Started a new diet, Whole Body Transformation daily drink, sure hope it works because it tasted terrible even with chocolate flavoring.
Guess happy, we'll see in 30 days or 90 days.
Cooking dinner!
Realizing that I'm not TS at all but in fact gender fluid
Quote from: RobinTheAmazon on March 20, 2014, 01:55:18 PM
Realizing that I'm not TS at all but in fact gender fluid
That's cool!
Quote from: RobinTheAmazon on March 20, 2014, 01:55:18 PM
Realizing that I'm not TS at all but in fact gender fluid
Thats nice :)
Are you going to transition?
btw Getting gendered female like 3 times today made me happy , and I wasnt even trying , maybe I should try...lol
Quote from: Shantel on March 20, 2014, 09:30:00 AM
Too pretty to eat Emily, didn't know you were so artsy!
Thanks Shantel I do love to bake and be creative with the decorations, I used to draw and paint when I was younger but stopped because of bad childhood memories associated with it.
Feeling a lot better today - finally HUNGRY for the first time in four days! Think we're going to try sushi... it's got rice, and rice is part of the BRAT diet... ;)
A tall guy in an elevator tried to chat me up and complimented my cute skirt.
I have to post a longer version but basically I had my foot out the door leaving my wife because she was against me taking hormones when a bolt of lightning hit my brain and things crystallized. No I like too much about being a man to transition, but so much of me is female that I can't ignore it
Quote from: Emily.T on March 20, 2014, 03:40:22 PM
Thanks Shantel I do love to bake and be creative with the decorations, I used to draw and paint when I was younger but stopped because of bad childhood memories associated with it.
Talking about bad childhood memories I ate two jars of that white paste in kindergarten, thought it was pretty delicious at the time but discovered later that it's made of livestock horns and hooves, it probably had some bearing on why I flunked 3rd grade aside from being dyslexic, I wasn't a very bright child! ;D
Yay Happy!!! 8)
I walked for two hours this evening.
productive solitude
Quote from: Shantel on March 20, 2014, 05:08:30 PM
Talking about bad childhood memories I ate two jars of that white paste in kindergarten, thought it was pretty delicious at the time but discovered later that it's made of livestock horns and hooves, it probably had some bearing on why I flunked 3rd grade aside from being dyslexic, I wasn't a very bright child! ;D
I'm sure that eating the paste wouldn't have had any bearing on your education.
eating the paste = drinking the kool-aid
I was leaving my electrolysis appointment and my face was a little red and no makeup. On the elevator ride down a man got on the elevator. When we reached the ground floor he told me ladies first. Made my day, and that is something I'm going to have to get used to, but I certainly don't mind :)
Quote from: Shantel on March 20, 2014, 05:08:30 PM
Talking about bad childhood memories I ate two jars of that white paste in kindergarten, thought it was pretty delicious at the time but discovered later that it's made of livestock horns and hooves, it probably had some bearing on why I flunked 3rd grade aside from being dyslexic, I wasn't a very bright child! ;D
hmm... I'm thinking we have a lot in common shantel. Although it was playdough that I really liked to eat. And I just liked chewing on the crunchy bits of elmer glue. heh. I was a weird kid.
What made me happy today. I had a nice walk with my dog and his new girlfriend. Just a tiny bit of snow on the ground but the sun came out for the first day of spring.
A friend of mine is going to ask her friend if she can get me some of her old tops, and is also going to check and see if a shoe store nearby her apartment that is going out of business still has size 12.
Two words
Grace. :)
Bother that's only one.
Oh well, perhaps I will get it right next time.
The weekends here and I can relax after another busy week. :-\
I'm riding a bike! Inspired by someone here.
Mmmm what brand you may ask?
Quote from: Shantel on March 20, 2014, 05:08:30 PM
I wasn't a very bright child! ;D
And it still hasn't changed... ;D
Quote from: Cindy on March 21, 2014, 07:19:37 AM
I'm riding a bike! Inspired by someone here.
Mmmm what brand you may ask?
A fat boy. Atta girl, I knew you are a real biker chick at heart. ;D
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It's spring where I live & a high today of 70 degrees. I'm going to work on my garden more. I would love more rose bushes & maybe other nice plants. It just takes time for HRT improvements so it's good to just enjoy life & not get so frustrated with slow changes.
My son closed my bedroom door. Then he knocked on it and started singing, "Do you want to build a snowman?"
Quote from: Edge on March 21, 2014, 09:01:27 AM
My son closed my bedroom door. Then he knocked on it and started singing, "Do you want to build a snowman?"
oh my god so cute :angel:
Quote from: 930310 on March 21, 2014, 07:30:30 AM
And it still hasn't changed... ;D
LOL goofy! :D :laugh:
Quote from: Emily.T on March 20, 2014, 09:29:27 PM
I'm sure that eating the paste wouldn't have had any bearing on your education.
Teachers had no idea and had never heard of the condition we now call dyslexia back in the 1950's and since the words on the pages seemed jumbled up to me I was a slow reader and was unable to comprehend why Dick and Jane were saying "Oh, oh, oh, see Spot run" It seemed pretty stupid to me. I still write like that too, thank God for spell check to alert me that I have written a word backwards!
I'm diving back into programming!
My job interview went really well.
Quote from: Malachite on March 21, 2014, 11:18:51 AM
My job interview went really well.
Good luck. I hope you get it.
Scored a 12 pack of Guinness for 10 dollars because the local supermarket apparently forgot to take their sign down.
Quote from: Jean24 on March 21, 2014, 02:35:23 PM
Scored a 12 pack of Guinness for 10 dollars because the local supermarket apparently forgot to take their sign down.
If that would have happened in my area they would have charged you full price no matter what you said to them.
Downsized my umm, breast enhancements today. Only one full cup size to go and I won't be needing a BA.
I so love everything at the moment.
So love the growing new me. Still a long way to go.
I even love those wishing to brand me.
They know who the are Cindy! ;D
Quote from: Edge on March 21, 2014, 12:36:01 PM
Good luck. I hope you get it.
Thanks :)
Feeding some plants somee malt liquor made me happy today.
I made a sell today and made $5! On top of that, my father brought me a small bag of Cheetos and a Sprite, and he gave me $4.10. That money will be going into my top surgery fund soon.
Planted some nice roses today, they look good. I live on a farm & really like to grow things, gonna work more on my garden this spring.
I got into my car (an old Vectra sedan 98) and suddenly a beggar appeared asking me for some coins.
I was only wearing black sunglasses (unissex, but a bit feminine) and nothing else besides my usual clothes and my natural hair, that it is longer but still resembling a male cut.
I said "sure, gimme a moment"...perhaps my voice was sounding a bit more feminine than usual, I don't know...
He helped me maneuvering my car out of a somewhat small space.
I gave him a few coins. He could see me very well when I opened the car window and delivered him the coins... and he said:
"thank you ma'am. God bless you!"
I kept thinking about it for some minutes with a big smile...but I don't know...it could be the effects of alcohol and he was a beggar after all, so he should be probably drunk...I didn't think I was resembling a woman...but that made me happy.
Quote from: Natalia on March 22, 2014, 12:13:34 PM
I got into my car (an old Vectra sedan 98) and suddenly a beggar appeared asking me for some coins.
I was only wearing black sunglasses (unissex, but a bit feminine) and nothing else besides my usual clothes and my natural hair, that it is longer but still resembling a male cut.
I said "sure, gimme a moment"...perhaps my voice was sounding a bit more feminine than usual, I don't know...
He helped me maneuvering my car out of a somewhat small space.
I gave him a few coins. He could see me very well when I opened the car window and delivered him the coins... and he said:
"thank you ma'am. God bless you!"
I kept thinking about it for some minutes with a big smile...but I don't know...it could be the effect of alcohol, he was a beggar after all...I dn't think Iwas resembling a woman...but that made me happy.
I would have said the same Natalia, after all you have made some great progress lately. I do love you're most recent avatar photo too, very pretty!
I biked for about one hour, felt great!
My boyfriend did my eyebrows for me. I almost started crying when I looked in the mirror, because it was such a subtle change, but somehow it completely reframed my face, softened my whole brow and made me, for a few moments, see the girl in the mirror I've always known was there.
Quote from: KatVonDoom on March 22, 2014, 12:50:45 PM
My boyfriend did my eyebrows for me. I almost started crying when I looked in the mirror, because it was such a subtle change, but somehow it completely reframed my face, softened my whole brow and made me, for a few moments, see the girl in the mirror I've always known was there.
That's so sweet of him!
Haha, my mom and my sister are now pestering me to ask him to do theirs. I've tried doing my own before, but it just kinda made things worse, since they looked terrible and I felt so frustrated at just not I knowing what to do, so I just kinda gave up on them. But seeing them actually done, taming this cursed eastern European genetic structure, it's...wow. I know HRT will be a huge step, but these tiny baby steps that keep giving me those moments of "holy hell, this is real, the boy mask is chipping away" are just...the greatest thing ever right now :)
I was in Manhattan yesterday walking around City Hall area (a friend of ours got married and needed a witness (there were 6 of us we were invited.) Afterwards we walked over to a restaurant for the reception and there are a lot of tourists in the area. (Keep in mind that I'm 6'7" and now full time.) So as I walked pass another woman I heard her say to her female friend: "Wow, I first thought she was a man she was so tall." Made me feel pretty good that I was doing something right when she saw me more as a woman the closer she was to me.
That same morning my wife and I were looking at Dress Barn and sometimes XL fits me other times I need a 2X. After trying on a few things that were a tad too tight, I asked about larger sizes and she said the other location nearby had them as they only go up to XL. I then told her that my height makes it real difficult to find pants. She said it's a wonderful asset to have and she wished she had it.
Quote from: 930310 on March 21, 2014, 02:40:22 PMIf that would have happened in my area they would have charged you full price no matter what you said to them.
Same here. You'll be lucky to find a 6 pack of Guinness on sale for $10 here, normally it's $12.
It always amazed me how Natural Light (the worst beer you'll ever have) is $4 for a 24 pack of 12 oz cans, but 1.5 L bottles of water are $2. That ends up being 1.2 cents per ounce of beer, but 4 cents per ounce of water. What up with that?
Oh, due to a strange turn of events that left me unable to post until today, I got the blood test done yesterday.
I was out tonight and me and my friend came across 2 old friends from highschool...
I recognised both of them , they recognised my friend but not me XD
So I guess its something XD
anyway I had a good time tonight
BARCELONA WINS AT REAL MADRID! HAT TRICK FROM MESSI!! PARTY TIME!!!
Minus the hospital stay, feeling slightly depressed that I was left behind last night from partying, but for my own good, and almost running out of money, BEST WEEKEND EVER!!!!!!!!!
Only three cons, while I got my blood test done with minimal fuss, met some interesting friendly new people, bought 3 pair of new shoes, and did I mention Barcelona won?
I think I'm going to make a pasta dinner for my roommates and I tonight, I feel that great.
Okay, it was yesterday but...
I left my apartment just before 9am and got home around 11pm. The bulk of that time was spent with my new boyfriend. :icon_love:
Quote from: Constance on March 23, 2014, 06:28:07 PMOkay, it was yesterday but...
I left my apartment just before 9am and got home around 11pm. The bulk of that time was spent with my new boyfriend. :icon_love:
Perhaps would have been better if you switched the AM and PM ;)
Quote from: KatVonDoom on March 22, 2014, 12:50:45 PM
My boyfriend did my eyebrows for me. I almost started crying when I looked in the mirror, because it was such a subtle change, but somehow it completely reframed my face, softened my whole brow and made me, for a few moments, see the girl in the mirror I've always known was there.
Omg, same thing happened to me a few weeks ago! I started crying looking in the mirror and he was freaking out at first out cause he thought I hated it.
Today, I've spent all my free time looking at clothes. It's a lot of fun, having someone to try them on for.
Quote from: Lauren5 on March 23, 2014, 06:48:41 PM
Perhaps would have been better if you switched the AM and PM ;)
I have the distinct feeling it was almost 9am to 9am.
I got home and my grandfather was watching and recording a documentary about: "sex change"!
He wants to watch it with me tomorrow...
I think this is just a great thing, I think he is trying hard to understand me!
I hope I am not wrong....
Seeing Maggie and Glenn reunite on the walking dead!!!! Yay
Quote from: MyKa on March 23, 2014, 11:36:54 PM
Seeing Maggie and Glenn reunite on the walking dead!!!! Yay
Me too, made me cry
My youngest brother's birthday!
Did T-25 today Beta Core Cardio all by myself and I'm not on the Beta Cycle yet. I'm sweating. YEAH!
Quote from: V M on March 24, 2014, 12:09:22 AM
Me too, made me cry
I loved it too, what a great couple huh?
Holy cow how girlie is my guy mode phone voice! Two female genderings, one misheard Rob as Robin. :)
Waiting for a call back from my doctor, she was busy at the time but her secretary said she's ask her to review my test and write a prescription and call back at 2:30 when I'm done with class.
I sent my therapist a summary biography in preparation for my first session and she replied that I explained where I am with my GD very well so we can get right down to business at my first session!
Look what I found. >:-)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJtIPi0Nb60&feature=share&list=PLDBAA1376EB30F66C&index=1 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJtIPi0Nb60&feature=share&list=PLDBAA1376EB30F66C&index=1)
It's official: I have a boyfriend. ;D
Quote from: Constance on March 24, 2014, 11:19:30 PM
It's official: I have a boyfriend. ;D
Congratulations!
Let's see, my boyfriend finished his degree Friday, so was able to spend the weekend at my place to celebrate; I have booked my air travel for my GCS in June; my best friend just started her new job today (she is now working for the same company I do); the university I attended as an undergrad is flying me to New York in two weeks to serve on the LGBTQ affairs subcommittee of the alumni council; and my friend who is an emcee in NY is going to see if there are any venues where I can perform my poetry when I am there since I will just miss the poetry jam he is holding in Manhattan.
So came out at work to the girl that heads up the Pride LGBT group.
Thanked her for a Pride event last night.
She is a senior manager herself. Interesting to see what she says next time we meet up.
Oh and how many time can I say I love E and what it is doing to me.
Boobies are so wonderful and they are only getting bigger.
So so happy.
J
I've found someone that I thought was impossible to find.
Multiple happies...
Came out to colleagues - all is good...
Came out to family - all is great...
Started full time at work - all is awesome! ;D
That's too many happies at once Grace.
This is strictly not allowed.
We have ways of removing your smile... >:-)
:D
Quote from: Ms Grace on March 25, 2014, 06:56:02 AM
Multiple happies...
Came out to colleagues - all is good...
Came out to family - all is great...
Started full time at work - all is awesome! ;D
Awesome! So Happy for you!
Quote from: Ms Grace on March 25, 2014, 06:56:02 AM
Multiple happies...
Came out to colleagues - all is good...
Came out to family - all is great...
Started full time at work - all is awesome! ;D
That's great Ms Grace!!! :eusa_dance:
Congrats :eusa_clap:
Hugs
Quote from: Ms Grace on March 25, 2014, 06:56:02 AM
Multiple happies...
Came out to colleagues - all is good...
Came out to family - all is great...
Started full time at work - all is awesome! ;D
Excellent news Grace, congrats hon!
School was fun!
Quote from: Ms Grace on March 25, 2014, 06:56:02 AM
Multiple happies...
Came out to colleagues - all is good...
Came out to family - all is great...
Started full time at work - all is awesome! ;D
YAY! Multiple happies!
Seeing 2 MMA fighter's fight that are only 5'2 and 5'3. AWESOME! I'm 5'4 and it makes me happy to know there are MMA male fighter's that are short.
Quote from: Malachite on March 25, 2014, 10:14:04 PMSeeing 2 MMA fighter's fight that are only 5'2 and 5'3. AWESOME! I'm 5'4 and it makes me happy to know there are MMA male fighter's that are short.
The best soccer player in the world, my lifelong idol, is 5'7". His chief rival, considered the number 2 player in the world, is 6'4". Many hockey forwards are 5'5"-5'9". Sometimes height has no bearing on how good you are and can be :)
Quote from: Shantel on March 21, 2014, 10:36:30 AM
Teachers had no idea and had never heard of the condition we now call dyslexia back in the 1950's and since the words on the pages seemed jumbled up to me I was a slow reader and was unable to comprehend why Dick and Jane were saying "Oh, oh, oh, see Spot run" It seemed pretty stupid to me. I still write like that too, thank God for spell check to alert me that I have written a word backwards!
As a child I started out writing backwards. Not just the words but the individual letters. The reason for me was that I seemed to have learned my writing skills by mimicking the movement of the writer's hand rather than the way the words looked on paper. Being left handed and copying what right handed people did to write out words and sentences in a purely mechanical way led to everything being in reverse. Unfortunately, I was forced to conform and live with smudged pencil lead and ink on everything that I wrote :P
Quote from: Shantel on March 21, 2014, 10:36:30 AM
Teachers had no idea and had never heard of the condition we now call dyslexia back in the 1950's and since the words on the pages seemed jumbled up to me I was a slow reader and was unable to comprehend why Dick and Jane were saying "Oh, oh, oh, see Spot run" It seemed pretty stupid to me. I still write like that too, thank God for spell check to alert me that I have written a word backwards!
I do my best to try not to remember the abusive teachers I had, and yeah, I thought the 'Dick and Jane' books to be pretty darn stupid as well
Got in quite some trouble for writing my own 'Dick 'n Jane' book, especially when I read it out loud in front of the class - Not my fault, that was the assignment and the teacher didn't proof read beforehand
School's closed.
Quote from: Lauren5 on March 25, 2014, 11:06:59 PM
The best soccer player in the world, my lifelong idol, is 5'7". His chief rival, considered the number 2 player in the world, is 6'4". Many hockey forwards are 5'5"-5'9". Sometimes height has no bearing on how good you are and can be :)
Ain't that the truth? :)
Quote from: V M on March 26, 2014, 01:54:59 AM
I do my best to try not to remember the abusive teachers I had, and yeah, I thought the 'Dick and Jane' books to be pretty darn stupid as well
Got in quite some trouble for writing my own 'Dick 'n Jane' book, especially when I read it out loud in front of the class - Not my fault, that was the assignment and the teacher didn't proof read beforehand
I can only imagine how naughty it was! :D >:-)
Got a pay rise today. Only works out at £4 a week, but it's better than nothing. Getting it back paid from January too.
I got it! $5 each for a month's worth of estradiol patches and Spiro pills! And I still have $10.76, not including what's set aside for the bus!
Quote from: Lauren5 on March 26, 2014, 04:09:45 PM
I got it! $5 each for a month's worth of estradiol patches and Spiro pills! And I still have $10.76, not including what's set aside for the bus!
Yay! ;D So glad you finally got your HRT. Congrats!
I'm two days away from an appointment for beginning bloodwork and shtuff :3
Conversely, this could also in things I'm sad about, since I'm still two whooole days away :P
Quote from: birkin on March 26, 2014, 05:51:17 PMYay! ;D So glad you finally got your HRT. Congrats!
6 months, 2 days since I've stayed trying to get them. Exactly 3 months after my birthday, I finally have them. I apply a patch tonight and start Spiro in the morning. But first, I dine, at Snyder! The best caf on campus. But because it's after 8, they're no longer serving dinner. And that means that turd Brian will probably be there, for pub menu.
I'm getting myself a juicy double mozzarella, bacon, and pickle burger. The only time I'll eat bacon.
Tonight, I feast and fiesta like a queen!
Congratulations, Lauren! +1 for perseverance.
Portia.
I was ma'amed at Costco today! (Granted it happens about 50% of the time) but since I admitted to myself I am transgender I have really begun to notice and appreciate it!
Still in complete guy mode... No hrt or anything....
This always seems to happen in Costco and at Starbucks' I don't frequent... Maybe women are more common at those places so it is the default "neutral" title?
Quote from: xponentialshift on March 26, 2014, 11:39:18 PMThis always seems to happen in Costco and at Starbucks' I don't frequent... Maybe women are more common at those places so it is the default "neutral" title?
It's possible. Of the two Starbucks near me, one I get called sir at, the other miss. and they're not really that far apart.
Quote from: V M on March 26, 2014, 01:54:59 AM
Got in quite some trouble for writing my own 'Dick 'n Jane' book, especially when I read it out loud in front of the class - Not my fault, that was the assignment and the teacher didn't proof read beforehand
Can't be any worse than when I would do book reports on serial killers and include the gruesome details of their crimes. People thought I was a total psycho since I was always reading about all of this bloody carnage.
I've got a date for Friday night!
A most satisfying nap.
But I missed the first half of the hockey game. The boys down the hall are probably going mad, Montreal was leading 2-0 and then Detroit scores.
There's still half a game to go, I hope we can hang on to the lead!
I had a really good day. I'm trying to find words to describe it.
I came out to a friend from college today. (He was very supportive, and we are even planning a stealth reunion with other friends after I transition) but interestingly I am the 4th transgender person to come out to him prior to transition.... He doesn't understand why... I guess he just has one of those personalities?
We had a nice 2 hour video chat afterwards so it was a good day!
woke up happy. had a good therapy session last night and had also come out to a coworker/friend. so today I woke up in a really good place. And then another coworker/friend came in to my office all excited. When I was taking a walk during my lunch break one of the students thought I was a guy. Which was awesome and the fact that my friend was so excited and eager to share was totally awesome. Feeling really lucky and thankful for my work place and friends.
The Hatsune Miku game was cheaper than I expected. :)
If I think of something I'll let you know :P
Nothing! Because nothing or no-one can MAKE someone happy or unhappy. YOU make yourself happy or unhappy based on YOUR OWN attitudes and perceptions of things. It's a rather stupid subject really! :icon_hahano: :icon_peace:
I am packing to go to Santa Barbara County for the weekend for wine tasting and to see my parents.
Be back Sunday night...
Quote from: Shantel on March 28, 2014, 10:11:34 AM
Nothing! Because nothing or no-one can MAKE someone happy or unhappy. YOU make yourself happy or unhappy based on YOUR OWN attitudes and perceptions of things. It's a rather stupid subject really! :icon_hahano: :icon_peace:
How about "What stimuli prompted a release of serotonin and/or dopamine today?"
Lots of Speed/Thrash/Death/Grind Metal
My blue hair turned out well.
Tomorrow, I am going to an anime thing where all the anime that's being shown is stuff I either really like or want to watch because I suspect I'll like it. I'm also going to cosplay as Loki (even though he's not an anime character, no one minds).
I am so happy because nobody that I love died today!
Maybe tomorrow...
Clam Chowder in a can
Had the best night of my life, ever! I went out as myself and wow, I am really Natalia!!! :)
Tomorrow I post something about it, now I am dying and I need to sleep...it's almost 4 a.m.!
Ventured outside en'femme for the first time got missised, met up with the xpressions.org group (I can't say enough good things about these girls, every single girl has a story that would gather a crowd of 40 in any setting).
To top off my night I got misread by one of the cisgirs, followed by "you totally pass", woot woot woot.
At least now I'm super motivated to work out harder and eat healthier, even if it is self-delusion based of flattery.
Quote from: Natalia on March 30, 2014, 01:47:38 AM
Had the best night of my life, ever! I went out as myself and wow, I am really Natalia!!! :)
Tomorrow I post something about it, now I am dying and I need to sleep...it's almost 4 a.m.!
Quote from: antonia on March 30, 2014, 02:05:10 AM
Ventured outside en'femme for the first time got missised, met up with the xpressions.org group (I can't say enough good things about these girls, every single girl has a story that would gather a crowd of 40 in any setting).
Too top off my night I got misread by one of the cisgirs, followed by "you totally pass", woot woot woot.
At least now I'm super motivated to work out harder and eat healthier, even if it is self-delusion based of flattery.
Congrats to both of you gals :)
Hugs
starting to feel better
I look in the mirror and there is someone else looking back.
I have wanted this all my life and now I can see her.
So so happy.
Learning about Rugby by watching the Hong Kong Sevens.
It's actually quite exciting, even if I don't understand all the rules.
Quote from: Natalia on March 30, 2014, 01:47:38 AM
Had the best night of my life, ever! I went out as myself and wow, I am really Natalia!!! :)
Tomorrow I post something about it, now I am dying and I need to sleep...it's almost 4 a.m.!
So happy for you congrats
Quote from: Jenny07 on March 30, 2014, 04:10:43 AM
I look in the mirror and there is someone else looking back.
I have wanted this all my life and now I can see her.
So so happy.
Congrats I look forward to that happening to me
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 28, 2014, 08:08:12 PM
I got an invite to shear some people's sheep for them :D Sign me up!
Every time you reference sheep shearing, my mind jumps to The Magnificent Seven.
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"If God didn't want them sheared, he would not have made them sheep."
My partner and I had a (verbal) fight yesterday, but we've worked it out. It's probably more accurate to say we're working it out, but much progress has been made already.
Quote from: Jenny07 on March 30, 2014, 04:10:43 AM
I look in the mirror and there is someone else looking back.
I have wanted this all my life and now I can see her.
So so happy.
The moment that happens is a moment of unexpressable joy! HUGS !!
I hung out with friends and met some new people yesterday. I also cosplayed as Loki.
I finally got more music I've been wanting to listen to. I now have some more songs I really like.
As usually, I really like being me.
I was happy today, had a lovely day cooking and cleaning and eating with people I care about.
had fun working with a coworker today and got the dog out for a good walk after the day.And it didn't rain on the walk
I've decided to finally have a face & neck lift. I found a nice woman surgeon & professional office nearby. It's time for me to do this. In my mid 50's & it's just time. I have a nice feminine face but it just looks old. Also I'm sure she will want to smooth out my facial skin so I've have a nicer more normal face.
Quote from: Jenny07 on March 30, 2014, 04:10:43 AM
I look in the mirror and there is someone else looking back.
I have wanted this all my life and now I can see her.
So so happy.
That's cool, Jen. Looking forward to seeing her too! Soon??
I had a meeting with the client I look after which is worth many tens of millions of dollars per year to the company. I work for a large financial company and produce monthly performance reports for them for their billions in assets.
When I took on the task it was in a mess and they were very unhappy and on the point of walking out.
Over the past year after taking on the impossible mission, they openly complimented how much better the service has become after I took it on. Errors are now non existent and everything is on time for them so they can meet their deadlines.
I have put in many long hours to make this happen, so it was very nice to get such comments from a very tough client to please.
Doesn't happen everyday. Tomorrow they will be back to their normal demanding selves.
Quote from: Jenny07 on March 31, 2014, 05:53:12 AM
I had a meeting with the client I look after which is worth many tens of millions of dollars per year to the company. I work for a large financial company and produce monthly performance reports for them for their billions in assets.
When I took on the task it was in a mess and they were very unhappy and on the point of walking out.
Over the past year after taking on the impossible mission, they openly complimented how much better the service has become after I took it on. Errors are now non existent and everything is on time for them so they can meet their deadlines.
I have put in many long hours to make this happen, so it was very nice to get such comments from a very tough client to please.
Doesn't happen everyday. Tomorrow they will be back to their normal demanding selves.
Good for you GF. Are you a fulltime woman at work????? I was in finance/banking & could just never cross over to being female at my job. Fired from 1 or 2 actually for being feminine. So I just opened my own business.
Read a good quote.
Quote from: Dom Helder Camara, Archbishop of RecifeWhen I give food to the poor, they call me a saint. When I ask why the poor have no food, they call me a communist.
Appointment for Monday for a much needed face & neck lift. I've wanted this for years & this time I'm going to do it. My face is femimine however this will be great to turn back the clock several years. Surgeon is a nice woman & she helps lot of older women with face lifts so this should be kind of normal for me.
Opened to a few other friends. All support me, most knew I was a girl/woman for years anyway. Most think it's pretty normal for me to live full time as a woman.
So this makes me happy.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 01, 2014, 08:50:18 PM
Appointment for Monday for a much needed face & neck lift. I've wanted this for years & this time I'm going to do it. My face is femimine however this will be great to turn back the clock several years. Surgeon is a nice woman & she helps lot of older women with face lifts so this should be kind of normal for me.
Opened to a few other friends. All support me, most knew I was a girl/woman for years anyway. Most think it's pretty normal for me to live full time as a woman.
So this makes me happy.
Good for you Francis, I had a neck lift a few years ago, I was beginning to feel like a turkey before that. People said it took years off of my appearance. Perhaps some day you'll feel up to a facial photo? Good luck hon, wanna hear all about it!
Quote from: Shantel on April 01, 2014, 09:03:15 PM
Good for you Francis, I had a neck lift a few years ago, I was beginning to feel like a turkey before that. People said it took years off of my appearance. Perhaps some day you'll feel up to a facial photo? Good luck hon, wanna hear all about it!
I looked very nice back in my teens/early 20's. I use to do shows at "gay" bars & most thought I was a girl/woman. But the years have taken their toll on my face. So when I look nicer I'll post a pic.
Visited my doctor and came clean, asked to be put on hormones and get a referral for a sex change (2-3 year waiting list to get it covered by provincial healthcare program; OHIP).
Appointment went great, turns out my family doctor used to be Jan Morris's doctor, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jan_Morris, I love it when someone you have a good feeling about turns out to be every bit as awesome and nice as you expected.
He's going to read up on the most recent guidelines and get back to me within a week with a referral but told me he'd be happy to prescribe me hormones when we've dotted all the i's and crossed all the t's.
This probably means some sessions with a mental health worker but he says those are also covered under the provincial health care program (OHIP) and I'm more than happy to do them.
This makes me happy.
Quote from: antonia on April 01, 2014, 10:00:05 PM
Visited my doctor and came clean, asked to be put on hormones and get a referral for a sex change (2-3 year waiting list to get it covered by provincial healthcare program; OHIP).
Beware CAMH :(
Quote from: Djynne on April 01, 2014, 10:33:30 PM
Beware CAMH :(
Yeah, unfortunately they are the only ones authorized to do referrals to Dr. Brazzard if you want it to be covered by OHIP :(
The only positive side is that the only doctor that is OHIP approved is Dr. Brazzard which is my preferred surgeon.
I'm planning to get my diagnoses and start my hormones through my family doctor but also get a referral to CAMH, might as well give it a shot but by the time I'm up on their waitlist I'll have been on hormones for enough years to chemically castrate myself and have full breast growth. I can't really see how they could reject/alter my diagnosis at that point.
Quote from: antonia on April 01, 2014, 10:55:09 PM
Yeah, unfortunately they are the only ones authorized to do referrals to Dr. Brazzard if you want it to be covered by OHIP :(
The only positive side is that the only doctor that is OHIP approved is Dr. Brazzard which is my preferred surgeon.
I'm planning to get my diagnoses and start my hormones through my family doctor but also get a referral to CAMH, might as well give it a shot but by the time I'm up on their waitlist I'll have been on hormones for enough years to chemically castrate myself and have full breast growth. I can't really see how they could reject/alter my diagnosis at that point.
Knock on wood.
Today the client at work that I look after sent an email to senior managers at work complimenting the job I have been doing for them.
This is a very rare occurrence as normally people only complain.
6 months today!
Never thought I would make it one day let alone 6 months.
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 02, 2014, 04:15:31 AM
Today the client at work that I look after sent an email to senior managers at work complimenting the job I have been doing for them.
This is a very rare occurrence as normally people only complain.
6 months today!
Never thought I would make it one day let alone 6 months.
Congratulations on both counts honey :-*
I added 2 older friends to my Francis Ann FB page. Sent a text to start back with electrolysis soon. Looking forward to appointment Monday for an estimate on my face lift. I'm excited to hopefully have this surgery to improve my face.
Started reading again.
Passed that servsafe certification test with a 92%.
Quote from: piglet smith on April 02, 2014, 02:13:42 PM
Passed that servsafe certification test with a 92%.
Dunno what that is but congrats! Lol x
Quote from: radsi on April 02, 2014, 02:20:29 PM
Dunno what that is but congrats! Lol x
Its just a thing I had to do for work, a food protection manager certification by the National Restaurant Assoc. because we serve food and are going to add a sub thing in our store. The health department is requiring it now too.
Ahh we have them here like food safety and hygeine certificates
Today i am happy as operation lets learn a whole semesters worth of work in 5 days seems to be going well and my knowledge of cancer is a lot greater than it was 2 1/2 days ago haha... I really should have done some work since january!
My girlfriend handed in her resignation yesterday, and she sounded so, so much happier yesterday. Health is always more important than money.
I painted my nails today and didn't make a mess of it, practice helps a lot.
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Quote from: Emily.T on April 02, 2014, 08:47:42 PM
I painted my nails today and didn't make a mess of it, practice helps a lot.
Nice :)
still cant do mine XD
Keep practicing, there is nothing to it. Use good polish, long strokes, not too much, thin layers, let it dry completely before the second coat. Clear polish first, some polish soaks into the nail & will stain your nails. Have fun, experiment to find your right color.
went into the coffee shop for a takeaway as i cant function to study without coffee and a man practically pushes me out the way to get into the queue before me but doesnt quite manage it ... I smile and say to him "its ok you go first i am not in a rush" he promptly scowls at me and pushes his way in front... minute later said grumpy man cuts my car off in the car park with his cup of coffee sat on the roof of the car haha...
My coffee is making me happy right now its lovely lol
Quote from: radsi on April 03, 2014, 07:35:43 AM
went into the coffee shop for a takeaway as i cant function to study without coffee and a man practically pushes me out the way to get into the queue before me but doesnt quite manage it ... I smile and say to him "its ok you go first i am not in a rush" he promptly scowls at me and pushes his way in front... minute later said grumpy man cuts my car off in the car park with his cup of coffee sat on the roof of the car haha...
My coffee is making me happy right now its lovely lol
Karma caught up to him, it's as it should be. Your coffee must have been most enjoyable! :)
Quote from: Shantel on April 03, 2014, 10:12:17 AM
Karma caught up to him, it's as it should be. Your coffee must have been most enjoyable! :)
Haha best cup of coffee ive had in a while!!!
Quote from: lxndr on April 02, 2014, 04:11:55 PM
My girlfriend handed in her resignation yesterday, and she sounded so, so much happier yesterday. Health is always more important than money.
Well done to her and good luck to her in moving onwards and upwards think id seen u post before bout difficulties she had been having and you being worried bout her.. There are some good and fun workplaces out there hope she finds one!! :)
No going back now. Just outed myself publicly on Facebook.
Seeing "Sister" underneath my name and photo on my siblings' Facebook pages.
Quote from: Caysee Danielle on April 03, 2014, 12:17:05 PM
No going back now. Just outed myself publicly on Facebook.
Congrats hon!
Quote from: Caysee Danielle on April 03, 2014, 12:25:10 PM
Seeing "Sister" underneath my name and photo on my siblings' Facebook pages.
Oddly enough, it appears that siblings are the only relationships that change gender when you do on Facebook. I'm a sister and a son at the same time according to Facebook
Last night I thought my check engine light came on, and I was so mad because this car is practically brand new! Today, I thought, "Well, I'm so clueless about cars, maybe I should check the manual..." Turns out it's just the low tire pressure warning, and all I have to do is go get an air pump. All of the tires are a little low from the sudden cold weather and it doesn't look like any of them are damaged. :) Glad I figured that out before I paid for a diagnostic test!!
This unusual story!
http://funnycatsgallery.com/mom-cat/the-cat-and-the-ducklings/
Quote from: Shantel on April 03, 2014, 01:54:12 PM
This unusual story!
http://funnycatsgallery.com/mom-cat/the-cat-and-the-ducklings/
Hahaha thats the cutest thing ever!!!!!
After a little charging and a jump start with some ether, my mower started up well for the first time this year. Both yards are mowed now.
Went for a manicure and she did a great job.
Quote from: Caysee Danielle on April 03, 2014, 12:17:05 PM
No going back now. Just outed myself publicly on Facebook.
Congrats on the brave decision Hun
I got my mojo working again.
My breasts are really growing, probably a B cup. It will be hard to cover up if I'm in forced into some male mode this summer. I added a new very good girl friend. We all have fun with my Francis Ann Facebook page.
Quote from: Caysee Danielle on April 03, 2014, 12:32:25 PM
Oddly enough, it appears that siblings are the only relationships that change gender when you do on Facebook. I'm a sister and a son at the same time according to Facebook
Quite a while ago I just started a brand new FB page 100% as a woman. It works so much easier. I've added new friends as I choose.
Quote from: Caysee Danielle on April 03, 2014, 12:25:10 PM
Seeing "Sister" underneath my name and photo on my siblings' Facebook pages.
Yay! That's awesome! ;D I'm glad your siblings have responded so well.
I deactivated my FB a month ago today and I don't miss it. No one irl has mentioned me not being there yet either.
Quote from: big head horsey-face on April 03, 2014, 05:52:16 PM
I deactivated my FB a month ago today and I don't miss it. No one irl has mentioned me not being there yet either.
I deleted mine several years ago, it's too intrusive in terms of privacy concerns. I don't want to have my mug shot and personal tripe all over the Internet. I got contacted and friended by people I never wanted to see again. One woman I was in 8th grade with told me she was divorced and wanted to hook up. Pffft Susan's is my only social networking site, I control what I will allow to be public and other than a few occasional trolls it's a pretty safe place for like minded folks.
Warm weather. It always makes me a nostalgic, melancholy kinda content.
I had FB running for about a month and then deactivated, permanently. It seemed like a good idea at the start, and then it quickly dawned on me that it was a very bad idea indeed. The application is as indiscriminate as fly paper and at the end of the day just as putrid. I do however have a FB under a pseudonym just to keep an eye on things.. But I'm always happy, sometimes.
I was able to secure a last minute laser appointment for tomorrow. In other news, I'm having the orchi on July 15 with Dr. Gary Alter, as well as some minor cosmetic work on mah face. He wants me to lose 15 pounds, which should be no problem in 3 + months.
Back to hiking every day.
Quote from: big head horsey-face on April 03, 2014, 05:52:16 PM
I deactivated my FB a month ago today and I don't miss it. No one irl has mentioned me not being there yet either.
I still detest FB. It's insidious and it's invasive. Very Leviathan.
Quote from: Djynne on April 03, 2014, 07:02:00 PM
I still detest FB. It's insidious and it's invasive. Very Leviathan.
I'm torn. I found some parts of it enjoyable but I ended up deleting it because it was causing arguments.
That being said though I was extremely cautious with privacy. Were I not, I'd feel invaded by it too.
I've got a 3-day weekend, and I get to spend about a day and a half of it at the "Come and See" weekend at the seminary I've been accepted to. And, I've got a date for Sunday!
Free from school today!
Several things made me happy today, yesterday, and during the last two weeks (I've been on Vacation & only had limited internet access):
The biggest is I have to again buy new shoes cause my feet have again shrank to a size 8 womans from size 9, Super YaY!!!!
Getting home from vacation and seeing my kitty's (I have 4 cats) for the first time in two weeks.
Found 3 37" x 12.50 x 17" Pro Comp tires for my truck in great condition, and got two of them mounted all for $100.! Now I only have to find one good 37" Mud Terrain 12.50 x 17 and I'll have four good tires on my truck for a fraction of what I was going to have to pay for all 4 -even used. So saved a bundle I can now spend on jewlry, again, YaY! (ps: new ones are $334. each!).
Being gendered correctly as female throughout my vacation!, YaY!
But the absolute best and most happiest thing was meeting & hanging out with (especially our girl shopping trip!, also our fishing trips on Lake Okeechobee) my two new best friends in the world. They really changed my outlook on things and made me believe great people do still exist in the world. One of them is a member here and she'll know who I mean when she reads this so I don't need mention names. Yes girl! I mean you!, lol! ;) :laugh: :laugh: ;)
Attending the Lake Fork Pride Fest with my new best friend on Sunday March 27th, meeting some fabulously great people & hearing some great live music!
And next to last, Lighting the water in The Big O (Lake Okeechobie) on fire in my 80 plus mph 21 foot Shadow Bass Boat!
And finally, I now know where I need to be living at, and plan to do something about it before years end at the latest.
This was a trip I'll remember for a lifetime. Have some great photos too. Sorry about the length everyone. I just had two weeks of happiness to cram in here, lol! ;)
Ally
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 02, 2014, 07:36:07 AM
I added 2 older friends to my Francis Ann FB page. Sent a text to start back with electrolysis soon. Looking forward to appointment Monday for an estimate on my face lift. I'm excited to hopefully have this surgery to improve my face.
Congrats Francis on your appointment for your neck and facelift. I might just have to think about the necklift soon. I'll be updating my FB page soon and when Ido I'll friend you. I just want to update some photos on mine before using it again.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 03, 2014, 04:04:18 PM
My breasts are really growing, probably a B cup. It will be hard to cover up if I'm in forced into some male mode this summer. I added a new very good girl friend. We all have fun with my Francis Ann Facebook page.
Mine are too Francis. I think I actually will need to wear a bra soon. I think mine had a growth splurt while I was on vacation. As to FB, I'll be there soon.
Ally
cuddling with my dog, who is my honorary sister and daughter in my eyes.
I recieved a copy of a letter to my GP today from my endo, he's told my GP to increase my dose of E & give me regular injections (Boo, Hiss to needles) of T-blocker.
I took the letter straight to my surgery for them to scan (it speeds them up ;)) & made an appointment to see my GP.
As soon as I got home I counted my pills & I have enough to go straight to the higher dose today & not run out till 2 days after I see the GP.
I've been bouncing with happiness all day
Recipe for Happiness
2 Heaped cups of Patience
1 Heart full of Love
1 Hand full of Generosity
Dash of Laughter
1 Spoonful of Understanding
Sprinkle generously with Kindness
Add plenty of Faith & mix well
Spread over a period of a Lifetime
Serve generously to everyone that comes your way
:) ;D :D
D was at school today and we hung out. He also told me he'd be coming to school as much as possible for the next couple weeks.
After a busy week at work we had to complete a workplace survey on many things.
There was a section about diversity. It asked about many thing including LGBTI. First time I've seen it included.
Completed it and selected T. It's meant to be anonymous so wonder what will happen?
Hope I did the right thing as marked I'm not out at work?
Another visit to the pain monster later today. Don't know if I should be happy for this. :-\
Rejoice at the pain monster - every visit brings you closer to never having to shave again! ;)
My dad bought some delicious food. I got a box with ginger beef, fresh onions and green peppers, and rice, with some naan bread. It's the best I have had in ages!
Thanks Ally we really enjoyed you also,especially our shopping trip next time we need a bigger basket !
Quote from: justpat on April 04, 2014, 07:26:36 PM
Thanks Ally we really enjoyed you also,especially our shopping trip next time we need a bigger basket !
Lol!, ain't that the truth, better yet, a couple of carts! lol! he, he, he, he ha ha ha he, he. You two really are the best and I can't wait until I'm able to make my move. :) :) :) :) ;)
Realizing that the object I have always had in my possession continuously for the longest amount of time is a mounted shiny blue butterfly that my father brought me back from Brazil when I was 12. (I loved butterflies when I was a kid.) I have a few things from earler in childhood, but they were recently given back to me by my parents. I have never been without my butterfly, even throughout college, many moves, a nasty car accident while moving cross country, etc. I have always had it with me. It's on my wall next to me right now.
Seriously, of all things- a butterfly. My spirit animal and a symbol of transition. What was I trying to tell myself this whole time?
Going to a friends house and wanted to wear really skinny jeans, so decided to try making a gaff >_< Wearing it for the first time and realizing how comfy it actually is has filled me with a lot of happiness, haha. Also, day two of no smoking :)
Another session with the pain monster done. Ruddy Nora it hurts sometimes.
Face getting swollen a bit, but now one more session closer to clearing these nasty white hairs.
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Off to see my electro/beauty shop lady this morning. It's nice to get zapped & plucked & waxed to remove more of this ugly hair. I'll look & feel so much nice with body hair removed & more facial hairs permanetly removed. My lady is very very nice to me. She just loves to make me into a nicer more attractive woman.
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 05, 2014, 02:58:45 AM
Another session with the pain monster done. Ruddy Nora it hurts sometimes.
Face getting swollen a bit, but now one more session closer to clearing there nasty white hairs.
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[/quot I have little rabbits on my farm. They are such cool creatures. Thanks for he pic GF
I recently had a brain chemistry issue and wanted to talk out my depression with a friend. We ended up talking about our hobbies which cheered me up loads.
Oh, and I have the next week off work.
Yesterday I announced to everybody at my company that I'm trans, today I cycled into the office in my girly workout clothes and now working away :)
Quote from: justpat on April 04, 2014, 07:26:36 PM
Thanks Ally we really enjoyed you also,especially our shopping trip next time we need a bigger basket !
Sounds like I missed out on a great time, where's the fish photos?
Will be receiving some dolls I ordered in the mail really soon!! Who says boys can't like dolls too? ;)
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 05, 2014, 02:58:45 AM
Another session with the pain monster done. Ruddy Nora it hurts sometimes.
Face getting swollen a bit, but now one more session closer to clearing there nasty white hairs.
My facial torture continues Saturday. I do not enjoy pain. :-\
Quote from: Djynne on April 05, 2014, 03:28:06 PM
My facial torture continues Saturday. I do not enjoy pain. :-\
I hope your upper lip is clean. That is the worse area for me. Most of the open face area is kinda easy. Good luck GF. I just finished my 9th session today.
You know, I've done a few "before and afters" but never really seen many differences, other than subtle.
But I did one yesterday (2 months on T versus nearly 2 years) and oh my Jesus. So much has changed. My lips got smaller and less red, face shape changed hugely, eyes got way smaller, hairline, skin texture...it was never until now that I could see just the massive changes. I mean it almost looks like two different people.
Quote from: Shantel on April 05, 2014, 10:13:01 AM
Sounds like I missed out on a great time, where's the fish photos?
They're coming. I'll send them to you once I have them all. I misst the ywo of them so deeply already it's beyond words.
I learned how to pick a lock. :D
Had a session of electro yesterday and usually look like the creature from the black lagoon due to the swelling and pain the following day.
Not a pretty sight.
Today it's not as bad as usual with only mild swelling and little pain.
Making good progress now.
J
Jenny, good for you GF. I know your pain, 8th session today, not too bad.
I got a new laptop as a present. ;D My old one turned into a paperweight a few days ago.
I walked into a restaurant wearing skin tight black leather jeans, black high heel boots up to my knees and a tight top. I thought the waiter was having an orgasm as he showed us to our table. He was amazingly attentive all evening.
Mmmm love being a woman :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
I saw a clip from Capt. America 2 of Black Widow driving a Corvette. I helped make that car. I worked at the company that made the headlights and tail lights. Its silly but I feel proud of that. Lol
Went clothes shopping in jeans today...my first time in public wearing pants. Since going full time I've only gone outside in dresses or skirts. During my first transition attempt every time I wore jeans I got misgendered, which was very depressing. So I was a bit nervous about today's outing - turns out I needn't have worried, I seem to have passed well, didn't get any looks weird or otherwise. Phew! Admittedly I learned from my mistakes last time - right jeans (skinny), right top (open neck line & tight enough to show my shape) and right footwear (sandals & painted toenails). Pretty much no misgendering me like that so it won't be my last outing in pants! :)
Quote from: Cindy on April 06, 2014, 01:44:23 AM
I walked into a restaurant wearing skin tight black leather jeans, black high heel boots up to my knees and a tight top. I thought the waiter was having an orgasm as he showed us to our table. He was amazingly attentive all evening.
Sexy!!
Quote from: Cindy on April 06, 2014, 01:44:23 AM
I walked into a restaurant wearing skin tight black leather jeans, black high heel boots up to my knees and a tight top. I thought the waiter was having an orgasm as he showed us to our table. He was amazingly attentive all evening.
Mmmm love being a woman :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Yes I'm sure you're loving it! >:-)
Where can I sign up to look as sexy as you?
Feeling well this morning. hat usually doesn't happen. Probably because I showered later in the day yesterday and I don't have as much body hair growth as usual. Except for the legs, but that's because it's been a while since I shaved them. The leg hairs still grow faster than my head hairs though, like .125"/week, vs head hair at .5"/month.
Time to get ready to go an get breakfast. I'll shower tonight, that'll probably make me feel better tomorrow morning too.
Only one more day before I meet with a woman plastic surgeon on my face & neck lift plans. I'm so excited & hope all goes well tomorrow. I'm told my several friends that know her & her work that "she does excellent work".
Congrats and best wishes for all to go well Francis Ann :)
Hugs
Quote from: V M on April 06, 2014, 08:17:33 AM
Congrats and best wishes for all to go well Francis Ann :)
Hugs
Thank you GF. I've wanted & needed this for the past 2 or 3 years. My face looks nice but just sagging skin so I hope she can tighten it all up some. I will sure look younger & feel better about myself after it's done. I'm kind of retired so I have the time to take it easy & heal up.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 06, 2014, 08:11:09 AM
Only one more day before I meet with a woman plastic surgeon on my face & neck lift plans. I'm so excited & hope all goes well tomorrow. I'm told my several friends that know her & her work that "she does excellent work".
Having had a neck lift and upper eyelid lift to take away the ravages of many years, I can assure you that you won't regret it Francis, good luck dear!
Thanks to all. I'm ready to go, only an hour trip, have google maps, no gps in my older model Volvo. Excited.
i couldn't be happier!! we just won the ICC T20 WORLD CUP 2014!! i don't care if nobody is interested, but we've been waiting for this for many long years, turning up as runners up of 6 tournaments out of 8 played before. and finally we won!WOOHOO!!!
Quote from: YBtheOutlaw on April 06, 2014, 01:01:43 PMi couldn't be happier!! we just won the ICC T20 WORLD CUP 2014!! i don't care if nobody is interested, but we've been waiting for this for many long years, turning up as runners up of 6 tournaments out of 8 played before. and finally we won!WOOHOO!!!
Sri Lanka or India? I don't know the score, just who was playing.
In other news, I didn't know Olivier Giroud (http://thats-normal.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/10/OLIVIER-GIROUD.jpg) was so freaking hot! I could eat him up!
Quote from: Lauren5 on April 06, 2014, 04:34:52 PM
Sri Lanka or India? I don't know the score, just who was playing.
In other news, I didn't know Olivier Giroud (http://thats-normal.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/10/OLIVIER-GIROUD.jpg) was so freaking hot! I could eat him up!
Sri Lanka won.
This might sound like the weirdest reason to be happy, but in return for some help with some stuff, I'm helping my brother with his Hamlet project. They have a lot of really fun options. I want to make a video or a radio program! But he refuses to take that direction because he thinks it's too embarrassing lol. He's making it hard to be nerdy. I don't want to help him with another boring essay. I want to help him with something fun and slightly obnoxious.
birkin, that's the kind of thing I could get happy about.
just a really nice spring walk. the skunk cabbage is flowering and I think the eagles might be nesting. so my first bunny of the year. the redwing black birds were singing. so nice. and the mutt got some exercise.
I'm a little late with this post, but here it is: I had an awesome weekend.
I had an endo appointment on Friday and he said my T levels have dropped to 111, down from 300+ last November. I was so excited that I forgot to ask 111 what in terms of units.
Friday afternoon, evening, and most of Saturday I spent visiting the seminary I've been accepted to. I'll be starting this fall, or maybe this summer, and I'm extremely excited.
Sunday was date day with my partner. Yes, partner. It's official as we're no longer merely "dating."
My partner's cat seems to like me to.
Two things made me happy today:
The first was when the ladies at my local Quest Diagnostics (had my 3 month bloodwork done today) congratulated and complimented me on how much thicker my hair is compared to the last time I saw them.
And the second was getting similar comments from my Salon stylist who actually had to come over to make sure it was me as I made my appointment for a trim tomorrow. She said she didn't recognize me with so much hair now. She said I looked happy and was "glowing" :) and we'll chat more tomorrow when I go back for my appointment. This made me really feel great today! ;)
Quote from: Constance on April 07, 2014, 02:19:47 PM
Sunday was date day with my partner. Yes, partner. It's official as we're no longer merely "dating."
Omg congrats!
I'm happy because my mother washed dishes for me today, and these were hard-to-wash- dishes too! ;D
My barn swallows have returned for spring, yea. I have 20-30 of them thet return every year. They make such cool nests out of mud & straw. Later this summer they will have 4-5 chicks in each nest. They fly around so fast & quick. I'm so happy.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 07, 2014, 07:14:07 PMMy barn swallows have returned for spring, yea. I have 20-30 of them thet return every year. They make such cool nests out of mud & straw. Later this summer they will have 4-5 chicks in each nest. They fly around so fast & quick. I'm so happy.
Is it an African or a European swallow?
I'm not sure, black color, maybe 5 inches long, some white on lower bodies. I've never looked them up in detail. They make such cool nests, hidden away as far back as possible so nothing can get them.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 07, 2014, 07:47:41 PMI'm not sure, black color, maybe 5 inches long, some white on lower bodies. I've never looked them up in detail
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y2R3FvS4xr4
That's funny. I've never seen that movie. What is the name of it if you have time? You are smarter than me. I do not even know how to post a pic to Susan's Place. I tried once & gave up. I use my facebook page with most of my girl friends
Moving from a C to a D :)
Quote from: justpat on April 07, 2014, 08:07:25 PM
Moving from a C to a D :)
Great news for you Pat! Happy to hear about the girls. Now we need to go shopping again, lol! I might have to make another trip down for the event!
Had my 4 month checkup with my HRT doctor and everything looks great. My doctor is very happy with what she is seeing. Also while at Callen-Lorde, I started the process to get the paperwork ready for my gender change on my documents. I should have all the letters I need in a few weeks. All I have to do is wait for the NJ courts to get their act together on a court date.
The university counsellor told me she thought I was a cis guy when she first met me.
We also had a good, long talk where I felt like I was actually being understood.
I caught my reflection in the window and didn't recognize myself. I looked like a guy. That was an awesome moment
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 07, 2014, 07:58:46 PM
That's funny. I've never seen that movie. What is the name of it if you have time? You are smarter than me. I do not even know how to post a pic to Susan's Place. I tried once & gave up. I use my facebook page with most of my girl friends
:O You don't know Monty Python??? That's Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Quote from: Edge on April 07, 2014, 09:49:06 PM
The university counsellor told me she thought I was a cis guy when she first met me.
We also had a good, long talk where I felt like I was actually being understood.
Cool :)
I wrote a paper back in high school arguing that Hamlet and Ophelia are actually the same person. I didn't actually believe it--I was just being dorky. For some hard-to-fathom reason, I did really well.
No cigarette all day. But not easy, I sure want one but so far, Francis 1 & Cigatettes 0.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 08, 2014, 05:57:02 PM
No cigarette all day. But not easy, I sure want one but so far, Francis 1 & Cigatettes 0.
I did it cold turkey as well. It's the only way I was ever successful. I wanted to kill sh%t for about two weeks, but the last 2 1/2 years have been so much better without. One thing I did when I had a nic fit that lasted more than a couple of minutes was to take a hot shower until it passed. So you end up wet a lot for a couple of weeks...
Congrats!
Today my deposit for the orchi went through. Woohoo! Adios, pinches cojonitas.
Quote from: birkin on April 08, 2014, 05:37:03 PM
Haha, wow, I wonder how you pulled that off. =/ Trying to make the connections and it just isn't coming to me.
I thought I was being rebellious. Looking back, it just seems immature.
As a teenager, I was rabidly skeptical about literary criticism. I felt that it was my moral imperative to battle standard interpretations of classic texts by offering valid
esque, yet completely absurd arguments.
So, I argued that Gatsby had an Oedipus Complex. And that Ophelia was actually Hamlet's second personality--that she represents the isolation, rejection, and subsequent death of Hamlet's compassion and humanity in favour of vengeance.
A crappy argument, but fun at the time.
I won my office March Madness pool. Go me.
I made a pity-party post on Facebook about having an awful day and then while I was on my lunch break someone left a $1 off receipt coupon for Peet's coffee. No one at my work place will admit to it, and many of my coworkers are also FB friends. Someone must've seen that post.
I went and had my hair and nails done today. It felt good and made me happy to be pampered a little. ;)
What made me happy was: Following a very extensive play rehearsal I got to spend time with love and get pants for my Prince Charming form for Prom in about two weeks. The greatest part was just seeing her. Always is the best time of the day.
Today I filed my court papers to legally change my name :)
(And paid the $200 court fee)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on April 08, 2014, 09:52:00 PM
Today I filed my court papers to legally change my name :)
CONGRATULATIONS !!
My chem lab prof said it was very impressive that I was going to school and raising a child at the same time. I think it's not a big deal, but the ego boost is nice.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on April 08, 2014, 09:52:00 PM
Today I filed my court papers to legally change my name :)
(And paid the $200 court fee)
Congrats Sydney! :eusa_clap:
My manager was told today about me being trans. He sent me a text saying "Needless to say, I will support you as much as I can. Please see me whenever suits you, feel free to bring someone with you if you want someone else there." Seems good so far.
Quote from: antonia on April 05, 2014, 08:29:31 AM
Yesterday I announced to everybody at my company that I'm trans, today I cycled into the office in my girly workout clothes and now working away :)
Congraulations Antonia. That is an awesome feeling, isn't it! -Maddie
Yes! It's pasta night at Holmes!
Feeling of freshly shaved legs ^^
I showed a photo of me standing in my boat on vacation to an online friend who asked me who the girl standing in my boat was. Since that girl was me this made my day!
In addition, my better half gave me a beautiful matching gold woman's watch to hers. I think we're finally becoming close again. Happy happy happy me!! :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on April 09, 2014, 08:11:31 PM
I showed a photo of me standing in my boat on vacation to an online friend who asked me who the girl standing in my boat was. Since that girl was me this made my day!
In addition, my better half gave me a beautiful matching gold woman's watch to hers. I think we're finally becoming close again. Happy happy happy me!! :icon_flower:
So cool Allyda, kudos!
Quote from: Shantel on April 09, 2014, 08:13:36 PM
So cool Allyda, kudos!
Thanks Auntie Shan. I really have had a good couple of days. Have Doctors appointments tomorrow and Friday, My PC and Pain Management. I don't see my Endo til the 22nd but can't wait! I'm anxious to see the results of my bloodwork. :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on April 09, 2014, 08:47:37 PM
Thanks Auntie Shan. I really have had a good couple of days. Have Doctors appointments tomorrow and Friday, My PC and Pain Management. I don't see my Endo til the 22nd but can't wait! I'm anxious to see the results of my bloodwork. :icon_flower:
You're blood work will probably be fine, they'll say iot's red and nice so don't worry. I saw your photos from Pat, you are all girl honey!
Quote from: Shantel on April 09, 2014, 08:56:45 PM
You're blood work will probably be fine, they'll say it's red and nice so don't worry. I saw your photos from Pat, you are all girl honey!
Awe that's sooooo sweet Auntie. Again, thanks for the lovely compliments. :icon_bunch: Now I have a third thing that reeeeaaally made me a happy girl today! :icon_flower:
The fact that I'm getting ready to see a gender specialist soon. I'm feeling really really hopeful. I'm thinking that I might be able to transition sooner rather than later after all.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMwiIBueWxc&feature=share
Seeing this for the first time since 1983. It's still enjoyable to watch too, so that's cool.
Well, between seeing this, the Get Along Gang & TaleSpin again, that pretty much covers the few memorable bits from my childhood. (As far as television goes, anyway. Sure, there were other cartoons that I watched in those days, and TaleSpin was actually prior to my going into High School) :D, but those stuck out (and I could actually enjoy watching them again). Any of the others?
Meh...been there, done that.
I had my first therapy session and there were no other psych issues that could discredit my trans* claims (my grandmother was worried there might be) so now I finally get to upload an avatar because my transition has officially begun!
Some one who runs a femslash Tumblr reblogged the link to my story on AO3 and my hits have really starting climbing!
I had a Doctors appointment at my PC Doc's office and I was showered and fawned over my the girls behind the counter who knew me. My hair got alot of attention as they couldn't believe how much thicker it is. They were explaining noticing the changes in me since my last visit a little over 3 months ago. My legs got alot of compliments and best of all they said, "your not hiding those with your baggy top too well" pointing at my chest :icon_censored:. Throughout my visit I was Gendered correctly, so what another happy happy wonderful day I've had! :icon_flower:
Snagged that new job today. More stuff that gives me hope that I will still be able to transition well. ::)
Quote from: Two Bodies/Same Soul on April 10, 2014, 05:01:48 PM
Snagged that new job today. More stuff that gives me hope that I will still be able to transition well. ::)
Way to go, not easy for many folks these days!
Decided to buy myself a Metallica shirt for my birthday, because they have one for a song that means an awful lot to me...the site didn't work the other day but yesterday it worked and I will have the shirt one day after my birthday!
Quote from: birkin on April 11, 2014, 12:44:26 AM
Decided to buy myself a Metallica shirt for my birthday, because they have one for a song that means an awful lot to me...the site didn't work the other day but yesterday it worked and I will have the shirt one day after my birthday!
If that song is "Unforgiven" we may have the same taste in music.
Had the cleanest shave I've had in yeeeeaaars..... I look like I'm 18 again.
Quote from: Allyda on April 11, 2014, 08:17:38 AM
If that song is "Unforgiven" we may have the same taste in music.
That's insane that you guessed that! Yes, it is an Unforgiven shirt.
Some women friends are supporting me in any way they can. It's been one tough week tussling with plastic surgeon on how to schedule surgery? I may need to just move on to another plastic surgeon.
Chest has been very sore all week and we all know what that means :)
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 11, 2014, 08:47:09 PM
Chest has been very sore all week and we all know what that means :)
You fiddle about with them too much? >:-) LOL... Just kidding
Congrats Jenny 8) Glad to hear you're making progress
Hugs
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 11, 2014, 08:47:09 PM
Chest has been very sore all week and we all know what that means :)
An elephant sat on you?
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 11, 2014, 08:47:09 PM
Chest has been very sore all week and we all know what that means :)
You will be putting up a topic "90 days until full time" (which wont last that long anyway)? *giggles* :laugh:
I will get all of you later my pretty's. >:-)
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I found a new favourite song.
Hey, I have been on T for half a year. Time flies.
I came out to my 4th friend. Apparently her best friend from highschool is FTM so she is familiar with the community and is completely behind my transition!
Of the 4 friends I've told, all 4 have responded amazingly!! Either I am very lucky, or very good at picking friends. Or both.
Quote from: birkin on April 11, 2014, 07:17:20 PM
That's insane that you guessed that! Yes, it is an Unforgiven shirt.
Yea that song has very special meaning for me too. In fact, that entire Black album does especially "Harvester of Sorrow." Hey, for a 49 year old chick I still listen to some bangin tunes, lol!
Still more Doctors appointments and compliments. My pain management Doc didn't recognize me at first. And I saw him last month before going on vacation! All of these things left me very happy Friday. :icon_flower:
Two cool things happened today.
I just realized my hair is almost below my belly button in the front(it is fully passed in the back) and I realized I have a decent butt.
I have decided its time to go back to work, 2 years off because of depression but now I'm feeling very positive about life and my transition.
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 11, 2014, 09:21:48 PM
I will get all of you later my pretty's. >:-)
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We will water you well during winter and in the spring Jenny will be bursting out all over :laugh:
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on April 11, 2014, 09:14:12 PM
You will be putting up a topic "90 days until full time" (which wont last that long anyway)? *giggles* :laugh:
:laugh:
Finally being told I was a well rounded member of theatre community in a show where the director hates me. Good start to the day.
Running!
Saw my old after school program teach from the 4th grade today while at a yard sale. It was nice to catch up with her again.
Was out and about today helping a friend, but being gendered correctly by everyone even those that knew me well that never used to (men) was a welcome change.
I also saw my better half for a while today. Anytime I see her and the love showing on her face for me is a great day! :icon_flower: I think she's finally accepted being with me is being with a woman, and is happier about it. I can see it in her eyes every time she looks at me. What a wonderful feeling! :eusa_dance:
Quote from: Allyda on April 12, 2014, 04:09:14 PM
Was out and about today helping a friend, but being gendered correctly by everyone even those that knew me well that never used to (men) was a welcome change.
I also saw my better half for a while today. Anytime I see her and the love showing on her face for me is a great day! :icon_flower: I think she's finally accepted being with me is being with a woman, and is happier about it. I can see it in her eyes every time she looks at me. What a wonderful feeling! :eusa_dance:
That really is exciting news and something to be beaming about!
Thinking I look/will one day look good and wanting to look good is happening to coincide on the same day.
(Although I am still likely to be very uncomfortable if people confuse my gender dysphoria with body dysmorphia again or assume I want to be attractive.)
Quote from: Shantel on April 12, 2014, 05:16:58 PM
That really is exciting news and something to be beaming about!
Thanks Auntie Shan your so sweet. :icon_bunch: We did have a little spat over the phone this evening though but I know it's the frustration of she having to deal with her psychotic mother that's putting her in undue stress. Even little Taylur (she's 4) is so stressed out by her grandma's yelling for no reason she's wetting the bed -something she never does. I just wish there was more I could do. Financially I've helped out all I can til I'm paid again. At least she took my advice and is staying with a friend away from her mom's temporarily. We found a more permanent place closer to me which she and the baby should be into by tomorrow. :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on April 12, 2014, 08:47:14 PM
Thanks Auntie Shan your so sweet. :icon_bunch: We did have a little spat over the phone this evening though but I know it's the frustration of she having to deal with her psychotic mother that's putting her in undue stress. Even little Taylur (she's 4) is so stressed out by her grandma's yelling for no reason she's wetting the bed -something she never does. I just wish there was more I could do. Financially I've helped out all I can til I'm paid again. At least she took my advice and is staying with a friend away from her mom's temporarily. We found a more permanent place closer to me which she and the baby should be into by tomorrow. :icon_flower:
You're doing the right thing by her, that's where the rubber meets the road in a real relationship regardless of whether or not it's hot or cold at this time.
Attending the Pycon programming conference as myself, it's an amazing community that's super supportive, there is even a talk tomorrow about being trans.
I'm moving closer to a 24/7 normal life. More & more male & female friends feel good about my new life as Francis Ann & fully accept me, they all understand my need to improve my body. My facebook page is so nice. I have lots of new women & some male friends. It is 100% female & feels very normal. I increased my HRT some. My body is definetly changing. Having my body hair waxed away is so nice. It is staying smoother for longer every time. Continuing electrolysis for facial hair. I'm going to visit 2 new plastic surgeons for my face & neck lift plans. I've had 2 quotes but want the best possible surgeon. My garden is growing very well. I love plants & growing veggies. I spend more & more time with people just as Francis & less time on SP complaining.
So I'm happy to be moving into more of a normal circle with lots of friends as a normal woman, Francis Ann.
