Quote from: rachel89 on March 18, 2016, 02:47:13 PM
As of today, I now officially have decent employment.
Very nice 🎉🍾
Quote from: rachel89 on March 18, 2016, 02:47:13 PM
As of today, I now officially have decent employment.
I'm happy for you - I hope you like your new location.
Time for a new thread :)
Had my first laser facial hair removal session with my doctor this morning and am super excited by how well it went, though it was really painful...next is in 5 weeks and the doctor has told be it will be a lot less painful than this time.
Also scored some awesome clothes out thrift shopping this afternoon. Came home with 2 pairs of Lucky jeans, size 10, and two pairs of shorts...summer is coming here at the beach! All for $20 :)
Realised I could do the bra clasp up behind my back :)
Fantastic get together with meetup.com group "Sydney-Transgender-Friendship" on a nice sunny autumn day plus a browse round the shops. I am so much more relaxed now about unambiguously presenting female even though I am far from passing. It really does seem that everyone else is too busy with their own lives to care.
Awesome day.
The fact that, despite the difficulties, we can go through "what made you happy" threads like popcorn!
Also, I finally changed my gender on Facebook to "female" from "pending" and my picture to the same one as here and received a wonderful response.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on March 19, 2016, 04:52:13 AM
The fact that, despite the difficulties, we can go through "what made you happy" threads like popcorn!
Also, I finally changed my gender on Facebook to "female" from "pending" and my picture to the same one as here and received a wonderful response.
It's funny on FB. I opened a normal FB page almost 3 years ago as Francis....., female. That's who I am & have always been so I sure did not want to confuse things with changing gender. I have so many nice women FB friends, we talk about everything & it's so nice to relate to the ppl I'm comfortable with, women. My old fb page has just dissapeared which seems normal for me. It's so nice to be a hetrosexual woman now if my body will improve more that will make me do a happy dance.
After 9 months of forced RLE, was finally able to start HRT :)
My nipples sure are itchy & burning today. That is so nice. I raised my E some & it helps. I need to get my doc to really raise my E level so my body can improve more. I'm maybe a B cup & oh my I'd love to have full C cup breasts. I so do not want to have implants, more plastic surgery. A little happy dance.
I'm still happy from something that happened last night. I was out in guy mode, but got gendered correctly (for a short time) by my waiter. I dunno if it was a genuine male fail, or just a slip of the tongue, but it was quite nice!
After one month of fairly low doses of estradiol and spiro my doctor doubled both doses yesterday to transition level doses. The fact is I did really well the first month on the low doses and can not wait to see what happens over the next 3 months before my next follow up appointment. It's such a big decision and I put so much hope in what getting rid of T and adding E would do for me. I built it up so much and I am so, so, so, so happy I have not been disappointed. Life in denial can be very difficult and in that state I have tried many ways to make myself feel normal (i.e.. happy?) and I would place hope in things that would never pan out and lead to disappointment. Being disappointment became something to be expected. Thank God that veil of denial was suddenly lifted. Life is good.
I have been having transient chest pain that usually lasts 20-30 minutes at a time then goes away, since last November, but my EKGs have been normal; incidently, I was having chest pain a couple of days ago, and I decided to go to the ER at my local hospital. The Doctor ordered a chest x-Ray, 12 lead EKG, and blood tests which included checking my triponin to rule out a heart attack. All of the tests were normal, but one of the Doctors compared that EKG to one I had a week prior, and she found that my T-Wave was depressed, so she admitted me for a cardiac stress test the following morning. I was given a chemical stress test; the first step was to administer a contrast drug, and then had 3D imaging of my heat. After the initial imaging I was connected to a 12-lead EKG to monitor all of the angles of my heart, and then they administered a drug that induced stress on my heart (it felt like I was exercising); the effects lasted for 1 minute, and then I was given a caffeinated beverage to counteract the effects of the drug, then they rested me for 30 minutes, and did the last set of images. The results of the test showed that there possibly could have been an area of decreased blood flow (ischemia), which would mean an occluded coronary artery, but the Doctors were not sure do to the results of the imaging, so they ordered cardiac catheteriztion for me the following morning. The test was an easy process for me;'the Doctor inserted a small catheter, about the same size as an IV line, into my right femoral artery, and inspected my coronary arteries, which thankfully turned out to be clear, so I did not need a stent, and my heart is healthy, and he diagnosed my chest pain as musculoskeletal. So, now I am recovering and all is well; the doctor plugged my femoral artery with collagen, so I need to watch for any signs of bleeding, clotting, or infection, but the incidence of any of that occurring is very low, so I should be fine. And now I have peace of mind knowing my heart is healthy; if anyone needs this, please do not hesitate as it is a simple process and it could save your life; I am pre-op and it was not an issue, and I was treated very well. 😊
Quote from: kittenpower on March 19, 2016, 11:41:04 AM
I have been having transient chest pain that usually lasts 20-30 minutes at a time then goes away, since last November, but my EKGs have been normal; incidently, I was having chest pain a couple of days ago, and I decided to go to the ER at my local hospital. The Doctor ordered a chest x-Ray, 12 lead EKG, and blood tests which included triponin to rule out a heart attack. All of the tests were normal, but one of the Doctors compared that EKG to one I had a week prior, and she found that my T-Wave was depressed, so she admitted me for a cardiac stress test the following morning. I was given a chemical stress test; the first step was to administer a contrast drug, and then had 3D imaging of my heat. After the initial imaging I was connected to a 12-lead EKG to monitor all of the angles of my heart, and then they administered a drug that induced stress on my heart (it felt like I was exercising); the effects lasted for 1 minute, and then I was given a caffeinated beverage to counteract the effects of the drug, then they rested me for 30 minutes, and did the last set of images. The results of the test showed that there possibly could have been an area of decreased blood flow (ischemia), which would mean an occluded coronary artery, but the Doctors were not sure do to the results of the imaging, so they ordered cardiac catheteriztion for me the following morning. The test was an easy process for me;'the Doctor inserted a small catheter, about the same size as an IV line, into my right femoral artery, and inspected my coronary arteries, which thankfully turned out to be clear, so I did not need a stent, and my heart is healthy, and he diagnosed my chest pain as musculoskeletal. So, now I am recovering and all is well; the doctor plugged my femoral artery with collagen, so I need to watch for any signs of bleeding, clotting, or infection, but the incidence of any of that occurring is very low, so I should be fine. And now I have peace of mind knowing my heart is healthy; if anyone needs this, please do not hesitate as it is a simple process and it could save your life; I am pre-op and it was not an issue, and I was treated very well. 😊
Oh me, Thanks for your post & I'm so glad you are OK. My best to you on healing up.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on March 19, 2016, 01:56:46 PM
Oh me, Thanks for your post & I'm so glad you are OK. My best to you on healing up.
Thank you 😊
I had that chemical induced stress thing and I'm glad I only had to do it once.
Quote from: stephaniec on March 19, 2016, 03:04:31 PM
I had that chemical induced stress thing and I'm glad I only had to do it once.
I run for an hour 5-6 days a week, so the test wasn't very difficult for me, it kind of felt like I was running up a small hill and I had a normal EKG, so I along with the RN, nuclear med tech, and the MD that was present, thought the results would be unremarkable, but the radiologist found a small area of what is called, reversibility, in my heart, which was a possible indication of a blockage in a coronary artery, so they did the cath to rule it out, and thankfully my arteries are clear, and I did not require a stent.
that's good
Got a care package in the mail from my mum, filled with nice things and a car gendering me correctly. It's especially nice for me because I only came out to my family about a month ago so it's great that she's being supportive.
Finally applied for my F birth certificate today, the staff at the place were nice. Had been procrastinating about doing that for months, feel like a huge weight off.
Also had a jam donut :)
I had to do an induction for a new contractor today and my Manager introduced me to him with "This is Toni SHE will be doing Your induction today " . I so love it when that happens LOL
Simply put, surviving.
If it wasn't for someone very close to me I would not be here to type this post. Last night was SCARY. I felt suicidal to the point of wanting to go ahead and do it due to family not making any effort to accept me (it's been a long time since I came out to them).
But here's the thing: instead of acting it out I decided to flop in my bed and cry it out. Fell asleep and then next thing I know I get woken up by my dad (using my proper name and pronouns what?? Bear in mind he has NEVER done this once) Telling me to get up because the police had been alerted of my suicidal thoughts and wanted to talk to me.
So I talk to them and explain my situation. Struggling with being trans with no support even from family. They give me some advice and some other info I shouldn't repeat. It was the first time I could come out and tell someone else about my problems and it was very surreal.
I later learnt who called them it turned out I am very lucky to have some close people online who care.
The only bad thing about this is my mum thought it was all just silly and that I should have told my GP (they are not wrong in a way but my GP can't fix my family refusing to acknowledge my transition) and instead of wanting to help was just angry.
Either way I'm so grateful to be alive right now.
Quote from: Serenation on March 21, 2016, 07:31:46 AM
Finally applied for my F birth certificate today, the staff at the place were nice. Had been procrastinating about doing that for months, feel like a huge weight off.
Also had a jam donut :)
I love jam and cream filled donuts; absolutely delish 😊
It's been 18 months and I finally got my ex to sign off on the last of the divorce papers. Papers he was mandated to sign by the court. The settlement was based on what he wanted. He got it. Then he refused to sign the papers and dragged it out forever. He left me, not the other way around. I don't understand his mind but now I no longer have to worry about the legal entanglements.
Now, I'm looking around, testing the waters. Perhaps I'll find someone. Maybe not. If I could move to a city, I'd have more options to interact socially. I'll have to put that off for a while, though.
Well not so much today but over the last week or so i have finally been told that the doctors are going to refer me to the GIC at Charing cross. This was off set by finding out the same day that i have been outted at work. The Boss in his infinate wisdom has managed to play the whole thing down though, so emergency over. And Monday night the doctor have changed my diabetic meds around because one was causing weight problems, mind you i still managed to lose 1.1kg since i last saw then 2 weeks ago so at least it's going in the right direction now.
Sophie
Got some new hand creams and facial scrubs they work great! :D
After the weirdness of last night this small little thing has brightened my day.
Also had a heart to heart with my mum about things I think things might get better from here.
Hearing Ariel sing
https://youtu.be/3j4mZE_vB70
Such a relief that I found a good dermatologist. My hands & cuticles had become so dry & irriated but now they are healing nicely. Happy dance.
Sophie, so glad you are still here and feeling better. Things will work out for you in time.
A coworker asked me which name to use on my picture in a publication at work. One last time for the old name I decided. I thought it was very respectful of her. In three months, new name and new face.
Moni
I discovered Informed Consent. Off to get Hormones soon. AND I have finally come to terms with the fact that i have to transition as soon as possible and have decided to deal with the fall out as it comes.
It sure feels great to be kind of back to normal. That rash on my hands & cuticles was a terrible event. Now finally they are healing up, my nails are starting to grow back, happy dance. Appt friday with my electrolysis ladies & we start a once a week 2 hour session all spring & into the summer if need to to finally remove all of my remaining nasty facial hairs. Every last one of those nasty things will be removed, Yea! Then I may have some permanent makeup done for eye lids & a more defined & slightly fuller lip line. I'm sure thinking about well endowed handsome men lately, how nice a little romance & a fling would be with a nice new man......It sure feels great to be female & enjoy being a woman.
If any of you girls are bold & kind of alone there is a great dating site called 7 or better.com. Only well endowed men are allowed to join. There are a lot of nice men that are well endowed searching for a partner. Some are very handsome successful strong men. Not many cis women are bold enough to respond to this type dating site so it's open with lots of nice large men. I've met some really handsome attractive larger men but most live too far away to date. Good luck girl friends.
I had a blood test done recently to check my hormone levels and my GP booked me in to discuss it. I was told that it was an unurgent appointment. That tells me that everything is okay and I have noticed that my menopausal symptoms are gone.
Quote from: HappyMoni on March 22, 2016, 09:15:31 PM
Sophie, so glad you are still here and feeling better. Things will work out for you in time.
A coworker asked me which name to use on my picture in a publication at work. One last time for the old name I decided. I thought it was very respectful of her. In three months, new name and new face.
Moni
Thank you. It was quite the eye opener, certainly am going to approach things from a different angle from now on.
I think what you decided to do was very bold! It sounds like a great way to say goodbye to your old identity in a positive light. Great that she let you decide this for yourself too.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on March 23, 2016, 03:59:48 AM
It sure feels great to be kind of back to normal. That rash on my hands & cuticles was a terrible event. Now finally they are healing up, my nails are starting to grow back, happy dance. Appt friday with my electrolysis ladies & we start a once a week 2 hour session all spring & into the summer if need to to finally remove all of my remaining nasty facial hairs. Every last one of those nasty things will be removed, Yea! Then I may have some permanent makeup done for eye lids & a more defined & slightly fuller lip line. I'm sure thinking about well endowed handsome men lately, how nice a little romance & a fling would be with a nice new man......It sure feels great to be female & enjoy being a woman.
Congrats on getting past that nasty bump with your skin. I read that a while back and having irritated skin is the worst. Hope things keep looking up for you girl, and goodluck with nuking those hairs!
Nothing has actually happened today to make me happy but feeling so good that I wanted to share some love x
You are all amazing. Wish I could hug you all :D
March 23rd is National Puppy Day! Took my pup to the dog park with some friends for a play date. Beautiful SoCal day.
Quote from: SofiN on March 23, 2016, 11:33:01 AM
Thank you. It was quite the eye opener, certainly am going to approach things from a different angle from now on.
I think what you decided to do was very bold! It sounds like a great way to say goodbye to your old identity in a positive light. Great that she let you decide this for yourself too.
Congrats on getting past that nasty bump with your skin. I read that a while back and having irritated skin is the worst. Hope things keep looking up for you girl, and goodluck with nuking those hairs!
Nothing has actually happened today to make me happy but feeling so good that I wanted to share some love x
You are all amazing. Wish I could hug you all :D
Sophie. That was nice of you, thank you. Yes my hands & cuticles are healing up nicely. Maybe soon I can grow my nails back out to a decent length. Electrolysis appt tomorrow. They have done well but it sure seems like some nasty hairs have grown back, uggg, double uggg. I want all these nasty hairs killed & never come back. It is so frustrating for all this hair to grown in wrong places then not in the right places. I should have been born completely a female!!!!! I'd be a nice grand mother by now.....But I'm glad to be female inside & to enjoy being a hetrosexual woman. Take care.
Mum and I went shopping today. We laughed, we played and bought lots of clothes together.
We're having a difficult time right now having little or nothing to do with my being transgender and I went looking in the "participated" section of Tapatalk to whine a little bit. I have my settings set to only show threads with new content. Well, I didn't see it and got a little perturbed that it's always so hard to find that way. Then I realized that that thread doesn't get nearly as much participation as this one does. That makes me VERY happy. Collectively we're the types to let our sadnesses go and dwell on our happy times. Sometimes all of your happy notes make me a little jealous, I'll admit, but mostly they lift me back up when I'm feeling down. Thank you all!
One other thing, from yesterday. Sweetie and I stopped for pizza on our way to Target at a new place that opened up. We had heard that one of the owners was the chef that ruined our previously favorite place by getting fired.
I was dressed in red, white, and blue converse hightops, a pair of my old, tight boy jeans, because I haven't yet replaced that part of my wardrobe, a sports bra, Harley tee shirt and souvenir Ocean City, NJ unisex hoodie. I was also wearing just enough subtle makeup to hide my shadow.
As we finished the waitress said, "can I get you ladies anything else?" Made my day!
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Today I put a bikini, and I feel great despite the width of my back, shoulders, and the size of my hand... I haven't started with the hormones yet, but I plan to start it next week! Unfortunately, I still introduce myself as a man.
I really hope that after a year of hormone therapy, with longer hair and a nice makeup I will be able to pass :)
Quote from: sue muksen on March 24, 2016, 06:56:07 PM
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Today I put a bikini, and I feel great despite the width of my back, shoulders, and the size of my hand... I haven't started with the hormones yet, but I plan to start it next week! Unfortunately, I still introduce myself as a man.
I really hope that after a year of hormone therapy, with longer hair and a nice makeup I will be able to pass :)
Sue, You look nice, smile, maybe some nail polish, enjoy being a girl. HRT will help a lot, WTG young girl.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on March 24, 2016, 09:08:40 PM
Sue, You look nice, smile, maybe some nail polish, enjoy being a girl. HRT will help a lot, WTG young girl.
Thanks! (=
I feel a bit insecure about the future... I just want to be a beautiful woman and have a normal life, and even though I have passed through puberty and suffered with the testosterone action, I'll bounce back! <3
Had a lovely lunch out with girlfriend and got maam'd by waiter. Though he was struggling with english so might have been accidental but ill take it.
Finally got the reassurance I needed to finally, after 3 years, to start my transition. As I plainly stated it, because of my situation. It's either transition or insanity. I'm pretty close to the insanity part right now so I think it's about time.
Wanted to thank AnonyMs for helping me get going again. I don't know how to give reputation, but she deserves a +1.
Quote from: sue muksen on March 24, 2016, 10:23:35 PM
Thanks! (=
I feel a bit insecure about the future... I just want to be a beautiful woman and have a normal life, and even though I have passed through puberty and suffered with the testosterone action, I'll bounce back! <3
Sue, I know how you feel I was there at your age long ago. Try to start HRT as soon as you can to stop the nasty T stuff & get some good E into your body is first. Then relax & enjoy the improvements.....Try to find as many good friends or family to be open with so your not alone. Just tell them the same as you posted, I just want to be a beautiful woman. Most should understand, if they do not don't worry about it. Once on HRT try to just relax & go about life as you improve into a better person.....Take care young girl, just go slow & enjoy life. Be proud of the way you feel, never let anyone get you down from who you are......
Off for my weekly electrolysis visit, love my beauty salon days. I may change to a new doc for better HRT. They have suggested a better one that most all of their clients use. I would love to make some changes to my hrt types & levels so maybe my breasts might grow more. I feel good today & excited to become a more attractive normal woman. Maybe even sexy again one day......I sure love to flirt with men....
Not having to go to the mad house for 4 days.
It is out of control and working 14 hour days
How I love E. I am sure I am not alone in this.
Being me all weekend now :)
i bought myself my first skirt the other day and it goes with some tops i have, as well as some accessories, so now i'm only some proper shoes away from AN ENTIRE OUTFIT :0
tmi warning (related)
i'd never been felt up under a skirt, or really at all for that matter (when i say felt up i mean "handled like a woman", or "how a horny guy would come onto a girl" idk. hands up legs and shirts n stuff, you know) until the other day...
so i can count on less than two hands the amount of times in my life sexual activity caused me to become light headed or cause my ears to ring, but prior to that night they'd only ever been orgasm induced and only if the sex was incredibly amazing.
yall, when my gf slid her hand up my skirt it was literally overwhelming. my body jumped. it got way more awesome past this point, (my ears were ringing so hard i almost couldnt hear and i had to catch my breath and we hadn't even started taking clothing off yet) but i'm not sure the allowance of freedom of speech on this forum, and also its none of your business ;) but yeah. lets just say i asked my gf to play the guy so i could experience the sexual encounter from the perspective of a female, and im not sure i wanna go back now ;D
Quote from: Jenny07 on March 25, 2016, 04:53:25 AM
Not having to go to the mad house for 4 days.
It is out of control and working 14 hour days
How I love E. I am sure I am not alone in this.
Being me all weekend now :)
Good for you Jenny, enjoy your long weekend girl friend.
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Today I put a bikini, and I feel great despite the width of my back, shoulders, and the size of my hand... I haven't started with the hormones yet, but I plan to start it next week! Unfortunately, I still introduce myself as a man.
I really hope that after a year of hormone therapy, with longer hair and a nice makeup I will be able to pass :)
Fair play to you, i wouldn't have the bottle to dress like that yet.
Sophie
Went out to dinner with a lifelong friend and we had a chance to talk about 'things'. He has known me since I was 4 and to have his support is, well...I was crying while we were talking. At one point, he told me that his wife cries less that I do, and that was actually a compliment, meant and received.
Got a call from my cousin and am getting together with the family members that are always happy when I am around. Actually caught attitude from my dad and sister, who do not accept and barely tolerate me, that I will not be dining with them (or spending any time with them at all) on Sunday. It felt good (in a bitchy sort of way) to tell them that I would much prefer to spend my time with those that accept and lift me than those who simply tolerate me. The looks they gave me at that statement were priceless.
Hope everyone has a great weekend! Be safe :)
Easter holiday weekend! Starting with today through Monday.
It's really sunny out too. Seems a great day for a walk.
Just picked up my son, and he doesn't have to go back till Monday evening, so that means he'll be here for my birthday. Doesn't usually work out like that. Any way Happy Easter to you all.
Sophie
Today went pretty well with 2 hours of electrolysis. OMG it's tough to 100% kill each folicle, nasty little things. We did some galvanic type work today, it seems to help kill every folicle I so hope. My ladies are the best in my area. They are confident that we can kill every nasty hair in time. Oh me that would be so nice, I'm sick of seeing these nasty little hairs grow back. I must appear more female to new people than I thought. My new electro lady thought I had already completed my GRS. That part was a pleasant event. It sure feels good to be a woman & look a little better each day.
I can finally start being me again. This is about as happy as I've been in a long time.
2nd Ma'am in 2 days. This one was from behind at self service cash register but more authentic than the waiter being polite yesterday. Nice to hear whatever the circumstances.
A small thing but still it made me smile. I tried putting a picture of me into how-old.net and it showed 20 and female. Obviously not the most accurate source but still feels good!
Hope you girls are having a great Easter weekend so far!
I sent a picture of an outfit (Skirt and top) I just ordered off the internet to my sister. Her response was... "I hate you, you'll be able to pull that off, even tucked in, you bitch!"
Made me smile.
Sweetie and I were in an Asian grocery today. She was discussing bok choi with a woman. She said she doesn't like it but her... and stopped dead! So I stepped in and finished the thought. It was the first time she ever stopped herself without calling me her husband and outing me!
I've been growing my hair out for about 8 months, just to see what I've got to work with. I've not been very hopeful or optimistic about it so far, as I've got a noticeably receding hairline with the usual "M" pattern, two bald patches on the crown, and very thin on top.
Spent Easter weekend with close family. We were at a nearby park today having a picnic lunch, and it was windy, which causes my hair to get really unkempt and wild. My mum says "Let me help you with that", pulls out a hair tie from her purse, and does up a quick pony tail. Outwardly I'm playing it cool, but I'm squee'ing with joy inside, and hoping against hope that she's this supportive once she learns the truth.
Later, my older brother asks me if I've been doing anything for my hair, as it's been looking fuller than before. So I confessed my use of minoxidil, but didn't mention the finasteride [felt kind of guilty concealing that, but not ready to discuss it just yet as it would lead to more questions]. He asked if I experienced any of the side effects, and I said that I hadn't as I'm only applying it topically. He's balding as well [thanks dad] so he's done a lot of the research into it himself. He rejected these options for himself and decided to start shaving his head, as he's not willing to deal with the potential side effects. He's tried getting me to do the same in the past, but obviously that's not an option. Today he just said he was glad it was working for me. And his comments also made me hopeful that I may get good results from spiro when I start that in a month or so.
So, yeah, today was a good day :)
It's time I had some larger breasts, yea. I'll be seeing my plastic surgeon next Friday for a dental block before electrolysis on my upper & lower lip. I'm going to ask him what size & type implants he would suggest for my body. He does implants all the time. He sure knows my body after giving me a facelift, eye lid surgery, facial surgery, lipo & a tummy tuck. I've waited for my girls to grow & so far only a small B cup, not much at all, ugggg. I'd love a full sexy C cup to look & feel so much better about myself. I'd sure look nicer in a bathing suit.....I've always attracted men but this would be so much nicer to show some cleavage you know. Happy girl today, this should be fun....
Quote from: amoeba on March 27, 2016, 04:23:54 AM
I've been growing my hair out for about 8 months, just to see what I've got to work with. I've not been very hopeful or optimistic about it so far, as I've got a noticeably receding hairline with the usual "M" pattern, two bald patches on the crown, and very thin on top.
Spent Easter weekend with close family. We were at a nearby park today having a picnic lunch, and it was windy, which causes my hair to get really unkempt and wild. My mum says "Let me help you with that", pulls out a hair tie from her purse, and does up a quick pony tail. Outwardly I'm playing it cool, but I'm squee'ing with joy inside, and hoping against hope that she's this supportive once she learns the truth.
Later, my older brother asks me if I've been doing anything for my hair, as it's been looking fuller than before. So I confessed my use of minoxidil, but didn't mention the finasteride [felt kind of guilty concealing that, but not ready to discuss it just yet as it would lead to more questions]. He asked if I experienced any of the side effects, and I said that I hadn't as I'm only applying it topically. He's balding as well [thanks dad] so he's done a lot of the research into it himself. He rejected these options for himself and decided to start shaving his head, as he's not willing to deal with the potential side effects. He's tried getting me to do the same in the past, but obviously that's not an option. Today he just said he was glad it was working for me. And his comments also made me hopeful that I may get good results from spiro when I start that in a month or so.
So, yeah, today was a good day :)
Awesome. Sounds like a great day out.
Getting gendered correctly by my parents for what I think is the first time ever! It might not last but it was the best feeling.
Also, CHOCOLATE!
Happy Easter!
Had a wonderful weekend with family and friends. Met new people through my cousins and only one instance required any attention at all, everyone else simply accepted and enjoyed the conversation and dinner! A blessed and happy feeling girl here right now! :)
It;s sure nice to have girl friends from this site. One nice friend in England had her GRS some 20-30 years ago. She is happily married with a good sex life to a strong nice man that provides very well. We are so much alike & it's great to keep in touch. It sure helps me keep on track to become a nicer woman & maybe one day with a nice man.
I dropped Sweetie's car at the shop (again!) and walked next door to the Hardee's to get some biscuits and gravy and coffee. I went to the ladie's then up to the counter. The woman there said to the manager, "I'll take care of this gentleman and then get right on it". I just smiled and told her, (with my voice spot on for once), " I'm not a man." She looked at me again in horror and started apologizing. It was hard to get her to stop! She said the light coming in from behind me fooled her. I was gracious and placed my order. The little things make us happy, huh?
I'm changing therapist & changing docs. The new therapist is much closer to home & very nice. I want my new doc to help with better types & levels of HRT so my body can improve more, maybe more breast growth. It feels good to be a woman, so happy for that. Sticking with my Atkins diet, my nails are growing back out, next electrolysis session is for Monday. Oh happy day when my face is clean from those nasty hairs. Life is good. Enjoy your day all girl friends.
I find myself smiling all the time. Six months ago it was always a frown.
I've had guys gender me female on occasion, but nothing like this. This guy's whole voice changed when he was speaking to me vs the person before me, in pitch and resonance. I definitely got the impression he was seeing a woman, not just being nice. I needed that too. On my way there I was getting a bit down wondering if I'd ever pass and how I was going to handle that. Then this happens.
My GCS with Dr. Marci Bowers was moved up from Feb. 2017 to middle of May 2016! WooHoo!
Quote from: - Rachel - on March 30, 2016, 10:35:02 PM
My GCS with Dr. Marci Bowers was moved up from Feb. 2017 to middle of May 2016! WooHoo!
Oh me, I know you are so excited. WTG...girl friend.
I'm excited about my new therapist. She actually visits where her patients live to help them better. I sure need help to stick with my diet & lose from my current 185 down to 170 or less. I also need to stop any cig. smoke & too much decal coffee that stains my teeth. I want a nicer smile & to become a nicer more sexy looking woman. Also I hope for better HRT from my new doc so my body can improve more, maybe just maybe fuller natural breasts, happy dance. My surgeon in Raleigh NC is ready to preform my GRS whenever I have all things worked out..I'm so excited to finally becomming a complete happy woman...
I took my first dose of hormones. I'm finally starting my journey to be and feel like my true self.
Congrats Jboggs! Exciting times. Can be a roller coaster ride so hang on and enjoy your journey! Look forward to hearing how things are going!
I'm so happy no tornadoes last night. But one came thru just 10 miles away. I can handle most anything except tornadoes, they scare me to death.....
I'm looking forward to Monday & next week. Monday nice 2 hour session with electrolysis lady, she is nice. Meeting a new therapist that seems very excited to find me, help me become a better woman. Then from her a new doc to see to start better types & levels of HRT. I'd sure love to see my breasts improve naturally......& for my body to improve more. I sure wish HRT could help grow larger hips...., my waist is small but just not enough butt, ugggg.
Makeup! I haven't really touched it that much, but getting better at applying it now and it helps a lot with hiding shadow. Looking forward to experimenting with different looks now.
I am now five days post operative from my orchiectomy and loving this permanence, no spiro needed and sleeping thru most nights. What a great relief and joy to be free of T forever! ;D
After a week of unsuccessful efforts, I found a way to keep my climara patch from falling off in the shower: waterproof Band Aid pads. I was even able to take a bath and soak in the tub and shave my legs this morning and it's still stuck on tight.
Quote from: Kelseyness on April 02, 2016, 04:38:55 PM
After a week of unsuccessful efforts, I found a way to keep my climara patch from falling off in the shower: waterproof Band Aid pads. I was even able to take a bath and soak in the tub and shave my legs this morning and it's still stuck on tight.
Good for you. My skin is so sensitive I could not wear climara patches, I'd break out with red skin in no time, 6 hours maybe. If you were closed by I'd give you a nice supply of them. I just cannot use them.
Quote from: Tessa James on April 02, 2016, 01:13:50 PM
I am now five days post operative from my orchiectomy and loving this permanence, no spiro needed and sleeping thru most nights. What a great relief and joy to be free of T forever! ;D
OH me I'm sure you feel so much better. I hate those little things in the way, causing trouble. I'd love to have them removed but I'm trying to wait for my GRS so everything can be done at one time. Sleeping all night without peeing so much must feel great. WTG girl friend I know your body will feel so much better.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 03, 2016, 04:48:19 AM
OH me I'm sure you feel so much better. I hate those little things in the way, causing trouble. I'd love to have them removed but I'm trying to wait for my GRS so everything can be done at one time. Sleeping all night without peeing so much must feel great. WTG girl friend I know your body will feel so much better.
Thank you Francis, The relief was greater than I expected and something to do with having it over with feels wonderfully freeing. A present to myself and my future security. I would change more if that magic wand was working better but we do what we can in the meanwhile ;)
I just got my name change court date, June 2 :)
Quote from: Rachel Lynn on April 03, 2016, 01:57:46 PM
I just got my name change court date, June 2 :)
Congratulations; that is an awesome achievement, best wishes :)
What will make me very happy today is to receive my new prescription for estrogen for the next three months.
I am on hormones for just half a year now and things are developing slowly, but I feel that my body now develops in the direction it should have been done some 25 years ago. Better to change late than never :)
Quote from: Julia74 on April 03, 2016, 08:11:02 PM
What will make me very happy today is to receive my new prescription for estrogen for the next three months.
I am on hormones for just half a year now and things are developing slowly, but I feel that my body now develops in the direction it should have been done some 25 years ago. Better to change late than never :)
So so true, good luck. Off to my electrolysis this morning to work on these remaining nasty little hairs on my face. My lady does a good job. Maybe one day a smooth normal face.
Quote from: sue muksen on March 24, 2016, 06:56:07 PM
Today I put a bikini, and I feel great despite the width of my back, shoulders, and the size of my hand... I haven't started with the hormones yet, but I plan to start it next week! Unfortunately, I still introduce myself as a man.
I really hope that after a year of hormone therapy, with longer hair and a nice makeup I will be able to pass :)
You look gorgeous, Sue. HRT will be very kind to you. All you need is more self-confidence.
My new electrolysis lady is great, love her & my face is looking so much nicer. Happy dance. After we are finished with those nasty hairs I want her to so some permanent cosmetic makeup work on my lips, eye lids & brows. She is a pro & sees very elegant beautiful women to make us all look so much nicer.
3 new so so cute sandals ordered from newchic.com. Spring sale & only $55 including shipping. I'm so glad I wear a 9 1/2 so all were available in my size. Happy Dance.
I seem to be going through another growth spurt. My boobs are really starting to fill out these A cup bras nicely - might have to up to a B in a month or 2.
Also its absolutely beautiful outside again. Spring here has been really lovely so far. Might go for a walk to the local park and just read a book.
I'm getting hit on by a woman on FB. I don't know if it will go anywhere. It doesn't matter. It feels good.
can i cheat and say two things? I am going ro anyways so not really aure why i asked. Yesterday saw a new therapist for the first time and she was spectacular i left there with contact info for a local endo and she told me to make the appointment as she doesn't see any reason to waste time and today i actually worked up the courage to call and make the appointment for may 3rd. Now all i need to do is wait and show up. I cant remember ever being this happy and excited.
Life is going pretty good for me. New therapist is fine, she will connect me with a new endro. doc to maybe up my hrt & maybe a pellet, electrolysis is going well, losing some more pounds, breasts are growing some, my surgeon for GRS is nice, she welcomes my visit whenever I'm ready. Now if my nails will just grow back out after a nasty break life will be great. Happy dance. It's so nice to be a woman.
My son called.
Well, it did, but there IS more. Next time I get out to them is girlfriend is going to take me shopping so they can buy me something pretty for my birthday.
My eye test went well. Looks like I actually do need glasses!
Going back next week to pick them up. The staff were really friendly they didn't think twice about my gender and helped me pick out cute frames. Really happy with the results.
Squeeeeeee!
I just left Social Security. I went in, got my queue number, waited my turn and was called. The worker had me write my social security number on the queue slip and asked me what I needed. I passed it to her and said that I needed to change some info in their database. She looked at the screen, did a double take and said, "you're Dion?". I said, "yes and from the look on your face I bet you know what I want to change!" It went very smoothly after that. One more box ticked off!
Congrats! It is quite a feeling, isn't it! To have that 'official' recognitions is wonderful! I just did my SIN on Monday. I received my new birth certificate and name change certificate in Jan but was out of the country. The list of things(ID) that need changing is long and will take a while to work through. This week, besides the SIN, I have completed some Medical, Drivers License, some pension times, and tomorrow bank and one of my credit cards. Next week other pension and hopefully passport. The biggest thing for me is waiting to receive my new DL card. I need this to proceed with a number of other items as photo ID is required.
I find myself taking out my new birth certificate and just looking at it and feeling it in my hands. Brought me to tears the first time I held it!
I can't wait for that birth certificate, Islandgirl, unfortunately, the state I was born in requires surgery for that and surgery isn't going to be soon. I've done my DL and SS card now, the passport will have to wait until I can spare the fee. Short term that just causes issues going into Canada which O don't do often. Banks, etc. I'll get to. I'm a relatively happy girl, though. I've got what I need to live safely and I blend in well, as far as I'm concerned my transition is complete even though there are some boxes still to be checked off.
It DOES feel soooo good!
Showed a gg friend a top my sister gave me and a new nail color im using just on my toes since I still present as a man. She said both were really pretty i've been in a slump for most of 2 weeks that helped alot.
What made me happy today I got to begin estrogen again to restart my transition ....never give up :D
Quote from: Kristinagl on April 07, 2016, 05:19:19 PM
What made me happy today I got to begin estrogen again to restart my transition ....never give up :D
Good for you, you are worth as many chances as you need to succeed. And welcome to Susan's Place, a moderator may be along soon to give you the Terms of Service and more....
Garden planting day. Lots of strawberries, 2 types of watermellons, pumpkin, cucumbers, tomatoes, peppers, squash, cantatloupe.......Tired, gardening is hard work, planting so much stuff...but it will all nice nice soon, love to garden.
Wore femme jeans tshirt and cardigan to work and had pony tail down fir most offl the day. Felt great.
I don't know why but I just feel so happy today. Very confusing but I'm not complaining!
Quote from: SofiN on April 08, 2016, 09:05:33 AM
I don't know why but I just feel so happy today. Very confusing but I'm not complaining!
It's the estrogen, it always makes us feel better.
I have finally made an appointment to see the Endo on the 9th May, so that i can finally start HRT. I cant wait. And secondly, since i finally decided to transition, i cant believe how motivated i feel to improve myself, physically and mentally. I go exercising every day, on a great diet and losing tons of weight. Thirdly, i am no longer afraid to transition. Fourthly, i am doing girly things to myself, growing my hair and nails, pierced my ears and i dont seem to care if anyone happens to ask me, why?
Well I'm about 1/2 way through planting my garden. The strawberries look great. Beautiful cool day for gardening. So far I have not broken a nail so that's so nice. I may join my local Garden Club next year, these local ladies really know how to grow things, I'd fit in very well with them, love pretty flowers & plants.
I got a letter from my GIC today! They still know I exist hurrrayyy.
Had to fill in some paperwork to send it back, and I'll likely be seen near the end of the year. On the bright side it seems my NHS details got updated during the wait (I changed name last year) so I don't need to send them my deed poll or anything.
My garden looks nice if I do say so myself, lots of strawberries, tomato plant, peppers, onions, watermellons, cantaloupes & pumpkin. Not too big, just right. Appts Monday, dental block shots, 2 hours of electro on upper & lower lips. It sure is nice when the entire area is dead. My lady can just kill away I do not feel a thing, Happy Dance. Maybe soon a new endro doc for a pellet implant, that will be so nice to forget all these pills & patches. Life is good I guess if one broken nail will just grow out, uggg, it broke way back from the front edge.
It just feels good to be a woman, so happy I that I feel that way & always have.
The place I go to for electrolysis just got a new machine. It gradually increases intensity instead of an all at once burst. The pain was so much less. :)
This is backwards from what probably 99% of people here would say....
My dysphoria is back.
I had been doubting everything for about 10 days now since I had not felt anything. My understanding was that Spironolactone alone wouldn't do much for it but I was concerned that I was going too far. But Yesterday and today it's almost back. Believe it or not it's like an old friend telling me, keep going you're not there/done yet.
Off to see my plastic surgeon, electrolysis lady & podiatrist today. It's a lot of work to look pretty but so worth it to me.
About to head out and post my GIC forms back - feels so good making some more progress with this archaic NHS system.
OMG, that was so easy, dental block shots, then 2 hours of very pleasant electrolysis work. My lady does a great job & my face is looking so much nicer. Happy Dance.
Pineapple juice, lemon juice, three blackberries and a shot of over proof white rum. New socks. Not much else. The rest of the day was unpleasant.
I dread any kind of place where I'm required to show any form of ID or when my legal name comes into question.
I went to the pharmacy today and I was afraid to because my prescription has my male name on it... I'm afraid of it outing me because I'm full-time and I imagine getting "clocked" being devastating. Well, after I left my prescription behind and ordered my hormones, I later got a call from the guy who attended me at the pharmacy, and he asked if I was the lady who'd been there earlier =P I was relieved that even though I had a male name on my prescription, he didn't really associate it with me and probably assumed I might just be buying meds for someone else... I guess my old name isn't mine anymore =P
My new therapist is funny, she makes "house calls". Yes she travels to schools & since I only live 2 miles from one that she visits she will drop by to chit chat Thursday. She is skinny as a rail, her birthday is Saturday & I'm going to bake her a pretty birthday cake. That will be fun.
I finally got Lady Meow-Meow's memento in Neko Atsume today. 35 visits it took her, the diva!
It's official as of today nothing can get in my way of being female....almost cried on the spot when it became a reality lol :D
Biked 40 minutes indoors then ran 1.5 miles. I'm so excited to get back into triathlon :D
I worked up the courage to have my eyebrows waxed and shaped at a salon and even told the stylist i was transitioning. They were great and it was the first person i have ever told besides my therapist and the endo office for my appointment on may the 3rd.
Quote from: Riley Skye on April 12, 2016, 08:33:41 PM
Biked 40 minutes indoors then ran 1.5 miles. I'm so excited to get back into triathlon :D
Awesome. I did my first Ironman at 30 years old and am hoping I can get my training to the point of doing an IronWoman at 40 in 2 years time. A lot of reconditioning and training in a very different way but will see how I go.
Good luck with your efforts.
Walked past a girl in a gorgeous dress and stopped and asked where she got it and explained I had a t shirt in the same print . Was super friendly and high fived me for being a cool chick like her. Was only 90 seconds but such a boosting experience.
This is the dress . I love it.
https://blackmilkclothing.com/products/adventure-time-bro-ball-reversible-skater-dress
Woke up to find out I had another growth spurt overnight! Now that I've been at the right levels for about 6 weeks things are really kicking off. It is exciting. :D (I was quite low before)
Also got some more products to help with my unruly hair, going to test them later and hope for the best. Curse you frizz!
This was yesterday, but exciting, to me, none the less: My new Driver's License arrived! All correct identification and this now gives me my photo ID that I need to complete many of my remaining ID changes. Today is some my medical records and tomorrow are passport and pension records!
My new picture actually looks very good! One more thing that helps me put past in the past!
Baking a cake for a friends birthday. Strawberry with strawberry mist frosting. That's fun.
My strawberry cake turned out pretty nice. I'm going to give it to my new therapist lady, she is skinny as a rail & her birthday is Saturday. Off to have my teeth whitened today, maybe that will help me cut back on decalf coffee that tastes great but is so bad for my teeth. It feels good to be a woman & like always trying to have a nicer appearance & take good care of myself. Maybe a better life soon as I become more of a complete women then maybe one day a new man in my life to enjoy.
Started looking into laser hair removal options. Decided to take some advice of people here and look at Groupon. WOW at the prices!
It looks like I'll be able to get this process started in a couple of months after hunting down a good place through this method and making sure it isn't IPL. I was expecting to have to wait a lot longer due to the pricing.
My therapist loved the birthday strawberry cake I made for her & gladly took it away. YEA! Back to my Atkins diet. I just cannot take that sugar stuff..........
My work had bit of a grassroots wear it pink/purple day today and although it wasn't well publicised I wore my trans-pride flag t shirt to work and felt great . Am now pretty much out to a few people in the organisations lgbt group and getting closer to being out at work.
My new therapist is having fun asking me about previous life. I do not think she has ever met a "drag show queen" In my early years I looked very nice & spent most weekends doing shows at my local club. For me I just enjoyed dressing normal & pretty since my so boring 8-5 job sure would not allow it. Those were great days, I was thin & very sexy. So many men hit up on me, that was exciting......I was very pretty & very happy except there was not enough $ for surgeries, one new life..... It's still nice to be a woman even if I'm older now.
This is a HUGE day for me. I collected my new glasses and will never forget this because everything suddenly upgraded like I was going to HD vision!
I even told the optician that I could actually read a piece of paper on the desk I couldn't before xD
On the way home I kept looking at things and realising how dirty things are. Family likes my frames too which is a bonus!
Planting sunflower seeds today. I need something nice to offset all this Bathroom junk laws/talk going on.
Back on my Atkins diet & feel good. I sure got side tracked last week with baking a cake & eating some of my mistakes. Oh me that sugar sticks to me like glue. Off to see my electrolysis lady tomorrow for our 2 hour weekly sessions. My face looks a little nicer each week. Life is good. It feels so good to be a woman & look a little better each day & week.
Just finished preparing my taxes, (the filing date is tomorrow). I don't owe the state or federal governments. For historical reasons I won't get money back, but I'm OK with that.
Huge confidence booster today :3
I got my hair cut a little and spent most of the morning out doing some errands. The best part is I got gendered correctly by every single person I spoke to. Some kind gentleman also held the door for me which was really sweet.
Starting to think the glasses and now this tipped the scales a bit more into passing territory and it feels great.
I got my ears and belly button pierced today.
My electrolysis is doing a great job & she also does lots of permanent cosmetic makeup for eyes, brows & lips. I may have her realign my lower lip after plastic surgery last summer. It's healed but it's not a perfectly balance lip line yet. Nasty hairs are going away fast, Happy Dance.
It feels good to be a woman, bitchy some days, happy some days. Life is going very well. I'm happy for that. My body is finally becoming more & more normal. There are Sierra club type ppl & there are GreenPeace type ppl. I'm glad to be more GreenPeace. Some country sheriff threatens to "whip" us for using a bathroom. I say we team together then tar & feather the stupid pee pee cop & throw him out of town, not just complain to ourselves & hide. Anyway that's my $.02 worth.
I got rid of a lot of negative people & removed myself from some really stupid MTF type hormone groups. Stopping reading every little problem posted on this page, gives me a headache. Cleaning house of problems makes me happy. My garden looks great, so many strawberries, life is good, eating right, down about 20 pounds., HRT levels are fine, next 2 hour electrolysis visit is Monday. New therapist is fine, she loved the cake I baked for her. My plan is going well.
Got fitted for a wig on Saturday. We liked one that matches my natural hair (what there is of it) pretty well, and another that has the right length and style but isn't my color. They ordered one with the right style and color and I expect to buy it on Saturday. Once I get it -- and get the courage to actually wear it -- I'll have to run out and buy some cute barrettes to go with it. (I mean, what's the point of having a full head of hair if you can't have fun with it?)
But -- looking at myself in a wig just blew me away! I look so different, it's uncanny. It's disturbing, but that's to be expected, since in my heart of hearts I hate any kind of change. (I really freaked out when I shaved off my beard back in August and again in December.) I also have a much easier time convincing/deluding myself that I might look female.
I'll also have to come to terms with not being all that good-looking. I mean, I knew that would happen, since my appearance hasn't exactly improved with age, but I guess I mostly just don't see myself when I look at myself in the mirror, except when something changes like this.
