:56:27 PM
The thing about Spec Ops that sets it apart from all the others is it's narrative.
I agree. The storyline definately blew me away! It has been one of the deepest millitary shooter game I've played so far.
"Wow, I slept all day long. Time feed my fat face and watch some AMA Supercross"
I'm thinking that I should GET OFF THE LAPTOP and go to sleep so I can make it to the DMV before work and get my new ID with proper name & gender :D :D
Oh, what to wear!
I hope I wake up before my alarm so I can get everything just right. I'm going to have to live with that photo for a while. THE PRESSURE!! There's no way I'm going to be able to sleep.
Sleep. I sleep at the most random times. I can't control my own body anymore. Bleh, just wish I was by myself so I can do what I want for myself for once.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 02, 2013, 11:08:36 PM
I just realized something interesting. After doing some reading a bit about hormones and such, I know why I have such a female body to being with. Soy products have an testosterone repressing effect which limits the bodies ability to produce it. I used to eat and drink soy product cause I liked the taste. Now I know why I could never build up like I wanted to when I was younger. I pushing my body in the female direction without even knowing.
I should eat some of those. My therapist told me the same thing but I was just like "whatever you say".
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 04, 2013, 02:08:27 AM
I should eat some of those. My therapist told me the same thing but I was just like "whatever you say".
I might just eat soy 24-7 then
Quote from: DianaP on March 03, 2013, 09:50:48 PM
As far as I'm concerned, all of those games are exactly the same, just with different camera perspectives...
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Sorry to burst your bubble on this one but Spec ops is a 3rd person shooter not a 1st person shooter, it's also got some of the best gameplay in ages
I agree that it's got one of the best stories in a long time
I wish I could sleep but i'm on tenderhooks awaiting a phone call to let me know if i've got a place to live in & call my own.
Does blue cheese actually feel blue?
Quote from: Jayne on March 04, 2013, 02:55:52 AM
Sorry to burst your bubble on this one but Spec ops is a 3rd person shooter not a 1st person shooter
I know. That's why I said they're all the same minus the camera perspectives.
Quote from: DianaP on March 04, 2013, 05:30:17 AM
I know. That's why I said they're all the same minus the camera perspectives.
Out of the 3 games in the picture Killzone is the only one with a cover system so that makes it play like completely different beast altogether so to say Killzone is the same as COD or MOH is a misinformed statement.
Your statement was in response to the comment that Spec Ops is a great game & comparing a 3rd person game to a 1st person game is like comparing apples to oranges, they may both be fruits but they are worlds apart.
To dismiss a game or genre due to similarities is short sighted as regardless of similarities a great game is still a great game.
I've played over 300 games in this console generation & there is still plenty of diversity amongst genres, I've only played a fraction of the games released over the last 5yrs on consoles & it's impossible to play 300 games without some games being alike.
I talk to myself sometimes, but my dad takes it to a whole new level. He's been talking to himself for bloody hours. I'm about to go nuts!
I'm thinking of going out to do something, but I don't really know what. I could go to university and get some work done (ideal), but I'd get there around 4 pm. Then it's only 2.5 hours til sunset and it takes an hour/hour and a half to get home. Since I only have 3 shirts, I could go get clothes, but I'm not good at picking my own clothes, and that's one thing that really stresses me out, especially alone.
Since we don't have a lot of healthy food around the house I could go to the store and stock up, but the lines are probably ludicrous at this time of day. That said, I could just go to the natural food store and get some stuff there, the lines won't be bad...buuuut there are people who knew me as a girl. Lol.
I think at some point I'm just going to have to suck it up, pick something, go, and deal with it. I can't believe I wrote such a long post about this.
Quote from: Jayne on March 04, 2013, 06:02:15 AM
Out of the 3 games in the picture Killzone is the only one with a cover system so that makes it play like completely different beast altogether so to say Killzone is the same as COD or MOH is a misinformed statement.
Your statement was in response to the comment that Spec Ops is a great game & comparing a 3rd person game to a 1st person game is like comparing apples to oranges, they may both be fruits but they are worlds apart.
To dismiss a game or genre due to similarities is short sighted as regardless of similarities a great game is still a great game.
I've played over 300 games in this console generation & there is still plenty of diversity amongst genres, I've only played a fraction of the games released over the last 5yrs on consoles & it's impossible to play 300 games without some games being alike.
They're the same thing. You can take cover in all of them. Not to mention that I've seen gameplay of all of them, and the camera angle is the only noticeable difference. The environments are the same, the weapons are the same, the enemies are the same.
Spec Ops The Line E3 Gameplay (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEGGNZyw7i8#)
As you can see, this game is COD with the camera pulled out back a bit.
PS - I never said these are inherently bad games, just that they're very similar, which isn't a false statement. Sure, they are not worthwhile in my opinion, but that doesn't make them absolutely bad.
I'm thinking I wish I could get a call back on that interview last Wednesday. I need a new job so badly. :'(
I have a blister on my toe :(. The next time I go ice skating I'm wearing two pairs of socks...
Ugh, I have bug bites. Damn things are coming back to life now that Winter's over.
Question asked to me by a freshman I work with.
"If you go from 3.75 to 3.00, are you getting bigger or smaller?"
:eusa_wall:
I'm thinking..... I shoudn't have had those churros.
*burp* :embarrassed:
I want some Honey Nut Cheerios.
Quote from: Malachite on March 04, 2013, 07:12:10 PM
I want some Honey Nut Cheerios.
Uh - oh Malachite's emoting again, hide the honey nut cheerios! ;D
Auntie Shan, I'm appalled by you! Don't you remember Sesame Street? Didn't you ever learn how to share?! Come here, Malachite. Sweetie, I'll share my Honey Nut Cheerios with you, and Shan's not invited to play with us. Hmph. :P
Quote from: DianaP on March 04, 2013, 08:22:50 PM
Auntie Shan, I'm appalled by you! Don't you remember Sesame Street? Didn't you ever learn how to share?! Come here, Malachite. Sweetie, I'll share my Honey Nut Cheerios with you, and Shan's not invited to play with us. Hmph. :P
YAY!
Shame on you for trying to hide them Auntie Shan. :(
Quote from: Malachite on March 04, 2013, 08:40:24 PM
YAY!
Shame on you for trying to hide them Auntie Shan. :(
-Slowly tip toes over- Ooo Cheerios. May I have some Please? :)
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 04, 2013, 09:34:21 PM
-Slowly tip toes over- Ooo Cheerios. May I have some Please? :)
Sure you can. Sharing is caring. :)
Quote from: Malachite on March 04, 2013, 09:35:16 PM
Sure you can. Sharing is caring. :)
YAY!
I got regular Cheerios if you want some of those. I got Bananas, Strawberries, Blueberries, and other things you can put in it.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 04, 2013, 09:37:37 PM
YAY!
I got regular Cheerios if you want some of those. I got Bananas, Strawberries, Blueberries, and other things you can put in it.
Plain is fine by me :)
Quote from: Malachite on March 04, 2013, 10:10:15 PM
Plain is fine by me :)
In my humble opinion the best cereal in the world is something I used to eat when I was younger. Cocoa Wheats.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 04, 2013, 10:35:41 PM
In my humble opinion the best cereal in the world is something I used to eat when I was younger. Cocoa Wheats.
Hmmm I think the closest thing I've had to those were Cocoa Puffs...chocoately goodness.
They still make Cocoa Wheats its like Cream of Wheat accept chocolate
All I can think right now is how much I want my skin to clear up, i'm back to having to moisturize above my top lip every 10 minutes, the cream stings as it soaks in & i'm sick of it.
I haven't slept for a couple of days as being unconscious for several hours lets my skin dry out too much & undoes my hard work, last night the hard layer of skin started peeling so i'm hoping it will be safe to sleep by the end of today ::)
In bound storm set for 3am. Readying my hot cocoa, books and warm blanket =)
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 04, 2013, 11:34:47 PM
They still make Cocoa Wheats its like Cream of Wheat accept chocolate
Never had those either lol
I'm thinking about what else I have in my room to put up for sale on Craigslist.
Quote from: Malachite on March 05, 2013, 01:56:06 AM
Never had those either lol
I'm thinking about what else I have in my room to put up for sale on Craigslist.
OMG you need to go to the store. Go to the hot cereal section and find Cocoa Wheats.
It seems no matter how early I get up I still never have enough time.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 05, 2013, 02:07:13 AM
OMG you need to go to the store. Go to the hot cereal section and find Cocoa Wheats.
LOL yeah I'm pretty late when it comes to cereal.
I'm thinking about family
Well that's just great. Washed my ipod with my clothes. Great job moron.
Edited for profanity.
I'm thinking that last night was some wild fun. I have the temporary tattoos to prove it.
This was the second I owned myself. I always manage to break or destroy something.
My student ID card no longer has a sex listed on it. The staff has no clue I'm trans, either- it was printed as a spare and I noticed that field was missing on it.
Hell yeah.
It sucks that sooner or later I will have to learn how to drive. Public transportation isn't adequate here but I hate driving.
Quote from: Malachite on March 05, 2013, 07:35:34 PM
It sucks that sooner or later I will have to learn how to drive. Public transportation isn't adequate here but I hate driving.
Driving is awesome. You ok? ???
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 05, 2013, 10:39:51 PM
Driving is awesome. You ok? ???
I'm content right now but I just never liked to drive. I've taken driver's ed in school about 5 years ago but I still just have a permit. I'm just not fond of driving and all of the added expenses. I hate driving with a passion and I hope to move somewhere one day where I can just take public transportation.
Quote from: Malachite on March 05, 2013, 10:53:26 PM
I'm content right now but I just never liked to drive. I've taken driver's ed in school about 5 years ago but I still just have a permit. I'm just not fond of driving and all of the added expenses. I hate driving with a passion and I hope to move somewhere one day where I can just take public transportation.
I used to hate driving too. I wanted nothing to do with any kind of vehicle until I joined the military and I saw the car of my dreams. It was a limited edition 2001 Mercury Cougar V6 ZN. I had been taught not long before how to drive stick and that car was a standard 5 speed. I took it out for a test drive and I took it out for a test drive. hehe After that I couldn't be away from my car unless I was asleep and even sometimes I would sleep in my car cause I loved it so much. I love cars now, but I'm really picky about what kind I drive. Must be standard transmission, V6 or better, drive-train doesn't really matter, and it MUST be yellow.
I hear you out there coyotes! >:(
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 06, 2013, 12:53:20 AM
I used to hate driving too. I wanted nothing to do with any kind of vehicle until I joined the military and I saw the car of my dreams. It was a limited edition 2001 Mercury Cougar V6 ZN. I had been taught not long before how to drive stick and that car was a standard 5 speed. I took it out for a test drive and I took it out for a test drive. hehe After that I couldn't be away from my car unless I was asleep and even sometimes I would sleep in my car cause I loved it so much. I love cars now, but I'm really picky about what kind I drive. Must be standard transmission, V6 or better, drive-train doesn't really matter, and it MUST be yellow.
If I had to drive then I'd want something really small.....or a moped.
Thinking about my father now.
I hope things look up soon. Being unemployed and alone all the time is wearing me down.
I just gave a friend $100. I shouldn't have done that. I need to think about myself, but I mean... this is my best friend, and they needed it badly at the moment.
Now though there's no way I can afford to get therapy, and my parents are going to be on me because I'm supposed to be frugal. I'd have felt horrible though if I didn't do it.
I'm broke now, and still unemployed, and I truy, honestly doubt that I'm mentally stable enough to get and keep a job. FML
Quote from: Trixie on March 06, 2013, 11:47:45 AM
I just gave a friend $100. I shouldn't have done that. I need to think about myself, but I mean... this is my best friend, and they needed it badly at the moment.
Now though there's no way I can afford to get therapy, and my parents are going to be on me because I'm supposed to be frugal. I'd have felt horrible though if I didn't do it.
I'm broke now, and still unemployed, and I truy, honestly doubt that I'm mentally stable enough to get and keep a job. FML
You're a good person, what goes around comes back around and sometimes even better. My theory is that I know I'll never be rich and that I'm really just the manager of other people's money anyway. Now to convince them that I'm not an ATM! :D
Quote from: Shantel on March 06, 2013, 12:27:47 PM
You're a good person, what goes around comes back around and sometimes even better. My theory is that I know I'll never be rich and that I'm really just the manager of other people's money anyway. Now to convince them that I'm not an ATM! :D
I might be a good person, but I'm an unhappy person. I'm so disappointed in myself, and so disappointed that I will inevitably have to put off seeing a therapist for at the absolute, bare-minimum, another month. :( :embarrassed:
Being happy is too much to ask of this world.
I wonder if I'll be able to talk. Hmm, seems like this will get interesting.
Quote from: Trixie on March 06, 2013, 01:34:15 PM
I might be a good person, but I'm an unhappy person. I'm so disappointed in myself, and so disappointed that I will inevitably have to put off seeing a therapist for at the absolute, bare-minimum, another month. :( :embarrassed:
Being happy is too much to ask of this world.
It wouldn't hurt to call the office and tell them what you did and see if they could roll the fee forward until you were able to catch up. What do you have to lose?
Quote from: Shantel on March 06, 2013, 02:06:48 PM
It wouldn't hurt to call the office and tell them what you did and see if they could roll the fee forward until you were able to catch up. What do you have to lose?
Unfortunately, I haven't even set up an appointment.
Quote from: Trixie on March 06, 2013, 05:09:14 PM
Unfortunately, I haven't even set up an appointment.
Then it's time to get pro-active and get on it girl!
Quote from: Shantel on March 06, 2013, 05:24:20 PM
Then it's time to get pro-active and get on it girl!
Oh, I would be doing exactly that if I hadn't done what I did.
I'm nearly totally broke at the moment. I have less than ten dollars, total.
Trixie, did you give your friend the money or did you loan them money? I think I'd be willing to loan my friends that much, but I don't think I could just hand it out to them...
Can't wait to see more Tomb Raider walkthrough. I will get the game when it's cheaper or if the DLC will be bundled
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 06, 2013, 05:37:39 PM
Trixie, did you give your friend the money or did you loan them money? I think I'd be willing to loan my friends that much, but I don't think I could just hand it out to them...
Loaned. It's just going to be a while before I can get it back, and in piecemeal. It was important that it's her. I trust her to pay me back. It's just a really, really bad time for me to do this.
My boyfriend painted his toenails a lovely shade of pink. Surprisingly, it didn't even look a hint purple to me- probably because it was hot pink, and I have the most trouble with lighter, duller shades of the two colors.
I have to say, he did an excellent job. It looks nice on him, and he didn't paint outside the nail either. Love that kid to pieces.
Can't wait to see more Tomb Raider gameplay!
Power trippers kinda trip me out
Craigslist
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate factory and the Oompa Loompa song
OOMPA LOOMPA SONGS; WILLY WONKA SOUNDTRACK; original classic (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhEwR2XKup4#)
Totally not going to screw about waiting for top surgery. Once I get the funds that I need, I'm getting it.
Quote from: Malachite on March 06, 2013, 09:43:06 PM
Can't wait to see more Tomb Raider gameplay!
I want to get that game soooo bad! I'm fighting off the urge to trade in a bunch of games just to get that game. ;D
The world wants me to be miserable so why fight it?
If it wasn't for Poopie depending on me i'd probably end things right now but I can't let him down
Quote from: Heather on March 07, 2013, 02:15:56 PM
I want to get that game soooo bad! I'm fighting off the urge to trade in a bunch of games just to get that game. ;D
Same here! I need some more games but $60 is a bit too much for me. I'm going to patiently wait to see if either A. The price goes down B. A complete edition comes out with all of the DLC B. The collector's edition goes down to $60 or D. See if I can find it for a steal on Black Friday
I'm thinking about ho WWE's Paul Bearer has died. :( That makes me sad. I would go around saying "KAAAAAAAAANE"!
Speaking of which, Steam just emailed me that Max Payne 3 is on sale for $14. Soooo tempting.
Watching Bellator fighting HECK YEAH I feel so manly. Wish I was at Hooters watching it and kicking back.
I can't feel my legs from the knee down.
my dad never stops talking. If he isn't talking to someone on the phone, he is talking to himself.
Well, got through a big chunk of work in a relatively short period of time. Still got a big mountain of papers to go through, but once these are done, it's smooth sailing as long as I stay focussed. It's the mid-term hump.
Can't find my shark tooth necklace!
Quote from: Malachite on March 07, 2013, 10:14:49 PM
Can't find my shark tooth necklace!
You sure the shark didn't steal it during shark week? :icon_peace:
How to remember/understand cellular respiration and photosynthesis. Particularly, the names of the things in the electron transport chain and light reactions, how ATP synthase works, and the Calvin cycle.
I wonder if I'm attracted to people or if I just want to look like them/have some of their traits.
I wonder if I can use a live action character as an avatar or if that would be weird since the actor is a real person who obviously isn't me.
I'm still mad that Supernatural killed off my favourite character who was only in four episodes.
I wonder why I keep having typos.
My glasses are going to fall off my face. :\
Also, do I want Arby's or Wendy's or Taco Bell for lunch?
Quote from: Shantel on March 08, 2013, 08:46:18 AM
You sure the shark didn't steal it during shark week? :icon_peace:
If he did he must of gave it back. Found it now!
I wish the trashmen were back today. I want to see them take out more trash. My father said that he hopes I find something better to be excited about in life and I completely agreed with him.
GTA V looks boring and I'm tired of having a male lead. Not one, but THREE male leads, what the shizz? I don't think I'll be playing it for a long time.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 08, 2013, 02:10:03 PM
GTA V looks boring and I'm tired of having a male lead. Not one, but THREE male leads, what the shizz? I don't think I'll be playing it for a long time.
Or at least wait for the complete edition to come out!
I'm thinking about Papa Johns pizza, gonna go try to get my free pizza today. Hope all goes well.
I'm reading about WWII agent Nancy Wake. Damn she sounds like she was a badass, at one point she killed a sentry just by judo-chopping him in the neck so he wouldn't raise an alarm during a raid. >.<
One of my friends was in the news in Iceland for his skinny dipping pact! (I think I mentioned the pact in this thread a while ago...)
I need more Tomb Raider gameplay!
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 08, 2013, 02:10:03 PM
GTA V looks boring and I'm tired of having a male lead. Not one, but THREE male leads, what the shizz? I don't think I'll be playing it for a long time.
BLASPHEMY!!!
Poopies been sleeping on my legs for about an hour & I can't feel my feet, I haven't got the heart to wake him up to move him & I can't reach his bag of snacks to rustle them & entice him to move of his own free will, HELP!!
I NEED MORE VIDEO GAMES!
......and a bromance
I came out to my wife and 4 close friends last week. One accepts me, 3 are skeptical, and one does not. The one who accepts me is a girlfriend, but not my wife, and I am fearful as I feel myself beginning to grow a bit too close. My wife is skeptical, and pulling away, I fear. It is all quite sad, confusing, and exhilarating. I feel reborn, but fearful of what tomorrow will bring.
That is what I am thinking right now.
Quote from: Malachite on March 08, 2013, 08:34:17 PM
......and a bromance
I need a bromance too. With someone who actually likes and respects me. Not going to happen. I hate the fact that I have been admitting to weakness. It's pathetic.
Quote from: Edge on March 08, 2013, 08:39:16 PM
I need a bromance too. With someone who actually likes and respects me. Not going to happen. I hate the fact that I have been admitting to weakness. It's pathetic.
I felel you with that. I personally tend to be awkward around most people since they don't see the real me.
Still thinking about video games.
Quote from: Malachite on March 08, 2013, 08:34:17 PM
I NEED MORE VIDEO GAMES!
I know that feeling, I traded in some old games to get a second had copy of Aliens Colonial Marines today to scratch the gaming itch, I waited until it was dark, turned the lights out & played the first level with my Turtle Beach headset turned up to full volume!
I then had to watch the Teletubbies for an hour to ease my nerves, I now can't decide which disturbs me more, Teletubbies or xenomorphs! ???
Quote from: Jayne on March 08, 2013, 08:33:25 PM
Poopies been sleeping on my legs for about an hour & I can't feel my feet, I haven't got the heart to wake him up to move him & I can't reach his bag of snacks to rustle them & entice him to move of his own free will, HELP!!
LOL... Pinned down by the poopsie :laugh:
Quote from: Jayne on March 08, 2013, 08:48:26 PM
I know that feeling, I traded in some old games to get a second had copy of Aliens Colonial Marines today to scratch the gaming itch, I waited until it was dark, turned the lights out & played the first level with my Turtle Beach headset turned up to full volume!
I then had to watch the Teletubbies for an hour to ease my nerves, I now can't decide which disturbs me more, Teletubbies or xenomorphs! ???
How did you like that game? I've been hearing a lot of bad things about it from other gamers.
Quote from: Malachite on March 08, 2013, 08:52:46 PM
How did you like that game? I've been hearing a lot of bad things about it from other gamers.
It looks like a few of my posts were lost when this site went down for maintenance last night, either that or my dongle freezing up stopped my posts from going through.
It seems ok so far but it's too early to give you a full answer to your question, judging from the achievements list it looks like a short game so i'll probably be able to let you know my final verdict by the end of the weekend (unless later levels are really big)
Quote from: Jayne on March 09, 2013, 09:10:47 AM
It looks like a few of my posts were lost when this site went down for maintenance last night, either that or my dongle freezing up stopped my posts from going through.
It seems ok so far but it's too early to give you a full answer to your question, judging from the achievements list it looks like a short game so i'll probably be able to let you know my final verdict by the end of the weekend (unless later levels are really big)
Okie doke!
I'm thinking about how I admire everyone here who is taking the steps to transition. I wish I could be as brave.
Hearing Drake's voice makes me sick. Like I hate the way he says everything. Ugh.
Various odd thoughts
ugh 4 more pages to write
That my butt is starting to hurt from being parked in this chair for too long... time to move around.
My mother said she would cry if I cut my hair. I believe her. She seems to live herself through my hair and she actually admitted that. while my sister was coming it after washing it, she said that it's breaking off badly and I honestly did not care. In fact, I told her that I hope more broke off and she told me to shut up and that people would kill for my hair. I've been told that all of my life. My other sister would say things like "I wish I could have your hair." Well take it. I think I would look good with long hair and a goatee but my hair can be a pain to take care of. If I had the courage to shave it off then I would but sadly, it's the best feature about me.
Back to the first statement, I know it's going to hurt my mom when I come out to her in a few years. It actually hurts me to think about it. She's going to cry and drink herself more than usual and everyone is going to blame me because I am the villian.
*hugs Malachite*
I am so depressed about my recent bottom dysphoria wave that I was going to log out and drink until I wanted to sleep. Instead, Keaira proposed she drink with me and me watch Green Lantern as we do so. I can see that working out.
I'm not quite sure why, but the term 'Finger Foods' has always held a somewhat perverse connotation to it for me
Moobs...go away pls ;-;
This holding out thing sucks. I want to be allowed, if nothing else for now, a binder. Not the makeshift thing I'm using that only sort of works, but a real binder. But nope, that makes me a freak. I need a job badly, so I can have money they won't claim isn't really mine. Because, you know, all the money given to me for birthdays and whatnot is really for my parents, not me. Give me a break.
Quote from: Caleb. on March 10, 2013, 01:33:51 AM
*hugs Malachite*
*hugs*
I'm thinking about how I really want that new Tomb Raider game. I also just got back from church and my sister (the preacher) was talking about how if anyone is in the hospital to call her and she will pray over them....yet when I asked her if she would be there and support me for when I get my top surgery a while back she said she honestly didn't know and that she would probably be disappointed with me....I resisted the urge to cry about that in church. That realy hurt.
Monday I start making calls. Monday everything starts. Monday, I start being who "I" want to be.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 10, 2013, 01:46:40 PM
Monday I start making calls. Monday everything starts. Monday, I start being who "I" want to be.
Op-plan A! :)
I wish it was 60F outside every day!
Getting $3 for a couple of kids to play my video game isn't bad....$3 closer to my top surgery
I am a dwarf and I'm digging a hole
Diggy diggy hole
Diggy diggy hole
Okay, I'm done. Anyway, I think it'd be cool to make a thread where people post trans* memes they made, just for fun.
I should have studied math today and was totally planning to, but instead I slept in until almost noon (it was daylight savings, I'm sick, and I got up to make my son breakfast and make sure he was happy before going back to bed), went for a walk with my son, talked to my mom on skype, and I don't know where the time has gone.
Quote from: Edge on March 10, 2013, 05:34:27 PM
I should have studied math today and was totally planning to, but instead I slept in until almost noon (it was daylight savings, I'm sick, and I got up to make my son breakfast and make sure he was happy before going back to bed), went for a walk with my son, talked to my mom on skype, and I don't know where the time has gone.
Time is a lot like sand; it slips through our fingers and them makes us cry as the wind blows it into our eyes.
Sounds like you needed the sleep. A bit of studying now can help, especially if one listens to music at the same time (preferably classical so one doesn't get *too* distracted). Feel better and good luck.
Strangely, I am able to focus better with angry music which could be classical, but I don't think I have any.
My 5 page paper is due in less than three hours....I guess I better get started on it.
Quote from: Edge on March 10, 2013, 06:19:56 PM
Strangely, I am able to focus better with angry music which could be classical, but I don't think I have any.
Gustav Holst - The Planets - Mars, the Bringer of War (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0bcRCCg01I#)
at the pont where I have to fill up the last page and a half worth of crap
Go Malachite! You can do it! I am now imagining cheerleaders to cheer him on.
I'm thinking about a character from Supernatural and how I'm still pissed that he's dead.
After all these years, I'm finally growing. Lately my body is acting as though I'm a cisguy going through puberty, with all the fun and embarrassing things that come along with it. The one good thing I can say is that if I stand up, no one should be able to notice that my little guy has woken up at random :P
Also, I need more hats.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on March 10, 2013, 08:24:44 PM
After all these years, I'm finally growing. Lately my body is acting as though I'm a cisguy going through puberty, with all the fun and embarrassing things that come along with it. The one good thing I can say is that if I stand up, no one should be able to notice that my little guy has woken up at random :P
Also, I need more hats.
Hahha, great sense of humor. You're finally getting a growth spurt? How did that come about, did the doc have to give your pituitary gland a nudge or is it just a natural latent burst of growth that you're finally getting?
Quote from: Edge on March 10, 2013, 08:21:48 PM
Go Malachite! You can do it! I am now imagining cheerleaders to cheer him on.
Cheerleaders!
One more page *take a deep breath* I can do this!
I've been on HRT for five months, as of today. I'm thinking how far I've come along with accepting myself and learning to put my own well being ahead of anything else in this world. How to be proud of myself and, in spite of anxiety, depression, doubt, and fear, be able to say "I deserve to be happy" and mean it. I have good days in my life now, and they keep on coming.
And boobs. Thinkin about boobs.
I'm thinking I need to work out. I'm waaaay too fat. :icon_sad:
Finished!
Going to relax with some Tomb Raider walkthough!
Quote from: natastic on March 10, 2013, 09:23:00 PM
I've been on HRT for five months, as of today. I'm thinking how far I've come along with accepting myself and learning to put my own well being ahead of anything else in this world. How to be proud of myself and, in spite of anxiety, depression, doubt, and fear, be able to say "I deserve to be happy" and mean it. I have good days in my life now, and they keep on coming.
And boobs. Thinkin about boobs.
Boobs are good. I keep wondering what I'd look like with them.
Quote from: Shantel on March 10, 2013, 08:48:55 PM
Hahha, great sense of humor. You're finally getting a growth spurt? How did that come about, did the doc have to give your pituitary gland a nudge or is it just a natural latent burst of growth that you're finally getting?
I think my dad's side of the family was a bunch of late bloomers. Growth is fine- but I swear, it had better just be in height. Any more chesticular growth and I will be one freaking unhappy camper.
Speaking of angry rants, I still don't get why I'm in my situation. I don't want to hear about how they want the best for me, because they know damned well that isn't what they're doing. They go on about stress aging and killing them, yet there's something so simple they could do and all the hatred would just be lifted. I'm sick of society leaving me in the care of two people who are literally impossible to have a serious, rational conversation with, who think their beliefs are more important than what their son is telling them.
sagslhglskhgklshlghslkhgklashgskl. That is all.
