A girl said I was pretty (No she didn't have a white stick!)
Big Kim gets to start the latest version.
All you have to do is think one happy thought, and you'll fly like me! - Peter Pan
I woke up on the right side of the grass, had a good day at my volunteer jobs, and my husband liked dinner.
Robyn
I learned the benefits of applying makeup in natural lighting which lead to one of the best & most confident days I have had in a long time. And the thought of my voice surgery being exactly two weeks away has me cringing with excitement.
I heard an ad on the radio for a specialist cider shop in my home town, so I've just checked out their website. Holy mackerel... they sell more than 80 varieties of cider, all produced within a 50 mile radius.
I love a good cider... and now I know of a shop on my doorstep that sells every cider I could ever imagine! Ooh arrrr! ;D
I started voice therapy with a wonderful woman. I've never been so at ease with myself as I was with her.
Spent the evening chatting with my (very cool) youngest daughter. We discussed the novel she's writing; talked about a ridiculous character off British TV; made some very juvenile plans for the weekend; and munched our way through an enormous stick of biltong. Awesome! :)
Oh, and I had my 6-monthly dental check-up today, in which the dentist once again complimented me on my dental hygiene & healthy teeth. And this time she didn't compliment me in the same way as she did last time, which was: "You have wonderful teeth for your age!"
I like Dr. Who.
I bought Owen underwear to encourage him to use the potty more. (He doesn't like the inconvenience.) He got all excited and started strutting around the apartment wearing only bright orange underwear.
He also told me he loves me. He does that a lot. It makes me feel happy.
I had a quick texting chat with my Dad just before he tee'd off on his Saturday Golf tournament. He lives in Scotland so I don't get to see him much. But I love him to bits. He always makes me smile because he always calls me "Honey" and "Darling". He's been so accepting and supportive. I couldn't be more proud to be his Daughter. :D
Looking at the pictures I took last night from my makeover, and seeing the real me!
Comic books!
Since tomorrow is Sunday, I get to sleep in until 4:15 am. Yay!
This actually happened a couple of days ago:
A girl I work with was looking for a band-aid. I remembered that I keep a first aid kit in my backpack, so I offered one up. She was surprised and commented "Not to sound sexist or anything, but I never figured the person with a band aid would be male". If only she knew ... :)
Quote from: Edge on May 03, 2013, 11:55:00 AM
I like Dr. Who.
I bought Owen underwear to encourage him to use the potty more. (He doesn't like the inconvenience.) He got all excited and started strutting around the apartment wearing only bright orange underwear.
He also told me he loves me. He does that a lot. It makes me feel happy.
That is because you are a great parent! :)
(I never got any bright orange underwear >:( )
Being here with all you wonderful people and feeling at home and comfortable.
Caleb and I had watched a documentary about gender in advertising a few days ago. Turns out using some of the poses and looks seen in the documentary can make Caleb hot and bothered. It can be more fun when you do it to the Divynals "I touch myself" music video. Caleb says twisted and mean. >:-)
Quote from: Keaira on May 05, 2013, 06:59:02 AM
Caleb and I had watched a documentary about gender in advertising a few days ago. Turns out using some of the poses and looks seen in the documentary can make Caleb hot and bothered. It can be more fun when you do it to the Divynals "I touch myself" music video. Caleb says twisted and mean. >:-)
It is mean! :P
My youngest daughter, who usually refuses to let us buy her new clothes because she isn't interested in fashion, agreed to several new items of clothing today. Most of the credit must go to her big sister, who acted like a personal shopper for her. :)
I'm going to go see Iron Man 3 on Tuesday!
Quote from: Edge on May 05, 2013, 02:27:11 PM
I'm going to go see Iron Man 3 on Tuesday!
It's pretty good. Turns out Tony is ...
:|
Quote from: ZoeM on May 05, 2013, 04:08:42 PM
It's pretty good. Turns out Tony is ...
:|
? A robot zombie?
Quote from: ZoeM on May 05, 2013, 04:08:42 PM
It's pretty good. Turns out Tony is ...
:|
Omg, you almost told him Tony Stark is Ironman, didn't you? Don't spoil it for him!
Quote from: Renee on May 05, 2013, 04:19:24 PM
Omg, you almost told him Tony Stark is Ironman, didn't you? Don't spoil it for him!
Yes, don't tell him that Tony Stark is powered by a small Arc reactor or that he's one of the Avengers.
I wanted to see Iron Man 3, but I'm holding out for Star Trek: Into Darkness.
I'm powered by a small arc reactor too, no wait that's just a small... :)
It's finally warm enough to wear a T shirt,being a Bank Holiday in Blackpool it's sure to rain!
Quote from: Keaira on May 05, 2013, 04:37:58 PMYes, don't tell him that Tony Stark is powered by a small Arc reactor or that he's one of the Avengers.
Quote from: Renee on May 05, 2013, 04:19:24 PMOmg, you almost told him Tony Stark is Ironman, didn't you? Don't spoil it for him!
Omg! What a twist!
One of my new friends turns out to have a lot in common with me. The kind of stuff in common that allows me to speak freely without censoring myself.
Ive been asked to scan and email my name change documents by a dear friend at PFLAG. Looks like the Governor of Indiana is going to look and see what he can do about my issue with the BMV regarding my name change for my drivers licence.
Quote from: Keaira on May 06, 2013, 03:42:57 PM
Ive been asked to scan and email my name change documents by a dear friend at PFLAG. Looks like the Governor of Indiana is going to look and see what he can do about my issue with the BMV regarding my name change for my drivers licence.
BMV? Does that stand for Bas***... Of Motor Vehicles? :D
Er, I don't know if I should be happy or partly offended, but I had to buy a new sports bra since the old ones stopped compressing (not safe to bind all the time, for those who don't know). So I go through self check and the security tag wasn't deactivated properly, so the doors beeped as I walked out. These two security guys go through my bag and when they pull out the bra they giggle a bit and one goes "High hopes chief? You going to be a big girl one day?" and the other goes "Next he'll be buying his first tampons. They grow up so fast!" Then they said "we're just having some fun, all is good here, you can go."
That's an entry for "You know you pass when.."
And what an epic pass at that. I bet you are so happy right now. :D
IRON MAN III! Sorry for the all caps. I am just really excited. Also, if I may be a bit crude for a second, there is this totally awesome scene where is Pepper is HOT! And yes, that deserves all caps. She's seriously really hot. Watch the movie. You'll see which scene I mean. She's badass. It's awesome. Sorry for the motor mouth. I'm really excited. Tony is badass too of course. Lots of good lines. I'll shut up now.
Quote from: Edge on May 07, 2013, 08:14:10 PM
IRON MAN III! Sorry for the all caps. I am just really excited. Also, if I may be a bit crude for a second, there is this totally awesome scene where is Pepper is HOT! And yes, that deserves all caps. She's seriously really hot. Watch the movie. You'll see which scene I mean. She's badass. It's awesome. Sorry for the motor mouth. I'm really excited. Tony is badass too of course. Lots of good lines. I'll shut up now.
she was pretty darn hot. Did you stay until after the credits? I saw it today.
When I awoke this morning I felt happy inside and a little less scared.
Today will be a good day.
Love to all.
Ciara
Quote from: Prof HB on May 06, 2013, 07:48:12 PM
Er, I don't know if I should be happy or partly offended, but I had to buy a new sports bra since the old ones stopped compressing (not safe to bind all the time, for those who don't know). So I go through self check and the security tag wasn't deactivated properly, so the doors beeped as I walked out. These two security guys go through my bag and when they pull out the bra they giggle a bit and one goes "High hopes chief? You going to be a big girl one day?" and the other goes "Next he'll be buying his first tampons. They grow up so fast!" Then they said "we're just having some fun, all is good here, you can go."
One day you won't need to spend your money on those!
Got ma'am'ed repeatedly on the phone...
By a guy from the Republican National Committee...
Who knew and asked for and received confirmation of my male name...
:D
Only one more sleep until Jayne & I go to see the new Star Trek movie! :)
Oh, and a couple of months ago I posted about a Starbucks employee who used to upset me by misgendering me & then rushing off at warp speed before I could correct her. Today she not only remembered my name, but she remembered my regular order. No more 'madams' from her then! :)
Quote from: Keaira on May 08, 2013, 12:07:34 AM
she was pretty darn hot. Did you stay until after the credits? I saw it today.
"Tony, I'm not that kind of doctor."
I got a Hello Kitty tee shirt off the free table the other day but wanted to run it in the laundry before trying it on
Well, I like the way it fits :)
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Quote from: Miss Bungle on May 08, 2013, 12:46:14 PM
My Dotty & Portia plushies arrived today!
I am totally stoked! :D
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Dotty
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Portia
The Get Along Gang!! Aww...
This! That's right, gas is $3.42 a gallon at this station! Oh, the car? It was filling up when i pulled in. Nice ride, huh? If you look close, I'm reflected in the car several times. Start with the chrome bullets on the front.
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Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 10, 2013, 09:01:59 AM
This! That's right, gas is $3.42 a gallon at this station! Oh, the car? It was filling up when i pulled in. Nice ride, huh? If you look close, I'm reflected in the car several times. Start with the chrome bullets on the front.
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Do we win the car if we guess the number of times you're reflected in it?
Two local branches of the Labour Party (of which I'm a member) have nominated me as their candidate for the role of Equalities Officer in the forthcoming Executive Committee elections. Last year I lost by a couple of votes coming second.
A customer who called into support yesterday wrote back today with glowing praise for the way I helped her resolve her issue. We in support rarely get people who write back with thank, and this particular user was really grateful!
Quote from: Anna! on May 10, 2013, 09:03:53 AM
Do we win the car if we guess the number of times you're reflected in it?
I wish it were mine to give away!
The dishwasher is running, all the dishes that needed to be cleaned by hand are drying, the counters and cupboards are wiped, and all the components of the stove are scrubbed. It may not be much, but it still feels good to accomplish something.
Today is my birthday, I had some money returned that had been taken by someone in this hostel & I went to see Star Trek in 3D yesterday.
Best of all though is that my mum used my new name on my card ;D
Some girls were questioning if I was a girl or a guy, and for someone who really doesn't pass(or try to yet), it made me quite happy.
It's the start of the weekend, I'm drinking an absolutely divine bloody mary, and my new boyfriend is on his way over. I'm a very, very happy girl.
Got both mine and my brother's yards mowed and weedeatered this afternoon after work. So now I don't have to fool with it on my two days off.
Happy birthday Jayne!
New music yay!
Made a $100 cash finding and fixing an electrical short in a neighbor's house today. I told him he didn't need to pay that much, but he insisted, so...
And I can finally afford to get some new shoes and jeans this coming week too. The same neighbor is going to go into town with me and we'll spend some time shopping and have lunch. He wants to look at some countertops too.
Went to the pharmacy to pick up my latest prescription... and it turns out that the assistant who served me has a daughter who is dating an FtM!
She was absolutely lovely, so I gave her the URL for Susan's to pass on to her daughter's boyfriend. She says he gets a lot of flak from intolerant people so I thought he could use a friendly community.
Small world!
Received emails from two cousins today. Both congratulating me on my new life. This surprised me as they are both manly men. But it totally made my day. ;D
I really like myself today. I mean, I like myself everyday, but today is one of those days where I feel extra confident about it. Like no one can take that away from me. I'm exactly (or almost exactly, but everyone has things they want to fix) who I want to be.
The builder who is currently working on refurbishing our offices (and who has met me in person several times) just referred to me in an email as 'the IT man'. :)
My son is pretending to be a puppy. Excuse me, while I gush. He is so cute!
Somehow I seem to forget that you have a son until you mention him, Victor. Not sure why. =/
I've been chatting with other Army Brats on Facebook and its been amazing.
Pokemon Tower Defense! I forgot all about it for like...a year. I was obsessed with it, as well as Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, but then I met Keairaface and we chatted every night and I sorta forgot about them entirely.
soda
Quote from: Prof HB on May 14, 2013, 09:29:42 PM
Pokemon Tower Defense! I forgot all about it for like...a year. I was obsessed with it, as well as Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, but then I met Keairaface and we chatted every night and I sorta forgot about them entirely.
That's because you liiiike me...
Quote from: Keaira on May 14, 2013, 10:30:32 PM
That's because you liiiike me...
Enough to forget about 2 badass games for an entire year.
Squeezed in 8 hours of overtime this week and still only worked 4 days. not too bad.
Saw my endo today and she kept my Cyproterone dose the same and took me off Zumenon and put me on Progynova at the same dose level and also put me on Dutasteride. Will fill the(try to) scripts tomorrow but took Zumenon tonight.
Downside is I won't be seeing her again for 3 months....is that normal? I ask as she said appointments will be getting further apart.
I've lost enough weight to wear my leather pants again.
My son is being so cute and good this morning. I rewatched a movie I had mostly forgotten, but really like. I chatted with friends. I am looking forward to reading today.
I found a dress shirt that actually fits me. Fits completely in the arms, shoulders and torso. This NEVER happens. Mind you it is a boys 14.. Which is odd because even the size 16 is usually too short in the arms.
Harley the motorcycling dog.It's a small black and white terrier that rides in the top box of it's owners Harley Davidson Sportster,it's head sticks out of a hole in the lid and it really enjoys riding
My support worker here at the hostel bought me a new game for my Xbox, it was a late birthday prezzie as he wasn't in work when it was my birthday last week.
My son just came in and kissed my shoulder repeatedly. It's a bit bewildering, but cute.
Also, I cleaned the living room and the bathroom. The living room already needs to be cleaned again, but hey, progress. Also, supper is all ready to go for this evening. Slow cookers are useful.
Quote from: Prof HB on May 14, 2013, 09:29:42 PM
Pokemon Tower Defense! I forgot all about it for like...a year. I was obsessed with it, as well as Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, but then I met Keairaface and we chatted every night and I sorta forgot about them entirely.
You were better off without Power Tower Defence! Sad to see that this beast has returned into your life.
Got a letter from the Department of Licensing saying I am now female in their records! Legal transition is happening ^.^
Quote from: natastic on May 16, 2013, 02:41:25 PM
Got a letter from the Department of Licensing saying I am now female in their records! Legal transition is happening ^.^
Congrats
Quote from: natastic on May 16, 2013, 02:41:25 PM
Got a letter from the Department of Licensing saying I am now female in their records! Legal transition is happening ^.^
Hooray! Hey, when we gonna hang out? I miss you!
So yesterday when I was in the grocery store I overheard two girls two girls (about seven or eight) having th efollowing exchange
girl 1 "Look! She's a cowgirl!"
Girl 2 "Yeah she's really pretty!"
It totally made my day. It's still making my day today :)
Oh, and now my hair is bright pink.
SUMMER IS FINALLY HERE.
At least weather-wise! We've been having nice warm and sunny days of 25 celsius (77 fahrenheit for those who aren't familiar with Cs) for almost a week now and I can finally ditch jeans and switch to shorts to show off my awesome leg hair. XD
Plus I have already tanned a bit!
Finally came out on both Facebook and Twitter.
Congrats.
I have the first part of my Szayel costume. I am excited.
Saw Benedict Cumberbatch (via Star Trek). Movie could've been better (Seriously, can JJ Abrams do ANYTHING but ape what's gone before?), but Benedict was awesome.
My favourite colleague saw I was looking a bit down and told me to come and have coffee with her, which we don't usually do. And, all unknowing, she told me about her wardrobe of 60 dresses. ;D
Got called sir, he, etc left, right, and centre. I haven't really been misgendered in the past few months (except by rude gay people), but it still feels very good after never being able to pass at all.
Two days in a row... being told by a cis lady friend 'Actually I won't lend it to you, I'll buy you your own copy for a birthday present next week'
Pexetta: That's very nice of you, you haven't got me a birthday present before
Her: You haven't been Pexetta before
;D
Quote from: Pexetta on May 18, 2013, 04:50:09 PM
Two days in a row... being told by a cis lady friend 'Actually I won't lend it to you, I'll buy you your own copy for a birthday present next week'
Pexetta: That's very nice of you, you haven't got me a birthday present before
Her: You haven't been Pexetta before
;D
Awwwwww soo sweet!!! Happy upcoming birthday Pexetta :)
Sleeping a full eight hours last night.
Waking up this morning in a room drenched in bright sunlight.
Picking up my brand new passport with a photo that shows me as I am now, a woman.
An hour's roller-blading on a paved track through a forest alive with spring colors and sunshine.
A long chat with my son on the phone and agreement that we would meet up when my eldest daughter has her first child a few weeks from now, my first grandchild.
A very leisurely lunch on the terrace with my wife and our beautiful little cat.
Playing with the same little cat this evening. She sometimes let's her wild feline nature get the better of her & claws can hurt...but it's so much fun!
Revisiting the series "The L World" with my wife this evening. Loved it before and even more now... :)
All things considered a pretty good day with lots to be happy about
I found my ring that's been lost for 3 months! It fell into a drawer that I hardly ever open!
I feel so much more complete now.
I got a ton of comments on the shirt I wore today! This is all that was on it:
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Had a great time conversatin' with my father. I recorded the last half, and posted it to my blog should anyone are to listen to our musings.
oh my God. My brother brought home some of that Hawkridge body wash (Old Spice) and I tried it and I smell like sex.
The great people here at Susan's Place.
Quote from: Prof HB on May 19, 2013, 02:35:40 PM
oh my God. My brother brought home some of that Hawkridge body wash (Old Spice) and I tried it and I smell like sex.
So, really sweaty and kind of awful? :P
Quote from: Prof HB on May 19, 2013, 02:35:40 PM
oh my God. My brother brought home some of that Hawkridge body wash (Old Spice) and I tried it and I smell like sex.
You smell like sweat and other various bodily fluids? Eugh! Dont wear it here then. :P
I heard back from the speech therapist in our area who works with Transgender women. I have an appointment for an evaluation in two weeks. Yay!
Quote from: androgynoid on May 19, 2013, 03:31:27 PM
So, really sweaty and kind of awful? :P
Quote from: Keaira on May 20, 2013, 07:37:58 AM
You smell like sweat and other various bodily fluids? Eugh! Dont wear it here then. :P
Y'alls cheeky. :P
I'm going to meet Keaira in 10 days. That makes me happy but also kind of scared, lol.
Banana milk shake,I forgot how good they are it's so long since I had one
I got called "Warrior Princess" by Mia Macy today when I told her I was going to go to Washington DC to Lobby for ENDA.
Heh, who'd have thought I would do something political. And I hung out in Hangouts with Caleb as usual. I can't wait to see him! :D
This morning, we're another step closer to legalising same-sex marriage (and opposite-sex civil partnership) in the UK. The final vote in the House of Commons will take place tonight and it is likely to pass.
If it does, we just need to get it through the House of Lords tomorrow (which is more difficult) before it can become law.
They're also voting today on an amendment which would enable Humanist celebrants to hold weddings throughout the UK. At the moment, Humanist ceremonies are only fully legal in Scotland; everyone else needs to have their Humanist marriage made legal through a register office.
Hooray for the 21st Century! :)
Quote from: Prof HB on May 20, 2013, 02:01:24 PM
I'm going to meet Keaira in 10 days. That makes me happy but also kind of scared, lol.
Did you give any thought to stopping by Chicago? :D
Good luck, Caleb.
My son is repeatedly telling me he loves me. Mind you, he is also asking for chocolate cake.
Quote from: androgynoid on May 21, 2013, 11:10:15 AM
Did you give any thought to stopping by Chicago? :D
I did. My brain says yes but my wallet says no. :(
Quote from: Prof HB on May 21, 2013, 03:20:10 PM
I did. My brain says yes but my wallet says no. :(
Boo :( Maybe next time.
Quote from: androgynoid on May 21, 2013, 03:27:38 PM
Boo :( Maybe next time.
Yeah, it definitely isn't going to be my last trip to the states so we will definitely end up meeting at some point. 8 (well, 9) days really isn't long enough for any holiday. :(
My Szayel costume is almost put together!
Colleagues' birthdays & business trips meant that I've had two slices of cake and a doughnut today.
8 hours sleep
Getting quite a bit of hate mail for posting on another forum ..
'Homophobia like xenophobia is often linked to agoraphobia preventing those affected from getting out into the real world.'
This was related to the gay marriage debate.
I guess some people are upset. But you know, some people need to be upset for things to change.
Quote from: StellaB on May 22, 2013, 11:32:12 AM
Getting quite a bit of hate mail for posting on another forum ..
'Homophobia like xenophobia is often linked to agoraphobia preventing those affected from getting out into the real world.'
This was related to the gay marriage debate.
I guess some people are upset. But you know, some people need to be upset for things to change.
Not everything needs to change. In an ideal world believers in Romans 1 would coexist with those who think it's nonsense, and neither would seek to eradicate or ostracize the other.
Not sure why it makes you happy receiving hatemail, TBH.
My Dad in one message via google chat.
me: Hi Dad,
In June, Angie and I are off to Washington DC to help lobby for a transgender inclusive Employment Non-Discrimination Act. ^_^
Sent at 9:41 AM on Wednesday
Dad: Go get em girl!
Sent at 9:43 AM on Wednesday
I love my Dad so much! ^_^
;D He rocks. I love him too lol.
twenty-five cents
Had a good sleep,my backs a lot better,it's my day off there's a pizza in the fridge and I recorded Scott and Bailey to watch tonight
Went out to lunch with my colleagues to celebrate a couple of birthdays. Whilst all the ladies were ordering fancy risottos and fragrant Thai thingies, I ordered the Full English Breakfast (bacon, egg, sausage, tomato, baked beans, mushroom, black pudding, toast - yum!).
My boss, who was sat next to me, asked what I'd ordered and when I told her she remarked "Wow, that's such a blokey thing to order! You're such a guy!". I actually hugged her for that one. ;D
Then during the meal I needed to use the bathroom and as luck would have it our table was right next to the toilets, which were the usual gender-segregated facilities. I'm still not 100% confident about using the gents' (even though I haven't used a ladies' toilet in about 8 months), but I just sucked it up & marched straight into the gents' toilet, right in front of all of my colleagues.
Take that, dysphoria!
FTMDiaries, you are making it as a guy with ordering and then using the gents' where your colleagues could possibly see you go in. I have been using the gents now all the time, but I don't think I have been seen going or out by someone I konw.
Found out a couple of relatives know about my transition and don't seem to have any issues with it. Relieved a little cause I was expecting that at least one of them would be against and maybe be vocal but no they seem okay with it.
I finally found some time to get some sun :) Feels good!
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Quote from: mm on May 23, 2013, 10:47:44 AM
FTMDiaries, you are making it as a guy with ordering and then using the gents' where your colleagues could possibly see you go in. I have been using the gents now all the time, but I don't think I have been seen going or out by someone I konw.
Thanks! :)
I'm not suggesting for a second that I felt comfortable about going into the gents' in front of 15 people who knew me for years before I started my transition... but the only way for me to get through that kind of insecurity is to just barge right through it.
The whole family pulled together to support one of my daughters who has been mega-stressed lately because she's been studying for an important exam.
As a result of all of our efforts she's calmer, more relaxed and is confident that she'll get a decent result. :)
When I went to the endocrinologist today, he said to me "You look great, what have you done??"- he thought I had had some FFS since our last visit two months ago. He was shocked when I motioned zero, and then he told me I look like a "babe" and that I was giving off wholly feminine vibes. This coming from the endocrinologist who has a reputation of being brutally blunt with his clients when he thinks they need to "fix" something.
Well my day has pretty much been made. Getting a triple dose of progesterone "pink panther" booster only made it better, too :D
Flirting at my fave cafe, and a spontaneous hug as I left.
I really like the Master from Doctor Who. I'm considering trying to find the old series to see more of this character.
I really like me.
Knowing that the UFC prelims are tonight
Quote from: Edge on May 25, 2013, 02:11:31 AM
I really like the Master from Doctor Who. I'm considering trying to find the old series to see more of this character.
Search dailymotion.com for "matrixarchive" and "tardismedia"... It took me 8 months to go through all of it. I'll check back with you in January :)
Gonna go see Jurassic Park 3D tomorrow with my friend, can't wait! :D
Also, loving all the add-ons for Skyrim. Got through the main quest line of Dawnguard and now I'm roaming Solstheim.
The house building mechanic of Hearthfire is pretty addicting...
Cheese sticks
So what's happy me today?
Easy things, take my coffe at my favourite coffe shop, "El Sauco" and commiting some venial sins time to time like eating chocolate palms, or taking a hot chocolate with "churros" for breakfast, (i don't know how to explain what are churros for not spanish people, hehe, these are fluted flour rolls folded to form loops and fried in oil).
Anyway one of my biggest pleasures last week was to do all my paperwork once time i got my true ID and passport, asks a new driving license, change my social security records, my bank accounts, changing my name in my WILL, (oh my God, yes i have written a WILL, i expect nobody reads this document in a lot lot years, hehe)
These are my two cents
Amanda
Watching the UFC ring card girls
I get to wear a costume tomorrow, I'm going as Szayel, and I am very excited.
A few things. 1 month on hrt! Yay, congratulations to the other two people that I know started in the same day too!
Plus, sunshine, park and children playing. :-)
Quote from: Steph21 on May 26, 2013, 11:24:53 AM
A few things. 1 month on hrt! Yay, congratulations to the other two people that I know started in the same day too!
Plus, sunshine, park and children playing. :-)
Hooray for us! And nice weather! And new Arrested Development episodes!
A few weeks ago I saw this beautiful pair of blue and purple oxford shoes at Target for $20. They didn't have my size, so I didn't get them and was sad. Today I was at a different Target and found them, in my size, for $8. Needless to say, they came home with me. I don't know when I'll have the chance to wear them, but for $8 if I wear them once or twice I'll have gotten my money's worth.
I got to wear a costume today. Wheee!
My only female coworker walks by while I'm eating lunch and says "look at that sexy man right there!" I was just like dude...you're an awesome friend.
I got 3 hours sleep last night! ;D and yes this is posted on the correct thread, I have a sleep disorder this means a total of 16 hours of sleep now in the last 6 months
Quote from: Lance on May 26, 2013, 02:43:45 PM
My only female coworker walks by while I'm eating lunch and says "look at that sexy man right there!" I was just like dude...you're an awesome friend.
That, is bloody awesome. :D
My happy thing: Went to Arboretum. Saw flowers. It rained. Had a nice chat with an elderly lady; I can't tell if she thought I was male or female but I really hope female. :)
I took the family dog to In-N-Out burger today for dinner.
He ordered a plain cheeseburger. He thought it was delicious.
Quote from: vegie271 on May 26, 2013, 02:48:58 PM
I got 3 hours sleep last night! ;D and yes this is posted on the correct thread, I have a sleep disorder this means a total of 16 hours of sleep now in the last 6 months
I had a sleep study done last October, and it was discovered that I got no Stage 4 (R.E.M.) sleep. My sleep apnea was keeping me in Stage 1 and Stage 2 sleep the entire time.
adding thirty cents to my top surgery fund
I got to have some fun tonight, lol.
Quote from: Jamie D on May 27, 2013, 12:08:09 AM
I had a sleep study done last October, and it was discovered that I got no Stage 4 (R.E.M.) sleep. My sleep apnea was keeping me in Stage 1 and Stage 2 sleep the entire time.
In order to do a sleep study you have to be able to fall asleep! ..... ??? herein is my basic problem, I think you missed what I actually said, I was serious when I said 16 hours of sleep in 6 MONTHS I have actually slept 16 hours since oct 31 I have been adding up the hours
I am allergic to most medications that you take to sleep. All of the imidazopyridine class cause memory loss and suicide risk. benzodiazepines carry a similar risk. of suicide they mess with my head. tricyclic antidepressants cause Gran-Mal seizures. All other anti-depressants were tried and were as effective as water in helping sleep. Then we tried Phenobarbitol and that just put me in a lot of pain but no sleep, Silinor was ineffective, I have tried herbal remedies, Melatonin, benadryl, Yoga, Meditation and a combination of all of the above all to no avail
The only thing that did do anything at all was one time my insurance did a one time visit to an acupuncturist it worked for about a week, but they will not cover any more visits they decided it was not a covered thing, they only cover allopathic medicine :'(
I need to tell you I have Fibromyalgia. I also suffer severe PTSD.
Quote from: Prof HB on May 27, 2013, 04:52:04 AM
I got to have some fun tonight, lol.
What kind of fun? ;)
Quote from: androgynoid on May 27, 2013, 12:05:40 PM
What kind of fun? ;)
Quote from: Keaira on May 27, 2013, 01:16:54 PM
Yes Caleb, what kind of fun? :p
The fun type of fun? lol
The kind of fun you find yourself thinking about as you lay in bed waking up. :P
Speaking with and e-mailing my wife who is a 1000 miles away with our daughter.
I have grown taller! It's not even one centimeter, 0,8cm to be accurate but it means I'm now exactly 164cm tall. :D
Either I have grown naturally since 2009 when I was 19 or then it's another miracle caused by T.
I had a conversation with a guest at my house today (I'm still not talking from voice surgery so I was texting) but when he asked later why I could not talk, I told him that it was a feminization surgery and outed myself as a trans woman.
Well it was the first time anyone's ever been truly shocked when I revealed that. So, it made me feel really really good. We were interacting for at least 20min before he asked and I told him. The whole time he read me as 100% cis female :D
I mean I know I pass with random passers by, but interacting with people and passing for extended periods at all is new ground for me. I'm really excited about it! Maybe someday I WILL be able to have stealth expeditions with people! It's always been one of my lightly held goals.
Mother washed my dishes-yay!
Having installed it the cheats way, I got it operating today..... Only took me three months!
Whilst doing some spring cleaning, I finally found the power supply for my PSP. It's been missing for about a year now so I haven't touched my PSP in all that time.
So I spent a couple of hours playing old PSP games that I love... and in doing so I recognised the voice of an actor doing a Russian accent on one of my games ('Medievil'). Turns out he is the same guy who does Aleksandr Orlov from the Compare the Meerkat ads. :)
Writing this bit of code made me happy:
struct nfs4_tmp_stateid {
struct nfs4_stid ts_stid;
struct list_head ts_list;
};
I want more excuses to come up with variable names beginning with ts or tg!
We've had a French guy working with us for the past month or so.
I just learned today that his surname is... Belair.
Now I simply can't get this out of my head:
The fresh prince of Bel Air theme song [short version] (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qHA366oRMs#)
Quote from: kkut on May 28, 2013, 04:00:59 PM
My teenage daughter got her hair cut today. In the car I kept telling her how much I liked it and it really fit her, etc. I then said, "you look like a young lady now"............. without missing a beat, she grinned big and said.... "so do you dad". ;D
I'm still laughing.
That's too cute.
Springwatch is back
I'm going to see Keaira in less than 3 days now. I can't really believe it! ;D We're going to have so much fun. I already feel nauseous when I realize that it's really happening, I imagine I will be close to throwing up the night before and day of. =/
Facebook is actually reconsidering their hate speech policy under pressure.
this is just a small excerpt from a statement.
"Recently there has been some attention given to Facebook's content policy. The current concern, voiced by Women, Action and The Media, The Everyday Sexism Project, and the coalition they represent, has focused on content that targets women with images and content that threatens or incites gender-based violence or hate.
Many different groups which have historically faced discrimination in society, including representatives from the Jewish, Muslim, and LGBT communities, have reached out to us in the past to help us understand the threatening nature of content, and we are grateful for the thoughtful and constructive feedback we have received. In light of this recent attention, we want to take this opportunity to explain our philosophy and policies regarding controversial or harmful content, including hate speech, and to explain some of the steps we are taking to reduce the proliferation of content that could create an unsafe environment for users."
New shoes and I lost another pound in weight
Eye exam. Everything completely normal. Spots on the field of view of my left eye perfectly normal, nothing to be concerned about.
It was my birthday, and the people at work were really appreciative of the snacks and so forth that I brought in. Almost as if they weren't expecting it...
1 more day and I will be meeting Caleb ( Professor HB on these forums ) at the Airport. Ill get to spend a week with him, which is far too short.
Yessss. Ach not enough time to get ready. lol
So...since I had to get some tighter sports bras for binding, I had to go to the mall. Unbound, chest rather visible. It was really dysphoric, and I resigned myself to the fact I'd have to be seen as a woman in order to obtain these bras.
Well, I got stopped by a salesperson who was selling these creams and soaps and stuff. First, the guy stops me and puts the sample on my hand. In other words, he saw and felt how little and soft my hands are. I was convinced he saw me as female and just resigned myself to that uncomfortable fact...then he goes "we also have this shaving cream for men. I see you shave, this might be good to put on your face afterwards to keep your skin clear."
So then a woman comes along, the manager. And she wants me to try this mud. Again, she has to put it on my hand. She does and she's standing real close to me, closer than the guy was, she talks to me and again brings up the acne thing, lol, saying she had adult acne too (I doubt that). Again, I figure "OK, she probably thinks I'm a girl." But she goes "we don't get a lot of guys here, we want guys to try our products......*keeps talking*....do you have a girlfriend? ...*keeps talking*....you guys! Always want to get out of the mall so fast, not like girls."
All this with two people who looked at my face very close up, touched my soft little hands, and saw me unbound and with fairly visible breast lumps. Still read as male. That's pretty unbelievable.
I did buy a few of their products too. They're expensive. :| But nice, and hopefully they will do a little good for my skin.
They also seemed to think I was Jewish (they were Jewish themselves).
I think I have found the bad wiring issue in the rv. At least the red glow they cast off near the starter solenoid indicates it, lol. will know for sure shortly.
I had a dream that the "fellas downstairs" had essentially shriveled up and essentially fallen off like a leaf falls off of a tree. Instead of thinking that something was wrong, I was just kind of like "meh". Actually I was happy.
Anyway, it made me laugh when I woke up, and it's too random to start a thread about it- so I figured I would just share here ;)
Lol Jenny, that seriously made me laugh. I love the randomness of it. Now if only that could happen to you and the opposite could happen to me...we'd be in good shape. :D
Quote from: Lance on May 30, 2013, 03:03:34 PM
Lol Jenny, that seriously made me laugh. I love the randomness of it. Now if only that could happen to you and the opposite could happen to me...we'd be in good shape. :D
I'll gladly give you all my dreamberries. Free of charge, even! ^_^
Quote from: Prof HB on May 30, 2013, 12:59:08 PM
So...since I had to get some tighter sports bras for binding, I had to go to the mall. Unbound, chest rather visible. It was really dysphoric, and I resigned myself to the fact I'd have to be seen as a woman in order to obtain these bras.
Well, I got stopped by a salesperson who was selling these creams and soaps and stuff. First, the guy stops me and puts the sample on my hand. In other words, he saw and felt how little and soft my hands are. I was convinced he saw me as female and just resigned myself to that uncomfortable fact...then he goes "we also have this shaving cream for men. I see you shave, this might be good to put on your face afterwards to keep your skin clear."
So then a woman comes along, the manager. And she wants me to try this mud. Again, she has to put it on my hand. She does and she's standing real close to me, closer than the guy was, she talks to me and again brings up the acne thing, lol, saying she had adult acne too (I doubt that). Again, I figure "OK, she probably thinks I'm a girl." But she goes "we don't get a lot of guys here, we want guys to try our products......*keeps talking*....do you have a girlfriend? ...*keeps talking*....you guys! Always want to get out of the mall so fast, not like girls."
All this with two people who looked at my face very close up, touched my soft little hands, and saw me unbound and with fairly visible breast lumps. Still read as male. That's pretty unbelievable.
I did buy a few of their products too. They're expensive. :| But nice, and hopefully they will do a little good for my skin.
They also seemed to think I was Jewish (they were Jewish themselves).
I'm so very happy for you *huggles*
I'm home now. Tomorrow I will be picking up Caleb at the airport. I'm trying to decide what I want to wear. lol
Wearing a Bra around the house!
Finally adding the $3 I had on hold into my top surgery fund
Quote from: Keaira on May 30, 2013, 08:23:30 PM
I'm trying to decide what I want to wear. lol
Quote from: Maribeth12 on May 30, 2013, 08:27:47 PM
Wearing a Bra around the house!
Keaira should do what Maribeth is doing. >:-) Lol. Just kidding. :P
I don't know what i am going to wear on the plane either actually. My grandma says I should dress nice so they give me less hassle. But I don't know. I am a sweaty boy lately given the heat, so I might be better off just going with shorts and a t-shirt.
I was feeling worried for my iguana being egg bound because she's in her yearly egg laying season but had only dropped one egg in nearly a week, well, she dropped about 15 eggs today
*Sigh of relief*
My friend Desiree suggesting future boys names for me :P
Quote from: RomulusBC on May 30, 2013, 11:07:24 PM
My friend Desiree suggesting future boys names for me :P
Oooh! I wanna help. XD I helped my friend pick out her name. Took us like a week I think.
Quote from: Darkie on May 30, 2013, 11:08:06 PM
Oooh! I wanna help. XD I helped my friend pick out her name. Took us like a week I think.
Agh! I love unique names to be honest! I like Dexter, Damon, and Jekyll but I am unsure since they've always been my future children's names xD
Had my second GIC appointment yesterday, in which my Therapist told me they've changed their system for booking appointments so whilst she'd originally told me I'd see the doctor in July to plan my hormones, surgery etc. I'd now have to wait until September/October to get that appointment. :(
Then she rang me this morning to say that she'd completely forgotten to tell me something: she had been so convinced by my case when she saw me last month, she booked my doctor's appointment as soon as I left the Clinic... so I'll get to see the doctor in July after all. :)
I have made my first connection, so now I am waiting to board the plane to Indianapolis!! Will be on it in about half an hour and then only a short flight from Toronto.
I got through US customs so easy, in other words, no one really questioned my gender. ;D I've been called sir all day, by the flight and security staff in both cities, by a kiosk lady that I passed, getting a drink...
So yeah I feel pretty great, and in like 2 hours, 2 and a half hours, I get to see Keaira in the flesh. I have to find her in the airport without text messaging (my carrier only works in Canada), but she says she's going to wear her brown skirt and white blouse so I will be looking for that. :)
I'm sitting at the airport waiting on Caleb. Just relaxing and watching the aircraft as they arrive and leave the terminal. I miss being around the aircraft and feel somewhat envious of the ground crew below as they perform maintainance, load luggage, fuel up, etc. I could be happy working here.
Today is the last day that I'll ever need to wear formal boy clothes! :D :D :D
It's sunny, my day off,my leg doesn't hurt to bad and I've a pizza waiting for me.After I'm going to watch Imaginaerum the Nightwish film based on the album.
Quote from: Anna! on June 01, 2013, 09:59:49 AM
Today is the last day that I'll ever need to wear formal boy clothes! :D :D :D
Ceremonial bonfire? :D
Quote from: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 01:53:17 PM
Ceremonial bonfire? :D
I could! But I'm thinking i'll try to sell or donate them instead.
Went fishing today and caught a lot of fish ( catch an release only) best thing was I got in just
before the rain and didn't have a wet tit shirt contest for the guy in front.He doesn't know!
Quote from: Anna! on June 01, 2013, 04:22:57 PM
I could! But I'm thinking i'll try to sell or donate them instead.
You have to burn at least one item! Choose the least comfortable and most male-looking and make a torch out of it!
For me, this would either be male jeans or dress shirts. The former are
horribly shaped for my increasingly-girly butt, and the latter are stiff and horrible to wear.
Finally got to see the avengers. The hulk is still my all-time favorite.
Quote from: Lance on June 01, 2013, 07:28:12 PM
Finally got to see the avengers. The hulk is still my all-time favorite.
"Oh, and Hulk?" *Hulk turns around* *Stark holds up finger* "Smash." *Hulk grins*
Lol oh yeah. Nothin like a big green wad of aimed rage.
My father is coming over in a few minutes to bring me some change. I can't wait to count it out and add it to my top surgery fund.
Quote from: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:07:13 PM
You have to burn at least one item! Choose the least comfortable and most male-looking and make a torch out of it!
For me, this would either be male jeans or dress shirts. The former are horribly shaped for my increasingly-girly butt, and the latter are stiff and horrible to wear.
I'm going to go with my shoes, but I did just spend all day in them. They are at least two sizes too big, so I had to stuff them with socks to keep my feet from sliding out. I hate them, but I never ever EVER have to wear them again :D.
Quote from: JulieR on May 31, 2013, 12:52:10 PM
Sitting in the doctor's waiting room, an older woman asked if she could take the copy of Cosmopolitan (from the table next to me) or was I reading it? I replied that she could have it, I wasn't reading it today. She replied to me, with a laugh, "or ever for that matter". I replied "well you never know", with a big smile on the inside.
ROTFLMAO! Good one. ;D
Quote from: Lance on June 01, 2013, 08:04:14 PM
Lol oh yeah. Nothin like a big green wad of aimed rage.
Cause, you know, Stark is a fan of him becoming a green ragemonster. XD
Quote from: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:07:13 PM
You have to burn at least one item! Choose the least comfortable and most male-looking and make a torch out of it!
For me, this would either be male jeans or dress shirts. The former are horribly shaped for my increasingly-girly butt, and the latter are stiff and horrible to wear.
Nooooooo! Fit or no fit, never discard blue jeans! You can cut, re-hem, and embroider them.
Quote from: Jamie D on June 02, 2013, 12:55:49 AM
Nooooooo! Fit or no fit, never discard blue jeans! You can cut, re-hem, and embroider them.
Or give them to me. XD
I have been passing 100%. Through the airports and on the planes, but also in the stores and such here in Seymour. It feels good. It's a bit strange, as with my binding injury I expected my chest to give me away, but it doesn't at all. When Keaira was busy in Walmart, I was talking to a salesperson and she was telling me stuff about women like I wouldn't know. I've been seen as male before of course, but having these types of encounters is a first. Where I basically get the whole treatment, as if I am just like any other guy. I like it so much. It's nice to feel normal.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 02, 2013, 01:18:36 AM
I have been passing 100%. Through the airports and on the planes, but also in the stores and such here in Seymour. It feels good. It's a bit strange, as with my binding injury I expected my chest to give me away, but it doesn't at all. When Keaira was busy in Walmart, I was talking to a salesperson and she was telling me stuff about women like I wouldn't know. I've been seen as male before of course, but having these types of encounters is a first. Where I basically get the whole treatment, as if I am just like any other guy. I like it so much. It's nice to feel normal.
This puts a dent in the theory that we may cancel each other's ability to pass. We also spoke with a good friend of mine who was one of my press operators at Valeo Sylvania. She and I had spoken about Caleb before so it was really nice for her to meet him. And Caleb finally had a face to go with the name of probably my biggest ally at Valeo. I'm so happy that Caleb is getting the whole male experience. I've not seen him this happy for so long a period since I met him. My son loved chatting and playing with him.
Yeah, I had a lot of fun talking to her son too. :) He is a really sweet kid and he has such a big imagination.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 02, 2013, 03:45:07 AM
Yeah, I had a lot of fun talking to her son too. :) He is a really sweet kid and he has such a big imagination.
That he is. ^_^
I stopped by Caleb's hotel room to wake him up early so housekeepimg could clean his room. He went back to bed. But he looked adorable in his nightshirt. Very retro.^_^ but we chatted for a bit. I find myself wishing that he didnt have to go back to Canada actually. Lol >:-)
What made me happy today?
The return of the sun after what seems like weeks of greyness and rain.
Roller blading this morning in an unambiguosly female outfit ie. tightly fitting Adidas leggings and top, without anyone taking a second look at me.
Lunch on the balcony witha very nice Italian red wine, an Amarone for those who take their wine seriously..; :)
Seeing that "Learningtolive" is actually learning to live eg. first draft of her coming out letter hot off the press!
Hugs.
Donna
Quote from: kkut on June 02, 2013, 10:52:53 AM
I was just about to suggest you two get a hotel room......... :D
Glad to see you two getting along so well, congrats!
Thanks. Lol. You're not the only one who has suggested we get a hotel room. Its be said a few times on here. Is everyone watching us or something? Lol
Quote from: Keaira on June 02, 2013, 10:38:31 AM
I find myself wishing that he didnt have to go back to Canada actually.
Yeah. I just looked at one of the pictures of us and I was like "... :'(" cause I know I'll be going back.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 03, 2013, 04:18:14 PM
I've lost 51 pounds! I'm going to celebrate by munching some nachos and gaining back 2 of those pounds. :D (Meh..I will walk it off later.)
That's wonderful! Now please stop giving it to me. :P
I went swimming with my Son and Caleb. I so miss swimming. I'd like to do it some more.
I don't have to make a payment on my hearing aids until NEXT month! that saves me $97! ;D
I got my first "ladies first" this morning from a guy at the coffee shop. I was in boy mode, but that doesn't seem to matter now.
Congrats Michelle666 :)
A woman in mens cloth is normal for years l
But you are just goodlooking :angel:
Quote from: JulieR on June 03, 2013, 08:57:06 PM
I've lost bout 5 pounds in the last week. Thanks Keaira
You're welcome. ^_^
..........
Wait, what did I do?
I walk into the pharmacy in male mode and not one, but two of the techs there call me 'She'. :D
Also, Skyrim legendary edition guide. This thing is massive.
This was yesterday, but I was thinking about it just now. Yesterday Keaira's son was with me a lot of the day, at the pool and later the movies. And in the car he said "if you were my older brother, that would be cool." And later on, Keaira's wife told me that at the movies, he wanted to switch places with her, asking if he could "sit beside his buddy" (me). Lol. It kind of makes me tear up a little when I think about it. Honestly, I am so touched.
Name change form sent! Hurrah!
Congrats, Liam.
Quote from: Liam Erik on June 05, 2013, 08:57:47 AM
I am nearly a day post-op and I feel great.
That's awesome Liam!
Today is my 2-year HRT trAnniversary!
2 things made me happy today.
The first was that I got a phone call to tell me that my flat will be available on either the 14th or 17th of this month, YAY! This means i'll be out of this hostel in less than 2 weeks & away from all of the ex offenders & heroin addicts (I kid you not!).
The last 7 or 8 months here has been a living hell!!!
Then Mommy dearest popped around, I told her about the problems i'm having trying to get electrolysis funded on the NHS,
My mum has offered to help with the cost of my electrolysis as she gave my brother several thousand pounds a few years ago.
I was unbelievably worried about the holdups on my electrolysis as i'm due to go to the gender clinic in 2 weeks & am due to see the endo to get my HRT started, after waiting for 2 1/2 yrs I don't want any more delays.
Oh! This also made me happy. I went in to see a public notary this morning to witness and sign the name change form. While we were there, he very kindly told me that he was actually seeing this more and more because people were less afraid to come out. This makes me happy for the obvious reason: he is accepting and supportive of trans* people. But also, I didn't tell him I was trans. Granted, changing my name to Victor is a dead give-away, but I've been surprised by the number of people who still call me "she" anyway. It's nice to have someone recognize that I am, in fact, male.
Also, I ordered a book I've been wanting. I am really excited for it. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13602221-goblinheart (http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13602221-goblinheart)
What made me happy today was getting my ears pierced. The best value for £13 I've had in years.
Finally got to go see Star Trek - Into Darkness ;D, loved it
Taught myself how to tie a decent looking bow tie :)
Also got the last bits for a three-piece suit that I ordered for an upcoming event. And...it all fits!
Lesson learned - if you're small, have a look at Korean clothing (Doubleju, theLees, etc). Inexpensive, decent looking, and fits great on small slim guys!
I came out to a friend in person for once! She thanked me for preparing her while I'm still at an early stage, too. Apparently she came back to her co-op after summer vacation a few years ago and was surprised with their transition :laugh:
So today I finally realized that I'm one of those girls... I'm actually attractive! Guys think I'm hot and it seems like I'm getting hit on all the time through out the week. I live that I have quite a few dates lined up in my phone. I feel a little bad for dating around but I am super nice to all the guys. It's just nice to know I'm attractive and hot by quite a few people's standards . Ok I'm done now :)
Officially 6 months on hormones!! I'm half a year old :D
It was actually yesterday but I talked to the main hr person at work about being trans. We talked for 15-20 minutes. It went great and so far i'm 3/5 with coming out to people that already know someone thats trans. She told me her daughter has two trans friends so she understands completely. I was scared and anxious and started to cry. But what really made my day was, she gave me a hug on the way out. I was so relieved.
Congratulations Jenny. Isn't it wonderful?
I stopped to try to have a child before transitioning. It's something else i've always wanted so i'm conflicted about that and hrt. Plus i'm extremely jealous because I cant get pregnant myself. My g/f gives me weird looks about that, but i would gladly trade what I don't want for periods and the body I wish I was born with. Is that normal for most of us to think about?
I was somewhat happy to watch Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone in bed with Caleb. :)
Quote from: Jamie Marie on June 06, 2013, 02:07:58 AM
It was actually yesterday but I talked to the main hr person at work about being trans. We talked for 15-20 minutes. It went great and so far i'm 3/5 with coming out to people that already know someone thats trans. She told me her daughter has two trans friends so she understands completely. I was scared and anxious and started to cry. But what really made my day was, she gave me a hug on the way out. I was so relieved.
Congratulations Jenny. Isn't it wonderful?
I stopped to try to have a child before transitioning. It's something else i've always wanted so i'm conflicted about that and hrt. Plus i'm extremely jealous because I cant get pregnant myself. My g/f gives me weird looks about that, but i would gladly trade what I don't want for periods and the body I wish I was born with. Is that normal for most of us to think about?
Thanks Jamie. It is wonderful :) I could not be happier with the past 6 months of my life. Wow I cannot believe it has only been six months! Even with the huge list of things that I've put myself through and all the countless hours it took to make those decisions, I would not change a single second of it for any reason. And there's nothing that anyone could do or say that would convince me otherwise.
I dunno what the main consensus is, but I rarely think about pregnancy or wanting to go through it. It sounds kinda rough. I did bank some swimmers before I started just in case I do want kids... Honestly though, I feel like my life has regressed 6 years- almost like I have a chance to re-experience my 20s. Kids aren't really even supposed to be on the mind anyway when you're 23 in heart & mind ;)
Got a good deal on perfume and body spray at the Body Shop,buy 3 pay for 2 and £5 off!
Quote from: Jennygirl on June 06, 2013, 01:41:33 AM
Officially 6 months on hormones!! I'm half a year old :D
Congratulations :)
Quote from: Jamie Marie on June 06, 2013, 02:07:58 AM
It was actually yesterday but I talked to the main hr person at work about being trans. We talked for 15-20 minutes. It went great and so far i'm 3/5 with coming out to people that already know someone thats trans. She told me her daughter has two trans friends so she understands completely. I was scared and anxious and started to cry. But what really made my day was, she gave me a hug on the way out. I was so relieved.
Congratulations Jenny. Isn't it wonderful?
I stopped to try to have a child before transitioning. It's something else i've always wanted so i'm conflicted about that and hrt. Plus i'm extremely jealous because I cant get pregnant myself. My g/f gives me weird looks about that, but i would gladly trade what I don't want for periods and the body I wish I was born with. Is that normal for most of us to think about?
I don't know that there is a NORMAL, each is different, but I thought about children a lot, not that I wanted to raise children, I always wanted to be a surrogate, I thought about it a lot (still do and I am 50 and I have had children, 3 with regret)
I must have lost weight because my pants are falling down. Yay less prominent girly shape!
This evening I raided my wife's makeup bag while she was out. I did up my face, eyes and put on the lipstick. I wore a nice lace top with camisole underneath, cardigan and a light summer skirt together with necklace, earrings and bracelet.
I felt great. I looked in the mirror and saw the girl glance back at me and smile.
I so love being a woman, being myself, who I am.
I had a couple of tears when I had to return to guy mode but, that's ok............they were happy tears. I know I'm repeating myself but since I accepted that I am a woman, I so love being who I am. The way I feel right now I think it was worth repeating!!!
Thank you for listening,
Love,
Ciara.
Hey there - good job. It is fun to experiment and find your style.
It's just dawned on me that nobody has addressed me as 'madam' this week.
(That's jinxed it: now that I've said it, I just know I'm going to get 'madamed' all over the place this weekend).
Also, I just noticed that my previous post was my 665th post... so this is my post no. 666. >:-)
Quote from: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 07:44:47 PM
I took Caleb to the gun range today. I thought it was something to one-up his brothers, since you can't shoot guns up in Canada like we can here in the US. Caleb did pretty well with a 9mm pistol.
Then we went and shot some trap with my Mossberg 500
All in all, we had a great time together. ^_^
I am
so jealous of you two. v_v
Savor these last moments, y'all. :)
Quote from: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 07:44:47 PM
I took Caleb to the gun range today. I thought it was something to one-up his brothers, since you can't shoot guns up in Canada like we can here in the US. Caleb did pretty well with a 9mm pistol.
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Then we went and shot some trap with my Mossberg 500
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All in all, we had a great time together. ^_^
Yeehah! I can almost smell the powder!
I'm just happy to have all four of my limbs.
Something i have never noticed before, since it was so gradual:
The improvement of my guitar playing skills.
I was rummaging through an old pair of shorts my mother asked me to put on and i found my old flash-drive with old recordings. Guess what i've heard?
Erratic playing, offkey soloing and unnecessary fills that i no longer do.
Quote from: Malachite on June 08, 2013, 12:16:23 AM
I'm just happy to have all four of my limbs.
This is actually a really good reminder to me to not take my health and abilities for granted.
Quote from: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 07:44:47 PM
I took Caleb to the gun range today. I thought it was something to one-up his brothers, since you can't shoot guns up in Canada like we can here in the US. Caleb did pretty well with a 9mm pistol.
*snipped pics*
Then we went and shot some trap with my Mossberg 500
*snipped pics*
All in all, we had a great time together. ^_^
Cool, you've corrupted a Canadian with guns. :P
I just started a new Pokemon LeafGreen game. My trainer name is Anna (of course) and my rival's name is my male name (it seemed fitting) :D
Quote from: Renee on June 08, 2013, 05:54:46 PM
Cool, you've corrupted a Canadian with guns. :P
Yes, he is addicted. There was even talk of him buying his own gun. But, seeing as how he couldn't take it with him, he would leave it with me.
Shoes can be addictive :) I am often tempted greatly but somehow I've been able to keep myself in check
I look at the adverts and think 'Want those shoes!!! Want those shoes!!! Arrrrrgh!!!'
Tempting as it is, I know I have to stay within my budget, so new shoes will have to wait awhile :'(
Chatting with Caleb. He makes things better. ^_^
Just wish he was here too. :(
Today was the fist time that I was not mis-gendered by a stranger!! I was asked to show them (there were 3 in their group) to the elevator and was called by my birth name by the nurse on duty (I won't go into that right now) Anyway the lady asked "We are to follow her?" I squealed with delight It totally made my day!!! While showing them to the elevator I explained the the lady in the group whats going on and she did say that I need to change my name.
The papers to start that process will be filed within the next few weeks, This week is just way to busy.
Through friends at my church, I'd become the quasi-mentor to a young MTF who recently graduated a local high school and is now bound for Stanford.
She was her class's valedictorian.
And her chosen name was in the program, her chosen name was called when she walked across the stage, and she wore the color robe that the female students wore.
She's an openly MTF student who'd been embraced by her classmates and her school.
This gives me great joy!
Quote from: Constance on June 09, 2013, 02:30:14 PM
Through friends at my church, I'd become the quasi-mentor to a young MTF who recently graduated a local high school and is now bound for Stanford.
She was her class's valedictorian.
And her chosen name was in the program, her chosen name was called when she walked across the stage, and she wore the color robe that the female students wore.
She's an openly MTF student who'd been embraced by her classmates and her school.
This gives me great joy!
That's a great story Constance, another testimonial to how quickly society is evolving favorably on the issue of gender identity.
On a far simpler level, what made me happy today was going out for the first time in a sleeveless summer dress and seeing that the years of HRT really have done the trick on my arms, now as slim as those of any cis-woman who is my size. Pity it doesn't work on the hands too but best to stay focused on the positives.. :)
Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 09, 2013, 02:39:52 PM
That is sooooo super awesome! Good for her! ;D
Yeah. This friend from church was a year ahead of this particular MTF. My friend asked to put me in contact with the MTF to help support her. And now, I feel she's inspiring to me.
And I've told her as much!
Quote from: Constance on June 09, 2013, 02:30:14 PM
Through friends at my church, I'd become the quasi-mentor to a young MTF who recently graduated a local high school and is now bound for Stanford.
She was her class's valedictorian.
And her chosen name was in the program, her chosen name was called when she walked across the stage, and she wore the color robe that the female students wore.
She's an openly MTF student who'd been embraced by her classmates and her school.
This gives me great joy!
This story made me happy. Thank you for sharing, Constance! :)
Quote from: Constance on June 09, 2013, 02:30:14 PM
Through friends at my church, I'd become the quasi-mentor to a young MTF who recently graduated a local high school and is now bound for Stanford.
She was her class's valedictorian.
And her chosen name was in the program, her chosen name was called when she walked across the stage, and she wore the color robe that the female students wore.
She's an openly MTF student who'd been embraced by her classmates and her school.
This gives me great joy!
This has to be one of the best things I have read here. Thank you for sharing this with us Constance
8 months on hormones today. 2 months since coming out to every dimension of my life other than work.
I am slowly overcoming my insecurity about my gender and my transition and I'm starting to open up to people after a long, long spell of self-isolation.
Yay.
First day at my new job. Everyone was brilliant with pronouns, even those who had met me awhile back when I looked very female :)
And bathrooms are a non-issue...they are all single occupancy ones, so I can use the men's room without worrying about making people uncomfortable.
Oh, and tomorrow I go to court for my legal name change!!
Quote from: JulieR on June 09, 2013, 12:44:29 AM
I don't have any plans yet, but I feel guilty for buying too many shoes lately. I think I should be a good girl and just reimburse my credit card for some of my shoe indulgences.
¡No es posible!
Quote from: Constance on June 09, 2013, 02:30:14 PM
Through friends at my church, I'd become the quasi-mentor to a young MTF who recently graduated a local high school and is now bound for Stanford.
She was her class's valedictorian.
And her chosen name was in the program, her chosen name was called when she walked across the stage, and she wore the color robe that the female students wore.
She's an openly MTF student who'd been embraced by her classmates and her school.
This gives me great joy!
This is fantastic!
Quote from: Liam Erik on June 10, 2013, 08:31:26 PM
I got my drains out and my dressings off, which was quite painful, but now they're off, which is grand. I thought it seemed very high (like I would know) but in the mirror all the placement is clearly right on. Then I got to shower, and that was not easy to do, but a great improvement. Now I am more comfortable and more mobile, and I actually looked at my own chest for literally the first time in six years.
Congratulations Liam. I imagine you feel so much better about yourself. ^_^
Caleb came online early. More time with him. ^_^ hes taking a shower right now. Maybe a cold one because of me. >:-)
And I was told I can use the pool at the hotel Caleb stayed at. So the swimsuit wont be packed away. I wish Caleb could join me.
.... I sound pretty lovesick don't I? Lol
I won $86 in a class action lawsuit against TD Bank. It may not be much money but I like sticking it to banks.
I was showing my avatar photo to someone I talk to a lot in my summer course, told her I got a haircut, because you know, it's two girls, small chat, right? Anyway, she's like: "That's not you! Do you have a sister? Are you like a girl or something?" Well, something's working, all this with no makeup! Yay, finally the real me is breaking through.
Quote from: Keaira on June 10, 2013, 11:19:55 PM.... I sound pretty lovesick don't I? Lol
It's about time, it was your turn. >:-) lol
I wish I could swim with you again too. Go with you each day. It'd be worth it even if I felt dysphoric.
The county next to mine, which is also the county within which the capital of the state resides, just passed an amendment to their anti discrimination laws to include gender identity. :)
Guitar is fixed!
The guy in the takeaway knocked 50 pence off my veggie wrap because he remembered I was the nice lady who used to drive the bus.It tasted great as well
Had my name change court hearing today. Name if officially changed!
Now on to the hard part...changing over all my personal documents, accounts, etc.
I'm going to meet MaidofOrleans today!! Wohoo!! :D
Quote from: Jennygirl on June 12, 2013, 06:09:37 AM
I'm going to meet MaidofOrleans today!! Wohoo!! :D
Lucky you :D
Quote from: ford on June 11, 2013, 08:51:45 PM
Had my name change court hearing today. Name if officially changed!
Now on to the hard part...changing over all my personal documents, accounts, etc.
The paperwork aftermath is not fun, but having the legal name change is a wonderful feeling! Congrats!
I am soooo WIRED . . . restarted HRT yesterday after over a year hiatus!!
Note to self: Get "T" tested, somehow I don't think I'm gonna need "blockers" anymore !!
Quote from: ford on June 11, 2013, 08:51:45 PM
Had my name change court hearing today. Name if officially changed!
Now on to the hard part...changing over all my personal documents, accounts, etc.
Congrats, you're just zooming along with transition. :)
Pizza
Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 11, 2013, 05:43:42 PM
What was wrong with it?
Two broken strings and i'm totally inept at these things. I already changed my guitar-playing style again. Quite mellow and clean. Not as psychedelic-sounding as before.
Today there was nothing to be happy about. Just getting more and more suicidal.
Quote from: Simon on June 12, 2013, 04:39:51 PM
Congrats, you're just zooming along with transition. :)
Hehe, thanks! Yeah, I'm at a point in my life where this is the perfect time to transition. I have some saved funds, I'm living in the right area for it, and I have a job where my trans status is a non issue. No way I'm going to let these opportunities pass me by.
Top surgery though...that one is gonna have to wait until I have enough vacation days (and a little more money). Which won't be...well, for a while. Maybe next year, if I'm lucky.
Muuuuussssiiiiicccc! And spending time with a new friend.
I woke up with my cat curled up next to me, and when he saw I was awake he started nuzzling my face. :3
I got two tattoos that I had been looking forward to for months
Mail issue sorted!
Guess what books I got in the mail! These ones!
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13602221-goblinheart (http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13602221-goblinheart)
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/887201.Faeries?ac=1 (http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/887201.Faeries?ac=1)
I saw a girl today while on the train that i could actually imagine myself as (i notice a pattern: adult, not all that young or girly, serious)
I attended a meeting with the people who run the hostel where i'm staying, after the meeting I was chatting with one of the people from the London branch & discussed some of the problems i've faced due to being trans & in a hostel, I didn't give the conversation much thought until one of the support workers approached me today with this news.
The group who run the hostel will have a stand at London Pride this year & they want me to attend, they are willing to pay for travel expenses so I can meet their LGBT team to begin looking at setting up a trans support group for my home town, they have already offered a venue & meeting their team is the next step to getting things set up.
I've also been told that this could eventually lead to me getting job with this organisation, yay!!!!
It's amazing what can come out of an innocent conversation. ;D
Two things are making me happy right now.......
First, I painted my nails earlier for the first time. I need a little practice but the result was really nice. I'm looking forward to experimenting with different colours. It was good fun though. Its funny how little things can make you feel nice.
Second, we are driving to Shannon Airport tonight and flying to Boston in the morning to have a holiday with our son. I'm really looking forward to seeing him.
Love,
Ciara.
$1.02
Quote from: Jayne on June 13, 2013, 01:47:33 PM
I attended a meeting with the people who run the hostel where i'm staying, after the meeting I was chatting with one of the people from the London branch & discussed some of the problems i've faced due to being trans & in a hostel, I didn't give the conversation much thought until one of the support workers approached me today with this news.
The group who run the hostel will have a stand at London Pride this year & they want me to attend, they are willing to pay for travel expenses so I can meet their LGBT team to begin looking at setting up a trans support group for my home town, they have already offered a venue & meeting their team is the next step to getting things set up.
I've also been told that this could eventually lead to me getting job with this organisation, yay!!!!
It's amazing what can come out of an innocent conversation. ;D
That's great news Jayne :) Wishing you all the best for things to go well
Just passed brilliantly to a group of burly builders in my local McDonald's. Including in the men's room. ;D
Quote from: JulieR on June 13, 2013, 07:30:32 PM
I've been haunting thrift stores looking for feminine eyeglass frames. I'll eventually buy new eyewear (contacts?), but for now I'll just have thrift store frames to get some idea of fashion and what looks good on me. The happy is that I found 2 pairs, one pair isn't too far from serviceable for my eyesight, the other pair are tinted prescriptions in a frame style I'm liking a lot.
This style is rather fetching, don't you think?
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Hearing about the change in Social Security that will let me change my gender in my records without GRS and that the SS card no laonger has the gender marker on it
Got to chat with Caleb when he woke up. Which was nice as I was writing about him in an email to my Mum.
Did some more clothes shopping today at the mall.
Small steps
Oh how much better it is than guy shopping which I have always hated.
No wonder girls love shopping for clothes... ;D
A few things, got my hair colored(post pics later), got myself my first hair straightener, The complete young ones series collection dvd(blame my best friend), also got myself some tweezers so hopefully eyebrows will get improved soon, bought a round spiky hair brush and a few other things. Guess I pampered myself a bit XD
I actually got four hours of sleep, that is massive, four hours in one night! this makes 28 hours in 6 months now ;D
making $20 in a Craigslist sale
I'm finally where I want to be with my current job. I work at a place that services cars (oil changes, tires, etc) and I haven't been able to be an actual technician due to no openings. They finally bumped me back up to tech today. Now I get to work in the scalding heat again! I'm so excited. ;D
I got a nice deal on a new pair of sparkly danglers (earrings) :)
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I managed to use my girl voice for both a friend on Skype and my therapist in person! I would like to think this means I'm finally clearing that mental hurdle.
Perfect morning with my boyfriend. Dried off after a long soak in the hot tub while the sun rose, did some research online. Going to hop in in the shower now, then head for breakfast with our friends, before heading for our place in the Portland Pride Parade. Last year I was cheering from the sidewalk, today I will be raising a happy ruckus while marching in my happy boots.
Seeing people keep misspelling Jamie D's name as Jaime. :D :P
Quote from: V M on June 15, 2013, 05:48:43 PM
I got a nice deal on a new pair of sparkly danglers (earrings) :)
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Virginia,
Those will look good on you doll, nice choice! I used to have pierced ears but i quit wearing them and the holes grew shut.
Dad gave me $11.12
Quote from: Renee on June 16, 2013, 04:51:29 PM
Seeing people keep misspelling Jamie D's name as Jaime. :D :P
I'm going to get you for that!
Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 02:14:48 PM
Dad gave me $11.12
Back on topic. I am greatly impressed that Malachite's fund is over $1400! I remember when it was 72 cents.
Quote from: V M on June 15, 2013, 05:48:43 PM
I got a nice deal on a new pair of sparkly danglers (earrings) :)
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Oooo. What are they made out of? They remind me of a mineral.
Quote from: Shantel on June 17, 2013, 09:01:56 AM
Virginia,
Those will look good on you doll, nice choice! I used to have pierced ears but i quit wearing them and the holes grew shut.
Thank you Shantel :) I absolutely love them, I have two piercings in each ear so I wore my white topaz studs in the top holes and the new danglers in the bottom holes with a purple tank dress, a white cowgirl (garden) hat w/purple feathers and white sandals :)
Quote from: Jamie D on June 17, 2013, 03:51:38 PM
Oooo. What are they made out of? They remind me of a mineral.
I feel silly because I can't remember what kind of stone they are and I'm usually good about that stuff :D I wrote it down somewhere but can't find it... Some kind of pink something with tiny crystals around the bottom drop
Quote from: Jamie D on June 17, 2013, 03:51:38 PM
Back on topic. I am greatly impressed that Malachite's fund is over $1400! I remember when it was 72 cents.
Thanks! I'm actually impressed with myself too and I was thinking about it today. You remember when it was .72 cents? :o You have a better memory than me. I thought I started with $300.
Air conditioning on the trains. Thank goodness!
Ordinary things nothing special,I got my Dad a present and card for his birthday,bought some vegetables to make a meal and listened to some music and watched a cookery programme.
I've been realizing that I am now to the point of seeing nothing but female when looking in the mirror without makeup.
I've been almost there for a while, but the last laser session really finally did it. Half of the days I don't even wear makeup, and I am just as confident as ever. It used to be that I had to cake it on in order to feel like I was remotely passing. Now, I just feel female all over- from the inside out.... from the moment I wake up... to the moment I go to bed. And on that note... I go to bed happy as ever.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Jennygirl I only see a very attractive girl in your pictures. Changes have been incredible for you from your earlier ones a few months ago. No wonder you feel so happy, I am envious, but my turn will come.
I had a good day in that I got a massive bit of work over the line after 5 months straight. I was a mission impossible, lucky me and was at work till 2am getting it completed earlier today. Very tired now as only got 3 hours sleep last night.
With this work now delivered I can take some time off and can organise to see a therapist and start HRT!!!
About time as I have had to work many weekends since January.
My ex also won her court case so she can now get all the medical help she needs but still I wish she never had her accident as it changed my life and took me to some very dark places.
Quote from: V M on June 15, 2013, 05:48:43 PM
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They remind me of "rose quartz." Rhodochrosite is too soft for jewelery, but has a lovely pink color.
It could be chalcedonly too, but I have never seen it in that color. Rhodonite? Don't think so, but the color is close.
Quote from: Jamie D on June 18, 2013, 06:05:06 AM
They remind me of "rose quartz." Rhodochrosite is too soft for jewelery, but has a lovely pink color.
It could be chalcedonly too, but I have never seen it in that color. Rhodonite? Don't think so, but the color is close.
I think they might be rose quartz, is rough rose quartz kinda sparkly? I think it's too light of a pink to be Rhodonite
I got them for less than 1/4 retail :)
Quote from: V M on June 18, 2013, 06:27:02 AM
I think they might be rose quarts, is rough rose quartz kinda sparkly? I think its too light of a pink to be rhodochrosite
I got them for less than 1/4 retail :)
Sweet! The "sparkly" could come the micro-crystal faces.
In any case, they are very pretty pieces.
My internet seems to be working again! Hurrah!
Quote from: MadelineB on June 16, 2013, 09:15:34 AM
Perfect morning with my boyfriend. Dried off after a long soak in the hot tub while the sun rose, did some research online. Going to hop in in the shower now, then head for breakfast with our friends, before heading for our place in the Portland Pride Parade. Last year I was cheering from the sidewalk, today I will be raising a happy ruckus while marching in my happy boots.
Boyfriend huh? No wonder we haven't seen you around much lately! ;D
Sang the blues (literally, he played the guitar) at my session with my therapist. I didn't want to talk.
A medley composed of:
Trouble Every Day
Bring It On Home
Bleeding Heart
Afterwards we went for some cake with another client. She seems nice. We talked in detail about Pokemon, which i haven't played in a long time. We told each other about our family histories. Whew, at least i knew my father for a long time.
Quote from: JulieR on June 18, 2013, 03:07:39 PM
I finally figured out why women's clothes have so many extra loops. It makes them easier to hang so that they won't wrinkle or get misshapen on a hanger :D
Really? I thought it was 'cause we're naturally so loopy. :D
Quote from: JulieR on June 18, 2013, 03:34:50 PM
Now now, Zoe, we trans girls have to forget whatever fem bashing we used to do. We might wind up telling a bad joke in the wrong place.
I found a gorgeous purple cowl neck with 3/4 sleeves but it had 2 extra loops at the top. I thought maybe they were for tying together some way, or somehow provide additional definition to the cowl. Finally it hit me while I was trying to hang it up. DOH!!!!
That's the thing - I never used to speak ill of either gender. Nowadays, though, I feel no urge to restrain myself from joking about myself. :)
Quote from: ZoeM on June 18, 2013, 03:53:13 PM
That's the thing - I never used to speak ill of either gender. Nowadays, though, I feel no urge to restrain myself from joking about myself. :)
Zoe, there are a lot of folks here that occasionally make self-depricating remarks, I do and find it therapeutic as it helps me to not take myself too seriously and get overwrought with GID issues.
Drinking milk... because it can give me a mustache, even if it is only fleeting, white and... wet.
I found a job that I am really excited to apply for. I've found that I've had to change my direction a little, as I always get "clocked" in extremely liberal places, and they think I am the oh so fascinating resident transsexual. And aaaaall they want to talk about is my experiences. No thanks. And I'm jaded with the gay/lesbian community in this city, I don't want anything to do with them. So my options are limited.
But there's a job at the Counselling centre that I qualify for. They might be familiar with trans people, but I imagine that they have the good grace to keep their mouths shut if they happen to clock me. I won't out myself though because I am sick of being a token.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 18, 2013, 06:26:39 PM
But there's a job at the Counselling centre that I qualify for. They might be familiar with trans people, but I imagine that they have the good grace to keep their mouths shut if they happen to clock me. I won't out myself though because I am sick of being a token.
And if for some reason you get clocked will you turn down the opportunity rather than becoming the token that eventually outshines the rest of the staff?
I don't know. Realistically I'd probably keep the job, for money and experience and such, but I'd be really upset. I never used to have a problem being out, or even outed, but people were kind of like mind vultures and it got me feeling really depressed.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 18, 2013, 06:58:37 PM
I don't know. Realistically I'd probably keep the job, for money and experience and such, but I'd be really upset. I never used to have a problem being out, or even outed, but people were kind of like mind vultures and it got me feeling really depressed.
There are ways of putting up walls for those types. I have reversed so much of other peoples crap back onto them that it has become like an Xbox game skill for me, you can do the same.
I had a White House Breifing today, was given an official declaration that June 2013 is GLBT month, ate at Georgia Brown's, gazed upon the Declaration of Independance, the U.S. constitution, the Bill of Rights, the Bell X-1, Space Ship One, the Washington Monument and got to see , finally, The USS Enterprise 1701 original filming model. My feet hurt, I'm tired but I'm so happy about what I got done today. With all the lobbying and meetings with officials, this has been one of my busiest, tiring and exciting times in my life. ENDA is still a big issue and I really hope it passes. If it does, you're welcome! :P
Quote from: Keaira on June 18, 2013, 09:11:17 PM
I had a White House Breifing today, was given an official declaration that June 2013 is GLBT month, ate at Georgia Brown's, gazed upon the Declaration of Independance, the U.S. constitution, the Bill of Rights, the Bell X-1, Space Ship One, the Washington Monument and got to see , finally, The USS Enterprise 1701 original filming model. My feet hurt, I'm tired but I'm so happy about what I got done today. With all the lobbying and meetings with officials, this has been one of my busiest, tiring and exciting times in my life. ENDA is still a big issue and I really hope it passes. If it does, you're welcome! :P
;D Sounds awesome. I'm jealous in multiple ways, lol, I wish I was there.
I wish you were too. :(
It's sunny and it's my day off
This double chocolate klondike bar.
What can I say...I'm a true fatty. :laugh:
Blasting through some ant piles a few minutes ago with a water hose and when I was blasting through a particular pile there was a penny buried under it. so I washed it off and put it in my top surgery fund. HECK YES another penny! I'm about to go change my fund number now.
My daughter, who is a writer, has emailed me a copy of her latest work of fiction. After the rubbish week I've had at home, it's nice to feel included in this way.
Found this little gem when getting groceries!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F24.media.tumblr.com%2F2b3cc55c55c9cbd768b94b81da6b0abb%2Ftumblr_monhmxxapR1rhq6who1_1280.jpg&hash=690b1fc8d392052195a980f826c7e5fe4c6d1c14)
Yes, I'm a pepsi addict.
Quote from: Tossu-sama on June 19, 2013, 12:26:46 PM
Found this little gem when getting groceries!
I thought "what's so great about that" and then I remembered you're in Finland where those are probably few and far between. I live about 20 miles from a Pepsi plant. It originates from my State. ;D
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I'm happily dreaming about the future. Only around 11 more months of binding left for me. :)
I just found a tenner whilst walking the dog ;D
I had a phone call this morning confirming that I can sign the paperwork for my new flat on Friday morning & move in straight away, I can finally get away from this horrible hostel.
My new flat has a new fangled invention called hot water! After 4 months without hot water I can't wait to move in & soak in a hot bath instead of shivering in a cold shower ::)
Quote from: Jayne on June 19, 2013, 01:06:15 PM
I just found a tenner whilst walking the dog ;D
I had a phone call this morning confirming that I can sign the paperwork for my new flat on Friday morning & move in straight away, I can finally get away from this horrible hostel.
My new flat has a new fangled invention called hot water! After 4 months without hot water I can't wait to move in & soak in a hot bath instead of shivering in a cold shower ::)
Found a ten, sounds like your luck is changing. You're coming up in the world Jayne, couldn't happen to a nicer person!
I saw an old friend today. I have not seen her for the past 11 years or so. Today she came over to see me. We had an awesome time laughing and joking about the past. And she totally accepts me as Bethany. :)
Quote from: Simon on June 19, 2013, 12:50:48 PM
I thought "what's so great about that" and then I remembered you're in Finland where those are probably few and far between. I live about 20 miles from a Pepsi plant. It originates from my State. ;D
You're right, finding 12-packs of any soda tends to be pretty rare, at least in the smaller shops (the nearest one to us is part of the chain of small grocery stores in Finland and their selection is... lacking). They might be more common in the big supermarkets but there's none near us so yeah. :D
Lidl usually has something similar but it's five kilometres from us and we don't have a car. :'D And Pepsi is my favorite soda!
And damn, does it taste good from a can~
Actually, I like when my favourite things are harder to find. It makes the times you do stumble across them that much more awesome. ;D
Quote from: Prof HB on June 19, 2013, 07:45:46 PM
Actually, I like when my favourite things are harder to find. It makes the times you do stumble across them that much more awesome. ;D
haha clean your room Caleb! ;D :D
chicken nuggets
Quote from: Shantel on June 19, 2013, 07:54:04 PM
haha clean your room Caleb! ;D :D
I don't wannaaaaa.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/06/17/tom-carper-enda_n_3454733.html (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/06/17/tom-carper-enda_n_3454733.html)
This!
Yea, we made some waves!
My feet are killing me, but we saw the Natural History Museum and American History Museum. Then we had Indian food for dinner. My first curry in over 13 yrs!
My work in Washington DC is done for now. We head back for Indiana in the morning.
*Reads Tossu-Rama's post...looks in back room at the three 24 packs of Pepsi Max cans for self making oneself have about 68 cans all up...feels bad*
Pepsi rules!!
Got a little bit more done on some figures I am working on(yes I customise 12" action figures..geek much?)
An ice cream and a banana milk shake and an evening stroll along the sea front.It would have been perfect if there was someone else to share it with
My friends were joking about, calling me a man and reffering to me as a he. They don't know my circumstances.
One was like, "Oh's it's over there, by where she's standing."
And the other replied, "She? Where? All I see are three guys."
He was trying so hard to offend me, but he will never know how happy he made me. I just wish they'd play that game more often!
So last night I looked in the mirror and noticed just how much of my facial hair has now gone forever!
I have been getting laser for 11 months now and boy what a difference, only a few stray hairs left now plus some grey ones which I have already seen an electrologyst about for the first time.
Have had my legs done as well and there is almost no hair left on them. ;D
Happy happy days indeed!
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on June 20, 2013, 01:36:14 AM
*Reads Tossu-Rama's post...looks in back room at the three 24 packs of Pepsi Max cans for self making oneself have about 68 cans all up...feels bad*
Pepsi rules!!
Nine 1.5 litre bottles lying around the floor atm... And that's little. There was more but we returned the bottles. :D
And we're not even talking about all the energy drink bottles and cans I've left behind... The things I do for caffeine addiction. :'D
Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 19, 2013, 03:11:15 PM
I used to buy the Mint flavored ones. Those were awesome. But I cut back and my body thanks me for that. I did assault it with a large pan of nachos awhile back (first time in four months) so that was a different story.
Everyone knows that nachos are health food!
Buy one get one half price at Holland & Barrett my favourite veggie shop
Quote from: big kim on June 20, 2013, 10:57:18 AM
Buy one get one half price at Holland & Barrett my favourite veggie shop
Otherwise known as 'buy two at a hugely inflated, artificially high price, before we drop it back down to the usual price for a few weeks!'. ;)
Sorry to point this out, but H&B do this all the time. You might have found a bargain with a specific product, but I can tell you that my favourite protein supplements usually cost £18.99 each. But when the 'buy one get one half price' deal starts, they rocket up to £42.99 each, which means two will cost £64.48 on the 'deal', instead of £37.98 at the normal price. The shareholders must be laughing all the way to the bank.
They cycle through this every couple of weeks, trying to fool customers into thinking they're getting a bargain. Such a rip-off; please keep your eyes peeled.
talking to my friend
Quote from: Jamie D on June 20, 2013, 10:43:17 AM
Everyone knows that nachos are health food!
Along with a pitcher of Mack & Jack's!
I signed the papers today for school! I am official enrolled in hairdressing school!!
I got an "I love you" from one of my bosses today.
It was great, I totally thought I screwed up big time. We've been working on this very complex land deal for over a year, and she finally finished all the documents and entrusted them with me to go and record them at town hall in a certain order, with instruction to fill in the blanks with the appropriate page numbers, along with the recording fee of $371. I gave them to the clerk (who's my ex-boyfriend's really lovely mother) to record and by mutual misunderstanding an exhibit from one deed got messed up with another deed. In the car, while double checking everything I noticed the misorder and started mentally freaking out, called my boss and told her there was a mess up. She said to have it all rerecorded. Luckily, I go in and the clerk is able to just rig the recording machine and renumber the affected pages. Yay! I got the "I love you" when I called my boss and told her I got it all fixed. ;D
Quote from: LearnedHand on June 20, 2013, 03:47:15 PM
I got an "I love you" from one of my bosses today.
It was great, I totally thought I screwed up big time. We've been working on this very complex land deal for over a year, and she finally finished all the documents and entrusted them with me to go and record them at town hall in a certain order, with instruction to fill in the blanks with the appropriate page numbers, along with the recording fee of $371. I gave them to the clerk (who's my ex-boyfriend's really lovely mother) to record and by mutual misunderstanding an exhibit from one deed got messed up with another deed. In the car, while double checking everything I noticed the misorder and started mentally freaking out, called my boss and told her there was a mess up. She said to have it all rerecorded. Luckily, I go in and the clerk is able to just rig the recording machine and renumber the affected pages. Yay! I got the "I love you" when I called my boss and told her I got it all fixed. ;D
Terrific work! :eusa_clap:
I AM HOME!!
Quote from: Shantel on June 20, 2013, 12:14:01 PM
Along with a pitcher of Mack & Jack's!
I had to look that one up.
http://www.macandjacks.com/ (http://www.macandjacks.com/)
Quote from: Keaira on June 20, 2013, 10:27:18 PM
I AM HOME!!
Yay! Welcome home from the Crusades. :)
A happy solstice to you all - what care I that I'm still awake at 4.30 in the morning and listening to the seagulls waking up? :) Well, if I can't sleep at least I can bombard people with well-wishes, innit.
Finding my old TNA wrestling shirt.
Will I ever wear it again? Probably no time soon.
Quote from: Padma on June 20, 2013, 10:38:55 PM
A happy solstice to you all - what care I that I'm still awake at 4.30 in the morning and listening to the seagulls waking up? :) Well, if I can't sleep at least I can bombard people with well-wishes, innit.
I should go to the beach tomorrow morning and dance naked at sunrise.
You are inspirational ;)
The results of the NBA Finals. :)
Being called "Signora" by the female receptionaist when checking out from my hotel in Parma this morning even though I was presenting male. A first for me in Italy and was that a really nice way to start the day! :)
Donna
P.S. Apart from that, I think I get more funny looks in Italy than anywhere else I have been over the last couple of years. The Italians stare, something the French do not do at all.
Quote from: Jamie D on June 20, 2013, 10:38:40 PM
Yay! Welcome home from the Crusades. :)
LOL Thank you. it went well. :)
Quote from: Donna Elvira on June 21, 2013, 04:20:49 AM
Being called "Signora" by the female receptionaist when checking out from my hotel in Parma this morning even though I was presenting male. A first for me in Italy and was that a really nice way to start the day! :)
Donna
P.S. Apart from that, I think I get more funny looks in Italy than anywhere else I have been over the last couple of years. The Italians stare, something the French do not do at all.
Nice way is right, kudos! I hear that the Italians also like to pinch. ;)
my new computer arrive earlier than expected
Hershey's cookies and cream bar
Last night getting out the bath I grabbed my towel forgetting that it was covering my smartphone. A moment of horror as I watched the arc made by a flying smartphone straight for the water...
..lightning reflexes caught the smartphone as it hit the water with a splash. Dropped the towel in the bath, slipped on the wet bathroom floor, overbalanced, knocking a few cosmetics into the toilet bowl, stubbed my toe on the door on the way out not looking where I was going.. (I was busy separating smartphone from battery, SIM and microSD card.
Plonked it down in front of a fan heater..
..and...
..waited...
..and waited...
Not long back tried the smartphone, got the Android boot screen, did a hard reboot, then a factory reset.
I've lost my text messages but will be able to recover my contacts and applications.
But most importantly my smartphone works again...
.. and I is a happy bunny.
Happy day! It was my day off so I got up super early and biked 30 miles on the Airline Rail Trail ;D
Found some mountains and tried to take a picture with them, although that didn't work out so well haha.. Can't really see them
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1284.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa567%2Fjacesphotobucket%2Feasthampton_zps0b062fb6.jpg&hash=9dad18d954a9c350c90c7965eb1c9c7874ef285a)
Looks beautiful Chamillion! Wish I wasn't at work now
I signed the contract for my flat today, I can finally get out of this damn hostel!!
Over the last 6 - 7 months i've had the police out 3 times, twice for transphobic abuse. I've had to put up with no hot water for months, loud music at all hours & people having screaming arguments at all hours.
I've even had to carry one tenant back from the local fields after she was found out cold due to too many prescription tablets & too much booze ::)
To sum these last few months up I would say it's been hell!
By midday tomorrow i'll be in my new flat & up to my chin in a hot bath, I can't wait.
The only downside is that I won't have a broadband connection for at least a few weeks but it's a small price to pay
Jayne
Quote from: Jayne on June 21, 2013, 02:48:07 PM
I signed the contract for my flat today, I can finally get out of this damn hostel!!
Over the last 6 - 7 months i've had the police out 3 times, twice for transphobic abuse. I've had to put up with no hot water for months, loud music at all hours & people having screaming arguments at all hours.
I've even had to carry one tenant back from the local fields after she was found out cold due to too many prescription tablets & too much booze ::)
To sum these last few months up I would say it's been hell!
By midday tomorrow i'll be in my new flat & up to my chin in a hot bath, I can't wait.
The only downside is that I won't have a broadband connection for at least a few weeks but it's a small price to pay
Jayne
Hooray! Isn't it a good feeling? So happy for you.
The weeks will fly by as you're setting everything up.
Here is a snippet of conversation with a friend earlier:
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Friend: btw, your hair looks pretty today
Friend: did you part it differently?
The part is on the same side, but I let it dry differently. Instead of brushing it out over my ears I instead let it dry behind my ears with a hat on (both to hold it in place and to shade my eyes as I walked to work this morning)
Quote from: Jayne on June 21, 2013, 02:48:07 PM
I signed the contract for my flat today, I can finally get out of this damn hostel!!
Over the last 6 - 7 months i've had the police out 3 times, twice for transphobic abuse. I've had to put up with no hot water for months, loud music at all hours & people having screaming arguments at all hours.
I've even had to carry one tenant back from the local fields after she was found out cold due to too many prescription tablets & too much booze ::)
To sum these last few months up I would say it's been hell!
By midday tomorrow i'll be in my new flat & up to my chin in a hot bath, I can't wait.
The only downside is that I won't have a broadband connection for at least a few weeks but it's a small price to pay
Jayne
I'm pleased for you Jayne, you've weathered a lot of adversity and prevailed. Maybe a nice hot soak in a bubble bath is in order? :)
Sorry for the length, but I have to tell someone about this.
So I'm walking around the downstairs tidying up. I'm wearing a lightweight pink top that shows my body contours well and a gray denim skirt that goes to about two inches above the knees. It's pitch dark outside, so every window acts like a full-length mirror.
And I see this woman staring back at me and I realize that sometime in the past few weeks, I've actually become a woman.
Big deal, you say, this is Susan's. People change their sex all the time.
But, see I've wanted to be female for ALMOST FORTY YEARS. And here I am, not just a woman, but exactly the woman I want to be. I love the way I'm dressed, I love the way my body looks. I hate my face and hair, but what woman doesn't?
I just can't believe that something so amazing has happened. I've actually changed my sex!
At one of the workshops in the Philadelphia Trans Health conference, there was a discussion about the new "Gender Identity Dysphoria" designation. One of the guys commented that he didn't like that, because not all of us experience dysphoria. "Some people," he said, "experience gender EUphoria." His point was that transition and treatment were just as appropriate for them.
That's definitely they way my transgender manifests itself, as an overwhelming euphoria when I see myself, or some part of myself, looking like the female I should be.
Again, sorry for the length, but I had to share this with someone.
Quote from: StellaB on June 21, 2013, 12:20:32 PM
Last night getting out the bath I grabbed my towel forgetting that it was covering my smartphone. A moment of horror as I watched the arc made by a flying smartphone straight for the water...
..lightning reflexes caught the smartphone as it hit the water with a splash. Dropped the towel in the bath, slipped on the wet bathroom floor, overbalanced, knocking a few cosmetics into the toilet bowl, stubbed my toe on the door on the way out not looking where I was going.. (I was busy separating smartphone from battery, SIM and microSD card.
Plonked it down in front of a fan heater..
..and...
..waited...
..and waited...
Not long back tried the smartphone, got the Android boot screen, did a hard reboot, then a factory reset.
I've lost my text messages but will be able to recover my contacts and applications.
But most importantly my smartphone works again...
.. and I is a happy bunny.
Wow, bravo on saving the phone! Knowing me, I would have been knocked out from hitting my head or something.
Quote from: Chamillion on June 21, 2013, 12:32:07 PM
Happy day! It was my day off so I got up super early and biked 30 miles on the Airline Rail Trail ;D
Found some mountains and tried to take a picture with them, although that didn't work out so well haha.. Can't really see them
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1284.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa567%2Fjacesphotobucket%2Feasthampton_zps0b062fb6.jpg&hash=9dad18d954a9c350c90c7965eb1c9c7874ef285a)
But hey, you look mighty handsome in that picture!
Quote from: Jayne on June 21, 2013, 02:48:07 PM
I signed the contract for my flat today, I can finally get out of this damn hostel!!
Over the last 6 - 7 months i've had the police out 3 times, twice for transphobic abuse. I've had to put up with no hot water for months, loud music at all hours & people having screaming arguments at all hours.
I've even had to carry one tenant back from the local fields after she was found out cold due to too many prescription tablets & too much booze ::)
To sum these last few months up I would say it's been hell!
By midday tomorrow i'll be in my new flat & up to my chin in a hot bath, I can't wait.
The only downside is that I won't have a broadband connection for at least a few weeks but it's a small price to pay
Jayne
Congratulations! There's nothing like getting a new place after being in somewhere horrible. Mine wasn't as bad but our window air conditioners didn't work well and our studio apartment was always 80 degrees. And our hot water would go out all the time, right in the middle of my shower. Imagine my surprise when my searing hot shower became freezing cold.
Suzifrommd, that sounds absolutely wonderful. I am so happy that you feel so good about finally being you. A huge congratulations to you, madame. And may you enjoy your gender euphoria for the rest of your days :)
Quote from: suzifrommd on June 21, 2013, 09:04:52 PM
Sorry for the length, but I have to tell someone about this.
So I'm walking around the downstairs tidying up. I'm wearing a lightweight pink top that shows my body contours well and a gray denim skirt that goes to about two inches above the knees. It's pitch dark outside, so every window acts like a full-length mirror.
And I see this woman staring back at me and I realize that sometime in the past few weeks, I've actually become a woman.
Big deal, you say, this is Susan's. People change their sex all the time.
But, see I've wanted to be female for ALMOST FORTY YEARS. And here I am, not just a woman, but exactly the woman I want to be. I love the way I'm dressed, I love the way my body looks. I hate my face and hair, but what woman doesn't?
I just can't believe that something so amazing has happened. I've actually changed my sex!
At one of the workshops in the Philadelphia Trans Health conference, there was a discussion about the new "Gender Identity Dysphoria" designation. One of the guys commented that he didn't like that, because not all of us experience dysphoria. "Some people," he said, "experience gender EUphoria." His point was that transition and treatment were just as appropriate for them.
That's definitely they way my transgender manifests itself, as an overwhelming euphoria when I see myself, or some part of myself, looking like the female I should be.
Again, sorry for the length, but I had to share this with someone.
Awesome post.
Being able to help one of my neighbor's with her bicycle rack and basket and hearing her sister say "Damn girl, you got skills" :icon_chuckel:
Well...I am going to sleep well tonight lol.
I should hope so :P
Well I would if the damned what-I-expect-now-is-lactose-intolerance didn't come on with a vengeance and try to kill me. :( Lol.
Reading through this forum.
Some of you are fantastic story tellers, you express yourselves so well. Its like getting a big hug from people who just get it. I don't have to say anything because you all do.
Mum spotting my new earrings instantly, and dealing with the idea just as quickly.
Though if she'd seen exactly which shoes I was looking at 60 seconds earlier in the shoe shop where we accidentally met, I'm not sure if things'd've gone quite so smoothly. :o
My new bedtime companion :)
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Quote from: suzifrommd on June 23, 2013, 04:08:02 PM
My new bedtime companion :)
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So cute! The elephant will never give you a hard time Suzi.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 23, 2013, 03:15:48 AM
Well...I am going to sleep well tonight lol.
Does that mean that you're out of danger?
Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 23, 2013, 08:21:39 PM
Does it have a name?
No name yet. Or a gender, I might add. Right now ze's sort of non-binary. I suppose I'll come up with a name when ze finds zir gender identity.
I guess it would be me who would end up with a genderfluid elephant.
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Doris Dog & Patricia Porcupine.
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Precious. Just precious.
Quote from: suzifrommd on June 23, 2013, 08:32:48 PM
No name yet. Or a gender, I might add. Right now ze's sort of non-binary. I suppose I'll come up with a name when ze finds zir gender identity.
I guess it would be me who would end up with a genderfluid elephant.
quote author=Miss Bungle link=topic=139969.msg1167396#msg1167396 date=1372036899]
Doris Dog & Patricia Porcupine.
Precious. Just precious.
How about Mallory? It's a gender neutral name.
It was yesterday, but I got home late and didn't log in.
I found a way I could involve my parents in my transition.
When I came out to them in Spring of 2011 and announced my chosen name, my mom was a little disappointed and had wondered if I'd consider the name they'd chosen if I'd been assigned female at birth, Karen. I declined and they accepted this. The court order for my legal name and gender change in January declared that a new birth certificate was to be issued.
My parents agreed to be the signatories on the affidavit to change the birth certificate!
I completed a DIY task today and got it right! Didn't mess up, didn't cut wood wrong length after measuring 20 times, didn't drill holes in wrong place......................didn't make any mistakes and the finish is spot on. So pleased. :)
I have my first therapist appointment July 17!!!!! YAAAAAY!!!!!!!
I know now i NEED to confront myself and act. This will not go away.
Oh, and i noticed how much my guitar technique has improved.
Forgot to post this yesterday as that is when it happened, but here we go! I bought my first boy clothes! Enough for the weekend. Except socks. I forgot that. And I'm not gunna wear boxers just yet. But I got them all washed and all I have to do is repair the button on the cargo pants. And they are getting packed tonight for the convention this weekend! I'm excited. Plus I get to see Misato!
Quote from: Darkie on June 24, 2013, 01:03:39 PM
Forgot to post this yesterday as that is when it happened, but here we go! I bought my first boy clothes! Enough for the weekend. Except socks. I forgot that. And I'm not gunna wear boxers just yet. But I got them all washed and all I have to do is repair the button on the cargo pants. And they are getting packed tonight for the convention this weekend! I'm excited. Plus I get to see Misato!
So cool, sounds like you're on a roll! :)
I think i passed a test i was very nervous about very well, actually. I hate maths. Give me "English" or "History" anytime or let me write a poem for "German". But it won't matter because that teacher is an idiot with a grudge against me, but i showed her. Hah!
I made a lot of progress planning one of my characters! Woohoo!
Caleb, Once again said that I was right.
This time it was the fact that shaving sucks. He hates me so bad right now.
Quote from: Keaira on June 24, 2013, 10:15:40 PM
Caleb, Once again said that I was right.
This time it was the fact that shaving sucks. He hates me so bad right now.
I mean, i don't know how to feel. I am THRILLED about the facial hair but it's itchy, and shaving tends to aggravate my acne and I have to do it every two days now and grrr.
At least you dont have to shave your legs. I have to do both legs and face, so you're getting off lightly.
I hate that I can state that. Definitely not bragging.
-_-
Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 24, 2013, 09:11:42 PM
The dvd boxset that I ordered came in today. It has ten discs of various cartoons but I only wanted the 10th disc in the set because it contained the missing episodes from the Get Along Gang series that wasn't included in the DVD. I gave the rest of the set to an aunt of mine that is a cartoon fan. She babysits for a friend of my mom's and her daughter was a fan of several of the series so that was really cool since I wasn't sure if she even knew of any of them since she's only 5 (But has the mental capacity of a 10 year old :D). But she knew of several of them from Cartoon Network so it has worked out well for everyone.
She also thinks I am crazy that I have dolls and stuff. When I showed her my clip on of Portia that I carry with me, she got her species right on the second try. :D
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Awe, I remember the get along gang!
I have an appointment with an endo! Hurrah!
Quote from: Liam Erik on June 24, 2013, 09:37:24 PM
I am out of my compression vest permanently and I am absolutely freaking ecstatic about my surgery results. Everything is just the right shape and size. I flexed my pecs (makes me happy just to see that) and the incision lines are tucked precisely under them, which I like very much. I feel awesome. I worked today in a T-shirt. I also just got a haircut and noticed my sideburns are finally coming in.
I got a lot of work done on my writing and in addition yesterday I picked cherries (sour, of course) and wild-growing black raspberries, today I processed them, and tomorrow I will be eating a frozen blend of cherries, raspberries, plum and cranberry juice, the greatest combination known to man, or at least me.
Sounds awesome Liam, glad it worked out so well! You will be done with compression everything now, going to have a sale? ;D
Quote from: Liam Erik on June 25, 2013, 11:19:37 AM
thanks ;D I will see what I can do to pass it along. It's so cool to be able to breathe, breathing is nice :P It seems I have at least 20% better lung capacity than I thought I even possessed.
Hmmm probably similar to a new birth getting that gasp of air and finally being able to fill your lungs. Kind of meaningful isn't it?
I just referred to myself as a "nerd girl in training"
I submitted my deed poll for name change and told my mum my new name :) Waited my whole life to get rid of that awful name and title, to never hear it again is just amazing. She thinks I should be Neo though but close enough :P
I'm happy that the flood waters are finally quickly going down here.
My breasts hurt... They must be growing. :-)
Quote from: Steph21 ♡♡♡ on June 25, 2013, 04:34:35 PM
My breasts hurt... They must be growing. :-)
Yeah they kinda do that congrats. ;)
Making $8
Quote from: KarenCDN on June 25, 2013, 03:52:49 PM
I'm happy that the flood waters are finally quickly going down here.
Are you also affected by the Alberta floods? Fortunately the waters missed my house, but it was close and my commutes have been hellish.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 25, 2013, 08:53:32 PM
Are you also affected by the Alberta floods? Fortunately the waters missed my house, but it was close and my commutes have been hellish.
Yes, I am in Alberta.
Not personally affected very much, just helping out friends mostly.
Caleb excused himself.... It might have been the music video that got him hot and bothered. >:-) or me... :angel:
Well there's only so much I can take. :P
Quote from: Prof HB on June 26, 2013, 03:46:39 AM
Well there's only so much I can take. :P
You know you pass when...You can make a guy need a cold shower without needing to get undressed. >:-)
Trufax.
Made another sale and got $5! Time to add it to my top surgery fund. The great part about this was that I sold it in less than 24 hours.
44th wedding anniversary today, don't know how she does it, I've been such a turd at times. :D
Only one lineart to finish and I AM DONE with this little art project of mine.
...For a while. Next I'll have to color them! :D
i was just doing another take of "Saint James Infirmary" and at the part where it says:
"Give me six crapshooting pallbearers"
i sang:
"Give me sax/sex "laughter" crap"laughter" pallbea"laughter"
"take stops"
Quote from: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 10:32:59 AM
44th wedding anniversary today, don't know how she does it, I've been such a turd at times. :D
Congrats for making it that long. :)
Quote from: Renee on June 26, 2013, 03:21:47 PM
Congrats for making it that long. :)
Thanks doll, she will be nominated for sainthood!
I got hit on tonight by a lesbian while presenting in what I thought was boy mode. While walking away and being very happy about what just happened, I looked at what I'm wearing, pretty much what i wear everyday now. Capris, scoop neck shirt, woman's sneakers that kinda look like ballet flats and carrying a bag that is essentially a purse, i dont hide my breasts with the sports bra anymore. I realized that I might be extremely close to being full time. All I wear is woman's clothes now, tomboyish but still woman's. boy mode is pretty much just no makeup.
Getting my hair done in a way I have never done so before and not caring what ANYONE thought :)
The fact that I was able to not care was what made me happy...
In root, my confidence went sky high today! :D
Got the outfit for my step-daughters wedding.. :)
And despite me being the fill in 'Mother of the Bride', I will not look like one..
Just had Vegeatable Pakora, Lamb Bhuna, Nan.............What would I do without good Scottish food?
Just laughed my head off at a clip of Steve Martin and the car rental lady from Planes,Trains and Automobiles.Sorry don't know how to post it
;D Went to the Social Security Office and got to change my gender federally to Female, now they have me as who I properly am ;D I will get properly addressed on my insurance forms and letters ;D
Being in a roomful of 35 women, and seeing that 4 of them were taller than me (heel allowance included)
Thanks Julie & Miss Bungle
Quote from: JoW on June 27, 2013, 02:24:48 PM
Being in a roomful of 35 women, and seeing that 4 of them were taller than me (heel allowance included)
There's a lot of really tall cis chicksters out there these days! ;D
Got mah birth certificate! Now all I have to do is decide if I'm keeping "Zoe" or not.
Needs to ask Mom what my birth name would've been. :|
Went to a facial aesthetics group and booked a consultation for a little botox work next week to get rid of some frown lines, probably should get a brow lift and quit messing around with it. :D
I woke up this morning and was still alive. I'm due for bypass surgery next week and feel that each day is a plus. I'm probably being over dramatic but I am really nervous/worried/terrified. So each sunrise is fantastic.
Quote from: Jennifer Snowskier on June 27, 2013, 09:39:26 PM
I woke up this morning and was still alive. I'm due for bypass surgery next week and feel that each day is a plus. I'm probably being over dramatic but I am really nervous/worried/terrified. So each sunrise is fantastic.
God bless you Jennifer, wishing you the very best dear. Hope you have a quick recovery and bounce right back!
What made me happy today? Hm, quite a few things!
Spent the day setting up for my cousins wedding on Saturday
Messing with my mom and granny about my being a whole year older tomorrow (they don't like me growing up and never will lol)
Everyone except my little cousins (they don't really get it) was referring to me as male
Picked up my tux for the wedding! (I'm the bride's best man :D )
Went and got lunch with my cuz, well, cousin's fiancee. (they've been together 8 years, he's already family)
Uhhh... oh! I got to see my cousin who just flew in from being stationed in Japan for 2 years! He's here for a month!
Quote from: Jennifer Snowskier on June 27, 2013, 09:39:26 PM
I woke up this morning and was still alive. I'm due for bypass surgery next week and feel that each day is a plus. I'm probably being over dramatic but I am really nervous/worried/terrified. So each sunrise is fantastic.
Sending you love, comfort, wishes and hope for all to go well
Hugs
V M
the left over sweet milk in the cup after eating Honey Nut Cheerios
Good luck and best wishes Jennifer
Quote from: Jennifer Snowskier on June 27, 2013, 09:39:26 PM
I woke up this morning and was still alive. I'm due for bypass surgery next week and feel that each day is a plus. I'm probably being over dramatic but I am really nervous/worried/terrified. So each sunrise is fantastic.
Good luck; hope everything goes well & that you make a quick & full recovery.
Quote from: dpadgett628 on June 27, 2013, 10:02:03 PM
What made me happy today? Hm, quite a few things!
Spent the day setting up for my cousins wedding on Saturday
Messing with my mom and granny about my being a whole year older tomorrow (they don't like me growing up and never will lol)
Everyone except my little cousins (they don't really get it) was referring to me as male
Picked up my tux for the wedding! (I'm the bride's best man :D )
Went and got lunch with my cuz, well, cousin's fiancee. (they've been together 8 years, he's already family)
Uhhh... oh! I got to see my cousin who just flew in from being stationed in Japan for 2 years! He's here for a month!
Well then that makes today your birthday! Happy birthday bud! :icon_birthday: :icon_drunk:
A new season of Hell's Kitchen starts airing today! ;D Don't ask which season, I have no idea.
;D I went to find out about filing for getting my new birth certificate changed and found out that I don't need to pay a filing fee, I get to start the procedures today! ;D So I filed today ;D I will be going before a judge sometime in the next few months and then getting a birth certificate after that. saves me $350
Quote from: Shantel on June 28, 2013, 09:40:50 AM
Well then that makes today your birthday! Happy birthday bud! :icon_birthday: :icon_drunk:
Yes ma'am! Thank you very much! :3
Quote from: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 10:32:59 AM
44th wedding anniversary today, don't know how she does it, I've been such a turd at times. :D
Congratulations to the both of you. :D
Quote from: Jamie D on June 28, 2013, 09:13:15 PM
Congratulations to the both of you. :D
Thanks! Went out for Italian, got on the scale this morning and I am really unhappy, I turned into a blimp overnight I'm sure.
Quote from: Jennifer Snowskier on June 27, 2013, 09:39:26 PM
I woke up this morning and was still alive. I'm due for bypass surgery next week and feel that each day is a plus. I'm probably being over dramatic but I am really nervous/worried/terrified. So each sunrise is fantastic.
I had a triple bypass in October 2006. At the time I was unable to walk from the parking lot into a building without getting winded and having angina. I earlier had a near fatal ventricular tachycardia while refereeing a soccer game.
I will not kid you, the first few days in cardiac ICU are painful. Make sure you have a good morphine drip. I had people around me the first few days, when I did not want to see anybody. Tell most of them to go away.
But OMG, did it feel good when the Foley catheter came out! :D
I still have nasty scars on my arm, from where they harvested an artery to re-plumb the heart, and down my sternum. It ruined my cleavage >:(
Quote from: Shantel on June 28, 2013, 09:21:10 PM
Thanks! Went out for Italian, got on the scale this morning and I am really unhappy, I turned into a blimp overnight I'm sure.
Shantel Pastabelli.
Quote from: Jennifer Snowskier on June 27, 2013, 09:39:26 PM
I woke up this morning and was still alive. I'm due for bypass surgery next week and feel that each day is a plus. I'm probably being over dramatic but I am really nervous/worried/terrified. So each sunrise is fantastic.
Good luck and keeping you in my thoughts for a speedy recovery <3
My yard is full of fireflies, one of the few bugs I like.
I bought a Samsung tablet today. ;D
^ congrats!!
Between anthropology & Nordstroms tonight I spent a bunch of money. Went out with a girlfriend and had a great time. Bought matching dresses for tomorrow's pride parade.
No homework!
My change in golf swing to compensate for loss of muscle worked well and played golf below my male handicap of 5 - shot a 75. Hadnt done that since HRT - i'll be awesome as a female.
Found out that a friend in California is marrying her longtime girlfriend now that prop 8 is suspended.
Walking on the beach despite it being cold and windy
Life is not forever.
Quote from: Prof HB on June 30, 2013, 12:08:31 AM
I bought a Samsung tablet today. ;D
Yeah, been using the tablet and it rocks! Good purchase.
I screamed in a really strong fashion during "Highway Star"
I think I made a new male friend today who isn't interested in getting in my pants. :)
Quote from: LearnedHand on June 30, 2013, 03:42:30 PM
I think I made a new male friend today who isn't interested in getting in my pants. :)
That's a real anomaly huh? Getting in your pants shouldn't be a part of the equation between you and someone who is sincere about being friends and if ever anything was to happen beyond that it would have to be your call and not his anyway.
I got my entry into the Virgin Media Shorts Festival
www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/4433/please-don-t-rock-the-boat#.UdCP_MVx0nk (http://www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/4433/please-don-t-rock-the-boat#.UdCP_MVx0nk)
Quote from: StellaB on June 30, 2013, 05:31:38 PM
I got my entry into the Virgin Media Shorts Festival
www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/4433/please-don-t-rock-the-boat#.UdCP_MVx0nk (http://www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/4433/please-don-t-rock-the-boat#.UdCP_MVx0nk)
Terrific activist video, would be interesting to know what becomes of the boat people.
Quote from: StellaB on June 30, 2013, 05:31:38 PM
I got my entry into the Virgin Media Shorts Festival
www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/4433/please-don-t-rock-the-boat#.UdCP_MVx0nk (http://www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/4433/please-don-t-rock-the-boat#.UdCP_MVx0nk)
Well done Stella,I hope it raises the profile of the boat dwellers.That's a part of London I never knew about
My grandma who has had major issues with my transition did a few things today. She used the corrects name in front of my aunt, who does not support me. And after hearing a lady at the ice cream store call me "he", she has started correcting her own pronouns. She is reluctant, kind of muttering "him" but it is a huge step forward for her. I know it isnt easy. She was raised very strictly in terms of sex and gender roles.
I've only just topped up my dongle & this is a few days old but i'm still happy about it today.
On Saturday I went to London with FTM Diaries for London Pride, we were unable to get the same train so we met up at Paddington station, thousands of people lined the streets to show their support for all things LGBT.
The weather was scorching & many people kept topping up my water supply for Poopie, due to the heat I walked him close to the barriers to keep him in the shade & he had more fuss in those few hours than in his whole life, every few steps there was someone else leaning over the barriers to stroke him, i'm surprised he has any fur left on his head & back from the amount of stroking he had to endure.
The march went on for several hours, unfortunately i'd been stupid with my choice of footwear & by the end of the day I had a few severe blisters, it wasn't so much a case of having a blister on my little toe but more like having a little toe on my blister, YEOWCH!
It was an amazing day out & I strongly recommend that you should all attend next year if at all possible
At work today a patient who doesn't speak English said something to her son. He turned to me and said she wanted to know what my secret is for being constantly happy. Made my whole damn day.
Also, my car hit an average of 30 mpg. I've been holding my breath for that to happen for weeks.
Trip to the doctor's to hear my hormone levels. Last time he was disappointed. T & E were both in the male ranges.
This visit: E in the 700s. T around 20.
Chemically I'm 100% woman!
Yay!
Quote from: Lee on July 02, 2013, 01:01:24 AM
At work today a patient who doesn't speak English said something to her son. He turned to me and said she wanted to know what my secret is for being constantly happy. Made my whole damn day.
Isn't that just the nicest compliment anyone can give? ;D I have received something along those lines a few times, and it just makes everything feel perfect.
Quote from: suzifrommd on July 02, 2013, 12:57:30 PM
Trip to the doctor's to hear my hormone levels. Last time he was disappointed. T & E were both in the male ranges.
This visit: E in the 700s. T around 20.
Chemically I'm 100% woman!
Yay!
We need to have a little joy huh girlfriend? Kool!
That's awesome Suzi ;D
I volunteer at a therapeutic horseback riding program for special needs kids of all types, and it's always awesome. But it especially cheered me up today! Nothing like horses and happy kids (in this case, a group of amazing, hilarious teens).
Two things:
- Replaced my windscreen wipers like a boss. This is the first thing I've had to fix on my current car, which I bought more than a year ago. My previous car needed a mechanic literally every two months.
- Listening to isolated vocal tracks for various Queen songs. Hearing Freddie singing with no musical accompaniment just proves what an incredible vocalist he was. Under Pressure is eerie; but The Show Must Go On brought tears to my eyes. Freddie, you're sorely missed.
RIGHT NOW I'm sitting on my very first dose of oestrogen. :)
Just got this text --
"That was really great. I had to show pics of you before as two insisted you were a girl....I said well you are xxxx"
Just, awwww ... and a compliment too :-)
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 03, 2013, 04:48:11 PM
The fact that, despite all of the stupid crap with the insurance companies that COULD get me down, I'm not letting it happen. Screw those pencil-pushing losers. I'm going to chill to some jazz tunes and not stress over it.
How about "Stolen Moments"? Get the Zappa version for Sting singing "Murder By Numbers" over it.
I was sitting in a breakfast room in Allentown, Pennsylvania . . .
Six o'clock in the morning . . .
Got up too early . . .
It was a terrible mistake . . .
Sittin' there face-to-face with a
75¢ glass of orange juice
About as big as my finger
And a bowl of horribly fore-shortened corn flakes
And I said to myself
"This is the life . . . "
Not really ;D
Quote from: Akira21 ♡♡♡ on July 03, 2013, 04:32:35 PM
Just got this text --
"That was really great. I had to show pics of you before as two insisted you were a girl....I said well you are xxxx"
Just, awwww ... and a compliment too :-)
How cool is that? :eusa_clap:
I can hardly believe it but today my therapist told me that he'd write me a letter whenever I'm ready so I contacted the endocrinologist that I was looking at working with and she got in for an appointment for this Friday. They're going to draw my blood, run the tests, and see me all in the same day. If the endo can get in touch with my therapist to ask what she needs to know about me I'll get a prescription for HRT as well!!!! ; :eusa_pray: :icon_mrhappy:
Quote from: Naomi on July 03, 2013, 08:00:24 PM
I can hardly believe it but today my therapist told me that he'd write me a letter whenever I'm ready so I contacted the endocrinologist that I was looking at working with and she got in for an appointment for this Friday. They're going to draw my blood, run the tests, and see me all in the same day. If the endo can get in touch with my therapist to ask what she needs to know about me I'll get a prescription for HRT as well!!!! ; :eusa_pray: :icon_mrhappy:
Kudos, you are in the winner's circle now! Feels good doesn't it?
I actually bought a turban today (maroon, 3 meters, classic from gosikh.com) and a kara (plain round). Kind of a spur of the moment purchase, but can't wait for the postman now. :)
One of my friends helped me with ideas for my pants.
Spent a wonderful day on the lake with my boyfriend and his parents. I truly enjoy their company and each visit ends with a hug and a kiss on the cheek. My boyfriend's mother even admitted today that when she brings me up in conversation with others she refers to me as his wife. I think she has the majority of a wedding already planned. Great day.
Keaira continues to enjoy the benefits of being a woman. I also continue to enjoy the benefits of her being a woman.
(^I love you too.^) glad I made your day.
Quote from: Brielle on July 04, 2013, 01:53:23 AM
Spent a wonderful day on the lake with my boyfriend and his parents. I truly enjoy their company and each visit ends with a hug and a kiss on the cheek. My boyfriend's mother even admitted today that when she brings me up in conversation with others she refers to me as his wife. I think she has the majority of a wedding already planned. Great day.
Goodness gracious, Bree, you look much younger than your stated age.
I'm jelly.
Quote from: Brielle on July 04, 2013, 01:53:23 AM
Spent a wonderful day on the lake with my boyfriend and his parents. I truly enjoy their company and each visit ends with a hug and a kiss on the cheek. My boyfriend's mother even admitted today that when she brings me up in conversation with others she refers to me as his wife. I think she has the majority of a wedding already planned. Great day.
Brielle,
I took the liberty to page through your website and felt compelled to comment on how marvelously successful the outcome of your transition seems to be, such a beautiful face and lovely full lips you are endowed with! Not every girl has a handsome prince who is waiting in the wings to marry her either, it reads like a fairy tale come true and you are indeed the beautiful princess, Kudos!
Quote from: Jamie D on July 04, 2013, 05:17:39 AM
Goodness gracious, Bree, you look much younger than your stated age.
I'm jelly.
She's a doll! I had my first Botox session yesterday, I am growing now younger too!
Quote from: Shantel on July 04, 2013, 08:12:34 AM
She's a doll! I had my first Botox session yesterday, I am growing now younger too!
Did it hurt ?
Quote from: Samyra on July 04, 2013, 08:26:52 AM
Did it hurt ?
I really didn't feel it, the needle is very tiny in diameter, maybe like a mosquito bite but not like a bee sting. It's suppose to take six days to really take full effect, if not I go back for a second round. The nurse is keeping a chart on how much it will take to relax the nerves around the problem area. I'll be re-doing it four times a year. I have a scar by the inside corner of my left eyebrow that looks like a crow's foot and a masculine grumpy-guy looking fold at the top of the bridge of my nose from years of frowning and being a tough guy, it connects to the crows foot, I want that all gone! Maybe some day I'll get a brow lift.
I shaved my head and got a new ring for my septum piercing and I look hot as hell.
Found a website to help me learn languages. Hurrah! Sehr gut!
I like varispeed now. Varispeed is cool
Quote from: Shantel on July 04, 2013, 08:08:18 AM
Brielle,
I took the liberty to page through your website and felt compelled to comment on how marvelously successful the outcome of your transition seems to be, such a beautiful face and lovely full lips you are endowed with! Not every girl has a handsome prince who is waiting in the wings to marry her either, it reads like a fairy tale come true and you are indeed the beautiful princess, Kudos!
Thank you so much for the kind words. I do feel extremely lucky to find this much happiness so late in life. I sometimes regret not beginning my transition earlier but as my partner tells me, it wasn't the right time. Your comments truly made my day, thank you.
Quote from: Jamie D on July 04, 2013, 05:17:39 AM
Goodness gracious, Bree, you look much younger than your stated age.
I'm jelly.
Thank you Jamie that is very sweet of you to say. I appreciate the compliment.
getting 1 dollar for something random
Just got the results of a blood test I took on Monday. The results show that I don't have a brain tumour.
Phew! It's been a worrying week, waiting for that result.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 05, 2013, 09:03:24 AM
Just got the results of a blood test I took on Monday. The results show that I don't have a brain tumour.
Phew! It's been a worrying week, waiting for that result.
Good news, you have plenty on your plate already!
Quote from: Shantel on July 05, 2013, 09:48:25 AM
Good news, you have plenty on your plate already!
Thanks Auntie Shan; it was a
massive relief! :)
Noticing how a better voice technique makes my singing voice sound much smoother with a distinct undertone. Still not a great one, however, but the strain is mostly gone.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 05, 2013, 02:37:47 PM
And that will only improve with plenty of time, practice and above all, a positive attitude towards the whole process.
On topic:
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This arrived today. It's pretty amusing because it was printed in the U.K. and the language was tweaked for a British audience a bit.
In one comic entitled "Sweet Dreams", here is an exchange between Portia and her mother:
Mom: Fancy eating cheese before bed, Portia. That's bad for you!
Portia: Aw, don't fuss, Mum!
LMFAO!
It's quite amusing.
I was also able to order another hardcover book but this one is based on the Pilot episode before it became a series. Now, if I could just find a complete set of the paperbacks I would be set. I'm having a hard time finding one that includes "The Get Along Gang & The Crybaby" (Three guesses as to who THAT is referring to. :D) For some reason that one is super rare and the one time I've seen it for sell, the greedy schmuck wanted 35 friggin bucks for it.
My whole tone of voice is different at the moment and i didn't set out to change my speaking voice too, but it did. I'm talking in this weird higher voice at the moment (more embarrassing is my fake pseudo-british accent whenever i speak English) Actually, i followed some advice on this site and told myself "you're only trying this for a better singing voice". It previously was so strained, it was really painful and this one day it would sound full-bodied, Gillan screams and all. Puberty didn't do my voice good. It wasn't great before, but much better. Now i've actually regained a lot of range just by singing from the throat more.
Quote from: Edge on July 04, 2013, 01:00:51 PM
Found a website to help me learn languages. Hurrah! Sehr gut!
Ohh, what language are you learning Edge??
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 05, 2013, 09:03:24 AM
Just got the results of a blood test I took on Monday. The results show that I don't have a brain tumour.
Phew! It's been a worrying week, waiting for that result.
Holy crap, glad you're okay! Waiting for the results must've been a killer.
I think he's learning german.
I think I might be the walrus. Admitting to myself that I am the walrus, not Paul, is a big step on the Magical Mystery Tour to Strawberry Fields.
"cough"
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 05, 2013, 02:53:04 PM
Well, it will all evolve in time. You just have to go through the process, make some mistakes (even some pretty embarrassing ones. I remember when I started the process, I ended up sounding like a little girl no matter what. I got some really weird looks but I just kept going.) Now, I can alter my range of voice to sound female in different ways and even do some pretty decent hardcore/punk style vocals in the same ranges. You just have to keep at it and it will evolve on it's own. Just let it come naturally and all will be fine.
Thanks, but you didn't comment on my walrusness? Now i am a sad walrus. Please join our tribe.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 05, 2013, 03:07:43 PM
Sorry. Can't. I am indoctrinated into the tribe of the happy porcupine as their den mother.
I know two spells for that:
"clears throat"
Coo-coo-ca-choo-ca-coo-ca-coo-ca-choooo!
WOLOLO!
Professor HB (Caleb) decided to go up to his grandparents ranch for the weekend. I miss him already. I hope his trip will be okay, he was dreadding going up there last night.
Despite it being in the 90s (Fahrenheit) outside today, I managed to run the fastest I've ever run today. Whew, now time for some water! ;D
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 05, 2013, 05:27:36 PM
Why is that?
Keaire must have signed out! I think that Caleb said that grandpa was a verbally abusive type, probably no fun to be around.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 05, 2013, 06:33:36 PM
Oh. That sucks. I know the type since I have a couple of them in my family. I tend to fight back (verbally, not physically) and that tends to shut them up since they know they can't win against me. ;D While everyone else just caves in.
Excellent strategy hon, smart lady! :)
Sat down and had a long chat with my aunt. Surprisingly, she's been nothing but loving towards me.
Which makes me feel way too lucky - like, can I give away one or two of my family? Make others' lives easier? It's kinda a survivor's guilt sort of thing.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 05, 2013, 07:39:33 PM
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I ordered this shirt today! It's soooo awesome and utterly adorable!
That's so cute.. I could see me wearing one.. 8)
I went to San Francisco today and rode my bike from bay to ocean and back, partly for research for an upcoming book. It was about an hour and twenty minutes westbound, due to some big hills on Page, my bike only have 6 speeds, and me not being a strong hill climber. And in spite of that workout, the eastbound return trip was only 55 minutes.
Spending a long day with a part of my family that i don't often see. So many laughs, so many jokes and non-alcoholic champagne.
I got to see Monsters University with my daughter/son this afternoon, and I'll be going to LGBTQ Girls Night later this evening.
Oora, arrie, errie, sassa, haha, kakkaa, khakhaa, gagga, ghagga, ngagna; I now know the first ten letters of the Gurmukhi alphabet and their corresponding script :D
Quote from: Constance on July 06, 2013, 04:57:00 PM
I got to see Monsters University with my daughter/son this afternoon, and I'll be going to LGBTQ Girls Night later this evening.
Have fun! :)
I have the distinct feeling that my life will continuously get better in the next few years. I'm holding onto that positivity. :)
I like that attitude!!
Quote from: Liam Erik on July 06, 2013, 11:55:46 PM
Good work done on my writing lately. My characters seem to run away on their own. I wish they would consult me... ::)
(sorry if immodest :icon_redface:)
Sweet, let me know when you finish your book because I'd love to read it. And, this is the one of the few places where you can proudly show off an ego. ;D
Quote from: Simon on July 06, 2013, 11:29:24 PM
I have the distinct feeling that my life will continuously get better in the next few years. I'm holding onto that positivity. :)
I have the same feelings, positive thoughts will help make the next few years better. :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on July 06, 2013, 11:55:46 PM
Good work done on my writing lately. My characters seem to run away on their own. I wish they would consult me... ::)
(sorry if immodest :icon_redface:)
There's nothing immodest about it, developing the characters is the most difficult part of writing, so good on you Liam!
Revised a songtext. Almost satisfied.
My brother gave me a blue ray player that I can use to watch my Netflix on today. It lacked a feature he wanted, so he's going to get another one.
So I finally got to see The Avengers. Plus I have about 8 movies I want to watch on my hard drive that he ripped from some dvds.
And I finally got the part for my car last night and put it in this morning, so now my idle is back where it ought to be and hopefully, it'll go back to being easier on the gas mileage.
I woke up with sore boobs. :)
My beard is coming along very nicely. The left sideburn is lagging behind the right, and there's a little bald patch under my chin, but it's getting there.
Quote from: Prof HB on July 07, 2013, 09:03:34 PM
My beard is coming along very nicely. The left sideburn is lagging behind the right, and there's a little bald patch under my chin, but it's getting there.
Nice. Are you growing it out? I've noticed that my dad, brother, and I all have the same bald patch, so don't worry about it too much if it doesn't come in.
I considered growing it out today, but I ended up shaving it just now (it's still stubbly ;D). I think the hairs, while they are dark and fairly thick, need to be a bit more populated for it to look decent. But in a few months I think I could grow out a tiny one on my chin. I'm pretty darn excited.
A walk round Marton Mere nature reserve bird watching with friends and a meal in an Italian restaurant overlooking the sea as the sunset.
Its a sunny warm day and my closest friend will have a child. :)
One of my all-time favorite non-binary bloggers just started following my tumblr. ;D
I rediscovered my old musical tastes somehow. They changed overnight after a long day of celebration. Now i like german carnival music. I used to love it as a child, then started getting all "What? That's weak, stupid and worst of all in german".
Quote from: androgynoid on July 08, 2013, 02:59:19 PM
One of my all-time favorite non-binary bloggers just started following my tumblr. ;D
I've been looking to follow some good non-binary blogs. Link me up?
Quote from: Prof HB on July 08, 2013, 03:12:18 PM
I've been looking to follow some good non-binary blogs. Link me up?
You've probably seen Micah around the internet before. blog (http://neutrois.me) and tumblr (http://neutrois.tumblr.com)
I also started a new tumblr where I'll be blogging about gender, transition, and how those interact with my politics and feminism; I can give that out privately.
/shamelessplug
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 08, 2013, 03:10:26 PM
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This arrived today! ;D It fits well (Even if I did gain 5 pounds from the holiday weekend.LOL) But I intend on losing that weight and more so there are no worries.
5 pounds :(
When I weighed in on Wednesday at cardio-rehab, I have reached one of my intermediate goals! This morning I was +4 lbs. >:(
I am going to have to walk some extra miles this week. <sadness>
Noticed on my playcheck that I had gotten a .15 raise this past pay period.
I spent the past weekend with my family and mostly my mom. It was the first time she's been with me since December when I was still presenting as male.
We went shopping today and she kept giving me THE HUGEST grins every time someone gendered me properly in front of her "finding everything okay, ladies??" "here you go miss, you wanted the size 9's right?". Every successive time her smile appeared to grow and it was like I could literally see her confidence and trust in my decision to transition growing, too.
I could FEEL that she was proud of me just by seeing the look in her eyes, and it nearly makes me cry thinking about it and how far she has come in the past couple of days of being with her. She has really fully and completely accepted me as her daughter. She has always been accepting, but now it's for real. This woman that birthed me... is incredible. I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! gahhhh
Well, here come the tears......... :laugh:
ugh! where are the damn kleenex!!!
Quote from: JulieR on July 09, 2013, 02:00:47 AM
Way cool, thanks for sharing.
+1 Jenny, Jenny, Jenny! ;D My face hurts from grinning about you and your mom!
I had a tax rebate yesterday & bought myself 4 second hand games to end my gaming drought, I also ordered 2 new pairs of shoes, bought 2 new dresses & ordered the complete boxset of Babylon 5 to replace the DVD's my scummy ex landlord stole from me.
Even after splashing out on all of that I have many hundreds of pounds in the kitty to pay for electrolysis!!
Today is truly a great day
Just mixed my new song. Overproduced, but fun. Even includes a fake choir in the background.
Thank you Shan & Julie!
We are about to go to Victoria Secret now :) New bra and panties day is always a good day! The fact that my mom is excited too makes it even betterrrr!!
So, right now I kind of already know what's going to make me happy today! I love this feeling!
Wishing you all a wonderful day!
<3 Jenny
Rewatched a movie that still doesn't make any sense, but it doesn't matter because it's pretty. Also, listening to Oomph! and other music.
Someone named me their five teddy bears. :D
WatchingPigeonsFly, they put a smile on face
Good fanfiction
Doing what i love.
Quote from: Jennygirl on July 09, 2013, 01:40:00 AM
I spent the past weekend with my family and mostly my mom. It was the first time she's been with me since December when I was still presenting as male.
We went shopping today and she kept giving me THE HUGEST grins every time someone gendered me properly in front of her "finding everything okay, ladies??" "here you go miss, you wanted the size 9's right?". Every successive time her smile appeared to grow and it was like I could literally see her confidence and trust in my decision to transition growing, too.
I could FEEL that she was proud of me just by seeing the look in her eyes, and it nearly makes me cry thinking about it and how far she has come in the past couple of days of being with her. She has really fully and completely accepted me as her daughter. She has always been accepting, but now it's for real. This woman that birthed me... is incredible. I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! gahhhh
Well, here come the tears......... :laugh:
ugh! where are the damn kleenex!!!
Can I have your mom?
I had 2 deliveries today, the first one to turn up was my new pair of shoes, Yay for new shoes!!
The second delivery was my DVD box set of the complete Babylon 5 collection, 42 DVD's containing almost 80hrs of the best sci-fi show ever!!!!!! Time for a sci=-fi marathon, I may be gone for some time ;D
Sore boobs!
Quote from: Jayne on July 10, 2013, 05:49:15 AM
I had 2 deliveries today, the first one to turn up was my new pair of shoes, Yay for new shoes!!
The second delivery was my DVD box set of the complete Babylon 5 collection, 42 DVD's containing almost 80hrs of the best sci-fi show ever!!!!!! Time for a sci=-fi marathon, I may be gone for some time ;D
Battlestar Galactica would like a word. :)
On topic: I may get to be an extra in a local theater's marketing (through a loose work connection). They have no idea how diverse they're gonna be. :D
Got to shake hands with a very eccentric local celebrity who was awarded a Medal of Honour for having raised over £1 million for charity.
making a sale
Well...we know T worked on my voice. My brother's name is John, and my aunt calls and I answer:
Me: Hello?
Aunt: Hi John! How are you?
Me: Uhhh....this isn't John.
Aunt: Who...? Uh. OH. Ok. Um.
Me: Do you want to talk to John?
Aunt: No, I want to talk to your mom.
Muahahaha. I don't think she is particularly crazy about my transition either so that was interesting.
Receiving a 1,500 word email.
En beetje nederlands praten. Nah, i'll stop.
Not being completely depressed but not being on the tail-end of a manic episode (like i was on Saturday) either.
2...interesting passes. Given I am seen as a younger guy, I get some things I never got before. A guy came up to me and said "hey buddy, you got a cig?" And then at the store, a guy (he said he was 18) asked if my clothes were for back to school and what grade I was in.
Part of me is like "...um, people think I am a teen and I am actually 24 and looking to be more mature." And the other...is kinda grateful. I never got to be a teen really. I grew up so fast and people often thought I was an older woman as a teen. I've never been seen as adolescent.
Hearing from my boyfriend. ;D
I was sad because I don't know how to cook. At this rate, I'd either starve on my own or get morbidly obese from all the McDonalds. So I tried a simple chicken recipe...with barbecue sauce, onions, bell pepper. It turned out really tasty! And now I have a honey cake in the oven. It really made me feel a lot less depressed about not knowing how to cook. I can't do anything fancy yet but I am one step ahead of where I was before!
Still sore boobs.
Quote from: michelle666 on July 11, 2013, 08:41:07 PM
Me too!!! They hurt, but it's a good thing!
That's why I posted in the Happy thread.. :)
Sister randomly brought me some Schlotskyz Pizza. Yum.
Me and my gf had a bday party for our son (he's 2 now).Her whole family came and it went so well. I'm so glad they all like me. They fully accept me and all of them get my name and pronouns right. Even her ex, the boys father, came over for it and there was no drama (me and her family all hate him). For the sake of the baby everyone got over their extreme dislike for the dude and had a good time. It was a damn good day.