Next on my list is more feminine-looking glasses. (My trans man fashion advisor insists on this :) ) Then some jewelry. Fun, I suppose, but pretty scary. Maybe by the summer I'll be ready to tell people to treat me as female. (I'm a long way from having the nerve to say "I'm a woman," even to myself.)
Oh, and yesterday my boss asked me when I was going to grow my beard back. I replied, "never!" I didn't tell him that I was taking steps to insure that it couldn't grow back.
I keep wondering how long it will take (how close I'll be to full-time) before my immediate co-workers start to wonder about me.
(There's a part of me that wishes I could tell people now. But the sensible part of me -- the part of me that's kept me alive all these years but also kept my innermost self locked up -- says I need to wait until I've got all my ducks in a row. Stick to the roadmap, it says.)
Moved a blue bird box 150 feet away from my garden & strawberries. The box had eggs in it. Triple yea, the birds found it in 10 minutes. What a relief. Now some scarecrow or plastic fake owl in my garden to try & keep the birds from eating my strawberries....Love my birds & love my garden.
Oh me I am so lucky & happy that I've never had any conflict about my gender. I've been female & so glad all my life. I see so many stories about others that have. That must really be stressful. Poor souls. All & all my body & face look pretty nice after so much surgery & HRT. Little by little I'm feeling more comfortable in my own skin & my self confidence is sure improving.
I slept til ten. Today is shaping up to be an excellent day off. I actually pushed myself to work yesterday and I got my check. At five I have a birthday party to attend, the first one I've been invited to since I was in my teens. All in all, I feel accomplished, accepted, and welcome. I'm pretty happy.
The last several days, I've woken up with my mind running in what I call 'girl mode'. I'm just lying in bed, smiling, and the morning headaches I'e had for decades are gone. (No HRT or drugs yet, just therapy, but OMG! Just this is such an improvement!)
I'm about ready to send the old male persona into permanent retirement. :)
My collection of beauty tools is slowly increasing. Looking back on before starting to transition, I wonder how I got on without all these things. Back then I didn't bother with anything, now I have dedicated bags to hold my stuff! I'm taking a step into eye makeup now, with curlers and mascara. I am taking it in small steps to make it easier to practise. If that goes well I'll move onto more difficult things such as eye liner.
During the shopping I also got a new bag because on a day to day basis I carry a lot more with me when out and about. xD
Also having worn my glasses almost a week, I'm adjusting pretty well to them. Sometimes I miss not having to bother with them but the improved vision is so worth it.
Tomorrow I begin some volunteer work as well, I'm excited!
Quote from: SofiN on April 21, 2016, 11:24:28 AM
My collection of beauty tools is slowly increasing. Looking back on before starting to transition, I wonder how I got on without all these things. Back then I didn't bother with anything, now I have dedicated bags to hold my stuff! I'm taking a step into eye makeup now, with curlers and mascara. I am taking it in small steps to make it easier to practise. If that goes well I'll move onto more difficult things such as eye liner.
During the shopping I also got a new bag because on a day to day basis I carry a lot more with me when out and about. xD
Also having worn my glasses almost a week, I'm adjusting pretty well to them. Sometimes I miss not having to bother with them but the improved vision is so worth it.
Tomorrow I begin some volunteer work as well, I'm excited!
IPSY is cool! They have a monthly Glam Bag for a big $10. nice things & so cute little makeup bags that fit in your purse. You can cancel anytime but you will not. Just open IPSY & register.
First appt with the LGTBI service of the Autonomous Community of Madrid. The person who attended me agreed that it would be good for me to see a psychologist. She also helped with the fact that earlier this week my GP didn't send me directly to the GIC when I asked him to (and he is supposed to)—she gave me a document and suggested that I should try again. I'm probably switching GPs.
Last session of aesthetic treatment to reduce my belly fat (I haven't a lot, but I want to exploit to the fullest my chances of getting a really slim waist). Results coming soon! If only I could take hormones and convince the fat to move a little bit down...
Edit: also, wearing an all-women outfit today. A tee with a discrete neck but with tell-tale sleeves, slim fit leggins and flowery shoes.
Fresas, Try to get on HRT as soon as you can girl friend. The sooner you stop any bad stuff & enjoy only the good stuff the more pleasant life will be for you. Take care.
I have everything in place now to get GCS on Aug 24th in Los Angeles. The only thing I need to do now is store a couple units of blood and get my pre-surgical check up done. I have to wait until a couple weeks before the surgery to get the medical clearance. I am excited to be able to move on to this next, and hopefully last, part of my transition.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 21, 2016, 12:02:02 PM
IPSY is cool! They have a monthly Glam Bag for a big $10. nice things & so cute little makeup bags that fit in your purse. You can cancel anytime but you will not. Just open IPSY & register.
I'll check it out, thank you for the tip! If they ship to the UK I'll definitely give them a go.
Edit: they don't ship here but I found an alternative, we have birch box over here!
Quote from: SofiN on April 21, 2016, 03:46:33 PM
I'll check it out, thank you for the tip! If they ship to the UK I'll definitely give them a go.
Edit: they don't ship here but I found an alternative, we have birch box over here!
Birch box is about the same thing I guess, just some fun cosmetics & cute little bags I guess. I'm not sure if IPSY ships to Europe or not? I've been getting IPSY for a year & one half, it's always well worth a big $10.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on April 21, 2016, 03:27:53 PM
I have everything in place now to get GCS on Aug 24th in Los Angeles. The only thing I need to do now is store a couple units of blood and get my pre-surgical check up done. I have to wait until a couple weeks before the surgery to get the medical clearance. I am excited to be able to move on to this next, and hopefully last, part of my transition.
Oh me. I know you are excited.......Such good news. Thanks so much for sharing........Take care.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 21, 2016, 04:43:51 PM
Birch box is about the same thing I guess, just some fun cosmetics & cute little bags I guess. I'm not sure if IPSY ships to Europe or not? I've been getting IPSY for a year & one half, it's always well worth a big $10.
Yeh I double checked and they only ship within the USA and Canada :(
It is a fun idea though I'm quite happy there is a UK alternative!
Cool, have a great weekend.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 21, 2016, 02:44:48 PM
Fresas, Try to get on HRT as soon as you can girl friend.
Yeah that's my immediate goal, besides carrying on with the voice therapy and electrolysis. Dying for getting some woman essence into my blood!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on April 21, 2016, 03:27:53 PM
I have everything in place now to get GCS on Aug 24th in Los Angeles.
Awesome and congrats! Who is your doctor if you don't mind me asking?
I'm in the long wait for Dr Bowers but that way I get help from insurance.
There is a nice surgeon in Raleigh, NC. "Keelee MacPhee, M. D." her facebook page. We are friends & talked again some just last night. Keelee is not as well known as the other names however she has trained under some of the better surgeons & opened her own practice 5-6 years ago. She does most all types of plastic surgery along with GRS.
The Wife is away so I can play .I wore a dress to work for the first time today it felt wonderful to be free and best of all the only reactions I got where all positive most people did not even seem to notice any different LOL.
Dr. Gary Alter in Beverly Hills. I will get a portion of his fees reimbursed from insurance but I'm pretty sure it is going to cost me more than I was planning on spending. I just didn't want to wait a year and a half for a doctor that is in network with my medical plan.
Quote from: CrysC on April 22, 2016, 12:15:39 AM
Awesome and congrats! Who is your doctor if you don't mind me asking?
I'm in the long wait for Dr Bowers but that way I get help from insurance.
Jessie, It's sure nice for you that their is some insurance assistance. There is sure none in my state. Everything is just cash for therapy, HRT, doc's, any surgery....Good luck & congrats again. I'm know you are so excited to have a firm date not that far away. I sure would be. My surgeon is only going to be about 20K so that's not too bad. I've already spent that much on my facelift, facial surgery, lipo & tummy tuck to try & have a more shapely body & nicer face.
Earth Day, Yea!!! Let's all plant something green to celebrate this very important day. I am.
Had my first shift of volunteer work today! It went really well, they helped push me a bit because I am shy xD
The best thing is no one misgendered me or anything, even customers! :D
I'm going there weekly now, the atmosphere is great.
I'm getting back into shape getting ready to race triathlon again and am down to 166lb, lost 15 this year. Lost 15 so far and 30 more to go :)
My "Birdie" sticker AND a pair of rainbow coloured socks I ordered from Amazon arrived today.
Mello yello, You are luckier than me. I ordered 3 pairs of shoes/sandals from NewChic.com on April 5th & still nothing, darn. Really cute sandals....My $1.00 flip flops work just fine anyway I guess.
I'm sure glad my new very nice yellow & red roses are planted, that was a job removing old roses, adding new soil, planting new roses. Off to plastic surgeon for dental block shots then 2 hour electrolysis session tomorrow. Both ppl ar every nice to me & little by little my face looks nicer.
Really amazing day for me. I was approached by a guy in the elevator who looks like a really short Clark Kent (lol), and I learned that my CS degree is only 13 months on the horizon. <33333
I finally get to see my doc & electrolysis lady today for a 2 hour session. Once a week is about all I can do to make sure my skin is not damaged from electro work. First a dental block, then relax & let my lady kill away. OMG I'll be so glad when all those nasty hairs are so gone.....away.
I didn't get time to post this on Saturday but it really made me happy to help out a wonderful group that is fighting for our communities legal rights. The cast and crew of the show Transparent held a fundraiser to help the National Center for Transgender Equality. The reward for helping out the NCTE by making a donation - an afternoon at the Transparent production office on the Paramount Studios lot with most of the cast and crew.
Here I am with Jeffrey Tambor.
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Judith Light
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Amy Landecker
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Kathryn Hahn
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Zachary Drucker
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Cherry Jones
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Rain Valdez
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Booked initial consultation to talk about receiving some electrolysis in my too-manly eyebrows. I'm not doing this at the same place where I'm receiving the beard electrolysis because that's overseas and it's a bit overkill.
After a month of HRT, my nipples are sensitive, sore, and poke-outy enough that I have to do something about it. Crop top, cami, sports bra, something. Not that I haven't worn these things before, but I didn't really need to. It's nice to have a reason to underdress :)
Well today i got told my GIC referral forms had arrived and i have now been booked in for the 6th of may for a full medical and form filling session with my doctor. So at last something is happening.
Sophie
Happy dance that 2 hours of electrolysis was done today. My plastic surgeon doc did not numb my upper & lower lips enough. Not sure why but it was not as numb as it normally is after his dental block shots. That hurt today, ugggg. Happy it's over. Next time I'll have him do better. All & all not much left to do on my face.....that's sure nice.
Such cute sandals finally came in from newchic.com today. If I knew how to post a pic I would, so cute. Matching my toe nails to the rich pink shade of the toe straps of the sandals. I'll look nice on my next trip to town. Happy Dance. OH so happy I wear a 9 1/2 women's size shoes, no girl can have too many shoes.
I got my first estrogen implants today. The endo numbed the area with an injection, then made a small incision and put two pellets in. He used strips (no stitches) to close it back up.
When we looked at my blood results, the levels were excellent. 1200nmol E and 0.4 nmol T.
I hope they stay about the same after switching to implants, because I am really comfortable with the rate of changes.
My endo is such a nice person, I think I'll miss not seeing him every 6 weeks going forward...
Claire, good for you. I sure hope my new Endo lady doc will move me to implants soon. That will be such a relief to just not mess with anything but just go about life you know. Take care & good luck girl friend.
My job interview went very, very well. I had to lead off with my being transgender due to the mix of documentation they wanted, but they had no issues with that beyond how I would handle the childishness of some of the clients. Basically I have no competition because they're fully staffing a new region and if none of my references poop on me I have the job! Twice the salary for very fulfilling work. He really liked my enthusiasm and genuine fondness for my previous, similar position.
Quote from: Claire_Sydney on April 26, 2016, 09:19:40 PM
I got my first estrogen implants today. The endo numbed the area with an injection, then made a small incision and put two pellets in. He used strips (no stitches) to close it back up.
When we looked at my blood results, the levels were excellent. 1200nmol E and 0.4 nmol T.
I hope they stay about the same after switching to implants, because I am really comfortable with the rate of changes.
My endo is such a nice person, I think I'll miss not seeing him every 6 weeks going forward...
Nice, congratulations Claire :)
I'm seeing him next week myself. No implants on the horizon, but I am aiming to start spiro!
I'm sure happy I do not live in Oxford, Alabama. Up to 6 months in jail if caught by a pee pee cop. We need to all speak up..........speak up loud to try & stop this crap in the USA, "home of the free" yea right. Really pissed, even members of our own group are afraid to let us post things about this problem without being censored.....
Got to go to a panel discussion on Transgender issues last night. The panel was made up of individuals from the I Am Cait and Transparent television shows as well as some other transgender individuals. Speaking from the show I Am Cait were: Candis Cayne, Chandi Moore, Zackary Drucker (who is also a producer on Transparent), Ella Giselle and Drian Juarez. From the show Transparent were: Drucker, Trace Lysette and Van Barnes. Also speaking on the panel were Ashlee Marie Preston and Aydlin Olson-Kennedy.
There were a lot of students from Los Angeles City College as well as a number of transgender individuals present for the session. It was an amazing group of people to have together at one place and it was very inspiring for the transgender people present and educational for everyone.
The panelists were very nice and hung around after the presentation to talk with and pose for pictures with audience members. I feel so blessed to be living where I do and to have access to such remarkable individuals.
Had a checkup today ... I was happy that my T levels were "undetectable" and my E-levels were up at 125 pg/ml, which is finally right where the doc. wanted them. Last visit the E was too low, before it was too high .. Now it's "goldilocks". Having HRT monitored regularly via lab-tests and adjustments to the prescription(s) is important.
So many of my friends have faded into the mist along with my family but today, somebody I worked with over a decade back, found out about my change and that I had moved near where he lived. He reached out to me in very supportive way and wanted to catch up on things. We met for lunch and had a grand old time. I just have to say that it was really nice for somebody I knew before transition to be so positive and friendly.
I'm sure happy to enjoy men. I think a trip down to a Florida beach would be in order soon, maybe drop in a night club or two. I've always attracted men like flies almost. Oh me I must put off some scent that I'm hot or something even without perfume. Maybe I can find a nice unmarried man for a nice little fling. That would be so nice.
Have fun and be safe, Frannie Annie!
I had my first electrolysis appointment yesterday! I can feel that the hair is gone, and that makes me happy. Many, many hours to go - 1 down. hahahahaha! :)
Came out to scuba dive shop manager where i used to do casual work guiding customers. She was pleased i was happier and wants me back working as a dive master for them. Also had lunch with dive club friends which was lovely.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on April 29, 2016, 10:48:09 AM
Have fun and be safe, Frannie Annie!
Thanks. I will. Today is my birthday & I deserve a little summer fling soon. I'm lucky really I look very nice & I've always enjoyed being with a strong man as his woman. It would sure be nice if my GRS were complete & my body had healed up so I could completely enjoy a man. Lucky me really to look nice & feel good about myself.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 30, 2016, 05:41:10 AM
Thanks. I will. Today is my birthday & I deserve a little summer fling soon.
Happy Birthday!
Thanks.
Today was a very nice birthday. The ladies in my local town are so nice to me when I'm thrift store shopping. "You look nice today hun", "nice to see you sweetie" And I picked up some nice things very inexpensive. Life is good. My nipples sure are itching tonight, maybe those girls are happy also.
It's a beatiful day in London today. It's awesomely sunny, blue sky. The birds are singing.
I hate it when spring comes and I spend a night listening to music and it's 5am and Bam! the night is over. In summer it's even worse because 4am.
But, just like being trans, once you accept it... it's such a beautiful morning today :) and I love spring even if it means shorter music nights.
Cool, Fresas. I love my birds too. I live way out in the country & such nice birds........
One of my favourite games got an update and it is a 3 day holiday weekend so I'm checking it out!
It also happens to be surprisingly warm and sunny today, thinking of taking a walk.
Life is going well for me. I had a nice birthday, my nails are growing back out nicely, sticking with my Atkins way of eating, facial hair is almost gone, another electro session this wednesday, my body & face are looking so much nicer, more & more local people are calling me mam or sweetie when I'm out & about just dressed in shorts & a blouse. Soon to meet my new endo doc & maybe she can switch me to pellets which will be nice. No new men lately but I'm sure looking forward to a nice new relationship with a man, I just love to be with a strong well endowed man. Happy dance for me girl friends.
Three things:
1) A new server in the cafeteria called me 'Ma'am' which gave me a great feeling.
2 and 3) Bought two new pairs of shoes ;) A nice pair of suede boots and a pair of sandals.
Thursday I'm shopping with some colleagues for office-appropriate clothes. Looking forward to it!
I get to see my electrolysis lady friend today. We have such a good time together & my face is looking better & better. Life is good. I'm so happy that my body & face are looking better to have more self esteem. I so enjoy being as beautiful a woman as possible. Have a great day girl friends!!!!
It's sure nice to have a friend that I met from this site. She had her GRS some 20 years ago & has been happily married for the past 7-8 years. We have a lot in common since I'm also a hetrosexual woman & would also love to find Mr. Right to settle down with one day...Life is going OK I guess, each day is a little better......
Being told that I'm a gorgeous woman!
I present male in public but I'm letting my hair grow. The other day I was having lunch with a female colleague of mine. We were cleaning up the table to leave when a guy came up from behind me and said "are you ladies leaving?"
So I guess from behind I pass.
P.S. This is the same women who 3 months ago misheard something I said and almost choked on her lunch. She said she pictured me in a dress flashed for a second. That made me almost choke on my lunch. Funny thing, she is on my very short list to come out to first.
I am finally getting out of my hotel and moving into my new apartment tomorrow! Can't wait to get on with my life. Had my first appointment with a gender specialist the other day. She seemed great. Can't wait to get to talk to her more to help me figure out where I am going.
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Second voice therapy session. She said I have the pitch and, while there's some work towards getting proper intonation, I'm in a good starting point. If I practice talking with high pitch as much as I can, the resonance would come on its own. Who knows, maybe I won't have to undergo VFS after all?
Two things
I had my first 'girl' hair cut this week, it's transitional as it's been about 3 months since I'd grown it out long enough to keep in a ponytail. Layered to soften facial features and so as to look less like a guy with long hair. I don't wear it down much, usually the ponytail is just more practical.
Then yesterday with hair down had just been seated for coffee with my GF and a server approached from behind asking 'what would you ladies like?'.
It's working! ... At least from behind :-).
I got my ears pierced!
Flying to Spain to spend a week there!!!!
Last Sunday it was sunny in London and I wrote in my diary that I'd happily trade that for a stormy day in my home town. I guess my wish has been granted because the sun will stay here in the UK and I'm traveling to a rainy Madrid :)
Yea, I'm selling something old & male like for a lot of $, a boat, good riddance. More time & money to enjoy being a woman. Maybe a new man one day that owns his own boat......I've always enjoyed sex out on the water.
Yea, a nice FB women friend is sending me some of her marigold seeds. That will be great to plant & see them grow. It's sure nice to be a woman & have so many women friends
This sounds odd, but I think I finally spent an entire day with the old male persona shut down. All day in what I call 'girl mode', the state of mind where I'm up front running myself instead of trying to pass as male. That may have been the happiest day I've had in decades. (And no, I wasn't even properly dressed much of the day. Just underdressing, and I managed to stay in control in spite of wearing some andro clothing on the outside.)
I know, weird, but I was really happy. Small steps...
Today I had some tight black jeans on and a light blouse that I wore to work. Needing coffee I went into the kitchen and started the coffee maker. I then turned around to get some creamer and caught a guy checking out my butt. He looked away embarrassed. On the one hand wtf, I'm at work. On the other hand, cool, somebody checked out my butt!
Got my HRT letter from my Psych yesterday and have an appointment at the end of the month to get my first scripts so I rang to say I had my letter that we had been waiting on and very tongue in cheek asked if they had any appointments sooner than the 31st of the month...and just like that I have a new appointment for next Tuesday...the lady did suggest I would have to wait and I told her I would bring a packed lunch if needed but would be there with bells on and all day if that's what it takes. :icon_rockon:
Got my first haircut since I started growing it out (again!). I couldn't get as much layering as I would have liked because I still need to be able to put it back in a ponytail, but I like the change. The hair dresser also gave some tips on products to use and how to use a hair dryer properly (a friend of mine had given me absolutely terrible advice!)
I went shopping with a couple friends a few days ago, and that was just amazing! I felt so much more confident in the stores with other people, and was able to enjoy the experience much more. Not nearly enough for a wardrobe, but it's a start. I've already worn a few of the outfits to work, and gotten some good reactions :)
I may start HRT by Thursday. :D
I was in a group photo this weekend that was posted on Facebook. Of course being tagged in the picture it showed up in my timeline.
The picture was with a bunch of cyclists and we were in our cycling gear. If you are not familiar with such attire, it's very form fitting. And the jersey I had selected to wear that day was an extra small so it was a little tight.
This morning my sister forwarded me a message from my cousin, who I have not seen in 15-20 years, sent my sister an email that said "Wow - I had to zoom way in on that picture, I thought he was a girl!" Funny thing - I agree. I'm only out a a few people and she is not one of them so my sister and I got a big laugh out of it.
BUT I'm sitting here with a smile on my face!
After 5 months of manic work I have my life back.
Spent Monday and Tuesday in Melbourne for work and much less stressful than the 18 hour days of the past.
I will be able to focus back on me for once.
Today I had my first laser hair removal treatment! Even though it was kind of painful, it really made my day! I think I haven't been this energized in weeks. It's great to see what a little hope and perspective can do.
Today I finally started on Hormones! :) Ive been on Estrogel for 1 and a half weeks, but i finally had my first Leuprorelin jab this afternoon!!! Was mega nervous, but its done, and three yars after being reffered to the gender clinic im finally where i want to be :) xx
Congrats! An exciting day! Enjoy your journey. Be patient in regards to results. It really depends on the individual. I know it was a day I won't forget. I was smiling from ear to ear with tears of joy running down my face. Such a long wait and then.......
Received the results from virtualffs.co.uk. Wow, really impressive job, and I like the result a lot! Ok I could be prettier :P but I'm definitely 100% a woman even under the most demanding eyes, which are always your own. My bestie and her mother, who know about it, were also amazed.
I took a little break from SP, but it looks like all is well with everyone. Little by little my body is improving & all is going well I guess. A complete 100% normal life as myself, a woman will be so nice. No new men in my life but maybe one day. I saw a hunk yesterday but I'm not ready yet to receive him, so wish I were, he was a nice man. My breasts are growing pretty nice, that's such a relief, facial hair is almost gone, happy dance....Oh my how nice it is to be a woman finally....My GRS surgery will be such a nice relief from all the years of pain, discomfort for me. How nice to feel a man inside me like any hetrosexual woman would desire.
Today is my 1st birthday! One year ago I legally became Jessie and became legally female. I can't believe how fast the time has gone by. ❤️❤️
Quote from: Jessie Ann on May 22, 2016, 10:13:01 AM
Today is my 1st birthday! One year ago I legally became Jessie and became legally female. I can't believe how fast the time has gone by. ❤️❤️
Jessie Ann, I'm so glad for you young woman. You look great!!!! I sure wish I could have found a way to correct my physical gender long long ago when younger. Enjoy life nice girl friend.
Being called 'Love' by two guys in one day . . . Sometimes its the little things that make me happy! :) x
Lucky you Zoe. That's not a little thing. I've sure always enjoyed being desired my a man.....
Back on my diet today after a week off. Atkins works for me & I was down like 25 pounds. I'll be back to normal in a few days....I'm sure thinking about men lately, kind of excited to find a new man this summer to be with. Maybe a nice strong stud of a man, that would be so nice, happy dance.
Went to church as usual with the wife and was very pleasantly surprised when 2 woman complimented ME and actually said I look PRETTY .For a 60 Year old trans woman at a Church that Knows and accepts my status that really made MY day I could really get to like this LOL
This may be an odd one... Successfully installed a new water heater. No one at Home Depot noticed me wearing lipstick (and they could not see the painted toe nails)...
Sarah, hahahaha, good for you girl friend. Women plumbers make lots of $ you know. I could have never figured that out. I would have had to call a plumber. Hope you have some nice red toenails?
I have a handy man that does most of my plumbing & electrical work around the house. He is such a hunk & he knows I'm attracted to him. I always dress nice, nice nails, perfume, when he visits. He's happily married with 2 kids but he sure would be nice to be with....oh well, gotta find an open nice man maybe.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on May 23, 2016, 06:40:09 AM
Sarah, hahahaha, good for you girl friend. Women plumbers make lots of $ you know. I could have never figured that out. I would have had to call a plumber. Hope you have some nice red toenails?
Ha - how did you know?... Revlon Colorstay "Delicious" 080 bright red...
Well, I was drunk on Friday and apparently told a lot of friends that I'm male to female. Instead of just being judged or made fun of like I would have expected they all accept me. (even though I didn't mean to tell them) Now they call me by my female name and use female pronouns with me. Feels really good especially after growing up the way I did not being accepted
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Well, I am super excited! ... I live in NC and I got my name changed at the court house and social security admin along with my gender, and overall everyone was very nice to me. Off to the DMV tomorrow to get a new license! ;D
Quote from: Lauren Nicole on May 23, 2016, 04:29:45 PM
Well, I am super excited! ... I live in NC and I got my name changed at the court house and social security admin along with my gender, and overall everyone was very nice to me. Off to the DMV tomorrow to get a new license! ;D
Definitely exciting and good news; congratulations on this major event in your transition!
Today, I am wearing a skirt for the first time! I have dreamed of this day since before I was a teen! A nice denim skirt. My partner told me that it 'looked really nice on me'! We went tot visit my mother in law and went shopping. I felt great!
I just realized that I accidentally almost completely dressed female today. I usually wear briefs and a tank under male clothes. This morning, I grabbed a unisex pullover, and jeans, pulled everything on, and set off on my day. Oops. The Gloria Vanderbilt jeans. I thought that belt was riding a little high. :)
Wheeeee!
I still had my shiny bald head exposed, though.
Got fitted for new bras at Victoria Secrets today... Snug C or loose D 36 band. Wow I can't wait til I can start HRT and see what happens from there. Damn, makes a girl feel good.
What made me happy today was knowing my student ID is valid again and I can check out books at the university library and get a membership at the town library (I'd normally have to pay a fee because I live in a different county). I checked out Wizard's First Rule as it was recommended to me, and I was not expecting an 800-page Stephen King-sized book.
Nothing trans-related today, but yesterday I found the voice clinic my first gender therapist said many of her clients said was really good, and about a week ago I found out my insurance will cover HRT.
Quote from: kittenpower on May 23, 2016, 05:21:29 PM
Definitely exciting and good news; congratulations on this major event in your transition!
Thank you!
Quoting from "What made you unhappy today?":
Quote from: Fresas con Nata on May 20, 2016, 07:17:39 PM
I received the anticipated call, but I was the usual jerk I am:
—Hello?
—Malename Surname?
—Err "good morning". Yes it's me.
[...] she told me she'd call again, but I'm sure she won't because my being rough :(
Well I received a call today :) I have my first GIC appointment at the Ramón y Cajal hospital in Madrid on June 30th. Yay!!
Reading this thread. No, really.
I was having an off day, feeling down about no real progress, or even much opportunity to dress and get out recently. So, I dropped in here and read through this thread. Better now, the sense of depression blowing away. Plus, I have a cat that just decided to give me attention.
Thanks!
My boss/adviser introduced me to a group of international scientists today using female pronouns. I did a double-take, because I was surprised he would do that. It made me feel great!
Two days late but...
Thursday:
First shot of Estradiol Valerate!
Original Prescription was VERY LOW dosage, Dr DOUBLED it to a normal transition dosage!
Three hours later I told my son about me being trans. (He said he is supportive, no hysteria nor negative comments)
My sister gave me a wonderful pendant bracelet
My wife asked to be more communicative with her about all this (hey, small steps, I'll take it)
I'm very happy to have so many natural born women friends. They are really the only people I can relate to since I've always just been female & a woman all my life. My body is improving a little each day but it's sure a long way before I'm a normal person. My neighbor has a new boy friend. I'm sure jealous. I wish I had a nice man to be with as his 100% woman. Oh me I so miss being with a nice man. Maybe just maybe I can fully enjoy being with a nice man one day. I sure miss the so nice emotions of a man inside me somehow.......I always felt my best where desired my a strong man.
Saturday - Went biking - about 30 mile in in stopped for lunch at a restaurant with waiter/waitress service. The Waiter called me "Mam" twice.
I started E Thursday so there's no changes, just slightly longer hair that has been in a bike helmet for a while, wind blown...etc. Interesting I told this to my wife and her reaction was, your face does look a lot like your mother.
Maybe I will pass after all without too much surgical intervention.
My breasts are growing nicely & my nails are growing back out after a nasty break a while back. It sure feels good to be a woman!!!! Life is good. Happy Memorial Day all friends.
I found a box of Climara patches that I did not know I had, lucky me I was about out. I've sure been thinking about men & sex a lot lately......Maybe somehow I can get moving on my GRS later this summer so one day I just have a normal sex life with a nice man.
Realizing that after 6 weeks on HRT I think I am finally starting to notice very slight breast growth and how good that feels. I also thought this morning how fortunate I am because most men never get to experience this. That made me feel real happy.
I got a call back yesterday from my new therspist, my first appt. Is thursdsy. I can't wait
My referral has arrived in Montreal! I have received and returned my medical survey! Now I wait to see what is next!
Wired my deposit for SRS today. I'm very excited.
Quote from: Shadow Wolf on May 24, 2016, 12:25:14 AM
What made me happy today was knowing my student ID is valid again and I can check out books at the university library and get a membership at the town library (I'd normally have to pay a fee because I live in a different county). I checked out Wizard's First Rule as it was recommended to me, and I was not expecting an 800-page Stephen King-sized book.
Nothing trans-related today, but yesterday I found the voice clinic my first gender therapist said many of her clients said was really good, and about a week ago I found out my insurance will cover HRT.
Wizard's first rule is a great book!!
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My therapist helped me to see that it's ok for other people to be concerned for me, she will be consulting this week with a psychologist who's got specific experience with people in transition to decide on a letter of recommendation for GRS.
The surgical practice I'm thinking about received my registration paperwork today.
:-)
It's sure nice to be a woman, breasts are growing, my nails are growing, so many nice friends. Oh happy dance when my body has a nice normal depth vagina so I can finally enjoy a better life.....maybe a new man in time or 2-3 since I missed so much earlier in life........
Quote from: melissagirl on May 31, 2016, 07:37:22 PM
Wired my deposit for SRS today. I'm very excited.
Melissa, Oh me I know you are so excited.......good luck girl friend. Let us know more about life & how you are doing??? If you want a new friend send me a PM. We have a lot in common it seems.....Good for both of us to correct our bodies you know......
Got hair done at trans barber shop buy very nice and good looking trans man
Maybe a little summer romance....soon. I'm so happy to be attracted to men & always have been. It's so nice to be a woman & enjoy life.
There is an F on my new drivers license.
I can't afford the name change yet but, THERE'S AN F ON MY LICENSE [emoji7][emoji79][emoji2]
Congrats Stevie! That is a big step! I could not stop looking at my new license when it came with new middle name and 'F'! I still like to look at it. I even like my picture!
I got a call from the executive director of the company I have my new second job with. The pay is great and it's work I love to do, but they typically don't pay for travel. I haven't actually started yet. We're still getting clients lined up. For the life of me I couldn't think why he was calling and it had me a little worried. It turns out that they had been discussing the clients they're assigning to me and the distance to them from my home. He was calling to tell me he had authorized a $15 per day stipend due to the unusual distance. What a great agency to work for! Welcoming, accepting and thoughtful. I hope this grows to full time.
Sorted out closets with my wife and she gave me several full outfits not fitting her anymore :-) 3 new skirts and 2 dresses along with a few other items. So lucky to have her and for her being so understanding...
I changed my name today :)
Quote from: Rachel Lynn on June 03, 2016, 09:47:39 PM
I changed my name today :)
Congratulations!!!
For me I just took shot number 2. It was actually less painful when I did it vs the Dr. And I think my wife and I are starting to reach some sort of equilibrium. Still a long road ahead, but it looks like the light at the end of a tunnel may not be a run-away train after all! (Communications is a good thing.)
Work is going very well. My company is working hard to improve their gender diversity. I would actually say that as a woman I have more growth potential and opportunities than I did before. Talk about ironic. Nobody cares about my origin and everybody treats me like a natural born woman which is super awesome.
Quote from: CrysC on June 03, 2016, 10:31:01 PM
Work is going very well. My company is working hard to improve their gender diversity. I would actually say that as a woman I have more growth potential and opportunities than I did before. Talk about ironic. Nobody cares about my origin and everybody treats me like a natural born woman which is super awesome.
Good for you. That sure was not true when I was in my 20's when I tried so much just to live a normal life as a woman.....fired from several jobs.....Oh well life is good now since I'm independent these days. Go do a great job & enjoy being a woman to all, show them you can do great things & enjoy your correct gender.
Quote from: islandgirl on June 03, 2016, 05:59:37 PM
Congrats Stevie! That is a big step! I could not stop looking at my new license when it came with new middle name and 'F'! I still like to look at it. I even like my picture!
Oh god , I know.
I think I was a bit annoying with how excited I was. And I think I like the picture too. It's a temp one for now while I wait for them to mail it to me, so I'm only seeing the black and white pic.
Now I just need to change name, but I have to wait another 5 months before I can foo that. I've only lived in this state a month and they require 6 months before a name change. I figure that that will be good though as it will be 5 more months of hormones for my new picture. [emoji3][emoji3]
I'm very happy to have a nice plastic surgeon picked out. She is in Raleigh NC, very qualified & very reasonable charges. I'm sure she will do a great job with my GRS & perhaps breast implants. We talk all the time & she knows my pain with having some of the wrong gender body parts. Oh happy when I can finally have that surgery, then heal up to a normal life......I'll dance in the middle of the street wearing a bright pink too too, hahaha I might just do that.
I was at a bar and I was washing my hands in the men's room and when a big burly guy stepped in, we turned around to make sure he was in the right bathroom. That felt good.
Life is going pretty well, back to see my electrolysis lady this week for my normal 2 hour session. HRT sure feels good. Maybe soon a flight to see my plastic surgeon so she can look at my body & recommend the procedures for my GRS later this summer or fall. She has been very nice to me & I know she will do a good job with my surgery.
It's so nice to have a few heterosexual women friends here. At least a few of us love to be a woman & love men. I love being a woman with a nice man, what could be nicer & more natural for me. Life is great. Have a great day girl friends.
I had my regular appointment with my gender therapist today. I went in loaded for bear, with a signed 'informed consent' letter from the UCSF website to show I knew what I was doing, and a self-written appraisal structured like a referral letter, and requesting HRT.
It turns out all I had to do was ask. I've got an endocrinologist appointment tomorrow! So, that's one happy.
I went out to a local bakery chain to get a celebratory breakfast. Nothing but "Ma'am" all the way! (And the French Toast was delicious.) That's two happys.
Then, I hit the Old Navy store to pick up some summer-weight lightly fitted tees. Score! And, I got "Ma'am"ed at checkout. That's three happys.
:) :) :)
Quote from: Michelle_P on June 08, 2016, 01:44:07 PM
I had my regular appointment with my gender therapist today. I went in loaded for bear, with a signed 'informed consent' letter from the UCSF website to show I knew what I was doing, and a self-written appraisal structured like a referral letter, and requesting HRT.
It turns out all I had to do was ask. I've got an endocrinologist appointment tomorrow! So, that's one happy.
I went out to a local bakery chain to get a celebratory breakfast. Nothing but "Ma'am" all the way! (And the French Toast was delicious.) That's two happys.
Then, I hit the Old Navy store to pick up some summer-weight lightly fitted tees. Score! And, I got "Ma'am"ed at checkout. That's three happys.
:) :) :)
congrats
I forgot to post this the other day - I have officially got my date for GCS reserved. Aug 25th here in Los Angeles. I put down my deposit and I am doing all my prep work for the big day. It is hard to believe how much has changed in my life in just 16 months since I first met with my therapist. HRT, trachea shave, legal name and gender change, Drivers License, Passport, Birth Certificate, full time RLE, FFS, breast augmentation and now the finishing touch on the physical transition.
I have learned so much about the trans community and the struggles that so many have to go through. So while I am happy about my situation, I feel bad for those who are having to struggle to achieve their dream. Once I am recovered I will begin to find ways to fight for those in the community who are in need of assistance in transition. This is a medical condition that needs to be treated medically without exclusion because someone believes these procedures are "cosmetic" in nature. I will also expand on my efforts to educate the public on our issues and the terrible things that are happening to some of our brothers and sisters.
It makes me happy to know that I can help make a difference.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on June 08, 2016, 04:42:50 PM
I forgot to post this the other day - I have officially got my date for GCS reserved. Aug 25th here in Los Angeles. I put down my deposit and I am doing all my prep work for the big day. It is hard to believe how much has changed in my life in just 16 months since I first met with my therapist. HRT, trachea shave, legal name and gender change, Drivers License, Passport, Birth Certificate, full time RLE, FFS, breast augmentation and now the finishing touch on the physical transition.
I have learned so much about the trans community and the struggles that so many have to go through. So while I am happy about my situation, I feel bad for those who are having to struggle to achieve their dream. Once I am recovered I will begin to find ways to fight for those in the community who are in need of assistance in transition. This is a medical condition that needs to be treated medically without exclusion because someone believes these procedures are "cosmetic" in nature. I will also expand on my efforts to educate the public on our issues and the terrible things that are happening to some of our brothers and sisters.
It makes me happy to know that I can help make a difference.
Great for you Jessie, you are a beautiful woman & you should feel so good about yourself, August will be here in no time.
Back to see my electrolysis on my remaining facial hairs. OMG girl friends this stuff is giving me fits. Please just go away & never return at all please!!!! Why did I not have 100% of that stuff removed when I was back in my early 20's or better yet why did I get the completely wrong hormones for puberty, uggggg. I'm very happy to be a woman but oh my all this nasty stuff hanging on it giving me fits.
Great electrolysis appointment. Electrolygist complemented me on both my pain threshold and my legs.
Quote from: alex82 on June 09, 2016, 07:15:59 AM
Great electrolysis appointment. Electrolygist complemented me on both my pain threshold and my legs.
Good for you. I sure cry when my lady does my upper lip, oh my. I have to see my plastic surgeon first for dental block shots that last 2-3 hours so my lady can work on this upper lip. What a mess, the wrong hairs grow in places then never in the right places, makes me want to cry. Good luck girl friend.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 09, 2016, 07:44:12 AM
Good for you. I sure cry when my lady does my upper lip, oh my. I have to see my plastic surgeon first for dental block shots that last 2-3 hours so my lady can work on this upper lip. What a mess, the wrong hairs grow in places then never in the right places, makes me want to cry. Good luck girl friend.
Thank you darling!
I had been very worried about the pain, esp on the upper lip. But it's ok. I can think of a list of more fun things to do, but it's really ok - and today was middle of the top lip, under the nostrils, cupids bow. I was bracing myself but it was still ok. It was so ok, I would've gone longer, but she had someone else coming in.
I must be lucky in finding it all ok. I remember my grandmother had electrolysis years ago and she cried. Said the swelling and pain was so bad she couldn't get the tube home but had to pay for a cab instead so she could sob privately, and spent two days rolling ice cubes on it. I was worried I'd be similar, but pain threshold wise, I take after the maternal side.
Hope you get yours under control. Wishing you all the best for it!
Alex, Thanks so much. It's sure one nasty vulgar thing to get rid of oh me....I sure wish I had never received any bad hormones long long ago before puberty.....I never wanted any part of that or this stupid facial hair....7 am appt for next Monday....My lady is so so booked. She does great work for lots of women, I'm just one of the girls with her.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 09, 2016, 12:06:07 PM
Alex, Thanks so much. It's sure one nasty vulgar thing to get rid of oh me....I sure wish I had never received any bad hormones long long ago before puberty.....I never wanted any part of that or this stupid facial hair....7 am appt for next Monday....My lady is so so booked. She does great work for lots of women, I'm just one of the girls with her.
It is horrible - the feel rather than the look, but that too.
Wishing you the easiest and fastest luck in sorting it.
I volunteered at the PTHC at kids camp and at a table my work has. Later I went to the 12 street gym (LGBT) gym and worked out with my trainer. I have had this feeling all day, a feeling of being comfortable and happy with who I am.
I met my endocrinologist, signed forms, got labs, and picked up my prescription.
Just took my first (tiny) dose... Farewell, testosterone! :)
The fuse is lit...
Congrats girl! Welcome to the club!!
Quote from: Michelle_P on June 09, 2016, 10:05:51 PM
I met my endocrinologist, signed forms, got labs, and picked up my prescription.
Just took my first (tiny) dose... Farewell, testosterone! :)
The fuse is lit...
7:30 appt Monday with my electrolysis lady, oh my she works hard....,starts early. It will be nice to see her, she knows I'm a woman & she is doing all she can to remove my remaining facial hair. If we can ever get done with that she also does permanent makeup for eyes & lips. I'd love better defined lips & eye work to just look nicer without so much or any makeup. She is a pro & does that for lots of her clients. My nails are finally looking OK. Life is good I guess, it's a lot of work to look nice but well worth it.
Getting the results of a fertility test - positive.
So I held off hormones for an actual reason that was worth doing, rather than just a hope and a waste of time.
I was convinced it would be negative - I smoked since my early teens, did all the stuff you aren't meant to, wore tight jeans for years.
I'm so relieved.
Congratulations to Michelle up there btw. Hope it all works out.
Well, it's not as monumental as some of the things here, but I bought women's shoes yesterday. Even tried them on in the store. I've not been able to do that before, so it was a big "step". Pun intended.
Quote from: Da on June 10, 2016, 10:39:46 AM
Well, it's not as monumental as some of the things here, but I bought women's shoes yesterday. Even tried them on in the store. I've not been able to do that before, so it was a big "step". Pun intended.
You can't just say that. What are they like?
Quote from: Da on June 10, 2016, 10:39:46 AM
Well, it's not as monumental as some of the things here, but I bought women's shoes yesterday. Even tried them on in the store. I've not been able to do that before, so it was a big "step". Pun intended.
hahaha, that's funny, great for you, show or tell us about your new shoes, new shoes are a great day. I always feel special with new shoes or sandals. Oh NewChic.com has some beautiful sandals at great prices! Check them out, so cute & made very well.
I had to get new bras as I needed bigger cups. The girls were in pain with what I had. I'm up to 36D now. I don't think they will get any bigger but I'm happy they did this well.
Quote from: Da on June 10, 2016, 10:39:46 AM
Well, it's not as monumental as some of the things here, but I bought women's shoes yesterday. Even tried them on in the store. I've not been able to do that before, so it was a big "step". Pun intended.
Realised the other day after using the fitting rooms and then trying on sample lipsticks in a departments store that I've come a long way since last winter when I bought clothes in a different city and rushed in and out to keep my secret.
Yesterday, I saw my endo for the first time and got the magical beans prescribed!!!
Quote from: CrysC on June 10, 2016, 10:49:40 PM
I had to get new bras as I needed bigger cups. The girls were in pain with what I had. I'm up to 36D now. I don't think they will get any bigger but I'm happy they did this well.
Oh my gosh, please share your secret formula!!!! My girls are maybe a B cup & not moving much at all, you must feel just great with D cups, oh me, lucky girl....the boys will be after you....
When I was shopping for groceries at the local supermarket, a woman next in line to me actually addressed me with female pronouns. This made me exceptionally happy, seeing as I wasn't even wearing make-up or anything or dressed particularly feminine. Heck; I haven't even shaved in a day, though ever since I've started laser hair removal I've been blessed with much thinner facial hair. Of course I had to hide my voice when the woman approached me, since I still have that stupid "hot potato" guy voice. Still, this event made me very happy and hopeful today!
IPSY glam bag day is always nice, a cute little bag, small nail polish, eye makeup. My plastic surgeon is nice to PM with every so often. I know she will do a great job on my GRS. Two years ago today completed my facelift & wearing a facial compression mask 24/7 for a month or more. I'm so happy that was completed. My GRS whenever I gather the funds & time for it should be a walk in the park compared to all my previous surgeries.
Day three Spiro so exciting
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 11, 2016, 06:36:03 AM
Oh my gosh, please share your secret formula!!!! My girls are maybe a B cup & not moving much at all, you must feel just great with D cups, oh me, lucky girl....the boys will be after you....
Thanks! It's not much of a secret. Hormones got me up to C. I was blessed in this regard. The extra mile was from my body feminization surgery I had a month ago. That procedure was to remove fat from my flanks, abs, upper back and near the armpit and transfer that to my rear. If there was any left over they were going to balance the girls out some as my right was a little smaller than the left. I woke up and the girls were considerably enhanced between fill and reducing my back.
It does look pretty good which makes me happy :-)
Quote from: CrysC on June 11, 2016, 09:13:53 PM
Thanks! It's not much of a secret. Hormones got me up to C. I was blessed in this regard. The extra mile was from my body feminization surgery I had a month ago. That procedure was to remove fat from my flanks, abs, upper back and near the armpit and transfer that to my rear. If there was any left over they were going to balance the girls out some as my right was a little smaller than the left. I woke up and the girls were considerably enhanced between fill and reducing my back.