Can't wait for starbound =)
My brother needed a scary short story for his English class. I provided my services in exchange for small compensation.
I wrote something so messed up, I don't think he will hand it in. Lmao.
I can't wait to get out of this hostel, my neighbour has been away for 2 weeks of rehab & i've had blissful peace & quiet.
Within less than an hour of him getting back he's deafening me with James Blunt, just what my depression needs, the most depressing music in the world!!
That I awoke too early, and it's still dark out at 7:11 AM - Stoopid time change!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on March 10, 2013, 11:48:14 PM
I think my dad's side of the family was a bunch of late bloomers. Growth is fine- but I swear, it had better just be in height. Any more chesticular growth and I will be one freaking unhappy camper.
Speaking of angry rants, I still don't get why I'm in my situation. I don't want to hear about how they want the best for me, because they know damned well that isn't what they're doing. They go on about stress aging and killing them, yet there's something so simple they could do and all the hatred would just be lifted. I'm sick of society leaving me in the care of two people who are literally impossible to have a serious, rational conversation with, who think their beliefs are more important than what their son is telling them.
sagslhglskhgklshlghslkhgklashgskl. That is all.
Ok chill Max! Take a deep breath now, atta boy! When you're 18 you can call the shots! I'm assuming that you're younger at this time but know what you want and where you're headed.
Finished watching the Tomb Raider walkthrough and that game is amazing....though.....the ending seemed a little flat and I thought that could have been worked on. The fanboy in me wants to ship Laura and Sam!
Just keep listening to music and everything will be fine. Don't think about anything but the music.
I think I can say for a fact that orange is just not a color I should be wearing. :P
Thinking some Brie may be in order.
Upcoming video games
That I reeeeaaaly need to eat before I go out partying. Got a little toasted on saturday night and apparently (I have no memory of this) ended up hitting on a guy friend. Seems that he took it ok but OMG, soooo embarrassed. Even worse is that I really do have kind of a crush on him. Ooops..
The guys at my school are steadily integrating me to be one of them and not a girl among guys, which has always been a goal of mine. Hung out with an old friend today, so I'd say it was a good day.
Bromances, transitioning, my father, black ops 2, and moving out
I'm thinking I need a hug after talking to my mom.
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 11, 2013, 08:05:00 PM
I'm thinking I need a hug after talking to my mom.
*hugs Anna* Sorry to hear that :c
Feel better soon c:
Thanks :).
It would have been nice if she seemed to be even the slightest bit accepting of me being trans :( (but I have a whole other thread to discuss that...)
Aww...yeah, I know how that feels.
When I was born, the doctors took one look at me and said I was going to be hairy when I grew up. Boy, were they right ;D
I wish there was some lettuce in the house right now.
I'm thinking of selling my signed Star Trek photos to raise money for electrolysis, I've got about 40 - 50 & was going to save them for a few years until the actors died so they'd increase in value but I want my facial hair gone asap, the NHS have turned down my funding application & i'm not hopeful for my appeal about this decision
I was watching a trans documentary and all three came out as "gay" before coming out as trans. I wonder how many trans people come out as "gay" first. Two trans people got married at the end (to each other) and both were straight, so I think it made it clear that trans does not equal gay. I liked it. Anyway...
People used to call me gay or insinuate that I was attracted to women. I don't know why. They had only known me to date guys and I'm pretty sure the ones who called me gay wouldn't have thought of trans first. I wonder what would have happened if I had just let myself act naturally. I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't been so ashamed/confused and hadn't pretended to be a girl. But then, I can't really imagine how I would have known I could be a boy. I know. "How could I not know?" Because I thought I was insane and because knowing what I look like is still disorientating.
Sometimes, I wonder how much of my anger as a teenager was caused by part of me knowing I was guy. Then I think, "Nah. It was because all of me knew I was the oldest son, but I was expected to play the scapegoat daughter."
I should be washing dishes about now.
It's almost lunch time.
Got invited to be in our college's studant ambassador's program and like with their previous offers I am going to decline.
I'm thinking about the futility of trying to talk to someone who doesn't want to listen.
Well this is strange. I am suddenly turned on by an unknown force and I can't control myself. I feel like doing things, but there is one problem. I can't. Don't have the parts. Hmm don't know what to do.
MMA
Are any of you looking for a creative way to find a job? http://links-lost-life.tumblr.com/post/45204216589/always-always-sleep-on-it (http://links-lost-life.tumblr.com/post/45204216589/always-always-sleep-on-it)
Yes! The new episode of between women has arrived!
Want some kind of job but right now I have no time. Maybe once the workflow stops pouring in, I'll do some electronics repairs and make cool stuff.
Idealistically as a hobby I want to make functional things, and a music box, the most functional thing of all. I worry it'll never happen because my hands have the dexterity of a pair made from blocks of lead.
I am utterly mentally exhausted. Today I've basically been as introspective as possible with things. Trying to "figure my gender out", as per usual. I don't think I'm any closer to doing that. All I know is that I'm in a scary position and I want everything to be better and for it all to be okay.
I should do my stats homework. I should have done it earlier, but I'm exhausted. I should have done it yesterday, but I was exhausted then too. I should ahve done it during the break, but I was exhausted. And I came back from this break more exhausted than I was before. Great. They should have either had us keep going or given us another week to sleep.
I'm depressed right now for absolutely no reason.
A lot of tv shows I like on tonight.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 12, 2013, 09:28:50 PM
I'm depressed right now for absolutely no reason.
I know the feeling. Do you suffer from depression or something similar by chance?
I don't think so.
Time to write some fictional fun. Now where is that bottle of port =p
Tedious reviewing-easy but tedious
Wishing I could have served how I wished I could my whole life. Because of one stupid law, I can't ever say that I fought for my country. I served, but I never fought and I feel dishonored because of it.
Blueberries go great in oatmeal! :)
I love the Unicorn Gundam series, but do they really have to come out with 1 episode every 6-8 months?
Fist pumping woop woop!
I love my new cat ear head band - in fact I love all tops and bands with ears. :-)
LOL... I hear ya :laugh: I like cat ear headbands too
This:
Acceptance from parents, Transition, and Happiness :eusa_wall:
Edit: made more specific
dead skin on my hand
I need more male clothes but then that would cut into my video game money. Hmmmm
clothes
video games
clothes
video games
Well I already have clothes, be it female or gender neutral....I rarely go anywhere. I play my video gamees often and when I'm done with them, I can trade them in and get extra money to go towards the next video game.
It's settled....video games it is!
I need a haircut, dammit!
Okay hmmmmm so I gave myself four years to raise the top surgery money (which in my case I'm aiming to save $20 grand). So if I get a job in September and barely spend my money on things that I don't need then perhaps I can get the money quicker.
Quote from: Malachite on March 14, 2013, 10:44:01 AM
Okay hmmmmm so I gave myself four years to raise the top surgery money (which in my case I'm aiming to save $20 grand). So if I get a job in September and barely spend my money on things that I don't need then perhaps I can get the money quicker.
Good plan, got the brain in forward gear now!
Quote from: Shantel on March 14, 2013, 11:30:55 AM
Good plan, got the brain in forward gear now!
Trying at least :)
My family keeps needing me to help them with computer-y things, thinking that because I run Linux somewhat successfully I must know what I'm doing. Ha. Hahaha. They're so silly.
Though I
think I have my mom's bootable Windows 7 flash drive all set up now. Potentially. It's such a simple thing, but I'm hopelessly incompetent when it comes to computers, I really am.
Quote from: Malachite on March 14, 2013, 10:44:01 AM
Okay hmmmmm so I gave myself four years to raise the top surgery money (which in my case I'm aiming to save $20 grand). So if I get a job in September and barely spend my money on things that I don't need then perhaps I can get the money quicker.
20 grand? That would have paid for my surgery two and a half times over (and mine was on the expensive side)! Are you planning on staying at a fancy resort during recovery or something? :D
I think I obsess too much over fictional characters.
I know I'll probably find out why when I see a therapist, but I've been wondering for a while today as I sit and drink...Why am I always so angry? I have been angry all my life, sometimes for no particular reason. Was it my future to become hate itself? I feel almost no happiness within myself sometimes. I feel like an endless pit of darkness. I sit in the dark all night, I prefer no lights on, I hate going outside, I only go to the gym at night. Maybe I'm just an owl or something. Maybe if I drink just a bit more I'll find out what my purpose in this world is.
Homemade brew is always good. Gets you feeling nicer faster. Been drinking since 9am this morning and its almost 2pm now.
My mother is perfectly okay with the fact that I took two Adderall (yes it's a low dose, but still) after not being on it for weeks, just to make myself not go all fuzzy and sleep in order to get more work done. In fact, she's the one who said to, and I didn't until I got frustrated enough with life not to care if it were to do something deleterious. Thankfully, nothing didn't.
Homework trumps my well-being. Everything is a giant brick wall. I just want to be me, not some girl that has been fabricated. My parents say they know me so well, but my own mother didn't even know I was struggling with severe hip pain until I finally told the orthopedic while there having my back looked at. That was nearly two years after that first day it started hurting. I wasn't telling because she said I was a hypochondriac looking for any excuse to stay home...now I don't know if whatever is wrong in there can be fixed, even if they find out what's wrong, just because it's been left untreated for a very long time.
Quote from: Cain on March 14, 2013, 12:19:39 PM
20 grand? That would have paid for my surgery two and a half times over (and mine was on the expensive side)! Are you planning on staying at a fancy resort during recovery or something? :D
Probably lol but no I'm just factoring in hiring a private nurse and increased costs, and Garramone's mansculpting procedure
Is anyone good at math? I'm having trouble with a problem.
Quote from: Edge on March 14, 2013, 04:33:57 PM
Is anyone good at math? I'm having trouble with a problem.
What kind of math, what kind of problem? I have most of a college degree in mathematics.
Quote from: natastic on March 14, 2013, 05:01:50 PM
What kind of math, what kind of problem? I have most of a college degree in mathematics.
I don't have the foggiest idea how to solve these problems:
1. At noon, Ship A is 150 km west of Ship B. Ship A is sailing east at 35 km/hr and Ship B is sailing north at 25 km/hr. How fast is the distance between the ships changing at 4 pm?
2. As Claudia walks away from a 264 cm lamp post, the tip of her shadow moves twice as fast as she does. What is Claudia's height?
Quote from: Edge on March 14, 2013, 05:27:06 PM
I don't have the foggiest idea how to solve these problems:
1. At noon, Ship A is 150 km west of Ship B. Ship A is sailing east at 35 km/hr and Ship B is sailing north at 25 km/hr. How fast is the distance between the ships changing at 4 pm?
2. As Claudia walks away from a 264 cm lamp post, the tip of her shadow moves twice as fast as she does. What is Claudia's height?
Ive only really looked at the first problem here, but the trick is to set up a function that relates the distance between the two ships as a function of time.
If you draw a picture of the two ships at noon (time = 0 hours) and think about the velocity of each ship, you should be able to drae another picture of the ships' positions at 4pm (time = 4 hours)
The distance between the two ships can be calculated with the Pythagorean theorem.
Think about how the distance function can be set up using the Pythagorean theorem, the initial positions of the ships, the velocity of the ships, and what time it is, such that you get 150km at time = 0, and (spoiler alert) ~100.5km at time = 4 hours.
Then, and here's the part I didnt do, because I'm rusty with derivatives. .. take the derivative with respect to time of this function, and evaluate the result for t = 4. This gives you the rate of change (how fast the distance between the ships is changing) at 4 pm.
Did I lose you?
Quote from: Cain on March 14, 2013, 12:19:39 PM
My family keeps needing me to help them with computer-y things, thinking that because I run Linux somewhat successfully I must know what I'm doing. Ha. Hahaha. They're so silly.
Only somewhat successfully? How can I help?
I needed to do something stupid so permed my eyebrows and the little it of chins hairs I have.
Quote from: Malachite on March 14, 2013, 06:25:35 PM
I needed to do something stupid so permed my eyebrows and the little it of chins hairs I have.
:D
Pics or it didnt happen :P
Quote from: natastic on March 14, 2013, 06:26:44 PM
:D
Pics or it didnt happen :P
Lol I'm too much of a coward to post pics nowaways so it didn't happen. :P
Quote from: natastic on March 14, 2013, 06:18:35 PM
Ive only really looked at the first problem here, but the trick is to set up a function that relates the distance between the two ships as a function of time.
If you draw a picture of the two ships at noon (time = 0 hours) and think about the velocity of each ship, you should be able to drae another picture of the ships' positions at 4pm (time = 4 hours)
The distance between the two ships can be calculated with the Pythagorean theorem.
Think about how the distance function can be set up using the Pythagorean theorem, the initial positions of the ships, the velocity of the ships, and what time it is, such that you get 150km at time = 0, and (spoiler alert) ~100.5km at time = 4 hours.
Then, and here's the part I didnt do, because I'm rusty with derivatives. .. take the derivative with respect to time of this function, and evaluate the result for t = 4. This gives you the rate of change (how fast the distance between the ships is changing) at 4 pm.
Did I lose you?
Thanks! I think I got it...
Thursday night-that means TNA wrestling....but not Bellator live fighting tonight :(
But trash day tommorrow! :)
Plain greek yogurt with a wee bit of real mapel syrup with some rolled oats and crystallized ginger thrown in is really tasty! My dog wants some.
Quote from: LearnedHand on March 14, 2013, 07:31:52 PM
Plain greek yogurt with a wee bit of real mapel syrup with some rolled oats and crystallized ginger thrown in is really tasty! My dog wants some.
That sounds good, where do we get a Learned Hand T-shirt?
Quote from: natastic on March 14, 2013, 06:18:35 PM
Ive only really looked at the first problem here, but the trick is to set up a function that relates the distance between the two ships as a function of time.
If you draw a picture of the two ships at noon (time = 0 hours) and think about the velocity of each ship, you should be able to drae another picture of the ships' positions at 4pm (time = 4 hours)
The distance between the two ships can be calculated with the Pythagorean theorem.
Think about how the distance function can be set up using the Pythagorean theorem, the initial positions of the ships, the velocity of the ships, and what time it is, such that you get 150km at time = 0, and (spoiler alert) ~100.5km at time = 4 hours.
Then, and here's the part I didnt do, because I'm rusty with derivatives. .. take the derivative with respect to time of this function, and evaluate the result for t = 4. This gives you the rate of change (how fast the distance between the ships is changing) at 4 pm.
Did I lose you?
Which brings us to this:
I Will Derive! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P9dpTTpjymE&feature=youtube_gdata_player#)
Quote from: Shantel on March 14, 2013, 07:52:56 PM
That sounds good, where do we get a Learned Hand T-shirt?
No way, Auntie Shan, I started the buttering up process for a shirt last night, just get in line behind me!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on March 14, 2013, 08:06:40 PM
No way, Auntie Shan, I started the buttering up process for a shirt last night, just get in line behind me!
Wait, wait doesn't seniority have some pull here? ???
Quote from: Shantel on March 14, 2013, 07:52:56 PM
That sounds good, where do we get a Learned Hand T-shirt?
Zazzle.com, you can also get a Hand Formula shirt (B is less than P x L) and an "I heart Learned Hand" shirt too ;D
I haven't ordered one yet, still trying to decide which Hand shirt to get: http://www.zazzle.com/learned+hand+tshirts (http://www.zazzle.com/learned+hand+tshirts)
Edit to add: If anyone gets a "Team Cardozo" shirt, I'll cry :'(
Quote from: LearnedHand on March 14, 2013, 08:36:59 PM
Zazzle.com, you can also get a Hand Formula shirt (B is less than P x L) and an "I heart Learned Hand" shirt too ;D
I haven't ordered one yet, still trying to decide which Hand shirt to get: http://www.zazzle.com/learned+hand+tshirts (http://www.zazzle.com/learned+hand+tshirts)
Edit to add: If anyone gets a "Team Cardozo" shirt, I'll cry :'(
Cool, thanks! Eat your heart out Devlyn! :icon_peace:
I wish I could tell my teachers, just so I don't have to hear them call me "ma'am" or refer to a group with me in it as "ladies". It's not fair, classifying me with all those girls. Socialization is the easiest thing in the world when I'm treated as a male, because that part of me demanding transition knows exactly what to say and do. Trying to get me to act as a girl in social situations is like trying to get a brain-dead elephant to ballroom dance. It's just not going to happen, and the result is awkward for everybody.
Thought I was getting somewhere with my mom, but then she turns around and says that I can't possibly have a binder because it would be of great cost to her if she were to give in and allow me something like that. Stupid dad...why'd you say you know someone who was seriously hurt wearing a binder? I doubt it was even true, and it's not like I'd sleep in the binder and never take it off. It would be so much easier on everyone if she and my father would accept me instead of throwing such hatred at me. It fills me with fiery anger, cold bitterness, and underneath that grief and hopelessness. I just use anger to keep myself from crying in front of others because it holds the tears back until I am alone. All I want is to look in the mirror and see a boy, and be able to walk around shirtless like my dad does all the time. I hate him for being able to do that without even thinking about it.
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 14, 2013, 09:03:00 PM
It is really quite difficult to monitor ewes for labor when they're buried under eight inches of wool all round.
Good luck Liam! You're the man! :eusa_clap:
Really beginning to think it was a bad idea opening up.
my jacked up teeth gives me character, like Mick Foley
I think it's time to tell people about myself, my true self. The self that I keep deep inside and only let people peek at. Let's see if people look at me the same when they find out what I am on the inside and why I am what I am.
The air does smell different from inside to outside. I need to be outside more. I'll be less pissy
I hope it gets warmer in my house.
Quote from: Malachite on March 15, 2013, 12:26:41 PM
I hope it gets warmer in my house.
You can come to mine. My computer is a freaking space heater.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 15, 2013, 12:41:49 PM
You can come to mine. My computer is a freaking space heater.
You say that right when it gets warm too. :D
Quote from: Malachite on March 15, 2013, 12:43:40 PM
You say that right when it gets warm too. :D
If you lived around me then I'd invite you over any time. Plus, some company would be nice. Not having a lot of friends around makes for a boring day to day.
I feel very good about myself today.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 15, 2013, 12:46:53 PM
If you lived around me then I'd invite you over any time. Plus, some company would be nice. Not having a lot of friends around makes for a boring day to day.
I know that feeling.
Now I'm thinking about free comic book day. It's in 50 days and I want to go. The Sailor Moon fanboy in my wants to buy the entire Sailor Moon manga collection there but the broke college FtM gamer in my says otherwise and to just read it online.
Still, free comic books are nice.
I'm wondering why my nose hurts so much, and not knowing what to do with my Friday evening now that my girlfriend has had to work and I've not seen her since last Friday.
Sometimes I strut around like I'm the alpha male when in reality, I'm the alpha fail.
I am thinking about how there's nothing to eat at home besides ramen and frozen venison and I should've gotten dinner while I went to the grocery store to grab a pathetic looking salad for lunch at cottage cheese while at work today. Ah... me not planning ahead = failure.
Quote from: Malachite on March 15, 2013, 05:02:07 PM
Sometimes I strut around like I'm the alpha male when in reality, I'm the alpha fail.
Be confident Malachite! You're awesome!
Quote from: Malachite on March 15, 2013, 05:02:07 PM
Sometimes I strut around like I'm the alpha male when in reality, I'm the alpha fail.
Dude, there's no such thing as the alpha fail. You're just an alpha male who hasn't come into his own yet.
Thanks guys.
I'm thinking about trolls, jötnar, various shapeshifting faeries, and huldrefolk. As usual.
I am also thinking that I should go to bed and I don't understand why I don't want to.
I am thinking: ARGH! Exercise is awesome!!
Now, onto find some bootleg yoga videos on youtube.
Taxes...must...do...them.
I got a lot of work done yesterday, and I'm going to do the same today.
I'm tired of teetering on the brink of success!
My sister has to travel out of Fort Lauderdale for a cruise.
Immediate when she said that I thought "Dr. Garramone".
I am completely procrastinating from studying for the MPRE by coming onto Susan's. Normally I'd just turn the computer off, but since my reviews are on-line, I am stuck leaving the computer on and being tempted to look for an exciting conversation over here than reading about really boring professional responsibility stuff. I guess I'll just kill some trees and print out this 138 page book from Kaplan at school on Monday.
I just watched Osmosis Jones for the first time. Guess who my favourite character is.
I was just playing Taboo with some people, and this came up:
The word was "drunk", and I don't drink.
A: Something <my male name> will never be
B: A woman?
Rather than secretly feeling hurt I'm instead choosing to find amusement from the situation.
It isn't easy trying to be a business man.
My neighbor's overpowering perfume could gag just about anything it want to :P
2 more days till my first therapist appointment. I am totally freaking out.
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on March 17, 2013, 12:14:21 AM
2 more days till my first therapist appointment. I am totally freaking out.
There is no need to freak out you'll be alright I was nervous to at first too. Just go in there and be honest why your really there and be prepared to open up and you'll be fine
Finally got that Craigslist ad posted....and it only took about 3 hours lol.
I really feel like dancing. Maybe some jazz :)
Quote from: Heather on March 17, 2013, 01:21:49 AM
There is no need to freak out you'll be alright I was nervous to at first too. Just go in there and be honest why your really there and be prepared to open up and you'll be fine
Yeah I was nervous too.. I think more about what it meant as far as my own reality in terms of coming out to myself than actually talking to the therapist. As soon as we started talking and the ice was broken, I felt immediately at ease.
All my friends have deep voices now and a lot are growing out facial hair. I want to sound like Morgan Freeman and grow a beard too. Lousy chromosomes >:(
I need to stop procrastinating.
I can't remember how to write up a lab report. (In my defence, my head still feels cottony.)
Osmosis Jones fails at biology, but I like Thrax anyway.
Soda
I'm thinking about lunch out at an upscale place yesterday, the server brought us drinks and tripped dumping my drink fully into my lap. The poor guy was horrified and apologized profusely as he scrambled for extra napkins to soak up the mess. I was laughing as I asked him if they had a clothes dryer in the place because my panties were soaked. I felt bad for him and made light of it for his sake, though I was rather uncomfortable throughout lunch. ;)
Polyandry sounds awesome.
I want some cherry pie and hot cocoa.
I finally found out what happened to my cat. I saw a bone in my yard with the paw still attached. I knew it was his. My mom said the guy who worked on our house found a dead cat under the house but my mother never told me.
Quote from: Malachite on March 17, 2013, 07:02:40 PM
I finally found out what happened to my cat. I saw a bone in my yard with the paw still attached. I knew it was his. My mom said the guy who worked on our house found a dead cat under the house but my mother never told me.
Yikes...that's messed up, dude. Poor cat :(
My mom kind of understood our discussion of late-onset CAH and what it can supposedly do in terms of the brain and gender; i.e. a brain differentiated in the male manner being stuck in a body differentiated in the female manner to the main extent, plus whatever this weird form of male-like puberty is I've started here. Why did it take a medical condition possibly being involved to make her understand the concept of boy brain stuck in a girl body and not really understanding until those differences started strongly taking root at the same time and dragging me in two directions? Silly parent.
Ohhh Malachite, I'd be so messed up if I found that.
yeah it was a tad bit odd- I thought it was a tree limb. I had him for years. He was really sick for a while though.
Whomever invented table salt is evil and bent on assassinating me.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 18, 2013, 11:39:07 AM
Whomever invented table salt is evil and bent on assassinating me.
Try Mrs. Dash as a substitute!
Quote from: Malachite on March 17, 2013, 09:16:54 PM
yeah it was a tad bit odd- I thought it was a tree limb. I had him for years. He was really sick for a while though.
So sorry Malachite!
Quote from: Malachite on March 17, 2013, 09:16:54 PM
yeah it was a tad bit odd- I thought it was a tree limb. I had him for years. He was really sick for a while though.
Poor thing. I'm sorry to hear that happened. I'd be horrified to find my pet that way...
---
I found out that in Australia they have a gender X you can put on your drivers license and such. I wish America had that :c
Thanks guys. I know he's in a better place right now. :angel:
It takes me so long to get ready in the mornings and I don't even know why. =/ A lot of it isn't that it takes me long to do the things I need to (shower, etc), it's that I move so damn slow and spend a lot of time sitting around and thinking/trying to wake up.
Quote from: Caleb. on March 18, 2013, 03:54:39 PM
It takes me so long to get ready in the mornings and I don't even know why. =/ A lot of it isn't that it takes me long to do the things I need to (shower, etc), it's that I move so damn slow and spend a lot of time sitting around and thinking/trying to wake up.
If you'd go to sleep earlier you'd wake up quicker and easier. Silly. :P
Quote from: Keaira on March 18, 2013, 04:40:35 PM
If you'd go to sleep earlier you'd wake up quicker and easier. Silly. :P
Well I always plan to but there's a certain someone that distracts me quite often. :P
I think I will stay at the New Beginnings Retreat center when the day comes for me to get my top surgery done.
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 19, 2013, 10:12:57 AM
I'm officially rationing the dog's outdoor playtime because it's irritating to have to drop everything to open the door for her seventy-five times a day. I swear, if we installed a revolving door, she'd never get out of it. She is combating this new ruling via staring at me for hours at a time so that every time I move or look her way she can leap up and do her letmeoutletmeoutrightnow dance and/or drool on my keyboard in full knowledge that the only place for me to banish her to is outside. Now the staring is really getting on my nerves. >:(
Hah, that's so funny! I have a Border Collie that to my knowledge has never taken his eyes off of me, so I know the drill!
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 19, 2013, 10:12:57 AM
I'm officially rationing the dog's outdoor playtime because it's irritating to have to drop everything to open the door for her seventy-five times a day. I swear, if we installed a revolving door, she'd never get out of it. She is combating this new ruling via staring at me for hours at a time so that every time I move or look her way she can leap up and do her letmeoutletmeoutrightnow dance and/or drool on my keyboard in full knowledge that the only place for me to banish her to is outside. Now the staring is really getting on my nerves. >:(
Why not just leave her outside?
I'm having a weird set of identity crises that have to do with most everything but gender. One of them is tangentially related to gender, but I'm secure in what my gender is at least. I kind of want to start one of my rambly threads about all this, but I don't know where to put it.
It's bad when I know the biggest "supporter" of my transition in my family will be my brother-he hates me and wants nothing to do with me. He just won't care.
I just ate dinner, but I still have over 1,000 calories to eat today since I worked out for like 3 hours today.... *sigh* I wish there was something more than a truck stop diners nearby because I am sick of cooking.
And LiamErik, how are the baby sheep??
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 19, 2013, 05:38:34 PM
;D Well I've still only got the one whose picture I posted over in the happy thread. His momma, who is two years old and a first-timer, finally figured out the magical link between allowing him to nurse and pressure relief. She's got a bag like a cow, too, so now he's a great fat thing and he's grown a lot even since Friday when he was born. Good! Well when you look at the expression on their faces they don't look all that bright but nature and expediency seems to always prevail ;D
Everybody else is still laying around being enormous. Due date is past, so any time now, ladies...
Adventure Time: House Hunting Music Video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1AlCxMo6wk#)
Quote from: LearnedHand on March 19, 2013, 04:46:46 PM
I just ate dinner, but I still have over 1,000 calories to eat today since I worked out for like 3 hours today.... *sigh* I wish there was something more than a truck stop diners nearby because I am sick of cooking.
Two words for you: Häagen-Dazs!
I'm thinking about laying on a beach, sun shining and cool blue water, drinking a fun drink out of a coconut. Happy.:)
My breasts are sooooo itchy >.< but it's worth a little discomfort to grow a set. Hooray for E!
I'm thinking about my GF.. and the fact I have therapy this afternoon.
We were talking about the Old Testament in class today. He was talking about the killing of the Amalekites, but to me, all I heard was "Malachite." Lmao. So to me I hear "And god said kill the Malachites. Slaughter them! Every last Malachite."
Yeah I enjoyed myself a lot.