I have spent the last three hours crying (basically unheard of on testosterone). It is my birthday and I am so unbelievably grateful that I am alive. Life is a gift. Never, ever forget that.
Quote from: birkin on April 13, 2014, 05:19:46 AM
I have spent the last three hours crying (basically unheard of on testosterone). It is my birthday and I am so unbelievably grateful that I am alive. Life is a gift. Never, ever forget that.
Happy birthday hugs! :icon_birthday: Don't worry men do cry!
Quote from: Shantel on April 12, 2014, 10:35:08 PM
You're doing the right thing by her, that's where the rubber meets the road in a real relationship regardless of whether or not it's hot or cold at this time.
We made up Auntie that same evening over the phone at around 11:30 pm. I'm torn between this job opportunity she has In MO. I can see she is too. She wants to stay with me but I can't hold her back Auntie Shan. I told her this is a decision she'll have to make on her own. :icon_flower:
Quote from: birkin on April 13, 2014, 05:19:46 AM
I have spent the last three hours crying (basically unheard of on testosterone). It is my birthday and I am so unbelievably grateful that I am alive. Life is a gift. Never, ever forget that.
Happy Birthday, dude!
Realizing that today marks the one year anniversary of my reconnecting with the Get Along Gang.
Ah, good times.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZhCp6A4NZc
Just being able to have this day to myself makes me reeeaally happy today. Other things may come up though, it's early yet, lol! :icon_flower:
Quote from: birkin on April 13, 2014, 05:19:46 AM
I have spent the last three hours crying (basically unheard of on testosterone). It is my birthday and I am so unbelievably grateful that I am alive. Life is a gift. Never, ever forget that.
Yea happy happy happy birthday to ya!!!! :icon_birthday: :eusa_clap: :eusa_clap: :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Allyda on April 13, 2014, 12:38:58 PM
We made up Auntie that same evening over the phone at around 11:30 pm. I'm torn between this job opportunity she has In MO. I can see she is too. She wants to stay with me but I can't hold her back Auntie Shan. I told her this is a decision she'll have to make on her own. :icon_flower:
Yes you are right because we can't live other people's lives!
Walking with my dog.
Quote from: Shantel on April 13, 2014, 01:22:01 PM
Yes you are right because we can't live other people's lives!
Since I'm going to be moving down south to the Lake Okeechobee area near Pat it might actually be a good idea for her to go there, get to know her cousin she'll be staying with, and save some money then come back to me down there after I've got my home and things settled. Although, she's a good worker and she hustles, she'd have no problem finding a good job down there too. And, I'd be there to watch the baby so she's save daycare costs. The baby's 4 (not really a baby anymore I know) and will start kindergarden soon -next year in fact. I do think it'd be better though for me to make the move alone at first and get things settled before she joins me if that's what she decides to do. We have a couple of weeks yet to decide so we're not pushing things.
I have finally been allowed back into a house I had been banished from today and looking forward to taking my senior pictures tonight. First time in public I have actually passed for male by people who knew me as female.
Last night I went to a small club to see Tony MacAlpine. He played his entire first album (surprise!) with me no more than 10 feet away. It was perhaps one of the best guitar lessons ever. In his band was Nili Brosh, sister of Ethan Brosh whom I have both seen opening for Yngwie Malmsteen. I met her after the show. She was completely awesome and IMHO probably the best female guitar player in the world. Sorry Orianthi. I love you too... (Seeing her again in July.)
Quote from: Jill F on April 13, 2014, 03:32:12 PM
Last night I went to a small club to see Tony MacAlpine. He played his entire first album (surprise!) with me no more than 10 feet away. It was perhaps one of the best guitar lessons ever. In his band was Nili Brosh, sister of Ethan Brosh whom I have both seen opening for Yngwie Malmsteen. I met her after the show. She was completely awesome and IMHO probably the best female guitar player in the world. Sorry Orianthi. I love you too... (Seeing her again in July.)
Sounds like you had an excellent time. Before my accident I played drums, keyboards, bass, and some rythim guitar (I was mainly a drummer) and now and then I got into the progressive fusion jazz scene, but mostly I was influenced by Niel Peart as far as the drums. Al demiola (excuse spelling) was another in the fusion jazz scene. I never did anything professional or anything. Mostly just backed up other bands when they needed a drummer, lol! but it all ended somewhat abruptly on February 6th, 1991. I lost a few of my fingers(Including my bird finger, lol!) on my dominant left hand which also got mangled pretty bad among other things. Oh I still tried to play my drums but without my fingers to do my stickwork correctly frustration eventually made me sell all of it. Your post brought back a few memories for me. Glad you had a great time. :icon_flower:
Quote from: birkin on April 13, 2014, 05:19:46 AM
I have spent the last three hours crying (basically unheard of on testosterone). It is my birthday and I am so unbelievably grateful that I am alive. Life is a gift. Never, ever forget that.
Happy Birthday mate. Hugs
I was happy today for: safely celebrating Vaisakhi with people I care about, good food, beautiful weather, getting a project done, and watching some Breaking Bad (no spoilers, I am only on Season One!)
:)
Quote from: Nimrata (aka LH) on April 13, 2014, 08:58:04 PM
I was happy today for: safely celebrating Vaisakhi with people I care about, good food, beautiful weather, getting a project done, and watching some Breaking Bad (no spoilers, I am only on Season One!)
:)
Breaking Bad needs one spoiler. It's actually worth watching until the end.
On that note- Dear JJ Abrams, I want six years of my life back, even though they sucked mightily otherwise.
What made me happy today was that my wife and I went to a really nice restaurant on a whim. We both looked really nice (OK, she looked really nice. I did my best.), I wore the cutest maxi skirt ever and we had a bottle of 2004 Dom Perignon under the stars. Who cares that we're basically living on borrowed cash until July, right?
Breaking Bad? Never watched it. Might have to check it out. It's still dark where I'm at so my day is just beginning. Still, I just got home from giving a good friend a ride home from the hospital, and I'm happy it was only minor injuries from his tangle with a bull.
Quote from: Allyda on April 14, 2014, 04:05:31 AM
Breaking Bad? Never watched it. Might have to check it out. It's still dark where I'm at so my day is just beginning. Still, I just got home from giving a good friend a ride home from the hospital, and I'm happy it was only minor injuries from his tangle with a bull.
Breaking Bad has a ton of seasons, Ally.
And I'm very glad they were minor too. I got enough problems without nursing injuries worse than bruises.
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 14, 2014, 04:14:58 AM
Breaking Bad has a ton of seasons, Ally.
And I'm very glad they were minor too. I got enough problems without nursing injuries worse than bruises.
Thanks for the info Reaver. When I get over there later today I'll show you what this girl can do regarding that bull, lol! :icon_2gun:
Spent the last 3 hours investigating an issue at work the client raised.
Spent 2.5 hours meticulously reviewing and fixing the issue thinking it was our fault and trying to figure out what happened.
File was 10,000 lines long. :(
Then once I had made all the fixes and still unsure how it happened and just about to send an email, I went to the original file and found it was not us but them!
Feel so much better as they were attempting to say it was us without thinking it was self inflicted.
Anyway sent a new file with corrected info including errors they did so feel much better even though I had to work back very late.
Just call me Sherlock. ;)
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 14, 2014, 06:22:16 AM
Spent the last 3 hours investigating an issue at work the client raised.
Spent 2.5 hours meticulously reviewing and fixing the issue thinking it was our fault and trying to figure out what happened.
File was 10,000 lines long. :(
Then once I had made all the fixes and still unsure how it happened and just about to send an email, I went to the original file and found it was not us but them!
Feel so much better as they were attempting to say it was us without thinking it was self inflicted.
Anyway sent a new file with corrected info including errors they did so feel much better even though I had to work back very late.
Just call me Sherlock. ;)
Yay Sherlock lol
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 14, 2014, 06:22:16 AM
Spent the last 3 hours investigating an issue at work the client raised.
Spent 2.5 hours meticulously reviewing and fixing the issue thinking it was our fault and trying to figure out what happened.
File was 10,000 lines long. :(
Then once I had made all the fixes and still unsure how it happened and just about to send an email, I went to the original file and found it was not us but them!
Feel so much better as they were attempting to say it was us without thinking it was self inflicted.
Anyway sent a new file with corrected info including errors they did so feel much better even though I had to work back very late.
Just call me Sherlock. ;)Girl friend such a tropper. You deserve a break, try some new pink polish & later a bubble bath.
A text from my manager had the right name in it.
I've got a date for coming out to everyone at work.
I ordered my deedpoll to change my name.
I received my letters in the mail from my doctor for my gender marker change. She sent 5 notarized copies :) Now I just have to wait for the court for the name change and then I can make it all official.
Agreed with my wife on Saturday that I would see a therapist. Haven't told her why. That's why I need a therapist. So, today I went on my insurance company's website and found one. She's ONE BLOCK from my apartment. Haven't called yet because of an issue at work. I hope, I hope that she can take me as a client! Happy and nervous now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW9NqCHRc38 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW9NqCHRc38)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ThvBNZdGcQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ThvBNZdGcQ)
I wrangled my friends bull into his pen with little trouble, YaY. My friends father told him last night on the phone, "who ya gonna get to do it?, Ally, that girl doesn't weigh 100 lb's soaking wet!" and basically went on to say he didn't think I could do it, lol!
My friend is also doing better from the bulls attack last night, so that makes me very happy as well! Life goes on...... :icon_ballbounce: And it makes me happy to be able to help a friend in need.
I've been getting so much birthday love! ;D Thank you so much to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday. This has been a great day.
Quote from: Allyda on April 14, 2014, 05:08:26 PM
I wrangled my friends bull into his pen with little trouble, YaY. My friends father told him last night on the phone, "who ya gonna get to do it?, Ally, that girl doesn't weigh 100 lb's soaking wet!" and basically went on to say he didn't think I could do it, lol!
My friend is also doing better from the bulls attack last night, so that makes me very happy as well! Life goes on...... :icon_ballbounce: And it makes me happy to be able to help a friend in need.
Wow what a gal, I'm really impressed! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: birkin on April 14, 2014, 05:21:59 PM
I've been getting so much birthday love! ;D Thank you so much to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday. This has been a great day.
It's your birthday? :icon_birthday:
It was yesterday ;D But thank you!
finally got around to doing my taxes and I'm actually getting a decent sized refund this year. It'll come in time to pay for my flood insurance, lol.
Quote from: Shantel on April 14, 2014, 06:01:06 PM
Wow what a gal, I'm really impressed! :eusa_clap:
Thanks Auntie Shan. It really wasn't that hard once I figured out how to get him to follow me without putting his head down. At first, every time I tried to get around him he lowered his horns. Luckily there was a seldom used path the other way around the house. So with a little bit of his food (grain) I just walked him back to his enclosure.
Quote from: Allyda on April 14, 2014, 05:08:26 PM
I wrangled my friends bull into his pen with little trouble, YaY. My friends father told him last night on the phone, "who ya gonna get to do it?, Ally, that girl doesn't weigh 100 lb's soaking wet!" and basically went on to say he didn't think I could do it, lol!
My friend is also doing better from the bulls attack last night, so that makes me very happy as well! Life goes on...... :icon_ballbounce: And it makes me happy to be able to help a friend in need.
Let's just say this was a bull that scared a man, two in fact. i'm happy i could go outside.
Oh and i talked to my mom today (actually just hung up skype with her cause RAW is on) I actually told her about this and she is quite supportive. She lives in GA but Skype will keeps us connected. (Facebook too)
Also to quote Ally about the bull, "Never send a man to do a woman's job."
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 14, 2014, 07:06:55 PM
Let's just say this was a bull that scared a man, two in fact. i'm happy i could go outside.
Oh and i talked to my mom today (actually just hung up skype with her cause RAW is on) I actually told her about this and she is quite supportive. She lives in GA but Skype will keeps us connected. (Facebook too)
Also to quote Ally about the bull, "Never send a man to do a woman's job."
Hey I'm just glad you were OK, we got the bull under control, and your Dad can now enjoy the rest of his vacation. I'm also soooooooo glad your Mom's being supportive. It's your dad I'm worried about. Hope he and your Mom don't talk much? PM me if you want to talk about this further.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: birkin on April 14, 2014, 05:21:59 PM
I've been getting so much birthday love! ;D Thank you so much to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday. This has been a great day.
You deserve it. You're awesome.
Now Happy Unbirthday.
Happy belated birthday birkin!
Edge- that second video made me laugh
wait!! What made me happy? Oh, I just started a mini-vacation. Don't have to be back to work until Sunday.
And I sent an email to an acquaintance who wants to move here with all sorts of useful information. I like being helpful and I got to play with maps :)
Im gonna go out with the girl I like tonight
I havent told her anything cause I really want to feel at peace with myself first
but just being around her makes me happy :angel:
music
Life is going well for me. More physical changes each day to feel more comfortable with my body & face. Lots of good friends that enjoy Francis, HRT feels great, breasts are really growing. Appointment with a new plastic surgeon for face & neck lift plans. All & all each day I feel so much better about myself.
My Mum came to see me today, I was planning on today being the day I put my foot down to ban her from using my old male name as I changed it about a year & a half ago & she still doesn't use my new name.
When she stepped through the door she handed me a carrier bag with some lovely feminine tops in it, she said they were too small for her & she decided to give them to me instead of the charity shop (which always used to get her cast offs), I decided to put off putting my foot down about my name so I wouldn't ruin this perfect moment.
Also whilst walking home from a friends house I noticed that my chest has developed a certain "bounce" to it ;D
Sitting backstage of a show and everyone has finally decided since I have been here for a long time, I generally know what I'm doing. Currently sewing pants and going to grease back my "nephews" hair. I finally came out to everyone today and wasn't surprised by my family's refusal to call me Alistair. Or male in any form. They are going to wait for me to change my mind apparently.
I got to finally stay home all day and do nothing, YaY! It's about time. Tomorrow it's back to my daily grind, lol! :icon_flower:
Quote from: KnifeEar on April 15, 2014, 03:40:12 PM
Sitting backstage of a show and everyone has finally decided since I have been here for a long time, I generally know what I'm doing. Currently sewing pants and going to grease back my "nephews" hair. I finally came out to everyone today and wasn't surprised by my family's refusal to call me Alistair. Or male in any form. They are going to wait for me to change my mind apparently.
Congrats on coming out to your family. Sorry to hear they aren't referring to you in the proper gender but give them a little time for this to sink in. They'll realize in the long run that being trans isn't a choice. :icon_bunch:
I saw my GP today to discuss a letter I recieved from my gender clinic.
I now have a prescription for T-blockers & an appointment for 2 weeks time for the nurse to give me the injection.
The letter stated that my E dose shoud be doubled & I started that the day the letter arrived, in just over a week my hair has become smooth, shiny & managable.
I visited a couple yesterday who are both very good friends, as soon as their friends left her boyfriend & me had this brief discussion (in the company of his girlfriend so there was no hidden motive behind his words)
HIM: Wow your breast are really starting to show. . . . . sorry if that's offensive but I just had to mention it
ME: How can I possibly find a compliment like that offensive?
Then as I walked home I noticed how my chest is developing a certain bounce as I walk, i'm so happy I could sing (but I won't inflict THAT on you all, lol)
Congrats Jayne I am so happy for you :)
Seeing a bird with a small red mohawk
Received a call from the judge's secretary for my name change. I now have a court date of May 21st for my name change :)
Yes Jayne congratulations!!! I'm sooooo happy for you!!! :icon_flower: I can't wait til that (or something close to it) happens to me, lol!
I see my Endo next week on Tuesday to find out about my bloodwork. I suspect some adjustments to my dosages.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on April 16, 2014, 04:42:11 PM
Received a call from the judge's secretary for my name change. I now have a court date of May 21st for my name change :)
Congrats Sydney. I know from your posts you've been working on this for a while. I'm hoping to get my letter for gender change next week. As for my name, I'm lucky in that it can be either boy or girl however I've decided to go by my middle name Allyda instead of my first, Phoenix.
I look forward to hearing your name has been changed in the near future!! :icon_flower:
Today I found two cute cami's, one pink and one black and got them both. So nothing earth shaking but a great day none the less. :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on April 16, 2014, 04:59:34 PM
Today I found two cute cami's, one pink and one black and got them both. So nothing earth shaking but a great day none the less. :icon_flower:
Found them with my help. You'll look adorable in them. Rock that pink Ally.
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 16, 2014, 05:57:34 PM
Found them with my help. You'll look adorable in them. Rock that pink Ally.
Hello Reaver,
I see you and my friend Allyda are buds, pretty cool! I see that you are quite an artist too. One of the FtM buddies here at Susan's that I've become friends with is quite an accomplished cartoon artist and may be illustrating a children's book I'm writing. Small world anyway huh? With Ally you get no bull! :D ;D :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on April 16, 2014, 06:15:56 PM
Hello Reaver,
I see you and my friend Allyda are buds, pretty cool! I see that you are quite an artist too. One of the FtM buddies here at Susan's that I've become friends with is quite an accomplished cartoon artist and may be illustrating a children's book I'm writing. Small world anyway huh? With Ally you get no bull! :D ;D :laugh:
Yes. Ally is the one who showed me Susan's. I only can draw MLP style. I'd love to read that book when it comes out. As for with Ally, you get no bull, I don't need any more, I got one already. He's doing just fine, even if he is a bit of a brat.
Reaver
Not today, yesterday, but it put a spring in my step all day today. I was chatting with an online friend who I had come out to a few weeks ago. First one I had, in fact. She invited me to a private channel and I found two other online friends there. She almost spilled the beans! I thought "why not?" and came out to them. They weren't just supportive, they were enthusiastic! I now have good friends I can count on to make sure I don't slack off or lose my nerve.
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 16, 2014, 05:57:34 PM
Found them with my help. You'll look adorable in them. Rock that pink Ally.
Oh I am. I have the black one on now. I tried the pink on 1st though and it looks great on me but I found out I needed to lengthen the straps just a little. So I experimented with the black one and now know just how much to lengthen them for that perfect fit and am doing the pink one now. I love cami's, they're comfy and cool. That's one thing I liked about these is the adjustable straps. I've another pink one, the one you saw in my webcam photo and it's straps are just a bit too long but it has no adjustments like these do. :icon_flower:
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 16, 2014, 06:21:30 PM
Yes. Ally is the one who showed me Susan's. I only can draw MLP style. I'd love to read that book when it comes out. As for with Ally, you get no bull, I don't need any more, I got one already. He's doing just fine, even if he is a bit of a brat.
Reaver
Been reading that, be safe 400lbs is too much to deal with up close!
Playtex 18 hour new bra's, enough allready with underwire things killing me.
Quote from: Shantel on April 16, 2014, 07:37:25 PM
Been reading that, be safe 400lbs is too much to deal with up close!
Yea Auntie Shan Reaver and I had a rough couple of days with that bull. Today I had to crack him on the head between the eyes with an 18 inch pipe wrench!, lol! Let's just say the bull gave me no more "bull" after that, lol!, he, he, he.
Reaver and her dad are the ones who took care of my cats while I was down south with Pat fishing and having fun. Now his dad and stepmom went on vacation so I'm trying to return the favor. Reaver and I also have a common interest in computers and gaming too. :icon_flower:
Auntie Shantel is one of the best friends you can have Reaver, she'll never steer you wrong. :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on April 16, 2014, 07:49:32 PM
Auntie Shantel is one of the best friends you can have Reaver, she'll never steer you wrong. :icon_flower:
And now we are making cow related puns. Good thing I'm over being a big chicken somewhat.
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 16, 2014, 07:58:40 PM
And now we are making cow related puns. Good thing I'm over being a big chicken somewhat.
That's cause lil ole me showed ya how to whack him one when he won't behave, lol! On a serious note though I'll feel alot safer when he's safely in the freezer where he belongs. Your dad has another younger bull. Hopefully he won't grow up to be so mean. Though, alot of it I think with Little Man (the Bull's name) is the fact he's run out of grazing pasture. Once the rain starts and the grass starts to grow faster He might calm down a bit. :icon_flower:
Very happy to announce that my friends have finally accepted my male name.
Quote from: KnifeEar on April 16, 2014, 10:56:27 PM
Very happy to announce that my friends have finally accepted my male name.
That's excellent news! Congratulations. :)
Seeing my fiance today, since we were wrapped up yesterday.
BYE BYE essay... Now you have been submitted I NEVER EVER want to see you again.
;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Beautiful spring day where I live. Clean, green, nice open sky farm.
I get to sleep in, -hello snooze! :icon_flower:
This evening My sister tells me that she's going to make up the difference - require for surgery Its more than half ! I'm speechless I didn't see this coming After transitioning 20 years ago my dream is a tangible reality I'm ecstatic I have no idea how ill sleep tonight but for once in my life the cause isn't distress but euphoria :)
I got the bull in today. He grazed all day yesterday and all day today so his field is looking a bit better. Hopefully, he'll realize that staying back in the back is for the best and I hope the heifer is out of heat, which I believe she just might be.
Quote from: mash on April 17, 2014, 03:33:32 PM
This evening My sister tells me that she's going to make up the difference - require for surgery Its more than half ! I'm speechless I didn't see this coming After transitioning 20 years ago my dream is a tangible reality I'm ecstatic I have no idea how ill sleep tonight but for once in my life the cause isn't distress but euphoria :)
Nice Sis, she's a real keeper!
Got my hair colored today and it looks great! no more grays! I look like I'm 30 again! So I'm a very happy girl this evening!! :icon_bunch:
My natural color is black so I went with "Soft Black." I used a different brand than I'm used to (Fructus something or other -threw box away) though, and found it very easy to use DIY. It colored very well and evenly throughout however due to my longer hair length I'll definately need help next time unless I'm just touching up roots. :icon_flower:
Quote from: mash on April 17, 2014, 03:33:32 PM
This evening My sister tells me that she's going to make up the difference - require for surgery Its more than half ! I'm speechless I didn't see this coming After transitioning 20 years ago my dream is a tangible reality I'm ecstatic I have no idea how ill sleep tonight but for once in my life the cause isn't distress but euphoria :)
A very happy congratulations to you!!!!!! :icon_bunch: If it's any consolation, I won't be able to sleep either the nights before my surgeries. :icon_flower:
Ok so this happened last week but haven't been able to be here+NOT be dead tired thanks to work so here I am, off from work and nor tired with what made me happy last week. :)
So, I get off from work, REALLY tired, tell me Dad I'm probably going to hit the sack as soon as I get home and he calls me after I get home before I even have a chance too. (Wasn't going to anyway) We have a talk about a couple of things (I think, can only remember the one topic) and yet again he starts going on about how "I'm a man and if you don't do this then this won't happen" well, I explained to him I knew exactly what he was doing and it's not going to work. I WILL transition and there's nothing hyou can say or do that will stop me. I then told him "If you truly believe that I'm mistaken on being trans MtF (A woman) then let God show me I'm wrong." He then agreed with me, said he would and, the conversation while annoying at times was actually quite pleasant. We talked a bit and from how I took it, he won't be doing at least "some" of the "your a male crap/if you don't do this then this won't happen crap." I say some because there is still certain things that he will still do even though I'm in need of his assistance but SOMEDAY he will have a choice to make and it's his fault if he chooses to not be with me his daughter. Anyway, it made my day, I know it doesn't sound like it but it did.
As for today, well, For at least a year I've been trying to sing songs in a female voice, sadly, I am tone deaf. :( I think I can sing them ok in a male voice, maybe but in the female voice high pitch squeaky voice. Well even though that's still the case I am now starting to see some results for when I'm not singing but just talking and they sound, if not neutral then feminine. YEA! :) Now if I can just get it down already. xD
I found the other avatar I use! :D
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Got to ride my sexy new bike today. Sorry can't post a pic as it would be deemed bike porn.
Sexy. :D
Ok kids look away!
Now!
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Oh that's a sexy bike!
Bike Porn Queen!!! 8) Cool bike
I spent 12 months building it up and it cost more than a, err SRS. :o
Electric gears and full carbon. It wants for nothing and it is colour matched.
Fantastic bike Sis. Does it have boob bounce control?
Seriously, it looks amazing
I seem to be packing some junk in my trunk now after 6 months.
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 17, 2014, 10:37:38 PM
Got to ride my sexy new bike today. Sorry can't post a pic as it would be deemed bike porn.
Sexy. :D
Ok kids look away!
Now!
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Ohhhhhh momma!!!
Realizing that I was depressed today only because I forgot to take my E. I'm not crazy or depressed, I'm just trans and dependent on E now!
Waking up this morning and finding the bull still in the back :icon_dance: Fed him first, gonna eat before before feeding the others.
I just had a fantastic game of Cards Against Humanity with my online friends. I love them so much.
I discovered it's apparently a holiday! I still have to do work, but I could sleep in!
On the downside, since the university is technically closed today, there's no free coffee.
Plastic surgery for June 10th. face lift, neck lift & upper eye lid work. The practice & people were great. They said to pour on the estrogen it's good for you. Price was very fair & I gave them a nice deposit. The Doc liked me & my face & said you will look so much nicer & even more feminine afterwards. I'm very happy!!!!!
I actually got round to practising the keyboard! Needless to say, I'm getting better.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 18, 2014, 01:15:54 PM
Plastic surgery for June 10th. face lift, neck lift & upper eye lid work. The practice & people were great. They said to pour on the estrogen it's good for you. Price was very fair & I gave them a nice deposit. The Doc liked me & my face & said you will look so much nicer & even more feminine afterwards. I'm very happy!!!!!
There you go FrancisAnn, all the worries were unfounded and you are forging ahead. :eusa_clap:
Went out with a friend for coffee and then to a sushi restaurant with my family
the thing is that I was wearing all female clothes casually and I felt comfortable
I dont know if I passed or not , im not even trying for that , im just trying to feel better and I did :)
Quote from: FalsePrincess on April 18, 2014, 03:50:55 PM
Went out with a friend for coffee and then to a sushi restaurant with my family
the thing is that I was wearing all female clothes casually and I felt comfortable
I dont know if I passed or not , im not even trying for that , im just trying to feel better and I did :)
:eusa_clap:
So much rain!!!!
I finally found a Therapist today only 40 minutes away, YaY! Best thing is the appointments will be covered by my insurance!, again, YaY! So now I have everything set up for my future surgeries and my eventual GRS, the biggie!! :icon_bunch:
I'm a very happy happy happy girl!! :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on April 18, 2014, 04:41:02 PM
I finally found a Therapist today only 40 minutes away, YaY! Best thing is the appointments will be covered by my insurance!, again, YaY! So now I have everything set up for my future surgeries and my eventual GRS, the biggie!! :icon_bunch:
I'm a very happy happy happy girl!! :icon_flower:
:eusa_clap:
Irritating the neighbors that live on the other side of my living room wall by blaring Harsh Noise. It's so funny to hear them banging on the wall and I respond over the distorted microphone with feedback screeching: "Go on!! Knock on the wall some more!! Come on!!" LMFAO!! I love it. They may call the cops...they may not. I don't care. I don't indulge in certain things anymore so they can call the cops any time that they want. I don't care.
To quote the late Peter Haskett: "WHERE are the police?! WHERE ARE THE POLICE?! Where..are...the police?!"
:D :D
Went to a specialist bookshop today and they had a huge collection from an estate, Thousands of books an most out of print and worth $100's each.
Spent some time going through and got some books that I've been searching for, for over 10 years without luck.
Went out considerably poorer than when I went in. ;D
They have gone to a good home.
You might find this hard to believe but not everything is on the web and I don't need to recharge to read them.
J
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 19, 2014, 05:33:42 AM
You might find this hard to believe but not everything is on the web and I don't need to recharge to read them.
HERESY!!!
New (to me) music I like.
I think I look like a hot rocker dude today.
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on April 18, 2014, 08:55:44 PM
Irritating the neighbors that live on the other side of my living room wall by blaring Harsh Noise. It's so funny to hear them banging on the wall and I respond over the distorted microphone with feedback screeching: "Go on!! Knock on the wall some more!! Come on!!" LMFAO!! I love it. They may call the cops...they may not. I don't care. I don't indulge in certain things anymore so they can call the cops any time that they want. I don't care.
To quote the late Peter Haskett: "WHERE are the police?! WHERE ARE THE POLICE?! Where..are...the police?!"
:D :D
Business made it necessary to stay in a motel for a month. Some lunatics moved in next door and started partying, after several shots of loudmouth the music and commotion became unbearable. I pounded on the wall and yelled that I'm about to start sending some lead through the wall with my .44 magnum, it got real quiet.
A few days later a newlywed couple showed up, she in her wedding gown, he in his tux as he carried her across the threshold. All night long I could hear the headboard tapping against the wall, I smiled and fell asleep, there was something melodic about it. ;D
Quote from: Shantel on April 19, 2014, 11:12:52 AM
Business made it necessary to stay in a motel for a month. Some lunatics moved in next door and started partying, after several shots of loudmouth the music and commotion became unbearable. I pounded on the wall and yelled that I'm about to start sending some lead through the wall with my .44 magnum, it got real quiet.
A few days later a newlywed couple showed up, she in her wedding gown, he in his tux as he carried her across the threshold. All night long I could hear the headboard tapping against the wall, I smiled and fell asleep, there was something melodic about it. ;D
LOL
Wow.
Well, I know what their problem is: They simply don't like Harsh Noise when I am playing/performing it in my living room. I can play it on the radio all day and they won't knock on the wall. However, the minute I fire up my oh so loud amplifier (25 watts with the volume on "2" ::)) They start to bang on the wall. So, from now on, I will just antagonize them even more while I jam on this stuff by basically, heckling them as I play. I don't care if they hate it or not. It's not like I am doing this late at night. I am always respectful in the sense that I never play anything loud after a certain point of time. But since they have a problem with Noise....sorry about their luck. They can call the cops, complain to the office, bang on the wall, even scream at me through the wall, whatever they want to do.
I....don't.....care.
Chances are, they are some schmucks that have moved in recently. I've seen a LOT of turnover in this place since I moved in here in the summer of 1998. Hell, the new neighbors that moved in directly across the hall from me blare their rap music all of the time. It doesn't bother me one bit. One of the guys actually asked me if they were too loud. I laughed, smiled and replied: 'Dude, you guys can play as loud as you want and whenever you want. You won't bother me at all." They have certainly taken advantage of that too.
At least they aren't like the neighbors that I had several years ago: Being awakened at 2 in the morning by drunken fistfights in the stairway, having furniture hurled at each other inside their apartment. Yeah...that was a crappy time.
Going for a hike and having no one on top of a mountain overlook to bother me while I soaked in the fresh morning air and meditated. :) Best moment of my day so far!
I'm going to see Dream Theater tonight! I'm right up front on John Petrucci's side. I've met him twice, and he knows who my wife and I are, as he's acknowledged us more than once (we've been regulars at shows since 1993). Wait 'til he gets a load of me now!
Quote from: Jill F on April 19, 2014, 11:57:13 AM
I'm going to see Dream Theater tonight! I'm right up front on John Petrucci's side. I've met him twice, and he knows who my wife and I are, as he's acknowledged us more than once (we've been regulars at shows since 1993). Wait 'til he gets a load of me now!
I'm jealous. I loooove Dream Theater. They are right there in my top ten with Nightwish, Epica, Therion, Old Rush, Hammerfall, Evanescence, Deliverance, Metallica, and Queensryche (I know Jeff Tate and the guys, haven't seen them in years though). I'm very very jealous of you Jill, lol!!!!. Seriously hope you have a great time, and, let us know how it goes.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Jill F on April 19, 2014, 11:57:13 AM
I'm going to see Dream Theater tonight!...
My son loves that band!...
Gods I feel old.
;D
But I have some of their albums on my smartphone which I also use as an iPod.
Dee
My little veggie garden is planted. Sweet corn, okra, peas, tomatoes, cantaloupe, squash, watermellons, radishs, cucumbers, peppers. I may ad more later. It was a fun day in the garden as a normal woman with pink toe nails, etc.... I wore gloves & did not break a nail, yea.
I was looking in the mirror a moment ago and actually saw the beginning traces of cleavage with no bra on, and my arms at my side. Happy changes!! :icon_flower:
2 years on T today.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 19, 2014, 02:53:18 PM
My little veggie garden is planted. Sweet corn, okra, peas, tomatoes, cantaloupe, squash, watermellons, radishs, cucumbers, peppers. I may ad more later. It was a fun day in the garden as a normal woman with pink toe nails, etc.... I wore gloves & did not break a nail, yea.
So jealous! I'm moving into winter, you into summer, I love my garden - Oh and ask VM about growing veggies, she does great stuff!
Quote from: Jill F on April 19, 2014, 11:57:13 AM
I'm going to see Dream Theater tonight! I'm right up front on John Petrucci's side. I've met him twice, and he knows who my wife and I are, as he's acknowledged us more than once (we've been regulars at shows since 1993). Wait 'til he gets a load of me now!
John Petrucci is sort of a local celebrity as are most of Dream Theater for me. My first guitar instructor was actually taught by him before he went to Berklee over in Boston. I'll never forget when he introduced me to their music and taught me under a glass moon's solo. His playing has had a huge influence on me and I'll never forget the hours I've spent messing up all of his solos. I almost went to Berklee myself, so I could become as great of a musician as all the members of Dream Theater.
You must report on how he reacts. I'd be really sad if a musician that I admire so much were to end up being transphobic. I'd have to change my screen name. :(
Sorry for not shutting up, but this is like my all time favorite band (well tied with other's like Bad Religion which changed my life in a whole different way).
Quote from: learningtolive on April 19, 2014, 04:57:14 PM
John Petrucci is sort of a local celebrity as are most of Dream Theater for me. My first guitar instructor was actually taught by him before he went to Berklee over in Boston. I'll never forget when he introduced me to their music and taught me under a glass moon's solo. His playing has had a huge influence on me and I'll never forget the hours I've spent messing up all of his solos. I almost went to Berklee myself, so I could become as great of a musician as all the members of Dream Theater.
You must report on how he reacts. I'd be really sad if a musician that I admire so much were to end up being transphobic. I'd have to change my screen name. :(
Sorry for not shutting up, but this is like my all time favorite band (well tied with other's like Bad Religion which changed my life in a whole different way).
I suspected your screen name was a DT reference!
Yes, I love that band. I lost count of how many times I've seen them. I never tried playing DT's songs for real very much. It just sets me up for *metal voice* DISAPPOINTMENT. Oh well, what's more metal than disappointment, right? Carpal tunnel, maybe... I had to stop playing seriously after 6 hours of practice a day made my fingers go numb. Maybe I'll get that surgery some day, but I have bigger fish to fry right now.
Anyway, he didn't seem like an a*hole at all. Portnoy... meh, not so much. I can see why they're happier without him. I actually saw John Myung smiling at the last two shows I went to.
Myung actually shows emotion! I suspect that's cause Portnoy is gone now, lol. Still I sort of miss him even if he was hard to take at times; although, I love Mike Mangini. He's so talented and down to earth.
Yeah, I got so pissed one day trying to learn Stream of Conscious that I broke down in tears for like a half an hour, lol. I still can't play it all the way, or most DT songs for that matter. And yeah, I've gotten tendonitis a few times and it sucks. It got to the point that I couldn't hold a tv remote without extreme pain. It took me 2 years off of playing before I could seriously play again and even then I started mainly messing with Classical guitar before trying an electric again.
Anyway, always nice to see another Dream Theater fan, especially a female one. Sometimes I feel so lonely in that regard.
Quote from: Cindy on April 19, 2014, 04:23:43 PM
So jealous! I'm moving into winter, you into summer, I love my garden - Oh and ask VM about growing veggies, she does great stuff!
Cindy, That is so cool. A girl friend that loves her garden. We are sisters. I love to grow a garden & roses, other nice plants, etc...
Mine went OK today but I forgot carrots & a few other veggies. The local garden place has several women that I'm good friends with. They help a lot. Sorry about your winter. It's finally spring here. I'm so glad. It was a very cold long winter, even down to 5 degrees once.
Please have a great day GF.
My wife, while maintaining she really, really, really doesn't want me to transition as there is a lot about my maleness she likes, and feels she can not stay married to a woman, asked me last night if I did transition and end the marriage could we be best friends. I said yes and cried. :)
Quote from: RobinGee on April 19, 2014, 05:24:22 PM
My wife, while maintaining she really, really, really doesn't want me to transition as there is a lot about my maleness she likes, and feels she can not stay married to a woman, asked me last night if I did transition and end the marriage could we be best friends. I said yes and cried. :)
This is always so sad Robin, hope you both can work something amicable out.
Quote from: Shantel on April 19, 2014, 05:27:17 PM
This is always so sad Robin, hope you both can work something amicable out.
It's not sad. It means that she loves me enough that she would want me to stay in her life as much as I could without being her husband if I can't find a balance. It was tears of joy.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 19, 2014, 02:53:18 PM
My little veggie garden is planted. Sweet corn, okra, peas, tomatoes, cantaloupe, squash, watermellons, radishs, cucumbers, peppers. I may ad more later. It was a fun day in the garden as a normal woman with pink toe nails, etc.... I wore gloves & did not break a nail, yea.
I planted my garden yesterday I put in cabbage, snow peas, onion, beet root, potatoes, lettuce, cauliflower, silver beet,
Got my virtual FFS photos back from Alaxandra at http://www.virtualffs.co.uk
Seems the only real concern is my brow! Hopefully I can share all the photos with you girls tomorrow with the recommendations.
So I just got back from the Dream Theater show. John Petrucci acknowledged the presence of my wife but not me. I'm pretty sure he had no effing clue what the hell happened. It's a pass for sure. I'll take it. He probably thought I was the date of the guy next to me. It's like hey, dude, I was the one you spent hours getting drunk with many years ago...
Multi 31.
Multi 31
You know what I mean. ;D
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 20, 2014, 02:50:01 AM
Multi 31.
Multi 31
You know what I mean. ;D
Ahhhh No?
Mr Webber would be pleased! ;D
A sports bet?
You are no real rev head now are you?
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 20, 2014, 03:05:19 AM
You are no real rev head now are you?
A red head, not a rev head :laugh:
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 20, 2014, 02:52:51 AM
Mr Webber would be pleased! ;D
Mark Webber?
I thought he was driving in car 20
Quote from: antonia on April 19, 2014, 07:26:10 PM
Got my virtual FFS photos back from Alaxandra at http://www.virtualffs.co.uk
Seems the only real concern is my brow! Hopefully I can share all the photos with you girls tomorrow with the recommendations.
That's awesome! I'm looking forward to seeing the pictures.
My therapist warned me about red heads :o
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 20, 2014, 03:12:27 AM
My therapist warned me about red heads :o
A wise person your therapist >:-)
I thought Webber was a BBQ
So did Mr Vettel.
Quote from: Jenny07 on April 20, 2014, 03:18:46 AM
So did Mr Vettel.
And Red Bull replaced him with another Australian who Vettel was told to let pass and HE LISTENED.
Ok it's not F1 because the next one is Spain and that is not for a while. If it is Mark I know he is at Silverstone driving for Porsche, but I swear he is in car no. 20
Happy Easter wishes to everyone.
Understand that it's only been since December that I realized I was trans. This morning I went through my abbreviated routine, washed my hair, shaved, moisturized. Went to close my medicine cabinet door after I put supplies away and saw a woman looking at me out of the mirror. First time time that's happened and it only lasted an instant, but still!
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 20, 2014, 02:42:25 PMIt's black with silver and red elements.
That sounds pretty.
Do you make sweaters with the wool? I'd imagine that makes a really pretty sweater.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 20, 2014, 07:13:13 AM
Happy Easter wishes to everyone.
Easter was cool. We all took turns beating the hell out of an Easter Bunny pinata. I didn't break it, but I got a good start on it. :D I didn't bother with any of the candy, though. There were more than enough kids there to take care of the insane amount of candy that was there. I did have a couple of huge slices of a really killer carrot cake. It was REALLY good! I wore my Portia Porcupine shirt today (gotta represent, yo! :D). No one ever guesses her species right.
She's not a friggin hedgehog, dude! :D
Beauty Salon appointment for Thursday to have my legs & arms waxed & maybe a nice facial. It's always so nice to be pampered some. Smooth legs for summer will be so nice.
I've been flying below radar for quite a while, dealing with bad fear and anxiety, but...
I'm now, finally, getting EMDR therapy for my post-traumatic stress.
I stopped taking my anti-anxiety meds and it turned out they were causing about 70% of my fear and anxiety... ::)
I'm off for my sex affirmation surgery in two weeks' time! Eeeee!! Ahem.
Quote from: Padma on April 21, 2014, 05:32:54 AM
I've been flying below radar for quite a while, dealing with bad fear and anxiety, but...
I'm now, finally, getting EMDR therapy for my post-traumatic stress.
I stopped taking my anti-anxiety meds and it turned out they were causing about 70% of my fear and anxiety... ::)
I'm off for my sex affirmation surgery in two weeks' time! Eeeee!! Ahem.
Sounds all good Padma! I went the therapy route over those pills as they only rearrange one's brain buy have awful side effects. It's just one less medication to corrupt your body with anyway so good plan!
Quote from: Jill F on April 20, 2014, 01:50:37 AM
So I just got back from the Dream Theater show. John Petrucci acknowledged the presence of my wife but not me. I'm pretty sure he had no effing clue what the hell happened. It's a pass for sure. I'll take it. He probably thought I was the date of the guy next to me. It's like hey, dude, I was the one you spent hours getting drunk with many years ago...
Yup if you used to party with him and he didn't recognize you, I'd say you pass 100%. :icon_flower:
How was the show though? Unfortunately though I've been to many concerts, I haven't gotten the chance to see them yet. I would love to though if they come to my area.
The Iced Earth concert is this Saturday. I can't wait. Going with my SO, cause he bought the tickets. Hoping that wearing his shirt (he's like a large and I wear a medium) plus a sports bra to try and pass as a male.
It's funny, but I notice my depression and negativity are both dispating a bit more and more lately. While I'm still not in the best mindset, I do feel a bit better. Maybe it's just a good day, which is odd as it's my first weekday I've had as an unemployed person in a while, but I don't feel completely awful and even feel a bit positive for a change. It's been a while since I could honestly say that. Then again, I get mood swings, so maybe this is just the calm before another storm. In any case, it's a nice feeling and a brief escape from my insanity, lol. That's something that makes me happy.
Having the corporate receptionist stop me as I came back from lunch to compliment my shirt/vest/tie outfit made me super duper happy!!!!!
Quote from: ReaverMarcus on April 21, 2014, 10:41:07 AM
The Iced Earth concert is this Saturday. I can't wait. Going with my SO, cause he bought the tickets. Hoping that wearing his shirt (he's like a large and I wear a medium) plus a sports bra to try and pass as a male.
Aaaah I'm jealous. I mean, I've actually got too much anxiety to go to a metal concert :( But I love Iced Earth.
Quote from: birkin on April 21, 2014, 04:34:31 PM
Aaaah I'm jealous. I mean, I've actually got too much anxiety to go to a metal concert :( But I love Iced Earth.
They are in St Pete. There's 3 other bands. Their old stuff is good but some of the new stuff not so much. By new I mean the latest album.
The music video for Dylan's "Subterranean Homesick Blues".
I just got off the phone with an ex-bandmate who lives in PA now. He sent me some tracks that need guitar leads that he isn't slick enough to pull off just yet (drummer...) I like them a lot and agreed to do it as soon as I get my office studio up and running. If I send him my tracks, he will replace my scratch drum machine tracks with live ones. Sounds like a win-win and I get someone to jam with again.
Now if only I could get him to stop calling me "dude" and "man"...
Quote from: Jill F on April 21, 2014, 05:09:15 PM
I just got off the phone with an ex-bandmate who lives in PA now. He sent me some tracks that need guitar leads that he isn't slick enough to pull off just yet (drummer...) I like them a lot and agreed to do it as soon as I get my office studio up and running. If I send him my tracks, he will replace my scratch drum machine tracks with live ones. Sounds like a win-win and I get someone to jam with again.
Now if only I could get him to stop calling me "dude" and "man"...
Those guys tend to talk that way most of the time anyway don't they?
Only 2 more days until appointment at my Beauty Salon. I can't wait to have my legs & arms waxed smooth. Letting the hairs grow out in the meanwhile is giving me fits. It's so uncomfortable.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 22, 2014, 04:12:21 AM
Only 2 more days until appointment at my Beauty Salon. I can't wait to have my legs & arms waxed smooth. Letting the hairs grow out in the meanwhile is giving me fits. It's so uncomfortable.
Ahh the price of beauty! Just think how much you will enjoy being pampered Sis.
I am seeing my therapist for the first time tomorrow I am so excited I am not sure what to expect but it will be good to finally have someone to talk with about this stuff.
Quote from: Cindy on April 22, 2014, 04:35:32 AM
Ahh the price of beauty! Just think how much you will enjoy being pampered Sis.
I love my Electrolysis friend, she is so nice, we have a grand time & are good girlfriends. She loves to help me look nicer & we can talk for hours. She uses what is called NuFree for hair removal, it is a great sysytem, a warm type gel, let's it sit for maybe 5 seconds, the pores open & all hair comes out easy, no pain at all. She is quick, she can do my legs in 15-20 minutes at the most. Lucky for me her office is only 30 minutes away & she does not charge me very much, maybe $50 an hour. She has done 7-8 sessions on my face. We meet every Saturday morining for a 3-4 hour session & If I will be quiet & not talk so much she can clean off lots of hairs. Only my upper lip really hurts, she uses some deading gel that really works & sometimes gives injections of latocane I think to deaden an area. She is in her mid 50's like me, real pretty sexy woman. Married to an older man, no sex & has some affairs on the side. I'll get to find out about her new BF.
Quote from: Emily.T on April 22, 2014, 07:27:56 AM
I am seeing my therapist for the first time tomorrow I am so excited I am not sure what to expect but it will be good to finally have someone to talk with about this stuff.
Congrats Emily 8) Hope it goes well for you
Hugs
Getting Chinese food for free
Caught a reflection in the glass windows entering my workplace, then realized it was me, then realized that my movements are getting way more feminine.
Hacked into my first password protected computer. (It was a company laptop and ex employee forgot to supply password before he left)
It only takes about a minute...
*Note to self: When using Linux enable grub and bios passwords.
I had a nice talk with my neighbor yesterday. She is a single woman in her mid 40's. We own two adjoining farms. I told her about my plans to correct my physical gender & scheduled plastic surgery in a month or so. She was very receptive & supportive & offered to help me any whay she could after surgery to make sure I was OK. She knew I was feminine however she did not know about my surgery or HRT. I'm very relieved & happy that she will help me if the need be. It's a beautiful rural area & there are not many people around. So I'm happy with that.
That's great that your neighbor is so supportive Francis Ann :)
Hugs
Starting to come to terms with Jenny. I have been battling for a while and she is winning now.
I feel so much better even though I am still feeling conflicted.
I hate presenting male for work, but so enjoy stripping it off and letting it go.
Anyone else feel the same?
No word back on my work place survey yet where I marked T :)
I passed. It's starting to happen more often now.
Quote from: Edge on April 23, 2014, 08:02:58 AM
I passed. It's starting to happen more often now.
Always good when this happens.
My little drinking buddy "Trevor the bear" He's wearing his Maker's Mark sweater. Eat your heart out Laura Squirrel! :D
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Quote from: Edge on April 23, 2014, 08:02:58 AM
I passed. It's starting to happen more often now.
Congrats! ;D
Quote from: Shantel on April 23, 2014, 09:58:45 AM
My little drinking buddy "Trevor the bear" He's wearing his Maker's Mark sweater. Eat your heart out Laura Squirrel! :D
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You are too cute. :-* ;D
Having a green worm crawl on my hand
Thanks, Kat and Caleb.
On one of those just for fun, internet IQ tests, I got 170. It's total bull of course and my IQ is actually much lower, but it's still ego boosting.
Stone Cold Steve Austin being in favor of gay marriage!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uy7lORSgn_8
Beauty Salon today, it will sure feel good to have smooth legs & arms. I've always shaved my legs but it is so tiring. Smooth legs & arms for summer will be so nice. I'm going to lay out in a new one piece bathing suit later today to soak up some sun. I'm a happy girl.
A £13 bottle of perfume for £5 at the Body Shop.Now I can smell nice and eat!
Another day of recovery going well. That's good enough for me. Going to the Fisherman's Wharf in San Fran today to get some sightseeing and some overpriced fresh fish lunch.
Quote from: Shantel on April 23, 2014, 09:58:45 AM
My little drinking buddy "Trevor the bear" He's wearing his Maker's Mark sweater. Eat your heart out Laura Squirrel! :D
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LMAO.
But Portia doesn't drink (Well, there was that one time, but that's it.), she's more of a smoker. ;)
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on April 24, 2014, 12:29:03 PM
LMAO.
But Portia doesn't drink (Well, there was that one time, but that's it.), she's more of a smoker. ;)
:D ;D :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on April 24, 2014, 12:45:31 PM
:D ;D :laugh:
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I have found goblin themed metal.
Goblin?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Goblin_(band)
Nekrogoblikon
Except they apparently have a song about how goblins are better than trolls. I disagree. I like both equally.
Didn't happen today, but happened yesterday.
I was filling out a prescription for my husband(Dustin) and the pharmacist was talking with me about one of the medications to his allergy to Vicodin and looked up and asked, "Are you Dustin?"
I of course said no, but corrected that I was Dustin's husband and we just continued with the conversation but inside I was doing the most non manly squeal!
Was the first time I could consider actually passing in public since coming out and starting T. So was a good day for me :D
Congrats, Hex. How long have you been on T? I'm stating to pass more now too.
Also, my hair is getting longer and my face is changing slowly, but enough for me to start noticing. Someday, I shall look like myself! Close enough anyway.
Quote from: Malachite on April 24, 2014, 09:28:54 AM
Stone Cold Steve Austin being in favor of gay marriage!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uy7lORSgn_8
I'm happy about that. I've always admired him, so it's nice to know we share that opinion.
Making peace with a couple of things about myself that have been bothering me recently.
1) My age. I am about to turn 45, and I don't feel like I have lived that long. I have existed that long, but I wasn't really living until recently. I wasted a lot of years of my so-called "prime" being numb to the world and just going throught the motions. I recently had some serious self-loathing issues over that. I am just going to concentrate on what lies ahead now. The past is simply that. I am free of this prison of my own making and I will suffer it no more. Forward I go.
2) I had feelings for some friends of mine over the years. If I had been born physically female, I probably would have slept with them. Well, one of them is still alive... Maybe someday?
Quote from: birkin on April 24, 2014, 02:05:12 PM
I'm happy about that. I've always admired him, so it's nice to know we share that opinion.
Add to the fact that he's a blue-collared guy, he's awesome and one of my role models! ;D
Had my first session with my psychologist for HRT evaluation, everything went great and she told me she might only need one more session before making her recommendation to my family doctor.
I guess I must have my head screwed on the right way, mostly anyways :)
Quote from: Edge on April 24, 2014, 02:00:00 PM
Congrats, Hex. How long have you been on T? I'm stating to pass more now too.
Also, my hair is getting longer and my face is changing slowly, but enough for me to start noticing. Someday, I shall look like myself! Close enough anyway.
Thanks! I've been on T for a little over 2.5 months now. I recently got my hair cut much shorter than it had been (newest haircut pic is my avatar atm) and it seems to have helped immensely as far as people perceiving me as male. Even my husband's view point on me is much different. He's been making remarks that I look much more male now than I did just 2 weeks ago. Still waiting on the facial hair to really grow out but figure once that takes hold I'll be set haha
My boss is not going to make me pay to get all the keys and locks changed because I lost my work key (10 bi-lock keys 3 tumblers) :) :) :)
A couple that I've known since college that I haven't seen in years is coming to my b-day party. Last time they saw me I looked like my avatar!
I used to be in a band with this guy. Maybe we can perform AC/DC's "Big Balls" again for everyone...
LOL, sounds like the making of a great party!
Quote from: Jill F on April 25, 2014, 02:33:29 PM
A couple that I've known since college that I haven't seen in years is coming to my b-day party. Last time they saw me I looked like my avatar!
I used to be in a band with this guy. Maybe we can perform AC/DC's "Big Balls" again for everyone...
Quote from: Jill F on April 25, 2014, 02:33:29 PM
Maybe we can perform AC/DC's "Big Balls" again for everyone...
"She's got big balls! ...for 2 months, 2 weeks and 6 days!" ;D LOL
Quote from: birkin on April 25, 2014, 08:14:57 PM
"She's got big balls! ...for 2 months, 2 weeks and 6 days!" ;D LOL
Actually, they've pretty much shriveled up to the size of marbles now. Oh well, smaller incision.
I made reservations for Japanese food tonight and I found out that I finally get to meet my sister's longtime boyfriend next week.
Had a good therapy session today. Sometimes I forget to breathe in and remember where I am. Everything isn't as bad as I fear at times. I'm a road to somewhere though it can feel like one heading to nowhere at times. Thank god I have my therapist to help me put things into perspective when I need that.
Breasts are properly shaped. Tiny, but properly shaped.
I also have someone who I inspire, that I never knew did, and someone else who loves me for who I am and want to be.
Unfortunately both of them live too far away for me to hug into oblivion :(
Blackpool football club won,out of the relegation zone(for now).1 more game to go next Saturday
Being alive and being me.
My wife and I have gotten on the same page. Gender expression and fluidity as a coping strategy and then adding in medical stuffs and social transition if it don't work. She does not want to be in a lesbian relationship if I eventually transition. Our marriage would end but she'd rather see me as her happy female best friend than her miserable husband.
She'd rather I be her gender fluid and happy husband than either of those, but if she is willing to see me through transition, I'm willing to try to avoid it.
Quote from: big kim on April 26, 2014, 03:03:35 PMBlackpool football club won,out of the relegation zone(for now).1 more game to go next Saturday
Them and Birmingham should really be doing better, what's up with them?
I got ID'd while buying a couple of bottles of wine...14 years after becoming allowed to buy booze in the UK! (18+). My friend was not happy with me!!
My wife was taken to hospital (not good), I was asked who her next of kin was and I said her husband. She asked where he was. I said standing in front of you, she looked around before she realized it was me. She almost went into shock :laugh:
I hope your wife is OK Cindy...
Quote from: Ms Grace on April 27, 2014, 02:20:34 AM
I hope your wife is OK Cindy...
I hope so, it is unclear what is happening, possibly pancreatitis.
Quote from: Lauren5 on April 26, 2014, 09:14:33 PM
Them and Birmingham should really be doing better, what's up with them?
Don't know but everyone usually covers their ears up when Blackpool's results are read out!
Quote from: big kim on April 27, 2014, 07:20:46 AMDon't know but everyone usually covers their ears up when Blackpool's results are read out!
:D
I tend not to pay too much attention to the Championship as both my favourite English teams are both (barely) in the Premier League. For Villa, relegation isn't imminent but certainly a danger, especially with that embarrassment vs Swansea, and West Ham, who is pretty much safe barring disaster.
Woke up to a gorgeous day for kite flying. Which is good cause I have my annual birthday kite fly with my nieces and nephews
Quote from: RobinGee on April 27, 2014, 07:44:38 AMWoke up to a gorgeous day for kite flying. Which is good cause I have my annual birthday kite fly with my nieces and nephews
You say it's your birthday?
It was actually last Thursday the 17th. We just do it on Sunday cause if my work and last Sunday was easter
Quote from: Lauren5 on April 27, 2014, 07:33:09 AM
:D
I tend not to pay too much attention to the Championship as both my favourite English teams are both (barely) in the Premier League. For Villa, relegation isn't imminent but certainly a danger, especially with that embarrassment vs Swansea, and West Ham, who is pretty much safe barring disaster.
Hammers have been my second team since I was 6.
I've finally been able to look through all my prom photos. I'm very happy with them and it makes how much my legs hurt after dancing so hard all night totally worth it.
Making moussaka for dinner.
Quote from: Jill F on April 27, 2014, 07:46:25 PM
Making moussaka for dinner.
I remember the mouseketeers my fave was Annette, sweet thing RIP!
Quote from: Jill F on April 27, 2014, 07:46:25 PM
Making moussaka for dinner.
Out of curiosity, why would you sock a mouse for dinner?
What is moussaka?
Quote from: LordKAT on April 28, 2014, 02:44:22 AM
Out of curiosity, why would you sock a mouse for dinner?
What is moussaka?
A Japanese Moose?
:laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
I had my first T-blocker injection today, I opened the box this morning to check the advice slip & almost fell off my seat when I saw the size of the needle, it was more like a javelin!!!
I expected my GP to throw it at my rear from a distance, Lol.
I've had a lifelong fear of needles but have never looked forward to an injection so much.
It wasn't so much today, but I had an awesome weekend!
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Mine actually happened last Thursday: I had to phone a hotel to make a booking, and the guy on the other end of the line was all 'yes sir', 'no sir' and 'three bags full sir' before he'd even heard my name.
He correctly guessed my gender by the sound of my voice alone... which means that my voice is passing!
This is such an enormous, welcome change from just a couple of months ago, when I was being 'madamed' all over the place. Thank you, Nebido! ;D
My general mood is on the rise after a moderate dip.
Also, I've come out to all my siblings now and they were totally cool (my brother's reaction was initially shock because I was the last person he imagined would like to dress as a woman).
I doubt my parents would care but I'll keep it from them for a bit longer (will be difficult once the clothes arrive at my doorstep).
A storm.
I like storms. :)
Quote from: Sephirah on April 30, 2014, 12:31:23 PM
A storm.
I like storms. :)
Who doesn't?
Watching Ginger Snaps.
I don't know why, but I feel really good.
I love being me. I always love being me.
Something silly that makes me happy even though I know it's ridiculous.
Silly thing to make me happy, but I'm getting ready to go out for my mother's birthday dinner and I'm loving how my hair looks today. While I know this sounds weird, straightening my hair and putting in some biosilk always makes me feel better about myself. I feel less ugly and more feminine.
Finding my regular-sized Gamestop Power Up Rewards Card
It was my nephew's 19th birthday today. I wished him happy birthday, etc on Facebook - his response? "Thanks, Aunty Grace" ;D ;D ;D ;D (first time I've been called Aunty... crying happy tears!)
That's great Grace ;D
Hugs
Quote from: Ms Grace on May 01, 2014, 05:23:20 AM
It was my nephew's 19th birthday today. I wished him happy birthday, etc on Facebook - his response? "Thanks, Aunty Grace" ;D ;D ;D ;D (first time I've been called Aunty... crying happy tears!)
super awesome !!! ;D
Quote from: Ms Grace on May 01, 2014, 05:23:20 AM
It was my nephew's 19th birthday today. I wished him happy birthday, etc on Facebook - his response? "Thanks, Aunty Grace" ;D ;D ;D ;D (first time I've been called Aunty... crying happy tears!)
D'awwwwwwww! Awesome!
Quote from: Ms Grace on May 01, 2014, 05:23:20 AM
It was my nephew's 19th birthday today. I wished him happy birthday, etc on Facebook - his response? "Thanks, Aunty Grace" ;D ;D ;D ;D (first time I've been called Aunty... crying happy tears!)
Such a sweet young man Grace, I can tell his Auntie Grace will be extra kind to him on special occasions!
Quote from: Ms Grace on May 01, 2014, 05:23:20 AM
It was my nephew's 19th birthday today. I wished him happy birthday, etc on Facebook - his response? "Thanks, Aunty Grace" ;D ;D ;D ;D (first time I've been called Aunty... crying happy tears!)
Aww, that is lovely! ;D So happy for you Grace.
First full day out at work and everyone being amazing.
Getting to sign documents in my real name.
Finishing a massive 30 page group essay of which I did half of.
Getting a single room.
My location next year being changed to somewhere much, much cheaper to live.
My nephew said that I was good at soccer.
Earning a dollar
Got a job interview with DSW tomorrow.
Now, what to wear? Requires some shopping at very cheap places. That means thrift stores. Move in the morning, shop in the very early afternoon, then on to the interview.
Quote from: Lauren5 on May 01, 2014, 08:36:27 PM
Got a job interview with DSW tomorrow.
Now, what to wear? Requires some shopping at very cheap places. That means thrift stores. Move in the morning, shop in the very early afternoon, then on to the interview.
good luck !!
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Quote from: DianaVV on May 01, 2014, 09:10:58 PMgood luck !!
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I don't get it...
I discovered that I had enough money in the budget to buy the first season of Fraggle Rock on DVD. WOO HOO! ;D
Vodkatinies, 0 carbs and I love olives!
I took the trash out (almost overslept when the trash people came)
Feeling a bit better today
Got a package in the mail from the US
Visiting the pain monster tomorrow for two hours of torture. :-\
VM, Diana, Shantel, Robin, Birkin... thanks! :D
Latest news... a waitress at a cafe I go to regularly told me she thought I looked really nice today ;D
She knows I'm trans as I went there regularly in dude mode previously - she had me pegged pretty quickly, don't think she served me the first time I went as Grace, but she did the second time - she smiled and asked if I wanted a small salad, my regular request for the last few weeks. I smiled back and said yes - when she gave me my meal she told me she really liked my hair. Her comment today made me feel pretty awesome - she's very cute but waaaay too young for me yet my stupid, stupid brain can't help wondering if she's just being friendly and supportive... or if she's being friendly and "interested"... if you know what I mean! ::)
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 02, 2014, 06:46:16 AM
...Got a package in the mail from the US...
...annnnnnd...?? ?? ??
Have "fun" at the pain monster!
Blow up sheep. I'm cornering the market. ;)
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 02, 2014, 06:58:44 AM
Blow up sheep. I'm cornering the market. ;)
If you blow them up, they won't be square enough for corners.
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The rough draft sketch version of some art that I commissioned. It's coming along nicely. I'm anxious to see the final result. I'm sure that it's going to rock.
Quote from: radsi on April 17, 2014, 04:16:19 AM
BYE BYE essay... Now you have been submitted I NEVER EVER want to see you again.
;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
I take it all back essay ... I was quite happy to be reunited with you with a big fat 87% written on you ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
FINALLY! FINALLY!!!!! After months of harassing the Career Link people, they changed my gender in the system to male. Thank you Jesus, I was getting so angry with them telling me it wasn't legal. If the government can change my gender, and the hospitals and doctors, surely these people could too.
1988 Dom Perignon for my birthday.
*drools*
Getting to spend a couple weeks with my friend. Best two weeks ahead.
Glad it finally got changed Birkin
I got cleared to stop PT on my hand. I had to make some promises... heh. I'm so hard headed. Most people have to promise to keep up their exercises I had to promise not to do too much. I wish it was 100% better but it really is much improved.
I outed myself at a work medical because I didn't know what name I had to be put through the system by and they were all amazing with it. The nurse actually struggled to keep writing my birthname on the forms.
I was seen in the guys toilets for the first time today, we all needed to go at the same time and they didn't raise an eyebrow at me going in with them. I need to quit worrying and just get on with it.
The weather was really warm today, but not to hot yet.
I finally got my ears pierced today :)
Once thing is for sure it hurt a lot less that when I had my nipple pierced 5 years ago. The woman asked if I ever had anything pierced before and and I told her my nipples. She had just had her nipples pierced a few months ago and we were comparing experiences. I did have to out myself since I had to show my ID (state law for any piercing), and she was surprised that I was trans, but just continued treating me as one of the girls. She asked my I picked Sydney as my name and we talked about other things as well. A great experience :)
My original wedding ring was melted down and the same gold was used to make a woman's wedding ring.
Hhhhhm Im feeling happy and energetic for no reason even though exhausted for not sleeping at all...
2 days ago I was crying in despair...
this circle repeats too often...
hey guys am I bipolar or is it just estrogen?
Quote from: Jill F on May 04, 2014, 08:19:27 PM
My original wedding ring was melted down and the same gold was used to make a woman's wedding ring.
I like this idea.
just had this soup
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in a very wet cold night ;D
1- A compliment on my tie from the cool boss.
2- Being given free rein on a project from the same boss. (I have multiple bosses.......cool boss, cool VP, idiot boss)
I am soooooo relieved! It turns out, my surgery (hysto) wasn't happening in July - merely the consult (I thought it was 2 weeks before surgery for some reason), and it's actually a 6-8 month wait (sometimes longer) to have the actual surgery. I was so worried I'd lose my appointment and have to start all over, but once I go in for the consult in July, I can schedule the surgery at a time that is convenient for me. I'm glad because there is no way I would be able to take time off in 2014 for a hysto when I have so many expenses to save for. Fortunately those parts are completely healthy at the moment, so for now I don't consider this urgent.
Edit: also turns out that the HR departments at my old job changed my name in their system already. No need to disclose old name to new employers. Bam.
My mom brought more oranges.
An old friend (that's really more like an "honorary cousin") stopped by tonight. I hadn't seen him in several years but it was cool. We got caught up and (obviously) we had a lot to talk about. He's moving down here and he's getting himself together, getting off the heavy drugs he was on years ago, so I was really happy to hear that. He didn't have any issues with my transition (but he saw a LOT of the signs back in the day so it wasn't like he could be surprised by it). There was one instance where he called me 'bro'. I laughed and replied: 'sis'. He laughed and nodded and was like, 'yeah'. It was a simple, innocent mistake and nothing more. It's all good.
if it turns out i'm not eligible for my 2nd VFS at Yeson, this money I am saving will go to my holidays trip in Europe or USA with my partner ... this also makes me happy ;D
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on May 05, 2014, 08:07:58 PM
An old friend (that's really more like an "honorary cousin") stopped by tonight. I hadn't seen him in several years but it was cool. We got caught up and (obviously) we had a lot to talk about. He's moving down here and he's getting himself together, getting off the heavy drugs he was on years ago, so I was really happy to hear that. He didn't have any issues with my transition (but he saw a LOT of the signs back in the day so it wasn't like he could be surprised by it). There was one instance where he called me 'bro'. I laughed and replied: 'sis'. He laughed and nodded and was like, 'yeah'. It was a simple, innocent mistake and nothing more. It's all good.
So cool Laura, I'm happy for you both!
Told my dad I'm trans, he was the last family member that I wanted to call and tell in person.
All in all went better than I expected, very formal and no drama. It's a big relief, now I can be who I want and not worry about them finding out through the wrong channels.
Next steps, finish my psyche eval, HRT and get on the waiting list for SRS.
well i finally got my giggle up to from 170 hertz to 203 hertz on my voice practice ;D happy about that
Quote from: Umiko Nixie on May 05, 2014, 11:35:39 PM
well i finally got my giggle up to from 170 hertz to 203 hertz on my voice practice ;D happy about that
So you're up to 203 giggle-hertz, good for you!