It does look pretty good which makes me happy :-)
I've had a facelift, eye lid surgery, lipo & a tummy tuck but I would love to have the surgery you outlined, my upper arms & back have so much extra fat, yuck. Like you I'd love a fuller more natural butt. But darn not much extra $, GRS will cost about 25K you know. I bet you look great, good for you girl friend. OH I'm buying Fla lotto tickets, if I ever hit I'll take care of everything!!!!My plastic surgeon is OK but he's not that good at going the extra mile to make my body look more female....darn. We have talked about my arms but he says they look normal, not true, they have so much fat on them, ugggg????
A few days ago it was my birthday so I got my eyebrows waxed, bought a new dress on sale and had acrylic nails attached for the first time :) (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fuploads.tapatalk-cdn.com%2F20160613%2Fa8c9f882cdbedf5ca19326238376679b.jpg&hash=42701f1885324d2e63c5d2036a99411f54404c2e)
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Happy, belated!
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Being moved to a different NHS board region, for the purposes of sperm freezing, and dealing with a lovely respectful young man who said it was simply a matter of a referral letter from a GP, that can be acted on as soon as they get it, and that I have the legal right to completely free storage, as does anyone transitioning.
Not the story I got from the harridan of a fertility receptionist at my local board, who when I explained said "oh that takes months and months". When I said it can't possibly take such a long time when it has to be a fast service used to going at speed, for people starting chemotherapy, she said "yeah, well it's hardly that in this case is it?".
No, love, just another few months of dysphoria - why don't you try it! Then she went on about the potential counseling that would be required - and involve more time and an extra waiting list. I said what exactly is the counseling for? She laughed and said "the implications" like I was some kind of child. I said "I'd have thought the implications were obvious". So she concluded "maybe you just can't do it then".
I'm going to ring back and report her.
Complained. That made me very happy.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on June 12, 2016, 08:01:20 PM
Happy, belated!
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Thank you! X I just got back from Download metal festival, and it was amazing! I discovered several new bands I really like (including Rammstein and Billy Talent), saw some of my favourite bands of Salk time (Babymetal, Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden, Nightwish) and got to mosh right at the front of Black Sabbath's last ever UK concert! :D
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My friend brought over some nice kush this morning
My wife called me some days ago, and told me (she was chatting on phone withe some girls) "babe, we need your help - we need an advise of a 5th woman... is this necklace modern or old fashioned?" ... it totaly made my day!
My face is looking so much nicer, these sparse fine white hairs are going away, Happy Dance. My lady uses the galvantic process now, the same process she uses on most of her clients. I only see her ever 2 weeks for touch up work.....now. All & all I feel pretty good, it's nice that grocery store clerk calls me by name, Hello Francis, how are you dear.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 13, 2016, 12:56:47 PM
My face is looking so much nicer, these sparse fine white hairs are going away, Happy Dance. My lady uses the galvantic process now, the same process she uses on most of her clients. I only see her ever 2 weeks for touch up work.....now. All & all I feel pretty good, it's nice that grocery store clerk calls me by name, Hello Francis, how are you dear.
Good to hear your face is on the up and you survived the latest round.
Alex, I like seeing my electro lady, she is cool, not much pain at all, a little sting. Thanks.
As someone living in poverty in the US this made me kinda happy. :)
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I started electrolysis treatment today! Just one hour, but I'll be ramping up to hopefully some 4 hour sessions to get this chicken plucked. Jodie, the electrolyst, did a great job of explaining the whole process to me. The first session aimed at my thick chin, and we'll work out from there. She used thermolysis, which seems to work well for me. Very comfortable, and four hours later I don't see any swelling or redness.
So, Yaaaaay!
Quote from: Katrina on June 13, 2016, 08:26:31 PM
As someone living in poverty in the US this made me kinda happy. :)
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I sure wish blue cross in my state covered this!!! $30K is a little tough for me right now, uggggg.
I was in shock since I first learned about what happened in Orlando. And kinda scared to go out. But I did anyway. And what made my day today was to talk to friends, and cry, and console one another. That's what made me happy today. To be with people I love and care about. And I love everyone here. It's PRIDE month!!. WE are strong!
Quote from: Katrina on June 13, 2016, 08:26:31 PM
As someone living in poverty in the US this made me kinda happy. :)
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May I ask what state?
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 10, 2016, 12:34:02 PM
hahaha, that's funny, great for you, show or tell us about your new shoes, new shoes are a great day. I always feel special with new shoes or sandals. Oh NewChic.com has some beautiful sandals at great prices! Check them out, so cute & made very well.
Just a plain pair of black pumps, and a pair of blue athletics. When I get home, if I can figure it out, I'll post pictures. Thanks everyone!
Quote from: StevieC9 on June 14, 2016, 01:41:07 AM
May I ask what state?
[/quote I'd like to know also. That would sure be nice!!!!! I would change coverage in a minute if available in my state!!!
I set a date for my upcoming suicide which is 61 days away
I got to paint my fingernails, it may be clear coat, but still, I am enjoying it. Btw, I am at work where I present as male and my nails are painted.
Jo
Quote from: pj on March 18, 2016, 03:25:39 PM
I'm happy for you - I hope you like your new location.
Congrats.
Jo
What made me happy today? Walking into target today and as soon as i go though the entrance facing right at ya is a rainbow display filled with rainbow clothing and a banner over it saying take pride. put a big smile on my face in light of the recent controversies.
Back on my normal daily estrogen, happy dance. I was off for 3-4 days & OMG I felt terrible. Life is good. I sure am thinking about men lately, oh my I'd love a strong, handsome, well endowed man to be with, oh my that is so nice to have a man in your life/bed....Maybe one day soon.
Shopping! I have new hair, that actually matches the leftover bits that still sprout on my head. Age appropriate, more or less. ;D
Making it through the entire day getting "ma'am"ed only, not a single sir, was extra nice. Stores, restaurant, on the street. It was all good. Of course, this region is pretty t-friendly compared to many places. Still, nice.
bought a new red blazer yesterday :)
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My mother is amazing.
We talked for hours - laughing, joking, crying, being brutally honest, talking about fashion, sex, one night stands, porn - as well as gender dysphoria. We talked about what relatives who'd died would've thought - she agreed my father wouldn't have cared less but just seen me as me. My grandfather would probably be upset, but considering he was born pre 1920 it would be understandable, and he'd come round as he always did with everything else.
She doesn't knit - not that sort of girl - but she said "before you were born I knitted a blue cardigan and a pink one, should've kept the pink one". No, blue is my favourite colour, you did right.
She offered to remortgage to fund anything and everything, an offer I cannot accept because she's worked hard through tough times to be financially secure, and she deserves to be entering her sixties without financial debts hanging over her.
She said, is it ok to ask stupid questions? I said of course. So she said you're not going to turn up dressed as a hooker or in Laura Ashley flounces are you? I said no, skinny jeans and Jimmy Choos. She said, "so this ends in your knob being cut off right?" - yes ASAP.
I asked if she was going to tell her new boyfriend, and she said "not yet, but I will, and if he has a problem he can sod off". Which I don't want because he's really good for her.
She said, I knew, but I thought maybe you were just gay and effeminate and embarrassed, and she couldn't understand why I would be because she's the ultimate fag hag. I said, no, I'm as straight as you are.
She asked who else knew, I said some names she'd know, but said it stopped short of everyone because I didn't want her to be the last. I said I haven't told this particular friend who's a second wave unreconstructed 1970's feminist with some retro hang ups about sex changes - and having never met her or seen a picture of this friend, my mother said "yeah, well, she never got hit on at the disco and that's what her problem is".
That couldn't have gone better.
I'm happy because yesterday I had my second appointment with a psychologist at the gender clinic. I'm saddened because I have to wait until September for my next appointment. I have three future appointments planned at the gender clinic, and they all involve doing psychological tests in order for them to get an overview of how I am mentally. Still no HRT in sight, and depression lurks around every corner...
Quote from: alex82 on June 16, 2016, 02:41:27 PM
My mother is amazing.
We talked for hours - laughing, joking, crying, being brutally honest, talking about fashion, sex, one night stands, porn - as well as gender dysphoria. We talked about what relatives who'd died would've thought - she agreed my father wouldn't have cared less but just seen me as me. My grandfather would probably be upset, but considering he was born pre 1920 it would be understandable, and he'd come round as he always did with everything else.
She doesn't knit - not that sort of girl - but she said "before you were born I knitted a blue cardigan and a pink one, should've kept the pink one". No, blue is my favourite colour, you did right.
She offered to remortgage to fund anything and everything, an offer I cannot accept because she's worked hard through tough times to be financially secure, and she deserves to be entering her sixties without financial debts hanging over her.
She said, is it ok to ask stupid questions? I said of course. So she said you're not going to turn up dressed as a hooker or in Laura Ashley flounces are you? I said no, skinny jeans and Jimmy Choos. She said, "so this ends in your knob being cut off right?" - yes ASAP.
I asked if she was going to tell her new boyfriend, and she said "not yet, but I will, and if he has a problem he can sod off". Which I don't want because he's really good for her.
She said, I knew, but I thought maybe you were just gay and effeminate and embarrassed, and she couldn't understand why I would be because she's the ultimate fag hag. I said, no, I'm as straight as you are.
She asked who else knew, I said some names she'd know, but said it stopped short of everyone because I didn't want her to be the last. I said I haven't told this particular friend who's a second wave unreconstructed 1970's feminist with some retro hang ups about sex changes - and having never met her or seen a picture of this friend, my mother said "yeah, well, she never got hit on at the disco and that's what her problem is".
That couldn't have gone better.
Good for you girl friend. Your mom sounds a lot like mine. She always knew I was a girl & loved me so, did all she could for me to have a good life. Mothers are great, enjoy being her daughter, make her proud......
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 16, 2016, 07:47:12 PM
Good for you girl friend. Your mom sounds a lot like mine. She always knew I was a girl & loved me so, did all she could for me to have a good life. Mothers are great, enjoy being her daughter, make her proud......
Thank you Francis Ann, I intend to!
I was in the bank because my direct deposit (first time) hadn't shown up. It turns out that it had after I was told it hadn't. While I was there I changed the picture they keep in the computer and asked that they change my gender in their records. The man was very nice. As we finished I commented that he must not get that request often. He replied that it was the second time today.
I am happy for my dear friend Moni, tomorrow is her last day as the person she never wanted to be. Saturday she is finally the person she always wanted to be. So happy for her!
For work since coming out I have been wearing button down woman's shirts. Today I had a cammie, v neck sleeveless top and cardigan for when I left the office. This morning I looked in the mirror and said to myself, I look good. I felt good too. I went to work and the woman (and guys too) in the office were very supportive.
When I left the office I wore the cardigan. For lunch I walked across 2 busy large atriums and into a packed cafeteria. No one said anything except hello from a few. I got a few looks but other than that it went well.
Leaving work I thought to myself I feel awesome and the experience was great. I will be getting two more cardigans to go with the tops I have and I will be getting more tops. :)
I'm so happy that I'm also through with a new therapist I met, she is dull, butch, kinda country & not very sharp at all, but to make everyone happy, need her letter.....then let her go. Oh me I've met so many therapist in my days, most are the same, just some talk to make some $, same old thing. But she is better than the other woman in my area that wanted $185 an hour, drive thru her city traffic, go to her dull office just to talk with her.....I'm not paying $185 to some woman to talk, I need new shoes, a pretty dress, new nail polish....I'm a sharp woman, not stupid.
OK, my on line dating sites are updated, I'm sure there will be lots of horny men replying. Maybe just maybe I can find a prince among all the frogs. I'd sure love a new well endowed single prince to enjoy & take care of.
Shipyard. It's been one of those weeks.
What made me happy today? I started my HRT this morning, yay.
Jo
I might have a job. They want me to come in for 2 hours tonight to see if I like it and can keep up. It's just a pizza delivery and kitchen job, but if I can get anything that pays steady I'll be happy. I hope it goes well. After I save up enough to get an apartment, the next thing will be electrolysis. [emoji3]
IPSY monthly glam bag. So cool, complete facial masks included a while back & today trying one. It feels great, leaving on for 20 minutes. FYI, IPSY has a monthly surprise makeup bag for $10 per month, so cool, well worth 10 dollars, sign up & join, you will be happy.
I had a sexy video chat in the last 12 hours with the man who might soon become my real-life fiance.
Wonderful in all aspects he is enthralled and captivated by my feminine charms.
Jennifer xx
Quote from: JenniferLopezgomez on June 17, 2016, 07:41:54 PM
I had a sexy video chat in the last 12 hours with the man who might soon become my real-life fiance.
Wonderful in all aspects he is enthralled and captivated by my feminine charms.
Jennifer xx
Lucky you, ask him if he has a nice strong handsome male friend....
Well for me I got a refill for my Delestrogen today so I know I will not run out of my "Happy Juice" for another 3 months!! :D
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 17, 2016, 09:08:50 PM
Lucky you, ask him if he has a nice strong handsome male friend....
Thanks honey. He says he will send me money for my boobie surgery this coming week, but whether he does or not I will have the surgery it will cost me ALL my money if I have to pay for all of it but I will be a knockout with DDD boobs. I already have the legs and thighs of a 25-year-old model and I'm in m 50s.
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He says he will visit me internationally in a few weeks for a few nights in jacuzzis in luxury hotels together. I will have to relocate internationally again to be with him permanently but that's fine he lives in a country I really like and I am so used to living abroad after a decade of doing so this is no issue for me. If it works out, well having a life as the suburban housewife of a great man who is dynamic loving sexy and younger than me REALLY makes me feel super happy.
If not with him well my current real life is already superb happiness for me for work, where I live, friends hardly anyone even recognizes me as trans in real life they accept me like Jennifer cis woman.
I still have thousands of male friends online and a few hundred of these men would be glad to date me in real life. I have already dated more than 40 adult men I first met online for in-person sexual dates in 2015 and 2016.
I really feel THIS wonderful man is THE ONE for the rest of my life to dedicate to him and only him as his loving wife.
Jennifer xx
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Jennifer, Great for you GF! He sounds like a nice man. I just updated one of my online dating sites. Oh me there are so many horny men for mtF women, so many. I've always had men after me once I open up some. I had wanted to wait until my grs was complete so I could enjoy myself more but I need a man for now. I've been with boys or men since like my 10th grade of high school & have been with maybe a dozen. Men always fell in love with me but I never did with them, I just enjoyed the romance & the sex. I've always loved being a woman or girl for as long as I can remember & no idea how so many years went by without me completing my surgery for a normal depth vagina. Any way girl friend enjoy your new man, make him treat you right or kick him to the curb, the world is full of horny men. We girls are really in charge of things since men are so easy to control by allowing or giving them the sex they need. Hold out for a prince, no frogs....Good luck, have fun.
All & all it's great to be a woman, nice nails, smooth legs, beautiful garden, lots of friends & lots of new men courting me. I so love to be courted & desired, the chase is almost as much fun as the time in bed. Happy dance for me today, have fun girl friends.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 17, 2016, 11:42:10 PM
Jennifer, Great for you GF! He sounds like a nice man. I just updated one of my online dating sites. Oh me there are so many horny men for mtF women, so many. I've always had men after me once I open up some. I had wanted to wait until my grs was complete so I could enjoy myself more but I need a man for now. I've been with boys or men since like my 10th grade of high school & have been with maybe a dozen. Men always fell in love with me but I never did with them, I just enjoyed the romance & the sex. I've always loved being a woman or girl for as long as I can remember & no idea how so many years went by without me completing my surgery for a normal depth vagina. Any way girl friend enjoy your new man, make him treat you right or kick him to the curb, the world is full of horny men. We girls are really in charge of things since men are so easy to control by allowing or giving them the sex they need. Hold out for a prince, no frogs....Good luck, have fun.
The chase, FrancisAnn, is super fun for me. Like for you. Yeah, I get between 30 and 120 new friend requests every day online and 90% of this comes from horny men. It''s fun I agree girlfriend.
Many women cis and trans engage in what I will call "slut shaming" same words I saw on a feminist website. Part of lack of respect of women's rights is saying it is okay for men to have many sexual partners but not okay for a woman to do so. This is a patriarchal double-standard that denigrates women's (including trans women's like you and me) freedom of expression as a woman and the right to do with our bodies as we please and makes us feel happy.
Date as much as you like online and in person. Life is short -- why the hell not ?
Enjoy your sexuality and hot dates with men girlfriend. I sure will continue to do so.
Kisses,
Jennifer xx
Earl Grey tea. Simple pleasures.
And finding out lots of stuff has sold on our pre-moving sale on Ebay. Gotta love the money cash ching ching.
Quote from: JenniferLopezgomez on June 18, 2016, 08:05:42 AM
The chase, FrancisAnn, is super fun for me. Like for you. Yeah, I get between 30 and 120 new friend requests every day online and 90% of this comes from horny men. It''s fun I agree girlfriend.
Many women cis and trans engage in what I will call "slut shaming" same words I saw on a feminist website. Part of lack of respect of women's rights is saying it is okay for men to have many sexual partners but not okay for a woman to do so. This is a patriarchal double-standard that denigrates women's (including trans women's like you and me) freedom of expression as a woman and the right to do with our bodies as we please and makes us feel happy.
Date as much as you like online and in person. Life is short -- why the hell not ?
Enjoy your sexuality and hot dates with men girlfriend. I sure will continue to do so.
Kisses,
Jennifer xx
I've enjoyed a lot of men but not too crazy. Long ago, out of money....& I almost became a prostitute but I did not. So many rich men wanted me as their taken care of woman, I was a hottie in my early years. I should have used them more.....They would have taken care of me, paid for my GRS, enjoyed me as their wife...That would have probably been nice. New men, diseases, you never know, kinda risky..... But I sure love being with a man, I just melt with a new handsome man, my panties get wet.....& love his feel..... Take care, have fun but be safe.
Jennifer, I'm really just a conservative heterosexual woman. No desire to make big waves, just enjoy being a woman & maybe with a man if he's the right man. I've always been a woman with maybe a couple of wrong body parts & some of the wrong stupid hormones but they will finally be corrected. If $ that would have been done in my teens so I could have enjoyed a better life as a complete woman.......Good luck, be safe out there, plenty of crazies, mean ppl.
Beautiful spring weather, kinda giggly like a little girl to maybe date a new man from OK Cupid I hope. I feel great & so excited, love a new date with a man, you never know if the chemistry will be there or not, but somtimes it is & oh that is so nice....
Life is going well today. My profile on OK Cupid works well & already have some nice men are making contact. It's a good system where I can block anyone that is not right for me. I'm very comfortable dating men & normally men are courting me pretty strong once I let them know I'm available. And my new Endo is going well, to see her soon & it will be so nice to get a pellet to stop thinking about taking pills. Happy dance for me. I so hope any man that courts me is well endowed, I posted this need in my profile. I love an aggressive man that somewhat brags about his manhood, this is type man I enjoy.
Went to Trans Pride LA and had a good time!
Even ran into a few Susans members like Jessie Ann!
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Photos from Trans Pride: https://www.facebook.com/misstrinirich/photos/?tab=album&album_id=1274125532605525
Quote from: Trini on June 19, 2016, 07:59:21 PM
Went to Trans Pride LA and had a good time!
Even ran into a few Susans members like Jessie Ann!
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Cool, love the pics, thanks for posting GF
Marched in two pride parades in two days. So tired. So much awesome. So much love.
Oh me, there are so many horny men out there. Dating & sorting them out is a strain. So many frogs but maybe a prince is among them.
Our daughter is speech delayed. Since April, she's been coming on, but still not what you'd expect from a 3 year old (Though she can whizz from 1 to 19 and back again without thinking about it).
Anyway, her 3rd proper sentence came today:
"Goodbye, see you soon!". As she ran towards me.
1)God damn Pocoyo and Stephen Fry.
2)Must explain about context in the future.
Quote from: Atom on June 20, 2016, 02:39:53 PM
Our daughter is speech delayed. Since April, she's been coming on, but still not what you'd expect from a 3 year old (Though she can whizz from 1 to 19 and back again without thinking about it).
Anyway, her 3rd proper sentence came today:
"Goodbye, see you soon!". As she ran towards me.
1)God damn Pocoyo and Stephen Fry.
2)Must explain about context in the future.
Glad for your daughter, that's good news. 3 years old, poor little girl, I bet that's tough. I hope you have a good day & feel better soon about life. Take care.
I just got my new Birth Certificate in the mail today with my updated name and gender! That'll make things so much easier. Not that it's really an issue, but the bathroom laws now say I have to use the female restroom. Take that, conservatives. :P
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 19, 2016, 03:08:10 PM
Life is going well today. My profile on OK Cupid works well & already have some nice men are making contact. It's a good system where I can block anyone that is not right for me. I'm very comfortable dating men & normally men are courting me pretty strong once I let them know I'm available. And my new Endo is going well, to see her soon & it will be so nice to get a pellet to stop thinking about taking pills. Happy dance for me. I so hope any man that courts me is well endowed, I posted this need in my profile. I love an aggressive man that somewhat brags about his manhood, this is type man I enjoy.
Good for you girlfriend. Yeah you are right that men put a lot of emphasis on their physical needs but handle it right and it becomes a fun part of the chase. Oh yeah girlfriend they come after me super strong -- a girl should never need to chase men at least that is my feeling -- like you I love to "put myself out there" and I get flooded with attention. And then I convert the huge amount of online attention to a pretty decent amount of real-life get-together with a man.
I will probably get my boob job to DD or DDD next week. Wow I feel great about this. I figure this ought to double or maybe even triple the amount of attention I get.
If I end up with a genuine fiance soon, then my new enhanced boobies will simply double or triple that physical attraction he has for me -- at least for THAT aspect of our relationship.
Continue to let your dates and flirting make you happy, as I most certainly will!
Jennifer xx
Jennifer, I'm glad life is good for you, good luck with your breast implants, my plastic surgeon could do mine so easy but I'd love softer natural breasts if only they would grow to a C cup, now I'm a small B cup.
I've always dated men so nothing new for me.....But I've only been with about 15 men. Sometimes a so so man is hard to get rid of, if he's not real good in bed I like to look for a new man. I love a man that is very horny, young....if I can find one again at my age, hahaha, damn I'm 54 now, no spring chick for sure.
I am having breast surgery next Monday, June 27. That's the day after Pride Weekend here in San Francisco!!!
Yesterday I learned that there's a group of lgbt people within my workplace. Couldn't tell anyone how excited I felt, of course. Seems that transition at work will be not only possible, but even enjoyable!
Today I got my second laser hair removal session done! It hurt a lot less, which is good because they increase the intensity of the laser with each session. My skin also seems a lot less agitated compared to the first time!
Overall; it's another one of those small things that made my day. I'm sure a lot of other transgirls and women can relate!
OMG I have a new date with a nice man age 41 & I'm 54. He replied from okcupid & knows I want a man in my life while I go through my GRS experience this fall. He's 6 ft, not much $, but a nice man so far. Just a normal heterosexual man that would enjoy a woman's touch. If he's nice I'll make him so happy.....he seems well endowed but that's all he said. Yummy.
What made me happy today? I had just started hrt several days ago, and for the first time, I had a snickers candy bar, and it was so great, you would have thought I had the most expensive steak in town. I now see what others have said about those cravings.
Jo
Going thrift store shopping Thursday with my best friend from grammar school, then see my plastic surgeon for some work on my lips, I'm going to have fat injections for much more sexier fuller lips. Also gonna wink at some men, OMG such frogs so far from OKcupid, not a well endowed prince in the whole crowd, maybe 20 men that just want to be pen pals, want a man not a pen pal.
OMG, nothing has changed. Some men really desire mtF women. Wealthy men want me to move, live with them, they will pay for my GRS, take care of me, anything I need then become their wife for life. I've had so many men offer that. Maybe I should but I like different men, not the same ol man all the time unless he's well endowed & great in bed. I do not need their $ only sex & love. That's a lot to digest but these men are serious, they love a certain type woman, perhaps I should consider it, it might be good to really love someone & give myself to them completely???
I'm still pre-hrt at this stage but this weekend, when attending my Trans group, I passed as female from behind twice. The first time was in the men's room of a restaurant, when a guy walked in, saw me washing my hands, and said 'Sorry love, thought this was the men's room', before turning to leave (which is the second time that's happened to me now). Second time was by someone at the Trans group who I'd never met before, who told me I passed from the rear and that they thought I was female when they first saw me.
Obviously I still look male from the front, but it's a really nice feeling nonetheless. :)
Quote from: Trini on June 19, 2016, 07:59:21 PM
Went to Trans Pride LA and had a good time!
Even ran into a few Susans members like Jessie Ann!
It was great running into you Trini! I saw so many great people there. There were a number of Susan's and former Susan's alums there.
Thanks for helping brighten my day there girl. Oh, and you looked GREAT!!
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Two beautiful girls!
OMG< He's 6' 3", burly man with lots of body hair, a goatee, in his 30's, very well endowed, lives close by. He looks delicious & he's so horny for me. My panties are getting wet. Happy Dance time. I am so glad to be a woman that loves men like this, what a hunk of a man. His name is Max, what a nice simple name.
Wore a summer dress to work
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Such fun thrift store shopping yesterday with my best friend & nice girl talk about life & the new man I'm excited about. She was so happy for me to find a new man to enjoy. Life is just great being a woman. This man knows everything & would be with me through my GRS, recovery then enjoy each other so much. Happy dance indeed.
Waking up to a cat nose bumping mine.
I woke in an amazing good mood, the best I've felt in many years. Something's working...
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 20, 2016, 07:10:55 PM
Glad for your daughter, that's good news. 3 years old, poor little girl, I bet that's tough. I hope you have a good day & feel better soon about life. Take care.
Thank you. It's difficult, we've been fighting with the local NHS and Council to pull their fingers out and provide support. Luckily, I'm a sucker for complaints and kicking up a stink. We started when she was 1 and shes 4 later this year, she's been to.... 12 weeks worth of lessons in all that time. They've only just approved extra funding for her playgroup to support her and give awareness training to the staff.
It is hard. It is difficult, it is frustrating. But every little attempt she makes is celebtrated and she is slowly getting there.
On a lighter note, in cold light of day of Post Brexit Britain, we decided to have a family afternoon of pizza and ice cream. I chased the ice cream van in my PJs as Ive got a stinking cold again. Totally worth it. #Parentswhoarewinning
Men, some are just jerks!!! They expect too much of us & do not treat us nice enough. I just kicked one to the curb with a big foot/shoe. Good riddance!!!!
I'm at the San Francisco TransMarch. About 3000 people like me are here. I'm not alone 😅!
OMG so many men from OK Cupid. They all want to get married........I just want a fling & some good sex. I'm too young to settle for one man, hahahaha Some are nice, most are frogs but a few are nice.....maybe soon one to kiss. I look better than 95% of the women you see in Walmart, guess these men see that & want to get serious....
My little sister saw me for the first yime sonce i started my transition and said i looked like a pretty girl.
OMG, there are so many well endowed horny men out there that want a mtF woman. That is so nice to see, actual marriage proposals from some men & younger men that just want to give it to me any way I need. It will sure be a happy dance day when my GRS is complete, time to heal up then as Elizabeth Taylor said, "Have a drink, put on some lipstick & get back in there". She knew how to find some men.
Just got home from work. I've only been there a total of four days , but tonight I was offered a drink with the crew. It was so nice to be included in an after work drink.
I think they just wanted to get to know me and what my deal was. I don't really try to hide the transgender thing and I think they were curious. It is so nice to not have to hide that anymore.
Everyone has been so accepting and sweet. It's working in a pizza place and it's not the most prestigious job, but I think I could be happy here for a while. And I'm finally making some honest money for a change.
Yes, I have a little buzz going, but that doesn't diminish the feeling of acceptance that I have.
I think I'll fall asleep happy tonight.
Night all
Hugs
Stevie
Everyone at my job knows about my transition. They are awesome and treat me no different than any other employee.
There is this one guy though.... before I started HRT, we had friendly contact hugs at work and I didn't think anything of it. But about a month ago, he caught me off-guard at shift end with a hug that literally made me weak in the knees. It was one of those hugs that made me feel like a void was being filled. Safe, loved, secure and warm. I really could have curled up and stayed in them all night!!!!!! I was trembling the whole 40 min commute home!LOL!. The very next day and month after, I avoided him like the pleague, only saying hello in passing.
Yesterday, he was passing by my work area, we said our usual hellos, but this time towards the end of our conversation, he told me I was beautiful. It made me feel so positive about myself. I instantly got hot, flushed, and so happy that my eyes welled up with tears! I hope he didn't see me, I really don't like to cry in front of others! All I could say was thank you, and dart to the washroom to fan myself and fix my face!LOL
I am just going to say it here, cuz I will NEVER tell him to his face, MUCH TOOO SHY!!! just how beautiful I feel whenever he is present! I love him, I love him, I love him!!!! I just can't tell him that!! LOL+ He's like 12yrs younger than me!!! SQUEEEEEEELLLLLL!!
Quote from: MackenzyJae on June 26, 2016, 06:33:07 AM
Everyone at my job knows about my transition. They are awesome and treat me no different than any other employee.
There is this one guy though.... before I started HRT, we had friendly contact hugs at work and I didn't think anything of it. But about a month ago, he caught me off-guard at shift end with a hug that literally made me weak in the knees. It was one of those hugs that made me feel like a void was being filled. Safe, loved, secure and warm. I really could have curled up and stayed in them all night!!!!!! I was trembling the whole 40 min commute home!LOL!. The very next day and month after, I avoided him like the pleague, only saying hello in passing.
Yesterday, he was passing by my work area, we said our usual hellos, but this time towards the end of our conversation, he told me I was beautiful. It made me feel so positive about myself. I instantly got hot, flushed, and so happy that my eyes welled up with tears! I hope he didn't see me, I really don't like to cry in front of others! All I could say was thank you, and dart to the washroom to fan myself and fix my face!LOL
I am just going to say it here, cuz I will NEVER tell him to his face, MUCH TOOO SHY!!! just how beautiful I feel whenever he is present! I love him, I love him, I love him!!!! I just can't tell him that!! LOL+ He's like 12yrs younger than me!!! SQUEEEEEEELLLLLL!!
OMG Tell him how you feel!!!!! Life is too short to hide your feelings. He cares about you & you are so lucky, tell him.........So what if he is younger than you, young men are great.
Franny Annie, you are so boy crazy! I can respect that, even though I'm a lesbian.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on June 26, 2016, 03:03:28 PM
Franny Annie, you are so boy crazy! I can respect that, even though I'm a lesbian.
Dee, I've always loved boys or men. A handsome tall man makes my panties get wet as they say. I'm just a normal heterosexual woman that needs a good sex life. Oh me my sunflowers look great, a nice new bloom today, so pretty. I've always been feminine & so glad, my first older boy was in the 10th grade. He was great, such a hunk. I should have been born 100% female......, it's been a frustrating life without a normal body.
The only problem with that FrancisAnn, is I am in a relationship of 17yrs with a man that I do so terribly adore. I have suffered many years of doubt and depression with major rounds of therapy. I have never told my mate how I truly felt about myself until last year. When I told him that I wanted to/was going to transition, we discussed the remainder of our lives. He said that he loves me and wants me to stay with him for a safe environment for me to transition. In a couple of years he would marry me and we could stay together, just not have sex because he is NOT attracted to women. I am SO torn!! I don't want to hurt my beau, but I do feel guilty that he may be sacrificing the rest of his happiness for my sake.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 27, 2016, 09:11:39 AM
Dee, I've always loved boys or men. A handsome tall man makes my panties get wet as they say. I'm just a normal heterosexual woman that needs a good sex life. Oh me my sunflowers look great, a nice new bloom today, so pretty. I've always been feminine & so glad, my first older boy was in the 10th grade. He was great, such a hunk. I should have been born 100% female......, it's been a frustrating life without a normal body.
Frustrating indeed! I didn't realize I was female until late in life. Being a lesbian MtoF makes that realization come really hard, especially in the mid west in the 60s.
Quote from: MackenzyJae on June 27, 2016, 10:15:51 AM
The only problem with that FrancisAnn, is I am in a relationship of 17yrs with a man that I do so terribly adore. I have suffered many years of doubt and depression with major rounds of therapy. I have never told my mate how I truly felt about myself until last year. When I told him that I wanted to/was going to transition, we discussed the remainder of our lives. He said that he loves me and wants me to stay with him for a safe environment for me to transition. In a couple of years he would marry me and we could stay together, just not have sex because he is NOT attracted to women. I am SO torn!! I don't want to hurt my beau, but I do feel guilty that he may be sacrificing the rest of his happiness for my sake.
I'm in almost the same boat. I've been married for 35 years. Randi asked for a divorce, she can't be a lesbian even by implication., but, she doesn't want me to leave and says I can date. It's painful seeing her every day, but joyful, too.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on June 27, 2016, 10:24:20 AM
Frustrating indeed! I didn't realize I was female until late in life. Being a lesbian MtoF makes that realization come really hard, especially in the mid west in the 60s.I'm in almost the same boat. I've been married for 35 years. Randi asked for a divorce, she can't be a lesbian even by implication., but, she doesn't want me to leave and says I can date. It's painful seeing her every day, but joyful, too.
Yes, I have some very tough decisions to make. I have only been transitioning for about 6 mos, with being on hormones the last 2 of them. I knew this would be difficult on the both of us, just didn't realize it would be mostly on my part! My mate has been telling me that he doesn't want to be with anyone else, and I did not plan that for myself either. I really do love him, I have spent half my life with him. My emotions are just all over the place and my work associate gets me so worked up that I can't function. He has never done or said anything rude/sexual in manner to me. We have good conversation, tells me I'm beautiful, and he gives the best hugs on the face of the planet!!! Which for me really sets him apart from most men I come in contact with...ever. Going into this new journey, I didn't think about the possibility of having feelings for another man.
Mackenzy, Oh girl you are in a tough spot. But to me you are kinda lucky. I've really never loved anyone. I've been with lots of men & so enjoyed sex but love them, no. I have never felt right at all about myself, my body has never been correct to really enjoy a man....or one life.........Lots of men have loved me, marriage proposals, ......but I never accepted or opened my heart to them, I was not physically correct, kinda of a lost soul. Good luck & good luck to all of us trying to find our best place in this world.
I am happy because I am one lucky girl. My wife still loves me, even after dropping the T-bomb on her. My next-door neighbour turns out to be the best ally I could have. How much more random can a person be than a next-door neighbour? Yet I couldn't have chosen better if I'd picked her myself. And my brother and a couple of old friends that I came out to by email are on my side. I am enjoying some good karma.
OK Cupid works great. I've had so many men from all over the world reply to my profile. Even if too far away nice men wish me well for my GRS & becoming more of an attractive happy confident sexy woman. Also there have been quite a few local men that seem nice. No one yet that I've dated but I'm talking with several nice men. Such a relief to find a safe means to find a nice man to enjoy. I will make him so happy when we finally connect. I so love being with a tall handsome stud man, so lovely.
A cute guy was flirting with me in the elevator this morning!
Quote from: Jin on June 29, 2016, 12:17:42 PM
A cute guy was flirting with me in the elevator this morning!
I've gotten that a time or two at work. It give me a lift but at the same time I find it weird and a little disconcerting. Guys, as I've said before, are not my thing and most of these are closer to my son's age than mine.
A nice visit with my electrolysis lady today for a touch up of fine white hairs. One of her older clients dropped by, a woman in her late 60's that completed her GRS 4-5 years ago. She was nice but dressed oh so conservative. We were a lot alike, she cried when they would not let her wear a dress in the first grade...I felt the same way.
I am happy today! :) Got my other ear pierced, today. I've been running around lop-sided for three months now! Now when I buy new ear rings, I can wear them as a set. Not sure what to do with a dozen ear rings that I can't find the match to.
It's sunny out, I have the day off, and a ridiculously huge salad is in front of me. ;D
Confirmation that I'm a viable candidate for laser treatment.
Already had it from a private clinic, but didn't believe them entirely. Got it from an NHS clinic - I believe them - they wouldn't even suggest it was possible if it wasn't, considering they're paying.
My facial hairs run from blonde through red (shame) to brown and almost black (great). So around half should work with IPL. The boredom of electrolysis halved - fantastic. Even if it's not as permanent and has to be repeated, it's barely painful - my pain threshold is high. My boredom threshold is not high at all, and electrolysis bores me to hell.
The woman was really sweet, she said that in addition to all those colours "I don't know how to tell you this, but, erm, some of them are grey'. I laughed and said, yeah, I noticed a couple of years ago when my roots were showing that premature greying was occurring at the temples, so no surprise that the face is the same as the head hair. So it's continued electrolysis for those.
Ran up the stairs and for the first time felt boob whiplash. =O
One more day to relax then more plastic surgery on my face tomorrow. I'm having a scar removed from my lower lip & this is the second surgery on it. Then the doc is going to do injections in my lips to make them fuller. He does great work for women & I'm excited to see how this looks later. I'd love some nicer kissable lips for a man.
Quote from: PaulaW on June 29, 2016, 04:28:41 PM
I can wear them as a set. Not sure what to do with a dozen ear rings that I can't find the match to.
Who says they have to match? That rule belongs in the same category as the "only girls can wear panties" rule.
Quote from: Katrina on June 29, 2016, 05:12:11 PM
Ran up the stairs and for the first time felt boob whiplash. =O
Just a thought, if you like jumping down the stairs...hug the girls, cause if you can feel them going up, you will surely feel them when they try to touch your feet!!!!
Not shaving the upper lip and no shadow left there.
My plastic surgeon sure does good work on my body & face. Such nice full balanced lips now. Very kissable lips for any man......I can't wait to kiss a nice man......Happy Dance. Juvederm is great stuff if you want to improve your shape some.....
OK Cupid has sure done a great job for me, OMG so many men have reviewed my profile & there are some local men that are so handsome, well endowed & searching for a nice woman. I seem to be a perfect match for 3-4 men, happy dance. Maybe some very physical nice romance soon.
If I see this at the far right:
QuoteToday at 04:51:50 pm
by FrancisAnn
I can safely assume that you will be talking about boys in the same tone as an exploding 15 year old girl~
Haven't been let down yet, and
THAT MAKES ME HAPPY TODAY :icon_walk:
hahaha, that's fuuny, yea I sure feel like a teenage girl. Love some summer romance. One man is so nice....what a well endowed hunk.....of a man.
Saw the good Dr H today.
All progressing well.
Seems I am looking younger and younger on E.
Jenny, good for you, estrogen is great. I'm sure glad I started back full strength almost 3 years ago. I look & feel so much better. WTG girl friend.
I went climbing at my favorite rock gym yesterday and it felt *great* to be getting a whole-body workout (been too long and I've needed to get back to a fitness regimen).
My special *happy* for the day was putting on the climbing harness and finding my hips are indeed larger than before HRT. I've always hated having boy-hips, not the least because said climbing harness was always prone to slide down when climbing out in the real world and it being loaded down with gear.
The other happy was I've always climbed 'more like a girl' in relying heavily on balance and keeping myself well centered. Being on the rock (or plastic as far as yesterday was concerned) is the place I've always felt most graceful and so it's nice to be back to that, feeling attractive because of moving well.
If you like pretty dresses at a discount price look up www.dressbarn.com & see if a shop is near you. 3 new really pretty dresses today. The clerk was so nice with me only wearing panties she brought in 10-15 dresses into the dressing room for me to try on, zip & unzip me. That was so nice to be treated as a nice pretty confident woman even though my GRS has not been completed. Beautiful dresses!!!!
Two hours of electrolysis. No, really!
The individual zaps sting, sure, but every one is a hair I'll likely never have to shave again. Furthermore, since shaving is a trigger for my self-loathing/dysphoria, every zap is a step further away from that.
Besides, it's two hours of someone else taking care of me, paying attention to me in detail. That helps!
Two things:
Firstly on TVchix I made it in to the 'Top Babes' list (yeah I'm on that website too don't judge :P)
Secondly I got the chance to dress up as Hannah today as I was home alone and it felt soooooo good!! I feel like I'm really making progress with my makeup skills :) x
Quote from: Hannah Samira on July 06, 2016, 11:09:50 AM
Two things:
Firstly on TVchix I made it in to the 'Top Babes' list (yeah I'm on that website too don't judge :P)
Secondly I got the chance to dress up as Hannah today as I was home alone and it felt soooooo good!! I feel like I'm really making progress with my makeup skills :) x
You look great young girl, so happy for you, start as early as you can on HRT to stop the bad stuff & enjoy estrogen. I bet you develop into a beautiful woman.
Our move to a large new build 2 bed apartment is complete
Our daughter has tried a few more words
Both internet lines came on today. Yeah, kinda greedy.
New Endo Monday morning, I sure hope a pellet soon, I'm so tired of pills & patches. Ugggg
Love new dress but oh me it's so hard to find a pumpkin shade of polish, not sally, not orly, not zoya, not OPI, not china glaze, no one yet makes a simple deep pumpkin shade of polish
I finally started Spiro, e and finasteride today. I am feeling such a rush that I started finally!
Quote from: Silverwhisper on July 07, 2016, 09:43:43 PM
I finally started Spiro, e and finasteride today. I am feeling such a rush that I started finally!
Calm down, none of them are magic pills....just go about your life & wait for slow changes. Good luck.
When my plastic surgeon put his hands on my breasts today, OMG that felt good......we were talking about implants & it just happened....he is attracted to me & I'm attracted to him but we know nothing can happen. But I sure would love to take care of him you know.....that would be so nice to enjoy completely taking care of him orally. He's a nice looking man, so handsome....
Shopping therapy!
I had an MRI to get a little peek at what's going on in my head ("Yup. Empty. Exactly as we suspected") so to recover from the intense trauma (Zzzzzzz...) I indulged in shopping therapy.
It's hot today, so I dressed in white jeans and a cool teal shirtsleeve top, with my spiffy gray wig. Hey, I ain't going out half-dressed!
First stop: The Goodwill store! I score a great very high end denim blazer, and two fitted Oxford style white shirts.
Then, a quick Costco run. No, really! Whoa! They've got these absolutely beautiful midi black skirts, $12. They'll pair really well with the Oxford shirts.
I'm on a roll now. I hit the Container Store to get a larger case to hold my wig heads, then grab dinner at a nice chain place a block over. Thai Crunch salad. "You want the half or..." The whole one, please! And ice tea. It's 100 degrees outside.
I've got everything I wanted to mix in for fall and winter, but there's still some warm weather left. So, after dinner I hit Forever 21. I know, Not Age Appropriate, but if you dig a bit there are some nice things. I'm looking for a white or cream silky cami top I can wear with jeans, or the skirt for a warm weather professional look. Yup, after digging around for 30 minutes, I find one with a nice cut and length, in a Large (rare there...) and dirt cheap. I pick up a silver torque and necklace with, of all things, my old military rank picked out in 'silver' and cubic zirconia. They're cheap, and I hope they don't turn my skin green...
So, it's a lovely summer evening, I'm full, and sitting here typing away. I've got on black flats, hose, a knee-length black shirt, an Oxford shirt with cuffs neatly folded and lovely little rhinestone buttons fastened to just above my... Erm... Decolattage(?), and a bit of silver accent jewelry.
I'm very happy.
Most of my T tops & blouses are so tight, it sure feels nice to grow some nice breasts........
It seems the issues at work have exploded while I have been away.
Long story but I will be in a good position going forward.
Will have to wait until Tuesday.
Getting my car fixed. Little things sorted.
And oh it is getting very hard to keep hidden.
They be very big now and continue to grow.
I am happy that my calorie counting is paying off. I set my max calorie intake at 1,990 total, and I am losing weight again. Dropped 4 pounds. I log every single calorie now, even if it is a couple of m&ms.
Jo
I'm not really out yet, so I don't have a purse, but today I have no pockets on anything I'm wearing, so I stuffed money in my bra for the first time!
Let the adventures continue!
At a sticky Heathrow Airport. Just in skinny jeans (this minute pretty much, changed into thin pyjama bottoms), converse, a t-shirt, and looking/feeling harassed, zero make up.
'Madame', 'love', 'sweetheart', 'ma'am'. Where are the electric razors? (I forgot mine) - 'oh, you're in the wrong section, it's this way' - no, it's not, I really don't mean a ladyshave - 'oh, sorry sir'.
In the queue behind a family of ultra Hasidic Jews where the women are wigged and don't ever make eye contact with men. The wife smiled. I thought, 'your wig is squint and you must be roasting' but I smiled back.
Walked through security and the alarm went off. The man stood aside and gestured to the woman, as in, you'll have to wait for her. Then he realized, and I'd have gone with him anyway because he was free first.
I found a support group not too far away, and the meeting is on a saturday, fantastic. Excited...
Jo
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Folks - I appreciate that intimate relationships and sexual encounters with a hot person can make us very happy indeed... but please remember the Terms of Service (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=2.0) (especially #5 & #17) and keep the details of such for the sexuality board only.
My MRI came back. There's a tiny possible adenoma on the pituitary, easily treated if it acts up, and the likely cause of my high (for AMAB) prolactin level.
I have a GO for estrogen.
Patch in place.
We have liftoff...
It's a little thing but I found the missing earring of my favourite pair of silver hoop earrings.
Went swimming for the first time in a few years and also first time i was wearing a One-piece swimsuit while swimming.
Pizza night with my family while watching the whole Despicable Me/ Minions films- and hearing my little girl shout 'piiiiiii-cha!'. So adorable . ( If you haven't seen, she's speech delayed so this is massive)
We got her into the best Nursery in town. Our last failed their OFSTED check and we pulled her.
Quote from: Rachel Catherine on July 19, 2016, 10:30:01 AM
It's a little thing but I found the missing earring of my favourite pair of silver hoop earrings.