Managed to get some new bits/parts for my dremel, also finally managed to get the entire series of thunderbirds for under 30 dollars. Also for now all bills paid up XD
I got my ears pierced today!
First, getting home from a pretty gruelling business trip to Canada and the US having encountered no significant issues with passport control, immigration or TSA. My bra under male attire led to me being patting down on two different occasions following full body scans but on both occasions, it ended with a "that's fine, you're OK" or something similar.
Second, shopping in the center of my home town this afternoon, wearing a long, sleeveless, linen dress and feeling the light summer breeze circulating against my body beneath the dress. Quite a delightful sensation, adding to the deep joy I feel as I realize that yes, I can at last function comfortably in public as a woman after so many years of inner struggle followed by a very heavy and at times quite brutal program of physical transformations.
As recently as 2 - 3 years ago, all of this looked close to impossible but here I am almost at the end of this particular road with only a few months more to wait before I should also be able to transition at work with the full support of my boss.
No words to describe how all of this feels beside "gender euphoria"
Warmest regards to all of you fellow travellers.
Bises
Donna
P.S. I would highly recommend John Irving's book " In one person" to anyone interested in gender and/or sexual diversity. A bit ponderous at times, especially the second half of the book, but overall, an entertaining read for those who are interested in such questions. Among others, since my boss and I have been reading it at the same time, it has been the source of some very lighthearted exchanges between us about my own situation.
Holy cow. 2,953 word email, and added pictures of their room as its just been decorated. :( to :D
Me & FTM Diaries have just parted ways after spending the day at Bristol pride parade followed by a civilized drink afterwards.
I'm sure he'll be on at some point to add a comment to this thread once he gets home, we both had a great time.
Finding out who "Ketchup Packet" was!! ;)
Quote from: Jamie D on July 13, 2013, 11:33:00 PM
Finding out who "Ketchup Packet" was!! ;)
Lol! I guess it doesn't help that I changed my avatar at the same time.
Quote from: Jamie D on July 13, 2013, 11:33:00 PM
Finding out who "Ketchup Packet" was!! ;)
You're slow on the uptake, I knew right away! ;D Getting older ain't fer sissies Jamie D! :icon_peace:
Quote from: Shantel on July 14, 2013, 08:44:01 AM
You're slow on the uptake, I knew right away! ;D Getting older ain't fer sissies Jamie D! :icon_peace:
Lol, I love you Shantel. <3 :P
Something I like about my mom is that she will let me fanboy over the complexities of the human brain and hold a conversation with me about it.
$30.25
Quote from: Jayne on July 13, 2013, 01:05:49 PM
Me & FTM Diaries have just parted ways after spending the day at Bristol pride parade followed by a civilized drink afterwards.
I'm sure he'll be on at some point to add a comment to this thread once he gets home, we both had a great time.
Yes, we did indeed have a great time. :)
Bristol Pride was a fun day out as per usual, but it was quite different from London Pride in a couple of ways. On the plus side, it was much better organised than London Pride (or perhaps
we were better organised because we're local?); but on the minus side there were no cheering crowds lining the parade route like we had in London, and the T end of the LGBT spectrum was woefully underrepresented.
Which, of course, gives Jayne & I something to think about for next year's Bristol Pride! ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 15, 2013, 10:31:37 AM
Yes, we did indeed have a great time. :)
Bristol Pride was a fun day out as per usual, but it was quite different from London Pride in a couple of ways. On the plus side, it was much better organised than London Pride (or perhaps we were better organised because we're local?); but on the minus side there were no cheering crowds lining the parade route like we had in London, and the T end of the LGBT spectrum was woefully underrepresented.
Which, of course, gives Jayne & I something to think about for next year's Bristol Pride! ;D
The T in LGBT certainly stood for "Token" on Saturday but we'll see what we can do to rectify this at next years pride parade.
As always it was good to see you, it's just a shame it was so damned hot that day
I've been keeping it on the down-low lately, but lurking here... today I got my 2nd opinion! So now getting my gender affirmation surgery is just all about the waiting lists :D.
I plan to be well enough to go to Bristol Pride next year - I'm going to make it to Plymouth, Truro, Torbay and Totnes prides over the next couple of months, I hope. Plymouth Pride is this coming weekend!
Writing the most insane Deep Purple fan theory ever and it isn't even close to being finished.
Big grats Padma, Best wishes and hopefully a short wait for you.
Started lady pills today, that made me happy. Also helps my meds are covered by my benefits plan. Getting a new doctor as my current practitioner is leaving the city for an extended time. Apparently my new practitioner is a translady.
Having an unhealthy need to listen to way too much Taylor Swift.
.60 cents
Went and saw Man of Steel at the movies with my dad, last time I saw a movie with him was The Avengers last year.
Mia Macy liked the My Little Pony character I created of her with her input. ^_^
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And I chatted with Caleb. ^_^
Quote from: Padma on July 15, 2013, 01:16:26 PM
I've been keeping it on the down-low lately, but lurking here... today I got my 2nd opinion! So now getting my gender affirmation surgery is just all about the waiting lists :D.
I plan to be well enough to go to Bristol Pride next year - I'm going to make it to Plymouth, Truro, Torbay and Totnes prides over the next couple of months, I hope. Plymouth Pride is this coming weekend!
Congrats! That's another major hurdle you've overcome; hope the wait isn't too long.
If you are well enough for Bristol Pride next year and fancy some company, why not get in touch with Jayne & I? I daresay we'll be there. :)
Quote from: Padma on July 15, 2013, 01:16:26 PM
I've been keeping it on the down-low lately, but lurking here... today I got my 2nd opinion! So now getting my gender affirmation surgery is just all about the waiting lists :D.
I plan to be well enough to go to Bristol Pride next year - I'm going to make it to Plymouth, Truro, Torbay and Totnes prides over the next couple of months, I hope. Plymouth Pride is this coming weekend!
Congrats sweetie!
The official Deep Purple Youtube channel has lots of clips unavailable for purchase. Stormbringer from 1975, Black Night from 1970.....
Chatting to a real hot guy
Watching a video of my nephew that's one, rock my other nephew that's a few weeks old; both of them sitting on a rocking baby chair-thingy.
Quote from: Jamie D on July 13, 2013, 11:33:00 PM
Finding out who "Ketchup Packet" was!! ;)
I only figured it out a few days ago LOL!
Got a nice tip from working the bar
Quote from: Malachite on July 16, 2013, 02:50:22 PM
I only figured it out a few days ago LOL!
Malachite I am hurt <\3 lmao
I never mean to confuse people, haha. Though how could they know?
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 16, 2013, 11:54:49 PM
Malachite I am hurt <\3 lmao
I never mean to confuse people, haha. Though how could they know?
Intuition? :D
I fixed my laptop AND got my HRT doses increased today!
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 16, 2013, 11:54:49 PM
Malachite I am hurt <\3 lmao
I never mean to confuse people, haha. Though how could they know?
Lol I'm sorry!
Every time you change your avatar and name I'm thinking to myself "who is that?" and I just get amazed at how they get over 1,000 posts and yet I never seen them post. Then I see Keaira replaying and I go "ooooh it's Caleb!". :p
Quote from: Malachite on July 17, 2013, 10:38:43 PM
Lol I'm sorry!
Every time you change your avatar and name I'm thinking to myself "who is that?" and I just get amazed at how they get over 1,000 posts and yet I never seen them post. Then I see Keaira replaying and I go "ooooh it's Caleb!". :p
Hahaha! Well that is a good indication... :P
Yes, unfortunately I have to keep track of him. he can be a pain in the butt sometimes. :P
Quote from: Keaira on July 18, 2013, 12:26:08 AM
Yes, unfortunately I have to keep track of him. he can be a pain in the butt sometimes. :P
Pfft.
Yesterday, I got the form I need in the mail and found the rest of the forms I need. Better late than never right?
Last night, I mustered the courage to tell my partner that I'm considering going by a nickname and maybe eventually changing pronouns. He wasn't happy about it, but he was open and honest, and the conversation went really well.
Listening to my first Janis Joplin album. Unbelievable.
My son and I had a nap together.
My healthcare provider took me off the Warfarin I was on for blood clot! :icon_geekdance:
Adding Eluveitie to my list of music.
Was at the lake this evening in boymode, so i went to the men's rooms. Just washed my hands at the sink next to the door, when some older man openend it, then abruptly nearly closed it and checked the sign. Then he held the door open for me, i just said "thanks" and went out with a HUGE grin :D
Quote from: Shantel on July 18, 2013, 02:07:33 PM
My healthcare provider took me off the Warfarin I was on for blood clot! :icon_geekdance:
Yay!
I finally cleared the Weekender Girl stage in my Hatsune Miku Project Diva demo. I literally leaped in happiness....kind of like my avatar.
A walk along the beach at sundown
A delicious salad and an afternoon spent with a great friend.
I had a bit of a late lunch because we had a Board meeting today... but that meant I was able to get the ice-cream I haven't been able to get all week because of the length of the queues at my usual lunchtime.
So... today's lunch included two scoops of Thornton's chocolate ice-cream with chocolate sauce, in a chocolate-dipped cone. Mmmmmmm :D
The holidays have begun.
Watching Orange is the new Black with Caleb. Its good, but would be better if I were able to snuggle with him as we watch together. Stupid Glass Wall!.
Had lunch with a colleague from my former job in a restaurant we had frequently gone to together up until the end of last year and where I was known as a guy. The waitress was still the same but she visibly didn't make the connection as she called me Madame from beginning to end in spite of my gender neutral dress. Pure joy!
Quote from: Donna Elvira on July 19, 2013, 11:31:29 AM
Had lunch with a colleague from my former job in a restaurant we had frequently gone to together up until the end of last year and where I was known as a guy. The waitress was still the same but she visibly didn't make the connection as she called me Madame from beginning to end in spite of my gender neutral dress. Pure joy!
Rightly so...kudos!
Experimenting with voices:
For What It's Worth
verse (panned left) : old technique
verse (panned right): new technique
then the chorus:
1. Sara-esque voice
2. old technique (doubletracked)
3. Elvis impersonation (doubletracked)
4. new technique (doubletracked? don't remember)
5. almost chipmunky fake-sounding voice (doubletracked?)
6. high screamed "STOP!" (with heavy echo applied)
All to create a vocal harmony
Passed like a boss. In a game store, no less. ;D
Oh, and I bought some LGBT t-shirts from American Apparel.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 20, 2013, 10:15:39 AM
Passed like a boss. In a game store, no less. ;D
Oh, and I bought some LGBT t-shirts from American Apparel.
Congratulations on passing
My sister brought me home a strawberry sundae from McDonalds :3
I am going to spend the afternoon reading this really interesting book called 'Thinking, Fast and Slow' about the ways our brains process information and why me make the decisions that we do. It was written by a Nobel prize winner, and I've seen it recommended multiple places.
Shantel gave me some excellent insight which really did make a difference today. ;D
I was able to make my younger sister friends laugh.
Met a facebook friend today. It just so happens that she lives in the next town, so she came to visit me today. We had a nice long talk. We each talked about our transitions to date. Had a wonderful time. :)
I told her about Susan's, I hope she joins soon. I think she will have a lot to offer this community.
Found a penny today
I passed. I actually passed. As in the guy knew I was a guy, but didn't know I was trans. Even though I look like a girl and he has heard my annoyingly high voice.
Quote from: Edge on July 22, 2013, 01:25:21 PM
I passed. I actually passed. As in the guy knew I was a guy, but didn't know I was trans. Even though I look like a girl and he has heard my annoyingly high voice.
congrats - always a very validating experience. It feels like external confirmation.
Taking something to calm me down. I love this stuff. It slightly numbs the mental pain by interacting in a weird way with my medication. If only i had something stronger. I usually stay away from it. It is prescription stuff for a reason.
I recently started talking to this girl and somehow we got on the topic of transition at lunch one day, so I sucked it up and told her and she was just so cool about it. She said she knew already but didn't really care cause "people are people and its who you are, and you're pretty great". And we've been talking pretty much nonstop since Friday. We skyped for over 9 hours last night and we both fell asleep on camera after coming to the realization that we are so much alike that its like talking to ourselves. And shes just perfect. We're having lunch at the hospital tomorrow (we both volunteer there, her tuesdays and fridays and me on wednesdays and fridays) and I'm really excited for where this goes!
There's a thunderstorm outside. I like thunderstorms. And it's raining hard. It's not sunny. That makes me happy.
Quote from: dpadgett628 on July 22, 2013, 09:45:01 PM
I recently started talking to this girl and somehow we got on the topic of transition at lunch one day, so I sucked it up and told her and she was just so cool about it. She said she knew already but didn't really care cause "people are people and its who you are, and you're pretty great". And we've been talking pretty much nonstop since Friday. We skyped for over 9 hours last night and we both fell asleep on camera after coming to the realization that we are so much alike that its like talking to ourselves. And shes just perfect. We're having lunch at the hospital tomorrow (we both volunteer there, her tuesdays and fridays and me on wednesdays and fridays) and I'm really excited for where this goes!
Cool, I always say there is someone out there for everyone, we just have to get out and circulate!
I found a new (to me) song I like.
looking in the mirrior and thinking how happy I am being a female despite my male body,soo wonderful to see yourself as you really feel
Our trial seems to be going well, I feel quite optimistic that we're going to win. :) Also, I am always happy hearing Hanan's singing. :icon_headfones:
Someone brought me some fresh shrimp they caught last night for letting them get some gas yesterday morning an hour before we opened. It was more than I needed, so after deheading them, I took some over to my bosses house for her.
Say hello to my little friend...
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Quote from: jrd on July 24, 2013, 05:28:25 PM
Someone brought me some fresh shrimp they caught last night for letting them get some gas yesterday morning an hour before we opened. It was more than I needed, so after deheading them, I took some over to my bosses house for her.
Say hello to my little friend...
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Jake's going to be jealous!
Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 24, 2013, 05:32:30 PM
So is this a pet?
No, he got his little head pinched off right after the pic. He's going to be dinner one day soon along with all his little friends. I do have a few sore fingers from doing it though, they've gotten soft over the last several years.
getting $5
Had a nice day,went to the hairdressers caught up with lots of people I hadn't seen for ages,ate junk food,walked on the beach and watched a bit of TV
Quote from: jrd on July 24, 2013, 05:52:16 PM
No, he got his little head pinched off right after the pic. He's going to be dinner one day soon along with all his little friends. I do have a few sore fingers from doing it though, they've gotten soft over the last several years.
Down in Louisiana, they suck the brains right out.
I watched Holes and was reminded that I should get the book. I like that book. I also feel more ok with having poofy hair after being reminded of my favourite character.
Well it was "today" a few days ago. Anyway I just threw on a male T shirt, shorts and a touch of make up for the flight home from Spain". The stewardess said to me "Your seat is right there madam" then later to my wife and I, "Would you like to buy some duty free ladies?"
This pleased me then I thought perhaps they were filming a new advert for Spec-savers. (This may just be a UK gag)
Quote from: pollypagan on July 25, 2013, 08:55:20 AM
Well it was "today" a few days ago. Anyway I just threw on a male T shirt, shorts and a touch of make up for the flight home from Spain". The stewardess said to me "Your seat is right there madam" then later to my wife and I, "Would you like to buy some duty free ladies?"
This pleased me then I thought perhaps they were filming a new advert for Spec-savers. (This may just be a UK gag)
Were you there for FFS? Apparently you pass just fine....Kudos!
Quote from: Shantel on July 25, 2013, 09:02:12 AM
Were you there for FFS? Apparently you pass just fine....Kudos!
If FFS means Foreign Falldown Sauce then yip I surely was. ;)
Quote from: pollypagan on July 25, 2013, 09:39:26 AM
If FFS means Foreign Falldown Sauce then yip I surely was. ;)
Whaaaa? Goofy girl! ;D
Got my son's day care all set up for Sept.
Walking my nephew back to my sister house :]
The required ad announcing my intention to change my name ran in the paper today.
Quote from: suzifrommd on July 25, 2013, 12:36:35 PM
The required ad announcing my intention to change my name ran in the paper today.
Froward momentum! :eusa_clap:
Mail brought me my top surgery appointment!!!
I'm so f***ing happy I can't stop shaking!
Tossu-sama, big congratulations to you! Good luck with it, I hope it all goes well for you :)
Going out shopping with my nephew, and messing about with him in the morning.
I sent in my completed tax forms, got my son's day care sorted and ready to go, sent in my student loan application, and received a message that I will hear back in about four weeks. Phew! That's a huge load off. Now, I just need to get my name change certificate in the mail.
Also, my endo appointment went as well as can be expected. He does believe I'm trans (one of my fears is that people won't believe me). I do have to go see a psychologist to confirm it, but he says he doesn't foresee any problems.
Not having taken any unneeded meds for two days. I'm glad it didn't turn into a addiction. What was I thinking?
The only existing footage of Frank Zappa's "Yellow Snow Suite" performed live surfaced in December and i'm listening to the audio.
Frank Zappa - Yellow Snow Suite, Live Performance, 1978 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DPJ0IYAkuA#)
Und der Haifisch, der hat Zähne und die trägt er im Gesicht,
und Macheath, der hat ein Messer, doch das Messer sieht man nicht,
I didn't know a song Caleb and I had more lyrics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RbcR_KSRB8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RbcR_KSRB8)
I got to spend some time chatting with Caleb tonight. He is still doing his Brother's homework.
In ages past when spells were cast
In a time of men in steel
When a man was taught no special thing
It was all done by feel
So listen, so learn, so read on
You gotta turn the page, read the Book of Taliesyn
Hear the song of lovely Joan
Her sound so sweet and clear
In the courtroom of the King
Among children and the peers
So listen, so learn, so read on
You gotta turn the page, read the Book of Taliesyn
"Now hear ye the words of Taliesyn,
on the foaming beach of the ocean,
in the day of trouble,
I shall be of more service to thee
than three hundred salmon..."
The hare he bounds across the page
Past castles white and fair
Past dreaming chessmen on their boards
With a fool's mate as a snare
So listen, so learn, so read on
You gotta turn the page, read the Book of Taliesyn
"Three times I have been born
I know this from meditation..."
The bird he flies the distance
From pages two to six
Past minstrels in their boxes
To the waters of the Styx
So listen, so learn, so read on
You gotta turn the page, read the Book of Taliesyn
Don't take the pictures lightly
Listen to their sound
For from their coloured feeling
Experience is found
So listen, so learn, so read on
You gotta turn the page, read the Book of Taliesyn
"All the sciences of the world are collected in my breast,
for I know what has been, what is now,
and what hereafter will occur..."
My football team Airdrieonians beat local rivals Hamilton Accies 2 : 1. :)
My nephew. He ran between the four of us (nan, me, sister, and brother-in-law) trying our ice-cream, and the he did a roly poly
Next week: Stratocaster
and
goodbye, ->-bleeped-<-ty old beat-up Ibanez.
The overdubs on "Who Are The Brain Police?" came out great.
They were structured like this:
1.the 1970 riff (left)
2.the 1970 riff (left)
3.the 1970 (right)
4.the 1970 riff (right)
5.riff in another octave (manual harmonics 1)
6.riff in another octave (manual harmonics 1)
7.riff in another octave (manual harmonics 2)
8.riff in another octave (manual harmonics 2)
9.riff in another octave (manual harmonics 3)
10.riff in another octave (manual harmonics 3)
11.the 1971 riff
12.the 1971 riff
A bookstore that closed teporarily last year reopened last night. My wife and I went to the celebration.
I went back today and browsed the many bookshelves. Have picked five books that I'll purchase next week.
:)
My friends coming to spend the weekend, the weather today...
And the first time I manage to apply eyeliner.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FKMpPmpX.jpg&hash=c2024f39fbbc65d45c673deef561c7828006fa4c)
I wish this day would last forever.
I am really liking Paracelsus as a villain in Warehouse 13.
It was yesterday, but I got home late. I went to a lesbian dance party at Splash in San Jose and had an awesome time dancing.
Getting my +1 month nephew to sleep ::)
It was more my whole weekend..
Started with breakfast on Friday with some old friends in my home town. Then lunch with another friend.. Then back to one of the friends I had breakfast with place to get ready to go to a wedding, where I was fill-in Mother-of-the-Bride, in honour of my late GF, Alison. It was a really great afternoon/evening..
Saturday morning was a bit of a recovery and catch up with the friend I was staying with.. Then it was time to head off and catch up with another old friend.. An exGF, in fact.. We checked in to a hotel and went off in search of food and some drinks.. Had a few drinks and preceded to get ready to go out. Emma and I then went out to a few old haunts - which was a different experience as a woman. Sunday was breakfast and shopping with Emma..
Good times and good friends makes for a very happy Kelly.. I'm also tired, a little hungover still and bits of my body are a little sore..
I got a call today for a job interview in Indianapolis on Thursday. If i get the job, I'll be making blank CD's and DVD's. Which is great. they are made using clear Poly-carbonate, same as Headlight lenses. so, maybe no more Nylon and getting burned by that stuff.
And I filled out my FAFSA. Maybe I'll go to school for something. I am thinking Game design, animation or psychology. (We need more therapists who help trans people).
Good luck, Keaira.
Today, we went to the library and I got out Holes and Small Steps. Then we went to the park. Right now, my son is curled up in a nest he made of my blankets beside me.
My sister. She's been indispensable these last few months. She called this morning to check in and we had a long, candid chat. The road ahead will to be tough and it's nice to know that I have an ally in the family.
Maddy
Quote from: Keaira on July 29, 2013, 02:10:55 PM
I got a call today for a job interview in Indianapolis on Thursday. If i get the job, I'll be making blank CD's and DVD's. Which is great. they are made using clear Poly-carbonate, same as Headlight lenses. so, maybe no more Nylon and getting burned by that stuff.
And I filled out my FAFSA. Maybe I'll go to school for something. I am thinking Game design, animation or psychology. (We need more therapists who help trans people).
Good luck, keep us posted!
Congratulations, Liam! (I also have a distrust of using the phone.)
Quote from: Shantel on July 29, 2013, 02:22:37 PM
Good luck, keep us posted!
Will do!
I've been looking at their website. It looks like I could branch out into graphic design there too. Its a complete CD/DVD manufacturing company makes and ships albums, movies, games, etc. They also do custom USB memory sticks. So it is an interesting place.
Oh, and I called the electric company to see about getting an extention. All of my bills are under my old name still. So I gave the woman on the other end of the line, my name, social, account, etc. And we talked about the bill. Then she was going to put some notes in. She asked me for my name again and the conversation got interesting....
Her: ... Okay, and the name?
Me: Oh, **** F*****
Her:.. no, your name please.
Me: that is my name. Its my account!
Her:......* awkward silence for a moment*..... oh, I'm sorry, I thought I was talking to the Mrs...
Me: oh.. well I get that a lot. Thank you
Yea.... even trying to be a guy, I totally fail. That's just messed up.
Quote from: Keaira on July 29, 2013, 04:50:20 PM
Will do!
I've been looking at their website. It looks like I could branch out into graphic design there too. Its a complete CD/DVD manufacturing company makes and ships albums, movies, games, etc. They also do custom USB memory sticks. So it is an interesting place.
Oh, and I called the electric company to see about getting an extention. All of my bills are under my old name still. So I gave the woman on the other end of the line, my name, social, account, etc. And we talked about the bill. Then she was going to put some notes in. She asked me for my name again and the conversation got interesting....
Her: ... Okay, and the name?
Me: Oh, **** F*****
Her:.. no, your name please.
Me: that is my name. Its my account!
Her:......* awkward silence for a moment*..... oh, I'm sorry, I thought I was talking to the Mrs...
Me: oh.. well I get that a lot. Thank you
Yea.... even trying to be a guy, I totally fail. That's just messed up.
Those kinds of conversations have got to be enormously reaffirming! I've never had one because I'm a sloth about my voice and don't make the effort probably because I don't see myself as a woman anyway. I have been called "You ladies and ma'am multiple times" I open my mouth and they become embarrassed, I suppose it's rude of me, I should be called Rudy instead of Shantel. :D ;D :laugh:
2 things made me happy today,
my dad saying that he'll help me regarding transitioning
my Minecraft Bukkit programming all worked first time with the only changes being rewording things.
Quote from: Shantel on July 29, 2013, 05:23:28 PM
Those kinds of conversations have got to be enormously reaffirming! I've never had one because I'm a sloth about my voice and don't make the effort probably because I don't see myself as a woman anyway. I have been called "You ladies and ma'am multiple times" I open my mouth and they become embarrassed, I suppose it's rude of me, I should be called Rudy instead of Shantel. :D ;D :laugh:
It is reaffirming, but really really awkward too! Lol. The thing is, I have never developed a female voice though training. The videos I've posted of me in the voice training threads, that is my natural voice that I have always talked with. So there is also a bit of humor and irony there too. All I can think is that, since HRT does not change one's voice, I come across as female vocally because Im not miserable anymore, so I sound happier and more upbeat. And my vocal range is probably close to or crosses into the female range anyway.
Quote from: Keaira on July 29, 2013, 06:00:44 PM
It is reaffirming, but really really awkward too! Lol. The thing is, I have never developed a female voice though training. The videos I've posted of me in the voice training threads, that is my natural voice that I have always talked with. So there is also a bit of humor and irony there too. All I can think is that, since HRT does not change one's voice, I come across as female vocally because Im not miserable anymore, so I sound happier and more upbeat. And my vocal range is probably close to or crosses into the female range anyway.
Yeah, you pass pretty flawlessly. :P No need for the worries lol
Hugs from my kids. (and my boobs; I can't believe how fast they are growing!)
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 29, 2013, 09:04:34 PM
Yeah, you pass pretty flawlessly. :P No need for the worries lol
Apparently so. In a way its actually very funny. I'm still giggling about it.
Falafels!
Maddy
After a crumby day yesterday, lots of progress today:
* When I came home after having lunch with a close friend, I checked the mail. The confirmation of my required name change ad had arrived! I turned right around and quickly went to the courthouse and filed it. The clerk there remembered me and was very sweet about it. Said I would get the paperwork soon.
* Did my weekly hair removal and body shave session. There was barely anything on my calves to shave. After two months on Spiro, I'm finally seeing some reduction.
* (***TMI Warning***) I looked at my nipples. Gone are the tiny nubs. No longer pointy, but circular with a definite opening in the middle.
THINGS ARE PROGRESSING...
I'm not quite sure why, but I had a good day.
I got to see my grandma. She gave me jam, a cheese grater with a handle, and an electric guitar. Lol.
New 5 Finger Death Punch CD and 2 veggie sausage rolls for the price of one
I was feeling bad last night and didn't feel like I could sleep, so I decided to read a little bit of Small Steps. A little bit turned into the whole book because I couldn't put it down. I now feel happy and a bit inspired.
Just had a superb day at the GIC. I've been referred for top surgery, and I'll be starting T within the next few weeks!
Woohoo! ;D
Quote from: JulieR on July 31, 2013, 11:03:01 AM
Sweet!!, congratz FTM
Thanks Julie! I'm over the moon. :)
After panicking about finances last night, I get an email offering me another teaching contract for the upcoming term. Thank God! Lol.
That means I am eligible for a tuition payment plan. It also means that I should have enough (providing it's a full unit and not a half unit) be able to visit Keaira in December or early January if I get a part-time job somewhere in addition to the teaching.
Got back to T shots from the icky gel. \o/ And my fiancé got the injecting perfectly done even if it was her first time!
And two weeks till top surgery, wooooooooo~
New shoes came today.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1260.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fii579%2Fagerb%2FBoat-Shoes_zps192011ec.jpg&hash=d54fe86cf70010130621508a5c7f05839af721ca)
Sperry Women's Bluefish 2-eye platinum boat shoe.
My nephew that's one did a roly-poly. I also found found my Cyclo DS but my DS touch screen is scuffed :(
I just made $10 selling some Classical music CDs and some other cds with broken cases and even scratched up. The girl I met just really wanted the Classical CDs though for her music class at a University nearby so all of the CDs that were included were probably just junk to her lol. $10 for all was a pretty good deal. Though I do feel bad because I took that music class and was in a program that actually paid for my textbook (the CDs came with it). They said that we have to return the books back to them so I returned the book back but at the time, I had misplaced the CDs and never found them. Then the program was shut down due to lack of grant money and I found the CD's but the people over the program had been long gone. They never hassled me about the CD's so I just kept them (I really had no choice but to lol).
At any rate, I'm glad another student can put them to good use, as I can put her $10 to good use in my top surgery fund and free up more space in my room.
I got my name change certificate in the mail! Muahahahaha!
Found an exhibition of memorabilia and old maps and photos of Blackpool with lots of model cars and planes.
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 31, 2013, 05:14:14 PM
After panicking about finances last night, I get an email offering me another teaching contract for the upcoming term. Thank God! Lol.
That means I am eligible for a tuition payment plan. It also means that I should have enough (providing it's a full unit and not a half unit) be able to visit Keaira in December or early January if I get a part-time job somewhere in addition to the teaching.
Haha somebody is looking out for you Caleb!
Pretty much as soon as I accepted that I might have to go into debt, I got the job lolol.
Made an "A" in my class.
Suprisingly fresh bakery day-olds.
My new scale came in - I do these surveys, it was not supposed to come in until my birthday - way off - it measures a lot of stuff - I have lost weight (120) and my BMI is 20 and my body fat is 30 the book say I am ok.
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 02, 2013, 01:14:21 PM
I have been attempting to grow fodder for my animals since the middle of May and been an overall miserable failure at it, but today's phone call yielded new information (apparently the information we were given and which had been reinforced by multiple previous phone calls was completely outdated and wrong :icon_confused2:) and it seems quite promising. Plus, I participated in a phone call and didn't die.
I shook up a mustard bottle and realized no ick/dysphoria. I used to hate that. I devised a way to shake up bottles of lamb milk replacer with a minimum of shaking of myself, but I won't need it anymore.
Been running around in nothing but gym shorts and my wool timer.
Muscles are sore from weightlifting. No more painful constriction, no more bands cutting into my shoulders, no more restriction of mobility, no more avoiding the mirrors, no more discomfort at the chest presses.
The sheep. This is my ewe lamb, Willa, again, at four and a half months old. She likes to pose.
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Free at last huh? So cool on you Liam! Willa is a poser alright, but after all she is a pretty girl! Wonder what she's thinking?
My new laptop. My Pell Grant paid for it so I'm not complaining. It was required for a couple of my classes. Windows 8 did do my head in for a little bit but think I've got the hang of it.
Looking forward to starting classes in a few weeks.
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 01, 2013, 06:22:56 PM
Pretty much as soon as I accepted that I might have to go into debt, I got the job lolol.
Kudos! :icon_flower:
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 02, 2013, 02:41:34 PM
;D I am enjoying freedom. She's probably thinking about sniffing the camera to offer me her famous up-nostril view, trademark of the outrageously friendly.
Hahaha cute! ;D
Quote from: Shantel on August 02, 2013, 02:39:54 PM
Kudos! :icon_flower:
There's a third person tat will be working with us as well, I don't know who they are yet. I hope it is someone I know and like!
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 02, 2013, 03:27:45 PM
There's a third person tat will be working with us as well, I don't know who they are yet. I hope it is someone I know and like!
Keep your fingers crossed, we all know how Murphy's law works.
Quote from: JulieR on August 02, 2013, 05:50:41 PM
Season 5 of "Breaking Bad" is now on Netflix!!!!!
WOO HOO!!
I saw a trailer for a new (to me) show I now really want to watch.
Quote from: Shantel on August 02, 2013, 06:44:50 PM
Walt is turning into a real bad ass!
No spoilers, Auntie Shan!
Maddy
Went out for drinks at a dive bar with a few of my new coworkers (all male) this afternoon after work. Made me happy because I think it means I'm officially stealth at work (other than a few of the higher up folks who hired me and know about my 'condition'). I've never really been stealth before I got this job, and today I just felt like one of the guys :).
Still feel nervous because sometimes I can't believe they don't even suspect, and I'm waiting for someone to figure it all out. But hey, for now things are good.
I beat my social anxiety enough to call and leave a message for a local electrologist. She rolls... if slowly.
Maddy thinks that GID + SAD = Cosmic Joke
Midnight run to the fast food drive thru with a couple of family friends. Small things like that always is what gets me up!
I had a "revelation." Lol.
I was misgendered today, and it really hurt me badly. It has been so long, and it was because I was in a more "adult" situation (not sex lol) so there was no way I could be read as 16, which is about the age I look. So...it really confirms that it is very possible I could be either misgendered or pegged as trans while teaching. And, that just makes me feel horrible because I am so sick of this pain. But I need to be an adult, the world doesn't just stop spinning because I look too young to be my age. I need money.
But here it was. I was laid down, playing on my tablet, and I thought: I'm sad. How normal is that? I used to be so depressed that I never thought "I'm sad." Because I was always sad. I was always sad as a girl. Sad was my normal. But now...I can say...I am sad, because sad is no longer my normal. Sad is just sad, and it happens sometimes.
I don't give a crap what anyone else thinks. you're a good looking guy. I can't see you as anything but that. you wont believe me but that's okay. I will wait and then you'll owe me yet another "You were right."
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 03, 2013, 05:04:16 AM
I had a "revelation." Lol.
I was misgendered today, and it really hurt me badly. It has been so long, and it was because I was in a more "adult" situation (not sex lol) so there was no way I could be read as 16, which is about the age I look. So...it really confirms that it is very possible I could be either misgendered or pegged as trans while teaching. And, that just makes me feel horrible because I am so sick of this pain. But I need to be an adult, the world doesn't just stop spinning because I look too young to be my age. I need money.
It happens to the best of the best at times, you can't let it crush and destroy you like that Caleb, just politely correct that individual and let it go.
Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 03, 2013, 05:04:16 AM
But here it was. I was laid down, playing on my tablet, and I thought: I'm sad. How normal is that? I used to be so depressed that I never thought "I'm sad." Because I was always sad. I was always sad as a girl. Sad was my normal. But now...I can say...I am sad, because sad is no longer my normal. Sad is just sad, and it happens sometimes.
I remember feeling this exact same thing once, and it's an ironic situation, but it does make you feel surprisingly happy. Maybe happy isn't the right word for it, but it's a positive feeling despite feeling sad in the first place.
My grandfather, who doesn't know I'm anything but a girl, called me "railway man" today. I find it so reassuring and affirming when people refer to me as male, or use more masculine orientated words, even though they know me as something else. Something must be subconsciously sinking through. And yes, he's still got his marbles.
Yeah, it is a small comfort. :)
Fresh contact lenses
Susan, and my adorable nephews.
Got a nice piece of cod from the fishmonger........and a Ma'am! In boy mode!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on August 04, 2013, 05:40:28 PM
Got a nice piece of cod from the fishmonger........and a Ma'am! In boy mode!
Cool, cheap thrill huh? :D
My toes are painted ten different colours.
Maddy is in touch with her inner child.
Thanks, Julie and Shan, it picked me up bigtime because I wasn't expecting it at all. I flashed a big smile and tried not to let my voice ruin it!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on August 04, 2013, 08:16:23 PM
Thanks, Julie and Shan, it picked me up bigtime because I wasn't expecting it at all. I flashed a big smile and tried not to let my voice ruin it!
We all need a little boost like that occasionally. I always come away feeling that they need to get their prescription updated for their glasses, but we don't look a gift horse in the mouth ever!
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 05, 2013, 11:00:23 AM
Working out is grand. I lifted well enough and didn't get anxious about the other people there. I'm not normally vain, I swear, but I looked pretty awesome in the mirrors. I am square and I looked like solid muscle. (I'm definitely not, but it looked like it.) There's a reason I never achieved true flatness via binding, and it's because there are big pecs and a giant ribcage under there. Who knew? I keep thinking I'm terrible, but maybe I'm not.
It's occurred to me that I once could do nine to eleven pull-ups at once while weighing 175 pounds and possessing the body chemistry of a female, and that is something ain't nobody in that gym can claim.
You're right about pecs, most female born people discount the idea that they even have pecs. We bought a rowing machine that we use religiously and my cis spouse has moved to a bigger bra size because of developing pecs. Mine feel tighter as of late, probably more attributable to the carrot cake I just polished off.
Quote from: Shantel on August 05, 2013, 12:05:20 PM
You're right about pecs, most female born people discount the idea that they even have pecs. We bought a rowing machine that we use religiously and my cis spouse has moved to a bigger bra size because of developing pecs. Mine feel tighter as of late, probably more attributable to the carrot cake I just polished off.
mmmmm carrot cake.
My dog came home, five days after being kicked in the head by a horse and no one thought she'd make it. She's not completely with it yet, but it's a miracle she's got this far, and there's no reason she won't keep improving. It's just amazing to have her home.
Quote from: AlexanderC on August 05, 2013, 01:17:52 PM
My dog came home, five days after being kicked in the head by a horse and no one thought she'd make it. She's not completely with it yet, but it's a miracle she's got this far, and there's no reason she won't keep improving. It's just amazing to have her home.
Cool, as always man's best friend who loves you unconditionally! Hug that dog for Auntie Shan too Alexander!
When i got out of therapy my Nan had gotten me a creamy cake.
Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on August 05, 2013, 03:37:04 PM
When i got out of therapy my Nan had gotten me a creamy cake.
She's spoiling her grand baby!
I just got off the phone with my brother. We hadn't talked for a couple of months. The way the call began though...I'm still laughing...
I answer the phone: 'hello?'
Brother: 'Hello??'
Me: 'hellooo....?'
Brother.....
Me: Can you hear me?
Brother: Oh my god, I thought I was hearing my own voice echoing! That's your voice?? I think it's deeper than mine! (and then he couldn't stop laughing...I think he was a little weirded out)
Aw yeah ;D
Quote from: ford on August 05, 2013, 08:41:43 PM
I just got off the phone with my brother. We hadn't talked for a couple of months. The way the call began though...I'm still laughing...
I answer the phone: 'hello?'
Brother: 'Hello??'
Me: 'hellooo....?'
Brother.....
Me: Can you hear me?
Brother: Oh my god, I thought I was hearing my own voice echoing! That's your voice?? I think it's deeper than mine! (and then he couldn't stop laughing...I think he was a little weirded out)
Aw yeah ;D
Hahaha so cool Ford, seems like the T is doing it's magic stuff!
Sad news from yesterday turned into good news to day, yesterday someone I know took too many pills for a prior condition and wound up in a coma on life support. But as of four hours ago they are out of ICU and in the toxicology ward and awake. Fingers crossed they continue to get better.
Pushing my nephew to my sisters. I had a grin on my face as he didn't seem to be enjoying it ;D
I'm going to a baking activity of my transgendergroup. My mum started joking she owns boy/girl bakingforms so we can make 'gendercakes'. But the thing that made me happy was that my dad joined in being silly and laughed along. He's been really accepting but really tense about everything up till now so it's nice that he can laugh about it as well.
Quote from: NathanielM on August 06, 2013, 01:21:39 PM
I'm going to a baking activity of my transgendergroup. My mum started joking she owns boy/girl bakingforms so we can make 'gendercakes'. But the thing that made me happy was that my dad joined in being silly and laughed along. He's been really accepting but really tense about everything up till now so it's nice that he can laugh about it as well.
mmmm gendercakes....
I woke up before noon today, that's something new
Quote from: NathanielM on August 06, 2013, 01:21:39 PM
I'm going to a baking activity of my transgendergroup. My mum started joking she owns boy/girl bakingforms so we can make 'gendercakes'. But the thing that made me happy was that my dad joined in being silly and laughed along. He's been really accepting but really tense about everything up till now so it's nice that he can laugh about it as well.
LOL, that's brilliant! If I were making gendercakes, I would splice some together for the people who might identify as androgyne ;)
Quote from: NathanielM on August 06, 2013, 01:21:39 PM
I'm going to a baking activity of my transgendergroup. My mum started joking she owns boy/girl bakingforms so we can make 'gendercakes'. But the thing that made me happy was that my dad joined in being silly and laughed along. He's been really accepting but really tense about everything up till now so it's nice that he can laugh about it as well.
Just ice all the boys in pink and all the girls in blue. :)
Quote from: Jennygirl on August 06, 2013, 02:37:57 PM
LOL, that's brilliant! If I were making gendercakes, I would splice some together for the people who might identify as androgyne ;)
That's what my dad said :D now I might have to actually take them with me :p
Quote from: ZoeM on August 06, 2013, 03:04:38 PM
Just ice all the boys in pink and all the girls in blue. :)
Yes!! Brilliant, I'm going to have to propose this now, although we try to avoid stereotypes so we might have blue icing with pink sprinkles for the people who want that :)
My boss paid for a ticket to the Rebellion punk festival on Friday.Any one going there?
My grandma who was really not very accepting of my transition keeps coming around. Today I was helping her add my brother's email to her contacts and it asked if she wanted to put a nickname. So she said "put number 1 grandson." And then she said "Oh...oh...sorry! Sorry. I meant because he was the first born grandson. Well, he used to be, but not anymore, you are the oldest. Just don't put a nickname there for your brother. I still just see you as my sweetie is all."
I know she doesn't fully see me as a guy. But, it just goes to prove that if people love you, they will come around in time. It took her 3 years to even begin. I think she always held on to the "hope" that I'd decide not to transition, but now she knows it's something that will never change so she's trying to accept it as well as she can. She also noticed a man named Caleb on TV and she said "Hey look! A Caleb!" Lol.
And it got me thinking about my fears for uni as well. The fear that I will get clocked and be the "trans teacher." You know what? Who cares! My grandma has come so far. I am closer to all my grandparents than most kids are. She saw me grow up as her only granddaughter, for 20 years. My transition goes against everything that her religion has ever taught her, and everything that life has ever taught her. To her, boys are boys and girls are girls and that's that. It goes against everything she has ever held dear to her. But she loved me enough to find it within herself to question all these things after age 70. So who gives a crap if some kid at uni clocks me and is a jerk about it? I have nothing to prove to them. It will hurt, to know that to some I look female still. And it will remind me of the pain of dysphoria. But they can suck it. If someone wants to out me and point out that I look trans, I'm just going to tell them that I am their tutor and they are my student, and that those sorts of questions and discussions are inappropriate. After a few months I never have to lay eyes on a single one of them.
Quote from: Jennygirl on August 06, 2013, 02:37:57 PM
LOL, that's brilliant! If I were making gendercakes, I would splice some together for the people who might identify as androgyne ;)
Oooo - like one of those multi-flavor cheesecakes! :D
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I had an appointment at Charing Cross gender clinic in London today, after almost 3 years of waiting I have just had the go ahead to start HRT.
Due to my T levels being so low they aren't going to give me T blockers as they think that the Estradol (is that how you spell it?) will bring my T levels to a normal female range, they are starting me on a very low dose & plan to increase it over the coming months, apparently this gradually increasing dosage gives better breast development.
Due to the new NHS procedures he is going to write to my GP so I don't have to wait for my next endo appointment, he has also confirmed that under the new NHS rules I am entitled to 8 electrolysis sessions, he said it's so new that i'm the first person he's had the pleasure of referring for this.
Party time ;D :eusa_dance: :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_dance: :icon_drunk: :icon_geekdance: :icon_joy: :icon_rockon:
Wow, that is GREAT!!!! Congrads!!!! :) :) :)
Quote from: Jayne on August 07, 2013, 03:00:24 PM
he has also confirmed that under the new NHS rules I am entitled to 8 electrolysis sessions, he said it's so new that i'm the first person he's had the pleasure of referring for this.
*jealous*
In all seriousness, congrats!
Maddy
Quote from: Jayne on August 07, 2013, 03:00:24 PM
I had an appointment at Charing Cross gender clinic in London today, after almost 3 years of waiting I have just had the go ahead to start HRT.
Due to the new NHS procedures he is going to write to my GP so I don't have to wait for my next endo appointment, he has also confirmed that under the new NHS rules I am entitled to 8 electrolysis sessions, he said it's so new that i'm the first person he's had the pleasure of referring for this.
Congrats Jayne! I'm so chuffed for you. And about time too! :)
Thats great Jayne
Congratulations Jayne.
Finished and submitted my first Medieval History assignment for the semester. 500 words can seem so loooooooooooong!
I was heading out to do some field work with a colleague (collecting pine needles for various studies out in the middle of nowhere, Montana) and we saw a mountain lion! Bounded across the road in front of my truck. That's a first for me!
So. Cool.
Shopping for boyclothes with my mum :) Bigbangtheory t-shirt on last sales practically free ! And we bought an outfit she wants me to wear on my parents 50th birthday party in september!
I was worried about telling my ex about my name and thus finally coming out to him as trans, but his only response was a completely neutral, "I heard. Do you want me to use masculine pronouns?" Phew!
Also, NathanielM's avatar.
Quote from: Edge on August 01, 2013, 02:15:17 PM
I got my name change certificate in the mail! Muahahahaha!
Congratulations. You are the true Victor!
Quote from: Edge on August 08, 2013, 08:13:13 AM
I was worried about telling my ex about my name and thus finally coming out to him as trans, but his only response was a completely neutral, "I heard. Do you want me to use masculine pronouns?" Phew!
Also, NathanielM's avatar.
Glad to be of service, and happy for you!
Quote from: MadelineB on August 08, 2013, 10:34:03 AMCongratulations. You are the true Victor!
Thanks Madeline!
Quote from: NathanielM on August 08, 2013, 10:47:07 AMGlad to be of service, and happy for you!
It's a good show. I like how there are so many moments of heartwarming. Like in an episode that takes place on Halloween, all the kids are excited to come to Monroe's house.
Quote from: Edge on August 08, 2013, 10:55:30 AM
It's a good show. I like how there are so many moments of heartwarming. Like in an episode that takes place on Halloween, all the kids are excited to come to Monroe's house.
What show is that from. I assumed that was a scene from Prison Break.
Grimm isn't it? That's the actor who plays Monroe, he's wearing something Monroe would wear, and there is greenery behind him.
Quote from: Edge on August 08, 2013, 11:24:42 AM
Grimm isn't it? That's the actor who plays Monroe, he's wearing something Monroe would wear, and there is greenery behind him.
He does look too sane to be the guy from Prison Break.
Quote from: CaseyB on August 08, 2013, 11:38:20 AM
He does look too sane to be the guy from Prison Break.
Yep. Same actor though.
Speaking of watching different things actors are in, I've been watching some things Gustaf Skarsgård is in. He plays Floki in Vikings and an effeminate gay guy in Patrik, Age 1.5. The funny thing is, he uses the same mannerisms and movements for both characters and it works for both characters. I had fun imagining a viking wearing a sweater vest.
Quote from: Edge on August 08, 2013, 08:13:13 AM
I was worried about telling my ex about my name and thus finally coming out to him as trans, but his only response was a completely neutral, "I heard. Do you want me to use masculine pronouns?" Phew!
Also, NathanielM's avatar.
That's awesome! I am so glad he handled it so well - respectful, but also "no big deal", you know? And congrats on the name change. ;D
Quote from: caleb. on August 08, 2013, 03:39:21 PM
That's awesome! I am so glad he handled it so well - respectful, but also "no big deal", you know? And congrats on the name change. ;D
+1 ditto on that!
My singing voice is coming back.
I guess my voice hasn't finished breaking yet, it's still changing A LOT. This one day it is deep and raspy, this next day it is medium-pitched and squeaky/crackly. Not good when you like singing. I managed to pull off Ian Gillan's overall vocal tone at the beginning (not the middle part or end, obviously, my voice is not really high or powerful) of Child in Time.
Sweet child in time,
you're gonna see the line,
the line that's drawn between,
the good of us and the bad of us,
See the blind man,
shooting at the world,
bullets flying,
taking toll
If you've been bad,
lord i bet you have,
and you've not been hit,
by flying lead
You'd better close your eyes,
you'd better bow your head,
and wait for the ricochet
Ooohooowoooo, ooohooowoooo,
Ooohwoohoo, i wanna be inside you (so far so good)
Ooohoohoo, ooohoohoo, ooohoohooo
Aahh"crack" (i stop)
I'm over the moon right now. Caleb bought some dress shirts finally. And he looks great! I mean, really really good!! I think it will help his self esteem. I was kind of in shock because for the last few days he's been really bummed out, so when he came online to chat my jaw dropped! and I actually got teary eyed. lol.
Seeing a fellow member's progress made me happy for her and somehow sad and jealous for me in a weird way.
"scratches his awfully itchy head"
Going to see The Damned and Eddie & the Hot Rods at Rebellion Punk Festival
Today I went to a shop to pick up some shorts I had ordered online. I ask for my order and they ask me for me ID card. I say my typical "sorry, the photo is kinda old, I'm waiting for the new one". "Don't worry, dearie". But when I go to the cashier, and she ask for my ID again..
"... Sorry, are you picking this for somebody else? I'd need that person to sign..."
"Sorry, that's me. It will be a few months before they give me a new one"
Then she realizes that I am transgender, she is red and saying "sorry sorry sorry" all the time. "Son't worry, it happens all the time". After that she got curious, asking about the processes for the identity, if they will give it to me soon... And wishing me good luck in the end.
I almost want to cry of joy.
I posted this on my Facebook for my Dad
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His reply below the poem made me smile. ^_^
Babysitting.
My Credit Card came in the mail today (I did not expect it for 8 more days) - & I managed to order a new TV - this one will be my first LED TV, brighter than any I have ever had, + 3 year warranty. AND they are shipping it out today! ;D
I have a date next month for my pre-op consultation - which means there's an outside chance of me having my gender affirmation surgery before the new year! (though that'll make for a weird Yuletide, it'll do as a present :) ).
Quote from: Padma on August 09, 2013, 11:17:21 PM
I have a date next month for my pre-op consultation - which means there's an outside chance of me having my gender affirmation surgery before the new year! (though that'll make for a weird Yuletide, it'll do as a present :) ).
Congrats, keep us posted!
People here have made me happy >.<
I went water skiing for the first time in years. No bad falls,just a bunch of fun. I am so sore. A good sore.
Quote from: JLT1 on August 10, 2013, 06:26:07 PM
I went water skiing for the first time in years. No bad falls,just a bunch of fun. I am so sore. A good sore.
Be sure and stretch when you wake up tomorrow or you will be real sore. Sounds like fun!
Had a great time at the Rebellion punk festival,met some old mates made some new ones,saw some great bands and paintings,got chatted up by a hot guy.No attitude by people there I met 2 other TS there and saw a third and was treated with respect by everyone.2 lesbians wal.king hand in hand were left alone to just be who they are
I got to shoot today for the first time in over 7 months, popped off 170 rounds of 9mm & 380 and I got to shoot the new taurus judge but the 7 inch (hand cannon) version. Chambered in 454 cassul, might I add goddamn. Sand was jumping off the ground as I was firing it, so loud! I was shaking after, adrenaline I guess :laugh:
Convinced my mum to let me come out to my brother. Main argument: He's not blind or stupid and he probably already noticed. She didn't really believe me but understood where I was coming from. He reacted great, I'm not allowed to grow taller than him though :p (Not gonna happen :p). That evening my mum went nosing and he told her: I'm not stupid I knew what was going on. Is it bad I felt really happy about that?
Hee hee, awesome :).
Listening to this song:
Some people's hot
Some people's cold
Some people's not very
Swift to behold
Some people do it
Some see right through it
Some wear pyjamas
If only they knew it
The pyjama people are boring me to pieces
Feel like I am wasting my time
They all got flannel up 'n down 'em
A little trap-door back aroun' 'em
An' some cozy little footies on their mind
Po-jama people!
Po-jama people, people!
They sure do make you sleepy
With the things they might say
Po-jama people!
Po-jama people, people!
Mother Mary 'n Jozuf, I wish they'd all go away!
Po-jama people!
It's a po-jama people special . . .
Take one home with you, save a dollar today
Po-jama people!
Po-jama people, people!
Wrap 'em up
Roll 'em out
Get 'em out of my way
Hein nya-nya-hein nya-nya-hein nya-nya-hein
HOEY! HOEY! HOEY!
Wrap 'em up
Roll 'em out
Get 'em out of my way
Hein nya-nya-hein nya-nya-hein nya-nya-hein
HOEY! HOEY! HOEY!
Wrap 'em up
Roll 'em out
Get 'em out of my way
Hein nya-nya-hein nya-nya-hein nya-nya-hein
HOEY! HOEY! HOEY!
(Well . . . ) now some people's hot
An' some people's cold
(Well, Lawd . . . ) an' some people's not very
(Very) swift to behold (swifty!)
(I told you) some people do it (do it!)
(Yes, they do!) (No . . . )
Some see right through it
(See right through it!)
An' some wear PO-JAMAS
If only they knew it
The pyjama people are boring me to pieces
They make me feel like I am wasting my time
They all got flannel up 'n down 'em
A little trap-door back aroun' 'em
An' some cozy little footies on their mind
Po-jama people!
Po-jama people, people!
Lawd, they make you sleepy
With the things they might say (hey, yeah-hey . . . )
Po-jama people!
(Well . . . now) Po-jama people, people!
(I said) ARF! ARF! ARF!
I wish they'd all go away!
Po-jama people! (People!) (Oh, yeah)
Po-jama people special . . .
(I said, I said, I said)
Take one home with you, & save a dollar today
Po-jama people!
(It's a) Po-jama people, people! (Special)
Wrap 'em up
An' roll 'em out
Get 'em out of my way
HOEY! HOEY! HOEY!
Wrap 'em up
An' roll 'em out
Get 'em out of my way
HOEY! HOEY! HOEY!
Wrap 'em up
Roll 'em out
Get 'em out of my way
HOEY! HOEY! HOEY!
(YEAH-HA-HA!)
I made the decision to move from where I live right now in September. It will be the first time I have not lived with roommates since I was 19. I am excited, and I am going to visit apartment complexes today to start feeling out availability and price ranges.
I put an offer down on a house.
Quote from: suzifrommd on August 12, 2013, 02:34:05 PM
I put an offer down on a house.
Best wishes Suzi, sounds like you're moving on with your life hon!
Quote from: Joules on August 12, 2013, 09:07:28 PM
Take good care of that Liam. I had something similar on my elbow which gave me a staph infection that hasn't cleared up in 30 years. Use plenty of a good topical antibiotic, like Neosporin or whatever equivalent you may have in your part of the world
Persistent staff infections suck. You really have to get them properly drained.
Having Alison's daughter, Lia, for whom I filled in as Mother of the Bride at her wedding a few weeks ago, call me mum.. :D
Got a package today that I thought would take 3-6 weeks to get here and it was here in 8 days.
Coming clean to another trans girl who, taking me for a cis woman, came out to me a few days ago.
Somebody I work with has been out of town for the last couple of months and I just helped get his co-working membership back in place this morning. He just came in here and I got a "Have we met? I'm <name>". I guess I've changed a lot since he left! :D
Quote from: Anna! on August 13, 2013, 03:05:36 PM
Somebody I work with has been out of town for the last couple of months and I just helped get his co-working membership back in place this morning. He just came in here and I got a "Have we met? I'm <name>". I guess I've changed a lot since he left! :D
"Have we met?" Next sentence, "Gee you're such a doll what's your name sweetie?" Get used to it Anna!
Took only about one and a half charges for the epilator to clear my torso. Last time it took two and a half. Don't know if there are follicles that have given up or it's an effect of the hormones, but I'll take it.
My friends!
I got to know an interesting new friend today :)
Got my hair cut and it actually looks good. I also got the kitchen, the hallway, and the bathroom cleaned. I'm taking a break before I tackle the hurricane disaster area- I mean the living room.
It's starting to feel like fall's in the air~
Although the leaves aren't changing yet, the days have been cooler and the woods smell like autumn. It's fantastic to be out there right now~
The leggings I ordered last week and that were sent Monday arrived yesterday and they fit....woohoo!
Mission Impossible now has been completed at work after 8 months flat out on it, many late nights and early mornings as well as much stress.
Now I might be able to relax a bit and take a holiday.
Also got a catalogue in the mail today from a local department store after a few purchases.
Brought a smile to my face. ;D
As of today my estrogen pill dosage has been upped as I was hoping. also wore my new leggings under some dress pants to my appointment. Oh and I told my dad the name I am going to try to get my legal stuff changed to and he liked it and said it has an old/classic feel to it and works. XD
Reading this thread made me smile :-)
Finding out that the Shadowrun5 MMO Kickstarter is funded and also that it is going to be available for the OUYA.
I think I might actually be able to pass.
That and I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and saw a guy. A handsome guy at that. Seriously, I am one good looking dude. I just need to lose some weight, take T, and get my chest fixed and I'll be all set looks-wise.
I also cleaned a huge chunk of my apartment and a clean apartment (and space) makes me happy.
I have an appointment with a psychologist next thursday to get permission to go on T. It's expected (by both me and the endo who suggested her to me) that everything will go smoothly which means I'll be able to start T soon.
Quote from: Edge on August 15, 2013, 07:48:08 AM
I think I might actually be able to pass.
That and I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and saw a guy. A handsome guy at that. Seriously, I am one good looking dude. I just need to lose some weight, take T, and get my chest fixed and I'll be all set looks-wise.
I also cleaned a huge chunk of my apartment and a clean apartment (and space) makes me happy.
I have an appointment with a psychologist next thursday to get permission to go on T. It's expected (by both me and the endo who suggested her to me) that everything will go smoothly which means I'll be able to start T soon.
Hey Edge, congratulations on your observations and discovery about yourself because it's important for you to be able to see and appreciate what others will rather than remain just balled up in a tight knot. Good luck with your psych session, hope one day we'll get to see your handsome face.
Quote from: Shantel on August 15, 2013, 08:43:34 AM
Hey Edge, congratulations on your observations and discovery about yourself because it's important for you to be able to see and appreciate what others will rather than remain just balled up in a tight knot. Good luck with your psych session, hope one day we'll get to see your handsome face.
Thanks. There are some pictures of me floating around, but I'll see if I can get some pride ones on saturday.
Quote from: Edge on August 15, 2013, 09:19:09 AM
Thanks. There are some pictures of me floating around, but I'll see if I can get some pride ones on saturday.
Cool, always looking forward to putting a face on my friends here and seeing who I'm chatting with.
I started rewatching Orange is the New Black. It has been very enjoyable.
Quote from: Edge on August 15, 2013, 07:48:08 AM
I think I might actually be able to pass.
Told 'ya so:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,123109.msg1000206.html#msg1000206 (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,123109.msg1000206.html#msg1000206)
I think I found an apartment today - I hope it works out
Quote from: suzifrommd on August 15, 2013, 08:15:12 PMTold 'ya so:
Thanks, Suzi.
Quote from: spacerace on August 15, 2013, 08:40:32 PMI think I found an apartment today - I hope it works out
Good luck
I love this song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=f5h5YAqV54M
It sounds creepy. I like creepy.
I got a manicure from one of the girls in school and part of the manicure is a hand/arm massage, it was heavenly.
My sister came out as bi to her 5 kids and they were all OK about it,I think they already guessed as she's been with her girlfriend for 10 years
I've been working out. I expected it to be hard to keep doing and cause me a lot of pain in my back and shoulders because I'm pretty much in pain from them every day. Instead it's easy, fun, I sleep better and I feel better and magically I'm noticing less and less pain in my shoulders during the day! It makes me realise that between working out and one day top surgery I'll probably be able to live painless once I transition!
http://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/music/news/frank-zappa-settles-an-old-score-after-42-years-banned-in-1971-200-motels-will-finally-be-played-in-the-uk-8755933.html
Was identified as a girl on the phone despite no voice training. It probably was more for calling to set an appointment for waxing my eyebrows, but i still felt great.
Yet... I had to check on 5 different places before finding one. Everything is eithe closed due to local holidays (Aste Nagusia) starting tomorrow or booked to the limit because of the same thing.
I am cured. I am a guy and have only had a major mental breakdown due to various things happening that made me rethink my whole life.
I got the signed contract back on the house offer. So now it's official. I'm buying a house!
Quote from: suzifrommd on August 16, 2013, 04:28:26 PM
I got the signed contract back on the house offer. So now it's official. I'm buying a house!
great news. Good luck on coming out to your students, by the way. Hope it goes well.
The endocrinologist doubled my E meds today. No big deal, just brings me up to normal HRT level for post menopausal women which is fine since I'm post menopausal female age anyway. Just keeps em from becoming "Cooper's Droopers!" ;D :D :laugh:
Spent this week at a remote logging site in coastal Oregon for work - I was instrumenting up various sensors for a research project, a collaboration between the forest service and a university. The loggers we were dealing with were pretty non-PC and loudly conservative. Glad they didn't suspect me, hehe. The whole time my boss and I were referred to as 'you Montana boys' or I was just 'kid' since I don't look like the nearly 30 year old that I am.
It's so funny how much easier it is to pass in conservative areas (in my experience). And thank goodness for that. We stopped at a gas station in Idaho and I think 50% of the people filling their cars were packing heat in plain site. I chose not to risk the restroom at that particular stop...
Still though...a happy week of passing to make up for getting misgendered a few times here in my liberal little town.
Quote from: ford on August 16, 2013, 05:41:55 PM
Spent this week at a remote logging site in coastal Oregon for work - I was instrumenting up various sensors for a research project, a collaboration between the forest service and a university. The loggers we were dealing with were pretty non-PC and loudly conservative. Glad they didn't suspect me, hehe. The whole time my boss and I were referred to as 'you Montana boys' or I was just 'kid' since I don't look like the nearly 30 year old that I am.
It's so funny how much easier it is to pass in conservative areas (in my experience). And thank goodness for that. We stopped at a gas station in Idaho and I think 50% of the people filling their cars were packing heat in plain site. I chose not to risk the restroom at that particular stop...
Still though...a happy week of passing to make up for getting misgendered a few times here in my liberal little town.
Congratulations for a successful foray into the other world. I've always made a point of saying that if you want to get read and treated like crap, just hang out at a liberal GLBTI "friendly" area. If you want to pass, it will most likely happen in a conservative area because they don't have the inclination or time to waste scrutinizing you closely and it's usually beneath them to make a fuss or take issue over someone else's gender dysphoric appearance.
You know, i am not sure if i am actually trans, but i love this place. It has made me a better person by changing the way i think positively. I also love the people here. You're cool, and i really mean cool. The way you fight for your rights, i have to fight for my Asperger's, so i appreciate people who fight for their every right. You're cool.
Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 16, 2013, 06:02:30 PM
You know, i am not sure if i am actually trans, but i love this place. It has made me a better person by changing the way i think positively. I also love the people here. You're cool, and i really mean cool. The way you fight for your rights, i have to fight for my Asperger's, so i appreciate people who fight for their every right. You're cool.
Such sweet sentiments thanks, you're very cool too!
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ey!!!!!!
There definitely are no norms here, so we can all feel right at home!
Quote from: Shantel on August 16, 2013, 05:24:55 PM
The endocrinologist doubled my E meds today. No big deal, just brings me up to normal HRT level for post menopausal women which is fine since I'm post menopausal female age anyway. Just keeps em from becoming "Cooper's Droopers!" ;D :D :laugh:
LMAO! Oh my. Yes.
Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 16, 2013, 06:02:30 PM
You know, i am not sure if i am actually trans, but i love this place. It has made me a better person by changing the way i think positively. I also love the people here. You're cool, and i really mean cool. The way you fight for your rights, i have to fight for my Asperger's, so i appreciate people who fight for their every right. You're cool.
I'm glad you like it here. I love it here too, even when I'm not looking for support per se.
Well I found this website which pretty much made my day I would never have thought that there would be so many people like me let alone in one place.
I was thinking to myself while making macaroni and realized I am pretty damn funny.
Returning to an old hobby of mine: Audio editing. Here is what i whipped up:
Dinah Moe Humm - Frank Zappa
0:00-0:50 (New York 1976)
0:50-5:02 (Philadelphia 1974)
5:02-end (Berlin 1978)
I lost my editing skills.
There was a time where i would've constantly edited between the 3 versions :(
Having put together a new trampoline for nephew
Hummingbirds at my feeder.
I would never! I just changed the sugar water, and when I got back inside to the kitchen he was already there feeding. There were two at the same time this morning.
I just rerecorded the vocals on something i recorded in April. They sound much smoother now.
That Kylee was found safe before she could hurt herself.
I surprised myself! I made a video for Shantel so she could see how I'm looking lately, and I went to preview the youitube upload and I heard my voice go "Hi Shantel" and mother of God, I had a recent voice drop. Lol. I was shocked.
I spent my day travelling between home and Canada. When I travel I still dress in an androgynous manner but was nevertheless clocked female at security and thus frisked down by a female security agent who was more than a head shorter than me after my hair clasps (I think) set the alarm off... :)
i was also called Madame all through the flight by the flight attendants so all of that was excellent for my morale.
I needed it as between one thing and another on a day that things just didn't click, it took me 15 hours to ge from my home this morning to my hotel this evening...Ah the joys of international travel!!
Donna
P.S. For our Australia friends. I am well aware that it takes you at least that long to get anywhere civilized from your isolated bit of real estate way down under.. :)
That's wonderful Donna! I travelled in May, and I was called "sir" throughout all three airports, frisked by the male TSA agent, and called sir the entire time on the plane. It felt AMAZING and it really boosted my confidence in myself.
Quote from: caleb. on August 18, 2013, 06:03:24 PM
That's wonderful Donna! I travelled in May, and I was called "sir" throughout all three airports, frisked by the male TSA agent, and called sir the entire time on the plane. It felt AMAZING and it really boosted my confidence in myself.
Thanks Caleb. I guess it really is particularly satisfying for any of us to be correctly gendered by security personnel in airports!
Just out of curiosity, how tall are you and, if a little short, do you encounter the same issues as me in reverse? :)
I found today really comical as the security agent was particularly short and I was literally towering over her.
I'm 5'4". I was tired (up all night before the trip) so I don't remember clearly how much taller the man was. But it didn't seem like much. I'm guessing 5'7"?
Quote from: caleb. on August 18, 2013, 07:22:38 PM
I'm 5'4". I was tired (up all night before the trip) so I don't remember clearly how much taller the man was. But it didn't seem like much. I'm guessing 5'7"?
How I would love to be somewhere in that range ie. 5' 4" - 5' 7". I laugh it off but 6' 1" is really tall for a woman...