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Do I hear your melodic tinkle of laughter?
(What made me happy today? ^ This! Thank you, Umiko-chan.)
The final version of some artwork that I commissioned is completed. It looks totally killer!
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Laura's shirt says "Mr Bungle" if you can't tell. :D
I have an endo appointment next week! ;D extremely happy. Finally got that referral
That's a cool picture, Laura.
Good luck, Umiko.
My exam went really well. I had to guess for a couple of answers, but overall, I knew what I was doing. There was a bonus question that was the same as a question we had on the first midterm and I had it memorized.
I got a B in chemistry. Not what I was hoping for, but considering how hard the class is for others, I did darn well.
Good job Victor! University chemistry is generally known as a weeder course, so a B is amazing. I carried a B throughout the entire term, but when I wrote the final, it dropped my grade to a C- or something like that. I just barely passed the final. They flat out stated at the start of term that they deliberately designed the final so that half the class would fail it. Oh, and btw, if you failed the exam you automatically failed the course. Haha. :'( So you should feel really good about that.
That artwork looks pretty sweet, Laura.
Thanks, Caleb. Yeah most of my friends who have taken the course have had to do it twice. I like chemistry though, so it's not much a surprise. Next year I'm taking organic chem though.
Organic chem is my weakness. Everyone I know seems to think it's easy, but for whatever reason it has always been a struggle for me.
Well, that makes me a little less apprehensive about it. Thanks! I heard it was brutal, but then, I heard that from people who switched to arts degrees. (Not that there's anything wrong with arts degrees. It's just a different skill set.)
Quote from: Edge on May 06, 2014, 06:57:06 PM
Well, that makes me a little less apprehensive about it. Thanks! I heard it was brutal, but then, I heard that from people who switched to arts degrees. (Not that there's anything wrong with arts degrees. It's just a different skill set.)
Edge, you're way ahead of arts which are as useless as basket weaving degrees.
Just being watching a vedio of trans avtavist Joanna Law. And Somthing she said Put a smile on my face.
The govermant calls my Gender Dysphoric, not realy! I'm gender enhanced. :)
Quote from: Edge on May 06, 2014, 04:31:09 PM
That's a cool picture, Laura.
Actually, it was Kytri here on the forum that made it. So, he's the one that deserves the praise. Even though I created the original characters (but only in print), he brought them to life. He made one of Laura Squirrel before, but I wanted one of an older Portia Porcupine (She's 15), so I had a definitive image of what she looked like for when I am writing/reading my fanfics.
Though brief and short lived due to bad/meh day, it still made me happy that the newst Pokémon games Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire were announced today for the 3DS and coming world wide this Nov.
In a sh**storm of a week, a couple things that are making me feel good...
Got a proper haircut, along with being properly gendered.
And making friends with a neat person. Wish I'd tried sooner.
Taking my son to the park, a two hour long walk, and a nice breeze.
Finding a song that I love musically and that describes how I feel and my opinion of it.
As usual, I love being me.
I got my new drivers license in the mail complete with my new name, photo, and the letter F. :D
I found out from one of my regulars that one of her friends wanted to ask me out while I was working thinking I was an actual girl. Besides her (of course), work and a few more family members are the last places I'm not out yet
a nice long nap made me happy today xD
I found another song I really like.
Quote from: Edge on May 07, 2014, 10:19:41 PM
I found another song I really like.
its it about blood :o xD
Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 07, 2014, 10:20:36 PM
its it about blood :o xD
No, but I do like blood.
It and the other songs I've found that I really like describe my feelings/state of mind pretty much exactly. How exciting.
Went to see Derek Jeter's last game in SoCal from just behind the Yankee dugout and he even hit a home run. He's my favorite baseball player of all time. I'm going to miss him after he retires. I've been a big fan of his since 1996. Looking him right in his beautiful green eyes was amazing.
Quote from: Jill F on May 08, 2014, 02:04:59 AM
Went to see Derek Jeter's last game in SoCal from just behind the Yankee dugout and he even hit a home run. He's my favorite baseball player of all time. I'm going to miss him after he retires. I've been a big fan of his since 1996. Looking him right in his beautiful green eyes was amazing.
Careful he's been known to jump the ladies bones on many occasions. Your spouse will be jealous! :D
I've been approved for on-campus housing (a 1-bedroom apartment) at seminary (http://www.psr.edu)! I'm moving to Berkeley's so-called Holy Hill in August!
I got a new shirt. It's green with undead pirates on it.
I'm getting my tattoo recoloured in a couple weeks (from orange/yellow and light blue to emerald/dark green and darker blue. I'm tempted to get another one, but I'll wait until I get my chest fixed.
This evening, I'm going on another two hour walk and going to see a friend. In a few minutes, I'm going to go for a walk to pick up my son and most likely take him to the park again.
My good mood from last night is still present.
My hair is getting longer and, aside from needing to exercise more, I'm on my way to looking like myself. Woohoo!
I love being me.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on May 07, 2014, 09:57:05 PMI found out from one of my regulars that one of her friends wanted to ask me out while I was working thinking I was an actual girl. Besides her (of course), work and a few more family members are the last places I'm not out yet
But hon, you are an actual girl.
Quote from: Jill F on May 08, 2014, 02:04:59 AMWent to see Derek Jeter's last game in SoCal from just behind the Yankee dugout and he even hit a home run. He's my favorite baseball player of all time. I'm going to miss him after he retires. I've been a big fan of his since 1996. Looking him right in his beautiful green eyes was amazing.
I dunno, I'd have to pick a Giant if I was coung to pick a cute player.
I'd go with Posey.
Quote from: Shantel on May 08, 2014, 10:10:47 AM
Careful he's been known to jump the ladies bones on many occasions. Your spouse will be jealous! :D
We'll just have to have a Jeter sandwich...
Jill you are a crackup! Jeeter is awesome.
I just gave myself a T shot. First time I've done it. Poor motor skills (life long issue), shaky hands and all. I did it. I can do this. Roooooooooar
i may sound simple but grilled cheese made me happy :laugh:
I cleaned out my closet and got rid of all my male clothing. I kept a few things that are unisex like a few sweatshirts and so forth. It felt so good. I tried on one of the overcoats I thought could be unisex. I looked in the mirror and I saw a woman wearing a mens coat :)
I'm going for a walk with a friend on Saturday, then maybe seeing Spiderman, and then seeing another friend on Sunday.
My friend's dad's surgery went well and he is going home soon.
I got another story idea.
I'm still in a really good mood.
As always, I love being me.
Those darn things have been itching all day and driving me crazier that what I am already.
I think I need one of LordKATs scratching posts to rub them against. :laugh:
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 09, 2014, 03:53:42 AM
Those darn things have been itching all day and driving me crazier that what I am already.
I think I need one of LordKATs scratching posts to rub them against. :laugh:
Nah you need a hot guy to massage them :laugh: :embarrassed: >:-)
Quote from: Cindy on May 09, 2014, 03:55:20 AM
Nah you need a hot guy to massage them :laugh: :embarrassed: >:-)
So that's what they are good for.
claws and fur have their uses.
So much has been going wrong lately, that a little piece of good news is appreciated. I got a text from a former co-worker letting me know that they are working on bringing me back. There is a lot of bureaucracy making it hard, but it seems they are trying to get me hired again. This news came at a point that i really need it because I'm just about to lose it with life. Hope can sometimes go a long way and that makes me happy.
I finally got my blood work back from my doctor, and all checks out well. Now all I have to wait on is a couple more sessions with therapist to get a letter for E. ;D
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on May 08, 2014, 11:42:16 PM
I cleaned out my closet and got rid of all my male clothing. I kept a few things that are unisex like a few sweatshirts and so forth. It felt so good. I tried on one of the overcoats I thought could be unisex. I looked in the mirror and I saw a woman wearing a mens coat :)
Purging out the old you can feel very emotionally and positionally liberating Sydney! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Edge on May 08, 2014, 01:06:32 PM
My hair is getting longer and, aside from needing to exercise more, I'm on my way to looking like myself. Woohoo!
I love being me.
I wish I could pull off the long hair as well as you can. Mine is about a month into growing and I'm ever so not eagerly anticipating getting called ma'am. But I can't be arsed to get a haircut.
Quote from: learningtolive on May 09, 2014, 12:32:56 PM
I got a text from a former co-worker letting me know that they are working on bringing me back. There is a lot of bureaucracy making it hard, but it seems they are trying to get me hired again.
Fingers crossed!
My wife is picking up steaks on her way home from work. This means I don't have to go out looking like a total pizzaface.
Heart shaped potatoes 8)
Quote from: birkin on May 09, 2014, 05:54:02 PM
I wish I could pull off the long hair as well as you can. Mine is about a month into growing and I'm ever so not eagerly anticipating getting called ma'am. But I can't be arsed to get a haircut.
Thank you for the compliment. I started growing it long a year and a half ago. I was in my Gender Queer phase and hadn't truly accepted being MtF. I started loosing my hair and started using Finasteride in early September. Fortunately all of my crown has restored and my temples are starting to fill in. I still have to keep it parted in the middle to create a feminine hairline. The worse part was that in between state that lasts about 8 months. (My wife had cut her hair short last summer and is going through that now.)
Hair is a funny thing. With my long hair put up in the back (and especially with earrings) it can make my hair look even more feminine.
Quote from: birkin on May 09, 2014, 05:54:02 PM
I wish I could pull off the long hair as well as you can. Mine is about a month into growing and I'm ever so not eagerly anticipating getting called ma'am. But I can't be arsed to get a haircut.
I actually can't pull it off that well yet. It's still short enough that it goes all poofy unless I do something with it and, even then, it starts curling in troublesome directions. It'll take awhile before it's long enough to hold itself down, but when it is, it will be pretty darn metal.
I'm so happy for Austria's victory in the Eurovision! Conchita Wurst really deserved it and I don't have to lose hope with Finland either, we gave Austria full 12 points! :D
I was also surprised to see Finland doing so well this year. 11th place is almost unheard of, we're usually in France's place.
A little girl told my happy mother's day today.
I went to get gas for the car (in NJ it's unlawful to fill your own tank so they do it for you). The gas station attended told me Happy Mother's Day. Even though we don't have any children, I told him thank you.
I read articles on a local news website without letting the comments hurt me too much. That wasn't really happy but being able to deal is important.
Also my housecat made me happy. He is really pushy and clingy and it's hard to be judgy when he meows and paws me in the face for help every time my roommate comes downstairs. :laugh:
I had a great time with friends today. I went for a walk with a couple friends, we made plans to go on more walks, and it was fun despite the weather. Then I went to see Spiderman 2 with another friend and his friend. I really liked it and would go again.
took the f-dog for a walk and his behavior was great. got to spend a bit of time with a friend. had a mellow day.
Quote from: christopher on May 10, 2014, 11:35:44 PM
took the f-dog for a walk and his behavior was great. got to spend a bit of time with a friend. had a mellow day.
All good when that happens!
I said I would take my housemate to the supermarket n really can't be bothered as I am tired and grumpy but it is really raining outside so I felt a bit mean.. So I said I'd take her if she got ready in 10minutes and I was setting a stopwatch.. She's a proper girly girl usually takes like an hour to get ready so it is proving very entertaining!
Am I mean?? Haha
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 23, 2014, 05:15:23 AM
I had a nice talk with my neighbor yesterday. She is a single woman in her mid 40's. We own two adjoining farms. I told her about my plans to correct my physical gender & scheduled plastic surgery in a month or so. She was very receptive & supportive & offered to help me any whay she could after surgery to make sure I was OK. She knew I was feminine however she did not know about my surgery or HRT. I'm very relieved & happy that she will help me if the need be. It's a beautiful rural area & there are not many people around. So I'm happy with that.
Sounds like a lovely place to live, good luck with your surgery Francis
Told my boss and she was fine with it. Will make working a lot less stressful. :D
Scored 6 boxes of girl scout cookies from my brother.
I found a way to shave my back.
It's the little things y'know? :p
Finally got around to actually put some effort into acquiring the platinum trophy in Ni no Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch and BOO-YAH I have it now.
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Quote from: defective snowflake on May 11, 2014, 12:27:33 PM
Scored 6 boxes of girl scout cookies from my brother.
My granddaughter used to load me up with a few dozen boxes, it's all her fault that I'm so fat. :D
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on May 10, 2014, 10:49:28 PMI went to get gas for the car (in NJ it's unlawful to fill your own tank so they do it for you). The gas station attended told me Happy Mother's Day. Even though we don't have any children, I told him thank you.
A few years back, visiting relatives in south Jersey, the gas was cheaper than the DC area by a good 50 cents. Was pretty strange, to be that different, with the increased labour costs and all.
Quote from: Lauren5 on May 11, 2014, 04:10:17 PM
A few years back, visiting relatives in south Jersey, the gas was cheaper than the DC area by a good 50 cents. Was pretty strange, to be that different, with the increased labour costs and all.
Not really. The refineries are in NJ. The shipping costs are cheaper, plus those workers get minimum wage. They're really a small effect on gas prices.
Doesn't NJ have some of the lowest gas taxes in the US?
Quote from: defective snowflake on May 11, 2014, 04:43:44 PM
Doesn't NJ have some of the lowest gas taxes in the US?
Yes and right across the water in New York and even Rockland County, NY away from the city, it's 30-50 cents higher per gallon. I believe SC is the cheapest in the US because they have the lowest fuel tax in the country.
A random stranger asked me out for a drink
that boosted my confidence a bit
handyman just finished fixing the roof, hopefully next time when there is heavy rain,no more leaking :)
Finally felt ready to apply for my new passport. I need photo ID because I'm always being challenged on whether I'm old enough to do grown-up stuff like buy alcohol. I have a daughter who will soon be old enough to buy alcohol, so this gets a bit tiresome. ::)
Anyway, my old passport expired a couple of years ago but I've been holding off on renewing it because I didn't want to have my photo taken whilst still looking female. Now that the testosterone has kicked in to the extent that I pass consistently, I felt ready to have my photo taken.
So last night I took the brave step of comparing my new photos to the old one in my expired passport... and whilst there are many facial resemblances, the photos look like they're of two different but closely related people... like brother & sister.
Woohoo! ;D
Nices, maybe I should finally just go get mine. I didn't want a passport with the wrong marker and pic, so I didn't get one before.
Quote from: LordKAT on May 12, 2014, 05:42:12 AM
Nices, maybe I should finally just go get mine. I didn't want a passport with the wrong marker and pic, so I didn't get one before.
Go for it! That's the only thing that was stopping me, but it meant that I've spent the past couple of years with my only official form of ID being in the wrong name & gender. I hate having to explain why that is the case, so it'll be great to have some formal ID that I don't need to explain away.
Okay, this post is a day late but that's because I finally had a chance to log in.
My second-born came home from college for the final time on Thursday, and graduated on Saturday. That day was spent with my both my adult kids, their mother (my ex-wife), and some friends of my second-born. It was a wonderful thing.
This Mother's Day was the first since my gender transition began in 2011 I wasn't conflicted about that day. I will never be a mother in the sense that I will never be pregnant and will never hold a baby to my breast, nourishing that child with my own body. But, I've done mothering in my own way. I had received Happy Mother's Day greetings all day: at church, at a restaurant when I had lunch with my second-born, on Facebook and on Tumblr.
I am a trans woman who still identifies proudly as the father of my children, two adults who call me Dad. I no longer have qualms about this. But to receive Happy Mother's Day greetings from my friends in cyberspace is a joy unlike any other.
Quote from: Lauren5 on May 08, 2014, 09:24:10 PM
But hon, you are an actual girl.
I know but as I can not tell work yet I present myself fairly ando. While some of my regulars still see me as male :(. It lets me know I'm doing something right when someone comes in and calls me mam, luv' darl'. No matter how sexist it can be, (they are gambelers after all)
I just learned that a friend that I have not kept in touch with since I moved to Canada has since transitioned, she moved there from here to there while I moved from there to here.
She is a strong girl, here is her Ted talk:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iu829jjQ4Sc
Went for a ride after work.
Lights on and roads quiet.
Did 90k in the dark and fell fantastic.
Got a serious case of full moon burn :)
New bank card, manager chasing up the irritating lack of accounts in my name, everything's coming together.
My wife left me the last piece of cheesecake. *drools*
Finally got up enough nerve thanks to a friend to go into a bra shop get properly measured for the 1st time EVER. It's not the oh will they peg me I have no problem passing it's the no ones every seen my boobs before :/ no big deal everything went fine I'm a 38c and finally have 2 bras that fit amazingly well. I'm not gonna lie now that I know I checked out the Victoria secrets website :)
Music.
Today, especially In Flames.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTiQ75HY0DA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTiQ75HY0DA)
Going to bed in about 5 minutes is going to make me very happy.
My grades for the semester were finally posted: a bunch of 'A's! ;D
Also nearly completed a silly game I'm working on; I say nearly because we managed to make it crash when torture testing it and have yet to really understand how we did it :laugh: still a victory though
Booked tickets to attend a lecture by Richard Dawkins. :)
Just dropped wife at the airport early this morning, she's leaving for the East Coast for 6days!! But that makes me sad too, she's leaving for 6days.
I've been on the verge of quitting my job for a while now with all the long hours and other BS I've had to put up with throughout the past year and this morning I found out I'm getting a promotion. We'll have to see what happens next. One guy in my crew is getting his own crew now so we can double team the oil field so potentially less hours finally and less stress. We'll have to see though. I start my new co driver/navigator position on Monday which I've done before when someone takes days off so no worries about not knowing what I'm doing.
I CAN START HRT SOON! but i need a doctor to sign off saying i'm cleared but other than that I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED! my i told my endo and she was like, get mentally stable first than we can talk xD oh happy day
Bought a new car today. I thought I was going to have to buy the old one that was lease because I had gone WAY over the mileage (by 40k miles). The dealership bought the old car and now I have a new one with roughly the same payment and I didn't have to pay any fees or deposit. Plus they were great with calling me Sydney with female pronouns even though the paperwork had my male name on it. Can't wait till a week from today when I go to court for my name change :)
Signed the documents and paid the lawyer to change my name on my deed today. Also got the mortgage changed into my new name. So many things to follow up on after the legal change. I'm getting there slow and steady!
Quote from: apriljo on May 14, 2014, 07:39:54 PM
Signed the documents and paid the lawyer to change my name on my deed today. Also got the mortgage changed into my new name. So many things to follow up on after the legal change. I'm getting there slow and steady!
Atta Girl, that's how it's done!
Quote from: apriljo on May 14, 2014, 07:39:54 PM
Signed the documents and paid the lawyer to change my name on my deed today. Also got the mortgage changed into my new name. So many things to follow up on after the legal change. I'm getting there slow and steady!
Congrats, I'm about 2-3 weeks before mine is finalized and looking forward to that :)
Celebrated my 34th anniversary.
:)
Quote from: gennee on May 14, 2014, 10:53:21 PM
Celebrated my 34th anniversary.
:)
Happy anniversary dear sister! :icon_bunch:
Kid went to school for the first time in at least a month, first non-day-treatment school in probably a year. She didn't hit anybody, didn't get hit, didn't leave or try to leave the campus, seems to have had a great day and even got to dig in the garden. We went to one of those conveyor belt sushi places to celebrate.
Lol she asked the chef about his potted plants and his answer was to point at his head and say "I don't know. I'm addled in the brain." Whether or not that's true or relevant to his ability to demonstrate knowledge of indoor foliage, it seemed a really elegantly foolproof way to end the conversation and was hard not to giggle at.
My DVD set of the first season of Fraggle Rock has left the nearby sorting hub and is on its way to town. So, I will receive it some time tomorrow afternoon!
Sweet!
Cheesecake.
Training!
Actually for much more than just today, the kindness and generosity of a dear friend
I think my mum is getting more use to the change as earlier she surprised me when I was talking to her and she randomly said "I should plat your hair" I said sure if she wants and she replied with "only if you want me to" I said sure and this resulted.
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Ugh at my shoulders though. lol
Had a problem at work with some data coming out incorrect from the system.
Investigated, analysed, did some head scratching.
Went for a walk found the reason and came up with the solution which worked and fixed it.
My analyst had no idea how I did it.
Probably because I'm brilliant.
J
Surprising my friend who is working the Noosa food and wine festivile up north with my detailed local knowledge. You can take the girl out of Queensland but you can't take Queensland out of the girl. (Now if he can return with some food mmm)
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 16, 2014, 04:26:21 AM
Had a problem at work with some data coming out incorrect from the system.
Investigated, analysed, did some head scratching.
Went for a walk found the reason and came up with the solution which worked and fixed it.
My analyst had no idea how I did it.
Probably because I'm brilliant.
J
And extremely modest :-*
Good to hear.
There was a thing at my son's school to prepare for Kindergarden in September during which I found out there will be at least two other autistic kids his age, so he won't be the only one. Also I noticed a rainbow sticker on the door. Oh good. Maybe it won't be as awkward to explain how he has two biological dads.
My time-off request for Thursday 6/26 was approved. I can now in good conscience go to see THE MARCH VIOLETS (!) when they play in SF on 6/25 and not worry about being out too late on a work night. I'm one happy Elder GothTM!
Quote from: Cindy on May 16, 2014, 08:37:09 AM
And extremely modest :-*
Good to hear.
I learned from the best ;)
I had a dream where I was a girl - born one! And got to go shopping in a mall for outfits. Oh my gawd! Why did I have to wake up!!
Finding out today that head office has my title listed down as Ms. at both venues. Worked at different sites casually for over 10yrs always as Mr. :( only people from head office that have seen me and my name are the business managers, auditors and security. Don't know who you are that did it but thank you ;D
Even though I lost my job, I finally got the first batch of photos my Mum sent me from Germany.
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I look a lot like my Mum.
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a cup of lipton tea!
Got a call from my doctor, they got my psyche eval about a week ago and he wanted to schedule a meeting to discuss HRT, probably only a blood test away now.
Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 16, 2014, 10:12:48 PM
Even though I lost my job, I finally got the first batch of photos my Mum sent me from Germany.
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I look a lot like my Mum.
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Your baby photo so cute aww, (sorry have a thing for babies at the moment). There is a strong resemblance between you and your mother, hopefully it's a good guide to where the HRT express is going to take you.
Sorry to hear about you losing your job :(, hope you can find another one soon.
got together with two different friends. long walks with both. they are both trying so hard to be supportive. it's great. the tide was way out for the walk with one of my friends. I love the beach. and I took my other friend to a trail by the river I just discovered and she didn't know about. so that was great
oh and her 5 year old, who I adore, came up and gave me a huge hug.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on May 16, 2014, 11:50:26 PM
Your baby photo so cute aww, (sorry have a thing for babies at the moment). There is a strong resemblance between you and your mother, hopefully it's a good guide to where the HRT express is going to take you.
Sorry to hear about you losing your job :(, hope you can find another one soon.
Yeah, she is beautiful. ;D :icon_love:
Finally found the motivation to go to a specialist running shop to have my gait assessed & some new running shoes fitted. I even managed to fit into a men's size shoe rather than the usual junior sizes, which was brilliant. Now that I have fully recovered from top surgery and I have the right shoes, I have zero reasons to not hit the treadmill. Starting Monday, that's exactly what I'll be doing.
As a double happy, on my way to the running shop I spotted a gay couple on the other side of the road, holding hands in public. Made my day. :)
I've cross dressed all the way now I've actually got everything I need. I hardly look like I can pass but that doesn't matter, because I look fabulous.
Making Indian food for dinner.
Later- eating Indian food for dinner.
This afternoon was my official debut as a deacon for Between The Worlds Church (http://btwchurch.wordpress.com/), an interfaith community that is being built by a good friend and mentor.
New Docs ;D There red with white spots and oh so shiney
Finding a new Supercentenarian! (I've got this strange hobby of researching people who are older than/lived to be older than 110 years of age)....
Yo! My right chesticle be growing, G! Awww, yeeeaaahh!!
I was really happy to arrive in my city after the three weeks FFS journey . I really love it more now after I miss it for so long .
Being able to start State of Origin talk at work. It is the only time I follow the game (rugby league). It's a 3 game series played between New South Wales and Queensland. Queensland have not lost since 2006 and as a proud and only Queenslander living in enemy territory I'm prepared to give and get any chance I have.
I actually was having a bad day till this started so I was very glad it happened
Soaking in the tub, watching a movie.
I passed my ITIL Foundations exam with an score of 93%.
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Actually getting the sensation that I've lost nearly three months on this. It would have been much quicker weren't for the depression and moving.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on May 19, 2014, 01:59:47 AM
Being able to start State of Origin talk at work. It is the only time I follow the game (rugby league). It's a 3 game series played between New South Wales and Queensland. Queensland have not lost since 2006 and as a proud and only Queenslander living in enemy territory I'm prepared to give and get any chance I have.
I actually was having a bad day till this started so I was very glad it happened
Watch out as we might ship you to AFL territory in Adelaide with Cindy and the gang where it's state of what?
Happy so much progress and had a good long weekend.
Congrats Julia, well done.
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 19, 2014, 07:03:00 AM
Watch out as we might ship you to AFL territory in Adelaide with Cindy and the gang where it's state of what?
Actually for someone who started North of the Tweed I did play the game South of the Murray
Interesting fact state of origin was first played between Victoria and South Australia
Congratulations Julia well done
Truly a resemblance, Rainbow Brite. Beautiful the both of you.
Jenny07, immortal gypsy, thanks. Although I'm not feeling very happy about this. This certification is more or less unknown in Spain, and the only way of benefiting from it would looking for job on a country such as UK where it has more value. Also, it does not mean I can relaz: It's been just the warm up and first stone before now starting to prepare the actual hard exam (MCSE on Windows Server 2012).
But the worst part is the direct blow it has taken to my transition savings. Between this and the tax declaration on a few days from now, I can't afford FFS anymore. In the end, I will just end getting SRS for half the price... At least I'll keep some money for emergencies if I end unemployed.
I just found out that not only is one of my favorite bands from the 1980s, The March Violets, will be playing in SF next month but they have a new album too!
Yay! I got an official start day for work! Now I am on my way to move on from being totally poor to semi totally poor. :D :)
Quote from: learningtolive on May 20, 2014, 10:16:13 AM
Yay! I got an official start day for work! Now I am on my way to move on from being totally poor to semi totally poor. :D :)
Congratulations, your stick-to-itiveness paid off, that's what leads to success. :eusa_clap:
I found a video of a stage version of Batman and the Joker kissing. I am not sure why this makes me happy.
Quote from: Edge on May 20, 2014, 03:01:14 PM
I found a video of a stage version of Batman and the Joker kissing. I am not sure why this makes me happy.
That would never happen unless Batman was drugged!
Quote from: Shantel on May 20, 2014, 07:04:35 PMThat would never happen unless Batman was drugged!
Or was George Clooney.
Quote from: Shantel on May 20, 2014, 07:04:35 PM
That would never happen unless Batman was drugged!
I know. It's totally out of character for Batman. Not out of character for the Joker though.
I got my tattoo recoloured green and a darker blue. Now it looks better, suits me better, and is different from my ex's.
Today, after 3 months of planning, I came out to my parents. I did it via e-mail, as we live in 3 countries, followed up by a Skype call.
I was astonished by their immediate and directly positive response. But they were sad that I didn't think I could have talked to them about this 3 months ago when I was ready and fully decided.
I feel sad that I underestimated how strong their love and support would be. Forgive me folks!
Quote from: Julia-Madrid on May 21, 2014, 12:15:19 PM
Today, after 3 months of planning, I came out to my parents. I did it via e-mail, as we live in 3 countries, followed up by a Skype call.
I was astonished by their immediate and directly positive response. But they were sad that I didn't think I could have talked to them about this 3 months ago when I was ready and fully decided.
I feel sad that I underestimated how strong their love and support would be. Forgive me folks!
You're a very lucky girl Julia, as you know it doesn't always go as smoothly for others. Great parents though, congrats!
Quote from: Edge on May 21, 2014, 10:57:02 AM
I got my tattoo recoloured green and a darker blue. Now it looks better, suits me better, and is different from my ex's.
When you get them recolored does it scab over again like the original usually does?
Quote from: Shantel on May 21, 2014, 12:27:59 PM
When you get them recolored does it scab over again like the original usually does?
Probably. I can't really remember what happened the first time, but this time, I have dots where I bled.
I'm thinking about the anime convention I'm going to (with friends!) at the end of June. I'm going as Izaya and my friend is going as Shizuo (both from Drrr!!). I'm excited.
Quote from: Julia-Madrid on May 21, 2014, 12:15:19 PM
Today, after 3 months of planning, I came out to my parents. I did it via e-mail, as we live in 3 countries, followed up by a Skype call.
I was astonished by their immediate and directly positive response. But they were sad that I didn't think I could have talked to them about this 3 months ago when I was ready and fully decided.
I feel sad that I underestimated how strong their love and support would be. Forgive me folks!
HEY! If this is indeed the case and stays that way (Don't see why it wouldn't from how it sounds) then please remember to REALLY cherish them and be very grateful to have such kind, caring and loving parents who accept you for who and what you are and respect you etc. and remember to not take them for granted either. If only all parents could accept us as who we truly are.
i got my official letter (picking it up friday or saturday. he said call him friday and see when i can pick it up) from my therapist and will be starting hrt next week if my darn endo will see me than xD either way, I'M HAPPY!!!!!!!
Quote from: Brianna Umiko Liliana on May 21, 2014, 05:37:29 PM
i got my official letter (picking it up friday or saturday. he said call him friday and see when i can pick it up) from my therapist and will be starting hrt next week if my darn endo will see me than xD either way, I'M HAPPY!!!!!!!
Fingers crossed about time a little luck comes your way
Quote from: Brianna Umiko Liliana on May 21, 2014, 05:37:29 PM
i got my official letter (picking it up friday or saturday. he said call him friday and see when i can pick it up) from my therapist and will be starting hrt next week if my darn endo will see me than xD either way, I'M HAPPY!!!!!!!
Congrats and good luck.
The amount of times I as able to say "I yold you so" because they did not accept my advice in the ice hockey today. I told them they should of taken the over 5.5 goals option but the 'master gambelers' don't listen to little ol' me
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Seeing our baby for the first time on the screen from the ultra sound and hearing its heartbeat!!
Quote from: Finesse2loud on May 22, 2014, 02:05:03 AM
Seeing our baby for the first time on the screen from the ultra sound and hearing its heartbeat!!
Always the most exciting, enough to make a believer out of anyone, congrats!
should be starting spiro today if my pcp can get into contact with my endo xD
Woke up to sunshine, coffee, and a free afternoon to write and hang out online.
Yesterday, I took my son to the park and there was a group of dogs there. One in particular found a stick he really wanted. Unfortunately, it was still in the tree. No matter how he jumped and how much he barked, he just couldn't get it. He didn't give up though. There isn't much cuter than my kid giggling and barking along with a jumping dog.
Today, I took him to the park again and he approached other kids to play. Mostly, he copied them, but still. This is a big change for a kid who used to only play next to kids instead of willingly interacting with them.
Quote from: Edge on May 22, 2014, 04:23:25 PM
Yesterday, I took my son to the park and there was a group of dogs there. One in particular found a stick he really wanted. Unfortunately, it was still in the tree. No matter how he jumped and how much he barked, he just couldn't get it. He didn't give up though. There isn't much cuter than my kid giggling and barking along with a jumping dog.
Today, I took him to the park again and he approached other kids to play. Mostly, he copied them, but still. This is a big change for a kid who used to only play next to kids instead of willingly interacting with them.
Sounds like a big improvement in his social development!
I came out to my parents. I knew it wasn't gonna sound right face to face so I emailed my dad and explained my situation. I asked him to mention this to my mum. Anyway, he wished me the best of luck and I don't think my mum cares. So now my immediate family and most of my best friends know I'm transgender and accept me.
I also get the Monday off.
Congrats, Kimberley.
The Children of Bodom shirt I ordered came in. I know shirts like this make it harder to hide my chest, but I can't hide my chest anyway and it's an f-ing cool shirt. Although, I am debating taking the sleeves off it. For some reason, I have a thing for sleeveless t-shirts, but can never seem to find any that I like.
forty two and Renee
I had to smile when I found out they were together and both joined Susan's.
Quote from: Edge on May 23, 2014, 02:38:28 PM
Congrats, Kimberley.
Thank you! And I'm glad to read that your kid's getting more social.
I was talking about my thesis to someone, and realized just how close the end is! Wrapping up edits and a conclusion this month, next month I will be working with my supervisor to finish up the details, and then the next month, sending it to my committee and preparing for my defense.
found a penny
Found a box of 'e' in my bag from the chemist with all my other medications. That means I don't need to get it refilled for another month
Had a great phone conversation with someone very special at Susan's today, really made my day!
At 12:30 AM (technically today) I went to a drag show with my room mate for his birthday. It was awesome. Oh how I have missed the feeling of being surrounded completely by queers...
What made me happy. was having made good on a years long promis a failed to keep as (old name).
(new name) took my 2 neices and 2 nephews to Mc Donalds :)
My brother bought me a new weedeater.
Quote from: Jaime R D aka big head horsey-face on May 24, 2014, 10:30:45 PM
My brother bought me a new weedeater.
This reminds me of the lady whose husband bought her a chainsaw for Christmas. :D ;D :laugh:
I've been thinking about getting a weed eater, but not sure if it'll be allowed in my apt.s
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Quote from: V M on May 24, 2014, 10:51:38 PM
I've been thinking about getting a weed eater, but not sure if it'll be allowed in my apt.s
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That's a cute model, I think you can safely vacuum up the pellets though.
The family vacation "up north", as Minnesotans like to say, is on this year. We've been visiting those cabins since before I was born, but there was a period where we thought we might stop.
Quote from: Shantel on May 24, 2014, 10:58:39 PM
So is it a gas model or electric?
Gas, I mow and weedeat two yards, mine and his weekend place that's next to mine. So its about an acre, too big an area for anything electric in my opinion.
Quote from: Jaime R D aka big head horsey-face on May 25, 2014, 05:53:12 AM
Gas, I mow and weedeat two yards, mine and his weekend place that's next to mine. So its about an acre, too big an area for anything electric in my opinion.
Gas is much better, no cord to get in the way as it can be such a nuisance! Seems like brother had a motive for the "gift" huh? What a smart guy!
Quote from: Shantel on May 25, 2014, 10:33:40 AMGas is much better, no cord to get in the way as it can be such a nuisance! Seems like brother had a motive for the "gift" huh? What a smart guy!
I'm quite partial to the electric one I had with a battery. Battery was interchangeable between the leafblower and the edger as well.
Quote from: Lauren5 on May 25, 2014, 11:37:03 AM
I'm quite partial to the electric one I had with a battery. Battery was interchangeable between the leafblower and the edger as well.
Batteries ??? I can only guess where this is going naughty girl! :icon_poke: Just kidding! :icon_hahano:
Quote from: Shantel on May 25, 2014, 12:04:32 PM
Batteries ??? I can only guess where this is going naughty girl! :icon_poke: Just kidding! :icon_hahano:
Bad Auntie!, Bad!, lmao, he, he, he ha ha ha!!
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on May 25, 2014, 12:35:25 PM
Bad Auntie!, Bad!, lmao, he, he, he ha ha ha!!
Ally :icon_flower:
Just chiding the girl, we gotta have a little naughty humor here, I know my buddy Birkin would think so.
Just got back after 5 days at Spring Fling trans event, I'm still euphoric after meeting so many trans people, we had a great time!
http://www.galsspringfling.com/
Quote from: Shantel on May 25, 2014, 12:04:32 PMBatteries ??? I can only guess where this is going naughty girl! :icon_poke: Just kidding! :icon_hahano:
Oh jeez :P
Not quite there yet :P
Friend said she'd take me for one for my birthday, problem was my birthday was nearly a month gone by then :P
Quote from: Lauren5 on May 25, 2014, 11:02:33 PM
Oh jeez :P
Not quite there yet :P
Friend said she'd take me for one for my birthday, problem was my birthday was nearly a month gone by then :P
Funny things Friends.
When i first told my fem friend first thing she said was. Im get you one when you get the op. After answering yes im going all the way.
One of my girl cousins called me today, to just see how I was doing. (see the "What made you unhappy" thread). I thot it was her sister who was calling, but in any event, , I said (still thinking it was her sister), "Know what? I love you for being there for me.." She said, "I love you back!" I called her back after I realized I made the mistake who I was talking to, and I said it to her again after I was called back to apologize for mistaking who called.. She said it again, and that made me really happy. I have some of the most amazing loving cousins. They're way better than my own family.
I just took a viagra to do a little experiment. I am not triggered by erections, and I am actually quite happy. Why? the results of the experiment:
a) I'm not suffering any kind of atrophy from the tissues and muscles down there
b) Since due to GID even pre-discovering myself I had issues getting the thing on, I really did not know what do I have. And it looks like I have more than 15 cm, close to 16cm, depending on if you measure from the skin or the bone. And this is good, since it means more donor material for SRS.
I think I'll be keeping this for the "clone-a-willy" dildo making kit before I say goodbye to the baldie.
It is raining really f'in hard out right now, torrential downpour, loud thunder, flashing of lightning, very strong wind. Well (before it got really bad), here I was cross-stitching and I kept hearing a basketball bouncing out there and an occasional laugh or outburst of excitement, sounds of a girl and guy. Well, I opened up our sliding glass door to the porch and take a look out, and there's this young couple (probably in their 20s) out there, sure enough, playing b-ball in the rain, they were sopping wet and enjoying themselves to the fullest. Just hearing and seeing them together like this lit up my face. I was smiling for minutes after. But when the storm doubled in intensity I guess they felt, yep, this was fun and all, but that's just way too much lightning and went back home inside.
I showed my cross dressing pics to a couple of best friends and got good feedback on them. I might even post them here when I can be arsed.
My mom is talking about moving down here before she retires :)
Quote from: ButterflyVickster on May 25, 2014, 11:20:01 PMFunny things Friends.
When i first told my fem friend first thing she said was. Im get you one when you get the op. After answering yes im going all the way.
Not like you couldn't use it now ;)
Quote from: Alainaluvsu on May 26, 2014, 04:17:51 PM
My mom is talking about moving down here before she retires :)
That would be cool! New Orleans is a fabulous place, I drove down there once from Seattle and spent a lot of time in the French Quarter where I put on ten pounds sampling all the fine Cajun cuisine.
I got a new shirt last week and managed to squirm my binder just the right way and with the new shirt I look so much better in my top. Felt awesome going to the store with my family today and getting the odd confused looks from strangers haha. I know I'm in that up in the air stage atm and I find it actually kind of funny watching people's gears turn as they try to figure my gender out.
Quote from: Hex on May 26, 2014, 06:24:54 PM
I got a new shirt last week and managed to squirm my binder just the right way and with the new shirt I look so much better in my top. Felt awesome going to the store with my family today and getting the odd confused looks from strangers haha. I know I'm in that up in the air stage atm and I find it actually kind of funny watching people's gears turn as they try to figure my gender out.
Good for you Hex, glad to see someone's happy today. You look great in your avatar photo!
Drinking bubbly on the deck overlooking the Napa Valley.
Major Jillax moment. Ahhhh...
Quote from: Jill F on May 26, 2014, 06:53:13 PM
Drinking bubbly on the deck overlooking the Napa Valley.
Major Jillax moment. Ahhhh...
Haha Jillax....love the Jillisms!
Complimented on my hair colour when I picked up the paper for work. Very good way to start the day
Quote from: Shantel on May 26, 2014, 06:29:23 PM
Good for you Hex, glad to see someone's happy today. You look great in your avatar photo!
Thank you! Hope you're doing well yourself!
Giving a cyber hug and helping someone to feel better anough about themself to sleep.
My mail lady had a box for me today, and complimented me on how nice I looked. She's been my mail lady for the past 5 years, and we've become friends, so she's watched me throughout my transition and her comments on my facial and body changes mean a lot because she doesn't see me everyday. In any case she made me a happy girl today!
Ally :icon_flower:
This makes me laugh. (Language warning.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=in9SiDtJLaU&feature=share (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=in9SiDtJLaU&feature=share)
What didn't make me happy today? Vacation rocks.
Call from a receptionist about a doctors appointment. "It was all can you let him know he has an appointment", "calling to confirm he will be there". I answered my phone using my name that is on their records and she mentioned me by name yet she still thought it was someone different to who she was speaking to ;D
my name is very unisex so while my records are under Mr X, I think my voice passed today
The package I need was finally shipped. Hope it gets here before my head explodes...
Quote from: Jaime R D on May 28, 2014, 03:10:55 AM
The package I need was finally shipped. Hope it gets here before my head explodes...
Your getting a Head Enlarger? 0.0
I got packages coming today :)
Today's my weekly weigh-in day at the gym and despite putting on muscle over the past week, I've lost just under a kilo of weight. So that useless extra padding is slowly but surely disappearing.
This time next year I'm going to be FAABulous! ;D
The lyrics to "You'll Never Walk Alone" have elevated my mood considerably.
When you walk through the storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
There's a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of the lark
Walk on, through the wind
Walk on, through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone
Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on May 28, 2014, 04:53:49 PM
The lyrics to "You'll Never Walk Alone" have elevated my mood considerably.
Kimberley,
It is very uplifting and gets your spirit soaring!
Well the big one is that I got out to do some shopping and did productive work around the house. The other being that my fiance met a raver on the bus who gave him some body jewelry (got me two barbels for my brow) and commented on our commissions. I might actually have someone that can help me sell my kandi work.
Cabernet Sauvignon
Today is my 20th wedding anniversary and we are celebrating with a 1985 Dom Perignon. We last had it 20 years ago today.
It is so much better now.
Quote from: Jill F on May 28, 2014, 07:55:03 PM
Today is my 20th wedding anniversary and we are celebrating with a 1985 Dom Perignon. We last had it 20 years ago today.
It is so much better now.
Congratulations to you and the bride Jill! :icon_bunch:
Quote from: Shantel on May 28, 2014, 08:00:21 PM
Congratulations to you and the bride Jill! :icon_bunch:
Aww, thank you sweetie!
When we have our 25th, we will have another ceremony with the clothes reversed. And hopefully we can find that Dom again.
Quote from: Jill F on May 28, 2014, 08:05:24 PM
Aww, thank you sweetie!
When we have our 25th, we will have another ceremony with the clothes reversed. And hopefully we can find that Dom again.
Our 45th is coming up June 26, it sure zipped by all to quickly.
Quote from: Jill F on May 28, 2014, 07:55:03 PM
Today is my 20th wedding anniversary and we are celebrating with a 1985 Dom Perignon. We last had it 20 years ago today.
It is so much better now.
Gratzes!!!
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I was reunited with another childhood friend.
This is Debra. She went by the name of Portia back in the day. (But now I have THE Portia so...yeah) This pic is much better quality than the usual pics I have posted since this was taken with my brother's wife's camera phone. I had to fix her nose with some cellophane tape, but she's in decent shape considering that she's been tossed here, there and everywhere since about 1990ish once she went in various closets in my parent's home. Now she's chillin' with Portia and everyone else on my couch.
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on May 28, 2014, 10:23:54 PM
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I was reunited with another childhood friend.
This is Debra. She went by the name of Portia back in the day. (But now I have THE Portia so...yeah) This pic is much better quality than the usual pics I have posted since this was taken with my brother's wife's camera phone. I had to fix her nose with some cellophane tape, but she's in decent shape considering that she's been tossed here, there and everywhere since about 1990ish once she went in various closets in my parent's home. Now she's chillin' with Portia and everyone else on my couch.
Very cute, she's got a good home!
I Latched on to the spark of hope.
I embrace this spark, hold it close. ill never let it die. ill feed it with ambition.
I Take hope with me. That spark is who i am.
Ill offer any and all hope with every smile. and shield all those who smile at me.
I have a future and a dream.
And I bring hope to both.
Quote from: Shantel on May 28, 2014, 10:49:12 PM
Very cute, she's got a good home!
Now she does.
She's a bit worse for wear (Especially when you compare her to the others. They were actually taken care of.) But she certainly won't be taking Portia's place. I will need to reassure her a bit so that she doesn't get jealous.
:D ;)
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on May 28, 2014, 10:55:11 PM
Now she does.
She's a bit worse for wear (Especially when you compare her to the others. They were actually taken care of.) But she certainly won't be taking Portia's place. I will need to reassure her a bit so that she doesn't get jealous.
:D ;)
Lol, we used to have "Fat Bear", he was my wife's special security squeeze when she was little, we found him again several years ago but finally he just disintegrated and was relegated to the big teddy bear place in the sky.
Quote from: Shantel on May 28, 2014, 11:01:32 PM
Lol, we used to have "Fat Bear", he was my wife's special security squeeze when she was little, we found him again several years ago but finally he just disintegrated and was relegated to the big teddy bear place in the sky.
They also have a big bear that is really old. They bought it for me when I was 2. But I didn't want it.
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on May 28, 2014, 11:05:24 PM
They also have a big bear that is really old. They bought it for me when I was 2. But I didn't want it.
:-*
Found an audiobook of a book I wanted to read. I prefer this, as I can still work, go for a walk, etc. while listening. I have trouble doing work, exercising, walking, etc. without some kind of intelligible sound (white noise or anything like that doesn't do it for me, conversation, music, etc. is required) so that's pretty happy.
So far this morning;
1) Seeing the newest video by the L.A. Beast. He visited a fan in the hospital who was undergoing chemo and it made me smile seeing that Youtubers really do care about their fans. He did a video in honor of a high school student who passed away before and it was sweet IMO.
2) Knowing my fiance will be here in about 20 minutes and I'm about to leave for the bus station to pick him up.
3) My binder arrived at the post office early this morning and should be here soon!
LAST DAY OF CLASSES EVER (.... Or at least for this degree)
Happiness from yesterday: I SAW METALLICA AND IT WAS AWESOME.
Happiness from today: I got mail from the hospital and my hysto will be done June 4th and for me that'll end my most drastic transition procedures. :) Unless I change my mind in the future and I decide to have SRS.
Happy birthday to Laverne Cox.
Quote from: Edge on May 29, 2014, 08:28:41 PM
Happy birthday to Laverne Cox.
;D A day to celebrate, that's for sure. She is such an asset to the transgender community.
Quote from: birkin on May 29, 2014, 09:09:39 PM
;D A day to celebrate, that's for sure. She is such an asset to the transgender community.
Indeed. She is a fantastic woman. Have you seen the Times? I like how proud she looks.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=65PiKsNhCsc
I had seen and liked a Mary Poppins one he did awhile back, but wasn't that impressed with some of the others. This one pushes all my buttons though since I loved this movie as much as Mary Poppins when I was a kid. Probably that effect would hold for any movie treatment and I'm as much a sucker for nostalgia as the next person.
Dinner in San Francisco with my brother and his wife. We are pretty sure now that Rice-a-roni does not exist on a single menu here.
Being called a lady at work today by a regular and her son. While the 'Lady' part is some what debatable, (me prim proper posh :P). It was nice to hear
Today I got to go on a boat ride with a bunch of coworkers, some of whom I've come to consider good friends. It was this employee appreciation banquet, and it was really nice. We watched the sunset from the boat and took ridiculous selfies and a friend got some really cool photos of a bald eagle and another bird of prey that were both circling over the cliffs nearby. I really appreciated feeling included, even though I am a work-study employee and everyone else there (that I knew) was salaried. I have a general feeling of being excluded from life, so when I feel close enough to people to be in pictures with them, it's a really amazing feeling.
Quote from: Jill F on May 30, 2014, 01:14:51 AM
Dinner in San Francisco with my brother and his wife. We are pretty sure now that Rice-a-roni does not exist on a single menu here.
I had often wondered, they lied!
LOL... It's called Rice-A-Roni and the commercial jingle came about because of it's origins in the Mission District of SF
Rice-A-Roni (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rice-A-Roni)
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Rice-A-Roni is a product of PepsiCo's subsidiary, the Quaker Oats Company. It is a boxed food mix that consists of rice, vermicelli pasta, and seasonings. To prepare, the rice and pasta are browned in butter, then water and seasonings are added and simmered until absorbed...
History:
In 1895, Italian-born immigrant Domenico ("Charlie") DeDomenico moved to California, where he set up a fresh produce store. A successful businessman, he married Maria Ferrigno from Salerno, Italy. Back home, her family owned a pasta factory, so in 1912 she persuaded him to set up a similar business in the Mission District of San Francisco. The enterprise became known as Gragnano Products, Inc. It delivered pasta to Italian stores and restaurants in the area.
Domenico's sons, Paskey, Vince (1915–2007), Tom, and Anthony, worked with him. In 1934, Paskey changed the name to Golden Grain Macaroni Company. Inspired by the pilaf recipe she received from Mrs. Pailadzo Captanian, Tom's wife, Lois, created a dish of rice and macaroni, which she served at a family dinner. In 1958, Vince invented Rice-A-Roni by adding a dry chicken soup mix to rice and macaroni. It was introduced in 1958 in the Northwestern United States and went nationwide four years later. Because of its origins, it was called "The San Francisco Treat!".
After a trip to Italy in 1964, Vince returned with the idea for "Noodle Roni Parmesano", based on the classic Noodles Alfredo. As the product line extended with other shapes and sauces it was renamed from Noodle Roni to Pasta Roni in 1995. In 1986 Quaker Oats Company purchased the Golden Grain Company from the DeDomenico family. Since 2001, Rice-a-Roni has been owned by PepsiCo. American Italian Pasta Company bought the Golden Grain brand in 2003.
That's interesting to know and is a good use for rice rather than the usual boring applications that get served.
Listen up Jill!
picking up my sister at the airport tonight around 10 and then truckin it to Orlando because.... TOMORROW I'M GOIN TO DISNEYWORLDDDD!!!!
Quote from: GnomeKid on May 30, 2014, 11:07:07 AM
picking up my sister at the airport tonight around 10 and then truckin it to Orlando because.... TOMORROW I'M GOIN TO DISNEYWORLDDDD!!!!
Beeecause you play for the Seattle and won the Super Bowl earlier this year?
Walking out my my doctors office with a prescription for Cypro, just need go make a deposit to the bio bank and get a pre treatment blood test done and I'm on my way.
I got my black belt in traditional Shotokan Karate, I feel proud of myself
Sweet coffee always reminds me of my grandpa. I started drinking coffee when I was around 12-13, and while my mother and grandmother would often refuse me he'd let me have a cup. I loved the old family cabin with him or staying with him and grandma for a weekend.
My peecock came :D
Quote from: christopher on May 30, 2014, 05:18:42 PM
My peecock came :D
I don't know what a peecock is :/ but for some reason this seems like a very simple thing (ohhh its speeled different o the bird so maybe not so simple). but im in a simple thing mood today, kind of an "its the little things that make life great" kind of mood.
And came here to say, what made me happy today was, finding out a request of mine has been placed in the Christian song list (strong enough)
And seeing what I thought was happiness over another simple thing made me feel a bit better about my simple thing :)
Quote from: Jill F on May 28, 2014, 07:55:03 PM
Today is my 20th wedding anniversary and we are celebrating with a 1985 Dom Perignon. We last had it 20 years ago today.
It is so much better now.
Congratulations to you and your wife Jill! May you have many many many more happy years together! :icon_bunch:
Ally :icon_flower:
It's another day since I last posted in this thread so I can say this made me happy today.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvOpxcPAHJg
I'm somewhat new to owning a computer that can play youtube well, so I'm still easily impressed. If anyone has further suggestions, I'm all ears. I use Pandora, but half of what I try to type in as seed music isn't in their database. Also I suspect that a lot of what I think is good music is really just impressive visually. Amanda Palmer and They Might Be Giants can't be that much better than I used to think they were.
A few things.
Looking at my body and realizing my shoulders aren't broad but slump down like a woman's does
Noticing my waist has a bit of a curve to it like a woman's does
Finally getting my female voice that I was hearing to where now others can hear it too (Still got to work on keeping it there but I can hold a sentence or two & I still got to get it so I can use it without fail instead of practice)
And finally, knowing the 1st two gives me further reason to believe I'm IS. Don't ask me why that makes me happy but still, it does for some odd reason. lol Now I'll venture to go grocery shopping and if I can muster up the courage, I might even hit the town too! I can only hope all goes well.
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This arrived today. I already had the season one DVD set, but once I saw this I had to have it. I will be donating the Red Fraggle plush, graphic novel and the previously purchased DVD set to Goodwill some time next week.
Knowing I get queso fundido later with dinner. Cheeses be braised!
There is no life without cheese.
Quote from: LordKAT on May 31, 2014, 07:14:53 PM
There is no life without cheese.
You sound more like a RAT than a KAT. lol
I had to strap in a hot mom at the bungee trampoline today. Let me tell you..........for once I didn't feel like a dirty pedophile for saying "spread your legs". Wow if that lady was my wife......
Plus she told me that I was good at this job and she had a great time. I had a nice brief conversation with her. I hope she comes back.
I got to spend an R&R day at the house. Taking the boat out tomorrow so this today was great!!
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: LordKAT on May 31, 2014, 07:14:53 PM
There is no life without cheese.
I love cheese. It will be my downfall.
Quote from: Jill F on May 31, 2014, 09:08:53 PM
I love cheese. It will be my downfall.
Mmmmmmm.......cheese.
My son and I believe in extra cheesy goodness, on everything.
Ok, so today has been a really good day for me today. I went to town for groceries, got ma'am there. Someone pointed me to a few products (Such as a shower cap) and even pointed me to a store PLUS a school for beauty care. I got to eat out. (Sadly, I later realized I forgot to bring the coupons with me) Later finally decided, screw it! I'm going out (As myself, purse make up and female voice etc.) and I'm going to go look around in town and try and find a specific alarm clock. (As mine hasn't been sounding the alarm at times even though I've set it to the right time and made sure it's on) While in town I got ma'am like 3 times. I also found a little ci ci's Pizza joint I didn't know was in the area (I plan to try their pizza as it's been far too long and I can't remember the taste of their pizza) and even went to the theater to see what was playing (My first time in there too, kind of) and finally after no luck on finding the specific alarm clock, I headed home. Oh that made me happy to be home finally. Oh, I also found a penny on heads which made me happy.
All in all. It's been a really good day, maybe even a great day. :)
Also, a little edit/update here on my previous post. I realized while in that beauty school by looking at the males and females there that, the shoulders being broad for men only isn't true and likewise women have broad shoulders as well.. Now I'm beginning to question if that's just a myth or if, maybe I don't understand what broad shoulders are? (I highly doubt that school had a bunch of trans people like me in it lol)
$1.27
Replaced a geranium plant what someone had stolen from one of my neighbors by using starts that I had rooted from a more mature plant, working on getting my own planters ready
Got handed a guitar and played a bit at the hotel bar. Improvised everything as well.
Still got it!
A lot has happened since I last posted. Some good, some very very bad. But this is the good thread so I will share that here.
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My work will be appearing in Star Trek: renegades. So far, fans really like the Mako. I'll be appearing in a podcast to discuss it's design with Scott Nakada, the art director and my boss on Renegades. And Doug Drexler has suggested I do a ships of the line render for the Ships of the line callendar.
And today, I got this in the mail.
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Quote from: Rainbow Brite on June 01, 2014, 03:48:10 AMA lot has happened since I last posted. Some good, some very very bad. But this is the good thread so I will share that here.
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My work will be appearing in Star Trek: renegades. So far, fans really like the Mako. I'll be appearing in a podcast to discuss it's design with Scott Nakada, the art director and my boss on Renegades. And Doug Drexler has suggested I do a ships of the line render for the Ships of the line callendar.
And today, I got this in the mail.
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Since when does Star Trek have fighters? :P
Since I designed them. :P check out the Star Trek: Renegades website for more details. ;)
Quote from: Rainbow Brite on June 01, 2014, 03:48:10 AM
A lot has happened since I last posted. Some good, some very very bad. But this is the good thread so I will share that here.
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My work will be appearing in Star Trek: renegades. So far, fans really like the Mako. I'll be appearing in a podcast to discuss it's design with Scott Nakada, the art director and my boss on Renegades. And Doug Drexler has suggested I do a ships of the line render for the Ships of the line callendar.
And today, I got this in the mail.
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Wow very impressive, I know that I and at least one other person here are really thrilled for you!
Quote from: V M on May 31, 2014, 11:03:52 PM
Replaced a geranium plant what someone had stolen from one of my neighbors by using starts that I had rooted from a more mature plant, working on getting my own planters ready
You've got a green thumb Garden Princess!
Quote from: Shantel on June 01, 2014, 07:49:12 AM
You've got a green thumb Garden Princess!
Thank you
I enjoy doing a bit of gardening, just wish I was physically able to do more
She's one of the nicer gals
It just kinda pissed me off that someone had the audacity to steal her plant
I put the new one out at my neighbor's spot as a surprise, she seemed rather happy to find it there
I'm rather shy in some ways and don't vie for much attention, have this bad habit of doing most of my 'do-gooder' stuff on the sly
Quote from: V M on June 01, 2014, 09:24:22 AM
Thank you
I enjoy doing a bit of gardening, just wish I was physically able to do more
She's one of the nicer gals
It just kinda pissed me off that someone had the audacity to steal her plant
I put the new one out at my neighbor's spot as a surprise, she seemed rather happy to find it there
I'm rather shy in some ways and don't vie for much attention, have this bad habit of doing most of my 'do-gooder' stuff on the sly
Nothing wrong with that, like the good book says, when you give to others "Don't let your right hand know what your left hand is doing" that way we aren't just doing nice things for others out of boastfully selfish motives to be seen and praised by others. Besides it's fun to surprise someone on the QT like that and very satisfying. Good for you VM, my kinda gal there!
I went to see my wife in the nursing home and took her lunch - pizza! I decided to try and push her bed to a garden so she could be outside, I got stuck! Two of the male carers rescued us, and then brought a glass of wine for each of us. My wife thought it was hilarious and accused me of being a tart.
We agreed! It was nice.
Feeling sad as well.
Oh well life goes on.
Quote from: Cindy on June 01, 2014, 10:02:06 AM
I went to see my wife in the nursing home and took her lunch - pizza! I decided to try and push her bed to a garden so she could be outside, I got stuck! Two of the male carers rescued us, and then brought a glass of wine for each of us. My wife thought it was hilarious and accused me of being a tart.
We agreed! It was nice.
Feeling sad as well.
Oh well life goes on.
Hugs for our favorite tart and her dear spouse! ((Hugs))
Quote from: Jill F on June 01, 2014, 01:39:43 AM
Got handed a guitar and played a bit at the hotel bar. Improvised everything as well.
Still got it!
That is awesome!
Realizing things are looking better than they have in a long time. If things continue this way, well, it'll be good, real good.
My French love interest just scored, in only his third match for France.
Quote from: Rainbow Brite on June 01, 2014, 03:48:10 AM
A lot has happened since I last posted. Some good, some very very bad. But this is the good thread so I will share that here.
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My work will be appearing in Star Trek: renegades. So far, fans really like the Mako. I'll be appearing in a podcast to discuss it's design with Scott Nakada, the art director and my boss on Renegades. And Doug Drexler has suggested I do a ships of the line render for the Ships of the line callendar.
And today, I got this in the mail.
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WoW, Love it! I've been a big Star Trek fan all my life. It must be awesome to be actually working on a Star Trek movie!
Ally :icon_flower:
Actually yesterday, Last Friday I was nearly out of olive oil and the store was completely out of the kind I wanted
Went back to check yesterday and they'd gotten some in and it was on sale 8)
It's a bit long but I totally had to share.
I just wanted to say that my daughter and husband need awards or medals or something.
My daughter went out with my grandpa yesterday to the park and McDs and when my grandpa brought them home he actually used my new name which surprised the heck out of me.
When he left I mentioned it to my husband and my daughter spoke up and said that she helped with that.
Conversation:
Me: How did you help grandpa change?
Daughter: Well every time he said your old name or said she, mom and stuff I would correct him.
Me: *teary eyed* Thank you sweety!
I totally hugged the heck out of that girl. She's just so amazing and blows me away like every day. (btw she's 7)
And today I got a call from my dad and during the quick convo he actually corrected himself with my new name too! When I asked my husband about it he said when my dad called him first, my dad kept saying my old name and my husband kept correcting him. And I guess it stuck.
I'm just flabbergasted. I really really am. I'm at a loss of words. I don't know how I ever got so lucky having such an amazing family but I wouldn't give them up for anything in this world.
Wife and I went left our clients office early to go to the mall after she realized they put the wrong backs on her nearly pierced ears. (She had them re-pierced yesterday after letting them close after years of not wearing ear rings.) She bough me another set of ear rings and we did some clothes shopping. I got some nice capris that make me look really good :) a few tops and a more appropriate (feminine) computer bag that can double as a handbag :)
Quote from: Allyda on June 01, 2014, 04:42:18 PM
WoW, Love it! I've been a big Star Trek fan all my life. It must be awesome to be actually working on a Star Trek movie!
Ally :icon_flower:
I am really thrilled. Renegades isnt a huge movie, we have a very small team, but thats okay, we have a lot of spirit. Aside from the Mako I am charged with building some building models, important set pieces of course and very prominant ones too. I've made some awesome friends from this experience and learned new things. My supervisor has been great too.
If the rest of my life was even a fraction as enjoyable as Renegades has been I'd be happy. As it is I am fighting to keep my apartment and this time my family and I have no where else to go. I even created an art print to try and help raise money. Since my work was going to be seen in Renegades I decided to make the print of Airframe 002 with Renegades Era emblem.
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The best complement I have had about it was from Andrew Probert himself who said, "I wish I had designed that."
After the art director sent me the comm badge, I taught him how to get started with rendering. its this helpng people learn that has made it a great experience.
One of my colleagues has been thinking about resigning because she's bored with her job. So I had a couple of words with the right people, recommending ways in which we could put her skills to better use... and she's just been promoted to a more interesting position with better pay. :D
I finally bought my first pair of heels i got then on sale for $19.95 reduced from $49.95 yay i just love sales
Pizza & CSI!
Compliments abound, and I'm taking them with a smile (not the usual frown and wonder that the other person wants).
Quote from: big kim on June 03, 2014, 04:12:01 PMPizza & CSI!
Ohhh, you lucky! What I wouldn't like to order a pizza right now. Getting tired of pasta and ramen; I need some meat back in my diet, I could be developing anaemia.
Alas, I have bills to pay before I can buy any food besides the basic necessities. And to pay those, I still need to find a stupid job!
Quote from: Rainbow Brite on June 03, 2014, 04:54:30 AM
I am really thrilled. Renegades isnt a huge movie, we have a very small team, but thats okay, we have a lot of spirit. Aside from the Mako I am charged with building some building models, important set pieces of course and very prominant ones too. I've made some awesome friends from this experience and learned new things. My supervisor has been great too.
If the rest of my life was even a fraction as enjoyable as Renegades has been I'd be happy. As it is I am fighting to keep my apartment and this time my family and I have no where else to go. I even created an art print to try and help raise money. Since my work was going to be seen in Renegades I decided to make the print of Airframe 002 with Renegades Era emblem.
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The best complement I have had about it was from Andrew Probert himself who said, "I wish I had designed that."
After the art director sent me the comm badge, I taught him how to get started with rendering. its this helpng people learn that has made it a great experience.
One day it will be! The more time that passes, the closer you get to finding work in that field. And I know that even just that will make your life better. I'm so proud of you. ;D
I'm happy because I got contacted for an interview next week. I'm so nervous, terrified that I'll blow it. But hey, this is farther than I've gotten in the past 6 months so that in and of itself is reason to celebrate!
I got a mountain of clothes washed.
doesn't seem like much. but with a room as small as mine. the stress of not being able to move was aarrrgh.
Quote from: birkin on June 03, 2014, 06:19:13 PM
One day it will be! The more time that passes, the closer you get to finding work in that field. And I know that even just that will make your life better. I'm so proud of you. ;D
I'm happy because I got contacted for an interview next week. I'm so nervous, terrified that I'll blow it. But hey, this is farther than I've gotten in the past 6 months so that in and of itself is reason to celebrate!
WOOHOO! I'm so happy for you. *hugs* ^_^
I bought a bottle of Febreeze and I am initiating the process in "de-smellifying" Debra, my newest plushie. Actually, she's almost as old as most of the others, but she's been tossed in various closets in my parents home from 1990 til now.
Quote from: birkin on June 03, 2014, 06:19:13 PM
One day it will be! The more time that passes, the closer you get to finding work in that field. And I know that even just that will make your life better. I'm so proud of you. ;D
I'm happy because I got contacted for an interview next week. I'm so nervous, terrified that I'll blow it. But hey, this is farther than I've gotten in the past 6 months so that in and of itself is reason to celebrate!
I'm proud of you both because neither of you are quitters, just like that pink rabbit you keep on keeping on in spite of everything.
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on June 03, 2014, 07:09:43 PMI bought a bottle of Febreeze and I am initiating the process in "de-smellifying" Debra, my newest plushie. Actually, she's almost as old as most of the others, but she's been tossed in various closets in my parents home from 1990 til now.
Hmm, I wish that worked on actual pets too...
My roommate's cats are in dire need of baths, but who am I to tell her to bathe her cats? I'd do it myself, if I could afford cat shampoo.
Took my first Andocur (Cypro) pill today, the journey starts now.
Put in my application to take over running a new work place when it comes available. If this works I'll become technically self employed. (Still have to obey head office thou but I'm the one in charge)
Quote from: antonia on June 03, 2014, 07:34:01 PMTook my first Andocur (Cypro) pill today, the journey starts now.
I dunno, you look really pretty already. Seems as if you've got a good starting block.
Quote from: antonia on June 03, 2014, 07:34:01 PM
Took my first Andocur (Cypro) pill today, the journey starts now.
Welcome to the happy side of life
This site, the threads here and the amazing and friendly people here who, are just awesome! Yes this means you too! :)
Thanks everyone!
In addition to this, multiple other things as well.
Quote from: Shana-chan on June 03, 2014, 07:57:12 PMYes this means you too! :)
Awww, well thank you, girlie :)
I try :P
Quote from: CandiceSkirvin on June 03, 2014, 08:18:26 PMMy boyfriend brought me Chinese food. ;D
Can I get in on that? I'd do pretty much anything to a man who brought me dinner ;)
Quote from: Lauren5 on June 03, 2014, 07:49:45 PM
I dunno, you look really pretty already. Seems as if you've got a good starting block.