People seem to hate them, but hoop earrings are the best.
Went Pokemon hunting with the family last night. Dysphoria has been so bad lately, it was nice to spend time with the family and have some fun.
Kids absolutely loved the fact that we were catching Pokemon with them. Wouldn't trade that for the world. [emoji274]
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I was at my cousin's house today, and my little cousin's friend from the neighborhood was over. He asked little cuz in a hushed whisper, "Is that a boy or a girl?"
<3 kids
Hit 9 months HRT today, the 20th. I feel like I am on top of the world and am so happy to be moving forward after a long hiatus.
New drivers license arrived !!!
Waking up after an awesome evening with friends! Made sushi for some really neat women and it was a lot of fun. Was the odd one out...everyone in the group was either a Heather or a Melissa...like, uuuuhm...yeah!
My twin brother Adam and I watching Transtasia together yesterday.It made him understand more what I went through before I started transition 13 years ago.The stories from 4 of the contestants were like mine and he did tear up a little bit.Said that he does not miss his brother anymore and loves me as his sister now
Starting to transition again.
Nothing really in particular happened today, but I just woke up from a small nap feeling practically euphoric. It's been really hot out, and it still is, but for some reason it feels good tonight. Like the sort of summer night when there's electricity in the air and it's perfect for getting into trouble in >:-) I wonder if there will be a storm later.
Anyways, it's too bad I have nothing to do and nobody to do it with. Good game, hormones, good game.
Something seemingly simple but to me big got my ears peirced something i've wanted to do for years but was afraid of the ridicule I might get in my family I still present as male but I said F it and now i'm sporting a beautiful set of studs in 2 new holes can wait to be able to swap em out for other styles in 1-2 months.
I got my date! ;D
<happy dance/>
I bought a sports-bra and some feminine - cut pants.
Since my hubby keeps clogging up the toilet, he decided we need a new one. He did some research on prices in the city, 50 miles away.
Now for the good part. I found one at the hardware store in town, for 10% less than the least expensive one he could find online.
Who else loved watching "I am Jazz" TV show. What a great show about this 15 year old girl. I can sure relate to her. My mom tried like her mom is trying to help her. No way to go back to age 15 but it's nice to see her have a good life & grow up normal.
Quote from: Rylie M on July 25, 2016, 10:18:46 PM
Something seemingly simple but to me big got my ears peirced something i've wanted to do for years but was afraid of the ridicule I might get in my family I still present as male but I said F it and now i'm sporting a beautiful set of studs in 2 new holes can wait to be able to swap em out for other styles in 1-2 months.
Hi Rylie, I am envious. I have made it well known to my wife that this is what I will do. She is freaked but before 12 months is up I will do the same. Good on you
pierced ears.....just just do it!!!!! It's no big deal, I did mine as a teenager.....I'm so glad I've always been female for my entire life......if I could have just started estrogen at age 12......oh well I cannot go back in time. Life is good, have fun girls.
1,037 days on E
How fast time flies
What a difference it has made.
Forgot to take my diamond studs out the night before last and worked in the field with a few $K on my ears. Had a customer notice and asked if they were real then mention they look pretty...yes, they are and thank you! Scared to lose them as I work in a physical industry, I usually do not wear them except for when we go out in the evenings.
Was nice to be a little dressy for work though!
Quote from: kaitylynn on August 04, 2016, 07:38:26 AM
Forgot to take my diamond studs out the night before last and worked in the field with a few $K on my ears. Had a customer notice and asked if they were real then mention they look pretty...yes, they are and thank you! Scared to lose them as I work in a physical industry, I usually do not wear them except for when we go out in the evenings.
Was nice to be a little dressy for work though!
Awesome. Envious as heck.
Cheers Sue.
I learned about makeup today. last week, i hired a consultant who accompanied me to Macy's to select makeup and brushes. Today, she stopped by my house for a full lesson and finished by writing down all the steps for me. I'm not anymore passable, but at least i feel more comfortable as i start practicing.
Laura
Quote from: SueNZ on July 29, 2016, 04:26:54 AM
Hi Rylie, I am envious. I have made it well known to my wife that this is what I will do. She is freaked but before 12 months is up I will do the same. Good on you
Got my first ear pierced about 30 years ago and got the second piercing but only got my second one done on the day I decided to transition in September last year. I did that and bought myself a really lovely Stirling silver glittery butterfly on a chain. It was like cementing the deal and I remember how great it felt. I hope you are able to do it for yourself :)
Hugs
Liz
This was an odd day. I feel really happy, glowing even.
I just don't quite know why!
Today was Patch Day, when I swap out the old, depleted patch for a fresh one. (I'm on a twice-a-week patch swapped out once a week, for low level HRT). I started feeling really good about 6 hours later. My E-deprived brain haz a happy?
Today was Electrolysis Day, my weekly two hours In The Chair. Normally that sort of sucks, but in spite of all the zaps, I was really happy when we were done. This session included a second round of clearing the chin to lower lip, and well out to the sides. Yay!
It's bedtime, I'm tired, and I'm glowing!
Please, may I have some more?
Quote from: ElizabethK on August 07, 2016, 07:39:19 AM
Got my first ear pierced about 30 years ago and got the second piercing but only got my second one done on the day I decided to transition in September last year. I did that and bought myself a really lovely Stirling silver glittery butterfly on a chain. It was like cementing the deal and I remember how great it felt. I hope you are able to do it for yourself :)
Hugs
Liz
Thanks Liz,
Really appreciate your support and your sharing of your experience. It has helped to resolve my determination to have this done.
Cheers Sue.
Pizza!
Um. Spiro, so I can have pizza!
And bagels! Onion bagels! *foodgasm*
I was on a very restricted sodium diet to control high blood pressure. Then, I got put on spironolactone, BP dropped like a rock, and I was instructed to raise my sodium intake. I went from 700-1000 mg/day to 2300 mg/day, BP stayed low at 90/60, 55 BPM, and I can eat things. Such wonderful things!
I just ate a lovely salad and a spinach pizza. O.M.G. ;D
(My weight has been constant at 139.8 lbs the past 3 weeks, thankyewverymuch. Meow...)
We have tickets to tonight's Mets game against the San Diego Padres. It's LGBT night, a first for New York sports, and the game is followed by a Styx concert. Man, I'll be dead for work tomorrow!
Of course, if the threatened thunderstorms cancel the game I'll be reposting in another thread....
Quote from: Dee Marshall on August 13, 2016, 03:44:35 AM
We have tickets to tonight's Mets game against the San Diego Padres. It's LGBT night, a first for New York sports, and the game is followed by a Styx concert. Man, I'll be dead for work tomorrow!
Of course, if the threatened thunderstorms cancel the game I'll be reposting in another thread....
I hope the night goes forward as planned and you have a great night.
Big step forward for LGBT !
Enjoy the night! :-) :-)
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It's a little silly, but I had a group therapy session late in the day, so I went out early and did some shopping first. The things that made me happy?
1. New hair! Yeah, my hair comes in a box. I spent time going through wigs, and picked out a "Raquel Welch 'Crowd Pleaser'" in honey ginger. I thought it might be nice to lose the gray and pretend to be younger (among other things...). I'll eventually post a selfie.
2. Group therapy. Really. For the first time in decades, I had a strong feeling of empathy with others. Really strong. It hurt, but it made me happy to know that I could have such feelings. I feel like I'm rejoining the human race.
What made me happy today?
Helping out another member of this forum with her struggles to fit and buy her first bra! Not that big a thing in the scheme of the world as a whole but it was an intensely validating experience for me given my own struggles to come to grips with my own femininity being able to help to another traveling this difficult road.
I ran this morning, it hurt some, but I did run. (been humming a little tune all day..) This evening I will be heading over to the gym for some overdue time with the stationary bike.
I believe. I believe this really can work.
I got a new university staff id card yesterday. The name and picture on it still make me happy today.
I finally got in contact with a gender therapist this morning.
No plans to transition, but there are a few changes I'm thinking about and could use an experienced guide.
Hopefully I get an appt soon.
Putting on another patch :icon_biggrin:
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My friend Moni, finally got to live a day in happiness yesterday living it as the woman she has known that always was.
Way to go MONI !!!
my right nipple hurts to touch and both have ducts developing in the nipple's core that can be felt. boobs is comin in :D
Went shopping in Costco, woo-hoo cool right ! Wait it gets better, I have been fealing great lately (I will tell you why tomorrow)
Well the lovely lady at the cash register called me ma'am a few times and told me I was looking very nice. We then engaged in the typical chit chat
It seems that I cry like hell when I am very happy. Luckily I made it to my truck and was able to control myself some so I could do the rest of my errands not looking like I lost my dog.
When I got home my wife (now roommate :-\) told me she is not surprised at the comment. She said she showed a new picture of me to some friends and they all had nothing but very nice complimentaryt hings to say.
I spoke with HR today, was a very pleasant chat.. She knew absolutely nothing about policy or procedure, which surprised me to no end, given who I work for.In the end no big deal since this will go down how I want.They will make a name change announcement on 08 September (Sarabeth :) . I will tell my immediate coworkers the news and my expectations (for lack of a better word) the same day. I will not be there for 2 weeks immediately after the big announcement. I work in a rather unique place to be transitioning but what the heck. Feeling pretty good.
Sara
Got some new clothes today, I think they look nice on me.
I received my new medium heeled dress boots. I enjoy walking around work in them although I am probably pushing my luck a bit.
Quote from: soon2b on August 22, 2016, 10:43:34 PM
I spoke with HR today, was a very pleasant chat.. She knew absolutely nothing about policy or procedure, which surprised me to no end, given who I work for.In the end no big deal since this will go down how I want.They will make a name change announcement on 08 September (Sarabeth :) . I will tell my immediate coworkers the news and my expectations (for lack of a better word) the same day. I will not be there for 2 weeks immediately after the big announcement. I work in a rather unique place to be transitioning but what the heck. Feeling pretty good.
Sara
Hi Sara,
Great for you, I am intrigued to know what type of workplace you are at?
Cheers Sue.
Quote from: Lilliana on August 23, 2016, 10:25:07 PM
I received my new medium heeled dress boots. I enjoy walking around work in them although I am probably pushing my luck a bit.
That is just a dream for me. Would love to hear how any reactions went.
Cheers Sue.
After 5 months of waiting to get a call back for therapy, I am now set up to start. First appointment is in 3 weeks!
My Name Change Petition requires a copy of my original Birth Certificate, no matter if I have a Passport, Naturalization Certificate or a DD-214. I found that out when I went to the Courthouse last monday to file.
It is the only thing I need for my submission.
My Mom texted me this morning saying it was in the mail overnight and I should get it by Noon today. :)
My wife and I had a couple of friends over for lunch today. I was already out to them, so I was able to wear a skirt for their visit. They didn't blink an eye - totally cool with it. We talked about all kinds of stuff, not just TG topics, though we didn't avoid that either. It was just a fun afternoon with some good friends, and I was able to be myself. Yay!
New panties, (better than drugs!).
Quote from: kittenpower on March 19, 2016, 11:41:04 AM
I have been having transient chest pain that usually lasts 20-30 minutes at a time then goes away, since last November, but my EKGs have been normal; incidently, I was having chest pain a couple of days ago, and I decided to go to the ER at my local hospital. The Doctor ordered a chest x-Ray, 12 lead EKG, and blood tests which included checking my triponin to rule out a heart attack. All of the tests were normal, but one of the Doctors compared that EKG to one I had a week prior, and she found that my T-Wave was depressed, so she admitted me for a cardiac stress test the following morning. I was given a chemical stress test; the first step was to administer a contrast drug, and then had 3D imaging of my heat. After the initial imaging I was connected to a 12-lead EKG to monitor all of the angles of my heart, and then they administered a drug that induced stress on my heart (it felt like I was exercising); the effects lasted for 1 minute, and then I was given a caffeinated beverage to counteract the effects of the drug, then they rested me for 30 minutes, and did the last set of images. The results of the test showed that there possibly could have been an area of decreased blood flow (ischemia), which would mean an occluded coronary artery, but the Doctors were not sure do to the results of the imaging, so they ordered cardiac catheteriztion for me the following morning. The test was an easy process for me;'the Doctor inserted a small catheter, about the same size as an IV line, into my right femoral artery, and inspected my coronary arteries, which thankfully turned out to be clear, so I did not need a stent, and my heart is healthy, and he diagnosed my chest pain as musculoskeletal. So, now I am recovering and all is well; the doctor plugged my femoral artery with collagen, so I need to watch for any signs of bleeding, clotting, or infection, but the incidence of any of that occurring is very low, so I should be fine. And now I have peace of mind knowing my heart is healthy; if anyone needs this, please do not hesitate as it is a simple process and it could save your life; I am pre-op and it was not an issue, and I was treated very well. 😊
Last time I had an angio I contracted sepsis, was in a coma for four days, and ended up in the hospital for about 6 weeks. I'm glad yours went well.
Went to the therapist today and concluded we will be done in just a few more meetings. I had nothing but happy thoughts to talk about after 11 days on estradiol. I am at such peace with myself for perhaps the first time in my adult life.
Quote from: SueNZ on August 24, 2016, 05:08:54 AM
That is just a dream for me. Would love to hear how any reactions went.
Cheers Sue.
No one but other women even noticed. Then again, I am pretty sure nothing I do surprises anyone, yet.
Another happy thing happened today, got a week's worth of pantyhose to go with my boots. Cannot wait to wear them.
Had an all day electrolysis session. I'm very puffy faced, and much of hair was tougher than they expected so they weren't able to do a full clearing, but I'm so happy!
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Quote from: ChiGirl on August 25, 2016, 09:41:02 PM
Had an all day electrolysis session. I'm very puffy faced, and much of hair was tougher than they expected so they weren't able to do a full clearing, but I'm so happy!
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OMG OMG a full day...please tell me how...what is your secret to lasting all day!!!!
Quote from: ElizabethK on August 26, 2016, 02:12:38 AM
OMG OMG a full day...please tell me how...what is your secret to lasting all day!!!!
Drugs. Well, technically lidocaine injections. They hurt, but once that lidocaine going, they can go at your face like crazy. Still, you have to have patience to sit there in that chair for 12 hours. I had a few potty breaks and a lunch break, but it requires patience.
I woke up with my penis gone. I had GCS yesterday and everything went very well.
Congrats! I am looking forward to that day when I wake up after surgery! Just waiting for the email giving me a date.
Quote from: I Am Jess on August 26, 2016, 04:01:30 PM
I woke up with my penis gone. I had GCS yesterday and everything went very well.
Did you check under your pillow? Or maybe it rolled under the couch?
Quote from: Dee Marshall on August 26, 2016, 07:20:46 PM
Did you check under your pillow? Or maybe it rolled under the couch?
The doctor assured me it won't be seen again. 😃
A work colleague I have worked with for years was made redundant a few months ago with a nice payout has a new himself a job after only a few weeks of looking. :) Much better and more $. Has a young family so this is fantastic.
Made my day yesterday when he told me as I still can not understand why he was let go. Crazy.
Helping another get a new job as well.
A visit to the pain monster today
Quite enjoyable in a sick way
I looked at myself in the mirror, four months into HRT...and I smile...
I got my hair done so now it is blonde, was dark brown and grey, ughhh). I am easily pleased and amused.
Quote from: Lilliana on August 28, 2016, 10:08:59 AM
I got my hair done so now it is blonde, was dark brown and grey, ughhh). I am easily pleased and amused.
Blonde highlights have a way of lighting up your face and making you look younger, especially since it hides those annoying gray hairs, that us more experienced gals seem to accumulate ;D
What made me happy today?
The thought of my visit to Detroit Michigan, and having my mom finally meet her new daughter and wet up with my good friend from FaceBook who is also MTF, on Labor Day.
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I had a number of visitors at the hospital today. Day 3 of recovery and things are going as well as can be expected. Swelling is not excessive and things look good.
Quote from: DarkRhino on August 28, 2016, 05:39:09 PM
What made me happy today?
The thought of my visit to Detroit Michigan, and having my mom finally meet her new daughter and wet up with my good friend from FaceBook who is also MTF, on Labor Day.
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Really DarkRhino,
Wet up your friend?
Sorry my sick sense of humor based on others mistakes.
Makes for a good read though.
Cheers Sue.
Got my surgery date.
I used some leather I had bought last week to make a new strap got my watch. The old strap had barely fit because of course feminine styled 14mm bands max out at a length something like 180mm and I have large wrists even among guys.
So I'm happy to have a watch that's both pretty and actually fits now.
I haven't had a checking account in years. Last week I broke down and opened one at a new bank. I was in there once or twice for Randi but before last week I hadn't really talked to anyone. When do opened it last week the VP commented that she had seen me in there a few times. When I went in today they ALL greeted me by name! Amazing!
I think this made me happy, but I dunno... lol
Clerk refused my ID and fetched two managers to ease her concern.
All I did was shave.. honest!
Two weeks ago my client went to his father's at Cape Cod. Last week, after he got back, it was impossible to get him to work. From past experience I expected more of the same, especially as he's going there again in a few weeks. Instead he was as good as he's ever been. Lots of work still ahead of us, but he's on board with it!
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I had my first "Ahhhhh, the girls are free" moment after wearing a proper bra all day yesterday.
I had my first meeting today with 2nd therapist, the one who will hopefully be providing the required 2nd letter for surgery.
I liked her and it's good to be speaking with someone who's already conversant in the details of gender variance. I like my main shrink betterer but also have to say vive la difference, more approaches can hardly be a bad thing :-).
It's probably just a psyche, [one of my favorite terms], but I get a real rush after 'applying' my progesterone. I can't explain it, but I feel great for hours after wards. :icon_bunch: And sweet dreams too! hehe... That makes me very happy...
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I don't think I can qualify for Man Flu ever again... ???
My wife and I had our lesbian neighbours over for dessert last night. We had a great time. For the first time ever, I got to be just one of the girls. It felt great! :D
Made a very special piece of art yesterday, glad for that and I swam after, not long but being in the water helped work out kinks from a long day working and stress because the stakes were high -- I was using materials that are a new idea and expensive.
It's pleasing that my swim times haven't changed in spite of 6 years of not swimming. I'm attributing that to body fat having redistributed into my legs, making a bit more buoyancy where it counts.
I spent most of the swim time thinking about how good it's going to feel to be wearing a tank suit, tho I enjoy the swimming, having all that junk and my nearing - B breasts uncovered feels pretty off.
Yesterday i got my first letter addressed to my name and my new drivers license and medicare card
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Every day for 25 years I have awakened to a new day. I should have died on the operating table. Oct, 6, 1993. Now I am on my 22 nd day of HRT.
After two weeks being in male drag for surgery and recovery (TURP/TUIP prostate surgery) including nasty hospital misgendering), I crashed this morning with panic attack, the works. So, why am I happy now?
I'm out, dressed properly, having a chili pepper burger, garlic fries, and a lemonade at my fave joint after a 40 mile drive through the back roads in the Miata. I got my presentation in line with my identity, and am doing something fun. Life is good again. 😄
My surgical recovery is going better than expected. I have a follow-up in a few days and will get to begin my dilation.
my boobs are starting to show through my sports bra :) even if just a little
I've now come out to both of my daughters.
The older who's been (overly) sensitive about all things gender/sexual was OK if not exactly sounding happy for me. And that's ok, she and I have been in a much better place. She was bearing a pretty big chip on her shoulder until about a year ago so it surely went better than it would have a year ago.
The younger was beyond accepting and encouraging, made it clear she was glad for me.
So that's done, glad if it :-)
My nipples are annoying the crap out of me right now! Boo! But... yay!
A friend I made on Susan's came to visit me this weekend! That made me very happy!!
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Quote from: Amber42 on September 12, 2016, 07:23:07 PM
A friend I made on Susan's came to visit me this weekend! That made me very happy!!
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And visiting that friend, made me very happy as well. ;)
I got new labs, and the OK to raise my estradiol patch usage (from 1 to 2 biweekly patches per week). No more empty patch roller coaster.
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And! My new glasses arrived! Cute cateye ones with my full prescription, and some black ones with red trim with my driving prescription.
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Even better! At electrolysis the existing plucked areas are cleared, and we're breaking new ground.
Progress on all fronts (speaking of fronts; now 34B and filling in ;) )
I had my first therapy appointment and it went really well.
I've worn a bra for the first time in months, and discovered I'm getting close to fitting it. A-cup yay
Another new lab result... ;D :D ;D :D
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Wheeeee! I haz a happy.
I found out that my T-level is zero! The production of testosterone if completely supressed!
Woohoo!!!
I scheduled an appointment with an electrolysist who also does laser who is trans-friendly. I don't know what her plan will be yet, but I'm hoping that maybe I'll be able to get a few rounds of laser to quickly thin my hair out enough so I don't have a shadow after I shave, and then start working on permanent removal.
A terribly painful therapy session. I'm making progress.
This is my first week of micronized progesterone. I can't say I yet feel any earthshaking effects but it certainly doesn't seem to be hurting and it's great to have fully stabilized E/T such that my endo is comfortable now giving P a trial.
Equally cool, I just heard from an artist friend from Japan who I'd really hit it off with when we were both in Pittsburgh in June. She'll be visiting sometime soon and so I can look forward to seeing her.
Yesterday I made my first visit to a gender clinic in Boston. It's been a long time coming. It was the first appointment toward getting HRT. They asked me by what name I want to be called. Met with a wonderful physician who related her coming out story to me. I just felt so safe there.
I had blood drawn and go back the first week of November for the next visit. Feeling very grateful.
My family has this stupid joke/tradition thing where we refer to each other by the wrong name (yeah, it makes no sense, don't worry about it), usually I get called by male names, but for some reason today my dad called me Samantha! It was all I could do not to react. Him calling me by that name, even as a joke, made me feel good. I tried finding a female for months, but couldn't find one I liked and felt suited me. But when my dad referred to me as Samantha, I thought wow, I could get used to this.
My 30th day of HRT and I feel amazing. Like my body was always missing something.
Quote from: naa on September 14, 2016, 04:52:53 PM
My family has this stupid joke/tradition thing where we refer to each other by the wrong name (yeah, it makes no sense, don't worry about it), usually I get called by male names, but for some reason today my dad called me Samantha! It was all I could do not to react. Him calling me by that name, even as a joke, made me feel good. I tried finding a female for months, but couldn't find one I liked and felt suited me. But when my dad referred to me as Samantha, I thought wow, I could get used to this.
Good for you, Samantha!
I married the greatest guy in the world on Monday... I met many members of his family the day before and the day of the wedding... It could not have gone better... Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
my daughter who vacationed in Australia sent me a photo of a store called Vallygirl and said when she seen this it reminded her of me :)
Quote from: tgirlamc on September 21, 2016, 08:13:13 PM
I married the greatest guy in the world on Monday... I met many members of his family the day before and the day of the wedding... It could not have gone better... Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Wow! That's a big one, congratulations!
For my part, yesterday I pulled some really nice work out of the annealer, a huge bowl that came out quite well. For icing on the cake I was working with the fellow I've been having some problems with, he's chilled out some and we worked well together.
I've been full time for 3 weeks now, and everything has gone even better than I expected. Today someone casually asked me "how are you" and after a bit of thought I realised just how good I am feeling now. Definitely made me happy to have that internal confirmation that transititioning really has helped and is definitely the right thing for me.
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Thanks Sadie!!! :)
Yesterday I picked a REAL orange color corrector at Sephora to replace the makeshifts I had been using. I redid my makeup last night but the only people who saw me in it were my sister, two female cousins,one aunt and a female second cousin. They're all super sweet so they could easily have lied to me. (I was worried about my reception from that aunt but she sat next to me and kept squeezing my hand and grinning! Another happy-making thing.) This morning I did my makeup and set out on the long twelve hour drive back home wearing a pink Cami with lace, the black midi skirt with pink flowers I also bought on that excursion and my brown boots. I met Randi at our local Cracker Barrel for dinner and after more than twelve hours I didn't get misgendered. In fact, I didn't get misgendered all day! When I went to wash off my makeup a bit ago it was barely degraded. You would have to look really close. $14 very well spent. $30 for the skirt at half off, also very well spent. Pictures later after I do laundry from the trip.
Been off the forum for a number of weeks, which is a pity because I didn't post in this thread the day of my first visit to the GIC or the day I came out to my boss.
Today my roommate/coworker in London traveled to Spain, where he's going to spend one month. Knowing that, in my last trip from Spain I brought all the girly stuff and today I went out as my real self—first time I do that while out of my city. Did some shopping at Primark Oxford Street ^^. Primark is like heaven: two skirts, one shirt and minor stuff (gloves, chokers, tights) for a total of 23 GBP = 26.50 EUR = 29.80 USD. Had a great time, even being alone. People don't look weird at me, I don't usually get misgendered and I only out myself a bit when I speak (especially when I am in girl mode for the first time in several days).
Tomorrow I'll go out again. Next Wednesday I'll have my legs waxed for the first time, and on Friday after work I'll probably use one of the skirts I bought today.
Quote from: tgirlamc on September 21, 2016, 08:13:13 PM
I married the greatest guy in the world on Monday... I met many members of his family the day before and the day of the wedding... It could not have gone better... Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Oh wow, congratulations, I wish you every happiness.
Can I borrow that for this thread? Because reading your lovely post is what made me happy today.
That, and hearing from an old friend who rang to say she's back in Europe, and so I don't have to pay for flights to California to see her. I can't wait to see here. Truly one of those people that no matter how long it's been, the conversation just picks up right where it left off.
After being told in 1993 that I would only live another 5 years, I have celebrated 19 others. So waking this morning made me very happy. Every day I wake up is blessed. Especially now.
Quote from: alex82 on September 25, 2016, 02:29:19 PM
Oh wow, congratulations, I wish you every happiness.
Can I borrow that for this thread? Because reading your lovely post is what made me happy today.
That, and hearing from an old friend who rang to say she's back in Europe, and so I don't have to pay for flights to California to see her. I can't wait to see here. Truly one of those people that no matter how long it's been, the conversation just picks up right where it left off.
Thanks for the kind words Alex!!!... And Dawn, like I say... Onward we go!!!! :)!!!!!!
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I married the greatest guy in the world on Monday... I met many members of his family the day before and the day of the wedding... It could not have gone better... Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Congratulations Ashley.
Some swelling on my face wend down. I now can see cheeks a bit. :)
I'm getting better. :)
I've got my time to assemble my new face down to 30 minutes. (Hey, first try took an hour, especially after I missed with the eyeliner!)
I'm sitting around the house in my Gloria Vanderbilt jeans, the snug size 6 ones, and a light, snug top neatly tucked in at my waist (back to 28"! Yaaaay! Being able to workout again sure helps.). No bra, so I'm a little jiggly, and the headlights are on. No wig or makeup, but no comments from my family yet. (Yeah, more than a little passive-aggressive of me. But I'm more or less me right now.)
I'm doing some light woodwork today, stretching the space between the headboard and footboard of our bed to accommodate a new adjustable powered bedframe. The task involves light shaping of some clear pine boards to form new bedrails. The first coat of stain/finish is drying right now. I love doing woodwork, really making anything with my hands.
I think I'm done almost done training and am ready to move to official Weird Old Lady status. ;)
Well, I just bought some new booties with 3" heels. I am sure they will go over well at work.
Just got back from a 3-week road trip. Everywhere I went I was "miss" and "ma'am". I got so accustomed to it that any other reference (like "sir") would have caught me off-guard ... Fortunately that never happened. It's great being comfortable in the proper "skin" ...
Quote from: Michelle_P on September 25, 2016, 05:49:20 PM
I'm getting better. :)
I've got my time to assemble my new face down to 30 minutes. (Hey, first try took an hour, especially after I missed with the eyeliner!)
I'm sitting around the house in my Gloria Vanderbilt jeans, the snug size 6 ones, and a light, snug top neatly tucked in at my waist (back to 28"! Yaaaay! Being able to workout again sure helps.). No bra, so I'm a little jiggly, and the headlights are on. No wig or makeup, but no comments from my family yet. (Yeah, more than a little passive-aggressive of me. But I'm more or less me right now.)
I'm doing some light woodwork today, stretching the space between the headboard and footboard of our bed to accommodate a new adjustable powered bedframe. The task involves light shaping of some clear pine boards to form new bedrails. The first coat of stain/finish is drying right now. I love doing woodwork, really making anything with my hands.
I think I'm done almost done training and am ready to move to official Weird Old Lady status. ;)
Gloria Vanderbilt? What is this? 1986? My mother wore those with her batwing sweaters.
And also teamed with a sequin spangled, shoulder padded bolero jacket that she got rid of after finding out I wore it. She swears it was only because it had gone out of fashion, but I think not. Some ulterior motive was at work.
'Poison' by Christian Dior is all you need now to complete the look. That's what did for me - I had an almost photographic memory of how to crush clothes back into the exact position they were in, but perfume levels - that's not easy to hide. Even worse because we swapped rooms - I needed the traffic side to sleep, so I ended up with her entire triple wardrobe and her dressing table.
Oh, well, if it had just been a decade later, I might have let her find me. But as it was, I knew exactly how long it'd take to dive into bed if I heard her get up as I examined myself in the mirrors. She had good taste.
It's says so much for the times that she never ever mentioned the cigarettes out of her packet, but would wonder aloud in a somewhat accusatory manner why her perfumes were down. And she was/is the ultimate fag hag, so you'd expect her to be less unamused. But, the Poison and the Paloma Picasso ended up being taken out of the room, and the Marboros were left in situ.
Gongrats on the waistline!
For my age it will always be the late 2000's, and so you can't beat Superfine jeans. Round about then however, I might have been in maternity dungarees - having met someone I just kind of know would've worked, in that context, with birth being different. Is that just me? I just know. Bittersweet huh!
So good looking, and a connection that was there in an intangible sense, but didn't work. At least not drunk and on drugs. He's Russian - he ran out of money during his degree, I sent him to a friend of mine who ran male escorts. He made enough, and I didn't ask for commission. And he tried to sleep with a friend of mine, who refused, for my sake. Very sweet, but as I said to her then, I wouldn't have refused.
My happiness today is going for a big Mexican lunch with a lady from Ghana, and having a fantastic laugh about studies, work, sunglasses, laser treatments, and everyone on our course that we hate. It's nice to get confirmation, even though you know, that many ciswomen have the facial hair problem too.
Her sunglasses are amazing. Kanye West would turn them down for being too much.
I booked my FFS today :)
Hey! The GV jeans may be a oldie but they are darn comfortable and fit me like a glove.
Today's another good one. I had 2 hours of electrolysis, then got my flu shot, hit the hardware store for some special wood screws for new bed frame rails I'm making, and now I'm in a Panera Bread having an iced tea and Thai chicken salad (small). I've cot my little black sneakers, Buffalo ankle high pants, and a white sleeveless loose top with a cutout on the front. The pink push-up underneath barely shows. Ginger blonde hair, new makeup (naughty! Right after electro!) and Carey's glasses complete the look.
Poison? Nope, Nirvana Black. I love sandalwood.
Happy? You betcha. I'm me!
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Quote from: Fresas con Nata on September 24, 2016, 01:14:55 PM
Next Wednesday I'll have my legs waxed for the first time
I went back today to ask, "Is this price 30 GBP for one leg or both? sorry I'm a newb and this reads Leg in singular so I'm not sure". It's for both, and that made me happy today :)
Quote from: Michelle_P on September 26, 2016, 03:29:42 PM
Hey! The GV jeans may be a oldie but they are darn comfortable and fit me like a glove.
Today's another good one. I had 2 hours of electrolysis, then got my flu shot, hit the hardware store for some special wood screws for new bed frame rails I'm making, and now I'm in a Panera Bread having an iced tea and Thai chicken salad (small). I've cot my little black sneakers, Buffalo ankle high pants, and a white sleeveless loose top with a cutout on the front. The pink push-up underneath barely shows. Ginger blonde hair, new makeup (naughty! Right after electro!) and Carey's glasses complete the look.
Poison? Nope, Nirvana Black. I love sandalwood.
Happy? You betcha. I'm me!
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Wow! Now that's living!
Steph
Quote from: Steph Eigen on September 26, 2016, 04:10:51 PM
Wow! Now that's living!
And yet, it was really just a day being me.
I had one heck of a hard time this evening switching to male drag (and I'm barely there. I have on the GV jeans, Adidas slippers, my usual briefs underneath, no bra, and a fairly snug, light male polo shirt. No wig, but gosh, I couldn't get all that eyeliner and mascara off for some reason.).
Michelle won't get back in her cell much longer. I suspect that one way or another, it's just a matter of days or a few weeks before I go full time.
I find that I like being myself. This makes me incredibly happy. I'm pretty sure I've come to accept myself for what I really am. It's about time the authentic me started to live her life.
Cindy was right. And I'm happy today.
my gf noticed my butt has grown to a size that its finally noticeable that i have butt cheeks at all xD
started a lower body exercise month long challenge just to see what actual effort can do for a rear end, and, to quote my gf, "holy >-bleeped-<! you actually have an ass now!" XD
Driving on the freeway on one of the last warm days of the season. The windows are down and the soft breeze is blowing up my skirt, causing it to flip and flutter and tickle my legs!!
Today I received my finasteride tablets. Not that I recommend doing what I did, but this made me happy anyway.
I've had my third appointment with my psychologist at the gender-clinic in Amsterdam today. He asked me some rough questions about my past, but nothing that's not relevant to the topic of transgenderism. He also told me up front that they could never actually make somebody a real woman or man, but that they could only feminize transgender women to a certain extend. At the end of the day, I would still be tall and I could likely still be bearing the same masculine traits that I do now ever since I went through puberty. He also congratulated me for being out towards all my friends and family-members. I liked hearing that from him, and it most certainly made me feel happy today.
I have monthly appointments at the gender-clinic now, and I hope to see some progress. I want to stay as positive as I can, but I can't help but feel like I'm not ever going to feel completely happy. I don't want to feel like I need to off myself just to get rid of this internal struggle that's going on inside me every single day, just because I still grow a beard and look like some masculine freak that thinks he can be a woman some day. I feel like I have to take a huge leap of faith, and it does make me slightly uncomfortable, but this faith is the only thing I have right now.
I'm sorry for ending this post on such a sour note, but it helps to clear my brain.
Don't worry too much, Galyo. I'm 57 and I've been on HRT for 2 years. I'm 5 feet 10 inches (1.8 metres) tall and weigh about 190 pounds (86 kilos). I've never had laser, electrolysis or any surgery and yet I almost never get misgendered. Learn about makeup, change the things you can change and, above all, look at all the various women around you. You'll soon see that you can fit in just fine! Don't let misgendering panic you. Women who've looked like women their entire lives still have it happen to them. Soon the only one criticizing you will be you, and that, my girl, is the nature of being a woman.
I got dressed pretty much as usual and went to pick up Randi from work. I had to stop at the gas station of this sweet old Sikh man who I've patronized before. Today for the first time ever he called me "dear" instead of "sir"!
It's almost Boot Season!
I was asked by my spouse to run out to Trader Joes to pick up some goodies for the weekend. Hmmm... That's near the mall. The mall has a Bliss Shoes, cheap women's shoes up to my size... And there's a Claire's there, for small shiny things (and more kawaii stuff than anyone could possibly carry...).
The wheels begin to turn. Slowly they turn. Inch by inch... Step by step...
I'm here alone, spouse out for the day. I've got electrolysis tomorrow, so I'm pretty hairy in the face. But, I just got this new theatrical concealer (Ben Nye). Time to give it a test. Hmmm... Yup, all the hair is now orange and slightly tacky. Foundation, do your thing!
20 minutes later, the eyes are done, foundation, bronzer, and translucent powder are down, brushes are clean, jeans, fitted blouse, wig are GO! Off to the mall and Trader Joes.
Bliss had a few different just-below-the-knee styles with a reasonable heel. I'm 5'8", and a 4" heel is just a spiffy way to be noticed and intimidate people, so I stick with the lower stuff, plucking a couple off the rack to try. Toes are tight in one, but the black ones with the silver calf buckle feel good.
"I'll take these." I hand over the card. "Oh, I'll need to see an ID." Urk! THUD! "Um, here. It's a little out of date..." She takes the ID and turns to the register. She looks down at the ID. She looks up at me, grinning at her. I chuckle a little. She starts giggling. "Hey, we've all got to start from somewhere..." She rings up the sale and hands me the receipt, still smiling. I tell her I think I'll wear them out, and she clips the tag and gives me a bag for my old shoes, still smiling. Thanks!
Just smile and roll with it. Even stuff that could have gone badly can turn out well.
Oh, Claire's did have small shiny things. Yaaay! I bought some, including goofy little magnetic earrings because I'm too chicken to get my ears pierced. (Said the woman going in for electrolysis AGAIN tomorrow.) And groceries were bought without incident, but that's boring.
I had another happy day. I'm enjoying being me. And that's what it is really all about, isn't it?
Yesterday I went to the group art studio I'm a member of to drop flyers for an art show I'm participating in and happily some friends who've been away most of the summer were working and I could share recent news and catch up.
Wonderful women, I enjoy their company.
Four weeks today since the start of HRT, can slowly feel my emotions changing and the bitterness, and lack of patience, with others leaving my every day life.
I met an old friend at a local café this morning for breakfast. I hadn't seen him in quite some time and he had neither met nor heard about Anne. Beings as he is a rather right wing conservative Christian, I was terrified about damaging our relationship. He stood in the middle of the restaurant looking for me but not seeing me when I walked up and introduced myself. It took a bit for him to recognize who was standing before him but when he did, he broke into a wide smile, laughed rather loudly but warmly and gave me one of the best hugs I have ever had. We talked for an hour and a half and he never once asked why or questioned my choices. Yes, that kind of made my day. And the tears are still flowing.
Anne
Beautiful, Anne!
What a great way to start the day, Anne!
Michelle,
I must compliment you on quite the perfect day. Taking advantage of a random opportunity, great. Scoring with both boots and bling, wow. Following it up with that kind of affirmation from the sales gal.....priceless! And all the while doing it with a day before electrolysis scruff, you are my girl! I really do need to learn from your style.
Anne
Quote from: Dee Marshall on September 28, 2016, 07:38:11 PM
Don't worry too much, Galyo. I'm 57 and I've been on HRT for 2 years. I'm 5 feet 10 inches (1.8 metres) tall and weigh about 190 pounds (86 kilos). I've never had laser, electrolysis or any surgery and yet I almost never get misgendered. Learn about makeup, change the things you can change and, above all, look at all the various women around you. You'll soon see that you can fit in just fine! Don't let misgendering panic you. Women who've looked like women their entire lives still have it happen to them. Soon the only one criticizing you will be you, and that, my girl, is the nature of being a woman.
Thanks for the reassuring words. I just needed to vent a little, I suppose. I'm 1.86 m (6 ft 10) tall and it does hurt a bit when my psychologist underscored this fact.
Thankfully I don't have to wait long until my next appointments, so I have some reason to try and stay optimistic.
I am 6'2" which works out to 188 cm and while I was up to 203 pounds, I am currently around 170 pounds. Height has not been an issue in passing dating back to the days I went full time. Finding clothes that would fit was sometimes an issue but most everything I need comes from tall shops. In addition, I have seen site members that are taller than me and they have not had issues with passing either. If you wear your height with pride, you will only be admired. And by the way, it also helps if you stick to flats. Heals can be uncomfortable and really aren't needed.
Really? I suppose I'm just thinking too much about it. I do experience a lot of trouble with buying clothes. Especially buying proper shoes can be a real disaster.
Long, beautiful talk about my transition with my wife and coming out to my youngest brother and sister in law. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted.
Bought my first pair of women's jeans, and I've come to realize, I should have been buying women's jeans my entire life. THEY FIT!!!!! (ok, I mail ordered and the waist is a little big, but no more hip crushing squish combined with a lose, flappy waist!)
Only downside, if I wear them all the way up and snug; that unpleasant thing in the front becomes obvious... cleaver or duct tape, not sure which is more appealing...
Oh, and I watched a netflix movie last night that gave me some mild "feels" before hrt... my brain melted. It was glorious.
So feeling pretty fine this morning!
Quote from: Michelle_P on September 26, 2016, 03:29:42 PM
Hey! The GV jeans may be a oldie but they are darn comfortable and fit me like a glove.
Today's another good one. I had 2 hours of electrolysis, then got my flu shot, hit the hardware store for some special wood screws for new bed frame rails I'm making, and now I'm in a Panera Bread having an iced tea and Thai chicken salad (small). I've cot my little black sneakers, Buffalo ankle high pants, and a white sleeveless loose top with a cutout on the front. The pink push-up underneath barely shows. Ginger blonde hair, new makeup (naughty! Right after electro!) and Carey's glasses complete the look.
Poison? Nope, Nirvana Black. I love sandalwood.
Happy? You betcha. I'm me!
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Whatever works! Enjoy it all X
That's no naughty after electro! But if it works for your skin, who cares!
Traveled to Spain—it's always a great day when I do that. Will spend next week here. Today I was at a mall with my bestie (40.4763567N, 3.479958W) and spent 100+ EUR on clothing and stuff: tights, ballerinas, hangers, shirt, t-shirt, skater skirt, eye shadows, lipliner, eyeliner and moah.
Shopping is such a strange thing. I wanted to buy things I already have...
This is more of a "What made me happy the last couple days" post. The day before our 15th anniversary I had a long talk with my wife about my therapy and what will probably need to happen. She was extremely supportive. Friday we headed out of town for a weekend of celebration and the entire time I dressed as my preferred gender. I was treated as a woman everywhere we went. I was very pleased. The only downside to the weekend is that my wife has to work on not calling me "He" when we are out.
I was working today and a woman referred to me as she.
I am single
I got my updated birth certificate that says my proper name and gender! ;D
T = 6 ng/dL
now I just need to choke up the courage to say the other T word in front of the doc... that being "transition please..."
lol.
Quote from: becky.rw on October 04, 2016, 01:52:58 AM
T = 6 ng/dL
now I just need to choke up the courage to say the other T word in front of the doc... that being "transition please..."
lol.
Yah. Yesterday for me was bitter. Today though, I see my therapist.
'All ahead Emergency Flank; Make turns for 106% reactor power!'
Time to get this show on the road! I want it all!
I was just shopping at Target for work while wearing my work uniform which is a red shirt and black pants. While pushing the cart down the alley, I passed a mother and her small son. He said,"she works here and she is shopping." That really brightened my day.
At six weeks post-op my vagina looks almost normal.
2 minutes ago the flight attendant just said "here you are ladies" when she put the pretzels down between my seat mate and myself.
Of course, I'm in guy mode. Hoodie, jeans, and no makeup.
I just smiled.
Male fail FTW!
My therapist pointed me to the Transgender Law Center, and I grabbed the sample letters for gender marker changes for a court order, SS card, and passport, along with the Department of Motor Vehicles form.
I just sent an e-mail off to my endocrinologist asking her to do my letters up as part of my move to full-time. Wheeee!
Finally had the courage to schedule a therapist appointment and got really lucky - only a mile from where I live, transgender as specialty and accepts my insurance. Even better only a two week wait for being a new patient. Pretty happy.
I've mentioned elsewhere that, after I ruined a ghost costume one Halloween, my mother dressed me as a little old lady.
Yesterday I bought my first mascara. I get comfortable and reasonably skilled with each type of makeup before adding another. The sensation of putting mascara on myself for the first time a few minutes ago released a memory of that Halloween. I think, perhaps, my mother would have understood and accepted me much more than I had thought.
It's a good thing I bought a waterproof mascara or these tears would be doing it in about now!
I went clothes shopping (again!) today. Well, I need winter clothes, don't I?
I used to loathe clothes shopping as a man: all those nice things on the other side of the aisle, but I had to buy the same drab stuff that everyone else was wearing.
Now, I love clothes shopping! I really like being able to choose clothes that make me feel good. I am finding that I have tastes that my wife approves of, which is great for the confidence. Luckily we have some good discount stores in the area, and a couple of really neat second-hand stores that have some sweet vintage clothes.
I have nice coats for fall and winter, and a decent collection of skirts, pants, and tops. In fact, it is time to start getting rid of my guy clothes to make room in the closet. I got a basic pair of shoes today, too, size 11.
All I need now is a wig, so I can wear some of these clothes outside without scaring little kids.
I went to the DMV today... Usually not a popular ingredient in the recipe for a happy day but, it was to change my name on my license to my new name by marriage!!!... All went well :)
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: tgirlamc on October 05, 2016, 08:52:18 PM
I went to the DMV today... Usually not a popular ingredient in the recipe for a happy day but, it was to change my name on my license to my new name by marriage!!!... All went well :)
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Congrats girlfriend. So happy for you. I wish more transwomen could have your experience. I hope that more men will discover the special women that we are.
Came out to another neighbor and was greeted with the biggest hug!
Have my annual doctor's appt today. Looking forward to it and the realization I have been medically transitioning in earnest for a solid year makes me happy!
Found a mentor to help me through this journey. Met her yesterday on Facebook. Turns out that we used to work together at a previous base, so this gives me a familiar face to turn to. She's been super helpful and I'm looking forward to further correspondence.
Got through my first doctor's interview fanstatic woman put me totally at ease first time i,ve been talked to as another female so happy the first step has been taken no road blocks therapist next then hrt start : )
Quote from: I Am Jess on October 06, 2016, 12:32:46 AM
Congrats girlfriend. So happy for you. I wish more transwomen could have your experience. I hope that more men will discover the special women that we are.