Quote from: Caleb. on March 19, 2013, 09:00:50 PM
We were talking about the Old Testament in class today. He was talking about the killing of the Amalekites, but to me, all I heard was "Malachite." Lmao. So to me I hear "And god said kill the Malachites. Slaughter them! Every last Malachite."
Yeah I enjoyed myself a lot.
X_X
LOL! I'm laughing and slightly scared at the same time. This makes me want to say "Malachites don't die. We multiply."
I'm thinking about my dead cat. I asked my sister why she didn't tell me about him and she said she didn't want to hurt my feelings, but the electrician found him floating in some water under the house but he thought it was a dog. That's why he asked me if I had a dog and if I wanted one (because he knew someone who was trying to give a dog away).
Anyone who doesn't consider Bill Cosby one of the greatest is missing the boat
Katy Perry is honestly so perfect. She is beautiful with makeup, but she is also beautiful without.
Quote from: Malachite on March 19, 2013, 10:03:35 PM
I'm thinking about my dead cat. I asked my sister why she didn't tell me about him and she said she didn't want to hurt my feelings, but the electrician found him floating in some water under the house but he thought it was a dog. That's why he asked me if I had a dog and if I wanted one (because he knew someone who was trying to give a dog away).
aww this just breaks my heart. :'(
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on March 20, 2013, 01:05:54 AM
aww this just breaks my heart. :'(
Mine too. The part about him floating in some water was a little unsettling. I just wish my sister would have told me this. I don't think he was ever moved other so what's left of him is probably still under there.
My (underage) sister just texted me asking how much tequila is in a handle. :o
I have to pee, but I don't feel like packing up all my stuff and leaving me little cubby... if only the world was thief-free.
Quote from: LearnedHand on March 14, 2013, 08:36:59 PM
Zazzle.com, you can also get a Hand Formula shirt (B is less than P x L) and an "I heart Learned Hand" shirt too ;D
I haven't ordered one yet, still trying to decide which Hand shirt to get: http://www.zazzle.com/learned+hand+tshirts (http://www.zazzle.com/learned+hand+tshirts)
Edit to add: If anyone gets a "Team Cardozo" shirt, I'll cry :'(
Seems to fit >:-)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Frlv.zcache.com%2Fteam_cardozo_t_shirt-r4d90167db2034080acde88d6ff280d50_8nat5_216.jpg&hash=c0aad0217e54148be71c3665889f1075b82775f4)
I can't really use Keaira as an excuse for my insomnia because she's been going to bed earlier, as have I (been trying to), and I am still hella sleep deprived. Lol. Damn. :P
She's also been trying some new things with her appearance and I think she looks really pretty. :) She already did, but she's trying to grow out of her comfort zone and I think that's cool/inspiring (for myself).
cereal
Quote from: Malachite on March 21, 2013, 03:15:37 PM
Frosted flakes :(
Not my first choice either. I like the special-k with fruit and yogurt.
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 21, 2013, 03:19:41 PM
Not my first choice either. I like the special-k with fruit and yogurt.
I like Honey Nut Cheerios.
Quote from: Malachite on March 21, 2013, 03:35:31 PM
I like Honey Nut Cheerios.
I used to eat them all the time! I think I ate them too much... I should start rotating through cereals to keep me from getting tired of one.
Get off of the internet and exercise you darn slacker, sleeping in this morning, no excuses!
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 21, 2013, 03:37:59 PM
I used to eat them all the time! I think I ate them too much... I should start rotating through cereals to keep me from getting tired of one.
I hate when that happens- eating something you love a lot that you get tired of it. I never want to get tired of them. :(
My scans came back great and every tumor looks stable. Decided to enroll in College for the fall. Woot Woot!
Quote from: Simon on March 21, 2013, 07:00:21 PM
My scans came back great and every tumor looks stable. Decided to enroll in College for the fall. Woot Woot!
:) Good news, Simon! Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Simon on March 21, 2013, 07:00:21 PM
My scans came back great and every tumor looks stable. Decided to enroll in College for the fall. Woot Woot!
Yay Simon! Will you be taking classes for psychology? You're gonna be a great gender therapist, we're all rooting for you. :D
Quote from: Jamie D on March 21, 2013, 07:30:06 AM
Seems to fit >:-)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Frlv.zcache.com%2Fteam_cardozo_t_shirt-r4d90167db2034080acde88d6ff280d50_8nat5_216.jpg&hash=c0aad0217e54148be71c3665889f1075b82775f4)
:o I am shocked.... :'(
Oh yes... and right now I am thinking...."steak or leftover curry?"
Quote from: LearnedHand on March 21, 2013, 07:28:53 PM
Yay Simon! Will you be taking classes for psychology? You're gonna be a great gender therapist, we're all rooting for you. :D
Actually I've decided to follow my childhood dream. I'm going for an Associates in Applied Science so I can be a Zookeeper. ;D
Quote from: Simon on March 21, 2013, 07:40:25 PM
Actually I've decided to follow my childhood dream. I'm going for an Associates in Applied Science so I can be a Zookeeper. ;D
Sweet, that sounds like fun! Can I pet the mini penguins? Have you read
Life of Pi? (I haven't seen the movie but I hear it was good)
Watching boxing, wrestling, and MMA all in one night? It's one of my dreams come true.
Unintelligible gibberish, otherwise known as homerow spam.
All of the Bellator fighting matches tonight so far has been stopped in the first round. If I was an MMA fighter then I'd definately see myself as a striker. *going into man mode*
Things will be alright. As long as I can find something to laugh about, negativity will not take me over.
I just noticed Diana deleted her account. :( I thought that she was just busy but it seems to be actually gone. Sucky.
Quote from: Caleb. on March 22, 2013, 08:42:32 AM
I just noticed Diana deleted her account. :( I thought that she was just busy but it seems to be actually gone. Sucky.
Yeah that does suck, I was thinking this morning that we were missing her. I liked her, she was kind of impetuous at times and we picked on her in a joking way at times because of that and her youth, I hope we didn't drive her away because of it.
Quote from: Caleb. on March 22, 2013, 08:42:32 AM
I just noticed Diana deleted her account. :( I thought that she was just busy but it seems to be actually gone. Sucky.
Maybe she'll come back? I liked her too.
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 22, 2013, 11:34:42 AM
I oughtn't to do anything sentimental like name her or get attached.
(oh, well, okay, so I've been calling her Mona. :eusa_shifty:)
Whoa, you're stuck now Liam! :D
Elizabeth I sounds like a badass.
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 22, 2013, 05:28:21 PM
8) Just delivered twins. both white, big, strong, and loud, a boy and a girl, momma being excellent.
Your sheep are prolific critters! You could have quite a herd before long if you wanted to. Btw - just turned on my spouse to the joys of sliced apple and goat cheeze at breakfast today, she's hooked!
I'm off of work in a few minutes and meeting up with a friend to grab some drinks and go shopping. Happy girl, I am.
Yumm... can't stop eating altoids...
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 22, 2013, 05:28:21 PM
8) Just delivered twins. both white, big, strong, and loud, a boy and a girl, momma being excellent.
We want pictures! :D
Whatever happened to the "Sheep Spoiler Symbol" you used to put up? Oh, I looked forward to those posts! Hugs, Devlyn
Arrrrgh!!! *Vent Vent Vent!!!* :P
We had a snow storm yesterday and my sister disowned me again so I was thinking to put on a bikini and a Viking helmet and run amok about town waving a sword around just to let her know she has competition for the town nutter award >:-)
Then I'll take in a round of golf around midnight wearing the same outfit and using said sword for a golf club just to make sure my lead is secure
(I'm using humor to defuse my anger and frustration with my sister)
I think it's about time to try to cut my hair again. Maybe this time it'll be the same length on both sides. Or at least I'll notice it's uneven while I'm home and not during my therapy session... Practice makes passable, I suppose.
I'm thinking about the whole stealth vs. out thing. Tbh, I'd rather be stealth. I wouldn't be ashamed of being trans, but I'm honestly tired of being a poster boy for trans issues. My story isn't anything special, it's nothing you can't find on the internet, in books, documentaries. It's out there and I don't have much to offer personally.
So it makes me wonder what I would do if someone outed me against my will. Say, I really got to trust a woman and wanted to date her (I am not even remotely into casual sex or even casual dating)...and she decided to out me. I don't know what I'd do.
Spring break at last. This would be lovely if my dad would get out of my bed.
I want a haircut ;-;
I have my first therapist appointment as Anna in an hour and a half. Wish me luck!
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 23, 2013, 11:21:09 AM
I have my first therapist appointment as Anna in an hour and a half. Wish me luck!
Good luck, you'll do fine!
Good luck, Anna! Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Shantel on March 23, 2013, 11:24:15 AM
Good luck, you'll do fine!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on March 23, 2013, 11:26:54 AM
Good luck, Anna! Hugs, Devlyn
Thanks! My last appointment was before I came out to my parents, so I'm sure there will be plenty to discuss!
Man, Windows Live Movie Maker sucks ass.
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 23, 2013, 11:33:30 AM
There, I fixed it for you :P
There's no stopping Colonel Hacker!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on March 23, 2013, 11:39:16 AM
There's no stopping Colonel Hacker!
I'll admit it, I'm biased... :)
What if we replaced all the guns in the world with laser tag guns?
Quote from: kkut on March 23, 2013, 12:31:50 PM
Better yet, what if we replaced on the laser tag guns with real ones?
Then I'd be in a lot of pain tomorrow.
I have come across two abandoned kittens in my yard along with a dead one. I'm trying to take care of the kittens the best way I know how but that isn't saying much. I doubt the mother is coming back. The shelters are closed for the weekends. I left a message to a local humane group but I don't know when they will get back to me.
I hate to say it but these kittens will probably die
Oh geez...hoping against hope those kittens will be troopers and live.
Laser tag is awesome. Screw real guns, those are boring.
Thanks you two. My mother brought some goats milk to feed them and they currently are in a little basket with a warm water bottle. She said that we should put them on the side porch in case the mother came back. The thing was when I found them a yellow cat was near them and ran away. I walked away so it could come back to it but it hasn't and the cat been sniffing for them. We were under the impression that it was a male cat trying to attack the kittens (plus with three other strays around it may not be good). But I'll put them back outside soon and see what happens. It doesn't help that it's freezing and damp out there either. :/
I'm wishing it wasn't so cold and not being able to believe that I've not thought about suicide for 14 months exactly.
I'm thinking that the sun finally came out in rainy Seattle and I spent the entire day doing yard stuff, now to catch up on the extended family here at Susan's.
Did you get all sunburnt, Shan?
Quote from: kkut on March 23, 2013, 12:31:50 PM
Better yet, what if we replaced on the laser tag guns with real ones?
Your post reminded me a few months ago I took my kids and some of their friends to an large arcade that also had a glow in the dark laser tag section. The kids were waiting in line and I noticed the guy who was running the laser tag was letting these 'adults' go before the kids, it happened a second time. These grown ups looked pretty thuggish, but then what kind of person cuts in line in front of kids? So I go to the guy running the thing and ask what's up, my kids have been waiting for a while and you're letting these grown ups go instead. All I heard was blah blah blah, literally. I raised my hand to signal him to be quiet and said, let the kids in and give them triple time. He did.
Hah love it, an Atta Girl for you lady!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on March 23, 2013, 07:56:31 PM
Did you get all sunburnt, Shan?
No, but it was light and not gloomy, got up to 50 degrees.
Quote from: kkut on March 23, 2013, 08:02:43 PM
lol... For the record, I wasn't rude, I just told the guy how the next 24 minutes was going to evolve! ;)
Probably as good as the big rubber hammer!
Can't wait till my phone comes Monday and I get to go shopping next week too. YAY!!
I put the kittens on the porch. They are cuddled in a basket sleeping. I really hope their mother takes them. Three cats just kind of looked at them and ran off. Maybe they didn't want to disturb them....at least I hope that's the case.
Quote from: Malachite on March 24, 2013, 04:14:03 PM
I put the kittens on the porch. They are cuddled in a basket sleeping. I really hope their mother takes them. Three cats just kind of looked at them and ran off. Maybe they didn't want to disturb them....at least I hope that's the case.
I want a kitten! But I think I should focus on transition stuff before I can allow myself to take care of another living creature.
I hope the kittens find their mother!
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 24, 2013, 04:17:03 PM
I want a kitten! But I think I should focus on transition stuff before I can allow myself to take care of another living creature.
I hope the kittens find their mother!
My mother told me to bring the kittens in since no cat seemed to want to take them. :/
I'm starting to get attched to them and that's not good.
I am thinking about how disgusting people are.
Quote from: LearnedHand on March 24, 2013, 05:22:59 PM
I am thinking about how disgusting people are.
Same :c
I think Aaron has gone off somewhere, last I checked his profile says he doesn't know if he'll be back or something like that.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on March 24, 2013, 05:35:51 PM
Same :c
I think Aaron has gone off somewhere, last I checked his profile says he doesn't know if he'll be back or something like that.
What happened to DianaP?
Maybe Aaron and Diana ran off together?
That'd be nice if it were true...no clue where Diana went. She was a really cool person, too ;-;
Hopefully they'll both be back soon and are just taking a break for personal things.
I may well be back at square one here.
Ingrid Michaelson is a rather bad singer.
*1 Pandora cycle later*
Ingrid Michaelson is a rather good singer.
*1 Pandora cycle later*
Ingrid Michaelson is a rather bad singer.
I wonder if Ingrid Michaelson will ever put out a "Greatest Hit or Miss" album...
I wish spring break lasted another week... I don't wanna go back!
I also wish my dog would stop screaming at me so I could get something done today. Friggin' husky...
Who is this Ingrid Michaelson?
Why does the F on my chart make you think I am in love with the color pink? I want the damned medical tape to be green >:(
Seriously. When I said I dislike pink, she was shocked and tried to offer purple. Finally got neon green out of her. Today has been rife with sexism, as usual when I go to see doctors. And why the hell do you need to put "Female" in big letters on my wristband? Is someone checking my pants for identification purposes?
I've been told I sing like Ingrid Michaelson. He meant it as a compliment. I hope.
In twenty-one sleeps I go in for my first appointment at the LGBT clinic. If everything goes as planned, I will leave the third appointment with prescription (and possibly the T itself) in hand.
Quote from: Padfoot92 on March 25, 2013, 04:46:23 PM
I wish spring break lasted another week... I don't wanna go back!
Same- and all of my classes are online this semester
I wish I wasn't constantly feeling fat and worrying about my weight. Its really getting to me.
Quote from: Steph21 on March 25, 2013, 07:29:18 PM
I wish I wasn't constantly feeling fat and worrying about my weight. Its really getting to me.
I've seen your pictures and you're not fat. It wouldn't hurt for me to loose a few pounds, though...
What's the secret to making the correct amount of pasta? I always somehow make twice as much as I actually need...
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 25, 2013, 08:29:04 PM
What's the secret to making the correct amount of pasta? I always somehow make twice as much as I actually need...
The doc pleaded with my mom to take me off the anti-gluten diet, so I'll FedEx myself over there and eat up the rest of the pasta >:-)
Smells like rum in my room.
Now I care for dead gardens
thinking about how I am going to get my hair done lol
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 25, 2013, 08:29:04 PM
What's the secret to making the correct amount of pasta? I always somehow make twice as much as I actually need...
Make half as much as you usually make? lol :-) x
Quote from: Steph21 on March 25, 2013, 07:29:18 PM
I wish I wasn't constantly feeling fat and worrying about my weight. Its really getting to me.
Your not alone I'm constantly worrying about my weight! :-\
My mother is taking the abandoned kittens to the animal shelter today. I want to believe that they will get adopted instead of euthanized....I want to. I just have to keep telling myself that they will get adopted. They aren't old enough to fend for themselve so I had to feed them earlier and helped them go to the bathroom and now they are cuddled up near the furnance sleeping. They will get adopted. They just have to.
I'm tempted to walk to the nearest quick store and buy some alcohol. I just want to drink the thoughts away and feel numb.
Quote from: Malachite on March 26, 2013, 01:57:21 PM
I'm tempted to walk to the nearest quick store and buy some alcohol. I just want to drink the thoughts away and feel numb.
Malachite, given your mom and dad's proclivities toward alcohol it isn't a good plan for you hon!
I'm pessimistically wondering how long before America dies, or is completely transformed from the America of my youth, or the past. I doubt it will be long. :(
Quote from: ZoeM on March 26, 2013, 04:45:57 PM
I'm pessimistically wondering how long before America dies, or is completely transformed from the America of my youth, or the past. I doubt it will be long. :(
I'm sure that you're not alone!
Quote from: ZoeM on March 26, 2013, 04:45:57 PM
I'm pessimistically wondering how long before America dies, or is completely transformed from the America of my youth, or the past. I doubt it will be long. :(
Whats got you so pessimistic about America's future?
Quote from: Heather on March 26, 2013, 04:53:12 PM
Whats got you so pessimistic about America's future?
What doesn't? Finances, culture, law, rising third-world power blocs with itchy trigger fingers, pending enshrinement of one or the other side of political debates as the Law of the Land (tm)...
I've been baking a lot of bread lately. Making a lot of friends with my sourdough.
Did you say sourdough? I have what every green thumb wants..........a big ol' asparagus patch! Lets work something out! Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Shantel on March 26, 2013, 04:42:43 PM
Malachite, given your mom and dad's proclivities toward alcohol it isn't a good plan for you hon!
I know that all too will. :'( Good thing is that they are actually going to foster the kittens (for now at least) so I'm in a bit of a better place.
Quote from: Malachite on March 26, 2013, 05:41:11 PM
I know that all too will. :'( Good thing is that they are actually going to foster the kittens (for now at least) so I'm in a bit of a better place.
Cool, you've been successful as their advocate!
Quote from: Steph21 on March 26, 2013, 12:02:29 PM
Make half as much as you usually make? lol :-) x
I left a sticky note in my recipe book so I remember next time!
I have a banana bread recipe, but I'm thinking about putting in apples instead...
Quote from: Anna Michele on March 25, 2013, 08:29:04 PM
What's the secret to making the correct amount of pasta? I always somehow make twice as much as I actually need...
Spaghetti usually has a bullseye on the end flap with serving amounts. Loose shaped pasta you can use 1/4 to 1/3 of a box per person. But what's wrong with leftover pasta? Hugs, Devlyn
Hmm... what about pancakes? I recently acquired about a gallon of maple syrup, and pancakes seem like the logical next step. But I have a small stomach now and I'm not sure it's even possible to make just one.
Make the pancakes and freeze the extras. Kelloggs makes billions of dollas doing this. That will be one quart of maple syrup, please! Hugs, Devlyn
Next!
I'm using my slow cooker for dinner tomorrow. I'm being smart and preparing as much as I can now!
The full moon within a cloud formation tonight looked kinda spooky in an entertaining way because it looked like a huge Jack O'lantern in the sky :)
Why do untalented hacks get jobs when I have talent as a TV News writer/editor, but can't get hired at all.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on March 26, 2013, 05:27:45 PM
Did you say sourdough? I have what every green thumb wants..........a big ol' asparagus patch! Lets work something out! Hugs, Devlyn
I did say sourdough. If you want a hot loaf, come over in about two hours. :)
Quote from: V M on March 26, 2013, 10:30:01 PM
The full moon within a cloud formation tonight looked kinda spooky in an entertaining way because it looked like a huge Jack O'lantern in the sky :)
Yeah, I saw that! My boyfriend and I went out to the subway for me to get home, and we were both just like "o.o".
Speaking of that, between some unexplained lag that never happened before and my own motor issues, I was failing at Saint's Row the Third in an epic manner yesterday :P
Then I told my bf to try and he failed just as hard >:-) I think I did pretty well considering those problems and the fact that I never play PC games.
Woke up at 4:30 on the nose again. =/ Bleh.
On another note, I've found the definitive gay/lesbian test. I showed my brother (who is as gay as they come, probably) a music video by Hyuna, and all he could say was: "Music has really gone downhill." And I showed my friend here the same video and she said "...that's the stupidest thing I've ever heard. But I guess the Asian guy near the end was kind of hot. Maybe."
HYUNA - 'Ice Cream' (Official Music Video) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QlWZluzBNxM#)
according to an article posted on a friend's facebook, bell peppers are gendered. Now I'll have to be more careful how I address them in the future, I guess.
Never ever, no matter what you do, confuse a cherry tomato with a Scotch bonnet pepper.
Or if you do make sure that you have plenty of water nearby.
Quote from: couch tater on March 27, 2013, 03:05:32 PM
according to an article posted on a friend's facebook, bell peppers are gendered. Now I'll have to be more careful how I address them in the future, I guess.
Would've thought all "Belle" peppers were female. :P
I'm thinking about putting on something cute and going to clean out my car. I am embarrassed by its current state.
Also thinking about the hello kitty undies I just got. Too cute!
Hey girls and guys! I know this might sound completely stupid to you but where can i find my gender settings?? I mean i want to change this in my profile lol! :D I can't seem to find this option... :/
Quote from: dean1229 on March 27, 2013, 03:42:01 PM
Hey girls and guys! I know this might sound completely stupid to you but where can i find my gender settings?? I mean i want to change this in my profile lol! :D I can't seem to find this option... :/
Once you get 15 posts, you can change that stuff on your profile and even add an avatar if you like.
Quote from: couch tater on March 27, 2013, 03:44:30 PM
Once you get 15 posts, you can change that stuff on your profile and even add an avatar if you like.
Ok thanks! :) i thought i just couldn't find it!
gah, the volume control valve on my water system is definitely shot, now I'll have to go all the way across town tomorrow and hope they have some in stock. Not many people use them anymore, most use bladder tanks which I really don't like.
Quote from: Sweet_Steffy_Bee on March 27, 2013, 03:16:47 PM
I'm thinking about putting on something cute and going to clean out my car. I am embarrassed by its current state.
Also thinking about the hello kitty undies I just got. Too cute!
Like =^_^=
Quote from: dean1229 on March 27, 2013, 03:42:01 PM
Hey girls and guys! I know this might sound completely stupid to you but where can i find my gender settings?? I mean i want to change this in my profile lol! :D I can't seem to find this option... :/
Changing your gender isnt easy you know! lol :-)
You have to wait 2 years before you are allowed to be gender reassigned lol
OK, its late here ... and I am comically challenged! :-)
I'm seriously worried about my iPod. The three day hide-and-seek period is over now and I still haven't managed to find it. This is what happens when I don't keep things charged and let them go wherever they please. If my memory is this bad when I'm 20 I'd hate to see what'll happen when I'm 80.
When I dressed up as Jack Skellington for Halloween two years ago, I accidentally scared a bunch of little kids. My mom told them, "Don't worry! He won't get you, he's very friendly," and you had to go over and show them that I don't bite or anything.
Should I just walk around in that costume? Is that the only way she'll acknowledge me as her son- when I dress up as a male character? I guess me being me just isn't good enough for her or my dad.
I'm sick of my family, sick of the doctors. I'm not a sweet girl, I'm a sad boy trapped in a female costume. I want to take it off but the zipper is stuck and no one believes it's there.
Christianity can be so confusing with so many opinions and ideals floating around. I have to say that I am officially confused now.
Going on a midnight ride. (crap, nothings open this late..)
Quote from: Malachite on March 28, 2013, 12:32:56 AM
Christianity can be so confusing with so many opinions and ideals floating around. I have to say that I am officially confused now.
Might help to find a pastor of some denomination. They typically like theirs best, but (assuming they've been to seminary) they should be able to explain most differences.
Quote from: ZoeM on March 28, 2013, 07:01:14 AM
Might help to find a pastor of some denomination. They typically like theirs best, but (assuming they've been to seminary) they should be able to explain most differences.
My sister is a pastor but of no demomination whose been to a seminary so I've been trying to talk to her about a lot of the confusing things. It's a little comforting but still kind of confusing.
Quote from: Malachite on March 28, 2013, 05:18:33 PM
My sister is a pastor but of no demomination whose been to a seminary so I've been trying to talk to her about a lot of the confusing things. It's a little comforting but still kind of confusing.
That's what happens when hundreds of thousands of really smart people sit around for two thousand years trying to figure out the exact meaning of things they hold as literally bible truths. :)
I'm sick of picking myself up off the ground only to be knocked down again. I don't think I want to get up anymore, lying here is easier.
I'm wondering if adult intact male dogs have a lower bark than female dogs of the same breed.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on March 28, 2013, 06:41:08 PM
I'm wondering if adult intact male dogs have a lower bark than female dogs of the same breed.
I've thought about this, too. I can't seem to find another husky-pit to compare mine to, though. ::)
I should stop procrastinating.
Nah, time to play Skyrim.
Why do all my calluses always peel off? I need those.
Thinking lots of exciting thoughts about crochet and knitting.
Quote from: DeeperThanSwords on March 30, 2013, 06:07:29 PM
Thinking lots of exciting thoughts about crochet and knitting.
Uh - er really?
I'm thinking about my.life and how unfulfilled and wasted it feels like it has been. I don't know why I am sad today. I just am feeling really low. :(
Quote from: Sweet_Steffy_Bee on March 30, 2013, 06:30:37 PM
I'm thinking about my.life and how unfulfilled and wasted it feels like it has been. I don't know why I am sad today. I just am feeling really low. :(
Aww... :( Sounds like you need a hug. Here's a long-distance one, for what it's worth.
:icon_hug:
My longest, dearest friend had his heart broken the other night. Understandably he was upset which in turn made me rather upset was well, because, well, I love him. I thought he had found that person that he could spend a lifetime with. He's a really great man, strong, smart, and determined. I just don't understand why she would leave him. I really don't.
I'm thinking that it seems I make an OK 'kind of' parent - the skills just seemed to be 2nd nature to me.. I've never been a parent before, but dating a woman with a 9yo daughter has seemingly given me the job and I love it.. :D
I iss having a body to snuggle with but I don't think my parents would ever be OK with me having someone over to do that with, even if it was just a friend.
I set up an account on ask.fm for people who know me IRL to ask things they might not be able to do in person, and ever since I did people have been sending messages through it about how they respect my whole gender thing and think it's cool, or just general questions about it or random stuff, and one enthusiastic "I LOVE YOU <3". Brightens my day because I'm so awkward around people, nice to communicate with them and feel normal. The support in terms of being trans has been beyond amazing, though- almost makes up for what my parents have been putting me through with it.
I think my mom is going to buy every single sports bra and compression tank in the world before she even considers a binder. My major problem is that my shoulders and back are too wide for a size that will do the job, so it kinda cuts in and makes stuff uncomfortable. But nope, she's going to keep trying ::)
Quote from: Caleb. on March 31, 2013, 01:03:07 AM
I iss having a body to snuggle with but I don't think my parents would ever be OK with me having someone over to do that with, even if it was just a friend.
Same, haha. My parents have a rule that if I have anyone sleep over they sleep on the couch. But only if my sister's home, though my sister has told me she wouldn't mind if that weren't a rule. :P
I'm thinking I need to take some ibuprofen for my aching back. It is hell getting old. Of course, lifting a water heater yesterday didn't help.
the dog keeps dropping his chew bone on my toes, the little bastard.
And my head is still feeling light and icky after painting with oil based kilz all morning.
Quote from: Jaime R D on March 31, 2013, 04:28:19 PM
the dog keeps dropping his chew bone on my toes, the little bastard.
And my head is still feeling light and icky after painting with oil based kilz all morning.
Oh Kilz fumes are the worst, no wonder you're sounding so snarly about the poor little dog!
Quote from: Shantel on March 31, 2013, 05:39:54 PM
Oh Kilz fumes are the worst, no wonder you're sounding so snarly about the poor little dog!
I'm pretty sure he's doing it on purpose, he wants to go play with the dog a few doors down, but they get into too much trouble together. I just let him out and he took off for where the other dog lives, I'll have to go fetch him in a few minutes again too.
Quote from: Jaime R D on March 31, 2013, 05:43:25 PM
I'm pretty sure he's doing it on purpose, he wants to go play with the dog a few doors down, but they get into too much trouble together. I just let him out and he took off for where the other dog lives, I'll have to go fetch him in a few minutes again too.