I remember having a professor (presumably cisgender) who was exactly 6 feet. I remember writing in a journal "I expected this person to be scary and 6 feet tall" and she wrote in red "...my height exactly." I went to apologize lol and she said "I wasn't offended, but I do want to know what makes 6 feet the magical height for intimidation..."
Quote from: Donna Elvira on August 18, 2013, 07:42:38 PM
How I would love to be somewhere in that range ie. 5' 4" - 5' 7". I laugh it off but 6' 1" is really tall for a woman...
I'm exactly 5' 7" tall Donna, I would have been taller if I hadn't been in the paratroops.LOL. Hey pretty lady, tall statuesque women always look more graceful and much better in their clothes. Count your blessings!
I bought a new computer today, not happy about the reason that I had to buy one but happy that I have a functioning computer and brand new at that. My old one was 5 years old, keyboard busted, touchpad busted, 2/3 USB ports busted, I was due for an upgrade. It's just a cheap model laptop with a touchscreen, but damn I love the versatility of this touchscreen. This laptop is more like an flip-tablet where I can open it up and the screen is a touchscreen but for typing I can just use the keyboard so it's just like my old flip-phone but a lot bigger and faster. Somehow this thing is half the size of my old laptop yet twice the speed and memory for half the cost. I'm impressed, just annoyed at the Windows 8 operating system and how it's got that app thing for the start menu. Kinda pointless in my opinion considering I had to install Skype to the desktop just to get notifications on it vs the built in app that doesn't work worth crap, and that anything I install I have to revert to the desktop to use unless I make pins for the start menu. I find it cumbersome in that sense.
Cuddling with my dog. That cute little girl. I love her.
Quote from: Jasriella on August 18, 2013, 11:51:07 PM
I bought a new computer today, not happy about the reason that I had to buy one but happy that I have a functioning computer and brand new at that. My old one was 5 years old, keyboard busted, touchpad busted, 2/3 USB ports busted, I was due for an upgrade. It's just a cheap model laptop with a touchscreen, but damn I love the versatility of this touchscreen. This laptop is more like an flip-tablet where I can open it up and the screen is a touchscreen but for typing I can just use the keyboard so it's just like my old flip-phone but a lot bigger and faster. Somehow this thing is half the size of my old laptop yet twice the speed and memory for half the cost. I'm impressed, just annoyed at the Windows 8 operating system and how it's got that app thing for the start menu. Kinda pointless in my opinion considering I had to install Skype to the desktop just to get notifications on it vs the built in app that doesn't work worth crap, and that anything I install I have to revert to the desktop to use unless I make pins for the start menu. I find it cumbersome in that sense.
There is a good free program for having a regular start menu with your desktop just like windows 7. Its called Start Menu 8. You can still switch between it and the new annoying pad like screen windows 8 has pretty easy too if needed.
Quote from: marsh monster on August 19, 2013, 08:48:58 AM
There is a good free program for having a regular start menu with your desktop just like windows 7. Its called Start Menu 8. You can still switch between it and the new annoying pad like screen windows 8 has pretty easy too if needed.
There's a tab in the start menu to return to the desktop.
Getting something >.<
Dad out of hospital
I got 2 positive rep votes. Go me!
Got rid of drainage bag tubes! Sweet freedom of movement. \o/
The nurse who took them out was really sweet and appropriate, didn't ask any awkward questions about why I had the surgery and whatnot. And she also gave me some bandages to take home for when/if I gotta change them from the tube holes on my sides. :)
It's also nice to see how well I'm recovering from the surgery overall. I don't need much pain killers, I'm fine by taking them just once a day and not even the full dose (I could take the full dose three times in a day).
Not to talk about the mental changes the top surgery has brought along... I've had another wave of newfound confidence, a feeling that I don't have to deal with any kind of ->-bleeped-<- from anyone. This is a man's body, it just requires a bit of tinkering and assembly. :D
And for the last but not the least, the feeling when putting a t-shirt on for the first time post-op. <3
I showed Shantel a video of me before I started T and one of me this morning and I think she was pretty surprised lol.
Quote from: caleb. on August 19, 2013, 07:59:58 PM
I showed Shantel a video of me before I started T and one of me this morning and I think she was pretty surprised lol.
More like floored! I put a post about it on FtM forum.
Went to two Doctors today, my Endo at 9 am & annual physical with my regular GP at 2 pm.
I got a kick out of the reaction from my Endo, just before he stepped into the office I was in he did a stutter step, seeing the girl in his office (me) looked at his file & said "your not _____ (male name)." When he came in license & picture in hand I said this is the way you saw me last year & I showed you some pics of me as a girl. Knowing the Endo has trans patients and I think they expect you to be in your gender of choice, I knew I had and wanted to be dressed female anyway.
I have been to my regular GP dressed before but today was my first time having a physical done. The receptionist directed me to take my dress off. There I am sitting on the examining table with a demi bra nicely covering my silly-cone breast forms, thong underwear & pantyhose. When she came in I said you have never seen me this way before.
Joy
Joules, thanks.
The Happy gems you will never forget. Had me smiling all day & you keep gathering confidence to be as full time as you can.
Quote from: Jasriella on August 19, 2013, 11:17:36 AM
what is it?
I have feeling as if it is too good to be true... I am not going to say what it is ;)
Looks like I will finally be able to get some time off work next week.
Want to start seeing a therapist next week. Finally!
Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on August 20, 2013, 04:22:46 AM
I have feeling as if it is too good to be true... I am not going to say what it is ;)
You tease :P
@Joules,
QuoteThe female doc comes in with 2 female interns in tow. Everything was fine until she asked to see my back. Gulp. I protested the intern's presence and they left. As she examined my back, I'd swear she snapped my bra strap on purpose.
Nnnnoooo! Ooohh, that wasn't very professional of the Doctor. I don't blame you for having the interns removed.
Many years ago before I had been discovering the female side of me I wore a bra under my shirt at work. A male co-worker leaned over me at my desk & I tried to dodge a bit but I think he may have felt a part of the bra when he put his arm across my back. I was sweating it but nothing was said when we were checking out some work at my desk.
@Jenny07, The waiting takes so much patience hopefully you get to see your therapist next week. Good luck.
@Joules, okay, that sounds like a positive & fun repartee. A better spin on things.
I've been waiting patiently for my GIC to send my 'T' letter to my GP so that I can start getting my shots. It's a month since the GIC doctor approved me for HRT so I've been chewing my nails to the quick waiting for that letter to reach my GP.
I rang my GP's surgery to ask whether they've received the letter. Turns out it arrived yesterday!! and they're just putting it through the system. A GP should be writing my prescription either by the end of this week or early next week.
*Happy dance - Level: Bollywood*
FTMDiaries, I can see you doing that Happy Dance, your deserve this, you are on your way, Congratulations!
I got home early today from work, took my dog for a walk and found $0.50 on the ground, yay free change for my bar exam savings. Then, I got the mail and I had a catalog from Chico's where a woman is walking four cute Pomeranians. I love Poms! :D
My youngest stepdaughter just listed me on her facebook profile as her stepmother. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira on August 20, 2013, 09:46:14 PM
My youngest stepdaughter just listed me on her facebook profile as her stepmother. ^_^
YAY LACY. ;D
New CDs from Avenged Sevenfold & Michael Monroe due in shops in the next few days
Thursday, my schedule goes back to normal.
Quote from: Jamiep on August 20, 2013, 11:05:44 AM
FTMDiaries, I can see you doing that Happy Dance, your deserve this, you are on your way, Congratulations!
Thanks Jamie! :)
Today's little ray of sunshine came in the post. My GIC has posted me a copy of my T letter so I can see what's been said to my doctors. As an added, unexpected surprise, they also sent me a copy of my referral letter for top surgery.
*Checks mirror*
*Indicates*
*Looks over shoulder*
*Pulls into the fast lane*
OK, I am out everywhere :-) My boss was the last person, well... work actually. TBH, my profile pic has been me at work for a while, so they said they had a good idea already! lol
Quote from: Akira21 ♡♡♡ on August 21, 2013, 06:42:06 AM
OK, I am out everywhere :-) My boss was the last person, well... work actually. TBH, my profile pic has been me at work for a while, so they said they had a good idea already! lol
Yippee! =] :icon_bumdance-nerd:
Quote from: Akira21 ♡♡♡ on August 21, 2013, 06:42:06 AM
OK, I am out everywhere :-) My boss was the last person, well... work actually. TBH, my profile pic has been me at work for a while, so they said they had a good idea already! lol
You'd think! :laugh:
I've felt pretty down over the last little while (some was stuff that happened, other was just depression), but it seems to have lifted for today.
Lately it seems like only when people here find a reason to carry on do I find happiness. 2 today seem to be finding the hope that they need.
Just booked an appointment with a nurse to administer my first T shot. The Receptionist knew exactly which nurse to recommend because another patient has just started getting the same shot!
Small world
Quote from: FTMDiaries on August 22, 2013, 10:17:34 AM
Just booked an appointment with a nurse to administer my first T shot. The Receptionist knew exactly which nurse to recommend because another patient has just started getting the same shot!
Small world
Oh boy, get ready for a deeper voice, facial hair and zits! Congratulations for making it to this point!
I confused three barristas in the strabucks :p The one taking my order passed it on to the person I had to pay with: a 'order' for mi...uh..s..uh..Nathan. Then the person I had to pay said: 'amount' please si...uh..Nathan and the one making my order said here you go mi.. euh sir :p It was so funny! They just couldn't make sense of me :D and trying to work their way around it by using my name :)
Quote from: NathanielM on August 22, 2013, 10:59:37 AM
I confused three barristas in the strabucks :p The one taking my order passed it on to the person I had to pay with: a 'order' for mi...uh..s..uh..Nathan. Then the person I had to pay said: 'amount' please si...uh..Nathan and the one making my order said here you go mi.. euh sir :p It was so funny! They just couldn't make sense of me :D and trying to work their way around it by using my name :)
Score Atta Boy points for Nathaniel! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: Shantel on August 22, 2013, 10:25:08 AM
Oh boy, get ready for a deeper voice, facial hair and zits! Congratulations for making it to this point!
Thanks Auntie Shan! I'm looking forward to going through puberty yet again. I bet I can beat my teenagers in the zit stakes. ;)
Quote from: NathanielM on August 22, 2013, 10:59:37 AM
I confused three barristas in the strabucks :p The one taking my order passed it on to the person I had to pay with: a 'order' for mi...uh..s..uh..Nathan. Then the person I had to pay said: 'amount' please si...uh..Nathan and the one making my order said here you go mi.. euh sir :p It was so funny! They just couldn't make sense of me :D and trying to work their way around it by using my name :)
Nice one! I get it slightly differently at most Starbucks:
Barista: Can I take your name for the cup?
Me: [Male name]
Barista: Really?
Me: Yes. Really.
That's about to change. ;D
I went to a lab today that I have been using for a few years, with me being on spiro briefly, amongst all the Doctors & I have seen lately, they like their own blood sample from you, today was for my regular GP annual physical, they are used to seeing me female now. I forgot I had to have an ecg, so beside my GP & now had to strip down the top of my dress to the waist & take off my pantyhose. Had the same pink demi bra over my breast forms as earlier in the week with my GP when I had to remove my dress completely. The lab technician gave me a sheet to put over my top but I didn't, I don't mind, I'm muchly comfortable in my own skin. I was talking to her & mentioned I was going to another lab they had suggested for my bone density scan as they don't have theirs anymore. I called ahead to be sure the technician was in and much in all as my health card is a male name I will be coming in as a female. The technician doing my ecg said it doesn't matter to them how they see a patient. We always worry about this transitional phase for us, we have the fear, they don't so lets take away our fear. Just be you.
I feel so relaxed in public dressed as the female I am that each positive event inspires and make me more comfortable, confident & HAPPY!
Cheers
Jamie
@Nathaniel, that is so funny about the Starbucks staff, but they got you Nathaniel. You are the MAN!
Today is one of those days where I feel especially awesome about being me.
Also, I got the letter to start HRT.
we were at our aunts place for dinner today. suddenly a friend of my uncle showed up. he had seen me only once before, and knew my relationship to my uncle, but at the last visit we hadnt interacted enough for him to recognize my gender (it takes some time, but you can recognize soon enough bcos ive not come ou yet and im not into transitioning except for my clothes and hair) so today when he saw me ( i was wearing a black tshirt and sprawled on a big armchair) i smiled at him and he said 'hello son!' i was thrilled but embarassed bcos others could here it. but it didnt really matter cos in our language 'son' is used as a gender neutral term when you know and love the child. but not to a stranger child you have seen only once before. but the others looked strangely at him once and then ignored. also when we were leaving i went up to him to say we were leaving, and he said 'alright son, see you!'
okay thats not much of a story, but it made me happy today. so i suppose its okay to leave it here :)
Quote from: Edge on August 22, 2013, 03:26:50 PM
Today is one of those days where I feel especially awesome about being me.
Also, I got the letter to start HRT.
Woo woo! (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.animationgold.com%2Ftrain_smiley.gif&hash=5bdabd4a6f5e1c1201a2dba57a631e5a1d493c37)
New guitar arrived this morning.
Peoples responses when I told them I was in trasition at work. (almost everyone had figured it out for themselves as I haven't tried to hide it at all). They were soooo sweet to me. It really was lovely.
Looking through my new insurance information and finding out that they cover everything related to transitioning. Lots of feels right now.
Lot of happiness here today! :)
Wonderful hearing all your Happy day events and congratulations!
Cheers
Jamie
C took the day out of work, thank god, she's been driving everyone nuts!
Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on August 22, 2013, 04:13:03 PM
Woo woo! (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.animationgold.com%2Ftrain_smiley.gif&hash=5bdabd4a6f5e1c1201a2dba57a631e5a1d493c37)
I like trains. ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 22, 2013, 11:16:24 PM
I like trains. ;D
Me, too. And so does this guy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd34Ioye5v4 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd34Ioye5v4)
Maddy
I was diagnosed with something called "Gender Identity Dysphoria" today. Anyone heard of it? ;) :P
Maddy :P
Quote from: FTMDiaries on May 05, 2013, 08:45:52 AM
My youngest daughter, who usually refuses to let us buy her new clothes because she isn't interested in fashion, agreed to several new items of clothing today. Most of the credit must go to her big sister, who acted like a personal shopper for her. :)
Now that is awesome. I only have one daughter and unless I do something incredibly stupid I'll only ever have my daughter until I'm either snipped or post-op. I really hope she doesn't get picky like I am about clothing but I highly doubt that'll be the case so I won't have help from other kids in clothes shopping lol.
Anyway, I had a very....umm.....pressured day. I work in the oil field, the Bakken to be specific (to those of whom don't know the Bakken is West Central North Dakota, USA, but other oil patches are continuously appearing here). I'm not the "new guy" anymore and earned my white hard hat not too long ago (green hard hats are rookies and are constantly picked on for anything and everything, white means you earned your keep), I'd say about a month ago. Well today I was voluntold to be the guy in the loader (the operator) for a well head change. This is 12,ooolbs of iron being swapped and guys on the ground remove bolts of the old well head and I discard it and pick up the new one and the guys place the new bolts in and guide me in to place it. Keep in mind they're rarely away from my load and at any moment if I slip on the controls, the chain snaps, or the loader blows a tire, those guys will be seriously injured if not killed. Somehow my first well head change (albeit with a little confusion on my part not being used to being the operator) went extremely well and nobody got hurt. Done in a timely manner and without incident (besides that I got scolded on not shaving (I hate shaving, and hate any body/facial hair equally)).
The rest of the day was spent in a skid-steer and I figured out how to switch the controls into a much easier method for me but again my guys were constantly handling my loads and I had to keep constant vigilance to make sure that I was not only keeping them from getting hurt because of my misjudgment or stupidity but from keeping the skid-steer from not getting damaged while maneuvering in tight confined spaces including our work trucks.
A very, very, stressful day for me. Realizing first hand that the lives of at least 2 people are constantly in my hands. I thoroughly enjoy being the operator. I'm %100 confident in being able to run almost any kind of equipment but when I have people handling my load when it's suspended by a single chain and is near enough to lift the rear tires of the loader off the ground........totally different ball game.
So to "alleviate" the stress which all compounded when I got home (for some reason even though I did a lot less physical work today being the operator I was more exhausted when I got home than when I hammered wrenches all day) I took a well deserved ride on my motorocyle which I haven't really done since I started this job. I came home with some tequila and whiskey (my two devils who I hate to love on rough day) relaxed with some gaming and a nice hot shower.
(As much as I hate having had to "pretend" being a guy for so many years, I can't help but feel pride at being trusted and fully accepted as one of the guys, not just a rookie or greenhorn anymore)
Quote from: Fairy Princess with a Death Ray on August 22, 2013, 11:28:55 PM
I was diagnosed with something called "Gender Identity Dysphoria" today. Anyone heard of it? :-\
Maddy :P
Hmm.....sounds like something a doctor would call crazy. I wouldn't have a clue......honest :eusa_liar:.
Quote from: Fairy Princess with a Death Ray on August 22, 2013, 11:27:21 PM
Me, too. And so does this guy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd34Ioye5v4 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd34Ioye5v4)
Maddy
This song made me happy.
Quote from: Fairy Princess with a Death Ray on August 22, 2013, 11:28:55 PM
I was diagnosed with something called "Gender Identity Dysphoria" today. Anyone heard of it? :-\
Maddy :P
Never heard of Gender Identity Dyphoria, but I've heard of Gender Identity Disorder, which has been replaced by the term Gender Dysphoria. I think it's just the official label they diagnose us with, but I might be wrong.
Quote from: Edge on August 22, 2013, 11:16:24 PM
I like trains. ;D
Quote from: AlexanderC on August 23, 2013, 03:23:37 AM
This song made me happy.
Never heard of Gender Identity Dyphoria, but I've heard of Gender Identity Disorder, which has been replaced by the term Gender Dysphoria. I think it's just the official label they diagnose us with, but I might be wrong.
This song put a smile on my face.
;D More train songs!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHkKJfcBXcw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wri3KBX5GrA
^_^
Hi Jasriella,
Congratulations on the white hat and being the loader operator! Reading your Happy day on the job, had me sweating & ready for a shower lol. Your responsibility, I can understand the stress. Good that you blew that off with a motorcycle ride, we need to find our way for a release.
Be careful out there.
Jamie
Trains are cool.
This week has been quite good.
Saw the end of a project I have been working on for the last 2 years.
Had been working up to 90 hours a week and it totally took over my life.
I have been getting senior managers coming up and congratulating me all week, which feels strange as I am a bit numb at the moment as it has drained me that much.
Now I have a week off work and a referral letter for a therapist, so will make an appointment Monday and see what will be.
Another enjoyable session with the pain monster set for tomorrow, face and legs getting zapped.
I still cant believe the difference laser has made. So happy that there is no shadow anymore just a few strays.
I had to go to the pharmacy for some lipstick & eyeliner (I'm all made up & in a dress). A sales lady asked if she could assist me, which I needed as I borrow my wife's eye liner but didn't see a name on it so she suggested one that she finds very reliable, it is the type that is a retractable crayon that my wife likes, so she got me one she uses, Rimmel Exaggerate, it is waterproof & she says it lasts long, the details say 10 hours. Has a built in smudger & sharpener.
I have one more from yesterday. The lab I had never been to before for my bone density scan I phoned ahead to say I would be presenting female in a dress. On arriving & filling out the information form, over the spot where I wrote my male name, I wrote call me Jamie. Bless the receptionist she did call me Jamie. Previous scans I had to leave my clothes in a cubicle & put on a hospital gown, not this time, I was able to lay out on the bed in my dress.
Yesterday when I had my ecg done, a lot of you has to be exposed to place the electrodes on your skin. Many long years ago, whether it is in the lab, your Doctors office or in the hospital, the medical people need to you to be mostly exposed, I learned you have to suck it up, modesty goes out the window.
A lot of little things that happen for the good make you Happy.
Keep these happenings and events coming, I love them.
Jamie
P.S. @Jenny, Hard work pays off, all that you posted, Congratulations!
Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on August 23, 2013, 05:42:54 AM
This song put a smile on my face.
;D More train songs!!
^_^
Trains are cool but not as cool as turtles.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMNry4PE93Y
Who said something about turtles?
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Congratulations on your letter, Victor.
I am happy because I have lost all of the weight I had gained being stuffed like a goose by a chubby half-Italian half-robot boyfriend for four months.
I am ready for my next adventure, and my hair looks great.
Paying nothing at the dentist
@Malachite, money saved, money earned maybe for your Top Surgery Fund. Nice.
MadelineB, good to see you. Eat healthy & congrats on the weight loss.
Sitting next to my nephew at dinner =D
New Lodge cast iron grill pan :)
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Quote from: V M on August 23, 2013, 06:16:40 PM
New Lodge cast iron grill pan :)
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Wow, I want one. Where did you get that Virginia?
*Squeal* Holy crap y'all, I've got noticeable biceps! Without flexing!
There was a really big, fat fly flying around my room. It was loud and kept landing on me and my dogs, making the dogs quite...unsettled lol. I finally got it. I took a shirt I had on the floor, and swung at it in mid-air...with enough force to knock it on the floor, unable to reorient itself. I then took my garbage can and smashed it.
Quote from: caleb. on August 23, 2013, 06:38:36 PM
There was a really big, fat fly flying around my room. It was loud and kept landing on me and my dogs, making the dogs quite...unsettled lol. I finally got it. I took a shirt I had on the floor, and swung at it in mid-air...with enough force to knock it on the floor, unable to reorient itself. I then took my garbage can and smashed it.
Caleb the effing fly smoosher! :D ;D :laugh:
I am just so happy everyday now that I am me all the time. I could almost cry, and I often do! Lol ^_^
Quote from: Shantel on August 23, 2013, 06:25:25 PM
Wow, I want one. Where did you get that Virginia?
Walmart $20 :) I'm finding that I like cooking with the cast iron rather than Teflon coated pans, I also have a small oval and a skillet
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Quote from: V M on August 23, 2013, 06:53:37 PM
Walmart $20 :) I'm finding that I like cooking with the cast iron rather than Teflon coated pans, I also have a small oval and a skillet
Thanks! Yes they make good self defense weapons and you don't need a permit to use them either. ;D
Talking to my brother and sister on Facetime. They are in Mexico for their holiday.
Went into Target and bought pantries! Checkout girl was awesome. Just a hanes pack, and I wasn't sure on size, but no worries - they fit and I'm elated.
Here's two days' worth of happy feels:
Yesterday I picked up my T from the pharmacy, and the staff were absolutely wonderful. They even congratulated me and wished me well with my shots. :)
Today I was just about to leave the city centre after shopping with my family, when I bumped into one of my brothers who I haven't seen for a few years. I spent several hours with him, catching up on the latest events in our lives. It was nice to spend some time with him again. The strangest thing happened though: we always used to hug whenever we met up, but now that I've come out we made no moves to hug each other. I'm taking that as acceptance/passing. ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on August 24, 2013, 05:46:19 PM
Here's two days' worth of happy feels:
Yesterday I picked up my T from the pharmacy, and the staff were absolutely wonderful. They even congratulated me and wished me well with my shots. :)
Today I was just about to leave the city centre after shopping with my family, when I bumped into one of my brothers who I haven't seen for a few years. I spent several hours with him, catching up on the latest events in our lives. It was nice to spend some time with him again. The strangest thing happened though: we always used to hug whenever we met up, but now that I've come out we made no moves to hug each other. I'm taking that as acceptance/passing. ;D
A win/win day....kudos! BTW - Some of my few male friends just about die when I hug them, they still remember me as a 100% macho male and can't get past it, and I understand. Guys are that way with other guys, it's just a thing in their brain that makes them feel very uncomfortable in those situations.
This weekend I was in Paris to see an attorney to initiate my civil identity change, in inself something to feel very happy about but there were a few other little things this evening too, including an interesting first,
First of all I went to a concert of early 17th century English court music (Henry VIII and Elizabeth 1st) given by a very talented little trroupe in period costumes and with a perfect setting too, the cloister of a a renaissance building in the Marais quarter of Paris. To make the setting even more perfect, most of the light was provided by candles. Quite a delightful, if not to say exquisite, experience with everyone joining in at the end for Greensleeves..
After that I went for a late meal in a restaurant nearby. I was alone but it is worth mentioning that the Marais quarter is also the Gay quarter of Paris. Anyway, shortly after I sat down at my table, a lesbian couple arrived at the table just next to me. One of them was very Goth style including leather collar, piercing etc. but the other was far more "femme". At first we just acknowledged each other's presence but since I couldn't help hearing their conversation, I got myself involved and we had a great little chat, including educating these ladies about what a transition entailed. Towards the end of the meal, they proposed I go along with them to a lesbian club nearby, an invitation I happily accepted and had a lot of fun in a decidedly hot, but still fun atmosphere. No back rooms like there are in all male clubs... ;)
So that was my first but certainly not my last night out in a lesbian club.I really enjoyed it and it was interesting to discover how open they were to my presence.
Quote from: Shantel on August 24, 2013, 05:49:56 PM
A win/win day....kudos! BTW - Some of my few male friends just about die when I hug them, they still remember me as a 100% macho male and can't get past it, and I understand. Guys are that way with other guys, it's just a thing in their brain that makes them feel very uncomfortable in those situations.
Interesting culural difference. My male friends have no difficulty embracing me French style as is typical between men and women here. However, close male friends also do this too, at least on special occasions, so it's no doubt not as big a leap as it is for hyper macho Yanks! :)
Poor Shan, ever thought of emigrating to the land of Freedom Fries? ;)
Bises
Donna
Quote from: Donna Elvira on August 24, 2013, 08:40:21 PM
Interesting culural difference. My male friends have no difficulty embracing me French style as is typical between men and women here. However, close male friends also do this too, at least on special occasions, so it's no doubt not as big a leap as it is for hyper macho Yanks! :)
Poor Shan, ever thought of emigrating to the land of Freedom Fries? ;)
Bises
Donna
I've given thought to emigrating to Australia. I just got rid of my land line phone and number that I've had for 40 years as I can't possibly endure another acrimonious political season here which seems to be already heating up. Last time my phone rang off the hook for months on end with unwanted political robo calls and pollsters, I'm completely fed up with the process here.
Planning where the furniture will go in my new house.
And fixing my wigstand so the top doesn't come off. All it took were a few twist-ties.
My wife's closest friend came over today for a party. She's also a close friend of mine. My wife has been using her to vent (very few people know, and I support that our friend was told).
She took my aside and told me that she doesn't understand it, but that she supports and accepts me, and I can talk to her anytime.
Firstly, Donna Troy's PM made me smile, so thank you Donna for that. I really appreciated it.
And in October or November, I will be helping out my dear friend Dana. If all goes well, there will be a local transgender support group run be her and myself. ^_^ I get to help my local community in a meaningful way! ^_^
And I have been asked if I am able to help out with the website for INTRAA, Indy Boyz and Indy Girlz, all 3 being transgender organizations.
So after many years of denial I finally made an appointment with a therapist who I have had a referral too for over 8 months.
Starting from the beginning she says I have post traumatic stress disorder as I have been involved in much tragedy over the years.
I have seen and experienced things in my personal life that other should not have to.
After going through all of this I was able to finally sum up the courage to talk to her about my gender issues.
I just said that I don't fit in being male and she put one and three together.
I was petrified and it seemed surreal actually discussing this with a therapist.
Now its out I am sure that it will be much easier to deal with my anxiety.
Do I feel better to finally get it out? You bet.
Oh also went for a 140km bike ride in the morning.
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 27, 2013, 04:33:46 AM
So after many years of denial I finally made an appointment with a therapist who I have had a referral too for over 8 months.
Starting from the beginning she says I have post traumatic stress disorder as I have been involved in much tragedy over the years.
I have seen and experienced things in my personal life that other should not have to.
After going through all of this I was able to finally sum up the courage to talk to her about my gender issues.
I just said that I don't fit in being male and she put one and three together.
I was petrified and it seemed surreal actually discussing this with a therapist.
Now its out I am sure that it will be much easier to deal with my anxiety.
Do I feel better to finally get it out? You bet.
Oh also went for a 140km bike ride in the morning.
I understand it can be hard to talk to a therapist (my wife is having difficulty going after this enormous shock to her system). Just remember - he or she is there to talk to with no repercussions. They can't say anything to anyone unless you're a harm to yourself or others... and even then they'll help you through it. I just told my therapist something relatively terrible (relative for me - I haven't had your experiences and likely mine pale in comparison) that nobody else in the world has ever known of... it relates to minor self harm from ~20 years ago. I find that if I just start and let my mouth run a bit, that helps. I hesitated over that one.
I also keep a diary and on therapy days (or the night before) I write down what I want to talk about.
I understand having difficulty being open with people, but it's very important to be as open as you can with your therapist. If I were open about myself at 15 I wouldn't have (likely) ruined a marriage and harmed three kids over this... (of course I wouldn't have them now either - so it's a mixed bag).
I'm new to this, though. Others may have more realistic situations?
Couldn't post yesterday because the site wouldn't load on my end, so yeah this is for yesterday I finally booked a consultation with the laser clinic, so hopefully soon I can stop worrying about the scruff on my face.
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on August 27, 2013, 06:57:11 AM
Couldn't post yesterday because the site wouldn't load on my end, so yeah this is for yesterday I finally booked a consultation with the laser clinic, so hopefully soon I can stop worrying about the scruff on my face.
There was a problem with the site server's internet service provider.
Just got a call out of the blue from the top surgeon. I've been scheduled for surgery in October.
Ah well, it looks like I'll have to get yet another ticker then! ;D
Finally managed to tune my new guitar. Now it sounds fantastic!
Quote from: FTMDiaries on August 27, 2013, 10:18:25 AM
Just got a call out of the blue from the top surgeon. I've been scheduled for surgery in October.
Ah well, it looks like I'll have to get yet another ticker then! ;D
You're moving at relative warp speed now!
Quote from: Donna Elvira on August 24, 2013, 08:26:43 PM
After that I went for a late meal in a restaurant nearby. I was alone but it is worth mentioning that the Marais quarter is also the Gay quarter of Paris. Anyway, shortly after I sat down at my table, a lesbian couple arrived at the table just next to me. One of them was very Goth style including leather collar, piercing etc. but the other was far more "femme". At first we just acknowledged each other's presence but since I couldn't help hearing their conversation, I got myself involved and we had a great little chat, including educating these ladies about what a transition entailed. Towards the end of the meal, they proposed I go along with them to a lesbian club nearby, an invitation I happily accepted and had a lot of fun in a decidedly hot, but still fun atmosphere. No back rooms like there are in all male clubs... ;)
So that was my first but certainly not my last night out in a lesbian club.I really enjoyed it and it was interesting to discover how open they were to my presence.
One of the former mods here who lived just south of me and has since passed away was widely accepted by the lesbian community and hung out with them quite often. I have had a lot of fun with lesbian women as well, they are quite accepting until you meet the group's control freak and get the stink-eye from her. Those types can't get past the idea that at one time we were (ugh) men. ;D
played several good solos in a row in different styles, like:
1.Very fast picking, some would call it shredding, but i can't really shred, i'm not that fast, rather heavy tone
2.almost acoustic sound, slightly overdriven, rockabilly-ish solo.
That made me happy as hell.
Achy fingers, don't care....
(Tendency to play pentatonic-esque solos gets funnier and funnier and i have my own simple set of licks now)
Sorry if this is off-topic, but it's what made me happy today.
Quote from: Shantel on August 27, 2013, 12:27:45 PM
You're moving at relative warp speed now!
Sorry Auntie Shan - I can't quite hear you. I've got an annoying Scotsman yelling in my ear about dilithium crystals cracking or something... ;D
Quote from: Glitterfly on August 27, 2013, 04:47:01 PM
Realising that I'm really fortunate in having all the support and the advantages I do! ^_^ Things could be a lot worse!
Good thoughts, if we could all focus more on the positive and less on our negatives, we'd all have a lot less depression in our lives!
The info FTMDiaries posted on one of the threads about NHS protocol and trans people. I never knew so much happiness and excitement could be found in a 28 page .pdf! Argh god, is it really weird that I can't wait to go and get a new GP (even though I wish I could stay here to keep my old one because he was awesome) so I can ask for referrals and things?! I know it's still going to take months of waiting, but... yeah... I'm excited.
Anyway, I must sleep, I've got to be up in 4 1/2 hours. But I don't care. I'm happy.
Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 27, 2013, 01:36:18 PM
played several good solos in a row in different styles, like:
1.Very fast picking, some would call it shredding, but i can't really shred, i'm not that fast, rather heavy tone
2.almost acoustic sound, slightly overdriven, rockabilly-ish solo.
That made me happy as hell.
Achy fingers, don't care....
(Tendency to play pentatonic-esque solos gets funnier and funnier and i have my own simple set of licks now)
Sorry if this is off-topic, but it's what made me happy today.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqUq2Da7d5c
I made a post on my Goodreads blog (http://www.goodreads.com/author_blog_posts/4599732-golden-boy-a-trans-person-s-perspective) about the book Golden Boy and the author commented on it, thanked me for reading her book and blogging about it.
I got my name legally changed today, and the judge is also putting in an order to have my gender marker changed on my birth certificate. I'll have to file a variance or something to get my name changed on my BC, but, hey, today's enough of a victory on its own. C:
Quote from: Siege on August 27, 2013, 08:46:27 PM
I got my name legally changed today, and the judge is also putting in an order to have my gender marker changed on my birth certificate. I'll have to file a variance or something to get my name changed on my BC, but, hey, today's enough of a victory on its own. C:
Congratulations!
Quote from: Constance on August 27, 2013, 08:29:41 PM
I made a post on my Goodreads blog (http://www.goodreads.com/author_blog_posts/4599732-golden-boy-a-trans-person-s-perspective) about the book Golden Boy and the author commented on it, thanked me for reading her book and blogging about it.
Yay Connie!
Quote from: Siege on August 27, 2013, 08:46:27 PM
I got my name legally changed today, and the judge is also putting in an order to have my gender marker changed on my birth certificate. I'll have to file a variance or something to get my name changed on my BC, but, hey, today's enough of a victory on its own. C:
That's pretty cool! :)
Congrats, Siege.
That's pretty cool, Constance.
There's a scene in Drrr!! where my favourite character isn't wearing his coat and his hips look to be about the same width as his shoulders. This makes me feel better about mine since my hips are also the same width as my shoulders.
A manga I like called Blood Lad has been made into an anime. I watched the first seven episodes and I like it.
The usual: I really like being me.
Quote from: AlexanderC on August 27, 2013, 05:55:49 PM
The info FTMDiaries posted on one of the threads about NHS protocol and trans people. I never knew so much happiness and excitement could be found in a 28 page .pdf! Argh god, is it really weird that I can't wait to go and get a new GP (even though I wish I could stay here to keep my old one because he was awesome) so I can ask for referrals and things?! I know it's still going to take months of waiting, but... yeah... I'm excited.
Glad I could give you some good news! :)
The new protocol has only been in place since 1 August, but we're already seeing reports of trans* patients getting better treatment because of it. Yay!
OMFG they brought a classic Finnish candy called Hopeatoffee (literally "silver toffee") back!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fstatic.makuja.fi%2Ffiles%2Farticles%2F1719919.515x325.jpg&hash=8ea669d6fef5ab575aea565f020c621e5a8a5829)
One of the candy sorts that basically every Finn loves. Is it a surprise, it's pretty much salmiakki/liqourice flavored toffee? AND IT'S BLACK.
Heck, my Mom used to eat these as a kid!
Quote from: FTMDiaries on August 28, 2013, 03:20:02 AM
Glad I could give you some good news! :)
The new protocol has only been in place since 1 August, but we're already seeing reports of trans* patients getting better treatment because of it. Yay!
That makes me even happier then, I've not been missing out because I'm useless at finding documents.
I went down to where I'll be going my apprenticeship today, and guess what, one of the instructors I'll have the most is a trans woman (she told us she'd transitioned five years ago). I'll probably still try and keep things under wraps because of living in female accommodation, but I'll know the reactions of my peers when we have lessons from her, and it makes me feel a lot more confident about the whole thing. I'm no longer going to be the only person who understands this for miles and miles, even if they never find out.
And if anyone's ever watched the Ashens youtube videos (reviews of really bad and cheap things) then you'll know why I was so excited to find out that my accommodation building is on "Excellent Road".
the tiniest comment can make someone happy you know, one of my friends told me today a comment she had made about me few weeks ago (fyi: nobody knows im trans yet) we were sitting at the opposite ends of one row in a class, and the boys row started after me. i usually have a handkerchief in my hand most of the time because i am so allergic to all kinds of airborne particles and thus i get sneezing fits so often. but sadly i dont have the privilege of using mens handkerchiefs, so that day i had a red girls hankie in my hand. my friend said she leand forward for something and caught a glimpse of me holding the handkerchief, and thought i was a boy holding a girls hankie. she had shown it to the girl beside her and they had had a good laugh. then they had looked again to recheck, only to find that it was me! we laughed our heads off when she retold the story, i wish she knew how happy she had made me
I had to go to the Division of Taxation today for work, and realized after I parked that I only had two quarters, rats! That only gives you 12 minutes at the meter, and the meter only takes quarters (I had a few bucks in nickles and dimes on me). Knowing I'd be in there for 30 minutes to an hour, I knew I'd get a $25 fine.
Standing there pondering if I should go to the bank and get some quarters, I see the parking officer walking down the sidewalk. So I asked him if he had some extra quarters that I could trade him for. He asked how long I'd be, and I said about an hour. He grabbed a "VIOLATION" envelope from his utility belt, stuck it on my windshield, and said "don't worry about it, and this will keep the next one from ticketing you."
That made me happy. :)
Quote from: Joules on August 28, 2013, 05:26:46 PM
I feel my true self is beginning to emerge. It must be the same feeling of a sprout about to break the surface of the soil, or perhaps a bird about to break out of it's shell.
I feel the same way.
Today I feel a combination of really great and really angry. It's awesome.
A guy on the bus offered me a seat, introduced himself, and chatted with me a bit before politely asking me if I was a guy or a girl. I told him guy of course, but added that I'm trans because... my voice sucks. Anyway, he thought it was pretty cool because he had actually been looking up gendery stuff earlier because of someone else he knows. He was polite about his questions and didn't pry. We also talked about other things. It was not quite passing, but it was confidence boosting.
I used the right public bathroom for the first time other than the gay bar.
I will probably be able to start hormones in the next month.
I saw City of Bones with some friends of mine which includes two things (among others) that make me happy. 1) One of my guy friends likes the series which surprised me. I'm glad he surprised me like that. 2) The costumes were cool. I really want Magnus Bane's coat. And Magnus Bane.
Quote from: Constance on August 27, 2013, 08:29:41 PM
I made a post on my Goodreads blog (http://www.goodreads.com/author_blog_posts/4599732-golden-boy-a-trans-person-s-perspective) about the book Golden Boy and the author commented on it, thanked me for reading her book and blogging about it.
wow Constance, that's really cool! I'll have to read more of your blog posts. :)
Quote from: Edge on August 27, 2013, 10:47:17 PM
There's a scene in Drrr!! where my favourite character isn't wearing his coat and his hips look to be about the same width as his shoulders. This makes me feel better about mine since my hips are also the same width as my shoulders.
You mean...
Durarara!!?
*Squeal!* :D
My goodness, I didn't know we had fans on here~! I'm going to see if I can find a Manga/Anime thread...~
Quote from: Joules on August 28, 2013, 09:17:58 PM
I'm most happy to share my feeling with you Edge, You are one of my favorite brothers. :-*
Aww Thanks. Why's that? (Totally fishing for compliments, but I'm also curious.)
I like your avatar, by the way.
My new counselor used my preferred name(one I will change to) throughout the whole appointment. Also managed to get a new Patrick Troughten Doctor Who dvd 'The Ice Warriors' and a few other things.
Quote from: Joules on August 28, 2013, 11:48:34 PM
I admire your grace under fire. Some of the bad days you have talked about would kill me, but you carry on in fine style.
This makes me happy.
Quote from: Night Haven on August 28, 2013, 08:55:26 PM
You mean... Durarara!!?
*Squeal!* :D
My goodness, I didn't know we had fans on here~! I'm going to see if I can find a Manga/Anime thread...~
Another Durarara!! fan? This also makes me happy.
My wife sent me an adorable photo of my son hugging a dalek.
Maddy
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on August 28, 2013, 11:32:52 PM
My new counselor used my preferred name(one I will change to) throughout the whole appointment. Also managed to get a new Patrick Troughten Doctor Who dvd 'The Ice Warriors' and a few other things.
You've just reminded me that his son was my school drama teacher for most of a year (that job was cursed as badly as the Defence Against the Dark Arts job in Harry Potter, no one lasted). My claim to fame right there.
My son is four today.
My ticker
Going for the gold?
I was approved for a life insurance policy I'd applied for. I was candid in the application about my therapy and was concerned that it would lead them to either reject me or crank the premium. Apparently it was a non-issue.
Quote from: LordKAT on August 29, 2013, 06:48:25 AM
Going for the gold?
Yup! And just like with the leprechaun legend, there might be a little prick involved... ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 29, 2013, 06:40:44 AM
My son is four today.
Happy birthday to the little guy! :icon_birthday:
Quote from: Edge on August 29, 2013, 06:40:44 AM
My son is four today.
Congrats to you and your little one!
This might sound weird at first, but today I had a psychiatric assessment, and was given a very definitive diagnosis of ongoing Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. The reason why I'm really happy about this is that it has taken me three years to get this diagnosis, and it means I'm finally being taken seriously by the health service and will get some better support.
It's also significant because it's also been three years of knowing that some of my friends were thinking (in the absence of an Official Diagnosis™) "Eh, she just thinks she has that..." and this validation/vindication makes a very big difference to me - I feel very relieved. I am celebrating with peanut M&Ms. ^-^
Well then, good for you Padma.
Thanks. I mean, I'm just trying to get on with my life anyway, but it's great not to feel like I'm fighting the system for acknowledgement all the time.
Congrats on getting official acknowledgement, Padma!
I have some idea of where you're coming from: I had to battle against the NHS for 10 years before I got my Asperger's diagnosis... and in the meantime, everyone thought I was just being a pain in the backside on purpose. ::)
Mind you, some people still think that anyway. ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 29, 2013, 06:40:44 AM
My son is four today.
I adore four year olds! Happy B-Day to Little Edge! :D
I got paid today, payday is always a good day.
I got a JOB!! Gosh, it is so hard for me to get a job these days. XD It's been waaaaay too long!
Quote from: Catalina on August 30, 2013, 12:25:38 AM
I got a JOB!! Gosh, it is so hard for me to get a job these days. XD It's been waaaaay too long!
Woohoo! Congrats! :D
I haven't felt depressed all week. Good news?
Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 30, 2013, 07:29:41 AM
I haven't felt depressed all week. Good news?
Good news. :D
Now that I'm on HRT, I'm feeling a psychological detachment from the fairer sex. I was walking through a clothes shop at lunchtime, and there were women milling around the place. For the very first time in my life, I felt that I can truly, legitimately, consider myself as being free from being grouped together with them.
It's as if I've been waiting all these years for 'permission' to separate myself from all things female, and yesterday's injection gave me that 'permission'. I can finally let go & breathe a sigh of relief. :)
New record cartridge!
Quote from: Catalina on August 30, 2013, 12:25:38 AM
I got a JOB!! Gosh, it is so hard for me to get a job these days. XD It's been waaaaay too long!
¡Muy excelente!Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 30, 2013, 04:05:30 PM
New record cartridge!
Leben ist schön!Quote from: FTMDiaries on August 29, 2013, 06:45:01 AM
My ticker
I am afraid to say my "ticker" does not make me happy these days, which is why I spent two hours at cardio-rehab today.
Sitting in my room late at night, playing guitar, quietly singing along, listening to Manfred Mann's Earth Band, while my cooling fan is blowing cool wind onto my back.
Quote from: Jamie D on August 30, 2013, 07:07:29 PM
¡Muy excelente!
Leben ist schön!
It's a birthday present. Due to two accidents happening around that time we still haven't properly celebrated. Thanks, brother, can't wait to use it.
Next week's rota went up today, and unless it changes (which knowing him it probably will but whatever...) I'll never have to start another shift off with cleaning ever again in my whole entire life.
Very positive feedback on my convention workshop yesterday. :D
One attendee said it was one of the best workshops he'd ever attended.
Maddy
Had a session with the new therapist.
She is easy to talk to and I have told her everything.
Towards the end of the session we talked about my GD feelings.
She is understanding and has had experience with this and we are going to spend the next session talking further about it.
I couldn't be happier and am looking forward to the next session so much! ;D
I her her know that I have had these feelings since I was about 4 but due to the other issues in my life they had always been put on hold.
I also informed her that I have been reading up on it so I really feel that the next session will be very productive.
So happy after all these years.
Jen, bouncing off the walls.
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 31, 2013, 03:14:53 AM
Had a session with the new therapist.
She is easy to talk to and I have told her everything.
Towards the end of the session we talked about my GD feelings.
She is understanding and has had experience with this and we are going to spend the next session talking further about it.
I couldn't be happier and am looking forward to the next session so much! ;D
I her her know that I have had these feelings since I was about 4 but due to the other issues in my life they had always been put on hold.
I also informed her that I have been reading up on it so I really feel that the next session will be very productive.
So happy after all these years.
Jen, bouncing off the walls.
Exhuberant YAY! That sounds like a very promising rapport.
I'm most of the way through Julia Serrano's "Whipping Girl". I'm usually a skeptic, and its been a long time since a book has struck me as wise, insightful, and observant.
I just played "gender", "breasts", and "perky" in the same game of Scrabble.
Put on a style show for the Mrs. of some really femme side androgynous getups I plan to be wearing in public soon, seems she's really buying in to my sense of style and taste, I got two thumbs up.
I had a great day with my girlfriend today, we went to the zoo, got some fish and chips, and then to some weird local "festival" (a field, a tent with some passable local bands, and many drunk people mixed with little kids and old people) where I was introduced to several people as "Alex". A couple of sentences later he was asking if I was her little brother, but I'll let that slide. It's just nice to know that some people, even if I'll never see them again, know who I am.
Tomorrow we're heading off to some larger, but still small, festival, so it's a bit of an action packed weekend, seeing as it's our last together for months with me leaving. I feel like an old man, I'm used to just pottering around the house all day!
And today we did things that would be counted as "a date" by people, it's only taken us over a year and a half!
Quote from: Shantel on August 31, 2013, 06:28:37 PM
Put on a style show for the Mrs. of some really femme side androgynous getups I plan to be wearing in public soon, seems she's really buying in to my sense of style and taste, I got two thumbs up.
Want to show us some fashion shots?
We had a party last night for my mum and dad's 50th birthday and I dressed up for it, but for the first time in male clothes. My dad said I looked like him when he was young! Cue the mutual crying :p
I talked to my sister. She's willing to help with the aftercare if/when I get SRS. :)
Great news Suzi, especially after her iffy response earlier.
Quote from: NathanielM on September 01, 2013, 07:16:59 AM
We had a party last night for my mum and dad's 50th birthday and I dressed up for it, but for the first time in male clothes. My dad said I looked like him when he was young! Cue the mutual crying :p
Kind of sweet really! :)
Quote from: suzifrommd on September 01, 2013, 05:40:29 AM
Want to show us some fashion shots?
Whenever I get a volunteer to take some decent digital pix.
Nathaniel, high five buddy, that's awesome about your dad :D I got a feeling kinda like that when one of my family members called to make sure me and my dad were ok after he picked me up from work and he said to tell her 'yeah, We're just doing guy stuff, she wouldn't understand.' ;D and I wasn't even out at the time.
looking through the records in my room and finding an original "Hotel California" by the Eagles i didn't know was there.
My parents love and accept me for who I am. :D
This whole weekend. Buzzing right now!
This quote: "Optimist: Someone who figures that taking a step backward after taking a step forward is not a disaster, it's more like a cha-cha."
My nephew drew me a heart and wrong I love *insert birthname* then he added 100 percent. It really touched me and I asked him why did he write this to me first instead of his grandma and at first he said "cuz you're the coolest guy in the world" I wanted to make sure I heard him right so I asked him to repeat himself and he changed it to "cuz you're the cooling human being in the world". I told him no you didn't say that, what did you say, and he said "cuz you're the coolest person in the world."
It was still cute nonetheless, whether he addressed me as a guy or person.
My son, who gets it. :D
It's raining~ It's raining~ It's raining~!
Oooh, there's thunder and lightening~~! Magnificent!
Quote from: Padma on August 29, 2013, 12:06:41 PM
This might sound weird at first, but today I had a psychiatric assessment, and was given a very definitive diagnosis of ongoing Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. The reason why I'm really happy about this is that it has taken me three years to get this diagnosis, and it means I'm finally being taken seriously by the health service and will get some better support.
It's also significant because it's also been three years of knowing that some of my friends were thinking (in the absence of an Official Diagnosis™) "Eh, she just thinks she has that..." and this validation/vindication makes a very big difference to me - I feel very relieved. I am celebrating with peanut M&Ms. ^-^
Congratulations, Padma. An official diagnosis can make a big difference!
Quote from: Glitterfly on September 02, 2013, 10:45:39 AM
After measuring and looking at my face for hours I found out that it's more female than male :D (71%)
What's the criteria for that?
Quote from: Glitterfly on September 02, 2013, 10:55:59 AM
Here's part of the criteria (rest was measurements):
Male and Female Faces
Good info copied that, I knew some of that but it's good to see it in writing, thanx!
Quote from: Glitterfly on September 02, 2013, 11:09:39 AM
Glad you found it useful, I did too and I'm always happy to share all the info I find :D it would be selfish not to! :)
Me too hon good attitude, after all this is a support site!
@Glitterfly, I'm with Shan.
QuoteI'm always happy to share all the info I find :D it would be selfish not to!
A Beautiful thing to say. Bless you.
Jamie
Beard is growing in nicely but it still has a ways to go. -_- I wish there was a way to encourage it, because it's too ugly right now to grow out. But either way, I am happy to have what I have so far.
Caleb, sounds like you are progressing nicely. Do you plan to grow out a full beard? I did that once a long time ago. For the first couple of months it has sparse growth & spaces, around three months the facial hair starts to fill in & I had a full beard & mustache by 6 months. It does require some trimming to keep it neat. My hair is very coarse & began to irritate on my neck, very scratchy, I finally shaved it all off.
Patience my friend.
Jamie
At some point I will just to see how it looks. It might look bad lol. My brother looks really good with his stubble and we have similar features so I might do better with the stubble look.
Caleb, either way I think you will look fine. If you look at a lot of young male celebrities with facial hair, it is more on the stubble side like maybe a few days or a weeks growth, takes less work to keep trimmed than a full beard. Seeing as you have similar features to your brother you have an idea what you will look like with stubble so you should look really good. You will both be in vogue with the celebrities.
Jamie
I'm looking forward to tomorrow for some reason. It's my son's first day at day care since last April. I'm starting classes on friday, but figure it's easiest if he starts daycare at the beginning of the month. Also, that gives me time to run errands, clean, and get stuff done before school starts. Cleaning isn't exactly something to look forward to, but I still feel excited.
Getting positive feedback of my art, especially on something I'm not that experienced at! owo
Got a little drawing practice in.
Still on a high from seeing my therapist on Saturday.
It was better than sex, from what I have read about it. :D
We have started discussing my GD.
Can't wait for the next session as I am sure it will be interesting.
I have only waited my whole life for this as I never thought I could openly discuss it with anyone.
an elder lady asked me to help her find out about an ingredient in the shop, she said: boy, can you help me? After I helped her she said thank you, sorry I said... it IS boy right? YES!!! Thank you :D
Quote from: Shantel on September 02, 2013, 11:01:52 AM
Good info copied that, I knew some of that but it's good to see it in writing, thanx!
Hi Shan (and others! )
If you are interested in this subject, this is a good site to know; http://www.virtualffs.co.uk/
Hugs
Donna
Just a few days from turning 56 I got a certificate from a Pyschiatrist today attesting to the fact that I have been "suffering from GID" since my early childhood. It took them a while to get there but better late than never... ;D
Donna
Quote from: Donna Elvira on September 03, 2013, 03:33:58 PM
Just a few days from turning 56 I got a certificate from a Pyschiatrist today attesting to the fact that I have been "suffering from GID" since my early childhood. It took them a while to get there but better late than never... ;D
Donna
Congratulations Donna! :eusa_clap: 56 isn't old at all, besides actual physical age no longer counts for our kind, you're just a sweet young lady now and pretty at that!
I watched Alice which is an interesting take and also has a really attractive Hatter.
I also started watching this show called Primeval. Right now, they are chasing a raptor in a mall. Awesome.
Quote from: Edge on September 03, 2013, 06:59:35 PM
I watched Alice which is an interesting take and also has a really attractive Hatter.
I also started watching this show called Primeval. Right now, they are chasing a raptor in a mall. Awesome.
Edge, I like your taste in tv-shows :D This made me happy today!
Quote from: Jenny07 on September 03, 2013, 06:08:50 AM
Still on a high from seeing my therapist on Saturday.
It was better than sex, from what I have read about it. :D
We have started discussing my GD.
Can't wait for the next session as I am sure it will be interesting.
I have only waited my whole life for this as I never thought I could openly discuss it with anyone.
That's exactly how I felt! *hug*
Maddy, releasing dopamine and serotonin vicariously
(OK this was actually last night rather than today)
The Great British Bake Off! I want to adopt Mary Berry as my surrogate grandmother. There is a vacancy, she need only fill in the form and bring some cake... ;D
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b013pqnm
The cafeteria lady muttered something along the lines of "I wasn't sure if you're a boy" as I was walking away.
Feels pretty ace!
I passed my driving theory this morning, second time lucky. Everyone at the test centre remembered me, probably because my name really doesn't match what they see in front of them.
My only class today doesn't start until 4 pm, so this morning I had time to sleep in, do jap ji and jap(u) sahib, have coffee, and
take a nice, long, relaxing bubble bath! Seriously, when does anyone have time to relax in the tub? Perfect morning, and I still have plenty of time to work on some stuff for my bar exam class before heading out to take the train. :)
Quote from: AlexanderC on September 05, 2013, 08:30:42 AM
I passed my driving theory this morning, second time lucky. Everyone at the test centre remembered me, probably because my name really doesn't match what they see in front of them.
Congrats Alex! ;D
Quote from: AlexanderC on September 05, 2013, 08:30:42 AM
I passed my driving theory this morning, second time lucky. Everyone at the test centre remembered me, probably because my name really doesn't match what they see in front of them.
Well done! :)
Quote from: Horizon on September 04, 2013, 11:25:07 AM
The cafeteria lady muttered something along the lines of "I wasn't sure if you're a boy" as I was walking away.
Feels pretty ace!
Honestly, I thought you were a pre-transition FTM all this time I've seen your avatar. It was only when I looked at your post history that I realized you came here initially because you have been considering transitioning to female (didn't go far enough ahead to know if you've decided to go for it or not).
Caleb thought I was just a Cis-gendered lesbian in a photo from my trip to DC and was genuinely kicking himself for not realizing. :D
I felt so bad for not recognizing you above all else lol.
But it's funny, my mind totally was like the little clip at this time (...dyke! "Dana, she's your friend!" ...dyke!):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=dBpxHGeDRhs#t=134
Quote from: caleb. on September 05, 2013, 02:27:16 PM
Honestly, I thought you were a pre-transition FTM all this time I've seen your avatar. It was only when I looked at your post history that I realized you came here initially because you have been considering transitioning to female (didn't go far enough ahead to know if you've decided to go for it or not).
This...This is what made me happiest today! ;D
I went to Trusts & Estates today and knew everything, I do trusts & estates at work, so I hope this proves to be an easy A. :)
Horizon, I thought you were a pre-T trans man too and felt sorry for you for not passing until I saw that post.
I just worked my last shift at the pub. No more cleaning, no more pretending to be nice to customers, no more cleaning up everyone else's mess, no more polishing cutlery, no more getting the dirty jobs because I'm the only one small enough to get behind the dishwasher... No more genital head of a boss! And my girlfriend came and stomached alcohol just to be able to see me like old times. (Except this time I didn't get to throw a cake at her head.)
And thanks everyone for the theory test congratulations.
Participated in my first Poetry Jam tonight. 20 poets speaking our best work. Got great response for the two I read; then got inspired and wrote and presented a new one right there. Tons of encouragement and positive attention. BASK!
A gal at my apt.s started talking to me about football (USA) and I thought "Oh no, here it comes, I'm gonna get misgendered"... To my surprise she said she was glad that she wasn't the only girl who was up on it and thanked me for printing out the regular season schedule for her
So I think maybe I might have a game day buddy to watch the games with
Recording a nice solo with lots of feedback and reverb. Really dark guitar sound, in a good way. Sounds threatening.
Oh and lots of tremolo arm abuse too.
Edit: and another solo. Put together they sound like the gates of hell opening. Not 100% satisfied though.
Quote from: ZootAllures! on September 06, 2013, 07:21:36 AM
Recording a nice solo with lots of feedback and reverb. Really dark guitar sound, in a good way. Sounds threatening.
Oh and lots of tremolo arm abuse too.
Edit: and another solo. Put together they sound like the gates of hell opening. Not 100% satisfied though.
I'm not very technical playing guitar, and a lot of sweep picking and power chords elude me, but I do love to play.
I'm just happy it's Friday. Yeah I work Saturdays but those are only half days
My chemistry professor told us that we should come to class for the entertainment value because he's eccentric "which is a fancy word for crazy." He then claimed to be one of the unnamed wizards from The Lord of the Rings. He also told us he had modified his laser pointer to kill us if we cheat and to watch Spirited Away before chapter 6. I think I am going to like him.
Quote from: Edge on September 06, 2013, 04:02:56 PM
My chemistry professor told us that we should come to class for the entertainment value because he's eccentric "which is a fancy word for crazy." He then claimed to be one of the unnamed wizards from The Lord of the Rings. He also told us he had modified his laser pointer to kill us if we cheat and to watch Spirited Away before chapter 6. I think I am going to like him.
I miss school. *nostalgic*
Maddie
I'm playing around with writing my name with an -ie. Like it?
Maddie
Quote from: Just Maddie! on September 06, 2013, 07:33:27 PM
I'm playing around with writing my name with an -ie. Like it?
Maddie
I love it!
-Maddie
i.e. I should know. ;)
Another session with the therapist and going for blood tests for base levels and a referral.
Hormones not far away!
Nervous but so happy :icon_nervious:
I found my keys!
Also, I like Maddie with an ie.
Quote from: Edge on September 06, 2013, 04:02:56 PM
My chemistry professor told us that we should come to class for the entertainment value because he's eccentric "which is a fancy word for crazy." He then claimed to be one of the unnamed wizards from The Lord of the Rings. He also told us he had modified his laser pointer to kill us if we cheat and to watch Spirited Away before chapter 6. I think I am going to like him.
Some teachers are gifted and can make a class exciting and draw students into a really positive learning experience unlike Farris Buler's teacher.
I've been posting all the hairstyles that I've been doing on my manikin heads on facebook, a friend who I haven't seen in ages, girlfriend wanted to get one of the up-do's that I did. They went to a salon that a friend of theirs owns and he wanted to see all the pics of what I did. He offered me a chair to work on friends while I'm in school and a part-time salon reception/gofer/sweeper job that I can do around my school hours!
Talking about baby names with my soon to be wife.
Boy: Sawyer Dixon
Girl: Emma Rose
Adorable! :D
Bringing my dog for a car ride and seeing how crazy excited she was ! Simple joys make the world go 'round. :)
Quote from: Si on September 07, 2013, 06:07:15 PM
Talking about baby names with my soon to be wife.
Boy: Sawyer Dixon
Girl: Emma Rose
Adorable! :D
Both cute names, especially Sawyer Dixon--definitely has that Southern sort of sound that someone from the Carolinas needs. :)
I went to work wearing my makeshift binder under my work shirt and made it the whole time! Just took it off an hour or so ago. My chest hurts, but I'm still alive! And it made me happy.
Seeing my son for the first time in three weeks. :D
Catching up with an old friend, who used to run the pub I used to go to way back before I was married and living in Telford, England. He finally figured out who I was after I showed him photos from 2000 and now.
He said "you make a good woman..not being funny lol"
I said, " Really?"
He said," i do yes suits you."
Why can't i have that kind of support over here from family? sheesh.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERbvKrH-GC4
Quote from: Keaira Raine on September 08, 2013, 05:16:03 AM
Catching up with an old friend, who used to run the pub I used to go to way back before I was married and living in Telford, England. He finally figured out who I was after I showed him photos from 2000 and now.
He said "you make a good woman..not being funny lol"
I said, " Really?"
He said," i do yes suits you."
Why can't i have that kind of support over here from family? sheesh.
It's all about the saying "Familiarity Breeds Contempt!" It's almost an absolute when it comes to close friends and especially family members who have always known you as (Mr or Ms X) and suddenly you flip genders in front of their astounded eyes, they mentally refuse to accept it. Another good example of this phenomena is the the case of Spanx inventor Sara Blakely. All of her friends and especially family members said that her product was a joke and that it would never go anywhere, they did all they could in their power to dissuade her from wasting any further time and money on her idea. She ignored them and is now one of the most successful women in the clothing industry and has become a multi-millionaire. They were convinced that she was going to be a failure because they knew her as just Sara and couldn't mentally and emotionally buy into her idea and swore that she would be a total abject failure. This is potentially what everyone is up against when they transition, but like Sara don't allow the "Nabobs of Negativity" pull you down by ripping and tearing at the fabric of your dreams.
Thinking about yesterday :) I had the best day: my new binder is supercomfortable, I wore a button-down my parents bought for me that fits perfectly (which is nearly impossible) and my pants were to big (a month ago they were tight!). We also went shopping and my parents bought me an awesome button-down and a pair of pant, my mom referred to me as Nathan a couple of times while I was trying them on and I used the guys bathroom twice! I'm happy as a squirrel :p
Found some old shirts that I had hidden/abandoned underneath everything in my wardrobe while randomly rummaging, and purely because they were too tight around my chest and I didn't feel comfortable wearing them. Then I realized that I can finally wear them now that there's nothing unwanted extra in my upper body. ;D
Congrats Tossu!
Here's mine, copy and pasted from telling a friend:
I'm wasn't binded today and was kinda sad about it. Today was really insane because we were crazy busy and our credit card machine went down for a while.
So this adorable little boy kept asking me how much his toy cost. The mom kept trying to shoosh him. So, I told him I could tell him in just a minute. He looked up at me and asked "Are you a boy or a girl?" I was slightly stunned and just smiled at him, trying to figure out how to respond. The mom's friend looked kinda mortified and asked the mom why he would ask something like that. She laughed and said that apparently he had been asking everyone that.
He went on to ask me if I had any kids, to which I told him I had a cat. He asked me the name and I told him Yoda.
But, even though I know I didn't look male, and that wasn't why he was asking, for a moment in time I was really happy.
And the rest of the day wasn't so bad after that.
Still in a good mood actually..
I think I went back to normal today.
I bought some dress clothes over the weekend for my first day of teaching, and they looked good in the fitting room, but I tried on the pants and shirt separately so I wasn't sure how they'd look together. I was scared as I got dressed this morning, thinking my hips/butt would look too feminine in pants as opposed to cargo shorts. But, they really don't! The clothes go well together and I look handsome. ;D Even I see a guy when I look at myself now, which is a big deal given I am my own worst critic.
I feel like a million bucks! The dress clothes aren't me, and as soon as class is over I am going into the bathroom to change into shorts and a t-shirt lol. I feel like I am in a monkey suit. But my body really has changed. And I thought, there are so many crappy aspects of transition, there really are. But I am slowly starting to feel better in my own skin. It doesn't even matter to me that I'm a chubby guy anymore.
Had my consultation with the laser place today, hope to start soon.
Quote from: caleb. on September 09, 2013, 08:24:19 AM
I bought some dress clothes over the weekend for my first day of teaching, and they looked good in the fitting room, but I tried on the pants and shirt separately so I wasn't sure how they'd look together. I was scared as I got dressed this morning, thinking my hips/butt would look too feminine in pants as opposed to cargo shorts. But, they really don't! The clothes go well together and I look handsome. ;D Even I see a guy when I look at myself now, which is a big deal given I am my own worst critic.
I feel like a million bucks! The dress clothes aren't me, and as soon as class is over I am going into the bathroom to change into shorts and a t-shirt lol. I feel like I am in a monkey suit. But my body really has changed. And I thought, there are so many crappy aspects of transition, there really are. But I am slowly starting to feel better in my own skin. It doesn't even matter to me that I'm a chubby guy anymore.
Hahaha hey congrats Caleb, we all get there eventually!
Caleb. just him. :)
Getting a nice PM from Auntie Shan, good coffee, and nice weather.
Quote from: LearnedHand on September 09, 2013, 10:32:47 AM
Getting a nice PM from Auntie Shan, good coffee, and nice weather.
That's a ditto at this end, so good to have terrific friends here at Susan's Place. :)
Quote from: Shantel on September 09, 2013, 09:26:42 AM
Hahaha hey congrats Caleb, we all get there eventually!
yes ;D
Quote from: Keaira Raine on September 09, 2013, 09:42:26 AM
Caleb. just him. :)
peach. :)
Soooo I am indeed passing on campus. I went to the computer store to get an ipod and I got called "young man." I also passed some guys and one said "geez, will you look at these new kids? Man, you look too young." I don't even care if I look like a geeky frosh. Maybe, just maybe this is the term where I can finally just be me. No BS. No rude and unwanted attention. I'm...yeah, we will see what happens when I teach. The professor I deal with is very respectful about not outing me. He knows how much I have wanted to just blend in and I think he could see how hurtful and stressful it was when I had issues with students. the woman that is also working with us does not know I am trans and that is just exactly how I'd like to keep it. She might hear from some others... -_- God I hope not, as she is friends with a woman who knew me before, when I looked pretty female still. I never told her I was trans but I can see her referring to me as a woman to this other person and then causing some confusion lol.
I don't want to get my hopes up! But, the feeling I have had so far, the feeling of just being me and being able to feel comfortable and confident in my maleness for the first time ever, it's worth it. it's made all the BS and waiting and tears all worth it. I hope I'm not excited for nothing and I still pass to my students. But I'll try to enjoy the happiness for now.