Thanks Jess.... I think we are accepted more and more each day as an everyday part of society and part of the many benefits of that will be more and more men that view us as a viable part of the relationship landscape!!! :)
Markie!!!!... Congrats on your step forward!!!! Awesome!!!! :)
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Been one month on minoxidil <censored> mg/ml and switched to <censored> mg/ml (higher dose) with no ill effects.
Been 6 days on finasteride and no ill effects either by now. Looking good!
A patient at work said I was the nicest person who has ever helped her there. Also noticed my face skin has started to noticeably soften.
Quote from: becky.rw on October 04, 2016, 01:52:58 AM
T = 6 ng/dL
now I just need to choke up the courage to say the other T word in front of the doc... that being "transition please..."
lol.
I know exactly how you feel... its amazing how easy is once you get those first words out though : )
Came out to a former coworker yesterday. When I told her, she brightened up and high fived me and said that She wasn't surprised and I had been one of her best girl friends when we worked together.
Got my placement for study of the Finnish language in the mail today. :)
Quote from: findingreason on October 07, 2016, 09:03:11 AM
Got my placement for study of the Finnish language in the mail today. :)
Onnea! :)
Comming out to my closest friends.
What a relief!
Getting ready to head to the marina and board my friends boat to head to Catalina Island for a weekend of fun and partying! Think of it as Trans Girls Gone Wild
Quote from: I Am Jess on October 07, 2016, 03:49:08 PM
Getting ready to head to the marina and board my friends boat to head to Catalina Island for a weekend of fun and partying! Think of it as Trans Girls Gone Wild
Tear that island up girlfriend!!!! :)!!!!!
I hit my goal weight! And the size 6 skinny jeans fit! (Yay spandex... ;) )
Celebrated by buying the jeans, and both a red and black turtleneck so I can look up and to the side, at least on cold days. :) Now I'm having my grand feast, a small spinach pizza, chop salad, and green tea. Yum! (Seriously. This tastes sooooo good to me!)
Still in full 'guy' mode. I lost 10 pounds, got rid of the 'stache, put on some of my 'guy' blue era clothes from 20 pounds ago, and even tho they were a little snug, I smiled when I saw myself in the mirror.
Then I had a big supper. :eusa_doh:
I will have to wait a bit before I put on snug stuff again :-\
Quote from: Michelle_P on October 07, 2016, 08:31:19 PM
I hit my goal weight!
Congrats Michelle!!!... Such a great feeling to make stuff like this happen!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
First therapy session today went really well , very knowledgeable woman .... i think she's half my age but very intelligent great thing is after all the input I've had from here and knowledge i,ve gained we could just jump straight into no beating around the bush ☺
Down 8 pounds since I started therapy. Also, after getting dressed this morning and looking in the mirror I told myself "I love you" spontaneously. That was a shock!
I discovered something has changed.... I like dark chocolate. I always hated dark chocolate. weird.
More relevant, I'm finally back to doing daily 1000 kcal high aerobic exercise at the gym... though it does take me closer to 90 minutes to complete now. It means my weight and body composition are are once again fully manageable. And that makes me very happy!
2 week mark tell I had to Arizona. Hugs
Mariah
Arrived in Avalon!!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi79.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj142%2FJessie-Ann15%2FBA%2520Surgery%2FFAE1ECFD-325A-4C60-AA51-3C7A7E06E72A_zpsvypnk23f.jpg&hash=3008ecd3f513478b8a1a72eb87996d01b1b1f4a9) (http://s79.photobucket.com/user/Jessie-Ann15/media/BA%20Surgery/FAE1ECFD-325A-4C60-AA51-3C7A7E06E72A_zpsvypnk23f.jpg.html)
I wano thank those who both started and continue this topic thdeaad. We all fully realize that life is full of both joys and sorrows, and this site is great at building up and comforting those in need....but.....I am just so encouraged and blessed by the sharing of the joys put out here. Keep them coming? - Anne
Jess you look gorgeous! As I sit hear on the 'Wet Coast' I a jealous of you sitting in the sun. Well, Only a couple of weeks and I will be able to take in the Sun in Mesa.
Beautiful and amazing; in an incredible location too!
I've been in a new relationship since Wednesday, the 5th ^___^ She's a lesbian and is totally cool with me being a pre-op transgender girl. We have so much in common, fit together like a puzzle and she's so wonderful! I love her so much!!!! *is floating on cloud9*
Yay, Congrats Kova. I wish you to the best. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: Kova V on October 08, 2016, 01:46:06 PM
I've been in a new relationship since Wednesday, the 5th ^___^ She's a lesbian and is totally cool with me being a pre-op transgender girl. We have so much in common, fit together like a puzzle and she's so wonderful! I love her so much!!!! *is floating on cloud9*
Lately I tend to see myself as a trans girl in my dreams, which is OK because dreams are the last refuge of doubt. But last night I first dreamed I was either Supergirl or Power girl (comics geek) then it morphed into me being a Spanish queen. What a great dream! Not just a trans woman, but a woman, full stop!
Quote from: Mariah on October 08, 2016, 02:02:56 PM
Yay, Congrats Kova. I wish you to the best. Hugs
Mariah
Thanks Mariah!! ^__^
Finally got around to telling my kids that I'm transgender. It didn't turn out as I thought, but it went well. It may take them a while to fully accept that I won't be "dad" anymore, but perhaps "mom number 2". Love those little guys. :)
Quote from: SiobhánF on October 10, 2016, 01:01:34 AM
Finally got around to telling my kids that I'm transgender. It didn't turn out as I thought, but it went well. It may take them a while to fully accept that I won't be "dad" anymore, but perhaps "mom number 2". Love those little guys. :)
This was the long and hard thoughtful coming out for me...my kids. They are adults now, so it really did not matter how they actually reacted, but I wanted them to me ok.
My youngest said she cannot really picture me a "mom's mom", so she has a nickname for me, "Mada". My oldest simply said, "yeah...I kind of already knew but never bothered to say anything". Overall, they are fine with it now.
Had a great Pride in Oceanside this year and while it was long, I am way happy that our tribute booth was a success!
I'm having a great day in spite of my family chaos. (I'm probably too self involved, but after 50 years of being my lowest priority maybe I deserve a turn at the front of the line.)
I had an electrolysis appointment this morning and as usual got there a half hour early to relax and get my head in a calm state. Oops. My records were an hour off so I was half an hour late. Still, many more hairs are gone so I'm happy.
Next, off to Target to look for a cheap toaster. My old one died this morning. I can't live without my morning toast.
Then to Harbor Freight to get some furniture sliders. I need to move some stuff around and for some reason don't have the upper body strength I used to. [emoji3]
It's lunchtime so I'm in a Panera Breads having my usual Thai salad (small) and iced tea. Yum!
Next stop is the Vets to get prescription cat food for the weird cat [emoji192].
I'm having a nice day being myself. No weirdness, no Sirs, just another nice day.
I'm happy [emoji4].
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Michelle, it is good to hear you getting in a good day for a change. You have been having more than your fair share of tough times, thanks for sharing your up times with us. Isn't it great to have a really simple day, just the way it should work out. - Anne
Quote from: Anne Blake on October 10, 2016, 10:33:49 PM
Michelle, it is good to hear you getting in a good day for a change. You have been having more than your fair share of tough times, thanks for sharing your up times with us. Isn't it great to have a really simple day, just the way it should work out. - Anne
What makes me happy now is the thought that soon these happy days will be my every day! I look forward to the new adventure of the rest of my life now.
Just the thought has me smiling now. :) Hey, doc, does this mean I'm getting better?
That was the hardest for me too. Mine have handled it well. Congrats on a good pride.
Today I'm happy that I have a job to go to after getting a 3 day weekend.
Quote from: kaitylynn on October 10, 2016, 07:37:14 AM
This was the long and hard thoughtful coming out for me...my kids. They are adults now, so it really did not matter how they actually reacted, but I wanted them to me ok.
I now have an appointment for my initial hormone consultation. In two weeks I will hopefully be on my way to HRT!
Way to go girl! That is a major step along your path!
Today what made me happy was finding my favorite moisturizer at the drug store, going 3.5 miles on the elliptical in 50 minutes, stretching, and making breakfast for my mom (who is currently disabled).
And, it's another bonus day. :)
I just got back from my second 'good' walk of the day. My partner and I did our usual loop in speed walk style! I really need to do more road work as I have gained at least ten pounds since the spring. Just not enough activity. My goal for the next year is to do something every day. This will be helped when we get home to our winter place and I can play tennis every day if I want! Only a week to go!
I just got confirmation from my therapist that she has sent off my HRT letter. Woo-hoo! So tomorrow morning, I'll be phoning to make my first appointment to get the prescription. That will likely be in a couple of months - waiting list - but it's progress.
Congrats! You are moving in the right direction! Time flys! You journey will get much more exciting!
I finally got to sit and look at my toes, painted, my nighty flowing, under my silk dressing gown, after our guests left, once I changed (smiling broadly).
12-14 hours a day I must present male, the small moments to be me, keep me sane.
I love life, wish for more at the same time glad I'm breathing. Life is great.
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I have now been full time for a couple of months, and last week I had to interview a prospective employee, the first time I had been in such a close discussion with somebody who didn't know me. Following the interview our HR had to ask a couple of additional questions and in the reply I was described as a "lovely lady" which definitely made me happy.
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Had a long conversation with my mom, last night. It was one of the most difficult things to do, but I'm glad I got it out to her. Obviously, she's not too thrilled because she doesn't like her baby going through such things, but she knows that I'm doing what I think and feel is right, or rather what I've felt my whole life. She also didn't think I should've told my kids, but, of course, that's up to me because I'm their parent, not her. Either way, we ended on a good note. I love my mom. She's one of my all-time favorite women, if not THE all-time for me, only seconded by my wife. It was well-needed.
Today the State of Texas cashed the check I sent them for amending the sex designation on my birth certificate. My TX birth certificate was the last piece of outstanding documentation I had, and once I receive the amended certificate, It'll signal the official "end" of my transition and official beginning of my new life. I'm really, really, really excited!
That is great news Angie! Along the same lines, I have received my NC-230 this afternoon and was able to get a copy to HR. I heard back within 10 minutes that they had received it and had changed my HR/Payroll information. 15 minutes after that, they had interfaced with IT to start setting up my accounts! OMG, that was FAST! Happy happy!
Kaitylynn and Angie, great stories! It kind of makes my day just hearing of you reaching these goals! So what is next on your really neat to get done list? - Anne
For me, it is now a matter of getting everything changed over to my new identity and once that is done...continued body hair reduction! I need to get back and finish up the overall body laser treatments. I am also starting to plan FFS and VFS. FFS for sure, on the fence about the later still.
I got an email from my older brother. He remembered that, as executor of our mother's estate, he has a lot of her jewelery. Since at the time of her death there were no female family members (that anyone knew of ;) ), he just locked them away to be dealt with later.
So now, when I mentioned getting my ears pierced, he remembered about them and is going to send them to me. :) Wow. She had excellent taste. One art deco brooch in particular I remember her wearing when I was about 5 years old.
I am starting to like my brother!
Numerous things have made me happy lo these past weeks.
One, I just received a beautiful winder coat which a few woman have admired and fits perfectly.
Two, I have a new Doctor who is completely Trans friendly who increased my HRT.
Three, I manage to get away with walking around work wearing boots with three inch heels.
Fourth, I got ma'amed a couple times last week.
Fifth and finally, I am in contact with HR about transitioning.
I am concerned that despite my calculations, time-lines and project plan, HRT might cause me to adjust forward my timetable as breast growth is happening quicker than planned.
These might seem like little things but they made me super happy. Two days ago I made my first appointment for anything as Alyssa (bloodwork for HRT). Today, I created a new Facebook page for Alyssa and deleted the male one. All the friends that support me have transferred over and the ones who don't? Well, I guess they got deleted too. ;)
Went to my first medical appointment related to GD. It was a success! I was told that I took the correct first step and that I now have a referral to see the base psychiatrist to confirm my dysphoria and to get my referral to the multidisciplinary team so as to establish my treatment plan. Yay! ;D
Was doing the forms to get a new passport (not gender marker stuff yet!), old one was expired; and was reading on the web page all the instructions, warnings, and reasons...
among the reasons for for getting a new passport even if old is not expired..
"undergoing gender transition."
If you'd have suggested to me that reading something like that on a state department, bureaucratic rules page, would effect me in any way I would have laughed.
But it did. It was incredibly validating, seeing that written there, that the Feds know I can exists as what I am, and don't mind a bit of effort to accommodate the process.
otoh, my attempt to grow hair just made things worse, MPB is awful. Head is now buzzed and will be staying that way. Wigville for me...
Quote from: becky.rw on October 18, 2016, 06:59:08 AM
otoh, my attempt to grow hair just made things worse, MPB is awful. Head is now buzzed and will be staying that way. Wigville for me...
I'm in the same boat. Right now, I'm trying this stuff, called Nioxin. It was created by a lady who started thinning during and after her pregnancy, who also had a bald father. I just tried it yesterday and I was looking into a laser brushes, as well. I'll give it a go before I call it quits. On the other end of that, I haven't bought an electrolysis machine, yet, so I'm beginning to tweeze my torso hair... it's not too bad after a while, but can be painful. I'm only doing small areas at a time, though, so I'm at least allowing my skin to rest for a while before I determine whether I should do any more.
Something covered by TOS 5 had me pretty happy most of the day today but I can't really talk about it :)
Besides this, I spent 15 minutes with my boss at work (the british boss, at the client). I admire him a lot and I kind of miss him because we used to work more closely in the past but I guess that his work was recognised by the upper spheres and he must have been promoted or something like that, because these days my actual boss is another one, but I still regard this one as my true superior. He's the one I came out to a few weeks ago.
Today my boss (spanish one, at my employer) is landing into the UK. He should be here already, and by now I would have come out to him but unfortunately his flight was delayed and he's still flying as I write this. There will probably not be enough time left today to have such a serious conversation, so let's see what happens tomorrow. More people is coming though, and they will be around tomorrow, which makes things more complicated.
Quote from: Anne Blake on October 14, 2016, 12:08:56 PM
Kaitylynn and Angie, great stories! It kind of makes my day just hearing of you reaching these goals! So what is next on your really neat to get done list? - Anne
I'm expecting my new birth certificate some time this week. It appears that its taking a few extra days because I'm having my old birth records sealed by court order, but once that's received, my transition is "over."
* HRT/Full time: Started 2002
* Name change: Completed 2003
* New Passport/Driver's license/SSA records: Completed 2003
* SRS: Completed 2003
* Returned to school, got new degree, updated DD214/High school records/college transcripts, rebuilt credit under new name/scrubbed all references of my old self completely off the internet/patched relationship with family, enjoyed life, traveled the world: 2004 - Current
* Received court order changing birth certificate sex: Completed 2016
The end is almost here :)
I've been at Susan's on/off since before HRT in 2002, so I'll certainly miss this place.
****
As far as something happy today, my wife mentioned that we should celebrate the end of transition and our upcoming 20th anniversary, so we spent the evening looking for a nice cruise. (Probably a quick 7 day, NYC to Southampton, England run on the Queen Mary 2.)
Quote from: SiobhánF on October 18, 2016, 02:49:34 PM
I'm in the same boat. Right now, I'm trying this stuff, called Nioxin. It was created by a lady who started thinning during and after her pregnancy, who also had a bald father. I just tried it yesterday and I was looking into a laser brushes, as well. I'll give it a go before I call it quits. On the other end of that, I haven't bought an electrolysis machine, yet, so I'm beginning to tweeze my torso hair... it's not too bad after a while, but can be painful. I'm only doing small areas at a time, though, so I'm at least allowing my skin to rest for a while before I determine whether I should do any more.
Hi Siobhan!!!... Congrats on getting things moving!!!... I just wanted to say that you might not want to expend too much time, money and effort on body hair removal... You may find that chest hair takes care of itself once you are established on HRT for a while... I had a fairly hàiry upper chest and torso and it all just faded away... Faces are sadly, another matter though!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: tgirlamc on October 20, 2016, 12:05:09 AM
Hi Siobhan!!!... Congrats on getting things moving!!!... I just wanted to say that you might not want to expend too much time, money and effort on body hair removal... You may find that chest hair takes care of itself once you are established on HRT for a while... I had a fairly hàiry upper chest and torso and it all just faded away... Faces are sadly, another matter though!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
Oh? I didn't know that. LOL, I do enjoy the parts that I've tweezed, already, but if it's going to take care of itself, then I probably will stop. XD
The face, on the other hand, will be a challenge. I'll definitely take it nice and slow so that I don't mess up my face permanently.
Thanks for the tip, Ashley! :)
Quote from: tgirlamc on October 20, 2016, 12:05:09 AM
Hi Siobhan!!!... Congrats on getting things moving!!!... I just wanted to say that you might not want to expend too much time, money and effort on body hair removal... You may find that chest hair takes care of itself once you are established on HRT for a while... I had a fairly hàiry upper chest and torso and it all just faded away... Faces are sadly, another matter though!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
My chest hair is invisible, but wow can I feel it! I was gonna wax it off yesterday, but the power went out. I did manage to get my hands waxed before it did and that made a big difference. I'm sure more will go on its own, but after two years on HRT I'm losing some patience. I have looked at the hands of AFAB girls, (including my sister), and many of them have hair on their hands similar to mine. I see removing it as more of a confidence builder than anything.
Yeah, I just prefer not to have hair all over, that's all.
My brother said he didn't care what I wore to his wedding in january and I could come dressed femme if I wanted to. That made me feel so good inside.
Just got my appointment made at my mental health office to discuss my dysphoria. Also, my commander sent out the newest publication about transgender service members and was very clear that he will not tolerate discrimination or maltreatment of those who are transgender. Surely, but slowly, things are starting to take place. Before I know it, I'll be on HRT and begin to express my true self. I'm excited. ;D
Congrats Siobhan!!!.... The military is in the midst of real change!!!... Forward March!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: SiobhánF on October 20, 2016, 06:41:39 PM
Just got my appointment made at my mental health office to discuss my dysphoria. Also, my commander sent out the newest publication about transgender service members and was very clear that he will not tolerate discrimination or maltreatment of those who are transgender. Surely, but slowly, things are starting to take place. Before I know it, I'll be on HRT and begin to express my true self. I'm excited. ;D
Wow! That's amazing, and great to hear!
Quote from: tgirlamc on October 20, 2016, 07:13:25 PM
Congrats Siobhan!!!.... The military is in the midst of real change!!!... Forward March!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: MeghanMe on October 20, 2016, 07:30:39 PM
Wow! That's amazing, and great to hear!
Thank you, both! I can't wait. Now, one of my biggest hurdles is going to be coming out to my grandmother and father. It's a stress point for me, so I think it would be best to get it out in the next week or so. Things are coming along just fine. :)
I saw my Endo for the first time in four months, and he raised my hrt dosages!! Yay!!
I sent my photo to my older brother. Here's part of his reply:
"I am thrilled finally to see you as Kathy, and your good taste in clothes, hair and makeup is so evident! Mom would be proud of you. For the first time, I really feel that I have a sister, and I am so happy to tell you that."
He sure knows how to make a girl feel good. *sniffle* :)
Quote from: KathyLauren on October 22, 2016, 08:54:35 AM
I sent my photo to my older brother. Here's part of his reply:
"I am thrilled finally to see you as Kathy, and your good taste in clothes, hair and makeup is so evident! Mom would be proud of you. For the first time, I really feel that I have a sister, and I am so happy to tell you that."
He sure knows how to make a girl feel good. *sniffle* :)
Hi Kathy!!!
What a wonderful post to read in the AM and start off the day!...so sweet!... Congrats!!!! You have an amazing life that is finally your own ahead!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: KathyLauren on October 22, 2016, 08:54:35 AM
"I am thrilled finally to see you as Kathy, and your good taste in clothes, hair and makeup is so evident! Mom would be proud of you. For the first time, I really feel that I have a sister, and I am so happy to tell you that."
Okay, now I'm crying a little. :D
I likewise got an email today from an old friend who was totally accepting when I expected her not to be. Made me feel really good.
Today has been an awesome day. Forgive me if this sounds too churchy but it really all about family and acceptance. First the set up......I, like many of the Christians on this site, have been struggling with the lack of acceptance from my church and most of our church family. They had been the mainstay of our extended family for more than three decades. I have recently realized that I need to separate myself from them and it hurts, a lot.
Yesterday, a friend from Susan's Place, referred me to a blog and that blog referenced a church about an hour drive away. The short story is that I got up early and attended their service. I wept the entire time and was so totally accepted, welcomed, hugged, supported..........I am still crying. I think that I have found a new home.
Now that I think of it, their acceptance of this "Me" that so much of the world can't handle, is very much like the acceptance, support and welcome that all of you at Susan's Place so openly provide. Ain't it great!
Anne
Fixed both of our cars and saved close to 1k in dealership fees... guess I deserve a new pair of shoes with these savings...
The only thing I'm currently doing to transition is letting my hair grow out. But today in line at get a salad the guy on the other side of the counter asked "what are you having miss". He was totally embarrassed, while I was smiling. I'm still smiling about it.
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While I can't currently pass as a female, and probably never will, while at the car repair shop today talking to the repairman, I imagined myself standing there as a woman while he was talking to me. It gave me a real good feeling just imagining myself standing there as a woman.
I was looking for a bottle opener to open the bottle of beer I had decided to treat myself to when I found a $100 bill. I remember putting money in that drawer a few months ago to keep it safe. I guess that when we pulled it out we didn't pull all of it out.
Ran into a work colleague I haven't seen in a couple years -- she and I had a great conversation about work, our dogs, politics, the weather, our mothers... and I privately rejoiced in the now-familiar pattern of female conversation.
I had brunch and afterward did a little bit of shopping with a friend I met right here, at Susan's Place! Actually we both live in the same metro area, but we never knew of each other until we met on these forums! :)
Just confirmed, going to Knott's Scary Farm tomorrow with family! It is going to be way fun!!!
Stumbling into the kitchen in the early morning to fix coffee, and seeing that you've left a lipstick stain on your favorite mug.
It's small, but it's a Good Thing!
Quote from: Michelle_P on October 26, 2016, 10:14:44 PM
Stumbling into the kitchen in the early morning to fix coffee, and seeing that you've left a lipstick stain on your favorite mug.
It's small, but it's a Good Thing!
I agree Michelle, I love seeing that the day after almost as much as when I left it.
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Two things this week :-)
My gf for the first time (in 18 years) really treated me like a girl during sex Sunday. The week before had been the first time we had talked about the impact of GRS on our sexuality right after sex. This week when I asked her to play with my breasts etc she really responded. Having asked for this on and off throughout our relationship and finally feeling like she got it was very happy for me.
Tuesday I went to a reception for the unveiling of a Media Lab project and decided it was finally time to wear my one nice / festive top. 99% of the time I'm a very utilitarian dresser; t-shirts and pants I can bike in and due to short funds I've not been able to work on my wardrobe. The one nice top I've owned for years now is pink linen and really stands out so I've been reticent to break it out.
The best part was of course people took notice because my look hardly ever changes and all of my interactions were positive in a space where only maybe ¼ of the team know I'm transitioning and some of the rest may be inferring it from physical changes due to hrt (new team for me, with a few folks I've known for years and hence already been out with).
Of course we were all a bit punchy, having put in an all-nighter installing the project into the first floor space.
Oh and of course meeting deadline for this and having had strong acknowledgement from the team lead of my contributions as well as specific mention from the professor sponsoring the group was a 3rd very happy moment.
Yesterday was my appointment with my mental health office and it was merely intake. I didn't actually get to see the psychiatrist, but I did talk to a couple of individuals; one being a low ranking personnel (he took notes for one of the mental health officers) and the other being a mental health officer. The former was as calm as can be and seemed to be very understanding, while the latter seemed a bit nervous. I think that it was due to her being unfamiliar with the process and trying to orient herself to a new perspective. This is very new to the Air Force, so I can definitely understand why she was not really well-prepared to talk. I suspect that she didn't really know how to deal with it, nor did she want to screw it up.
On the upside, I was told that I am the first at this assignment to want to press forward with transitioning and that I'm not the only one on base who identifies as transgender. The downside is that I have to wait one more week to see the person with whom I initially had the intention to see. I tried to keep my face calm and neutral so that I didn't put her further into her anxiety about it. I couldn't quite tell, though, whether she was nervous in regard to her performance, or if she was holding back her emotions and judgments. Something wasn't quite right, with her, but I don't blame her for it. When given the chance again, I want to reassure her that she did a wonderful job keeping her composure.
With my imminent progress toward HRT, I can foresee my transition being a challenge for people's worldview and beliefs. I've always been a patient person toward others, so it won't be a challenge for me to do so throughout the transition, but it will be a challenge to not take things personally, once I begin to express my gender identity.
Progress is progress, I suppose. :)
(Also posted to my transition blog)
Had a great shopping experience... went shoe shopping once again in full male business outfit and was browsing a store where you have to ask for your size when a store clerk came up and asked if she could help. So I asked if they have this cute heeled boot in size 11. She apologized and told me she only has a size 10 and then asked if I want to try them on. I mentioned size 10 would not fit and she disappeared and brought every size 11 boot she could find. We tried a few but I could not make up my mind. Ended using leaving without anytime my but went back this morning to buy one I liked.
It seemed perfectly normal to her that a men in business suit walks in and tries 3 inch heeled boots...
she was so helpful, have to figure out how to let the company know about the grey experience I had...
Quote from: sarah1972 on October 27, 2016, 10:38:54 AM
It seemed perfectly normal to her that a men in business suit walks in and tries 3 inch heeled boots...
I have had similar experiences shopping for shoes and for makeup. Don't you love it when the world turns out to be not nearly as scary as we feared?
Quote from: KathyLauren on October 27, 2016, 11:28:36 AM
I have had similar experiences shopping for shoes and for makeup. Don't you love it when the world turns out to be not nearly as scary as we feared?
Absolutely! I am still all hyped up and I think this was a tremendous confidence boost!
Forty five miles from home, killing time at the mall before I visit a new client and got my hair done. This is the first time going in not telling anyone that I had ever been considered a man! Then girl talk with Randi (my partner and spouse of 35 years, or is she?) By email. She can't wait to see my hair. She says it sounds nice.
First appointment with the doctor for hormones went very well. Lab tests tomorrow which will hopefully lead to me starting HRT by Thanksgiving.
A trip to the grocery store made my day today. As my wife is back in town, I'm forced to present male - which is starting to get really ridiculous with my hair, lack of facial hair and boobs - but the woman at the cashier called me Ma'am and Miss. No makeup, no earrings, just a dark blue t-shirt and jeans. I can't believe this is really happening...
If only my wife would see it....
Love u all
Jessica
Aww, I'm soo happy for you Jessica! I was wearing a L size female tank top loose female pants and pink and black size 10 female shoes also wore a nude color beanie and used my female voice. I never got an odd look and people attitude towards me was like how people behave towards females.
I took my mom to the dentist and my mom referred to me as her daughter to the medical staff asking if it was ok for me to come back there and no one seemed shocked or gave me a second look. I was very happy... this happens a lot now I just wish I had my long hair back. My hair looks horrible it's in that shaggy awkward phase ew!
Last night I wore a simple, purple and black witch costume for Halloween, and everyone thought it was super cute! <3
I'm happy for three things:
1) I was "miss"'d the other day (while in guy mode) in line at a local sandwich shop. (He was horrified, I smiled)
2) I put on a sweater this morning that was an impulse buy last spring on clearance ($6). I thought I would never wear it - I LOVE IT! I walked past a mirror earlier and for the first time I actually saw a cute girl (no makeup or anything).
3) I'm back to a place where I can donate monthly to Susan's place. Thank you Susan for your work and dedication.
Denise (aka PJ)
I had an electrolysis appointment after not going for 6 weeks. Hurricanes, illness....I kept having to cancel. But I finally made it!
Quote from: Pisces228 on October 28, 2016, 01:38:07 PM
I had an electrolysis appointment after not going for 6 weeks. Hurricanes, illness....I kept having to cancel. But I finally made it!
Well congrats on your electrolysis appointment! And I'm sorry about the hurricanes and the illness, do you live in the east coast of america?
I need to start my PHR but I'm poor and yeah that's sucks. It seems like I'll be done transitioning on hrt before i have the money for PHR meaning I'll have to be a facial haired lady for a while... omg how scary that is.
I read that mention of electrolysis and missed appointments, and it triggered something. This morning would normally be my last shave until Monday afternoon, in prep for my Monday morning visit. Ah,but my electrolyst is starting a vacation.
So, no appointment Monday, and no hairy weekend! Yaaaaay!
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Quote from: Michelle_P on October 28, 2016, 04:48:47 PMThis morning would normally be my last shave until Monday afternoon, in prep for my Monday morning visit. Ah,but my electrolyst is starting a vacation.
So, no appointment Monday, and no hairy weekend! Yaaaaay!
See, being on Laser/IPL and not Electrolysis, I have to shave, exfoliate, then shave again for maximum hair-removal. I might actually be starting to see results, but I'm going to wait over the weekend to tell you if that's actual progress or just that I shaved it well for the last session. You'll hear about all that when I update my IPL thread...
I was extremely happy for about 2 or 3 seconds a few days back. My wife told me that I look more like a woman than she does. And for a moment, I was looking at how gorgeous she is(Seriously, it calls to mind divinity *swoon*) and the fact that she brings me into comparison with her is humbling. Then I watched her face drop and realized that it was insecurity speaking and I felt immense guilt for diminishing her self confidence. I would gladly look like a hairy, burly, bodybuilder if I could just have her accept me as a woman. I want desperately to be her princess, and for a moment, that's how I felt.
Quote from: Magicka on October 28, 2016, 04:08:21 PM
Well congrats on your electrolysis appointment! And I'm sorry about the hurricanes and the illness, do you live in the east coast of america?
I need to start my PHR but I'm poor and yeah that's sucks. It seems like I'll be done transitioning on hrt before i have the money for PHR meaning I'll have to be a facial haired lady for a while... omg how scary that is.
I do. Coastal North Carolina!
Quote from: Michelle_P on October 28, 2016, 04:48:47 PM
I read that mention of electrolysis and missed appointments, and it triggered something. This morning would normally be my last shave until Monday afternoon, in prep for my Monday morning visit. Ah,but my electrolyst is starting a vacation.
So, no appointment Monday, and no hairy weekend! Yaaaaay!
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Girl, I totally get that. I love going to electrolysis even though it hurts like heck because I know I am one day closer to decimating my beard, but having to grow my beard out for a few days before hand SUCKS.
Going out to dinner for my birthday, I dolled my self up. Makeup, some extra time on my hair and a nice dress. Then I waited, and waited and waited for my wife to get home. I had to call her to remind her we had reservations. She finally got home at the last minute. She is in jeans and a flannel shirt and didn't want to change. I was sad that she didn't dress up too, but the swapped gender roles made me smile.
So happy for my BFF, Moni, she has now got her GCS scheduled for next June. Yea !!!
Ran into two more of my clients from back when I managed the psych facility. They're doing well!
Quote from: Yuusui on October 31, 2016, 07:56:29 AM
but the swapped gender roles made me smile.
We love to swap roles too! I get to look pretty and be treated like a princess, she has to pick up the tab!
(And usually the role reversal continues into the bedroom.)
Saw the psychologist today (thought they said something about a psychiatrist, but whatever) and it was a positive experience. She's going to talk with my PCM to send the request to HQ to begin my transition. The plan consists of my going to San Antonio (Lackland), but I mentioned that there is an Army base out at El Paso (Ft Bliss) that also has a medical facility, which would be a much quicker trip. She said that she'll look into it to see if it would be viable. Yay! Baby steps. Inching closer and closer to realizing my dream. I'm one happy lady. ;D
Found out my part of my inheritance will be sent to me in the next couple of weeks. I can hopefully pay off one of the credit cards I used to pay for GCS.
Being able to go the bathroom for the first time since surgery and not requiring more medication to accomplish it. Hugs
Mariah
Getting a coke can with my name on it.
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(this is actually from google images, as it is faaaar easier than taking a pic to my can, copying it to the computer, uploading it and linking it).
I bought a couple camis from Kohls with a gift card my Mom gave me last Christmas. She would not be happy if she knew what I bought for me.
Quote from: OutsideMe on November 01, 2016, 06:55:51 PM
I bought a couple camis from Kohls with a gift card my Mom gave me last Christmas. She would not be happy if she knew what I bought for me.
I love Kohls. I'm not up to trying things on in the women's changing area but I do take women's clothes into the men's dressing rooms. I wonder what the attendants think when they put them away. :)
Today:
1) told my teammates at work - 4 others, nothing negative, nothing overly gushing with support. But at least there will not be any issues there. Everyone was basically cool with it.
2) Had Dr appt, he okay'd me to restart E. (I stopped for social reasons. I'll not do that again.)
3) Taking a trip back to my home town next week - going to be in Denise mode the whole weekend!!! Can't wait. I hope my sister and some VERY old friends are ready. One friend doesn't know. I'm going to see what happens with a "surprise"
I'm so excited I can barely contain myself. Kinda wish I had another day. Oh well, that's December in Florida as Denise.
There's a formal dinner event I'm attending in the middle of the month. I left the last of my formalware in a box at Goodwill a week ago, and it probably wouldn't have been appropriate anyway. So...
I went shopping! (Why is that always the fix for everything?)
I now have a beautiful black short velvet (not crushed) formal gown, long sleeved, nice waist, conservative V-neck. For some reason I started crying when I saw myself in it. Good grief, girl, get a grip! Hormones gone wild, I suppose.
Michelle haz a happy.
Quote from: Michelle_P on November 02, 2016, 12:03:13 PM
There's a formal dinner event I'm attending in the middle of the month. I left the last of my formalware in a box at Goodwill a week ago, and it probably wouldn't have been appropriate anyway. So...
I went shopping! (Why is that always the fix for everything?)
I now have a beautiful black short velvet (not crushed) formal gown, long sleeved, nice waist, conservative V-neck. For some reason I started crying when I saw myself in it. Good grief, girl, get a grip! Hormones gone wild, I suppose.
Michelle haz a happy.
You'll be the belle of the ball Michelle!!!!.... I remember dropping off the last of my old clothes!... So liberating!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
I am dressed in some comfy clothes right now. I am out of town for some work training. I am unable to dress at home.
I was at my mental health office and the lady behind the glass addressed me as ma'am. Though I look completely male, right now, it gave me a warm sensation in my heart. *feeling loved*
I spent the last four days away from home for work training. Everyday I was tucked and wearing panties. When I would get back to the hotel I would change into comfy female clothes. After doing this for four days it is time to head home. It feels weird to be back in my male clothes. Even after only four days. This makes me happy and to me verifies how I feel. (my first therapist appointment is in two weeks)
Quote from: OutsideMe on November 03, 2016, 07:47:52 AM
I spent the last four days away from home for work training. Everyday I was tucked and wearing panties. When I would get back to the hotel I would change into comfy female clothes. After doing this for four days it is time to head home. It feels weird to be back in my male clothes. Even after only four days. This makes me happy and to me verifies how I feel. (my first therapist appointment is in two weeks)
It's heartwarming to be able to be who we want to be. It also is extremely hard to revert to who we should be.
I empathize as to how you're feeling.
When I dress, I need to dress more.
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Headed out for a drive with my Love with the destination, DMV. Finally getting my license corrected! Have an appointment for 9am and it is a 2 and a half hour drive. Will be really fun!
Congrats! So nice to have that piece ID changed and in one's hands! Hugs,Kelly
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Some days it doesn't take much. [emoji8]
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Last night I say to my wife that she's my girl. She then touches my face and says, "You're mine."
[emoji1] If only I could stay in that moment forever...
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Aww, Amanda that's beautiful <3
For the past couple of weeks I have been getting ma'am-ed everywhere I go but I had one host at a restaurant ask, how could I help you sweety?
I am in male mode but I have always looked feminine, I guess even more so now on HRT, not to mention the new blonde hair color and 3.5" heels; I think the laser and electrolysis helps as well.
I look the same at work so I wonder if the changes are slow enough so no one notices or no one cares but you can damn well bet I would say something if I saw someone obviously in transition although I got some good-natured grief over the change in hair color.
Also had a facial; These are cool! Soon to get my brows waxed.
Went to a Payless shoe store today in Indianapolis. The lady who helped me didn't bat an eye with the "guy" trying on women's shoes. She was very helpful to me, and even told me several times that I was doing great, and that I shouldn't be so afraid anymore. She was very supportive, I will be going back to that store again!
At work yesterday, a resident of the nursing home in which I am employed told me that I look like a girl. I really wanted to say thank you, but there were people who don't know what is going on around.....and I'm still a bit scared to open up about it, but it made me happy that someone said it anyway.
I shaved my bikini area for next weeks GCS :)
I woke up feeling pretty down, two weeks after losing my old home and having to move here. All my insecurities boiling to the top.
Then, out of the blue, some wonderful person with an amazing sense of timing sent me a PM that was very complimentary. Wow! That helped so much, and completely flipped my mood around. (Thank you again, wonderful person!)
So, I headed off for my Sunday morning coffee and donut, in a great mood. How great? I was humming:
"I'm just a sweet transvestite from Transsexual, Transylvania"
- Dr. Frank N. Furter, "Rocky Horror Picture Show"
>:-)
I finally told my whole family. The reactions were mixed, but the one I least expected to be even remotely tolerant was my father. Damn. He surprised the hell out of me. All he could say was, "Wow. (ad nauseam) Well, this doesn't change anything between us. You're still my kid and I will always love you, no matter what you do." This made my heart feel so alive. The fire is alive in me and I'm about to divulge the info on facebook to everybody. I feel that I can do anything, now. I feel unstoppable, thanks to the one I didn't expect to get that from.
#FeelinTheLove
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Some days it doesn't take much. [emoji8]
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I recognize that!
Thanks to a very outgoing barista that I ran into while out as Tonya one night, most everyone at my local Starbucks refers me as Tonya even when in guy mode.
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Gave myself another injection, that makes me happy
Quote from: SiobhánF on November 06, 2016, 07:04:50 PM
I finally told my whole family. The reactions were mixed, but the one I least expected to be even remotely tolerant was my father. Damn. He surprised the hell out of me. All he could say was, "Wow. (ad nauseam) Well, this doesn't change anything between us. You're still my kid and I will always love you, no matter what you do." This made my heart feel so alive. The fire is alive in me and I'm about to divulge the info on facebook to everybody. I feel that I can do anything, now. I feel unstoppable, thanks to the one I didn't expect to get that from.
#FeelinTheLove
What a great post Siobhan!!!... Congrats!!!! ... i have no doubt you are going to take your life where it needs to go!!!! Grab that steering wheel and hit the gas!!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
QuoteWhat a great post Siobhan!!!... Congrats!!!! ... i have no doubt you are going to take your life where it needs to go!!!! Grab that steering wheel and hit the gas!!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
You're awesome, Ashley! I know I did the work, but I don't think I could have done any of it without the support of those from this forum and from those I've talked with before coming out to everybody. It's so liberating.
There are many great threads on this site, this being one of them. Yes, we all struggle, from as trivial as how to survive a broken nail to how can I survive in life.......But dedicating a thread with so many stories of celebration is awesome. Sharing and reading about what makes and keeps life magic is one of the major legs of support and all of you are doing it so well.
And I just got another piece of that magic this morning that I can't keep to myself. Anne has been out and about to varying degrees for some time now. The one significant person that I could not share with has been my nine year old grand daughter (for relational/legal risks). For quite some time I have so longed to share Anne with her. Well that constraint has been removed and I had breakfast at a local café with her this morning.....can't tell you how scared I was! She is never a morning person and she takes everything from the "Ewww, that's gross" stand point. I was shaking like a leaf when she came in and hugged me. When I asked her what she thought (yes, that was pushing the risk factor), her response was, "Your neat, I love you". Your neat, I love you; the sweetest group of words that I have ever heard. And yes, I will be useless for at least the rest of the day!
Anne
Quote from: Anne Blake on November 07, 2016, 10:00:01 AM
There are many great threads on this site, this being one of them. Yes, we all struggle, from as trivial as how to survive a broken nail to how can I survive in life.......But dedicating a thread with so many stories of celebration is awesome. Sharing and reading about what makes and keeps life magic is one of the major legs of support and all of you are doing it so well.
And I just got another piece of that magic this morning that I can't keep to myself. Anne has been out and about to varying degrees for some time now. The one significant person that I could not share with has been my nine year old grand daughter (for relational/legal risks). For quite some time I have so longed to share Anne with her. Well that constraint has been removed and I had breakfast at a local café with her this morning.....can't tell you how scared I was! She is never a morning person and she takes everything from the "Ewww, that's gross" stand point. I was shaking like a leaf when she came in and hugged me. When I asked her what she thought (yes, that was pushing the risk factor), her response was, "Your neat, I love you". Your neat, I love you; the sweetest group of words that I have ever heard. And yes, I will be useless for at least the rest of the day!
Anne
You have had a rough trot the last little while and deserve some happiness. I do hope everything is going better for you now.
Hugs
Liz
My wife went to therapy with me for the first time. The therapist was very good at asking her questions to see how she "really" feels. As I thought and had expressed in previous sessions, she is incredibly supportive. Her concerns are directed strictly to my well being. It was wonderful have the confirmation that I had her support 100%.
Quote from: SiobhánF on November 06, 2016, 07:04:50 PM
I finally told my whole family. The reactions were mixed, but the one I least expected to be even remotely tolerant was my father. Damn. He surprised the hell out of me. All he could say was, "Wow. (ad nauseam) Well, this doesn't change anything between us. You're still my kid and I will always love you, no matter what you do." This made my heart feel so alive. The fire is alive in me and I'm about to divulge the info on facebook to everybody. I feel that I can do anything, now. I feel unstoppable, thanks to the one I didn't expect to get that from.
#FeelinTheLove
That's really amazing! And honestly, you have my respect for telling them, and my envy for the way things went. I hope you continue to have such good fortune! ;D
Had to introduce Sarah to one of my customers (I work in IT consulting). Response pretty much was: finally- I have been waiting for you telling me since the summer. Guess the idea of clear nail polish and girl boots not being noticed did not work. Oh... and today she showed up with a bag full of cloth she thought might fit me... awesome! A big load of my shoulder since I just started a new 18 month project with them....
Quote from: Amanda_Combs on November 08, 2016, 10:16:00 AM
That's really amazing! And honestly, you have my respect for telling them, and my envy for the way things went. I hope you continue to have such good fortune! ;D
It certainly felt amazing. Thank you. :)
I also made the announcement on facebook and the response was overwhelming. I didn't know I had so many good people in my life. I half-expected to lose a few people, but not a one said or did anything that made me feel like I needed to sever my ties with them. I know this isn't the end, but I'm gonna be riding this high for a while. ;D
Dena being able to help today due to a water outage at the place I share with my fiancé. Dena, Thank you. Hugs
Mariah
Had to do something to keep from falling into a further funk over election.
Pedicure worked for a while
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This was far from a happy day. But the outpouring of support throughout my various social circles made me ... well, maybe not happy, but grateful nonetheless.
Following some links from and article in BusinessWeek I discovered that I may actually be a Canadian citizen. I don't know if I'll take advantage of that, but I feel less backed into a closet.
I have been crying for almost 2 days but today my boss told me that she cares and will try her best to keep me safe. That made me happy.
I was able to catch up with a good friend yesterday as a brief punctuation in a too busy day. We commiserated over our fears for the coming four years and how the left can best continue to make effective change to move the nation forward.
I drank just one beer too many last night after a long day of work and being seriously fatigued from lack of sleep election night and a busy schedule all week. That was good and then this morning it was less so, I woke hungover, eventually puked and spent the day quietly reading and doing a little bit of work.
Finally I decided to get myself off and experienced my strongest girl-flavored orgasm yet, not a bad hangover palliative.
Today marks 11 weeks since I underwent GCS and I feel great. I have been given clearance from my doctor to begin running again and I have been given clearance to have sex (which is good because I already did that).
>:-)
As many here have already noted we have awoken to a different political climate than just a few days ago. Our local Q Center board of directors has been bringing people together for solace, reassurance and support. I am packing now for a retreat with our Board at a very funky old lodge that features ancient but restored travel trailers. Being together to establish our priorities and renew our commitments to each other and our community is just the antidote we need.
Once again, thinking globally and acting locally where we really do make a difference. Keeping our heads up all!
My wife and I came out to her parents this morning. My mother in law called and talked with my mom after that and it sounds like they had a wonderful talk. When I talked with my mother about it she made a reference to me as her daughter for the first time. She hasn't been taking the news well, so that was an amazing step.
Then, mom sent a photo of me to my mother in law and told me that I looked good in the picture. I sent her the one that is my avatar since it is more recent and I now have bangs. She said that was even better. Today seems to be a turning point!
A little girls night out with a couple of other members here.
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I went to the shopping mall today and tried on some fab clothes. Check out my Instagram
Www.instagram.com/joannefeliz (http://www.instagram.com/joannefeliz) had fun shopping.
Aside that when I was in the mall I decided to go and get some food. I was wearing cool green tartan trousers and a black silk ladies collarless shirt. It doesn't look overtly feminine and a man can pull it off it think. Anyhow I don't think I was looking girly at all(check the pics and let me know if I look like a girl). I mean I think I look obviously like a guy.
I went into a restaurant and I went to the counter to get order a pizza and the waiter said what can I get you madam. It really surprised me as I start to wonder how others see me. So I said in an obviously male voice I'll order Ina bit after I looked at the menu.