Do you suppose that we are just leading a dog's life? ;D
Super stoked about going to see Jurassic Park in IMAX 3D Friday! RAWR!
Love that my voice has dropped to a level where I don't mind talking to strangers!
Excited about starting College this fall!
I'm actually happy about most things, for once. ;D
Quote from: Simon on March 31, 2013, 06:13:51 PM
Super stoked about going to see Jurassic Park in IMAX 3D Friday! RAWR!
Love that my voice has dropped to a level where I don't mind talking to strangers!
Excited about starting College this fall!
I'm actually happy about most things, for once. ;D
Yay Simon! :eusa_dance:
I can't believe I just wasted another 13 hours playing video games on my computer... I guess it's a good thing I have class tomorrow so I can force myself to leave my laptop at home.
Glad to hear that, Simon.
I am so sick of trying to look out for people, having them ignore me, and then later letting them cry on my shoulder because of it. But they never think to actually listen to me.
For this reason, as much as I love him, I hate my boyfriend right now and it's a good thing he's safe behind a computer screen right now because things would get ugly fast if this were going on in person. Why are people determined to do stupid things and get angry when someone tries to keep them from doing something that could leave them hurt or dead or incarcerated or something? It's like someone just takes the brain switch and flips it off >:(
Oh God. I've effed up my heart so badly, I really have.
Quote from: Caleb. on April 01, 2013, 06:40:00 AM
Oh God. I've effed up my heart so badly, I really have.
Dude, are you ok?
My dog is growling in her sleep. Sometimes I wonder what the hell she's dreaming about. Probably turning into godzilla and destroying cities or something like that.
I only have to wait 2 more days till I find out if a Lateral Release will happen or not.
My apple bread is overflowing and making a mess in my slow cooker :(
If I put my hair all on one side of my head I look so pretty... ^_^
I love my yoga pants. They are so comfy! And make my butt look cute! :D
Is it still Monday? It feels like Wednesday. This day has been so long. Why did my instructors have to do 3 tests today? Ugh.
I guess it's about time to start worrying about my psych appointment tomorrow. Hopefully she did some research this time. ::)
I really wish I had the option of settling down with a cute girl and fathering biological children with her, even if I decided never to do that. Just knowing I could would be really nice.
Things need to move faster or this boredom will kill me.
I've been wondering for couple hours now do I want chips or not.
I need to make up my mind soon or the store will close for today. @_@
Watching a commercial about becoming an ultrasound technician. Their line is about helping people find out whether this special present will be a boy or a girl.
...Excuse me while I puke my brains out. I need to transition sooner rather than later because every single time I see something gender-specific, especially relating to me, it makes me feel so sick how important it is to people.
A small package with one PC part has to be picked up from the office, yet, the $800 box could be left at my door? Go figure.
The crazy Italian lady next door just finished yelling at someone on the phone. Yes. Now I can finally finish reading that chapter about toxicology without wondering if she'll try to poison her husband next.
The quarter this year is going to be one serious grind. Bring it on.
Good things happen in threes, right? I've had two very good things come together for me, and I'm counting on tomorrow's interview to be the third.
Quote from: androgynoid on April 03, 2013, 10:32:20 AM
Good things happen in threes, right? I've had two very good things come together for me, and I'm counting on tomorrow's interview to be the third.
Wishing you good luck!
Quote from: androgynoid on April 03, 2013, 10:32:20 AM
Good things happen in threes, right? I've had two very good things come together for me, and I'm counting on tomorrow's interview to be the third.
Turns out number three is just a particularly tasty cookie. :P
Thanks, Shan! I'm going to need a lot of luck, I'm afraid.
I definitely just found one of my friends (? acquaintances? we have a lot of mutual friends?) from high school posting in the FtM tag on Tumblr. I want to message them, but can't think of how to tactfully ask them what they were doing there. :-\
Wondering what awaits me on the other side..
I got into an extra girly mood right now and attempted my own makeup! I probably used too much eye shadow, but I managed to do mascara without blinking and ruining it :D
I am thinking :'( so much :'( right now. Not that it matters.
awww steph what's wrong? hugs! you can message me if you need to talk. try to keep smiling sweetie
My life sucks. I wish it were over.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on April 03, 2013, 08:20:22 PM
My life sucks. I wish it were over.
Don't wish your life were over. Wish the sucking were over.
Then do something about it.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on April 03, 2013, 08:20:22 PM
My life sucks. I wish it were over.
What's wrong? How can we help?
Quote from: Miss Bungle on April 03, 2013, 08:20:22 PM
My life sucks. I wish it were over.
C'mon Miss Bungle, we're here for you. I'm here, whatever it is it will get better in time.
Quote from: ZoeM on April 03, 2013, 08:29:32 PM
Don't wish your life were over. Wish the sucking were over.
Then do something about it.
Unfortunately, I can't do anything about it. It's a bunch of medical issues that I can't control. Dealing with the gender issues was much easier to deal with by comparison. At least I could fix them. This stuff I am dealing with now completely sucks.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on April 03, 2013, 08:44:07 PM
Unfortunately, I can't do anything about it. It's a bunch of medical issues that I can't control. Dealing with the gender issues was much easier to deal with by comparison. At least I could fix them. This stuff I am dealing with now completely sucks.
Auww... D:
My latest neurosis: Is autoandrophilia a thing the way ->-bleeped-<- is? What if I have that?
I know ->-bleeped-<- isn't really considered a thing anymore, but still.
I really need to do some more schoolwork today... But my cousins want to have a Pokémon tournament this weekend and I don't want to lose to a seven-year-old. I guess I'm going to go train in the mountains instead of doing my homework.
My arms are starting to feel normal again finally. Getting shocked that bad kind of scared me, felt that through my chest even.
Quote from: Jaime R D on April 04, 2013, 08:54:50 PM
My arms are starting to feel normal again finally. Getting shocked that bad kind of scared me, felt that through my chest even.
What happened? :-\
People are so rude in this city, they push and shove even when you're lugging something around that's the same size as you. Carrying a cello is hard enough without people blocking the way and shoving and demanding that I move when they have plenty of room.
OTOH, while sitting on the bus being worried if people saw a girl when they were looking at me, I said in my head to myself, "I'm a boy," and it felt like finally settling into my own skin. That was nice and reassuring after all that stuff I had to go through last week.
I am thinking about how I need to brush my teeth before bed and how much I love "Not a Pretty Girl" by my lady Ani.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 04, 2013, 09:10:50 PM
People are so rude in this city, they push and shove even when you're lugging something around that's the same size as you. Carrying a cello is hard enough without people blocking the way and shoving and demanding that I move when they have plenty of room.
OTOH, while sitting on the bus being worried if people saw a girl when they were looking at me, I said in my head to myself, "I'm a boy," and it felt like finally settling into my own skin. That was nice and reassuring after all that stuff I had to go through last week.
Same up here, some jerk almost pushed me down the stairs as he was running to catch the T. ::) I don't get why there's such a rush, there will be another train along shortly. Glad you're feeling more comfortable, it's all about self-confidence. :)
Give someone with a musical instrument a bad time, let alone a Cello... Go to JAIL!!!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 04, 2013, 09:10:50 PM
What happened? :-\
Apparently, the power supply blew on my desktop and I was messing with it to see what was wrong and it got me pretty bad, there's a short in it somewhere, so I need to get a new one now. I've been shocked plenty in my life, but that went into one arm, through my torso and out the other arm and it was hard to let go of it for a moment, so it got me good. Had to sit down for a while afterwards too. I'll live, just hope the desktop will too eventually. I've got my old home built one going now though, but its taking a while to update since it's been offline for a few years. I'm only doing it for the printer and also I want to have access to all my music and some old pics. when I can afford it, I need to get a portable drive so I can use it with my laptop too.
I need a face lift. Being age 60 is not funny. Glad to be alive & enjoying all except for gravity.
Ouch D: Glad your arms are feeling better.
Quote from: V M on April 04, 2013, 09:27:09 PM
Give someone with a musical instrument a bad time, let alone a Cello... Go to JAIL!!!
Yeah! >:(
I'll burn their house down, with the lemons!
...okay I really need to stop with the silliness.
Quote from: androgynoid on April 04, 2013, 11:42:54 AM
My latest neurosis: Is autoandrophilia a thing the way ->-bleeped-<- is? What if I have that?
I know ->-bleeped-<- isn't really considered a thing anymore, but still.
I have heard of the term autoandrophilia being used, and (presumably) cis women who describe themselves as having it. I've also heard of (presumably) cis men who feel they have ->-bleeped-<-. I think that both can exist as a sexual fantasy, but it's inaccurate imo to describe trans people that way since it's more than just a sexual thing for us.
Looks like it'll be another day-off due to sick leave... Still can't use my right arm properly.
Guys who are about to have T as injection, mark my words.
Don't get the injection to your arm.
I wonder how I ended up with peanut butter on my chin after making a sandwich...
... probably because I licked the knife
Quote from: kkut on April 05, 2013, 11:09:38 AM
I'm wondering why I still haven't completely learned if it ain't broke, don't fix it!
I installed the latest version of windows explorer and now it crashes every 10-15 minutes! :icon_help: :icon_userfriendly:
I trashed three PC's with Microsoft's inferior software and hole filled platform and finally got tired of being held hostage by the gang in Redmond, Washington and finally got a Mac and now life is good!
Quote from: kkut on April 05, 2013, 11:09:38 AM
I'm wondering why I still haven't completely learned if it ain't broke, don't fix it!
I installed the latest version of windows explorer and now it crashes every 10-15 minutes! :icon_help: :icon_userfriendly:
https://fedoraproject.org/ ?
I really want to get on testosterone.
Shame I have stupid anxiety over doctors. Makes starting these processes so difficult.
I'm thinking that my GF and mother want to meet..
If the world suddenly implodes, you know they met..
I wonder if I can reheat pasta in an electric skillet with the rest of my dinner? I'll know soon enough...
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on April 05, 2013, 04:58:33 PM
I'm thinking that my GF and mother want to meet..
If the world suddenly implodes, you know they met..
You mean that you will be like roadkill?
Zomg zomg a sequel to Finding Nemo has been announced!!
I heard Vicci Martinez ft. Cee Lo Green - Come Along in the Blazer going home. I don't know if it's the easy, catchy lyrics that I like most, or the music.
Quote from: Anna Michele on April 05, 2013, 05:08:07 PM
I wonder if I can reheat pasta in an electric skillet with the rest of my dinner? I'll know soon enough...
Add water when reheating pasta.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 05, 2013, 05:42:13 PM
Add water when reheating pasta.
Too late... maybe next time. My broccoli and pasta warmed up fine, the chicken needed more time in the skillet.
I wonder how long it's been since anyone swept out the garage... We're cleaning it out in a couple of weeks and I'll be the one who has to play spider stomp and roach wrangler. Maybe I should recruit my dog to help. >:-)
I don't want to go to rehearsal ;-;
Not out to almost everyone there and even though the conductors can't remember my name and one doesn't even know me, I get "young lady" all the time. And it sucks out and my legs have growing pains and dammit it's saturday D:
A friend of mine saw my boyfriend with me for the first time and said to me, "HI!!!! I KNOW YOU!!! :P" then pointed to him and said, "I don't know her, though,"and I had to bite my lip to keep from falling over into the street laughing. Trust me, it was funnier in person.
Somehow we always get hilariously misgendered, or hilariously correctly gendered- this one time before I was out, a guy in a restaurant thought we were brothers. So of course we kissed over the table just to screw with him ;D
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 06, 2013, 06:47:49 AM
Somehow we always get hilariously misgendered, or hilariously correctly gendered- this one time before I was out, a guy in a restaurant thought we were brothers. So of course we kissed over the table just to screw with him ;D
Hahaha you are baad Max! :icon_evil_laugh:
I should get some work done, but I have no motivation or energy for anything at the moment.
Time to go thrift store shopping, I need some new clothes, shorts, t's & oh yea a new eyebrow pencil.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 06, 2013, 10:10:22 AM
So now my down ewe may be gradually improving, but she's far from well and doesn't have much any milk for her triplets, which means I'm feeding them. Also, a first-time mum has had big twin boys, one of whom has earned her instant loathing for some reason, which means she's now tied in a corner to keep her from beating him to death. So he's mine, too. I no longer recall why I would make such cavalier presumptions, but I thought I would be free of bottle babies this year. It seems I have a whole crowd of little minions.
Looks like you'll have to tap into your mother instinct whether you want to have such an instinct or not. Shall we call you Mister Mom? ;D
Since I know nothing about sheep, but have a grasp on nature, is the mother of twins trying to get rid of one so the other has a better chance of survival? Or can sheep raise litters?
I'm think about how wonderful it will feel to look at myself in the mirror and say "yeah i recognize you now" "hello there beautiful"
:police:
Quote from: Shawn Sunshine on April 06, 2013, 11:12:02 AM
I'm think about how wonderful it will feel to look at myself in the mirror and say "yeah i recognize you now" "hello there beautiful"
:police:
:) You go Shawn!
I wish Pad Thai was more flavorful. :(
I have exams coming up. :o
Just wondering what I am going to do when the teaching contract is over.
Quote from: Shantel on April 06, 2013, 07:39:45 AM
Hahaha you are baad Max! :icon_evil_laugh:
Yeah...I was the one who came up with that plan >:-)
Rehearsal was okay for the most part, except my section needs to stop bowing in every which directi-wait, I'm supposed to fix that. Whoops.
And a guy from my section called me a very lucky woman because my mom drives me home because I live far away and my train is annoying to get from there. Very lucky *woman*. A******. I need to let them in on this before I stop shutting down at female associations and start cursing up a blue streak at them instead.
Quote from: kkut on April 06, 2013, 07:31:49 PM
I'm thinking this would be nuts. But I'm thinking there may be something to this.
Anna Michele (or others), can you give some more info on fedoraproject? I'm tired of my windows explorer crashing every 15 minutes.
You can always use Firefox instead of IE for your browser. Its pretty stable and usually works better.
Quote from: kkut on April 06, 2013, 07:31:49 PM
I'm thinking this would be nuts. But I'm thinking there may be something to this.
Anna Michele (or others), can you give some more info on fedoraproject? I'm tired of my windows explorer crashing every 15 minutes.
Nope, no, nada, listen to Auntie Shan get a Mac and enjoy your life! Those boys in Redmond built their entire system on a faulty DOS platform with holes in it and they continue to add to it and come up with new patches while the hackers are trying to tell you how fragile that system is. Hello, are you out there, are you listening? I had three PC's turn to crap before I got smart.
Noooo, don't do it! Macs are evil, I tell 'ya, eeeeevvviiiiilllll! D:
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 06, 2013, 08:31:58 PM
Noooo, don't do it! Macs are evil, I tell 'ya, eeeeevvviiiiilllll! D:
OK Max this is war kid! ;D You have to quantify your comment or get hit by a RPG! :icon_ballbounce:
You're hitting me with D&D?!
Don't like paying a ridiculous amount of money for a machine that can't be dropped by hands that randomly drop things without freaking out and worrying that something is now horribly broken. Their OS isn't wonderful, if you like it so much get a PC and install Ubuntu for free. PCs don't give me issues, if something is wrong I can fix it. But a Mac? I go near them and terrible things happen. They don't like me, I think they're all pos's :3
Fun fact: Jobs and Wozniak distributed blue boxes to a local campus back before the days of Apple. How impish. Bill Gates didn't steal money from the telephone company, he gave it to charity :P
Anyway, it's a personal war between me and all apple products. It's just not worth it for me, even if people tend to write more viruses for Windows. I can use a different OS, but I don't have the time to sit there and build a computer or modify it so it doesn't shatter into a million pieces because I can't hold on to things. Exception: Macintosh II was rather sturdy. They should make computers like that.
Also they outsource to China. Because every other company doesn't, obviously. But I gave my reasons, kind of. Long story short, I dislike them and I shall stand by this opinion! ;D
Quote from: kkut on April 06, 2013, 08:39:33 PM
Ok, I'm confused ladies and gentleman!
I'm going to do my best Barbie impersonation now.... MATH IS HAAARRRRD!
Ok Kim, who do you trust? C'mon baby trust Auntie Shan, you don't have to reinvent the wheel!
Sometimes I see people on websites or forums wanting to do really stupid things, and I want to advise them so strongly against it but I don't want to come off as a condemning jerk.
Soon I am going to make my TV set my computer monitor. ;D
Quote from: Caleb. on April 06, 2013, 08:49:04 PM
Sometimes I see people on websites or forums wanting to do really stupid things, and I want to advise them so strongly against it but I don't want to come off as a condemning jerk.
Soon I am going to make my TV set my computer monitor. ;D
What is this "TV" of which you speak? ???
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 06, 2013, 08:46:39 PM
You're hitting me with D&D?!
Don't like paying a ridiculous amount of money for a machine that can't be dropped by hands that randomly drop things without freaking out and worrying that something is now horribly broken. Their OS isn't wonderful, if you like it so much get a PC and install Ubuntu for free. PCs don't give me issues, if something is wrong I can fix it. But a Mac? I go near them and terrible things happen. They don't like me, I think they're all pos's :3
Fun fact: Jobs and Wozniak distributed blue boxes to a local campus back before the days of Apple. How impish. Bill Gates didn't steal money from the telephone company, he gave it to charity :P He stole his operating system from IBM
Anyway, it's a personal war between me and all apple products. It's just not worth it for me, even if people tend to write more viruses for Windows. I can use a different OS, but I don't have the time to sit there and build a computer or modify it so it doesn't shatter into a million pieces because I can't hold on to things. Exception: Macintosh II was rather sturdy. They should make computers like that.
Also they outsource to China. Because every other company doesn't, obviously. But I gave my reasons, kind of. Long story short, I dislike them and I shall stand by this opinion! ;D Uh-huh I get that from my friends, buy American, but their GM products come from China and their Fords come from Brazil, it's a brave new world honey, we're stuck with it!
B-but that penultimate line was sarcasm making fun of a silly reason ;-;
And this is 'Murica! Speaking of IBM, I can't stand their machines either. They make this horrible high-pitched noise for some reason. Kind of like my background high pitched whining noise, but really obnoxious. Build an indestructible Mac and maybe, just maybe, we'll talk :P
Quote from: kkut on April 06, 2013, 08:57:24 PM
Ya, you forgot to mention they build Toyotas in the U.S. now, how messed up is that?
They assemble them and my Subaru here in America. It's a one world marketplace! My guy friends say you drive a Subaru? Isn't that a lesbian car? :D
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 06, 2013, 08:56:57 PM
B-but that penultimate line was sarcasm making fun of a silly reason ;-;
And this is 'Murica! Speaking of IBM, I can't stand their machines either. They make this horrible high-pitched noise for some reason. Kind of like my background high pitched whining noise, but really obnoxious. Build an indestructible Mac and maybe, just maybe, we'll talk :P
It's ok honey, your Auntie Shan loves you just the same! :icon_peace:
...I don't drive :P
Quote from: Shantel on April 06, 2013, 09:02:52 PM
It's ok honey, your Auntie Shan loves you just the same! :icon_peace:
Yay! ;D
Sounds like an adventure, I would love that. I like abandoned places, that's one of the many things that's great about Portal 2. That was a great game.
Sequel to a game called Portal, made by Valve. There's an evil crazy AI making you do "testing"- i.e. solving deadly puzzles in order to reach the exit of each testing chamber- and you're hoping to get out somehow. There's companion cubes and deadly neurotoxin and lasers and portals. Portals are the mechanic giving the series its name, you shoot one on one spot and another on another spot, when you go through one you come out the other side, maintaining velocity. That's how you solve the tests...by thinking with portals.
It's fun and stuff, you should play the first one first if you're interested in puzzles and crazy genius cold-blooded serial killer AI's who enjoy torturing people. And wacky science research facilities. Seriously, it's fun.
I'm thinking I might need two full-time jobs to buy all the video games I want now... You two aren't being fair. :-\
Silly weather, doesn't it know I'm trying to write a book here? Sheesh. :P
Delicious, delicious white tea with delicate hints of pear. Simply fantastic.
I am thinking that I love buttery croissants.
Aww... I missed the operating system discussion from last night :(.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 06, 2013, 10:19:05 PM
Sequel to a game called Portal, made by Valve. There's an evil crazy AI making you do "testing"- i.e. solving deadly puzzles in order to reach the exit of each testing chamber- and you're hoping to get out somehow. There's companion cubes and deadly neurotoxin and lasers and portals. Portals are the mechanic giving the series its name, you shoot one on one spot and another on another spot, when you go through one you come out the other side, maintaining velocity. That's how you solve the tests...by thinking with portals.
It's fun and stuff, you should play the first one first if you're interested in puzzles and crazy genius cold-blooded serial killer AI's who enjoy torturing people. And wacky science research facilities. Seriously, it's fun.
I'm playing it too, Glados is so funny, I love her passive-aggressiveness and the fact that she turns into a potato. >.<
There's something damn sexy about men crying.
I'm thinking maybe it's time to post more pictures in the fabulous thread. :) And see what people think? :eusa_think:
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on April 07, 2013, 03:16:21 PM
There's something damn sexy about men crying.
That could be taken as "aww, she likes sensitive men" or "she likes to cause men pain." Lol.
Haha, Caleb.
I should be cleaning.
I recently realized that I would technically be considered a goth which is a little uncomfortable since I generally don't get along with goths. Ah screw labels.
Quote from: Caleb. on April 07, 2013, 03:27:36 PM
That could be taken as "aww, she likes sensitive men" or "she likes to cause men pain." Lol.
Or both!! >:-) jk
Like to cause sensitive men pain?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.askboz.com%2Ffrodocrying.jpg&hash=681363559648c780be8693038b42e8f4c0ca5a92)
Q.E.D.
Quote from: Edge on April 07, 2013, 03:31:03 PM
Like to cause sensitive men pain?
Now that you've mentioned it, the idea of being a dominatrix once does intrigue me. o.O
I wonder what would happen if anyone saw my entire music collection.
My foot is falling asleep, but otherwise I am so comfortable that I don't want to move.
Quote from: Heather on April 07, 2013, 03:24:45 PM
I'm thinking maybe it's time to post more pictures in the fabulous thread. :) And see what people think? :eusa_think:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1337.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo665%2FLearnedHand1%2FDSCN0434_zps6addea17.jpg&hash=4d830c9a397b623f9e9e28414478b4c1fbab2cae)
These little cuties were born on my porch spring 2011, they didn't come back last year because some work being done on the porch scared them away, so I hope more birds are born there this year.
Quote from: LearnedHand on April 07, 2013, 06:51:03 PM
My foot is falling asleep, but otherwise I am so comfortable that I don't want to move.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1337.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo665%2FLearnedHand1%2FDSCN0434_zps6addea17.jpg&hash=4d830c9a397b623f9e9e28414478b4c1fbab2cae)
These little cuties were born on my porch spring 2011, they didn't come back last year because some work being done on the porch scared them away, so I hope more birds are born there this year.
They are fun to watch! I had some black cap chickadees that put their nest in the midst of a flower basket hanging from the eaves. I had to hand water the flowers very carefully around the nest so that I didn't drown the chicks. Mom and pop bird would watch me intently and come back once I had left.
Birds are so great!
I sure hope my barn swallows return again this year. I miss them. They work so hard building their nests in the most hidden away & funny locations. Last year one nest fell & they quickly built another one. I tried to return the nest to the same location but they would not accept it.
I really wanna change over to my new Facebook and pretend I've already done my name change... But I haven't come out to my extended family yet and they would see it. Could use it to come out... Decisions. :-\
Oh my gods, modeling makes you sooo sore afterwards.
I'm here thinking if Kim Khardashian and her untalented ass can get a TV show, then why in the hell can't I?
I'm thinking about the high speed train that is life, and how riding on it makes everything seem to move so slowly.
Ugh. YouTube got me again. Last time I checked it was 6:30. Why can't my hospital clinicals go by this fast?
I need to look up the address for my endo on Thursday.
The dogs need more food. I'm definitely not eating out this week now. Why is my little mutt allergic to the cheap food? ::)
kkut, it's OK, we should all just enjoy our lives as best we can. There is no black & white for any of us.
I kinda sorta like this girl...maybe. Okay fine I do like her. And she likes me back. And my boyfriend did dare me to get a chick because he'd be okay with that. So where's the problem, you ask?
She lives in another freaking country and I wouldn't have the time or funds to see her for a very long time. And I'm sure by that time some guy who actually has his parts in order will have scooped her up. A day in the life of a transguy >_>
And it's funny, because she's MTF so that wouldn't even be an issue. Damn you, Murphy.
I think I'm slowly turning into a fundamentalist. This is personally scaring me (not that being a fundamentalist is wrong-just isn't a path ive considered before)
Dissapointed in myself. Resuming HRT soon & I'll be taking lots of T blocker drugs. I should just have an orcie & move forward there, is no going back. I do not use many drugs & feel really stupid for following this slow path.
I've had approval from therapists & have had an orcie scheduled before however I did not complete the simple procedure, not sure why?
Life & our choices, who knows what to do, I sure do not it seems????
I think I might hack into my friend's Netflix account and watch some zombie movies tonight. Schoolwork to do, you say? Nonsense.
Sometimes PTSD triggers can hit much harder than you'd like them too, I guess the best thing to do is cope as best as possible and make forward progress as you can
Not an unusual dilemma. I am pretty sick, but want to get a lot of uni work done. If I stay home, I can rest, drink a lot of fluids, etc between my working. But if I go to campus I am less likely to be distracted.
Edit: ugh I am wasting so much time wondering what I should do instead of getting it done. *gets my butt up and gets dressed to go to uni*
I'm thinking it is 80 degrees outside and I really want to go fishing. Don't feel like going alone and everyone is working today, blah.
Quote from: Simon on April 10, 2013, 01:34:05 PM
I'm thinking it is 80 degrees outside and I really want to go fishing. Don't feel like going alone and everyone is working today, blah.
We going after Bass?
Kind of back? I don't know. It'll depend on my mood. >.>
Quote from: Simon on April 10, 2013, 02:26:57 PM
Catfish!
They get pretty big! Good luck, I'd go but I'm stuck here in Washington. I'm going fishing on a charter in the pacific on my birthday, got it all booked. Going after Ling Cod rather than salmon, I'm all salmoned out, my taste buds don't even like it anymore unless it's smoked.
I'm putting my dock, boat lift and boat in the water this weekend :)
I left for maybe a month and there are 71 pages of stuff to go through! Maybe. I don't know. xD
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 10, 2013, 04:23:34 PM
Heey how've you been AG? :)
Sh*tty, as Shantel would be able to tell. XD I've been wracked by depression brought on by a series of things, but at least I've been able to pinpoint gender identity to "genderfluid" (more-or-less) hence why it's not "Aaron Gabriel" anymore. It's only "A.G." until I can find a more androgynous name. >.>;
But I recently started a fanpage on FB [for "Vassalord" and other yaoi stuff (I need more likes xD)] and now have two tumblr accounts. xD So I've at least had stuff to do.
How've you been? :)
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 10, 2013, 04:15:39 PM
I left for maybe a month and there are 71 pages of stuff to go through! Maybe. I don't know. xD
Glad your baaaaak A. G., we missed you! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Antonia J on April 10, 2013, 04:09:16 PM
I'm putting my dock, boat lift and boat in the water this weekend :)
Are we goin fishin? ;D
I need some new music for my iPod... I've been listening to the same three playlists for the past month and it's getting old really fast. Guess I'll just shuffle my entire library until then. It'll be like Christmas!
Quote from: Shantel on April 10, 2013, 05:46:22 PM
Glad your baaaaak A. G., we missed you! :eusa_clap:
<3 <3 Missed y'all, too!
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 10, 2013, 06:43:09 PM
:( Sorry to hear that. I'm doing pretty good; I got a yard full of little lambs now and lots to do. :P
Baaaaaaaaabies! :D xD That sounds adorable! >.> I want a lamb though a baby goat would be awesome, too. xD
w00t! My FB page is now at 12 likes! :D The artist of my favorite webcomic shared my page for me. :) It was awesome!