Thanks! Yesterday I found out that for some reason I don't produce any reproductive material, this might point to a genetic/chromosomal condition, not sure what to think of it but can't say I'm very sad, it was never meant to be anyway.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on June 03, 2014, 07:51:34 PM
Welcome to the happy side of life
I think June 3rd 2014 is going to be one of those days that I'll remember for the rest of my life, I went in for my baseline blood test, then right next door to the coffee shop, had breakfast and popped the pill. It's nice having two birthdays :)
I came out a LOT over the past 48 hours nothing negative yet. Only positive.
(Still feel scared sh!tless)
Well done, MacG! It gets easier eventually.
What made me happy... Nando's UK have just announced that they're going to start selling chicken thighs. Yum!
Today I'm a veeeeeeery happy happy girl! I had my gender changed on my driver's license to female. Now changing my other documents will be super easy. But the absolute best part of this is, now I can proudly show my ID when required without an explanation to go with it. I feel like celebrating! YaY!!!!!
This has been a long time coming for me. I suddenly feel validated. Oh, another thing is my boobies are having a growth spurt!
Just a happy happy happy day!!
Ally :icon_flower:
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This arrived today. I already had the season one DVD set, but once I saw this I had to have it. I will be donating the Red Fraggle plush, graphic novel and the previously purchased DVD set to Goodwill some time next week.
I love Fraggle Rock! When I was younger I used to think the signs at the zoo that said "Fragile Rock - Do Not Climb" were related in some way. Like the characters were hiding out in my local zoo or something lol.
Well, I just made my appointment to begin my medical transition, and a new binder I ordered is coming soon. Also, the partner and I ordered pizza! I need to raise my standards for excitement. ::)
Work.
Today I was expecting to be misgendered at least once like I've had to put up with on a near daily basis (Not done on purpose btw) but today, I got nothing but her :) even from people who hadn't been calling me by female pronouns. :) Now, if only I can work up the courage to start using my female voice.. I think I'll just work on it some more and try laughing, sneezing, coughing, yelling/whispering etc. with it more before I do so or maybe after that plus finally getting my hair under control and getting my ears pierced finally. Least that's what I'm telling myself now but, we'll see..
My therapist said she would write my WPATH letter whenever I wanted it.
Congrats Mac, it sounds like you're making a lot of awesome progress in a short period of time. ;D
I'm happy because my dad bought frozen fruits.
I got my housing assignment at the seminary!
Knowing that I tried my best.
Decided to give the eyeliner a try again; my first attempt (some days ago) was sloppy and I got some in my eyes and they got all red and agitated by it that I didn't think I wanted to try again, but I couldn't help myself. I did much better this time (only the top lids, following close along the lashes, nothing extravagant). Ooh, pretty (oops, missed a spot). Interestingly wearing it makes my eyes look not only bigger, but closer together, but also it makes my cheeks look fuller (face seems slightly rounder)...optical illusion. Hmm, I may definitely give this another try. I'm not used to wearing it though, as it dried it feels like something heavy is pulling on my lids, guess I'll get used to it. Just have to make sure to wash it off real good before I go to bed tonight, don't want to wake up with eye infections.
Seeing a FB picture of this beautiful girl my sister knows. She has a business suit on and sitting at a desk. That girl is so sexy and classy. I wouldn't mind marrying her, lol.
Lots of good stuff happening here. Congratulations Mac, Klaus and Allyda.
This evening my voice was cracking like crazy and right now I'm a baritone. Heh. I would love it if my voice settled here.
I made myself a schedule today, am forcing myself to stick to it, and I actually am. Score one for me. Take that, procrastination.
Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 04, 2014, 11:09:02 PM
Decided to give the eyeliner a try again; my first attempt (some days ago) was sloppy and I got some in my eyes and they got all red and agitated by it that I didn't think I wanted to try again, but I couldn't help myself.
When I was first learning how to apply eyeliner as a teenager, I found it useful to practise by drawing outside of the lash line (rather than inside) so that I could master the technique of dragging a pencil along the delicate skin, and accurately following the curve of my eyelid. It didn't take long for me to get this right, and then I could easily move over to doing it inside the lash line.
Also, the softer the pencil, the easier it is for practising with.
Assisting with an emergency situation and having one of the EMTs call me Ma'am while thanking me for my help 8)
Actually, the end result made me unhappy, but I was happy at first.
On my walk (went a total of 7 miles roundtrip to get myself a treat for dinner, I felt I deserved it even though it cost too much,) while by campus, I passes a street musician, Just after I passed, he added the lines "rock on, honey," directed at me, to his song. I turned around and flashed the horns, he flashed back.
Sad because the last money I have left is reserved for the bus to the therapist on Saturday, I couldn't afford to tip him, as much as I wanted to give him a fiver for making my day.
I threw away nearly all of my male clothes and this was something that was long over due. It took me about 30 mins (Not counting going though it all) as I had other stuff to throw away as well but was well worth it. It was also raining a little as if a sign or something that was washing away the old male me, kind of. lol Now, I just need to force myself to throw away two cool jackets (Which I'm wishing I'd done now) along with the male socks. The jackets aren't a problem but the socks, well, they're going to have to stick around till I can find some woman's socks that fit my feet without cutting into them. (A debit card is probably my best bet, or the mall, whichever comes first lol)
Anyway, I was mad throwing those clothes away because I was like, curse you, I'm not a man! Afterwards, I felt accomplished and happy. Not as happy as I should but, meh, still happy. lol
Quote from: CandiceSkirvin on June 05, 2014, 09:58:53 AM
waking up to my boyfriend petting my hair. lol then some morning fun. >:-)
Coincidentally Haruhi, I had just finished watching your movie when I read this (About 12 hrs ago) and, I'm sure you remember that scene where that someone was petting (Kind of) your hair and then you woke up. :) Then later I saw you reading in one of my threads shortly after I'd posted it/in it. Haruhiism perhaps? :)
I had better control of my sex drive.
I got my Ted bear union suit
I should be getting paid today.
Have a session with the pain monster later today.
I hope Grace didn't hurt her too much last time.
Long weekend and the weathers turned from the summery conditions from the last few weeks.
They are growing fast so easier to hide in the cold. Not that they want to.
I got an 'A' in a course I was taking!
Quote from: Jenny07 on June 06, 2014, 06:44:23 PM
Have a session with the pain monster later today.
I hope Grace didn't hurt her too much last time.
Long weekend and the weathers turned from the summery conditions from the last few weeks.
They are growing fast so easier to hide in the cold. Not that they want to.
No, I think she's still in working order. Had a session myself yesterday, not with N# but I did see her about.
Had a pleasant time with the Pain monster today.
We had a good time.
I must be enjoying it.
You girls and your love of miniature branding irons is always good for a laugh.
Was called miss while window shopping today, called love at work (say what you want that always makes me smile) and entering the secure area minor traffic jam I received a sorry ladies first. Very happy day
Quote from: 930310 on June 07, 2014, 01:00:44 AM
I got an 'A' in a course I was taking!
Math no doubt! ;D
waking up, still alive. :)
I went to a Leicester Chameleons social tonight and I was universally complimented on my looks and told I could pass as female with no major issues. That's boosted my confidence a bit.
It was baking hot, though. And bras. *ugh* VERY uncomfortable, but kind of a necessity, I think.
Seeing the KATS way around my BANNING :) Cheered me up something. Something? yeah quite a lot of something :icon_woowoo: :icon_woowoo: :icon_woowoo: :icon_woowoo:
Quote from: LordKAT on June 07, 2014, 02:09:28 AM
You girls and your love of miniature branding irons is always good for a laugh.
I own 3 of them -I must be a masochist, lol!
As for what made me happy today, my SO and I had a talk and we straightened out a few things that were bothering me. We're taking my boat out fishing tomorrow. Hopefully I'll catch some fish! The little one is really looking forward to her first boat ride. I can't wait to see the look on her little face as we take off. :eusa_dance:
Ally :icon_flower:
Scoring a beautiful goal with some great linkup to make the game 3-2 in our favour, just before the half.
Won $80 playing poker today. Only had $20 on me so am glad I didn't lose that!
I was called Mrs today for the first time while at the local shops.
I was at my parents house with my family earlier and my mom made a comment about my hair saying that I needed to get a hair cut. My sister-in-law (who knows I am trans) said that she liked guys with long hair and that she thought that long hair would look good on me.
It really made me happy when she said that because I didn't feel alone. That's been the hardest thing about transition for me is that I feel like I am so alone in this... I know there are many trans people out there who are going through the same things as me, but I personally don't know any, and it was just refreshing to hear someone I know in the flesh and blood chime in during an uncomfortable time and let me know that she has my back. :)
Quote from: FilaFord on June 08, 2014, 02:57:03 AM
I was at my parents house with my family earlier and my mom made a comment about my hair saying that I needed to get a hair cut. My sister-in-law (who knows I am trans) said that she liked guys with long hair and that she thought that long hair would look good on me.
It really made me happy when she said that because I didn't feel alone. That's been the hardest thing about transition for me is that I feel like I am so alone in this... I know there are many trans people out there who are going through the same things as me, but I personally don't know any, and it was just refreshing to hear someone I know in the flesh and blood chime in during an uncomfortable time and let me know that she has my back. :)
That is wonderful it really helps when you someone has your back
Hysto done June 4th and I'm very much alive and back home. :D
Congrats, Tossu.
I hung out with a friend yesterday who I can talk for hours with. He told me I'm attractive and specified that he meant as a guy. He also has no ulterior motives for being my friend and I believe him. We had a good conversation that included (but was not limited to) subjects like gender, societal pressure, and being trans. I told him how I'm worried about appearing too effeminate because people have and have had a habit of trying to put me in that box and he laughed and said I'm more of a man than he is. (Which is true in other ways. He's got what he describes as a female side and has considered transitioning before.) We talked about how neither of us like the analogy of being "square peg in a round hole" because neither of us wants to be only one shape of peg or fit only one shape of hole. I could go on, but to sum up, it was a good conversation with a friend who gets it.
Also, we went to go see X-men which was good. The ending scene especially makes me excited, but I won't say what it is.
Scored a goal as a midfielder playing football yesterday. Great first time shot from the left corner of the box into the far top corner after some good passing.
Scoring is an achievement for me, as I'm usually back at central defence or in the defensive midfield. My finishing tends to leave a lot to be desired.
Woke up at 3.30am to watch the Canadian GP. Not the nicest.
Race was predictable and business as usual for the first hour.
It came alive in the second half as the silver arrows had problems leaving quite a few with a chance to win.
Turns out that our Aussie, the smiling assassin steal the lead and wins his first ever F1 race.
Well done.
Well worth the effort as the sun slowly rises on a holiday Monday.
Holiday? Monday? I think you are in a time warp.
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Holiday Monday - we are celebrating the Queen's birthday - hilarious but a holiday is good anytime
Best part about Australia. Every day is a holiday
For once I'm not working on the public holiday so I'm double happy. It's my turn to pretend to have a social life ;D
i was able to decipher another part of my book which is surprising ^-^
Quote from: immortal gypsy on June 08, 2014, 04:24:03 PM
Best part about Australia. Every day is a holiday
For once I'm not working on the public holiday so I'm double happy. It's my turn to pretend to have a social life ;D
Come pretend with me, the best is yet to be.
Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on June 08, 2014, 04:25:59 PM
i was able to decipher another part of my book which is surprising ^-^
What kind of book?
I had an owl sit on my shoulder today, that made me happy.
Quote from: Pica Pica on June 10, 2014, 01:37:45 PM
I had an owl sit on my shoulder today, that made me happy.
Wow Pica! That's pretty cool 8) Weren't you a bit nervous about it though?
It was a very well-trained owl. Alas, he'd lost my Hogwart's letter.
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Quote from: CandiceSkirvin on June 10, 2014, 04:50:45 PMI went hiking with my boyfriend and we hiked about 5 miles through the forest. Loved every moment. :-)
I got eaten alive by mosquitoes, both ways on my 3 mile roundtrip walk, about 3/4 of it through the forest, to the store. Every exposed part of my body has bites on it, even a few on my face...
Well, on to what made me happy at today. A conversation with the man at the deli counter.
"Half a pound of the turkey, please"
"Half a pound, so only a little bit. You live alone"
"Yeah, I do." (I intentionally left out my roommate, as I barely interact with her and she should be on the way out in a few days)
"What a shame."
I would have asked him to coffee if he was closer to my age :P
It was a good day at work today and on my way home, for the first time ever in my life, I found money besides change, I found, a whole, $1.
My reaction (roughly)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLTZctTG6cE
Playing with my dog and making a video of us. I actually felt good after that.
http://youtu.be/cf5tavQqmzE
I'm listening to a song from the upcoming Eluveitie album and it is awesome!
Quote from: Lauren5 on June 10, 2014, 11:15:59 PM
I got eaten alive by mosquitoes, both ways on my 3 mile roundtrip walk, about 3/4 of it through the forest, to the store. Every exposed part of my body has bites on it, even a few on my face...
Well, on to what made me happy at today. A conversation with the man at the deli counter.
"Half a pound of the turkey, please"
"Half a pound, so only a little bit. You live alone"
"Yeah, I do." (I intentionally left out my roommate, as I barely interact with her and she should be on the way out in a few days)
"What a shame."
I would have asked him to coffee if he was closer to my age :P
Hm, I would have taken that as threatening lol. Like omg he knows I live alone is he going to kill me. But I'm too paranoid.
Quote from: birkin on June 11, 2014, 11:51:26 PMHm, I would have taken that as threatening lol. Like omg he knows I live alone is he going to kill me. But I'm too paranoid.
I thought it was cute :D
Today is my busiest day of the month at work. Sort of like PMS.
Now it's done for the month I can flush it away until next time.
Next time I will be in Manilla, so guess I will miss it next month.
Will have to prepare training and tests for them while there.
I feel mean but they need tough tests.
Looks like I will need lots of patience. Any volunteers?
Be warned I not a doctor but will try anything.
Quote from: Jenny07 on June 12, 2014, 05:44:52 AM
Today is my busiest day of the month at work. Sort of like PMS.
Now it's done for the month I can flush it away until next time.
Next time I will be in Manilla, so guess I will miss it next month.
Will have to prepare training and tests for them while there.
I feel mean but they need tough tests.
Looks like I will need lots of patience. Any volunteers?
Be warned I not a doctor but will try anything.
Sorry, branding irons aren't my thing.
Seriously though, what kind of training do you do?
Work in finance doing performance.
Have to train a team in Manilla to take our jobs.
Worked in performance for 15 plus years now.
I can make 2 + 2 equal anything I want and prove it. ;D
Can you?
Nice, considering I am a trained Geologist.
2+2=5 in instances of very large values of 2
Quote from: Jenny07 on June 12, 2014, 07:22:07 AM
Work in finance doing performance.
Have to train a team in Manilla to take our jobs.
Worked in performance for 15 plus years now.
I can make 2 + 2 equal anything I want and prove it. ;D
Can you?
Nice, considering I am a trained Geologist.
The fact that I'm blessed to have 3 close friends makes me happy.
Found out I'm going to a Lambda Legal event tomorrow night. My wife is now affiliated with them, as their last liason to her firm recently retired. It's kind of sad that her firm only has 2 partners left in her office that are LGBT. At least we get a table with two of our really cool and fun friends, hear a speaker who is a transwoman and enjoy an open bar.
(Bad Jill... Step away from the bar!)
I joined the forum today and made a post where I was honest about my past. I feel better already just because I shared this with someone else, I was so tired of carrying this secret around! The only question I have now is how to be authentic about my transition and detransition in my real daily life.
New top from work that actually fits me ;D. I can only wear it for the next four weeks but still clothes from work that actually fit me
My dog for distracting me with some fun play time. Shantel and Jessica for their support. Worn out from all the crying today, but calm and doing better.
Meeting a friend in person for the very first time.
So we were planning my coverage while I'm away training a team in Manila and client service person comes down and interrupts urgently with a client issue.
Seem to think something's wrong with an important report.
Darn what did I miss?
Look at the data and realise it's the client who is confused and not my data. Resolved the issue and panic averted.
Poor client does not know I will be away for a month. Don't think they would approve.
Later in the day my analyst who will be stepping up to cover comes over for a chat and wants to thank me for everything I have done to help him over the past 6 months as I do so much more that the others. While he is nervous about me going away he is in a good place to step up.
Flights confirmed as now direct with no stop over. Saves half a day.
Busy but good day.
Now to work on the training plan and tests >:-)
A letter arrived that I have been waiting for, for over a year. Now to fix my car....
I'm going to go watch the World Cup matches, do some laundry and buy a Father's Day card.
Two things:
- I received 5 new computers at work. Granted, only one of them is for me - but the other four are lovely and they're mine to enjoy until I have to hand them over to their new owners.
- Someone close to me, who has been unemployed for some time and is feeling very down about it, was unexpectedly offered a job interview at short notice today. The interview went well, so I just hope they're successful. They could do with some good fortune.
Got a call back from a gender therapist about Skype therapy sessions. Now time to figure out whether Aetna will finance this. Makes me feel so impatient to find a job in order to move this transition along, it's so hard...
My laptop is out of the shop and the dude removed the viruses for free!
It feels so weird being able to type with all of my letters again.....and my screen looks wider.
Got my first pair of panties and bra!
Quote from: Shana-chan on June 11, 2014, 04:12:25 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLTZctTG6cE
This. Seeing this made me happy
Quote from: King Malachite on June 13, 2014, 05:19:36 PM
My laptop is out of the shop and the dude removed the viruses for free!
It feels so weird being able to type with all of my letters again.....and my screen looks wider.
Right on dude 8) Glad to see you up and running again
I sold some unused items yesterday, and today I was finally able to get all my bills caught up. I'm now back in the black and intend to stay that way!, YaY!
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: V M on June 13, 2014, 09:02:19 PM
Right on dude 8) Glad to see you up and running again
Thanks, I'm happy to be back. :)
Now you just need to correct your signature. I hope I can say the same for my laptop soon.
On another note, Brianna convinced me to actually cook tonite. It just got done and it is delicious!
chopped some veggies and steamed with olive oil, warmed up some marinara sauce, some tortellini, Parmesan, cheddar, and I feel like I'm eating the kings food.
Quote from: LordKAT on June 13, 2014, 09:58:14 PM
Now you just need to correct your signature. I hope I can say the same for my laptop soon.
Corrected! Gosh it feels so weird to type with those regular letters again.
I'll bet. You may need a 10 minute keyboarding refresher course.
Quote from: LordKAT on June 13, 2014, 10:34:28 PM
I'll bet. You may need a 10 minute keyboarding refresher course.
I wouldn't doubt it. :D
Picked up a whole lot of medication and a bucket load of malaria tablets for trip away.
Also bought 2 new sports bras. I'm going to need them as they have a mind of their own. :)
When are you heading off Jenny?
I was at a friends place last night, and he decided we needed a treat.
Gave me a glass of Octomore whisky.
OMG
Saturday next week. :(
4 weeks away.
Who's going to keep the east coast girls in check? :police:
I will bring back enough dysentery for all to share.
You know I care.
Quote from: Jenny07 on June 14, 2014, 02:33:23 AM
Saturday next week. :(
4 weeks away.
Who's going to keep the east coast girls in check? :police:
I will bring back enough dysentery for all to share.
You know I care.
Don't be nervous Sis!
Relax and try and have a good time as well as working.
New sports bras, perfect....
Listening to my son squeal with laughter as I tickle him.
Now he's singing "The Wheels on the Bus" and making up his own lyrics. Apparently, this is a very big bus that can fit talking trees, a combine, a dump truck, tigers, a crane truck, and many other things.
I miss my kids inventive songs and stuff. It sounds really cute.
I was given a whistle today. I can make noise, loud annoying noise.
I think I may have taken my E twice by accident this morning. I'm happy, nearly euphoric, feeling good and seein everything pink and rainbow despite knowing reality is fa darker.
Also, I'm behaving like a complete slut, and all horny.
I might be getting a job finally. I got an e-mail back for a customer service job at an airport, I've sent my résumé and its great that being bilingual in English and Spanish comes in handy for certain jobs.
Playing a new game with my dog, Warlords (like the old Atari 2600 game).
This was fun!
http://youtu.be/L_YdinPQfDo
Honey 'n oil in my hair, made it nice and silky smooth, plus smelled nice too, for a little bit.
Using that excess honey oil on my body...Snickers chased me around the living room trying to lick my legs. :laugh:
Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 16, 2014, 09:57:07 PM
Playing a new game with my dog, Warlords (like the old Atari 2600 game).
Holy hell! I love the Warlords games! I remember giving that series a lot of my time when I was younger. I think it was Warlords 2 or 3 that I spent a ton of time on.
Also, if you like that game and also have the energy to download a Sega Genesis emulator, get Master of Monsters. Incredible game :)
Got an unexpected cheque in the mail now I can get my facial hair removed. Yaaay
Quote from: FilaFord on June 16, 2014, 11:27:43 PM
Holy hell! I love the Warlords games! I remember giving that series a lot of my time when I was younger. I think it was Warlords 2 or 3 that I spent a ton of time on.
Also, if you like that game and also have the energy to download a Sega Genesis emulator, get Master of Monsters. Incredible game :)
While I had the Warlords game back then, I could never play it on the 2600 because I never had any paddle controllers for it, but I remembered it fondly as my castle got smashed by the ricocheting ball every time. ;D
Darn Genesis emulator always crashed my laptop. :-\ But hey, that's what Youtube is for! My laptop sucks for gaming, but I've always stuck mainly with the NES anyway, so no big deal really. But I don't really play games all that much anymore anyway, not sure what changed.
Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 16, 2014, 09:57:07 PM
Playing a new game with my dog, Warlords (like the old Atari 2600 game).
Honey 'n oil in my hair, made it nice and silky smooth, plus smelled nice too, for a little bit.
Using that excess honey oil on my body...Snickers chased me around the living room trying to lick my legs. :laugh:
Snickers is so cute and attentive as she watches your every move, my dog is like that too. They are unconditionally loving unlike people.
Nothing puts a smile on my face like 2 eggs and tomato on a plain bagel with orange juice.
Terri Clark came on the radio. I don't know why, but I have always found her music to be extremely comforting and uplifting. She is so talented!
Quote from: Marcel on June 17, 2014, 11:19:04 AM
Nothing puts a smile on my face like 2 eggs and tomato on a plain bagel with orange juice.
How do you make the OJ stay on the bagel, soak it in?
What made me happy today? Teasing Marcel.
Quote from: Dee Walker on June 17, 2014, 03:11:26 PM
How do you make the OJ stay on the bagel, soak it in?
What made me happy today? Teasing Marcel.
Lololol teasing me might be a new sport. ;)
My snake print maxi skirt and silk top make me happy.
Stayed and watched my son at his autism program today. Before he started going, he refused to point at pictures. He was mostly cooperative today. It was pretty fantastic.
Also, we went to the park and I went for a two hour walk after.
I feel like I had a boobie explosion. Hmm, what'd I do or eat that was different? Well, I had me an egg salad sandwich, and a glass of soy milk, a short time after I look down and notice my boobs are all large and puffy. Whoa! Yay! :D
My mom just shakes her head, like, "oh geez"
Bought a new dress
(https://dorifqbxqryss.cloudfront.net/uploads/product_image/2014/06/17/8138-_JOYCE-BLUEBLACK__A.JPG)
$50 on line!
That is one very gorgeous dress!!!
Had a nice session tonight with my therapist.
Always cheers me up.
She can really see a difference now. :)
Talked a bit about the big step.
Showed my work pass from a picture taken 3 years ago. We had a great laugh. Just a little bit of a difference. :laugh:
Talked about trip to Manila next week as well.
Going to miss my couch.
Quote from: Cindy on June 18, 2014, 03:03:39 AM
Bought a new dress
(https://dorifqbxqryss.cloudfront.net/uploads/product_image/2014/06/17/8138-_JOYCE-BLUEBLACK__A.JPG)
$50 on line!
Ooh, that is nice! But not the price (not for me). :-\
Well, things improved very quickly...a month ago I was in tears and feeling like crap because I had no job, not even a minimum wage one would call me back...as of today I have TWO jobs lol. The hours are flexible, but I plan to work 7 days a week whenever possible until I can pay for surgery. And they aren't minimum wage, I'm going to be able to save at least $1000 a month, more if I go 7 days a week.
And needless to say, it was a huge self-esteem boost when they both expressed genuine enthusiasm at my education and experience. I've had to disclose my past to one because of the police check, she seemed very surprised and goes "so, you're not becoming a woman anymore? I can put you in as male?" Lol. As for the second, we will find out what they think of that. They're young so it will probably be OK.
The bad news is that part of the job is working with violent people.
Quote from: Shantel on June 17, 2014, 10:25:15 AM
Snickers is so cute and attentive as she watches your every move, my dog is like that too. They are unconditionally loving unlike people.
Oh how this is sooooooooo true! Dogs and cats give unconditional love. 98 % of people I know do not. I have an ex SO (yea Auntie, it finally came to a head) that proves this point clearly.
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 18, 2014, 01:36:50 AM
I feel like I had a boobie explosion. Hmm, what'd I do or eat that was different? Well, I had me an egg salad sandwich, and a glass of soy milk, a short time after I look down and notice my boobs are all large and puffy. Whoa! Yay! :D
I might have to try this. Anything special in that egg salad sandwich?
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: birkin on June 18, 2014, 07:11:24 PM
Well, things improved very quickly...a month ago I was in tears and feeling like crap because I had no job, not even a minimum wage one would call me back...as of today I have TWO jobs lol. The hours are flexible, but I plan to work 7 days a week whenever possible until I can pay for surgery. And they aren't minimum wage, I'm going to be able to save at least $1000 a month, more if I go 7 days a week.
And needless to say, it was a huge self-esteem boost when they both expressed genuine enthusiasm at my education and experience. I've had to disclose my past to one because of the police check, she seemed very surprised and goes "so, you're not becoming a woman anymore? I can put you in as male?" Lol. As for the second, we will find out what they think of that. They're young so it will probably be OK.
The bad news is that part of the job is working with violent people.
That's awesome! That's what I need. Well, except the part with working with violent people.
Quote from: Allyda on June 18, 2014, 07:22:53 PM
Oh how this is sooooooooo true! Dogs and cats give unconditional love. 98 % of people I know do not. I have an ex SO (yea Auntie, it finally came to a head) that proves this point clearly.
Allie :icon_flower:
Indeed! She really loves all these new games I come up with too, its very exciting for her. She sits wondering what I'm going to do next and ready to go the moment I do.
Quote from: Allyda on June 18, 2014, 07:31:52 PM
I might have to try this. Anything special in that egg salad sandwich?
Allie :icon_flower:
Eh, it didn't last long though. I still think it was the egg salad because I had more soy milk today and nothing. Nope, only thing making my boobs appear more plump is that I'm wearing two bras. :laugh:
Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 18, 2014, 07:49:01 PM
That's awesome! That's what I need. Well, except the part with working with violent people.
Haha yeah, I could do without the violence too. Fortunately the violence almost always has warning signs, so you can take steps to try and prevent it. If not, then you call the police.
Quote from: birkin on June 18, 2014, 07:11:24 PM
Well, things improved very quickly...a month ago I was in tears and feeling like crap because I had no job, not even a minimum wage one would call me back...as of today I have TWO jobs lol. The hours are flexible, but I plan to work 7 days a week whenever possible until I can pay for surgery. And they aren't minimum wage, I'm going to be able to save at least $1000 a month, more if I go 7 days a week.
And needless to say, it was a huge self-esteem boost when they both expressed genuine enthusiasm at my education and experience. I've had to disclose my past to one because of the police check, she seemed very surprised and goes "so, you're not becoming a woman anymore? I can put you in as male?" Lol. As for the second, we will find out what they think of that. They're young so it will probably be OK.
The bad news is that part of the job is working with violent people.
Big score, I knew you would prevail, Congrats Hon!
Thanks Auntie Shan! ;D If the violent clients kill and/or incapacitate me, you get my inheritance* lmao.
*My clothes, computer, XBox, and credit card debt :P
Quote from: birkin on June 18, 2014, 08:02:40 PM
Thanks Auntie Shan! ;D If the violent clients kill and/or incapacitate me, you get my inheritance* lmao.
*My clothes, computer, XBox, and credit card debt :P
Gee thanks, I was afraid you'd include your toilet wrench and beeswax seal. ;D
Just practice an in charge presence and don't show any fear, you'll handle it fine!
Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 18, 2014, 07:49:01 PM
Indeed! She really loves all these new games I come up with too, its very exciting for her. She sits wondering what I'm going to do next and ready to go the moment I do.
That's so cool isn't it! My cat's are the same way. They anticipate and sometimes initiate play time, and what toy we play with!
Eh, it didn't last long though. I still think it was the egg salad because I had more soy milk today and nothing. Nope, only thing making my boobs appear more plump is that I'm wearing two bras. :laugh:
Oh Poooo!! :icon_cry2: Thought you were really onto something there, lol!!, he, he, he! :icon_cute:
Allie :icon_flower:
Six years (as of this week) after buying my house, my front yard makeover is finally complete! The landscape idiots are gone and I have pretty trees and flowers now. Wheee! I have some of the best curb appeal in my neighborhood now and my neighbors are getting jealous. Yes, please, everyone else do the same so all of our houses go up in value! It was great when the last seriously ugly house on our street got a makeover last month.
Got some extra hours at work today because a guy needed me to cover his shift
Quote from: Jill F on June 18, 2014, 08:51:58 PM
Six years (as of this week) after buying my house, my front yard makeover is finally complete! The landscape idiots are gone and I have pretty trees and flowers now. Wheee! I have some of the best curb appeal in my neighborhood now and my neighbors are getting jealous. Yes, please, everyone else do the same so all of our houses go up in value! It was great when the last seriously ugly house on our street got a makeover last month.
Way to go Jill, curb appeal is what sells it when that time comes too. I get letters in the mail all the time from strangers who like my house and want to buy it. Uh - Sorry folks they're going to take me out of here in a pine box, until then I'm staying, you're S.O.L!
Quote from: Shantel on June 18, 2014, 08:07:33 PM
Gee thanks, I was afraid you'd include your toilet wrench and beeswax seal. ;D
Just practice an in charge presence and don't show any fear, you'll handle it fine!
lol no, those belonged to my mom. :P
I hope so. If I hate it I can always quit. :| But I'd be sure to find something first lol. Being unemployed blows, I'd almost rather deal with violent individuals than with the violence that my mind does to me when I'm not busy.
Quote from: birkin on June 18, 2014, 10:05:30 PM
lol no, those belonged to my mom. :P
I hope so. If I hate it I can always quit. :| But I'd be sure to find something first lol. Being unemployed blows, I'd almost rather deal with violent individuals than with the violence that my mind does to me when I'm not busy.
You got it, attitude is everything! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Shantel on June 19, 2014, 08:22:06 AM
You got it, attitude is everything! :eusa_clap:
I actually think that I might have found a use for how I felt with the delayed transition and how crazy/erratic my emotions were before HRT. And how I sort of let my life go to pot. I'm going to be dealing with people who have unstable emotions, mental illness, and need help keeping healthy and keeping their lives in order. Since I've been through a lot, I think I may have some insight to offer that someone who hasn't had those struggles may not. That being said, some are so violent and "messed up" that honestly, the only good I could do for them is keep them clean, safe, and alive. :(
I had a Trans awareness training course yesterday, there's something ironic about me having to take the course but I can't quite put my finger on it ???
Quote from: Jayne on June 19, 2014, 06:34:14 PM
I had a Trans awareness training course yesterday, there's something ironic about me having to take the course but I can't quite put my finger on it ???
Gee Jayne, they must be spending too much time in the pub, what is it that they don't get about you girl? That's just a riot!
Quote from: birkin on June 19, 2014, 03:54:56 PM
I actually think that I might have found a use for how I felt with the delayed transition and how crazy/erratic my emotions were before HRT. And how I sort of let my life go to pot. I'm going to be dealing with people who have unstable emotions, mental illness, and need help keeping healthy and keeping their lives in order. Since I've been through a lot, I think I may have some insight to offer that someone who hasn't had those struggles may not. That being said, some are so violent and "messed up" that honestly, the only good I could do for them is keep them clean, safe, and alive. :(
All my previous sh*t in life has turned out to be a positive in the long run, experience counts big time and comes in handy as a reference resource!
Quote from: Shantel on June 19, 2014, 06:51:42 PM
Gee Jayne, they must be spending too much time in the pub, what is it that they don't get about you girl? That's just a riot!
I'm setting up an LGBT social group with help from the charity that ran the hostel I lived at last year, they are rated as the 11th best LGBT friendly company in the UK (& the highest rated charity), as i'm a volounteer they have to make sure i'm well trained & the first course happened to be Trans awareness. It keeps making me chuckle that 3 yrs after I came out & 8 months after I started HRT I have to attend a course on trans issues & rights.
At the end of the session I had a quiet chat with the nice man running the course & told him that his flow chart of the NHS procedures was outdated as of late last year & he very politely asked me if I could e-mail him the new NHS guidelines ;D
Quote from: Jayne on June 19, 2014, 08:39:47 PM
I'm setting up an LGBT social group with help from the charity that ran the hostel I lived at last year, they are rated as the 11th best LGBT friendly company in the UK (& the highest rated charity), as i'm a volounteer they have to make sure i'm well trained & the first course happened to be Trans awareness. It keeps making me chuckle that 3 yrs after I came out & 8 months after I started HRT I have to attend a course on trans issues & rights.
At the end of the session I had a quiet chat with the nice man running the course & told him that his flow chart of the NHS procedures was outdated as of late last year & he very politely asked me if I could e-mail him the new NHS guidelines ;D
So cool, what an opportunity and you present yourself as an asset to this man which can only come back as a blessing to you eventually.
I had to go to court and "fight" to legally change my name & gender marker on my ID and Birth Certificate and also applied for a new social security card. Today has quite possibly been the greatest day ever and my mom joined me in experiencing this day in person which made things even better. I have a new birth certificate with the right name and gender, my ID has a picture of a beautiful woman smiling.
What is really sticking with me is the lady at the DMV remembered me from my former name and old ID picture from 3 years ago after I gave her my court order and old ID. Her words after taking my picture for the new ID was "WOW! Come around the counter and look at your new picture! This is amazing!!!!"
Once the ID printed out we compared the two and WOW times infinity is all I can say. My old ID I couldn't even smile and looked miserable and in my new one you'd think you just saw the happiest woman alive.
What a day what a day what a day and I'm so happy that my mom was able to be with me and experience all the greatness, kindness & acceptance from so many random people today. She has been so afraid I'm going to be seen as some kind of monster by the public and the reality is I blend in just fine and I shine brightly in the process. People just love to talk to me and that's something that could NEVER be said of me for the first 29 9/10ths years that I was alive.
Quote from: Shantel on June 19, 2014, 08:49:28 PM
So cool, what an opportunity and you present yourself as an asset to this man which can only come back as a blessing to you eventually.
I'm working hard to build up my contacts right now, the other week I had a meeting with a deputy manager to discuss promoting this group (he did plant the seed in me last year, so he's eager). Next week me & the two women working to get this going are meeting with the LGBT representative for this town.
Last year whilst in the hostel I realised that the charity had an LGBT group in London but o real LGBT inclusion in my town, I brought this up at a directors meeting early this year & they listened. I was invited to their LGBT AGM & moments after I walked through the door i'd been given a budget to get a group running.
Whilst I think of it i'd like to say publicly
Thank you to FTM Diaries for all the work you put in on the poster for the group I hope you like my choice of font there ;D
Watched George Carlin "Life is Worth Losing". He's way too funny!
Payday today, and after I paid my therapist for my upcoming session, I'm going to need it.....
I know this sounds strange because I love my ex SO more than anyone can possibly know, but I'm actually relieved it is finally over between us mainly because I found out she only loved me for what I could give her, or do for her. Now I'm not broke every day, I get in at a decent hour, and have more time for work and play. But the absolute best thing that makes me the most happy about things is, I no longer have to worry if she'll actually commit to a life with another woman her being straight when I met her nearly 5 years ago. It's difficult to put it into words, and, many of you may think I'm crazy for feeling this way if I love her so much, but it's a genuine relief not to have this worry in the back of my mind anymore, which in turn makes me a very happy girl.
Now I'm free to concentrate on finding a very special lesbian girl to spend the rest of my life with! Happy happy happy!!
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on June 20, 2014, 12:52:07 AM
I know this sounds strange because I love my ex SO more than anyone can possibly know, but I'm actually relieved it is finally over between us mainly because I found out she only loved me for what I could give her, or do for her. Now I'm not broke every day, I get in at a decent hour, and have more time for work and play. But the absolute best thing that makes me the most happy about things is, I no longer have to worry if she'll actually commit to a life with another woman her being straight when I met her nearly 5 years ago. It's difficult to put it into words, and, many of you may think I'm crazy for feeling this way if I love her so much, but it's a genuine relief not to have this worry in the back of my mind anymore, which in turn makes me a very happy girl.
Now I'm free to concentrate on finding a very special lesbian girl to spend the rest of my life with! Happy happy happy!!
Ally :icon_flower:
I'm very happy for you Allyda it great to feel free and to be able to be yourself, my life has also become richer after my ex leaving me it's good to be able to concentrate on our own lives rather than having to satisfy others who are just here for the ride.
Had a nice chat with my GP today. Such a nice person.
It's her fault.....
Looks like I will get some spending money for my Manila so I might actually have a good time.
That is unless I am kidnaped.
Quote from: Jayne on June 19, 2014, 09:08:17 PM
I'm working hard to build up my contacts right now, the other week I had a meeting with a deputy manager to discuss promoting this group (he did plant the seed in me last year, so he's eager). Next week me & the two women working to get this going are meeting with the LGBT representative for this town.
Last year whilst in the hostel I realised that the charity had an LGBT group in London but o real LGBT inclusion in my town, I brought this up at a directors meeting early this year & they listened. I was invited to their LGBT AGM & moments after I walked through the door i'd been given a budget to get a group running.
Whilst I think of it i'd like to say publicly Thank you to FTM Diaries for all the work you put in on the poster for the group I hope you like my choice of font there ;D
Jayne, you've come a long way since those dismal days at the hostel when you were surrounded by so much uncertainty, and now you have established yourself as a credible woman there, I know it's been a struggle and I am pleased for you!
Quote from: Megumi on June 19, 2014, 08:57:25 PM
I had to go to court and "fight" to legally change my name & gender marker on my ID and Birth Certificate and also applied for a new social security card. Today has quite possibly been the greatest day ever and my mom joined me in experiencing this day in person which made things even better. I have a new birth certificate with the right name and gender, my ID has a picture of a beautiful woman smiling.
What is really sticking with me is the lady at the DMV remembered me from my former name and old ID picture from 3 years ago after I gave her my court order and old ID. Her words after taking my picture for the new ID was "WOW! Come around the counter and look at your new picture! This is amazing!!!!"
Once the ID printed out we compared the two and WOW times infinity is all I can say. My old ID I couldn't even smile and looked miserable and in my new one you'd think you just saw the happiest woman alive.
What a day what a day what a day and I'm so happy that my mom was able to be with me and experience all the greatness, kindness & acceptance from so many random people today. She has been so afraid I'm going to be seen as some kind of monster by the public and the reality is I blend in just fine and I shine brightly in the process. People just love to talk to me and that's something that could NEVER be said of me for the first 29 9/10ths years that I was alive.
The day I went down to the courthouse to change my name, my mom was with me too. I didn't have any issues though, just filled out a form requesting the name change, paid the fee, and that was it. I was shocked at how easy it was for me, then I got a new social security card with my new name to match. I can't wait (well I'm going to have to) until I can see that change of gender mark too (someday), I thought I was happy about the whole name thing, that'd having me jumping around cheering while at the same time crying waterfalls of overwhelming (and very welcomed) joy (I'd probably faint from all the excitement), it'd mean that I made it to my destination.
Feels good don't it? I see that big smile on the character in your avatar pic (like she went through a major ordeal but finally won out in the end; Yes! I did it!), yeah, you look so happy. :)
We're getting some decent rain for a change. Hopefully, it will knock down some of this stupid heat.
Quote from: Emily.T on June 20, 2014, 03:04:38 AM
I'm very happy for you Allyda it great to feel free and to be able to be yourself, my life has also become richer after my ex leaving me it's good to be able to concentrate on our own lives rather than having to satisfy others who are just here for the ride.
Thanks Emily. Though she hurt me extremely I've decided to keep my head up high and move on to greener pastures. I've also decided to sell my house/property and maybe move up with some friends for a while to get my head straight before deciding where I really want to go. While there's some urgency to it I'll need to look into what kind of TG support and care I'll get medically while staying with my friends as it's in a different state, then I'll most likely head for my home state of California probably a around a year from now. I have another friend I plan to stop and visit also do some fishing (and definitely some shopping, lol! -You know who you are!) with on the way out there so it will be kind of like a mini adventure getting home to Cali. I'm finally happy for the first time in many years and able to live as me. So I do not intend to waste any more time with a girlfriend who only loves me for what I can do for, get for, or $$'s I can give her. I've got a lot of good years left in me and I'm starting to look pretty good despite my age (I feel like I'm 29 again though!) and can still rock a mini skirt so I'm going to live free!
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on June 20, 2014, 08:00:18 PM
Thanks Emily. Though she hurt me extremely I've decided to keep my head up high and move on to greener pastures. I've also decided to sell my house/property and maybe move up with some friends for a while to get my head straight before deciding where I really want to go. While there's some urgency to it I'll need to look into what kind of TG support and care I'll get medically while staying with my friends as it's in a different state, then I'll most likely head for my home state of California probably a around a year from now. I have another friend I plan to stop and visit also do some fishing (and definitely some shopping, lol! -You know who you are!) with on the way out there so it will be kind of like a mini adventure getting home to Cali. I'm finally happy for the first time in many years and able to live as me. So I do not intend to waste any more time with a girlfriend who only loves me for what I can do for, get for, or $$'s I can give her. I've got a lot of good years left in me and I'm starting to look pretty good despite my age (I feel like I'm 29 again though!) and can still rock a mini skirt so I'm going to live free!
Ally :icon_flower:
You go girl. Hugs.xx
I was on the bus and across from me, this guy was holding another guy's hand and he was praying for him. He prayed with him at least two times. That made me happy.
Quote from: King Malachite on June 21, 2014, 12:25:14 AM
I was on the bus and across from me, this guy was holding another guy's hand and he was praying for him. He prayed with him at least two times. That made me happy.
I've never seen it. But I remember when I had a panic attack once some guy came up to me while I was walking and asked if he could pray for me. I said sure why not, lol, and he held my hand and said a prayer. It was awfully comforting and a very kind gesture.
I gave away all of my heavy duty gardening equipment to a charity group so they could sell them, chainsaw, slasher, mulcher, wheel barrow and petrol blower. They asked if there was a particular group I would like them to donate to, I said for the help of trans*youth, I then had to explain what being TG meant in life.
A pot of tea later a new charity was formed.
I am one happy girl :laugh:
Quote from: Cindy on June 21, 2014, 02:31:22 AM
I gave away all of my heavy duty gardening equipment to a charity group so they could sell them, chainsaw, slasher, mulcher, wheel barrow and petrol blower. They asked if there was a particular group I would like them to donate to, I said for the help of trans*youth, I then had to explain what being TG meant in life.
A pot of tea later a new charity was formed.
I am one happy girl :laugh:
That's very kind of you Cindy your such a lovely hearted woman xx
Quote from: Emily.T on June 21, 2014, 05:37:00 AM
That's very kind of you Cindy your such a lovely hearted woman xx
She is, but knowing Cindy she had an ulterior motive like when my spouse gave her iron away to some missionary who needed an iron, I knew that she hates ironing with a passion, shortly after that all the clothes that needed ironing went to Goodwill and were replaced by wash and wear no ironing needed clothes.
I had to run a few errands today and everywhere I went I was treated like a normal woman. I'm not talking about just passing. This is different. It's hard to put it into words how happy this made me! :icon_biggrin:
Ally :icon_flower:
I got to see and talk to some friends at my friend's wedding dance.
I found out that one of my newer friends didn't know I was trans. By this, I mean he thought I had a Y chromosome. That's pretty cool.
I was also really glad to see him because I took an instant liking to him. Ever meet those people where, the first time you meet them, you feel like you've been good friends forever? He's one of those. I'm probably being weird.
Oh yeah and his response to finding out I'm trans was to be very curious and start asking me questions. I love answering questions, curiosity is a personality trait I share and admire, and he's also interested in brains.
Another of my friends came up to talk to me a few times and, before I left, he told me that he considers me kindred.
Quote from: birkin on June 21, 2014, 01:31:29 AM
I've never seen it. But I remember when I had a panic attack once some guy came up to me while I was walking and asked if he could pray for me. I said sure why not, lol, and he held my hand and said a prayer. It was awfully comforting and a very kind gesture.
Awwww how sweet of him! This guy had apparently lost his cell phone and the other guy was praying that he would be reunited with it.
Celebrating my 29th Wedding Anniversary today. Never thought we would get this far, but we have, and we are now better than ever. The Universe has blessed my life.
Aisla
Quote from: Aisla on June 21, 2014, 11:55:27 PM
Celebrating my 29th Wedding Anniversary today. Never thought we would get this far, but we have, and we are now better than ever. The Universe has blessed my life.
Aisla
Happy anniversary!!!
Thank you Sylvie. It really does feel like a real achievement and cause for celebration. For so long I thought that my wife was my problem when in fact I was the issue. She is very supportive and loves the improvement in our relationship. I consider myself to be very, very fortunate. She even defends me from criticism. Speechless. :)
Aisla
Quote from: Shantel on June 21, 2014, 09:55:08 AM
She is, but knowing Cindy she had an ulterior motive like when my spouse gave her iron away to some missionary who needed an iron, I knew that she hates ironing with a passion, shortly after that all the clothes that needed ironing went to Goodwill and were replaced by wash and wear no ironing needed clothes.
Lol sounds like something I would do
Even with my chest (I was shirtless) I looked in the mirror and saw a guy, albeit a guy with big hairy boobs. That's about as close as I'm going to get to happy without surgery up there lol. My beard is also improving but still fails to fill out on the cheeks the way I want.
Looking in the mirror while eating a peach.
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Looking in the mirror while eating a bowl of ice cream. ;D Oops, got some on my nose. ;)
This is something that made me happy just a few moments ago.
I've been feeling down as of late. It's mostly cause my mother does some times doubt my being trans, blaming it on other things. It's hard when she calls me a she and such. I mean, the name we use [Chris because I can use it even with still being physically female], but there's still a lot of treating me as a girl.
Now, I was talking to my friend, [by talking I mean messaging on Skype] and we talked about a lot of things. Now she's known me for a little over a year and I've lived with her for about three weeks before I moved up with my mom. We were talking and she actually already knew there was something wrong. She has mom senses, cause she has her children, and I'm like a son of sorts to her. We talked and just telling her made me feel better. Knowing I have someone I can tell things to helps a lot and makes me happy.
Quote from: birkin on June 22, 2014, 12:52:27 AM
Even with my chest (I was shirtless) I looked in the mirror and saw a guy, albeit a guy with big hairy boobs. That's about as close as I'm going to get to happy without surgery up there lol. My beard is also improving but still fails to fill out on the cheeks the way I want.
Not all guys beards fill out on their cheeks mine never did thank goodness
I think my friend likes me since she keeps complimenting me saying that I'm caring, funny, helpful, awesome and easy to talk to. She also really believes that I'll look great as a guy once I start hormones and says I'll be super hot and super amazing. Am I just imagining things or does she have a crush on me? O////o
I feel really good today.
I love being me.
I am starting to see myself when I look in the mirror. I look good and closer to how I want to look. I am able to see myself how I want in my mind's eye.
I love being me. It's one of those days where I feel like saying that repeatedly. I mean, it's true everyday, but some days, it hits me harder than others.
I just discovered something I definitely want to do before I die: kill my own lunch.
Also, I've got an appointment with a counselor tonight and I'm going en femme. It will be my first time out in public.
Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on June 23, 2014, 06:30:16 AM
I just discovered something I definitely want to do before I die: kill my own lunch.
Also, I've got an appointment with a counselor tonight and I'm going en femme. It will be my first time out in public.
Congrats Kimberly first time out is always the hardest just embrace the real you
Thank you, Emily. I'm spending the next two hours getting ready before going.
Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on June 23, 2014, 06:30:16 AM
I just discovered something I definitely want to do before I die: kill my own lunch.
Also, I've got an appointment with a counselor tonight and I'm going en femme. It will be my first time out in public.
You'll do fine if those photos you showed us is any indication of how good you can look en femme Kimberley, good luck!
Quote from: Aisla on June 21, 2014, 11:55:27 PM
Celebrating my 29th Wedding Anniversary today. Never thought we would get this far, but we have, and we are now better than ever. The Universe has blessed my life.
Aisla
Happy anniversary hon, keep on doing whatever it is that is working!
Shantel
Thank you. Still can't believe that we have made it this far, and that it is better than ever. Perhaps you need the bad times to really enjoy and value the good times.
Quote from: Aisla on June 23, 2014, 09:38:21 AM
Shantel
Thank you. Still can't believe that we have made it this far, and that it is better than ever. Perhaps you need the bad times to really enjoy and value the good times.
Yes that's probably true, thing is if you can weather through the bad times that becomes the cement that holds you together, because if it's real love and not just sex then you will find the strength to overcome the awful moments. Too many people have the whole thing backwards putting the cart before the horse and hop in the sack right away, get married because of "really good sex" and find out later that they don't really like each other that much when "the thrill is gone." A good relationship starts out as a solid friendship. Yup, ask BB King he's tell you that when you do it ass backwards what happens when the thrill is gone. ;D
Congratulations again! :icon_bunch:
A friend who I hadn't spoken to for at least a year got in touch today, she was the first person I came out to & super supportive.
For the first 6 months after I came out she would get several phone calls from me in tears each week as I dealt with the aftermath of coming out, she would stay on the phone for as many hours as it took to talk me into a calmer state of mind, she's got the patience of a saint & I wouldn't have survived the first year without her help.
It was great to catch up.
Today also marks one week free of anti depressants with no depression feuled tears. Now that i'm free of these emotion blocking pills i'm experiencing the full range of female emotions, i've cried tears of joy this week & i've shed tears when something touches me deeply but none of the tears have been from depression.
Quote from: Jayne on June 23, 2014, 01:07:59 PM
A friend who I hadn't spoken to for at least a year got in touch today, she was the first person I came out to & super supportive.
For the first 6 months after I came out she would get several phone calls from me in tears each week as I dealt with the aftermath of coming out, she would stay on the phone for as many hours as it took to talk me into a calmer state of mind, she's got the patience of a saint & I wouldn't have survived the first year without her help.
It was great to catch up.
Today also marks one week free of anti depressants with no depression feuled tears. Now that i'm free of these emotion blocking pills i'm experiencing the full range of female emotions, i've cried tears of joy this week & i've shed tears when something touches me deeply but none of the tears have been from depression.
Great friends like that are precious!
Way to go hon! My personal view of anti-depressants is that sometimes the side effects offset any good they may do. I was on effexor aka (Venlafaxine) several years ago and it caused me to have brain shorts and I developed a bad tic from it. I don't do any of that stuff anymore.
So far so good, pads are definitely helping the appearance down below. Now to try it with shorts.
Quote from: Shantel on June 23, 2014, 09:26:22 AM
You'll do fine if those photos you showed us is any indication of how good you can look en femme Kimberley, good luck!
Thank you, a friend said I wouldn't need the luck!
Unfortunately, it didn't go according to plan (I explain why in the happy.unhappy thread).
It was a slow day today at work and I found 11 cents.
I sold another unneeded item today for $50. more than I had in it, YaY!!
Ally :icon_flower:
Went out to run errands and nothing went wrong. No drama, no fear, accomplished most of what we set out to do. Also I bought a snoopy shirt on ebay for 3 dollars plus shipping, and it came in today.
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T day is on wednesday which always makes me happy. The day after that, I'm headed to an anime convention for the weekend where I will spend and entire weekend with various friends. I'll have to be a hermit for awhile after, but it will be worth it. I'm excited.
I've also made myself happy by thinking about a tattoo I want. I wonder if I can get someone to do a commission for me.
It's dawned on me over the past couple of days that I, a former chocoholic, am now officially 'meh' about chocolate.
Maybe there really is some merit to the commonly held belief that female hormones make you respond differently to chocolate than male hormones do. All I know is, back when my system was flooded with oestrogen I used to comfort eat with chocolate and I used to get a soothing effect from it... but now that I'm running on testosterone I can't be bothered to eat the stuff; it doesn't seem to do anything for me any more. Nor do I feel the need to comfort eat.
This is absolutely brilliant news for my waistline! ;D
I had a meeting with an LGBT representative for my home town today to discuss the LGBT group i'm trying to get off the ground.
She really likes the idea of this group as we'll be aimed at helping the most vulnerable portion of homeless society, she is so enthusiastic she's going to try to get us funding from outside the charity that i'm working with. She said she's going to approach both the council & lottery funding.
Once the group is up & running we'd like to open it up to everyone in the LGBT community, when people come out as LGB or T they sometimes lose the support network of friends which makes them much more vulnerable to the risk of becoming homeless, my hope for this group is to help these people re-build their social network.
I'd love to go into more detail about this upcoming group but the two women helping me set this up keep having to reign in my eagerness until head office accept our aims & objectives.
Congrats, Jayne! :D
Quote from: Jayne on June 24, 2014, 10:45:36 AM
I had a meeting with an LGBT representative for my home town today to discuss the LGBT group i'm trying to get off the ground.
She really likes the idea of this group as we'll be aimed at helping the most vulnerable portion of homeless society, she is so enthusiastic she's going to try to get us funding from outside the charity that i'm working with. She said she's going to approach both the council & lottery funding.
Once the group is up & running we'd like to open it up to everyone in the LGBT community, when people come out as LGB or T they sometimes lose the support network of friends which makes them much more vulnerable to the risk of becoming homeless, my hope for this group is to help these people re-build their social network.
I'd love to go into more detail about this upcoming group but the two women helping me set this up keep having to reign in my eagerness until head office accept our aims & objectives.
Jayne,
I am pleased for you because you are a prime example of how when one gets beyond their self absorbing issues and drama surrounding survival of everyday life and can move ahead into dealing with concerns and needs of others, there is a lot of personal growth and self esteem that comes of it and one automatically becomes suddenly more accepted and even appreciated by society. Good going Jayne!
Thank you Shantel & FTM, ironicly one of the things discussed at the meeting was hate crimes, I agreed to fill out a form for their survey on hate crimes & instead of the small box they provided on the form I filled out 2 pages of A4!! (It's their fault for asking for details on any incident in the last 3 yrs, that's a long time in trans years).
The ironic part is that I became a victim of hate crime whilst walking home from the meeting but I won't go into details on the happy thread.
It did make me happy that they had me outnumbered but they were the ones who ran
Quote from: Jayne on June 24, 2014, 10:45:36 AM
I had a meeting with an LGBT representative for my home town today to discuss the LGBT group i'm trying to get off the ground.
She really likes the idea of this group as we'll be aimed at helping the most vulnerable portion of homeless society, she is so enthusiastic she's going to try to get us funding from outside the charity that i'm working with. She said she's going to approach both the council & lottery funding.
Once the group is up & running we'd like to open it up to everyone in the LGBT community, when people come out as LGB or T they sometimes lose the support network of friends which makes them much more vulnerable to the risk of becoming homeless, my hope for this group is to help these people re-build their social network.
I'd love to go into more detail about this upcoming group but the two women helping me set this up keep having to reign in my eagerness until head office accept our aims & objectives.
Jayne, I really admire you and the group you are forming for what you are doing. We need more people like you in today's society.
Best wishes and, all my hopes you'll be very successful. :icon_chick:
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: CandiceSkirvin on June 24, 2014, 11:44:31 AM
I get reply 1000!!!!! I am awesome!!! :)
What made my happy? My run this morning. :) It was pretty nice out.
You look great Candice in you new Avatar!. Glad you had a happy day!
Ally :icon_flower:
Seeing Queen's current set list. I'm seeing them in Vegas on the 6th.
From the clips I've seen Adam Lambert seems to do a pretty good show, but yeah, it's not the same without Freddie
I'm just glad the music didn't die with him like it does for so many other bands and feel that they're honoring him by continuing
The bus driver this evening called me luv, round these parts being called luv trumps miss or mam anyday :)
Quote from: CandiceSkirvin on June 24, 2014, 04:21:16 PM
I hope you have fun. I just can't like the new Queen with Adam Lambert...it feels so wrong. Queen without Freddie is not Queen. :( I wish I'd had the chance to see Queen before Freddie died, but I was only like a year and a half old when he died. I should have been born like two decades earlier. :)
Yeah, Freddie died when I was in college. It really, really sucked. I never got to see him either. I have all the CDs and DVDs though, as well as a sweet stack of bootlegs.
It's funny though, the first time I saw Adam Lambert on AI, I said right away that he should be fronting Queen instead (little did I know...). I saw them twice with Paul Rodgers and thought it didn't really work at all. Brian May is one of my favorite guitar players of all time though, and I will see him any place at any time with whoever else comes along for the ride.
I met another FtM in my area, and I thought to be the only one :D
I re-connected with my niece whom I haven't spoken to in over 15 years. We talked over the phone for hours catching up. She's also very supportive and scolded me a little for waiting so long to transition, lol! it was great just hearing her voice!
Ally :icon_flower:
The internet has returned to my home! Well, OK, it has traveled to my new home instead.
King Diamond is playing The Wiltern on Halloween! \m/ (-|-) \m/
This could be a lot of fun.
Booked and paid for 4 sessions of laser treatment on my beard today I can't wait to start
Quote from: Jill F on June 25, 2014, 01:37:38 AM
King Diamond is playing The Wiltern on Halloween! \m/ (-|-) \m/
This could be a lot of fun.
Cool, I love Merciful Fate and his solo stuff! Have a great time Jill and don't forget to tell us about it!
Ally :icon_flower:
Going to start the process to transition today at Callen-Lorde. So excited!
So a little unhappy backstory: on Monday night, I went to Jamba Juice right around closing time. I ordered two smoothies, and they didn't ask for a name, which I thought was a little weird. But I figured, since it wasn't very busy, they'd just call the name of the drink like they do at Starbucks sometimes. Instead, they ended up calling the name on my credit card... i.e., my female name that I haven't legally changed yet!! So that night, I wrote a very firmly worded letter to corporate....
I got a response within 12 hours, and today I got a call from the manager of the store I was at, who is apparently a member of the LGBT community himself, and is PISSED at whoever was working when this happened! He apologized profusely, found out who it was that made the error to talk to them directly, is sending a coach to the store, and offered me a free drink (at Jamba Juice, he wasn't hitting on me, LOL). I actually wasn't really expecting that much of a response, but they're doing everything right and I'm really impressed. I still get to drink Jamba Juice, yay!
Quote from: NathanExplosion on June 25, 2014, 01:59:23 PM
So a little unhappy backstory: on Monday night, I went to Jamba Juice right around closing time. I ordered two smoothies, and they didn't ask for a name, which I thought was a little weird. But I figured, since it wasn't very busy, they'd just call the name of the drink like they do at Starbucks sometimes. Instead, they ended up calling the name on my credit card... i.e., my female name that I haven't legally changed yet!! So that night, I wrote a very firmly worded letter to corporate....
I got a response within 12 hours, and today I got a call from the manager of the store I was at, who is apparently a member of the LGBT community himself, and is PISSED at whoever was working when this happened! He apologized profusely, found out who it was that made the error to talk to them directly, is sending a coach to the store, and offered me a free drink (at Jamba Juice, he wasn't hitting on me, LOL). I actually wasn't really expecting that much of a response, but they're doing everything right and I'm really impressed. I still get to drink Jamba Juice, yay!
As they say, "The best defense is an aggressive offense!" :eusa_clap:
Well, if you are riding Gary Fisher my hat's off to you, or is it a Giant?
Quote from: Cindy on March 21, 2014, 07:19:37 AM
I'm riding a bike! Inspired by someone here.
Mmmm what brand you may ask?
T day!
The thing I've been excited for all week.
This happened yesterday, but I'm still very happy today over it. I went to my local Quest Diagnostics to get my 6 month bloodwork done before my Endo visit on the 3rd of next month. And because at my last visit, my ID gender marker wasn't changed yet so, on the order it listed me as male. Well, the lady behind the counter, also being the technician who'd be drawing my blood looked at my driver's license then at the order and said "this ain't right" and changed the order to reflect my true gender, female. She then told me how lovely I looked and after taking me back while drawing my blood we had a very good girl talk. She said how she'd remembered me from before and talked about how much I've changed in the three months since she last saw me, and another technician who knew me came in looking at me in disbelief saying "Ally is that you!". Before I could reply the girl finished my blood draw saying "yes, that's her" and they both complimented me on how good I looked. Both of them then made everyone wait while we girl talked for almost another half hour. Things like this have been happening a lot tome lately. And though I always passed before, now I'm being treated just like one of the girls and I have to admit it feels pretty dam good. Yesterday was a great day!
Ally :icon_flower:
Picked these (http://i.imgur.com/hSOBPNY.jpg) up for a dollar, and another set for another dollar.
It's hard to type with them though!
Quote from: Lauren5 on June 26, 2014, 03:32:48 PM
Picked these (http://i.imgur.com/hSOBPNY.jpg) up for a dollar, and another set for another dollar.
It's hard to type with them though!
Shiney
big too ;)
Quote from: Lauren5 on June 26, 2014, 03:32:48 PM
Picked these (http://i.imgur.com/hSOBPNY.jpg) up for a dollar, and another set for another dollar.
It's hard to type with them though!
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I'll bet. But you know, actually I used to always have very long nails (I still don't cut them unless I have to, but its hard to keep them with my job), and I've always found it easier for me to do anything with them long, its when one breaks or tears that I suddenly have trouble such as with grabbing things.
Oh, almost forgot why I even came to this topic, duh. Back on the hormones again! Woo-hoo! :D
Deutschland won their game today. Time for the round of 16 (happy dance)
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I'll bet. But you know, actually I used to always have very long nails (I still don't cut them unless I have to, but its hard to keep them with my job), and I've always found it easier for me to do anything with them long, its when one breaks or tears that I suddenly have trouble such as with grabbing things.
Oh, almost forgot why I even came to this topic, duh. Back on the hormones again! Woo-hoo! :D
I'm soooooo happy for you Megan! Your already so pretty I'm jealous and now you're gonna get even prettier! I really am happy for you though. :icon_bunch:
Ally :icon_flower:
Got my book today
just got back from the movies in girl mode! no one seemed to look twice and one guy checked me out from behind. (could see him out of the corner of my eye) lol.
but the good thing is no one seemed to notice anything "different" about me so i say mission accomplished!
Quote from: Emo on June 27, 2014, 11:00:58 PM
just got back from the movies in girl mode! no one seemed to look twice and one guy checked me out from behind. (could see him out of the corner of my eye) lol.
but the good thing is no one seemed to notice anything "different" about me so i say mission accomplished!
Kudos! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Emo on June 27, 2014, 11:00:58 PM
just got back from the movies in girl mode! no one seemed to look twice and one guy checked me out from behind. (could see him out of the corner of my eye) lol.
but the good thing is no one seemed to notice anything "different" about me so i say mission accomplished!
We'll done Emo I bet that felt great and boosted your confidence
I tried to think of something else that might have shone through, but today it was cats all the way. My cat woke me up by sitting on my chest and purring and breathing in my face, and we got to take care of and hang out with the neighbor cat who looks like a tiny leopard, and we visited with a lot of scruffy but affectionate neighborhood yard cats.
The anime con has been a heck of a lot of fun.
To my complete surprise, I seem to have a boyfriend.
My fresh polish on my mani/pedi matches my 1981 Maui Blue Stratocaster perfectly. Now I know what to use to patch the chips on it!
Should I wear the guitar as an accessory?
A great walk around Sydney beaches. Usually I travel directly from A to B and plan the route prior to starting out. This time we wandered and paused when the fancy took us. Discovered a lot and it was far more enjoyable than usual. Perhaps the Universe is telling me something!
Aisla
World Pride, I've made so many new friends and I've had a blast! Marching down the busiest street in Canada with thousands of our trans sisters and brothers really made me proud and having tens of thousands there supporting us and cheering was beyond description.
You know what made me happy today...nothing in particular, I just feel so friggin' good. I feel...girly, inside and out. For once (since over 2 months ago) I can say, while looking at my image in the mirror without being critical of some feature or other (I'm not seeing them), I am pretty. Hormones must be doing their thing. :)
I feel happy with the things I did at work today. One of the girls woke up and she had peed in her bed and her PJs, and it must have happened in the middle of the night because it was cold pee. I cleaned her up, changed her into her favourite clothes, and washed her sheets and soiled PJs. I felt happy because I'm sure she was so uncomfortable laying in her own pee for that long. I mean, just imagine how it would feel to be stuck in your own pee like that, not be able to do anything about it, and then to have someone come and clean you, and give you fresh, dry, nice smelling clothes.
I don't know, I always thought cleaning up pee would be gross but to be honest, it made me feel good to know that I could play a role in making her feel happy and comfortable. Plus she loved me for the rest of the day. She's not able to speak but she followed me everywhere I went and she smiled and poked me and gave me kisses.
You sound like a really nice, caring guy birkin. Normally I go through peeps posts to find info on them, or should I say used to, nope trying to be sociable now, plus you got too many, so I'm curious now, what do you do for work? If you don't mind my asking.
The dress for Debra is arriving tomorrow. Now she won't look out of place compared to Patricia, Doris, Dotty & Portia. Mr Bacon doesn't count since he's a dude (and a plush piece of bacon :D). I still need to get some glue to fix her nose.
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Going to a Dodgers game today and knowing I never have to use those mens' rooms again, AKA Chavez Latrine. (That's a joke only a few of you will get...)
Job interview for cashier position today, here's hoping for $9 an hour.
Quote from: Jill F on June 30, 2014, 12:51:16 AM
Going to a Dodgers game today and knowing I never have to use those mens' rooms again, AKA Chavez Latrine. (That's a joke only a few of you will get...)
The thought of it just nauseates me no end, and the seats in the stalls are always pissed up by some lazy Neanderthal sloth!
Just don't wait until you have a full bladder to get stuck in the usual women's room line-up.