So I ordered my food and was eating away, I noticed a family struggling with some plastic cutlery so I put my hand up to catch the waiters attention and he said quite loud how can I help you madam. I don't remember if that was the same person or if he was mocking me because I don't really look like a girl. I'm confused now.
Anyway it made me happy even though he may have mocked me or just tried to be nice I really don't know.
I also went into the Mac store to mess around with some makeup lol.
Making cookies with my fiancé Jamie <3
I discovered a bump behind my nipples after almost 3 months the on hrt. I guess I know what that means is starting :)
Good news today on the appeal of my health insurance company denying coverage of my genital electrolysis. My appeal was granted and they have agreed to reimburse me for the costs I paid out of pocket for the electrolysis. The procedure is covered by my health insurance and there really was no basis for them to deny the coverage. Maybe my contacting the state department responsible for regulating health insurance companies had something to do with it. Hopefully I will be seeing a check in the next few weeks and I can pay down the credit card I used to pay for part of my GCS.
Got my NOH today in the mail. I have my Name Change Hearing on 8 Dec. Yay :D
Yay!! Congrats girl ❤️
Quote from: Jessika on November 12, 2016, 07:29:32 PM
Got my NOH today in the mail. I have my Name Change Hearing on 8 Dec. Yay :D
I got new calf length high heeled boots from Macy's on sale, very comfortable.
Had laser hair removal on face, I think it is number eight and also had my brows waxed, well worth doing.
I was picking something up at the post office today and I was talking to the guy behind the counter, the woman at the next counter kept referring to me as a she and ma'am even though she heard me speak but she did see my name and as it is already a mostly female name, maybe she either went with it, or I am blind to how others see me, either way, it made my day.
The fact that I finally conquered this Treacherous Trans Trail I climbed: SRS, electrolysis, voice training and last week reached my personal peak: FFS. Took me 8 years, and I can say I am done. Proud of myself, proud that I was able to muster the strength not to give up. Been close to suicide twice. But I am staying, because I am a die-hard!
We made cider donuts last night.
Omg I'd never before had a homemade donut, total mouthgasm!
Waking up with my girlfriend ❤️
We got 86'd out of Wally-World yesterday! Because the top I had on was too thin and was showing too much breast!
It feels so good to be noticed!
Quote from: Jin on November 14, 2016, 09:33:41 AM
We got 86'd out of Wally-World yesterday! Because the top I had on was too thin and was showing too much breast!
It feels so good to be noticed!
I now respect you to the absolute maximum! [emoji12]
It takes a lot to get thrown out of Wally-World for a dress code violation. There are some amazingly badly dressed patrons of that establishment at times.........
Quote from: Jin on November 14, 2016, 09:33:41 AM
We got 86'd out of Wally-World yesterday! Because the top I had on was too thin and was showing too much breast!
It feels so good to be noticed!
Electrolysis! No, really. And not because I'm some sort of S&M enthusiast. I happen to really like my electrolyst, and I need to make some progress on this hair. Desperately!
So, I saw my friend, got zapped for a couple hours, and now I'm sitting here, face stinging, ice on hand, and feeling quite happy.
Weird, huh?
Yes Michelle, that is really twisted and I can so much relate! Facial hair is such a big part of my sense of ease in being out and about. I can handle bad hair days or have coffee spilled on a favorite blouse or skirt, no problem, when the beard starts to make its appearance, not the same story. Just 6 or 8 more months to get through, yay!
Anne
Lots made me happy today. I had a great Dr's appointment and my Dr upped my estradiol and spiro. Then I had a very productive therapy appointment about working through some family issues. After that I saw my electrolysist and she said my boobs looked bigger :)
My bus this morning was running ahead of schedule and as I was sprinting on my bike to get to it before he left the stop he saw me in the mirror and stayed stopped, signalling me to get on.
That 30 seconds he waited will mean I'm at my weekly therapy appointment on time, maybe even with time for coffee before as opposed to 5-10 minutes late.
Also a recent conversation with said therapist, we were talking about the (very few) things I will miss in the change from M to F and one of those is producing ejaculate (which ship already mostly sailed due to estrogen). She had just stated how important to me it must be and I replied along the lines that sure, but the main thing is orgasm and as long as that's workable the details are "icing on the cake". She saw the implicit pun at the same time I did and we both laughed. I love my pshrink, it's not every day one shares a ribald joke with one's therapist (and this is certainly not our norm), I'm glad she's the one I found. I'm usually a bit too serious about life and levity is a great element to introduce.
I went in for my HRT check up and my doctor brought up gender marker changes. She thought it best to get it done before Trump takes office. She's writing up the letters for both social security and my driver's license now.
I'm so looking forward to that F on my ID!
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Quote from: Brooke on November 15, 2016, 05:19:33 PM
I went in for my HRT check up and my doctor brought up gender marker changes. She thought it best to get it done before Trump takes office. She's writing up the letters for both social security and my driver's license now.
I'm so looking forward to that F on my ID!
Good doctor! And a task to get done ASAP! Congratulations.
Quote from: Michelle_P on November 15, 2016, 05:25:29 PM
Good doctor! And a task to get done ASAP! Congratulations.
Much agreed on both notes. And Thanks!
Without talking about it, my Therapist asked when I want to start HRT :-) totally out of the blue. Happiness here I come...
Submitted my application for a passport within an F on it.
It was simple and sweet. Met a girlfriend for breakfast, shared life story updates with the waitress at the café that has never hesitated accepting me. Spent the next 3 or 4 hours wandering a local mall with my girlfriend, just walking, talking, a bit of shopping. I just love it when one of these days comes around....such a gift. Anne
My wife messaged me and asked if I wanted her to do my make up later tonight. Of course I said yes! She hasn't really done it much so it certainly made my day.
Had my follow up appointment for hormones and I am now on estrogen patches!
Complete strangers helped me out with the money to get my passport with the correct gender on it. Now I'm waiting on my Dr. to write me a letter.
I made a buddy here on Susans.org today!
I got letters for my legal gender/name change today, and my therapist is putting in referrals to get my electrolysis covered and for a tracheal shave. :D
Mix in the realization in therapy last night and this morning that I'm free, really free to be myself for the first time in over 50 years, and, well, damn, but I'm having a good day!
Off to the courthouse in the morning to see a clerk about a filing...
Loving my new look. <3
I got married yesterday! :)
But I had to do it in guy mode. :(
Though I'm out to my family, friends and at work, her family doesn't know yet.
I'm more Gender Fluid at this point in my transition, than anything else.
BUT we're HAPPY!!!!
Quote from: KarynMcD on November 18, 2016, 11:04:42 AM
I got married yesterday! :)
But I had to do it in guy mode. :(
Though I'm out to my family, friends and at work, her family doesn't know yet.
I'm more Gender Fluid at this point in my transition, than anything else.
BUT we're HAPPY!!!!
Congrats!!! i hope you guys are together and happy for a long time
Two things made me smile today:
1)
Quote from: KarynMcD on November 18, 2016, 11:04:42 AM
I got married yesterday! :)
OMG-That's totally awesome.
2) My nipples are sore, I'm getting small buds behind them and while working in the yard I was resting my chest against my leg and could feel what I think is breast development. I'm psyched!
Quote from: KarynMcD on November 18, 2016, 11:04:42 AM
I got married yesterday! :)
But I had to do it in guy mode. :(
Though I'm out to my family, friends and at work, her family doesn't know yet.
I'm more Gender Fluid at this point in my transition, than anything else.
BUT we're HAPPY!!!!
Many Congrats Karyn!!!! I like the HAPPY part!!!! :)!!!!! Just got married myself in September and life is AWESOME!!!!
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
End of my first full day at transition levels of E2. Was a little nervous that I was prescribed sublingual estrace. I'm not nervous anymore. I honestly don't think I've ever felt this good in my entire life. Feels like my brain is having a bubble bath with lavender and rose petals...
I'm beyond amazed.
ps:
Grats on the marriage!!!
Anticipating Dec 8th for my name Change. Days are slowing down. LOL ;)
Found out that my insurance company is going to reimburse me the full amount of my GCS. My doctor does not accept insurance so I had to pay out of pocket in advance. My EOB (explanation of benefits) indicates that they are covering the whole cost. So my total out of pocket for GCS in Los Angeles with a six day hospital stay is going to only be about $1,400.
This is a complete surprize to me because I went with an out of network doctor and I expected that I was going to have to cover the majority of the cost as an out of pocket expense. This is a really wonderful and unexpected result.
Watching some documentaries, curled up on the couch. with some hot tea, enjoying a day without any pain and discomfort from surgery. Life is great, it does get better.
Going for a walk along the ocean on a gorgeous morning with a couple friends from one of my womens social Meetup groups and being just another one of the gals.... Life is good!!!
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Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
A long-time friend told me that I probably wouldn't need FFS because I have a beautiful "face frame." Can't lie; it made me blush a little. Only time will tell, though, so I won't hold my breath, but it made the rest of my day, for sure. ;D
I took an equivalency test for university a few weeks ago and got my results in the mail today.. and I managed to exceed the marks required for my degree!
Onward to university at 29! ;D
Quote from: Jessika on November 12, 2016, 07:29:32 PM
Got my NOH today in the mail. I have my Name Change Hearing on 8 Dec. Yay :D
Yay congrats
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After more than 2 years on HRT, my girls finally reached a B cup recently, and I can still feel the wonderful tingling of active growth. Thank you, progesterone, for giving them another chance at life. I also got a couple of interested looks within the last 24 hours, as opposed to the disgusted looks I have become so accustomed to, so I think people are noticing my changes. :)
I bought my first pairs of panties and PJ bottoms yesterday.
Quote from: Alora on November 24, 2016, 08:54:33 AM
I bought my first pairs of panties and PJ bottoms yesterday.
Nice! How did you sleep last night?
Today is Thanksgiving in the US. My 24yo son was home so the three of us had too much to eat for dinner and good conversation. No politics talk (2:1 but I won't say who or which way, it could have gotten ugly), no trans talk (didn't expect any) just a great meal for three. And lots of left overs :).
Quote from: Denise on November 24, 2016, 04:19:19 PM
Nice! How did you sleep last night?
Today is Thanksgiving in the US. My 24yo son was home so the three of us had too much to eat for dinner and good conversation. No politics talk (2:1 but I won't say who or which way, it could have gotten ugly), no trans talk (didn't expect any) just a great meal for three. And lots of left overs :).
OMG best night sleep I've had in 18 yrs. I woke up so refreshed and free. I actually felt comfortable enough to go to a transgiving in my area and had the best time. I met a bunch of new people. Sharing my store was so easy and freeing. So many hugs!!!
Thanks for checking in with me Denise.
Loves 💋❤️💋
I had dinner with a hundred or so warm, accepting, and friendly people. It was a very nice experience.
So I have spoken to my ex-step-mom in forever. Years ago she had sent me a reconciliation letter for the way she had treated me when she was getting ready to leave my dad for the second time. At the time, I never really replied to but I accepted her her friend request on facebook. The last time we spoke was 4 yrs ago. Accept for a happy birthday message last year.
Well, tonight I felt it was a good night to come out to a family member. I wasn't ready to tell my immediate family, but my former stepmother had been a part of my family for almost 10 years and still kept in touch. I started off wishing her a happy thanksgiving and then asked her if she wouldn't mind readying something. She said sure, so I sent her my coming out letter.
Her response back was incredible. We sent emails back and forth and she is accepting of the whole me. She a nurse now, and if we can continue to rebuild she is going to be an amazing woman to have in my support network.
I really want to this amazing event.
Loves and hugs 💋❤️💋
After just 8 days on estrogen, I noticed a slight puffiness to my nipples when I was showering. Later in the day, I started to become "aware" of my nipples. Not anything major, just an awareness that they were there. That has continued into this new day. I was not expecting that so soon, but I am really happy that it has started!
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
Quote from: archlord on November 26, 2016, 05:41:37 AM
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
I'm so happy for you!! :D
Yay, Congrats. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: archlord on November 26, 2016, 05:41:37 AM
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
Quote from: archlord on November 26, 2016, 05:41:37 AM
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
I'm so happy for you also! :D
Quote from: archlord on November 26, 2016, 05:41:37 AM
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
Congrats Archlord!!!... I actually woke up from the anesthesia giggling in the recovery room with just that thought in mind....
Onward we go!
Ashley :)
It took 6 months but finally I received my tax returns today.
Quote from: Alora on November 24, 2016, 08:54:33 AM
I bought my first pairs of panties and PJ bottoms yesterday.
These are the most scarying, exciting and perhaps the most important steps in transition :D
When all is so fresh, your decision so clear in your head and ever little step you take making you just that happier :)
Go for it!
Been a while as I struggle continually with how I feel.
I have been off E for a few months but know I need it more than ever.
Scared silly and alone but got some clarity.
Quote from: Fresas con Nata on November 26, 2016, 04:04:26 PM
It took 6 months but finally I received my tax returns today.
Getting over, under, around, or through the IRS is a major accomplishment. Congratulations!
Quote from: Jenny07 on November 27, 2016, 05:58:40 AM
Been a while as I struggle continually with how I feel.
I have been off E for a few months but know I need it more than ever.
Scared silly and alone but got some clarity.
Nice to have you back here
Quote from: archlord on November 26, 2016, 05:41:37 AM
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
Yay! Welcome to the club! We will let you know about the secret handshake shortly 😏
Great talk and openness with my wife yesterday and Even went shopping and had a great time. she bought some stuff, I didn't.
Bought six laser sessions for full face yesterday. ( Groupon ! )
Things moving forward!
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I had electrolysis today, and tried something a little different. I've had red patches and little infected spots, electrolysis zits, after previous recent sessions. This time, before I left home I wiped down my skin with chlorhexidine gluconate 4% solution, a common presurgery skin cleaner, then put on my lidocaine gel (greencaine 4%) and topped with the usual plastic wrap to avoid evaporation.
Jodie wipes this off before starting, of course, but leaves it "in the pores" for my session. This helps.
Afterward I cleaned up, shaving with an electric razor instead of my usual blade. Not as close but it doesn't nick the hundreds of little raised spots. Then I tried witch hazel as an astringent, and an aloe vera gel on the irritated skin.
I still look bee-stung, but nowhere near as red as after previous sessions. That makes me happy.
Then, I went for my walk, about three miles in our downtown area. Without makeup, for once following instructions to see if that helps. I only attracted unusual looks twice that I noticed, both from older men who were checking me out until they got to the face. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fuploads.tapatalk-cdn.com%2F20161129%2F61e0a2c35af2e32b5b013cbcb3965eec.jpg&hash=041ce94e25ab9738616e9c816c744f4b7deb0ebc)
Yeah, me sans makeup is not particularly passable yet. [emoji23] Maybe another year and a couple surgeries will help.
Still, my mannerisms, movement, and dress are getting better. That also makes me happy.
(Girl, when will you learn to write SHORT posts? Terseness is not a skill I have.)
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My wife and I have just spent the day in Santa Fe, a favorite town for us to visit. Between the restaurants and jewelry shopping we were exhausted. The part of the day that really rang my happy bells is the conversations with people in town. I won't pretend to assume I pass, not up close in conversation. But today has been all about being fully accepted and welcomed. For me, that is as good as it can get. - Anne
Last night I came out to my FaceBook world and this morning was greeted by nearly 80 likes and countless beautiful comments!
This week I realized that I need new body awareness because I'm unexpectedly running into things with my breasts - doorways, tools, etc.
It was surprising to simply realize something this basic changes me in ways I'd not expected.
My partner and I are going to a couple of Xmas parties over the next two weeks. On Black Friday, I bought my first dress! Really pretty. Actually my partner (wife) picked it out for me. Now I have to find a new bra because my present one shows too much under the arms. This could be a challenge.
Quote from: SadieBlake on November 29, 2016, 08:41:00 AM
This week I realized that I need new body awareness because I'm unexpectedly running into things with my breasts - doorways, tools, etc.
It was surprising to simply realize something this basic changes me in ways I'd not expected.
Just wait for the skin to get thinner and therefore more sensitive.. You'll get the aforementioned body awareness soon enough, since you'll be hurting yourself much more than before.
Quote from: archlord on November 26, 2016, 05:41:37 AM
Waking up and realizing that this wasn't a dream . I really have a vagina now ! :D
Congrats! That's wonderful. :) I can't wait to be at that point, someday.
Getting up this morning, getting my cup of coffee while looking at the calendar and realizing that 1 week from today is my Name Change Hearing.....
OMG....what to wear??? :o
I just got my appointment dates for HRT: three weekly appointments starting Jan 3rd. So, I should be on HRT in 48 days. :D Woo-hoo! There'd better not be any blizzards on those days or I'm going to be pissed.
I walked 1.2 miles tonight. It felt so good. I had I think 15 days if no walking and 13 days of bed rest.
I was on bedrest till Monday then it rained Tuesday and Wednesday
Not specifically today because this is a slow process but I'm happy that minoxidil (3 months) and finasteride (2 months) appear to be doing their thing.
Finally getting rid of my old male wardrobe this morning which was in boxes down in my basement.Donated it all and glad it is gone.Getting my hair done as well yesterday,love my shoulder length bob cut now.My mom was with me when this happened and said it looked good.My girlfriend even likes it.
The delivery guy said thanks Mam. No makeup on :)
I spent several hours at the UU church, for services, coffee hour, and the "minister's salon", a discussion group. I chatted with a dozen people, about everything from walking activity, iPhones, moving and downsizing, to political economics.
Not once did anyone bring up anything transgender with me. :D I was just another person having pleasant conversations with folks. :angel:
Quote from: Michelle_P on December 04, 2016, 07:16:33 PM
I spent several hours at the UU church, for services, coffee hour, and the "minister's salon", a discussion group. I chatted with a dozen people, about everything from walking activity, iPhones, moving and downsizing, to political economics.
Not once did anyone bring up anything transgender with me. :D I was just another person having pleasant conversations with folks. :angel:
The Unitarian Univeralists I have known have always been very accepting of LGBTQ folks and our local groups have been welcoming, inclusive and had presentations from our local Gender Alliance. Nice to have their support!
Today is a day of three firsts. Tried on a bikini this morning. I liked it, but I need a little more.... Upstairs before I'm ready, so i got a tankini.
About to get my first mani-pedi (I'm in the parking lot for an appointment in 15 minutes.)
Then I'll be 100% Dee while checking into the hotel. Let's see how well the Hilton reception desk is trained for this. 😉
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My mother is being much more understanding and talkative about my whole situation! :)
It was really bad at the start.
I had a lady come up to speak to me. She says "Excuse me, Ma'am..." We talked for a moment and she left. I go back to what I was doing. And after about a minute I realized that she never apologized for calling me ma'am. After she looked me right in my face and heard my voice, nothing had indicated maleness to her. It was an amazing moment! ;D
2 more days until my official Name Change...omg..omg..omg...Breathe! :D
Went to voice therapy this A.M. Doing well but somehow speaking in the 165hz 175hz range sounds phoney. At least during exercises. My voice cracks at anything higher. I have always had a monotone voice, so adjusting is being problematic right now. In fact I talked to my ex for the first time in thirty seven years and she knew immediately who it was. I am making progress though. Bought a sports bra as my breasts have grown to an unmanageable size. Not huge but definitely recognizable under my shirts.
My dinner. Ate a vegetarian meat dish. Delicious.
resolved an issue involving my Daughter and for the first time in nearly a month my first thought this morning wasn't "I hope she is OK today" such a relief
Liz
I spent yet another full day as Denise. It still feels right, but I'm self-conscience about it. Nobody give a lick, I just keep telling myself that. I had an impromptu Facial today. And the clinician thought I was 42 (I'm about to turn 55) so that made me feel good. I was wearing a "little too short for my age" white denim skirt, a nice black tank top with sandals. It was just a little "over the top" but not bad.
The tour and wine-tasting at Lakeside Winery, in Claremont FL (I recommend it - FREE) was with a group of about 15. I got a few stares but nothing overly annoying after the first few minutes. Time for jeans, heels, 3/4 length sleeves with some make-up and go to dinner and a club somewhere.
Quote from: ElizabethK on December 06, 2016, 03:56:23 PM
resolved an issue involving my Daughter and for the first time in nearly a month my first thought this morning wasn't "I hope she is OK today" such a relief
Liz
Oh. God bless you and your daughter! [emoji170]
I am glad things worked out Liz.
Seeing my youngest daughter come to terms with my transition finally today.Looked at me calling me Caitlynn for the first time saying I love you and we hugged.I have an older daughter that has been great with my transition
My wife helped me pick out some wigs! I'm so excited. She even agreed to going out to dinner together when they come in. ^-^
A conversation in the car with Randi...
R: Don't wear your flowered print skirt...
D: I wasn't going to I have two nice black party skirts, but I don't want to wear the pencil skirt, there's a "bulge".
R: It might work with the right top.
D: What I don't have is shoes.
R: what about your black flats?
What a nice, normal conversation, one I never expected to have with Randi when all of this started three years ago!
By the way, she also offered to loan me some jewelry.
Quote from: Jessika on December 06, 2016, 02:14:31 PM
2 more days until my official Name Change...omg..omg..omg...Breathe! :D
Good luck. It's today - right?
I finally learned the names of all the Thai consonants, including tones and all :)
My wife is still here. And she bought me roses after I had a small break down yesterday. So waking up to those.
3 weeks on estrogen makes me happy.
Spent the day doing three things:
1) Sat pool side in a woman's bathing suit.
2) Walked around Winter Park Florida in a skirt, flats, female top with your normal nods of acknowledgement as any one would as you pass by.
3) This is a big one - Ate dinner at an Hibachi style steak house seated next to the most awesome woman. She wanted to sit next to me to find out "why that woman is dining alone" She said it wasn't until a few minutes in to the meal that it dawned on her that I was not what I appeared to be. She said that I more than looked okay. She said that she had NO idea I wasn't a woman even following me to the table.
It's unfortunate she's married ;) as I did get her phone number (for other purposes) and it wasn't a BS number either, because I sent a test text that appeared as we were eating.
Looks like I can pass! I know there's some facial work I would like to do and I need to pierce my ears, but I feel like a million bucks right now.
Got all of my uniform gear for my deployment in January. ;D
Finally got to meet Cait tonight.
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Woke up this morning, looked in the mirror - TAN LINES front and back! :D
(okay, maybe a little burn, but I'll take it!)
I had dinner with my older daughter last night. She flew in from the US east coast for a holiday visit with family and friends in the area. I picked her up from the local transit terminal (which she took from the airport), and we tried a new veggie place, which she very much liked. Then I drover her up to my wife's place and dropped her off.
That was nice. Fully accepting, no issues there. She spotted me right away when she got off the train. ;)
Another happy thing... I doubled up on the estradiol last night after an endocrinology appointment yesterday. I slept like 9 hours straight. I hope that's a side effect and not coincidence, as I haven't slept well in a very long time.
Quote from: Denise on December 08, 2016, 06:56:21 AM
Good luck. It's today - right?
Hi,
I had the appointment but the Final Judgement is going to be mailed to me in 2-4 weeks. I was surprised, thought I would get it right then and there.
I raised my Right hand, swore to everything and I was out in 2 mins. It was the Magistrates Office and it was 1 on 1.
She told me I can not change my name anywhere until I get the final in the mail. Does that mean it was approved?
After two weeks I finally had a bm. Sometimes it's just little victories. I know this is kind of gross and I probably shouldn't have. ::) But doing this made me extremely happy because now I can skip a hospital visit.
Yes, but technically the force of law comes with the matter being "recorded" in some treasure trove others can find.
Congratulations!
Quote from: Jessika on December 09, 2016, 02:56:50 PM
She told me I can not change my name anywhere until I get the final in the mail. Does that mean it was approved?
Geez Dawn are we going to be those old woman celebrating a resolving bowl obstruction?? Many happy returns ;) ;D ;D
Quote from: DawnOday on December 09, 2016, 03:16:24 PM
After two weeks I finally had a bm. Sometimes it's just little victories. I know this is kind of gross and I probably shouldn't have. ::) But doing this made me extremely happy because now I can skip a hospital visit.
I finshed up my first quarter of school today. I'm pretty sure I'm walking away with a 3.7 or better in all my classes. And I had a therapy intake appointment today...
Thanks to you ladies and your encouragement I found the courage to walk into that appointment and came out knowing I'm not some crazy guy with a fetish, but I am actually suffering from gender dysphoria. I am euphoric right now. I can't wait to find out what kind of woman Alora is going to become. I'm nervous about the future and how to tell my family, but I don't have to worry about that right now. I'm just going to take it one day at a time and enjoy discovering who my real self is.
Thank you everyone for your support.
Loves 💋❤️💋
Quote from: Jessika on December 09, 2016, 02:56:50 PM
Hi,
I had the appointment but the Final Judgement is going to be mailed to me in 2-4 weeks. I was surprised, thought I would get it right then and there.
I raised my Right hand, swore to everything and I was out in 2 mins. It was the Magistrates Office and it was 1 on 1.
She told me I can not change my name anywhere until I get the final in the mail. Does that mean it was approved?
I would think so. Congratulations. I'm starting to see the day for me. Maybe 2018?
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Did a hundred things today as Denise including going through TSA. I think I caught only two or three people questioning my appearance, but I just smile and ignore them.
Oh another thing.... Using ladies restroom, check.
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Preparing to conduct a training session for my office's training division on transgender issues. There are at least 300 lawyers and law enforcement officers here for the training.
Sleeping in
Sunshine
Good music
Being ME!
Susan
Simply - I FEEL GREAT!
That's what's making me happy today.
Meeting up with a couple new friends in my life,Ashley and Cynthia.They are like me transgendered whom a year into their transition feeling they are really a woman.Met them on Friday and decided to meet up this morning.Told me their painful stories feeling unhappy as a man.Ashley and Cynthia are my age and glad to have them in my life understanding I am not alone on this
Quote from: Jessika on December 09, 2016, 02:56:50 PM
Hi,
I had the appointment but the Final Judgement is going to be mailed to me in 2-4 weeks. I was surprised, thought I would get it right then and there.
I raised my Right hand, swore to everything and I was out in 2 mins. It was the Magistrates Office and it was 1 on 1.
She told me I can not change my name anywhere until I get the final in the mail. Does that mean it was approved?
Yes, that means it's been approved! Congrats!
Deposited my check for the reimbursement of my surgeon's fee for GCS. Now to pay off the credit cards used to pay for it......
I love being home after a trip!!!!.... I was missing my little blind kitty!!!! ='.'=
My husband and I spent the last four days in Texas... We were stopping in all sorts of packed country dance halls, BBQ places, cities, music venues and airports... Never got a second look from anyone... Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
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Woke up this morning. Looked at my wife and said "Thanks for being here"
Quote from: tgirlamc on December 12, 2016, 10:01:42 AM
I love being home after a trip!!!!.... I was missing my little blind kitty!!!! ='.'=
My husband and I spent the last four days in Texas... We were stopping in all sorts of packed country dance halls, BBQ places, cities, music venues and airports... Never got a second look from anyone... Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
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Ashley, omg I would definitely look twice. You look amazing. Very cute!
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Quote from: Denise on December 12, 2016, 11:06:08 AM
Ashley, omg I would definitely look twice. You look amazing. Very cute!
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Thanks for the sweet words Denise!... I may have received some "good" second looks along the way!!! :) ... It is always hard for me to decipher what people are thinking when they look at me.
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
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Quote from: tgirlamc on December 12, 2016, 10:01:42 AM
I love being home after a trip!!!!.... I was missing my little blind kitty!!!! ='.'=
My husband and I spent the last four days in Texas... We were stopping in all sorts of packed country dance halls, BBQ places, cities, music venues and airports... Never got a second look from anyone... Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
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Looking Great Ashley :)
Our new coffee machine at work.... It even does latte-macchiatos!
I got a new winter coat today.
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The coat looks great!
In a week my second (new?) job is having a holiday party. Randi helped me figure out what to wear, told me I HAD to buy some new stuff (either a belt and leggings, or new boots) to make it work, and loaned me jewelry! So affirming!
(News about the job will be in a more appropriate thread.)
My friend, who I've known for 18 years, didn't recognize me as I was walking down a hallway to her until I was right next to her.
She told me she was thinking, "who's the new girl?"
My wigs finally came in. They look great but I can't wait to start HRT to soften my features. It was fun trying them on and I felt pretty good seeing myself with hair again. There's one more on its way and I think I'll like it the most, as it happens to be my natural hair color. ;D
I was practicing my voice earlier, and it was awesome! Well, not the voice, it needs a lot of work :D but just a whole new personality came through me, it was really nice. Not this stoic, beaten up voice that I have been using since my 20s.
I feel all tingly now just thinking about it.
LOVE IT!
Quote from: KarynMcD on December 14, 2016, 11:46:00 AM
My friend, who I've known for 18 years, didn't recognize me as I was walking down a hallway to her until I was right next to her.
She told me she was thinking, "who's the new girl?"
First Laser Hair removal yesterday and so far no ill effects. I have Vitiligo that has removed most of the color from my face and I was concerned of really bad things.
Also it wasn't painful like the Dr warned it would be. Uncomfortable at times, yes; painful, no.
I also had a therapist appointment yesterday - She said I looked/acted/sounded "Liberated." It's only taken 1 year but I'm finally totally (95%) at peace with myself. Now to just get my ears pierced.
I parked in a Member Services office at my HMO and got them to track down a trans-friendly primary doctor who was accepting new patients, now my doctor as well. A good start...
And this:
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My name is officially Jessika! So says my Court Order. Woot! ;D
Quote from: Jessika on December 15, 2016, 08:41:41 PM
My name is officially Jessika! So says my Court Order. Woot! ;D
Congrats girlfriend ❤️
After some hard times, featuring a torn muscle, my 5 year relation breaking up and one of my best friends dying, I finally felt HOPE and LUST for the future again!
Christmas is coming up and after that fat-fest is done, I'm gonna start thai-boxing to work on my waist-line and condition. Then, in 8 months: SRS!
In the words of another friend of mine: "I'll be prancing around in front of my mirror like the floating angel I was always meant to be"
:D
Quote from: I Am Jess on December 16, 2016, 02:18:47 AM
Congrats girlfriend ❤️
Thank you. It feels great.
Now to change all documents elsewhere. Will keep me busy. :)
*hugs*
Jess
Congrats! Feels so good, doesn't it! Yes, you will be busy! It always amazes me how many documents have to be changed.
Quote from: KarynMcD on December 14, 2016, 11:46:00 AM
My friend, who I've known for 18 years, didn't recognize me as I was walking down a hallway to her until I was right next to her.
She told me she was thinking, "who's the new girl?"
wiehee how cool is that! Congrats :D
Wife bought me some panties. It's the little things. :)
I got mammed a handful of times at work and then realized that no one sirs me unless I have my namebadge on! [emoji2]
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Saw my best friend do some great comedy at a night headlined by an amazing and wonderfully queer band. The singer was so fabulous and inspiring!
Starting to feel like my bra is actually holding something plus "the girls" are getting very sensative.
Yesterday morning, my wife said she needed new bras. I said why don't you borrow one of mine. She had a look through my collection and found one that fitted her and she was surprised at how comfortable it was.
When I got home from golf and got fully dressed, she looked at my lipstick and loved the colour. She disappeared and came back wearing it as well, then she let me kiss her on the lips and this really made my day as I am normally not allowed to be affectionate with her when dressed. [emoji1]
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My wife made a comment about me growing boobs in the future, it was completely positive, and it just made my day. I am so incredibly fortunate, to have her in my life. Please do not mistake this for bragging, I just am amazed, she is so supportive, and to me this shows how much our relationship goes beyond my gender. She loves me, for being me, she is so amazing!
Brought my wife flowers and she asked if she needs to get me flowers in the future. Such a nice gesture of her...
Quote from: Yuusui on December 17, 2016, 10:13:47 AM
Starting to feel like my bra is actually holding something plus "the girls" are getting very sensative.
I Agree! After 6 weeks I'm actually seeing real growth. The "lump" is up to about the size of a large walnut. However when I'm out as Denise I typically wear a B cup (they are a little roomy) as a guide strangers see that I'm a girl. It has worked so far.
But for today - I got Ma'am'd from a front on view. AND American Express is sending me a card with the name Denise. Another day I would like to store in "the bank" when I need one.
Got my breast in the mail today and took them for a spin. I've been having such a great time wearing them, and playing with them. I just wish they were real. That'll come soon enough.
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Forgot to post about it but this was last friday night, end of year staff party.
In guy mode got misgendered female by the older man opposite me. He is part of the directors of the company.
He was so shocked when a friend told him otherwise, he was all apologetic, and embarassed ha. I was glowing inside! :3 my friends at work don't know yet either.
I have been misgendered before in public or by waiters.
This was someone who had a good look before he made the mistake. :3
Sooo happy
I made myself feel good by making someone else feel good.
I was at work, serving a customer, when another customer walked in. I glanced up, saw a man, and said, "I'll be right with you sir" and finished what I was doing. When I went back to help him, I realized it was a Trans-man who I had just correctly gendered. He was beaming from ear to ear. Just the thought that his day was made better by me made my day better too.
Edit: He is a regular, but hadn't been in in a while. I knew him only as a female so the transition went very well.
One of the heels on my only pair of calf-high boots failed. Now, why does that make me happy? It got me to wobble into the Ecco store in our downtown shopping district, where I found a shoe sale. There was a pair of Gore-Tex boots with the same solid walking sole that was on my last pair of Ecco shoes that I had walked all over Europe and Eastern Canada in. I don't have those for obvious reasons, but the new pair I ordered make me happy already just thinking about it.
I'm not worried about the fit. The shoes are very standardized and shouldn't be any problem. They'll exchange on the spot if there is a problem.
New shoes! Goddess, I'm turning into a stereotype...
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You know, Michelle, the reason that they are stereotypes is that they are so much fun to do! And I can think of so many more fun things that living the way that I used to, so, if shoe shopping give some joy, relish it (I know that I will) - Anne
Reading the last few thread replies made me feel good!!!... There is so much more to life now for all of us... No substitute for a life that is, or is in the midst of becoming... finally your own!!! :)
Onward We Go Brave Sisters!!!
Ashley :)
When I looked in the mirror, rather than feeling a sense of shame in myself, I felt something really beautiful. A thought came across my mind, and it was so nice. We are unique, we are special, in a way most people will never understand, we are beautiful in such a way.
I don't want to come across as vain or narcissistic. It was just such a nice feeling, something I never really thought about before when looking into the eyes of my own reflection. Usually I feel depressed, but not this one time. It was a very serene feeling, it was acceptance of myself, it was appreciation of myself.
I have spent so many years just depressed about the way I am, depressed about not being born in the right body, and depressed because I thought I could never make it. Today was sort of a milestone, I hope I never forget it, no matter how bad it gets, I hope when I look in the mirror at the very least I will remember this day, when I saw a thing of beauty in my eyes deep into my soul. I think we all deserve that.
None of us deserve any shame at all. To me or speaking for myself I've always been female & proud of it. I would hate to feel any part of uggg male. My life has been tough since I'm older & in my teens there was no way back then for any hormone therapy even though my dear mother tried her best with lots of docs. She always knew I was a girl & happy for that. I'm happy even though my body will not be completely shapely & female. Also for me I consider myself a heterosexual woman that has always enjoyed men. Life is good girl friends. Have a great day, enjoy life.
Last week was a tough one, about an 8.5 on a scale of 1 to really bad, so when today came around my wife and I went out to breakfast at a nice café in town. Out of the blue, a woman, a total stranger, walked up to me and told me that I looked really beautiful, and merry Christmas.....yes, that fit the bill for making me happy today. - Anne
I have been wearing my false boobs for almost 72 hours. There was a brief moment of time last night when I had to take them off for about 3hrs early this morning because the sports bra I was wearing wasn't sitting right. I spent fell back to sleep but something felt off the rest of the night.
I woke up this morning and put them back on and I felt whole again. I can't believe I went this long without recognizing what was missing from my life.
I know I shouldn't... but I feel regret for not figuring it out sooner. I feel like I waisted some really good years.
I'm excited to see my therapist on Wednesday so I can share these feelings.
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Oh me I have so many nice women friends that know I was not physically not born their sister however all treat me as their 100% sister, that is so so nice. It's so nice to be a woman & a heterosexual woman. I have so much in common with almost every woman friend. Most are married but not all. It would sure be nice one day to find my prince & become his wife & to have a man to enjoy, trust & rely on. Happy dance.
Bought some makeup today, complete with a bunch of brushes and a bag to hold them all. Can't wait to try them on. :3
One of my clients was medically unavailable for our appointment yesterday, but her mom was there waiting with her for me. She wanted to have a short chat to see if I was good enough at my job for her daughter. We ended up talking about her daughter, my background, and how I do my job for two solid hours! She gave no indication that she knows I'm trans and said near the end that I'm the perfect person to be working with her child. She's a professional patient advocate and aide and she's seen it all so big, big validation for me!
Cool, Dee Marshall. I wish this system worked like FB.
Social Security Card updated yesterday. Woot!
Just waiting for it in the mail.
DMV tomorrow. :D
I wore my boobs at work yesterday, and while I was running around I noticed there was a bounce in my step. I was so nice feeling that little bounce on my chest.
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I asked a clerk about a senior discount (many places give a small discount for people over 55) and she said "there is no way you're over 55." Yay! Made my day!!
Received a Christmas card from a much older cousin (Grandmother had 18 kids , my mother was the last child so at 25 I'm one of the youngest children of those children) with my now legal name and completely surprised me as only a select few in my family even know about it due to not being close to many and many I don't exactly to react positively but I called my mother and she explained that she talked to her and to my surprised she wasn't shocked at all and told my mother that she suspected something of the like due to how I was as a child/teenager, well then! Haha
Wow, two posts in two days, neat! I met with my therapist today, she agreed that we have officially begun our path to WPATH approval for srs and she sees that the clock on my RLE began 2 months ago. With 2 months down and 10 to go, I am both really excited and beginning to get seriously scared but today is about celebration of another step. - Anne
I was able to donate to Susan's due to a windfall. Where would we be without Susan?
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Quote from: SueNZ on December 21, 2016, 03:16:29 AM
I was able to donate to Susan's due to a windfall. Where would we be without Susan?
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Sue and I were Skyping this morning and as ever worrying about money.
Thank you so much.
Cindy
Forum Admin
I went to rock climbing gym with daughters last night and for great Tibetan food after. I haven't climbed in a while and it was great to feel stronger than I'd expected.
The evening brought me out of the funk I've been in since a GCS scheduling snafu cropped up last week. Of course I'm back to worried about that and just hoping to have another big happy by the weekend.
Ever since I have been full time, I have always been properly gendered out and about in the world. Last night at a local knitting shop, it happened multiple times with the staff. It feels wonderful.
Got my new Drivers License today. Even the Gender marker is an "F". woohoo. :D
I'm looking at passport changes and confused at which form to use to get my Passport updated with name and gender.
So many listed, but none tell me exactly which. Anyone have an idea which form? DS-##
ty
Hi Jessika!!!...I just got mine finally updated... The form you use will depend on some variables such as if it is a new passport and you did not have one before... A name/ gender change to a current passport or a name gender change to one that is expired! .... Yup!!! Government paperwork is fun!!!!... Actually the website was pretty straightforward and I had no issues!!!... Good luck on your quest!!!!
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: Jessika on December 21, 2016, 04:43:05 PM
Got my new Drivers License today. Even the Gender marker is an "F". woohoo. :D
I'm looking at passport changes and confused at which form to use to get my Passport updated with name and gender.
So many listed, but none tell me exactly which. Anyone have an idea which form? DS-##
ty
Name and Gender changes (and initial application) have to be submitted on form DS-11. You also need to have an original doctors letter on letterhead.
Thanks girls,
I have DS-11 printed and ready to go. I'm going to wait until my SS Card comes in the mail so I can take it with me as proof. Should get it today or tomorrow. :)
A couple of days ago we opened some of our christmas gifts at home (hey it's hard to wait until the 25th :D). My bestie (who lives in my flat with her bf) gave me a lovely Swarovski bracelet and today I changed it for the one I really like:
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You wouldn't believe the feminising effect these bracelets have! I love it!
Two months ago I came out to my small section at work. Today I sent out a email to the rest of the department about me.
I almost cried from joy because of the messages of support I got back.
Quote from: Jessika on December 21, 2016, 04:43:05 PM
Got my new Drivers License today. Even the Gender marker is an "F". woohoo. :D
I'm looking at passport changes and confused at which form to use to get my Passport updated with name and gender.
So many listed, but none tell me exactly which. Anyone have an idea which form? DS-##
ty
The Oakland, CA Transgender Law Center publishes "ID, Please", a comprehensive guide to changing both California and Federal IDs. The back half is full of sample forms to guide you through the process.
They also have the "Quick Guide To Federal Documents " a bit less detailed version.
https://transgenderlawcenter.org/resources/id/id-please-quick-guide
Since you are changing both name and gender, you'll be submitting a DS-11 and supporting documents.
Read through those two publications, though. Lots of useful stuff in there.
Helping makes me happy. Especially with a skinny peppermint mocha. [emoji8] Also, just being out and about as myself full time for two months now. [emoji4]The grocery cashier just called me "Miss". Flattery will getcha anywhere...
All my neighbours came over for an evening of excessive food and drink, they all met Megan, most for the first time, and it was all fantastically normal 😊.
Quote from: I Am Jess on December 22, 2016, 12:44:27 AM
Name and Gender changes (and initial application) have to be submitted on form DS-11. You also need to have an original doctors letter on letterhead.
For some reason they returned all my supporting documents except my Doctor's letter... Oh well... In keeping more with the theme of the thread... I had a great run along the ocean on a gorgeous day and I feel pretty today!!! 😀
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley 😀
I have a date for SRS, Apr 26 with dr Wittenberg.
For the last week or so in my downtime at work I've been making rainbow colored bracelets from the discarded tethers/strings from earplugs. Thought about making one as a choker.
Started binging The 100 today. It's just the right kind of melodramatic for me.
I had a doctors appointment today at my local clinic. I was able to set up an appointment to meet with the prescribing doctor next week. I might be able to start HRT before the new year. [emoji16][emoji16]
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Quote from: SadieBlake on December 22, 2016, 07:47:23 PM
I have a date for SRS, Apr 23 with dr Wittenberg.
Congrats girlfriend! Let the countdown begin.....
So I had dinner with one of my dearest girlfriends tonight and we had the normal conversations about family and the holidays, then we started talking about how we were both looking forward to 2017. It was at this point that I opened up to her about some of the surgeries I have planned for this coming year. Now, I am a very private person, and do not ever talk about my past with anyone who did not know me before or during transition. I do not want to presume that people do not know I am trans, but I just kind of live my life and it is not normally something that comes up. But I really wanted to share with someone close to me how excited I am about my upcoming VFS in February. It is tough sometimes when you try to just be a girl but you want to share something important with someone who may not fully understand what it feels like to be trans.
Well as we spoke I told her about everything and how a mutual friend of ours is going with me to Seoul. And she was so thrilled and excited for me, that I started crying tears of joy. I must have looked like a wreck in the restaurant, but I really didn't care. I was so happy to share something this important with one of my dearest friends. Her love and support blew me away. I was so happy to share some of my life with her.
This truly made me a very happy girl today. :)
Oh My Gosh.
I think I just got the best Christmas present ever. I just spent the last 2 hours talking with my sister. During which time I came out to her. She was so accepting and in the end we were more open with each other then we have ever been.
We talked like real sister. She is even going to help me with learning how to do my makeup. We are going to have a bit of role reversal. She gets to be the big sister and teach me things I would have had to learn on my own then would have shared with her.
It's going to be so much fun. And she is totally cool about letting me continue to see my nieces and nephew.
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Before leaving for work tonight, as I handed her lunch, tea, and keys to her, my fiance told me I was a good housewife!
I couldn't be more proud.
I'm finally becoming convinced that Estrogen is feminising my face. It's not much, I still look annoyingly male, but I'm increasingly sure it's happening. I'm getting a slightly more feminine face shape. Woohoo! Long may it continue!
Also, my boobs are starting to hurt again, so fingers crossed I'll be getting some more growth too.
Finally had the guts to upload an avatar of myself here in all my hideous glory.
Today I had another appointment with my psychologist and he told me that I could perhaps start hormones in just two months from now! Just the idea that I'm almost there is making me ecstatic! :D
Completed a paracord belt I'm taking with me on deployment. That was tiring.
I also applied my makeup for the first time. Totally forgot to buy foundation and a brow brush. I felt so good. (•‿•)
Undergoing permanent ego death. I am delighted I have worked very hard for it going through enlightenment yesterday and becoming among a very small amount of people to achieve this allowing me to become loving to all.
I am so excited for what 2017 will bring me. 2017 is going to be an incredible year for me :)
My son is here for a visit. I'm spending the Christmas Eve ending hours with my mother in law and sister in law. Everyone has been wonderful and accepting. Some days I feel like my life is charmed.
I am happy. It's a wonderful feeling after half a century of, well, not.
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I got my new passport today, Rachel [.......] Female :)
It's late Christmas Day, and I'm home from my brunch at the UU church. The city is quiet. I needed to get out of the apartment and stretch my legs for a little while, so I am walking through downtown. I'm getting closer to a big plaza where the merchants have their huge tree lit for , well, nobody. They are all closed except for the poor Starbucks workers.
Suddenly I hear a blast of hard rock from what sounds like a live band. I turn the corner, and Chabad of Contra Costa is hosting a huge Chanukah party in front of the Christmas tree. Food, music, a hundred happy people. It's a wonderful and somehow magical sight, incongruous and appropriate at the same time!