Shane from The Walking Dead is a damn sexy man.
Also I'm obsessed with the Turret Opera from Portal 2.
Portal 2 - Cara Mia (Turret Opera) [Extended] (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b_MtwMYtvn0#)
top surgery
Quote from: Shantel on April 10, 2013, 02:55:42 PM
They get pretty big! Good luck, I'd go but I'm stuck here in Washington. I'm going fishing on a charter in the pacific on my birthday, got it all booked. Going after Ling Cod rather than salmon, I'm all salmoned out, my taste buds don't even like it anymore unless it's smoked.
Mmmmm. I loooooooove smoked salmon.
Still unemployed. The longer I'm off the more depressed I'm beginning to feel.
Quote from: Keaira on April 11, 2013, 03:17:16 AM
Still unemployed. The longer I'm off the more depressed I'm beginning to feel.
Good luck with finding something!
I'm still looking for a job, but it turns out my degree is pretty much worthless. >.>
Good luck to Keaira, A.G., and anyone else looking for a job.
Looks like Summer of next year I'll more than likely (unless something terrible happens) be having top surgery. Then that's two surgeries done and one more to go. Happy, Happy, Happy!! :D
Quote from: Keaira on April 11, 2013, 03:17:16 AM
Still unemployed. The longer I'm off the more depressed I'm beginning to feel.
*hugs*
>:] I found out that the doctors have to give me a hysterectomy once I have insurance. They can't use the "but you're young!" line because I'm in pain 2 to 3 weeks a month. They have to take care of me it turns out. My dad [medical field] informed me of this and I was like "...you're just now telling me this?" >.> Hell yeah! I need insurance and I'm getting this crap out. I'm not necessarily transitioning, but I'm in a stupid amount of pain so I won't have that anymore! :D
Welcome back, A.G., and that's great! Happy for you and Simon :)
Good luck with the job search, Keaira!
I was hoping for T at my appointment today even though I knew I wouldn't get it. Oh, well. At least I have something to work out my thyroid issues now. If only my endo would work on her constant misgendering and bedside manner...
Go faster Red Line! I'm in A hurry
Quote from: LearnedHand on April 11, 2013, 09:06:09 PM
Go faster Red Line! I'm in A hurry
You're not in Chicago, are you? :o Be my friend!
Quote from: androgynoid on April 11, 2013, 09:11:04 PM
You're not in Chicago, are you? :o Be my friend!
Boston
I hope no mice or other critters start crawling out of there
Gotta wait another month for surgery. Bleh
The Japanese need to stop making the first episode of anime so damn drawn out. No wonder people lose interest and series only last for 25 or less episodes.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 11, 2013, 08:08:02 PM
Welcome back, A.G., and that's great! Happy for you and Simon :)
Good luck with the job search, Keaira!
Thanks. :3
__
There's nothing quite losing a potential friendship because the other person enters an online relationship that takes all of his time.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 11, 2013, 01:01:47 PM
Good luck with finding something!
I'm still looking for a job, but it turns out my degree is pretty much worthless. >.>
*hugs* Good luck to you too.
Quote from: Edge on April 11, 2013, 02:05:13 PM
Good luck to Keaira, A.G., and anyone else looking for a job.
Thank you Dear ^_^
Quote from: Caleb. on April 11, 2013, 04:11:36 PM
*hugs*
*hugs* Thank you for being there every night for me.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 11, 2013, 08:08:02 PM
Welcome back, A.G., and that's great! Happy for you and Simon :)
Good luck with the job search, Keaira!
Thank you too. :)
I just got back from dropping my son and daughter off at school and laid back down when Gunther, one of my cats, started meowing from one of my bedroom windows. Well, I say meowing, but it sounds more like "out" and "hewo."
And I laid in bed a little last night thinking about what Caleb. said to me there is truth to why I dont post pictures these days in the "you look fabulous" thread. I dont feel like I measure up. On some level, ive always felt that way. I just see too many flaws I suppose.
Received a message today from the local College. I applied for my FAFSA and was approved...except for one thing. They need proof that I registered for the Selective Service.
Haha, this should be fun.
Quote from: Keaira on April 12, 2013, 08:06:14 AM
And I laid in bed a little last night thinking about what Caleb. said to me there is truth to why I dont post pictures these days in the "you look fabulous" thread. I dont feel like I measure up. On some level, ive always felt that way. I just see too many flaws I suppose.
Don't let that get in your way of being who you are. You won't see me and a lot of people here posting on those vanity threads, we know our limitations in the prettiness department but that in no way impinges on our own validity any more than it does a lot of cis women. You're either basically pretty and fresh out of your teens with minimal masculinizing to begin with or you have $50 grand for FFS, in any event those two things precludes a whole lot of us from ever wanting to post on those pages. And so what difference will it really make in your life?
Let's see if I can watch 8 hours of Netflix tonight in a row... I have to beat my record. ;D
I'm thinking that everything will be alright now that I have officially come out to my whole family.
Mmm... breakfast tacos. They're a lot like breakfast burritos but I only have small tortillas.
Quote from: Keaira on April 12, 2013, 08:06:14 AM
And I laid in bed a little last night thinking about what Caleb. said to me there is truth to why I dont post pictures these days in the "you look fabulous" thread. I dont feel like I measure up. On some level, ive always felt that way. I just see too many flaws I suppose.
You should not let your perceived flaws stop you from posting on the fabulous thread. I know I don't feel like I look fabulous most days but on the rare occasion I do feel fabulous I post in the fabulous thread. By looking at your avatar I believe you most definitely belong in the fabulous thread.
That my cat is adorable when she lays on my bed to sleep, right next to where I sleep :)
That federal taxes are darned horrible things.
Quote from: LearnedHand on April 11, 2013, 10:33:43 PM
Boston
Ah, sorry. We have a red line in Chicago too, and I'm going to be living right near it soon.
Quote from: Shantel on April 12, 2013, 01:57:59 PM
Don't let that get in your way of being who you are. You won't see me and a lot of people here posting on those vanity threads, we know our limitations in the prettiness department but that in no way impinges on our own validity any more than it does a lot of cis women. You're either basically pretty and fresh out of your teens with minimal masculinizing to begin with or you have $50 grand for FFS, in any event those two things precludes a whole lot of us from ever wanting to post on those pages. And so what difference will it really make in your life?
I dont let it hold me back in my daily life.I will not have FFS.okay, I would like a lower hairline, but surprisingly that's all. I like my nose and face. But I can't afford hair removal right now because I am unemployed. Still, I do have a lot of physical features that helps me pass, like my height, no adams apple, etc. So I guess the bigger question must be, why am I even concerned about perceived beauty?
Quote from: Heather on April 13, 2013, 09:17:15 AM
You should not let your perceived flaws stop you from posting on the fabulous thread. I know I don't feel like I look fabulous most days but on the rare occasion I do feel fabulous I post in the fabulous thread. By looking at your avatar I believe you most definitely belong in the fabulous thread.
Heather, you look great. Whether you beleive it or not. Dont let anyone ever tell you otherwise. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira on April 13, 2013, 11:54:12 AM
So I guess the bigger question must be, why am I even concerned about perceived beauty?
I could hazard a guess on that one as well. :P ;)
Looks like I got nothing to worry about when the time comes. Even though mom isn't really on board dad is pretty much as non judging as you can get. I told him that I wanted to start transitioning as soon as I was able and he shook his head with a smile and acknowledged me. I haven't seen him do that my entire life or I just missed every time he did it. Looks like everything does happen for a reason and God wouldn't let me do this until I was good with my father and solved our differences. Thinking happy thoughts
Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on April 13, 2013, 07:29:46 PM
Looks like I got nothing to worry about when the time comes. Even though mom isn't really on board dad is pretty much as non judging as you can get. I told him that I wanted to start transitioning as soon as I was able and he shook his head with a smile and acknowledged me. I haven't seen him do that my entire life or I just missed every time he did it. Looks like everything does happen for a reason and God wouldn't let me do this until I was good with my father and solved our differences. Thinking happy thoughts
So cool, I'm pleased for you!
I am pleased also. Only one thing left to figure out that has come up and everything will be blissful
My yaoi/Vassalord fanpage on Facebook has gained 18 likes since noon! I'm now at 41! :D I'm so happy! x3
I need to go fix my dogs' water dish before they start stealing from my drinking cups again. They know they shouldn't drink inside, so whenever there's a bowl down inside they ignore it. Are they smart or dumb for obeying me to the letter?
Went to a woman's church meeting today and was happy to see my cousin's sister there who is a lesbian. The happiness ended when she was just there to pick up my cousin's son (I wanted him to stay). I felt like she stood me up even though she's a lesbian and I'm trans. It felt awkward being in there with other women talking about woman things. I just went for the food though.
I'll just quote one reblog from Tumblr.
QuoteBored ft. horny
Because that's about it.
I'm paranoid. One of my friends needs a "boyfriend" for a family event and she wants me. But the thing is...she is 25, my real age is 24. I don't look 24 for a guy. I've been passing 100% over the past two months, but people treat me like I am 15 or 16, if I could gauge it. My facial hair is sparce, which is certainly a factor, and I'm a bit chubby which makes me look babyish.
I'm worried her family will either read me as female and call us lesbians, which would cause drama for her, or that they will judge how young I appear. Which could also cause drama.
This probably is paranoia because what family would be rude enough to go "that's actually a woman" or "that boy isn't 24."
It feels good to be able to cry when you need to to or when you feel you need to. Makes me feel human again and not some emotionless zombie walking around.
Why does time always slow down so much between appointments? Now that I have four scheduled, it seems like every day is turning into a week long affair. This sucks.
I am convinced that Lemmy Kilmister could do a remake of ANY song and it would sound awesome!
My aunt, uncle, and cousins left me a voicemail singing happy birthday (quite badly, lol). And I called their house back to say thank you, and uh, since the kids don't know (and "can't" know) about me I couldn't say "hi this is Caleb." And hell to the no for saying this is birthname. So my cousin answers and I say "Uh, hi." He's completely silent because he doesn't know the voice. I go "So, uh, I got your birthday message, can you please tell your family I said thank you?" And he's like "ok..." And then I said "Ok thank you, bye" and hung up. Lolol. Awkward. -_-
They think telling the kids they have a transgender cousin would be cruel, but in my opinion it is way worse not to tell them. I look and sound EXTREMELY different after being on T for a year. Even my body changes are highly noticeable to others. And instead they are left wondering why their cousin sounds like a guy and no longer looks like "herself."
Quote from: Prof HB on April 14, 2013, 09:58:14 PM
My aunt, uncle, and cousins left me a voicemail singing happy birthday (quite badly, lol). And I called their house back to say thank you, and uh, since the kids don't know (and "can't" know) about me I couldn't say "hi this is Caleb." And hell to the no for saying this is birthname. So my cousin answers and I say "Uh, hi." He's completely silent because he doesn't know the voice. I go "So, uh, I got your birthday message, can you please tell your family I said thank you?" And he's like "ok..." And then I said "Ok thank you, bye" and hung up. Lolol. Awkward. -_-
They think telling the kids they have a transgender cousin would be cruel, but in my opinion it is way worse not to tell them. I look and sound EXTREMELY different after being on T for a year. Even my body changes are highly noticeable to others. And instead they are left wondering why their cousin sounds like a guy and no longer looks like "herself."
Who knows, maybe when they finally find out the response will be different than responses you have received before. I know it sounds weird, but I say that because I finally told my father and his response was even more backward than my mothers. Both didn't flips out on me like they normally would and my dad was actually more accepting than I thought he'd ever be. Just to rub it in he actually told me he knew there was something off for a very long time and now he knows why. Kid's aren't dumb and you'll be surprised what they know and don't know no matter how young. Give it time and when you feel the time is right, let them know and don't hold the ketchup cause they are kids. They are more resilient than most adults to new information. ;D
I wish you the best in the coming times.
Melly
I'm at a comfortable enough point to come out to my dad right now. But I won't because I'm a procrastinator.
For now I'll just make an excuse and blame it on other things on my mind, like driving lessons, my probable colon problems that I am also procrastinating with, and getting my two mother and daughter chihuahuas spayed.
-.-; I feel like a major bum.
Buuuuuut....my page is at 47 likes! Go me. :D [And all of the people that like the page. XD]
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 15, 2013, 11:29:05 AM
-.-; I feel like a major bum.
Buuuuuut....my page is at 47 likes! Go me. :D [And all of the people that like the page. XD]
You're not a major bum, and here's another "Like" from me! :-*
Thanks Melly. :) I don't think my cousins would have a poor response, they seem to be quite open-minded and reasonable boys, it's just my aunt and uncle. Probably mostly my uncle. He doesn't think it's a good influence on them, so he doesn't want them to know. I was told when I started hormones I couldn't see them anymore, and while I've never outright said I started...it's pretty obvious, lol. I think they will come around when they realize everyone else has and that they'd rather have someone explain to the boys that I am trans rather than why I am suddenly gone.
That being said, I am willing to accept that I may in fact lose my cousins. That would make me sad, because they are really good kids, but I can't untrans myself.
Why does my internet always get frustratingly slow at night??? I just spent 45 minutes waiting for the text entry page to load so I can complain!
I actually had fun doing scenarios in class today and I didn't even kill my imaginary patient. I must be doing something right.
Quote from: Blaine on April 15, 2013, 08:49:47 PM
I actually had fun doing scenarios in class today and I didn't even kill my imaginary patient. I must be doing something right.
Nice!
So, the story has shifted from me living in fear to the life and drama of a teenage boy. I love this. Now I just have to somehow figure out how to either make my mom not out me or not be there if I have friends over to play Xbox and stuff. Feels as though the cleaning out, de-molding, and painting of my room were symbolic of me dumping fear, coming out, and starting my life for real.
Also, five hairs on my upper lip are now a few shades darker than blonde. Progress.
Quote from: Shantel on April 15, 2013, 11:31:47 AM
You're not a major bum, and here's another "Like" from me! :-*
<3 <3 Thank you. x3 <3 <3
>.> So...I'm now a mentor on Elysium. Lord...I'm a yaoi whore. XD
Argh, must go to bed, 4:45 comes fast but I am wide awake! :icon_caffine:
Joan Jett is in her mid-fifties. Have you seen recent pictures of her? It's crazy, she looks like she's in her like, thirties. I wonder if her vegetarianism has something to do with it.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on April 16, 2013, 05:00:55 AM
Joan Jett is in her mid-fifties. Have you seen recent pictures of her? It's crazy, she looks like she's in her like, thirties. I wonder if her vegetarianism has something to do with it.
I saw her in concert last summer and the summer before that, she's still got killer vocals too. Amazing.
Speaking of vocals, I wasn't imagining things last night. My voice really is lower- maybe life took pity on my pathetic life and decided to toss me a bone for my troubles.
Zoe isn't posting much, I suspect jellus beanus comatosis !
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 16, 2013, 12:10:02 PM
Zoe isn't posting much, I suspect jellus beanus comatosis !
A sugar OD? I had a chocolate OD the other day, ate a whole bag of Hersheys nuggets and got a headache and became really tired and had to take a nap.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 16, 2013, 12:10:02 PM
Zoe isn't posting much, I suspect jellus beanus comatosis !
Can the next contest be "how many jelly beans can Zoe fit in her mouth at once"?
Quote from: Anna Michele on April 16, 2013, 12:16:21 PM
Can the next contest be "how many jelly beans can Zoe fit in her mouth at once"?
She isn't going to want to hear the words jelly bean, or 1478!
I'm debating if I should put my life savings towards top surgery which is about 4 grand. It would chip away at my total cost but I don't know. I doubt I would do that though.
My "it's just peach fuzz, no way your hair's growing back" in my male-pattern hairline areas is now anywhere from 2-10mm long, and rather thick. I am optimistic, and pleased as punch.
Lulz @ beans. I'll have you know I keep them in my office, and limit myself to ~30 a day. So there. :)
I realised yesterday that I could use my bike to get to work now that the snow has melted instead of walking for 40 minutes.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on April 16, 2013, 05:00:55 AM
Joan Jett is in her mid-fifties. Have you seen recent pictures of her? It's crazy, she looks like she's in her like, thirties. I wonder if her vegetarianism has something to do with it.
I'm going to go with "genetics". The vegetarians I've met, regardless of how much they try to take care of themselves, have always appeared at least 10 years older than their given age. It was even worse if they were vegans [I knew a vegan who was so
disgusting and
sickly looking that I felt a little bad]. But these are just the ones I met. Genetics probably played a big part in how they looked, except for the vegan. I think he seriously had some deficiencies going on.
Anyway, diet, unless you're on a super junk food diet or a diet that consists of no nutrition, is probably going to make limited differences in your appearance and even then it would probably depend on predisposition to certain things. My mom, who's a meat eater albeit it's chicken and turkey for the most part, looks twenty years younger than she is and my dad looks about 10 years younger than he is. My sister also look likes she's 16 and she's 22. I'm nearly always pegged for being younger as well. :P And we're all meat eaters to a degree.
I'm thinking that trying to eat a bowl of greek yogurt and granola is pointless when there are two kitty boys sitting beside you on the couch. :P
looked at some old pics of me pre-transition. Jeez I look so freakin miserable.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi118.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo98%2FMiriTekker%2Fcandid%2520pics%2FHPIM0184.jpg&hash=88fedd1eafa70dfd3067706d2b3bb0bfe8e3e1e4)
But I was comparing how much my face had changed and it really does seem to be a lot.
Quote from: Keaira on April 17, 2013, 04:09:35 AM
But I was comparing how much my face had changed and it really does seem to be a lot.
I TOLD YOU
Oh yes, I make an awesome lasagna :)
I have new shoes! With any luck they'll be the last pair of boy-shoes I ever buy :)
My dog has gotten fat. In about an hour we're going to go for a walk. I need to lose weight and she needs to lose weight and we can't change the dog food because of the other two dogs.
We're gonna have a new employee at our construction department next week. Well, she basically moves from the wood works department so she isn't exactly new.
I'm just wondering how things will work out since she's deaf (god I don't like using that word).
As far as I know, she doesn't have a translator (is that the correct word?) with her and people communicate with her with the pen and paper method. That's just kinda inconvenient at a construction site. Then again, I was thinking if I should get a small notepad in my pocket just in case because I can only sign my own name and cat (and I'm not even 100% sure about that cat).
It's not that I'd have something against people with handicaps, the complete opposite actually. My aunt has worked with handicap people at least my whole life and now my Mom is working with them, too. I'm always irritated if I notice people staring excessively at someone who's in a wheelchair for example. Good grief, we're living the in 21st century, not in the dark middle ages...
I'm just pondering this on the general scale and sort of looking forward to it. It's a new experience after all. And maybe I can pick up some new signs, too. :)
Quote from: Tossu-sama on April 17, 2013, 01:50:05 PM
We're gonna have a new employee at our construction department next week. Well, she basically moves from the wood works department so she isn't exactly new.
I'm just wondering how things will work out since she's deaf (god I don't like using that word).
As far as I know, she doesn't have a translator (is that the correct word?) with her and people communicate with her with the pen and paper method. That's just kinda inconvenient at a construction site. Then again, I was thinking if I should get a small notepad in my pocket just in case because I can only sign my own name and cat (and I'm not even 100% sure about that cat).
It's not that I'd have something against people with handicaps, the complete opposite actually. My aunt has worked with handicap people at least my whole life and now my Mom is working with them, too. I'm always irritated if I notice people staring excessively at someone who's in a wheelchair for example. Good grief, we're living the in 21st century, not in the dark middle ages...
I'm just pondering this on the general scale and sort of looking forward to it. It's a new experience after all. And maybe I can pick up some new signs, too. :)
I've swapped notes with deaf people on many occasions, it just requires a lot of patience and a little compassion. Good luck!
A lot of deaf people can also read lips to a degree, you just have to pronounce the words very carefully. You can also try learning a bit of sign language to see if helps. :3 I'm sure she'll do wonderfully! It might take some patience, but she'll probably do great. :) Handicaps don't necessarily mean anything. *points to self :P *
Anyway...
I hate being asexual/mostly asexual in a sexual world. *kicks a rock* Makes me feel like I'll never be able to find someone who understands and won't want to go screw someone else.
I also hate it when someone tells me that monogamy is selfish. And when that same person gets pissy because in a group RP I have a character that's monogamous. Why does a roleplay have to be about sex? Yeah, it's a sexual site, but not every roleplay has to be about it. *sigh* I'm thinking about pulling out. I can't stand the one of the people because he makes me feel like sh*t for what I believe.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 17, 2013, 08:09:06 PM
I hate being asexual/mostly asexual in a sexual world. *kicks a rock* Makes me feel like I'll never be able to find someone who understands and won't want to go screw someone else.
I also hate it when someone tells me that monogamy is selfish. And when that same person gets pissy because in a group RP I have a character that's monogamous. Why does a roleplay have to be about sex? Yeah, it's a sexual site, but not every roleplay has to be about it. *sigh* I'm thinking about pulling out. I can't stand the one of the people because he makes me feel like sh*t for what I believe.
You take care of A. G. Bheur and don't compromise away your convictions to make one A-hole happy. ~ Shan ~
Thinking about the day when I have to tell my mother that I'm getting top surgery. That's going to be a very stressful day.
There might be a 1.5% chance I get T at my appointment next month. My endo really isn't onboard with it and it seems like she's going to lead my around the stable and through the woods before she writes a prescription. I might start looking for a new doctor when my insurance changes...
Quote from: Keaira on April 17, 2013, 04:09:35 AM
looked at some old pics of me pre-transition. Jeez I look so freakin miserable.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi118.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo98%2FMiriTekker%2Fcandid%2520pics%2FHPIM0184.jpg&hash=88fedd1eafa70dfd3067706d2b3bb0bfe8e3e1e4)
But I was comparing how much my face had changed and it really does seem to be a lot.
There's something feminine about you even in that pre-transition pic. I think it's the eyes.
My therapist might not specialize in gender issues but she's great to talk to, makes me feel better when I'm in a bad place or a good place or anywhere in between, like an old friend.
Quote from: Tossu-sama on April 17, 2013, 01:50:05 PM
We're gonna have a new employee at our construction department next week. Well, she basically moves from the wood works department so she isn't exactly new.
I'm just wondering how things will work out since she's deaf (god I don't like using that word).
As far as I know, she doesn't have a translator (is that the correct word?) with her and people communicate with her with the pen and paper method. That's just kinda inconvenient at a construction site. Then again, I was thinking if I should get a small notepad in my pocket just in case because I can only sign my own name and cat (and I'm not even 100% sure about that cat).
It's not that I'd have something against people with handicaps, the complete opposite actually. My aunt has worked with handicap people at least my whole life and now my Mom is working with them, too. I'm always irritated if I notice people staring excessively at someone who's in a wheelchair for example. Good grief, we're living the in 21st century, not in the dark middle ages...
I'm just pondering this on the general scale and sort of looking forward to it. It's a new experience after all. And maybe I can pick up some new signs, too. :)
She has likely dealt with a lot of hearing people before so I wouldn't worry too much about it. Just don't call it a disability, I promise you she can do everything a hearing person can, except hear of course. The term deaf is fine. As for communication, reading lips is hard for anyone to do, even the deaf. So I would not rely on it or even ask. Instead if it was me, I would have a notepad, introduce yourself politely and ask what mode of communication would be best since you don't know sign. ASL (or very least fingerspelling) would be beneficial to learn. Anywho that's all I have.
Quote from: DirtyFox on April 17, 2013, 10:36:31 PM
She has likely dealt with a lot of hearing people before so I wouldn't worry too much about it. Just don't call it a disability, I promise you she can do everything a hearing person can, except hear of course. The term deaf is fine. As for communication, reading lips is hard for anyone to do, even the deaf. So I would not rely on it or even ask. Instead if it was me, I would have a notepad, introduce yourself politely and ask what mode of communication would be best since you don't know sign. ASL (or very least fingerspelling) would be beneficial to learn. Anywho that's all I have.
Yeah, it's hard, but some people are really good at it. There was a lady at my high school that she only read lips unless talking to another person who knew sign language. It was pretty damn cool. Finger spelling is also good to learn. I can do the alphabet and I can say "how are you?" and similar. >.>
@ Shantel: <3 <3 Thank you. <3 <3
About the Dinner.
I found an AMV I've been looking for and the main reason I found it was by looking for the incorrect lyrics of a song I like being posted. XD
There's an inch worm on my shirt and he's crawling on me. I'm playing the wormy spongebob song because of this. :D
There is an accidental incest app (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/04/18/accidental-incest-app-iceland_n_3114065.html) in Iceland. It's because the majority are related there so it's kind of necessary, but at the same time...I'm dying. xD It's so funny. xD
Edit: I'm pissing off SasuNaru shippers. xD I ship someone else with Sasuke and they're all "noooooo! You can't do that!" and I'm like "watch me".
I hope I don't end up arguing with the L&D nurses tomorrow. It's my last in-hospital clinical this semester and I'll do my best to be patient, but I've heard nothing but horror stories.
If they don't want EMT students there, why do they keep signing the friggin' contract?!?
Can anybody really trust a product endorsed by celebrity tv doctors?
Quote from: Anna Michele on April 20, 2013, 07:01:05 AM
Can anybody really trust a product endorsed by celebrity tv doctors?
"Talk to your physician to see if this new medication to prevent bone loss is for you!"
The side effects are loss of vision,
internal bleeding,
liver failure,
loss of kidney function,
your dick could fall off.
WTF??? >:-)
Quote from: Shantel on April 20, 2013, 08:53:00 AM
"Talk to your physician to see if this new medication to prevent bone loss is for you!"
The side effects are loss of vision,
internal bleeding,
liver failure,
loss of kidney function,
your dick could fall off.
WTF??? >:-)
Is that a downside?
Quote from: ZoeM on April 20, 2013, 08:57:45 AM
Is that a downside?
For some it might be. I can't get past the idea that the pharmaceutical companies must think we are all stupid.
Just wish my body was a complete woman's after SRS & everything else. Going shopping today & would just like to mix in normal with all the other girls/women. Passable but not 100%.
Quote from: Shantel on April 20, 2013, 08:53:00 AM
"Talk to your physician to see if this new medication to prevent bone loss is for you!"
The side effects are loss of vision,
internal bleeding,
liver failure,
loss of kidney function,
your dick could fall off.
WTF??? >:-)
You forgot to mention bone loss as a possible side effect!
xD I converted another person to ship Banner x Stark and Ruffalo x Downey, Jr. Muahahaha! I feel accomplished. xD
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 20, 2013, 10:24:52 AM
xD I converted another person to ship Banner x Stark and Ruffalo x Downey, Jr. Muahahaha! I feel accomplished. xD
Hahaha! I'm watching The Avengers right now!
Quote from: Anna Michele on April 20, 2013, 11:17:56 AM
Hahaha! I'm watching The Avengers right now!
XD That's awesome! >.> Every time I see the show I giggle. They had to do the shot with Stark poking Banner several times because Stark kept poking Banner in the ass. :P Did you know that the blueberries weren't scripted either, but that Downey just likes to have food on set? XD
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 20, 2013, 11:44:16 AM
XD That's awesome! >.> Every time I see the show I giggle. They had to do the shot with Stark poking Banner several times because Stark kept poking Banner in the ass. :P Did you know that the blueberries weren't scripted either, but that Downey just likes to have food on set? XD
Haha, I didn't know that! I knew that the shawarma scene at the end was filmed right before the movie was released.
So I've got three names in school- Max, birthname, nickname. Though the middle is dying out.
...Though I ran into people I haven't seen in a long time and before I could even speak they were all "HEY BIRTHNAME HOW'VE YOU BEEN WHERE WERE YOU WOMAN" and then talked about me in the third person in a rush of female pronouns. I mentally facepalmed a hole in the universe, said some hi's, and then walked off.
I also still have two girls chasing after me, one of which kinda scares me. She's the crazy obsessed stalker type, but still my friend so I don't really want to be an a-hole to her. Tried telling her that I was taken and also gay (I mean come on, I have a boyfriend. That isn't so far from the truth) but she laughed it off. They both enjoy tousling my hair because it's long, and I was threatened when I said I wanted to cut it.