On one of the days I was dressed up as Loki at the convention, someone came up to me and asked me to hug his friend who was too shy and kept running away from me. So I fixed up my costume (it was really hot) and went downstairs to give her a hug. Today, there was a message in the convention's facebook group thanking me. Apparently, I made her very happy.
Quote from: Edge on June 30, 2014, 12:58:32 PM
On one of the days I was dressed up as Loki at the convention, someone came up to me and asked me to hug his friend who was too shy and kept running away from me. So I fixed up my costume (it was really hot) and went downstairs to give her a hug. Today, there was a message in the convention's facebook group thanking me. Apparently, I made her very happy.
Nice one!
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I'll bet. But you know, actually I used to always have very long nails (I still don't cut them unless I have to, but its hard to keep them with my job), and I've always found it easier for me to do anything with them long, its when one breaks or tears that I suddenly have trouble such as with grabbing things.
Oh, almost forgot why I even came to this topic, duh. Back on the hormones again! Woo-hoo! :D
I tend to bite mine, so falses made sense.
The glue sucks though, I'll have to buy my own.
Quote from: Jill F on June 30, 2014, 12:51:16 AMGoing to a Dodgers game today and knowing I never have to use those mens' rooms again, AKA Chavez Latrine. (That's a joke only a few of you will get...)
It's just as bad as the Dodgers ;)
Today has been a good one.
My un-happiness has eased although I still experience uncomfortable feelings from my clitoris.
When I get those horrid sensations it really makes me wonder why I have put myself through everything.
On the other hand when everything is working correctly and I can see the effects of my increased oestrogen dosage then the world is a wonderful place.
Sarah Winfield
Apart from one time when I decided to jump out of a tree, I haven't needed pain killers for my ankels or knees for a whole month ;D ;D ;D
I think my youngest daughter might be starting to accept my transition.
We had a very promising conversation in the car this morning. She started off by asking me whether I plan to attend any more Prides in the near future (I do) and then she asked why I bother going along to Pride; what's the point of LGBT people gathering together and marching around the place?
I explained that for just a couple of hours you feel valued and appreciated by the general public, which makes a huge difference from the way we're usually treated. She didn't know what I meant, so I explained that I've had people say nasty things to me, give me nasty looks and even laugh at me... and that I have friends who've been physically attacked just for walking down the street. But when were at Pride, we're with like-minded people... and for that brief period we feel accepted, valued and loved.
My daughter seemed to get it, and she left with a comment that her generation is much more accepting of LGBT people so the kind of harassment I've experienced will soon become a thing of the past. I hope she's right... but I also took it as her coded way of saying that she's becoming more accepting too. ;D
New self portrait of me made me very happy today, it's my new avatar!
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 02, 2014, 10:31:49 AM
I think my youngest daughter might be starting to accept my transition.
We had a very promising conversation in the car this morning. She started off by asking me whether I plan to attend any more Prides in the near future (I do) and then she asked why I bother going along to Pride; what's the point of LGBT people gathering together and marching around the place?
I explained that for just a couple of hours you feel valued and appreciated by the general public, which makes a huge difference from the way we're usually treated. She didn't know what I meant, so I explained that I've had people say nasty things to me, give me nasty looks and even laugh at me... and that I have friends who've been physically attacked just for walking down the street. But when were at Pride, we're with like-minded people... and for that brief period we feel accepted, valued and loved.
My daughter seemed to get it, and she left with a comment that her generation is much more accepting of LGBT people so the kind of harassment I've experienced will soon become a thing of the past. I hope she's right... but I also took it as her coded way of saying that she's becoming more accepting too. ;D
That's awesome! I remember when she was violently opposed.
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 02, 2014, 10:56:08 AM
New self portrait of me made me very happy today, it's my new avatar!
Sweet! You play guitar?
Quote from: FA on July 02, 2014, 11:03:09 AM
Sweet! You play guitar?
Yes I do. I wish I had that Taylor 814CE guitar model though.
Full image: i.imgur.com/3y81V02.png (http://i.imgur.com/3y81V02.png)
Quote from: FA on July 02, 2014, 11:02:16 AM
That's awesome! I remember when she was violently opposed.
Thanks FA! It's early days, but the signs look promising. :)
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 02, 2014, 10:31:49 AM
I think my youngest daughter might be starting to accept my transition.
We had a very promising conversation in the car this morning. She started off by asking me whether I plan to attend any more Prides in the near future (I do) and then she asked why I bother going along to Pride; what's the point of LGBT people gathering together and marching around the place?
I explained that for just a couple of hours you feel valued and appreciated by the general public, which makes a huge difference from the way we're usually treated. She didn't know what I meant, so I explained that I've had people say nasty things to me, give me nasty looks and even laugh at me... and that I have friends who've been physically attacked just for walking down the street. But when were at Pride, we're with like-minded people... and for that brief period we feel accepted, valued and loved.
My daughter seemed to get it, and she left with a comment that her generation is much more accepting of LGBT people so the kind of harassment I've experienced will soon become a thing of the past. I hope she's right... but I also took it as her coded way of saying that she's becoming more accepting too. ;D
There's hope! Children do the growing and the parents suffer the pains. You changed her crappy pants when she was an infant and she still gives you a little crap at times, but she will grow up eventually and it sounds like those days are not far off. Meanwhile, you deserve a medal and perhaps even sainthood for having patiently endured!
I got a 2 dollar tip at work!
I normally wear my below the shoulder hair in a pony tail at work because its a factory. Today I had to do a job that required wear head gear which doesn't fit over it. During shift change after taking of the head gear one of the guy said " from the back you look completely like a woman. " :) I am not out there so I had to keep the smile to myself but it did feel awesome to hear.
I had a close encounter of the male kind, I just wish the encounter could have been closer >:-)
I went to see a friend & someone I met once or twice last year was there, the weather is hot, hot, hot right now so he took his top off, I spent quite a while transfixed by his torso that had the perfect amount of hair (not too little, not too much but juuust right!), I think I may have drooled a bit :embarrassed:
He'd heard about the incident last week & partway through the evening he brought up the subject of self defence, he knows some, I know some. . . . next thing I knew I was in the hallway with a half naked man (who smelled gert lush) trading martial arts moves (we'd learnt different styles).
When you show someone a new move you tend to go through it slowly, it means there is lots of prolonged contact, tonight for the first time ever this method of training felt very intimate & almost sensual.
As I showed him a few of my moves I kept a respectable distance between us but I could feel the firmness of his muscles, his forearm muscles were too big for me to have a hope in hell of my fingers touching each other as I grabbed him, all this time my heart was trying to beat out through my ribs, he showed me a few close leg sweeps & it felt exilerating having him be the one to close the distance between us, my mind was racing with naughty thoughts.
When the sparring was over, we all relaxed for a bit until I said I had to go to get back to my dog, he then offered to give me a lift to the other side of town to save me having to get two buses, what a gentleman, what a body, drool.
Then when he dropped me off he said I was welcome to call him anytime I needed a lift.
I've not been able to get him off my mind since I got home at 7pm, it's now 3 am & I can't sleep. Be still my beating heart, sigh
I could sleep for the first time in more than a decade with no pharmaceutical aid!
Well, except that I'm pretty sure that it's at least an indirect result of being on HRT, so I guess pharmaceuticals were involved, but at least I didn't have to use any sleeping specific ones.
Feeling much more awake and energetic as a result, which is great as well.
Reading these articles on Aaron swartz blog helped me resolve some issues in my life and im very happy because of it
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,168497.0.html
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,168487.0.html
I'm simple enough that a good breakfast can make me happy.
Looking at my bank account...
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 03, 2014, 08:16:23 AM
I'm simple enough that a good breakfast can make me happy.
Same here, I find taking the time to prepare a really nice breakfast and sit down and enjoy it sets a great mood for the rest of the day.
I'm happy because I rescheduled my surgery appointments with no hassle or extra charge. Now I just have to save the cash.
Finding change on the ground and getting a dollar. Also going to Chucke Cheese and getting glow in the dark vampire teeth!
Today has been a much MUCH MUUUCH better day than yesterday was, and thinking about that fact, has made me happy at least a little. :)
Quote from: King Malachite on July 03, 2014, 08:40:00 PM
getting glow in the dark vampire teeth!
OOOH! LUCKY! ^-^ I LOVE Vampires and their beautiful teeth or rather, fangs. 8) Wait, since when do their teeth glow in the dark? ???
Got out of getting a ticket. Despite the fact that I can be pretty aggressive behind the wheel, I've never been pulled over until today. I was so scared and on the verge of tears. My voice got really high pitched and I kept calling him sir with watery eyes, lol. Luckily, he took pity on me. Seriously, I think he felt bad when seeing how scared and sad I was about it. He didn't even ask for my registration. He just let me off with a warning and told me to fix my tail light bulb that was out. I'm very appreciative and happy that he was so nice about everything. I'm glad there are cops like him out there because he seems like a good man and officer.
I got to talk with my Honeybear.
And my Dad said he would help with my birth certificate change.
I had my first laser session on my face today damn it hurt I have read on posts that it would hurt but I wasn't prepared for the amount of pain that that I had, next time I'm using the numbing cream I'm not going through that much pain again.
Quote from: learningtolive on July 03, 2014, 09:51:07 PM
Got out of getting a ticket. Despite the fact that I can be pretty aggressive behind the wheel, I've never been pulled over until today. I was so scared and on the verge of tears. My voice got really high pitched and I kept calling him sir with watery eyes, lol. Luckily, he took pity on me. Seriously, I think he felt bad when seeing how scared and sad I was about it. He didn't even ask for my registration. He just let me off with a warning and told me to fix my tail light bulb that was out. I'm very appreciative and happy that he was so nice about everything. I'm glad there are cops like him out there because he seems like a good man and officer.
That's great to hear LTL. I'm very happy you got out of a ticket. Something you don't see much of these days especially when it's a younger driver. It's also nice to hear not all officers are just out to give tickets. We've a few good ones where I live that are like that. But they are slowly being replaced by the kind of Officer you don't wanyt to get stopped by.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 03, 2014, 09:48:17 PM
Today has been a much MUCH MUUUCH better day than yesterday was, and thinking about that fact, has made me happy at least a little. :)
OOOH! LUCKY! ^-^ I LOVE Vampires and their beautiful teeth or rather, fangs. 8) Wait, since when do their teeth glow in the dark? ???
Maybe some blood they had sometime was made from radiation and their teeth mutated as a result. ;D
I've held off on posting this because I wasn't sure whether I wanted to post it here or in the 'unhappy and happy at the same time' thread... because it all started off pretty darn unhappily with a family argument and some major upset.
But I've decided I don't want to dwell on the unhappy details. The important thing is: my youngest daughter, who as I reported on Wednesday morning seems to be starting to accept my transition, actually called me a man during a family conversation on Wednesday night. This is the first time she's ever done this, and it was a momentous occasion.
Her exact words were: "You're a man who likes to do things his own way". That's pretty darn unambiguous, and my whole family spotted that she'd done it. A little while later, my ex cornered me in the kitchen and said that he'd noticed that she'd called me a man and that he thought it was a very promising step forward.
I agree. A very promising step forward for all of us.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 04, 2014, 09:13:55 AM
I've held off on posting this because I wasn't sure whether I wanted to post it here or in the 'unhappy and happy at the same time' thread... because it all started off pretty darn unhappily with a family argument and some major upset.
But I've decided I don't want to dwell on the unhappy details. The important thing is: my youngest daughter, who as I reported on Wednesday morning seems to be starting to accept my transition, actually called me a man during a family conversation on Wednesday night. This is the first time she's ever done this, and it was a momentous occasion.
Her exact words were: "You're a man who likes to do things his own way". That's pretty darn unambiguous, and my whole family spotted that she'd done it. A little while later, my ex cornered me in the kitchen and said that he'd noticed that she'd called me a man and that he thought it was a very promising step forward.
I agree. A very promising step forward for all of us.
That is great!
Quote from: Cindy on July 04, 2014, 09:16:26 AM
That is great!
Thanks Cindy! It certainly feels great. :D
So a moment ago my mom blurts out something, sounding fragmented with the noise from the movie she just put on, "You know what I like...lately....cussing." I'm like huh? "No cussing." What're you talking about? "You. You haven't been cussing." Oh! Yeah, I've been trying not to. She's like "good, because its not very becoming." Hearing the F word or something else all the time. Then says sure, she's not perfect, but she don't use those words all the time and in every sentence. I just smiled. Well, at least she noticed, because I've been trying really hard to keep the potty mouth restrained, guess I'm doing good. :)
Quote from: Megan Joanne on July 04, 2014, 01:37:34 PM
So a moment ago my mom blurts out something, sounding fragmented with the noise from the movie she just put on, "You know what I like...lately....cussing." I'm like huh? "No cussing." What're you talking about? "You. You haven't been cussing." Oh! Yeah, I've been trying not to. She's like "good, because its not very becoming." Hearing the F word or something else all the time. Then says sure, she's not perfect, but she don't use those words all the time and in every sentence. I just smiled. Well, at least she noticed, because I've been trying really hard to keep the potty mouth restrained, guess I'm doing good. :)
Atta gal, I'm working on that one too. Like your new avatar photo, smoking hot chickster! :)
Thank you. ;D
A friend who I had come out to about a month ago had since said they thought they might be trans as well. Today she told me that I inspired her to come out to her family and friends because I was trying to be my authentic self despite all the obstacles in my way. It's an unbelievable sensation to be someone's inspiration!
Quote from: Shantel on July 04, 2014, 01:48:57 PM
Atta gal, I'm working on that one too. Like your new avatar photo, smoking hot chickster! :)
I agree your new Avatar Megan is simply stunning!
Ally :icon_flower:
Looking in the mirror and eating another peach.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 04, 2014, 09:13:55 AM
I've held off on posting this because I wasn't sure whether I wanted to post it here or in the 'unhappy and happy at the same time' thread... because it all started off pretty darn unhappily with a family argument and some major upset.
But I've decided I don't want to dwell on the unhappy details. The important thing is: my youngest daughter, who as I reported on Wednesday morning seems to be starting to accept my transition, actually called me a man during a family conversation on Wednesday night. This is the first time she's ever done this, and it was a momentous occasion.
Her exact words were: "You're a man who likes to do things his own way". That's pretty darn unambiguous, and my whole family spotted that she'd done it. A little while later, my ex cornered me in the kitchen and said that he'd noticed that she'd called me a man and that he thought it was a very promising step forward.
I agree. A very promising step forward for all of us.
This is a really big deal. Congratulations.
I actually clicked on this thread thinking it would push me into noticing something happy, and I guess it did. Mostly music and hearing how other people are doing.
My mom told me I was beautiful. It doesn't matter how pretty I actually feel. Knowing that my mother thought that I was beautiful after seeing me as a woman for the first time was absolutely one of the happiest moments in my life. :)
That's awesome FilaFord :icon_chick:
Quote from: FilaFord on July 05, 2014, 12:24:16 AM
My mom told me I was beautiful. It doesn't matter how pretty I actually feel. Knowing that my mother thought that I was beautiful after seeing me as a woman for the first time was absolutely one of the happiest moments in my life. :)
That is great Fila. Your Mom must be a special lady. I can only imagine how elated you feel after hearing those words from your Mom.
I wish my biological Mom was alive to see the beautiful woman I'm becoming.
My very best wishes to you! <3
Ally :icon_flower:
Fireworks. We just walked around the neighborhood instead of going downtown or across the river, and we watched some from overpasses. Then we followed in the direction of some of the biggest ones, and we ended up at a large gathering in the parking lot of a school. My kid was scared, but we didn't walk too close to the ground ones. Then some cops showed up and it became apparent that the event wasn't licensed or whatever, so we came home. It was fun, though.
Quote from: FilaFord on July 05, 2014, 12:24:16 AM
My mom told me I was beautiful. It doesn't matter how pretty I actually feel. Knowing that my mother thought that I was beautiful after seeing me as a woman for the first time was absolutely one of the happiest moments in my life. :)
I tend to agree with her, glad she can see it too!
My "Dad" finally moved away, he didn't bother to tell me he was moving the next day, he told me he'd keep me up to date but didn't, I'd planned to have him give me one more ride to the grocery store so I'd be good for another month, didn't happen. So, why does this make me happy?
The truth is, I have some really kind neighbors who are VERY understanding of my circumstances/financial situation/how far I'd have to walk and how long it'd take me to get there/back, thus, they said they'd give me a ride to/from the grocery store and today, they did just that, BUT WAIT! THERE'S MORE! Even though they're Christians and have said a few things to me that have me concerned for the future should I transition in front of them (My life won't be in danger, just they'd try and talk me out of it) unlike my "Dad" they let me bring my purse, they have seen me with nail polish on (On a different day) and they even heard my female voice too! When I got back, they helped me get the groceries inside and were saying things that says they'll take me again. :) I don't know how long they'd be willing to do this tbh and I don't want to depend on them forever but my financial/circumstances are making it difficult to get a car+ be able to afford to save up for stuff, including transition so having to pay for the insurance and then some would sadly, put me out by too much. Plus, unless my "Dad" helps me GET a car+pay for the lessons and such then I'd take me years to save up for it as things are right now.
So while I'm uncertain of the future, things are looking good atm and I hope they stay that way. Oh and, I even saved money on my groceries this month too. :)
EDIT: Ok, just got to say this, it was SOOO NICE being able to carry my purse with me on grocery shopping day as well as SOOO NICE being able to call the person giving me a ride and use my female voice. :) (Before when I called I'd have to hide in a corner with cart in toe to call the person giving me the ride and use my male voice) Shame it wasn't my "Dad" but hey, this was still awesome! :)
a person has offered to draw the design of the suit one of the fanfic characters I have in my story-that totally blew me away
FIFA World Cup. What a spectacle, drama, skill and excitement. Costa Rica v The Netherlands was sublime. Hard to believe that 22 men trying to place a ball through posts at the other end of a football pitch produces such passion, such magic.
I found my penny that fell out of my pocket. It has been added to my top surgery fund.
Eyeliner, even applied badly, ensured that I got more miss and ma'am from customers than sir today.
I am almost done cleaning my room. I just need to vacuum and organize my dresser.
My boyfriend is coming over tuesday.
Well, more yesterday than today, it's still kinda early.
I was in Manhattan on 9/11 and haven't been able to go south of 14th without a panic attack since.
Yesterday we went to Economy Candy in the Bowery for hopjes, then to Chinatown, then down to the foot of Manhattan and over near the Freedom Tower. No panic attacks! After that we went up near Columbia to the Hungarian Pastry Shop for pastries and coffee. On the way home we stopped at Sephora where I got samples of six new moisturizers and a new beard cream, (I still have to shave :( ). It is SO GOOD! My face feels so smooth and the stubborn spot on my neck is smooth, too! What a wonderful day!
Quote from: Dee Walker on July 06, 2014, 08:49:11 AM
Well, more yesterday than today, it's still kinda early.
I was in Manhattan on 9/11 and haven't been able to go south of 14th without a panic attack since.
Yesterday we went to Economy Candy in the Bowery for hopjes, then to Chinatown, then down to the foot of Manhattan and over near the Freedom Tower. No panic attacks! After that we went up near Columbia to the Hungarian Pastry Shop for pastries and coffee. On the way home we stopped at Sephora where I got samples of six new moisturizers and a new beard cream, (I still have to shave :( ). It is SO GOOD! My face feels so smooth and the stubborn spot on my neck is smooth, too! What a wonderful day!
Sounds like you may be getting past the panic attack phase. It must have been horrific, I know I still get all teary eyed whenever I see a film clip of that event.
Quote from: Shantel on July 06, 2014, 10:21:23 AM
Sounds like you may be getting past the panic attack phase. It must have been horrific, I know I still get all teary eyed whenever I see a film clip of that event.
I think I am, finally. Still have difficulty with stories, movies and articles about the actual event. Good to have my city back, even though I live well north now. So many old haunts I kinda missed even when my PTSD was at its worst.
Quote from: Dee Walker on July 06, 2014, 10:56:48 AM
I think I am, finally. Still have difficulty with stories, movies and articles about the actual event. Good to have my city back, even though I live well north now. So many old haunts I kinda missed even when my PTSD was at its worst.
I was in Indianapolis at a seminar when it happened. Called home and my spouse said, "Come home, I'm scared!" Drove home to Seattle, Washington in two days flat, got a ticket in Montana of all places going between 95 and 100 mph. I paid the cop cash and told him to not piss it all away in one place. He knew that I would never return to Missoula to contest it and said, "Smartass!" As soon as I was around the bend I turned the wick back up to 100 mph. The whole country was traumatized back then!
Looking at the beautiful Miss Sample Lady.
Quote from: Dee Walker on July 06, 2014, 08:49:11 AM
Well, more yesterday than today, it's still kinda early.
I was in Manhattan on 9/11 and haven't been able to go south of 14th without a panic attack since.
Yesterday we went to Economy Candy in the Bowery for hopjes, then to Chinatown, then down to the foot of Manhattan and over near the Freedom Tower. No panic attacks! After that we went up near Columbia to the Hungarian Pastry Shop for pastries and coffee. On the way home we stopped at Sephora where I got samples of six new moisturizers and a new beard cream, (I still have to shave :( ). It is SO GOOD! My face feels so smooth and the stubborn spot on my neck is smooth, too! What a wonderful day!
What is "beard cream?" I still have a few grays I must still shave and these razors are tearing up my skin.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 06, 2014, 11:07:53 PM
What is "beard cream?" I still have a few grays I must still shave and these razors are tearing up my skin.
Ally :icon_flower:
It's a cream and comes in a jar. It looks kinda like cold cream. You use it instead of shaving soap or shaving cream. This one is from "Jack Black" and it's called "Supreme Cream". I've only found it at Sephora. It's a bit expensive, but I've never gotten such a close shave from a razor and not a single nick.
I was awakened by a knock on the front door. It was the mailman. My two Autopsy CD's and my My Dying Bride CD had arrived. So, that's a nice way to start off the day. ;D
Quote from: Dee Walker on July 06, 2014, 11:23:03 PM
It's a cream and comes in a jar. It looks kinda like cold cream. You use it instead of shaving soap or shaving cream. This one is from "Jack Black" and it's called "Supreme Cream". I've only found it at Sephora. It's a bit expensive, but I've never gotten such a close shave from a razor and not a single nick.
Oh, thanks. I was hoping it was a hair remover suitable for use on the face and neck. I guess pretty soon it's break out my tweezers cuz I already have enough facial scars from my accident. I don't need more induced by my still having to shave some patches of skin.Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 07, 2014, 11:41:48 AM
I was awakened by a knock on the front door. It was the mailman. My two Autopsy CD's and my My Dying Bride CD had arrived. So, that's a nice way to start off the day. ;D
Are they the show Autopsy that used to be on HBO? I used to love that show but it's never on anymore.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 07, 2014, 12:44:58 PM
Oh, thanks. I was hoping it was a hair remover suitable for use on the face and neck. I guess pretty soon it's break out my tweezers cuz I already have enough facial scars from my accident. I don't need more induced by my still having to shave some patches of skin.
Are they the show Autopsy that used to be on HBO? I used to love that show but it's never on anymore.
Ally :icon_flower:
LOL
No.
Not DVD's.
CD's of the Californian Death Metal band Autopsy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yq32dwiwXhI
Here is one of their "newer" songs. Well...a song they have done since they reformed: "Mutant Village". One of their best and a fun one to actually sing along to (rather than just doubling the growling Death Metal style vocals).
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 07, 2014, 01:19:45 PM
LOL
No.
Not DVD's.
CD's of the Californian Death Metal band Autopsy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yq32dwiwXhI
Here is one of their "newer" songs. Well...a song they have done since they reformed: "Mutant Village". One of their best and a fun one to actually sing along to (rather than just doubling the growling Death Metal style vocals).
Cool, thanks for giving me a listen. Not bad. I'ma little more into Nightwish(pre 2005) and Epica, also Therion but every now and then this girl loves to walk on the wild side.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 07, 2014, 03:42:53 PM
Cool, thanks for giving me a listen. Not bad. I'ma little more into Nightwish(pre 2005) and Epica, also Therion but every now and then this girl loves to walk on the wild side.
Ally :icon_flower:
Cool.
One of my favorite Therion tracks.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fan0buFelKs
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 07, 2014, 03:55:31 PM
Cool.
One of my favorite Therion tracks.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fan0buFelKs
Love it! Cool! I have everything they've done including some bootlegs. I love the way they mix the opra with metal of all types and ranges. Back when I was able to play music this is the kind of stuff I was working toward as far as original songs and such. You got good taste Laura!
Here's one of my favorite Epica tracks (I hope I do this right - never posted a video before.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e77tLfkiVn8
Ally :icon_flower:
Are you a fan of My Dying Bride?
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 07, 2014, 04:23:08 PM
Are you a fan of My Dying Bride?
Never got the chance to hear them. If they're anything like Therion I'll prolly like. I will check them out. I've a site I can download anything from. I edited in my post above one of my favorite Epica tracks in my post above.
Ally :icon_flower:
A new telenovela starts tonight and includes my favorite actor.
Today I had my checkup with my HRT doctor at 7 months in HRT. Everything looked good and decided to switch to injections on the estrogen (estrodial valerate) and started to learn how to self-inject. 2 more sessions and I'll be able to do it on my own in August. Now things will really kick in :)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on July 07, 2014, 10:05:01 PM
Today I had my checkup with my HRT doctor at 7 months in HRT. Everything looked good and decided to switch to injections on the estrogen (estrodial valerate) and started to learn how to self-inject. 2 more sessions and I'll be able to do it on my own in August. Now things will really kick in :)
So happy for you Sydney
My boyfriend is coming over later.
Last night my therapist emailed me the first draft of my HRT letter and I posted it here for comments. This morning I edited it and sent it back.
Update: four hours later the letter was on its way to the endocrinologist.
Brasil vs Germany semi-final match today. Can't wait!
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 08, 2014, 11:43:38 AMBrasil vs Germany semi-final match today. Can't wait!
I'd have preferred the other to be Belgium-Netherlands myself.
Belgium-Germany would have been a great final, what with neither of them using proper fullbacks and their counter attacking styles.
I really just want Vert, Thibault, and Dries Mertens to date... >.<
Quote from: Lauren5 on July 08, 2014, 02:23:41 PM
I'd have preferred the other to be Belgium-Netherlands myself.
Belgium-Germany would have been a great final, what with neither of them using proper fullbacks and their counter attacking styles.
I really just want Vert, Thibault, and Dries Mertens to date... >.<
I see. Germany basically ran circles around Brasil with 6 goals.
The doctor gave me a lollipop and a lady at Starbucks gave me a free cookie for no reason.
Today, was a good day at work, I also not only got more hrs this week but got to stay late to help cover a shift. I also finally got around to baking a oh so sweet cake.
Dear Mario,
I have baked you a delicious cake, won't you please come to the castle, yours truly
Princess Toadstool, PEACH Shana-chan
Ahem, I also collected 20 cents while at work, would have been more had I of picked up the coins near the window. Ah well. :)
Quote from: birkin on July 08, 2014, 08:23:04 PM
The doctor gave me a lollipop and a lady at Starbucks gave me a free cookie for no reason.
Unless you're a kid, you don't just get a cookie for free, my bet is she was hitting on you. The doc, well, you get those free kid or no kid. (Not always)
What show is your current avatar from? I've seen that bug before and think I remember where from but need confirmation.
That avatar is from Thumbelina.
Went to a place to fill out an application and my spouse came in to wait since it was 90 degrees outside and the staff member came out and asked "Are you with him?" Him being me. Squee.
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 08, 2014, 04:30:17 PMI see. Germany basically ran circles around Brasil with 6 goals.
Revenge for 2002. Thank you Germany, Marc Wilmots & co thanks you.
Had my final consult with Dr. Gary Alter today. Everything is going as planned, and this time next week I will be livin' la vida sin cojonitas. Too bad they're getting sent to a lab. I was hoping to have them brass plated and put on display.
So I guess I my life will be significantly "Altered"?
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 08, 2014, 10:15:45 PM
Unless you're a kid, you don't just get a cookie for free, my bet is she was hitting on you. The doc, well, you get those free kid or no kid. (Not always)
What show is your current avatar from? I've seen that bug before and think I remember where from but need confirmation.
Well, this lady was like 50 years old at least. =/ She was just a very happy old woman lol. There is a possibility she thought I was 16 or something, who knows.
It's the frog lady from Thumbelina lol. I love her:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbkD8ropzG0
Today, got to eat a free strawberry glazed donut, also found a penny on my way home and I forgot to post this yesterday but, even after all the trips this month to a few fast food joints which I hardly ever do (I normally eat out once a month if at that) and then some, I was certain I was going to gain weight or at least be the same but nope! I lost at least 2 pounds, now if I can JUST lose another 20 pounds and this STUBBORN belly fat (And a little fat in other areas too) then I'll be skinny like I used to be plus be at around the weight a woman should be.
Quote from: birkin on July 09, 2014, 04:23:32 PMIt's the frog lady from Thumbelina lol. I love her:
Oh, well, a frog you say, and here I was calling her a bug when she EATS bugs, oh the irony. Anyway, I was remembering right on where I'd seen her from, thanks. :)
First appointment with my new therapist went very well! :) Apparently I had made a good first impression on the staff there just over the phone and then on her as well. Also I didn't plan to tell this therapist, but she has an LGBT safe zone sticker in her office so I might after all. I'm pretty sure she is an INFP. And for some reason INFPs always love me in person. Which is great cuz they make me feel all fuzzy and accepted :)
I got a call back to interview for the job I went to apply for yesterday! WOOT! Or should I say woof since it's a job working with dogs!
Eating a red velvet brownie sample
Quote from: sad panda on July 09, 2014, 05:08:08 PM
First appointment with my new therapist went very well! :) Apparently I had made a good first impression on the staff there just over the phone and then on her as well. Also I didn't plan to tell this therapist, but she has an LGBT safe zone sticker in her office so I might after all. I'm pretty sure she is an INFP. And for some reason INFPs always love me in person. Which is great cuz they make me feel all fuzzy and accepted :)
I'm sooooo happy for you Panda that you've found a good therapist your comfortable with.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 09, 2014, 10:27:45 PM
I'm sooooo happy for you Panda that you've found a good therapist your comfortable with.
Ally :icon_flower:
Thanks ally! :3
Quote from: sad panda on July 09, 2014, 05:08:08 PM
First appointment with my new therapist went very well! :) Apparently I had made a good first impression on the staff there just over the phone and then on her as well. Also I didn't plan to tell this therapist, but she has an LGBT safe zone sticker in her office so I might after all. I'm pretty sure she is an INFP. And for some reason INFPs always love me in person. Which is great cuz they make me feel all fuzzy and accepted :)
This is good. Congrads. You deserve some good.
Hugs,
Jen
An adult dog and baby human vocalizing together ;D -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nupfxo2ihQc
Reaching the PBS safety net. All scripts at around 15% till next year
I ran into someone I've held a mini grudge against for like, over a year and we managed to clear the air. :)
Funny how life works sometimes. I also got an email last night from a friend I haven't seen in over two years! Hopefully her and can hang out. I missed her.
Quote from: birkin on July 10, 2014, 09:14:54 PM
I ran into someone I've held a mini grudge against for like, over a year and we managed to clear the air. :)
Always a good feeling to bulldoze the BS out of old friendships and start over fresh.
First appointment at Callen-Lorde today. HRT is getting closer already.
I got in to Medical school!!!!
15 years of hard studying has finally paid off!(A bit at least)
Quote from: 930310 on July 11, 2014, 04:38:18 PM
I got in to Medical school!!!!
15 years of hard studying has finally paid off!(A bit at least)
THAT'S GREAT. CONGRATULATIONS!
I got a free Chik Fila meal. My co-worker let me borrow her paper cow ears and spots. I love free food!
Had bloodwork done for my first appointment and next one is October 8th. 11 weeks away but it's fast.
Found a penny today
Quote from: 930310 on July 11, 2014, 04:38:18 PM
I got in to Medical school!!!!
15 years of hard studying has finally paid off!(A bit at least)
Congratulations! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: 930310 on July 11, 2014, 04:38:18 PM
I got in to Medical school!!!!
15 years of hard studying has finally paid off!(A bit at least)
Congrat's I'm very happy for you. Seeing your hard work pay off is a gratifying feeling and I wish you the very best with your medical education!
Ally :icon_flower:
Three things.
We're currently helping our son and his girlfriend move apartments.
I was driving a U-Haul truck with my son's GF and my wife in the cab. A funeral procession came from the other direction and it gave me an idea. I said that, when I die I want a U-Haul truck in the procession with a banner proclaiming, "I can so!" My wife thinks this is a great idea.
Later I was talking to my son's GF and it slipped out that my son outed me to her. She tells both of them are behind me 100%. She did tell that she might get jealous if I ended up with bigger boobs than her and she can't wait to go shopping with me. She also offered me some makeup.
Lastly, my wife snuggled in to me when we went out to dinner when we finished. She's being affectionate again!
Quote from: Dee Walker on July 12, 2014, 09:59:02 PM
Three things.
We're currently helping our son and his girlfriend move apartments.
I was driving a U-Haul truck with my son's GF and my wife in the cab. A funeral procession came from the other direction and it gave me an idea. I said that, when I die I want a U-Haul truck in the procession with a banner proclaiming, "I can so!" My wife thinks this is a great idea.
Later I was talking to my son's GF and it slipped out that my son outed me to her. She tells both of them are behind me 100%. She did tell that she might get jealous if I ended up with bigger boobs than her and she can't wait to go shopping with me. She also offered me some makeup.
Lastly, my wife snuggled in to me when we went out to dinner when we finished. She's being affectionate again!
Congrats! It's good that your wife is being affectionate again. After I told my wife, she was affectionate one more time and then it was never to be found again... and she got pregnant! Definitely a fun situation for me. Glad that your son and his girlfriend are behind you 100%. My son is only 4 so he is having a hard time understand why daddy is going to be a woman in the future, but he has assured me (seriously, he talks to me as if HE is the adult) that he still loves me and will always love me whether I'm a boy or a "goyul" (he has problems with R's)
Now, umm... what the heck am I missing with the U-Haul banner? Seems bizarre but a U-Haul truck in a funeral procession with a banner reading
anything would seem a little funny to me.
Sounds like life is looking good for you Dee :)
I think she's referring to the old saying, "you can't take it with you when you die."
Quote from: Pikachu on July 12, 2014, 10:43:26 PM
I think she's referring to the old saying, "you can't take it with you when you die."
Dammit.
Now I feel stupid, but laughing last is better than not laughing at all I suppose :P
Quote from: FilaFord on July 12, 2014, 11:09:17 PM
Now I feel stupid, but laughing last is better than not laughing at all I suppose :P
Don't feel stupid, I didn't get it either.
My mother just called. My wife picked up the phone and they talked for a bit. My mom thought she was talking to me at first! I mean, my wife sounds a bit andro, but hey, I'll take it.
Also, orchi just confirmed for 7AM PDT tomorrow (paid in full). It's happening for real! PermaJill, baby! Woohoo!!!
My bf came over and we cuddled, talked, and watched Gundam. I'm staying over at his place tomorrow.
As usual, I love being me.
Just scored VIP tickets for KISS at the Hard Rock Vegas in November! \m/- -\m/
Hope I can do the same for Judas Priest tomorrow AM just after they wake me up from surgery. Priorities...
Quote from: Jill F on July 14, 2014, 07:43:55 PM
My mother just called. My wife picked up the phone and they talked for a bit. My mom thought she was talking to me at first! I mean, my wife sounds a bit andro, but hey, I'll take it.
Also, orchi just confirmed for 7AM PDT tomorrow (paid in full). It's happening for real! PermaJill, baby! Woohoo!!!
Congratulations Jill! That's awesome.
I'm growing body hair!!! Finally, I won't be the hairless wonder. And it's male-type body hair.
Also I worked out and it felt good. I've always liked working out but the results are happening much faster on T.
My car works, for now.
Got some files to start learning Japanese and Korean. Due to a pilot shortage in Japan, I'm researching pilot jobs and such over there, like how I can get the proper qualifications even though I have some experience in simulators (though the wrong ones for the airlines most in need, Vanilla Air and Peach, which fly the A320, while my full simulator time is in the 737-800, although I do have much home simulator time in the A320 series) basically, I know how to fly a plane, I just don't have the piece of paper that says I can, and wonder if I can apply for training through the airline, despite not having a college degree. It's not a requirement usually, just a reccomendation, although that's for the US. I have no idea what it is in Japan.
Anyways, I'm learning some new language families, branching out from Latin bases.
I found a quarter. Awesome!
Leaving here in less than an hour and knowing that the source of my problems will be gone forevermore in just 4 hours.
I'm going to go see friends this evening.
I went to see some long time friends that I haven't seen since starting my transition I was a bit apprehensive about it not knowing what to expect but they are accepting of me as a woman and just want me to be happy which is great news I'm so stoked. Yaaaay.
Quote from: Emily.T on July 15, 2014, 12:03:42 PM
I went to see some long time friends that I haven't seen since starting my transition I was a bit apprehensive about it not knowing what to expect but they are accepting of me as a woman and just want me to be happy which is great news I'm so stoked. Yaaaay.
Congrats, a little positive affirmation is always welcomed!
Took up the courage to go apply for jobs in person.
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 15, 2014, 12:17:24 PM
Took up the courage to go apply for jobs in person.
PM'ed you on this!
Orchi successful. Feels like I got kicked square in the nuts, but I don't have any.
Weird...
Quote from: Jill F on July 15, 2014, 02:34:01 PM
Orchi successful. Feels like I got kicked square in the nuts, but I don't have any.
Weird...
Congrat's Jill! I'm very happy for you!
Can you still have SRS at a later time should you so decide? I'm just curious as I know they need a certain amount of tissue for Vaginoplasty.
Ally :icon_flower:
Quote from: Jill F on July 15, 2014, 02:34:01 PM
Orchi successful. Feels like I got kicked square in the nuts, but I don't have any.
Weird...
Congrats! Don't tell me you're a soprano now, I ain't buying it! Keep it iced kid!
Quote from: Allyda on July 15, 2014, 02:42:43 PM
Congrat's Jill! I'm very happy for you!
Can you still have SRS at a later time should you so decide? I'm just curious.
Ally :icon_flower:
Yes, the doc who did it is also a noted SRS surgeon, so he optimized the scar for it. I also had 3 big ugly Lemmy moles taken off mah face while I was under.
If It turns out I'm happy with just an orchi, I can bag the SRS and I'm done. Otherwise I can wait for as long as I need to. I'm going to give it 6 months before I make my final decision and resume genital electro (OWIE!). I'm just happy that there will be no more T to wreck my life and I never have to worry about it again. Not having to remember to take pills is going to be awesome. I'm also getting an E pellet implant in 2 weeks, so I can just fahgeddaboudit and enjoy life.
PermaJill, baby!
Welcome to Jill 2.0! The only real bummer is that I would have been calling Nero right now to share the good news.
Yay, empty T-bag!
Quote from: Shantel on July 15, 2014, 02:50:22 PM
Congrats! Don't tell me you're a soprano now, I ain't buying it! Keep it iced kid!
I'm not. Still a f***ing baritone. UGH...
Pass the peas, please?
The smile on a homeless woman's face when I gave her some money. She was cradling a baby in her arms while her very young (toddler) daughter sat nearby and her crippled husband limped around as he begged for money too. I felt so sorry that I gave them some money and that left me feeling better.
Quote from: Jill F on July 15, 2014, 02:55:36 PM
I'm also getting an E pellet implant in 2 weeks, so I can just fahgeddaboudit and enjoy life.
PermaJill, baby!
Welcome to Jill 2.0! The only real bummer is that I would have been calling Nero right now to share the good news.
Yay, empty T-bag!
Well I'm very veeeeery happy for you, and more so now that you can still have SRS should you decide to do so later on.
They only have one T bag to empty on me when I have my SRS this December. What they'll do with the other abnormality remains to be seen (I haven't had any consults yet). I'll just be glad to have normal female genitals, glad to be finally whole.
Allie :icon_flower:
I got some new pants from the thrift store that actually fit pretty well.
I collected 25 cents worth of pennies today at work while outside, actually 26 cents but I lost one down the drain while cleaning them.
Quote from: King Malachite on July 15, 2014, 04:00:59 AM
I found a quarter. Awesome!
I'll trade you all 25 pennies I have for your one quarter. ;) Deal?
Quote from: Jill F on July 15, 2014, 02:58:00 PM
I'm not. Still a f***ing baritone. UGH...
Pass the peas, please?
:D ;D :laugh: :icon_bunch: ^-^ Nuff said!
The fact that having a masculine and well-built upper body doesn't make my figure look less feminine when I dress up.
Even though I got really frustrated drawing earlier today, I got to stare at a hot naked guy who modeled in my figure drawing class. Good times.
I found a dime.
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 15, 2014, 07:26:31 PM
I collected 25 cents worth of pennies today at work while outside, actually 26 cents but I lost one down the drain while cleaning them.
I'll trade you all 25 pennies I have for your one quarter. ;) Deal?
Well if you didn't lose that one penny, I would have said deal. I'd take 26 pennies over a quarter any day.
Quote from: King Malachite on July 15, 2014, 08:34:52 PM
I found a dime.
Well if you didn't lose that one penny, I would have said deal. I'd take 26 pennies over a quarter any day.
XDD Then I'd have said, Deals off. :) Every penny counts and while I quickly got over that penny loss, it was and shall be missed. Congrates on the quarter and now the dime. :)
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 15, 2014, 09:51:05 PM
XDD Then I'd have said, Deals off. :) Every penny counts and while I quickly got over that penny loss, it was and shall be missed. Congrates on the quarter and now the dime. :)
Haha, I know that's right! Thanks! I heard the dime drop actually, and the boy didn't even bother to pick it up, so I quickly swooped it up. How horrible to know you drop money and not even bother to pick it up, but hey, that's good for me!
I went into the city on Monday for some business which was to register my name change and I got confirmation in the mail today(two days that is quick) as I received my new name change certificate and a copy of my birth certificate with a notation of the name change at the bottom. So it is official, I am now legally Charlotte Ashlee-Rose plus surname, which I have blurred out but if you have me on facebook you will see it there. That is one milestone(big step) done. :D
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.yuku.com%2Fimage%2Fjpeg%2Fcd725074fb9a31c82e09d9b1674e99836ccf815.jpg&hash=9e61036afe33760cb420838dcacaf06c4f27a7ed)
A friend of mine on Instagram sent me some original design shirts, and other neat stuff, just because she wanted to do something nice.
I've just had my latest performance appraisal with my boss.
He was very complimentary about the positive changes that my transition has made to me personally and professionally. He said that when I first announced to him that I would be transitioning he was unsure what impact this would have on the business, how much I would change, and how my colleagues would respond. But now that I've been transitioning for two years he said that from his perspective and the perspective of the business my transition has been a very positive move. He said I've become an even bigger asset to the business than ever before, and that from his perspective my transition has made me more focussed on the business and it's long-term goals than ever before.
With that in mind, he's agreed to mentor me with a view to appointing me to the Board within the next few years.
This is awesome news... and goodness knows I could've done with some good news after this week's tragedy, which has hit me really hard.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 16, 2014, 09:17:35 AM
I've just had my latest performance appraisal with my boss.
He was very complimentary about the positive changes that my transition has made to me personally and professionally. He said that when I first announced to him that I would be transitioning he was unsure what impact this would have on the business, how much I would change, and how my colleagues would respond. But now that I've been transitioning for two years he said that from his perspective and the perspective of the business my transition has been a very positive move. He said I've become an even bigger asset to the business than ever before, and that from his perspective my transition has made me more focussed on the business and it's long-term goals than ever before.
With that in mind, he's agreed to mentor me with a view to appointing me to the Board within the next few years.
This is awesome news... and goodness knows I could've done with some good news after this week's tragedy, which has hit me really hard.
Wow, that is awesome news, couldn't happen to a nicer person!
Quote from: Shantel on July 16, 2014, 09:31:32 AM
Wow, that is awesome news, couldn't happen to a nicer person!
Awww, shucks... thanks Auntie Shan! :D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 16, 2014, 09:43:45 AM
Awww, shucks... thanks Auntie Shan! :D
Sounds like you have one hell of a work ethic which always brings it's rewards!
Quote from: Charley Bea(EmeraldP) on July 16, 2014, 01:29:14 AM
I went into the city on Monday for some business which was to register my name change and I got confirmation in the mail today(two days that is quick) as I received my new name change certificate and a copy of my birth certificate with a notation of the name change at the bottom. So it is official, I am now legally Charlotte Ashlee-Rose plus surname, which I have blurred out but if you have me on facebook you will see it there. That is one milestone(big step) done. :D
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Dang, that is fast. I'm 1 week into the 3 week waiting for the hearing. Yeah, I still have to go to court for it.
Fortunately I won't for legal gender. Should just need a doctor's note and wait an absurd amount of time.
I spent last night with my bf and I'm spending tonight with him too. We've both been very open about what we want now, where we are in our lives, and what we hope for in the future. He is supportive of any physical changes I want to make in my transition and is steadfast is referring to me as his boyfriend and a guy.
On the flip side, I feel kinda silly gushing about my boyfriend.
Quote from: Edge on July 16, 2014, 10:54:50 AM
I spent last night with my bf and I'm spending tonight with him too. We've both been very open about what we want now, where we are in our lives, and what we hope for in the future. He is supportive of any physical changes I want to make in my transition and is steadfast is referring to me as his boyfriend and a guy.
On the flip side, I feel kinda silly gushing about my boyfriend.
Gush all you want, it is time for you to have that someone special in your life, speaking for myself I am pleased for you as I'm sure others are too.
Quote from: Charley Bea(EmeraldP) on July 16, 2014, 01:29:14 AM
I went into the city on Monday for some business which was to register my name change and I got confirmation in the mail today(two days that is quick) as I received my new name change certificate and a copy of my birth certificate with a notation of the name change at the bottom. So it is official, I am now legally Charlotte Ashlee-Rose plus surname, which I have blurred out but if you have me on facebook you will see it there. That is one milestone(big step) done. :D
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.yuku.com%2Fimage%2Fjpeg%2Fcd725074fb9a31c82e09d9b1674e99836ccf815.jpg&hash=9e61036afe33760cb420838dcacaf06c4f27a7ed)
Congrat's Charlotte! I can imagine the elation you must feel right now. That's a very pretty name!
Allie :icon_flower:
Found 28 cents today at work, 3 pennies and a quarter. :)(So glad it wasn't another 25 pennies lol)
Quote from: Charley Bea(EmeraldP) on July 16, 2014, 01:29:14 AM
I went into the city on Monday for some business which was to register my name change and I got confirmation in the mail today(two days that is quick) as I received my new name change certificate and a copy of my birth certificate with a notation of the name change at the bottom. So it is official, I am now legally Charlotte Ashlee-Rose plus surname, which I have blurred out but if you have me on facebook you will see it there. That is one milestone(big step) done. :D
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.yuku.com%2Fimage%2Fjpeg%2Fcd725074fb9a31c82e09d9b1674e99836ccf815.jpg&hash=9e61036afe33760cb420838dcacaf06c4f27a7ed)
Congrats Charlotte I am so happy for you
Quote from: Jill F on July 15, 2014, 02:34:01 PM
Orchi successful. Feels like I got kicked square in the nuts, but I don't have any.
Weird...
I missed this post. Must have been writing at the time. How are you doing?
I was surprised how quick it was Lauren, good luck with yours. :)
I am happy and thank you Allie. :)
Thank you Emily. :)
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 16, 2014, 08:59:55 PM
I missed this post. Must have been writing at the time. How are you doing?
Hey Laura,
I'm doing OK. Now it just feels like I got kicked square in the nuts YESTERDAY. So far I just feel really mellow, but that's probably more the vicodin talking than the lack of T. I saw doc again today and I got the thumbs up, so all is well. My appetite is back and other than the groin aching, I'm pretty much back to my usual snarky self.
I don't think I'm going to miss them one bit. Doc says he's glad I didn't try to use it as a pinata though. Those kids would have been very disappointed.
I am going to order a t-shirt that says, "If I had balls, they'd be bigger than yours."
with a picture of giant Jill made meatballs? I thought you had a meatball recipe somewhere earlier.
Quote from: Jill F on July 16, 2014, 10:11:41 PM
Hey Laura,
I'm doing OK. Now it just feels like I got kicked square in the nuts YESTERDAY. So far I just feel really mellow, but that's probably more the vicodin talking than the lack of T. I saw doc again today and I got the thumbs up, so all is well. My appetite is back and other than the groin aching, I'm pretty much back to my usual snarky self.
I don't think I'm going to miss them one bit. Doc says he's glad I didn't try to use it as a pinata though. Those kids would have been very disappointed.
I am going to order a t-shirt that says, "If I had balls, they'd be bigger than yours."
You got Vicodins? All I got were some lousy Hydrocodones that didn't really help. I just bought a few bags of generic frozen peas and used them to chill things out. :D I took it real easy for awhile, though, just to be on the safe side.
:D Nice idea on the shirt.
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 16, 2014, 10:23:08 PM
You got Vicodins? All I got were some lousy Hydrocodones that didn't really help. I just bought a few bags of generic frozelarger numbern peas and used them to chill things out. :D I took it real easy for awhile, though, just to be on the safe side.
:D Nice idea on the shirt.
Um, yea, I hate to tell you this Laura, but Vicodin is Hydrocodone + a given amount of Acetaminophin(Tylonol). The Hydrocodone is the small number, and the Acetaminophin is the large number. {I apologize for spelling}
I'm happy to hear your doing OK Jill and back to your old self.
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 17, 2014, 12:47:59 PM
I'm happy to hear your doing OK Jill and back to your old self.
Back to my old self? I certainly hope not. "He" was kind of a dick. :D
Now it's Jill 2.0- who wants hugs and cookies?
What made me happy today was scoring VIP tickets to Judas Priest in November. 6th row center and some level of backstage pass. I just hope there's free beer this time. I hate it when I go backstage and there's no real perks other than surly crew telling you to get the hell out of their way.
Quote from: Allyda on July 17, 2014, 12:47:59 PM
Um, yea, I hate to tell you this Laura, but Vicodin is Hydrocodone + a given amount of Acetaminophin(Tylonol). The Hydrocodone is the small number, and the Acetaminophin is the large number. {I apologize for spelling}
I'm happy to hear your doing OK Jill and back to your old self.
Allie :icon_flower:
:D Oh.
Well, that shows my ignorance when it comes to stuff like that. I thought that Vicodin was something much heavier than that.
Lost 6lb in weight
Quote from: big kim on July 17, 2014, 03:57:55 PM
Lost 6lb in weight
:eusa_clap: Atta girl, I have to get with the program too, it's always an uphill battle!
My friend randomly hit me up on Facebook and said she referred me to her manager for an opening at a food court.
I come in to meet him and do an application and possibly interview tomorrow afternoon. Here's hoping I get the job!
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 17, 2014, 07:33:00 PM
My friend randomly hit me up on Facebook and said she referred me to her manager for an opening at a food court.
I come in to meet him and do an application and possibly interview tomorrow afternoon. Here's hoping I get the job!
Positive vibes your way kid!
I might be playing an out of town show with my Noise project. I just have to wait and see on the details and whatnot.
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 17, 2014, 02:47:52 PM
:D Oh.
Well, that shows my ignorance when it comes to stuff like that. I thought that Vicodin was something much heavier than that.
I've been on narcotic pain med's in one form or another since my accident in 91. Believe me everything else has been tried including various surgeries, physical therapy, and injections to aleviate my condition all to no avail. So unfortunately for me they are a necessary evil I must live with if I want to keep my current lifestyle of independence.Quote from: Laura Squirrel on July 17, 2014, 08:14:45 PM
I might be playing an out of town show with my Noise project. I just have to wait and see on the details and whatnot.
Congratulations Laura. I'm very happy for you!
Allie :icon_flower:
Weighed myself today and I lost 3 kg this month yaaay. :D
Quote from: Allyda on July 17, 2014, 09:39:45 PM
Congratulations Laura. I'm very happy for you!
Allie
Thanks.
I probably won't get paid. If I do, it may be 20 bucks. That's the nature of this stuff. Oh well, if I wanted to be rich making any kind of music it sure as hell wouldn't be Noise. :D It's more about playing the show itself and meeting some cool people.
This actually happened yesterday, but I got home late and went straight to bed instead of posting about it.
I received my second degree initiation (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,169524.0.html) yesterday, being promoted from priest and witch to high priest and magus.
I woke up next to my boyfriend today. This is specific to today because we haven't dated in over a year. His last job didn't allow us to be close, so we decided to just be friends. He kept his word at being a great friend and now we're both more available to each other. I wasn't sure if he would want me back because he strongly prefers men over women, and I had to explain my new situation when he asked me out again. He was actually fine with it and even supportive. I'll leave my doubts for another day and just be happy today.
Quote from: Constance on July 18, 2014, 12:18:37 PM
This actually happened yesterday, but I got home late and went straight to bed instead of posting about it.
I received my second degree initiation (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,169524.0.html) yesterday, being promoted from priest and witch to high priest and magus.
Couldn't happen to a nicer holy woman. Congratulations!
Quote from: Shantel on July 17, 2014, 07:35:54 PM
Positive vibes your way kid!
It would seem so because, while I was waiting for the manager at that place my friend referred me to, I went to that other new food court spot at the mall my friend told me about where Panda Express was opening up and was hiring people. I get surprised by an employee and manager behind me and offered me an open interview. They had several questions, mostly ones where they followed up on my answers about having a Psychology degree and why I'm suddenly going to the food industry business. They seemed to have liked me well enough I suppose since they asked me if I applied online and asked me to write down my full legal name on a manager card and told me apply online so we can go further in the process.
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 18, 2014, 04:21:05 PM
It would seem so because, while I was waiting for the manager at that place my friend referred me to, I went to that other new food court spot at the mall my friend told me about where Panda Express was opening up and was hiring people. I get surprised by an employee and manager behind me and offered me an open interview. They had several questions, mostly ones where they followed up on my answers about having a Psychology degree and why I'm suddenly going to the food industry business. They seemed to have liked me well enough I suppose since they asked me if I applied online and asked me to write down my full legal name on a manager card and told me apply online so we can go further in the process.
There you go hon, a ray of light, sounds good!
Quote from: Shantel on July 18, 2014, 05:14:07 PM
There you go hon, a ray of light, sounds good!
Yeah, I hope that works out cause the manager at that place my friend at works was kind of insensitive.
Manager: *looking at application* "You have a Bachelor's degree. Why don't you have a job?"
Me: *attempts to laugh a bit* Yeah...
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 18, 2014, 05:20:29 PM
Yeah, I hope that works out cause the manager at that place my friend at works was kind of insensitive.
Manager: *looking at application* "You have a Bachelor's degree. Why don't you have a job?"
Me: *attempts to laugh a bit* Yeah...
You got to answer that question seriously. When they ask you that, they are asking it because they want to know if you've been applying or just not been trying to get a job. The more you apply, the better it will look on you. Also, the more consistently you apply at jobs the better it'll look on you vs. only applying at a few, then waiting a long time and trying to apply at a few more.
If you haven't already done so, I recommend you read online the many answers to the questions the interviewer will ask you, as well as the many other tips. One of which was which helped me get my current job "If they don't call you back, call them back in a week from when you applied there."
Best of luck!
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 18, 2014, 06:21:59 PM
You got to answer that question seriously. When they ask you thought, they are asking it because they want to know if you've been applying or just not been trying to get a job. The more you apply, the better it will look on you. Also, the more consistently you apply at jobs the better it'll look on you vs. only applying at a few, then waiting a long time and trying to apply at a few more.
If you haven't already done so, I recommend you read online the many answers to the questions the interviewer will ask you, as well as the many other tips. One of which was which helped me get my current job "If they don't call you back, call them back in a week from when you applied there."
Best of luck!
That wasn't an interview. He was literally looking over my application, made some comments and told me that he'll call me.
I found a quarter and a nickel today!
I got promoted to a teacher on my payday at my job. ^^
Quote from: MadelineB on July 18, 2014, 02:47:37 PM
Couldn't happen to a nicer holy woman. Congratulations!
Thanks Maddie!
I got hit on today in Big lots. While I'm not into guys, I have to admit it felt pretty good that someone liked me enough to express it. As guys go he wasn't bad looking either. I couldn't stop blushing. I felt like a little girl!
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 18, 2014, 07:18:23 PM
I got hit on today in Big lots. While I'm not into guys, I have to admit it felt pretty good that someone liked me enough to express it. As guys go he wasn't bad looking either. I couldn't stop blushing. I felt like a little girl!
Allie :icon_flower:
You are a little girl Allyda! :)
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 18, 2014, 06:23:08 PM
That wasn't an interview. He was literally looking over my application, made some comments and told me that he'll call me.
Hem, well, he might have been testing you so, best answer the question/indulge him a little. I know if it was me and I did that (IF I did that, I mean really I'd probably only do that in an interview but still) I'd really consider someone who said they're trying vs. someone who is only somewhat trying. (What I said in my previous post on this subject) If you don't hear back from him in a week from that date he said that, give him a call and see if he wants to have an interview with you.
Quote from: King Malachite on July 18, 2014, 06:24:05 PM
I found a quarter and a nickel today!
I'm beginning to think you and I are competing with each other. :) I found a penny today so, you win this round. ;) All further rounds will have to be post poned though till (if) my leg gets better.
Quote from: Shantel on July 18, 2014, 07:43:58 PM
You are a little girl Allyda! :)
I dunno, but I sure felt like one cause I couldn't stop blushing. I was just very flattered someone liked me enough to ask me out for coffee.
Allie :icon_flower:
My chest binders as well as my school marks (I passed everything) came in the mail today!! I tried my binders on and wore them out when I went with my mom to deliver some things to my neighbour's house. When we got there, their daughter came out and asked my mom "can I play with your son?" My first real guy-mode attempt, and it worked! Sure it came from a kid, but it made me happy nonetheless.
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 18, 2014, 11:27:12 PM
I'm beginning to think you and I are competing with each other. :) I found a penny today so, you win this round. ;) All further rounds will have to be post poned though till (if) my leg gets better.
I was going to ask if it counts when I find pennies and don't pick them up, but I actually found 3 dimes on a bus seat yesterday. And that was awesome.
What made me happy today was mostly music, I think. I just learned that I can "check out" digital copies of albums at my library, and their digital access includes a ton of albums they don't own hard copies of. Or they do, but they're scratched up or have long hold waitlists. So this is nice.
Quote from: Jay27 on July 19, 2014, 12:10:22 AM
My chest binders as well as my school marks (I passed everything) came in the mail today!! I tried my binders on and wore them out when I went with my mom to deliver some things to my neighbour's house. When we got there, their daughter came out and asked my mom "can I play with your son?" My first real guy-mode attempt, and it worked! Sure it came from a kid, but it made me happy nonetheless.
That is wonderful. Kids can be really blunt, so I feel like being read how you want with one is pretty good. Dogs, too. When I was early in transition it was sometimes the reactions of dogs that cued the nearby humans to use the right pronouns. ;D
I'm going to a cosplay picnic today and I'm dressed as a troll. My costume isn't completely done yet and still needs work, but it's pretty good and I'm proud of it.
4000th post. Goes to my gorgeous. Love you. :-*
Quote from: Shana-chan on July 18, 2014, 11:27:12 PM
I'm beginning to think you and I are competing with each other. :) I found a penny today so, you win this round. ;) All further rounds will have to be post poned though till (if) my leg gets better.
Haha. I found 2 pennies today, but because there were inside the place I was working, I couldn't take them. :(
Quote from: Felix on July 19, 2014, 12:51:15 AM
I was going to ask if it counts when I find pennies and don't pick them up, but I actually found 3 dimes on a bus seat yesterday. And that was awesome.
If it makes you happy to just leave them there then I guess it would count, lol Congrats on finding .30 cents!
I'm now full-time and everything has been going better than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how well things have been at work, people are already using the right pronouns and most of all everyone at work that I have crossed paths have treated me like any other person. Most folks can't believe how well I look and in some cases they did not even know that I was me lol.
Quote from: Megumi on July 19, 2014, 05:08:11 PM
I'm now full-time and everything has been going better than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how well things have been at work, people are already using the right pronouns and most of all everyone at work that I have crossed paths have treated me like any other person. Most folks can't believe how well I look and in some cases they did not even know that I was me lol.
Congrats! :icon_bunch: :eusa_clap:
While I was hooking up kids at the bungee trampline, I hooked up two young girls who were part of the city's young Marine's program. As someone who took NJROTC in high school, that made me happy. One of the girls in particular said she loved that program and she's going to join the one in high school. Gosh it takes me back to my glory days. If there was one thing I loved, it was my NJROTC, and this girl had the discipline too because she would tell me "yes mam" in a disciplined JROTC voice. Gosh those were good times.
I also got a hug from a kid today when their mom told him to tell me thank you. I wasn't expecting a hug. I don't know why that made me exceptionally happy (especially when I hate people touching me), but it did.
Quote from: King Malachite on July 19, 2014, 06:09:04 PM
I also got a hug from a kid today when their mom told him to tell me thank you. I wasn't expecting a hug. I don't know why that made me exceptionally happy (especially when I hate people touching me), but it did.
I'm not a very big fan of physical contact either (For my own reasons) But a sincere hug does tend to feel rather good at times for some reason
Quote from: King Malachite on July 19, 2014, 06:09:04 PM
she would tell me "yes mam" in a disciplined JROTC voice.
Oh man it is so weird to imagine people seeing you as a "ma'am" lol. I honestly feel like you're seen as male in your day to day life because I just can't picture you as female in any way.
You're probably not supposed to have favourite clients but I got to work with my favourite lady today. She is a complete and total sweetheart despite her challenges, I just love her.
Quote from: Megumi on July 19, 2014, 05:08:11 PM
I'm now full-time and everything has been going better than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how well things have been at work, people are already using the right pronouns and most of all everyone at work that I have crossed paths have treated me like any other person. Most folks can't believe how well I look and in some cases they did not even know that I was me lol.
Congratulations Megumi! :eusa_clap: :eusa_dance: I know you feel wonderfully feminine right now and I am very happy for you. Being treated just like any other girl is great isn't it!
Best wishes!
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 19, 2014, 07:18:33 PM
Congratulations Megumi! :eusa_clap: :eusa_dance: I know you feel wonderfully feminine right now and I am very happy for you. Being treated just like any other girl is great isn't it!
Best wishes!
Allie :icon_flower:
Thanks ;D
Quote from: V M on July 19, 2014, 06:18:54 PM
I'm not a very big fan of physical contact either (For my own reasons) But a sincere hug does tend to feel rather good at times for some reason
It really does. Personally, I'm a germaphobe so I use hand sanitizer right after I deal with a cusomer and their money. I actually put hand sanitizer in my hair today because a someone coughed on my head. This particular customer was a hyper little boy and had so much energy, but I didn't peg him as the hugging type.
Quote from: birkin on July 19, 2014, 06:32:18 PM
Oh man it is so weird to imagine people seeing you as a "ma'am" lol. I honestly feel like you're seen as male in your day to day life because I just can't picture you as female in any way.
You're probably not supposed to have favourite clients but I got to work with my favourite lady today. She is a complete and total sweetheart despite her challenges, I just love her.
Haha actually, I got misgendered the other day by a guy, but it caught me off guard. He apologized after he heard my voice and saw my boobs I guess, but I told him not to worry about it. I thought I'd be happy to get misgendered, but it really wasn't as exciting as I thought. As far as my favorite customers....well, I like the kids that don't complain that the harness is too tight on them. I also like the kids that don't cough, or sneeze in my presence. I usually give the kids some extra time, but when they start to hack and cough, I bring them down at the standard time. I also like the kids that say "yes mam" to me as I like the politeness.
I passed as a male in a club. And got hit on by men.
I'm so excited!~
I'm home but so tired.
zzzzzzz.
Welcome back, hon - Last Person To Post has fizzled somewhat without you here!! ;)
I've got two days' worth of happy to report:
- Friday: travelled to London to see Monty Python perform live. They were outstanding, but I particularly enjoyed Terry Gilliam, who bounded around the stage like a 15-year-old (he's 73). It was an enormous privilege to be in the same room with these legends, and we gave them a lengthy standing ovation. During the ovation the entire audience sang along to 'Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life', which was really poignant considering they're doing these shows as a last hurrah before they kick the bucket.
- Saturday: having stayed in London overnight, I spent the day wandering round the British Museum. I had a whale of a time in which I saw (amongst other things) the Elgin Marbles, various Egyptian mummies, ancient Anglo-Saxon artefacts... oh yes, and the actual Rosetta Stone, which was pivotal in enabling us to decipher Ancient Egyptian hieroglyphics. It was wonderful to see these one-of-a-kind, historically significant treasures right in front of my face.
Quote from: Megumi on July 19, 2014, 05:08:11 PM
I'm now full-time and everything has been going better than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how well things have been at work, people are already using the right pronouns and most of all everyone at work that I have crossed paths have treated me like any other person. Most folks can't believe how well I look and in some cases they did not even know that I was me lol.
Congratulations i am so happy for you :)
I'm more envious than you can imagine, unfortunately I'm on the other side of the pond so .....
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 20, 2014, 06:47:50 AM
I've got two days' worth of happy to report:
- Friday: travelled to London to see Monty Python perform live. They were outstanding, but I particularly enjoyed Terry Gilliam, who bounded around the stage like a 15-year-old (he's 73). It was an enormous privilege to be in the same room with these legends, and we gave them a lengthy standing ovation. During the ovation the entire audience sang along to 'Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life', which was really poignant considering they're doing these shows as a last hurrah before they kick the bucket.
- Saturday: having stayed in London overnight, I spent the day wandering round the British Museum. I had a whale of a time in which I saw (amongst other things) the Elgin Marbles, various Egyptian mummies, ancient Anglo-Saxon artefacts... oh yes, and the actual Rosetta Stone, which was pivotal in enabling us to decipher Ancient Egyptian hieroglyphics. It was wonderful to see these one-of-a-kind, historically significant treasures right in front of my face.
I'm happy that today I had a long talk with my grandmother (I live with my grandparents) and I told her that I am moving forward and that from now on I will start wearing clothes that are more feminine and putting more make-up when I go out. Then I went out after adding some make-up to my eyes! =D
Quote from: antonia on July 20, 2014, 08:22:11 AM
I'm more envious than you can imagine, unfortunately I'm on the other side of the pond so .....