I love it! [emoji178]
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On board a plane headed to New York City to spend a week with my new girlfriend. I have plans to meet up with a number of wonderful trans ladies. Merry Christmas everyone.
Have a great trip, Jess! I'll be 100 miles north, working.
:-D
Woke up breathing today. Fantastic start and now a quiet nights sleep (in my nightie)[emoji12][emoji12] merry Xmas.
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Squeeeeee!
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New shoes. Goddess, I'm turning into a stereotype!
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Quote from: Michelle_P on December 27, 2016, 06:04:07 PM
Squeeeeee!
New shoes. Goddess, I'm turning into a stereotype!
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Welcome to the club :-)
Nice shoes!
My Therapist waited till the last minute... got my HRT letter today :-) Endo appointment is next week...
Finally home from being stranded in Trenton after a severe multi vehicle pile up made travel home after Christmas impossible.. I'd have been losing my mind if my brother and his wife weren't with us in the hotel playing board games and watching awful movies!
I'm starting to experience Male Fail!!! The ear piercings I got last night probably help!
I wasn't even trying today and I got Ma'am'd at a department store.
Today I feel like I've never felt before. I thought I felt good last week...wow, today is that much better. Let's hope 2017 continues as 2016 appears to be ending.
Interesting NYE party tonight with people who don't know and my wife has asked I NOT make an announcement. Let's see who questions my androgynous appearance.
My MIL brought some clothes for my wife yesterday, they were all too big for her. Earlier, I tried on one of the shirts and it actually fit. You have to understand, my wife is a lot smaller than me, I never have anything that fits right - and when I try to put something on it is really tight and it depresses me a lot. It usually makes me look some huge body builder, and I just get discouraged.
This one shirt fit me though, it is not my style, but when I looked in the mirror I liked what I saw.
Dressing for me, has always been a bit hard. Due to lack of privacy, mostly. This really made my day though, now I want a full wardrobe, but I have so much weight to lose that I don't want to spend the money. In February we are going to get a treadmill and I am going to start jogging, and Tuesday we start on a negative calorie diet. I'm hoping to go from 220 to 160 by the end of 2017. I would also like to lose some muscle, three years of manual labor has done a number on my body.
But yeah, seeing myself in that shirt was awesome. I felt so right, I can't wait till I can get some more outfits that fit me.
Quote from: Denise on December 31, 2016, 05:27:29 PM
I'm starting to experience Male Fail!!! The ear piercings I got last night probably help!
I wasn't even trying today and I got Ma'am'd at a department store.
Today I feel like I've never felt before. I thought I felt good last week...wow, today is that much better. Let's hope 2017 continues as 2016 appears to be ending.
Interesting NYE party tonight with people who don't know and my wife has asked I NOT make an announcement. Let's see who questions my androgynous appearance.
I'm so happy for you Denise :) You rock it girl!
Out on New Years Eve, dancing with a large group, enjoying pot-luck, and having fun. As myself, of course. Black turtleneck and pencil skirt, black leggings, new boots. Silver necklace and bracelet. I'm all contrasts and shiny!
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Sunday, January first... The first estradiol shot of the year.
Going biking today then Denise is going to Chicago to play euchre. Anyone want to join? Tonight is beginner's night.
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Came out to my fellow moderators on a hobby discussion forum I belong to. Not only was the reaction 100% positive, but another long-time moderator revealed that she was also trans, many years post-transition. I am happy to recieve support from unexpected places.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
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Wife said she ordered something to help her get thicker lashes, then made the comment (compliment, really) that she doesn't have thick lashes like I do. I took it with a smile. :)
Met up with a co-worker tonight as Denise. She is the first from work to meet Dee. Afterwards she texted me saying in part "I clearly see that you are not a Dan." She also said that the earrings look great.
She's a wonderful friend.
A long hug from a close friend.
My dresser drawers are starting to look very feminine.
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Started HRT today :-) had a OBGYN appointment this morning who also specializes in HRT. Blood tests done, got prescription and already picked it up :-)
Congratz Sarah!! Enjoy the next step on your journey :)
-Sarah
On the way to my first HRT appointment, my wife and I stopped in a restaurant for lunch. We were addressed by the waitress as "ladies". And while I was visiting the (gender-neutral) washroom, she came back to clear my dishes and asked my wife if "she" (i.e. I) would like to keep "her" fork to finish the french fries. :D
Awesome! Congratulations! That is so cool and such a nice story...
Hope your appointment did go well :-)
Hugs
Quote from: KathyLauren on January 03, 2017, 03:00:59 PM
On the way to my first HRT appointment, my wife and I stopped in a restaurant for lunch. We were addressed by the waitress as "ladies". And while I was visiting the (gender-neutral) washroom, she came back to clear my dishes and asked my wife if "she" (i.e. I) would like to keep "her" fork to finish the french fries. :D
Congratulations, that sort of affirmation is so neat!
Today I found that for every jerk out there, there are many wonderful people.
An overenthusiastic fan of free speech had left me a message in spray paint on my new car. I got some of it off myself, but rather than damage the car's paint I tool it to a detailer near the regional transit station, then rode that to my medical appointment today. I picked the car up on the way back, and it was all clean and shiny, no trace of the unwanted communication. The gentleman behind the counter said, "No charge, ma'am. We're sorry this happened."
Wow. That was pretty neat of them, as I'm sure this wasn't a quick 5 minute job. I'm back home, very grateful and happy after the whole experience.
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Thats so nice Michelle, I can't believe someone would be sad enough to do that to someones car, based on something they cannot comprehend! Sado!!
But for the garage, well done :)
Michelle, so sorry this happened to you, at least you had a good outcome :)
About a year ago someone scratched "f*#k the police" on the hood of my BMW while I was at a fundraiser. That took a lot more to repair, and I am not even a cop.
Finally added horomones and progesterone to my 'diet' along with the testosterone blockers.
Quote from: Michelle_P on January 03, 2017, 06:34:05 PM
Congratulations, that sort of affirmation is so neat!
Today I found that for every jerk out there, there are many wonderful people.
An overenthusiastic fan of free speech had left me a message in spray paint on my new car. I got some of it off myself, but rather than damage the car's paint I tool it to a detailer near the regional transit station, then rode that to my medical appointment today. I picked the car up on the way back, and it was all clean and shiny, no trace of the unwanted communication. The gentleman behind the counter said, "No charge, ma'am. We're sorry this happened."
Wow. That was pretty neat of them, as I'm sure this wasn't a quick 5 minute job. I'm back home, very grateful and happy after the whole experience.
I'm still waiting for someone to decorate my vehicle at work, like carving my hardhat wasn't enough..
My petition to The Court for a name and gender marker change received preliminary approval this afternoon.
Time to order new checks and schedule some appointments. The DMV and Vital Records (birth certificate) paperwork is ready to go, awaiting the certified copies of the court order.
I'm gonna be a Real Girl just as soon as the judge sprinkles me with gavel dust![emoji7]
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Happy day Michelle!!! Congratz :)
Quote from: Michelle_P on January 04, 2017, 07:31:09 PM
My petition to The Court for a name and gender marker change received preliminary approval this afternoon.
Time to order new checks and schedule some appointments. The DMV and Vital Records (birth certificate) paperwork is ready to go, awaiting the certified copies of the court order.
I'm gonna be a Real Girl just as soon as the judge sprinkles me with gavel dust![emoji7]
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Social Security before DMV, at least that's how I had to do it in Massachusetts. SS needed Michael's ID to change Michael's records to Devlyn. First question they asked me at the registry was "Have you been to SS yet?" which I had. Congratulations!
Hugs, Devlyn
Congratulations, Michelle! That is awesome!
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on January 04, 2017, 07:43:11 PM
Social Security before DMV, at least that's how I had to do it in Massachusetts. SS needed Michael's ID to change Michael's records to Devlyn. First question they asked me at the registry was "Have you been to SS yet?" which I had. Congratulations!
Hugs, Devlyn
In New York they accepted the letter itself. I actually went to Social Security later.
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on January 04, 2017, 07:43:11 PM
Social Security before DMV, at least that's how I had to do it in Massachusetts. SS needed Michael's ID to change Michael's records to Devlyn. First question they asked me at the registry was "Have you been to SS yet?" which I had. Congratulations!
Thanks! Yup, the first appointment will be with the Social Security folks. I'll be carrying my copy of the
Program Operations Manual System RM 10212.200 Changing Numident Data for Reasons other than Name Change TN 5(06-13) so the person I get will have instructions handy on how, when, and why they must update the
sex field on the Numident. (A sex field? Is that how they do it on Star Trek? "Nurse Chapel! Activate the sex field!")
Next appointment is with the California DMV, where I simply provide the court order, the DL-329 as completed by the doctor to revise the gender marker, the DL-45 for the name change, along with lunch and a snack while queuing.
Meanwhile the Priority Mail envelope for Vital Records will be winging its way along with another certified copy of the court order, an original birth certificate copy, the form to 'correct' the birth certificate, and another doctor's letter.
Once I have the new birth certificate and new drivers license, neither of which hint at my old name or gender (Yay California!) Michelle applies for her very first shiny new passport, with no hints of her past in the paperwork because all the submitted documents have a consistent gender and name. Nope, no doctor's letter needed! (Double-checked with the Oakland Transgender Law Center.)
Wheee! I'm going to be busy, and probably a little giddy when not bureaucratically outraged.
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what made me happy is iam travelling and moving from here to another country!
Last time I talked with my psychologist he was very positive about my "social growth" in regards to my family, and this month I asked my father to come join me at my psychologist so that he can hopefully gain a better understanding of what it means to be transgender. The best part is... My psychologist said that after my dad visited, it would be a good time to start hormones! So... This might finally be it! I'm psyched, as it looks like after a year of sulking I might finally start my transition this year!
Took my first dose of spiro this morning. Now to see how that effects the development!
Congrats! I remember taking my first dose. I was flooded with emotion! I felt that I was finally able to start my physical change!
I've been on E for 7 weeks and have already seen positive changes. The spiro is the next bit. My doctor likes to ease into it. So far, so good.
Galyo, I hope you do get to start hormones soon, as you will feel physically and mentally knowing you are making progress.
My close friend, who has been on assignment for the last two years in Geneva, has returned!
I had just started HRT a few months before she left and now she comes back to me as a women.
;D
Quote from: Yuusui on January 06, 2017, 01:31:49 PM
I've been on E for 7 weeks and have already seen positive changes. The spiro is the next bit. My doctor likes to ease into it. So far, so good.
That's great. My doc did it the other way. Spiro for 2 months first. It took 3 days and I felt way better. 5-7 weeks into e injections I felt unbelievable.
I hope you enjoy your trip as much as I am.
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Oh My Gosh.... today at 6pm I took my first dose of HRT meds. I'm ecstatic! The next phase of my journey is beginning! [emoji16]
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How very fun and affirming to hear about so many of us starting HRT. I recall about 8 months of euphoria when a smile was my constant companion after starting HRT. I cannot know how much was the medication and how much was the essential sense of finally going publicly and privately in the right direction with my life.
All of you on this shared journey help make me happy today. Go girls!
Supportive friends - That's what made me happy today.
I, Denise, went to a dinner party with my wife and everyone there was openly supportive. Let's hope in private they are the same way. I suspect they will be.
Tomorrow I have laser treatment #2.
I had to pop into the office today(Saturday) to quickly do some things but I decided that I will go as myself for a change. Wore a warm skirt and pantyhose with high heel wedge boots as my stiletto boots wouldn't have been practical in the snow.
Of course being weekend nobody should be there besides the janitor(who doesn't know me personally) but it was still exciting as some of my co-workers are known to work on weekends. I'm glad I didn't chicken out in the end as nothing happened, just did my thing and I was out of there. And I really don't care that all the security cameras in the building saw me :)
Quote from: Lynne on January 14, 2017, 08:51:52 AM
I had to pop into the office today(Saturday) to quickly do some things but I decided that I will go as myself for a change. Wore a warm skirt and pantyhose with high heel wedge boots as my stiletto boots wouldn't have been practical in the snow.
Fun isn't it? I did the same a month ago.
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Quote from: Denise on January 14, 2017, 01:02:16 PM
Fun isn't it? I did the same a month ago.
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Yeah :) I sort of felt like a secret agent infiltrating the enemy's base with a stolen access card :D
Woo-hoo! I got my prescription for HRT. I'll be starting tomorrow! :D
I was supposed to have one more appointment next week. But the doc said that, in view of the long drive I have (1.5 hours each way) and the fact that it is January in Canada, why don't we combine this week's and next week's appointments into one? Fine with me! :)
So I'm done with the preliminaries. I have my prescription. I'll be visiting the pharmacy tomorrow to fill it. Then, it's transition, here I come!
While reviewing the lab report on my baseline blood levels, she said that she normally tells her patients to reduce their triglycerides (I think that's what it was. One of the cholesterol levels, anyway) to 2.0. She tells them that no one goes under 2.0 based on lifestyle alone. Well my level was 1.8! Bwah-ha-ha! She's going to have to revise her speil.
Congrats Kathy!! So happy for you. :)
Two more small steps, one fun and the other great. First off, I had my first male fail yesterday, fun but they must have been blind. Second, my sister, the only one in the family that I truly love, now calls me her sister, wow! - Anne
At dinner with my wife and inlaws, waitress called me ma'am and my mother inlaw called me be by new name without ever mentioning it to her.
My hair was down to my shoulders and I was very proud of it. Unfortunately the chemoradiotherapy stopped it growing and I lost a lot and now it is just below my ears. Recently I have noticed that the hair loss seems less.
I had my hair done today and my technician and stylist both said that I have new hair growth occurring!
I was very happy with that.
I am now burgundy with copper highlights, I think it is lovely!
Sounds great Cindy. Plus Burgundy w/ Copper highlights...fabulous!
I've been told that I have formal loan approval for the house I am purchasing (subject to the VA appraisal). The appraisal shouldn't be an issue because I am putting 25% down. The VA loan rate I have locked in is 3.375%. It looks like I may be able to close in a couple weeks maximum. I am astounded at how everything has fallen into place on this transaction. It hasn't even been 2 weeks since I made my offer and almost everything is complete. It was almost 7 years ago that I was forced out of my last house by my ex-wife. Her actions resulted in our losing almost $300,000 on that house and required me to rent for the last 7 years. It will be nice to finally be back in a place that is mine.
That's so awesome Jess, I'm so happy for you! Good luck to all the ladies starting HRT, yay!
I baked vegan get well scones for my girl friend who isn't well, baking brings me so much joy! X
Spending Money. No, seriously. I'm waiting on a SNAFU with anti-depressants to clear up, so I can get back my meds. A little retail therapy goes a long way.
>:-)
Though, if you'd asked my yesterday, it would be that I spoke to a very nice lady on Wednesday.. and (barring the unforeseen) I should be able to start HRT in three weeks. Eeeee!
Thats great new Mia, yay!
we lost our bout today, but I was with my friends... here is my bestie & I napping in the car on the ferry ride home, it made me smile:
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Oh, I also won MVP blocker, bringing my MVP count up to 8. I am kinda proud about that.
Hey ladies...
So I had the most emotional experience since starting HRT... I was talking to my sister and had a full on emotional breakdown...
So was seriously the most supportive sister anyone could ever ask for. To the outside world; I am more then happy to come out as being transgender. I am super supportive of the LGTBQ community, and will do what I can to show my support.
However, the one single most important person in my life, I am utterly afraid of coming out too... my mother.
We have such an awesome relationship right now I don't want to mess it up... However, I also want to be true to myself.
I expressed my concerns to my sister; and she was so supportive. Offered up so many words of encouragement. I haven't cried that hard since I was little. Honestly, I have never felt better, it was still such a new experience... wouldn't have traded it for the world.
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Alora, welcome to my life. I am a ball of emotions and I can tell you lately that when I spoke about being depressed about my voice at the end of last year, I would just melt into a pool of tears. Especially when I would talk about finding something that may help me improve it.
My emotions started unleashing after I started HRT. I guess I was always emotional before, but oh boy, was I ever so after I was on estrogen. I actually don't mind and I find it usually makes me feel better to let my emotions out.
Best wishes when you talk to your mom. <3
One last thing that made me happy yesterday, the drive to the peninsula for our bout:
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The Women's Marches from coast to coast and all over the world. Hope springs eternal as people stand up and march in solidarity
Going to my sisters and working out I can afford my own place, my niece and nephews where there and they know and no one treated me differently , but still in uncle mode not auntie just yet.
My girlfriend woke me up when she got home from work to tell me she bought me a box of really cool Sally Hansen 'Salon Effects' real nail polish strips to wear for the AFI concert in Feb just because <3
I spent another day painting my freshly remodeled bedroom, and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, finally!! Suddenly it has become real, and isn't a 'project' any more! ;D
It has been a lot of work, but it will be sooo nice when I am done, soo very feminine and sweet. I could be ready to move my bed and dressers in before the end of the month at the rate I am going, yay!! Gotta make new curtains, still, but I love to sew, so fun, fun...
But the best part will be having overnight company in such a personal space. Mmm, yes, yes, gotta keep my eyes on da prize!
:-) Missy
Just saw this http://m.americanrepertorytheater.org/m2/app.html?v=161102#tproduction/1137/trans-scripts
what is making me happy today...I am spending the day in Los Angeles :)
This has made me happy, scared and excited all at the same time. I just made an appointment with Dr. Meltzer to discuss SRS for the first of May.......my my but things seem to be speeding up! - Anne
During a conversation with one of my clients this morning she simply stated, "you're transgender". I never tell my clients that because I don't want to complicate the therapeutic relationship. I didn't quite know how to respond. I NEVER lie to clients so I either had to confirm it or remain mute. I decided that remaining mute could be just as destructive.
So, I confirmed her statement and gave her a little idea of current medical theory on what happens to us before birth.
Since that time this morning I've been puzzled by a great lack of dysphoria. Finally I realized that it's because my womanhood is self sustaining, unshakable. What someone else thinks is completely immaterial. Whether or not I "pass" is immaterial. I am who and what I am because it's true, not because others consent to it.
This makes me happy.
I came out to my boss today who took it well. I still have a hard time believing that they did not have any inkling of what was up.
This is what I looked like at work yesterday:
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Keep in mind I also walk around in three inch high heeled boots, wear makeup, wax my eyebrows and they know I am undergoing electrolysis so I do not know how much more obvious I could be.
It is nice to have that burden lifted.
One of the very few guy friends that I allow access to me from my past life and I exchanged some emails today on a burner email account that I just set up. He is always amazingly okay with me being female, even after me having been soooo different back in the days we ran together. Everybody else from that particular crowd think the person they knew passed away many years back, as part of my exit strategy from my past lives..
When I showed up at his door several years ago, I was already passing easily, and I looked nothing like he remembered. When I told him who I was, he hugged me and invited me inside, then I explained my life story to him, and he wept. A lot, and I knew I was right in telling him I was still alive, because my 'death' had grieved him, a lot, and seeing me 'alive' relieved him of that grief. Of course, my life story grieved him in a different way, but the genuine happiness he felt to see me again, so happy, so healthy, and sooo alive, well, that was priceless...
Well, I had 'lost' track of him again for the last two years as I had gone into 'deep stealth', and it was just so very nice to reconnect with him today, and to get caught up with him, and to hear about his life, and to share some precious moments in the present with him. Knowing that he has kept my secret, too, was the icing on the cake!
Yeah, it was pretty cool! Real friends find a way...
Missy
Quote from: Lilliana on January 24, 2017, 09:51:37 PM
I do not know how much more obvious I could be.
It's the tie.
Heck, I came in to work in a dress a few times and some of the men here still didn't realize until I told them.
Now I already had my ears pierced that I turned into large water drop plugs over the span of 20 years... I was at the mall today meeting someone to get my first Coach purse and decided I'd get body spray and lotion from Victoria Secrets but I'd also get my ears pierced with normal studs so I can do real earrings in the future. [emoji16][emoji16][emoji16]
This is one happy girl
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When into my fave store and went to get some nice bras but they were packed away for the new stock but found the new ones just as good and spend some more money, Love them as that are so comfy and the gals are always friendly,
Also I know what size I am there and dont have to try on 2-3 different sizes to get a nice fit, unlike other stores as I'm pretty sure one has changed there sizing..........
Cheers Tracy
When my girlfriend calls me Angela, instead of just my petnames/nicknames <3
That's so lovely Angela X
My breast have been really itchy lately, which as I understand it, that means breast growth!!!! Yea. I've also noticed my legs are getting softer and I'm falling in love with how my legs feel.
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On a similar note: My nipples hurt! Woo-hoo! :D
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That's so lovely Angela X
Yesterday at Ripleys Aquarium she was going to be my an 'Angela' mug at the gift shop >.<
I was shopping at the military commissary for groceries this afternoon and when I showed my old military ID to check out the cashier did a double take at the picture and for a couple of moments wouldn't believe it was me. Maybe it's about time to get that card updated.
It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.
André Gide, Autumn Leaves
My sisters here made me feel really good about myself. Enough said :)
I met with a personal stylist to help me find clothes for work. I got some great outfits, but I spent way too much! [emoji15]
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Today I enter the final week before I leave for VFS, which is making me ecstatic. But on top of that I spent two lovely, non-consecutive days in Los Angeles, the last one playing roller derby against some of the best banked track skaters in the world. I even scored a point, which is pretty good given that I am not a jammer (they score the points). I made a few new friends while I was there, and grew a few others.
I am about to step away from my sport for several months because of surgery. I have mixed feelings about this, I love playing it, but as I get older I am drawn towards the next thing in my life. I have had a good career in derby serving as a team captain and coach, making the All-Star team three times, and winning seven MVP awards. Last night I had a long conversation with a new friend, we known each other for a while but never just sat and talked. She opened my eyes into new possibilities in a post-derby life. I am looking more and more positively towards the future every day. This and my upcoming life changes are making me a very happy girl...
I just gave my mother my coming out letter. My wife was with me for support. I asked her to read it later, after we left. She agreed. So Yay! for coming out! My parents were the last people I needed to tell. I know there will be follow up conversations, but for now, I am out!!!
What a roller coaster of sad/bittersweet, emotional and joyful -I went though most of the whole thread and had a little cry by myself.. Thank you all for the ride <3. ..What made me happy today?
I was so happy with how I looked in the mirror this morning that I giggle-snorted. The sun has for once broken though the cold gloomy clouds and mists of Norwegian winter and I'm starting to really notice the effects of my HRT. Life is awesome!
ok, I will admit this happened last week Friday and not today.. but it still made me happy.
I had a real girly day, with my mother and my bff. We starting looking for my wedding dress. MY bff is a dress maker and she will be making my dress, but needed ideas as I had no idea what I wanted, so we looked at dresses and even tried a few on. That was first time I have tried on a wedding dress and it felt amazing and exciting, my mother even shed a tear when she saw me in the first one..
At the end of day, I knew what I wanted and now my bff is designing it.. I want an open back dress there will be straps on my back, that is tight to my hips with puffy long dress to my ankles. After dress window shopping, we all went for a neck massage..
Now all I its the search for the right shoes...
I had a blast, I love girly days and I loved the idea my mother was with me.
Quote from: Inarasarah on January 29, 2017, 06:18:45 PM
I am looking more and more positively towards the future every day. This and my upcoming life changes are making me a very happy girl...
I have had a rough day, and to be honest, seeing your optimism and joy for life, even in print, has made me happier than anything else in my life today. What a person says and does matters, even from afar..
Thank you, Sarah.
Quote from: MissGendered on January 30, 2017, 09:36:50 PM
I have had a rough day, and to be honest, seeing your optimism and joy for life, even in print, has made me happier than anything else in my life today. What a person says and does matters, even from afar..
Thank you, Sarah.
You are too sweet Missy, and you are more than welcome. I am sorry for your rough day, I know those happen. I get them. It is our friends that help lift us up and bring that little bit of joy into our lives. Just remember that we are all here for each other, and someone out there cares <3 :)
Many hugs to you...
-Sarah
I talked with my doc today... I get to start my higher dose of Estrogen today. A whole week early.
I've been on E for 3 weeks now and I am already noticing softer skin. And the start of some breast development.
I am absolutely in heaven.
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Chatting with somebody sweet and kind, and knowing that everything will be okay, for her, and for me, and that good dreams can follow bad days, and that love will conquer all, even the darkest of thoughts, yes, even those..
Happy to be a part of this crazy, mixed up world, yes, yes..
Missy
My wife and I went to this pop-up store for discounted, branded cosmetics. Very hard to disclose what you would like with throngs of people around. Left with new mascara, eye shadow, eyebrow pencil and fragrance.
Now to enjoy lots of evenings wearing with also some light mascara at work.
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Quote from: MissGendered on February 02, 2017, 01:14:34 AM
Chatting with somebody sweet and kind, and knowing that everything will be okay, for her, and for me, and that good dreams can follow bad days, and that love will conquer all, even the darkest of thoughts, yes, even those..
Happy to be a part of this crazy, mixed up world, yes, yes..
Missy
-Same- :)
Still on cloud 9 after the AFI concert.. <3
Had to rush out this morning after my ultrasound to buy the new album since waiting inline at the concert was just a nightmare. >.< They really were at the top of their game last night. even if the venue in general had AWFUL sound.
I was happy to see they played a good mix of their older and newer songs. (More than a few times I found myself turning to my girlfriend and gasping; 'oh (expletive)! That ones from (album name)!' Or just insanely giggling in my seat and clapping!)
Bucket list item, checked off. Would've been nice to meet the band and get their autographs..
Yesterday Randi sent me a text:
It was a picture of a purse, dark red, labeled "present for you". I'm using it today.
Being told I look "AbFab"... all smiles now... :)
After several really bad days of depression and anxiety, I woke up this morning, looked at myself in the mirror. My face hair is much thinner. I see a lot of white/greys but much few dark hairs. So that was a positive. I have lost a lot of upper body muscle. My arms are getting skinnier. My chest has reduced. I actually can see my lower rib outline when I stretch. I seem to have lost some belly fat. My shoulders are a bit bonier. Still have the trapezoid muscles. Hoping they shrink. Still have plenty of belly and back fat to loose. Somehow my weight is changing hardly any. Still at 203. :P Well better than I was.
Oh yeh I have boobs! Not big but going to be hard to hide in a tee shirt sooner rather than later. Bumped one working yesterday. OW did that ever hurt! ;)
Josie, I remember those days. You still have so much goodness and joy ahead of you. Such an incredible path you have at your feet. Relish these changes as you daily become who you are.
I also remember the bumping of the boobs, ouchies. Now my friends just use mine as pillows when the are sleepy...LOL :)
Getting off social media for a few hours...mostly Facebook. I'm tired of all the political crap, arguments in groups I belong to, and just over all media overload.
Today is first day in a long time I've not checked out my Facebook. Feels good.
Quote from: Nina_Ottawa on February 03, 2017, 07:06:11 AM
Getting off social media for a few hours...mostly Facebook. I'm tired of all the political crap, arguments in groups I belong to, and just over all media overload.
Today is first day in a long time I've not checked out my Facebook. Feels good.
I hear ya, sister!
I learned a few years ago, and still need an occasional education-booster, that for me, all that noise was not only triggering, but actually unnecessary. I have been FAR happier NOT knowing what people are saying and doing, especially family and 'friends'. Good for you! I feel it is often in our best interests to step away from that which does not nourish or nurture, in favor of experiencing real life things in our actual lives, things which we can actually impact, and improve, and be improved by, in the process...
I've been on FB less than 10 minutes this New Year, and that was to retrieve some photos. Enough is enough, lol..
:-) Missy
I am happy that I awoke happy this morning, at 8 am, after having gone to bed upset and triggered by trauma memories and a difficult interaction. I had just bought the first bottle of Melatonin in ages the other day, and I had one before bed, and slept like a baby straight through the night. For most of my life, I had horrible nightmares EVERY night, but I did the appropriate therapies, and the introspective work such therapies require, and I am very much healed and beyond that now. Still, any close brush with similar, unresolved issues in others can elicit fresh concerns, but happily, that did not happen last night. I had an awesome dream, slept very deeply, and I sprung out of bed an hour ago, joyful, and ready to work...
Life can be all it is cracked up to be. But we do have to do the work, and apply known principles, be courageously honest with ourselves, and be diligent in attending to our self-care and emotional needs.
Lovely day to be alive!!
Missy
Closed on my house and I am in the process of moving in.
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That is so wonderful Jess!!! Many Congrats!!!... A gorgeous house for a GORGEOUS woman!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
Congratulations, Jess! It looks beautiful.
Congrats Jess!!
Wow, Jess, your house looks gaw-jusss!!
Jellious, mhmm, simply jellious, lol..
:-) Congrats!
Missy
Thanks everyone. It feels really good to be a homeowner again after being forced out of the family home 7 years ago. This house I get to decorate the way I want it decorated.
Quote from: I Am Jess on February 03, 2017, 07:22:20 PM
Thanks everyone. It feels really good to be a homeowner again after being forced out of the family home 7 years ago. This house I get to decorate the way I want it decorated.
Wow jess that looks amazing!!
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I think I found my hair style today.
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Quote from: Alora on February 03, 2017, 08:36:57 PM
I think I found my hair style today.
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Alora,
Your smile says it all, baby!! Happy, happy, joy, joy!!
((HUG))
Missy
Agreed, Alora your smile is wonderful!!
Quote from: Inarasarah on February 03, 2017, 09:22:01 PM
Agreed, Alora your smile is wonderful!!
Thank you Missy and Sarah. I feel absolutely incredible. I feel so at home with this hair that I went to the grocery store and didn't even think twice. There was a min of apprehension, but I walked right in, and the first person I say was the security guard and I flashed him the biggest smile I had and he just smiled back at me.
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Quote from: Alora on February 03, 2017, 11:27:24 PM
Thank you Missy and Sarah. I feel absolutely incredible. I feel so at home with this hair that I went to the grocery store and didn't even think twice. There was a min of apprehension, but I walked right in, and the first person I say was the security guard and I flashed him the biggest smile I had and he just smiled back at me.
You go, girl! When you own it, they can't touch that, ya know?
Good job!!!
Missy
Welcome to your new life Alora!!!... Ahhh!.., The power of a good hair day!!!
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Life is good. Selling some property in a cold area of the country & moving back to Florida. I can't wait!!! New place & new friends soon.......Maybe lots of new women friends to shop with, cook with.....& maybe a new man or two to date in time. I would sure enjoy some new romance......Also hope to follow through with my GRS to enjoy a more complete life. Happy Dance but moving oh such fun, my last move I hope.
I will be traveling to Europe this Spring for 2 months to visit family and friends for the first time since I started transitioning and found an apartment for that time. Yesterday I told my "to be landlord" about me being trans and she was totally cool about it, asking what my preferred pronouns and name will be. I was totally stunned by this and never expected something like that.
It certainly made my weekend and I'm so glad I will be able to travel as my true self and not being forced to go there in male mode.
I guess it's now time to come out to a broader spectrum of friends and extended family as they otherwise will expect a guy to show up....
Hugs
-Jessica
Quote from: JessicaSondelli on February 04, 2017, 09:05:00 AM
I will be traveling to Europe this Spring for 2 months to visit family and friends for the first time since I started transitioning and found an apartment for that time. Yesterday I told my "to be landlord" about me being trans and she was totally cool about it, asking what my preferred pronouns and name will be. I was totally stunned by this and never expected something like that.
It certainly made my weekend and I'm so glad I will be able to travel as my true self and not being forced to go there in male mode.
I guess it's now time to come out to a broader spectrum of friends and extended family as they otherwise will expect a guy to show up....
Hugs
-Jessica
Well, cutie, I have no idea how you pass as a 'guy' anywhere you go, all I see is a gorgeous babe in your profile pics. Sometimes we are the last to see what is obvious to others, namely, that there isn't any guy left to show up anywhere..
Have a great trip, my guess is that had you not said anything to the landlord, all you would have gotten would have been 'ma'am, miss, she, her'...
:-) Missy
Quote from: MissGendered on February 04, 2017, 09:12:54 AM
Well, cutie, I have no idea how you pass as a 'guy' anywhere you go, all I see is a gorgeous babe in your profile pics. Sometimes we are the last to see what is obvious to others, namely, that there isn't any guy left to show up anywhere..
Have a great trip, my guess is that had you not said anything to the landlord, all you would have gotten would have been 'ma'am, miss, she, her'...
:-) Missy
OMG, you're too kind!!! Thank you so much for that :)
I still need to use my male name for official documents since I cannot change my passport as long as I don't have at least an orchiectomy done.... Stupid laws in my home country.... argh but I'm planning to get this done this year... bye bye balls... I mean peas.... the balls are long gone. lol
Going for a run on my favorite trails along the ocean on a beautiful morning.... I am truly blessed to live the life I want and to live it in this wonderful place filled with so much natural beauty... I have lived around here for a long time but have never stopped appreciating all this area has to offer :)
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
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Quote from: tgirlamc on February 04, 2017, 12:54:49 PM
Going for a run on my favorite trails along the ocean on a beautiful morning.... I am truly blessed to live the life I want and to live it in this wonderful place filled with so much natural beauty... I have lived around here for a long time but have never stopped appreciating all this area has to offer :)
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
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Wowza, such a gorgeous scene, enjoy!!!!! :-)
Ashley I love that trail. my run is through the woods. now i am kinda jealous.
Quote from: Inarasarah on February 04, 2017, 01:11:20 PM
Ashley I love that trail. my run is through the woods. now i am kinda jealous.
We have the best of both here!!! I go along the ocean and cut inland through the woods on the return loop!!! :)
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Two things made me extremely happy today, I got to try out some new makeup that I bought from IT Cosmetics and I loved it and I went shopping with my amazing wife and she found 3 tops, a pair of black leggings and some nice jewelry for me, all on clearance! She is awesome, helping me find my "look" and steering me in the right direction so I don't look like a guy in drag. My wife is a pretty amazing lady who is supporting my transition and decision to have GRS, 100%! Yes, she is sad, but she wants me to be happy and she knows that this is what I have wanted my entire life and it is finally going to happen. I love you , Maggie!!!
Krystina & Maggie 4 ever!!!
Congrats Krystina!!!... You chose wisely when it came to a loving person to share your life with!... A change like transition is a big rabbit to pull out of the hat and keep a marriage moving forward!... A testament to LOVE conquering all :)
There are amazing things ahead for both you and Maggie!!!
Onward we go brave sisters!!!
Ashley :)
Thank you Tgirlamc, I know I am very lucky and I thank God for my wonderful wife, everyday!
I thought I sounded something like Ron pearlman...but I just ended a 5 minute long phone conversation in which I was getting called Mam throughout! [emoji16]
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Quote from: Amanda_Combs on February 07, 2017, 12:08:32 PM
I thought I sounded something like Ron pearlman...but I just ended a 5 minute long phone conversation in which I was getting called Mam throughout! [emoji16]
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Yay!! What a lovely feeling, right? :-)
Missy
Got to wake up for the first time in my new house!
Being 1 day post op from VFS...
Silence is golden :)
Like Amanda, I got a nice jolt of affirmation today.
I was bummed out, from medical lab results that aren't great (Kidneys... Might be my diet, we'll see...). I decided to get out of the apartment and walk for a while, still in a sour mood. No idiot grin on my face to make the upper lip smaller and improve femininity.
I rounded a corner and spotted the gas and electric company customer service office, and had an idea. Let's see if I can correct my first name on the billing account. I walk up to the counter, and the clerk, looking pretty bored, asks what he can do for me. "I wanted to fix my first name on the account." I passed him the drivers license, and he looked up the account and saw the old first name. "Oh, sorry about that, ma'am." He fixed it, and asked if I needed anything else. "No, I just wanted to make sure the name was OK. Thank you!" "No problem, ma'am. Glad to fix it for you."
Wheee! (See, Sophia, I can play it straight. ;) ) Passing!
I finished my walk with a smile on my face.
Technically a few days ago, but I was having a cheeky smoke outside and heard a toddler ask her mum "What's that girl doing?"
I had dinner with a girl friend from 40 years ago. I warned her to keep an open mind when we set up the dinner. I walked in and she said "I knew it. I guessed right." She is the first one to have figured it out.
It is nice when waiters ask if "you ladies..."
Got lab results back. T=23 (hummmm not happy about that) but E=743(that one made me smile.)
My Doctor filled out the form in California for gender change (DL-329) on driver's license.
Since I am keeping my name, Lee, this is awesome.
The form is here:
https://www.dmv.ca.gov/portal/wcm/connect/683f91d7-5c27-4260-970e-c23139bb8e22/dl329.pdf?MOD=AJPERES
gender identification is:
female
Demeanor is:
female
Only a physician licensed in the United States can certify that gender identification is complete.
gender identification is:
Complete
Now for a trip to the DMV to file it and get a new picture.
I had my first hair-salon appointment since I started growing out my hair 14 months ago and got finally rid of that ugly gray hair. I literally feel like a newborn and this has been the best day of the year!
Love you all!
Jessica :)
Update: I just realized that tomorrow I will be on HRT for 11 months!!! Incredible how fast those 11 months flew by...
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Quote from: JessicaSondelli on February 07, 2017, 10:04:03 PM
I had my first hair-salon appointment since I started growing out my hair 14 months ago and got finally rid of that ugly gray hair. I literally feel like a newborn and this has been the best day of the year!
Love you all!
Jessica :)
Update: I just realized that tomorrow I will be on HRT for 11 months!!! Incredible how fast those 11 months flew by...
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Wow! That looks great! Nice color and styling choices. ;)
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You look amasing Jessica! Really classy!
My brother was off-grid for several days not answering his phone, today (on his birthday) I finally got him to open the door after being outside his apartment for 2 hours. Made him dinner, had cake with one candle for each of his years and have him his present. Could see a bit of that cheer returning -turned my worry to happy right away.
Hoping he'll be ok, and not cut me off again <3
Celebrating the 2 year traniversary of starting my transition journey by meeting my gender therapist for the first time. Here's the photo I posted on here (under my old user name) two years ago. I got a lot of not so great comments and someone even said it looked like I was going to a funeral.
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Here's my attempt to do a comparison shot of then and now it shows a little bit of the difference two years can make.
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Hello girl friends. Life is going pretty well for me. I'm selling some property & relocating to a small town in Florida to live a complete normal life. That will be great to continue enjoying being a woman, completing my GRS, just finally enjoying a complete life. I've sure had a long struggle since childhood. Starting over in a new town 100% as Francis Ann will be great. I so look forward to making new friends, both women & men. Maybe I can find a new man there, someone that really cares about me & a man that I can love & enjoy. Happy dance but very busy with completing the sale, packing, looking for a new nice cute little house.
Be happy, Frannie-Annie!
Quote from: Dee Marshall on February 09, 2017, 09:02:46 PM
Be happy, Frannie-Annie!
Thanks. I will. I've always loved being female since early childhood. Happy dance for a completely new place & town to just enjoy being a woman......my GRS finally will be so so nice....
So Sunday is my 1 year anniversary, and my mom saw me for the first time ever. She made it a short drop off of my medications, so I didn't show up to the house presenting in my feminine glory. She did text me later that night and told me that I looked nice. It made my day. :)
Quote from: Harley Quinn on February 10, 2017, 09:47:00 AM
So Sunday is my 1 year anniversary, and my mom saw me for the first time ever. She made it a short drop off of my medications, so I didn't show up to the house presenting in my feminine glory. She did text me later that night and told me that I looked nice. It made my day. :)
It is those little things that make a big impact.
My wife called me her trophy wife yesterday. As objectifying as it was, it made me happy. :icon_pelvic_thrust2:
It's amazing how much a little gesture can change your day. :)
Jiggle.
So the other day I wrote a note to my friend who is with me here in Seoul. I said, "Oh the things I go through to be a girl." Her response without missing a beat was, "You were always a girl." This brought a tear of joy to my eye and a smile to my heart. I know this deep down, but it means more when it comes from someone else.
Life is going pretty well for me I guess. I sure am thinking about having breast implants along with my GRS surgery. After almost 3 years of HRT my breasts are only a B cup. Nice full D cup breasts would sure be nice. I would sure have more self confidence in myself & my appearance. Buying new nice bra's would be nice. Shopping & trying on new clothes would be a lot more fun. And since I'm attracted to men I bet that would open more doors......I may do this. Happy Dance to enjoy being a woman, why not have some fun. No one has to know anything after I heal up from the surgeries, my little secret.
Today is Day 2 of my HRT! I am so happy to finally be doing what I have dreamed of for 40 years! Words cannot express my happiness! My amazing wife, Maggie was with me yesterday as I made my first trip into the real world as Krystina and it was absolutely amazing! I am extremely HAPPY!!!! ;D :D ;) :) :angel:
I had my first session with my 2nd therapist (for my last letter for GCS.) I already everything else done for my letter from my primary therapist who has a PHD and another from my HRT provider. After an 1½ hours with me today, she says she only needs to see me one more time (in 3 weeks) and will have happy to provide the 3rd letter for me. Plenty of time before the surgeon needs all the letter prior to the consult on April 11th :)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on February 11, 2017, 05:58:44 PM
I had my first session with my 2nd therapist (for my last letter for GCS.) I already everything else done for my letter from my primary therapist who has a PHD and another from my HRT provider. After an 1½ hours with me today, she says she only needs to see me one more time (in 3 weeks) and will have happy to provide the 3rd letter for me. Plenty of time before the surgeon needs all the letter prior to the consult on April 11th :)
OMG I'm so excited for you and completely jealous.. My GCS is so far away! Best of luck to you, I absolutely cannot wait until I am where you are now <3
Congrats Sydney!!!! Onward you go sister!!!
I stopped by to see some transgirl friends at my old support group today because one of them is moving to the other side of the country and I wanted to wish her well.... I hadn't seen many of them for almost a year and it felt good to reconnect!!!... We have a very small Trans community around here and we are all leading busy lives... It's easy to forget how great it feels to come together and check in.... Resolving to make sure that happens more!!!
Onward we go brave sisters!!!
Ashley :)
My new original birth certificate certified copies arrived today. They look completely identical to the original 1950's certificate, except for being printed on the new gravure printed paper, and having my real name and gender. Yay, California!
Not a clue that they are not the one filed back then for Mom by the hospital! No amendment date, no 'continued on page 2'. Incredible. It's like somebody went back in time and changed it. I'm staring at the two versions side by side. Just the name and gender corrected. Thank you, California DPH!
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After having dinner last night with my son and his girl friend I received two texts this morning.
son: Btw... you look like Mick Jagger in that outfit. (In hind-site, yeah he's right)
GF: You look fantastic and happy....I've been educating myself..I'm here to be supportive in any way. BTW, is it okay for me to call you Denise?
My son made me laugh.
His GF made me happy - She, get's it.
1) Today my wife told me she's done with mourning... She's willing to give us a chance. Considering her previous reactions, that's fantastic news. Future will tell...
2) Today I came out to my parents in a loooong e-mail. I expect a reaction in the upcoming days. Felt very nervous, but also so relieved...
Sarah
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on February 13, 2017, 01:13:25 PM
1) Today my wife told me she's done with mourning... She's willing to give us a chance. Considering her previous reactions, that's fantastic news. Future will tell...
2) Today I came out to my parents in a loooong e-mail. I expect a reaction in the upcoming days. Felt very nervous, but also so relieved...
Sarah
Such huge steps, I'm very nervous and excited for you! I hope all turns out for the best <3
Saturday was my one month on HRT. I didn't realize it when I started, the number 11 has always been kind of a lucky number, I started HRT Jan 11th and on Feb 11th I came out to my mother. Who is supportive and willing to learn about me and my transitioning.
I have been a super happy girl!!!
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Quote from: Floof on February 13, 2017, 02:55:55 PM
Such huge steps, I'm very nervous and excited for you! I hope all turns out for the best <3
Thanks Floof! That's very sweet! :)
Sarah
My sister just mailed me and insisted that she wanted to drive me on the 200mile round trip to the gender clinic.
No arguments, no buts, no excuses, she wants to be there for me as I begin my transition.
It was such a wonderful gesture of acceptance.
The inlaws started calling me by my new name without even asking or directly telling them what it is. Yay for Facebook. Now if they could only start with the pronouns...
Quote from: Yuusui on February 14, 2017, 08:24:24 AM
The inlaws started calling me by my new name without even asking or directly telling them what it is. Yay for Facebook. Now if they could only start with the pronouns...
That is awesome! Yea, the pronouns ...argh!
My sister, after flying 16 hours from Hong Kong, totally jet lag'd today has called me Dee or Denise and has not screwed up once all day. Introductions to new people and a lot of other times. She's awesome. I'm glad I'm taking her to a nice dinner tonight for Valentine's day.
Seeing a couple of the gals on this forum taking some real, positive steps in their lives. I'm so happy for them!
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Working tonight, from 8pm to... finish (2am? 5am?). Happy because it's well paid and I'm aggresively saving for surgeries. Also, bought another half bitcoin.
Being me.
That's what made me happy today and the other 737 days since I officially started my transition.....
Today I had a long, beautiful, peaceful drive to see my endocrinologist who upped my estradiol by 50% after asking, "are you sure? Your breasts will get bigger if you do."
Yes please, Dr. Leinung!
Actually sleeping in my own bed. While the hotel for the last 10 days was very swank, there is something to be said for curling up in your own cozy bed. :)
Valentine's dinner, duck breast with a sauce of bitter orange, artichokes and a lemon cake for dessert.