Quote from: caleb. on September 09, 2013, 12:11:47 PM
I don't want to get my hopes up! But, the feeling I have had so far, the feeling of just being me and being able to feel comfortable and confident in my maleness for the first time ever, it's worth it. it's made all the BS and waiting and tears all worth it. I hope I'm not excited for nothing and I still pass to my students. But I'll try to enjoy the happiness for now.
Congratulations once again, take a big bite and savor it, we take all we can get in hopes that the flavor lasts forever. Kudos!
@Caleb, sounds like you own your maleness now, you have arrived, Congratulations! I am sure you must have a big smile of Happiness on your face which will last for a while and eventually you will find you blend in and life will be normal. The workplace has changed a lot since I started working. A lot of offices are dress casual now. Me a natal male & not discovering the female side of me until I retired, special family, formal occasion & work it was always shirt, tie, jacket & pants. That dress code had you looking at your best, feeling handsome & good about yourself, I think that really helped when it came to dating girls too. I don't know if you have to be in business attire in your teaching job & if you do, I don't blame you wanting to get changed in to casual clothes, I think most guys were glad to ditch the tie & undo the top button of the shirt.
Happy days & miles of smiles to you.
Cheers
Jamie
Quote from: Jamiep on September 09, 2013, 10:40:25 PM
@Caleb, sounds like you own your maleness now, you have arrived, Congratulations! I am sure you must have a big smile of Happiness on your face which will last for a while and eventually you will find you blend in and life will be normal. The workplace has changed a lot since I started working. A lot of offices are dress casual now. Me a natal male & not discovering the female side of me until I retired, special family, formal occasion & work it was always shirt, tie, jacket & pants. That dress code had you looking at your best, feeling handsome & good about yourself, I think that really helped when it came to dating girls too. I don't know if you have to be in business attire in your teaching job & if you do, I don't blame you wanting to get changed in to casual clothes, I think most guys were glad to ditch the tie & undo the top button of the shirt.
Happy days & miles of smiles to you.
Cheers
Jamie
Thank you Jamie. :) I don't really have to dress up, for the past 3 times I've done it I just wear whatever lol. My only standard, honestly, is that when I teach I wear pants instead of shorts. :P So jeans and a t-shirt got a pass in my book. My real issue is that I have a lot of issues with heat and sweating. When I put on pants instead of shorts, and a longer sleeve shirt, the sweat pours. I got something for my armpits which should stop the sides of my shirt from being soaked, but I still sweat very heavily in the thighs, chest, and back. So I don't feel particularly well put together as soon as that happens.
But I did notice that some students were dressed better than I was, so I think I will keep wearing the dress clothes.
Hey Caleb, sounds like you have a good circulation system body wise. My system is still good but compared to my wife I don't have much meat on my bones, my wife sweats & opens windows turns on the air conditioner, she puts on lighter clothes, tees & short & I start putting on warmer clothes closing window & shutting down fans etc & the cycle goes on a few times lol.
Yes, that is quite interesting when the young ones wear dress clothes, makes you feel you better move up from casual clothes. Definitely pride in dressing smart in a professional setting. I understand what you are saying.
I asked my friend if I were a biological male would she thing I'd have a large package and she said sure.
I love for my ego to be stroked. lol
I went to the doctor and had some blood taken with a huge needle, it went everywhere and made a huge mess.
Get the results next week as testing hormone levels and stuff.
Another step taken
Just for Devlyn as I like to hear her faint and hit the floor! ;D
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My voice is changing. :)
Yesterday I spent most of the day sounding like an injured penguin. Today I've upgraded to a flatulent goose. ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 11, 2013, 08:25:49 AM
My voice is changing. :)
Yesterday I spent most of the day sounding like an injured penguin. Today I've upgraded to a flatulent goose. ;D
Voice seems to change rapidly when an FtM starts T, the rest takes a little longer and is more subtle initially.
Guess who has a prescription for T!
I got to watch that hot mess of a performance by Miley Cyrus again on tv. Made my day.
I spent the day with a friend. We went to the bathroom and we were talking so i wasn't really paying attention. We had to pay and I needed more time to find the money, so I pay the lady and make to follow my friend when she stopped me, pointed at the men's room and said: "you have to go that way". I was so shocked I just did, and proceeded to freak-out in the stall! My friend being really happy for me made me even happier.
Quote from: Edge on September 11, 2013, 11:06:32 AM
Guess who has a prescription for T!
Hah, that will take the edge off of you, maybe you'll have to get a new handle soon huh? Congrats kid!
BTW-Both my local friends are from Nova Scotia that's why I asked earlier, I was close though! :)
Quote from: NathanielM on September 11, 2013, 01:10:26 PM
I spent the day with a friend. We went to the bathroom and we were talking so i wasn't really paying attention. We had to pay and I needed more time to find the money, so I pay the lady and make to follow my friend when she stopped me, pointed at the men's room and said: "you have to go that way". I was so shocked I just did, and proceeded to freak-out in the stall! My friend being really happy for me made me even happier.
Cool! Once in the stall there is nothing to freak out about unless you drop the roll of toilet paper and it rolls out under the door like I once did! ;D
I got 2 bills changed to my chosen name. I might be off of HRT but by god I will be rid of as much of my old male name as possible
Thanks Joules, Shan, and Liam! I am very excited. Also, I should be getting my student loan in the next few days.
NathanielM, good for you. You are being taken as a guy. I had a similar incident going to class when I asked a security person which way to the restroom and got pointed to the men's. I went in and there were about 10 guys in there, I used a stall, washed my hands and left, without a problem. Afterwards I thought what have I just done and no one looked or said anything to me.
Quote from: Edge on September 12, 2013, 07:31:49 AM
Thanks Joules, Shan, and Liam! I am very excited. Also, I should be getting my student loan in the next few days.
That's a double yay!
Sooo close to having my gender changed on campus. I changed my name there a couple years back but couldn't change my gender as I didn't have any documents to show I had transitioned physically. weeell now I was able to submit gender change documents, but they no longer have my name change form. So they don't know how the name got changed in the first place (I do, I remember giving them the certificate). I just need that to prove I'm not...still the old name. So next week if I can get that to her then I can be male in the system.
Paid off my Grand Theft Auto 5 Pre-Order and picked up the first 4 issues of the Smallville Season 11 comic line.
I passed! :)
This week my voice has been moving from sounding like an injured penguin on Tuesday to a flatulent goose on Wednesday. Today it's decided to sound like a love-sick moose, so I took it out for a spin at lunchtime.
I was stood in a queue in the supermarket waiting to pay for my goods, and I noticed that the (elderly, male) cashier kept referring to the female customer in front of me as 'madam'. I hate it when cashiers call their customers 'sir' or 'madam' because historically they've always automatically misgendered me, so I thought 'here we go, he'll be 'madaming' me all the way through the transaction'. So to stop him from doing that, I moose-called got in there first by saying 'Hiya' to him as deeply as I could.
It worked a treat. He treated me completely differently than the female customer before me, and he called me 'sir' all the way through the transaction.
Woohoo! ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 13, 2013, 09:03:57 AM
I passed! :)
This week my voice has been moving from sounding like an injured penguin on Tuesday to a flatulent goose on Wednesday. Today it's decided to sound like a love-sick moose, so I took it out for a spin at lunchtime.
I was stood in a queue in the supermarket waiting to pay for my goods, and I noticed that the (elderly, male) cashier kept referring to the female customer in front of me as 'madam'. I hate it when cashiers call their customers 'sir' or 'madam' because historically they've always automatically misgendered me, so I thought 'here we go, he'll be 'madaming' me all the way through the transaction'. So to stop him from doing that, I moose-called got in there first by saying 'Hiya' to him as deeply as I could.
It worked a treat. He treated me completely differently than the female customer before me, and he called me 'sir' all the way through the transaction.
Woohoo! ;D
Congrats, you scored a win! :)
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 13, 2013, 09:03:57 AM
I passed! :)
This week my voice has been moving from sounding like an injured penguin on Tuesday to a flatulent goose on Wednesday. Today it's decided to sound like a love-sick moose, so I took it out for a spin at lunchtime.
I was stood in a queue in the supermarket waiting to pay for my goods, and I noticed that the (elderly, male) cashier kept referring to the female customer in front of me as 'madam'. I hate it when cashiers call their customers 'sir' or 'madam' because historically they've always automatically misgendered me, so I thought 'here we go, he'll be 'madaming' me all the way through the transaction'. So to stop him from doing that, I moose-called got in there first by saying 'Hiya' to him as deeply as I could.
It worked a treat. He treated me completely differently than the female customer before me, and he called me 'sir' all the way through the transaction.
Woohoo! ;D
Grats!
Quote from: caleb. on September 12, 2013, 07:42:52 PM
Sooo close to having my gender changed on campus. I changed my name there a couple years back but couldn't change my gender as I didn't have any documents to show I had transitioned physically. weeell now I was able to submit gender change documents, but they no longer have my name change form. So they don't know how the name got changed in the first place (I do, I remember giving them the certificate). I just need that to prove I'm not...still the old name. So next week if I can get that to her then I can be male in the system.
Way to go Caleb, life will be getting real for a change, kudos!
The last two nights I went to the East Mississauga Community Health Center support groups. Wednesday is a once monthly meeting for trans people & Thursday is for everyone in the whole spectrum a larger group that meets more regularly at once a week. I like that there is a weekly meeting that is more immediate if you want to talk about something. Anything that was discussed is like the expression, "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas." The trans group two people went to a cd club I went to in Toronto so a bit in common & one knows a friend of mine I met there she is about 45 to 50 & closest to my age so I am the oldest in the group. Most are in the 20 to 30 age range. Wednesday some of the people asked my to joining them at a Tim Horton's which I did. Some of them have known each other for a year or more so there was a lot of chatter, they tease each other & lots of laughter around. Looking forward to us getting to know each other more.
Quote from: Jamiep on September 13, 2013, 01:04:37 PM
The last two nights I went to the East Mississauga Community Health Center support groups. Wednesday is a once monthly meeting for trans people & Thursday is for everyone in the whole spectrum a larger group that meets more regularly at once a week. I like that there is a weekly meeting that is more immediate if you want to talk about something. Anything that was discussed is like the expression, "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas." The trans group two people went to a cd club I went to in Toronto so a bit in common & one knows a friend of mine I met there she is about 45 to 50 & closest to my age so I am the oldest in the group. Most are in the 20 to 30 age range. Wednesday some of the people asked my to joining them at a Tim Horton's which I did. Some of them have known each other for a year or more so there was a lot of chatter, they tease each other & lots of laughter around. Looking forward to us getting to know each other more.
Sounds like a good time was had by all!
@Caleb, authenticated at school, a big positive for life ahead. Congratulations!
@FTMDiaries, male aggressiveness seizes the moment and you got "sir." Smooth move, well done.
@Shantel,
QuoteSounds like a good time was had by all!
Indeed, a sigh of relief. Thursday there was an outsider that is working on presentation on lgbt awareness to a school board, probably accidental but used some terms that stepped on some sensitive toes. The facilitator instincts & sensitivity sensed triggers for some & when the formal session was over asked those affected to stay if they wanted to stay & air out their issues. Me being new I offered to leave if they felt not knowing me would hold them back. Nicely I was welcomed to stay. It was an emotionally charged atmosphere. The facilitator said the group could continue the discussion next Thursday with the usual open format. I listened & it was a real learning experience for me.
Got an androgynous haircut today, afraid that my husband would freak out from it. Turns out he loves it! And he hasn't noticed that I'm binded cause I have a large sweatshirt on. I'm on cloud nine right now.
Quote from: Darkie on September 13, 2013, 04:21:30 PM
Got an androgynous haircut today, afraid that my husband would freak out from it. Turns out he loves it! And he hasn't noticed that I'm binded cause I have a large sweatshirt on. I'm on cloud nine right now.
He probably loves you!
Found out it was my brother who was supposed to take out the trash and not me. Yay!
Quote from: Malachite on September 13, 2013, 07:11:31 PM
Found out it was my brother who was supposed to take out the trash and not me. Yay!
You're off the hook! :)
So I just had a quick chat with Rick Sternbach ( Designer who worked on many of the Star Trek shows) and we discussed the fighter model I was building. He had nice things to say....
Rick: Okay, very cool as an atmospheric ship or impulse-only vehicle, as well as something warp capable. The warp nacelles seem, to me, to want to be either completely perpendicular to the wings or completely vertical. Something about the 45 degree angle feels a little off. Might just be me. Otherwise, pretty believable as a Starfleet ship.If those are weapon bays, they're also very cool. Very F-117A. As far as the landing gear is concerned, any small Starfleet craft with impulse needs nothing more than small footpads, since the hover capabilities of your typical impulse engine means it really won't be translating forward much. Something like the pads I did on the Delta Flyer or speedboat shuttle are enough.
Me: I mainly wanted to design something that looked Starfleet but was different from what we have seen before, like with the Delta Flyer.
Rick: Yup. Okay to have a recognizable lineage.
So, I guess it's a thumbs up with one of the top Star Trek Designers. I really couldn't be any happier than that.
I bought a bunch of flannels, a few striped sweatshirts, some size 6 Vans, and a permanent hair removal kit. I'm hoping that'll be enough to hit the "andro" line, but it feel pretty nice either way.
Threw a pack of girl jammies in the cart at BJ's (wholesale club ~ e.g. Costco). They fit OK... XL means the top fits perfectly and the bottoms are just a bit too big (but with a drawstring, who cares).
They're AWESOME. So much better than boy jammies. The only down side is I'll need to switch them out before heading out into the rest of the house (neighbors, etc.).
Making fifty cents
Killing a spider
Quote from: Malachite on September 14, 2013, 09:54:46 PM
Making fifty cents
Killing a spider
...You should market this. "Have a spider problem? Call Malachite. He'll blast the suckers."
I checked the mail today & found a letter from the gender clinic asking my GP to start me on HRT ASAP!!!
I'll be trotting off to the surgery to get them to take a photocopy on Monday morning as it's quicker than waiting for them to scan it onto the computers to pass on to the GP, I should be starting HRT in the next week or two, party time!!!
Quote from: Jayne on September 14, 2013, 10:41:39 PM
I checked the mail today & found a letter from the gender clinic asking my GP to start me on HRT ASAP!!!
I'll be trotting off to the surgery to get them to take a photocopy on Monday morning as it's quicker than waiting for them to scan it onto the computers to pass on to the GP, I should be starting HRT in the next week or two, party time!!!
Yes... Congrats Jayne :)
Hugs
I just heard someone call someone a "cheese eating sideways monkey" on the show my SO is watching. That is one of the best names I've ever heard.
Watched The Avengers and Battle Royale with Keaira. ;D Was a lot of fun, two great films.
Quote from: caleb. on September 15, 2013, 03:52:52 AM
Watched The Avengers and Battle Royale with Keaira. ;D Was a lot of fun, two great films.
I had fun too. :) and I showed him how to get some xbox games free.
I may be helping to restore the Enterprise D Bridge through my graphics work. There is a project to restore the set and have it set up so you can film your own scenes for fan movies, have weddings on the Bridge and teach science to children. The panels will be interactive at some point too.
My name has been submitted to the board of directors for consideration.
Congrats Keira sounds like a dream job if it comes through.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 13, 2013, 02:29:32 PM
Liberation day has arrived for that dang rooster. He got me - scratched the sh*t out of my hand - but I got him better.
>:-) :icon_evil_laugh: >:-)
Bet he's simmering in the stew pot about now! ;D
Quote from: Keaira Raine on September 15, 2013, 04:46:13 AM
I had fun too. :) and I showed him how to get some xbox games free.
I may be helping to restore the Enterprise D Bridge through my graphics work. There is a project to restore the set and have it set up so you can film your own scenes for fan movies, have weddings on the Bridge and teach science to children. The panels will be interactive at some point too.
My name has been submitted to the board of directors for consideration.
Hope you get it, we'll keep fingers crossed!
@Horizon, kabit & Jayne, all steps forward, confidence builders, congratulations & hit the HAPPY button!
@Keaira, Brilliant, good luck & rooting for you!
Even though I may not get to respond to all of these precious gems of positive & Happy happenings of achievement, I always check & enjoy reading these wonderful pearls & contributing a few of my own. Keep them coming.
Elf Fantasy Fair! And yesterday: Elf Fantasy Fair! My best friend and my parents! Who actually bought me a nametag bracelet with Nathan on it :D Passing at Elf Fantasy Fair! The music at Elf Fantasy Fair! Did I mention Elf Fantasy Fair? :p
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on September 15, 2013, 05:12:09 AM
Congrats Keira sounds like a dream job if it comes through.
Quote from: Shantel on September 15, 2013, 11:39:49 AM
Hope you get it, we'll keep fingers crossed!
Quote from: Jamiep on September 15, 2013, 12:23:12 PM
@Keaira, Brilliant, good luck & rooting for you!
Thank you :) It's volunteer charity work, but the Bridge will be quite the sight when it's done. My first job on it will be LCARS graphics it seems. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira Raine on September 15, 2013, 03:55:35 PM
Thank you :) It's volunteer charity work, but the Bridge will be quite the sight when it's done. My first job on it will be LCARS graphics it seems. ^_^
Some charity work jobs have opened the door for fantastic careers, you never can tell what may come of it!
Very true. I was just chatting with Rick Sternbach about it actually. He is actually on the board of directors for this project. He just doesnt have time right now to work on it and the art department has only a few members.
I've got wifi for the first time in just over a week, which means I might finally get to skype with my girlfriend!
I forgot to do my laundry thus weekend, so i was stuck with having to wear a dress today. I was dreading it, because I've only worn it once and someone told me I looked ugly in it that time. If I am going to wear a dress, I want to look good. So, I go to school feeling like crap and feeling ugly, when suddenly some girls I knew said they loved my dress, that I looked great, and wanted to know where I got it. (its the Coach Tour Dress in houndstooth from modcloth.com) While looks aren't everything to me, it's still nice to know I look good.
Quote from: LearnedHand on September 16, 2013, 02:58:59 PM
I forgot to do my laundry thus weekend, so i was stuck with having to wear a dress today. I was dreading it, because I've only worn it once and someone told me I looked ugly in it that time. If I am going to wear a dress, I want to look good. So, I go to school feeling like crap and feeling ugly, when suddenly some girls I knew said they loved my dress, that I looked great, and wanted to know where I got it. (its the Coach Tour Dress in houndstooth from modcloth.com) While looks aren't everything to me, it's still nice to know I look good.
Lol, you'd have to work hard at looking bad Henry! :)
AlexanderC, wifi is sure great for portability & not be stuck at the desk top.
LearnedHand, oh Henry at the bottom of your posts. Sometimes not doing your laundry on schedule is a good thing. Bless those girls that know what Beauty looks like & yes nice to know you looks good! See! ;)
Last night I got GTAV & I then spent all night playing it in a 7hr games session, i'm now going to get a few hours sleep & this afternoon i'm off to see my doctor to get my first ever prescription for my HRT.
Today is the greatest day i've ever known
Congrats Jayne :)
Hugs
I have a job interview tomorrow. And I'm happy about it, yet dreading it, because the Indiana BMV will not let me change my name without a new Birth certificate because I am British born, YET I have proof that I do not need it to be changed because I already changed it via deed poll. This is affecting my job prospects and my ability to pass. Buttheads! So I sent the manager of my local branch the email to try and get it resolved yet again.
Finding a penny on the ground outside of Gamestop- added to my top surgery fund!
Quote from: Jayne on September 17, 2013, 01:50:59 AM
Today is the greatest day i've ever known
There's a song in there somewhere...
Congrats Jayne! Sounds like an awesome day all round. :D
Got my copy of GTA V and so far I am enjoying it.
Made my 1st Laser appointment! So looking forward to Friday! I hate the hair. ^-^
Knowing that I have the next three days off from work.
Getting to sleep in and not rush to get out the door.
Quote from: Shantel on September 16, 2013, 03:03:54 PM
Lol, you'd have to work hard at looking bad Henry! :)
Thanks auntie and JamieP
Cleaned up my desk with my desktop on it and booted it up for the first time in MONTHS. Now dancing to music in my chair and starting homework. Like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGrOUlmNl10 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGrOUlmNl10)
Quote from: Darkie on September 17, 2013, 07:37:26 PM
Cleaned up my desk with my desktop on it and booted it up for the first time in MONTHS. Now dancing to music in my chair and starting homework. Like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGrOUlmNl10 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGrOUlmNl10)
Haha that's the My Little Pony theme at the beginning right?
Yea.
Went to my regular GP Dr. G on a follow up to my annual physical, this year I have always gone female and it is the first time she addressed me as Jamie, her receptionist always calls me Jamie after I told her the name I use enfemme, she just started doing this on her own, I never asked or prompted her to do so. Later I had to go to a lab for x-rays. This is a new lab & a second visit for me. My health card of course has my real male name & such in the system, on my application form I indicated when dressed girl to call me Jamie, which they did. The technician I had today is Asian and pronounced my name Jam i (sounding like Jam eye) lol. A real coincidence is I heard Jamie quickly followed by a last name that wasn't mine, but when you hear your first name you instinct makes you start to physically respond. I started to make a movement to get up then stopped when I realized it was for another lady by the same name.
Funny & Happy happenings.
That sounds like a great day Jam Eye. ;D ;) I am glad that you have such understanding medical professionals - I have a wonderful clinic myself, and it makes so much difference, I leave feeling like I have really been taken care of and like I can trust them.
So, I had my job interview today. And I filled out lots of paperwork. And took a drug test. And if all things go well with my I-9, I hope to be working in Quality doing inspections of brand spanking new Toyota fork lift trucks. Since my driver's license did not match my social security card, I explained my circumstances. She called in her co-worker and after talking about it some more and asking me questions, She told her co-worker, "No one need's to know about her past. It's no one else's business."
I was both happy and really surprised. So, for the first time, I will be stealth in the workplace.
As for the license issue, I'm about ready to see a lawyer because they are fraking with my life and my documentation IS very much legal and according to the Change of Name and Adoption Unit, In Scotland people are able to make the change of name on their birth record and in England they change their name by Deed Poll. You do not need to complete both processes.
Singing along in the car to a song where I've always struggled to hit the low notes... and then realising that I was singing too low for the song. Then I got into work and realised that my speaking voice is lower than my cismale boss's voice.
My voice is obviously very unreliable at the moment - I've only been on T for about 3 weeks - but the results so far are very encouraging. ;D
Quote from: Joules on September 18, 2013, 04:10:27 AM
Wheee, what fun!! I remember my first pass through puberty and hitting some low notes for the first time. Too bad it's a one way deal, i.e., once you go low, high becomes out of the question. I've lost some of my baritone, the rest I think I can just blame on old age. Old people sound and look about the same anyway.
TBH, I've always wanted a baritone but I thought it would never be possible for me. I'm counting on my Welsh genes to help me get there. I've promised myself that if I do achieve a baritone, I'm going to learn the words to
Bread of Heaven and I'll pop over to Cardiff for a rugby match. ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YxqnyIP5aMo
Another thing that made me happy to day: there's a specialist school for disabled youngsters just up the road from where I work. Every morning when I drive past, I see them loading students onto a specially adapted bus so they can take them out on excursions.
Today as I drove past I saw a severely disabled teenage girl sitting in her wheelchair waiting to be loaded on the bus... and she was laughing her head off with obvious joy. She was clearly thrilled about whatever they're doing today.
I don't mind paying my ridiculous taxes if the money winds up putting a smile on her face.
One more step closer today :)
@Caleb, Jam Eye, that was cute & funny, my wife laughed when I told her. Pleased that you have an understanding medical clinic, like you say trust is vital. You feel so normal you sail in & out of the office with confidence. The x-ray technician, a lady complimented me on my softly colored floral patterned white summer dress. I later boldly went in to a big box hardware store & a computer store, not paying any attention to other people around me, I blended in & no awkward looks. You have to own the space as the person you are.
@ Keaira, Your interviewer got it right,
Quote"No one need's to know about her past. It's no one else's business."
Sounds like one of those best ever days & sincerely hope you land the job!
@FTMDiaries,
QuoteI don't mind paying my ridiculous taxes if the money winds up putting a smile on her face.
Well said!
I just thought of a really good lecture topic for tomorrow. Yay!
I start work tomorrow at Toyota tomorrow. :D
All my purchases for female clothing, shoes, lingerie Hosiery has been done while I am in drab, never have had any issues. Over the past 12 years I have been building up my confidence to go many places dressed female & constantly expanding my horizons. Today is the first time I have gone into a big department store enfemme to buy pantyhose. The escalators have mirrors on three sides, nice checking your form in motion from different angles. After paying for my purchase the sales lady said, "thank you hun." Every outing with a positive leaves you so exhilarated & up you feel so accepted. It has been over a year since I had to get some hose & the prices have gone up substantially, yikes!
@Caleb, always Great having a brain flash for an interesting lecture. Seems like it is going to be good per your "yah."
@Kearia, No stopping you girl, you must feel on top of the world, well done & CONGRATULATIONS on securing the Toyota job!
May the good things that make us HAPPY, roll on!
Hug
Jamie
Quote from: caleb. on September 18, 2013, 06:01:38 PM
I just thought of a really good lecture topic for tomorrow. Yay!
what course are you teaching?
Quote from: Just Maddie! on September 18, 2013, 07:40:55 PM
what course are you teaching?
It's a combination history/philosophy course
Quote from: Keaira Raine on September 18, 2013, 06:45:02 PM
I start work tomorrow at Toyota tomorrow. :D
Woohoo! Congrats! :D
I got my doctor letter for applying for birth certificate amendment. Putting it off until next month or November because of the fees, but still I'm pretty sure it'll go through with no hitch once I submit the application. It's a good step forward. For me it's too easy to get complacent, and I don't want to lose momentum. After Texas Vital Statistics I want to move on to the Social Security Administration.
There will always be asterisks and such in my medical records, but that's fine. I feel more and more human the more I confirm publicly that I am what I always felt myself to be.
Good to hear from you Felix :) Congrats on making forward progress
@Felix,
QuoteI feel more and more human the more I confirm publicly that I am what I always felt myself to be.
Beautifully Stated. Been a while since we have seen you good to see you.
So, my first day at Toyota went well. no issues with passing or... well.. anything. It was only orientation but still. It was nice not to feel like everyone in the plant knows my past.
Well done! As the world should be. This has to make you feel relaxed & welcome in your new work environment.
Best wishes in your new career.
Hugs
Jamie
My son's new favourite movie is The Lion King.
I have a new favourite song.
Got the new printer installed and working
Quote from: Edge on September 20, 2013, 06:16:53 AM
My son's new favourite movie is The Lion King.
I have a new favourite song.
"Circle of Liiiiiiife, and it moves us Aaaaaallllll"
I HAVE BOOOBS!!!
I was looking at my profile in the mirror last night (naked, before going to bed) :icon_redface: and discovered that I had honest to goodness breast growth beyond what I had with my overweight man-boobs.
Now if only I can get rid of some of my gut....
Quote from: Keaira Raine on September 19, 2013, 10:47:16 PM
So, my first day at Toyota went well. no issues with passing or... well.. anything. It was only orientation but still. It was nice not to feel like everyone in the plant knows my past.
Congratulations Keaira, this will help you move on past the doldrums of life, bet it feels good!
Quote from: Darkie on September 20, 2013, 09:12:09 AM
"Circle of Liiiiiiife, and it moves us Aaaaaallllll"
"Be prepared!"
The new (to me) song I like is "Leider" by Eisbrecher, btw. I do like
The Lion King soundtrack though (mostly "Be Prepared").
Quote from: Felix on September 19, 2013, 05:26:41 AM
I got my doctor letter for applying for birth certificate amendment. Putting it off until next month or November because of the fees, but still I'm pretty sure it'll go through with no hitch once I submit the application. It's a good step forward. For me it's too easy to get complacent, and I don't want to lose momentum. After Texas Vital Statistics I want to move on to the Social Security Administration.
There will always be asterisks and such in my medical records, but that's fine. I feel more and more human the more I confirm publicly that I am what I always felt myself to be.
Wow congrats Felix, you're going over another big hump in the road!
The ENT found no problems with my vocal cords. I get to keep my voice! :D
Also I confused the registrars and nurses to an amusing degree. :)
Last year my technical director assigned me a project, which was to define the scope of work for the company with respect to a regulation, for the next five years. I came up with 237 items. Part of the company was literally calling for my termination and some of them were vp level. I was passed over for promotion but I held on to my job. Today, the official number came out from the very people who had called for my head. The number was "Just shy of 240." They would not say exactly what the number was.
Guess who got that promotion!!!! Right before lunch, the TD stopped by with a good job and the news.
Returning to normal levels of HRT in a week or so. I'm very glad. I stopped a month or so ago & reconsidered everything. Now I'm ready for estrogen for the rest of my life. My breasts have grown to an A cup easily & I'm looking forward to their growth this fall & winter. Maybe I hope SRS one day however I may have an orcie earlier to help reduce the need for spiro. I've always felt myself as a girl or now a woman since early childhood. I just wish I had changed & improved my physical gender so long ago & much earlier in life.
Oh yea my nails are getting really long. I love long nice polished nails.
@Jennifer, Sounds like someone had your back, was strong & against all odds you are a survivor. Stellar, a well deserved promotion, Congratulations! The TD should take you out to dinner! You must feel on top of the world. Celebrations are in order!
2 new binders arrived and they're really great. Also they fit perfectly around my shoulders but were to big around my hips. That made me irrationally happy somehow.
Also my parents gave me a gift from Elfia: a leather bracelet with my name on: Nathan!
Quote from: Jamiep on September 20, 2013, 03:16:43 PM
@Jennifer, Sounds like someone had your back, was strong & against all odds you are a survivor. Stellar, a well deserved promotion, Congratulations! The TD should take you out to dinner! You must feel on top of the world. Celebrations are in order!
Celebrations indeed!!!! It's been a tough year. All because the truth was hard to face. Yea. Thank you.
I had to call the dmv this morning and gave my old name because that is what the title of the car is under... Anyway- later on in the call, they addressed me as ma'am twice. Pretty funny slip on on their part (if I actually were male) and it kinda made my day :)
When I was walking into school today, my teacher thought I was one of my female classmates and called me by her name.
Beautiful morning here and went for a Saturday morning 120k bike ride through the national parks north of Sydney and finished it off with a ferry ride back across the harbour. Priceless.
Last week I had a major blow out with my (not-ex-yet-)wife... I've been under a lot of stress and I'm her source of anxiety... of course this isn't about that! I got fed up with 6 weeks in the basement (windowless) office (pictured, in part, below) sleeping on the floor with couch cushions. Bought the bed last weekend... the sheets during the week, and the comforter set finally showed up today!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2F8KIIpV4.jpg&hash=44354e5668e3305eaee231acdef7b272ad0f1666)
It's like a real bedroom now...
In the photo is Berry (previously Barry) who started her life as a VT Teddy Bear in overalls. My wife also got one with a skirt... and Berry decided that being a boy bear wasn't for her any longer..... so she raided her partner's closet. It makes this sort of thing easier to talk about with my daughters.
Aww, I love your little bedroom! Sad you have to sleep down there but at least you have a cute little place to relax with your little friend! I sleep with a Fennec Fox every night named Fenrir.
Quote from: Jenny07 on September 20, 2013, 08:31:00 PM
Beautiful morning here and went for a Saturday morning 120k bike ride through the national parks north of Sydney and finished it off with a ferry ride back across the harbour. Priceless.
120k! Wow. You're in better shape that me.
Quote from: kabit on September 21, 2013, 09:33:06 AM
Last week I had a major blow out with my (not-ex-yet-)wife... I've been under a lot of stress and I'm her source of anxiety... of course this isn't about that! I got fed up with 6 weeks in the basement (windowless) office (pictured, in part, below) sleeping on the floor with couch cushions. Bought the bed last weekend... the sheets during the week, and the comforter set finally showed up today!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2F8KIIpV4.jpg&hash=44354e5668e3305eaee231acdef7b272ad0f1666)
It's like a real bedroom now...
In the photo is Berry (previously Barry) who started her life as a VT Teddy Bear in overalls. My wife also got one with a skirt... and Berry decided that being a boy bear wasn't for her any longer..... so she raided her partner's closet. It makes this sort of thing easier to talk about with my daughters.
Looks nice kabit :)
Hugs
Quote from: JLT1 on September 20, 2013, 02:54:41 PM
Last year my technical director assigned me a project, which was to define the scope of work for the company with respect to a regulation, for the next five years. I came up with 237 items. Part of the company was literally calling for my termination and some of them were vp level. I was passed over for promotion but I held on to my job. Today, the official number came out from the very people who had called for my head. The number was "Just shy of 240." They would not say exactly what the number was.
Guess who got that promotion!!!! Right before lunch, the TD stopped by with a good job and the news.
So cool, I just love these kinds of outcomes. Funny how resistant to change some can be, the last seven words from members of a failed organization are "We never did it that way before!"........Kudos!
Quote from: Jennygirl on September 20, 2013, 06:33:47 PM
I had to call the dmv this morning and gave my old name because that is what the title of the car is under... Anyway- later on in the call, they addressed me as ma'am twice. Pretty funny slip on on their part (if I actually were male) and it kinda made my day :)
Well with that new voice why would that say anything otherwise? I couldn't imagine talking to you on the phone under any circumstances and think "Guy" it would be nuts!
Thanks for the thoughts, everyone!
Quote from: Darkie on September 21, 2013, 09:41:46 AM
Aww, I love your little bedroom! Sad you have to sleep down there but at least you have a cute little place to relax with your little friend! I sleep with a Fennec Fox every night named Fenrir.
It's sad... an end of an era, but it's also for the best. I was in denial for a while over losing my best friend... but I'm very hopeful for a future as friends with her! It would be tough to manage, but there's always the chance this arrangement could be permanent, which is something I'd love despite the difficulties.
This is supposed to be a happy thread, though... Optimism does not qualify!
Berry is very comforting, AND she helps the kids come to an understanding about me. My 4 year old is convinced the bear is a boy in a skirt... I tell her otherwise.
Quote from: kabit on September 21, 2013, 10:13:10 AM
Berry is very comforting, AND she helps the kids come to an understanding about me. My 4 year old is convinced the bear is a boy in a skirt... I tell her otherwise.
Berry makes the point that the little ones can more readily understand and assimilate, hopefully they will be able to transfer that concept to understand what has happened to daddy. Like the bedroom too, very cute!
My mom is coming to pick me up in an hour and we are going to the Celtic Highland games! Food, vendors, dancing, etc. Should be fun!
To had found this forum ! :)
nailing a rather difficult song. good voice day.
(the song is "The Evil Prince" by Frank Zappa)
Quote from: Shantel on September 21, 2013, 10:22:12 AM
Berry makes the point that the little ones can more readily understand and assimilate, hopefully they will be able to transfer that concept to understand what has happened to daddy. Like the bedroom too, very cute!
Agreed! I think having Berry was a really great idea to help the kids understand.
Quote from: caleb. on September 21, 2013, 03:03:11 PM
Agreed! I think having Berry was a really great idea to help the kids understand.
Thanks! It just came to me as we were playing with the old stuffed animals. I remember being jealous of my wife's choices for her bear... so I figured Barry needed the same sort of change in his life.
Unfortunately the transition process is much quicker for a teddy bear than for a girl like me... :D But Berry is a lot happier now!
What made you happy today? 3.0
You guys!! :icon_flower:
(Edit: girls, sorry... "guys" I've always used as gender non-specific)
My son is turning into a little chess fiend!
Had a lot of fun hanging out with my mom today!
Yup, when I lived in Calif, particularly in the beach towns it was fairly common to call girls guys or dudes, if you called them a Babe or Chick or Honey or a few other feminine terms they'd take as a sexist thing and get all pissed off
Examples given - "Hey, what are you guys up to?" "Right on dude"
My wife bought me a symbolic present. I feel very accepted.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fcatalog.sears.ca%2Fwcsstore%2FMasterCatalog%2Fimages%2Fcatalog%2FProduct_437%2Fstd_lang_all%2F79%2F_p%2F604_27279_P.jpg&hash=16292e380270b1574a1665a33f9ae321e5fed6b1)
Quote from: Just Maddie! on September 22, 2013, 04:20:48 AM
My wife bought me a symbolic present. I feel very accepted.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fcatalog.sears.ca%2Fwcsstore%2FMasterCatalog%2Fimages%2Fcatalog%2FProduct_437%2Fstd_lang_all%2F79%2F_p%2F604_27279_P.jpg&hash=16292e380270b1574a1665a33f9ae321e5fed6b1)
She sounds like a real keeper!
I am now a proud parent of a Gen 1 Firefly toy! For those who don't know what that is:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F_SuqKWhCwAHQ%2FTQUX9NCUv3I%2FAAAAAAAAAUU%2FuPX-E8Pign0%2Fs1600%2FFirefly.jpg&hash=8ef1d1184f99897d7fc8dac917f42645acb20b97)
Quote from: Darkie on September 22, 2013, 06:04:56 PM
I am now a proud parent of a Gen 1 Firefly toy! For those who don't know what that is:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F_SuqKWhCwAHQ%2FTQUX9NCUv3I%2FAAAAAAAAAUU%2FuPX-E8Pign0%2Fs1600%2FFirefly.jpg&hash=8ef1d1184f99897d7fc8dac917f42645acb20b97)
I used to have tons of these....they were my favorite toys in the late 80s, early 90s.
Quote from: Anonymous User on September 22, 2013, 08:00:32 PM
I used to have tons of these....they were my favorite toys in the late 80s, early 90s.
I wasn't really able to have them when I was little, I would go to this girl's house during the summers when I stayed with my grandparents and we would play with them. I had forgotten all about that.
Opening more to friends one at a time about my physican change of gender. Most are happy & supportive. I plan to open to all regardless & if some "do not like it" I could care less. Since I live fulltime as a woman I just do not want unpleasant "friends" calling me or dropping by to see me. If they are OK with my life they are very welcome & we can all have fun together.
It's way past time I went through all my "friends" & sorted out those I want & enjoy.
I bought glasses today! Two pairs: one green and one purple.
I started an account here, and started reading many posts :D
It's making my day~
My young nephew is such a sweetheart. He was eating a peanut butter cup and I told him if he if he ate too many of those his stomach would look like mine (huge) and he said I'm perfect just the way I am and that God made me this way.
Now I hope he doesn't have that same response in the future when I come out to him as trans. :D
Quote from: Malachite on September 23, 2013, 01:50:59 AM
My young nephew is such a sweetheart. He was eating a peanut butter cup and I told him if he if he ate too many of those his stomach would look like mine (huge) and he said I'm perfect just the way I am and that God made me this way.
Now I hope he doesn't have that same response in the future when I come out to him as trans. :D
Awwwwww. That's so sweet. <3 Made my night.
Pre-T my emotions were always very close to the surface: I'd even cry during TV commercials. I hated being compelled to cry for the most ridiculous reasons because doing so made me feel disenfranchised, as if I was not allowed to be in charge of my own emotional state.
I'm only just into my 4th week of T, but already I've noticed a difference in my emotional reactions: I now seem to be able to control them much better.
Last night I watched a very moving documentary about a theatre group that supports children of all abilities (including a girl with cerebral palsy who walked across the stage with the help of her friends, after they lifted her out of her wheelchair). This is exactly the kind of story that would've had me bawling like a baby pre-T. I was touched by the story and my eyes moistened slightly, but the tears didn't actually fall. This seems to be my new 'norm' when I experience something that tugs on my heartstrings.
This is so liberating for me: I finally feel so normal.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 23, 2013, 09:35:42 AM
Pre-T my emotions were always very close to the surface: I'd even cry during TV commercials. I hated being compelled to cry for the most ridiculous reasons because doing so made me feel disenfranchised, as if I was not allowed to be in charge of my own emotional state.
I'm only just into my 4th week of T, but already I've noticed a difference in my emotional reactions: I now seem to be able to control them much better.
Last night I watched a very moving documentary about a theatre group that supports children of all abilities (including a girl with cerebral palsy who walked across the stage with the help of her friends, after they lifted her out of her wheelchair). This is exactly the kind of story that would've had me bawling like a baby pre-T. I was touched by the story and my eyes moistened slightly, but the tears didn't actually fall. This seems to be my new 'norm' when I experience something that tugs on my heartstrings.
This is so liberating for me: I finally feel so normal.
Not too strange really because I was just the opposite as my former self, emotionally unavailable because real men don't cry! Then several years of E and a sudden interest in "Chick Flicks" that had never been on my viewing roster before and I turned into a sob sister. It was embarrassing at first, but I have it under better control now and only get wet eyes. ;D :D
Told my dad about my self harming, and he didn't get mad or anything. Nor did he try to force me to tell him why. He just got worried and told me that its okay and gave me a hug.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qnydFmqHuVo (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qnydFmqHuVo)
You can't watch this without a straight face. Second one is great too.
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 23, 2013, 09:35:42 AM
Pre-T my emotions were always very close to the surface: I'd even cry during TV commercials. I hated being compelled to cry for the most ridiculous reasons because doing so made me feel disenfranchised, as if I was not allowed to be in charge of my own emotional state.
I'm only just into my 4th week of T, but already I've noticed a difference in my emotional reactions: I now seem to be able to control them much better.
Last night I watched a very moving documentary about a theatre group that supports children of all abilities (including a girl with cerebral palsy who walked across the stage with the help of her friends, after they lifted her out of her wheelchair). This is exactly the kind of story that would've had me bawling like a baby pre-T. I was touched by the story and my eyes moistened slightly, but the tears didn't actually fall. This seems to be my new 'norm' when I experience something that tugs on my heartstrings.
This is so liberating for me: I finally feel so normal.
I'm caught between you and Shantel (though moving in her direction). No HRT yet and I've found myself crying more, and I like it. I look forward to more of it.
I love how we're different than night and day, but totally understand what each other are talking about. Seriously awesome... and touching to me :D
I was ma'amed for the first time today. :D
My day off and it's a nice forecast an unseasonal 20 degrees expected
So after so many year I finally have an appointment with a gender therapist next week.
It is a major achievement for me.
It's been a hard slog emotionally to finally get this far but it is not as scary as I thought, we all think.
Not far away form the magic mushrooms.
Words can not describe how happy this make me feel.
J
Quote from: kabit on September 23, 2013, 08:11:29 PM
I'm caught between you and Shantel (though moving in her direction). No HRT yet and I've found myself crying more, and I like it. I look forward to more of it.
I love how we're different than night and day, but totally understand what each other are talking about. Seriously awesome... and touching to me :D
Isn't it wonderful when we finally start feeling more appropriate within ourselves? ;D
The British pharmacy & beauty chain, Boots, is running a promotion offering £5 discount vouchers off their No.7 skincare & make-up ranges. I've had to shop in Boots a lot lately so I've received about 10 of these... and naturally I've given all of them to my make-up crazy daughter, because it's not like I have any use for them.
So my daughter & I went shopping in Boots and we were stood side-by-side at the till to pay for a bunch of haircare stuff. But even though I was in charge of our end of the transaction, the cashier completely ignored me when she handed out the No.7 voucher. Instead, she addressed her sales spiel to my daughter.
I'm counting that as a pass. ;D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 24, 2013, 04:29:26 AM
The British pharmacy & beauty chain, Boots, is running a promotion offering £5 discount vouchers off their No.7 skincare & make-up ranges. I've had to shop in Boots a lot lately so I've received about 10 of these... and naturally I've given all of them to my make-up crazy daughter, because it's not like I have any use for them.
So my daughter & I went shopping in Boots and we were stood side-by-side at the till to pay for a bunch of haircare stuff. But even though I was in charge of our end of the transaction, the cashier completely ignored me when she handed out the No.7 voucher. Instead, she addressed her sales spiel to my daughter.
I'm counting that as a pass. ;D
That would be a pass, sometimes ignore-ance is bliss! ;D
Quote from: Shantel on September 24, 2013, 07:52:59 AM
That would be a pass, sometimes ignore-ance is bliss! ;D
Well, it certainly is in this instance! ;D
Today, all feel good stories & congrats to everyone. Shan good quip, "ignor-ance is bliss." lol
Quote from: Jamiep on September 24, 2013, 12:00:26 PM
Today, all feel good stories & congrats to everyone. Shan good quip, "ignor-ance is bliss." lol
Hah, at least you spelled it right!
I had a proper male haircut today. Okay maybe it's a bit too short, but the fact that it was male is enough, especially as I'm well known here and I wear an ID card every hour I'm awake so it rarely happens these days. I went in to the "hairdressers" (it's really a barbers because no girls trust them with their hair thinking it's just a navy place, but that's what the sign says) with my ID card turned over and I was nervous because she made conversation with me and hadn't to the guy before... until she started squaring off my sideburns. And it's great to have a haircut done by someone who's confident with using clippers at last. I even tipped her a couple of quid, and I'm stingy with my money and never know when to tip.
And I'm catering rep for my house here, the first time I've ever been voted in for anything. First task: stop having them serve us roast dinners every day of the week.
Quote from: AlexanderC on September 24, 2013, 03:35:39 PM
I had a proper male haircut today. Okay maybe it's a bit too short, but the fact that it was male is enough, especially as I'm well known here and I wear an ID card every hour I'm awake so it rarely happens these days. I went in to the "hairdressers" (it's really a barbers because no girls trust them with their hair thinking it's just a navy place, but that's what the sign says) with my ID card turned over and I was nervous because she made conversation with me and hadn't to the guy before... until she started squaring off my sideburns. And it's great to have a haircut done by someone who's confident with using clippers at last. I even tipped her a couple of quid, and I'm stingy with my money and never know when to tip.
And I'm catering rep for my house here, the first time I've ever been voted in for anything. First task: stop having them serve us roast dinners every day of the week.
Good job Alexander, obviously the stylist (barber) didn't clock you, sounds like you're on a roll there!
Home pedicure! [Priced] Better than the real thing!
And new microphone... get ready to hear my voice, girls!
And... I listen to OutQ sometimes on SiriusXM (for a week or two now). Ariel, Sebastian, and the Cook (why Cook?) were interviewed. I love that movie... she's the sort of princess I am: doesn't want to be who she was assigned at birth. I'm thinking of working on my voice patterned after hers.
Got a date,the first in 2 years!
Big Kim: Way to go!!!! Have Fun!!!!!!
Hugs,
Jen
I got a call from one of the places I applied to, and have a job interview tomorrow!! ;D I haven't had a job in 5 years. I'm so excited to finally get my life where it needs to be, and this is the first step! :D
Quote from: Alex on September 24, 2013, 09:17:24 PM
I got a call from one of the places I applied to, and have a job interview tomorrow!! ;D I haven't had a job in 5 years. I'm so excited to finally get my life where it needs to be, and this is the first step! :D
Best of luck, hon.
*crosses fingers*
Thanks, Sephirah! :)
Hopefully I'll be able to post here again after the interview! ;)
I have my first appointment with a gender therapist on the 10th ^^
Quote from: JLT1 on September 24, 2013, 09:13:09 PM
Big Kim: Way to go!!!! Have Fun!!!!!!
Hugs, Thanks will do!
Jen
Quote from: Ovada on September 24, 2013, 09:48:22 PM
I have my first appointment with a gender therapist on the 10th ^^
Best wishes for a good session!
I'm currently drinking a free Starbucks coffee, thanks to the rewards points I've earned! ;D
They don't specify what size you can order, so I went for the largest Caramel Macchiato I could get without them having to put it in a bucket.
Cheers!
Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 25, 2013, 08:08:25 AM
I'm currently drinking a free Starbucks coffee, thanks to the rewards points I've earned! ;D
They don't specify what size you can order, so I went for the largest Caramel Macchiato I could get without them having to put it in a bucket.
Cheers!
Bucket O'Starbucks... now there's an idea.
Their coffee is stupidly expensive to buy though. I mean like really, insanely, must-have-tea-instead expensive. I went into my local supermarket and saw that for a 40 gram tub of coffee, it cost more than a 300 gram jar of Nescafé. Makes you wonder if it's actually made from the tears of unicorns. It must be!
I just received a message from a swappartner. I came out to her on a whim and spent three days worrying about her reaction. We'd exchanged a lot of messages and I'd really come to respect her and value but she's a devote christian and I was just so scared (silly really over an internetperson). I've got her message and I'm crying so much. She's basically had computerissues stopping her from replying and has been worrying about how to reply. She was so wonderfull in her message saying I should never think she'd judge me for doing what I needed to be happy and that she thought I was a wonderfull person and nothing would change that. That she believes everyone should make their own path in life and if she were to judge mine she wouldn't be a good person to herself. And... I just can't explain withouth putting the entire message on but it touched me so much. I know this is probably not understandable and way to long but I needed to vent somewhere...
I got called "Mr" in an email, meaning that I passed 100% to one of my students. A male student, which somehow actually means more to me than passing to a female student, given that women started gendering me correctly earlier than men.
I also had the woman I work with hear me mention kids and she assumed they were mine, asking if I was a father. Like, a cisgender male father. ;D
I like it. It took a while to get used to passing after being called "ma'am" and "she" EVERY goddamn time, lol, but I'm finally able to feel somewhat at ease with my presentation. I feel a lot more confident. I also spoke with someone who knew me, er, early in transition who knows I am trans and I didn't really like it when the trans issue came up. Even though he is for the most part really good about it.
A lot of recent events are sort of pointing towards "stealth" as what I want for myself. The only real reason I ever left the stealth/out question open was because a) I wasn't sure if I could ever pass and b) because I wonder if there's anything I'd want to do for other trans people. Given that my transition has had its fair share of struggle (and I have had it easy compared to many others), makes me feel like there is a need for me to do *something.* But I am going to pick something that doesn't require me to be out.
Quote from: caleb. on September 25, 2013, 05:46:57 PM
I got called "Mr" in an email, meaning that I passed 100% to one of my students. A male student, which somehow actually means more to me than passing to a female student, given that women started gendering me correctly earlier than men.
I also had the woman I work with hear me mention kids and she assumed they were mine, asking if I was a father. Like, a cisgender male father. ;D
I like it. It took a while to get used to passing after being called "ma'am" and "she" EVERY goddamn time, lol, but I'm finally able to feel somewhat at ease with my presentation. I feel a lot more confident. I also spoke with someone who knew me, er, early in transition who knows I am trans and I didn't really like it when the trans issue came up. Even though he is for the most part really good about it.
A lot of recent events are sort of pointing towards "stealth" as what I want for myself. The only real reason I ever left the stealth/out question open was because a) I wasn't sure if I could ever pass and b) because I wonder if there's anything I'd want to do for other trans people. Given that my transition has had its fair share of struggle (and I have had it easy compared to many others), makes me feel like there is a need for me to do *something.* But I am going to pick something that doesn't require me to be out.
In the time I've read your contributions here, I have come to the conclusion that you are an erudite, articulate, thoughtful, considerate, well spoken young man (I only mention the "young" part because today I feel about a hundred, lol). And I think you have the right to live that way, and live as who you are.
So all I really have to say is, good for you, hon. :)
I'm noticing subtle changes since starting HRT last Sunday.
I feel much more comfortable about myself which has in turn made me feel much more mellow.
This became apparent after I tripped on an Xbox cable, my new copy of GTA V was running as the Xbox fell & the disc is damaged beyond use or repair, a few weeks ago that would have had me stomping around in a foul mood for hours (or maybe even days), my only reaction was to shrug & accept that I can't afford a replacement until I get more money in 10 days time.
I've also noticed that when I wake up & drag myself out of bed I no longer smell male, I previously used to make a bee line for the bathroom to run a bath to soak in so I could rid myself of this obnoxious smell I hated it so much but now it's gone, it's been replaced with a very subtle body smell that I no longer find offensive
Quote from: Sephirah on September 25, 2013, 05:57:35 PM
In the time I've read your contributions here, I have come to the conclusion that you are an erudite, articulate, thoughtful, considerate, well spoken young man (I only mention the "young" part because today I feel about a hundred, lol). And I think you have the right to live that way, and live as who you are.
So all I really have to say is, good for you, hon. :)
Aw, thank you Sephirah. That made my day. :)
Quote from: Jayne on September 25, 2013, 06:26:44 PM
I'm noticing subtle changes since starting HRT last Sunday.
I feel much more comfortable about myself which has in turn made me feel much more mellow.
This became apparent after I tripped on an Xbox cable, my new copy of GTA V was running as the Xbox fell & the disc is damaged beyond use or repair, a few weeks ago that would have had me stomping around in a foul mood for hours (or maybe even days), my only reaction was to shrug & accept that I can't afford a replacement until I get more money in 10 days time.
I've also noticed that when I wake up & drag myself out of bed I no longer smell male, I previously used to make a bee line for the bathroom to run a bath to soak in so I could rid myself of this obnoxious smell I hated it so much but now it's gone, it's been replaced with a very subtle body smell that I no longer find offensive
It's your time now Jayne, congrats hon!
I had to laugh at Jayne's post. I remember, back in March 2012, writing about my six months on HRT. I had to add to my post, at the time, "And I don't smell as bad!" LOL
Thank you Jayne. ;)
EDIT: I found it!
Quote from: Jamie D on March 23, 2012, 02:31:34 PM
Another thing I forgot to mention. I smell better.
I know you're saying, "Fragrance is in the nose of the beholder." But it's true.
A couple of weeks ago I was doing a load of laundry and I had this shirt, i was pretty sure I had worn, on a chair. I sniffed it to see if I could pick up that musky male BO in the pits. Nothing. Well, I thought the shirt was clean, until I found a couple of cooking splatters on it.
Quote from: Jayne on September 25, 2013, 06:26:44 PM
I've also noticed that when I wake up & drag myself out of bed I no longer smell male, I previously used to make a bee line for the bathroom to run a bath to soak in so I could rid myself of this obnoxious smell I hated it so much but now it's gone, it's been replaced with a very subtle body smell that I no longer find offensive
LOL - every time one of my kids enters a room I'm in, they start looking around suspiciously and asking "What's that smell?" ;)
I am laughing at the thought of a body odor topic. Stop me! Please stop me!!
Last night I went to the mall after therapy with my sister. It was totally awesome even though it was mostly just walking, talking, and dinner. We did talk a little about clothes, etc. She kept mentioning me getting new clothes because of my weight loss - I wonder if I'm a men's Large now - if not, soon. I pretty much said I wasn't really interested in new clothes... and hoped I didn't have to buy any. :) Overall it was an awesome night - we talked about a lot. (Food court dinner isn't too bad - other than salt and food quality - if there's a Sarku Japan).
Also:
Today (and earlier this week) I had two friend requests on MyFitnessPal from Cis women. Both were supportive when I told them I'm a trans* girl and not yet transitioned. (It becomes obvious from my status history on there).
My wife and I went to sign up to a new ivf clinic today. I went in boy mode.
Half an hour into paperwork, the new doc went through my wifes info and it got to the medical history bit. My turn... pause... deep breath... nod from wife...
"I am transgender."
Good god you should have seen the look on his face. Cogs whirred. He searched my facial features... After a long pause he said...
"Ftm?"
The poor guy shot a look at my beaming wife.
"Shes a Mtf. Prehormones. " she smiled.
He looked terribly relieved.
Later my wife was laughing " Poor guy looked like he was going to pop a vein".
I was smiling too for a different reason... that's the second time I was picked as an ftm early in transition by a doctor and once by a celebrant. I guess my face must seem more f than m. And my wife referred to me as 'she' in a reflex response to a stranger and a male one at that. And she was smiling when she did it.
Tis' the little things.
Gogglebox (http://www.channel4.com/programmes/gogglebox/episode-guide) is back on the gogglebox! ;D
Quote from: Emmaline on September 26, 2013, 08:10:56 AM
My wife and I went to sign up to a new ivf clinic today. I went in boy mode.
Half an hour into paperwork, the new doc went through my wifes info and it got to the medical history bit. My turn... pause... deep breath... nod from wife...
"I am transgender."
Good god you should have seen the look on his face. Cogs whirred. He searched my facial features... After a long pause he said...
"Ftm?"
The poor guy shot a look at my beaming wife.
"Shes a Mtf. Prehormones. " she smiled.
He looked terribly relieved.
Later my wife was laughing " Poor guy looked like he was going to pop a vein".
I was smiling too for a different reason... that's the second time I was picked as an ftm early in transition by a doctor and once by a celebrant. I guess my face must seem more f than m. And my wife referred to me as 'she' in a reflex response to a stranger and a male one at that. And she was smiling when she did it.
Tis' the little things.
Kudos Emmaline!
I have been clocked FtM on several occasions since I remain in an intentional androgynous state and enjoy the guessing games and mental hoops the binary crowd goes through. Your Mrs. is a keeper!
Getting my SRS date.
Quote from: suzifrommd on September 26, 2013, 01:00:01 PM
Getting my SRS date.
Cool, congrats..Goodbye fellas, hello sis! ;D
More evidence of passing in classes. Lent someone my notes and heard the guy say to his friend "he lent us his notes..."
I got a little emotional while working in the office though. Now that most, if not all, of my students see me as male, I find they are much more comfortable interacting with me. Students never knew how to relate to me when I was still "androgynous" and there was confusion around my gender. And when I was talking to some of the people who were working in the office, again, they had so much more ease around me than those who knew me as transgender.
I've been "out" for almost 4 years now, I was never able to be stealth until recently because I only just began passing. I kind of am choking back tears, because this has been such a long road for me. I've spent so long being treated like some sort of alien, and it was getting to the point where I was starting to wonder if I'd always be a visible "other." It was like a constant reminder that I was different, that I wasn't appearing to be born in the correct body. And I never thought I'd be able to feel normal again, but today, I did.
I was planning on skipping Trusts & Estates today because my sister is up from VA, but was worried about missing any information (we don't use a book, so EVERYTHING is just from what we do in class) that would be important on the final paper. Luckilly, I just got an e-mail saying class today is cancelled. :D
Got my Gameinformer magazine a few days ago.
About to go have my first laser session today and I am looking forward to it pain and all. :)
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on September 26, 2013, 09:35:58 PM
About to go have my first laser session today and I am looking forward to it pain and all. :)
You'll do fine, remember what Arnold said, "No pain, no gain!" :D ;D
Quote from: Shantel on September 27, 2013, 10:03:41 AM
You'll do fine, remember what Arnold said, "No pain, no gain!" :D ;D
And with any luck... your short term effects won't last. (It's 7 days... the red blotches are almost gone for me. I wonder what people will say if it's like this next time too ;))
My sister is awesome and accepting of her new sister (though we're not totally at that point yet). In her words, after being thanked for being so supportive and treating me as I am on our recent mall outing, "No problem, still your sister!!" I'm really happy to have a sister who's outgoing and doesn't care what other people think. Hopefully I can learn a lot from her.
I am definitely getting these (http://www.alexandani.com/bangles/star-of-venus-expandable-wire-bangle-4652.html) for her, my supportive sister-in-law, and me! This week.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on September 27, 2013, 11:09:39 AM
That's really cool, Kabit. *Hands you a carrot*
I'm getting a good laugh at all of the whiny trolls on this one noise board I go to. They are all now whining and crying because the admin isn't going to put up with their crap anymore. It's hilarious. They actually tried to single me out because I have a sig of Portia (Gee, didn't see THAT coming did ya?) and it has a drug reference in it. It's quite funny, I think, but I won't post it here because it might violate the policy on this site.
See? Am I complaining about what someone does with THEIR site? Nope.
That's because I have a brain and I realize that all of the internet isn't my personal troll-box. (Not that I am into trolling anyway) But to see the trolls cry like babies over this is sooooo great!! :D
Well... you
are retired staff! And now I'm curious... I don't know if I'd "get" the reference... I'm pretty good at picking up drug references if they're spelled out for me ;) . I'm w/ you on trolling, though. I don't get the point.
My "drug" of choice is lettuce, though. Sorry if that's accidentally a reference... I mean the vegetable that goes in salad... that rabbits eat. :angel: carrots don't do it for me (though in some fantasies, recently... I'm very ??? where I wasn't before ~ in a lot of respects).
(to continue my blather ;) )... Porcupines will eat lettuce too! I've never seen the Get Along Gang (gasp! I have no idea why not - maybe because we had cable) but it was my wife's favorite show. I remember watching these guys though... not many in the USA can say that:
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Sorry... not on topic, but it made me happy! ;D
Dancing in the kitchen while I clean so I can make foods.
Quote from: Darkie on September 27, 2013, 01:07:16 PM
Dancing in the kitchen while I clean so I can make foods.
I love it! :D
I've recently found that, when I'm happy (and have music - I usually bring my old squeezebox in, and am awake enough) I will dance myself clean in the shower. :)
@Shantel Thanks though was still a little unexpected the highest the pain level went was an 8.5 which made my right eye water felt like she ripped 3 hairs out at once with blunt tweezers. In hindsight though since I rarely feel physical pain and cannot gauge to well so an 8.5 for me might actually be more of a 5(might have exaggerated a bit who knows.), most of the time the pain was around a 2-3. Well I have the numbing cream now for next time.
@kabit I must have a fast healing ability as my red blotches are gone already and in fact were gone by last night. I didn't like that the shadow was showing like it would have after two days of regrowth which makes sense now since it has been 2 days lol but I guess it is a good thing as it means the hairs are surfacing and she said I do not seem to get much growth anyway so I should have good results in the long run.
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on September 28, 2013, 07:36:44 AM
@Shantel Thanks though was still a little unexpected the highest the pain level went was an 8.5 which made my right eye water felt like she ripped 3 hairs out at once with blunt tweezers. In hindsight though since I rarely feel physical pain and cannot gauge to well so an 8.5 for me might actually be more of a 5(might have exaggerated a bit who knows.), most of the time the pain was around a 2-3. Well I have the numbing cream now for next time.
@kabit I must have a fast healing ability as my red blotches are gone already and in fact were gone by last night. I didn't like that the shadow was showing like it would have after two days of regrowth which makes sense now since it has been 2 days lol but I guess it is a good thing as it means the hairs are surfacing and she said I do not seem to get much growth anyway so I should have good results in the long run.
I'm glad it went well! Ive got super thick, fast growing facial hair... and also high pain tolerance. It was pretty terrible (thinking of bringing whiskey along next time ;) it was her suggestion!). I assume that's why the red lasted so long... my only worry is work next time... once, they might pass off... twice??
Here's my happy: yesterday, fixed my computer (thank GOD) - hope it sticks...
today, 1lb off by best... 204.0! Also lost mega inches since my last measure (2 weeks). 2" off my waist! 1" off my torso (38B now... with no AAs or E yet ;) )
And I went for a 3 mile walk! Not bad for 9am.
6 years ago, I made the decision to come out rather than kill myself. Even though all I knew about "the gays and transgenders" was "you'll be screwed up, everyone will hate you, you'll never find love, your family will leave you, no one will hire you, you'll get diseases, die alone, and then rot in hell."
I guess something inside myself told me that my life was worth more than that, even if it was hard. Not that being out as been easy, I've certainly experienced discrimination and hurt, but most of what I was told were lies.
- I'm not screwed up, I'm getting a master's degree, I'm a teacher with great reviews, I have a clean bill of health. I've had more than one person tell me they love how much I smile and laugh, how I know what's truly important, how I have encouraged them to empower themselves.
- Lots of people like me. I don't even have to say much more about that, lol. I'm a nice person.
- I have found love. More than once. The first time, it didn't work out, but I know what we shared was real. It was unconditional. Even when she first broke up with me, I cried so hard I thought I'd puke, but I knew deep down that if I had taken my own life, I'd never have been able to experience that love. And as for the girl who loves me now, well, we'll have to see if things work out for us, but I know she loves me and I love her.
- My family has been a royal pain in the ass and has hurt me pretty bad over this stuff, but they haven't gone anywhere. :P
- I've been hired several times now and done well at the jobs.
- I don't have any diseases. :)
- I hopefully won't die alone.
- Hell doesn't exist.
I cried so much over the past hour thinking about this. I never thought I'd have a beautiful life, I just figured that even if life was crappy, I was worth something. Who would have known I could be all that I am?
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Ah, The Racoons! *nostalgia*
Quote from: Muffin Top on September 28, 2013, 04:39:35 PM
Ah, The Racoons! *nostalgia*
:D A Canadian! (?) I loved the Raccoons. I distinctly remember the Christmas special (though not the plot per se).
Bungle, ~ still need to get that video! It's on my wishlist.
I'm back on Spiro :D
Quote from: kabit on September 28, 2013, 05:40:19 PM
:D A Canadian! (?) I loved the Raccoons. I distinctly remember the Christmas special (though not the plot per se).
Proud Canadian!:D I grew up in southern Ontario and now live in Saskatchewan.
I think Cyril Sneer had a formative impact on the development of my anticapitalist politics ::)
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Quote from: Muffin Top on September 28, 2013, 05:47:08 PM
Proud Canadian!:D I grew up in southern Ontario and now live in Saskatchewan.
I think Cyril Sneer had a formative impact on the development of my anticapitalist politics ::)
I'm an American who lived close to the border. We'd visit Montreal from time to time... the winter olympics were always better on CBC, too ;) (I'm not sure I'll be watching them at all next year). (Edit: ooh.. just thought - it'd be pretty awesome if some of the countries did a GLBT+ thing during the procession!! Send the US team some rainbow stripes & stars).
I already covered yesterday and today's happy things... but I also shaved and seem to be razor burn free (for the first time in that region), and cleaned up the eyebrows - not fem yet, but much cleaner than they were. Now if only all this darned hair would stop growing!!! (AAs... where are you?)
I made a lovely stew, and tried a chimichanga burrito. It's.. Different. :)
Quote from: caleb. on September 28, 2013, 04:38:50 PM
6 years ago, I made the decision to come out rather than kill myself. Even though all I knew about "the gays and transgenders" was "you'll be screwed up, everyone will hate you, you'll never find love, your family will leave you, no one will hire you, you'll get diseases, die alone, and then rot in hell."
I guess something inside myself told me that my life was worth more than that, even if it was hard. Not that being out as been easy, I've certainly experienced discrimination and hurt, but most of what I was told were lies.
- I'm not screwed up, I'm getting a master's degree, I'm a teacher with great reviews, I have a clean bill of health. I've had more than one person tell me they love how much I smile and laugh, how I know what's truly important, how I have encouraged them to empower themselves.