...which probably means there's stuff you can access on your side that I can't access here. ;)
I grew up in South Africa, which made me appreciate the opportunities I have here in the UK. Y'see,
nobody goes to South Africa to perform. It's just so out-of-the-way, and such a small market, that it's very rare for anyone famous - or anything important - to turn up. So now that I live in the UK, I'm fully aware of how lucky I am to have access to this kind of stuff.
Recent events/my current situation are causing me to learn a lot of cool things about myself and where I'm at right now in my life.
I've been avoiding telling my Asatru friend that I also honour jötnar because I was afraid he'd frown on that. Turns out he already figured it out without me saying anything and totally accepts it. (Not that I need his acceptance, but it is nice.)
I know what I have to offer and I know how valuable I am.
It is friggin awesome being me.
I felt extra lonely today, so I hit up a good buddy of mine and we hung out at the river this morning and talked for a while.
The beautiful scenery and the company of a good friend has made me happy.
Such a refreshing place to be.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FaeSasxI.jpg&hash=a20f3fa986bdd425791c4b8c96cc1a9f330dcb93)
Quote from: Ptarus on July 20, 2014, 02:03:30 PM
I felt extra lonely today, so I hit up a good buddy of mine and we hung out at the river this morning and talked for a while.
The beautiful scenery and the company of a good friend has made me happy.
Such a refreshing place to be.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FaeSasxI.jpg&hash=a20f3fa986bdd425791c4b8c96cc1a9f330dcb93)
Very pretty scenery. Did y'all fish or just hang out and talk?
I love the water and being out on it, or at a riverside camping. It brings me piece of mind. And if I catch a fish or two so much the better!
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 20, 2014, 04:29:48 PM
Very pretty scenery. Did y'all fish or just hang out and talk?
I love the water and being out on it, or at a riverside camping. It brings me piece of mind. And if I catch a fish or two so much the better!
Allie :icon_flower:
We just hung out, i can't fish or hunt. The guilt of murdering an animal kills me.
I can only eat the animal. Regardless, i love taking in scenery, alaska has the best things to look at
Alaskan and don't hunt or fish, how unusual.
I dont consider myself Alaskan, I was born in Detroit.
I just occupy alaskan space and claim pfd's :D
I don't pick up pennies if my backpack is full of groceries (so it hurts to lean over) or if my kid is talking and I know she'd lose her train of thought if I distract her, but it does make me happy to find them even if I don't get to have them.
What made me happy today was music. That's a really reliable source of joy.
I just got off the phone with a former friend I haven't talked to in about eight years. She's the one who I asked out and then pushed away due to gender dysphoria, so I sent her a message explaining why. She forgives me, is totally cool with me being a dude, and wants us to be friends again. She told me she missed me and is glad I reached out to her.
Quote from: Edge on July 20, 2014, 08:43:37 PM
I just got off the phone with a former friend I haven't talked to in about eight years. She's the one who I asked out and then pushed away due to gender dysphoria, so I sent her a message explaining why. She forgives me, is totally cool with me being a dude, and wants us to be friends again. She told me she missed me and is glad I reached out to her.
Very cool Victor!
So this morning got out on my bike for a ride. Cold but was nice.
Had to rebook a laser session from Manila on Friday to today.
Had legs and face done. Legs feel so soft now due to e and laser I love it. :)
I chose to pass as male today and actually felt really good about packing (I usually feel uncomfortable packing in public because I'm pre-op and pre-T so I always present really feminine)
AND, thanks to the Susan's forums, I've created/used my first STP device today! woo!
:)
I couldn't afford hormones this month so my brother gave me the money. He says I don't have to pay him back but I will when I get my first paycheck.
Today I'm starting E, pretty exited ....
Yesterday I visited a girl from work that just moved and needed to get rid of some things from her closet, we are the same size and I ended up going home with two full bags and a ton of great advice.
I got a call back from Panda Express wanting me to come in tomorrow for (possibly) a 2nd interview.
After an interview and then told to apply online at the end last week, is getting a call back this a good sign? :-\
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 21, 2014, 06:27:43 PM
I got a call back from Panda Express wanting me to come in tomorrow for (possibly) a 2nd interview.
After an interview and then told to apply online at the end last week, is getting a call back this a good sign? :-\
It's a very good sign!
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 21, 2014, 06:27:43 PM
I got a call back from Panda Express wanting me to come in tomorrow for (possibly) a 2nd interview.
After an interview and then told to apply online at the end last week, is getting a call back this a good sign? :-\
Depends. Sometimes it is just another form of torture with more interviews and the waiting to find out if you got the job. Or it is a case of "here is your locker, here are your keys you start next week." Hopefully it is the latter. Good luck
Quote from: Shantel on July 21, 2014, 07:13:01 PM
It's a very good sign!
:D
Quote from: immortal gypsy on July 21, 2014, 07:45:32 PM
Depends. Sometimes it is just another form of torture with more interviews and the waiting to find out if you got the job. Or it is a case of "here is your locker, here are your keys you start next week." Hopefully it is the latter. Good luck
Yeah, I hope so because I could use the money for my transition and to have my mom rest easy if my dad throws us out.
If not, it's most likely a short 2nd interview because the first interview was long and most of the questions were follow ups on my answers to previous questions.
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 21, 2014, 06:27:43 PM
I got a call back from Panda Express wanting me to come in tomorrow for (possibly) a 2nd interview.
After an interview and then told to apply online at the end last week, is getting a call back this a good sign? :-\
Just don't tell them you're pretty good at cooking pandas and I'm sure you'll do fine :D
Repetition made me happy today. I can't control other people and their behaviors, but I listened to the same music and went on the same websites as yesterday, and I hung out with my cat and didn't do anything too exciting.
The other thing that made me happy was seeing that we now have a ghost pepper and a tomato on our porch plants.
Today was that we watched UHF with my grandma who's visiting, and I haven't seen that movie in so long, so it was so fun to see it again. I laughed so much. I loved it. And then I went to work of course, but came home to find out that I won 3rd place in an online contest I was doing on Answers.com. The summer AnswerThon. Whoever (member or supervisor-I am a supervisor) answers the most questions in a time period wins. I get a $25 gift card for getting 3rd^^
I like how comment bumps remind me to reread things on this thread. It's nice seeing the stuff that's going well for people.
Got 3 pairs of good quality shoes for $55. One just fit at the store but when I put them on to break them in a bit at home they were too small :(
Gotta find a way to make my feet not swell during the day.
My daughter and I met my sister, her partner and my niece at a park today and had a great time.
Quote from: V M on July 21, 2014, 09:18:51 PM
Just don't tell them you're pretty good at cooking pandas and I'm sure you'll do fine :D
So I went in and the manager that interviewed me last Friday went like:
"Oh, I didn't think that was you. We already interviewed so let me see that resume and I'll e-mail you later on."
I wrote my name down on a card a while back before applying online so...doesn't seem very reassuring that I'll get the job.
I saw Alexander/Eric from True Blood literally rip someones jaw out of their face and that, that made me happy. ^_^
My mom told me that even before I came out to her as trans that she didn't think of me as a girl and hasn't in years, and I got further into my favorite bullet hell game than I usually do. The first one was a few days ago but I was remembering it earlier and it makes me happy every time ^^
Finally found an airline that is hiring FAs without having to be 21. And it's Cathay Pacific too, my fave <3
They're hiring out of NYC, LA, and SF, which is good because I have a friend I can stay with in Oakland, only a BART ride away from SFO, and Medi-Cal will cover SRS. Not my number one choice, but it's better than what I have now, and in in a field I enjoy.
Now just have to work with my Korean and Japanese programs when I get my tablet, should be by Thursday, if not today.
Quote from: Blue Senpai on July 22, 2014, 10:32:34 AM
So I went in and the manager that interviewed me last Friday went like:
"Oh, I didn't think that was you. We already interviewed so let me see that resume and I'll e-mail you later on."
I wrote my name down on a card a while back before applying online so...doesn't seem very reassuring that I'll get the job.
Oh, sorry to hear that, doesn't sound like they are very organized - I hope somethings turns up for you
Hugs
Quote from: V M on July 22, 2014, 01:03:31 PM
Oh, sorry to hear that, doesn't sound like they are very organized - I hope somethings turns up for you
Hugs
Thanks. I really hope something will so that I can focus more on getting general therapy and HRT in October.
I saw a cute little white butterfly frolicking in my flower garden and was almost overcome by happiness and joy.
Welcome to the other side, Jill...
I started volunteering at a bird care centre today, which was really fun. I got to prepare food for the birds and bring it to them, wash dishes, do laundry, clean a cage, carry some birds into a different area, etc. I've been looking into conserving species and taking care of animals as a career, so it's nice to get some experience. They had chickadees, robins, crows, ravens, ducks, Canadian geese...it was great. I also saw a monarch butterfly while I was hanging up laundry. I can't wait to go back ;D
I came out to another friend today! She was really supportive and excited for me! Slowly working up the courage to tell my family, but each day it get's a little easier. :3
4 glorious hours of sailing on Long Island Sound - It was a beautiful day with just enough wind and being a weekday means not too many jerks out on the water
be well everyone
jennifer
Quote from: Lizzeh on July 22, 2014, 10:49:30 PM
I came out to another friend today! She was really supportive and excited for me! Slowly working up the courage to tell my family, but each day it get's a little easier. :3
Awwh! Congrats! :icon_joy: I'm still working up the courage to tell family too so I'm in the same boat.
I came out to a friend who I haven't spoken to in ages and then we talked about video games. :D
Quote from: Jay27 on July 22, 2014, 10:43:04 PM
I started volunteering at a bird care centre today, which was really fun. I got to prepare food for the birds and bring it to them, wash dishes, do laundry, clean a cage, carry some birds into a different area, etc. I've been looking into conserving species and taking care of animals as a career, so it's nice to get some experience. They had chickadees, robins, crows, ravens, ducks, Canadian geese...it was great. I also saw a monarch butterfly while I was hanging up laundry. I can't wait to go back ;D
Might be an interesting job field. I like "professional procrastinator" I can relate to that!
Quote from: Shantel on July 23, 2014, 09:34:05 AM
Might be an interesting job field. I like "professional procrastinator" I can relate to that!
Well I really like it so far. It's somewhat therapeutic, which is always nice.
Quote from: Shantel on July 23, 2014, 09:34:05 AM
Might be an interesting job field. I like "professional procrastinator" I can relate to that!
That's me all over I must start pulling my finger out though lol
LOL... On the way home from my endo appointment yesterday the shuttle driver kept talking about the actress Teri Garr from the Mel Brooks films, particularly the Young Frankenstein movie - But neither of us could remember the actresses name right away so she looked it up on her smart phone
I like the Mel Brooks films but was wondering why she kept bringing it up - Finally she said that I reminded her of the actress and showed me the picture... "See?"
That was a new one on me, but I'll take it :laugh:
Just being was enough to make me happy today. Even doing mundane housework couldn't bring me down. I just can't believe the difference between me now and me two years ago when I started hitting rock bottom.
In the morning, I will finally be legally female and my old name will be officially retired forever.
I can't believe "he" will be gone forevermore. Goodbye, my depressed, miserable, fake guy self. Hello, happy Jill.
Now that I'm essentially out the other side, what shall I do next? I feel so envigorated and excited that the next chapter of my life is about to begin, but all I can see now are blank pages.
Hugs to all,
Jill
Quote from: Jill F on July 23, 2014, 06:29:09 PM
Just being was enough to make me happy today. Even doing mundane housework couldn't bring me down. I just can't believe the difference between me now and me two years ago when I started hitting rock bottom.
In the morning, I will finally be legally female and my old name will be officially retired forever.
I can't believe "he" will be gone forevermore. Goodbye, my depressed, miserable, fake guy self. Hello, happy Jill.
Now that I'm essentially out the other side, what shall I do next? I feel so envigorated and excited that the next chapter of my life is about to begin, but all I can see now are blank pages.
Hugs to all,
Jill
That's wonderful! I'm so happy for you~
Got accepted into Montclair State University.
Meeting a family from England while working. I love their accents.
V M's post. I truly enjoyed reading that one.
Jill, It is kind of like high school graduation, all the possibilities.
Was able to help out a trans girl that just came to Canada as a refugee from Syria by offering her my spare bedroom, it makes me happy to be able to help others :)
Quote from: antonia on July 23, 2014, 10:49:18 PM
Was able to help out a trans girl that just came to Canada as a refugee from Syria by offering her my spare bedroom, it makes me happy to be able to help others :)
Nice to have a new roommate sometimes. Even better if you end up being long time friends. Do you speak the same language? I know, I'm a tad nosy.
I don't really speak any Arabic but her English is good enough for us to communicate, I'm also happy that my girlfriend is OK with me letting someone stay while she is away.
Quote from: LordKAT on July 23, 2014, 10:54:54 PM
Nice to have a new roommate sometimes. Even better if you end up being long time friends. Do you speak the same language? I know, I'm a tad nosy.
Calling my boyfriend and girlfriend on my lunch break today. Laughing with them is always my favorite part of the day :icon_cute:
I'm ecstatic because we got to the top of a waitlist for a rent-controlled building. We would only have to pay a percentage of our income, which means I won't be homeless if my kid gets arrested or needs to spend time in an inpatient facility. We might be disqualified if her violence comes up, but that could happen anywhere, and every lawyer I've spoken to has said that it would be unreasonable to disclose that kind of thing and choose homelessness over nondisclosure. She's usually not violent, especially since we got a cat. Scaring the cat bothers her more than any human reaction ever does. We do get to keep the cat.
I don't know how to move, though. I only have one adult around to help, so I usually get hurt trying to carry stuff. It looks like we would get to stay there without rent increases as long as we pay rent and follow the rules though so if I manage it we might never be homeless again. If they let me wait a month or two to save up I might hire movers instead of getting my fancy computer fixed.
Lol I shouldn't open my mail this late at night. Now I'm all riled up and business hours ended five hours ago so I can't get any questions answered.
This may sound wacky but,..have you thought to ask people like your social worker if they know of anyone who may help? Sometimes they know people and sometimes you can get help moving with city or county services if you have a household member such as your daughter.
Today's dose of positive was that I found out Weird Al's new album ended up hitting #1 in the music billboards charts! I thought that was so epic to find out. It was his first #1 album too. Even though it had nothing to do about me, it really made me so happy for him. He really had a hard time as a child, with his parents death. So I'm really happy for this event for him.
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There was also my black spotted tights arrived today that I bought online, so that good too ^-^
Quote from: LordKAT on July 23, 2014, 11:44:51 PM
This may sound wacky but,..have you thought to ask people like your social worker if they know of anyone who may help? Sometimes they know people and sometimes you can get help moving with city or county services if you have a household member such as your daughter.
We don't really have a social worker per se, but her therapist tends to fill the duties of that role and I can ask her what help might be available. It would make a big difference if we even had somebody to distract/calm Leah while furniture is being moved.
We also have a developmental disabilities case manager, but usually all she can offer is flex funds that require me to find a person who I trust with my kid and who can pass a background check, and if I had friends like that I'd already be pulling favors or paying them out of pocket to help with stuff.
Thanks, it hadn't occurred to me to put out feelers for what official help might be available. Last time I moved was at least a couple years ago, and I had more close friends at the time so it was less daunting.
I'm still super happy. ;D
Quote from: Jill F on July 23, 2014, 06:29:09 PM
Just being was enough to make me happy today. Even doing mundane housework couldn't bring me down. I just can't believe the difference between me now and me two years ago when I started hitting rock bottom.
In the morning, I will finally be legally female and my old name will be officially retired forever.
I can't believe "he" will be gone forevermore. Goodbye, my depressed, miserable, fake guy self. Hello, happy Jill.
Now that I'm essentially out the other side, what shall I do next? I feel so envigorated and excited that the next chapter of my life is about to begin, but all I can see now are blank pages.
Hugs to all,
Jill
That is great Jill congrats I bet you are over the moon, I can't wait until I can get to that stage.
Quote from: V M on July 23, 2014, 06:07:26 PM
LOL... On the way home from my endo appointment yesterday the shuttle driver kept talking about the actress Teri Garr from the Mel Brooks films, particularly the Young Frankenstein movie - But neither of us could remember the actresses name right away so she looked it up on her smart phone
I like the Mel Brooks films but was wondering why she kept bringing it up - Finally she said that I reminded her of the actress and showed me the picture... "See?"
That was a new one on me, but I'll take it :laugh:
Terri Garr was always a doll face and from what little I have seen of your face on the few photos you have posted I think your shuttle driver is very perceptive and probably right on, you do resemble her quite a bit.
Quote from: Jill F on July 23, 2014, 06:29:09 PM
Just being was enough to make me happy today. Even doing mundane housework couldn't bring me down. I just can't believe the difference between me now and me two years ago when I started hitting rock bottom.
In the morning, I will finally be legally female and my old name will be officially retired forever.
I can't believe "he" will be gone forevermore. Goodbye, my depressed, miserable, fake guy self. Hello, happy Jill.
Now that I'm essentially out the other side, what shall I do next? I feel so envigorated and excited that the next chapter of my life is about to begin, but all I can see now are blank pages.
Hugs to all,
Jill
Congratulations Jill, so Jack fell down the hill and won't be missed, good for you hon, I'm happy for you! :icon_bunch:
Quote from: Shantel on July 24, 2014, 01:35:02 PM
Congratulations Jill, so Jack fell down the hill and won't be missed, good for you hon, I'm happy for you! :icon_bunch:
Well, my name wasn't Jack, but hey, who cares anymore? I'm Jill now and I have the papers to prove it.
*happy dance*
Someone at school today asked if I've lost weight. I've been trying to, but I haven't noticed if I have or not because I don't own a scale. Now my first thing on the list for my next paycheck is a scale. I have to see this!
Getting free ice cream from Chik Fila
New episode of RWBY in ten minutes ahhhhh.
Quote from: Jill F on July 24, 2014, 02:50:33 PM
Well, my name wasn't Jack, but hey, who cares anymore? I'm Jill now and I have the papers to prove it.
*happy dance*
We knew that Boo-Boo, the guy is gone regardless.
Quote from: antonia on July 23, 2014, 10:49:18 PM
Was able to help out a trans girl that just came to Canada as a refugee from Syria by offering her my spare bedroom, it makes me happy to be able to help others :)
What a wonderful thing to do. Kudo's to you Antonia! :icon_bunch:
Allie :icon_flower:
Today in the mail I recieved a new dress, charger, and weird al album of which I bought online. I snaped beans from the garden while watching Fairy Tale episodes 5-8. I enjoyed that, and despite work being really boring due to new people, and I had to just watch them most the time, I was still very happy.
Leaving work early due to flu and going straight to bed, then waking up and having some quality time on Susans!
Quote from: Jill F on July 24, 2014, 02:50:33 PM
Well, my name wasn't Jack, but hey, who cares anymore? I'm Jill now and I have the papers to prove it.
*happy dance*
So happy for ya gurl! cONGRATULATIONS JILL!!!
Well, my booby's have had several growth spurts lately, and as of today I'm no longer an A cup, my booby's fit nicely into this cute 32B I have. My other B's fit nicely as well. This is way sooner than I ever expected. They can slow down now, lol! But I'm a happy happy girl!!
Allie :icon_flower:
Getting to go out to town, bought myself some stuff, and, one of which was the starter deck my Dad refused to buy me because he's too dam..dang religious. (I was going to pay him back once I got home so he'd only be lending me the money at the time) I hardly ask him to buy me anything that I want so now I bought with my own money right then and there what he refused to buy me, take that! HAHAHAHAHA! Whose laughing now?
I also bought my neighbor who gave me the ride to town some fast food for her & her husband, that made me happy. They've been real kind to me and are trying even if they aren't supportive for the most part. (They're at least not calling me by my BN & male pronouns for the most part)
Now I am real tired from the trip thanks to the med I've been taking as well as the injury I'm still recovering from.. zzzz
Murder, she wrote!
and
new haircut... looking good.
Seeing my baby nephew smile in his sleep.
I bought my own car yesterday. :) between gas, payments, and insurance it will cost me 600 a month. Obviously that takes a big chunk out of my budget, but if I am vigilant about picking up weekend shifts and an extra night shift each week, I will be able to drive and save for surgery still. I feel like this will be worth it because sometimes it feels like the 4 hours I spend on the bus every day is killing me more than working a lot of hours. In fact, I am certain the commute is the biggest contributor to my exhaustion.
I can't drive it yet, I have to practice and take the test still, but yay.
Quote from: birkin on July 26, 2014, 06:41:21 AM
I bought my own car yesterday. :) between gas, payments, and insurance it will cost me 600 a month. Obviously that takes a big chunk out of my budget, but if I am vigilant about picking up weekend shifts and an extra night shift each week, I will be able to drive and save for surgery still. I feel like this will be worth it because sometimes it feels like the 4 hours I spend on the bus every day is killing me more than working a lot of hours. In fact, I am certain the commute is the biggest contributor to my exhaustion.
I can't drive it yet, I have to practice and take the test still, but yay.
Getting into the forward momentum pragmatic thinking mode now huh? :eusa_clap:
My laptop charger came
Quote from: Shantel on July 26, 2014, 08:14:46 AM
Getting into the forward momentum pragmatic thinking mode now huh? :eusa_clap:
Not so much as the "I can't stand taking the bus any longer because one day I will get sick of our crappy transit system and jump in front of said bus" mode lol.
It's a beauty Shan, not a BMW or anything but it is mine! I'll email you a pic.
Quote from: birkin on July 26, 2014, 10:47:14 AM
Not so much as the "I can't stand taking the bus any longer because one day I will get sick of our crappy transit system and jump in front of said bus" mode lol.
It's a beauty Shan, not a BMW or anything but it is mine! I'll email you a pic.
Wow, nice ride Caleb!
Congratulations on the car, birkin. I hope the change brings you enough comfort and freedom to greatly outweigh the extra shifts you'll be doing. :)
I'm happy because I'm experiencing a rather rare episode of euthymia, medication means I can function okey dokey in daily life despite depressive moods but I cherish the times when extremes are absent. There's amazing clarity of thought that I miss the rest of the time too, no preoccupations are draining energy. :P
Four hours a day on the bus can make anybody crazy. I did that for a few weeks recently to take my kid to a school in the suburbs, and I plowed through a lot of good books but I felt kind of dazed and stiff half the time. Grats on getting that situation out of your life, birkin. :)
I dunno what made me happy today; I just clicked on this thread because I like to read all the other happy things. I was up past midnight, so I guess it counts that I got to talk to my roommate when he came home late and a little inebriated from the brewer's festival. We normally are standoffish and kind of just ploddingly strategize around one anothers' neuroses so there's no strife in the common areas. It was nice to talk like friends.
I got to hang out with my sister.
Going to my school reunion
Telling my boss. Finally
I went out to a cafe with my mom and she told me to eat like a gentleman, as opposed to like a lady which I've heard all my life. In my defense, they gave my a tiny fork to eat an apple pie with. I was making less of a mess just eating it with my hands.
Thanks lonicera and Felix. I can't wait to be able to actually drive it. It might take a month to 6 weeks due to this being the busy time of year for driving lessons. But I am so proud of it!
My feeling right now is more of relief than happiness, but it's all close enough. I just came out to my brother and he was super supportive. I knew he'd be the same supportive sibling he always has been, but he didn't even give me the thousand questions I thought he would. He just treated it like another normal conversation, which I really appreciated. I'm not going to tell the rest of the family yet for several reasons, but they'll certainly figure things out once I get into hrt. I won't be trying to hide anything at that point.
Quote from: Eevee on July 27, 2014, 04:32:22 PM
My feeling right now is more of relief than happiness, but it's all close enough. I just came out to my brother and he was super supportive. I knew he'd be the same supportive sibling he always has been, but he didn't even give me the thousand questions I thought he would. He just treated it like another normal conversation, which I really appreciated. I'm not going to tell the rest of the family yet for several reasons, but they'll certainly figure things out once I get into hrt. I won't be trying to hide anything at that point.
Congrats Eevee, that's good news!
Quote from: immortal gypsy on July 27, 2014, 04:32:21 AM
Telling my boss. Finally
Good for you Gypsy. It will make things at work much easier on you. I'm always proud of girls who stand up for who they are.
Allie :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on July 25, 2014, 06:19:37 PM
Well, my booby's have had several growth spurts lately, and as of today I'm no longer an A cup, my booby's fit nicely into this cute 32B I have. My other B's fit nicely as well. This is way sooner than I ever expected. They can slow down now, lol! But I'm a happy happy girl!!
Allie :icon_flower:
Congrats Allyda I am so happy for you
Quote from: Emily.T on July 27, 2014, 08:02:26 PM
Congrats Allyda I am so happy for you
Thanks Emily. I never expected this so soon especially with much less than desirable E levels. They can slow down now. I'm too tiny up Top and short in the torso for anything bigger than a full B cup.
Allie :icon_flower:
I got my legs waxed after letting then go for 8 weeks to get my hairs in the same growth cycle, it feels so much better now
Finished up an art commission today and going into my next one. Cause having more money is awesome.
Today I went to the Social Security office to get my new card with my new name. It was actually pretty easy to do, and the woman who helped me was super nice. I was so overcome with joy and happiness on my drive home that I missed my exit.
And Thursday I get my new driver's license and can ditch the old one forevermore.
I have successfully transitioned, and this amazing, awesome feeling I got today is simply indescribable.
This feeling is one awesome thing that cispeople can certainly never experience.
Quote from: Jill F on July 28, 2014, 05:36:54 PM
Today I went to the Social Security office to get my new card with my new name. It was actually pretty easy to do, and the woman who helped me was super nice. I was so overcome with joy and happiness on my drive home that I missed my exit.
And Thursday I get my new driver's license and can ditch the old one forevermore.
I have successfully transitioned, and this amazing, awesome feeling I got today is simply indescribable.
This feeling is one awesome thing that cispeople can certainly never experience.
:eusa_clap: :icon_bunch:
Congrats Jill 8)
Thank you all. I owe quite a bit of thanks to so many fine people here, without whom my transition would have been much more difficult.
Woohoo! Sooo, it's a done deal, and it feels so great to finally feel like I have both feet firmly on the other side of the fence.
I think I must be experiencing gender euphoria.
Well, apparently, they are letting me be manager of a store starting Thursday. Its not the one I've been at for 3 and a half years, but the one that I have filled in at some recently. I hope they know what they are doing...
Quote from: Jaime R D on July 28, 2014, 08:03:35 PM
Well, apparently, they are letting me be manager of a store starting Thursday. Its not the one I've been at for 3 and a half years, but the one that I have filled in at some recently. I hope they know what they are doing...
You deserve the recognition and a good raise Jaime, you have certainly paid your dues girlfriend, congratulations Sis! :eusa_clap: :icon_bunch:
Quote from: Shantel on July 28, 2014, 08:36:44 PM
You deserve the recognition and a good raise Jaime, you have certainly paid your dues girlfriend, congratulations Sis! :eusa_clap: :icon_bunch:
Thanks. Hopefully things should turn out well and when the manager at the store I've been assistant manager at retires, I'm hoping that I can put in for managing that one. I basically did the first of this year when she had the aneurysm. I like the busyness of the bigger store, the one I am going to has less sales and less traffic than I am used to.
Quote from: Jaime R D on July 28, 2014, 08:54:59 PM
Thanks. Hopefully things should turn out well and when the manager at the store I've been assistant manager at retires, I'm hoping that I can put in for managing that one. I basically did the first of this year when she had the aneurysm. I like the busyness of the bigger store, the one I am going to has less sales and less traffic than I am used to.
This will be a good start and perhaps set you in line for the other store based on your experience.
Waking up! Every day is a bonus and reason to be celebrated.
Quote from: Aisla on July 29, 2014, 02:28:25 AM
Waking up! Every day is a bonus and reason to be celebrated.
Couldn't agree more. The Black Dog hasn't run with me for ages. And I don't miss it :laugh:
I've been doubting a few things about myself, but admiring my long, thick hair keeps me confident. Tonight I was just thinking about how nice it is, and it made me have one of my rare bursts of really feeling feminine. At least I still have something going on, even if I'm pre-everything. I just wish I could wear it in a more feminine fashion instead of just tying it back like the hippie guy everyone claims I resemble. One day...
Well at least tonight I'll go to sleep with some happiness.
Once again, a couple of days' worth of happy to report. I've been offline for most of last week because I was on annual leave whilst my kids were on holiday with their grandparents.
- Popped up to Alton Towers (a famous British theme park) and spent the day going on most of my favourite rides. I bought two photos of myself on the rides, and it was amazing to see myself looking a) happy and b) unmistakably male. As another bonus, I hardly attracted any stares at all... because for once I wasn't the most interesting thing around for people to look at. I'm sure plenty of people here will appreciate what a blessed relief that can be.
- Had a movie night in which I watched 3 award-winning movies back-to-back. It's a rare treat for me to be able to watch whatever I want without someone in the family moaning about it.
- Whilst the kids were away, I tidied my youngest's bedroom from top to bottom. She had a lot of old 'kiddy' stuff in her room, which has now gone. It now looks like a proper teenager's room and she's really happy with the results.
- I got hugs off both of my children when they returned from holiday. That's the first hug I've had off either of them since I came out two years ago, and it was absolutely wonderful. They're definitely coming around.
- I took the initiative and finished off a DIY project that Hubby has been procrastinating about for, oh, ten years now. Heh heh heh... >:-)
- I had to reschedule my next T shot because the nurse who administers it is going away on holiday. So now I have to take it one week earlier! :D
- Aaand last but definitely not least... my new passport arrived! It has the correct name, photo and gender marker in it. I now have valid, government-issued photo ID proving who I am. Woohoo! ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 29, 2014, 09:35:12 AM
Once again, a couple of days' worth of happy to report. I've been offline for most of last week because I was on annual leave whilst my kids were on holiday with their grandparents.
- Popped up to Alton Towers (a famous British theme park) and spent the day going on most of my favourite rides. I bought two photos of myself on the rides, and it was amazing to see myself looking a) happy and b) unmistakably male. As another bonus, I hardly attracted any stares at all... because for once I wasn't the most interesting thing around for people to look at. I'm sure plenty of people here will appreciate what a blessed relief that can be.
- Had a movie night in which I watched 3 award-winning movies back-to-back. It's a rare treat for me to be able to watch whatever I want without someone in the family moaning about it.
- Whilst the kids were away, I tidied my youngest's bedroom from top to bottom. She had a lot of old 'kiddy' stuff in her room, which has now gone. It now looks like a proper teenager's room and she's really happy with the results.
- I got hugs off both of my children when they returned from holiday. That's the first hug I've had off either of them since I came out two years ago, and it was absolutely wonderful. They're definitely coming around.
- I took the initiative and finished off a DIY project that Hubby has been procrastinating about for, oh, ten years now. Heh heh heh... >:-)
- I had to reschedule my next T shot because the nurse who administers it is going away on holiday. So now I have to take it one week earlier! :D
- Aaand last but definitely not least... my new passport arrived! It has the correct name, photo and gender marker in it. I now have valid, government-issued photo ID proving who I am. Woohoo! ;D
So happy for you dear friend, looks as if all that time you were paying your dues is finally bearing fruit! Glad about your kids attitude adjustment too, sounds like they're growing up.
Eluveitie are releasing songs from their new album. They're fantastic!
Discovered a bunch of songs that I literally have forgotten about for over 5 years. It's like finding a new song you love but you already know the words and everything lol.
Quote from: birkin on July 29, 2014, 02:28:32 PM
Discovered a bunch of songs that I literally have forgotten about for over 5 years. It's like finding a new song you love but you already know the words and everything lol.
Uh - how about the lyrics of "Blinded by the light", can you decipher that gibberish?
Don't need to Shan, the net is a wonderful thing. ;)
That makes me remember the good ol days where you had to pray your CD booklet had the lyrics inside it because lyrics websites were few and far between.
The problem I've found with lyric sites is that often the lyrics are provided by fans and they don't always get them right.
The same thing as everyday: I really love being me.
Got my boat fixed - A little hard work and more money
be well
jennifer
I wore something slightly different from usual, and no one questioned it. I did get a few people saying it looked cute, though!
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I also went to get my eyes examined, and the eye doctor was quite charming :-*
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\m/ :icon_clap:
Quote from: jennifer356 on July 29, 2014, 05:33:54 PM
Got my boat fixed - A little hard work and more money
be well
jennifer
Happy to hear of another woman who's into boats and boating here on Susan's. Glad you got her fixed.
Allie :icon_flower:
Another boating girl here, mostly into sailboats both building and sailing.
Quote from: Allyda on July 30, 2014, 02:21:18 PM
Happy to hear of another woman who's into boats and boating here on Susan's. Glad you got her fixed.
Allie :icon_flower:
Thanks Allie - We boaters seem to be few and far between on here - Just a broken block but it did ruin a nice sail
Building them is a lot like work Antonia - I'll let you build them and then I'll sail them :)
be well
jennifer
Some guy opening the door for me saying "ladies first". Such a small gesture, but I'm glad something small like that can make another ones day ;D
Quote from: PurpleCrown on July 30, 2014, 04:37:31 PM
Some guy opening the door for me saying "ladies first". Such a small gesture, but I'm glad something small like that can make another ones day ;D
Sounds like a pass to me hon!
I've been back on HRT for about a week now, no new growth spurts as of yet but the girls seem to have firmed back up and are lookin' kinda perky again :icon_chick:
My therapist wants to set me up with an endocrinologist soon to start HRT! I thought it was going to take a bit longer, so I'm suddenly very excited to be getting the treatment I need.
Spoke with my mom on the phone for almost 2 hours, been a little while since we spoke and all my family members live far away (we've spread across 3 continents), I told her about how my life has been going and how good transitioning has been and how happy I am.
She still messes up pronouns and I think she was a bit sceptical when I told her about being hit on by boys and such but that's OK, she's getting older and she hasn't had that much time to adjust.
Also mentioned that I'm doing great and finally I sent her two photos of me so she had some reference as to what I look like today, 10 minutes after getting off the phone I get a reply to the email, I'll have to translate but here is what she wrote (I'm a bit embarrassed to post this but it's so sweet I can't resist):
QuoteAmazing, you are a good looking girl and seems you are graceful as well, it's nice to see how happy you were during pride and how at ease you look, no wonder you get hit on, you look like a twenty something model! I would have passed you on the street without recognising you or spotting you! I'm proud of how natural and pretty you look. I guess it pays to pay attention to your health and looks, your brilliant, I would not have have guessed in a million years. I think you look like you belong and congratulations are in order!
Listened to some Weird Al, which always makes me happy.
I found a quarter and a penny today....added to my top surgery fund! :)
I get paid...soon. I don't know when but they said end of the month so it must be some time tomorrow.
Coming out to a long time friend and colleague who is alpha male and really had had no prior exposure or understanding of the trans* experience. It went well. I no longer feel that I am not telling him everything, that I am hiding and not respecting our friendship through being fundamentally inauthentic. This is a good thing and I feel very happy.
I found the missing blindfold that I'd lost yesterday, I may actually get some sleep tonight! :D
Whenever I wear a blindfold in bed, sleep is the last thing on my mind. LOL
I got told i was beautiful and really cute by a really old childhood friend today, we hadn't talked in 11 or so years.
Quote from: Yulaiyre on July 31, 2014, 09:29:48 AM
I got told i was beautiful and really cute by a really old childhood friend today, we hadn't talked in 11 or so years.
That's nice, if that's you in the avatar photo I would say your old friend is probably right.
My tumblr blog finally underway and working out more often. :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on July 31, 2014, 09:44:27 AM
That's nice, if that's you in the avatar photo I would say your old friend is probably right.
Um yes it is ^^ and thank you! you just made me smile too! ♥
I got paid. Thanks to being unemployed half the year I fall under the poverty line...meaning I didn't get one red cent of tax taken off. I got paid full, full wage and my paycheck is HUGE thanks to how many hours I put in this month.
Quote from: birkin on July 31, 2014, 01:11:34 PM
I got paid. Thanks to being unemployed half the year I fall under the poverty line...meaning I didn't get one red cent of tax taken off. I got paid full, full wage and my paycheck is HUGE thanks to how many hours I put in this month.
SCORE!
I have a driver's license now with the correct name and gender marker. I finally feel like a real person now that I can prove it.
It's all downhill from here, right?
Right on Jill 8) Congrats
My boyfriend's mother who initially was "disappointed" and wouldn't let me come over when he came out to her via telling her he's dating me said "hi" to me and offered me food.
Quote from: Shantel on July 31, 2014, 01:20:29 PM
SCORE!
Indeed...but sadly with the cost of surgery and whatnot my paycheck is simply going to vanish. -_-
I found 3 cents today. That made me happy.
A lady called me "madam" twice. Surprisingly that made me happy, because I loved her accent, and you rarely hear people say the word "madam" to people. I use that word at work to refer to women I don't know.
Quote from: birkin on July 31, 2014, 07:29:55 PM
Indeed...but sadly with the cost of surgery and whatnot my paycheck is simply going to vanish. -_-
When you take the view that money is just a vehicle to accomplish things with and that you don't own any, you are just the steward of other people's fortunes, and that you came into the world barefoot and naked and you're going to leave that way and take nothing with you......then the pain becomes quite bearable. ;D
Quote from: Shantel on July 31, 2014, 08:13:37 PM
When you take the view that money is just a vehicle to accomplish things with and that you don't own any, you are just the steward of other people's fortunes, and that you came into the world barefoot and naked and you're going to leave that way and take nothing with you......then the pain becomes quite bearable. ;D
Very well said ^^___^^ I couldn't agree more.
Allie :icon_flower:
I bought a gift certificate at a tattoo shop awhile back when I had too much money and wanted to get chest tattoos to feel better about my nonstandard scarring. It's been long enough that my chest can be safely worked on, but I don't feel ready and the certificate had an expiration date so I went and got something simple on my arm to see how it feels to get professional work. I got an inch-thick black band just below the elbow, and I love it. I went to a place that is explicitly transfriendly and it was nice not to face suspicion about my age or comments about my soft skin.
They were also incredibly patient with my daughter's questions and general hyperactivity. One guy applied temporary tattoos to her arms (butterflies and a flower) and bragged to the other artist that he was able to do 3 tattoos in record time. ;D
This is such an ego boost. I like inhabiting my body, but wanting to look at it is sometimes another matter.
Quote from: V M on July 30, 2014, 06:19:33 PM
I've been back on HRT for about a week now, no new growth spurts as of yet but the girls seem to have firmed back up and are lookin' kinda perky again :icon_chick:
Best news I've heard today.
Got my hair done, now below my shoulders. It's gorgeous! Last time it was this long I was held down and my head shaved.
My demons were losing!
So I went back to my car, saw an incredible pair of earrings far too expensive so I bought them.
My demons can go back to Hell where they belong.
I miss my brother so much - would have told him he would have laughed and told me how silly I was.
Sorry.
A bad week is over and I have a long weekend.
Quote from: Shantel on July 31, 2014, 08:13:37 PM
When you take the view that money is just a vehicle to accomplish things with and that you don't own any, you are just the steward of other people's fortunes, and that you came into the world barefoot and naked and you're going to leave that way and take nothing with you......then the pain becomes quite bearable. ;D
Not a bad point. I kept that in mind as I funnelled most towards my bills and the rest towards my tuition haha.
My parents were kind enough to pay for my drivers ed and half the car down payment in lieu of a Christmas and birthday present, because they knew I needed to put the 2K those would cost me towards surgery. So now I will definitely make enough to pay for it on time. :) I still have to bust my butt but it takes so much pressure off. Only need 3 or 4 extra shifts a month on top of what I am already doing.
Got a date on monday ;D ;D
Quote from: Yulaiyre on July 31, 2014, 09:29:48 AM
I got told i was beautiful and really cute by a really old childhood friend today, we hadn't talked in 11 or so years.
I agree with Shantel , your friend was right , you ARE beautiful and really cute . I got a mix of envy , maternal feelings and crush on you going on at the moment ::) :P
Quote from: Claudia_FF on August 01, 2014, 02:55:25 PM
I agree with Shantel , your friend was right , you ARE beautiful and really cute . I got a mix of envy , maternal feelings and crush on you going on at the moment ::) :P
Thats a whole bag of confusing, passionate feelings Claudia...women liking women is trouble for the tummy, so many feels :P
Quote from: Jill F on July 31, 2014, 04:37:06 PM
I have a driver's license now with the correct name and gender marker.
That is awesome! Congrats!
I got 80 followers on my transition journal. ;D
Totally not an add Neo ::)
Had a silly conversation with my girlfriend about why we like each other. We have the same headcanons, hate the same characters, and play the same games. Obviously there's a lot more, but it's fun to joke around like that ^^
I finally got an appointment to see a NHS psychologist for a second opinion as to whether I have GD :)
Maybe I can finally begin to progress through the system.
I am going to make a ton of money this month, and maybe even more than my calculations since there are a TON of open shifts just waiting to be taken...that means I will have about 2K to put directly into my surgery fund. The only problem is that I may not be able to drive until like October...meaning that the commute is going to be just brutal to make all of these shifts happen. Oh well, it'll make driving all that sweeter. ;D
Quote from: birkin on August 01, 2014, 09:28:15 PM
I am going to make a ton of money this month, and maybe even more than my calculations since there are a TON of open shifts just waiting to be taken...that means I will have about 2K to put directly into my surgery fund. The only problem is that I may not be able to drive until like October...meaning that the commute is going to be just brutal to make all of these shifts happen. Oh well, it'll make driving all that sweeter. ;D
A good example of pragmatism at work professor Birkin!
I am half waiting to randomly drop dead lol. Hopefully I won't hit burn out.
Realizing out of all the decisions in my life that transition was the best with no regrets and seeing a beautiful world instead of a terrible one. :)
Way to go Jess.
I have been so crazy busy for the past two months with my work trip and everything.
Finally able to start relaxing no I'm back home.
I hadn't noticed but B1 and 2 have really filled out nicely over the last few months.
While still not huge they do fill up a B cup just nicely. :)
So comfy now and the bra really does its job now.
From what I can tell they are still growing as no sign of stopping anytime soon.
I so love how E as effected me at all levels and it is so good and just like Jess, no regrets.
Just waiting for Grace and gang to knock down my door to have some fun.
J
I know that the people running the nearby business would not have been thrilled about this, but we found an adorable mouse in a doorway downtown and watched it until it got spooked and ran to hide under a car. It looked like a character in a children's book.
I also got a stack of 25-cent cd's from the library store. Most of them were bands that I was just guessing might be good, and usually I like maybe half of what I try on that basis, but this time it looks like all but one (a christian metal band) are keepers. My favorite so far is a group called "The Very Best" that sounds like african techno pop.
Just got paid $80 to sleep. I mean, OK, the reason I am paid to sleep here is in case s* gets real and the awake person needs my help, but tonight nothing happened so I slept like a baby.
Woke up, went for my run. Got home and realised.
I love being me and I'm happy.
Quote from: Cindy on August 02, 2014, 08:03:22 AM
Woke up, went for my run. Got home and realised.
I love being me and I'm happy.
I can relate to that!
Reading some outstanding posts and contributions to current threads. The folk here are really very special and achieving something quite unique and extremely valuable.
Quote from: Aisla on August 02, 2014, 06:21:57 PM
Reading some outstanding posts and contributions to current threads. The folk here are really very special and achieving something quite unique and extremely valuable.
+1 Agreed ^^___^^. Sometimes even if I've had nothing make me happy I can come to this thread and get cheered up. Thanks everyone!
Allie :icon_flower:
I am happy for coming to a friend's house after not seeing him for far too long!
Talking to my sister
I had a great camping trip but now I am home. In my own house with my cats (the dogs came with). I had a great shower and I'm going to sleep on a bed tonight. All these things people take for granted- running, clean water; electricity; warmth; beds to sleep on;etc. And... I don't have a binder on and I'm wearing boxers which means I'm physically comfortable. And, in spite of a lot of pain yesterday, today my pain levels are very manageable. woo hoo
I went to see my boyfriend today (He's also FTM) and we got to talk about feelings and spend an entire 2 hours at the bookstore reading to our hearts content.
It was a really nice day.
Took the Manila team up to the Blue Mountains today.
Had a good day, and they were amazed by the place. Did some bushwalks and did not loose any of them.
Now were there 6 or 7 of them?
Bugger. ;D
I'm not just happy from this today, but also the last couple days. I've been doing some online and offline shopping for clothes and cosmetics. I've never bought much women's stuff like this (though I do have tons of androgynous stuff), so I'm getting really excited about it. What I have so far looks great on me. I'll have to wait for the online orders to get here though.
I'm so excited to throw all this money away! ;D
Had a really bad day today I didn't want to look in the mirror cause I just don't want to see that man looking back at me and I just wanted to cut that thing off from below I simply don't want to see it anymore let alone touch it but what the hell can I do besides put up with it or just end it all and hope I get it right next life.
Quote from: Emily.T on August 03, 2014, 06:13:35 AM
Had a really bad day today I didn't want to look in the mirror cause I just don't want to see that man looking back at me and I just wanted to cut that thing off from below I simply don't want to see it anymore let alone touch it but what the hell can I do besides put up with it or just end it all and hope I get it right next life.
Emily I think you wanted to post this in the "What Made You Unhappy Today" thread. Believe me I more than understand what your going through, and how you feel. I have the same problem.
Allie :icon_flower:
I had a customer service interaction today with Comcast that didn't fill me with hatred or hopelessness. I can count on one finger how many times that has happened before. ;D
I found a penny today. I'm going to add it to my top surgery fund.
Quote from: Allyda on August 03, 2014, 09:53:24 PM
Emily I think you wanted to post this in the "What Made You Unhappy Today" thread. Believe me I more than understand what your going through, and how you feel. I have the same problem.
Allie :icon_flower:
Thanks for picking that up Allyda my bad, I am glad to hear that I'm not alone xx
My expected 14+ hour Monday got reduced to 8 or so.
I finally got around to watching The Marine. Good flick.
Someone gave me a pair of earrings
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I think he likes me ::) (http://[url=http://s1240.photobucket.com/user/8295/media/DSC_0286-01.jpg.html)
Just a bit Cindy, but then, what is there not to like about you?
Those are niiiice!
Ask him ;)
Quote from: Cindy on August 04, 2014, 03:30:03 AM
Someone gave me a pair of earrings
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I think he likes me ::)
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Love them Cindy your sooo lucky
Quote from: LordKAT on August 04, 2014, 03:32:09 AM
Just a bit Cindy, but then, what is there not to like about you?
Ahh thanks, but it is still your turn to clean the staff kitchen :laugh:
Do we have to clean the kitchen if we don't use it?
Very nice earrings Cindy, I need to get new piercings myself as well as find my earrings.
Quote from: Cindy on August 04, 2014, 03:59:58 AM
Ahh thanks, but it is still your turn to clean the staff kitchen :laugh:
Grumble grumble, I'm getting it done, just a bit slowly is all.
Quote from: GenTechJ on August 04, 2014, 04:03:20 AM
Do we have to clean the kitchen if we don't use it?
Very nice earrings Cindy, I need to get new piercings myself as well as find my earrings.
No but the bike shed needs a clean!
Thanks everyone, they are cute, and so is he :D. I just wonder why he puts his earplugs in everytime I start talking ::)
It was the coldest August day in Adelaide for over a 100 years.
We all know who lives in Adelaide now don't we?
I don't think she would have been too happy.
Could be worse.
>:-)
Quote from: Cindy on August 04, 2014, 04:07:57 AM
No but the bike shed needs a clean!
It's because I'm new, isn't it?
As for the earplugs, timing? I dunno, I don't think he'd ignore you and at the same time give you a nice pair of earrings. Then again, I have no clue what dating men is like and unless a certain Ryan Reynolds ever expresses interest that will never change. I'd offer my take on it, but I was never fully male anyways so I'm no help lol
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 04, 2014, 04:12:21 AM
It was the coldest August day in Adelaide for over a 100 years.
We all know who lives in Adelaide now don't we?
I don't think she would have been too happy.
Could be worse.
>:-)
I had a bedwarmer :o
Wait a minute, I can't cook, I just nuke stuff!
Gentech, don't take Cindy too literally. Her guy would never really use earplugs when she is around.
Lucky you Cindy... ;)
LordKat
He wouldn't need to. Hearing tests perhaps?
I just take his white stick and dentures away and he professes undying love
lol, that made me chuckle Cindy.
LordKAT, I'll take over your cooking duties if someone else cleans up. I do love to cook, it's kind of a passion that I would pursue if I had even half the talent of some of the "amatuers" on Master Chef.
Don't worry Cindy, keep you space heater close.
At home last night it was -10c.
Now that's nasty cold.
Glad I'm not there now.
J
Am I the only one who prefers cold to heat? When it's cold you can keep adding layers and blankets. In the heat you can only remove so much in social situations, and even in the comfort of your own home, only so many layers can be removed. So grateful the last couple days have been on the cooler side since my a/c is broke (a broken a/c in California, especially in the valley, not fun times).
Quote from: GenTechJ on August 04, 2014, 04:41:30 AM
Am I the only one who prefers cold to heat? When it's cold you can keep adding layers and blankets. In the heat you can only remove so much in social situations, and even in the comfort of your own home, only so many layers can be removed. So grateful the last couple days have been on the cooler side since my a/c is broke (a broken a/c in California, especially in the valley, not fun times).
I'm Alaskan, so I really can't handle heat. I remember I was talking with a couple of friends who are originally from Somalia last year, and I said they could laugh at me all they wanted once summer came and I couldn't deal with the heat but they weren't used to humid heat so we all thought it was way too hot XD
I tend to handle humid heat better than dry heat. I don't like either to be honest, even during the winter I try to keep my apartment in the low 70s (Fahrenheit). I would much rather have a cold room and snuggle up with my blankets than have to kick my covers off in my sleep (can't fall asleep without a comforter over me, even in triple digits. It's a comfort thing I think, much like needing some kind of white noise like a fan or the tv on to sleep).
I've also found in my dating, I have bad luck finding someone who can share my bed and allow me to have the tv or radio on. I have difficulty sleeping without it.
Quote from: Cindy on August 04, 2014, 04:22:18 AM
I just take his white stick and dentures away and he professes undying love
I'm very happy for you Cindy. I love the earrings too.
Ali :icon_flower:
Just got back from a wonderful bike ride, 100km mostly on nice bikepaths and in forests and parks, life is good today.
I have money to buy binders now~ ^^
Went on my date today (2pm, lunch at a favourite place of ours) and spend the whole afternoon and part of the evening with her. Ended up at her home where we chatted and had some drinks
A lot of fun, we could end up as good friends, maybe more. I dont know yet...it's just one date but I dont feel butterflies or anything. Pitty but cant force love
2nd date next month after her vacation :)
Finally figured out my pant size and it's a 15 regular. Gotta get some undies and shirts and I should be golden to pass in public. So close!!!
Got my new Social Security card in the mail today. I was so happy that I cried tears of joy.
Congrats Jill 8)
YaY! I finally got some work today. It's only a small job for a friend for 60 bucks, but 60 bucks is 60 bucks more than I would have without it. So some happiness today.
Ali :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on August 04, 2014, 08:07:52 PM
YaY! I finally got some work today. It's only a small job for a friend for 60 bucks, but 60 bucks is 60 bucks more than I would have without it. So some happiness today.
Ali :icon_flower:
So happy for you Allyda spend it wisely lol
Grats Allyda, every little bit helps ...and keeps you off the forums a little more! :P
World's biggest punk rock festival in 2 days and it's a 10 minute walk away
I did my 3rd nurses session on teaching my to self-inject and I passed and now allowed to self-inject E :) Just have to pick up my needle kit on Thursday and they gave me my sharps container today.
I like cold much better than heat, but I still sleep with a hat on even on most summer nights. My ears are never warm. I actually used to wear thermals almost year round even in Alabama, but I stopped doing that after getting on testosterone. Now I am a sweat machine.
What made me happy today was I got my computer fixed for free. It was something so stupid, so easy to fix that the repairman refused to charge me for it. I told him I would give a good yelp review and leave out the price details so other people don't go in looking for free work. ;D
Well I woke up today after 19 days since starting HRT and I noticed that my nipples are pointed out, there's a little bump underneath and it looks like my boobs have started growing already haha :)
I found a dime. Into the top surgery fund it goes.
I fell asleep chatting with Caleb. He is total sweetheart and I miss him very much.
I was leaving a fruit store today and an elderly gentlemen held the door open for me and when I daid thank you with a smile he replied that's ok miss. It totally made my day :D
My sister is taking me to Chuck E Cheese tomorrow!
I've been productive today. I am especially pleased with having a plan and putting it in motion. By the way, Malachite, I'm copying your idea.
I just noticed that my bank has me down as Mr.
Just bought my wedding dress.
I'm not getting married but every year we have a ball here in Toronto where we can live out our dreams so we throw a bachelorette party and the next day have a big ball where we take over one of the hotels downtown and their ballroom.
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Lovely, antonia :)
I've bookmarked my potential one aswell....if I ever get married *rofl*
I found two pennies. Into my top surgery fund it goes.
You've got a nose for finding those pennies ^^
Not happy so much as relieved...I had to use a men's changing room for work today, and there were NO private stalls. WTF? I was absolutely terrified, because of the shirt issue. Fortunately, I had a T shirt under my dress shirt, but I wasn't able to cover the bra with a undershirt like I planned. I didn't feel unsafe and I don't even think I was concerned that I'd be seen as a woman if they saw the bra, I just felt self conscious because of course it makes me "different."
I am very convinced that there are a sizable number of men who DO look at other men in change rooms and whatnot, they just obviously don't admit it because it seems "gay" even when there's no sexual intentions there. And even at that, I was trying to avoid seeing anyone at all costs, but I saw one guy's very hairy, and very round (like, GLOBE LIKE) ass. I also caught a glance of an old man's balls resting directly on the bench ipehjrweklnfsdafa.
You know, despite the terror I felt re: the bra, the newness of it all, and the fact that I really didn't appreciate the glimpses I caught of asses and balls, I felt more right in the men's locker room than I ever felt in the women's. That made me happy because I honestly didn't expect it, as I always feel uncomfortable in men's bathrooms. I think it's because in the women's I always felt this sexual tension, even if I wasn't sexually attracted to any of the women in there. It was just knowing that there was a sexual element between myself and women. With the guys, I don't give a crap one way or the other, and that sexual underpinning is removed.
Quote from: birkin on August 07, 2014, 01:08:22 AM
Not happy so much as relieved...I had to use a men's changing room for work today, and there were NO private stalls. WTF? I was absolutely terrified, because of the shirt issue. Fortunately, I had a T shirt under my dress shirt, but I wasn't able to cover the bra with a undershirt like I planned. I didn't feel unsafe and I don't even think I was concerned that I'd be seen as a woman if they saw the bra, I just felt self conscious because of course it makes me "different."
I am very convinced that there are a sizable number of men who DO look at other men in change rooms and whatnot, they just obviously don't admit it because it seems "gay" even when there's no sexual intentions there. And even at that, I was trying to avoid seeing anyone at all costs, but I saw one guy's very hairy, and very round (like, GLOBE LIKE) ass. I also caught a glance of an old man's balls resting directly on the bench ipehjrweklnfsdafa.
You know, despite the terror I felt re: the bra, the newness of it all, and the fact that I really didn't appreciate the glimpses I caught of asses and balls, I felt more right in the men's locker room than I ever felt in the women's. That made me happy because I honestly didn't expect it, as I always feel uncomfortable in men's bathrooms. I think it's because in the women's I always felt this sexual tension, even if I wasn't sexually attracted to any of the women in there. It was just knowing that there was a sexual element between myself and women. With the guys, I don't give a crap one way or the other, and that sexual underpinning is removed.
I like men so I have a little bit of discomfort with trying not to look, but dealing well with changing rooms is a big deal for me and a lot of people, and it's awesome that it went well for you.
I'm happy because I got my fancy computer working and went back to world of warcraft. My main character has good gear, but I'm out of practice so I've been proceeding as if she's a new 90 or an alt. Grouping with strangers and having them be consistently very happy about my role is uplifting. Also, after barely being able to load Susan's on the backup computer it's nice to see pretty video game graphics on this machine. I look forward to watching youtube videos. Being able to load any website I wish to visit makes me feel like a king. :)
Quote from: birkin on August 07, 2014, 01:08:22 AM
I am very convinced that there are a sizable number of men who DO look at other men in change rooms and whatnot, they just obviously don't admit it because it seems "gay" even when there's no sexual intentions there.
Yup, they certainly do check each other out. And specifically: they check out the size of each other's
packages... in a totally heterosexual way, I'm sure. ::) This is one of the reasons why I started packing: I pass quite well but my lack of a bulge was causing problems in the gym changing rooms, because other guys would notice that there was nothing there.
Me? I
love the fact that buff guys like to get their tackle out in the changing rooms. I wonder how many of them realise that a heck of a lot of gay men frequent gyms?
What made me happy today? A couple of things: a visit to the nurse this morning to get a certain shot; and my Personal Trainer has given me a customised workout to help me get back to full fitness again.
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 05, 2014, 07:17:14 PM
I don't want to use it for anything now. Some say, what's the point if you don't make it into anything, but I have no problem. It's a display of craftsmanship, really. Once you knit or weave something, it becomes all about the fact that you knitted or wove it, and nobody ever notices the yarn again. My knitting and weaving skills are just by-products - I'm really a handspinner. 8) 8)
You did make something, you made a beautiful, perfect skein that deserves to be saved for someone with the superlative skills to do it justice.
Quote from: YinYanga on August 06, 2014, 11:53:39 PM
You've got a nose for finding those pennies ^^
I found another penny today! ^_^
My wife and I were walking in to a restaurant and we randomly ran into one of my oldest friends. OK, I'm like 4 years older than he is, but I've known him since college and we've played a lot of gigs together. It was really nice to see him. He gave me this huge hug in front of a lot of people, said, "I love you." and gave me another huge hug.
I liked that. This was coming from someone who originally said something to the effect of, "Are you f***ing crazy, dude?"
Quote from: Jill F on August 08, 2014, 12:57:41 AM
My wife and I were walking in to a restaurant and we randomly ran into one of my oldest friends. OK, I'm like 4 years older than he is, but I've known him since college and we've played a lot of gigs together. It was really nice to see him. He gave me this huge hug in front of a lot of people, said, "I love you." and gave me another huge hug.
I liked that. This was coming from someone who originally said something to the effect of, "Are you f***ing crazy, dude?"
That was a great act of affirmation as he made it clear that he's going to love you unconditionally as a friend and supporter. He is indeed a real keeper!
My best friend gave me a handmade leather arm band with my male name on it :)
I'm really happy and I will wear it with pride ;D
I have an appointment with the pain monster later today.
Hope she is kind to me
Had to cancel the last session due to being away.
This one is a mixed bag. I read an article about the 10 Moments In WWE That Made Fans Cry. I knew a couple that were going to make the list. But I was not expecting that last entry about Connor "The Crusher", the little boy with cancer.
Now first off, that he passed is not why I'm happy. I'm not a horrible monster. And I cried reading the article entry. I straight up bawled watching the tribute video WWE made for him.
The tribute is what made me happy. At the end of the day, regardless of questionable storylines, these entertainers are real people with real emotions. On top of all the charity work they do (not just in the states), everything they do for the troops, somehow this one tribute video just hit me harder and showed how much they care about those they entertain. It was amazing, it was special, and for that time the WWE had with The Crusher, regardless of how short and how soon before his passing, his family will never forget that. Kudos to WWE. You don't have to be a parent to appreciate this, and hopefully it will restore some of your faith in humanity.
Note: You might want Kleenex nearby.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SX67rDg262k (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SX67rDg262k)
Got a free ticket to the world's biggest punk festival and there's also an air show tomorrow
Looking at my daughter's yearbook. I think we finally found a place where she fits in. Nothing about her is abnormal in a context where differences are accepted and worked with.
Quote from: Felix on August 09, 2014, 05:35:10 AM
Looking at my daughter's yearbook. I think we finally found a place where she fits in. Nothing about her is abnormal in a context where differences are accepted and worked with.
That is great to hear fitting in is quite important to a girl and it will boost her self esteem aswell
I prepared a way to confess to my friend (again), since last time I didn't make it sound like I was serious. I made a word search about things that I like about her, and the remaining letters at the end form a message asking her out. I'll give it to her on Thursday when she gets back from BC!
Got to meet a punk hero and heroine of mine at the rebellion festival.Vice Squad's Bekki Bondage and UK Subs Charlie Harper.Both were really nice and amazingly Charlie is 70 and still fronts his band and exhibits his artwork!
I finally have some 'free' time.
Quote from: GenTechJ on August 09, 2014, 02:14:35 AM
This one is a mixed bag. I read an article about the 10 Moments In WWE That Made Fans Cry. I knew a couple that were going to make the list. But I was not expecting that last entry about Connor "The Crusher", the little boy with cancer.
Now first off, that he passed is not why I'm happy. I'm not a horrible monster. And I cried reading the article entry. I straight up bawled watching the tribute video WWE made for him.
The tribute is what made me happy. At the end of the day, regardless of questionable storylines, these entertainers are real people with real emotions. On top of all the charity work they do (not just in the states), everything they do for the troops, somehow this one tribute video just hit me harder and showed how much they care about those they entertain. It was amazing, it was special, and for that time the WWE had with The Crusher, regardless of how short and how soon before his passing, his family will never forget that. Kudos to WWE. You don't have to be a parent to appreciate this, and hopefully it will restore some of your faith in humanity.
Note: You might want Kleenex nearby.
Thank you for posting this. Yep the Kleenex came out!
I came out to several (abt 9) of my friends, from high school and work over the past 3 days.. 3 have not answered me, at all, but my PMs to them, have been read. (FB). I will give them time. if they do not reply, or drop me, it's tough, but I'll move on.
The other 6.. OMG, I could not be more happy that they accept, abt half do not understand, but they are trying, and thats all I can wish for. One of them, one of my halloween haunter friends (LOVE HER!), has a couple friends that are also trans, and says thats how she can totally accept me, without question. She asked her friends if its ok to have us meet.. and now, we are good friends. Lots of tips, and advice, and hugs.
Plus.. and this is really the greatest thing ever... two of the friends I came out to, well.. tho we've known each other several years in the halloween haunting/decorating community, and were really close.. I had no idea they are trans also!! I didnt know abot them, and they didnt know abt me. When I wrote them, with my coming out letter, they thot they were being set up. Took just a few questions back and forth to really have them accept that I was outting myself, not them. They did not tell me abt themselves until 10-15 posts later. And then OMFG, the water works began!! took over half hour to stop crying! They also said there are quite a few others that I know, that are also transgirls.. but they would talk to them first before they say who. I am really good with that.
So in all, my life, tho it's going downhill very fast now, with my wife/family, my t-friends list, and non-t (will not ever say normal/regular) friends, is getting larger, and warmer. A couple of them want to meet for coffee or brkfast when I land in their towns. So I have lots more crying to look forward too, I better start hydrating now!
I think my boyfriend's mother is warming up to me.
I booked a ticket to go see my boyfriend at the end of the month. I am so excited that I can't even eat xD
I passed the first round of qualifications for a public library job and have been assigned a date for the second round: a library work test. As my first job was in a public library, I think I've got a pretty good chance at this one.
Quote from: Constance on August 10, 2014, 10:40:17 PM
I passed the first round of qualifications for a public library job and have been assigned a date for the second round: a library work test. As my first job was in a public library, I think I've got a pretty good chance at this one.
Congratulations Constance :)
I hope you will get the job , I know you deserve it
Quote from: Paula Christine on August 10, 2014, 10:34:40 AM
I came out to several (abt 9) of my friends, from high school and work over the past 3 days.. 3 have not answered me, at all, but my PMs to them, have been read. (FB). I will give them time. if they do not reply, or drop me, it's tough, but I'll move on.
The other 6.. OMG, I could not be more happy that they accept, abt half do not understand, but they are trying, and thats all I can wish for. One of them, one of my halloween haunter friends (LOVE HER!), has a couple friends that are also trans, and says thats how she can totally accept me, without question. She asked her friends if its ok to have us meet.. and now, we are good friends. Lots of tips, and advice, and hugs.
Plus.. and this is really the greatest thing ever... two of the friends I came out to, well.. tho we've known each other several years in the halloween haunting/decorating community, and were really close.. I had no idea they are trans also!! I didnt know abot them, and they didnt know abt me. When I wrote them, with my coming out letter, they thot they were being set up. Took just a few questions back and forth to really have them accept that I was outting myself, not them. They did not tell me abt themselves until 10-15 posts later. And then OMFG, the water works began!! took over half hour to stop crying! They also said there are quite a few others that I know, that are also transgirls.. but they would talk to them first before they say who. I am really good with that.
So in all, my life, tho it's going downhill very fast now, with my wife/family, my t-friends list, and non-t (will not ever say normal/regular) friends, is getting larger, and warmer. A couple of them want to meet for coffee or brkfast when I land in their towns. So I have lots more crying to look forward too, I better start hydrating now!
I'm so very happy for you Paula! This is amazing!, that you've known these girls and didn't know their stories, and now they've accepted you and are sharing tips and idea's with you. I wish you long lasting forever friendships. I have a few tears forming just reading this. You've made my day!!
Ali :icon_flower:
Noise.
My CD finally came in the mail. It's a Christan rap CD that I lost ages ago. I'm glad to have it back in my hands.
Watsky's new album comes out tomorrow! OMG OMG OMG! ;D
I've been raping the replay button on all his songs on Genius.
Seeing the interview Pastor Steven Anderson did with Dr. James White on the subject of KJV Onlyism. I've been waiting for that for a loooong time.
I made a new friend this morning and got a great compliment. In between awesome discussions of theology, philosophy, sexuality, identity, science and music...I was asked a couple questions that threw me off. Followed by "Yeah, you're not messing around, you really are a woman." with me saying: "...Ummmm...thanks?". He did follow up with why he felt he considered me as a woman and I was blushing the whole time. But, it made me feel good to hear that validation.
The woman who called myself and a female coworker "ladies" the other week saw me with a guy today and called us "boys" lol. I guess someone clued her in that I wasn't female, or she took a closer look.
I also got some words of reassurance from my boss, who knows about my situation (kinda). I won't write exactly what she said here, for my own privacy, but she told me something I really needed to hear from someone regarding this whole thing.
Quote from: birkin on August 12, 2014, 08:44:53 PM
The woman who called myself and a female coworker "ladies" the other week saw me with a guy today and called us "boys" lol. I guess someone clued her in that I wasn't female, or she took a closer look.