...Yay high school drama? It was bound to happen at some point, there's almost no boys in that school so the few of us that go there are hunted down by girls.
Quote from: Anna Michele on April 20, 2013, 11:48:16 AM
Haha, I didn't know that! I knew that the shawarma scene at the end was filmed right before the movie was released.
I'm so glad they put that in. xD
@ Liminal: Welcome to high school. Girls take a little bit of time to learn you're not interested. What you need to do is firmly tell them to stop X and repeat it consistently until they get the message. And letting them tousle your hair and similar things, that's not really telling them to stop. :P
High school girls will take just about any sign of affection [touching them outside of a hug, letting them touch you, etc.] as a potential sign of you being interested in them. I saw it constantly while I was in high school and I saw it repeatedly while student-teaching.
I get there not being a lot of boys, but boundaries still need to be set.
that today is the day for accidentally alienating people o.0;
But....she sneaks up on me and does it ;-;
I told her to stop around a billion times, she said no. It's somewhat amusing but starting to get really bothersome, I just don't want to come off as a dick. Bah, I don't know. Secretly I like the attention :P
If she keeps it up I will get annoyed and that'll override my built-in "must not be a jerk" personality core.
Try typing "White people are" and "Black people are" in Google search, then witness the results.
Apparently, white people are "boring annoying demons" and black people are "funny annoying gods."
@ Liminal: Sometimes you have to be a bit firm with it. Not mean, but make it known you don't appreciate it. It can take a bit, including brushing her hand away when she does it.
@ ZoeM: Well, phooey. I don't want to be boring or annoying. XD
I googled it and then clicked the "white people are demons"...oh dear. This stuff is mean. D:
Finally resuming HRT & feel great about my decision. No idea why I did not continue years ago. Nice shopping trip this morning at local thrift stores as Francis, no one noticed anything other than a nice woman shopping. I love to go shopping! Love thrift stores, such great values if you shop slowly.
Ah, but she's taller and heavier than me which means she can take me by surprise, pick me up, and then do it- meanwhile I'm afraid I'll hurt her if I try to get her off me. I'll just sit down and have a serious talk with her about it, because undoubtedly she will stalk and find me on the train come Monday.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 20, 2013, 03:12:14 PM
Finally resuming HRT & feel great about my decision. No idea why I did not continue years ago. Guess better late than never.
I have walked in your shoes FrancisAnn, so you're not all alone in this!
Arrrggggh. Mom, I'm not a lesbian. Jeez.
And stop buying womens' shoes, not only don't they fit in the right spots but there's no way in hell I can get orthotics in there with my feet. They're too narrow.
Lol, your mom thinks you're a lesbian, Max? Don't you have a boyfriend? =/ I mean, even if you had a gf you obviously wouldn't be a lesbian, but yeah. Mothers can be strange.
I used to be really healthy. I worked at a natural foods store, knew a fair amount about nutrition and good food choices, I was in good shape and exercised regularly. Then my partner broke up with my 2 years ago and I'm now 80 pounds heavier, eat the crappiest food imaginable, and hate the prospect of getting my heart racing. There's nothing wrong with being a bigger person, but there is when it's starting to affect your health, confidence, and sense of general well-being.
But the breakup was 2 years ago, the grieving is over, I like someone else, my blood pressure went from optimal to high, and if I lose weight I'll have a male shape now, not a female shape. So it seems I have run out of excuses to be lazy every time I decide to lose the fats.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 20, 2013, 04:12:02 PM
Arrrggggh. Mom, I'm not a lesbian. Jeez.
And stop buying womens' shoes, not only don't they fit in the right spots but there's no way in hell I can get orthotics in there with my feet. They're too narrow.
I remember that pain. D: When I had braces on my legs I was always struggling with shoes. Then I got these awesome braces that were super thin (and shaped differently than what I had as a kid). o.o They were able to fit in with any shoe I wore. x3
Yeah, I have these stupid clunky inserts that are supposed to help with flat feet but THEY ONLY WORK IF YOU CAN ACTUALLY FIT THEM IN THE SHOE >:(
And yeah, I do have a boyfriend. She tells me he's really a girl just because he isn't super macho, imagine her reaction if she found out about the crossdressing. And no, I wouldn't be a lesbian. But she's one of those people who thinks that unless you know from the minute you're born, any ->-bleeped-<- is related to sexual orientation. Packing is for sexual satisfaction according to her and it's sick. So confused by her antics, I'd love to know where she gets her information from.
I'm going to slap myself for this but I'm almost considering taking my stalker on a couple of dates to: a) Make her stop bothering me and b) piss off my mother. Almost. It'd be wrong to date her for revenge. It'd make my boyfriend happy though, he's amused at how much of a chick magnet I'm becoming lately XD
Alright, now to go slap some sense back into my head. Bad Max.
Max, what if you wore a hat? That should protect your hair from being tousled.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 20, 2013, 06:09:23 PM
I'm going to slap myself for this but I'm almost considering taking my stalker on a couple of dates to: a) Make her stop bothering me and b) piss off my mother. Almost. It'd be wrong to date her for revenge. It'd make my boyfriend happy though, he's amused at how much of a chick magnet I'm becoming lately XD
Don't do that. Once you take her on a couple of dates, even fake ones, the stalker is going to grow far more clinging and she sure as hell won't take no as an answer. I also wouldn't count on your boyfriend being happy that you took a girl out regardless of if it's a fake date and regardless of if he finds it amusing you're a chick magnet.
My advice is to not do the dates. It's going to lead to hurt feelings from everybody and can potentially encourage the stalker to grow worse in her behavior.
@ Anna: I forgot about hats. xD It might help dissuade them.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 20, 2013, 07:34:29 PM
Don't do that. Once you take her on a couple of dates, even fake ones, the stalker is going to grow far more clinging and she sure as hell won't take no as an answer. I also wouldn't count on your boyfriend being happy that you took a girl out regardless of if it's a fake date and regardless of if he finds it amusing you're a chick magnet.
My advice is to not do the dates. It's going to lead to hurt feelings from everybody and can potentially encourage the stalker to grow worse in her behavior.
Max, that would be like opening the door to a recurring nightmare that won't go away only worse than "Groundhog Day." Don't do it!
I know, I know, I wasn't actually going to do that. It was just a silly irrational thought just like the many others I have, some of which may or may not include gene splicing. Luckily there's a voice of reason in my head so I don't act on those crazy stupid ideas :P
I'm thinking of tying it up and wearing a baseball cap, but that'll only work outside of school since there's a strict "NO HATS EVER NYEH" policy in school. Mom, please take me to get a haircut or at least let me get one without murdering me ;-;
Side note, he told me to go out with her. Bad boyfriend, don't fuel my terrible ideas :c
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 20, 2013, 07:58:02 PM
Side note, he told me to go out with her. Bad boyfriend, don't fuel my terrible ideas :c
He'll regret that as soon as it happens. (And you'd sure as hell regret once she grows worse. )
A haircut would probably be a good idea or pulling your hair back into a pony at the nape of the neck (if it's long enough).
I'm really glad I was the weird social outcast in school. I'd sit in a circle with my little clique of nerds and we'd play UNO all class, every class. Everyone was too afraid to catch The Geek to come near us. On that note, good luck to you, Max. She sounds like a terror. ;D
Yeah, it's at an awkward in-between stage. And I was never really serious about dating her, I do have some morals up in this dusty head of mine >_>
I started rifling through drawers of old stuff for hats and sunglasses, and I came across my clarinet mouthpiece. Good times.
I don't trust anyone who says removing a dog's ovaries is good for them with no strings attached. There are some big benefits, but those hormones are important for developing and maintaining health, it sounds like you're just asking for heart problems, bone problems, a slower metabolism and maybe dementia. I think I'll ask the vet if they can just give my dogs hysterectomies instead of spaying them.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on April 20, 2013, 09:32:51 PM
I don't trust anyone who says removing a dog's ovaries is good for them with no strings attached. There are some big benefits, but those hormones are important for developing and maintaining health, it sounds like you're just asking for heart problems, bone problems, a slower metabolism and maybe dementia. I think I'll ask the vet if they can just give my dogs hysterectomies instead of spaying them.
You're not risking that. That would be a myth (http://www.canismajor.com/dog/spayneut.html) about what spaying does.
I've been mimicking the voice and tonal quality of Emily Deschanel who stars in the series "Bones", my wife says that her voice is annoying which makes me want to perfect it all the more. Must be more of my passive - aggressive side showing. If I wind up living in a cardboard box under a bridge you'll all know what happened! ;D
Quote from: Shantel on April 21, 2013, 07:59:53 AM
I've been mimicking the voice and tonal quality of Emily Deschanel who stars in the series "Bones", my wife says that her voice is annoying which makes me want to perfect it all the more. Must be more of my passive - aggressive side showing. If I wind up living in a cardboard box under a bridge you'll all know what happened! ;D
Wait, there's more than one Deschanel? All I know is the one named after me. #lies
Quote from: ZoeM on April 21, 2013, 08:04:03 AM
Wait, there's more than one Deschanel? All I know is the one named after me. #lies
xD Yeah. The chick from "Bones" and Zoey are sisters. :)
I like the girl from "Bones" a lot. She's got the same facial set up as me and it makes me not feel so alone when all I see are girls with round or oval faces. >.>
Zoey is so cute, though! I love her in "New Girl" or whatever that show is.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 21, 2013, 11:35:49 AM
xD Yeah. The chick from "Bones" and Zoey are sisters. :)
I like the girl from "Bones" a lot. She's got the same facial set up as me and it makes me not feel so alone when all I see are girls with round or oval faces. >.>
Zoey is so cute, though! I love her in "New Girl" or whatever that show is.
Yeah, she's a doll! I get a kick out of the way she talks, think I've already got it down now.
Jeez, someone needs to tone down the emotional screaming. She was telling my dad that I gave myself a horrible haircut before she even saw it. Yeah it was a bit uneven and weird last night but I fixed the sides- ironically, this is the most normal-looking my hair has been in a long time. But it looks like a boys' haircut so that must mean it's horrible.
And I look like a bloated fat freak. Thanks, Mom!
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 21, 2013, 12:00:16 PM
Jeez, someone needs to tone down the emotional screaming. She was telling my dad that I gave myself a horrible haircut before she even saw it. Yeah it was a bit uneven and weird last night but I fixed the sides- ironically, this is the most normal-looking my hair has been in a long time. But it looks like a boys' haircut so that must mean it's horrible.
And I look like a bloated fat freak. Thanks, Mom!
She'll get over it. :) And I'm sure you don't look bad! Moms have a tendency to react badly. I cut off all of my hair and my mom said I looked like a dyke.
@ Shantel: XD Your poor wife!
Wow, my feet hurt. No more WalMart boots for me...
Same here with the haircut. Every time I chop it off I walk in the door to a mass look of horror. They all look like turkeys in the rain. ;D
Pfft. Screw her, it actually looks cool. I should slick it back and wear a leather jacket and glasses to school, may as well go all-out on the badness.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 21, 2013, 11:00:01 PM
Pfft. Screw her, it actually looks cool. I should slick it back and wear a leather jacket and glasses to school, may as well go all-out on the badness.
That would be awesome. XD
I just stepped back onto the forums on AVEN. I've tried doing it several times, but hopefully it'll stick. This asexual needs some support. XD
I did get support on a yaoi group on FB, though. o.o Including for being trans*. It was awesome!
I noticed the other day I really can't say "yes" if someone asks me if I was born a female/woman/anything other than man. Because at some level I wasn't. I was born male but ended up with a wrong body.
Earlier, I would've answered yes without a doubt. Now I just can't. It's just isn't true in my tiny little mind. Funny how this kinda thoughts can change over time.
Also, can't really decide if I should take a short nap on the couch before dragging myself to the store so I can continue coloring...
Decisions, decisions...
Hey, dude next door. Yeah, you with the little moped. You aren't cool and your toy's busted. You've been working on it for almost a year and it still doesn't work. It's not going to work. You can't even mow your lawn. How do you expect to fix it? Please stop tinkering with your wannabe bike until 10 at night. The demonic child across the hall needs her beauty sleep so we can perform the exorcism this weekend. Thank you! >:(
...my mood has plummeted. D: T.T
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 22, 2013, 09:52:23 PM
...my mood has plummeted. D: T.T
D: *hugs* feel better!
Well, she kissed me on the cheek today. I pretty much went into shock, which of course she thought was just adorable so she skipped back over and did it again. Surprisingly my heart didn't give out, given the speed it was beating at.
Problematically, I'm worried now that I do like her on some level. That just further complicates things. But I worry about hurting her feelings, she's a nice girl. And on top of it, I'm also apprehensive about doing anything because of the fear that she'll somehow find out that I'm trans.
I need a real packer, not a sock. And I want to take off my shirt so badly, I think the chest might pass for regular moobs but I don't want those either ;-;
Going to check in with my guidance counselor on things though, I really want to come out to staff especially if I'm getting college recommendations, and I also want to use the boys' locker rooms and restrooms without worrying. And possibly even join a boy's sports team at school, if I have the time. But...I don't know what I can and can't do right now, so I'll need to see. I'm full of nervous energy right now.
But the good news? I'm growing!
I just ordered a Nikon D3100. The race is on for it to arrive before I start hormones!
I'm trying to build up the courage to call endocrinologists in my city. Really, this is my doctor's job, but she's not doing it (and she did say she would look into it) which makes me even more nervous. What if I'm told I'm not allowed to start HRT?
Quote from: Edge on April 23, 2013, 09:13:03 AM
I'm trying to build up the courage to call endocrinologists in my city. Really, this is my doctor's job, but she's not doing it (and she did say she would look into it) which makes me even more nervous. What if I'm told I'm not allowed to start HRT?
Good luck! I had to call an endo on my own, too, and it took some courage-building before I was able to pick up the phone. It was still much easier than setting up my initial therapist appointment!
Thinking about getting (FTM) top surgery one day. I'm not sure how willing I'd be, I guess it would be worth the pain though!
I have a tiny little secret fear about going under the knife. Odd considering how I wanted to be a surgeon for a long time... but that's probably part of the reason, honestly! :P I've seen a lot of guts in my time, considering.
Wow I know what I was thinking about and then I forgot so now I'm thinking about inch worms and now I need to turn my mother's t.v. down.
I want a deep dish pizza but thinking about inch worms kind of ruined that for me.
I remember now. I want to get married one day.
Quote from: Malachite on April 23, 2013, 03:29:00 PM
I remember now. I want to get married one day.
I'd like to get married, too.
I'd need to find a nice asexual, though, or at least someone who would be okay with never having sex.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 23, 2013, 04:45:30 PM
I'd like to get married, too.
I'd need to find a nice asexual, though, or at least someone who would be okay with never having sex.
Oh Please stop it! ??? Look, eventually you'll get a life hon and that special someone will totally smoke your heart and you'll do a 180 on that mindset. Auntie Shan knows about these things, trust me on this A.G. :icon_headfones:
Quote from: Shantel on April 23, 2013, 06:06:15 PM
Oh Please stop it! ??? Look, eventually you'll get a life hon and that special someone will totally smoke your heart and you'll do a 180 on that mindset. Auntie Shan knows about these things, trust me on this A.G. :icon_headfones:
Nope, no sex. I've never had much sexual attraction, if any, and I don't enjoy the act in any form. >.> It's just not something I'm interested in or something I feel is important. I've always been happier on days where I wasn't being asked for sex. <.<
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 23, 2013, 06:08:11 PM
Nope, no sex. I've never had much sexual attraction, if any, and I don't enjoy the act in any form. >.> It's just not something I'm interested in or something I feel is important. I've always been happier on days where I wasn't being asked for sex. <.<
Well first of all it isn't something that someone who really loves you asks for, not ever. It's something that is mutual that happens when you both love each other so much that you can't eat or sleep and it comes when the trust level is huge and goes both ways and the dynamics are completely mutual. So if you have experienced anything less than that I can completely understand where you're coming from. We're not suppose to be someone else's mattress or sexual use. That would poison anyone's heart about sex.
Quote from: Shantel on April 23, 2013, 06:21:32 PM
Well first of all it isn't something that someone who really loves you asks for, not ever. It's something that is mutual that happens when you both love each other so much that you can't eat or sleep and it comes when the trust level is huge and goes both ways and the dynamics are completely mutual. So if you have experienced anything less than that I can completely understand where you're coming from. We're not suppose to be someone else's mattress or sexual use. That would poison anyone's heart about sex.
My ex-fiancé and I had a fabulous relationship at first. It was entirely trusting and we just couldn't stop thinking about one another and loved one another. The main issue was that he wanted sex and I did not (and never have). I just wasn't interested in it with anyone. He thought it was the glue in a relationship and I thought it was unimportant (and still do). Towards the end, however, I started to get real jaded against sex because he liked it a lot while I just tolerated it for him because I loved him. When I started to back off from sex, he started to get pushy about it. It was one issue among many (all that sprung up about the time he moved in with me) that led me to breaking up with him. It wasn't fair for him to be with someone who had no interest in sex and it wasn't fair to me to be with someone who wanted sex.
Overall, I've never wanted sex in my life and I've only ever done it because it was expected of me to have it (constantly seeing sex everywhere, being told 'oh, it's awesome!' or 'it's what people in relationships do if they love one another', or any other thing under the roof suggested that people have sex if the love each other or supposedly love each other or that the only way you can be in a fulfilling relationship is by having sex). So I had it. I also had it to make sure that I really didn't have a sexual interest.
And I don't, and I'm cool with that. It might change, but I doubt it. I'm far happier when I don't have sex.
Now I think I do like her back. Great.
I can't tell if she's actually clueless about the fact that kissing someone all over their face is generally seen as flirting, or if she's playing mind games with me. She said she makes out with this guy but they're not really dating and was telling me all sorts of things, and made up about 50 million reasons why she kept kissing my cheek and stuff. I can't tell if she's naturally flirty and attempting to friendzone me or if she's doing this to make me confused and jealous so I'll like her back. Dammit, isn't being trans supposed to give some sort of insight into the mind of the opposite sex? Girls confuse me, and now my own feelings are coming into play to further complicate the situation. I don't need all this crazily complex stuff, it's making me feel restless and nervous.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 23, 2013, 06:37:55 PM
Now I think I do like her back. Great.
I can't tell if she's actually clueless about the fact that kissing someone all over their face is generally seen as flirting, or if she's playing mind games with me. She said she makes out with this guy but they're not really dating and was telling me all sorts of things, and made up about 50 million reasons why she kept kissing my cheek and stuff. I can't tell if she's naturally flirty and attempting to friendzone me or if she's doing this to make me confused and jealous so I'll like her back. Dammit, isn't being trans supposed to give some sort of insight into the mind of the opposite sex? Girls confuse me, and now my own feelings are coming into play to further complicate the situation. I don't need all this crazily complex stuff, it's making me feel restless and nervous.
Nobody understands girls. Not guys, not cisgirls, not trans girls. We just are, little enigmas with earrings.
I hope it works out - might be best just to ask, but I never did understand myself so I could be wrong.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 23, 2013, 06:35:34 PM
My ex-fiancé and I had a fabulous relationship at first. It was entirely trusting and we just couldn't stop thinking about one another and loved one another. The main issue was that he wanted sex and I did not (and never have). I just wasn't interested in it with anyone. He thought it was the glue in a relationship and I thought it was unimportant (and still do). Towards the end, however, I started to get real jaded against sex because he liked it a lot while I just tolerated it for him because I loved him. When I started to back off from sex, he started to get pushy about it. It was one issue among many (all that sprung up about the time he moved in with me) that led me to breaking up with him. It wasn't fair for him to be with someone who had no interest in sex and it wasn't fair to me to be with someone who wanted sex.
Overall, I've never wanted sex in my life and I've only ever done it because it was expected of me to have it (constantly seeing sex everywhere, being told 'oh, it's awesome!' or 'it's what people in relationships do if they love one another', or any other thing under the roof suggested that people have sex if the love each other or supposedly love each other or that the only way you can be in a fulfilling relationship is by having sex). So I had it. I also had it to make sure that I really didn't have a sexual interest.
And I don't, and I'm cool with that. It might change, but I doubt it. I'm far happier when I don't have sex.
Sorry if this was in any way offensive to you dear, you know I care for you in a big sis sort of way. Guess we can say never say never because you're young and it isn't going to be a closed topic in your life and will resurface periodically. If you plan to remain asexual then it's best that you don't get on T because it will heat up your libido big time.
I'm old fashioned so sex is one of those things I'm looking foward to after marriage (and after GRS).
Quote from: ZoeM on April 23, 2013, 06:42:06 PM
Nobody understands girls. Not guys, not cisgirls, not trans girls. We just are, little enigmas with earrings.
I hope it works out - might be best just to ask, but I never did understand myself so I could be wrong.
I don't know, they all seem to understand each other perfectly fine and have these tiny nuances of what people should and shouldn't do or say and timing is big too, it's like their social interactions are a game of chess with explosives and I don't know how to play the game, I'm practically unteachable yet the girls I know mastered it without ever being taught .-.
See, with guys it's just straightforward, no complexities. You just say what you're feeling, if you're angry at someone then you let them know, maybe things get worked out calmly and maybe you duke it out a little. But you don't give each other the cold shoulder or send them this vibe of happiness that's really fake and is thinly veiled anger and stuff. Emotions get way too complex when girls get involved...no offense ladies, not trying to stereotype or anything but that's how things just are with the ones I know. I hope it works out too, because I don't want to give her unbridled control of my emotions and basically put my heart on a leash if I confess to her that I like her and she turns out to have been doing this to get me under her thumb as a game or something. Though that wouldn't make sense, we're friends. I don't even know anymore...I'll see her tomorrow afternoon at the latest, we'll see how things go then, I guess.
Quote from: Shantel on April 23, 2013, 06:45:31 PM
Sorry if this was in any way offensive to you dear, you know I care for you in a big sis sort of way. Guess we can say never say never because you're young and it isn't going to be a closed topic in your life and will resurface periodically. If you plan to remain asexual then it's best that you don't get on T because it will heat up your libido big time.
I don't really plan on anything. :/ It's not like I chose it -- it'd be far easier to be heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, pansexual, or anything else and I'd rather be any of those things instead of asexual. Things might change, or it might not. Either way I'll get to it if it happens.
@ Liminal: Seriously, be wary of her. She sounds like she's someone is pushy and overly-clingy and those aren't good things.
I'm trying to be wary, normally I'm overly cautious and mistrusting of people in general but that's gotten relaxed since I started passing more and now feelings are getting in the way. I really hope this doesn't turn out badly, she is still my friend and I'd like it to stay that way.
Asexual is a perfectly valid orientation and it's not any more a choice than any other orientation...
There is a lot of pressure to have sex. I'm not naturally asexual, but the amount of pressure there was and all the crap that comes with it made me develop an aversion for quite awhile (and the pressure and public view of it still creeps me out). I imagine it must feel worse for someone is naturally and stably asexual.
I'm thinking if I keep working out like I currently am (daily cardio and lifting) I'm going to be JACKED in a year or so. Wish I had some workout buddies though. :P
Honey, I paint nails and kick asses and I am afraid I am fresh out of nail paint sweetie. - Yep, that's how I am feelin'.
Bring it on.
Quote from: Steph21 on April 24, 2013, 05:46:13 AM
Honey, I paint nails and kick asses and I am afraid I am fresh out of nail paint sweetie. - Yep, that's how I am feelin'.
Bring it on.
Uh - oh watch out for Steph she's got PMS for sure! :laugh:
It's almost May, why is it snowing?
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 23, 2013, 06:59:46 PM
See, with guys it's just straightforward, no complexities. You just say what you're feeling, if you're angry at someone then you let them know, maybe things get worked out calmly and maybe you duke it out a little.
Unless they're gay. :P Or maybe I'm just caught up in a group of really dramatic people.
Also, I forgot my belt for my job interview outfit. This is most unfortunate.
Tonight my friend is having a dinner in memory of her grandpa, and she "needs" a fake boyfriend. I agreed to be that fake boyfriend. We decided ir they ask, we'll tell them I'm trans, since she wouldn't have a problem dating a trans man in the first place. But, well, I'd rather not get into it with people and answer all the questions.
In any case, I have to dress up nicely.
Good luck, HB!
Speaking of girls...well, let's just say I guess I have a girlfriend now. Told my bf, who went "OH MY GOD YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND THAT'S ADORABLE YOU HAVE TO TELL ME ALL ABOUT HER DUDE YOU'RE AWESOME FOR HAVING THE BALLS TO TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL."
Speaking of feelings, I'm feelin' pretty badass right now. Though I'm going to keep making sure she's clear that nothing sexual is going to happen ever, though she knows my take on those things.
My birth name apparently isn't enough to hinder passing, either. A sub called it out for attendance, and the comment I got from my friends was "dude, your name isn't that bad", not "OMFG UR A GURL", so I'm pretty happy about that too. Also somehow passed to a classmate I'm not out to yet and don't really talk to all that much. He's got really polarized reactions when speaking to girls vs boys (like most really athletic guys in high school) so it was nice to be socialized with as a male.
And those freaking sideburns are already starting to grow back, I wish they weren't blonde. That'd be cool if they were dark, but then my mother would freak.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 24, 2013, 05:40:17 PM
And those freaking sideburns are already starting to grow back, I wish they weren't blonde. That'd be cool if they were dark, but then my mother would freak.
Been blonde all my life and never had other than blonde facial hair and plenty of it as a guy, so get over it!
But... ;-;
It's just weird against the rest of my hair but there's a few dark ones growing in too, so hopefully it'll be a phase. Dunno why it's growing without T but I'm not going to complain XD
Oh wait, I already did. Derp :3
And my therapist was having fun torturing me today for juicy details over what happened between me and the girl and making me embarrassed. Evil. But she's awesome, even when she's being that stereotypical older sister I never had.
*sniffle sniffle cough cough* why on earth am I still awake? Oh yeah... work doesn't disappear just because you're sick and it's still more fun to procrastinate by going on Susan's. . . :icon_headache:
Sorry to hear you're sick, feel better soon man!
Waiting for bed. @.< Though "Supernatural" is fun.
Well, according to Jake, its apparently time to go upstairs to bed.
Quote from: Renee on April 24, 2013, 08:35:29 PM
Well, according to Jake, its apparently time to go upstairs to bed.
My dog is trying to convince me of this. >.>
Quote from: Anna Michele on April 24, 2013, 11:31:33 AM
It's almost May, why is it snowing?
It's almost May, why is a penguin complaining about snow?
;D Hey, A.G., have you seen this yet?
Thor: The Dark World trailer UK -- Official Marvel | HD (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7p7rocHEecE#)
I don't see myself ever using an STP when I transition. That's too much red tape for me.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 24, 2013, 08:48:27 PM
It's almost May, why is a penguin complaining about snow?
Because it was 70 and sunny yesterday! I wanted to enjoy my mid-afternoon walk more :)
Quote from: Edge on April 24, 2013, 08:50:31 PM
;D Hey, A.G., have you seen this yet?
I did! I'm super excited! :D I was like "This looks awesome". Then Loki showed up and I about died. I was like "omg, omg, omg *fans* omg, omg, omg, omg *squeal*" XD I just...I love Loki. XD
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 24, 2013, 10:04:54 PMI did! I'm super excited! :D I was like "This looks awesome". Then Loki showed up and I about died. I was like "omg, omg, omg *fans* omg, omg, omg, omg *squeal*" XD I just...I love Loki. XD
I know right? I'm so glad Loki is in it and I hope he continues to be. I hate being patient though. Oh well.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 24, 2013, 10:18:12 PMI saw Loki and immediately thought of you guys, Edge and AG, figured you'd be pleased :D
Thanks! I take that as a compliment.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 24, 2013, 10:18:12 PMI'm stuck in limbo between needing to get up and do my evening chores so I can go to bed, and being too tired to get up.
Ah I hate when that happens. Is it possible to leave the evening chores for the morning?