- Lots of people like me. I don't even have to say much more about that, lol. I'm a nice person.
- I have found love. More than once. The first time, it didn't work out, but I know what we shared was real. It was unconditional. Even when she first broke up with me, I cried so hard I thought I'd puke, but I knew deep down that if I had taken my own life, I'd never have been able to experience that love. And as for the girl who loves me now, well, we'll have to see if things work out for us, but I know she loves me and I love her.
- My family has been a royal pain in the ass and has hurt me pretty bad over this stuff, but they haven't gone anywhere. :P
- I've been hired several times now and done well at the jobs.
- I don't have any diseases. :)
- I hopefully won't die alone.
- Hell doesn't exist.
I cried so much over the past hour thinking about this. I never thought I'd have a beautiful life, I just figured that even if life was crappy, I was worth something. Who would have known I could be all that I am?
And of course you know that your Auntie Shan and others here love you too because we see these great winning qualities in you as well Caleb. Like the saying says, "You can't be optimistic if you have a misty optic!" Whiners don't have a sense of vision about who they are like you do because unfortunately they can't see past their own tears.
Season 3 of Once Upon a Time starts tonight.
@Caleb, Important taking stock of our lives, things we can do to make us a better person & and what is best about us. You are a hunk, in a career were your voice is heard to educate, a nice person with a lifetime ahead.
QuoteWho would have known I could be all that I am?
That is a keeper line!
You are a winner!
Hugs
Jamie
Quote from: Miss Bungle on September 28, 2013, 04:16:58 PM
This CDR I made of ripped audio from Youtube videos of music from the Tenchi Universe series (but I think a few others might be from other versions of Tenchi but I'm not sure.) It came out sounding really strong and with lots of POWA!! :D (Darkie would probably get that reference.) I normally don't do this sort of thing (being a person that usually buys the legit physical media) but anything I found was stuff on Youtube or VERY expensive import CD's from Japan. Due to other issues, I can't afford that and it's also from Amazon and I heard lots of sketchy stuff about them.
When I go work at Con Alt Delete I will see if I can find you a copy. If I can't there I'm pretty sure I can find it at ACEN.
Bungle, this is for you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3TP4iFVL3M (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3TP4iFVL3M)
Father has given me some change- probably 10 bucks worth at least, which means more money for my top surgery fund, which i desperately needed since my my Craigslist sales have been doing.
I did Rugged Maniac (http://www.ruggedmaniac.com/) today with my friend from work and two other girls. It was a lot of fun, and now we're going to do another mud race in October. (Proof in updated profile picture, I usually don't smile often)
:D
My second-born was visiting from college this weekend and I got to have lunch with them.
The series finale of Breaking Bad. MMmmmmmm...
I'm getting a lot better at crying. "Glee Therapy" works wonders! (I'm up to the wedding episode in Season 2 - which I watched this morning, though I could barely see the screen at times).
My brother got back from the royal show and got me a Krispy Kreme showbag(I paid for it.)
Quote from: dalebert on September 30, 2013, 07:49:58 AM
The series finale of Breaking Bad. MMmmmmmm...
Watched it, dark stuff but the moral of the story is that crime doesn't pay and look at all the lives that were destroyed! In a way I felt sorry for Walt, he originally wanted to be able to pay for his chemo but the love of money being the root of all evil, he was sucked into the adrenaline charged vortex of the drug culture and was for a moment in time not just a stogy middle aged sickly school teacher, he was "The Man!" Bet we'll see more of this once unknown actor in the future, he's made a name for himself.
Quote from: LearnedHand on September 29, 2013, 06:53:41 PM
I did Rugged Maniac (http://www.ruggedmaniac.com/) today with my friend from work and two other girls. It was a lot of fun, and now we're going to do another mud race in October. (Proof in updated profile picture, I usually don't smile often)
:D
Wow what a workout huh? Reminds me of a GI course from back when. That slide looks like a high speed muddy water enema in progress :D Smiling gives you face value Henry, love the photo!
Knowing that I have some form of hope for HRT :D
I discovered the makeup at tj max today. I got a Mac pallet for 9.99!
Quote from: Shantel on September 30, 2013, 09:00:38 AM
Watched it, dark stuff but the moral of the story is that crime doesn't pay and look at all the lives that were destroyed! In a way I felt sorry for Walt, he originally wanted to be able to pay for his chemo but the love of money being the root of all evil, he was sucked into the adrenaline charged vortex of the drug culture and was for a moment in time not just a stogy middle aged sickly school teacher, he was "The Man!" Bet we'll see more of this once unknown actor in the future, he's made a name for himself.
Unknown actor??? He's from Malcolm in the Middle.
Quote from: ثنائية بين الجنسين on September 30, 2013, 05:32:38 PM
Unknown actor??? He's from Malcolm in the Middle.
Never watched it, anyway he's not been a real star quality guy, but he's certainly made a big hit as "Walt!" I think we'll see him more often because of his strong emotion filled role in that series.
I was feeling all sorts of stressed and lonely and sad, and my friend came over and we watched some cat videos on youtube together. I'm glad i have a friend like that. :)
Seeing Buck Angel on Joe Rogan's podcast. It was interesting.
PAY DAY!
Time to do the shopping list.
Tried on a new bra and top today.......made me feel really feminine and sexy!!!
Ciara,
You go girl!
Elated over the Affordable Care Act (non-discriminitory clauses, especially...) I'm hoping for great things come Open Season on health care (no "no sex transformations" clause).
And if that weren't enough, my daughter's belated birthday copy of "The Little Mermaid" is coming today!
Also... ordered Toms in a more practical color (Gray, W12). They come tomorrow -- hopefully before I leave for therapy, but unlikely :( . Tomorrow I dress up at therapy! I have an outfit put together (but barely...) just no shoes.
Excluding trans related care IS legal under Affordable Health care Act. It is not legal to refuse you health care due to a pre existing condition.
What made me happy is PMing my BFF Gina! :)
Quote from: LordKAT on October 01, 2013, 02:55:18 PM
Excluding trans related care IS legal under Affordable Health care Act. It is not legal to refuse you health care due to a pre existing condition.
It's hard to find specific information, but the HHS mandate from 2012 apparently prohibits discrimination of transgender people in the Affordable Care Act. I can't find specific information, but it sounds as though it covers anything short of gender change surgery. This is for the health care chosen by employers. I don't think any of the HHS mandates on this have successfully been overturned, but there's too much in the news this week to tell for sure.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 01, 2013, 02:25:36 PM
Well, I am cautiously optimistic with the whole healthcare issue.
What are Toms?
I'm optimistic. If it's not this year, it may be the next.
Toms are shoes... they give one pair of shoes away for each pair purchased. http://www.toms.com
And they have size 12 (I'm probably closer to 11, but with wider feet).
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 01, 2013, 04:41:12 PM
I'm a size 9 wide. I was an 11 wide once I started wearing women's shoes but that is no longer the case. I usually buy Nike's. The only issue I have is that I have to go all the way to the outlet mall outside of town because none of the other shops carry wide sizes (why...I have no idea.) We went to the "outlet" of the same shoe store I checked out here in town and I found what I needed in 5 minutes. In contrast to that, I went to every stupid shop in my immediate area and found nothing that was worth crap. All of the shoes I found were too narrow or they were ugly as sin. I wish the buses ran out to that mall but they don't.
I've heard you can wear a size (or two) up and emulate a wide shoe with extra room in the toe. That's probably a good thing for some pointy women's shoes!
How did you go down two whole sizes?! How do I get some of that magic? I'd like to be a few inches shorter, too, please!! :D
Actually... my favorite young woman at the office is an inch shorter than me... unless she has a heel. Then she's way over my height.
EDIT: Right... happy things... "The Little Mermaid" is HERE!! Is it bad if I watch it tonight, myself, not this weekend with my daughter?
I finally got my student loan! I can afford my textbooks, pay for my son's day care, afford T, and I treated myself to some books.
Quote from: Edge on October 01, 2013, 08:20:27 PM
I finally got my student loan! I can afford my textbooks, pay for my son's day care, afford T, and I treated myself to some books.
Right On!!! :) Good on ya
Hugs
Quote from: Edge on October 01, 2013, 08:20:27 PM
I finally got my student loan! I can afford my textbooks, pay for my son's day care, afford T, and I treated myself to some books.
Awesome! :D
Signing up for college for medical assistance courses :police: :police:
Guess what I've just got? ;D
Very happy now.
No Devlyn, not depth perception but that would be good also!
J
Made a Craigslist sale of $6 and the guy gave me an extra 25 cents. I already put my $6.25 in my top surgery fund! I am EXTREMELY happy!
Quote from: Malachite on October 02, 2013, 09:38:57 AM
Made a Craigslist sale of $6 and the guy gave me an extra 25 cents. I already put my $6.25 in my top surgery fund! I am EXTREMELY happy!
:eusa_clap:
Quote from: Shantel on October 02, 2013, 09:43:32 AM
:eusa_clap:
Thanks! REALLY happy! Slowly getting there!
Quote from: Malachite on October 02, 2013, 09:56:24 AM
Thanks! REALLY happy! Slowly getting there!
Keep on keeping on, determination is 99% of the battle!
A frog came through my window screen and woke me up. I was terrified i caught it and asked myself what does it mean? I went online and the meaning of frog meant transformation. The symbolic meanings are luck, purity, rebirth, renewal, fertility, healing, transitions, dreaming, opportunity, intermediary, metamorphosis. Me finally developing my project, and finally deciding to make my transition from male to female. This came as a major blessing from the divine. I feel alive and know that I am suppose to make this transition.
Knowing our dear Sephira was safe and well.
Dressed up for the first time out (...well, at my therapists) - there must be a thread for those stories somewhere....
I also went to my brother's house for dinner and I made them my awesome salad.
Neither of them noticed the foundation I'd used to cover up my 0-o'clock shadow (sic). They did notice my track marks from laser were gone.... they're not completely (though almost... nearly 2 weeks now). The foundation concealed them well. I told my brother they were still there, lightly, and I covered them up :D
1 days dose of E down, only a lifetimes worth to go! ;D
My dog came and cuddled upto me while I was laying in bed feeling sorry for myself.
I will officially start T in a week.
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on October 03, 2013, 05:44:00 AM
My dog came and cuddled upto me while I was laying in bed feeling sorry for myself.
Aren't they just the best friends ever? My dog is sensitive to all of my moods, I think it is so unfair that their lifespan is so much shorter than our own, I will be crushed when my dog passes away, I love him so much!
Quote from: Edge on October 03, 2013, 08:45:48 AM
I will officially start T in a week.
Congrats Mr. Edge, your voice will change first off! :eusa_clap:
Thanks! No more chipmunk voice for me!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2okSis_wtls
I'll be happy when my babies get home from the vets.
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Annoyingly I cut my hair super short a fews before I realised I was trans to- get this- feel better about myself. Darn it!
I have been growing it out like mad and today it made it past my ears. Yes!! Well on its way to my intended Asymmetrical bob. Looking girly as hell when I brush it down but I can still boy mode with it back.
I feel on my way.
;D
Watching "The Little Mermaid" with my girls.
"Someday I'll be part of your world." (And that's exactly why this is my favorite princess).
Got my babies back! (girl has neckcone on)
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Quote from: Emmaline on October 03, 2013, 09:42:15 AM
Annoyingly I cut my hair super short a fews before I realised I was trans to- get this- feel better about myself. Darn it!
I have been growing it out like mad and today it made it past my ears. Yes!! Well on its way to my intended Asymmetrical bob. Looking girly as hell when I brush it down but I can still boy mode with it back.
I feel on my way.
;D
Ha! I did the exact same thing XD
I went totally shiny-bald. I have a lot of work to do, lol.
Congrats c:
Quote from: alexjrogers on October 03, 2013, 11:08:05 AM
Got my babies back! (girl has neckcone on)
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So cute!
I didn't have to go anywhere, and I found a twenty pound note that flew onto my feet.
It's a warm beautiful day out, the other people in my group decided to do our work outside so my son could run around and were very understanding, and my son was (mostly) well-behaved and very cute.
My love handles will be gone effective the 14th which will make my waist size and leg length about the same or within one number of each other, hasn't been like that since high school. I will be healed and styling for the holidays, yippee! :eusa_dance:
Quote from: Shantel on October 04, 2013, 09:28:34 AM
My love handles will be gone effective the 14th which will make my waist size and leg length about the same or within one number of each other, hasn't been like that since high school. I will be healed and styling for the holidays, yippee! :eusa_dance:
Awesome!!! My waist will never reach leg length, but I did order those Levi's 510 you told me about! Sure hope they fit (they
are my current pant size...). I'm a 38" waist... so just a bit big for a standard (standard... as if) women's size 16.
Quote from: kabit on October 04, 2013, 09:42:34 AM
Awesome!!! My waist will never reach leg length, but I did order those Levi's 510 you told me about! Sure hope they fit (they are my current pant size...). I'm a 38" waist... so just a bit big for a standard (standard... as if) women's size 16.
If they don't work for you send them back, but they should be fine. I don't carry a purse, just need pockets that will accommodate a thin wallet, money clip and car keys and I'm good. Don't need to pack all that extra unnecessary crap like some women lug around. ;D
Quote from: Shantel on October 04, 2013, 09:28:34 AM
My love handles will be gone effective the 14th which will make my waist size and leg length about the same or within one number of each other, hasn't been like that since high school. I will be healed and styling for the holidays, yippee! :eusa_dance:
That's great news, hon. *hugs*
Just remember though, when you're svelte to the point where have to substitute the handles for Velcro... it can chafe. ;)
Quote from: Sephirah on October 04, 2013, 10:39:43 AM
That's great news, hon. *hugs*
Just remember though, when you're svelte to the point where have to substitute the handles for Velcro... it can chafe. ;)
Hehehe riot! :D
Quote from: Shantel on October 04, 2013, 10:28:07 AM
If they don't work for you send them back, but they should be fine. I don't carry a purse, just need pockets that will accommodate a thin wallet, money clip and car keys and I'm good. Don't need to pack all that extra unnecessary crap like some women lug around. ;D
I just recently slimmed my wallet down to nearly nothing. Now I'm thinking I want a nice bag that will keep some of the things I need constantly (hairbrush, kindle, wallet, keys, etc)... bonus points if it's cute, girly, purple, etc. ;)
Quote from: kabit on October 04, 2013, 12:09:59 PM
I just recently slimmed my wallet down to nearly nothing. Now I'm thinking I want a nice bag that will keep some of the things I need constantly (hairbrush, kindle, wallet, keys, etc)... bonus points if it's cute, girly, purple, etc. ;)
Girly-girl type huh? :)
I'm still ingrained with that Ranger saying, "Travel light, freeze at night!" Kinda goofy now, but oh well!
Quote from: Shantel on October 04, 2013, 12:28:54 PM
Girly-girl type huh? :)
I honestly don't know. I think somewhere in the middle of the female spectrum, possibly biased toward male... but enough to want something cheap(-ish) and cute :D Too early for me to really know. My current bag cost about $80... and it's unisex / male (maxpedition jumbo (http://amzn.com/B001OA22T2)). I'd love a smaller, feminine version of it. I'm not a huge fan of hot pink (the only really girly color they've got). I'm looking at the Kavu items (http://amzn.com/B008H58BC4) for something like that. They probably won't last a lifetime... but who wants them to if there are new and different patterns?? (Plus that maxpedition bag is more than fine for a girl, too... for bigger trips).
Mail brought me the appointment for the doctor who diagnosed me. If I've understood correctly I'll get a letter for the second opinion appointment to another unit treating trans* people which will mean I'm one step closer to get my social security number changed! :)
I went to Gurdwara tonight since I know I can't go this Sunday and I couldn't make it the past two Sundays. So, after kirtan and eating langar this man named Sat Nam, who's super nice, came up to me and said "you haven't been here in two or three Sundays". I was surprised anyone noticed. Apparently, he remembered from one of our previous discussions that I was trying to learn the Gurmukhti and he's been bringing a book on it with him on Sundays to give to me.I thought that was really nice. :)
Quote from: Anna! on May 04, 2013, 09:18:04 PM
This actually happened a couple of days ago:
A girl I work with was looking for a band-aid. I remembered that I keep a first aid kit in my backpack, so I offered one up. She was surprised and commented "Not to sound sexist or anything, but I never figured the person with a band aid would be male". If only she knew ... :)
I have moments like that a lot. I'm so much more polite and less competitive than most guys that it gets noticed, and then idk how I feel. I mean, I shouldn't try to have my cake and eat it too, and I love showing that it IS possible for men to behave this way, but I got a pretty huge shortcut to awareness/gentleness by being raised in the opposite gender.
What made me happy today was that I purchased a bicycle. I've used them for fun and transport most of my life but for various reasons spent the last sixish years without.
I got this
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with black and white accents instead of silver.
I would've given my nonexistent left nut for really any non-kmart bike, but because I haven't maintained or repaired one in so long I decided it was best to get it from a bike shop rather than craigslist or a pawn shop. The guy sold it to me for 100 dollars less than MSRP and promised free maintenance for a year, and he gave me a discount on the kryptonite lock.
I don't have any bungee at the moment, and I don't want to shell out for panniers, so for groceries I attached a plastic kitty litter bucket to the rack on the left side, and I fastened the elastic from some dead pajamas to the back on each side so I can tie off a canvas grocery bag and stick it under that (looped twice and balanced) if I run out of room in my backpack and bucket.
I'm still waiting for my ebay frog lights or I'd go ride around a bit right now that Leah's asleep. It handles well and I've got smooth roads and good bike lanes nearby. My bike snob roommate is off bottling wine in the sticks, and I'm so glad he's not here with his judgement and cynicism. I like my bike. :)
I think it looks like a pretty cool bike Felix :) What kind is it?
Quote from: Joules on October 05, 2013, 11:24:57 AM
Finally, all my chest measurements are down by an inch this morning (@3 months on HRT). I think my shoulders look smaller too and I have had moments of feeling less strength. The weight is dropping but not fast enough.
You're making progress! It took time to put on and it takes time to take it off, stick with it Joules!
Hubby is gone for the day so I opened all the curtains so there is actually light in the house and I am currently cleaning while playing music and dancing like an idiot in my kitchen while I make food.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 05, 2013, 12:51:20 PM
Nice. Does he like to keep the curtains closed all the time? I know a few people that do that too. I can't sit in a room like that. I absolutely need to have the curtains open. It drives me bonkers sitting in a room with everything closed up.
Yea, we live in the kinda bad part of town and he is the kind of person that trusts no one, so we always have to keep the curtains closed. I have a serotonin imbalance so if I am in the dark all the time...
I went grocery shopping today and had to use the restroom. When I was washing my hands I noticed someone taped a brochure on the mirror. It said "smile, someone out there cares about you". Made me feel good.
So after half a week on E, I think I can feel the effects, hard to describe as it feels sort of funny.
This is making me feel so happy with life after all the years of waiting and being miserable.
They are definitely magic pills. :D
Went for a ride this morning, a beautiful day in Sydney, felt good with everything as well.
For the first time I can remember I have a smile on my face. :)
Now if only I could snicker like Cindy when she's happy.
Hee, Haw, drats! I will need more practice. :D
Finally getting to play GTA 5... Been waitin on this since nov. 2011! The most AMAZING game of all time... Period!
Quote from: Darkie on October 05, 2013, 12:46:56 PM
Hubby is gone for the day so I opened all the curtains so there is actually light in the house and I am currently cleaning while playing music and dancing like an idiot in my kitchen while I make food.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2UVsyVLLcE
I had memorized Green Eggs and Ham from when my kids were young. Devlyn helped me figure out that you can't forget it. Still call my daughter Samiami.
My favorite book to have read to me was The Pop-Up Mice of Mr. Brice.
I finished with my community responsabilities for the month (Cleaning the corridor and stairs), so I don't have to worry about that for the next four weeks. And now I'm Listening to Highest Hopes, Nightwish last compilation disc before things started to change before while I clean my place.
After that it's back to eyebrows tweezing, hair ironing, underwear washing, and as soon as I am ready, back to female living again starting tomorrow.
A stranger from the internet gave me $5.
Quote from: Liam Erik on October 05, 2013, 09:33:02 PM
I feel a heck of a lot better now than I did when I made that dour post in the unhappy thread (stupid hormones :P) so here I be.
My hydroponic fodder system has risen considerably in my estimation now that it has agreed to work as designed. It needs a good chunk of time commitment, but that's all right, the thing works. At last I have conquered it :icon_evil_laugh: The sheep love barley fodder. Imagine, if all that trouble and they didn't like it. :icon_hover-alien:
They'd all get a spanking?
Quote from: Shantel on October 06, 2013, 08:37:02 AM
They'd all get a spanking?
Of course they would need a spanking. They would all be in trouble to being picky and baaaaaaaaaad.
....
I couldn't help myself. I really couldn't.
For the first time in my life I have not had one negative thought all day.
I love this E.
J
I have a patch of about 20 or so hairs on the bottom of my chin. Yay, T! ;D
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I have a patch of about 20 or so hairs on the bottom of my chin. Yay, T! ;D
That's great news
Hope the ears don't get in the way.
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Quote from: Jenny07 on October 07, 2013, 04:36:03 AM
That's great news
Hope the ears don't get in the way.
LOL - that's quite a mental picture!
Quote from: FTMDiaries on October 07, 2013, 05:04:43 AM
LOL - that's quite a mental picture!
I am here thinking you've got bunny ears on... I'm like... ok, that's a strange comment... and nope, his profile pic isn't a rabbit or anything... and finally "hares" ... it took me
far too long to get to that point - I think I'm losing my mind! :D
:icon_omfg:
I'm glad you both got it.
This E is doing strange things to me. :D
Got myself four scooby doo animated movies and season one of arrow as a treat.
Yay for the site being back up!
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 07, 2013, 05:23:02 AM
I'm glad you both got it.
This E is doing strange things to me. :D
Now you got me thinking: perhaps I should name my patch of hares more appropriately. I notice that one of the collective nouns for hares is a 'down', which seems oddly fitting considering how soft & fluffy the surrounding hares are.
Yes. I like that. I now have a 'down of hares' on my chin. ;D
I'm glad you're having a good day as well, FTM. ;D
I love life at the moment which is very unusual for me. :)
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 07, 2013, 06:08:13 AM
I love life at the moment which is very unusual for me. :)
Hooray for HRT! :D
Quote from: FTMDiaries on October 07, 2013, 06:01:40 AM
Now you got me thinking: perhaps I should name my patch of hares more appropriately. I notice that one of the collective nouns for hares is a 'down', which seems oddly fitting considering how soft & fluffy the surrounding hares are.
Yes. I like that. I now have a 'down of hares' on my chin. ;D
That happens to be my favorite book... "Watership Down"
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 07, 2013, 05:23:02 AM
I'm glad you both got it.
This E is doing strange things to me. :D
Not having any is doing strange things to me! Though I should be used to it after being this way for 25 years or so.
<--- I entirely blame the bunny beside me for not understanding that at first.
The cool, elderly male cashier at M&S gendered me correctly at lunchtime... which made me feel a heck of a lot better about the fact that I was buying sanitary towels for myself. ;)
Looking at the finished theses of a few of my colleagues...it all came together rather nicely for them. Most of them are finishing in their third year as well, so I don't feel so bad either lol
Quote from: FTMDiaries on October 07, 2013, 08:19:01 AM
The cool, elderly male cashier at M&S gendered me correctly at lunchtime... which made me feel a heck of a lot better about the fact that I was buying sanitary towels for myself. ;)
that is a good start to the day
I'm going to reread the Silmarillion. I like Melkor. My chemistry teacher started telling us about the beginning of the Silmarillion in class. I like my teacher.
Speaking of fictional characters I like, I like and relate to a lot of them and all of them are people I think are cool. There's a point there somewhere.
I came out to one of my humanities teachers(I'm trying to come out to a few teachers before I go full time) and she took it really well.
And I'm going to pick up a book I've been really interested in reading so I'm pretty stoked about that.
The Dodgers beat the Braves to move on to the National League championship series.
Woo-hoo
I saw the Dodgers with a lead early in the game, then I spent the rest of the evening here catching up...thanks for the update. Yes, Dodgers!
Quote from: Joules on October 08, 2013, 03:55:06 AM
Drying off after my shower, one of my little blue balls fell off but I caught it before it went down the drain.
Wait, you thought what?????
I was talking about one of the posts in my ears....
Heee Heee
I thought you must have had a cold shower!
Got my wife a new wheelchair that seems a lot more comfortable.
Still enjoying my new life now only 6 days old. So much calmer and relaxed than the old me.
I love the way I am starting to feel from what it used to be like.
There will be no going back to the old me.
Life is wonderful, today at least.
Jen
I got the ball rolling on my AAs. I called my GP's office and said I want to change my BP med... I need an office visit for that and I have one sched in November (I could move it up, I suppose ;)). I also said I wanted to drop off a letter I wrote (which basically goes into how Spiro scripts work for transgender people - since my GP probably doesn't know).
I figure that if he has a problem monitoring this with me, it gives me some time to get a different appointment as needed . The first available for a trans-friendly GP was in February - and I have it scheduled, but need to know if I should be keeping that appointment or not... or if he'd like additional bloodwork before he scripts me for Spiro in November.
I also don't know if I need a therapist letter - my therapist said it wasn't needed for this... and I trust that, but I want to get all those ducks in a row! (My therapist *is* willing to write for me - he knows I'm not ready for E yet).
Two in a row! :o
I had a big fight with my parents this past weekend over my issues and how I'm treating the family, etc. They basically said I need to stop and turn it around (hey... that's what I heard) and support my family.
Today, I came home and my mother was watching the kids (she does that once a week, right now). I don't think she wanted to talk about it yet, but I followed her out and we talked in the garage. She explained her concerns in a non-attacking way, I understood all of them and said I'd thought about all of them (you know that drill... we think about what can, will, could happen more than anyone). I said I'm alone without support... that they're (and practically everyone is) concerned about my wife's pain, my kids' future, and their own pain without realizing it's painful for me too.
I'm not sure when the crying started, but toward the end. We hugged and I was practically sobbing. She was crying. I wonder if just seeing me cry was enough -- it was always so seldom. I don't know the last time anyone has seen that.
I have hope again.
Spent the whole day in my favorite leopard print robe, and just did my nails :D
I'm pretty happy about it!
Quote from: Jennygirl on October 08, 2013, 07:47:15 PM
Spent the whole day in my favorite leopard print robe, and just did my nails :D
I'm pretty happy about it!
That sounds really relaxing! I got purple leopard print jammies a few days ago :) They're awesome.
I also have a 3rd thing... what an amazing day it's been today!!! My Levi's (510 - men's super skinny) arrived and fit perfectly! I may even need a smaller waistband soon. Whoever suggested them (I'm never find the thread again) THANK YOU! I wonder if I dare try Women's size 16 Levi's (boot cut, probably).
Congrats on the new jeans :D
That is one of the best feelings ever!
Quote from: Jennygirl on October 08, 2013, 08:04:44 PM
Congrats on the new jeans :D
That is one of the best feelings ever!
Thanks!! It's just great to be able to fit... and I still have a lot to lose :D
The funny thing with the 510s... I was thinking - these aren't very low in the waist (as advertised)... guys probably don't tuck and pull them up tight against the crotch. LOL
I'm so happy right now I can barely contain it. I just sent out my coming out letter to my therapist so she will be able to look it over and know where I'm coming from when we meet for our first session. I can't wait for tomorrow afternoon to be here already so I can finally get things started :D
I have not cut my hair in well over a year. My kids are calling me a "hippie" because of my pony tail. LOL
Mother gave me $5 of the $9 she owed me so I put the $5 in my top surgery fund.
Facilitated a very successful workshop this morning. Had fifty school administrators engaged, collaborating effectively, and working productively.
My family had our inaugural 'Great British Cake Off' last night... which is where one of us buys cakes for us to eat whilst watching The Great British Bake Off.
Yum... Bake Off is even more fun when you're having a Cake Off at the same time. ;D
Quote from: Joules on October 08, 2013, 10:39:26 PM
I prob won't cut mine until the Spring, that's about a year for me as well, and then just a bit of styling. A ponytail is kind of my brass ring at the moment, I want to tie it back so it looks more just plain old hippie, at least for the time being.
My hair is getting longer... seems like it's growing quickly. Right now the longest hair comes to my earlobes.
At what point is it bad to not get it trimmed for even growth?
How do you care for your hair? I do co-only w/ the tiniest amount of shampoo once in a while to clear up oil.
Worked out this morning for about 10 minutes. It was a nice feeling.
I saved a pensioner 5p on his shopping at lunchtime by giving him some handy tips. It may not seem like much, but he seemed very grateful and he certainly needs the 5p more than the retailer does.
Also, I've won two free chocolate bars this week. Yay! Free chocolate! ;D
Quote from: Joules on October 09, 2013, 08:27:31 AM
I'm not the one to ask about hair care :P In my past life, it never concerned me, at least not outwardly so. As far as trimming, I had a girlfriend who insisted on trimming hers to keep split ends under control, but I don't get those.
I have a variety of shampoos, most recently I use a volumizing shampoo almost every day, then usually blow drying afterwards, then a baseball cap to get it in the habit of staying pulled back. I've done an oil treatment a few times but since I'm still in male mode for a while, I don't go too far with making my hair pretty. I do look forward to doing lots of other hair stuff in the future. I do really enjoy the times when I pamper my hair, it's much more fun now that it's getting soft.
I wonder if mine will get softer! I have pretty fine hair. Conditioner-only may be a major way of life for me on E (oil supposedly drops). My hair is hard to control unless it has a bit of natural oil. The only beauty parlor I've ever been to is "supercuts" ;)
On topic:
Yesterday was full of ups and downs... Lots of ups, but lots of painful things too. My wife was aiming for a messy divorce (she basically told me) and my mother I've mentioned. Both ended very well, considering. So overall I'm just in a happy mood. I'm wearing my new Levi's and people continue to comment on my weight loss. (YES ... something to explain some of the other changes away... focus on the weight loss)!
Basically, I'm just happy at being me... oh and therapy day (yay)!
Kabit, you might want to try a Macadamia oil mask conditioner (it's in a brown tub at cvs, riteaid. . .)
I am happy today because I went to supercuts to get my hair trimmed and the lady charged me the price for guys cuts instead of the higher priced girls cuts.
Quote from: LearnedHand on October 09, 2013, 09:57:02 AM
Kabit, you might want to try a Macadamia oil mask conditioner (it's in a brown tub at cvs, riteaid. . .)
Thanks! I'll look into it. I currently use organic lavender (w/ lavender oil) conditioner. I loooove lavender!!
They finally sent someone from the main office to help get some stuff done for our followup health inspection tomorrow. Now I feel like we are ready for it for the most part. I was worried this morning since they hadn't even called us to tell us when they were coming to do the few things that had to be done.
And my manager finally outright told me today that I was the assistant manager.
A friend took me to get my card working and paypal stopped its shenanigans so I am now a subscriber once again and half of Susan's!!
I came out to my therapist today. It was a huge relief to finally tell a it to someone in person. I am so happy that I finally made that first step.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,150239.msg1250083.html#msg1250083
My wife came in this afternoon while I was attempting to type an e-mail to a friend.She looked at it then commented that my long jean skirt with buttons was on crooked.I started laughing and she gave me a puzzled look like why are you laughing? I said at least you didn't tell me my fly was open. Then she busted and started laughing to. Acceptance is wonderful! She just came in to see what I am doing and show me the big red lipstick kiss mark on her cheek where I had kissed her earlier. Love is great!
@Megan, isn't it wonderful having you journey to now revealed to a medical professional! You should be more relaxed talking in the future appointments. So liberating.
@Buddy, besides having an accepting wife, it really helps that you can find the lighter side of transition & have a good laugh amongst yourselves. As our friend Aunty Shan says, your wife is a keeper.She sounds like an Angel, that is what I say about my wife. You are right, Love is Great!
Finally found Dead Silence and Sweeney Todd after months of searching, got them both on Blu-Ray and they were marked as 12.98 each but scanned through at 9.98 each.
I've been gendered as female while in the worst possible presentation: After the gym mode. guy's pirate pants, dude's old hoodie, back hair in a ponytail while front and side bangs falling everywhere, compression sports bra, and dude's running shoes. The only "cheat" was that I had shaved that morning and I always wear at least mascara and a bit of bear cover when I go to the gym. It happened in a stationery shop while buying a white board, but I was close to "Sorry, could you repeat it again?" I couldn't believe it.
All the way home with a stupid smile.
Quote from: Apple Sprout on October 10, 2013, 05:04:42 AM
I've been gendered as female while in the worst possible presentation: After the gym mode. guy's pirate pants, dude's old hoodie, back hair in a ponytail while front and side bangs falling everywhere, compression sports bra, and dude's running shoes. The only "cheat" was that I had shaved that morning and I always wear at least mascara and a bit of bear cover when I go to the gym. It happened in a stationery shop while buying a white board, but I was close to "Sorry, could you repeat it again?" I couldn't believe it.
All the way home with a stupid smile.
That's awesome! I love that us girls can still wear guys clothes... it expands my very limited female wardrobe considerably :D I can also wear those men's skinny Levi's as either gender.
Mine: Yesterday my therapist thought my new shirt went very well with my complexion (guess I'll be looking for more peachy pink and beige). He also was very surprised at the changes in my face and hair - he thought I'd gotten a haircut. I think I'll be sticking with co-only washing and my current hair style (which isn't much... but it has gotten longer in the last 2 months). My only makeup yesterday was mascara - which is a royal pain to figure out... one touch on the lid and it's almost impossible to fix. (Note to self... need carbon black mascara and eyeliner - also, try note cards to protect the lid and brow).
And today... just after I posted the last one.
I am now 198.6 (dropped 2 lbs since yesterday). I knew it was going to be a good one when I weight myself in the evening and was lighter than that morning (never, ever happens).
I'll probably be up a little tomorrow, but that's just how this works. The best part is that I'll almost definitely still be under 200 lbs regardless of what happens today! (My goal: 170-190... 180 or less is probably perfect for me).
Virginia getting me access to the subscriber benefits and I didn't even ask. Thanks Dear lady!
Quote from: kabit on October 10, 2013, 07:27:01 AM
And today... just after I posted the last one.
I am now 198.6 (dropped 2 lbs since yesterday). I knew it was going to be a good one when I weight myself in the evening and was lighter than that morning (never, ever happens).
I'll probably be up a little tomorrow, but that's just how this works. The best part is that I'll almost definitely still be under 200 lbs regardless of what happens today! (My goal: 170-190... 180 or less is probably perfect for me).
:eusa_clap:
I beat the worst of the high tide home. Tomorrow should be better, should be no water at all to drive through and hopefully no detour around croaker to miss the worst of it.
I know I say this a lot, but it is the source of most of my happiness and it affects me almost every day. I know who I am and I think who I am is awesome.
Also, (spoilers) I saw a thing for Thor 2 during which Loki kicked Thor in the face. I am very much looking forward to this movie. The Hobbit is coming out soon too.
I've been listening to some new (to me) songs that I really like.
Quote from: anymouse on October 10, 2013, 03:02:47 PM
I beat the worst of the high tide home. Tomorrow should be better, should be no water at all to drive through and hopefully no detour around croaker to miss the worst of it.
Do you need to have your house raised a bit?
Quote from: Shantel on October 10, 2013, 06:21:57 PM
Do you need to have your house raised a bit?
No, my house is dandy and was actually elevated(around 4 more feet) and rebuilt/remodeled after Isabel in '03 due to being heavily damaged by flooding. But the roads between me and anywhere other than my immediate neighborhood can flood at times due to tide, rain and wind. I live in an area that is right between a sound and a bay, so there is only one way out. The issue should be over in another day or two or three maybe. I just don't like having to drive through that much salt water with my car. Its a pain to have to rinse the wheels and brakes to keep things from rusting too bad.
Quote from: anymouse on October 10, 2013, 06:31:50 PM
No, my house is dandy and was actually elevated(around 4 more feet) and rebuilt/remodeled after Isabel in '03 due to being heavily damaged by flooding. But the roads between me and anywhere other than my immediate neighborhood can flood at times due to tide, rain and wind. I live in an area that is right between a sound and a bay, so there is only one way out. The issue should be over in another day or two or three maybe. I just don't like having to drive through that much salt water with my car. Its a pain to have to rinse the wheels and brakes to keep things from rusting too bad.
Oh, gotcha! Sounds like a case for a good steam cleaning and undercoat job! I'd never buy a car that was driven in the mid-west, they always load the roads with rocksalt that causes autobody cancer in just a few years.
Quote from: Shantel on October 10, 2013, 06:46:53 PM
Oh, gotcha! Sounds like a case for a good steam cleaning and undercoat job! I'd never buy a car that was driven in the mid-west, they always load the roads with rocksalt that causes autobody cancer in just a few years.
Actually, messing with vehicles and RVs that drive the beach, undercoating is about the worst thing you can do to try and prevent salt damage. Invariably cracks appear in it and salt will find its way under it and rust out before you know it. Better to have bare or just lightly painted metal and if it starts rusting, spray fluid film(a lanolin based protectant) all under it. The RV we've used on the banks has been over there in the sand and salt every year since 1993 and still has a strong frame under it and its been sprayed once or twice a year depending on how much it was used. And lanolin isn't going to hurt the environment, you even thin it with regular vegetable oil to spray it.
Quote from: anymouse on October 10, 2013, 06:54:51 PM
Actually, messing with vehicles and RVs that drive the beach, undercoating is about the worst thing you can do to try and prevent salt damage. Invariably cracks appear in it and salt will find its way under it and rust out before you know it. Better to have bare or just lightly painted metal and if it starts rusting, spray fluid film(a lanolin based protectant) all under it. The RV we've used on the banks has been over there in the sand and salt every year since 1993 and still has a strong frame under it and its been sprayed once or twice a year depending on how much it was used. And lanolin isn't going to hurt the environment, you even thin it with regular vegetable oil to spray it.
You are a veritable encyclopedia of information lady, ;D what do I know anyway? Thanks!
Took my microwave in to be fixed (number 3 don't ask but no fire brigade this time) and the woman at the counter just asked for my car keys as she asked for one of the guys to get this ladies microwave from her car.
That's a shame no fire brigade, perhaps next time. I'm sure that would make you happy! :D
I can feel the first effects of E starting. DD's overnight? Perhaps not yet but they will come.
So happy.
It's very minor, but this. A little gender affirmation.
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Quote from: Jenny07 on October 11, 2013, 04:32:42 AM
That's a shame no fire brigade, perhaps next time. I'm sure that would make you happy! :D
I can feel the first effects of E starting. DD's overnight? Perhaps not yet but they will come.
So happy.
Congrats!! :D I'm only a little jealous - and it's my biggest curiosity right now!
Quote from: Luke Andrew on October 11, 2013, 04:50:17 AM
It's very minor, but this. A little gender affirmation.
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Awesome! You're the alpha man! :D
Quote from: Luke Andrew on October 11, 2013, 04:50:17 AM
It's very minor, but this. A little gender affirmation.
Well, Somebody I can mail my AXE boxers to. Got them the last time I ever bought men's deodorant, can't even look at them...
Wow wow wow, What a MORNING. With capital letters, indeed.
- For starters, it's my fifth consecutive day without reverting to male, and if I reach the psychological barrier of a week, It will be the beggining of my full time.
- After going out, I meet with my BFF (basically my mentor, basically for coffee and chocolate cake) first time I have cake in god knows how many months.
- I was referred as female in the street. Good!
- It was freezing this morning. On the good side no sweating, but I had to accept that I needed a coat. My last one was bought in 2009 and the men's odor won't leave unless I use a flamethrower. So we went shopping After trying several shops, I got this one:
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I wanted to take a photo of it on myself, but lightning here sucks... :(
- So well, we go ouw ways, and when I get home I find my next door neighbour, and he asks me to which floor I was going.
He did not recognise me! I wonder how his face looked when he saw me opening my door. Of course, he has seen me only once or twice in 6 months, so he may think I am the girlfriend.
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Today's aspect
But overall, so sweet. A great cold dry morning (I've been waiting for this weather a long time), and a kickass coat. I even found a good way of covering my adam's apple without sweating like a hog with the foulards.
Quote from: Apple Sprout on October 11, 2013, 07:19:43 AM
Wow wow wow, What a MORNING. With capital letters, indeed.
- For starters, it's my fifth consecutive day without reverting to male, and if I reach the psychological barrier of a week, It will be the beggining of my full time.
- I was referred as female in the street. Good!
And why not? By all outward appearances you are ready, there is nothing there that screams man!
Quote from: Apple Sprout on October 11, 2013, 07:19:43 AM
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Today's aspect
But overall, so sweet.
Yes absolutely totally sweet Sprout, go for it lady!
It's stupid because I've been passing as male/living add male as I can for years, but going to the shop and buying some mens deodorant and shaving gel made me so happy just now. I've brought it before but never at a checkout that wasn't self service. And I've had two days of not crying in the shower.
Quote from: AlexanderC on October 11, 2013, 01:39:22 PM
It's stupid because I've been passing as male/living add male as I can for years, but going to the shop and buying some mens deodorant and shaving gel made me so happy just now. I've brought it before but never at a checkout that wasn't self service. And I've had two days of not crying in the shower.
Being happy should eventually be a long term condition for you Alexander, being stupid would only be true if continually passing you felt that you weren't. We all do that to ourselves though, I still cry in the shower too hon, because only you and God know about it and it's safe. Congrats on you're progress!
I had a cry in the shower today too... I was feeling angry and sad at the unfairness of my history. My father always used to say "life isn't fair" whenever I thought something wasn't fair. Now I think that's about the worst philosophy. Something not fair? What are you going to do to fix it?
...but that's not what I'm here to talk about!!!
I'm just absolutely elated right now. I had my 2nd Laser appointment and came out of it just filled with joy! (See the "Hair Removal" forum - I posted about it there).
Then when I came home, my wife had a headache. I gave her a head & back rub and we talked a bit about real things that directly relate to my gender change. She's had laser... we compared notes there (my upper lip doesn't hurt a bit - she said she would just about jump out of the chair). We talked about BP meds and I talked a little about Spiro (she works in pharmacy and knows exactly what that is). I think she's beginning to accept who I am -- not that it's going to help us get through this together... but at least I see hope of her being a friend again. That part is bittersweet.
Mainly, though... my happiness is from the laser. It's such an amazing feeling and my neck should be nearly bare in 2 weeks!! The savings in shaving alone!!!!!
I subscribed last night to Susan's... and the lovely Sephirah updated my icon today. :)
Quote from: kabit on October 11, 2013, 04:24:44 PM
Mainly, though... my happiness is from the laser. It's such an amazing feeling and my neck should be nearly bare in 2 weeks!! The savings in shaving alone!!!!!
Growing hair out of one's face always seemed like such an odd plan to me. When I go off into the great beyond I wast to respectfully tell the Big Kahuna on what a dumb idea it was. My butt will be no doubt smokin! ;D :D :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on October 11, 2013, 06:04:56 PM
Growing hair out of one's face always seemed like such an odd plan to me. When I go off into the great beyond I wast to respectfully tell the Big Kahuna on what a dumb idea it was. My butt will be no doubt smokin! ;D :D :laugh:
Shoot... not just the facial hair, but the body hair too! I mean... maybe it all served a purpose once (but why the gender dimorphism?)... but come on!
This should be a thread, but:
Top forms of dysphoria for Tarah:
1. Boobs (Lack of)
2. Body & Facial Hair (way, way too much of)
3. Extra parts in the pants (3 too many)
Quote from: kabit on October 11, 2013, 06:09:14 PM
Shoot... not just the facial hair, but the body hair too! I mean... maybe it all served a purpose once (but why the gender dimorphism?)... but come on!
This should be a thread, but:
Top forms of dysphoria for Tarah:
1. Boobs (Lack of)
2. Body & Facial Hair (way, way too much of)
3. Extra parts in the pants (3 too many)
Ok I'll bring that up too! "Oh btw Big Kahuna your greatness, Kabit said...." :D ;D :laugh:
Quote from: Shantel on October 11, 2013, 06:16:20 PM
Ok I'll bring that up too! "Oh btw Big Kahuna your greatness, Kabit said...." :D ;D :laugh:
No problem, Shan! S/he and I are cool... it's their followers that I sometimes have a problem with. LOL
Quote from: kabit on October 11, 2013, 06:20:44 PM
No problem, Shan! S/he and I are cool... it's their followers that I sometimes have a problem with. LOL
I am one of those! :) I did see a T shirt in a Lesbian run shop that I almost bought once that said "I like Jesus, it's just some of His followers that are so annoying" I had to agree.
Another positive thing today, I told one of my friends here about being trans. Or rather I came in in a bad mood and she asked me what was up, and eventually I asked her how you make a doctor's appointment. In the end the whole thing came out and she said she'd known for a while because of my mannerisms, which is slightly worrying as I'm supposed to be "female" here, but very reaffirming at the same time. It all went well and she's going to call the GP to get an appointment on Monday if I don't dare to do it myself.
My family supports me. Completely. They accept me. My 15 year old cousin and 13 year old cousin call me he and accept me as their brother (cause we were raised together and are basically siblings) and their parents will love me no matter what and adapt to callin me he. I love them all. They're so great.
Joining here made me happy. I've only been here a few hours, but you all are so great!
Went to Deaf Coffee chat binded. Didn't have to speak. AT ALL. Didn't use my voice for over 3 hours. Just signed and made friends. It was great.
I have a confirmed appointment for starting on DepoProvera. Hopefully that will fix having to deal with shark week.
Im home alone, wearing a really nice pink dress, a little eye pencil and lipstick. I feel pretty, I feel sexy and I feel so happy. I love being feminine. I wish I could wear bra and panties always.
I love being a girl.
I hope this doesn't sound childish but it just makes me happy!!!
Ciara good for you.
I am also feeling something similar myself and love looking feminine though bit hard currently, I never really cross dressed but went shopping last week for some basic items.
Scary as heck but so much better than shopping for men's clothes, Now on E, I find a padded bra makes a huge difference protecting the first signs, ouch. Other items just feel so much more normal than having to go everyday in drag as a man all these years. Dressed like this feels so right. So far it is only at home but the day will come when will be FT.
The first week and half of E have only reaffirmed what I always knew and tried to hide from for so long.
It makes me so happy just like you Ciara.
Small steps.
J
Hi Jenny,
Its great that you are feeling happy too. Isn't it so much nicer to dress as a girl should instead of being in drag.
Its great to hear you have started E. I hope it will make a big difference for you.
Stay happy.
Ciara
Jenny & Ciara,
Very happy for both of you! Also, and take this what ever way you like, a German friend once jokingly asked me what was the difference between a crossdresser and a transsexual? Her answer, "about two years!"
Probably not always true but.... ;)
Hugs
Donna
Quote from: Ciara on October 12, 2013, 04:47:11 AM
Im home alone, wearing a really nice pink dress, a little eye pencil and lipstick. I feel pretty, I feel sexy and I feel so happy. I love being feminine. I wish I could wear bra and panties always.
I love being a girl.
I hope this doesn't sound childish but it just makes me happy!!!
There is a child in all of us and it shows once we begin transition, you're sure not all alone in that respect hon. Enjoy your life!
My daughter came to visit today and is bringing me my car. Freedom!!!
Quote from: LordKAT on October 12, 2013, 11:30:19 AM
My daughter came to visit today and is bringing me my car. Freedom!!!
You have recovered and are going home?
Quote from: Shantel on October 12, 2013, 11:38:06 AM
You have recovered and are going home?
Sadly, not yet, I'm still living in a rehab center type place. I can sign myself out for hours at a time if I want though and look forward to shopping for my own deodorant instead of being stuck with what the hospital gave me. I can even get to the library now.
Pretty dumb, really, but this made me happy. And gave me goosebumps. Short lived, probably, but I dun care:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjxTTjJtXDA
I'm not the world's biggest fan of musical stage performance, in all honesty, but I find this to be utterly fantastic. And would SO love to see something like this live one day. It's just energising and... I don't know. It made me happy. I used to have the OST of this, and loved it immensely, but I lost the CD at some time. I may have to get it again.
Crying buckets for the Glee Season 2 Funeral episode...
who'd have thought it was possible with the T in me. ;)
Today started out shaky. I had a nightmare that I woke up crying from. But, later on, I went to Walmart and baught a bigger purse, some hard candies, chocolate ice cream, chocolate covered coconut Oreo's and a t shirt withAriel, from the Little Mermaid on it. In sparkly red print it says, "Go ahead. Kiss the girl."
And I chatted with Caleb. He is a sweetheart. ^_^
Just did some counting and it seems this is my 74th day without smoking. ;)
And they say one can't go cold turkey without failing, hah.
Quote from: Keaira Raine on October 13, 2013, 03:25:47 AM
Today started out shaky. I had a nightmare that I woke up crying from. But, later on, I went to Walmart and baught a bigger purse, some hard candies, chocolate ice cream, chocolate covered coconut Oreo's and a t shirt withAriel, from the Little Mermaid on it. In sparkly red print it says, "Go ahead. Kiss the girl."
And I chatted with Caleb. He is a sweetheart. ^_^
I've been wanting an Ariel tee! She's my favorite princess... she wants to be something she isn't :D
I took my dog for a walk this morning when suddenly 4 deer ran out just feet in front of us to cross the road. Good thing I keep her on leash.
Despite coming out to my mom and making her feel sad, she surprised me with a big surprise birthday party with over 30 people, family and friends. I felt moments of sadness, and I was happy at the same time.
Quote from: Tossu-sama on October 13, 2013, 06:18:02 AM
Just did some counting and it seems this is my 74th day without smoking. ;)
And they say one can't go cold turkey without failing, hah.
That's terrific, stick with it you are winning!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwT0nURNAcw (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwT0nURNAcw)
Went out with my parents & kids. Everyone acted normally! There was a bit of tension, (I think... I felt it), but I still count that as a huge win! I was also invited for Thanksgiving & Christmas at their house... which is good (though we usually do Christmas breakfast here with everyone . . . so that's a change - but nothing terrible).
We're going to have to work it out with my 2bx-wife's side of the family too, and that may mean splitting up for some things, but at least it's something.
Two big, big worries lightened from my mind.
I'm happy because everyone is finding what minimal support I give them, even if it is just a smile, to be extremely helpful :)
Quote from: Willow on October 13, 2013, 12:19:58 PM
I'm happy because everyone is finding what minimal support I give them, even if it is just a smile, to be extremely helpful :)
That's because you're more helpful/insightful than you think. ;)
Amy
I was a bit nervous about going to Thanksgiving, because my aunt who still wants to call me by my birth name and hasn't told her kids (so my cousins) about me is going to be there...anyway, my mom came downstairs and the conversation went something like this:
Mom: So are you coming today?
Me: Um...I don't know...I assumed I was expected to
Mom: Well, I don't want you to be uncomfortable. You don't have to feel like you have to come. If you don't, I can get some turkey and we can have a Thanksgiving dinner at home tomorrow. I've been thinking about this a lot anyway lately. Today I want to talk to her about all of this and see if we can have it resolved by Christmas. Because she really shouldn't be calling you "birth name."
Me: Well, it does look a little silly at this point to call someone who looks male by such a girly name.
Mom: That's not even the issue though, even if you looked more feminine, it's still too late in the process to pretend that you're still "her."
Me: I guess
Mom: I'm going to talk to her today, I'm going to tell her that if she doesn't want to tell her kids and start using the new name, that I will still see her and I won't abandon her, but that when it comes to family dinners, I will visit with everyone earlier in the day, and then we will have your other set of grandparents over at our house for dinner instead on Christmas.
My mommy loves me. :'( lol. The fact that she said "even if you looked more feminine we shouldn't call you by your old name" shows me that she's really working at understanding it.
That just goes to show you people. :P Keep your head high and eventually they will have to come around, if they love you.
Made a Spirit Bracelet for Spirit Day (http://www.glaad.org/spiritday). Dare I wear it to work on the 17th, though?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FFBsewpR.jpg&hash=f0e3c549491e95f0f059a0748f4ce34c57edae94) (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FEGCKI0y.jpg&hash=f69b6d611aea044196dacabde7d3561943e71a92)
@Caleb, your Mom has really come around, you are right she loves you. Brilliant and heart warming! You must be celebrating Thanksgiving early because Americans have it in the third week of November, right. We Canadians have Thanksgiving this weekend.
Cheers!
Jamie
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 03:45:42 PMMade a Spirit Bracelet for Spirit Day (http://www.glaad.org/spiritday). Dare I wear it to work on the 17th, though?
[imagesnip]
Either I have to find my one purple T shirt, or buy a new one.
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 03:45:42 PM
Made a Spirit Bracelet for Spirit Day (http://www.glaad.org/spiritday). Dare I wear it to work on the 17th, though?
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FFBsewpR.jpg&hash=f0e3c549491e95f0f059a0748f4ce34c57edae94) (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FEGCKI0y.jpg&hash=f69b6d611aea044196dacabde7d3561943e71a92)
Oooh, I should make something to wear for that.
Quote from: Willow on October 13, 2013, 04:02:10 PM
Either I have to find my one purple T shirt, or buy a new one.
For it being my favorite color... I had nothing purple to wear. Well... some maroon... and a purple tie that I haven't worn yet (I'm sure I'll have a chance to before I'm full time).
May go buy a purple sweatshirt or something.
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 04:20:31 PMFor it being my favorite color... I had nothing purple to wear. Well... some maroon... and a purple tie that I haven't worn yet (I'm sure I'll have a chance to before I'm full time).
May go buy a purple sweatshirt or something.
I wish it was just plain purple though. It was from my Spanish club in high school, and it had a llama asking "¿Cómo te llamas?" on it. So cheesy!
Quote from: Willow on October 13, 2013, 05:04:45 PM
I wish it was just plain purple though. It was from my Spanish club in high school, and it had a llama asking "¿Cómo te llamas?" on it. So cheesy!
No... that's AWESOME :D I had to look it up, though... Je m'appelle Tarah (living near Quebec we had French).
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 05:11:47 PMNo... that's AWESOME :D I had to look it up, though... Je m'appelle Tarah (living near Quebec we had French).
Well, je parle français aussi :p
Pickwd thay up living in Belgium for two years.
If I end up finding it and wearing it thurdsay I'll make that my before pic, just for you :p
Quote from: Willow on October 13, 2013, 05:29:02 PM
Well, je parle français aussi :p
Pickwd thay up living in Belgium for two years.
If I end up finding it and wearing it thurdsay I'll make that my before pic, just for you :p
I'm looking forward to it!!
I had 5 years of French. I can't speak any French. I also speak no Japanese or German. I love learning languages and I'm terrible at it, though I've picked up various phrases, words, and kanji and my pronunciation tends to be excellent. Unfortunately my favorite story is audible (we were looking for a McDonald's in Taiwan - I was able to ask for directions correctly). I also asked for directions well enough in Japan that an old lady started talking rapidly to me in Japanese... she ended up showing me the way (I was 1 block off).
I love how if anyone I know saw some of these anecdotes I'd be almost instantly outed... :D Good thing they don't visit transgender support sites. (Really, I mean: "too bad they don't visit...")
Quote from: Jamiep on October 13, 2013, 04:00:28 PM
@Caleb, your Mom has really come around, you are right she loves you. Brilliant and heart warming! You must be celebrating Thanksgiving early because Americans have it in the third week of November, right. We Canadians have Thanksgiving this weekend.
Cheers!
Jamie
Thanks Jamie. :) And no, it's not early for me because I am Canadian.
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 05:42:37 PMI'm looking forward to it!!
I had 5 years of French. I can't speak any French. I also speak no Japanese or German. I love learning languages and I'm terrible at it, though I've picked up various phrases, words, and kanji and my pronunciation tends to be excellent. Unfortunately my favorite story is audible (we were looking for a McDonald's in Taiwan - I was able to ask for directions correctly). I also asked for directions well enough in Japan that an old lady started talking rapidly to me in Japanese... she ended up showing me the way (I was 1 block off).
I love how if anyone I know saw some of these anecdotes I'd be almost instantly outed... :D Good thing they don't visit transgender support sites. (Really, I mean: "too bad they don't visit...")
I bought an app for learning Japanese as the first thing I ever bought of the iTunes store. I used it a lot the first year I had it, but then kind of forgot about it when iTunes wiped my iTouch when I got my own laptop about a year after that, so it ended up in oblivion. I only remember how to say Kitchen, dog, cat, and baseball, and how to introduce myself and say where I'm from. I'm much better with romance languages. I speak French and Spanish, and have an understanding of Italian, Portuguese, Catalan, and even Romanian.
Quote from: Willow on October 13, 2013, 07:37:55 PM
I bought an app for learning Japanese as the first thing I ever bought of the iTunes store. I used it a lot the first year I had it, but then kind of forgot about it when iTunes wiped my iTouch when I got my own laptop about a year after that, so it ended up in oblivion. I only remember how to say Kitchen, dog, cat, and baseball, and how to introduce myself and say where I'm from. I'm much better with romance languages. I speak French and Spanish, and have an understanding of Italian, Portuguese, Catalan, and even Romanian.
(A looong time ago) I was visiting Taiwan for work and attempted Chinese for a while (Pimsleur). It didn't work - they just can't understand me. I can repeat back a pronunciation perfectly right after I hear it, but I couldn't figure out how to read a pronunciation from the travel books.
Japan I visited on my own (on the way home from Taiwan). I used to play "go" (a board game from ancient China and Japan) so I was learning Japanese for that. I got to know a decent amount and could do business stuff (asking for directions, etc) and read from a travel phrasebook. From all the Go books I learned a decent amount of Japanese characters (which *did* help in China). Japanese is a pretty logical language - at least on the surface.
As an aside, I think there was a proud & out trans woman who played go and interacted on those forums w/ me... I wonder where she is now.
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 12:15:58 PM
Went out with my parents & kids. Everyone acted normally! There was a bit of tension, (I think... I felt it), but I still count that as a huge win! I was also invited for Thanksgiving & Christmas at their house... which is good (though we usually do Christmas breakfast here with everyone . . . so that's a change - but nothing terrible).
We're going to have to work it out with my 2bx-wife's side of the family too, and that may mean splitting up for some things, but at least it's something.
Two big, big worries lightened from my mind.
Its a big win for you.hopefully things will work out for you with wifes side of family.
Quote from: caleb. on October 13, 2013, 02:52:08 PM
My mommy loves me. :'( lol. The fact that she said "even if you looked more feminine we shouldn't call you by your old name" shows me that she's really working at understanding it.
That just goes to show you people. :P Keep your head high and eventually they will have to come around, if they love you.
She does, how totally cool is that! huh?
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 07:45:03 PM
(A looong time ago) I was visiting Taiwan for work and attempted Chinese for a while (Pimsleur). It didn't work - they just can't understand me. I can repeat back a pronunciation perfectly right after I hear it, but I couldn't figure out how to read a pronunciation from the travel books.
Japan I visited on my own (on the way home from Taiwan). I used to play "go" (a board game from ancient China and Japan) so I was learning Japanese for that. I got to know a decent amount and could do business stuff (asking for directions, etc) and read from a travel phrasebook. From all the Go books I learned a decent amount of Japanese characters (which *did* help in China). Japanese is a pretty logical language - at least on the surface.
As an aside, I think there was a proud & out trans woman who played go and interacted on those forums w/ me... I wonder where she is now.
Actually when I first saw your name I thought of Tenchi Myuo right off the bat. Because Ryuo-oki is a Cabbit. Which is a Cat and a Rabbit.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 13, 2013, 09:18:35 PM
You weren't the only one that thought that. :D
Hehe. Btw, did I tell you the Beaver is in a anime-inspired show?
Yay! Go Patriots! http://www.cbssports.com/nfl/gametracker/recap/NFL_20131013_NO@NE/patriots-stun-saints-on-td-with-five-seconds-left
$1.53
@Caleb, somehow I thought you lived in the states. Are you a transplanted Canadian? I didn't realize you are Canadian. Where did you live or are living if okay to ask?
Quote from: Jamiep on October 13, 2013, 10:12:30 PM
@Caleb, somehow I thought you lived in the states. Are you a transplanted Canadian? I didn't realize you are Canadian. Where did you live or are living if okay to ask?
I'm forever surprised by the size of our Canadian contingent
Quote from: Princess of Oblique Muffin Tops with a Death Ray on October 13, 2013, 10:25:33 PMI'm forever surprised by the size of our Canadian contingent
I consider myself at least an honorary Canuck due to hearing this on the Canadian radio (only good music up in the eastern UP of Michigan):
"Mayhem in Canada! Two people have crashed their carts together in Canadian Tire, and can't stop saying sorry!"
And thinking that this sounded like me, reaffirmed by one of my Calgarian friends.
Quote from: Willow on October 13, 2013, 10:30:04 PM
I consider myself at least an honorary Canuck due to hearing this on the Canadian radio (only good music up in the eastern UP of Michigan):
"Mayhem in Canada! Two people have crashed their carts together in Canadian Tire, and can't stop saying sorry!"
And thinking that this sounded like me, reaffirmed by one of my Calgarian friends.
All youpies are honourary canucks, IMHO.
Quote from: Princess of Oblique Muffin Tops with a Death Ray on October 13, 2013, 10:32:36 PMAll youpies are honourary canucks, IMHO.
I'm only a fake Yooper. Dad is, mom is not, and I was born in California while my dad was (and still is) in the military. My first time living in Michigan started 6 weeks ago when I moved in at State.
It's not what only made me happy but elated to be alive for what feels like the first time. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,150239.msg1253817.html#msg1253817
Such strong emotions, and you totally deserve them. I'm so happy for you, I'm tearing up.
Quote from: kabit on October 13, 2013, 07:45:03 PM
(A looong time ago) I was visiting Taiwan for work and attempted Chinese for a while (Pimsleur). It didn't work - they just can't understand me. I can repeat back a pronunciation perfectly right after I hear it, but I couldn't figure out how to read a pronunciation from the travel books.
Japan I visited on my own (on the way home from Taiwan). I used to play "go" (a board game from ancient China and Japan) so I was learning Japanese for that. I got to know a decent amount and could do business stuff (asking for directions, etc) and read from a travel phrasebook. From all the Go books I learned a decent amount of Japanese characters (which *did* help in China). Japanese is a pretty logical language - at least on the surface.
As an aside, I think there was a proud & out trans woman who played go and interacted on those forums w/ me... I wonder where she is now.
I learned German before I ever learned English. Then I had to take French in high school. Later on, I crammed a 6 week Japanese course into 3 weeks and passed. Communication doesnt seem to be too hard for me.:p
Looking in the mirror, I am pretty certain I have the face shape now to be able to pull off the Major Motoko Kusanagi hairstyle. Which I have always wanted. Or Ramona Flowers from Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World. :)
Quote from: Megan on October 14, 2013, 12:48:24 AM
It's not what only made me happy but elated to be alive for what feels like the first time. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,150239.msg1253817.html#msg1253817
One giant step for Megan! :eusa_clap:
Lately I get to spend more time being feminine, being me. This makes me feel very comfortable with myself. It makes me happy. Even if I must revert to drag I am really comforted by my self acceptance.
I love my gender, I love being a girl.
Thank you all for listening.
Ciara.
Quote from: Ciara on October 14, 2013, 08:03:45 AM
Lately I get to spend more time being feminine, being me. This makes me feel very comfortable with myself. It makes me happy. Even if I must revert to drag I am really comforted by my self acceptance.
I love my gender, I love being a girl.
Thank you all for listening.
Ciara.
What a wonderful place to be! Congrats!
Got my tickets, I'm seeing Korn and Rob Zombie on November 9th. So excited I can't wait!!!!
just a little comment by a friend that means a lot to me.
i'm not out to anybody yet and i dont try to pass, but my normal behaviour is masculine enough for my friends to make funny statements about the possibility of me being male, and i value them a lot.
today there was a school concert and we went to watch it. as it was the school show we got up in the last item and started dancing to it and cheering as if it was a musical show. i've mentioned earlier that i get very diasphoric on dance floors, but it gets better when my friends are around, for the above reason.
so today it went well and i had fun, and on our way back to the class a friend who was not nearby to where we were dancing tapped me and teased me, 'so you danced with all the girls huh' i don't know if my translation got the right tone across, but she said it as if to a hot guy who'd get all the girls on the dance floor to dance with him. a tiny comment, yet it made my day!
Quote from: YBtheOutlaw on October 14, 2013, 03:56:33 PM
just a little comment by a friend that means a lot to me.
i'm not out to anybody yet and i dont try to pass, but my normal behaviour is masculine enough for my friends to make funny statements about the possibility of me being male, and i value them a lot.
today there was a school concert and we went to watch it. as it was the school show we got up in the last item and started dancing to it and cheering as if it was a musical show. i've mentioned earlier that i get very diasphoric on dance floors, but it gets better when my friends are around, for the above reason.
so today it went well and i had fun, and on our way back to the class a friend who was not nearby to where we were dancing tapped me and teased me, 'so you danced with all the girls huh' i don't know if my translation got the right tone across, but she said it as if to a hot guy who'd get all the girls on the dance floor to dance with him. a tiny comment, yet it made my day!
The small things can make quite a difference............I'm glad that it made your day.
Quote from: Joules on October 14, 2013, 04:35:37 PM
I'm not entirely sure why, but I have been having a really great day. Just feeling really at peace in my own skin and with who I am.
Great! Have a wonderful day!!
A came out to a friend on Friday, she'd already pretty much guessed from my mannerisms and being really open minded/into LBGT rights, and she phoned the doctors for me today and booked me an appointment. Not this Friday but the next I'll be taking the first major steps to sorting my life out at last.
Quote from: AlexanderC on October 14, 2013, 06:18:42 PM
A came out to a friend on Friday, she'd already pretty much guessed from my mannerisms and being really open minded/into LBGT rights, and she phoned the doctors for me today and booked me an appointment. Not this Friday but the next I'll be taking the first major steps to sorting my life out at last.
:eusa_clap:
Good going Alex, it's great to have someone who's able to give you the push in your life. Be sure to tell us all about your appointment. :)
Quote from: Shantel on October 14, 2013, 07:33:39 AM
One giant step for Megan! :eusa_clap:
Thanks Shantel!