I also got some words of reassurance from my boss, who knows about my situation (kinda). I won't write exactly what she said here, for my own privacy, but she told me something I really needed to hear from someone regarding this whole thing.
Always better to not overthink things and then get overwrought by something that later turns out to be nothing.
Getting my internet back made me happy. Also, having such kind & caring neighbors who've been helping me out.
My mom is amazing, showed her a girly picture of me for the first time and now we're talking about going shopping this weekend.
I have finally been given the paperwork to get my blood work done for hrt yaaaay
I feel asleep during electrolysis yesterday!
Just chatting to a variety of queer people today, fun
Filled out all the paperwork to change my name, got it sitting on my desk while waiting for the last documents to arrive in the mail :)
I got called this morning from a job interview I had yesterday and got invited for a 2nd interview! ;D
Great news Neo, fingers crossed for you :)
Quote from: YinYanga on August 13, 2014, 10:15:55 AM
Great news Neo, fingers crossed for you :)
I know right? I had a good feeling about it since the guy was genuinely interested in me and he was very happy to hear that my brother was a chiropractor as well. Then after the interview, they made me take proficiency tests (typing speed, math, filing, etc.) and I passed with flying colors. Going to be meeting with him again and then meeting the office manager. "I was impressed by your resume."
Perfect ;D
When people value you for what you do instead of your medical background I couldnt be happier
Quote from: Neospector on August 13, 2014, 10:14:26 AM
I got called this morning from a job interview I had yesterday and got invited for a 2nd interview! ;D
Just a heads up, you need to study up on what happens during a 2nd, 3rd etc. interview. It's a little different from the 1st one, sometimes it's the same but then the 3rd is different some so, best study on it. Just be truthful, give your best answers and don't be nervous and you'll do fine. Practice makes perfect and good luck!
Quote from: Shana-chan on August 13, 2014, 01:33:32 PM
Just a heads up, you need to study up on what happens during a 2nd, 3rd etc. interview. It's a little different from the 1st one, sometimes it's the same but then the 3rd is different some so, best study on it. Just be truthful, give your best answers and don't be nervous and you'll do fine. Practice makes perfect and good luck!
Yeah no worries, I did look up what kind of questions to ask and everything and what my salary requirements are. Didn't shoot up for too much and I bent the truth a bit about how to authorize insurance by patients but my mom does that on a daily basis so she told me how it was done and I was prepared to answer that interview question. So far, I'm positive about getting hired.
Last week I went with one of my clients to this "club" he is a part of (like a fitness place but it has other activities as well), and today I got a text from a coworker saying that people there were asking about me and one lady thought I was going to be there every Wednesday so she brought donuts. Bless. It's always weird for me though, like, someone would remember me enough to bring me a treat on the day she thinks I am going to come in?
The other day I was talking to a guy too, we only conversed for like 10 mins or so (it was kind of personal, I had only met him but given the nature of the topics we were approaching in workshop I wanted to talk openly with him about my past). Anyway, after not too long he goes "With the clarity you possess, how articulate as you are, and as bright as you are, I think you would be very successful if you tried counselling for this. I think you could make a lot of breakthroughs." He could have just been saying it to be nice, but I've had so many people tell me I speak with such clarity about my thoughts. Which makes me wonder, why do they plague me sometimes if they seem so clear to others, you know? And the articulate comment I have heard many times. Like how can you know if someone is bright when you have only known them 10 minutes?
It's nice to make such good impressions on others, it makes me feel happy, because I feel like I may have a place somewhere in this world. But I am so not used to it lol. Maybe that's a good thing because I never take compliments for granted.
Got asked to come in tomorrow for job training and see how I fit in with the coworkers. ;D
Quote from: Neospector on August 13, 2014, 07:28:58 PM
Got asked to come in tomorrow for job training and see how I fit in with the coworkers. ;D
:eusa_clap:
Quote from: Neospector on August 13, 2014, 07:28:58 PM
Got asked to come in tomorrow for job training and see how I fit in with the coworkers. ;D
YAY! Congrats!!!
Weight 4 years ago : 265 lbs bmi = obese
Weight Jan 1 2014 : 235 lbs bmi = obese
Weight last night : 210 lbs bmi = overweight
Needed weight for large bone structure normal weight 190 pounds
;D
The look on the lady's face when I went into the internet company to change my account and she realized that I was the account holder and the whole time she was gendering me correctly. It was priceless when she snapped her head to the side and look up at me again when she said are you "old legal name" with her mouth wide open and eyes nearly bulging out of her head. The very good thing was she still gendered me correctly afterwards :D
Quote from: Megumi on August 13, 2014, 08:43:44 PM
The look on the lady's face when I went into the internet company to change my account and she realized that I was the account holder and the whole time she was gendering me correctly. It was priceless when she snapped her head to the side and look up at me again when she said are you "old legal name" with her mouth wide open and eyes nearly bulging out of her head. The very good thing was she still gendered me correctly afterwards :D
That says it all! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Emily.T on August 13, 2014, 01:29:07 AM
I have finally been given the paperwork to get my blood work done for hrt yaaaay
WoW Emily Congratulations!! I'm surprised so many missed this wonderful news of yours. I'm so happy for you. You now get to begin this wonderful journey!Quote from: Megumi on August 13, 2014, 08:43:44 PM
The look on the lady's face when I went into the internet company to change my account and she realized that I was the account holder and the whole time she was gendering me correctly. It was priceless when she snapped her head to the side and look up at me again when she said are you "old legal name" with her mouth wide open and eyes nearly bulging out of her head. The very good thing was she still gendered me correctly afterwards :D
This is wonderful Megumi!! Especially the "eyes bulging out of her head" part, lol!
Ali :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on August 13, 2014, 09:55:24 PM
WoW Emily Congratulations!! I'm surprised so many missed this wonderful news of yours. I'm so happy for you. You now get to begin this wonderful journey!
Ali :icon_flower:[/font][/size][/color]
Thank you Allyda I have been waiting so long for this day I appreciate your posts they are always inspiring to me and make me smile I thank you xx
I found a penny today and a girl brought me a Sprite.
I found out my insurance will also pay for travel and lodging expenses to and from hospital for my SRS, YaY!!
Edit: More great news just happened. I got a big big big biiiig job coming in tomorrow! So double YaY!!
Ali :icon_flower:
Quote from: Allyda on August 14, 2014, 06:07:59 PM
I found out my insurance will also pay for travel and lodging expenses to and from hospital for my SRS, YaY!!
Edit: More great news just happened. I got a big big big biiiig job coming in tomorrow! So double YaY!!
Ali :icon_flower:
The good fairy is watching out for you sweetheart!
Knowing that my best friend and ladybro is coming to visit in 12 weeks. Every time I get see her I just feel super awesome.
Quote from: Allyda on August 14, 2014, 06:07:59 PM
I found out my insurance will also pay for travel and lodging expenses to and from hospital for my SRS, YaY!!
Edit: More great news just happened. I got a big big big biiiig job coming in tomorrow! So double YaY!!
Ali :icon_flower:
Glad to hear it Hun it's just great when good things happen
Quote from: Emily.T on August 14, 2014, 09:51:56 PM
Glad to hear it Hun it's just great when good things happen
@Shantel: Thanks Auntie. After the lull I've had in work I really need this. I'm tired of being broke flat as a cow turd, lol! Now I might actually be able to keep gas in my truck and get the things I need, and afford to pay someone to get my new hot water heater installed. I've lived without hot water for over 3 months now and it's getting cold -I mean, old real fast.
@Emily: Yea I've had it a little rough so far this summer both financially and how I feel due to the excessive rain and humidity. Rain and humidity makes my bones/joints sore to the point I don't want to move. Luckily there's been a break in the humidity and with this job, a break in my financial roughing it.
Ali :icon_flower:
People gave me gifts everywhere I went today. The comic shop guy had blueberries from his yard, the corner store guy had a bunch of tomatoes and oregano and hot peppers, and my therapist was graduating to some other position so she gave me a journal and pen. She gave me a card, too, but I'm awkward about goodbyes so I haven't opened it yet.
I didn't even know what oregano looked like outside of a jar until today. ;D
I called customer service at Cablevision for a clients issue with their cable modem and I was ma'amed on the phone the whole time :)
For some reason I'd had a hard time with phones, but now this seems to have resolved itself :)
After a very manic week at work after fixing many issues and answering client questions I drop by and see my team from Manila who I spent 4 weeks training up in Manila and now a further 4 weeks here in Sydney.
They are tired and homesick just like I was so I can easily relate to how they feel.
I asked them how they were going, a few looked stressed and tired like myself so I chatted with them to see if I could help them.
In talking they mentioned how little the team in Sydney actually knows which is a little surprising. As the SME I made the effort to absorb as much information as possible. Always a good thing. They again mentioned what a great job I did with them in Manila and now they fully appreciate the effort and time I took with each of them. It was long hours and difficult but in the end it was fun.
It's so nice to feel appreciated for caring about what I do. Doesn't happen often.
Bought them some chocolates which were demolished. They have asked for ice cream cake next week. How could I not?
I have been told the US and UK are also interested in training on attribution reporting so New York and London perhaps here I come?
I will probably be sent to Mumbai instead :-\
Jenny07
Mumbai and I do not agree. 5 visits = 5 stomach ailments = 5 uncomfortable flights and medical treatment ... So hope you get NY or London
Anyway - great Thai meal, this evening. Steamed Snapper to die for. If you get into town, Thainesia translated, has to mean food heaven!
Aisla
Quote from: Aisla on August 15, 2014, 10:14:48 AM
Jenny07
Mumbai and I do not agree. 5 visits = 5 stomach ailments = 5 uncomfortable flights and medical treatment ... So hope you get NY or London
Anyway - great Thai meal, this evening. Steamed Snapper to die for. If you get into town, Thainesia translated, has to mean food heaven!
Aisla
Steamed Snapper^^___^^ Yum Yum! :icon_rockon:
On another note: My job called recently and said the only reason he didn't show up today was the rain, and stated he'd be in tomorrow. This is good news for I thought this rain cost me this job I really need right now earlier.
Ali :icon_flower:
I made a visit to Facial Team today and I am really happy because probably I'll have my FFS done quite soon! ^^
Also, last week I was correctly gendered on two occasions and I wasn't even trying to pass! =D
My neighbors brought me some ice cream as a surprise, though they ended up keeping it after I told them I'd already gotten that same kind, even so this made me very happy, and I was really surprised too. :)
Shaved my legs and mmmm I love the feel. It took two hours to hack through that forest and I've gotta keep up on it. I did find good shaving cream and I bought what appeared to be very good women 'a razors but they're crap. Sometimes men's products are better even for feminization.
NEW CHAINSAW :D
only form of heating the house has is an open fire so, firewood is must, picked up a Stihl 381, makes life so much easier coming from using a 211 for everything.
I got to chat with my Brother via facebook today. I haven't seen him except in photos and video in 14 years. He and Dad don't get along though.
Quote from: Rainbow Brite on August 16, 2014, 09:05:23 AM
I got to chat with my Brother via facebook today. I haven't seen him except in photos and video in 14 years. He and Dad don't get along though.
I think I need to get my eyes checked lol I thought you said boyfriend when you actually said brother. Now it makes sense, was wondering how you has a BF but haven't seen him except through those means in 14 years. Glad you got to chat with him, even if it was through the evil that is FB. lol You two should plan a get together, if not at your house then somewhere public like, a fast food joint maybe. :)
Still no work due to rain but amidst the bad that happened earlier today, a few things did happen of a personal nature that did brighten my spirits up a bit. I got to converse with a couple of good friends and also my niece via Facebook. She and I exchanged phone numbers and she's very supportive and happy for me. So despite the bad a few good things happened today to balance things out.
Ali :icon_flower:
Just came back from McDonald's.
Nothing to eat at home...decided to go there and ask for some junky food =P
Decided to buy on the Drive trough...the first guy asks me "anything else, ma'am?" =) ...I answer, "no thank you"....then "ok, next cabin, ma'am" =)
Ok, so let's pay... wow, I was correctly gendered again!
Then the next attendant: "Money or credit card, lady?" =D "Credit card"..."ok, ma'am" =D =D Again??
Wow...
I think that indeed this means...male fail at last =D
What made me happy today was when my lunatic neighbors finally wound down their party at about 6:30am. I'm totally supportive of young people enjoying their youth, but the revolving door of random drunk hipsters is annoying to live next to.
I found .11 cents today. Into my top surgery fund it went.
Coffee and the internet. ;D
I found a penny today.
My period came off today.
Lucky penny. :p
I have been having a seriously epic battle with my cat today, and I'm happy that I finally got him clean and I didn't get mauled in the process. ;D
My wife and I went to a friends party last night and less than half knew me before I transitioned. Never was mis gendered or anything. The topic of transgender came up and I outed myself on purpose and those that didn't know told me they had no clue.
The second thing that happened that night was the husband (they just married in April) who I had only met a year ago when I still presented male told me that I looked better and more natural as a woman than I did as a man. (He did have a few drinks in him.) He then said: "Wow your boobs are getting bigger!!" He then asked if he could feel them than said that maybe he shouldn't have ask. Then he asked if he could touch them anyway. (His wife whom I've known for 16 years was a little shocked that he would ask that.) He then said, that he wasn't coming on to me, but was just curious. I said that it was up to my wife and his wife but I didn't mind. They both were OK and he felt them and says "Wow, B Cup!!". It was a little weird, but in a way validating as a woman to be sexualized like that, LOL.
Went to breakfast in Santa Barbara this morning. At the table next to me sat a woman I had worked for to get me through college. I looked her in the eye and smiled. She walked out without her recognizing me at all. I didn't out myself because her husband was one of the most transphobic people I had ever met in my life.
Wow, I worked for you for years and you had no clue!
Thinking about how great it feels to be living as male, without getting into the trans discussion with anyone. Life just feels so...normal and I am amazed at how comfortable I have become with everything. I am also discovering a lot of new aspects of myself. I don't have to worry about being seen as someone I am not, I express myself freely and just feel great. Like there is now room for so much more growth now that I'm at this point. Surgery is still a concern but it feels at this point as if I'm a guy who had hypogonadism or some other condition. It can be a body image killer and dysphoria inducing but I don't feel like "born female and transitioning to male." I just feel like a guy with some physical issues that need to be addressed.
It took so freaking long to get here between fights with family and hormones taking their sweet time. It literally took me 5 years of crap to make it here. How nice that life is finally stabilizing.
that sounds great birkin.
seem to be pulling out of the dark place today. went over to a friends after work and hung out for hours. had some good talk, sat by the river, sat in the hot tub. then came home and gave the dogs some quality time. I've been so... blah that they just haven't gotten the play and cuddles they deserve.
I'm happy for you Birkin, guess we can say that you have arrived as we know that the biggest percentage of this is all head stuff and once you are able to bulldoze the crap out and can see daylight, everything becomes so much brighter. Kudos!
Male failed again today when buying some meds at the drugstore. The guy ma'amed me a few times besides I looking directly to him and talking...
Employee: Anything else?
Me: no, thank you.
Employee: Ma'am, if you buy one more of this one I can give you a big discount
Me: oh, really?
Employee: Yes, wait a momen't ma'am, I'll get one more for you.
Me: No, thank you, just one is enough.
=)
Quote from: Natalia on August 18, 2014, 11:28:18 AM
Male failed again today when buying some meds at the drugstore. The guy ma'amed me a few times besides I looking directly to him and talking...
Employee: Anything else?
Me: no, thank you.
Employee: Ma'am, if you buy one more of this one I can give you a big discount
Me: oh, really?
Employee: Yes, wait a momen't ma'am, I'll get one more for you.
Me: No, thank you, just one is enough.
=)
Totally male fail! :eusa_clap: :icon_bunch:
A little happy over the prospect of buying a few new books and underwear tomorrow
And the fact I recover quicker from bad night's out and other negative emotions since I am on HRT has made me relaxed today, its progress
Watsky's new album "All You Can Do" just came in the mail! It's autographed.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FMgi6ojl.jpg&hash=3e95292d03b49bdadd2de2294981c68bd6726ece)
Finally got registered at the LA LGBT center and have my first appointment to met my doctor next month.
IT FINALLY BEGINS!
Quote from: Shana-chan on August 16, 2014, 01:54:56 PM
I think I need to get my eyes checked lol I thought you said boyfriend when you actually said brother. Now it makes sense, was wondering how you has a can't wait to see him again.But haven't seen him except through those means in 14 years. Glad you got to chat with him, even if it was through the evil that is FB. lol You two should plan a get together, if not at your house then somewhere public like, a fast food joint maybe. :)
Quote from: birkin on August 17, 2014, 11:38:54 PM
Thinking about how great it feels to be living as male, without getting into the trans discussion with anyone. Life just feels so...normal and I am amazed at how comfortable I have become with everything. I am also discovering a lot of new aspects of myself. I don't have to worry about being seen as someone I am not, I express myself freely and just feel great. Like there is now room for so much more growth now that I'm at this point. Surgery is still a concern but it feels at this point as if I'm a guy who had hypogonadism or some other condition. It can be a body image killer and dysphoria inducing but I don't feel like "born female and transitioning to male." I just feel like a guy with some physical issues that need to be addressed.
It took so freaking long to get here between fights with family and hormones taking their sweet time. It literally took me 5 years of crap to make it here. How nice that life is finally stabilizing.
I told you that it would get that way for you. ^_^ <3x
My brother lives in England so getting together is rather costly. Plus, he doesnt have much interest in coming to the US. Me and my boyfriend, Birkin, however use google hangouts every night and he has been able to visit me twice. I cant
Well, I passed my latest class assessment, which was an accomplishment because I was not at all prepared. So glad I have no in-class assessments again for at least two months :D
Well, this was yesterday, but,
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I BOOKED A CRUISE TO THE BAHAMAS!
Third week in October!
Quote from: Dee Walker on August 19, 2014, 11:36:02 AM
Well, this was yesterday, but,
.
.
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I BOOKED A CRUISE TO THE BAHAMAS!
Third week in October!
I wanna go too!
Carnival Sensation out of Port Canaveral Oct 19.
Sail Sunday 4:00 PM
Monday Freeport,
Tuesday Nassau,
Wednesday fun day at sea,
Return Thursday 7:00 AM.
Total cost for Sweetie and me, $629.92
It would be cool if some of all y'all came.
Turned one of those panties that's designed to shape your waist into a comfortable binder that works pretty well, tomorrow's my first appointment with the gender clinic, and my friends are getting me to Comic Con London because they're awesome and I love them so much. Today has been a good day.
I got to actually go out and make some money today! Also, besides the $85. I made today I got the job which will make me $150 more. So I'm not broke, at least for now anyways.
Ali :icon_flower:
I went to get my braces checked out and don't have to wear elastics anymore! Then I spent a good few hours walking around the mall with my friends and bought myself a dress that suits me nicely. Aand to finish off my day, I got my eyebrow pierced. I'd been waiting to get it done for a little while, and I'm so happy to have it now. The pain was really nothing and only lasted for a few seconds.
Watsky favorited my tweet and actually replied to me. *fanboy scream*
I got $2 of my quarters taken and 2 dollar bills given to me today. I also found a penny.
I finished all my chores here, and got to enjoy most of the afternoon with my dogs.. ;D
Having a day off work finally after working for weeks straight without a day off! So it was a nice vacation!
It's amazing how simple shaving your legs is but makes you feel so much better inside . Had a really rough day at work nearly fighting a coworker but being home and smooth legs, all that went away and I'm overall content with myself. I feel good I did something today after work even if it is after midnight.
One of my regulars (he has known me for about two years at this venue I'm working at) asked me if I would be offended if he called me madam.
My answer NO with the brightest smile I could manage
Quote from: Allyda on August 19, 2014, 04:43:29 PM
I got to actually go out and make some money today! Also, besides the $85. I made today I got the job which will make me $150 more. So I'm not broke, at least for now anyways.
Ali :icon_flower:
I am so happy for you Allyda congrats
Wow, a lot has been happening for/to me in recent weeks...
This morning was my first in my dorm room at seminary. Orientation starts on 8/25 and classes start on 9/2. I can't even begin to describe how excited I am!
Also this morning was the second coffee date with someone I met over a year ago. I'd been lamenting on FB that so many of the bisexuals on OKCupid are stoners or creepy, and how hard it's been to meet people. She replied to my post in a way that suggested she was single and interested in dating. Then, I got a private FB message from her and well, today's coffee & conversation date was very nice indeed.
The shuttle showed up this time so I was able to go to my therapist appointment
I mailed a really beautiful Birthday card to Andreja Pejic, the most beautiful person in the world.. I even watched to make sure the mailman took it..! ;D
I am Happy today..!! :icon_bunch:
I swapped 4 quarters for a dollar bill.
Had a meeting today at work about an issue that made me very unhappy from a few days ago.
Turns out I was right all along and now have the support of the risk and compliance people so I can no longer be forced to do the wrong thing.
It will be a good size project to fix it but now I have the high ground. :)
Knowing that IF I can get my work to give me 30 hrs each week, I'll be getting $160 more than I originally thought I was making. I cannot STRESS how vitally important that extra $160 is going to come in handy in the future. Also, I may be seeing a therapist who specializes in GID/GD soonish. Should be in the next month if all goes well.
Life is looking up, so please life, I kindly ask, don't push me right back down, I don't know if I can get back up again if you do. :(
NO! HAPPY THOUGHTS! :D
I really like being me.
I have come recently to not like my breast growth as they are getting quite large now.
They have grown quite a bit over the last few months an I now have out grown my favourite bra.
I love them.
I came prepared and have the next size up bra. ;)
touching base with a friend whom I had not heard from for a while :D
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 21, 2014, 04:17:40 PM
I have come recently to not like my breast growth as they are getting quite large now.
They have grown quite a bit over the last few months an I now have out grown my favourite bra.
I love them.
I came prepared and have the next size up bra. ;)
would that I had your problem :rolleyes: <glances down> ...sigh...
I finally got bangs ^-^
going to the fridge for a drink and finding my donuts i had forgotten about ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
I finally got to choose an avatar here... :)
No more blank stares...! hehe.. :o
I swapped 4 of my quarters for a dollar bill.
My sister brought a book bag I got for free for $2.
Started writing my book today.
Having a girls night with my 11 yo daughter
Picking up overtime
Resolved a relationship problem. I hope.
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 21, 2014, 04:17:40 PM
I have come recently to not like my breast growth as they are getting quite large now.
They have grown quite a bit over the last few months an I now have out grown my favourite bra.
I love them.
I came prepared and have the next size up bra. ;)
I wish that was my problem. Lol. I'll trade you for one of my troubles. :p
Getting to the cashier at the grocery store she complemented me or my earrings, at which point I looked down to get my wallet and realized I have breasts, small but definite.
I walked out beaming to say the least!
A person in my team resigned yesterday.
He was being performance managed anyway and was pathetic.
Seems to think he could do whatever he wanted and never did anything when he decided to turn up.
He brought a girl to tears by his sexist attitude.
Glad to be rid of him.
I finally got past the last dot on my dilator again! 6.5" here I come! (For comparison, the last month-ish I've been lucky to get 5.5" - the swelling's going down at last!)
Quote from: antonia on August 22, 2014, 04:59:19 PM
Getting to the cashier at the grocery store she complemented me or my earrings, at which point I looked down to get my wallet and realized I have breasts, small but definite.
I walked out beaming to say the least!
It gets better girls, wait til you get to hide money in your bra. I love doing this as I used to be sooooo jealous of my now ex girlfriend when she did it. Wait til you go up and down stairs and feel them jiggle. So many new experiences, lol!
Ali :icon_flower:
Finally getting home....away from my obnoxious co-worker.
I also found 2 pennies and swapped all of my quarters for dollars at work today.
Quote from: King Malachite on August 22, 2014, 08:45:15 PM
Finally getting home....away from my obnoxious co-worker.
I also found 2 pennies and swapped all of my quarters for dollars at work today.
Ok, that does it, you sir have a serious problem. It's called S.Q.F.D which is short for swapping quarters for dollars. I recommend you spend $1 both of quarters and a $ bill at the nearest arcade machine, if not one then a vending machine, no? Ok a laundry machine. Still no? Ok, a gum ball machine for pete's sake! lol I recommend you do this ASAP and soon because if left unchecked, it'll grow out of control and you'll be hitting everyone up for $1 bills for your quarters. hehe ;)
I was actually social tonight! I went to my first ever Friday Night Magic session at the local game store. It just happened to be the biggest turnout the store had ever seen. Over 60 people!
I met a new friend who I can play magic with! AND! To top it all off: I even won 2 packs of cards by winning 5 of 9 games!
Oh and I got home safely driving in the dark which is also a plus... I gotta find someone to carpool with.
My boyfriend and I are going to teach eachother our favorite hobbies. He's going to learn BMX riding and I gotta start PC gaming. I'm horrible without a controller.
Oh and he's going to visit in a couple months yeeeeeeeay!!!!!!
I was asking my mom for name suggestions and she was like "Write down some names and come back." So far, the only the names she liked for me was Adrian, Javier, Gabriel, Oliver, and Jack out of 500 names. She's super picky but at least she was all open for communication and coming around to having a son.
I went to the Converse outlet and got a pair of creamsicle orange Converse lowtops and some faded red white and blue hightops from the clearance racks for 25% off the sale price, $60 total! And put my worn out plum lowtops in the recycle bin. They grind them up and make playground mats which they donate.
Quote from: Dee Walker on August 23, 2014, 08:27:10 PM
I went to the Converse outlet and got a pair of creamsicle orange Converse lowtops and some faded red white and blue hightops from the clearance racks for 25% off the sale price, $60 total! And put my worn out plum lowtops in the recycle bin. They grind them up and make playground mats which they donate.
Nice buy shopper girl! Do the playground mats smell like old feet?
I found 2 pennies today.
Quote from: Shantel on August 23, 2014, 08:39:12 PM
Nice buy shopper girl! Do the playground mats smell like old feet?
The samples don't, but I'm sure they put their best foot forward in the store. :P
The creamsicle color was a compromise, but Sweetie actually likes it, so that's a plus. Looked great with the tight jeans and black tee I wore today.
THIS! Never thought I'd be applying this to being trans but it's true!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YKmYGUk3T2g
This has cheered me up a decent bit. :) Love you Mewtwo. :-*
My friend called me.
Fixed the low clearance sign which someone broke Friday night. No one fixed it for a couple of days so wanted to se if anyone would step up. No, Typical
Unclogged a blocked drain and got the water flowing again.
Cleaned the roller door to the garage which was filthy. Much better now.
Cleaned out the garage as cleaners don't do their job.
Overall people are lazy. Not me.
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 24, 2014, 01:28:01 AM
Fixed the low clearance sign which someone broke Friday night. No one fixed it for a couple of days so wanted to se if anyone would step up. No, Typical
Unclogged a blocked drain and got the water flowing again.
Cleaned the roller door to the garage which was filthy. Much better now.
Cleaned out the garage as cleaners don't do their job.
Overall people are lazy. Not me.
They're counting on that!
Being alive. Last night I had one of my worst depression attacks ever. I somehow made it through it. Hello to my sanity and being myself again as well as to being alive! :) I owe a part of getting through it thanks to Mewtwo. :)
With the cold I've been struggling with and public transit hoohah, this morning got off to a less than pleasant start. But one of the hymns at church this morning was on of my faves, and I was nearly laughing and crying while singing it, I became so happy. Then, the afternoon was just a great mellow thing. As soon as my kids get home from their various jobs, I'll have dinner with them.
Quote from: Constance on August 24, 2014, 06:26:03 PM
With the cold I've been struggling with and public transit hoohah, this morning got off to a less than pleasant start. But one of the hymns at church this morning was on of my faves, and I was nearly laughing and crying while singing it, I became so happy. Then, the afternoon was just a great mellow thing. As soon as my kids get home from their various jobs, I'll have dinner with them.
Everyone deserves an occasional stellar day, good for you Constance!
I walked from our crew hotel the six blocks to the Mazzoni Center (12th st) ! It was Sunday, so it was closed, but I know where it is, so next month, I have a couple weekday trips, so I will get to go in and .. say hi..
It feels good when I go over my body with Veet for men (and a razor to clean up areas I missed), have a close shave followed by a splash of moisturiser and shape my eyebrows.
My boyfriend offered to give my son his old lego for his birthday. I'm not sure why that makes me so happy, but it does.
Quote from: Edge on August 25, 2014, 10:11:34 AM
My boyfriend offered to give my son his old lego for his birthday. I'm not sure why that makes me so happy, but it does.
I think that's really sweet! And I am sure your son will enjoy it.
Yeah, I'm sure he will and it is sweet.
I am also really excited for school.
I met a really nice person who I believe accepts me 100%. Kind of gives me hope, you know?
I found a penny today and I got 4 of my quarters swapped for a dollar bill.
I spent all day driving. Sadly I didn't get to drive alone or off into the sunset or off a short pier. But I think I might just say screw the visual effects job search once I get my CDL and just drive. I'll save for FFS, Breast Augmentation and SRS.
I finally got it through my blonde head that no matter how much hate is in the world I have a family here who truly and honestly loves me for who I am. There is no better feeling realization! Thank you all! :icon_hug: :-* ^-^
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on August 26, 2014, 09:04:57 PM
I finally got it through my blonde head that no matter how much hate is in the world I have a family here who truly and honestly loves me for who I am. There is no better feeling realization! Thank you all! :icon_hug: :-* ^-^
Hearing this.
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on August 26, 2014, 09:04:57 PM
I finally got it through my blonde head that no matter how much hate is in the world I have a family here who truly and honestly loves me for who I am. There is no better feeling realization! Thank you all! :icon_hug: :-* ^-^
Yes you do and yes we do sweetheart! :icon_bunch:
It's T day!
It's also my friend's birthday and we're going out for supper.
My boyfriend moved into his new room and it looks like he'll be moving in with our mutual friends permanently which means I'll get to see my friends more often and we'll have the privacy of a room.
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on August 26, 2014, 09:04:57 PM
I finally got it through my blonde head that no matter how much hate is in the world I have a family here who truly and honestly loves me for who I am. There is no better feeling realization! Thank you all! :icon_hug: :-* ^-^
Hey. You. Merriman. <3
I drove on a busy road and didn't die.
I found two pennies today! The first penny I found I heard the guy drop it and I waited to see if it was going to pick it up. He didn't so once he left, I swopped it up like a hawk. I'm a scavenger. The second penny I found when I was headed to my mom's car after work. Into my top surgery fund they go!
Got a call today, and I have my second interview tomorrow with a job that will finally pay me enough to get out of debt and get to therapy and start my journey. Got every finger and toe crossed because I've been headed for a serious mental breakdown at my current job.
Quote from: RockerGirl on August 27, 2014, 08:08:53 PM
Got a call today, and I have my second interview tomorrow with a job that will finally pay me enough to get out of debt and get to therapy and start my journey. Got every finger and toe crossed because I've been headed for a serious mental breakdown at my current job.
Good luck!!
My daughter had a baby girl today 9# 10oz
Cryed like a baby!
janis
@RockerGirl no problem! Just be confident. :)
My mom gave me .72 cents omg I'm so happy!!!!! On top of that, she ALSO gave me a small Hershey's cookies and cream bar. ;D
Thanks King Malachite! I'm freaking out right now even though I'll be fine in the interview. The male shell is a calm persona under stress:(
Today I was told that I "looked like a girl". I'm pretty sure it was meant in a disparaging way, but I could not fight the smile and said, "Thank you." :D
I woke up with the warm sun's rays on my face. ^_^ and slept in , too!
First, Janis! Congrats on! new grandbaby to spoil! (I hope you get the chance!)
Second, Jess.. LOVE YOU, GURL!!
ok.. today started off badly.. had a t-sister, nearly out me with a FB reply to a post i put up last night.. I removed it, then PM'd her asking "what were you thinking?" (theres more of course).. she replied she makes no apologies for anything and if I didnt want her commenting on my posts to just block her. Now, I am not the kind to just block/drop someone for that.. I'm funny that way.. you pretty much have to stick me to get me to drop you.. But she got me so freakin angry.. angrier than I have been in a long time.. havent been this angry since my boss bought the company i now work for ..
wait, Paula, this is supposed to be WMYHT...
ok..I'll tell ya.. had my endo appt today.. third one with my new doc.. She's kinda loud, pretty, warm, genuine (I think) and nice to talk to. had my blood levels draws last week, and I got the results..
T... is (waaaaait for itttttt... ) 147!! WOOHOO!!! down from 477 in May!! GAWD I loved that news! I didnt get the specific # for my E, but I have to check the Patient Portal for lab work.. I asked her, ok.. can I ramp it up now? I would like to at least double what I'm on now (low dose).. she said absolutely!! Said also the acne I'm getting on back/shoulders is likely from the E, but increasing the E now, may lessen/stop it, I exfoliate with the scrunchy in the shower each time.. so it isnt clogged pores.. and if it is.. some 80grit sandpaper on the palm sander should fix that :/
So, now (couple hrs ago, actually), I'm at nearly normal dosages now.. (whew!) Soo freakin happy (no not gonna sing that song, hate it!), i have nearly fogotten what my callous, insensitive, uncaring, nosy, non-thinking friend/sister nearly caused this morning.
some other not so great news.. my bp is still elevated, up 50/30pts (sys/dy) from what it normally is.. so.. started on BP meds today too, and my cholesterol is -still- elevated.. but she wants me to continue on the diet, and work on the BP problem first.. (sigh) there go my burgers and fries.. Starkist, yer my new favorite friend..
Second greatest thing that made me happy? For yesterday.. it was these! My. Very. First. Pair! $8 Candi's.. gawd, I love them! I spent 6hrs in them, did not stumble once!! Only tactical mistake (and you can prob guess) the sox I wore buying them, are a lil thicker than i normally wear.. so, with thinner, they're a bit loose.. these are 10's, when I could actually go with a 9, or 9 1/2.. but til my feet really shrink from the E.. they'll be perfect!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1370.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fag262%2FPaulaC1958%2Fphoto1_zpsf7f5eca4.jpg&hash=2206e8e45f21c0c6a33c431195bc37b36d286602)
Got to see the counsellor who helped me a ton a couple years back, and she was just as helpful today. I don't know what it is, she just seems to ask the right questions. Like I talk to myself about my problems, and I can't speak about them with relative clarity, but she picks up on small details that I don't always consider in my self-reflection. She's also good with strategies and she is someone I feel I can be honest with. I mean, I basically told her all of my flaws with complete and total candor. But not in a self-deprecating way, in a way that really made me question why I do the things I do. I feel good about the homework I'll be doing over the next two weeks.
I found a penny.
Woooow today was amazing!
I volunteered at the bird rehabilitation center again and worked with some geese and ducks, which was quite fun (although very messy). At the end of my hours I spotted a hawk in a tree, which explains why the crows we released last week seem to be upset. Damn big shots stealing all of the good hunting spots.
Later on I had an interview at a coffee joint, and it seems that I've got the job! I'm concerned that they'll make me take out my eyebrow piercing, but I could always buy a clear one or put a band-aid over it if it's an issue.
Aaaand last but certainly not least, I got a date on Sunday! I confessed to my crush after several attempts where I chickened out, and she said she has thought about dating me as well. We're going to an eco-museum for a date to see how things go!
Excuse me as I sing 'We Are The Champions' after such an incredibly fantastic day.
Quote from: FalseHybridPrincess on August 21, 2014, 06:22:52 PM
I finally got bangs ^-^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejMN4ohVU-A
I'm catching up on this thread and it makes me happy. ;D
The big non-internet thing that made me happy today was finding out that we got the apartment we applied for. We've been on various rent-control and program lists for fifteen years, and we finally got to the top of one we can afford. We don't have to have roommates or cosigners, there are cameras in the halls (so we can piece together what happened if my kid hurts someone or runs off), and the place is full of elderly people who will hopefully be much quieter than the neighbors I have now. We get to keep our cat, who is very important to us.
I don't know how to be normal when I don't feel safe, and I'm thrilled that things might be settling down.
Looking after my 4 year old nephew today for 8hrs while my sister worked. This was the first time I have ever spent any time with him. So it did make the very little sleep I had the night before and the 2.5hr bus trip very much worthwhile
I got my pay deposited today! :)
Quote from: Felix on August 30, 2014, 01:13:19 AM
The big non-internet thing that made me happy today was finding out that we got the apartment we applied for. We've been on various rent-control and program lists for fifteen years, and we finally got to the top of one we can afford. We don't have to have roommates or cosigners, there are cameras in the halls (so we can piece together what happened if my kid hurts someone or runs off), and the place is full of elderly people who will hopefully be much quieter than the neighbors I have now. We get to keep our cat, who is very important to us.
I don't know how to be normal when I don't feel safe, and I'm thrilled that things might be settling down.
Good news Felix, you deserve it for hanging in there so steadfastly!
Been talking online to someone for this past week, who says she thinks I am pretty, awesome, cute, fantab, etc, She is trying to boost my confidence and keep me happy and I appreciate, though in the end I doubt it will improve but she has sworn to continue trying until it does. Nothing more behind it than that from what I can tell. Nice of her and I think the same way of her. It helps having someone talk to, well that started talking to you and of which you aren't bothering(I hope I am not). It isn't much but it is something.
Quote from: Charley Bea(EmeraldP) on August 30, 2014, 10:39:30 AM
Been talking online to someone for this past week, who says she thinks I am pretty, awesome, cute, fantab, etc, She is trying to boost my confidence and keep me happy and I appreciate, though in the end I doubt it will improve but she has sworn to continue trying until it does. Nothing more behind it than that from what I can tell. Nice of her and I think the same way of her. It helps having someone talk to, well that started talking to you and of which you aren't bothering(I hope I am not). It isn't much but it is something.
Good for you hon!
My son had a great birthday yesterday.
Quote from: Edge on August 30, 2014, 11:53:55 AM
My son had a great birthday yesterday.
Hooray! Happy (late) Birthday to him ^_^
Finding/getting change
My mom was helping me pick a name and we chose one. As we were shopping after we ate at Burger King, she was telling me about a transsexual woman who comes in for therapy. This one therapist laughs at her behind her back while the other therapists looking uncomfortable at her because they know it's wrong to do that. My mom said that she talks with the woman just like any other person, saying that it made her smile and had her open up. Turns out my mom is scared more than anything about me transitioning because she saw one time how this transsexual women who was walking around with her head down and with a stiff body, while people looked at her like she was a freak. She assumes the same will happen to me though she claims I don't care what the neighbors will say.
Ooooooh yeah estrogen high!. I'm so high righ now My face is contorted into more of a grin than a smile.
Also, No Tuck / Andro / Genderqueer weekend. I hate tucking enough to justify a weekend wearing my old underwear, baggy pants and whatever. Getting a rest from being a fashionable lady the rest of the week.
Came out separately to a male friend of 38 years and to my 29 year old niece. All good. All curious. Each surprised. Each worried as to whether I was ok. Seemed surprised that I am in such a good space. Life is good.
Time to tell my son .. fingers crossed!
Had a great convo with a female colleague re andro makeup and grooming - options available; andro clothing - the cut and the fabric may be challenging. She wants to help which is really cool. :)
My sister called me and told me my nephew had cut his head and she was on her way to hospital. Now while this is upsetting for them (he is 4, she hates blood). I'm happy because she actually called me to tell me. It looks like I'm going to be apart of her life again and not just be called when she needs my help.
I don't know how long this will last before she changes her mind and she decides I'm on the outer again but I'm going to enjoy this while it lasts
A lady randomly tipped me $5 today because she said I was patient with the children!
AND
I found a penny. :)
Quote from: King Malachite on September 01, 2014, 07:53:05 PM
A lady randomly tipped me $5 today because she said I was patient with the children!
AND
I found a penny. :)
How are you always finding change...? DX
Quote from: Marcellow on September 01, 2014, 07:54:53 PM
How are you always finding change...? DX
Lol well I work in a mall so people usually drop change....especially in the food court. I see people sometimes drop a coin, look down at it, then continue on their way.
A couple weeks ago some bandits trampled and completely obliterated my garden when they were busy stealing my stuff.
I've been working on getting some flowers transplanted in, and my dahlias are already blooming. :) I'm hoping the lilies and poppies come in soon, too.
Reading some of the comments in this article (mostly the highest rated):
http://www.cracked.com/funny-8503-mens-rights/
It's why I'm proud to admit I'm a feminist AND a supporter of men's rights.
Quote from: Jera on September 02, 2014, 05:49:40 PM
A couple weeks ago some bandits trampled and completely obliterated my garden when they were busy stealing my stuff.
I've been working on getting some flowers transplanted in, and my dahlias are already blooming. :) I'm hoping the lilies and poppies come in soon, too.
Well that sucks Jera! Too much of that stuff going on lately.
I found a nickel AND quarter today!
Just took my first doses of spiro and estradiol.
Quote from: Dee Walker on September 02, 2014, 07:29:49 PM
Just took my first doses of spiro and estradiol.
Hey Dee, you go girl! :)
Someone at work told me she heard people speaking really highly of me. I was kinda surprised tbh, I don't know what I do that's so great, but it was nice to hear and made me feel more secure in my job.
For some reason, Nightwish is making me happy.
Recieved a package from my mom today. It was a new packers t-shirt in time for the start of football season. It was a female shirt which made my day :). First thing she has purchused for me since I came out to her a few months ago so I'm sure it was weird for her.
Quote from: Dee Walker on September 02, 2014, 07:29:49 PM
Just took my first doses of spiro and estradiol.
Dee, I'm doin' the Happy Dance for you! Every time I take my doses, I -always- have Katy Perry's Dark Horse lyrics pop into my head!
I knew you were
You were gonna come to me
And here you are
But you better choose carefully
'Cause I am capable of anything
Of anything and everything
Make me your Aphrodite
Make me your one and only
Don't make me your enemy, your enemy, your enemy
So you wanna play with magic
Boy, you should know what you're falling for
Baby do you dare to do this
Cause I'm coming at you like a dark horse
Are you ready for, ready for
A perfect storm, perfect storm
Cause once you're mine, once you're mine
There's no going back
Mark my words
This love will make you levitate
Like a bird
Like a bird without a cage
But down to earth
If you choose to walk away, don't walk away
It's in the palm of your hand now baby
It's a yes or no, no maybe
So just be sure before you give it up to me
Up to me, give it up to me
So you wanna play with magic
Boy, you should know what you're falling for
Baby do you dare to do this
Cause I'm coming at you like a dark horse
Are you ready for, ready for
A perfect storm, perfect storm
Cause once you're mine, once you're mine
There's no going back
It's the first day of school tomorrow. Like the nerd I am, I am very excited about this and excited about the future. I've been getting as prepared as I possibly can and already started reading my chemistry textbook. I'm currently registered in five courses and four labs which I'll probably regret later, but for now I'm really excited and determined to do my best in all of them. I just found out that one of my labs involves field trips.
Quote from: Dee Walker on September 02, 2014, 07:29:49 PM
Just took my first doses of spiro and estradiol.
grinning a happy foxy grin for you!
I got 4 of my quarters swapped for a dollar today AND
I found a penny. :)
Home from work before 4 am.
I played Call of Duty: Black Ops and got a final kill a couple of times.
My first day of school went well, I saw some friends I haven't seen in awhile, and complimented my hair and said I looked like a metalhead.
Got my letter from my endo so that I can get the gender on my driver's license changed to female. Never been so happy getting an F in my life
Hugs
Jen
Quote from: JLT1 on September 04, 2014, 06:25:57 PM
Never been so happy getting an F in my life
That's actually really clever!
Quote from: JLT1 on September 04, 2014, 06:25:57 PM
Got my letter from my endo so that I can get the gender on my driver's license changed to female. Never been so happy getting an F in my life
Hugs
Jen
Congrats!
Quote from: JLT1 on September 04, 2014, 06:25:57 PM
Never been so happy getting an F in my life
I said the same thing to my wife when I walked out of the DMV with that lovely F on my driver's license.
I found out that the play 'the book of mormon' is going to be in my city! and tickets go on sale at 10 this morning so I should definitely be able to get some!!!!! SO EXCITED!!!! And yesterday, I got a rad haircut ^_^ happy happy happy!
I found a penny!
I had lunch with my parents today in the town where I grew up. My mom made jelly from the petite syrah grapes that grow on their property and gave me a jar. Later I hung out briefly with a woman that I've known since 1987 who told me how awesome I look now.
And it's Friday.
Cross off another session with the pain monster today.
She says it's starting to look clearer.
She is very nice as well.
I was asked to help tutor a kid in math today. His parents told me that they couldn't get him to concentrate on his work for more than 10 minutes at a time, even though he's really smart. I sat down with him and kept his attention for 3 hours without a single complaint. In fact, he enjoyed every bit of it and wanted to learn more. His parents are completely shocked and kept asking me what my secret was. I guess I'm just a really good teacher. I feel really good now.
Quote from: Eevee on September 06, 2014, 04:51:01 AM
I was asked to help tutor a kid in math today. His parents told me that they couldn't get him to concentrate on his work for more than 10 minutes at a time, even though he's really smart. I sat down with him and kept his attention for 3 hours without a single complaint. In fact, he enjoyed every bit of it and wanted to learn more. His parents are completely shocked and kept asking me what my secret was. I guess I'm just a really good teacher. I feel really good now.
That's fantastic! One of the best feelings in the world, IMO. :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 06, 2014, 11:58:13 AM
I weighed the lambs via standing on a little scale while holding them, and subtracting my weight off. They are averaging around eighty, eighty-five pounds now, which is great. The beautiful ewe lamb I'm keeping on is close to ninety. I didn't catch the fat boy of the bunch, but I bet he's over ninety. The unusually stunted fellow is only fifty-seven or so. :-\ But there's only one of him. Not sure what went wrong there. I'm going to finish a few and ship them off, but I think the little guy will be with me for a good while yet.
How interesting Liam! So what do you mean specifically by finishing and shipping them off?
Our weather is shifting to fall! It is drizzling rain, but it is so nice and cool. Beats the upper 90s and 100s from yesterday!! :) ^-^
Bring on the fall fashions!!!! :laugh:
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 06, 2014, 02:31:05 PM
Finishing them means I'm going to give them a high energy diet, lots of grain, to pack on some pounds so they're in tip-top shape when they get shipped off to the butcher.
I wrote a big paragraph musing about weights and prices and markets, and went over to my friend Google to fact-check, and realized I really can't read the market summary charts. At all. :( I no longer feel qualified.
But none of it matters too much to me because I've only got 12 freezer lambs. I'm kind of shooting for 95-105 pounds but I'm really just going to feed them until I like where they're at, and then they'll go.
Once my cute little weaner piglet hit 160 lbs he got rendered into chops, steaks, smoked hams, sides of bacon and sausage! Glad we didn't name him, that would have been a big mistake. I had ten Rhode Island Red hens and eventually whacked one, the kids had named them all and refused to eat it. :D
"We don't eat friends" I think a shark said that in a movie. He also said fish are friends though.
This morning was my first trip to the beauty shop. Where I had my legs waxed a manicure and pedicure. I never realized all the wonderful feelings from from doing this!
Melissa Ann
Quote from: LordKAT on September 06, 2014, 03:10:03 PM
"We don't eat friends" I think a shark said that in a movie. He also said fish are friends though.
But really, should one trust a shark? especially if you're a fish?
I think not...
Fixed my MP3 player. Now I can fill it up with some more tunes. It needs more old school Punk/Hardcore. It needs more old school Grindcore too.
Quote from: Jaime R D on September 06, 2014, 03:26:33 PM
But really, should one trust a shark? especially if you're a fish?
I think not...
Good point, he tried that chanting thing, "Fish are friends, not food" I wonder if chanting helps.
*Chants* "Friends are fish, not food"
Nope, don't work.
Quote from: LordKAT on September 06, 2014, 03:38:54 PM
Good point, he tried that chanting thing, "Fish are friends, not food" I wonder if chanting helps.
*Chants* "Friends are fish, not food"
Nope, don't work.
Well, you know, with that many f words, its got to invariably go to "fish are food, not friends" sooner or later during the chanting.
I had fish for lunch. It was delicious.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 06, 2014, 04:29:30 PM
Yes... naming food can be dangerous :P My permanent residents all have proper names, but the lambs don't. They do all get called something for practical reasons, their number, like 52, or after their mother, like Seeley's boy, or a nickname like Goat-ears, or Tubbo. Every year there's a particularly big fat one, and I call him Tubbo.
I'm a little afraid of pigs, but raising them would pay off deliciously in the end I imagine. :icon_dribble:
The big hogs can be dangerous and will actually crush and eat a human. That's why this friend of mine and I bought six little weaner pigs, he raised them until they were about 160 lbs each, they're still manageable at that weight. He called in a fellow who slaughtered them and transported them to an independent butcher who handled the smokehouse routine and cut and wrapped everything nicely.
You can supplement their pig feed with the veggies the local Supermarket throws out and all the baked goods that the local bakery throws out. Keep them in a pen so that they don't get too much exercise and fatten up.
Quote from: LordKAT on September 06, 2014, 03:10:03 PM
"We don't eat friends" I think a shark said that in a movie. He also said fish are friends though.
My Koi Fish are pets, we don't eat pets. I should have introduced an Alligator Garfish or two into my pond because the Great Blue Heron don't seem to get the message. A Gar would make short work of one of those big birds. "CHOMP, take that stork legs!" :D
but after the huron, the koi might look pretty tasty.
I found .12 cents.
So, for Star Trek: Renegades, I've been asked to assist in the build of a major CG model, the USS Archer. I'm building the warp engines and the Bridge. Today we fit my Bridge to the Saucer and it felt good. It needed a couple of minor adjustments, but it's now good. Anyone that has read Rick Sternbach's TNG tech manual will know that in a Starship build, the mating of the Bridge module to the saucer is a milestone. it's taken 2 all-nighters to get it done.
Today I went to the library without a toddler. Hell yeah. I found a novel written in a hilarious and catchy voice, and am thoroughly enjoying it so far. It's called I, Lucifer and is about God giving the devil a chance to make it back into Heaven by living as a human on earth. >:-)
OK, I won't lie - this didn't happen today, but I figure I'll mention it anyway:
I finally came up with a "replacement" middle name! :icon_joy:
I know middle names aren't legally required, but I've always had one and it felt weird pretending like I didn't! So I kept trying to think of a name that I liked and flowed well with my (current, not sure if official) first name (Robin), and my family name (which I plan on keeping the same), Christopher.
And honestly, I was starting to think I wasn't ever going to find a name that "fit"... But then, the other day while I was searching through a list of names, I remembered the name Gale, and how much I liked the name. And so I tried it on for size.. "Robin Gale Christopher" - ahh, perfect!
I was so excited that I wanted to tell everybody about this cool new name I came up with for myself, but sadly I only had one person I could tell. :P (But then a couple days later I remembered this site, which is why I'm posting it here now! haha)
Caleb phoned me as I was driving. Between bad cell phone reception and the 3 kids in the car, not much was really heard or said. Still. It's the thought that counts. :D
Oh, And I now own handcuffs. I picked the locks in under 20 seconds on them. lol
Being at home...alive and with no pain after having my FFS =)
Quote from: Natalia on September 08, 2014, 09:01:47 AM
Being at home...alive and with no pain after having my FFS =)
Congratulations Natalie, looking forward to seeing the new look when you're ready!
I found a penny.
My disco ball arrived. I don't know if any of you knew this, but you NEED a disco ball.
Quote from: King Malachite on September 09, 2014, 07:37:43 PM
I found a penny.
I found a good video for the arachnophobic folks here. This spider has a face that looks suspiciously like that of my dog.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YoB8t0B4jx4&feature=em-share_video_in_list_user&list=PLbpi6ZahtOH7h9OULR1AVb4i8zo0ctwEr
eck!
Knowing someone can give me a lift to work, saving me a lot in bus fares.
Got a call from Target asking me to come in for an interview on Friday. Real early though but they're LGBT-friendly.
Quote from: Marcellow on September 10, 2014, 02:26:41 PM
Got a call from Target asking me to come in for an interview on Friday. Real early though but they're LGBT-friendly.
Friendly-ish. They won't outright discriminate against you, but I got a lot of flak from them a while back for having my hair too feminine. As long as you look and
act conservative, they'll put up with some things.
Quote from: Jera on September 10, 2014, 04:36:06 PM
Friendly-ish. They won't outright discriminate against you, but I got a lot of flak from them a while back for having my hair too feminine. As long as you look and act conservative, they'll put up with some things.
Was it because they were afraid of what customers might think?
Quote from: Marcellow on September 10, 2014, 05:24:12 PM
Was it because they were afraid of what customers might think?
That's the gist of what they told me at the time, even though I never had a single complaint about me, and every survey that came back had nothing less than stellar reviews about me.
So, while they're friendly enough, it's still very much about what corporate, and through them, the boss, think of you.
I do hope your interview goes well. :)
A lot of people apparently miss me at the old store, some have been telling me I should go back, lol.
Quote from: Jaime R D on September 10, 2014, 06:00:40 PM
A lot of people apparently miss me at the old store, some have been telling me I should go back, lol.
It's always nice to know that you're appreciated and well liked.
Quote from: Shantel on September 10, 2014, 06:55:35 PM
It's always nice to know that you're appreciated and well liked.
And too, I don't think they are being taken care of quickly and as efficiently as I did, plus I made sure the vendors kept certain things stocked up. One guy told me that he didn't realize that it was me that making sure his favorite energy drink was kept in stock until I left and they ran out and are telling him that they can't do anything about it. I keep it in my current store though, so he just comes and gets it from mine now... Once I know someone likes something and will buy enough of it, I do make sure the vendors bring it in if its a product authorized for sale by our corporate office. Plus too, I never gave anyone attitude and could keep things like who got what gas straight.
Quote from: Jaime R D on September 10, 2014, 07:07:43 PM
And too, I don't think they are being taken care of quickly and as efficiently as I did, plus I made sure the vendors kept certain things stocked up. One guy told me that he didn't realize that it was me that making sure his favorite energy drink was kept in stock until I left and they ran out and are telling him that they can't do anything about it. I keep it in my current store though, so he just comes and gets it from mine now... Once I know someone likes something and will buy enough of it, I do make sure the vendors bring it in if its a product authorized for sale by our corporate office. Plus too, I never gave anyone attitude and could keep things like who got what gas straight.
You're a real great gal hon, you know what customer service is all about,
I swapped 4 of my quarters for a dollar bill.
Quote from: Jaime R D on September 10, 2014, 07:07:43 PM
And too, I don't think they are being taken care of quickly and as efficiently as I did, plus I made sure the vendors kept certain things stocked up. One guy told me that he didn't realize that it was me that making sure his favorite energy drink was kept in stock until I left and they ran out and are telling him that they can't do anything about it. I keep it in my current store though, so he just comes and gets it from mine now... Once I know someone likes something and will buy enough of it, I do make sure the vendors bring it in if its a product authorized for sale by our corporate office. Plus too, I never gave anyone attitude and could keep things like who got what gas straight.
It definitely sounds like you know what's important for a job like this. :)
It's funny how nobody notices all these little things until we're gone, right?
Went for a bike ride tonight as it was quite warm for this time of the year. Just out of winter here. Almost beach weather.
Rode with a friend who I haven't seen for a while.
He's struggling big time and we had a good chat as he has started seeing a therapist for the first time.
It's related to work and family issues, never good. He knows that I have seen therapists in the past so I could openly talk to him about it which he appreciated.
He seemed relived to open up to someone which was good.
Told him if it gets too much he can always stay with me for a bit.
Always good to have an option if needed to get away from it all.
Quote from: Jenny07 on September 11, 2014, 06:46:55 AM
Went for a bike ride tonight as it was quite warm for this time of the year. Just out of winter here. Almost beach weather.
Rode with a friend who I haven't seen for a while.
He's struggling big time and we had a good chat as he has started seeing a therapist for the first time.
It's related to work and family issues, never good. He knows that I have seen therapists in the past so I could openly talk to him about it which he appreciated.
He seemed relived to open up to someone which was good.
Told him if it gets too much he can always stay with me for a bit.
Always good to have an option if needed to get away from it all.
Good girl. It is RUOK day after all
This is my favorite thread to catch up on.
I was going to say what made me happy was how the wind makes a roaring sound with the tall trees on my street, but it just occurred to me that I was really flatlining emotionally for a couple weeks, and that seems to have broken. My newly-social roommate uses my trans status to brag about how tolerant he is and as a conversation starter and I think that was bothering me. I knew this kind of thing would happen when I decided to transition, but it's still hard to get used to when it flares up. I feel better now that I'm back to being used to it.
I'm also still really happy about moving. I don't even care what the neighbors do. Knowing I can leave this place makes a big difference.
My dispute with my former employer has been resolved. I'm not allowed to talk about it, But I think they have made the workplace a little better for trans folk because of me. So, I'm happy.
Also, I think I found my trucker handle. Friends call me Kiki because my real name can often be hard to spell or pronounce. I'm driving truck. And, unintentionally, my wife says my hair Matches a certain "witch". So, it would be "Kiki's Delivery Service." I decided to get a simple red bow to wear in my hair too. :P
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffc05.deviantart.net%2Ffs9%2Fi%2F2006%2F054%2Fa%2F8%2FKiki__s_Delivery_Service_by_KikisDeliveryService.jpg&hash=59d7d00c23d20b91535dc68e9e4614b1c897d832)
I talked to my friend on the phone.
Had a lovely oil massage today. Haven't had one in such a long time. This is the first time I've been free of body hair (notably my legs) when I've had a massage and I have to say it was bliss. Utter bliss.
I'm able to go outside at night again with just the usual it is night becareful awareness caution that I always have. Not the Oh smeg its dark what am I going to do I just want to hide under the bed, fear that has plagued me the pass few weeks.
I just amazed myself. Manicure at 9 am, hair at 11.30, fly interstate have a meeting and get back. Cooking a pizza (homemade) and then bed. Oh bed you gorgeous thing ::)
Don't make your mop jealous. ;)
Things are changing and it makes me so happy.
Still scared though.
Clothes shopping might help. ???
Today is my daughters 12th birthday we went shopping for her present and then had dinner together she is my special little girl.
My biology labs are cool. The first zoology lab involved collecting bugs, we went for a walk in the woods for botany, and next tuesday we're going on a field trip to a bog for ecology.
I dyed my hair blue with some really old dye and nothing bad happened, so that's nice. I also put on some lipstick that I have had forever and never worn, and it looks pretty good on me with this hair!
Excellent applesauce. Earlier this year I sheared some sheep for a guy who happens to own an orchard, and since I refused to take cash, he paid me in applesauce. It was a good deal.
Oh!! I have applesauce. cool beans, I'd forgotten
I don't need surgery on my pinky. I was really stressing that I might.
Knowing that i'm getting Chinese food tomorrow.
Still have a smile on my face from a trip to Toronto enfemme on Thursday. I have driven in many times to see friends in the LGBT village on Church st. This is different, first time I traveled on the commuter train a 30 min. journey. I like various forms of transportation & there is a train museum at a preserved roundhouse in the heart of the city. Lots of people. I finally did this after thinking about it the last few years. I put some pics in the photography section. Here is the link. Not that I lack confidence, but pushing your boundaries makes you feel more comfatable & living in the moment being me, freedom.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,149074.0.html
Anyone can do this, just open the door & get out!
Jamie
The Sees Candy dark chocolate cherry cordial I have waiting for me when I stop procrastinating and finish the rough draft of my thesis.
I might sneak it before I finish ;) :D
I got a free ice cream today.
Going to a LGBT event in an hour or so. I'm pretty sure I will be the only "T" there, so wish me luck on representing our community.
Anyway, open bar... ;D
Good Luck, Jill F! :)
Quote from: Jill F on September 13, 2014, 04:44:42 PM
Going to a LGBT event in an hour or so. I'm pretty sure I will be the only "T" there, so wish me luck on representing our community.
Anyway, open bar... ;D
Good luck honey. Open bar huh? Oh-oh we're in trouble now! ;D
Strangely enough, I was not the only transchick at that event with maybe 200 people. There were at least two others. One approached me, tapped me on the shoulder during speeches and waved. At first I thought she was someone I must have met before, but no. Then I saw that she was with another transwoman. She was very pretty, mind you, but like me she was still built like a guy. I wanted to say "hi" afterward, but I had to be social with a bunch of other people when I noticed that they were leaving.
Anyway, it was the best time I ever had being clocked in public. Afterward we went to an awesomely fabulous gay bar for drinks with a large group. It seems that I have somewhere to stay now if I ever can manage to fly to Hawaii.
My mom is going to take me to work AND I have a Vanilla Nesquik milk drink.
I have a girlfriend!
It's my birthday, I took the day off, and I have CAKE!!!
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Quote from: ImagineKate on September 15, 2014, 07:05:32 PM
It's my birthday, I took the day off, and I have CAKE!!!
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Happy birthday honey! :icon_birthday:
Quote from: Constance on September 15, 2014, 06:56:08 PM
I have a girlfriend!
Congrats, Constance! I wish you two the best. :)
I found a penny.
Thank you! :)
And yes, that picture is me when I was 4... yes I knew back then, even.
Got asked if I wanted to join the local Trans/Gay mentorship program (kinda like big brother/sister), guess I'm not that bad of an influence on others :angel:
Yay Antonia! From what I've seen you'd make a good role model.
Hmm hopefully, well see how I do but I feel like I can relate to younger people pretty easily, probably due to my refusal to grow up despite growing older.
Quote from: ImagineKate on September 15, 2014, 08:07:09 PM
Yay Antonia! From what I've seen you'd make a good role model.
Quote from: ImagineKate on September 15, 2014, 07:37:23 PM
Thank you! :)
And yes, that picture is me when I was 4... yes I knew back then, even.
You were a darling child even back then! :)
Starting to get my head back in the game after 9 days of bad dysphoria and depression
Quote from: Emily.T on September 15, 2014, 09:38:16 PM
Starting to get my head back in the game after 9 days of bad dysphoria and depression
It's so nice when you finally get to turn on a flashlight to your life and begin crawling out of the sad cave to realize things aren't so overwhelming after all, or even if they are, that you can handle it, isn't it? Congrats on feeling better!
Quote from: spacerace on September 15, 2014, 11:10:23 PM
It's so nice when you finally get to turn on a flashlight to your life and begin crawling out of the sad cave to realize things aren't so overwhelming after all, or even if they are, that you can handle it, isn't it? Congrats on feeling better!
Thanks Spacerace I was being overwhelmed dealing with everything at once but once I separated my issues and dealt with them one at a time it was a lot easier, thanks for your kind words xx
A couple in the bar brought their cute black pug.He was so friendly everyone loved him,I love dogs with squashed faces like Frenchies,Bostons & pugs
Songs. I got really keyed up because I had to talk about some serious stuff, and in the process of trying to calm down I decided I'm tired of always being terrified of cps and I showed my kid some videos of good music that happens to contain some cuss words. She was a little startled and I tried to explain that some things that can't be quoted in most settings are still culturally important or healthy to experience. That was probably a little over her head, but still.
When she was not even old enough to talk I once got reported for being a "satanist," and the resulting investigation used an acid bath cd and a salvador dali print as evidence against my being fit to parent her. Years later I got in trouble after she told somebody she heard the word "butt" in a pixies song. For real. For a decade I've been hypercareful about every tiny scrap of media I expose her to, but now we're so thoroughly in the system and documented that I'm pretty sure most of the government is glad they don't have to deal with us more than they already do. Most of the reports now are about bruises she gets from holds at school, which fortunately leaves a paper trail and a lot of witnesses.
Nothing we listened to today was overly aggressive or sad or scary, so I think it's okay. It was Dead Milkmen, Radiohead, Negativland, Queen, Elvis Costello, Motorhead, Madness, and a bunch of AV Club covers on youtube. I can't even think of what parts might not have been completely appropriate, but just not being scared is a big deal to me. I think most of the times I got reported or investigated it was by people who just didn't like who I am or who my kid is, and I let myself get strangled by the details they jumped on when they couldn't find anything actually wrong.
Even if music was somehow damaging my child, listening to it makes me a more complete person and a better parent. I also think a person's entertainment tastes are worth passing on to offspring. I'm really happy to be starting to do that even if I'm not always as brave about it as I was today.
I got to talk to my friend this morning.
My cat has made me happy today. He is up here purring. He cares when nobody else does. The fact that I soon get to meet the family I never knew also has made me happy today.
Made a fantastic channel art banner for my new YT channel.
87 pages in this thread and I need to post as well.... I just made my first therapy appointments, yeah appointments plural, with a therapist and psychiatrist. I say this because it is part interview process, and comfort with the right individual. I know this is a journey and I want to feel secure I have the right help along the way. This is a big deal!
I have had to suppress this for so long and just to begin talking with someone about my hopes, dreams, desires, fears... I have a lot of baggage, as you can imagine.
Nevertheless, this is a good day.
Quote from: ImagineKate on September 15, 2014, 07:05:32 PM
It's my birthday, I took the day off, and I have CAKE!!!
(https://farm1.staticflickr.com/82/214402184_ba596e2e27.jpg)
I was told that little children clock you faster than anyone else and are brutally honest.
So, I showed my kids this picture, and asked, "who is that?"
They paused, one of my daughters (4 years old) looked back and forth at me, and said, "that's a girl!"
Totally made my day... They have no idea how right they are!
Quote from: Shantel on September 15, 2014, 09:10:23 PM
You were a darling child even back then! :)
Thank you Shantel! That is so sweet.
I got my referral for hrt today but the appt isn't until 30th of October it should go pretty fast if I don't think about it
Quote from: Emily.T on September 17, 2014, 07:52:38 AM
I got my referral for hrt today but the appt isn't until 30th of October it should go pretty fast if I don't think about it
Congratulations!!! I'm hoping I get mine soon.
Quote from: ImagineKate on September 17, 2014, 09:06:17 AM
Congratulations!!! I'm hoping I get mine soon.
Thanks Kate it's been a long time coming I hope you get yours soon xx
Getting a letter from my credit union along with a clear title to my car.......thank god :)
My sister came to visit.
My fiction writing professor told me I "have a mastery of language that is incredibly rare for someone at an undergrad level". I mean, I kind of think that's more a reflection on the level of academics at my university (kind of a party school) but it was still pretty rad to hear.
CONGRATS EMILY!!! That is so super amazing and exciting!!!!!! AHHH!!!! *does a dance* :icon_geekdance: awww yeah! Hope the time flies between now and your appointment!
As for me, I got a piercing today just after getting one yesterday. So worth it. It was painful, but SUPER awesome at the same time.