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 24, 2013, 10:18:12 PM
I saw Loki and immediately thought of you guys, Edge and AG, figured you'd be pleased :D Right now I am, if I may, plumb tuckered out. I'm stuck in limbo between needing to get up and do my evening chores so I can go to bed, and being too tired to get up.
My work here is done. :P
Quote from: Edge on April 24, 2013, 10:21:38 PM
I know right? I'm so glad Loki is in it and I hope he continues to be. I hate being patient though. Oh well.
So am I! It's what sealed the deal for me. I would have waited to see it at home otherwise. But it has Loki in it which means I have to see it. This means getting green and gold clothing or a Loki shirt. XD >.> I'm seriously tempted to get a tattoo of the guy. I just love the character so much. XD
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 24, 2013, 10:27:59 PMI just love the character so much. XD
Me too. Reading the comics gets kind of creepy though because he literally says the exact same things I've said/thought/felt. And I mean
exactly. It can get a bit triggering, but that's a big part of why I love his character. Sorry that was probably tmi.
Free Comic Book Day is in 10 days. I hope I don't forget it like last year. I remembered what I did last year. I had to do a destructive recovery on my laptop and my father asked if I wanted a McDonalds ice cream to cheer me up so we went and he ended up getting me chicken nuggets instead. >.>
Quote from: Edge on April 24, 2013, 10:32:57 PM
Me too. Reading the comics gets kind of creepy though because he literally says the exact same things I've said/thought/felt. And I mean exactly. It can get a bit triggering, but that's a big part of why I love his character. Sorry that was probably tmi.
Nah, I'm the same with him. XD And then he has blue eyes and black hair, something I've always had the mental image of me having, so it wigs me. XD
@ Liam: ...I dislike feeding schedules. D: We had to stop free feeding our dogs because mine was eating too much because of the other two. T.T I hate staying on a schedule like this.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 24, 2013, 07:58:50 PM
But... ;-;
It's just weird against the rest of my hair but there's a few dark ones growing in too, so hopefully it'll be a phase. Dunno why it's growing without T but I'm not going to complain XD Could be that you're really a boy after all, me thinks Gepetto's dream of a real boy came true! :)
Oh wait, I already did. Derp :3
And my therapist was having fun torturing me today for juicy details over what happened between me and the girl and making me embarrassed. Evil. But she's awesome, even when she's being that stereotypical older sister I never had.
I can't decide what to have for lunch, a sandwich, soup or actually cook something.
Quote from: Renee on April 25, 2013, 09:42:47 AM
I can't decide what to have for lunch, a sandwich, soup or actually cook something.
Mmkay I will decide for you. Soup!!
Rice and bread is such a simple meal, but I love it. x3
I'm ready to choke out my nurse and the pharmacy. Never have I heard of anyone having such a hard time getting needles. Walmart wants a prescription for them (ok understandable...but they're cheaper there than anywhere else so I oblige). I get them to call my nurse who tells them she has no idea why I would want syringes. Seriously...what am I supposed to do with a vial of T without needles to inject it with? Drink it? ::)
Took me days to get the nurse to answer my call in the first place and now back to getting a hold of her.
I'm a real boy! :P
Funny thing is, my therapist said that last night too. I appear to be going through the early to middle stages of male puberty without the corresponding testosterone levels, makes me wonder what'll happen when I go on T. I'll probably just turn into a gigantic grizzly bear.
Starting to enjoy all the attention I'm attracting, but hey- I should've figured it would happen given my school has a 3:1 ratio of girls to boys. Anyone not female is most likely going to be chased down by girls unless their entire body is covered in pustules two inches high and they smell like dead fish. Someone would probably even go for them out of desperation XD
The half jar of pasta sauce in the corner of the fridge with the think layer of mold in it probably is not the one I want to use for tonight's dinner :P
Quote from: V M on April 25, 2013, 05:44:40 PM
The half jar of pasta sauce in the corner of the fridge with the think layer of mold in it probably is not the one I want to use for tonight's dinner :P
Science projects should be posted in the new Science section!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 25, 2013, 05:48:53 PM
Science projects should be posted in the new Science section!
Science section? Awesome!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 25, 2013, 05:48:53 PM
Science projects should be posted in the new Science section!
Hee Hee :D
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 25, 2013, 05:48:53 PM
Science projects should be posted in the new Science section!
* Anna gets excited and runs to check it out *
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I may have had one adult beverage too many.
Quote from: Antonia J on April 25, 2013, 06:42:54 PM
I may have had one adult beverage too many.
I'm sure you did it in the name of Science!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 25, 2013, 06:45:42 PM
I'm sure you did it in the name of Science!
It's always in the name of science!
Like, did you know that science says if you put tequila in a Mike's Hard Strawberry Lemonade and don't pay attention to the amount you'll about fall down the stairs while walking up them?
Quote from: Antonia J on April 25, 2013, 06:42:54 PM
I may have had one adult beverage too many.
Been there way too often! :icon_drunk:
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 25, 2013, 07:04:55 PM
It's always in the name of science!
Like, did you know that science says if you put tequila in a Mike's Hard Strawberry Lemonade and don't pay attention to the amount you'll about fall down the stairs while walking up them?
That's the stairs fault!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 25, 2013, 07:37:55 PM
That's the stairs fault!
Maybe the kind that move like an escalator? Have another Madiera my dear, it's oh so delightfully clear! :icon_drunk::laugh:
I want my family and I to go to a bar for my graduation gift but my mom feels uncomfortable with that. I don't blame her. It still would have been nice though
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 25, 2013, 07:37:55 PM
That's the stairs fault!
They're all out to get me! First the stairs in England and now these
stairs! I need to turn them into something else. xD
@ Malachite: Bars are like that. =/ Not everyone's comfortable with them. You could settle on a compromise, though, and go to somewhere like a Longhorn's that has a bar and a restaurant.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 25, 2013, 07:57:05 PM
They're all out to get me! First the stairs in England and now these stairs! I need to turn them into something else. xD
@ Malachite: Bars are like that. =/ Not everyone's comfortable with them. You could settle on a compromise, though, and go to somewhere like a Longhorn's that has a bar and a restaurant.
I tried that approach with my mother too. We went there for my high school graduation because she was comfortable with that. I wanted to go to Hooters or an Irish Pub and she shot down those ideas. Now that I'm bringing up biker bars she's a bit more okay with Hooters lol. She may consider Wild Wings.
Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on April 25, 2013, 01:04:21 PM
Mmkay I will decide for you. Soup!!
You were a bit late to the game. I ended going with a ham and cheese sandwich with some combos I had left from the other day.
Quote from: Renee on April 25, 2013, 09:47:23 PM
You were a bit late to the game. I ended going with a ham and cheese sandwich with some combos I had left from the other day.
Auntie Shan and Jamie D should probably fly down your way and cook up a lot of stuff for you skinny girl, we get the impression that you're lazy about food as it isn't a big item for you. We just don't want you getting too skinny and start losing teeth and look like you're walking on stilts with kneecaps. You hear me young lady? :laugh: :D
Quote from: Malachite on April 25, 2013, 08:02:31 PM
I tried that approach with my mother too. We went there for my high school graduation because she was comfortable with that. I wanted to go to Hooters or an Irish Pub and she shot down those ideas. Now that I'm bringing up biker bars she's a bit more okay with Hooters lol. She may consider Wild Wings.
Buffalo Wild Wings isn't bad and it's generally family friendly even with the bar so it might be a nice compromise. I wouldn't go to Hooters or an Irish Pub either. :P But I don't like having breasts thrown at me from every direction. >.>
Men, I want a new one. Several have interest & I'm trying to sort out the frogs from the prince as smart & as discrete as possible. It must be the full moon.
Quote from: Shantel on April 25, 2013, 09:54:26 PM
Auntie Shan and Jamie D should probably fly down your way and cook up a lot of stuff for you skinny girl, we get the impression that you're lazy about food as it isn't a big item for you. We just don't want you getting too skinny and start losing teeth and look like you're walking on stilts with kneecaps. You hear me young lady? :laugh: :D
I am lazy about it, but tonight I am eating some chicken fettuccini for supper.
@.< It sucks when you stop a friendship and pull out of an awesome group roleplay because the person is a complete and utter a**hat. Sucks even more when he asks you why you quit and then asks if it's because of him. I could have said yes, but I couldn't be that mean so I just said I needed a break.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 25, 2013, 10:02:42 PM
Buffalo Wild Wings isn't bad and it's generally family friendly even with the bar so it might be a nice compromise. I wouldn't go to Hooters or an Irish Pub either. :P But I don't like having breasts thrown at me from every direction. >.>
That's my number 1 reason for wanting to go there LOL.
Who made the morning so early and how did my alarm clock get so loud?
Quote from: Renee on April 25, 2013, 10:11:45 PM
I am lazy about it, but tonight I am eating some chicken fettuccini for supper.
Darn, I missed it, you could have set another place at the table! Bet the dawg got some huh?
Quote from: Shantel on April 26, 2013, 08:05:21 AM
Darn, I missed it, you could have set another place at the table! Bet the dawg got some huh?
Of course, he always get some of what I eat except for chocolate. I have to buy him off somehow.
Quote from: Renee on April 26, 2013, 08:59:53 AM
Of course, he always get some of what I eat except for chocolate. I have to buy him off somehow.
Good plan not to share chocolate with him, it's poison for dogs.
Why didn't I try to learn Spanish when my mom tried to teach me?
Quote from: Malachite on April 26, 2013, 02:06:43 AM
That's my number 1 reason for wanting to go there LOL.
xD I can't stand breasts, lol. I think they're funny looking, but I'm not a fan of secondary sexual characteristics or even primary sexual characteristics. It's probably related to gender identity and sexual identity though. >.> I just have to learn with it. @.<
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 26, 2013, 11:20:57 AM
xD I can't stand breasts, lol. I think they're funny looking, but I'm not a fan of secondary sexual characteristics or even primary sexual characteristics. It's probably related to gender identity and sexual identity though. >.> I just have to learn with it. @.<
You really hurt my feelings (bawl, boo-hoo mommy A. G. is being mean to me!) ;D
Quote from: Shantel on April 26, 2013, 11:34:20 AM
You really hurt my feelings (bawl, boo-hoo mommy A. G. is being mean to me!) ;D
:icon_bunch: I'm sorry! :icon_bunch:
xD <3 <3
>.> My dog is the only one in the house who is taking well to being fed on a schedule. The other two give you looks whenever you feed them though they've started to eat the portion at night because they've realized they'll have to wait until morning if they don't eat.
Digit ratios. Specifically that they're another reason to worry I "might not be trans". I haven't done any measurements, but on my right hand the index finger is a smidge shorter than the ring finger. Same on the left hand but I think the difference is greater there.
Quote from: Jess92 on April 26, 2013, 12:08:55 PM
Digit ratios. Specifically that they're another reason to worry I "might not be trans". I haven't done any measurements, but on my right hand the index finger is a smidge shorter than the ring finger. Same on the left hand but I think the difference is greater there.
Don't let that justification crap get to you. It seems many trans people feel a need to grasp at whatever straws are out there to justify turning their lives upside down just to be happy. All the real justification you need is that doing it will make you happier and more comfortable with your own perception of yourself.
And don't anyone get miffed about my comment, you know its true, dammit!
Quote from: Renee on April 26, 2013, 12:17:47 PM
Don't let that justification crap get to you. It seems many trans people feel a need to grasp at whatever straws are out there to justify turning their lives upside down just to be happy. All the real justification you need is that doing it will make you happier and more comfortable with your own perception of yourself.
And don't anyone get miffed about my comment, you know its true, dammit!
Renee honey, your panties are in a wad did you know that? ;D
Quote from: Jess92 on April 26, 2013, 12:08:55 PM
Digit ratios. Specifically that they're another reason to worry I "might not be trans". I haven't done any measurements, but on my right hand the index finger is a smidge shorter than the ring finger. Same on the left hand but I think the difference is greater there.
My cisfriend's hands are like that. The only difference between her and other cisgirls is that she's taller and has a broader physique.
I wonder if my son and I can go get ice cream later or if he'll fall asleep.
Also, I started watching Dr. Who (finally). I think every who's seen Dr. Who can guess what I think of it.
If I had a TARDIS, I'd go save a lot of libraries and museums.
Quote from: Edge on April 26, 2013, 01:34:03 PM
I wonder if my son and I can go get ice cream later or if he'll fall asleep.
Also, I started watching Dr. Who (finally). I think every who's seen Dr. Who can guess what I think of it.
If I had a TARDIS, I'd go save a lot of libraries and museums.
You don't like it? :P I've tried watching the show and I got so bored. T.T
Quote from: Edge on April 26, 2013, 01:34:03 PM
I wonder if my son and I can go get ice cream later or if he'll fall asleep.
Also, I started watching Dr. Who (finally). I think every who's seen Dr. Who can guess what I think of it.
If I had a TARDIS, I'd go save a lot of libraries and museums.
Yes! What episode are you on?
Quote from: Anna! :D on April 26, 2013, 04:09:09 PM
Yes! What episode are you on?
I'm thinking Anna, that sounds nice, its a keeper!
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 26, 2013, 03:22:30 PM
You don't like it? :P I've tried watching the show and I got so bored. T.T
Haha I like it. I also like a lot of things I watch, so no surprise there.
Quote from: Anna! :D on April 26, 2013, 04:09:09 PMYes! What episode are you on?
I'm just starting episode 7 of series 1 (2005). I haven't seen any of the ones from 1963 to 1989. I also accidentally saw series 5 first. Oops.
Bad Wolf
I can't wait for the day when I'm able to get my head shaved.
Going on a date with a new man, he seems nice but with my luck he will be a "frog"
Sure enough, he went all gay on me, a frog.
Video game music is awesome.
Quote from: Malachite on April 26, 2013, 05:45:04 PM
Video game music is awesome.
Yes.
Can I interest you in the soundtrack to Anno 2070, perchance?
Still not being out to teachers and a couple of kids I don't see often makes for a bad school day when you keep hearing them call you she and you're just like "NOPE, DONE". I literally walked out of my homeroom class (only meets for crap like report cards) fuming because the teacher called me a she, I mean yeah she has bad eyesight but it was so grating. I went off and got a drink of water to avoid throwing a fit and destroying the entire school.
Was going to go see my guidance counselor but the one day I had the chance, I see a sign that says she'll be out all day and to come back Monday. Goddammit.
I'm so tempted to just go on Facebook and make a public post like this: "HI A**HATS, SEE MY NAME AND GENDER ON MY PROFILE? PAY ATTENTION TO IT".
At least I got to be around people I'm stealth to today. Stealth feels way much better than out and trans, it just places me in a situation where no one expects anything from me but being a guy. Which is great. I hung out after school with a friend of mine, basically he's my wingman and I'm his as well. Finally get to experience that, it's what I've been missing out on since the seventh grade when boys and girls split without warning. Now I just have to get the rest of me over to the right side of the fence, at least I've had a few bodily changes without HRT because it helps with passing.
I want to get my hair cut short in the back, hopefully my mom won't murder me if I try that.
Now I know Fallon Fox is awesome! She is playing Mass Effect 3 right now. :D
Quote from: Shantel on April 26, 2013, 01:25:54 PM
Renee honey, your panties are in a wad did you know that? ;D
lol, not really. I just think too many of us try to justify things to make ourselves feel better and/or to try and gain acceptance/tolerance from others. Its why I don't explain myself to people irl, its pointless and really doesn't matter, its not gonna change anything and if they can accept me for me, fine, otherwise, meh...
I'm getting crotchety in my old age. :P
Quote from: Shantel on April 26, 2013, 04:17:51 PM
I'm thinking Anna, that sounds nice, its a keeper!
:)
Quote from: Edge on April 26, 2013, 04:26:28 PM
I'm just starting episode 7 of series 1 (2005). I haven't seen any of the ones from 1963 to 1989. I also accidentally saw series 5 first. Oops.
2005 is a good place to start, even if you have already seen season 5. Don't worry so much about 63 - 89 the new series is better (but if you do try to watch the old episodes, i think they get much better once they are in color)
Quote from: Renee on April 26, 2013, 09:57:08 PM
lol, not really. I just think too many of us try to justify things to make ourselves feel better and/or to try and gain acceptance/tolerance from others. Its why I don't explain myself to people irl, its pointless and really doesn't matter, its not gonna change anything and if they can accept me for me, fine, otherwise, meh...
Gotcha, it does make perfect sense to me and I completely agree we're on the same page there Renee!
Quote from: Renee on April 26, 2013, 09:57:08 PM
I'm getting crotchety in my old age. :P
You? You have no idea what crotchety is honey! >:-)
Looks like the floaty thing in toilet tanks that stops it from filling up with water doesn't bend back as far as I thought it did. Oops :(
I can't believe I slept so late! :o
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 27, 2013, 10:28:19 AM
I've been really dysphoric the last few days. >:(
Me too. :( And it makes me angry, sad and agressive. I just can't deal with this dysphoria. I am like going crazy and i'm feeling helpless.
Quote from: dean1229 on April 27, 2013, 11:00:57 AM
Me too. :( And it makes me angry, sad and agressive. I just can't deal with this dysphoria. I am like going crazy and i'm feeling helpless.
How much of that would you attribute to your cycle? Hormonal changes can put you on a downer in a hurry.
First time in a while where I just don't want to go anywhere. Just want to make lazy on the couch :icon_headfones:
Quote from: DirtyFox on April 27, 2013, 11:33:01 AM
First time in a while where I just don't want to go anywhere. Just want to make lazy on the couch :icon_headfones:
That's exactly what I've been doing all morning, just woke up from a nice long nap.
I'm just thinking of how complicated life must be for a whale.
I mean, if you're a whale you must have to go through life holding your breath for as long as possible, and each time you need to take a breath you have to swim up to the surface of the sea to reach the air.
I mean, you could be there with other whales, say for example your friends and then you have to excuse yourself to take a breath.
i mean it's not like visiting the loo is it? You see when you visit the loo you know you're going to the loo, you're inside a building and you know where to head back to.
But you don't have any of that in the sea. There's just water. Lots of it. What if as whales you were swimming with your friends somewhere out in the middle of the Atlantic, you go to take a breath, and then when you go back down into the sea you can't find your friends?
Or you get lost and forget the direction where you were swimming?
Surely this must make relationships and sex more difficult too. You have Mr and Mrs Whale and they've spent a couple of hours say getting into position, then one of them says 'Sorry, I've got to take a breath'.
I think this is why there's whalesong. I don't think it's whales actually singing, but whales trying to find each other after taking a breath. Or they're complaining about sexual frustration.
Quote from: ZoeM on April 26, 2013, 05:45:56 PM
Yes.
Can I interest you in the soundtrack to Anno 2070, perchance?
Sure, what are a couple of your favorite tracks from there?
I'm thinking that it's really cold.
Quote from: Malachite on April 27, 2013, 04:14:48 PM
Sure, what are a couple of your favorite tracks from there?
I'm thinking that it's really cold.
Okies. Keep in mind they're really all spectacular - the Ecos have a very nice set of softer, "pretty" music, while the Tycoons have a more intense, industrial soundtrack.
ANNO 2070: Soundtrack - Project Earth (Main Theme) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBhzBe9gKrY#)
ANNO 2070: Soundtrack - Walking Barefoot (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uztg7dI9wBk#)
I need to watch out about talking to myself at work, don't need any more customers asking my manager about it. They're gonna think I'm crazy.
Quote from: Renee on April 27, 2013, 04:48:18 PM
I need to watch out about talking to myself at work, don't need any more customers asking my manager about it. They're gonna think I'm crazy.
That's hard to believe! :)
Quote from: Shantel on April 27, 2013, 04:49:53 PM
That's hard to believe! :)
I know, pretty far fetched if you ask me.
I have always been sweaty. Not smelly, but sweaty, since high school, and I just had to go buy like 4 new shirts because I was doing laundry too often on the few I had. -_-
But! I went in, expecting not to pass, so decided just to talk it up with the cashier (sometimes I don't speak much for fear my voice will give me away). But, she called me sir twice, one time yelling it at me as she missed scanning one item. And she called me "love", which is good because one time she called me dear and I presumed that meant she gendered me female. but it seems she calls all young people that, regardless of gender. Made me really happy as I have been insecure about my passing and general appearance lately. Especially as I spoke with her at length and she never changed her mind on my gender after hearing a lot of my voice.
Quote from: Renee on April 27, 2013, 04:48:18 PM
I need to watch out about talking to myself at work, don't need any more customers asking my manager about it. They're gonna think I'm crazy.
When people ask me why I talk to myself, I tell them, "It's the only place around here I can find an intelligent conversation."
Quote from: Shantel on April 27, 2013, 11:15:56 AM
How much of that would you attribute to your cycle? Hormonal changes can put you on a downer in a hurry.
I've been going crazy for more than a month now. Don't know why, i mean it just started out of the blue and this feeling of dysphoria, depression and sadness just won't go away. Sometimes i am trying to do something about it, like going out with a friend and things like that. It helps for a little while but when i get back home dysphoria and sadness hit again. It's so strange, i mean the last time i was so dysphoric was a few years ago. I seemed to be a lot better for the last year but now it's crazy. And i am not on any kind of medication so i have no idea what's the reason for this. :/
I am trying to justify buying costumes to myself.
I am also thinking about finances and budgeting.
I am also kind of pissed off that it is the end of April and my doctor still hasn't figured out what the requirements are for me to start hormones.
Just ate the last of the poptarts in the house, that means I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow after work.
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:21:52 AM
Just ate the last of the poptarts in the house, that means I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow after work.
OMG I'm out of poptarts, what will I do? Henny Penny the sky is falling down! ;D :D
Don't go mocking my love for poptarts!
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:34:25 AM
Don't go mocking my love for poptarts!
You can't live on poptarts for breakfast and be a healthy girl, this is your Auntie Shan talking to you dear, Bacon, eggs and toast for you girl!
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 08:36:43 AM
You can't live on poptarts for breakfast and be a healthy girl, this is your Auntie Shan talking to you dear, Bacon, eggs and toast for you girl!
I'm more apt to eat bacon, eggs and stuff for dinner than I am for breakfast. I usually don't even eat breakfast, but on my days off, I sometimes get hungry early.
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:40:06 AM
I'm more apt to eat bacon, eggs and stuff for dinner than I am for breakfast. I usually don't even eat breakfast, but on my days off, I sometimes get hungry early.
Well I would imagine that since you're not a big foodie like Jamie D that would be reason why you are kind of lightweight in the caboose. :D
Just had bacon, eggs, and a bagel. Still hungry.
I thought my appetite was bad before but now that I'm growing again it's ridiculous.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 28, 2013, 09:35:59 AM
Just had bacon, eggs, and a bagel. Still hungry.
I thought my appetite was bad before but now that I'm growing again it's ridiculous.
Good hearty breakfast for a growing boy! Glad to hear you're growing again, no more shrimp jokes no more being called pee wee! :)
Wondering how much money I'll make selling bacon, egg, and toast poptarts.
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 08:44:58 AM
Well I would imagine that since you're not a big foodie like Jamie D that would be reason why you are kind of lightweight in the caboose. :D
Its my metabolism. I was talking with a lady I know the other day and I told her during the convo that I was anti-vegetable and she asked me what did I eat and I told her lots of junk food and she asked why I wasn't fat then. My weight has stayed within a twenty-five pound range ever since I was in high school, no matter what or how I ate. The only time I really gained weight in that range was when I went on hrt, but then later, I lost most of the initial gain and now I weigh about ten pounds heavier than I did in high school and mostly able to hold it there if I keep eating a lot.
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 09:46:21 AM
Good hearty breakfast for a growing boy! Glad to hear you're growing again, no more shrimp jokes no more being called pee wee! :)
Yes, delicious bacon is always a good way to go ;D
Hopefully I won't be a shrimp anymore, I think I'm 5'1.5" as of last night. Having killer growth pains lately, but it's worth it.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 28, 2013, 10:19:43 AM
Yes, delicious bacon is always a good way to go ;D
Hopefully I won't be a shrimp anymore, I think I'm 5'1.5" as of last night. Having killer growth pains lately, but it's worth it.
Sounds really positive. I was kinda shrimpy through high school, always wanted to be six feet tall but made it to 5' 7". :)
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 10:58:04 AM
Sounds really positive. I was kinda shrimpy through high school, always wanted to be six feet tall but made it to 5' 7". :)
Yeah, I'd like to be six feet too but I don't know if that'll happen :P I'd settle for 5'7", that's a good height. All of my doctors for years had said that I would never be five feet tall, guess I flipped them all off as of late.
In other news, I saw my boyfriend yesterday. He looked me up and down and walked around me, then proclaimed that I look 100% like a guy. Made me feel pretty happy, he says the concept is still weird for him but he likes me like this too. Sometimes I worried that he wouldn't want to stay together because of this, I'm glad he has because I do sometimes need a shoulder to cry on IRL. Well, as long as he's not sobbing harder than I am.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 28, 2013, 11:15:33 AM
Yeah, I'd like to be six feet too but I don't know if that'll happen :P I'd settle for 5'7", that's a good height. All of my doctors for years had said that I would never be five feet tall, guess I flipped them all off as of late.
In other news, I saw my boyfriend yesterday. He looked me up and down and walked around me, then proclaimed that I look 100% like a guy. Made me feel pretty happy, he says the concept is still weird for him but he likes me like this too. Sometimes I worried that he wouldn't want to stay together because of this, I'm glad he has because I do sometimes need a shoulder to cry on IRL. Well, as long as he's not sobbing harder than I am.
Pretty cool! BTW - Is your boyfriend a cis male? Color me curious!
He's cis but very effeminate and also likes crossdressing, which he doesn't understand and isn't completely comfortable with but wants to try. I doubt I'd ever end up in a relationship with a manly guy, not that I care what people are but I seem to like feminine individuals more if any at all. Confusing orientation, I know- panromantic asexual with tendencies towards attraction to femininity.
And yes, cool indeed.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on April 28, 2013, 01:00:32 PM
He's cis but very effeminate and also likes crossdressing, which he doesn't understand and isn't completely comfortable with but wants to try. I doubt I'd ever end up in a relationship with a manly guy, not that I care what people are but I seem to like feminine individuals more if any at all. Confusing orientation, I know- panromantic asexual with tendencies towards attraction to femininity.
And yes, cool indeed.
Actually given the direction you're going I don't think it's the least bit odd sounds like a (there's that word again)
normal attraction to me.
I'm thinking it's such a nice rainy lazy day. It makes me not want to get up and exercise. I've managed to get my sneakers on. That's a start.
I only know what normal means in terms of physics :P
But if I were cis, I think I would be a guy who likes girls without exception, being trans taught me to look past that aspect of people. Though girls can be a handful emotionally, I've learned that the hard way XDD
Nothing much.
Had to teach the 5th and up Sunday School class today and felt very dyshproic when I had two tall male students. I couldn't help but to feel very dysphoric and jealous of them. One of the guys is in 8th grade when they are supposed to be and 10th and I was thinking to myself I wish I trade my life with him regardless.
No reason to be jealous of tall guys Malachite. You and I aren't short, we're convenience-sized for le ladies. ;D
Edit: I'm actually trying to think of what I should wear to go for a walk with my grandma. =/ I only care because she seems to be the one who least sees me as a man, so I think I feel more pressure to pass and look good. Or, as good as I can.
I'm thinking about how funny it is when my dog wants me to throw something for him, he'll set it down by me and if I ignore it, he backs up a little and makes little noises, getting increasingly louder until I actually throw it for him. Currently its a tennis ball he found outside.
And now he's sitting there holding it with his paws while he tries to pull the fuzz off it with his front teeth. .
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 03:05:27 PM
I'm thinking about how funny it is when my dog wants me to throw something for him, he'll set it down by me and if I ignore it, he backs up a little and makes little noises, getting increasingly louder until I actually throw it for him. Currently its a tennis ball he found outside.
xD My dog does the same thing.