A break from being in pain, without having to use painkillers which are so strong they make you feel like you're a seventeen foot tall space gerbil.
my 21 month old niece is around for babysitting and she had two teddy's won at the royal show with her she gave one to my mum and one to me, the one she gave me was the pink bear hmmm wonder if she is saying something lol
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on October 15, 2013, 01:11:46 AMmy 21 month old niece is around for babysitting and she had two teddy's won at the royal show with her she gave one to my mum and one to me, the one she gave me was the pink bear hmmm wonder if she is saying something lol
Children can sometimes see things that adults cannot.
Or they just don't know what's going on.
Take which version makes you happier :)
For the second straight day I woke up feeling good about myself.
LOL
I shopped just before my therapy appointment once and I'm certain the retailer noticed my mascara (she clearly knew what mascara was ;) her makeup was beautiful).
My happy thing: I got an endo appointment, and it's going to be a wonderful Christmas present (Dec 26th, wow). Probably just AA's for now (that's what I want, but I could easily be convinced to do more....).
Time to (re)make my ticker!
Quote from: kabit on October 15, 2013, 12:34:54 PMLOL
I shopped just before my therapy appointment once and I'm certain the retailer noticed my mascara (she clearly knew what mascara was ;) her makeup was beautiful).
My happy thing: I got an endo appointment, and it's going to be a wonderful Christmas present (Dec 26th, wow). Probably just AA's for now (that's what I want, but I could easily be convinced to do more....).
Time to (re)make my ticker!
I guess that's my birthday present to you :)
Thanks, both! It's a wonderful present...
I was hoping for an earlier one ;) but I'll take what I can get!! (That's not bad for an endo appointment, either... nobody wants to go to the doctor on Christmas Eve or on the 26th, I guess - I took the latter over the former myself).
Still... I guess I can deal with what I don't like and want to stop until then. (Merry Christmas! Have some impotence! Shave less!)
(Yeah... I know it's not quite that quick).
Probably the earliest date for me as well. I wouldn't doubt if I was held off until next summer though.
Take your chances while you can. Be the best you can be :)
Free dye+cut+styling@the hairdresser salon upcoming!! Still NO clue what I want to do, I think I want it short but that's about it. Scary. And FUN!
Whoever you are, Thank You. I think I have a clue, but I suck at fortune telling
I wore my new Boba Fett dress today! ;D :icon_geekdance:
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on October 15, 2013, 04:29:05 PM
I wore my new Boba Fett dress today! ;D :icon_geekdance:
Amy
Pics or it didn't happen!
The thought of Amelia wearing that Boba Fett dress made me happy, even if she did beat me to buying it! Maybe I can be the first to pick up a TARDIS dress... ;)
Now I'm picturing that episode where the TARDIS became female...
And I thought exactly the same thing when I read Amy Pond's post! (Looooved Amy Pond, though - and I like Clara so far)!
The work day is over, home her I come!
I learned to chop wood with a maul today. I always convinced myself I wasn't strong/skilled/good enough to do it. I do it pretty well :)
Made my infamous Mustafar chili for dinner tonight. It was delicious! :icon_flamed:
Though I had to make my wife the mild version. ::)
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on October 15, 2013, 07:36:29 PM
Made my infamous Mustafar chili for dinner tonight. It was delicious! :icon_flamed:
Though I had to make my wife the mild version. ::)
Amy
Set another place for my will you sweetie, be right over!
Quote from: Shantel on October 15, 2013, 07:37:40 PM
Set another place for my will you sweetie, be right over!
Sure thing Auntie Shan, you're only a few states away. :laugh:
Actually, I'm hoping to move up to Washington within the next few years then I really can invite you over. ;)
Amy
Got a new pair of sandals today and they fit pretty well. I need a pedicure now!
My wonderful wife an I went shopping today Tractor supply-bird food,Goodwill -browsed tops and skirts then Wally world for food.As I was looking through the make up section I found this hot roller set we looked at it and said lets try it.So tonight was curl the hair night-----wow it came out spectacular I never want straight hair again! I will find out how good it holds up in the morning. :) Pat
Brought up the subject of clothes and clothing sizes with my mum and she explained it to me so I understand sizes a bit better and she gave me an old shirt of hers and one of those genie bra type things. Also asked what she thought when I tried them on and she said not bad. A bit afterwards my dad asked what we were talking about and my mum semi joked nothing "just girl talk" and also when she noticed I had changed back to my male shirt just before my dad came home she commented "look at you, you quick change artist". Some of my faith is restored.
I get to go home Thursday, exactly one month since I went into the hospital.
2 giant cheeseburgers with barbecue sauce and jalapenos. Oh and i bought a Bob Dylan album: Highway 61 Revisited after i returned the faulty game i bought.
@ EmeraldPerpugilliam, Lovely repartee from your Mom, sounds like she gets you.
@LordKat, Good to here you are going home. You will be even Happier on Thursday, looking forward to your Thursday post here.
Quote from: Joules on October 16, 2013, 02:10:35 PM
Welcome back Zoot, haven't seen you for a while. Glad you're still with us.
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I am posting every day. Thanks anyway though.
I unexpectedly ran into a dear friend I hadn't seen in a while.
Getting two unexpected reviews
Remembering I had roasted red pepper hummus in the fridge this morning. I'm easy ;)
Overcame the allure of delicious desserts and ice cream and had fruit for dessert instead.
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This.
That's beautiful :)
Wow!I am finally seeing where some of my ticket price increase goes. I am in a BRAND NEW train car! Whoa, the seats don't have butt marks in them, the lighting is better, theres no puke stuck on the windows, the overhead speakers work. . .
I spent a wonderful 45 minutes with my therapist and he was so pleased to hear all that I had to say to him. It was all so very uplifting! :) :) :)
I came home and my dogs had their bodies shaved. TIME FOR KISSES. <3 <3 <3
In other news, two girls were talking about periods in my presence and then laughed, saying "he's going to become a woman with all he knows!" "womanhood 101"
Looking through courses to schedule for next semestre, I came across PSY 310 (Psy & Bio of Human Sexuality), taught by Dr. Breedlove. Made me giggle. :)
Quote from: caleb. on October 17, 2013, 05:47:50 PM
I came home and my dogs had their bodies shaved. TIME FOR KISSES. <3 <3 <3
In other news, two girls were talking about periods in my presence and then laughed, saying "he's going to become a woman with all he knows!" "womanhood 101"
That's awesome! Lmao! ^_^
looks like Toyota Industrial Equipment Manufacturing, my employer, has domestic partner benefits. This place is looking up! Time to find out what they do for trans folk, maybe see if SRS is covered...
For the first time, someone properly gendered me.
They almost rescinded, but not from pronoun issues; she said "that's what she said" but thought that it might be insulting, even though the nature of the comment was completely not sexual at all.
I got my epilator in today. Gonna give it a try here in a little bit!
Quote from: Megan on October 17, 2013, 09:48:12 PMI got my epilator in today. Gonna give it a try here in a little bit!
About how much does one of those cost?
Quote from: Willow on October 17, 2013, 09:57:38 PM
About how much does one of those cost?
It was 80 dollars. Emjoi AP-18 72 Tweezer head epilator off of amazon. Had a bunch of 5 star reviews so I figured I'd try it out as I'm not a fan of shaving.
Quote from: Megan on October 17, 2013, 10:05:06 PMIt was 80 dollars. Emjoi AP-18 72 Tweezer head epilator off of amazon. Had a bunch of 5 star reviews so I figured I'd try it out as I'm not a fan of shaving.
Double the price of the body shaver recommended to me. It does seem an epilator would produce better and longer lasting results, though.
I stand at an impasse.
Quote from: Willow on October 17, 2013, 10:08:52 PM
Double the price of the body shaver recommended to me. It does seem an epilator would produce better and longer lasting results, though.
I stand at an impasse.
It was a toss up for me as well.
I did a small patch on my arm, it tickled and made me giggle. Then I just did a small patch on my leg, OMG it hurt but WWWWOOOOOOOOWWWW the skin is soooooo soft and smooth without the hair there.
Quote from: Megan on October 17, 2013, 10:14:14 PMIt was a toss up for me as well.
I did a small patch on my arm, it tickled and made me giggle. Then I just did a small patch on my leg, OMG it hurt but WWWWOOOOOOOOWWWW the skin is soooooo soft and smooth without the hair there.
Well with the $75 key fee still looming, I'll have to say both are a no-go until I get that replaced.
But that does sound lovely :)
Thought of Malachite today. There is a man who powers up this thing you get in Pokemon. He's wearing a lavender tux.
Nobody's around. Time to turn the Marshalls up to 11. ;D
Quote from: Jill F on October 18, 2013, 05:40:26 PM
Nobody's around. Time to turn the Marshalls up to 11. ;D
I used to own an amp that went to 12. Literally. ::)
Quote from: Darkie on October 18, 2013, 05:25:55 PM
Thought of Malachite today. There is a man who powers up this thing you get in Pokemon. He's wearing a lavender tux.
Hahahaha! omg so did I! Mr. O. :P
Seeing how beautiful our tree at worked look being all yellow and red.
And, my puppy loves me. :)
I just sent a message to a very, very old friend. A young girl who left me after Kindergarden. We spent our K and pre-K years playing together... and kept in touch with infrequent letters and even a couple of meet-ups (a bit awkward in High School, of course). I simply asked if she remembered anything of our old neighborhood and playing together. I blamed my curiosity on old age.
Who knows... maybe I told her something that she'll bring forward...... I doubt it ;)
Quote from: <3 on October 18, 2013, 08:59:31 PM
New panties!
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Zoom out... I'm confused! (Take them off first ;) if you wish)
Quote from: <3 on October 18, 2013, 08:59:31 PMNew panties!
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If this is an attempt to moon us, you're doing it wrong :P
Oh, and another... much more important.
A tender moment between me and my wife. We have been very much living apart in the same house. I've been trying to keep quiet, but told her I still loved her online a day ago.
Today it clearly needed clarification. She was basically telling me I wouldn't be getting in her pants again.
So, after the kids were down, I stopped her and told her that I love her and always will, but I don't mean it in any sexual way. She doesn't show that sort of emotion, but I can read her. We sat for a bit with our old dog (a lab), and I heard what she couldn't say. I do love her, and I miss her, but I think we're through the most difficult part... divorce will still be difficult, but the last few months were terrible and the last few weeks got better... but now we're getting close again. She really does love me.
:'( I'm crying now... maybe it should go in the happy/unhappy thread... someone link me to the bittersweet happiness thread, please.
Had another visit with my therapist today and what a difference
Right away she could tell something had changed since last time and it was so obvious.
We chatted about nothing in particular and it felt so good.
Anxiety and worry has gone and I am so much calmer.
E has really made a difference to me and it is all fantastic.
Never been happier.
It like I am finally alive after so many years.
J
Aw kabit, that made me tear up a little. :( I'm sorry, I can only imagine how much of an emotional time this must be for you.
I slept in, read a book and I joined Susan's :)
Quote from: Shaina on October 18, 2013, 10:10:22 PMI slept in, read a book and I joined Susan's :)
I had to be at Olin at 8am, no sleeping in for me today.
But tomorrow is Saturday, nothing to do until the football game.
I had a really nice day of shopping. Picked up some nice new dresses & tomorrow I'm shopping again.
My local goodwill store is just packed.
Love to go shopping, try on new clothes, build nice wardrope, accessories, shoes, purses, etc.......
Rediscovered and read my "coming out" letter (of sorts) from my first transition... wasn't nearly as emo or embarrassing as I seemed to have remembered it being.
I've shared it in the writing section for anyone who might like to read it - In Transit (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,151025.0.html) :)
Quote from: caleb. on October 18, 2013, 10:01:59 PM
Aw kabit, that made me tear up a little. :( I'm sorry, I can only imagine how much of an emotional time this must be for you.
Thanks :) It's emotional, difficult, and also the best time in my life so far... and hopefully it only gets better from here!
Got myself a new hat today, I had been eyeing it off for a couple of weeks now:
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Quote from: kabit on October 19, 2013, 03:53:54 AM
Thanks :) It's emotional, difficult, and also the best time in my life so far... and hopefully it only gets better from here!
You have a lovely, absolutely wonderful attitude! You deserve being happy, enjoy every step towards yourself :)
It is SOOO sunny outside! Like super super sunny so I'm bouncing up and down! Going to the stables soon to run like crazy in all the snow :D
Quote from: kabit on October 18, 2013, 09:47:38 PM
Oh, and another... much more important.
A tender moment between me and my wife. We have been very much living apart in the same house. I've been trying to keep quiet, but told her I still loved her online a day ago.
Today it clearly needed clarification. She was basically telling me I wouldn't be getting in her pants again.
So, after the kids were down, I stopped her and told her that I love her and always will, but I don't mean it in any sexual way. She doesn't show that sort of emotion, but I can read her. We sat for a bit with our old dog (a lab), and I heard what she couldn't say. I do love her, and I miss her, but I think we're through the most difficult part... divorce will still be difficult, but the last few months were terrible and the last few weeks got better... but now we're getting close again. She really does love me.
:'( I'm crying now... maybe it should go in the happy/unhappy thread... someone link me to the bittersweet happiness thread, please.
Got all teary eyed for you both! (((Hugs)))
Quote from: Shaina on October 18, 2013, 10:10:22 PM
I slept in, read a book and I joined Susan's :)
Hi Shaina,
Welcome Miss cute face! :)
Autumn holidays in germany! YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Baby was crying so my mother gave her to me and she immediately stopped crying.
Quote from: Malachite on October 19, 2013, 08:25:35 PM
Baby was crying so my mother gave her to me and she immediately stopped crying.
Probably knew she was about to get throttled! :D
Quote from: Shantel on October 19, 2013, 08:52:16 PM
Probably knew she was about to get throttled! :D
Lol probably would have since she was cutting into my UFC time. She knew better. It's even funnier since it was my first time holding her.
I bought a really nice, high quality wig.
Quote from: Shantel on October 19, 2013, 07:42:00 AM
Hi Shaina,
Welcome Miss cute face! :)
Hi Shantel!
Aww shucks thanks :) Love your hat-one day I'll feel glamorous enough to rock one just like it!
Quote from: Shantel on October 19, 2013, 07:42:00 AM
Hi Shaina,
Welcome Miss cute face! :)
I was thinking that she's cute too, but I was too shy to be the first to say it. :P
Quote from: caleb. on October 19, 2013, 10:36:15 PM
I was thinking that she's cute too, but I was too shy to be the first to say it. :P
Same here. I was thinking "wow, she's very pretty." but I didn't want to say anything.
Uhoh Shaina, you're already starting to draw FtM attention :D
Quote from: Malachite on October 19, 2013, 10:43:59 PM
Same here. I was thinking "wow, she's very pretty." but I didn't want to say anything.
Uhoh Shaina, you're already starting to draw FtM attention :D
lolol, between all of us she's going to get scared off of the forum
Quote from: Malachite on October 19, 2013, 10:43:59 PM
Same here. I was thinking "wow, she's very pretty." but I didn't want to say anything.
Uhoh Shaina, you're already starting to draw FtM attention :D
Oh gosh you guys are so sweet! I actually joined this site because I was afraid I couldn't attract FtMs so I'm super flattered :)
Quote from: Shaina on October 19, 2013, 10:54:07 PM
Oh gosh you guys are so sweet! I actually joined this site because I was afraid I couldn't attract FtMs so I'm super flattered :)
Aww lol. You're really pretty, and you seem like a nice girl, so I wouldn't worry. I'm sure you could have your pick of guys.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 19, 2013, 10:55:09 PMDude..I don't think I've ever seen you post a pic of yourself. Finally decided to do it, eh?
Made me happy to see the man behind the Malachite.
Quote from: Willow on October 19, 2013, 11:21:01 PM
Made me happy to see the man behind the Malachite.
Me too! Epic reveal, dude!
(and don't say "no"!)
Wow a cute new sister and a spunky guy. That makes me happy!
Lol I actually posted like 12 pictures in the bad-a thread like a year ago and always had a picture of myself up but I just took them all down. Hardly no one commented on them (maybe less than 5 people)....even though the people above me and after me got pages full of responses. Not a great feeling. Now I know what some of the girls go through here. I wonder who that spunky guy is. Certainly not me lol >.> I'm too dull for that.
Quote from: Malachite on October 20, 2013, 01:03:23 AM
Lol I actually posted like 12 pictures in the bad-a thread like a year ago and always had a picture of myself up but I just took them all down. Hardly no one commented on them (maybe less than 5 people)....even though the people above me and after me got pages full of responses. Not a great feeling. Now I know what some of the girls go through here. I wonder who that spunky guy is. Certainly not me lol >.> I'm too dull for that.
Well obviously that's because I wasn't on the site yet when you posted :P
What's the bad-a thread?
Quote from: Shaina on October 20, 2013, 01:06:51 AM
Well obviously that's because I wasn't on the site yet when you posted :P
What's the bad-a thread?
Oh yeah that was totally it. :D
Here's the thread. It's where the FtMs post when they are feeling confident in themselves.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,138926.0.html
Thanks! That one's getting bookmarked lol
More or less it made me happy yesterday...
We were at an artisan's fair, and since they crafted them in the moment to fit the width of your wrist...
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It's odd how I lack any accesories: I only have one cross and a pair of earrings. No pendants, chockers or even a ring. Of course, there is no money for those things right now, and the rings thing is a problem. I will only wear small one to avoid my fingers looking short, but in this markets it's impossible to find sizes for me. Sure, I have medium sized hands, but but bony articulations They either enter and stay there, panicking a lot when i want to remove them later, or fell off or obstruct me. i kinda like having empty hands all the time..
Changing to patches to try & maybe later implants. I've been a pill girl however very happy I'm changing, safer, stronger with less E.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 20, 2013, 10:37:33 AM
I look at it differently, I guess. I've put up a few pics of myself over the years. But not because I was looking for feedback (besides, I can find that on my Bandcamp page. *rimshot*), but simply because I felt like it. I only took them down because I felt it was kind of boring and thus, the parade of Portia began.
I have that one avatar pic on my blog somewhere anyway so it's no biggie.
You had long hair right?
On my cub scout outing I spent a lot of time working in the kitchen with the mothers :D Also... most of the conversations I had were with them.
Most of the rest of the weekend conversations were about sports - at which I got to interject my lack of knowledge (literally - apparently they don't call it a "pennant race" anymore - Go Sox. Yay.)
edit: Internet says it's still called that. Either they were effing with me or I'm just as confused as ever.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 20, 2013, 05:26:59 PM
I've had long hair since I was 21. I'm 36 now. The only time I didn't have long hair was a short period in early 2000 when I attempted to cut my own hair while drunk. It wasn't the best of ideas. I remember when I went to this barber that I had been going to since I was a small child, after she chopped all of my hair off she said: "Now your mom has her boy back." I just laughed because it was so silly.
Yay I was right!
I'm going to see my favorite living guitar player play tonight. I love me some Jeff Beck!!!
Last night for me but I made a big(little) step in progress(still was nervous) went to my friends' place and put on the top mum gave me along with a vest/waistcoat and my new hat(dress pants too dirty people) and my friends' said I looked good, very lesbian and even dyky(sp?) thought tye were kidding but they meant it but that wasn't the step nope the step was I drove us though the drive-thru of a fast food place(Hungry Jack's) in the clothes. This was a big deal for me because the most I have been able to do is the right clothing at home when I am alone or at my friends' place. To actually go outside and drive someone en femme was a huge deal for me due to my anxiety.
I got my microwave/convection oven replaced under warranty, my next door neighbour carried it in. I sat and drank coffee with the wife and daughter while he installed it (he seemed to want to, I think it's a boy thing).
I realised there was no way I could pick it up!!!
Mmmm HRT and muscle!!
I just added a facebook page for myself & it works just great. Adding new friends from "old" & enjoying sharing process of improving my body, etc..... to friends that do not understand the process however care about me & want to be friends for life.
And it's fun to play with, love FB.
Chocolate. Chip. Pancakes. YAY!
There's just something about them that makes me swoon! :laugh:
One of my best friends woke me up by making surprise breakfast with croissants, buns and pasta bologna<3 Too sweet!
The little heater I have has made me happy.
My mom took to a pancake breakfast and asked to take her to meet some friends from work. She called me her son to them. I'm happy, it can't be easy to make those changes.
Quote from: LordKAT on October 21, 2013, 01:23:31 PM
My mom took to a pancake breakfast and asked to take her to meet some friends from work. She called me her son to them. I'm happy, it can't be easy to make those changes.
Your mom's a keeper!
Yup she is. No matter how annoying to spend long amounts of time with her, she does her best to get pronouns and name correct. It has to be hard after 50 years of using one set to change.
Quote from: LordKAT on October 21, 2013, 01:52:51 PM
Yup she is. No matter how annoying to spend long amounts of time with her, she does her best to get pronouns and name correct. It has to be hard after 50 years of using one set to change.
Moms get old and cranky, menopause doesn't make it any better either, but one thing is always constant, they continue to love their offspring regardless.
Just heard that scientists have found a way to grow hair on skin from scratch, in other words that signals a big breakthrough for people who are suffering from pattern baldness.
I just got wonder traded a Vulpix!
Quote from: Darkie on October 21, 2013, 06:16:57 PM
I just got wonder traded a Vulpix!
Sweet. I'm trying to decide if I want to transfer all my Pokemon from old games when Pokemon Bank comes out, or if I just will catch them from scratch in X...decisions decisions.,..
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 21, 2013, 06:29:38 PM
What is that?
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Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 21, 2013, 06:37:31 PM
What is it supposed to be?
(From The Lion King 2) *sings sheee's not oooone of us*
Tis a Vulpix, silly girl! :D Cutest little thing.. except from Portia, mebbe ;)
I don't know what "wonder traded" means... I'm too old for pokémon culture, but I played the games because my brother is about 10 years younger than me and he grew up with them. I like eevee best :D
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So today I got regendered...maybe. My LGBT+ support status or feminist status or transgenderness or just my general question mark at work was also deferred to (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,151128.0.html)
(else I'm paranoid, but nobody has replied to my thread, linked above, to say I'm nutzo -- not that I need confirmation of that ;)).
But the fun story...
I was in Shaw's getting some things today... and in the check out I had to apologize to the person in front of me (for accidentally whacking her chips with the lane separator). When it was my turn, the checkout woman did a pretty obvious double-take. I was clearly regendered (else the check-out girl is also trans*, but I doubt it - she had a pretty deep voice, but nothing else obvious).
Secondly, I'm able to talk to my wife online about transgender stuff without her freaking out (I told her the OTHER story - and she confirmed that I'm paranoid).
My hair was pretty today. :D I blame everything that happened on that... and my soft voice (which is starting to crack from a cold :().
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on October 21, 2013, 06:40:57 PM
(From The Lion King 2) *sings sheee's not oooone of us*
Tis a Vulpix, silly girl! :D Cutest little thing.. except from Portia, mebbe ;)
OMGOSH I thought I was the only one that like the sequel. That makes me happy!
Quote from: Shaina on October 21, 2013, 07:02:45 PM
OMGOSH I thought I was the only one that like the sequel. That makes me happy!
Oh I had this thing with a girl from my old job. Whenever someone would disagree with us we'd start singing it. Think we scared away people like that but SO worth it!! :D
I am thinking that I should go to bed but sitting on it watching Breaking Bad also counts.
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 21, 2013, 07:17:31 PM
Actually....scratch that....let's just call that a three way tie.
Agreed, all the best solutions end in a three way :P
Lol Bungle, not too sure about what I think about teenager Portia anymore!! :p And LMAO Shaina, too far, too far! :D This whole thread makes me all giggly and happy right now! (And a zombie tomorrow morning FML)
A teenage portia would be cute
ya ! im haapy today because my girlfriend asked her friend please not to call me a male anymore . i was so excited that she just did that out of no where lol .
( yeh ) im so happy lol
xoxoxo to everyone
lexis
omg ! i need a real good solution then shaina lol .
all my friends here have had made me very happy today
thank you girlfriends
xoxoxo
lexis
Quote from: lexi on October 21, 2013, 08:42:59 PM
omg ! i need a real good solution then shaina lol .
Haha! You crack me up! And look who's at 15 posts! ;) Told you they'd fly by.
omg ! did i do it lol ? whats next girl ?
Quote from: lexi on October 21, 2013, 09:15:08 PM
omg ! did i do it lol ? whats next girl ?
I remember you were confused about updating the avatar. I'll PM you :)
o.k hon
The lady that will doing my facial hair electroysis removal is so funny & loves to talk. I can tell we will get along just fine. First appointment next Tuesday & we plan a weekly visit all fall & winter to finally remove all the little hairs I hope.
it made me very happy today to hear how long my hair was lol . i think a few more inches will do
My ex started talking to me a bit more than passing greeting while I was in the hospital. He told me today that at first he was not happy at all about me but now says he would like to be friends and has shown he wants to by helping me out with moving things that I can't and getting my air conditioner put away which I couldn't due to restrictions from my surgery. I don't ever want to get back together with him, but I had him as a friend long before we got together and it would be nice to have that back.
Quote from: LordKAT on October 21, 2013, 11:02:30 PM
My ex started talking to me a bit more than passing greeting while I was in the hospital. He told me today that at first he was not happy at all about me but now says he would like to be friends and has shown he wants to by helping me out with moving things that I can't and getting my air conditioner put away which I couldn't due to restrictions from my surgery. I don't ever want to get back together with him, but I had him as a friend long before we got together and it would be nice to have that back.
That's beautiful, I'm so happy for you guys! Are you recovering okay from surgery?
I'm alive,walking and finally home with a limited permission to work. I have to say that is an huge yes to improving after my surgery. Thanks for asking.
I have pizza from earlier. ;D The pizza girl was really, really cute as well. I couldn't talk to her. :( Since passing as male, my confidence with girls has actually gone down, because when they saw me as female I felt they trusted me more and I had a little less creep factor. *sigh* I'm not really looking for a relationship, cause I have a girl I love, but it would be nice to be able to interact with girls without being unable to look at them.
LOL that turned into an unhappy post. I was, and still am, happy about the pizza. If I can't have girls, I can have this. <3
Quote from: caleb. on October 22, 2013, 01:45:23 AM
I have pizza from earlier. ;D The pizza girl was really, really cute as well. I couldn't talk to her. :( Since passing as male, my confidence with girls has actually gone down, because when they saw me as female I felt they trusted me more and I had a little less creep factor. *sigh* I'm not really looking for a relationship, cause I have a girl I love, but it would be nice to be able to interact with girls without being unable to look at them.
LOL that turned into an unhappy post. I was, and still am, happy about the pizza. If I can't have girls, I can have this. <3
Lol that's a switch, some day I'll have to share with you from my former personna's perspective on how, being a guy you can get past the creep factor with girls! That T has flip-flopped your brain big time!
Complaining to a friend about my teacher using endearments (Ma'am, mademoiselle, Madame), and she says
"Why don't you wear a T-shirt that says 'I'm a guy'?"
First time talking to her about this, and she's seen me dressed uber-femme before, so this made me rather happy to hear...~
I need to stop in the secretaries' office more often... just to talk. I've avoided it because of who I am, but they were very talkative with me... no idea how they'll take it after - but who cares :D. They ask about my wife a lot, though - which is a bit sad.
I also had a nice chat with my mother in law today (she was watching the kids)... and she left plenty of the soup she was making!! She knows, didn't talk about it at all, and we talked about various things for about 20 minutes or so.
I just like to be in my element - and I don't get enough chances. Men make me nervous lately.
Quote from: LordKAT on October 22, 2013, 12:56:25 AM
I'm alive,walking and finally home with a limited permission to work. I have to say that is an huge yes to improving after my surgery. Thanks for asking.
I'm really glad things are looking up for you, hon.
*big hug*
My aunt talked to my cousins about my transition. They didn't have much to say, lol. But she said the whole family is going to try the new names and pronouns. That chapter is closed - no more secrets.
In other news, the only other female person I served with at church is also FTM. LOL. Of all people! Just the other day I was wondering what "she" was up to, kudos to him for having the guts to come out in high school (he's younger than me).
I got a phone call today that wasn't a wrong number and wasn't a bill collector. What was this awesome phone call that highlighted my day? It was a survey company doing a financial institution survey. No, I'm not being sarcastic and yes, I realize that is sad.
Also, LearnedHand's avatar:
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I found out that I can control my (Westinghouse) TV with my (Samsung) phone. Supercool!
- My doctor has given me a recommendation so now everything's set - I'm going to England to celebrate Christmas with my amazing girlfriend :)
- The same doctor also takes my medication issues seriously so now we're trying something new. Feels good hopefully getting somewhere!
- A good friend of mine sent me a big surprise chocolate bar with kamasutra prints in the mail today. Best thing ever to come home to!!
Today is a fine day.
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on October 23, 2013, 07:23:09 AM
- My doctor has given me a recommendation so now everything's set - I'm going to England to celebrate Christmas with my amazing girlfriend :)
- The same doctor also takes my medication issues seriously so now we're trying something new. Feels good hopefully getting somewhere!
- A good friend of mine sent me a big surprise chocolate bar with kamasutra prints in the mail today. Best thing ever to come home to!!
Today is a fine day.
Your life sounds very interesting! :D England and Kamasutra Chocolate ♥♥
Thoughtful words from my good friend, Robin. :)
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on October 23, 2013, 09:31:05 AM
Thoughtful words from my good friend, Robin. :)
Amy
*sniffle* This. :)
Quote from: Joules on October 23, 2013, 09:09:48 AM
Sauerkraut for breakfast. Yep, I know, it's strange and not something I do very often. I woke up with a really weird craving. Maybe I'm pregnant.
Heh, I ate cold leftover mac & cheese, I think my love handles are growing back, I need to see a shrink!
I saw I had a voice message on my phone, I reluctantly listened to it thinking "oh just telemarketers", instead it was one of the Chief Justices of the Massachusetts Supreme Judicial Court thanking me for my volunteer work. It was really nice and unexpected. :)
Quote from: LearnedHand on October 23, 2013, 09:53:52 AM
I saw I had a voice message on my phone, I reluctantly listened to it thinking "oh just telemarketers", instead it was one of the Chief Justices of the Massachusetts Supreme Judicial Court thanking me for my volunteer work. It was really nice and unexpected. :)
Kudos, you earned it honey! :icon_bunch:
Florida vacation this weekend!
Sun, beaches, a wedding to attend... Then back to Chicago 'cause Chris is a crazy person who loves the snow. *shiver*
Still. I get a week off. Also a lot of time to spend with my BF without work even being on the discussion plate, and without readily available videogame time sinks. :)
Using my new lawn mower to murder all the nettles and long grass (insert evil laugh here)
>:-)
I tend to avoid any wishful thinking regarding to my breasts, but I have to say that despite what I tell to myself, these are no nipple buds anymore. In fact, comparing to some tables on the internet It looks like a Taner Stage III already. Round breast with mound on top, and it's hurting again after a resting period.
I only hope that size gets even with time...
Ordered some Levi's 512 (http://amzn.com/B0018P6FFK) ... in size 16.
They fit!! Very stretchy waist band on women's jeans... Did I mention they fit? :D
I have bad luck with ordering girl clothes that fit... but Levi's are just wonderful. Hopefully they don't shrink *too* much, but seems like there's plenty of room if they do. Also, these are boot cut and high rise... no idea how the regular 16s would fit (Levi's 515)
Indigo Rinse.
♥ ♥ ♥
I'VE FINALLY CAPTURED A BOUNTY ON GTA V ONLINE! Woooooohooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! To make things better, it was a $7,000 bounty. I can officially consider myself a bounty hunter! This is AWESOME!!!!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I hate that it was a juggalo but hey, 7 grand is 7 grand. Dude tried to kill me again but I shotgunned him down. Then he tried to kill me AGAIN and he was in one direction coming towards me while the cops were coming towards me in another direction so I just let the game and went into a new session hahahahahahahahaha! Malachite is a happy boy! :)
My biological psych professor included transsexualism in our sexuality and the brain unit.
Quote from: Edge on October 23, 2013, 06:27:28 PM
My biological psych professor included transsexualism in our sexuality and the brain unit.
That should be an interesting class!
Quote from: Shantel on October 23, 2013, 06:49:56 PM
That should be an interesting class!
I thought it was namely because so many people seem to think it's a choice. It was actually presented pretty matter of factly and fits in with what he was talking about. It is a course that focuses on the brain as a biological organ.
Put my financial side of life in better order today. Got a brand new 2014 econoboxmobile and should end up saving around 300-400 dollars a month to go towards my transition costs. Made me happy for securing my future but I still bawled my eyes out saying goodbye to my faithful and fun to drive previous car.
I got my first prescription for estrogen! And I dont need antiandrogens as my T is way below normal.
:icon_dance:
Congrats Emmaline!
Congratulations Emmaline! ;D
*HUGS*
Amy
Yesterday, my lab group (we got an extra guy because his partner was absent) was a lot of fun to work with. Not only were they friendly and amusing, they also automatically used the right pronouns.
Some fellow students felt the same way as me about massaging and we paired up and practised while keeping each others triggers in mind.
The last class was really nice and I felt like the teacher likes me.
I'm having a week-long holiday to sleep!
My packer arrived at home so I'll get it tommorow.
And I had a calm open conversation about how my mom's triggers mix with my being transgender. She tried to deflect a couple of times but all in all a real victory.
So YAY great day!
Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 24, 2013, 03:16:11 PM
I wrote this awesome parody of an AC song called "I sold Dotty Dog to a Chinese restaurant." :D :D
Sweet! I did one to "Bad Medicine" a while back...
"Your dog tastes like baaad venison,
bad venison is what I eat,
Ooooh, cook him up just like baaad venison,
you got the recipe and I gotta eat."
Your welcome. :)
one of my old friends last night said to me that he would only trust 2 ladies in gaming his future wife and me. yay made my week.
Not only did I get my hair cut and dyed - I got a free goodiebag too! Free stuff! :D
I went out to see a burlesque show with my fiancee last night who has been feeling really horrible up until yesterday. So glad to have her back in better spirits! We wound up missing the show (thirty minutes after it was supposed to start there was still no sign) but we got out and about. I introduced her to some people that the old me knew. One of them gave me a *huge* hug and told me I looked beautiful. Turns out her brother is now her sister, so my transformation is not a big deal at all to her. She reminded me I'm "family" at that bar and asked me and my fiancee back.
Still smiling thinking about it. :)
Quote from: robinmack on October 25, 2013, 09:55:45 AM
I went out to see a burlesque show with my fiancee last night who has been feeling really horrible up until yesterday. So glad to have her back in better spirits! We wound up missing the show (thirty minutes after it was supposed to start there was still no sign) but we got out and about. I introduced her to some people that the old me knew. One of them gave me a *huge* hug and told me I looked beautiful. Turns out her brother is now her sister, so my transformation is not a big deal at all to her. She reminded me I'm "family" at that bar and asked me and my fiancee back.
Still smiling thinking about it. :)
Always nice to have those positive people in our lives!
Nothing out of th ordinary made me happy....but at least I can walk and I'm happy for that. My vision may be getting worse but at least I can see. At least I can hear and speak. I'm happy for that.
Sorry, I wanted to post in this thread but I didn't have anything out of the ordinary to post. I usually post in the unhappy thread so many times that the happy thread seems mystical to me.
Quote from: Joules on October 25, 2013, 11:13:40 AM
My poor little kitty. She hasn't touched her dry food in so long that it became moldy but I didn't notice. I finally saw it, washed the bowl and filled it with fresh dry food. She glommed it, I haven't seen her do that in years. It's a good thing too, all that wet food is getting expensive.
When my dog gets lethargic about eating I know something's wrong and dump the contents of his bowl in the garbage and wash out the bowl thoroughly. I refill it and it disappears fast. I think they are more sensitive to the smell of decaying matter than we are.
My stp arrived!! YAY
In increasing order of wonderfulness:
1. A successful shopping expedition including a stop at the food quart for amazing bourbon-flavored cajun chicken.
2. I FINALLY completed my six month required post-ear-pierce period with posts. I put hoops in the for the first time. YAY!
3. Looking at the new drivers license I got yesterday. What's that it says in the box labeled Sex? Come on, Suzi, you can say it out loud. Yes, go ahead and say it.
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
FEMALE!!!
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
Quote from: suzifrommd on October 26, 2013, 01:16:04 PM
In increasing order of wonderfulness:
1. A successful shopping expedition including a stop at the food quart for amazing bourbon-flavored cajun chicken.
2. I FINALLY completed my six month required post-ear-pierce period with posts. I put hoops in the for the first time. YAY!
3. Looking at the new drivers license I got yesterday. What's that it says in the box labeled Sex? Come on, Suzi, you can say it out loud. Yes, go ahead and say it.
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
FEMALE!!!
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
*Joins the :eusa_dance:*
@Suzi, All good new. I am sure you are Happy finally being able to wear earrings! Isn't it Great having that bling dangling from your ears?!
:)
Quote from: suzifrommd on October 26, 2013, 01:16:04 PM
In increasing order of wonderfulness:
1. A successful shopping expedition including a stop at the food quart for amazing bourbon-flavored cajun chicken.
2. I FINALLY completed my six month required post-ear-pierce period with posts. I put hoops in the for the first time. YAY!
3. Looking at the new drivers license I got yesterday. What's that it says in the box labeled Sex? Come on, Suzi, you can say it out loud. Yes, go ahead and say it.
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
FEMALE!!!
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
Hahaha congrats girlfriend!
I has Funyuns! :)
Finally my school wins a hockey game. A good showing too.
A full day playing Dead Space 3 shoulder to shoulder with my boyfriend :P, Jacket potato's with chili and a film cuddled up with the kittens on our laps....
Just shaved my legs.
Which was both a Herculean effort, and a logistical nightmare. However I dun care. They're done. They look nice. I'm happy.
It was yesterday, but this is the first chance I'd had to come here.
I had a date last night with another MTF. Just a simple thing. Dinner. Coffee afterward. But lots of conversation and laughs. Even a little kissing.
Quote from: Sephirah on October 27, 2013, 05:50:36 PM
Just shaved my legs.
Which was both a Herculean effort, and a logistical nightmare. However I dun care. They're done. They look nice. I'm happy.
Legs always need touching up afterwards, for me (I am blind in the shower w/o glasses).
It's the rear I fear!
British news sources have been warning us since last week of a massive storm - the worst in a century, worse even than the one in 1987 in which 18 people died and 15 million trees were flattened - that would hit us on Sunday night/Monday morning.
So we secured everything in our garden, made sure our cars weren't parked near any trees, battened down the hatches... and waited with bated breath for the natural disaster that would hit us last night, expecting a trail of destruction to greet us this morning.
Well... in truth, the storm woke me up a couple of times in the night. It was rainy and windy, but when I woke up this morning the roads were fine, nothing was damaged, and the biggest disaster in our area was the huge amounts of autumn leaves lying on the ground. One of the leaves had even landed on my car! Oh, the humanity...
I was with a friend when he needed to go pick up something at one of his friend's home. When I got down with him, his friend's 6 year old daughter greeted me and asked me if I was a boy or a girl...
I wasn't quite sure how I should answer the question so I asked her why. She said it was because my hair was long like hers. I told her that hers was prettier though and she asked me my name. When I gave her my name, she smiled and hugged me saying, "I knew you were a girl! Just like me!"
She made me smile the rest of the day!
Oh so much to be happy about.
Skin getting softer, legs now silky smooth after laser sessions. How I love it now. What a difference.
Holidays starting soon after a horribly busy year postponed everything but now so happy.
Still have a huge smile on my face, perhaps it will need to be surgically removed?
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A big burly builder ran ahead to open the door to the petrol station for me this morning, gave me the whole gallant "After you" even after he got a proper look at me from the front. Maybe this passing in public thing isn't the unclimbable mountain I feared it would be.
Getting better at applying my makeup up and discovered that Sainbury's do brilliant ladies clothes that are spot on for my age. They even did the boots I love in an 8!
Heaven......
Quote from: Joules on October 28, 2013, 07:59:21 AM
He He He. Glad you're alright FTM. Do you have insurance?
Sadly, my insurer considers a leaf blowing onto my car 'an act of god'. ;)
Bought a tape and measured my breast for the first time since HRT.
http://www.wikihow.com/Measure-Your-Bra-Size
Let's see, if my underbust is 34 and my breasts are 36.5... that's more than two inches, which is labelled as a B, but I just recently was able to fit an A padded bra without leaving empty space...
???
Quote from: FTMDiaries on October 28, 2013, 04:49:17 AM
British news sources have been warning us since last week of a massive storm - the worst in a century, worse even than the one in 1987 in which 18 people died and 15 million trees were flattened - that would hit us on Sunday night/Monday morning.
So we secured everything in our garden, made sure our cars weren't parked near any trees, battened down the hatches... and waited with bated breath for the natural disaster that would hit us last night, expecting a trail of destruction to greet us this morning.
Well... in truth, the storm woke me up a couple of times in the night. It was rainy and windy, but when I woke up this morning the roads were fine, nothing was damaged, and the biggest disaster in our area was the huge amounts of autumn leaves lying on the ground. One of the leaves had even landed on my car! Oh, the humanity...
The talking heads hype the news with exaggerated weather reports here too, it's done in an effort to get better viewer ratings. Meanwhile they miss the boat entirely and when a truly nasty storm hits they go, "Where did that come from? We weren't expecting such severity!"
Quote from: Shantel on October 28, 2013, 10:03:39 AM
The talking heads hype the news with exaggerated weather reports here too, it's done in an effort to get better viewer ratings. Meanwhile they miss the boat entirely and when a truly nasty storm hits they go, "Where did that come from? We weren't expecting such severity!"
I guess they're damned if they do, and damned if they don't. The reason why this storm resulted in so little loss of life is probably because we had plenty of warning and it happened overnight, so most of us were sensible enough to stay indoors. There was an infamous case during the last severe storm of 1987, in which the BBC's weatherman said that a worried woman had phoned the Beeb asking whether the rumours she'd heard about an impending hurricane were true, and he answered that nobody should worry, the weather would be fine. The following day, 18 people died as the worst storm in 300 years hit the UK. So now they're extra-paranoid whenever there's a chance of bad weather here.
What made me laugh last week was that one newspaper was screaming about us expecting 'up to 30mm of rain!!!!1!!!' as if that's a lot of rainfall. 30mm, or just 3cms, is less than an inch. But they hoped their readers would see the '30' in the headline and run out to build an Ark or something. ::)
Joining Susan's :)
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 28, 2013, 04:57:40 AM
Oh so much to be happy about.
Skin getting softer, legs now silky smooth after laser sessions. How I love it now. What a difference.
Holidays starting soon after a horribly busy year postponed everything but now so happy.
Still have a huge smile on my face, perhaps it will need to be surgically removed?
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Hi Jenny,
Good for you girl..........yes it sounds like you really have lots to be happy about.
Keep that smile, there are good reasons for it!!!
Ciara.
Quote from: Constance on October 27, 2013, 06:59:59 PM
It was yesterday, but this is the first chance I'd had to come here.
I had a date last night with another MTF. Just a simple thing. Dinner. Coffee afterward. But lots of conversation and laughs. Even a little kissing.
Good for you Constance, sounds like a nice time between two friends, btw girls do that! :)
How interesting! The thread 'What made you sad today?' gets my attention immediately. I rush in and start typing right away! This one, on the other hand - 'What made you happy' - I skip past with a dismissive sneer.
Sure it's been a tough ride, this life. Sure there are lots of things I can point to and say, 'Ouch!' But, know what?!?, there are also a lot of sunbeams in my life, too. And part of the task of living my life a little more fully involves recognizing this. And what do you know - here is a thread in which I can share such recognizing! Will wonders never cease!?!
Four things make me happy right now:
1. A light October sun,
2. The fact I am taking today off work,
3. The pot of tea steeping at my side,
4. Sitting down (in about two minutes time) to start into Joseph Boyden's 'The Orenda'.
I have had this title on my shelf for a couple weeks now. I have not wanted to start it because (a) I know it will push many other parts of my life to one side and (b) I don't want it to be over! Well life, get ready for some pushing. And, as for it being over, such is the fate of all things, I'm afraid.
My fresh purple sparkly glitter manicure. Age appropriate? Meh...
It's cute and makes me happy though.
Quote from: Jill F on October 28, 2013, 03:33:53 PM
My fresh purple sparkly glitter manicure. Age appropriate? Meh...
It's cute and makes me happy though.
Yeah who cares anyway, if you want to be a youthful girly-girl, go for it! My wife does all that girly glittery, metal flake colors in OPI with hearts and she's only 66 years young and I'm proud of her.
Quote from: TanyaW on October 28, 2013, 03:25:40 PM
How interesting! The thread 'What made you sad today?' gets my attention immediately. I rush in and start typing right away! This one, on the other hand - 'What made you happy' - I skip past with a dismissive sneer.
Sure it's been a tough ride, this life. Sure there are lots of things I can point to and say, 'Ouch!' But, know what?!?, there are also a lot of sunbeams in my life, too. And part of the task of living my life a little more fully involves recognizing this. And what do you know - here is a thread in which I can share such recognizing! Will wonders never cease!?!
Four things make me happy right now:
1. A light October sun,
2. The fact I am taking today off work,
3. The pot of tea steeping at my side,
4. Sitting down (in about two minutes time) to start into Joseph Boyden's 'The Orenda'.
I have had this title on my shelf for a couple weeks now. I have not wanted to start it because (a) I know it will push many other parts of my life to one side and (b) I don't want it to be over! Well life, get ready for some pushing. And, as for it being over, such is the fate of all things, I'm afraid.
I did the opposite to you! I started with the happy thread (and the half measure happy & sad thread), but totally skipped over the sad thread for a while. I'm an optimist ... which doesn't always serve me well ;)
I've been listening to a song I like.
Quote from: Constance on October 27, 2013, 06:59:59 PM
It was yesterday, but this is the first chance I'd had to come here.
I had a date last night with another MTF. Just a simple thing. Dinner. Coffee afterward. But lots of conversation and laughs. Even a little kissing.
ooooOOOOooooOooOOOOoooo >:-)
Shaving my legs! ;)
This happened Saturday but I didn't have a computer with net connection handy I couldn't post about it then, anyway some good news has occurred the one person I was most fearful to tell about my transitioning due fears they would reject me now knows. On Saturday my mum told my grandad and he is fine with it and says he will love and care about me no matter who or what I am. Also prior to my mum telling me she had told him when he left he said "look after yourself and see you later love". He may have said love before but this is the first time I registered it and given the conversation my mum had with him in hindsight makes it standout more.
Such relief.
Now can finally say that autumn has arrived. Wind, high levels of precipitations every day, and best of all:
Sunday: 25°
Monday: 20°
Tuesday: 15°
Time to take the long coat and hat!
Autumn finally arrived. No more unwanted summer.
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Quote from: Apple Sprout on October 29, 2013, 07:52:57 AM
Autumn finally arrived. No more unwanted summer.
Very cute Apple, looking extremely girly there!
hearing Lady Gaga's new song "Venus" for the first time.....GAWD I love her!! No matter how low life takes me, she brings me right back up into the clouds again.
Quote from: TaoRaven on October 29, 2013, 10:21:39 AM
hearing Lady Gaga's new song "Venus" for the first time.....GAWD I love her!! No matter how low life takes me, she brings me right back up into the clouds again.
I initially thought she was creepy but I mis-judged her, she is way more intelligent than most people are aware of too. Quite an amazing young lady!
Quote from: Apple Sprout on October 29, 2013, 07:52:57 AMAutumn finally arrived. No more unwanted summer.
*snip*
Très chique, ma chérie!
i don't know how many of you are aware of horescopes, for those who don't know, its an astrological document which is compiled using your time of birth, and an astrologer can predict about your future and guess what kind of person you are by analyzing it. here everyone has a horescope, and once in a while we take them to an astrologer to see what's coming next in our lives. believe me, they become true most of the time.
i was worried about my horescope because it doesn't say anything about my trans status, except for the single sentence 'she will work like a man'. anyways, mom took mine to an astrologer last week and know what she had predicted? she had said a surgery was due for my upper body, that's waist up. mom had been worried that it could be something concerned with the heart, but the astrologer had said in a lighter note that it could probably be related to breasts! when mom related the story to me i was like 'yeah i'm planning on a top surgery' but couldn't say anything. guess it made me happy.
Quote from: YBtheOutlaw on October 29, 2013, 02:07:37 PMi don't know how many of you are aware of horescopes, for those who don't know, its an astrological document which is compiled using your time of birth, and an astrologer can predict about your future and guess what kind of person you are by analyzing it. here everyone has a horescope, and once in a while we take them to an astrologer to see what's coming next in our lives. believe me, they become true most of the time.
i was worried about my horescope because it doesn't say anything about my trans status, except for the single sentence 'she will work like a man'. anyways, mom took mine to an astrologer last week and know what she had predicted? she had said a surgery was due for my upper body, that's waist up. mom had been worried that it could be something concerned with the heart, but the astrologer had said in a lighter note that it could probably be related to breasts! when mom related the story to me i was like 'yeah i'm planning on a top surgery' but couldn't say anything. guess it made me happy.
Interesting, i've never had a single one be spot on. That could be due to my planned birth date and actual birth date are on two opposite signs, or it could be because astrology is a pseudoscience.
Personally, I don't believe in astrology, but find it amusing. I like that mine is named after a war god.
Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on October 29, 2013, 02:59:16 AM
This happened Saturday but I didn't have a computer with net connection handy I couldn't post about it then, anyway some good news has occurred the one person I was most fearful to tell about my transitioning due fears they would reject me now knows. On Saturday my mum told my grandad and he is fine with it and says he will love and care about me no matter who or what I am. Also prior to my mum telling me she had told him when he left he said "look after yourself and see you later love". He may have said love before but this is the first time I registered it and given the conversation my mum had with him in hindsight makes it standout more.
Such relief.
Pleased for you, coming out to family is a big step!
Quote from: Edge on October 29, 2013, 05:30:08 PMPersonally, I don't believe in astrology, but find it amusing. I like that mine is named after a war god.
I find it funny to compare what it says to what actually happens. It said I'd make an extremely profitable financial investment. The only thing I've bought today was coffee, not quite what it think I meant.
I had a wonderful conversation with my SIL online tonight. She claims to not understand, but she is very caring and understanding.
I also got a random "I love you" from my mother online. There was good to come out of my bad events from the weekend and perhaps they can start to see that I'm not just happy to be OOTC but having at least as difficult a time as they are with it.
I'm trying to not also get ranty ;).
Quote from: Willow on October 29, 2013, 06:51:19 PM
I find it funny to compare what it says to what actually happens. It said I'd make an extremely profitable financial investment. The only thing I've bought today was coffee, not quite what it think I meant.
Lately I've been finding so much personal gain from coffee that I'm starting to see losses -- time to sell, sell, sell (i.e. cut way back on coffee again). My usage has slowly ramped up since coming out.
Quote from: kabit on October 29, 2013, 08:34:59 PMLately I've been finding so much personal gain from coffee that I'm starting to see losses -- time to sell, sell, sell (i.e. cut way back on coffee again). My usage has slowly ramped up since coming out.
My usage is only up because espresso is 3 times regular brewed coffee.
My day off and I have a date
Awake a bit early!! Extra time to clean up these legs :D
I just found out that there is going to be a new Loki comic where they will acknowledge and explore the fact that Loki is bisexual and genderfluid. AWESOME!
I have another date tomorrow night!
Being reminded that I have a few good friends.
My friend is moving to Seattle for law school and is selling me his limited edition MX-5 Miata really cheap when he leaves.
finding a penny on the couch with no one claiming it
into my top surgery fund it goes!
So, my Star Trek Fighter model that's I've been plugging away at for...err.. God knows how long now, has been getting great comments from Trek fans. One even wants to build a physical model of it. But, besides that, Andrew Probert, Rick Sternbach, John Eaves and Doug Drexler really like it too and have been giving me great pointers and feedback on my design as I go. Yes, help from the pro's!
http://youtu.be/YPoqLpTBDkQ
Today, in the mail, I got this. :D
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I'm so happy! :D It's like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmtpjALHRzY
Quote from: Keaira Raine on October 30, 2013, 06:08:56 PM
So, my Star Trek Fighter model that's I've been plugging away at for...err.. God knows how long now, has been getting great comments from Trek fans. One even wants to build a physical model of it. But, besides that, Andrew Probert, Rick Sternbach, John Eaves and Doug Drexler really like it too and have been giving me great pointers and feedback on my design as I go. Yes, help from the pro's!
Sounds like you're destined to become one of them Keaira!
Quote from: Shantel on October 30, 2013, 06:34:55 PM
Sounds like you're destined to become one of them Keaira!
;D She's very talented.And I'd be over the moon for her if she ended up doing design for a career.
I get to visit home tomorrow! I honestly can't wait!
I'm getting a makeover as part of a haloween costume tomorrow! I'm so excited!
Quote from: caleb. on October 30, 2013, 06:39:46 PM
;D She's very talented.And I'd be over the moon for her if she ended up doing design for a career.
I didn't say anything... :icon_ballbounce2:
I essentially lopped off all of my hair last night, and I'm still loving it to bits. Longish side bangs on one side, shortish bangs on the other - everything else, *poof*. After growing it for nearly two years, I forgot how cute my cheekbones are. They're the greatest feature on my entire person, and I just spent 10% of my life hiding them!
Who says transwomen have to be feminine? If I do decide to transition fully (I'm starting to love the idea of being on hormones but presenting as androgynous), tomboyish is where it's at!
Quote from: Horizon on October 30, 2013, 07:16:21 PM
I essentially lopped off all of my hair last night, and I'm still loving it to bits. Longish side bangs on one side, shortish bangs on the other - everything else, *poof*. After growing it for nearly two years, I forgot how cute my cheekbones are. They're the greatest feature on my entire person, and I just spent 10% of my life hiding them!
Who says transwomen have to be feminine? If I do decide to transition fully (I'm starting to love the idea of being on hormones but presenting as androgynous), tomboyish is where it's at!
It may just be the people I hang out with... but I don't know very many women who come off as super feminine. There are a few - some of whom I admire greatly - but I'll be wearing jeans to work except for special occasions like most of the guys do.
Quote from: Shantel on October 30, 2013, 06:34:55 PM
Sounds like you're destined to become one of them Keaira!
Nah, I'm no where near that good. Lol.
Quote from: caleb. on October 30, 2013, 06:39:46 PM
;D She's very talented.And I'd be over the moon for her if she ended up doing design for a career.
thats so sweet of you. ^_^ I would be so happy if I got to do this kind of stuff for a living.
Congratulations! ;D
Welcome!
Kisses
Quote from: Joules on October 31, 2013, 12:30:35 AM
I think I got regendered today! (Tip of the hat to kabit for the term). I went to refill some scrips (in male mode, my only for the moment), then wandered aimlessly about the grocery store while they were being filled. A clerk in one of the aisles saw me looking around, out of the corner of his eye, then said "Can I help you find something Ma'a........n?", regendered as he looked all the way up at me. It didn't even click with me at the time, only after I hit instant replay did I hear what he had said. Really? Maybe I'm making some progress after all. :icon_mrhappy:
:D Congrats!
Quote from: Joules on October 31, 2013, 12:30:35 AM
I think I got regendered today! (Tip of the hat to kabit for the term). I went to refill some scrips (in male mode, my only for the moment), then wandered aimlessly about the grocery store while they were being filled. A clerk in one of the aisles saw me looking around, out of the corner of his eye, then said "Can I help you find something Ma'a........n?", regendered as he looked all the way up at me. It didn't even click with me at the time, only after I hit instant replay did I hear what he had said. Really? Maybe I'm making some progress after all. :icon_mrhappy:
Kudos! :eusa_clap:
@Joules, nice feeling...congratulations! I think the word you used about me in my post is apropos back to you, "finesse."
Hugs
Jamie
After a tough week struggling with lots of illness, I gave myself a real treat by ordering plane tickets so that when I go to England to see my girlfriend this Christmas, instead of torturing myself on a boat for 4 hours - I just take a 23 minute plane ride instead. Now every single ticket is ordered and I can't wait to see her again :)
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on October 31, 2013, 10:09:58 AM
After a tough week struggling with lots of illness, I gave myself a real treat by ordering plane tickets so that when I go to England to see my girlfriend this Christmas, instead of torturing myself on a boat for 4 hours - I just take a 23 minute plane ride instead. Now every single ticket is ordered and I can't wait to see her again :)
There's nothing quite like seeing the smiling face of someone you love in person :)
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on October 31, 2013, 10:09:58 AM
After a tough week struggling with lots of illness, I gave myself a real treat by ordering plane tickets so that when I go to England to see my girlfriend this Christmas, instead of torturing myself on a boat for 4 hours - I just take a 23 minute plane ride instead. Now every single ticket is ordered and I can't wait to see her again :)
That's wonderful! Congrats and I'm glad you're feeling better!
@Willow, what's your costume today? Btw sorry I couldn't make it last week I didn't get an email back til Wed and missed it :'(
I am incredibly happy that I've finished midterms!
Quote from: Shaina on October 31, 2013, 01:04:46 PM@Willow, what's your costume today? Btw sorry I couldn't make it last week I didn't get an email back til Wed and missed it :'(
I am incredibly happy that I've finished midterms!
I'm being made into a witch or Cruella DeVille. My psychaiatrist (who I just saw) said that I have some resemblance to Julia Roberts, and, if I had the right clothing (which I don't :( ) to try and be her from Pretty Woman. She gave me some false eyelashes to help. She's so great! She's also going to find me an endo as well.
Probably because we still didn't have a secretary until last Thursday. Come this week!
Midterms? I didn't have any really. second bio and chem test in the last few weeks, along with a fourth math test looming, I didn't really have a midterm week.
I'm home!
Yay!
My wife and I had supper tonight with a friend of mine who just came back after spending the summer away.His birthday is the day before mine only a few years earlier about 10.We have always had a lot in common and have the same sense of humor. WE are well connected and are very close friends.Three years ago he told me he had untreatable terminal liver cancer and his scans were horrible.It was almost time to renew our vehicle tags which I always do for 2 years I told him to do the same.He balked and said I won't be here that long.I said just renew your tags you will be here and smiled.Well we just had supper tonight 3 years later and he is going strong.Things are getting better for him with his liver and he is happy.The power of prayer can be amazing. Pat
BTW I was the only one who had confidence that he would survive I asked him tonight and that's what he told my wife and I, not a single one of his DR's was positive with their prognosis.
Wow Pat, that's terrific! I'll pass that on to my little brother who has stage IV liver cancer, he'll appreciate it.
After a manic year now have the full month off work :)
Also chest is sore in a nice way ;D
Seeing endo next week so hope to increase E dose
Lots to look forward to while off work.
Jen
Setup my first laser appointment to start getting rid of my beard in mid November.
Second laser session completed just as painful as before despite using numbing cream. Though the power was higher and the pain was equal to when I didn't use the numbing cream so I guess it worked a little. :P
Three laser posts in a row... and in order by session # ;D :o
I'm going in for session 3 today!!
Enjoy you time with the pain monster everyone! :D
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Quote from: Jenny07 on November 01, 2013, 04:31:06 AM
Enjoy you time with the pain monster everyone! :D
The
happiest pain in the world!!!!!
Tell me about it. I love it as it feels so empowering doesn't it?
I have electo session booked for next week to start on the grey hairs laser has left.
Another step forward.
Happy days ahead.
I had my first electrolysis appointment last night; it went very well. Kind of stabby/burny, but I was able to tune it out. Managed to take care of some whiskers at the corners of my lips that have always been a pain to shave. With luck most of 'em are dead and I will have a tangible benefit from my first session! :)
Quote from: Robin Mack on November 01, 2013, 08:47:25 AM
I had my first electrolysis appointment last night; it went very well. Kind of stabby/burny, but I was able to tune it out. Managed to take care of some whiskers at the corners of my lips that have always been a pain to shave. With luck most of 'em are dead and I will have a tangible benefit from my first session! :)
The corners of the lips, under nose and ears are always the most painful to get rid of through electrolysis. Good going Robin, you're on a roll lady! Use some Emla cream and take a 500 mg Tylenol about an hour before each session, it helps.
I found my sock.
Quote from: Shantel on November 01, 2013, 08:56:36 AM
The corners of the lips, under nose and ears are always the most painful to get rid of through electrolysis. Good going Robin, you're on a roll lady! Use some Emla cream and take a 500 mg Tylenol about an hour before each session, it helps.
Thanks, Shantel... I shall give it a try! I do admit to being disappointed at how small an area was treated... but she did say she can pick up the pace if my face tolerates this well. :)
Quote from: Joules on November 01, 2013, 04:29:05 PM
Just got back from my doc appt, got my E dose raised, 2 patches at a time now! Not only that, but I got another surprise bonus - Progesterone!!!!
Since my kidneys didn't like Spiro, a month ago she cut my Spiro by 75% and put me on Finasteride but she is still concerned about too much T so she added the Progesterone to cut T even more. Her opinion is that the natural P is safe, it's the synthetic versions that are risky.
Congrats! That kind of news makes me... wait for it... Happy! :)
My mom couldn't finish her burger at work so she threw it in the trash because she thought it was tainted by the heat. Well I retrieved the burger (it is in foil) and left it outside for a critter to eat. A cat was just sitting and looking at me in a bush and as soon as I left, it came to eat it. The cat actually carried it to the bush and is eating it now. It makesm e feel happy not to waste food. I threw a fish head and some guts out there yesterday when my mom put it in the trash and it's gone today. I love feeding critters.
My daughter-son and I will be going to a Samhain ritual tonight.
Quote from: Constance on November 01, 2013, 05:13:42 PM
My daughter-son and I will be going to a Samhain ritual tonight.
How has your daughter been? I miss her being around here.
Quote from: Malachite on November 01, 2013, 05:02:14 PM
My mom couldn't finish her burger at work so she threw it in the trash because she thought it was tainted by the heat. Well I retrieved the burger (it is in foil)
omg I definitely thought this was going to end with "I retrieved the burger and it was delicious..."
Quote from: caleb. on November 01, 2013, 05:20:58 PM
omg I definitely thought this was going to end with "I retrieved the burger and it was delicious..."
Lol well I have eaten out of the trash can several times with no foil on the food so....
I found my drivers license after 6 months...finally I have an identity again
My HRC gear came in the mail today!
I got this... plus the free static cling "=" sticker for the car.
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Sorry for the crappy pic... it's also here (http://shop.hrc.org/jewelry-watches/for-the-neck/pendant-vision.html).
Quote from: <3 on November 01, 2013, 08:53:51 PM
You're not the only one. I don't know why people have so many issues with it unless it's the bathroom garbage or something
Can't say I've gotten sick eating out of the trash can.
When I lived in So. Calif. many folks including myself would set their containers of uneaten food on top of the newspaper racks so the 'homeless' people wouldn't get in trouble for digging in the trash for something to eat
I got a call from someone I haven't seen in a long time and who helped me a lot a couple years ago. She just left a message since I was in class at the time, but it was a nice surprise.
I really like a friend of mine. She talks with me about interesting topics and shares my interest in brains.
A nice shopping date is set nexy week with a woman I went to grammer school with. She is so nice, pretty & we are going to shop like there is no tomorrow. She is so happy for me that I'm changing my gender to become her sister & so am I. We wil be girl friends for life.
Quote from: kabit on November 02, 2013, 05:42:38 AM
Trans zombie?
I'm gonna be a trans mad scientist. She's going to be a cis psychologist.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on November 02, 2013, 05:23:43 AM
A nice shopping date is set nexy week with a woman I went to grammer school with. She is so nice, pretty & we are going to shop like there is no tomorrow. She is so happy for me that I'm changing my gender to become her sister & so am I. We wil be girl friends for life.
She'll be a great friend and supporter Francis, always nice to be so fortunate!
I'm still happy from what happened last night at my parents house. We had the tough discussion of this is now reality and they seem to have exited the denial stage. Made mom cry a few times but I think it hit home when I was leaving and she asked if I ever cry about any of this. I teared up as I said yes I've wept myself to sleep many times and have cried a lot over what all of this means for me. Her ahhhhh and teared up reaction followed by a good hug as I left just put me in a bubbly happy mood that is still with me today.
I got a Loki hoodie.
Quote from: Megumi on November 02, 2013, 09:07:45 AM
I'm still happy from what happened last night at my parents house. We had the tough discussion of this is now reality and they seem to have exited the denial stage. Made mom cry a few times but I think it hit home when I was leaving and she asked if I ever cry about any of this. I teared up as I said yes I've wept myself to sleep many times and have cried a lot over what all of this means for me. Her ahhhhh and teared up reaction followed by a good hug as I left just put me in a bubbly happy mood that is still with me today.
Always encouraging to see another young gal get over the frightful "Coming out ti parent" hump! :eusa_clap:
My amazing mother force cleaned my house and bought me lots of food and this super cute lantern! Best sick day so far :)
A deer just walked past my living room window, and the dog, asleep on my feet, never woke up. That would have been a fiasco!
seeing a young and spunky transguy on youtube say in a comment to someone who was judgemental I guess that he was going to fight for equality of the LBGT community and how we will win the fight whether that person likes it or not.
Bad picture, but I went to the other side of my crappy, dirty house and waited for him.
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Quote from: Devlyn Marie on November 02, 2013, 12:45:39 PM
Bad picture, but I went to the other side of my crappy, dirty house and waited for him.
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Oh how cute, is that Bambi? :)
It's 350 degrees for an hour if I have any say in the matter!
Do you own that house? It is probably 200 years old. I could have fun with it.
Oh ye, the deer is cute, too.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on November 02, 2013, 12:57:41 PM
It's 350 degrees for an hour if I have any say in the matter!