Quote from: muffinpants on September 17, 2014, 09:37:27 PM
CONGRATS EMILY!!! That is so super amazing and exciting!!!!!! AHHH!!!! *does a dance* :icon_geekdance: awww yeah! Hope the time flies between now and your appointment!
As for me, I got a piercing today just after getting one yesterday. So worth it. It was painful, but SUPER awesome at the same time.
Thanks muffinpants I am so happy right now I don't know how you can get 2 pearcings in 2 days I got my belly button pearced 8 weeks ago and my ears done a couple of years ago but I think that will be all for me I just hate pain lol
Satinjoy's post in the Unicorn Forest. Their capture of the trans journey for non binaries was quite profound and moving.
We had some rain here this morning in California!
Quote from: Emily.T on September 17, 2014, 07:52:38 AM
I got my referral for hrt today but the appt isn't until 30th of October it should go pretty fast if I don't think about it
Congratulations Emily! :icon_bunch: :eusa_clap:
I had a really nice dinner out with one of my transsisters. It was nice to hear that she got a WAY better job after she was fired for being trans. Nobody at her new job knows.
Saw a gender therapist today. Talked a bit a my sister's wedding coming up later in the year. He mentioned I'm fooling myself if I can easily hide what's going on with my body. A friend agrees.
It's nice to know that even if I can't always see the changes to me, they are happening and others can.
I've been weirdly motivated lately. Like my life is coming together yo. Kind of.
I am at Disneyland right now.
Finding out what my sister means by 'formal dress' for her wedding. While I can't wear what I want. "You will pry my jeans and tops out of my cold dead hands", I don't have to wear a suit and tie, I now have more freedom in the clothing department.
(Note to self stop eating so much chocolate till then)
A friend organised a bike ride this morning.
Turned into an epic disaster for him and he had to take the train home... Not good.
He brought along a friend who I had to look after. He has been trying to set me up with her for a while.
She was lost and had little idea where we were going. Took her all the way back to her car which was 2 hours out of my way which she was grateful for. Had to go through the city which was closed off due to a marathon being held today which made it harder.
Ended up with a 5 hour ride instead of 3. Oh well.
See what happens. I am sure my friend will be on the phone soon.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on September 20, 2014, 10:04:10 PM
Finding out what my sister means by 'formal dress' for her wedding. While I can't wear what I want. "You will pry my jeans and tops out of my cold dead hands", I don't have to wear a suit and tie, I now have more freedom in the clothing department.
(Note to self stop eating so much chocolate till then)
never quit chocolate, just meter it. A meter now and then is a good thing. I'm glad your sister is being a bit loose of the definition of formal.
Quote from: Ianianian on September 17, 2014, 09:24:58 PM
My fiction writing professor told me I "have a mastery of language that is incredibly rare for someone at an undergrad level". I mean, I kind of think that's more a reflection on the level of academics at my university (kind of a party school) but it was still pretty rad to hear.
That's really awesome and I wouldn't dilute it with asterisks about how good your school is if I were you. I've run into great professors at community colleges and more than one hack at universities.
What made me happy today was the rogue tomato plant in my front yard. The "yard" is actually maybe 6 feet of bark chips and shrubs between the sidewalk and the building, so it's kind of impressive to see anything unplanned sprout up. The random tomato plant made me smile.
Quote from: LordKAT on September 20, 2014, 10:30:26 PM
never quit chocolate, just meter it. A meter now and then is a good thing. I'm glad your sister is being a bit loose of the definition of formal.
Quit chocolate NEVER! Just watch the amount till the wedding, we have all been raised top shelf stuff since we where knee high. Any trip up to Queensland requires the person to visit a special chocolate shop in Sydney and bring at least two of there bags worth of assorted goods for the rest of the family up there.
When I saw formal for my sister's wedding I was totally freaking out. Technically formal has specific gendered clothing, and I had I oh no moment with the prospect of wearing a suit and tie. Yes I will be wearing a long pants and a buttoned up shirt, but they will be from the womens section and I should get wear out of them again
Tsuki ni kawatte oshioki yo!
I had my youngest daughter for the weekend we had such a fun time
I knew my earbuds had gone a little wonky, but not how bad until today when they broke properly and I replaced them - :icon_eek: :icon_headfones: It's a whole new world. Didn't know so many of my familiar songs have such beautiful bass lines. :P
Just a few minutes ago I finished trying on all the clothes I'd bought a few days ago. Most fit which was good, but just the sheer fact that I got to try on new clothes that are now mine, makes me happy, more so since they're more feminine looking too. :) The only thing that annoyed me was, still not having panty hose and also knowing I got to return the socks I bought since they're too small for me feet, AGAIN! (We're well past the 3rd try here, heck, past the 5th try here!) But, I'll shrug that off and focus on the positive here. :)
I hope to be able to devote a whole day here soon to going to town, shopping, looking around and best of all, looking at, trying on and buying clothes! ;D
EDIT: And you know what, I may give in and go to the mall if all goes well! Haven't been there in like, 2 or 3 years now. Probably won't buy anything but, I'd LOVE to look around, especially in the women's departments for the first time ever! ;D
Got a call from one of my conference organisers.
We have a private cocktail party before the conference and she has booked us both in for a make over beforehand.
I have a cute dress, new heels (now that's a story by itself :laugh:) we are going to the party by limo :laugh:
I'm going to have a ball!!!!!!!
I found out from my therapist that I will have my letter on Tuesday, and my first meeting with my endo is on Wednesday :) and my name change process starts in October. Beyond ecstatic.
Quote from: Cindy on September 22, 2014, 03:44:33 AM
Got a call from one of my conference organisers.
We have a private cocktail party before the conference and she has booked us both in for a make over beforehand.
I have a cute dress, new heels (now that's a story by itself :laugh:) we are going to the party by limo :laugh:
I'm going to have a ball!!!!!!!
So happy for you Cindy have a great day xx
@Emily T, Happy that you had some precious time with your daughter.
@Shana-chan, sure is exciting wearing new cloths. Get off to the mall now!
@EvanAiden, The Universe is unfolding as it should. I understand your feelings. Have a wonderful jouryney.
@Cindy, Congrats on being treated so well. Sounds like a Great time.
Jamie
Kind of a weird thing to be happy about, but my brother (who is extremely hairy, just like I am) saw me changing today and goes "oh my God! You have a carpet on your back, you're even hairier than I am now." I'm not fond of back hair but it comforts me somehow haha. Feels manly and whatnots.
Quote from: birkin on September 22, 2014, 03:10:39 PM
Kind of a weird thing to be happy about, but my brother (who is extremely hairy, just like I am) saw me changing today and goes "oh my God! You have a carpet on your back, you're even hairier than I am now." I'm not fond of back hair but it comforts me somehow haha. Feels manly and whatnots.
A new species, Neanderbirkin? ;D
I'm in love.
I met with one of my pastors today to talk about doing a TDoR service and she wants me to write the liturgy!
Made my first endo appointment for Friday!
Congratulations and good luck, EvanAidan.
Quote from: EvanAidan on September 23, 2014, 11:12:11 AM
Made my first endo appointment for Friday!
Congrats Evan on your first big step good luck
Quote from: Edge on September 22, 2014, 09:41:31 PM
I'm in love.
You can't just say that and drop it. Come on, dish!
Thanks for the support yall. I appreciate it.
Figured out the odd feeling I get three hours after E. *blush* Entirely different from the old odd feeling. Much more insistent.
Quote from: Dee Walker on September 23, 2014, 11:46:07 AM
You can't just say that and drop it. Come on, dish!
Heeheeheeheehee
My hometown might be finally getting its own peer support group for sexual and gender minorities. ;D
Northern lights. The sky is dancing.
A friend I really like invited me to hang out with him.
Also someone correctly gendered me.
Had blood drawn for bloodwork today and it was relatively quick and painless. I guess that's one thing to be happy about!
Cooking up a lasagna to munch on during the weekend.
YAY!
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on September 26, 2014, 05:37:20 PM
Cooking up a lasagna to munch on during the weekend.
YAY!
Be right over, we'll be happy fatties together!
:D I'm not fat. I'm pleasantly plump! :D
And don't say "fattie" around Portia. She starts to have thoughts of other things. ;)
Spending a weekend at the Ritz with an ocean view.
My teacher pointed me to a fellow transman to connect with and talk to. Turns out he used to teach at my old middle school and he's contributed a lot to the transgender community. What's funny is that my middle school global history teacher wasn't surprised at finding out that I was FTM. I guess even back when I was 12-13, there were signs that I didn't see...
So a couple years back I bought some nice new Aeropostale jeans, at size 36. Well, turns out that being pre-T I had a booty that was waaaay too big for them. I also gained weight, pushing me up to a 38 with fat redistribution. I've been hanging on to them for years thinking one day they'd fit.
I've been losing a lot of weigh with my job since I do a ton of walking. I haven't even changed my diet and I lost 25 lbs. I tried on the jeans today and THEY FIT and they look really cool. I think I could hem an inch or so off the bottoms but eh.
Having a blast at my wife's company retreat. We threw an impromptu party last night with random hotel guests from our balcony and fire pit overlooking the ocean. It's a picture perfect day as well. The only bummer was having to look at Jabba The Hut in a speedo while eating my lunch.
Last night during our party, our neighbors were not fazed at all when we told them we were married, but when we told her we've been married for 20 years, she looked very surprised. Then when I explained that I used to be a guy, it made a lot more sense to her. I guess that's a pass!
Picking my kids up for the weekend :)
I found .11 cents.
Lost my temper at some people at work. This wasn't my usual snarky, snippy, sarcastistic attitude teling off I give people. This was a full blown I don't care that I'm suppose to be nice to my customers. Right now I'm in a bad mood, I'm holding my baseball bat and you are looking at the 'Left Hand of God' herself. If you don't like my attitude there is the door.
I can't remember the last time I've done that, if ever. It was refreshing and bliss
Yesterday I went to my first "girls party" =)
It was quite fun! I was, as always, a bit too shy, but being a girl amongst other girls is just amazing!
Being with the boys as a boy was so boring and tedious...being with the girls is completely different! Laying on the sofa, Listening to music, cooking, talking about girls stuff, gossiping, laughing =) so much FUN!
Quote from: Natalia on September 28, 2014, 08:02:43 AM
Yesterday I went to my first "girls party" =)
It was quite fun! I was, as always, a bit too shy, but being a girl amongst other girls is just amazing!
Being with the boys as a boy was so boring and tedious...being with the girls is completely different! Laying on the sofa, Listening to music, cooking, talking about girls stuff, gossiping, laughing =) so much FUN!
You have found your natural element Natalia.
Quote from: Natalia on September 28, 2014, 08:02:43 AM
Yesterday I went to my first "girls party" =)
It was quite fun! I was, as always, a bit too shy, but being a girl amongst other girls is just amazing!
Being with the boys as a boy was so boring and tedious...being with the girls is completely different! Laying on the sofa, Listening to music, cooking, talking about girls stuff, gossiping, laughing =) so much FUN!
Tis what it is, great you enjoyed yourself ;D
Things have been crazy (in a good way for work) the last few days. One of our biggest clients moved his entire office/warehouse and I did all the IT stuff for him. (Moving servers, etc.) He also went with a new hosted telephone system and that was an interesting experience. After an 18 hour day yesterday and a 12 hour day today. It was a long 2 days, but very profitable. I've known the owner for 10 or so years and have done work for him off and on over the years. He and all of his employees (he has about 30 office people, 1/2 knew me before I transitioned) see me as a cis-woman now and always gender me properly since I've been full time in March. Even yesterday, working hard and with my hair in a ponytail, dressed more for dirty work than office feminine, even the movers who had never met me before addressed me as ma'am. It was a wonderful feeling for sure.
Tonight the owner tells me, "Sydney, thank you so much for your hard work. I don't know what I would have done it you hadn't been here to get us through this move." I had help coordinate everything dealing with technology, internet and advised on the VoIP phones. I also heard through the grapevine how I was praised by him and other people. It was one of those things that on the way home tonight, brought tears of joy. To be so accepted and appreciated as me kind of overwhelmed me in a good way. Today was one of those remarkable days for me
Knowing that I made a difference to people here today. I was helpful AND made people laugh.
Quote from: Jill F on September 30, 2014, 12:27:52 AM
Knowing that I made a difference to people here today. I was helpful AND made people laugh.
Always a boost to one's own self worth!
After dealing with being called Mr. and sir and having to wait 40 minutes for my ride to pick me up, I make 1 single call to the game store using my female voice and get some great answers as well as even get called Ma'am at the end.
I'm happy right now. It's a temporary happiness that probably won't last long but, I'm happy right now so, let me be happy. Not to mention I'm looking forward to my night on the town this Thursday. :eusa_dance:
The artist who created the song I did a rap cover of for my pre-T voice comparison felt honored and shared my video on his music page. I can't stop smiling, this is literally the highlight of my day. Good to know he's LGBT friendly.
A venti white chocolate mocha.......yum!!!!! Oh iced :)
Letter gotten from therapist and see the endo for T Friday at 3! :)
I tried on a long blonde wig when I was going through some Halloween stuff, and took a picture. When my mom saw the picture she said she couldn't believe it was me haha :) I discovered that I would look quite nice with blonde hair, too.
My brother put nair on my back. I feel so pure and clean lol. My back hairs were so thick and populous that you could hardly see the skin. It was gross haha.
Finding .14 cents
So I didn't say this last time thanks to a bunch of creeps that got me upset but, about a week ago a cat came up to me wanting my attention. Two other small kitties also came near me but were hesitant, still I love cats so much so that made me happy and TODAY those two same kitties came near me again, one of them more trusting now than before, I managed to use a stick to play cat & mouse and it was adorable watching it grab the stick. Plus another full grown cat came near me but kept a safe enough distance. Still, I enjoyed seeing them and playing with them. Cats, I love them so much, and they're so cuuute too. X)
*ahem* Now back to my game.
The riding lawn mower started up with out any @#$% or shenanigans. I have a third of an acre to mow, that I hadn't mowed in half a month+, so I reeeeeealy didn't want to have to spend all day pushing the push-mower around my knee killing lumpy yard.
I got confirmation of my annual bonus, an entire (two week) paycheck. It'll be in my account tomorrow. No, none of it is going towards trans related expenses. All of it is gonna be used towards the secondary expenses for our cruise next month, including the food and wine expo at Epcot! A good chance for Sweety and I to have some fun and connect a little better.
My marriage is important to me and I refuse to let TG become my entire life.
Dee, well said about you & your wife. Congrats on the bonus, sounds like you are appreciated at work! Cruises can be really romantic in a marriage. I have been on three cruises. Two to the Caribbean in 1981 & 1990. Two years ago to Alaska & a 3 day land package in Denali. Awesome! Trip of a lifetime. I believe dollar wise you get the most value cruising.
Is this your first cruise?
Have a Great vacation!
Jamie
I'm making friends at the support group I've been going to, and they're even helping me out with my cover story for my (highly unsupportive) family. I feel really good about the social outlet and being able to interact with some truly cool people.
And I've been discovering new features on my smart phone, like the music section, and being able to use it as a TV remote (we're always losing remotes around here). It's so much fun to play with and I'm so grateful that I have an aunt who is a decent support person and pays for me to have this phone.
Just everyone here..
Thank you for helping me through another night of insomnia.
:)
I have made 1 full year on E today and haven't turned into a pumpkin. Well not yet at least.
So how hard could it be?
Very.
There have been ups and downs along the way but overall I'm much happier than before and that's all that matters.
For once, I received very good news.
Woke up well rested, and just felt like singing, so I did sing and by the time I got out of the shower I was feeling happy, ironically singing:
Up on Melancholy Hill ......
I would love to do the Alaska cruise! This is our third, second to the Bahamas. We've also done the western Caribbean. Then back to Orlando to spend her birthday with the friend we're cruising with.
I did the same western Caribbean cruise twice, 1981 when I was single & 1990 because my wife wanted to do the same itinerary I did as she liked the ports of call. Good, you are seasoned cruisers now.
Jamie
Quote from: Julia (Apple-Whatever) on October 02, 2014, 07:57:19 AM
For once, I received very good news.
Do you want to share??? However, I'm happy for you either way.
Hugs,
Jen
Origin selling the Mass Effect games for less than 3 quid each!
First T shot has been done, and I'm on my way.
Quote from: EvanAidan on October 03, 2014, 07:07:27 PM
First T shot has been done, and I'm on my way.
That first injection is a real boost isn't it hun?
Congrats!
Alice
xx
I love having boobs. Sorry but I do! x
Quote from: Alice Rogers on October 03, 2014, 07:08:39 PM
That first injection is a real boost isn't it hun?
Congrats!
Alice
xx
Yes yes it is. Like even now I feel like I could run a mile and just go. I'm so full of energy now. And I know that nothing is really changed in a half hour but it really is a boost
Blackpool won a game,first one this season!
I finished my sweater. It is made from Rye, one of my ewes, who is black and fading to silver as she ages. Her fleece isn't the same color all over, which makes stripes in the finished product. It is completely handmade by me - I sheared her, washed the wool, combed it out and spun it into yarn, then designed the sweater and knitted it. I also raised Rye; she's one of my beloved twins born in 2012, I talked about them here when they were born. I raised her mother too, and her grandmother, and her great-grandmother. The sweater is going to keep me very warm this winter. It came together pretty much perfectly. What I didn't really expect is that the thing seems to be quite flattering on me; the color of it and my hair and eyes look pretty fine.
I am soooo wanting one of your sweaters :) It gets pretty cold here the winter and they sound wonderful
Thanks. They're so warm I get overheated working on them on my lap. Sweaters take so long winter would probably be over by the time I made you one, but I could make you a hat or a scarf or something if you're serious. :)
I just found out that I passed my first exam with a 96%, which takes my grade down to a 97.9%. Shucks ::) Not bad considering I didn't sleep for any ten consecutive minutes the night before that test. My dog did it by snoring and kicking me, and mostly through aggressive snuggling, so close I can't breathe, and wrapped around my arm and shoulder so that my shoulder hurt. Obviously I should have made her move, but I can never bring myself to. She's old and when she's dead I'm going to miss her for the rest of my life, so if she wants to snuggle, I'm going to let her.
I spent most of the day in a neutral-nothing feeling fog most of the day. Followed some advice from my friend Lilith, "Just focus on what makes you happy." So I stared at my avatar pic, and started smiling. The I said outloud "@#%^ you Neutral! I still smile when I look at my picture! You're not going to keep me down!" And I am not going to let self-doubt keep dragging me sideways anymore! Also made a vow to my self to commission a clothier I know to make me a dress like in my avatar pic when I've get far enough into HRT to need to wear a bra, as celebration of a milestone (sort of arbitrary, but still a mile :D ) .
My friend took me to a goth fetish club, which was actually my first clubbing experience. It was amazing. So. Much. Fun.
A dear friend that really cares about an idiot like me. I hope they know how much they have helped me.
I can walk outside at night again without being absolutely scared of every little thing, just the normal you know it's dark so be careful :D.
Mmm me with my confidence again, look out world here I come
I found the last book in Ken Follett's Century trilogy on my kitchen table and I had no idea it was out. Probably it's my granddad's copy, and maybe since it's here he's read it already and I can have it next...
Quote from: EvanAidan on October 03, 2014, 07:07:27 PM
First T shot has been done, and I'm on my way.
Congratulations!
My followup appointment at Callen-Lorde is this Wednesday. My friend is accompanying me.
My two new maidenform bras from macys showed up:) they had a great sale. Too bad $9.99 get 7 day shipping........snail mail
Just got done getting a tattoo I'd been planning on :) I had originally planed to get it done since I like to take rambling motorcycle trips, but now I'm on an even bigger journey, I woke up today and said "Now is the right time!"
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Vegvísir (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vegv%C3%ADsir)
I'll post a pic a bit later of it when I take the bandage cover off (they recommended I leave it covered for an hour/hour and a half to keep dust+stuff off it while it's still fresh)
:)
Awesome, ElDudette!
At the anime convention a few months ago, I (dressed as Loki) hugged a shy girl who I later added to facebook. Today, she described her disappointment in a (now former) friend who was disrespectful to trans people. While it would normally bother me that people like her former friend are around, what she said in support of us really made my day.
Quote from: Edge on October 06, 2014, 05:30:49 PM
Awesome, ElDudette!
At the anime convention a few months ago, I (dressed as Loki) hugged a shy girl who I later added to facebook. Today, she described her disappointment in a (now former) friend who was disrespectful to trans people. While it would normally bother me that people like her former friend are around, what she said in support of us really made my day.
Awesome. I always cheer when one of my friends drops ties with bigots and 'phobic #$@holes.
^that spot looks like it might have hurt a little. What s
Does it stand for or mean?
"The symbol is attested in the Huld Manuscript, collected in Iceland by Geir Vigfusson in 1860 (but consisting of material of earlier origin).[1]
A leaf of the manuscript[2] provides an image of the vegvísir, gives its name, and, in prose, declares that "if this sign is carried, one will never lose one's way in storms or bad weather, even when the way is not known".[3]"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vegv%C3%ADsir (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vegv%C3%ADsir)
Thank you.......very interesting!!
Quote from: immortal gypsy on October 06, 2014, 04:33:42 AM
I can walk outside at night again without being absolutely scared of every little thing, just the normal you know it's dark so be careful :D.
Mmm me with my confidence again, look out world here I come
Yay!!! Take that boogey man!
Quote from: LordKAT on October 06, 2014, 11:57:23 PM
Yay!!! Take that boogey man!
Did someone say Boogie Man? :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ks7f-UZNeug
Quote from: ElDudette on October 06, 2014, 11:17:21 PM
"The symbol is attested in the Huld Manuscript, collected in Iceland by Geir Vigfusson in 1860 (but consisting of material of earlier origin).[1]
A leaf of the manuscript[2] provides an image of the vegvísir, gives its name, and, in prose, declares that "if this sign is carried, one will never lose one's way in storms or bad weather, even when the way is not known".[3]"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vegv%C3%ADsir (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vegv%C3%ADsir)
It literally translates to "if found please return to Ingvi." :laugh:
Quote from: Dee Walker on October 07, 2014, 08:04:58 AM
It literally translates to "if found please return to Ingvi." :laugh:
ROFLMAO
LOL, don't worry i can confirm that what is says is:
Beri maður stafi þessa á sér villist maður ekki í hríðum né vondu veðri þó ókunnugur sé
http://image.landsbokasafn.is/source/IB_383_4to/IB_383_4to,_0026v_-_55-hq.pdf
Which translated would mean:
He who bears these letters on his person will not get lost in snowstorms or bad weather even if one does not know the land.
Quote from: ElDudette on October 07, 2014, 08:14:56 AM
ROFLMAO
One more day, I'm freaking out...
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Quote from: antonia on October 07, 2014, 08:57:31 AM
LOL, don't worry i can confirm that what is says is:
Beri maður stafi þessa á sér villist maður ekki í hríðum né vondu veðri þó ókunnugur sé
http://image.landsbokasafn.is/source/IB_383_4to/IB_383_4to,_0026v_-_55-hq.pdf
Which translated would mean:
He who bears these letters on his person will not get lost in snowstorms or bad weather even if one does not know the land.
Danke. I was pretty sure about it, but you always hear that story about someone getting "luck" or "love" done in Chineese or something else and having it turn out later that it says "Soup" :D :D
Quote from: ElDudette on October 07, 2014, 12:45:33 PM
Danke. I was pretty sure about it, but you always hear that story about someone getting "luck" or "love" done in Chineese or something else and having it turn out later that it says "Soup" :D :D
I've seen that happen with a Japanese martial arts aficionado. He thought he was getting something like "Dragon Warrior", but it really said "Dumb Gai-jin".
What made me happy today?
I get leftover Lebanese food for lunch because we weren't complete pigs last night.
Quote from: Jill F on October 07, 2014, 02:54:35 PM
I've seen that happen with a Japanese martial arts aficionado. He thought he was getting something like "Dragon Warrior", but it really said "Dumb Gai-jin".
What made me happy today?
I get leftover Lebanese food for lunch because we weren't complete pigs last night.
And that is why it takes me about 1-3years to pick out a tattoo :D
What made me happy today? 1st therapy appointment went well, scheduled one for next week :) And looking forward to seeing my friend Lil' at group tonight to tell her how it went :)
I haven't been able to write in a rather long time now. But today, I finally have a story I want to tell. :)
A reply to a heavily heated text from my brother that I sent to my sister in law (his wife), last night. While she is still trying to claim some moral high ground he is now actually thinking about what happened and that it does take two people to argue.
Looks like he still remembers how my mind works.
Quote from: Marcellow on October 07, 2014, 11:14:44 AM
One more day, I'm freaking out...
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Breath relax and just think. What would Cthulhu do?
I found a nickel.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on October 07, 2014, 09:56:42 PM
Breath relax and just think. What would Cthulhu do?
Deplete all our sanity and cause us to quiver in a corner incoherently rambling...
Quote from: ElDudette on October 07, 2014, 11:20:23 PM
Deplete all our sanity and cause us to quiver in a corner incoherently rambling...
Sounds like a normal day for me :P
Yippee Skippie the stars have aligned and R'lyeh has risen. A Great Old One walks the earth once again.
Seriously Marcellow good luck tomorrow, just try to relax you'll be fine.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on October 07, 2014, 09:56:42 PM
Breath relax and just think. What would Cthulhu do?
He would have a calm and collected face...?
Quote from: immortal gypsy on October 08, 2014, 12:03:59 AM
Seriously Marcellow good luck tomorrow, just try to relax you'll be fine.
I'm fine now. That T shot didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. O__O
I skipped through the streets all the way home right after...
I want to hug everyone and tell them I love them.
After being attacked by management yesterday for something they didn't do I vented and calmed down.
Today I could see some of the others were still visibly shaken by the ordeal as they did not deal with the experience as well as I did as I went on the offensive.
I took two of them aside and we had a good chat as they opened up about it. I then told them what happened to me and it put a smile on their face. I was glad I could make them feel a bit better than before and know someone stood up to them.
Interestingly everyone but myself received a HR assistance card to call. Says something about my response to management. Perhaps my manager got the card because he looked shaken as I made him look foolish while trying to attack me.
Lesson 1, never attack me without proper facts unless you want to be destroyed. :)
I also had two people in the team today ask to work with me. Management says I am not a people person. Perhaps they should ask.
My team likes me, my client loves me and the job I do for them, the overseas team loves me for the job I did training them. Oh everyone likes me but management. I think it's pretty obvious that the problem is with management.
Time for a new job. :(
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 09, 2014, 06:43:27 AM
My team likes me, my client loves me and the job I do for them, the overseas team loves me for the job I did training them. Oh everyone likes me but management. I think it's pretty obvious that the problem is with management.
Time for a new job. :(
Sounds all too familiar! Your tactics make me wonder if you read the book "Verbal Judo," it is an excellent read about how to refocus the force of someone's verbal attack back against them to defeat them at their own game.
I found a penny.
Ok this was last night but I was wayyyyyy to tired when I got home to think straight.
"Finding" $300 at work because some dolt (raises hand sheepishly). Wrote a 4 instead of a 1 on their balance sheet. Took me well over half an hour of counting the safe, looking at security cameras, checking my sheet and the bosses from earlier this morning, plus the previous days sheet. All because I can't WRITE DOWN the right amount I've put back in the safe.
I have a three day break starting from next Wednesday. It can not come soon enough
Biking into work this morning, helmet on, sunglasses and riding a "Cannondale Bad Boy", got signalled to stop by a construction worker while a truck was manoeuvring, he then said "I'm sorry lady but he's going to be backing up in a second", I just smiled :)
Quote from: antonia on October 10, 2014, 07:31:52 PM
Biking into work this morning, helmet on, sunglasses and riding a "Cannondale Bad Boy", got signalled to stop by a construction worker while a truck was manoeuvring, he then said "I'm sorry lady but he's going to be backing up in a second", I just smiled :)
Perfectly understandable!
German deli in Glendale had the killer bratwursts that I like. Oktoberfest is so on!
North Carolina approving same-sex marriages.....I'm nearly brought to tears.
And I found 4 pennies today
I had one of those 'everything is just off' days and then tonight I went to my supportgroup. :D instant relaxation and relief when I arrived there, I could just feel the stress melt of me. And then at the end of the night only a couple of us were around anymore and one of the leaders (the transman) came and hugged for a very long time. I didn't realise how much that was welcome :) I'm so much lighter and happier now :D
Went shopping today. Bought a couple tops and some panties. Now which one should I wear to therapy next week is what I have to decide. (The tops that is)
Also met some old friends, a couple of retired marines, ooh rah!
I came out to my son. He listened, asked a couple of questions and left to have a drink with his friends. When he returned home he came into my room and gave me a long hug. Just perfect. Now that my son and my daughter both know, my wife is so much more relaxed and comfortable. The Universe has smiled on me and I am indeed very grateful :)
Aisla
Aisla, that is precious. You are blessed with a wonderfully caring, family. Reflects on excellent parenting all round. Sounds like a Happy life for you.
Everyone here has heartwarming, confidence building stories.
Jamie
Almost forgot. Paid $2.899 a gallon for gas today! Filled up the minivan with 17 gallons, came up to around $52. Woot?
Aisla that was so beautiful. You must be so happy.
Congratulations, I love the younger generation, they are so open about this. (Then again you raised them well :))
Quote from: Aisla on October 10, 2014, 10:31:09 PM
I came out to my son. He listened, asked a couple of questions and left to have a drink with his friends. When he returned home he came into my room and gave me a long hug. Just perfect. Now that my son and my daughter both know, my wife is so much more relaxed and comfortable. The Universe has smiled on me and I am indeed very grateful :)
Aisla
1: Completely hair free legs and chest.
2: make up went on perfect! First time ever. Both sides the same. Including winged eyeliner! Whoop!
3: cheap wig doing what it's told. For once.
4: coffee.
5: big shoes
:-)
I found three pennies yesterday. Finding the pennies themselves didn't really make me happy, but it made me think of how Malachite is always finding change, and that made me smile. I'd give them to him if I could.
Quote from: Aisla on October 10, 2014, 10:31:09 PM
I came out to my son. He listened, asked a couple of questions and left to have a drink with his friends. When he returned home he came into my room and gave me a long hug. Just perfect. Now that my son and my daughter both know, my wife is so much more relaxed and comfortable. The Universe has smiled on me and I am indeed very grateful :)
Aisla
Kudos :eusa_clap: :icon_bunch:
I can workout better at the gym. O__O
Quote from: Marcellow on October 11, 2014, 01:55:39 PM
I can workout better at the gym. O__O
Hehe~ Yep, T increases your muscle mass. :)
A pork sandwich, shared with my little fur babies
my Brother in law gave me a black trench coat. Now I can be stopped by police at every school I go to if I wear it, or look like an extra from the Matrix. :-\
Still, I like it.
This was yesterday, but...
I mentioned to Sweety that with the stressful end of the week we had I had been really tempted to shave my legs and chest again but hadn't as I'll be in shorts and bathing suits next week (presenting male for her these days). She told me SHE WOULDN'T MIND IF I SHAVED! Maybe she's coming around.
Quote from: Dee Walker on October 12, 2014, 08:49:28 AM
This was yesterday, but...
I mentioned to Sweety that with the stressful end of the week we had I had been really tempted to shave my legs and chest again but hadn't as I'll be in shorts and bathing suits next week (presenting male for her these days). She told me SHE WOULDN'T MIND IF I SHAVED! Maybe she's coming around.
Your Sweety definitely sounds like a real keeper! I had always apologized to my sweety about having no chest hair pre-transition when we'd see some couple in bed in a movie scene where the woman is running her hand through the rug on some hairy chested man, it turned out that she detested hairy men and finally said as much, back then I was afraid I wasn't manly looking enough. Now?...... pfffft!
Quote from: Rainbow Brite on October 12, 2014, 05:52:24 AM
my Brother in law gave me a black trench coat. Now I can be stopped by police at every school I go to if I wear it, or look like an extra from the Matrix. :-\
Still, I like it.
Cool! I suppose that as long as you have pants showing below the hem of the coat you will be fine. ;D
Happened yesterday, but I feel asleep in the middle of writing it last night XD
Tail end of my week of holiday, and I went out shopping with my Lil'Sis.... 1st excursion for actual clothes rather than picking through a thrift store! And ooooh did it make me feel good... well after I was done sweating bullets at OldNavy (I'm still presenting as male in public, so my Lil'sis was helping me not draw any extra attention that would make my social anxiety go haywire, because it was Goram busy!) I picked up 2 mini dress type numbers and a button up shirt w/ sleeves that can be rolled up & buttoned in place. Oddly though when we went to get me some bras (I think my litter sister was about to pee herself in delight when I asked if we could go pick out my first bra :) ) and such, I was magnitudes less nervous.. Go figure :D The lady that helped us was super cool and nice, which pretty much guaranteed that I'll be going back in the future! (my Lil'sis said the lady told her "Tell him not to worry, there's several guys that come in here so it's nothing really.")
Quote from: Pikachu on October 11, 2014, 02:14:30 PM
Hehe~ Yep, T increases your muscle mass. :)
Haven't exercised all that much but I should get in the habit of it starting this week.
I earned a dollar and saw my niece and nephews.
After having a really really bad fight with my fiancé, we were able to apologize to each other and make up. Such a nice feeling c:
Bratwurst with mustard and Spaten Oktoberfest beer. Yummers!!!
Delivered client reports today earliest ever. Normally I have to work back very late to get them all done, 12am. Today it was before 6pm.
Sent an email to the team thanking those involved as it all went well.
Big storm in Sydney tonight. lots of great lightning and heavy rain. Love the smell. :)
A friend cheered me up, that and, soon I'll be feasting on the remnants of my Taco Bell while watching a movie. >:-)
Today I came out to my 84 year old father. I had been hedging and finding it difficult to get to the point and he was getting quite agitated. When I finally told him that I was trans, he said 'thank goodness, that you only need to take hrt to be ok, I thought that you were going to say that you had cancer!" While I probably gave him too much detail, dad seemed good. He called me a few minutes ago and thanked me for sharing this with him. He said that he felt honoured. I feel likewise.
Aisla
Quote from: Aisla on October 14, 2014, 03:09:07 AM
Today I came out to my 84 year old father. I had been hedging and finding it difficult to get to the point and he was getting quite agitated. When I finally told him that I was trans, he said 'thank goodness, that you only need to take hrt to be ok, I thought that you were going to say that you had cancer!" While I probably gave him too much detail, dad seemed good. He called me a few minutes ago and thanked me for sharing this with him. He said that he felt honoured. I feel likewise.
Aisla
Awww, that's great to hear that it went so well. :)
Quote from: Aisla on October 14, 2014, 03:09:07 AM
Today I came out to my 84 year old father. I had been hedging and finding it difficult to get to the point and he was getting quite agitated. When I finally told him that I was trans, he said 'thank goodness, that you only need to take hrt to be ok, I thought that you were going to say that you had cancer!" While I probably gave him too much detail, dad seemed good. He called me a few minutes ago and thanked me for sharing this with him. He said that he felt honoured. I feel likewise.
Aisla
Wonderful Aisla, such a major milestone!
Did my injection today!! That always makes me happy :)
I got my endo to prescribe me a year's supply of E and P, and I don't need to ever see him again. Apparently once you've eliminated T from the equation, it's a lowered maintenance dose forever. My endo is out of my health care network and doesn't take insurance, and since I'm post-orchi, all I need to do is find an in-network gynecologist. This is going to save me a boatload of money next year!
I'm sprung! No more therapy, no more psych, no more endo, no more doctors until next year.
Pizza party chez Jill tomorrow!!! (I make killer pizzas when I'm happy. ;D )
Quote from: Jill F on October 14, 2014, 05:01:58 PM
I got my endo to prescribe me a year's supply of E and P, and I don't need to ever see him again. Apparently once you've eliminated T from the equation, it's a lowered maintenance dose forever. My endo is out of my health care network and doesn't take insurance, and since I'm post-orchi, all I need to do is find an in-network gynecologist. This is going to save me a boatload of money next year!
I'm sprung! No more therapy, no more psych, no more endo, no more doctors until next year.
Pizza party chez Jill tomorrow!!! (I make killer pizzas when I'm happy. ;D )
If you make a pepperoni one, I am so there. :)
That's pretty great news, hon. *huggles*
Quote from: Sephirah on October 14, 2014, 05:04:27 PM
If you make a pepperoni one, I am so there. :)
That's pretty grear news, hon. *huggles*
Count me in too!
I am so making one of them straight up pepperoni! I'm making 4 wheat crusts in a few minutes, unfortunately they take a day to rise...
I used to work as a pizza/Italian cook at a couple of places in college and can still toss dough like a pro. I have 3 screens and 2 pizza stones and I'm not afraid to use them!
Who wants pie? >:-)
Quote from: Jill F on October 14, 2014, 05:25:39 PM
Who wants pie? >:-)
I do, but not enough to buy a transcontinental airline ticket. Someone eat a slice for me.
One more day of no jury duty. Hopefully I get passed over the next two days as well.
So not looking forward to having to out myself if I get sucked in.
Wow, when it rains, it pours.
Got 4th row and VIP backstage passes (read: open bar) for The Who next September.
Sometimes I feel like I am the luckiest unlucky girl in the world.
Quote from: Jill F on October 14, 2014, 08:24:19 PM
Wow, when it rains, it pours.
Got 4th row and VIP backstage passes (read: open bar) for The Who next September.
Sometimes I feel like I am the luckiest unlucky girl in the world.
You seem a rather lucky person in several ways imo
Finally came out to my mom. And she tells me that it don't matter and she couldn't change it if she wanted to and I am who I am and she loves me regardless. :) such a major mind ease!
Awesome, Evan :D Congratulations!
Quote from: EvanAidan on October 14, 2014, 09:24:16 PM
Finally came out to my mom. And she tells me that it don't matter and she couldn't change it if she wanted to and I am who I am and she loves me regardless. :) such a major mind ease!
Great! Too bad more people don't have a fabulous mom like her, keep her close, she's a total sweetheart with a logical brain in her loving head!
Quote from: Shantel on October 15, 2014, 10:45:18 AM
Great! Too bad more people don't have a fabulous mom like her, keep her close, she's a total sweetheart with a logical brain in her loving head!
I'm trying to. She has always been there for me. Somehow it feels like she's saying this to avoid the fight because she knows it won't change my mind, I know she won't call my by chosen name, but she will continue to use my birth name, and by feminine pronouns, but at least she isn't trying to fight me on anything. So it's a plus to everything!
Quote from: EvanAidan on October 15, 2014, 10:48:19 AM
I'm trying to. She has always been there for me. Somehow it feels like she's saying this to avoid the fight because she knows it won't change my mind, I know she won't call my by chosen name, but she will continue to use my birth name, and by feminine pronouns, but at least she isn't trying to fight me on anything. So it's a plus to everything!
Yup we take what we can get! Parents can't help their resistance to such change, but it is remarkable when they have the sense to realize that you are your own person and they aren't in control of your life anymore.
Congrats!!!evanaidan
Quote from: Shantel on October 12, 2014, 09:03:41 AM
Cool! I suppose that as long as you have pants showing below the hem of the coat you will be fine. ;D
Actually I was planning on wearing a skirt with it :P
Quote from: EvanAidan on October 14, 2014, 09:24:16 PM
Finally came out to my mom. And she tells me that it don't matter and she couldn't change it if she wanted to and I am who I am and she loves me regardless. :) such a major mind ease!
That's amazing! Congratulations.
I went to see a therapist this morning, he's not a gender therapist but he did ask what my friends called me and I said Marcel. He said "Well I'll see you next time, Marcel" and shook my hand. It's not much but that's better than what my parents or family have done. I think I'll get myself together with his help...
Congrats Evan and Marcel.
Seeing my boyfriend smile makes me happy.
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My new pair of sunglasses. It's actually nice to go outside during the day and see, without having to hide in the shade
Out in daylight?! How was it?
Strange! Exciting, slightly liberating. So many people about. Who are they and where did they all come from?
Finally got my iPhone 6+ today! It's huge but I like it. Just need a case now. What would you recommend?
Btw it came with a trial of beats music, and in the signup page under "gender" it asked "I identify as" which I thought was cool! So I put female of course. It had male, female and other. I think I'm going to start doing that for stuff that doesn't need a credit card.
Quote from: immortal gypsy on October 15, 2014, 10:55:58 PM
Strange! Exciting, slightly liberating. So many people about. Who are they and where did they all come from?
Cool!
I think that is part of my problem with daylight, too many people.
Quote from: ImagineKate on October 15, 2014, 11:24:17 PM
Finally got my iPhone 6+ today! It's huge but I like it. Just need a case now. What would you recommend?
Btw it came with a trial of beats music, and in the signup page under "gender" it asked "I identify as" which I thought was cool! So I put female of course. It had male, female and other. I think I'm going to start doing that for stuff that doesn't need a credit card.
Nice! And how'd you get the free beats music trial??? I have been enjoying my 6+ since launch day! Love it! Yes, its sorta big, but yesterday I used my friends iphone 6 and I definitely think I made the right choice going with the plus model. Not sure what types of cases you prefer, but I got a Spigen SGP10886 case from amazon...Its a flexible thin-ish TPU style case...doesn't add too much bulk to the phone which is what I try to avoid when I buy cases.
Anyways, I'm super happy today because I just found out there will be at least one FEHB health insurance plan offered to federal employees that will no longer have the transgender exclusion!!
Quote from: Kaley on October 16, 2014, 12:09:47 AM
Nice! And how'd you get the free beats music trial??? I have been enjoying my 6+ since launch day! Love it! Yes, its sorta big, but yesterday I used my friends iphone 6 and I definitely think I made the right choice going with the plus model. Not sure what types of cases you prefer, but I got a Spigen SGP10886 case from amazon...Its a flexible thin-ish TPU style case...doesn't add too much bulk to the phone which is what I try to avoid when I buy cases.
Just open the app and sign up. They give you a 14 day trial.
I wanted to get a spigen as well but I also like pelican. I have pelican cases as my luggage, camera and equipment cases when traveling.
I've got several things that have made me happy this week to the point where my cheeks ache from smiling all the time.
I've been offered a flat that i'm viewing tomorrow so I may be in my very own home in 2 weeks if all goes well, yay!
The LGBT group for homeless people is gaining momentum, last night me & one of the women who helped set it up attended Bristols LGBT AGM & I got to meet lots of lovely people. I'm now several steps closer to getting an all inclusive trans group set up (inspired by this very forum).
I've had a chat today with one of the managers of the charity that runs the hostel I lived in last year & i'm meeting him next week to discuss me helping the charity to run a kitchen at one of their new sites, I told him that we need to tackle the problem of LGBT people facing harrasment from other homeless people when they're in the day centers.
I told him i'd be happy to work in the lions den so that haters will have no choice but to get over their petty hatred & i've got a very tough hide so can take whatever comes my way, he said they'll sort out any training I need & support me 100%
Those 3 things are just the tip of my happy iceberg, I kid you not when I say that if my smile gets any wider the top of my head will fall off :)
Got hit on in the grocery store by a cute guy on my way back from work, we chatted about healthy eating, then I told him I have a girlfriend and he got a bit awkward :)
Quote from: antonia on October 16, 2014, 05:38:14 PM
Got hit on in the grocery store by a cute guy on my way back from work, we chatted about healthy eating, then I told him I have a girlfriend and he got a bit awkward :)
Heheh great pass, I love making it awkward for people! >:-)
Lost 2 pounds this week! Well on track to hit my goal very soon, preferably I'll be down to a good weight before I start HRT.
I don't know what made me do this but I put on some music, took my youngest daughter by the hand and danced with her. She smiled and enjoyed it. This is the same one who called me beautiful the other day. She is such an intelligent young lady, just like I was when I was her age.
I guess I'm a bit happier that some of the weight is lifted off my shoulder and I have a path forward now that will allow me to be me, and I can be out in the open at home and not literally in the closet.
Quote from: ImagineKate on October 16, 2014, 06:57:45 PM
Lost 2 pounds this week! Well on track to hit my goal very soon, preferably I'll be down to a good weight before I start HRT.
I don't know what made me do this but I put on some music, took my youngest daughter by the hand and danced with her. She smiled and enjoyed it. This is the same one who called me beautiful the other day. She is such an intelligent young lady, just like I was when I was her age.
I guess I'm a bit happier that some of the weight is lifted off my shoulder and I have a path forward now that will allow me to be me, and I can be out in the open at home and not literally in the closet.
So cool hon, congrats!
As long as you keep on making the world a more fun place I'm happy :)
Quote from: Shantel on October 16, 2014, 05:42:58 PM
Heheh great pass, I love making it awkward for people! >:-)
Quote from: antonia on October 16, 2014, 07:25:55 PM
As long as you keep on making the world a more fun place I'm happy :)
Well we're all working on it sweetie even though some of the people think we are a joke, I think persistence will prevail and eventually it will be more fun and lass anxiety.
I'll quote something I shared with a friend the other day:
"I think my big takeaway is that I wish the world knew our community as I've come to know it. There would be no more intolerance, discrimination, fear or hatred. So much talent, kindness, strength of character, bravery, selflessness and persistence. Despite of the adversity many have faced there is enough humility, acceptance and love of life to smile at the world and keep on giving and living."
Quote from: Shantel on October 16, 2014, 07:28:53 PM
Well we're all working on it sweetie even though some of the people think we are a joke, I think persistence will prevail and eventually it will be more fun and lass anxiety.
Quote from: antonia on October 16, 2014, 07:32:57 PM
I'll quote something I shared with a friend the other day:
"I think my big takeaway is that I wish the world knew our community as I've come to know it. There would be no more intolerance, discrimination, fear or hatred. So much talent, kindness, strength of character, bravery, selflessness and persistence. Despite of the adversity many have faced there is enough humility, acceptance and love of life to smile at the world and keep on giving and living."
We have this knowledge about our brethren and sisters, and it will take some time to sink in. In my former life I was homophobic and have long since come to realize how wrong that was, and see things in an entirely different light now. It takes time and patience to overcome these learned attitudes. Time for them and long suffering patience on our part.
Today I finally told the last of my friends that I'm a beautiful woman and have not lost one friend threw the whole coming out even at work
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A few things made me happy today:
1) Took my new glasses out for a spin and didn't get a headache. (the rose tint is never the same and can take me a couple of days to get use to)
2) Was able to ride the train without having to worry about what side the sun was coming in as I now have proper sunglasses (outside willingly two days in a row? This may become habit forming)
3) Finally bought myself a purse
4) Apart from getting a sorry mate (such an Australian expression, so I'm not sure) I was gendered correctly when titles where involved, as normal ol' me (ie jeans, ladies top, converse, hair washed then brushed)
Now if I can only work out the bathroom anxiety everything will be looking rose coloured
I got chatted up by the guy who came to repair my dishwasher.
Quote from: Cindy on October 17, 2014, 03:20:55 AM
I got chatted up by the guy who came to repair my dishwasher.
Cool, I think I know that guy! Was his name Smith the Smooth Mover?
Its 10am, the sun is shining. The day is full of promise, construction crews and the smell of tar fills the air. Thats right, they are doing the road outside my house finally. Nothing like driving on brand new tarmac. But, as I lay here, filled with a desire to drive on that new road, my heart tells me to just stay in bed.
my heart wins out. I dont have anywhere to be. So I am going back to sleep.
Today I met Christopher for the first time, we had lunch at a local Mexican restaurant and a really interesting conversation and later went out and tromped around in the boondocks trying to spot a large herd of Elk, over 100 head that winters close by in the lowlands of the Cascade foothills. It was a bit drizzly and they were nowhere to be seen but there was plenty of sign. Before we left there were friendly hugs, I'm pretty impressed with Chris, he's a great guy and I count him as a friend.
Liver and onions with mashed taters, lots of gravy.
Quote from: Jaime R D on October 17, 2014, 06:40:50 PM
Liver and onions with mashed taters, lots of gravy.
That's more like it, be right over set another place hon!
I love liver and onions, and have I mentioned that my mashed potatoes and gravy won a blue ribbon at the fair? Well, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit there......
I didn't cook it, a neighbor and I went up to a little café that some people I know own and had dinner. Hard to find any place with liver and onions anymore and one nice thing is they fix two slabs of it, so definitely full.
Quote from: Jaime R D on October 17, 2014, 06:52:04 PM
I didn't cook it, a neighbor and I went up to a little café that some people I know own and had dinner. Hard to find any place with liver and onions anymore and one nice thing is they fix two slabs of it, so definitely full.
Good for your red blood cell count!
Quote from: Shantel on October 17, 2014, 06:28:18 PM
Today I met Christopher for the first time, we had lunch at a local Mexican restaurant and a really interesting conversation and later went out and tromped around in the boondocks trying to spot a large herd of Elk, over 100 head that winters close by in the lowlands of the Cascade foothills. It was a bit drizzly and they were nowhere to be seen but there was plenty of sign. Before we left there were friendly hugs, I'm pretty impressed with Chris, he's a great guy and I count him as a friend.
that was pretty dang nice. Although I see the elk all the time, so I'm a bit annoyed they were hiding from you. :)
I found 6 cents.
Today at one of my clients. I was praised by the owner of the company in front of the office staff for my work and ability of making it a smooth move when the company relocated to a new facility. (I did all of the networking/server portion of the move.)
No wonder my purse weighed a ton. I had at least 20 bottles of nail polish in the bottom. Now it's so much lighter, so I'm happy.
I know how that goes. I narrowed down what makeup that was in my purse the other day for the same reason.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on October 18, 2014, 08:40:40 AM
No wonder my purse weighed a ton. I had at least 20 bottles of nail polish in the bottom. Now it's so much lighter, so I'm happy.
Quote from: christopher on October 17, 2014, 08:13:52 PM
that was pretty dang nice. Although I see the elk all the time, so I'm a bit annoyed they were hiding from you. :)
They may have had some Elk intuition that I am a former recovered Elk hunter and they probably didn't want to take any chances that I'd regress. ;D
I now have the money to equip my truck and do hair removal and pay on the house for some time. I should be bouncing off the walls in joy but, I 'm just not feeling it.
My first ballot to vote under my legal name came today. However, the Auditor's office must be a sleep at the wheel because they also sent one out for my previous name. I guess I have to make a call and make them aware of it on Monday.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljw0svd-pVg (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljw0svd-pVg)
Unbelievably happy because I don't have to hide anymore at home. I hope she sees the smiles and realizes how much this is doing for me.
Grandmothers 9oth birthday today, sad to see everyone getting so old but she's still in really good health. It was great seeing my fathers side of the family.
We go two fur babies today :)
(https://farm4.staticflickr.com/3951/14948669914_f1b9a5fc4a_o.jpg)
We had lost ours to old age a year and a half ago and we needed time. Their name (from left to right) is Isabella and Samantha. They are sisters.
^very cute!
I finally changed my Facebook profile picture from a very femme picture of me from nearly a year ago to one that is recent that reflects who I really am. Woot.
Met up with a friend and went clothes and make-up shopping, then got lunch followed by getting our nails done(my first time) and I also for the first time got my eyebrows tinted and waxed. We then and went and saw Tammy. Was a good day, not bad for arriving home the night before and only getting about 3 hours sleep in about 48 or so hours.
I dissected a fish in zoo lab. It was so much fun and I am ridiculously happy. I have no idea why I'm so happy about dissecting a fish, but I am.
Also, I joked around with my prof a bit which was fun. He probably thinks I'm dumb, but oh well.
Been a while but, this. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,175605.msg1546243.html#msg1546243
Quote from: Edge on October 20, 2014, 01:13:28 PM
I dissected a fish in zoo lab. It was so much fun and I am ridiculously happy. I have no idea why I'm so happy about dissecting a fish, but I am.
Also, I joked around with my prof a bit which was fun. He probably thinks I'm dumb, but oh well.
As long as it wasn't still alive and also as long as you don't turn into a real life version of your avatar then, have fun. :laugh:
Madea. She's so funny.
Sprung from jury duty! I didn't get the defendants name, but he looked EXACTLY like someone that's famous for doing a lot of drugs. They filled the jury before I even got there at 10:30. What a complete waste of time.
Quote from: Jill F on October 20, 2014, 02:53:57 PM
Sprung from jury duty! I didn't get the defendants name, but he looked EXACTLY like someone that's famous for doing a lot of drugs. They filled the jury before I even got there at 10:30. What a complete waste of time.
The one time I went to jury duty, I was excused in just a few minutes. Live in a conservative area and I was presenting sort of in the middle way back then and the prosecution asked that I be excused right off. Before that, my neighbor would always tell them I couldn't make it since he was high up in the sherriff's department. They haven't bothered me since I changed my name in 06.
And I'm happy because I got my neighbor's mower fixed when he and his son-in-law couldn't figure it out after replacing a bunch of parts, all it really took was replacing the fuel line that collapsed inside itself in a bend. Then I mowed my yard with it to make sure it was ok, lol.
Quote from: Shana-chan on October 20, 2014, 02:42:43 PM
Been a while but, this. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,175605.msg1546243.html#msg1546243
As long as it wasn't still alive and also as long as you don't turn into a real life version of your avatar then, have fun. :laugh:
The fish was dead.
I lack the cool powers, the job description, and screw, but I have the attitude and the crazy. >:-)
Quote from: Jaime R D on October 20, 2014, 03:12:32 PM
The one time I went to jury duty, I was excused in just a few minutes. Live in a conservative area and I was presenting sort of in the middle way back then and the prosecution asked that I be excused right off. Before that, my neighbor would always tell them I couldn't make it since he was high up in the sherriff's department. They haven't bothered me since I changed my name in 06.
And I'm happy because I got my neighbor's mower fixed when he and his son-in-law couldn't figure it out after replacing a bunch of parts, all it really took was replacing the fuel line that collapsed inside itself in a bend. Then I mowed my yard with it to make sure it was ok, lol.
When selecting a jury from the pool they always ask me if I think the police always tell the truth, I always say of course not, they are in league with the prosecution, do I look stupid? BREEEEEEEEEP You're outa here, sorry we can't use you! Thanks, I'm not anyone's use anyway!
I posted on facebook about how much I miss doing gaming nights. Was promptly invited over to a neighbor/close friend's house to play Cards Against Humanity, which I've never played and can't wait to play.
An ex co-worker (we worked together at 3 different companies over a span of 10 years ) told me that he was quite baffled when a girl from Canada added him on Facebook, it wasn't until a mutual friend told him who I was that he accepted and then he contacted me and told me that he literally had no idea and congratulated me on my new life :)
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I saw an AE86 Levin on the way home from school today, completely lit up my entire day!
I was the very first person told to leave jury selection, and I'm reasonably certain the nervous rocking tic did it.
I'm getting a new debit card in my new name. :D
Antonia,
Great! I love all these feel good stories about family & friends that accept & welcome your transition.
Jamie
Something like that can just make your day, a few kind words can lift your spirit :)
Quote from: Jamiep on October 21, 2014, 08:22:48 AM
Antonia,
Great! I love all these feel good stories about family & friends that accept & welcome your transition.
Jamie
I had surgery this morning to take out my upper wisdom teeth and after sleeping for a few hours I feel good as new. The anesthesia has worn off, and there's no pain or swelling, just nothing. It's amazing.
A few years ago I had the lower ones out, and it was horrific - I seem to remember spending three hours eating a single banana in tiny slivers because that was all I could get in my mouth.
Quote from: Liam Erik on October 21, 2014, 01:19:36 PM
I had surgery this morning to take out my upper wisdom teeth and after sleeping for a few hours I feel good as new. The anesthesia has worn off, and there's no pain or swelling, just nothing. It's amazing.
A few years ago I had the lower ones out, and it was horrific - I seem to remember spending three hours eating a single banana in tiny slivers because that was all I could get in my mouth.
Aah but you're a big boy now and handle this kind of stuff differently. Anyway I think the sockets left by the lowers are bigger and much more sensitive to pressure.
Here's what made me happy. My spouse and I met Julie Blair for dinner out at a nice upscale restaurant. Julie was looking very pretty and pert and being the gracious person she is she politely submitted to my cis gal's questions and comments about herself and about two previous disasters that I had with TG friendships. Julie blew my spouse's walls down, she came away totally impressed and still hasn't stopped remarking about what a wonderful woman Julie is. I am just so happy about this because other than myself, my lil SO had become rather trans-phobic which was understandable given her limited previous experience with TG folks. Thank you Julie, you are a godsend and a complete doll!
:icon_bunch: ~Shan~
I get my 2nd T shot today, about to head out now. :D
Quote from: Shantel on October 22, 2014, 12:28:12 PM
Here's what made me happy. My spouse and I met Julie Blair for dinner out at a nice upscale restaurant. Julie was looking very pretty and pert and being the gracious person she is she politely submitted to my cis gal's questions and comments about herself and about two previous disasters that I had with TG friendships. Julie blew my spouse's walls down, she came away totally impressed and still hasn't stopped remarking about what a wonderful woman Julie is. I am just so happy about this because other than myself, my lil SO had become rather trans-phobic which was understandable given her limited previous experience with TG folks. Thank you Julie, you are a godsend and a complete doll!
:icon_bunch: ~Shan~
Shan,
You and Laura are lovely and entertaining. I'm still smiling and will continue to do so until we get together again. :-*
Love to you both,
Julie
Shan, a superlative evening! Wonderful of Julie to blow down Laura's trans-phobia. Bless Laura for hopefully opening her mind to us & be more comfortable in her heart, accepting & being in our company. I am still hoping to see you one day on a trip to visit my Sis & family in Vancouver.
I am excited Happy for you, Laura & Julie!
Hugs
Jamie
Thank you Julie and JamieP! :-*
Hacked a presale password and got great concert tickets.
Jill made me smile.
I found a beautiful song I like.
Someone on a facebook page I like said that he supports transgender people. (No one on that page knows about me. They just brought it up in a conversation.)
I didn't fail my zoology exam as badly as I thought I did and will be able to bring my mark up provided I work harder and get some better memorization techniques.
I had a good breakfast, am looking fairly good today and have been reminded that there are still good people in this world, despite it being seemingly overrun with twits. Small victories, but I will take them where I can get them. :)
Today I am delighted to be me! :laugh: :icon_weee:
I jettisoned some dead weight from my life. If I didn't have to go anywhere tomorrow, I'd enjoy some Jack D to celebrate.
Took the day off work today as tradesmen came to fix building issues under warranty.
Control yourself Cindy. ;)
1 week away from 3 weeks off. It's been a long hard year so time off will be relaxing.
I can be me.
After a week or so of waiting in anticipation, I got a call first thing when I woke up this morning. The gender clinic I sent my doctor's referral to called to schedule a phone interview for a gender therapist. I have only ever seen a general therapist, so it's great that I'll finally have someone with expertise in the field of gender and sexual identity to speak with. It's one of the first steps I'll be taking into the world of self-discovery and decision-making.
My MacBook Pro laptop quit on me yesterday, so I spent an entire hour this morning on the phone with a female Canadian Apple Tech, she cleared a ton of useless crap out of my machine and said not to bother to use the encryption feature as it has been problematic for a lot of home computer users and is really just intended for businesses. So then it wouldn't allow decryption so we went in and moved a lot of other crap to the delete bin and bada-bing I'm decrypted and the laptop is running like new.
I got my Passport in the mail today with that beautiful "F" on it with my correct name :)
Going to San Diego for the weekend. It's nice to escape Los Angeles from time to time.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on October 24, 2014, 03:08:07 PM
I got my Passport in the mail today with that beautiful "F" on it with my correct name :)
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Quote from: JulieBlair on October 23, 2014, 08:09:44 PM
Today I am delighted to be me! :laugh: :icon_weee:
Me too!
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on October 24, 2014, 03:08:07 PM
I got my Passport in the mail today with that beautiful "F" on it with my correct name :)
Congrats!! ;D
I just got out of the shower, and when I walked past the big vanity mirror in my bedroom, I noticed that my hips appear smaller somehow. :D
Yeah, I'm still undeniably "curvy".. But even that tiny difference made me feel a lot less "gross" (I really needed it, too. My dysphoria has spiked these past few days). I spent a few minutes in front of the mirror just staring at myself - oblivious to my chest because I was too distracted by my hips that had magically shrunk. :icon_lol:
Yesterday, a friend I really like hung out with me and talked to me a lot of his own volition. This is a guy who is usually not very social because he's very introverted, so I know he must like me if he's willingly spending time and energy to hang out with me.
I somehow seem to have no (or very little dysphoria) today. So far anyway. It's confusing, but it's also nice.
I had a really awesome dream.
I look hot.
I'm going to go see a movie I've been looking forward to.
Being able to talk about a lot of things with people I like and who really help me and want to be there for me. Hugs, lots of hugs from the same people. Feeling that people understand what I'm talking about and can share in the feelings I have. Laughing with the same people :D Even though I didn't really want to go to my supportgroup tonight, like always I feel much better when I leave. It feels like every two weeks I go there and gather the energy I need to keep going for the next two weeks.
Going to the gym and eating a Black Forest Ham footlong from Subway. My irritability has lifted significantly.
Started the day by rolling out of bed and writing a piece of music that I'm really, really happy with. :D
Got tipped $1 today and found .11 cents
I have discovered that my jaw looks super masculine when I drink V8 juice in a single-serve bottle. May have to save and reuse these bottles... hmm...
Carved pumpkins with my sister, she made evil Mickey Mouse (complete with ears!) and I made Jack Skellington, King of the Pumpkin Patch!
It was a lot of fun, despite my squeamishness for the smell and texture of pumpkin insides!
Quote from: Ally_B on October 25, 2014, 06:43:56 PM
Started the day by rolling out of bed and writing a piece of music that I'm really, really happy with. :D
I love days that start like that.
Today I am at the San Diego Zoo for the second day in a row. I love animals.
I am really putting the JJ Abrams version of the Enterprise to shame.
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YEAH! I'm dying on top of the world! :D
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A lot has made me happy, most of which was for today which is,
Going to town in clothes I don't normally wear including my new boots AND my tights too!
Wearing a super short skirt for the first time. (Ah, nothing like folding a normal length one up and making it a short one temporarily ^-^)
Getting a few things which I've never used before and am looking forward to doing so, not to mention finally getting some stuff I've been needing.
Buying some pads which even though I don't need them, I look forward to trying them out for the first time. I refuse to be cheated out of this female thing! Sadly the tampons will have to wait till I have SRS.
Eat out again and I swear, for at least the next month, I won't eat out again! Done this too much lately and it's coming back to bite me in my wallet. >_< (Hopefully not the weight as well...)
Being called Ma'am and treated like a lady!
Bought a cute MLP calendar for 2015 and also saw a grumpy cat calendar which, I half liked but also didn't like how it was insulting people at the same time so, don't want that bringing down my mood anyway, besides, MLP calendar! :) (Shame Nightmare Moon was not in it :( but at least Rainbow Dash was :) )
Small note to self, never buy $1 hair spray ever again! It's not worth crap!
Quote from: Shana-chan on October 26, 2014, 09:13:34 PM
A lot has made me happy, most of which was for today which is,
Going to town in clothes I don't normally wear including my new boots AND my tights too!
Wearing a super short skirt for the first time. (Ah, nothing like folding a normal length one up and making it a short one temporarily ^-^)
Getting a few things which I've never used before and am looking forward to doing so, not to mention finally getting some stuff I've been needing.
Buying some pads which even though I don't need them, I look forward to trying them out for the first time. I refuse to be cheated out of this female thing! Sadly the tampons will have to wait till I have SRS.
Eat out again and I swear, for at least the next month, I won't eat out again! Done this too much lately and it's coming back to bite me in my wallet. >_< (Hopefully not the weight as well...)
Being called Ma'am and treated like a lady!
Bought a cute MLP calendar for 2015 and also saw a grumpy cat calendar which, I half liked but also didn't like how it was insulting people at the same time so, don't want that bringing down my mood anyway, besides, MLP calendar! :) (Shame Nightmare Moon was not in it :( but at least Rainbow Dash was :) )
Small note to self, never buy $1 hair spray ever again! It's not worth crap!
I love Rainbow Dash. She's the best!! ^_^
Period is stopping alot earlier than anticipated. Would last a week usually before T but only lasted 4 days this time. :o
I have had a severe aversion to telephones for years, but today I made three calls no sweat to the pharmacy, endo (no answer) and endo (answer). It seems they called my T in to the wrong pharmacy. 'Splains a lot.
Also I have endless fields of grass still, and I'm going to get hay tonight. And I took more lambs to the butcher, which frees up some space at home. As always I am impressed by the genetics of the meat breed some of my lambs are crossed with. I want another meat ram, who can give me another couple of meat crossed ewes. Not this year. The ewes are set to be bred again in three days. They are in superb shape.
I sent my bio psych professor from last year an e-mail asking if he would mind helping me with something I'm doing in another course even though I'm not currently in any of his classes. He replied that I made him smile and gave me some advice.
Today after running by the post office an elderly driver made her turn too wide and nearly hit me and i had to backup so she could get through. She rolls her windows down and signals me to and apologizes for her mistake in a very strong British accent. I told her it was OK, it was a simple mistake. She was frantic as she couldn't find the DMV office and was extremely lost. (The biggest one in the county is in our town and is marked very poorly.) I told her to just follow me as I was driving past it anyway to get my car serviced. She thanked my for being such a kind woman after getting her there. It just made me happy to be able to help someone in need.
I have a new niece!!! Yay!!! No name yet, but born to my brother and his wife in California. My mom is ecstatic.
She now has 5 grandkids, 3 mine, 2 from my brother. Only one grandson, my son.
I hope she's happy when she finds out she has a new (to her) daughter (me) as well. :angel: Soon, pretty soon...
Caleb and I talked. I'll always be in love with him, but things wont be the same. Still, He's my best friend. And that alone Is why I will bug the crap out of him for all eternity. I just hope we can start fresh in the next life and not have so many hurdles between us. And at least be in the right bodies because being trans sucks!
After 9 days at work I finally get a day off. However it is raining where it has been amazing outside the past 9 days I have been stuck inside work.
I have had multiple customers who say "sir" instead of ma'am. My voice always gives me away, so it makes me feel so much better that my T is having a small effect only 3 months in.
My favorite customer brought me a soda today. She walked towards me and said "please tell me you're working today." Plus she told me that if the boss ever fired me, she would never come back. Her grandma said they came the other day to have me as the person they assist, but I was off and the other guy was working, so they just left, lol.
Plus, I found a penny.
Hi friends :)
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