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 03:05:27 PM
I'm thinking about how funny it is when my dog wants me to throw something for him, he'll set it down by me and if I ignore it, he backs up a little and makes little noises, getting increasingly louder until I actually throw it for him. Currently its a tennis ball he found outside.
Mine will get up and put the toy in my hand. She's rather demanding about things XD
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:40:06 AM
I'm more apt to eat bacon, eggs and stuff for dinner than I am for breakfast. I usually don't even eat breakfast, but on my days off, I sometimes get hungry early.
I L-O-V-E breakfast for dinner!
And dinner leftovers for breakfast.
There's nothing quite like cold pizza in the morning.
(Sleepy bed head, staggering for a cup of tea in the AM. Sees pizza box. Looks inside. "This is my lucky day! Two pieces left.")
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 09:59:20 AM
Its my metabolism. I was talking with a lady I know the other day and I told her during the convo that I was anti-vegetable and she asked me what did I eat and I told her lots of junk food and she asked why I wasn't fat then. My weight has stayed within a twenty-five pound range ever since I was in high school, no matter what or how I ate. The only time I really gained weight in that range was when I went on hrt, but then later, I lost most of the initial gain and now I weigh about ten pounds heavier than I did in high school and mostly able to hold it there if I keep eating a lot.
I don't like to say things like this but honey people like you really make me sick when all I do is look at chocolate chip mint ice cream and automatically gain ten pounds and have to work my ass off to get rid of any weight gain. >:(
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 05:13:55 PM
I don't like to say things like this but honey people like you really make me sick when all I do is look at chocolate chip mint ice cream and automatically gain ten pounds and have to work my ass off to get rid of any weight gain. >:(
Hey now, its not like I can help it. Blame my parents.
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 06:09:17 PM
Hey now, its not like I can help it. Blame my parents.
I'm just jealous is all! ;) My metabolism is always running in compound low gear. I can run on a treadmill and never get my heart rate above 124.
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 06:40:06 PM
I'm just jealous is all! ;) My metabolism is always running in compound low gear. I can run on a treadmill and never get my heart rate above 124.
Ok, cause really, the only time I should make anyone sick is when they have to look at me.
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 06:41:45 PM
Ok, cause really, the only time I should make anyone sick is when they have to look at me.
Oh please, you have to stop that Renee, I'm going to book a flight and bring my paddle, you know what's coming next bad girl! >:-)
I'm thinking that I wish my GF was home and not back in hospital. At least we know what is wrong this time..
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on April 28, 2013, 06:58:19 PM
I'm thinking that I wish my GF was home and not back in hospital. At least we know what is wrong this time..
She's back? Maybe you should pray for her to whatever you perceive to be your Higher Power. That way you don't feel so effing helpless.
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 07:01:21 PM
She's back? Maybe you should pray for her to whatever you perceive to be your Higher Power. That way you don't feel so effing helpless.
Actually, I'm not feeling helpless at all. :)
Apart from her liver issues, which are a known problem, it appears she is very severely constipated - the worst the ER doc had seen in a while - and that has probably sent her liver over the edge.
Two Sundays in a row in the ER.. And the difference in care last night to what we got last week was night and day. last night they actually investigated and went looking for answers. Last week they just assumed she was a former alcoholic with liver disease and treated her like crap.. >:(
Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on April 28, 2013, 07:07:08 PM
Actually, I'm not feeling helpless at all. :)
Apart from her liver issues, which are a known problem, it appears she is very severely constipated - the worst the ER doc had seen in a while - and that has probably sent her liver over the edge.
Two Sundays in a row in the ER.. And the difference in care last night to what we got last week was night and day. last night they actually investigated and went looking for answers. Last week they just assumed she was a former alcoholic with liver disease and treated her like crap.. >:(
I can relate to that, seems like they all just want to throw pills at the symptoms rather that investigate and look for the cause, it happens here too. Glad you have some answers, the second doctor needs to be congratulated for making the effort.
Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 06:47:58 PM
Oh please, you have to stop that Renee, I'm going to book a flight and bring my paddle, you know what's coming next bad girl! >:-)
You ain't the boss of me! :icon_no:
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 07:28:59 PM
You ain't the boss of me! :icon_no:
Grrrrr! Just kidding toughie! :D
I was doing so well today, I had almost no anxiety and then BOOM it kicked in.
I do know what caused it, but that doesn't help make it better because there's very little I can do to change the problem.
Quote from: Prof HB on April 28, 2013, 09:36:15 PM
I was doing so well today, I had almost no anxiety and then BOOM it kicked in.
I do know what caused it, but that doesn't help make it better because there's very little I can do to change the problem.
*hugs*
Quote from: Prof HB on April 28, 2013, 03:03:52 PM
No reason to be jealous of tall guys Malachite. You and I aren't short, we're convenience-sized for le ladies. ;D
Quote from: ZoeM on April 27, 2013, 04:20:39 PM
Okies. Keep in mind they're really all spectacular - the Ecos have a very nice set of softer, "pretty" music, while the Tycoons have a more intense, industrial soundtrack.
ANNO 2070: Soundtrack - Project Earth (Main Theme) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBhzBe9gKrY#)
ANNO 2070: Soundtrack - Walking Barefoot (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uztg7dI9wBk#)
Not bad at all
At least one wouldn't have to reach up much to kiss me so that's a plus!
...movies like to make sex look fun. Or at least make it look like it's a requirement for a relationship. ::)
But, I've got a sleepy dog next to me. :3 I'll probably be heading to bed soon because of her.
Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 06:41:45 PM
Ok, cause really, the only time I should make anyone sick is when they have to look at me.
I wish I were as trim and fit and good-looking as you.
Would it be wrong to wear a Viking helmet while riding a Vespa scooter?
Delicious, delicious gummy worms <3
GET OUT MY FACE stupid upper lip hair! Didn't you see that bright flashing red light? The party is over that means LEAVE
>:( ( :D )
Quote from: Jennygirl on April 29, 2013, 07:15:36 AM
GET OUT MY FACE stupid upper lip hair! Didn't you see that bright flashing red light? The party is over that means LEAVE
>:( ( :D )
Welcome to my world girlfriend! ;D
o.O I rolled over on my bed and the whole room started to spin. Most uncomfortable feeling ever.
I'm thinking that I like my speech to text on my android phone and it really works pretty well
I just got my first ever Android phone in my entire life
That doing laundry at home in glorious. (Just got my portable washer and dryer in the mail.) And I hate laundromats.
Quote from: Lubbles on April 29, 2013, 10:25:09 AM
That doing laundry at home in glorious. (Just got my portable washer and dryer in the mail.) And I hate laundromats.
No-one will steal your bra and panties now! ;D
Quote from: Shawn Sunshine on April 29, 2013, 10:08:02 AM
I'm thinking that I like my speech to text on my android phone and it really works pretty well
I just got my first ever Android phone in my entire life
I love my Android. :3
It's a good day for me. :3
Quote from: Shantel on April 29, 2013, 11:43:49 AM
No-one will steal your bra and panties now! ;D
I know right! I was always paranoid that someone would come a steal all my clothes. So I would watch like a hawk!
Quote from: Lubbles on April 29, 2013, 12:10:22 PM
I know right! I was always paranoid that someone would come a steal all my clothes. So I would watch like a hawk!
The machines are always filthy from other peoples crap! So good to have your own washer and dryer.
Why are the people I'm in a relationship with accidentally injuring me these past few days? I need my legs, guys.
I'm skipping graduating. I have no interest to walk. There's nothing I can do about it now since today was the last day to pick up my cap and gown. I told my father about this and he mentioned that I skipped prom and now this....pretty much saying I need to get some life into me. He's right, I do, but one of the main reasons I don't have that life is because I can't be myself.
I'm thinking about my savings that I have that isn't top surgery money and I mentioned this before but I was debating if those savings should be transferred over to top surgery funds. Initially I thought to myself "no" but the more I think about it the more I want to. The thing is however, I do spend from the money on occasion as opposed to my top fund which is specifically for top surgery. With my outrageous amount I'm trying to raise for my surgery, I think I'm going to continue as planned for now, and by the time I get to my last 4 or 5 grand I need to raise, then I will just tack that on to my original top surgery fund. It may nuke me back to zero dollars and zero cents, but at least my top will be out of the way. I'm just glad that my dysphoria isn't that bad tht I can't wait the amount of years I'm planning to.
Thank you
Quote from: Malachite on April 29, 2013, 04:39:30 PM
I'm skipping graduating. I have no interest to walk. There's nothing I can do about it now since today was the last day to pick up my cap and gown. I told my father about this and he mentioned that I skipped prom and now this....pretty much saying I need to get some life into me. He's right, I do, but one of the main reasons I don't have that life is because I can't be myself.
I'm thinking about my savings that I have that isn't top surgery money and I mentioned this before but I was debating if those savings should be transferred over to top surgery funds. Initially I thought to myself "no" but the more I think about it the more I want to. The thing is however, I do spend from the money on occasion as opposed to my top fund which is specifically for top surgery. With my outrageous amount I'm trying to raise for my surgery, I think I'm going to continue as planned for now, and by the time I get to my last 4 or 5 grand I need to raise, then I will just tack that on to my original top surgery fund. It may nuke me back to zero dollars and zero cents, but at least my top will be out of the way. I'm just glad that my dysphoria isn't that bad tht I can't wait the amount of years I'm planning to.
Thank you
It's your life Malachite, do as you want! I didn't go to my prom or graduation, I had them mail my diploma to me. I've purposefully missed every class reunion on purpose so far because it's the same old ancient high school football hero and prom queen both of whom have turned into drunken blimps and the rest of the goody two shoes people who are mentally still in high school that are forever on the bottom of my must see list. They make sad movies about these types! I associated with a whole different group all of which went to other schools.
I've got to work two more days before I get a couple more days off. But at least I get to go back to a four day work week after this week.
I wanted to skip graduation, at least graduating college, but my dad said I couldn't (even if it meant paying $50 to rent the gown) because it had been nearly 6 years since I had started college and that this was a remarkable thing and he really wanted to see me graduate. So...I walked. >.> Then once I was done, I promptly changed out of the gown (much to their irritation because they wanted a picture of me in it, but I was so /hot/. And I had to pee.) Overall, it wasn't bad though I was bored silly.
I wish I had seen a USMC recruiter in my last year of high school so that I could have attempted to join. I'd be done with my active duty service by now. I would be a totally different person. I could also be at peace with things had I been deemed unable to join for some other reason than all this. Now I'm almost 2 years on T and 4 months post top surgery. The military would never accept me. It gets me at least once any given day, whether brief or drawn out. I hate it and I wish I didn't feel so awful about it. I'm just lost now and I have only myself to blame. I don't feel like I have any worth and I'm going nowhere fast. I feel depressed half the time and it's creeping into more of my life.
=( I'm sorry to hear that, Wolf Man. Have you tried working through the military in other ways?
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My mom's dog had a seizure today. =/ We just got back from the vet. They think it might be hormonal related which means she's being spayed.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 29, 2013, 09:12:13 PM
My mom's dog had a seizure today. =/ We just got back from the vet. They think it might be hormonal related which means she's being spayed.
I had a pretty grey tabby cat that would look at me and grimace like something from hell and back up and spray on the furniture. I finally shot her and buried her in the yard. Later I find that she really just needed kitty hormones. I'm a bad person! >:(
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on April 29, 2013, 05:56:39 PM
I wanted to skip graduation, at least graduating college, but my dad said I couldn't (even if it meant paying $50 to rent the gown) because it had been nearly 6 years since I had started college and that this was a remarkable thing and he really wanted to see me graduate. So...I walked. >.> Then once I was done, I promptly changed out of the gown (much to their irritation because they wanted a picture of me in it, but I was so /hot/. And I had to pee.) Overall, it wasn't bad though I was bored silly.
That's what one of my friends has pretty much said to me "you're going!". I'm sure that it wouldn't be bad but that's just wasted time to me.
Quote from: Shantel on April 29, 2013, 05:14:35 PM
It's your life Malachite, do as you want! I didn't go to my prom or graduation, I had them mail my diploma to me. I've purposefully missed every class reunion on purpose so far because it's the same old ancient high school football hero and prom queen both of whom have turned into drunken blimps and the rest of the goody two shoes people who are mentally still in high school that are forever on the bottom of my must see list. They make sad movies about these types! I associated with a whole different group all of which went to other schools.
I'm starting to do that very slowly. Heck, I rarely talk to anyone from my school anymore because I just want to move on with my life as a man eventually.
It seems like most people I meet claim they were rejects/unpopular/didn't have friends at school. Bull crap. I remember school. There can't have been that many people who were rejects. Heck, back in high school, there was an entire group who claimed to be rejects. A group. I'm not the only one who sees a contradiction in that claim right? I keep this to myself though. I say, "hey me too." I don't say, "F you. I was the guy people like you rejected."
Same with when people claim weirdness is a good thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm quite fond of it myself. But do you know how many times I've met people who claimed to like weirdness who later told me I was too weird?
Quote from: Prof HB on April 28, 2013, 09:36:15 PM
I was doing so well today, I had almost no anxiety and then BOOM it kicked in.
I do know what caused it, but that doesn't help make it better because there's very little I can do to change the problem.
*hugs you* It's okay to be anxious sometimes.
Quote from: Edge on April 30, 2013, 07:20:50 AM
It seems like most people I meet claim they were rejects/unpopular/didn't have friends at school. Bull crap. I remember school. There can't have been that many people who were rejects. Heck, back in high school, there was an entire group who claimed to be rejects. A group. I'm not the only one who sees a contradiction in that claim right? I keep this to myself though. I say, "hey me too." I don't say, "F you. I was the guy people like you rejected."
Same with when people claim weirdness is a good thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm quite fond of it myself. But do you know how many times I've met people who claimed to like weirdness who later told me I was too weird?
My second high school had a group composed entirely of rejects. They didn't fit in with anyone else so they gravitated towards one another. The group was about 10 people and the only common bond was anime. Even then it was on shaky grounds with smaller groups in it/certain friendships. But, rejects often find themselves having to gravitate towards one another because humans are generally social beings and being a true outcast sucks royally. I've been there, done that.
Eh I'm of the opinion that one is not really a reject until the group that claims to be rejects rejects them.
Nope. Not a lady. Done putting up with this.
Guidance counselor said she worked with a kid in my same situation once and that he went by a preferred name and male pronouns too, so now I know people have made a full social transition in my school before. I thought so, but wasn't quite sure.
my boss called me to tell me about something, but I forgot what she originally told me because we got to talking about stuff I have to call into the office to try and get fixed along with some issues with another clerk. Hopefully, it'll come to me by the time I go into work in the morning.
Quote from: Renee on April 30, 2013, 07:41:18 PM
my boss called me to tell me about something, but I forgot what she originally told me because we got to talking about stuff I have to call into the office to try and get fixed along with some issues with another clerk. Hopefully, it'll come to me by the time I go into work in the morning.
Uh-oh now that you've turned 50 you have CRS, welcome to my world! ;D
I tend to think I am not all that smart, I feel really ordinary, so its always surprising when someone suggests that I go do something that I feel is only for wicked smart people. One of my professors today suggested I apply at the CIA, it seems awesome and I'd totally love to do it, but I don't feel like I am qualified enough or smart enough to do anything at a place that seems so prestigious. Yet, I know I'll get bored and feel unsatisfied if I keep working at the type of law firm where I am at currently.
Just go for it, LearnedHand. :3 Maybe you'll get it!
Now, if they were telling you something you obviously couldn't do (like when my mom suggests I look at jobs that deal wtih numbers) then maybe it wouldn't be a good idea.
Good luck, Liam!
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I'm thinking that I really hate being asexual sometimes. Why the hell can't I just enjoy sex? Why can't I have a sexual attraction? D:<
Gah! It bugs me.
My father is something else. He may but a smart man but he isn't right in the head lol.
I have the terrible itch for adventure. Spelunking or something. Oh gosh my heart yearns for it.
Stupid sore throat
Women are dangerous.
Quote from: Prof HB on May 01, 2013, 03:16:58 AM
Women are dangerous.
To you. :P
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I love my friend, Erin. x3 She's so sweet and deals with all of my quirks. If I had money to go visit her, we'd be snuggle buddies. XD Same with Alex...I might have a crush on Alex, but she's in a relationship with Erin. D:
It's nice outside so I'm working with the window open :)
I need insurance now. D:< This uterus needs to go.
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 01, 2013, 09:35:15 AM
I need insurance now. D:< This uterus needs to go.
I feels this.
Quote from: Prof HB on May 01, 2013, 09:37:51 AM
I feels this.
Me too.
I wish I wasn't so awkward and shy. I wish I could just be myself without fear of having people figuratively rip my head off for it. I wish people who claimed to like weirdness actually liked weirdness. It would make life so much easier if everyone could just be honest.
Quote from: Wolf Man on April 29, 2013, 07:44:43 PM
I wish I had seen a USMC recruiter in my last year of high school so that I could have attempted to join. I'd be done with my active duty service by now. I would be a totally different person. I could also be at peace with things had I been deemed unable to join for some other reason than all this. Now I'm almost 2 years on T and 4 months post top surgery. The military would never accept me. It gets me at least once any given day, whether brief or drawn out. I hate it and I wish I didn't feel so awful about it. I'm just lost now and I have only myself to blame. I don't feel like I have any worth and I'm going nowhere fast. I feel depressed half the time and it's creeping into more of my life.
I feel you. I dreamed of a military career when I was young and was in JrROTC in high school until I got taken out and put in a hospital. I was the only girl in my class and it was rough at times (this was the early 90s). Later when I tried to enlist in my early 20s, I already had marks against me including a bit of a record and they wouldn't take me. I get a bit jealous whenever people talk about serving. I'm getting over it now though. It just wasn't meant to be.
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 01, 2013, 11:00:38 AM
I feel you. I dreamed of a military career when I was young and was in JrROTC in high school until I got taken out and put in a hospital. I was the only girl in my class and it was rough at times (this was the early 90s). Later when I tried to enlist in my early 20s, I already had marks against me including a bit of a record and they wouldn't take me. I get a bit jealous whenever people talk about serving. I'm getting over it now though. It just wasn't meant to be.
Same here. It used to be my dream to give my life for my country. I get jealous when I especially see the classmates I was over in NJROTC serve. Nowadays I just feel like I'm rotting away. There's a guy at my church who is in the Army Reserves and I pretty much have to duck him every time. I feel bad but I just can't take it for the nerve of me. It is getting better but honestly, I don't think I'll ever completely wipe that pain away.
I've always wanted to be in the military, but I was disqualified when I was 4. I can't join because of remaining paralysis and a disorder that can flare up if I so much as get a cold. It's not like I want to be infantry or any of that, but I still can't join. Sh*t, I couldn't do JROTC either because I couldn't keep up physically. -shrug-
Quote from: Malachite on May 01, 2013, 11:18:18 AM
Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 01, 2013, 11:00:38 AM
I feel you. I dreamed of a military career when I was young and was in JrROTC in high school until I got taken out and put in a hospital. I was the only girl in my class and it was rough at times (this was the early 90s). Later when I tried to enlist in my early 20s, I already had marks against me including a bit of a record and they wouldn't take me. I get a bit jealous whenever people talk about serving. I'm getting over it now though. It just wasn't meant to be.
Same here. It used to be my dream to give my life for my country. I get jealous when I especially see the classmates I was over in NJROTC serve. Nowadays I just feel like I'm rotting away. There's a guy at my church who is in the Army Reserves and I pretty much have to duck him every time. I feel bad but I just can't take it for the nerve of me. It is getting better but honestly, I don't think I'll ever completely wipe that pain away.
Good to know I'm not alone in this. I tell myself the reality may have been different and I may not have been happy. But I'll never know. And honestly, part of me wonders how I'd have survived being surrounded by women, bunking with them, etc. For someone who never even had female friends...
No offense to the ladies or any military women here, of course. But I've always been really awkward and uncomfortable around women. Some of that is dissipating, but it was pretty bad when I was younger.
I want to thank each and every person who wants or wanted to serve. I wish our system didn't discriminate the way it does. There are many defense related civilian jobs that directly support the troops, there is a measure of satisfaction to be had in knowing you are helping our soldiers. Thanks to all of you who have a warrior trapped inside. Hugs, Devlyn
What if we all agreed to meet up in Australia and have a nerf-gun battle?
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 01, 2013, 12:19:33 PM
I want to thank each and every person who wants or wanted to serve. I wish our system didn't discriminate the way it does. There are many defense related civilian jobs that directly support the troops, there is a measure of satisfaction to be had in knowing you are helping our soldiers. Thanks to all of you who have a warrior trapped inside. Hugs, Devlyn
That's what I'm aiming for since I can't join. :) I'm willing to teach in order to be able to help the military, and I don't care much for teaching. I really just want a job working for the military or government in some way.
On another note...
I've been painting. :D I'm almost done with my friend's piece! :D I was actually able to make it look like there's distance! I'm so excited!
Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 01, 2013, 08:32:51 AM
To you. :P
You are right about him A.G.!
Quote from: Edge on May 01, 2013, 10:47:11 AM
Me too.
I wish I wasn't so awkward and shy. I wish I could just be myself without fear of having people figuratively rip my head off for it. I wish people who claimed to like weirdness actually liked weirdness. It would make life so much easier if everyone could just be honest.
Edge you just need to find a place where there are people as weird as you :) Do you attend a university? There are plenty of people who are different and varied if you look in the right corners!
Quote from: Saison Marguerite on May 01, 2013, 01:50:02 PM
Edge you just need to find a place where there are people as weird as you :) Do you attend a university? There are plenty of people who are different and varied if you look in the right corners!
I do. I have not found the right corners yet. Each time I think I do, I find I was mistaken.
Quote from: Saison Marguerite on May 01, 2013, 01:50:02 PM
You are right about him A.G.!
Edge you just need to find a place where there are people as weird as you :) Do you attend a university? There are plenty of people who are different and varied if you look in the right corners!
Yeah, she's right.
Quote from: Edge on May 01, 2013, 03:49:12 PM
I do. I have not found the right corners yet. Each time I think I do, I find I was mistaken.
But so are you, people often disappoint in places you think they wouldn't. lol
Today was weird, a few mishaps came about but were cleared up. Overall it was a good day. Well, until I came home.
I'm not a psychopath, I just don't need to be asked millions of questions after I've stated that I have a bad headache, nor do I need some random person asking my mother if I wanted to do chamber music where I take lessons and hearing "she" a multitude of times, that makes my blood boil. Then she couldn't understand me, and on the fourth repetition I yelled what I was saying. So of course, she goes "WHY ARE YOU YELLING?!" and I said I was annoyed she couldn't hear me and I shouldn't have to say something five times. Then I had to repeat something else twice and muttered to clean the wax out of her ears. So then she explodes at me that I'm antagonizing her, mouthing off the minute I walked in the door. I didn't even say anything when I first came home.
Well, she barged in my room just now and we ended up making amends. Sort of. But damn I wish she'd stop calling me that name, and a girl. Gym class was interesting, people I'm closeted to were confused by people I'm stealth to which meant I had to take said confused people aside and come out to them. They were just like "Ohhhhhh, okay," it was kinda funny. Non-acceptance and harassment my eye, my peers have been beautifully supportive. Why can't adults learn from children when it comes to these things?
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 01, 2013, 05:16:05 PM
Gym class was interesting, people I'm closeted to were confused by people I'm stealth to which meant I had to take said confused people aside and come out to them. They were just like "Ohhhhhh, okay," it was kinda funny. Non-acceptance and harassment my eye, my peers have been beautifully supportive. Why can't adults learn from children when it comes to these things?
Uh Max let me guess, could it be because they are old fuddie-duddies set in their ways? :icon_ballbounce:
Quote from: Shantel on May 01, 2013, 05:27:22 PM
Uh Max let me guess, could it be because they are old fuddie-duddies set in their ways? :icon_ballbounce:
Well, not all of them are. A few have learned to listen, sad that most think it's a skill reserved for children though.
Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 01, 2013, 08:38:49 PM
Well, not all of them are. A few have learned to listen, sad that most think it's a skill reserved for children though.
I watched a good video involving seniors. All of them were asked their views on gay sex, what their own sexuality was, what they thought of sex, etc. All of them said gay sex was great and that people need to have sex regardless of it's flavoring. One guy said "I love gay sex!" and another said "When I was younger I was chasing all those dykes around". It was really funny.
I saw a video posted on facebook (one of of "What Would You Do?" ones or whatever they're called) where they had a trans woman pretending to be a waitress at a diner and a guy who pretended to be a regular customer who had be gone travelling for quite awhile to discover that, while he was gone, the waitress had come out and transitioned. The actor playing the costumer would then be a jerk.
Every single time, people told him off. No one supported him.
I know it's all fake and all that, but it's still hopeful.
Quote from: Edge on May 01, 2013, 10:07:38 PM
I saw a video posted on facebook (one of of "What Would You Do?" ones or whatever they're called) where they had a trans woman pretending to be a waitress at a diner and a guy who pretended to be a regular customer who had be gone travelling for quite awhile to discover that, while he was gone, the waitress had come out and transitioned. The actor playing the costumer would then be a jerk.
Every single time, people told him off. No one supported him.
I know it's all fake and all that, but it's still hopeful.
I saw that on TV when it came out. It is sort of fake in that they set up the situations and there may be actors (actually the woman, Carmen, really IS trans). I think the event actually happened. Yes, I think it *could* happen that way. Of course, it could happen in less happy ways too.
--Jay
D: I just saw a video called "What If Straight Were Being Frowned Upon Instead?" and it was so moving. I was bawling. D:
The events depicted have all happened to people who were bullied so it's very sad and potentially triggering, but it was amazingly well done.
What If Being Straight Was Being Frowned Upon Instead :'( ? (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noxZfoKTD5c#)
I found some videos of Supervillain and Superhero speed dating. They're hilarious. Especially the super heroes (someone serves Aquaman shrimp).
There's a pastor I've been following on Youtube and while he does have some excellent sermons I love, his extreme views against homosexuals turn me off. I'm not talking about the typical "against it" attitude. I expect that from a lot of churches, but this man takes it a little too far and uses demeaning slurs proudly at the pulpit and actually thinks they should be put to death. That's even a statement of their belief on their website. I'm thinking to myself wow, if this man feels so strongly about gays and lesbians then I'd hate to know what he would think about me. Then again, he has preached against women wearing pants and how their place is in the home so I guess I can take him with a grain of salt sometimes.
What the hecks am I gonna make for dinner? :-\
Quote from: Malachite on May 01, 2013, 11:18:18 AM
Same here. It used to be my dream to give my life for my country. I get jealous when I especially see the classmates I was over in NJROTC serve. Nowadays I just feel like I'm rotting away. There's a guy at my church who is in the Army Reserves and I pretty much have to duck him every time. I feel bad but I just can't take it for the nerve of me. It is getting better but honestly, I don't think I'll ever completely wipe that pain away.
Hold on there, buckeroo. You got that bassackwards.
Now I want you to remember that no bastard ever won a war by dying for his country. He won it by making the other poor dumb bastard die for his country. - General George Patton
My mom started me back up on Adderall yesterday to prep my body for it; she's giving it to me for the multitude of subject tests I have this weekend. Thing is, I hate what it does to me. It makes my heart race and gives me the same adrenal-type pain I get in my head from sheer panic or liking someone. That pain sort of feels like someone took my nerves, soaked them in gasoline, lit a match, and then threaded a wire through them and directly into an electrical socket.
Needless to say, not a good feeling.
As a parent I'm not in favor of treating kids with drugs to modify their behavior when quite often all that's wrong with them is that they are individuals with a view on things that differ from that of the parents. Max, have you been diagnosed with ADD that you have to take that mood altering stuff? Don't let my comments be the cause for a rebellion, I'm just wondering for your sake because all too often parents will buy into what the doctor prescribes when i know that so many doctors just throw pills at symptoms to mask the problem rather than doing the investigative work to determine causation.
Parents will complain to the doctor, "My kid is driving me crazy with his erratic behavior, bla bla!" So the doctor thinks, "I'll prescribe this and we'll drug the little bast**d and I won't have to listen to the yammering from this distraught parent any longer."