Might as well cook a whole chicken for the amount of meat that's there. That little fellow is the size they put in a kid's petting zoo. We have real deer out this way, mule dear get in the 200lb range dressed, and elk, enough to fill any big freezer. Nah, that attitude is what gets Bambi lovers upset about deer hunters. :icon_peace:
I do own it. The house was originally a depot/storehouse down the street on the edge of the river. It was moved to its present location and added onto in 1910. You are welcome here, my dog and I share ten rooms, in the winter I seal off everything but two rooms and we live in the "mini-apartment." Hugs, Devlyn
@Shan, but we had the one from the petting zoo last weekend with roast potatoes! >:-)
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on November 02, 2013, 01:10:18 PM
I do own it. The house was originally a depot/storehouse down the street on the edge of the river. It was moved to its present location and added onto in 1910. You are welcome here, my dog and I share ten rooms, in the winter I seal off everything but two rooms and we live in the "mini-apartment." Hugs, Devlyn
@Shan, but we had the one from the petting zoo last weekend with roast potatoes! >:-)
Now that you told LordKat that he's welcome there, if you fail on that promise along with that last comment to me, we will only be left to assume that you are one "Mean Girl!" ;D
Willing to rent out a room or two? My job has weird flexibilities. Can I garden there? I would love to do some painting and maintenance on it. It could be such a charming and warm place.
My hobby of houses would have an outlet.
*sigh* It is a nice dream.
Rent, no. Open my doors to you, yes. The garden here could spread to about 150' x 150' and there's lots of firewood around. I dream, too. I dream of taking in folks who need somewhere to go. I have the giant empty house, I need help and folks with nowhere to go to make it happen.
pretending like I was an awesome drummer and improvising some drums
C'mon LordKat, Devlyn you both could make it happen and I know you're both good folks and respect other people's privacy. I had posted something on another thread that back in 2005 there was a MtF gal here that had bought a big house and was taking in other trans people all of whom weren't exactly rolling in dough, the vision was that together they could make ends meet. Sounded like a great idea.
@Devlyn, I get the impression from the discussion & you mention the size of the lot, you probably live in a rural area, especially to have a deer go by your home. Pretty pic. A few miles away at a park on Lake Ontario 6 or 7 years ago I saw a deer & a doe. They must have moved on as I haven't seen it since.
Wonderful if you want to share your big home.
@Malachite, whenever I am watching bands on tv at a concert or watching bands in a pub, my hands & feet are always drumming. Don't know that I would be good at it but I love watching drummers. I don't read music either but I guess I have an ear for what sounds good.
Quote from: Jamiep on November 02, 2013, 04:37:39 PM
Malachite, whenever I am watching bands on tv at a concert or watching bands in a pub, my hands & feet are always drumming. Don't know that I would be good at it but I love watching drummers. I don't read music either but I guess I have an ear for what sounds good.
Mine too....along with guitairs! I can't help it. I love good music!
About fifteen miles from downtown Boston, actually. My street deadends on conservation land with a salt marsh and river. You can catch striped bass and flounder 100 yards away.
Yeah, and there's supposed to be a size limit on the stripers, but I always say if you make it the hundred yards from the river to the house without seeing the game warden, it's a keeper!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on November 02, 2013, 06:32:37 PM
Yeah, and there's supposed to be a size limit on the stripers, but I always say if you make it the hundred yards from the river to the house without seeing the game warden, it's a keeper!
Fire up the grill!
Quote from: Shantel on November 02, 2013, 06:37:14 PM
Fire up the grill!
That's right, because fish two and a half feet long don't fit in frying pans!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on November 02, 2013, 06:41:04 PM
That's right, because fish two and a half feet long don't fit in frying pans!
I can tell you a real sportswoman, my kinda gal. Are you spoken for honey? :D ;D
Maybe, maybe not. >:-)
'The 'Dark Side' vs 'Wish You Were Here' commentary' in the 'Favourite Album' thread!'
I made some much needed extra money this evening helping someone with their computer and I will get to do some work for them in the future too.
The house windows are cleaned and the jeep has been waxed. It feels good!
Quote from: big head horsey-face on November 02, 2013, 07:22:51 PM
I made some much needed extra money this evening helping someone with their computer and I will get to do some work for them in the future too.
Way to go, didn't know you were a computer geek.
Quote from: TanyaW on November 02, 2013, 07:21:38 PM
'The 'Dark Side' vs 'Wish You Were Here' commentary' in the 'Favourite Album' thread!'
:D
Quote from: Shantel on November 02, 2013, 10:09:19 AM
Always encouraging to see another young gal get over the frightful "Coming out ti parent" hump! :eusa_clap:
Thanks Shantel,
It's kind of funny/sad to say it but I think it was easier when I came out to them than to actually get to this point even though it was 3 days of complete misery for me to actually come out to them. After coming out all I seemed to get from my Mom for the past few weeks was hardcore denial with no ability to listen to reason. No matter how well I could answer her questions and give her real examples of things I've done to "fix" myself she would always say if we do X thing then that will fix you and everyone will be happy again. Most of the time X thing was something I already tried and that's why after over a decade of fighting myself over this that i'm at this point of transitioning. It really was like a listening to a broken record that was causing me a lot of grief. But with everything that happened on Friday night it has taken even more burden off of my shoulders now as it seems like they are making it closer and closer to the acceptance stage in all of this where I can finally get truthful real support from them which is something I desperately need to be able to begin to move forward in life.
perfect fall weather...just the right temperature, and that crisp, cool breeze blowing down off the mountains! I just love this time of year!
I learned that the patent for fire hydrants was burned in a fire at the patent office
Quote from: <3 on November 03, 2013, 12:47:34 AM
I learned that the patent for fire hydrants was burned in a fire at the patent office
I learned that irony is sweet.
Next visit to see my endo on Monday so excited about the outcome already.
Can't wait, but I will have to.
J
Quote from: Megumi on November 02, 2013, 11:01:33 PM
Thanks Shantel,
It's kind of funny/sad to say it but I think it was easier when I came out to them than to actually get to this point even though it was 3 days of complete misery for me to actually come out to them. After coming out all I seemed to get from my Mom for the past few weeks was hardcore denial with no ability to listen to reason. No matter how well I could answer her questions and give her real examples of things I've done to "fix" myself she would always say if we do X thing then that will fix you and everyone will be happy again. Most of the time X thing was something I already tried and that's why after over a decade of fighting myself over this that i'm at this point of transitioning. It really was like a listening to a broken record that was causing me a lot of grief. But with everything that happened on Friday night it has taken even more burden off of my shoulders now as it seems like they are making it closer and closer to the acceptance stage in all of this where I can finally get truthful real support from them which is something I desperately need to be able to begin to move forward in life.
Kudos! Seems that you had been laying the groundwork all along and your angst was predicated on your fears concerning their possible reaction at coming out time, but the previous string of hints were sufficient to soften the blow since they knew in their hearts that something was up all along. This is by far the better way rather than just dropping a bomb in their laps from out of nowhere with nothing previously to reference it to.
We had our first frost in last night. A dusting of white greeted me upon waking. Best thing about this? There will be a chill in the air all day. Which means when I go out, I'll be wearing a winter scarf! I LOVE scarves! Happy! Happy!
I think I got sired today at church....even in female mode. :)
My sister brought a trailer for me to use to move my furniture with. Now to find some laborers to load and unload it.
Had another appointment with my Endo and after being on a low dose of E for 5 weeks I am now on an increased dose for the next 3 months. Blood work is good, T down E up and have lost some weight as well. Boobies also starting to develop. ;D
So much happier than before.
A long, hard couple days. And here I sit with Van Morrison's 'Astral Weeks' on the headphones. Soul food!
A conversation on Facebook with someone I used to play bass for in college ;D
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Quote from: Kaylee on November 04, 2013, 01:31:45 PM
A conversation on Facebook with someone I used to play bass for in college ;D
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How wonderful! I'd say that's a full-on pass if I ever read one! :)
Last meeting with this therapist, I knew it was only temporary though. The trans-dedicated one on campus is booked through March, so I'm being sent off campus to one, and I actually get my pick. Oh my, I never got this with my parents in control.
Had a great outing as myself and a superb therapy session. I even said hi to a few people in my best fem voice. I guessed I passed as it didn't seem that they cared or are just use to seeing trans people. Still I'm happy as can be right now.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,144507.0/topicseen.html
Here, if you still hadn't. *Hugs* Sorry for whatever it is, though. Hopefully something will come along to balance it out soon.
Gym trainer kept calling me "he". :)
Quote from: Willow on November 04, 2013, 02:12:30 PM
Last meeting with this therapist, I knew it was only temporary though. The trans-dedicated one on campus is booked through March, so I'm being sent off campus to one, and I actually get my pick. Oh my, I never got this with my parents in control.
This ^ made me happy. A butterfly just starting to spread her wings.
Quote from: Joules on November 04, 2013, 09:19:31 PM
Lol, thanks Night Haven. I bookmarked the thread, I keep forgetting to do that when I see it. My day wasn't completely horrible, just one of those days when things were all wrong from the very start.
Gratz on your gendering sir.
Ugh, yeah, everybody gets those days. They always seem to come at the worst times.
*Tilts top hat* Thank you, miss.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 04, 2013, 09:17:04 PMThis ^ made me happy. A butterfly just starting to spread her wings.
More like pop out of my cocoon. Spreading my wings is a little bit down the road, still.
So I have survived the first electro session on my face. No where near as bad as I thought it would be.
Lots of white hairs to remove so it will take some time. >:(
Started going grey in my early 20's so bother that the laser doesn't work the best.
Have a 2 hour session booked next time so more fun.
That with everything else going on I feel very happy with the steady progress I am finally making.
Some of these I never ever thought I would/could be doing.
Laser, Check
Therapist , Check
Hormones, Check
Electro, Check
Time, bother....
Oh well still happy. ;D
Jen
Jenny, I'm with you GF. I'll have my first electroysis treatment Saturday morning. I finally found a nice woman close by, 35 minute drive that is very experienced. She is fun to talk with & we both know there will be lots of visits. I had laser treatments for all dark hair however the gray hairs have to go!!!
I know it will hurt however I'm really excited to think that one day maybe not to far away I can actually have a nice clean face & never ever shave again. Oh happy day.
HRT is also going very well. I feel good.
Agree FrancisAnn, I look forward to never having to shave it again just like all us girls do.
It's the most horrible thing to deal with on a daily basis.
Lucky for me I'm 10 minutes away from my place. A 2 hour session is going to seem long but they offer up to 3 hours which I will book after the next session. It could hurt a tad. :o
Still I love every step forward.
I love E as it's wonderful stuff ;D
Hugs
Jen
My new tyres have made my car a dream to drive. I've been terrified to drive in the rain for the past few months because my car is very prone to aquaplaning, so I spent a lot of time researching the correct type of tyres to solve this. I had them fitted on Saturday, and our roads were flooded this morning but my car was surefooted throughout. I felt safe & confident for the first time in ages.
Jeez. I need to get a life. ;D
It's getting cold! (Sweater season...)
I shaved my arms for the first time and it looks awesome!!
Now all I have left are the parts of my back I can't reach well (even with the stupid, expensive extender tool I'd gotten :P). Everything else (other than head & pubes) is as clean shaven as I have time for (and as good as my razor can handle).
I just wish it wouldn't grow so quickly... I could seriously shave my entire body every 2-3 days (some parts require it daily)... but the tough parts are once a week, only.
Quote from: Joules on November 05, 2013, 06:26:08 AM
He he, the T is setting in, loving driving and talking about tires!
LOL... I came out MTF shortly after trading in my corolla for a minivan. Coincidence?
Quote from: Joules on November 05, 2013, 06:30:24 AM
I think so, that sounds like nesting to me ;D
I don't know... the new woman in my life will thankfully be sterile ;) (And yet... I wish she weren't ::))
The events leading to me coming out were complex and subconscious... so mebbe!
Quote from: Joules on November 05, 2013, 06:26:08 AM
He he, the T is setting in, loving driving and talking about tires!
LOL - thanks Joules, I needed a good laugh! ;D
My sister changed her mind and decided to give me $1 for my cashews yesterday. That made me happy today.
Pre-ops and non-ops might want to skip this one .....
I divorced in '93 and haven't been with a man very often since then. Today was a "first date" of sorts with a man 30 years my junior and OMFG was it HAWT!!!! I haven't been that turned-on in AGES! Three Os in 15 minutes and I am STILL wet and puffy 2 hours later. Nice to know that although I am 64 (and nearly 40 years post) everything still works ;) I was never like this as a teenager LOL!
Oh yes, that made me VERY happy today ROFL!!!
There's a non-transitioning forum now. Yay!
Quote from: <3 on November 05, 2013, 01:44:41 PM
There's a non-transitioning forum now. Yay!
I logged into this thread to write the following: I am happy I got to speak with my SAA (Sex Addicts Anonymous) sponsor this morning. Inspired by what he shared with me and, as a result, want to talk with him at some not too distant future point about my being transgender.
These remain very true. Very happy for all of them. The day takes a turn...
Then I read the above and I am suddenly SO HAPPY! Thank you Susan et al for putting this up. I feel like I exist just a little bit more than I did five minutes ago!
After getting off to a late start this morning, I ran all the way to class to find that it'd been canceled. Yay!
Shared my therapy session with a girl from our autism therapy center today. I can't stop thinking about her somehow. We've been trying to actually do something out of therapy for weeks now, but me being the idiot i am, i forgot to check my messages and responded too late.
Quote from: Shaina on November 05, 2013, 03:26:38 PM
After getting off to a late start this morning, I ran all the way to class to find that it'd been canceled. Yay!
Awesome! Too bad you couldn't sleep in, but maybe you were awake and did something productive instead?
I say I wish they'd cancel work sometime... but us USG employees have had too much experience with that lately ;) Can I qualify that with
paid?
Quote from: kabit on November 05, 2013, 03:57:04 PM
Awesome! Too bad you couldn't sleep in, but maybe you were awake and did something productive instead?
I say I wish they'd cancel work sometime... but us USG employees have had too much experience with that lately ;) Can I qualify that with paid?
I did! I wrote a paper I definitely would have put off if I'd waited until tonight.
And oh goodness! I'm not ready to be a real grown up in these uncertain times lol.
Quote from: Shaina on November 05, 2013, 04:03:13 PM
I did! I wrote a paper I definitely would have put off if I'd waited until tonight.
And oh goodness! I'm not ready to be a real grown up in these uncertain times lol.
Never grow up! :D
Quote from: kabit on November 05, 2013, 04:13:46 PM
Never grow up! :D
I'm trying! :)
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My ex and his friend are going to attempt to fix my car tomorrow. They looked at it today and think they can fix it for less than $50. I'm hoping.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 05, 2013, 04:18:54 PM
My ex and his friend are going to attempt to fix my car tomorrow. They looked at it today and think they can fix it for less than $50. I'm hoping.
I'm not sure what's more awesome, the fact that you're on such good terms with your ex or that you might get such a great deal! Yay! :)
Quote from: Shaina on November 05, 2013, 04:15:22 PM
I'm trying! :)
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I'm president emeritus of the Peter Pan Society and have always related with those kids that lived under the stump at Never-Never Land. Hook has always just represented societal responsibility constantly pulling at my cotton tail, trying to draw me out of my comfy spot and make me be a real grown-up. (I've been faking it all these years)
Hook says that Shaina should be studying for that LSAT two days from now. Muhahaha!
Quote from: Shantel on November 05, 2013, 04:24:41 PM
Hook says that Shaina should be studying for that LSAT two days from now. Muhahaha!
Okay Auntie I'm going, I'm going :P
P.S. I just love you! :)
Quote from: Shaina on November 05, 2013, 04:26:34 PM
Okay Auntie I'm going, I'm going :P
P.S. I just love you! :)
Love you too baby girl!
Lab went well today. We were the last ones out, but still! We were doing titrations which I used to be bad at. Today, I was actually the competent one! I also helped my partner out a lot which I like because it makes me feel smart.
I also got a package in the mail. I love getting packages.
Next week is only a two day week for me. Not that I mind school. I'm just looking forward to the extra time off.
I'm going to see Thor on Saturday which I am ridiculously excited about!
I feel really good and excited in general today. I love being me.
Quote from: Shantel on November 05, 2013, 04:24:41 PM
I'm president emeritus of the Peter Pan Society and have always related with those kids that lived under the stump at Never-Never Land. Hook has always just represented societal responsibility constantly pulling at my cotton tail, trying to draw me out of my comfy spot and make me be a real grown-up. (I've been faking it all these years)
Hook says that Shaina should be studying for that LSAT two days from now. Muhahaha!
Knew there was a reason I liked you ;)
I'm the "rebel" or non-grown-up at work. I'm not sure how that works with trying to be a girl scout to avoid any problems during work transition . . . I DO follow the rules -- (all the really important ones ;) and even most of the unimportant ones).
Quote from: kabit on November 05, 2013, 05:28:11 PM
Knew there was a reason I liked you ;)
I'm the "rebel" or non-grown-up at work. I'm not sure how that works with trying to be a girl scout to avoid any problems during work transition . . . I DO follow the rules -- (all the really important ones ;) and even most of the unimportant ones).
Lol we do what it takes to pass in more ways than one! ;D
My sister is cheering me up.
Quote from: Malachite on November 05, 2013, 06:11:34 PM
My sister is cheering me up.
Go sis! How is that working?
Quote from: LordKAT on November 05, 2013, 06:39:58 PM
Go sis! How is that working?
She made me feel a lot better and she told me that she was going to help me drive and will send me some positive speaker to listen to online. She said that she was really proud of me, despite things not going the way I neccessarily wanted then to go. She's proud of me for shelling out the hundred bucks out my pocket and taking the initiative and how that is a characteristic of a great leader. She had to leave foor Bible Study but she did pray with me before she left.
All moved in, not 100% unpacked yet, but I did leave my bathroom kit in my old room. Oh well, I can pick it up tomorrow, along with my bike.
Got my Doctor Who: Series 1-7 Limited Edition Blu-ray Giftset today! ;D :eusa_dance: :icon_dance: :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_geekdance: :icon_joy:
Amy
My therapist's smile when I told him that, among other things since our last appointment, I have joined this forum.
Picturing Amy in a lavender dress and talking to a new friend on the phone.
My visit with the ENDO. :) Pat
Fencing. We're back into long swords.
Getting the call from my new Boss, letting me know that I start my new job tomorrow :)
They provide me with a free apartment on-site, so the money I save on rent I can put in my surgery savings!!!
In other words....I got my golden ticket!!!! :D
Finding out that something I said had a positive effect on a couple people.
This happened today, https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,153272.msg1274153.html#msg1274153
Feeling more relaxed now on an increase does of E.
Went for a 100k bike ride this morning and a 10k run before dinner.
Slowly getting fit again and loosing weight.
Have a month now just on me after giving so much to work for the last year and more without a break.
Also I love all of you here.
Though our ups and down moments it has truly made this journey happen.
Jen
Quote from: Megumi on November 05, 2013, 10:48:44 PM
This happened today, https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,153272.msg1274153.html#msg1274153
Good feelings! :)
Quote from: Jenny07 on November 06, 2013, 01:33:04 AM
Feeling more relaxed now on an increase does of E.
Went for a 100k bike ride this morning and a 10k run before dinner.
Slowly getting fit again and loosing weight.
Have a month now just on me after giving so much to work for the last year and more without a break.
Also I love all of you here.
Though our ups and down moments it has truly made this journey happen.
Jen
You're really inspiring!! Are you training for a triathlon?
Feeling prepared for my LSAT exam tomorrow. ;D
Someone called me by phone just now instead of emailing!
Quote from: Shaina on November 06, 2013, 12:17:05 PM
Feeling prepared for my LSAT exam tomorrow. ;D
:eusa_clap: :icon_woowoo: :icon_joy:
Today, I had a very nice lunch & thrift store shopping trip with a close woman friend. She & I went to grammar school & all the way through 12th grade together. She is very glad & supportive that I'm moving forward to correct my physical gender & we will be friends for life. Oh yea I found 7 or 8 very nice dresses and two piece suits obviously at a very low price.
It was a very nice day.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on November 06, 2013, 06:17:15 PM
Today, I had a very nice lunch & thrift store shopping trip with a close woman friend. She & I went to grammar school & all the way through 12th grade together. She is very glad & supportive that I'm moving forward to correct my physical gender & we will be friends for life. Oh yea I found 7 or 8 very nice dresses and two piece suits obviously at a very low price.
It was a very nice day.
Sounds like a very reaffirming and pleasant day Francis, your friend is a sweetheart!
We are good friends. She has two grand children & we also picked out some childrens clothes for her. That was fun to look for kids clothes in the right size for her. I felt great helping her shop.
Someone called me "sir."
I recorded my voice to see if it changed (I can't hear my own voice properly when I'm speaking). It seems a little less high pitched to me. I still sound like a kid and I'm probably imagining things, but still.
This happened fairly close to home (I didn't see it first hand sadly,) http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/dolphin-superpod-caught-on-video-in-haro-strait-b-c-1.2417537
Gender doc added Propecia and upped my lady candy to boot. Starting a three week vacation. Feels like Christmas came early this year.
I had an itch on my throat last night, so I absent-mindedly rubbed my hand across it to ease the itch. In doing so, I noticed that the texture of my skin felt different.
I went to take a look in the mirror... and sure enough, I've got hair growing on my throat now! It's very fine at the moment but it's definitely there.
Just had my hair done. Feeling gorgeous!
Showed a work colleague my avatar pic, she knows I'm transitioning but I'm not full time at work and she hasn't seen me in female mode. She's the first non-counsellor/doctor/shrink I've shown it to... I was a little apprehensive that it might be pushing the friendship too far but I could tell she was (pleasantly) surprised - she said she really liked it and I'm pretty sure she wasn't just trying to be nice. One thing I hadn't been expecting is that everyone I've shown it to has commented on the hair (wig) colour. I'm naturally a brownish colour but I just really liked the auburn when I saw the wig... and it's been so uplifting that everyone I've shown it to so far really thinks that colour suits me.
I agree too Grace - it complements your skin tone.
Thank you both! :D
Me too! And I love how you think about your relationship with her... I understand this strain we place on supporters, as well as the work friendship stuff.
Quote from: Shantel on November 06, 2013, 09:28:50 AM
Good feelings! :)
Very good feelings but at the same time I feel a bit guilty in that I'm having so many back to back positive experiences when so many other people who are in the same transitioning boat as me aren't getting to get the same positive experience and are only getting negative ones. I guess I'm just having one of those what makes me so special over others moment. I shouldn't let those thoughts dwell on me but it does creep in from time to time. I want everyone to have a happy and positive transition but I know life is never fair for everyone.
I did manage to keep my toes hidden from view in the communal showers. That's good, I guess.
Seeing the picture of Miley Cyrus on Cosmo. She is so hot that I could die. Funnily enough, I would have thought I'd have preferred her before her image change - as I usually like more conservative looking girls. But I never noticed her before she changed her look. she is so damn sexy as she is now.
I came out to my class today and they were amazing about it. They kept saying they felt honored I'd share that with them, and asking what they needed to do to help me further. Honestly I feel so normal and good right now... Also the class we had before that we had a guestlecturer say he was happy we had at least 2 boys in this class, he was counting me :D
ENDA passed the U.S. Senate!
amy
Half the battle is won, Onward!!
Quote from: Grace_C on November 07, 2013, 04:42:49 AM
Showed a work colleague my avatar pic, she knows I'm transitioning but I'm not full time at work and she hasn't seen me in female mode. She's the first non-counsellor/doctor/shrink I've shown it to... I was a little apprehensive that it might be pushing the friendship too far but I could tell she was (pleasantly) surprised - she said she really liked it and I'm pretty sure she wasn't just trying to be nice. One thing I hadn't been expecting is that everyone I've shown it to has commented on the hair (wig) colour. I'm naturally a brownish colour but I just really liked the auburn when I saw the wig... and it's been so uplifting that everyone I've shown it to so far really thinks that colour suits me.
Of course she wasn't just trying to be nice........you look gorgeous in your avatar pic.
I was having a crappy day at work. I went to the canteen, made myself a coffee, sat alone and looked out the window at the rain. Then I had the thought.........God, I love being a woman!!!
Then, everything was ok again.
Funny how innocent things can improve one's mood. Thanks for the smile, Ciara.
For the first time, I've managed to tie a bra from behind.
All of this because I am worried about being mocked in the gym if I have to tie it from the front and turn it. Although I am afraid too about my naked torso being seen there. Between the tiny boobs and the male form...
Quote from: Apple Sprout on November 07, 2013, 03:58:33 PM
For the first time, I've managed to tie a bra from behind.
All of this because I am worried about being mocked in the gym if I have to tie it from the front and turn it. Although I am afraid too about my naked torso being seen there. Between the tiny boobs and the male form...
Now you've got to learn how to change bras(normal ones with shoulder straps) without removing your top...
Quote from: big head horsey-face on November 07, 2013, 04:02:56 PM
Now you've got to learn how to change bras(normal ones with shoulder straps) without removing your top...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZWCSQm86UB4
Mmm. Taking out the arms from the top? ANd.. Apart from sweating, why would people do that?
What if you realize its the wrong bra for the top after you put everything on and are all made up? I try not to change tops after makeup as even though I only use a little, invariably I will get dirty the collar if I change it.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 07, 2013, 03:40:04 PM
Quite welcome Amy, my mind still likes picturing you in the one I showed you.
Quote from: big kim on November 07, 2013, 04:13:28 PM
Got another chance at work,have my job back and somewhere to live again.
These posts made me happy! ;D
Amy
Quote from: big head horsey-face on November 07, 2013, 04:16:24 PM
What if you realize its the wrong bra for the top after you put everything on and are all made up? I try not to change tops after makeup as even though I only use a little, invariably I will get dirty the collar if I change it.
That's what I was thinking now... I have two bras and one is far more padded than the other, plus the color issue is the top is too thin.
Found this thread. And the before and after section.
Quote from: big head horsey-face on November 07, 2013, 04:16:24 PM
What if you realize its the wrong bra for the top after you put everything on and are all made up? I try not to change tops after makeup as even though I only use a little, invariably I will get dirty the collar if I change it.
Ok I give up, what's the answer? ;D
As some of you know, I'm moving in with my mother til I can get back on my feeties. I still have to pay my own internet service. When I asked them about switching to my mom's house, the speed got faster, the cost went down and no charge for the move. Forget Comcast, Yay, Solaris.
LordKAT made me happy today. He's been going above and beyond to make me feel so much better. ;D
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 07, 2013, 05:48:13 PM
LordKAT made me happy today. He's been going above and beyond to make me feel so much better. ;D
Amy
:icon_redface: :) :icon_redface:
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 07, 2013, 05:48:13 PM
LordKAT made me happy today. He's been going above and beyond to make me feel so much better. ;D
Amy
Hehehe yes LordKAT is a sweetheart even if he is a soft touch for drama chicks. :icon_peace:
Quote from: Shantel on November 07, 2013, 06:08:22 PM
Hehehe yes LordKAT is a sweetheart even if he is a soft touch for drama chicks. :icon_peace:
You ladies are insisting on a red faced KAT. First of its kind I think. Better not stain my furr this way.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 07, 2013, 06:18:51 PM
You ladies are insisting on a red faced KAT. First of its kind I think. Better not stain my furr this way.
Such a doll-KAT! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: LordKAT on November 07, 2013, 06:18:51 PM
You ladies are insisting on a red faced KAT. First of its kind I think. Better not stain my furr this way.
This post makes me happy. I'm glad to see you're cheering up more too.
I'm still waiting for that lavender dress and tiara so I can get you the rest of your lavender tux and we can paint the town re... lavender. ;)
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 07, 2013, 06:32:42 PM
This post makes me happy. I'm glad to see you're cheering up more too.
I'm still waiting for that lavender dress and tiara so I can get you the rest of your lavender tux and we can paint the town re... lavender. ;)
Amy
It pays to have friends who I like helping if I can.
The dress is ...in process. Just a while longer.
Now, I am happy also that my biscuits turned out perfectly and I can eat a dozen egg and cheese biscuits over the next few days and no worries about burnt or gooey biscuits.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 07, 2013, 06:41:18 PM
It pays to have friends who I like helping if I can.
The dress is ...in process. Just a while longer.
Now, I am happy also that my biscuits turned out perfectly and I can eat a dozen egg and cheese biscuits over the next few days and no worries about burnt or gooey biscuits.
It's a symbiotic relationship. ;)
*HUGS*Amy
Waxed my arms, then moisturized.
So. Going. Out. Later.
That Amy seems to be feeling better today!
Amy's signature. Purrrr!!!
Quote from: NathanielM on November 07, 2013, 01:54:55 PM
I came out to my class today and they were amazing about it. They kept saying they felt honored I'd share that with them, and asking what they needed to do to help me further. Honestly I feel so normal and good right now... Also the class we had before that we had a guestlecturer say he was happy we had at least 2 boys in this class, he was counting me :D
FANTASTIC!!!!!!!
Congratulations!
I'm sitting here after an intense two hour session with a new PT at the gym. Sore but happy.
At the end of the session my BP was 131/80.
She didn't believe my age when I told her :laugh:
Time for a cigarette and a cream cake (just joking :laugh:)
Good deal Cindy! Is that without blood pressure meds?
Finally Shaina comes to a group meeting.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 07, 2013, 09:42:37 PM
Good deal Cindy! Is that without blood pressure meds?
Yep, I have been taken off all meds except the good ones. Depression and BP all thrown away (under supervision)!
Quote from: Cindy on November 07, 2013, 09:54:21 PM
Yep, I have been taken off all meds except the good ones. Depression and BP all thrown away (under supervision)!
YooHoo!!!
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Lost more weight today. According to my BMI, I am no longer overweight for the first time in 16 years! ;D :eusa_dance: :icon_geekdance: :icon_joy: :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_rockon:
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 08, 2013, 07:18:33 AM
Lost more weight today. According to my BMI, I am no longer overweight for the first time in 16 years! ;D :eusa_dance: :icon_geekdance: :icon_joy: :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_rockon:
Amy
http://stream1.gifsoup.com/view4/2292970/snoopy-happy-dance-o.gif (http://stream1.gifsoup.com/view4/2292970/snoopy-happy-dance-o.gif)
QuoteKATs have friends because KATs are friends :)
Hugs
:icon_redface: Thanks
Quote from: LordKAT on November 08, 2013, 07:30:35 AM
http://www.glitter-graphics.com/images/empty.gif (http://www.glitter-graphics.com/images/empty.gif)
:icon_weirdface: Does "empty" literally mean there's nothing there? I don't get it, maybe I'm just slow. :P
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 08, 2013, 07:35:21 AM
:icon_weirdface: Does "empty" literally mean there's nothing there? I don't get it, maybe I'm just slow. :P
Amy
That's where the weight you lost is.
I think...
I got misgendered at lunch today.
Wait... am I posting in the right thread, you may ask? Why, yes I am... because it's the way I handled the situation like a boss that made me happy.
I was waiting in a coffee shop for my drinks to be made, and the barista asked "Would you like a tray to carry those in, Madam?". (I should point out that I have a short beard at the moment, so I think she needs to get her eyes checked if you ask me). I acted startled and amused, looked behind me to see if there were any women there that I hadn't noticed, and then said: "Uh, no I don't need a tray thanks," then I took a comedic, worried glance down at my nether regions and continued "but 'Madam'? I bloody well hope not!" I laughed and joked about it, and the barista went beetroot and immediately apologised. I said "It's ok, it happens all the time - I think it's because of my height". Oh, how I LOLed.
I then joked with the lady next to me in the queue that the barista's got me worried now and I might want to go to the toilets and double-check nothing's missing, and she said "You don't mind them taking a couple of years off you, but there are some things you don't want to lose!". Oh, Lol. I don't actually have anything there to lose (and I don't even pack, so there's nothing to see), but I acted like I did and I joked about how fond I am of it, etc. etc. etc. Phew, all that acting I did as a kid has paid off, and I came out on top of the situation.
Anyway... the other reason why this whole thing made me happy is because the other drink I was buying was for a homeless guy who hangs out in our town. It's been pouring with rain all day so when I spotted him I asked him whether he'd like a drink. Turns out he likes lattes; I'll remember that for future reference. The smile he gave me when I delivered it to him - complete with the huge amounts of sugar I remembered he likes from the last time I bought him a hot drink - was well worth it.
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 08, 2013, 07:18:33 AM
Lost more weight today. According to my BMI, I am no longer overweight for the first time in 16 years! ;D :eusa_dance: :icon_geekdance: :icon_joy: :icon_bumdance-nerd: :icon_rockon:
Amy
Poop. I'm checking the scale every day and I can't earn weight. No matter what I try, I can't go over 57.5. I've even taken to eat junk food and I still get perfect results. In fact, since Stradiol my cholesterol levels have dropped to minimum levels. Despite it not being bad, it even gave a warning on the last blood work.
Seriously. Yesterday I had doritos with nacho cheese in the evening in a effort to get a bit more of fat. I even work out 3-4 days per gym in strenght training hoping to increase the mass a bit (even if it is lean mucle, which will also be good since on E I can't hyperthropy anymore). I even readjusted my diet, but I only managed to make it even more healthy by increasing the veggies....
Do I have thyroid problems or what?
Quote from: Apple Sprout on November 08, 2013, 08:41:31 AM
Poop. I'm checking the scale every day and I can't earn weight. No matter what I try, I can't go over 57.5. I've even taken to eat junk food and I still get perfect results. In fact, since Stradiol my cholesterol levels have dropped to maximum levels. Despite it not being bad, it even gave a warning on the las blood work.
Seriously. Yesterday I had doritos with nacho cheese in the evening in a effort to get a bit more of fat. I even work out 3-4 days per gym in strenght training hoping to increase the mass a bit (even if it is lean mucle, which will also be good since on E I can't hyperthropy anymore). I even readjusted my diet, but I only managed to make it even more healthy by increasing the veggies....
Do I have thyroid problems or what?
Tapeworm? ;D You might have a thyroid problem Apple, there are meds that can speed up or slow down metabolic rates. You're like someone who is close to me who can eat pizza and drink a pitcher of beer three times a week and not gain an ounce, when all I gave to do is just look at the stuff and I gain 10 lbs. Gee you folks......Grrrrrrrrrr! >:-)
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 08, 2013, 07:35:21 AM
:icon_weirdface: Does "empty" literally mean there's nothing there? I don't get it, maybe I'm just slow. :P
Amy
Weird, it was a snoopy doing the happy dance. Try the new link.
Quote from: Apple Sprout on November 08, 2013, 08:41:31 AM
Poop.
Precisely! I think you may really be on to something here.
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Have you checked for the presence of darkmatter? That may account for the loss of weight....[runs for life]
Quote from: Nicolette on November 08, 2013, 09:08:18 AM
Precisely! I think you may really be on to something here.
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Have you checked for the presence of darkmatter? That may account for the loss of weight....[runs for life]
Nah, it's true that when stressed and anxious I don't process food and drop quickly, but I readjusted the diet to avoid that and keep careful with the excess of fiber. Things are like this:
- Pre everything I was a weight gainer.
- On GID I started losing weight fast
- Living alone I literally don't eat between hours all the time due to the fridge being empty. Also, my mother would keep doing greasy foods constantly. I only cook the most symplistic things. Also I never eat or buy chocolate, sweets, whatever.
- Previously, my contract included food tickets, so 2-3 times per week I would eat three course meals, with mashed potatoes or chips every day. That way I went from 65 to 72.
After moving away, my stomach literally reduced the intake. I can't eat such big food anymore, and I have turned into... into how my female cousins ate at family reunions. Also my calories intake is smaller than the rest of my colleagues due to literally no alcohol... My diet is perfect, but my metabolism seems to be the same, I have no cravings, and my stress levels (something I can't fix) also impacts my life. At work when stress I would eat junk literally every morning....
Anyways, everything is still going to my tummy. I hop the fat redistribution starts soon...
I've partially stopped caring about the way I present myself in public. I'm totally fine with swaying my hips around as much as it feels normal in public now, and it's actually helped with my balance issues; I don't feel like I'm leaning to one side when I walk.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 08, 2013, 08:58:04 AM
Weird, it was a snoopy doing the happy dance. Try the new link.
Aw, that was cute, much better than nothing. ;) Thanks LordKittyKAT! :-*
Amy
Ok so it didnt happen today but ive been away for awhile (very very sick after halloween). I was out in Dublin over the bank holiday it was so amazing to be out as myself again, had my first cocktails yay danced for about 5 hours straight some laugh. Anyways was hanging out in the beer garden catching my breath and i notice this guy looking at me shy like and stuff so I wave and smile at him as is in my character. After a few mins he comes over to me and says that he thinks i am one of the most beautiful girls at the bar. Im pretty sure everyone could see how red my face went through my make up. Didnt just make my day it made my year yay
Made my sister happy! ;D
Amy
Captured a bounty on GTA V Online and the thing is I wasn't even going after the person at first but when they drive past me, the cops were chasing him and because I had a stolen vehicle, they were now chasing me. Needless to say I went after him then and when the cops made him spin out of control, I gunned him down and got my $5000. That will be some nice ammo money.
Quote from: Willow on November 08, 2013, 01:00:31 PM
I've partially stopped caring about the way I present myself in public. I'm totally fine with swaying my hips around as much as it feels normal in public now, and it's actually helped with my balance issues; I don't feel like I'm leaning to one side when I walk.
This is mine for today! I'm just feeling happy... but I also learned how to walk (like what you're saying), I think. I just sort of hit on it at work (of all places), rolling my feet in a certain way or something ~ it's hard to describe. I'll be doing it outside work, first... though, once you know how it's hard to stop!
Quote from: gravebecky on November 08, 2013, 01:25:33 PM
Ok so it didnt happen today but ive been away for awhile (very very sick after halloween). I was out in Dublin over the bank holiday it was so amazing to be out as myself again, had my first cocktails yay danced for about 5 hours straight some laugh. Anyways was hanging out in the beer garden catching my breath and i notice this guy looking at me shy like and stuff so I wave and smile at him as is in my character. After a few mins he comes over to me and says that he thinks i am one of the most beautiful girls at the bar. Im pretty sure everyone could see how red my face went through my make up. Didnt just make my day it made my year yay
Big win Becky! :eusa_clap:
My car is back, needs more work but I can get back to moving.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 08, 2013, 06:13:40 PM
My car is back, needs more work but I can get back to moving.
I assume they got it running, so good of them!
Quote from: LordKAT on November 08, 2013, 06:13:40 PM
My car is back, needs more work but I can get back to moving.
YAY! :icon_dance:
Amy
Quote from: LordKAT on November 08, 2013, 06:13:40 PM
My car is back, needs more work but I can get back to moving.
Awesome 8)
Hugs
Quote from: kabit on November 08, 2013, 04:10:07 PM
This is mine for today! I'm just feeling happy... but I also learned how to walk (like what you're saying), I think. I just sort of hit on it at work (of all places), rolling my feet in a certain way or something ~ it's hard to describe. I'll be doing it outside work, first... though, once you know how it's hard to stop!
That was always the way I walked. And I always sat with my legs or ankles or thighs crossed (can't wait for SRS so I can do so without being uncomfortable!) And then these things got me called gay, so I stopped. I now no longer care.
Quote from: Willow on November 08, 2013, 07:14:24 PM
That was always the way I walked. And I always sat with my legs or ankles or thighs crossed (can't wait for SRS so I can do so without being uncomfortable!) And then these things got me called gay, so I stopped. I now no longer care.
I find the legs crossed is quite comfortable while fully tucked. I find myself doing it subconsciously now (unless I'm feeling self conscious).
Here's another!
I successfully defended the Native American right to have the names of two sports teams changed: the redskins and the indians. Of course the whole "tradition" argument was brought up... and I said that just because it was a part of the times to call them that in the 50s (or whenever it was... I'm not so up on sports - I didn't know which team was football - though I probably would have if I'd thought about it) ... just because it was "normal" then didn't make it appropriate and now there's a chance to make it right. He also brought up that he didn't find the terms offensive... so I asked if he was Native American - of course he's not... so I said he didn't have the right to determine if the names are offensive or not.
LOL. Debate won, easily. I should do more of this
before I'm totally out... since it will carry more weight now than then..
I think I got sir'd at dinner. ;D
It has a bit hard to hear, but I'm going to take what I can get.
Quote from: kabit on November 08, 2013, 07:20:44 PM
I find the legs crossed is quite comfortable while fully tucked. I find myself doing it subconsciously now (unless I'm feeling self conscious).
Unfortunately, I've tried ticking, but even with diagrams of what goes where, I find myself unable to figure out what goes where.
A really nice shopping trip at my local Goodwill store, dressed 90% female. The clerks are all very nice & want me to dress up any way I want & come visit, shop more. It's a quiet store & they are glad to see me. They all know I'm on HRT & trying my best to join them 100% one day as a woman. They have even suggested some men friends of theirs would like to date me if I want. I may soon have a new blind date, That would be fun.
I found a down person and got them to laugh. The joke was kind of eh, but it worked.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on November 08, 2013, 09:32:29 PMA really nice shopping trip at my local Goodwill store, dressed 90% female. The clerks are all very nice & want me to dress up any way I want & come visit, shop more. It's a quiet store & they are glad to see me. They all know I'm on HRT & trying my best to join them 100% one day as a woman. They have even suggested some men friends of theirs would like to date me if I want. I may soon have a new blind date, That would be fun.
This goodwill experience sounds fun.
I want to try it!
Quote from: Willow on November 08, 2013, 07:26:32 PM
Unfortunately, I've tried ticking, but even with diagrams of what goes where, I find myself unable to figure out what goes where.
It was a royal pain at first, but I think I have it down pat now.
My method is: panties (size 6), gaff (homemade), and panties (size 7). It seems like overkill, but it keeps everything where it should be and doesn't look like I'm wearing a homemade gaff :D
I wear mostly men's or women's jeans (even "skinny" ~ Levi's 510) and men's khakis.
Quote from: kabit on November 08, 2013, 10:03:02 PMIt was a royal pain at first, but I think I have it down pat now.
My method is: panties (size 6), gaff (homemade), and panties (size 7). It seems like overkill, but it keeps everything where it should be and doesn't look like I'm wearing a homemade gaff :D
I wear mostly men's or women's jeans (even "skinny" ~ Levi's 510) and men's khakis.
Caution: post may be TMI:
I have no idea where to tuck in the testes. Totally lost on it. The rest I get completely, just can't seem to do step #1.
Quote from: <3 on November 08, 2013, 10:38:18 PM
So my wife invited a couple girl friends over to hang out and watch movies and I was invited too. One of the girls mentioned something about it being weird for me hanging out with a bunch of girls and my wife said "He is pretty much one of the girls, so it's not that big of a deal."
Your wife sounds awesome :)
Quote from: Willow on November 08, 2013, 10:05:36 PM
Caution: post may be TMI:
I have no idea where to tuck in the testes. Totally lost on it. The rest I get completely, just can't seem to do step #1.
They go in the inguinal canals
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inguinal_canal
Makeup + Cigarettes
Quote from: <3 on November 08, 2013, 11:36:58 PM
Hahaha...yeah...well maybe if we had never been more than friends. Long story...
The story sounds familiar...
except I don't know if my wife and I will ever make it back to "friends."
Quote from: Jamie de la Rosa on November 08, 2013, 11:34:46 PM
They go in the inguinal canals
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inguinal_canal
I'm just having trouble finding mine. Am I doing it wrong or something?
I made someone special to me feel good and start their day off well. :)
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Cuddling this! AND feeling much much better! Had a very tough week, both this and last week thanks to non-cooperative lungs.. but I can finally see some light in the end of the tunnel :D
Cute. BTW, I'm all for lighting up the ends of the tunnel. Have a torch.
I found a nickel.
The amazing people at Susan's. Specifically a certain special someone who keeps making me smile like this ;D
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 09, 2013, 03:02:27 PM
The amazing people at Susan's. Specifically a certain special someone who keeps making me smile like this ;D
I know that feeling.
I went for a 5 km walk/run (3.22 miles - my neighborhood is almost exactly 1 km around)...
That alone would be some good happy... but there were some kids (about 6) walking a friend over from the next house... the mothers were talking. One of the girls said "that's a Maaaaan! Can you believe it?" ROFLMAO... literally (ok, except for the floor and rolling part -- and my rear is falling off from girl walking for a good part of that walk :D)
And this is after my parents told me the family was worried I'd start wearing dresses, looking like a man :P :P :P.
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on November 09, 2013, 02:35:46 PM
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Cuddling this! AND feeling much much better! Had a very tough week, both this and last week thanks to non-cooperative lungs.. but I can finally see some light in the end of the tunnel :D
You are super cute. ;D You just look like a really sweet person all around.
Quote from: Malachite on November 08, 2013, 03:28:45 PM
Captured a bounty on GTA V Online and the thing is I wasn't even going after the person at first but when they drive past me, the cops were chasing him and because I had a stolen vehicle, they were now chasing me. Needless to say I went after him then and when the cops made him spin out of control, I gunned him down and got my $5000. That will be some nice ammo money.
I know the feeling was having this epic battle with somebody and at the end they put a hit out on me (grrrr). Anyways i decide to run like a bat outta hell back to the city thinking I am all safe. WRONG a another person with a bounty on their head decided to try and cash in on me, in their assault chopper. After some pretty cool and not so cool driving by yours truly i get a few seconds ahead of the heli and blow that so and so outta of the sky. epic win
Quote from: caleb. on November 09, 2013, 03:31:49 PM
You are super cute. ;D You just look like a really sweet person all around.
Hahaha oooh you<3 Well I'm not exactly mean ^-^ (And anyone with a Charmander as their picture has to be cute!)
Purple gel mani/pedi.
Seeing more Purple power!!
My lucky dress is purple ;D
I'm seeing Buddy Guy play tonight, so I'm wearing a polka dot dress to match his Fender Strat.
Thor: The Dark World is AWESOME. I want to see it again. Right now.
Seeing Becky join the purple pride people.
Black finger and toenails.
Quote from: Just Gwynne! on November 09, 2013, 09:42:00 PM
Black finger and toenails.
That sounds more like unhappy injury. I hope you meant painted.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 09, 2013, 09:54:27 PM
That sounds more like unhappy injury. I hope you meant painted.
nail polish, not drunken hammering
Quote from: Just Gwynne! on November 09, 2013, 09:42:00 PM
Black finger and toenails.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 09, 2013, 09:54:27 PM
That sounds more like unhappy injury. I hope you meant painted.
Quote from: Just Gwynne! on November 09, 2013, 10:05:21 PM
nail polish, not drunken hammering
*Squirts beverage out her nose*
ROFLMAO, :laugh:
Quote from: V M on November 09, 2013, 10:29:11 PM
*Squirts beverage out her nose*
ROFLMAO, :laugh:
Ditto, til tears came and ribs hurt.
Thank god I live alone.
Earlier this evening was my Re/Birth ritual during which David was symbolically laid to rest and Constance was birthed into the world. It was a small thing. Me (a Christian Witch), a Heathen, 4 Wiccans (including my daughter), and one Christian seminarian. And in 2 weeks I'll have my re-baptism.
I am happy that I got to relax in my really nice bathtub and then I got a bunch of work done. Ah... I love checking stuff off of a list. :)
Quote from: Constance on November 09, 2013, 11:21:18 PM
Earlier this evening was my Re/Birth ritual during which David was symbolically laid to rest and Constance was birthed into the world. It was a small thing. Me (a Christian Witch), a Heathen, 4 Wiccans (including my daughter), and one Christian seminarian. And in 2 weeks I'll have my re-baptism.
Sounds great Constance! :)
Oh the pain!
My baby boobies are saying we are here and not to be ignored. :o
I can even see some growth if I look carefully. ;D
How I love every new day and the changes it brings.
Don't worry Cindy, I know the rock and am trained using explosives :D
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Today I attended a childhood friend's gay wedding. It was really nice, I am really happy for the couple, and was nice be surrounded, by non judgmental people. at one point in the wedding I thought that it was a bit Sad that his parents were not there (they are hard core fundamentalist) and then realized that it would have broken the harmony and love to allow judgmental people there.
Congradulations Robert and Ash
I have two long chin hairs on the side of my chin and one chin hair under my chin. That's the most chin hair I've ever had! I feel like I have a goatee.
Quote from: Malachite on November 10, 2013, 06:17:46 PM
I have two long chin hairs on the side of my chin and one chin hair under my chin. That's the most chin hair I've ever had! I feel like I have a goatee.
You might be seeing double hon! :)
Quote from: Shantel on November 10, 2013, 06:19:34 PM
You might be seeing double hon! :)
I hope I get a couple of more!
Quote from: Jenny07 on November 10, 2013, 02:52:24 AM
Oh the pain!
My baby boobies are saying we are here and not to be ignored. :o
I can even see some growth if I look carefully. ;D
How I love every new day and the changes it brings.
Don't worry Cindy, I know the rock and am trained using explosives :D
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Hi Jenny,
Boobies are boobies even if only babies!!! These little changes that are happening must be really fulfilling for you. Keep on loving every day girl.
Thank you for making me smile.
Love,
Ciara.
I feel good today, E feels great, new girl friends, exercising to lose some fat & excited for 2nd visit with my electro lady for Saturday, we are moving forward on cleaning up my facial hair. She is excited to reshape my eyebrows & permanetly dye them. Nice ad placed for men & some are responding. I'm going to be picky & only choose a stud I hope. I want a real man to enjoy this winter.
Snuggling with the puppy this morning
I know it's just a little thing... but today I'm wearing the largest shoes I've ever worn.
I've noticed over the past few weeks that my usual shoes have been starting to pinch (I actually have corns on both of my big toes from where my shoes have been pressing against them) so over the weekend I went out to buy some new shoes. For the first time ever, I tried on a size 6, and they felt really comfortable! So I bought two pairs, and I'm wearing one today. ;D
My previous shoe size? A size 4 or 5, depending on the shoe.
Quote from: gravebecky on November 09, 2013, 04:52:02 PM
I know the feeling was having this epic battle with somebody and at the end they put a hit out on me (grrrr). Anyways i decide to run like a bat outta hell back to the city thinking I am all safe. WRONG a another person with a bounty on their head decided to try and cash in on me, in their assault chopper. After some pretty cool and not so cool driving by yours truly i get a few seconds ahead of the heli and blow that so and so outta of the sky. epic win
Hahahaha good one! One got was one the mic and he was like "Who is this guy?" and then he called out my PSN ID and then he said "This guy is about to get ->-bleeped-<-ed." He was in a helicopter and coming towards me so I drove under a bridge and he crashed his helicopter lol.
Playing my pink Stratocaster with the pick Buddy Guy handed me the other night.
Quote from: Joules on November 11, 2013, 02:37:57 PM
Not sure of your age FTM, but when I was in my late 30s, I suddenly started needing a bigger size. The same thing happened to a good friend as well, the theory we had at the time was it's part of getting older, the muscles, ligaments and bones stretch and give under a lifetime of weight bearing.
In your case it might be a bit of the T also, gaining some muscle mass.
Funny story for me... in my mid-30s (January, actually ;)) I went to a
good shoe store and they told me I'd been wearing the wrong size all my life. I should be a 10.5 wide not an 11.5/12... yay, women's 12 fit me perfectly and an 11 wide would probably be even better. That was the best loss of a size and a half ever!
Found my fingernail filer
Quite certain that the gym trainer I met with sees me as a guy.
And, exercise, I'm pleased to find, feels rather liberating. *Still enjoying the buzz*
My landlord has decided to 'work' with me about keeping my home. I'll call tomorrow and see what their idea of working with me entails.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 11, 2013, 07:00:53 PM
My landlord has decided to 'work' with me about keeping my home. I'll call tomorrow and see what their idea of working with me entails.
Been keeping you in my thoughts, I hope it will work out to be a good deal for you
Hugs
My endo finally called me back! I'm starting a progesterone cycle in 11 days as long as I pass the blood pressure test. Wasn't a problem before, but methinks I'll up my daily cardio just in case.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 11, 2013, 07:00:53 PM
My landlord has decided to 'work' with me about keeping my home. I'll call tomorrow and see what their idea of working with me entails.
^THIS! ;D
Scheduled my first laser appointment for Wednesday. Had a great therapy session today too!
Quote from: Megumi on November 11, 2013, 08:10:43 PM
Scheduled my first laser appointment for Wednesday. Had a great therapy session today too!
What do you pay for laser? Here it's like $170 per session. I kind of want to have it done (face) but blaargh the price. Good luck! So so jelly :D
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on November 11, 2013, 08:17:02 PMWhat do you pay for laser? Here it's like $170 per session. I kind of want to have it done (face) but blaargh the price. Good luck! So so jelly :D
A place around here referred to my by a friend does full face for $125 a treatment.
Quote from: Willow on November 11, 2013, 09:14:17 PM
A place around here referred to my by a friend does full face for $125 a treatment.
Nice! I live in the wrong country it seems lol!
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What made me happy..... the "elders react to Justin Bieber" video on youtube! Oh dear how I giggled at the first minute and I ended up on a serious youtube vid-to-vid roll!
Check out groupon for deals on laser. Often you can get up to 88% off if you buy 6 sessions at once.
My bad mood has passed. Hooray! Sometimes, you just gotta let it out.
Also, I really like myself.
Quote from: Edge on November 11, 2013, 10:25:45 PM
My bad mood has passed. Hooray! Sometimes, you just gotta let it out.
Also, I really like myself.
Good deal, Edge. Lot of us like you too. You do have to just let it out sometimes. Sometimes I'm glad when no ones around and I let it out. Bad gas can kill. Must have been the beans and cabbage.
I got to play GTA 5 for most of my day. :D
Quote from: William Wimmer on November 11, 2013, 10:39:29 PM
I got to play GTA 5 for most of my day. :D
Finally figured out what GTA stood for after seeing it so many times from Malachite :P Man, I feel old!
Quote from: Shaina on November 11, 2013, 11:43:35 PM
Finally figured out what GTA stood for after seeing it so many times from Malachite :P Man, I feel old!
and I'm playing GTA V right now :)
I started a new facebook site 100% as Francis Ann a while back. I'm adding a lot of old & new friends to connect & enjoy life as a woman. It's great fun with new & older friends. I'm keeping it 100% women & nothjing to do with TS older stuff at all. Just talk about nails, hair, fashion, men. Just normal stuff women love to talk about.
I just added a nice older friend, another woman.
Yea.
Miscalculated my budget a bit - for the next two weeks, I have $260 MORE than expected! Such a great feeling :)
Quote from: Shaina on November 11, 2013, 11:43:35 PM
Finally figured out what GTA stood for after seeing it so many times from Malachite :P Man, I feel old!
WHAAAT? Not even old, when I was younger I used to sneak into my cousin's collection of games and borrow GTA! I was such a great little car-stealer, I tell you!
Lost more weight! I've now lost over 67 lbs this year!! ;D
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on November 12, 2013, 04:39:54 AM
WHAAAT? Not even old, when I was younger I used to sneak into my cousin's collection of games and borrow GTA! I was such a great little car-stealer, I tell you!
Now I feel old, I was 18 the year the first GTA released and only a few months before my oldest was born! He's 15 now! :o
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 12, 2013, 07:59:39 AM
Lost more weight! I've not lost over 67 lbs this year!! ;D
Now I feel old, I was 18 the year the first GTA released and only a few months before my oldest was born! He's 15 now! :o
Eeeee way to go!! Reward yourself with another Boba Fett dress when you end up at a size you're comfortable with! :D
And you ARE old!!! :eusa_whistle: *evil laughter* Nonono I wasn't *that* young myself either, was at the end of primary school I believe..
What made me happy today was being welcomed home by a purring cat who is now snuggling on me and licking the tip of my nose :)
Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on November 12, 2013, 08:34:06 AM
Eeeee way to go!! Reward yourself with another Boba Fett dress when you end up at a size you're comfortable with! :D
And you ARE old!!! :eusa_whistle: *evil laughter* Nonono I wasn't *that* young myself either, was at the end of primary school I believe..
What made me happy today was being welcomed home by a purring cat who is now snuggling on me and licking the tip of my nose :)
Actually, I have to stick with the size I got, any smaller and it will be too short. I'm 6' tall. I also bought a Vader dress at their largest size, which was a size down from Boba, and it fits around me well (could go even smaller) but it's too short to wear without leggings. :(
Kids today! :P
Yay for purring cats! I have a special one that I'd like to make purr. :)
More Black Friday ads have arrived....the ones I've been waiting for too!
It's like that feeling of eating a cheesecake....
Girls just seem to want to talk to me more! And my friend is back at work from her honeymoon :D
My contact lens finaly arrived! After almost 16 years wearing glasses, it will be a great relief to be able to see without needing huge thick pieces of glass in front of my eyes! Really, my glasses are almost 1 cm thick on the borders!
Yay! I don't think I could ever do contacts, though. I hope you like them! Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on November 12, 2013, 01:58:44 PM
Yay! I don't think I could ever do contacts, though. I hope you like them! Hugs, Devlyn
I've tried (long ago) and wore them for ages... I just like glasses better.
I thought about trying lenses again, but someone said they liked the glasses better (for my semi-girly pictures in the supporter forums). I am DEFINITELY getting some pretty girl-frames when I go for new ones next year!!!
Quote from: Natalia on November 12, 2013, 01:48:33 PM
My contact lens finaly arrived! After almost 16 years wearing glasses, it will be a great relief to be able to see without needing huge thick pieces of glass in front of my eyes! Really, my glasses are almost 1 cm thick on the borders!
Good for you! Like Devlyn said, I don't know if I could wear them (I'm such a klutz I'd poke my eye out!) bur I can see how they're more convenient.
I'm happy because I get to have dinner with Willow today :)
Quote from: Shaina on November 12, 2013, 02:29:41 PM
Good for you! Like Devlyn said, I don't know if I could wear them (I'm such a klutz I'd poke my eye out!) bur I can see how they're more convenient.
Same here. I have a thing with eyeballs too so I just could never wear them. My glasses have become a part of me too, if I didn't have them to adjust in awkward moments, I'd feel empty inside somehow.
Quote from: caleb. on November 12, 2013, 02:52:13 PM
Same here. I have a thing with eyeballs too so I just could never wear them. My glasses have become a part of me too, if I didn't have them to adjust in awkward moments, I'd feel empty inside somehow.
Omygosh I never thought about that benefit to wearing glasses. I've been awkward all this time with no coping mechanism in sight (tehe I love puns)! I'm getting a pair!
I've had glasses so long that I don't know what I would do without them, (other than fly blind).
Besides, IMHO, women who wear glasses are much sexier. Some guys are too but not as often. ;)
Quote from: Amelia Pond on November 12, 2013, 03:15:10 PM
Besides, IMHO, women who wear glasses are much sexier. Some guys are too but not as often. ;)
I do find that glasses really tend to frame a woman's face nicely. Keaira looks really nice in her glasses. I think I prefer her without, just because it's hard to see her eyes as well with glasses on, but I find in her case they just add that little extra something to her style.
Quote from: LordKAT on November 12, 2013, 03:11:21 PM
I've had glasses so long that I don't know what I would do without them, (other than fly blind).
Wait until you get older than dirt like yours truly and are so used to them you forget where they are. "Where's my glasses honey?" "You're wearing them goofy!" :D "Doh!"
Quote from: Shantel on November 12, 2013, 05:03:33 PM
Wait until you get older than dirt like yours truly and are so used to them you forget where they are. "Where's my glasses honey?" "You're wearing them goofy!" :D "Doh!"
You're not older than dirt! More like... around the same age. :P
I tried contact lenses once. One day my eyelids like a vice clicked in on the edges & batted it into the outer corner of my eye, it was folded over in a triangular shape. I had to squeeze the lens out from the outer corner of my eye, I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital t get it removed, but after quite a while it finally came out. No more contacts for me after that. I have worn glasses for long distance about 45 years now. Like Shan has said when you get to my age of 72 you forget where you left your glasses & the hunt begins. The wife says, "where did you leave them last?" I say, "hun, if I remembered or knew I would have gone & found them right away." In femme mode I don't look as good with the glasses on, so don't wear them in a social setting or places I know my way around. Yes, sometimes I start to search for my glasses & put my fingers to my eyes, oops touch frame, damn I have them on! Oh, the joys of aging. lol Look what you have forward to when you get old you young ones.
Now where are my glasses?
I'll help you look........once I find mine! Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Jamiep on November 12, 2013, 06:49:14 PM
I tried contact lenses once. One day my eyelids like a vice clicked in on the edges & batted it into the outer corner of my eye, it was folded over in a triangular shape. I had to squeeze the lens out from the outer corner of my eye, I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital t get it removed, but after quite a while it finally came out. No more contacts for me after that. I have worn glasses for long distance about 45 years now. Like Shan has said when you get to my age of 72 you forget where you left your glasses & the hunt begins. The wife says, "where did you leave them last?" I say, "hun, if I remembered or knew I would have gone & found them right away." In femme mode I don't look as good with the glasses on, so don't wear them in a social setting or places I know my way around. Yes, sometimes I start to search for my glasses & put my fingers to my eyes, oops touch frame, damn I have them on! Oh, the joys of aging. lol Look what you have forward to when you get old you young ones.
Now where are my glasses?
Aww hell, you're just a kid at heart like me honey!
Three good things that rather eclipsed the bad day I had.
1. I cried my eyes out at the LGBT resource centre, received lots of hugs, and got email addresses for the two doctors on campus who deal with transgender health.
2. Had a nice dinner and conversation with Shaina, and found out she lives in the same building as me, what are the odds!
3. While at the LGBTRC, I found out about the events for Transgender week of remembrance, one of which is a drag masquerade on next Tuesday. Shaina and I are going to go as a "date" for fun; she's going to borrow some of my clothes, and I of hers. I'm also going to have to ask Carter for some as well, or go thrifting, if my budget allows. I so want to go in a red dress with red heels :)
Quote from: Willow on November 12, 2013, 07:34:26 PM
Three good things that rather eclipsed the bad day I had.
1. I cried my eyes out at the LGBT resource centre, received lots of hugs, and got email addresses for the two doctors on campus who deal with transgender health.
2. Had a nice dinner and conversation with Shaina, and found out she lives in the same building as me, what are the odds!
3. While at the LGBTRC, I found out about the events for Transgender week of remembrance, one of which is a drag masquerade on next Tuesday. Shaina and I are going to go as a "date" for fun; she's going to borrow some of my clothes, and I of hers. I'm also going to have to ask Carter for some as well, or go thrifting, if my budget allows. I so want to go in a red dress with red heels :)
That's just AWESOME ♥ You've got some excellent support now!!
Quote from: Willow on November 12, 2013, 07:34:26 PM
Three good things that rather eclipsed the bad day I had.
1. I cried my eyes out at the LGBT resource centre, received lots of hugs, and got email addresses for the two doctors on campus who deal with transgender health.
2. Had a nice dinner and conversation with Shaina, and found out she lives in the same building as me, what are the odds!
3. While at the LGBTRC, I found out about the events for Transgender week of remembrance, one of which is a drag masquerade on next Tuesday. Shaina and I are going to go as a "date" for fun; she's going to borrow some of my clothes, and I of hers. I'm also going to have to ask Carter for some as well, or go thrifting, if my budget allows. I so want to go in a red dress with red heels :)
So cool Willow, Shaina is a total keeper as friends go. I wonder if she was a cheerleader in high school? :D
Quote from: kabit on November 12, 2013, 07:35:28 PMThat's just AWESOME ♥ You've got some excellent support now!!
Zoe, a transwoman who works at the LGBTRC, helped me out. She's awesome. I just need to get things rolling and hope my grades improve at the same time.
Quote from: Shantel on November 12, 2013, 07:37:01 PMSo cool Willow, Shaina is a total keeper as friends go. I wonder if she was a cheerleader in high school? :D
I'll ask her next time!
She's so inderstanding and open minded. She may not like something, but she's willing to hear you out and maybe even change her mind on it, unlike many. I totally love her!
Not in the same way that her and Malachite are though ;)
Quote from: Willow on November 12, 2013, 07:34:26 PM
Three good things that rather eclipsed the bad day I had.
1. I cried my eyes out at the LGBT resource centre, received lots of hugs, and got email addresses for the two doctors on campus who deal with transgender health.
2. Had a nice dinner and conversation with Shaina, and found out she lives in the same building as me, what are the odds!
3. While at the LGBTRC, I found out about the events for Transgender week of remembrance, one of which is a drag masquerade on next Tuesday. Shaina and I are going to go as a "date" for fun; she's going to borrow some of my clothes, and I of hers. I'm also going to have to ask Carter for some as well, or go thrifting, if my budget allows. I so want to go in a red dress with red heels :)
Excellent Willow!!!!
*steals the devil's red dress, and gives to Willow*
Quick, take this while she is still polishing her horns!
Quote from: LordKAT on November 12, 2013, 07:41:12 PMExcellent Willow!!!!
*steals the devil's red dress, and gives to Willow*
Quick, take this while she is still polishing her horns!
Is that what we're calling Devlyn now? :P
Quote from: Shantel on November 12, 2013, 07:37:01 PM
So cool Willow, Shaina is a total keeper as friends go. I wonder if she was a cheerleader in high school? :D
Aww thanks Auntie Shan I feel the same way about you! Thanks for adopting me-I feel privileged! Though I'm sorry to disappoint I wasn't a cheerleader--all girls Catholic school, they thought it was inappropriate haha!
Quote from: Willow on November 12, 2013, 07:40:39 PM
She's so inderstanding and open minded. She may not like something, but she's willing to hear you out and maybe even change her mind on it, unlike many. I totally love her!
Oh I love you more Willow! I'm so excited about our "date" it's going to be so much fun! Living in the same bulding, it was totally meant to be! :D
Oh and I'm happy about all of the above!
Quote from: Shaina on November 12, 2013, 09:00:51 PMOh I love you more Willow! I'm so excited about our "date" it's going to be so much fun! Living in the same bulding, it was totally meant to be! :D
Oh and I'm happy about all of the above!
We should go thriftng this weekend. I need a good dress and shoes!
A lovely day in Sydney after a few days of good heavy rain which we needed.
Had a great ride up north and the roads were very quiet and had been repaved to smooth hotmix. Took ferry across the harbour which is always a pleasant trip. We ended up doing 100k and getting fitter by the day :)
Have some beautiful rides planed for the rest of this week.
Some riders complimented my new bike as it is very sexy. :D
Had two good friends help me with a WTF moment I had recently. It's nice to know that people care about each other here and understand.
Now have noticeable breast growth, to me, and feel great on an increased E dose.
I need more courage but I am getting there steadily.
J
MLP
DW