Also a good session with my therapist this morning.
Going to work at my friends store today really made me happy. Then the cherry on top was spending time with my boyfriend and cuddling. Today was a really great day. I love Valentine's Day.
Out with my wife for Valentine's Day and again last night made me very happy.
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Very nice to see you both so happy. Sweet trans scarf too ;)
I've been sitting on letter for a couple weeks for my coming out on social media. Last night after a little liquid courage, I posted the letter. I also changed my name and uploaded a new photo.
The out pouring of love and support was so over whelming. I cried so much last night. So many tears of joy and relief. I'm such a happy girl
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Quote from: Tessa James on February 16, 2017, 03:50:12 PM
Very nice to see you both so happy. Sweet trans scarf too ;)
Thanks! I knit the scarf myself. I needed a quick project and I love how it turned out.
I woke up and when I got online I ordered the pair of black heels I decided I didn't need last night. ;D
Hugs,
Jeanette
First appt with my new Electrolysis Tech..
She. Is. Awesome.
She pretty much full cleared my face in the hour appointment, shes cheaper, and she didnt MURDER my skin deliberately. I pretty much have about as much irritation as I did from 15 minutes with the last one! *giddy*
Most important of all, I CAN BOOK APPOINTMENTS TO MEET *MY* SCHEDULE AND NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND!
Seriously, I had to shake like a dog to remove all the hairs, I've never seen anything like it, she was like a LAWNMOWER.
Quote from: Alora on February 16, 2017, 04:45:32 PM
I've been sitting on letter for a couple weeks for my coming out on social media. Last night after a little liquid courage, I posted the letter. I also changed my name and uploaded a new photo.
The out pouring of love and support was so over whelming. I cried so much last night. So many tears of joy and relief. I'm such a happy girl
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Congratulations! So wonderful that people are behind you and supportive, going to be such a boost for your journey. Very happy for you :)
I was included. Omg I can't believe how happy it makes me.
Ok, so this makes sense.
I work at a bar/restaurant and I do delivery. Well, one of the employees has a band and it was his birthday this week, so he is having a party and his band is playing. His sister and I both have to work that night normally and Saturday is impossible to get covered, but we both managed to get somebody to do it.
So.., now the good part, she invited me to come over to do our hair and stuff that morning and I'm finally going to get to wear the dress I got for Christmas. I've so wanted a reason to wear this. (>-bleeped-<, I just remembered that I don't have any jewelry to go with it.
Anyway
Such a little, normal thing has totally made my night ❤️❤️
God I love the people of this city. It's so much more excepting than where I came from
Catching up on housework, and completing uni enrolment. :3
Yesterday I told one of the baristas at my coffee shop that I was going to be changing my name. This morning when I visited the same shop, the other barista asked me when I was going to do it and was very happy to hear that I was doing it.
Found my scales are working and not stuck on 14st 7lb or203 lb for our US folk, yes it read 14 4 ------- 28 to go then
My wife change me name on her work email!
I'm looking forward to my local trans support group meeting in just a few hours. I feel so real, there.... Happy Saturday everyone.
Love u
Jessica
my female cousin came to visit tonight, we always got on when younger like twin souls . Still had to drink and bring a bottle of vodka mix to face me so bless her for coming . Ended up with lots of hugs and kisses and said she will come again. She is on her own with 16 year old son who sits in bedroom stuck on gaming ect so I think she enjoyed the company/chat and cuddles.
My girlfriend is going to help me properly color match and buy a good concealer/coverup/foundation that ISN'T chalk white, like the sad little goth kid that I am. lol
First of all I am happy to be reply #1089. It is an honor. I am 8 months RLE as of today. I decided to measure my height. I thought I was 5'9" but realized I am only 5'7 1/2". Shrinking, the lone advantage to getting older. lol Oh, I counted days to GCS if all goes well, 129 days. One day, the only number that matters will be one, as in one whole, complete person.
Moni
An old friend new "girl" friend sent me a message on messenger and said she wanted to buy me a makeover and then wanted to have a photo shoot afterwards.
I'm so excited, and grateful!!! Seeing as my closet is limited, have to buy new clothes. I would love two to three outfits for the shoot. One country girl, one girly girl, and I need a third but I need ideas.... Please help!!!
I'm so excited for this.
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Well, we went to a Transgender Support group meeting and as you can see, I got all glammed up and I felt wonderful! On the way, we stopped at The Coffee Connection in Oswego, NY to visita friend of ours and he got to meet Krystina for the first time and he gave me some awesome compliments! It is amazing how I feel as I start to become Krystina. I am in partial transition right now, so every time I am Krystina, I am in Heaven. And as you can see, I finally have a profile picture, so what made me happy was being me!!!!
I mentioned this on my thread in the FFS board, but seems to fit here:
I went to church this morning and a woman I've known for years came up to me afterwards and told me I was looking more and more beautiful every time she sees me. She said, "I don't know what you're doing, but it's working!" I didn't tell her, but the answer is: Healing after tens of thousands of dollars of plastic surgery! :laugh:
I wasn't expecting this.
You know, we are all our own worse critics.
I don't think I'm "pretty" and I don't think I should be passing, but my friend tells me that a bunch of guys in the building have been asking about me.
"Who's the girl with the pretty eyes?"
Yes, my eyes do look pretty, and I do dress nicely but I don't think I should be getting the attention I've been getting.
I keep thinking people are looking at me because "they know", but maybe it's because they're checking me out?
Though I'm not attracted to guys and I'm married, it's nice to know that others, besides my friends, and especially guys, think I'm pretty.
OK, this one I just need to share. Last Saturday evening my partner and I met with a group of friends for dinner. After dinner a cake was brought out to celebrate my birthday and after the candles were lit my partner stood beside me and eloquently asked me to be her life partner for the rest of our journey, no matter where it will take us and then placed the most beautiful ring on my finger......yes, there were tears involved. My wife of 33 years is now my committed life partner and still the love of my life. - Anne
Taking a hammer to my epilator after months of red spots and ingrown hairs. Back to old faithful and shaving. ahhhhh. ;D
Congratulations Anne you are blessed!
Quote from: Anne Blake on February 21, 2017, 01:04:14 PM
OK, this one I just need to share. Last Saturday evening my partner and I met with a group of friends for dinner. After dinner a cake was brought out to celebrate my birthday and after the candles were lit my partner stood beside me and eloquently asked me to be her life partner for the rest of our journey, no matter where it will take us and then placed the most beautiful ring on my finger......yes, there were tears involved. My wife of 33 years is now my committed life partner and still the love of my life. - Anne
Quote from: Anne Blake on February 21, 2017, 01:04:14 PM
OK, this one I just need to share. Last Saturday evening my partner and I met with a group of friends for dinner. After dinner a cake was brought out to celebrate my birthday and after the candles were lit my partner stood beside me and eloquently asked me to be her life partner for the rest of our journey, no matter where it will take us and then placed the most beautiful ring on my finger......yes, there were tears involved. My wife of 33 years is now my committed life partner and still the love of my life. - Anne
Happy better for sure!
For me: totally out at work now. Everyone above me knows. So far, on day, no comments, no questions, no phone calls.
The message presented was call, I'm very open and would answer any question.
Quote from: Anne Blake on February 21, 2017, 01:04:14 PM
OK, this one I just need to share. Last Saturday evening my partner and I met with a group of friends for dinner. After dinner a cake was brought out to celebrate my birthday and after the candles were lit my partner stood beside me and eloquently asked me to be her life partner for the rest of our journey, no matter where it will take us and then placed the most beautiful ring on my finger......yes, there were tears involved. My wife of 33 years is now my committed life partner and still the love of my life. - Anne
Brilliant, I am so happy for you..
Liz
Quote from: Anne Blake on February 21, 2017, 01:04:14 PM
OK, this one I just need to share. Last Saturday evening my partner and I met with a group of friends for dinner. After dinner a cake was brought out to celebrate my birthday and after the candles were lit my partner stood beside me and eloquently asked me to be her life partner for the rest of our journey, no matter where it will take us and then placed the most beautiful ring on my finger......yes, there were tears involved. My wife of 33 years is now my committed life partner and still the love of my life. - Anne
Oh, Anne, congratulations! That is just wonderful, and amazing. I'm so very happy for you!
How wonderful Anne!! I love hearing these stories all the time. Congratulations to you both :)
-Sarah
Today I went with my wife shopping for make up... for me! Felt so right. 😋 Still can't believe how blessed I am. 😍
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Not today but was out with the girlfriend for dinner on Valentines day, waitress comes up to us and is "Hello Ladies" - considering I haven't started hormones, was presenting as male entirely then I was pretty happy - she caught it pretty much immediately but made my night.
The only feminine thing about me is that I'm growing my hair out - maybe that's enough :)
Quote from: sophie1904 on February 22, 2017, 04:52:31 PM
Not today but was out with the girlfriend for dinner on Valentines day, waitress comes up to us and is "Hello Ladies" - considering I haven't started hormones, was presenting as male entirely then I was pretty happy - she caught it pretty much immediately but made my night.
The only feminine thing about me is that I'm growing my hair out - maybe that's enough :)
That could also indicate that our perceptions of femininity or passing may be quite different than others? We are often our own worst critics too. Good for you :D
I am still waiting for something. It's been a rough day.
Okay! I forgot. I received my new pointy black heels today and the fit fine!!
Joy be unto you all.
Jeanette
On crappy days you just have to appreciate the little things.
I'm now officially out to two people: my therapist and my trans coworker. It was via email since we don't work anywhere near each other, but now I get to find out if there is surprise or a reaction of "yeah, you didn't fool anyone with the guy act."
So HR has done their bit by the official announcement to upper and "closer in" management. I stopped off in our head of technology security today. I lightly tap on his door, he turns around and in a big bellowing voice... "DENISE!"
I just smiled and said thanks. He was one I really wanted to tell individually but he was never in his office.
I haven't stopped smiling since. Maybe this will be okay after all! (It still sounds weird!)
I'm happy today because my wife has taken huge steps towards accepting me on my journey. Yesterday we had dinner with a gender neutral friend of ours and her fiance. I knew that this friend would be a great resource for both of us because of where she is in her own journey. She asked us both questions about who we currently feel that we are, if we are happy where we are, as well as who and where we would like to be in 6 months from now. After our group conversation, my wife told me that she would like to join me in my therapy appointment today, this will be her first time in a therapy session of any sort.
I am so insanely proud of her for forcing herself to step outside of her comfort zone and doing what she can to support me as best as she can. I know it will continue to be a difficult journey, but I am more sure today then I have been since I came out that no matter what happens, our relationship will remain strong.
I'm lazy so I just put in the request to update my email address at work a few days ago.
They changed it today!
I just want to scream, I GOT MY NEW EMAIL!!!
WOO HOO!!!
My electrolysist confided in me about how much trouble she had gone to to find just the right dress for a reunion dinner, and how she was chuff about being the skinniest woman her age in the room. There's no way in hell she would have told me any of that before she knew I was transitioning. I felt totally accepted as a woman by her just by what she chose to tell me.
Sofie, don't you just love it when you experience that kind of inclusion! I was giving a girlfriend a ride the other day when she talked about how her husbands guy stuff had not been working......then she realized what she had said and who she had said it to and with a shrug added, "well I guess you really are just one of the girls now". Such strange ways of feeling affirmation of who we are. - Anne
My OB/GYN called, asked for Sarah :-) Talked about the latest blood work and increased dosage to further improve my levels. I am on the right way and levels have increased (E) and decreased (T) since starting. Also reviewed the week and finally my energy is coming back. So happy!
OB?GYN? That's interesting...
Glad your levels are moving in the directions you want Sarah.
Hugs,
Jeanette
I had another prescreening call, for an MRI I have to get later this year. The calls are basically probing for anything that might be an issue in sticking a body into a tiny tube inside of a humongous magnet. :) They asked about claustrophobic issues, implants, wires, screws, accidents that might leave metal inside, and so on. Apparently there is a series of gender-specific questions.
"Have you had a pregnancy test recently?" "Nope" (Smile)
"Are you pregnant?" "Um... No" (Still smiling)
"When was your last period?" "Uh... Never?" (Starting to giggle...)
"Do you use an IUD?" "Ah, nope." (Grinning ear to ear...)
OK, just a phone call, and obviously my new ID is in The System, but wow, what a funny validation!
I can't wait to see what happens when they code a prostate exam into my record. (Computer explodes...)
I have a pair of violet cullottes that I wore for the first time today, but that's not what made me really happy today.
I got lots of nice compliments on them, but that's not what made me really happy today.
They're the right size and fit well, but that's not what made me really happy today.
When I had to pee, I undid my belt, undid both buttons and lowered the zipper and still had to struggle to get them past my butt, that made me REALLY happy today!
Today I got my prescription for hormones approved and had the medicine ordered, should arrive tomorrow!
Exciting times :)
Quote from: sophie1904 on February 24, 2017, 01:51:14 PM
Today I got my prescription for hormones approved and had the medicine ordered, should arrive tomorrow!
Exciting times :)
Exciting is only the beginning! Congratulations.
Congrats Sophie! This a major step along your path!
I made an appointment with my transition doctor to review my HRT and hopefully) increase the dose. Made an appointment with my therapist to start planning my social transition, which I find totally scary to contemplate, and which I will need some hand-holding on.
Then my wife and I went to our favourite vintage clothing store. There are three owners, and the one who was on duty today has always seemed like a kind-hearted woman. So I came out to her, and she was totally sweet about it.
I get a lovely, light, warm buzz from that kind of stuff (even contemplating the scary social transition) because it means I am moving forward. Every time I get that buzz (like the time my wife and I were referred to as "ladies" in a restaurant), it confirms that this is the right direction for me.
7 weeks on HRT and the word of the day is "bouncing" ;D :icon_joy: :icon_geekdance: :icon_dance:
Well I did it. I finally ventured out into public dressed in full feminine clothing. I work my favorite lined yoga pants, sports bra and tunic workout top and jacket then took the pup out for a 2.5 mile walk.
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Quote from: Alora on February 27, 2017, 10:37:02 PM
Well I did it. I finally ventured out into public dressed in full feminine clothing. I work my favorite lined yoga pants, sports bra and tunic workout top and jacket then took the pup out for a 2.5 mile walk.
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Looking good!
Quote from: Alora on February 27, 2017, 10:37:02 PM
Well I did it. I finally ventured out into public dressed in full feminine clothing. I work my favorite lined yoga pants, sports bra and tunic workout top and jacket then took the pup out for a 2.5 mile walk.
So proud of you! Now I need to get out there and do the same. Can't do it until I return from deployment, but it gives me something to look forward to. :)
After four months on E, my nipples finally decided they didn't need to.... Ummm... Point the way. :)
OMG, lol, you got me rolling with exclamation points, point of order, points of view, .......
Received in the mail today letters from my DR That states: ...This letter will document that Denise... is a female patient of mine.... and has had appropriate clinical treatment necessary for gender transition.
Now I can change my gender marker on official government forms. Now this S*** is real. Honestly, boob growth was exciting, this scares me!!
Quote from: Denise on March 01, 2017, 06:30:45 PM
Received in the mail today letters from my DR That states: ...This letter will document that Denise... is a female patient of mine.... and has had appropriate clinical treatment necessary for gender transition.
Now I can change my gender marker on official government forms. Now this S*** is real. Honestly, boob growth was exciting, this scares me!!
That's Great Denise!! It would make me happy too. Scared yes, happy yes
Hugs,
Jeanette
Quote from: Denise on March 01, 2017, 06:30:45 PM
Received in the mail today letters from my DR That states: ...This letter will document that Denise... is a female patient of mine.... and has had appropriate clinical treatment necessary for gender transition.
Now I can change my gender marker on official government forms. Now this S*** is real. Honestly, boob growth was exciting, this scares me!!
I am so happy for you!!! That's exciting!
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One of my oldest, and best girlfriends from elementary school has recently come back into my life. Over the last week we have shared much. She has been such a huge support and blessing. So compassionate, admits her own personal troubles. With her help I almost have a whole new wardrobe. I just need to find a few tops for some of my new skirts. But she is amazing. The team of ladies that helps me pair up what I liked are amazing!!!
Here's just a sample...
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These two together
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So need to find the right top for this skirt. So cute!!!
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Weekend me leggings. So uplifting!!
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Another one I need to find just the right top for.
I'm in girly heaven!!!
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Yesterday I told work :)
I'll post separately since I have some work specific things but super exciting :)
Fifth electrolysis clearing at o2, Antwerpen. Only 7 hours for the full face, I can feel that the end of the tunnel is near!
I had booked for 8 hours today + 4 hours tomorrow. Since the work is done, I'll do some sightseeing tomorrow around the city centre ^^
Quote from: Fresas con Nata on March 02, 2017, 01:30:56 PM
Fifth electrolysis clearing at o2, Antwerpen. Only 7 hours for the full face, I can feel that the end of the tunnel is near!
I had booked for 8 hours today + 4 hours tomorrow. Since the work is done, I'll do some sightseeing tomorrow around the city centre ^^
Eight hours? Two days in a row? Wow! You are a tougher girl than I am, that's for sure. One hour a week is all I can take.
I got a follow up call from the psychiatrist I met with to tell me she has referred me to the gender therapy folks. I now have a name and I'm now waiting to hear from him?. I think I would prefer a woman but we'll see. Closer, getting closer.
Hugs,
Jeanette
Quote from: KathyLauren on March 02, 2017, 01:49:09 PM
Eight hours? Two days in a row? Wow! You are a tougher girl than I am, that's for sure. One hour a week is all I can take.
At o2 they put you on morphine+fentanyl+other stuffs, so 8 hours is not as bad as it sounds. All you feel are tiny pinches but nothing beyond that. That said, this morning there was a problem with my... err, what's the below called in english? A vial? (google images doesn't seem to agree)
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So there was a problem with that thing so that, unknowingly to us, the anesthesia was not being allowed into my blood :D so I underwent the first hour with no anesthesia at all, including upper lip. Ouch, now I know what you gals go through!
But then, the machine doing the pumping gave an error, and a second machine gave an error too, which prompted us to closely look for something else. The piece pictured in blue in the image above was partly turned, she fixed that, I pressed the button to get a shot and it finally reached my blood.
Oh, and they recently installed a counter, today I had ~700 hairs pulled :) at a rate of ~11.5 hairs per minute.
I started on an Androgen synthesis inhibitor, yesterday! (Took a week for pre-auth, but it's now mine, yay!) Probably look at starting in on Est. later this year. (I need to solidify some basic lifestyle changes so I'm less prone to negative reactions.) Having the clothing and makeup made me happy - this make is another level of real, though. Also, the electrolysis goes slow.. it is going at a reasonable pace. (I have way too much facial hair, heh) ./happy-dance
I got gendered correctly today by ... our CAT!!
She's a 12 year old ex-feral tabby, and more than a bit odd, even by feline standards. She likes to steal my wife's socks at night and hide them in her bed or drop them on the floor. She has never shown any interest in my socks. Until now. Today, my wife found one of my socks in the kitty's bed. I can only assume that my scent has changed enough on HRT to make my socks appealing to her. :laugh:
Yesterday, during a small 2-day trip to The Hague, Netherlands, I came out to my two sons (10 and 14) in the presence of my wife. They initially cried, which made me very sad because I thought they were crying because they thought they were going to lose their dad, but it turns out they were crying because they felt sorry at how much suffering and humiliation I had endured along my life... It was my turn to cry... of joy and gratefulness! The four of us made a big, tight hug and promised we would never abandon each other! One of the best days in my life! And after such strong emotions, cherry on the top: I got to see "live" for the first time one of my favourite paintings at the Mauritshuis: Girl with a Pearl Earring, by Johannes Vermeer. [emoji4]
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Today, I started electrolysis (blend, actually) on my beard. Three hours of torture... Well, actually I didn't feel so much pain. Basically, a mix of pinches with electrical discharges. I did take a generous dose of painkillers beforehand. But I anticipate significantly more pain around the lips and in the philtrum area... I hope I'm wrong! Anyways, cheeks already cleared. [emoji12]
I'm so HAPPY!!! For the first time, I'm in love with life! 😊
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Yesterday, maybe just a little, I got gendered correctly at a store. Two guys held the door open for me and my wife. It has never happened before. Maybe it's just wishful thinking, but maybe, just maybe, they saw me as a woman. Still felt good, even if it was just my mind filling in the blanks.
Life is good for me. I'm selling some inherited land & moving down to Florida. It will be so nice to live 100% as myself a woman & find lots of new friends in that area. Also a nice plastic surgeon in the Tampa area for my GRS & hopefully breast implants at the same time while under. After 4 years of HRT my girls are still just a B cuo, ugggg. I so want some nice full breasts....finally. Maybe even after I settle in heal up maybe a nice normal man that needs a heterosexual woman. I'd sure love some romance from a nice taller handsome man maybe. Who knows maybe I can find another stud like my earlier years. OMG some of those men were so nice to be with.
I just recieved my new earrings and necklace in the mail today. My very first set of danglies.
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Spent today with a good friend. Lunch at her place, wine tasting, shopping and dinner. She only misgendered me once which is pretty good since she's only known Denise for a week while the old me she's known since 1990.
I went online and looked at some really cute skirts and dresses, I will definitely be getting some of them when I come back from holidays (in Ireland) in three weeks
Quote from: Julie Rose on March 05, 2017, 01:06:41 AM
I went online and looked at some really cute skirts and dresses, I will definitely be getting some of them when I come back from holidays (in Ireland) in three weeks
Are you Irish too?? Or mad enough to go on Holidays in Ireland?? Hahaha
Had a great talk with my mother. She asked how I was doing as far as transition goes and was very much relieved that everything was great and I haven't experienced any problems. I think she is now on my side!
I have also now figured out my new middle name. I was giving my great grandfathers middle name at birth, so I decided to go with my great grandmothers. I will now be Michaela Elizabeth. It feels like the perfect name for me.
I was washing my hands in a men's bathroom; and wasn't able to get my mind off of how much I don't belong in there. All of a sudden a man walks in, sees me, and immediately exits. XD So it's not just me! lol
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Sent in my application for the Minneapolis Transgender Equity Council today!
Another step taken, nine plus hour of hair transplant today, still stoned out of my gourd but it is done, six months to a year for the effects to show. May 1 will be my consult with Dr. Meltzer and then an Srs surgery date. It is continuing to happens and each step feels so good! - Anne
I got my letter for surgery. I just scheduled to have an orchiectomy on March 23 ;D
So last Friday, I was having a quiet lunch in a hotel bar (Nerd alert: my annual pilgrimage to Emerald City Comic-con), when this guy wanders over to my table to order a beer. I had an open chair and the bar was packed. I offered him the seat and we started talking. Well to be completely honest, he started talking and I wrote on my iPad a lot to respond—joys of one month post VFS. We chatted for about an hour and he was definitely hitting on me a lot. Please note that I am not the one who gets hit on, like ever. But he was cute so I decided to roll with it. Long story short, we exchanged numbers and went our separate ways. Well he texted me a few times including last night when he asked me to go out this weekend. This definitely qualifies as something that is making me happy today, regardless if it actually goes anywhere...
I did an interview for a school paper. I shared my transition story to raise awareness that we exist on campus. It was such an emotional and fulfilling experience. I am really looking forward to seeing how the article comes together. I put my heart into it and I'll be going public as Kaylin for only my second time.
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Quote from: Inarasarah on March 09, 2017, 10:33:17 AM
Well he texted me a few times including last night when he asked me to go out this weekend. This definitely qualifies as something that is making me happy today, regardless if it actually goes anywhere...
YAY!!! That is so cool girlfriend! I hope you two can make a love connection.
What made me happy today? I changed my profile avatar to a picture of me. For the first time on any of these boards, my profile pic shows the face of the real me. But what really made me happy today is that each time I log in, my avatar appears at the top of the page. More than once today I've had that split second reaction of "Wow, who's that" before I realize it's me!!! Not a great look yet (hoping HRT and some better makeup technique will improve that) but I'm so much happier with that look than anything I've seen in the mirror for 39 years.
This may fall under "What made you feel lucky today" but works here too.
Tonight a good samaritan probably saved me from getting seriously injured or even killed. I was coming out of the grocery store with a shopping cart crossing at the crosswalk and a big van stopped on my left to allow me to cross. As I was walking in front the van I hear the engine rev on the van and I look and see the driver cut the van sharp to his left to block a woman on her cell phone passing him going too fast to block her from hitting me and the woman stopped just short of hitting the van. The driver of the van got out and yelled to the woman "what the hell or you doing? you could have hit her" pointing to me. The woman just ignored him and I told him "Thank you, you probably saved my life!". He said something else to the woman and after I finished crossing she drove off fast and he followed her. So I don't know what else happened after that.
Got my new makeup brushes :) Also, skinny jean FTW :)
I had my semi annual HRT appointment yesterday and finally my blood pressure was normal inside that Dr's office. In the past every time I went it shot up to heart attack range. I also realized that finally after two years of HRT my body, from top to bottom is finally looking as it should with good proportions everywhere. The last six months of work with diet and exercise are paying off. Plus my size 12 skinny jeans are not skinny anymore. Time to move to a size or two smaller. :-)
Conform and be dull. —James Frank Dobie, The Voice of the Coyote
Quote from: Alora on March 09, 2017, 02:02:43 PM
I did an interview for a school paper. I shared my transition story to raise awareness that we exist on campus. It was such an emotional and fulfilling experience. I am really looking forward to seeing how the article comes together. I put my heart into it and I'll be going public as Kaylin for only my second time.
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Nice work!
Hugs, Devlyn
BEWBS!! I was wondering if there was something growing under those ouchy nipples, but for the past few weeks I couldn't use enough pressure to feel. But today, they are big enough to feel. There is definitely something there. Yippee!! ;D
Quote from: KathyLauren on March 10, 2017, 07:18:39 AM
BEWBS!! I was wondering if there was something growing under those ouchy nipples, but for the past few weeks I couldn't use enough pressure to feel. But today, they are big enough to feel. There is definitely something there. Yippee!! ;D
It's in there, Kathy! It's in there!
Jeanette
Getting everything unpacked at my new house. I'm finally going to use my new kitchen to cook dinner for my friends tonight.
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I think I've made it over the hump. It's definitely coasting/self-driving mode now. I don't think I have much to be scared/worried/nervous on a social aspect anymore.
I'm comfortable!
Deborah, sounds like your life is going good for you now, good BP readings, losing weight, getting exercise; good for you keep it up.
I am ALWAYS gendered correctly!
OK, evidently I'm out of it. (Given my week it's not surprising.) This was a compliment for Jess.
Quote from: Denise on March 10, 2017, 03:05:17 PM
I think I've made it over the hump. It's definitely coasting/self-driving mode now. I don't think I have much to be scared/worried/nervous on a social aspect anymore.
I'm comfortable!
Beautiful kitchen!(for a beautiful lady.)
Sorry!
However, Denise, that's a wonderful milestone! I'm in a similar state, but, sadly, I backslide.
(Thank you, Devlyn, for the prompt.)
Signing up to this forum!
Feels like a step in the right direction, also doing some research on my options on gender clinics in the UK and getting the ball rolling on improving my personal life (living situation, etc)
Quote from: Dee Marshall on March 10, 2017, 03:48:18 PM
OK, evidently I'm out of it. (Given my week it's not surprising.) This was a compliment for Jess.
Beautiful kitchen!(for a beautiful lady.)
I figured that it was meant for me. Thank you so much!
Congrats Dee on turning the corner and being gendered correctly all the time. It feels absolutely amazing when you get there. I haven't been publicly misgendered in over a year now and I still get a thrill when someone addresses me correctly. I'm sure that eventually I will just have a normal non-pulsed response, but I'm still in the thrill stage.
Thank you, Jess. The other good thing is that my boobs, though smaller than yours, have reached a size I can live with. They haven't stopped growing but if they did I'd be OK. I'd like my hips and waist to shift a bit, but, at least, I look pretty good in boot cut jeans and a crop top.
Being here, able to know I am not alone. Seeing that all those years of pain shedding away and my life beyond this day beginning anew.
Last week, I notified HR formally about my intent to transition and am waiting back to hear what I and they need to do.
I also received my correctly gendered driver's license so I am stoked and also have the paperwork to update my passport.
I never thought I would ever get to this place and this site and reading everyone's stories helped give me the strength to face the day as well as the tasks ahead.
Quote from: Lilliana on March 11, 2017, 10:30:19 PM
Last week, I notified HR formally about my intent to transition and am waiting back to hear what I and they need to do.
I also received my correctly gendered driver's license so I am stoked and also have the paperwork to update my passport.
I never thought I would ever get to this place and this site and reading everyone's stories helped give me the strength to face the day as well as the tasks ahead.
Must have been nice to see your new license with an 'F' on it! :)
Quote from: J2J on March 11, 2017, 10:35:21 PM
Must have been nice to see your new license with an 'F' on it! :)
It most certainly was. I keep taking it out to look at it.
I received my first letter for bottom surgery today. I get my 2nd one next week from my primary therapist and my HRT will have the 3rd one within the next week or two. Everything is shaping up for my consult in 4½ weeks.
Free Refills, New pink shirt and posting my first pic on here.
Sammie
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Went clothes shopping for the first time today at a very busy Target store. Used the fitting rooms, tried on a couple pair of jeans (Yay I fit into a pair of size 8's with some room to spare even), spent over 40 minutes in the store looking at jeans, leggings, bras and tops. Everyone I encountered both staff and customers were super friendly. One little girl called me miss, the man in front of me in line at checkout pushed his stuff forward so I could fit mine on the belt and then smiled at me and said "there you go". I'm sure I probably got clocked more than a handful of times, but if I did, no one let on.
Since getting my wigs, I'm really riding a wave of confidence. I'm getting out more, just being me, and totally enjoying every minute I can find to do it.
Quote from: sammie83 on March 12, 2017, 08:12:36 PM
Free Refills, New pink shirt and posting my first pic on here.
Sammie
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Sammie you totally need to make that pic your profile pic. So cute!!!
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Thanks Alora, I have done :)
Sammie
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While at a plant group meeting yesterday, we had a couple new attendees. A slightly older couple. It turns out that they live in the area I went to high school. There kids went to the same school, just many years later. At one point I had to use my extra height to reach something. She asked if I had played basketball.
"No, I am no good at sports," I said.
"When I was in high school, we didn't have girls sports," she responded.
I nearly said, "When I was in high school, I wasn't a girl." but decided to just run with it. That felt pretty good!
Driving on a sunny day,with the window down, radio turned up on my own. Made it to the shops, bit nervous but, I got what I wanted and really just felt like me :)
Sammie
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Went into a board meeting Friday with about 7 stuffy old executives. Im dressed to the nines and its the first time any of these individuals have seen me since I have gone full time. Well I have never seen so many faces drop to the ground at once. It was awesome!! Ya most girls would be worried about the response they would get but I carry a position where no one can say a thing. Its good to be the boss. I had one person quit instantly do to religious beliefs but the others all kinda gasped caught their breath and carried on. After the meeting was done everyone was comfortable and accepting of the new Boss. Its looking like the main shock is over for the next meeting so all is good. I can only imagine the conversations with wives at the dinner table that night.
It was one of the most empowering moments ever.
At my dental clinic, I was out to a couple of specialists but not all of them, and not to the people at reception. Eg. when I told my orthodoncist I was going to have facial surgery, she asked and I just came out to her because I thought it would be the easiest way to explain.
Today I felt I was fed up to wear the guy costume everytime I went there, so I decided I'd go as myself. It was awesome!! People acted in such a natural way, one might think they have trans* patients everyday! Seems that the news spread quick because some minutes later, when I was laying in the Chair of Terror and having some stuff done, staff would come in saying "I was just told Deadname is here but he came as a she and I just had to pop, say Hi and see how you look!"
They can't change my name in the computer because it's linked to my official identity but they found some place to put my new name. I can't wait to go again so they call my name!
Quote from: sammie83 on March 12, 2017, 08:12:36 PM
Free Refills, New pink shirt and posting my first pic on here.
Sammie
xx
I noticed the new avatar this morning Sammie, It;s nice to see you and it's a good picture.
For myself- I got through my first appointment with my gender therapist and the next is set for next week.
Hugs,
Jeanette
Quote from: JeanetteLW on March 13, 2017, 02:00:31 PM
I noticed the new avatar this morning Sammie, It;s nice to see you and it's a good picture.
Thank you. I was a bit nervous posting it.
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For myself- I got through my first appointment with my gender therapist and the next is set for next week.
That's amazing news, well done you brave girl :)
Sammie
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1st full year of hrt
I had my two month HRT checkup today. My T is actually below their target range, but not low enough to worry about. My E is dead centre in the target range. My liver enzymes are happy. And, since I have boobs growing and facial changes happening, I don't need an increased dosage. Oh, and my cholesterol was the lowest they've ever seen.
In fact, they said I should be the poster child for the clinic's gender transition services. :)
I was getting dressed after a massage therapy session and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Boobs!
Quote from: lisawb on March 12, 2017, 11:14:24 PM
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Since getting my wigs, I'm really riding a wave of confidence. I'm getting out more, just being me, and totally enjoying every minute I can find to do it.
You might be surprised. Confidence in who you are goes a long way. I look in a mirror and see me. People who don't know me see Denise.
My guess is people weren't 100% sure you weren't who you said you were. Keep it up.
Quote from: Niki Knight on March 13, 2017, 08:38:29 AM
... I had one person quit instantly do to religious beliefs
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It was one of the most empowering moments ever.
I'm curious, what if a future employer calls looking for a recommendation... I'm not sure what I would say. Probably that he is not re-hireable.
Quote from: Denise on March 14, 2017, 05:16:18 PM
I'm curious, what if a future employer calls looking for a recommendation... I'm not sure what I would say. Probably that he is not re-hireable.
I'd answer based upon his work, not his religion. No point in being vindictive. He hurt himself already by quitting what I assume was a good job over not approving of his boss. He already needs to explain why he quit when he looks for a new job.
I bought my first pair of "fornicate me" boots. ;D
Quote from: Estelle_maybe? on March 14, 2017, 07:14:00 PM
I bought my first pair of "fornicate me" boots. ;D
What? No pictures?
Quote from: Yuusui on March 14, 2017, 02:59:09 PM
I was getting dressed after a massage therapy session and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Boobs!
Isn't that moment of realization great! That moment you realize they've evolved from bumps on your chest to "Boobs"?
Love it,
Jeanette
Quote from: Dee Marshall on March 14, 2017, 07:44:37 PM
What? No pictures?
They'll have to wait until tomorrow at the earliest. The hotel work has me at tonight has godawful lighting. A picture of boots on the floor would be boring.
I set an appointment with the Philadelphia trans-health clinic today to start my transition journey that I have wanted to for 10 yrs!
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New hair. Had my wig consultation today, was amazing. Totally different look, absolutely love it.
Sammie
xx
Well we went shopping yesterday, for some new clothes, much needed panties, I love the microfiber hipsters and now I have about 12 pairs. I also purchased a bra that I can wear all the time, even when I am in guy mode, it is a 48 A, which is just right for me now, anyway. And thanks to a great friend's advice, I bought some makeup primer and more of my favorite Impress press on nails! I am feeling more and more complete everyday! I just hope I start seeing some growth in my breast area soon. I did see my sister on Monday night and she said that my features appear to be softer, which I hope I can attribute to the HRT. So, I feel good!!!
Oh I forgot to mention, my appointment for my first feminine haircut was rescheduled for tomorrow, due to the horrible storm we are having here, I am very excited about that!!!
Receiving a text from my boyfriend who says did i tell u ii love you today. I met him online we been dating for 1yr 4 monhs we r both in our sixties.
The last two times I have talked on the phone for work, they ma'amed me!
Had a bit of a moment in the mirror earlier and could certainly see myself as female if/when I decide to start HRT, kind of odd to stare in the mirror but it certainly gives you a few minutes to serious think about starting to transition etc. I think it's because my hair is getting much longer...
Also e-mailed a gender clinic that a kind member of this forum informed me about that's pretty close to me, will seriously consider making an appointment once they get back to me with wait times and days etc.
Feeling optimistic.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on March 14, 2017, 05:22:30 PM
I'd answer based upon his work, not his religion. No point in being vindictive. He hurt himself already by quitting what I assume was a good job over not approving of his boss. He already needs to explain why he quit when he looks for a new job.
That has been my stance from the beginning of the issue. The employee had worked for us for 8 years and was valued, did great work and I was sorry to see him leave. We had a conversation where I told him I would give him a good reference for the work he had done and that he decided he wanted a different challenge in his life.
I felt this was the best way to handle things. I respect others beliefs as I hope others will respect mine.
No animosity or hurt feelings. Its just a fact of life. We have parted on good terms.
Actually Monday but close enough - and it was reiterated today: I thought i was being a bit too aggressive in pursuing my boyfriend and felt i was not acting woman-like ( i know how do we escape stereotypes right?, sorry) and i apologized, and his response was " non-stereotypical women are actually the more attractive ones to me" and you are doing fine.
i told him i would share that with others and he said cool. That made me happy.
I finally got the news: the fifth of May will be my last appointment with my shrink before I can start hormones! <3 YATTA!
I also (finally) got my referral for starting laser hair removal, which I've attended two days ago. The pain is definitely real, but I can already see relatively big patches of facial hair disappearing. 2017 is looking to be awesome!
New Phone (just for Sammie) and Im going out to meet some new people (on my own) tonight. Won't lie, Im a bit nervous
Quote from: sammie83 on March 17, 2017, 09:46:12 AM
New Phone (just for Sammie) and Im going out to meet some new people (on my own) tonight. Won't lie, Im a bit nervous
How did it go?
Quote from: Galyo on March 17, 2017, 05:33:46 AM
I finally got the news: the fifth of May will be my last appointment with my shrink before I can start hormones! <3 YATTA!
I also (finally) got my referral for starting laser hair removal, which I've attended two days ago. The pain is definitely real, but I can already see relatively big patches of facial hair disappearing. 2017 is looking to be awesome!
Galyo - that's awesome. The pain on laser decreases with each session so consider that the hardest part is all done.
What made me happy today is I have officially joined the wonderful world of HRT! Got my Rx filled and applied today without the hoped for fanfare, bells, whistles or ticker tape parade. I'm still doing the proverbial back flips and cartwheels over starting. So now it's time to let the patients reign and enjoy the outcome with out the high expectations.
Quote from: Trillian McMillan on March 19, 2017, 10:31:27 AM
What made me happy today is I have officially joined the wonderful world of HRT! Got my Rx filled and applied today without the hoped for fanfare, bells, whistles or ticker tape parade. I'm still doing the proverbial back flips and cartwheels over starting. So now it's time to let the patients reign and enjoy the outcome with out the high expectations.
Congratulations Trillian. Sorry about the fanfare, parades etc, I guess I forgot to order them for you. Even so I'll wager your own internal euphoria would out shine any of the external partying.
Hugs,
Jeanette
I found out a waxing center near me gives a free service to new customers. Gonna get my eyebrows waxed this week!
Quote from: Denise on March 19, 2017, 09:32:45 AM
How did it go?
Pretty rubbish to be honest. I got stood up :(
Still not all bad, my cousin met me at a local pub, to rescue me a bit.
Today I had several great things...
An old friend from high school was in town and we had dinner and drinks at one of my local hangouts. The owner of said hangout, a close friend, commented on how skinny I was (despite how pudgy I was feeling today). Then after dinner I visited a neighboring bar owned by some other friends and my friend there told me he could hear that my voice was sounding better. Note that he is aware of my surgery and the comment was in regards to the surgery. This made me so happy. :)
Quote from: Trillian McMillan on March 19, 2017, 10:31:27 AM
What made me happy today is I have officially joined the wonderful world of HRT! Got my Rx filled and applied today without the hoped for fanfare, bells, whistles or ticker tape parade. I'm still doing the proverbial back flips and cartwheels over starting. So now it's time to let the patients reign and enjoy the outcome with out the high expectations.
Congratulations. Lack of fanfare is definitely a downer to go with the euphoria. Sorry you had to experience that too. I hope you have as positive an experience as a lot of us are having.
I went to the Saturday meeting of the Minnesota Transgender Alliance and talked with the woman I had recognized at a previous meeting but couldn't place. It turns out we had been in the same social circle 20 years ago. It was great getting caught up.
I bought a new outfit xxx
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Quote from: Denise on March 19, 2017, 09:35:08 AM
Galyo - that's awesome. The pain on laser decreases with each session so consider that the hardest part is all done.
Thank you! That's great to know! I'm looking forward to doing more laser therapy, seeing as I'm already starting to see less of my facial hair.
I played in a scrimmage for the first time since before I left for Seoul. It feels good to have skates back on my feet. :)
Although I am a bit sore today...stoopid knees
New dress, New necklace, a hint of sunshine and a night out tomorrow. All good in the hood :)
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Started prepping to get my bike out on the road again and remembered the great feelings of cranking along. Happy, except my butt that has not been connected to a saddle in a few years...that might not count as actually happy (sore) ;)
I got a couple of waterproof event signs finished up for the March 31 event.
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My hair is starting to get pretty long! While I am pre-everything and still seriously questioning and plucking up the courage to make an appointment with a therapist at least with longer hair maybe I can 'see' the other me. Still a way to go tho...
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Got my eyebrows waxed today!
For what its worth I went into my first therapy session wearing a suit. . . that was 17 years ago. Been out full-time for 12 years. A good therapist will listen to you and likely be unconcerned with what you're wearing at the moment . . .
Quote from: Gail20 on March 22, 2017, 07:37:36 PM
For what its worth I went into my first therapy session wearing a suit. . . that was 17 years ago. Been out full-time for 12 years. A good therapist will listen to you and likely be unconcerned with what you're wearing at the moment . . .
That's good to know....
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Got my eyebrows waxed today!
You look like you're trying to look up at your eyebrows to get a view of them haha ;D
Looking great!
Getting back online today and finding out Cindy's operation went well and she was doing okay.
Jeanette
Quote from: J2J on March 22, 2017, 08:44:42 PM
That's good to know....
I didn't go to therapy enfem for almost 9 months. I actually did it slowly. Woman's boot cut jeans over low heels. Etc.. when I finally went total she said I looked liberated and happy
The last two days have been great. Tuesday was the first laser hair removal appointment which went extremely well, no pain and lasted about 25 mins.
Wednesday was my 3 month HRT appointment and got all the blood test back. Dr was surprised, T levels dropped from 21 to 7 on a moderate dose of Spiro. He said this is very rare and has only seen this a couple times.. Of coarse I have zero complaints. My dosage has now been doubled and I feel fantastic. Im on the right path in my life now and its full speed ahead. Anyone else feel this giddy? I have been reborn and its awesome. Party time.
Hanging out with an old friend last night, she ran into some old friends and introduced my. The left to go to another drinking establishment. One of them had dropped his wallet and I volunteered to take it to him. Upon giving it to him, he called me a goddess!
Quote from: Yuusui on March 23, 2017, 10:44:23 AM
... he called me a goddess!
What a nice compliment! That would have given me the warm fuzzies.
Today I am in Vegas for a shopping spree with my friend Dee. So far, very successful. I probably could have done this at home but without any help. I want to give kudos to Ulta in Henderson. They have two androginess guys who were so helpful and did not make me feel I was not welcome there. Overall a great week
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Went for a drink and some grub with a friend and didn't get in a fight or anything :)
So pleased that I can go to "normal" places without having to worry now
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This may not sound like much, but my wife invited me to join her friends for dinner on Friday. Maybe there is hope.
Also had my first voice lesson today. (First one is free.) I might actually be able to get this right.... Eventually. BTW-what do people pay usually for an hour of voice lessons. I'm about to pay $80/hour.
Hi Denise!!!
I payed double that per hour to a local speech pathologist who had done graduate work in TG voice learning... So 80 sounds like a deal to me!... Not sure what others pay!!!... Congrats on the dinner with the ladies!!!!... Little thing? Nope!!!... Awesome thing!!!! Bask in the glow sister!!!!
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Had my first appt. with my endocrinologist today. He immediately doubled my dosages from what my GP was willing to prescribe me. "Well, that won't do much", was his first observation. I think I'm going to like this guy!
Quote from: tgirlamc on March 23, 2017, 06:07:53 PM
Hi Denise!!!
I payed double that per hour to a local speech pathologist who had done graduate work in TG voice learning... So 80 sounds like a deal to me!... Not sure what others pay!!!... Congrats on the dinner with the ladies!!!!... Little thing? Nope!!!... Awesome thing!!!! Bask in the glow sister!!!!
Onward we go!!!!
Ashley :)
Actually mixed gender group and possibly other spouses. But thanks, I agree.
Today I had a follow up appointment after being on hormones for four months and it went great! My doctor is happy with my progress and we decided to keep the dosages the same for the time being. She took measurements for the first time since I have started. I have gained an inch in my hips and there has been a definite increase in my breasts!
This is evening I had to go to the mall to get my phone fixed. I was amazed by the number of people I passed that either smiled at me or smiled and said hello. I must be carrying myself differently. My wife says I really look like myself.
I now have appointments for consults to set up FFS and GCS.
This made me very happy today.
Quote from: Michelle_P on March 23, 2017, 11:26:14 PM
I now have appointments for consults to set up FFS and GCS.
This made me very happy today.
I would think so!! Very Happy. Are you dancing or floating?
Hugs
Jeanette
I finally got rid of those pesky testosterone making machines that kept getting in the way. I am so excited as well in a slight amount of pain, but ready to lower or eliminate my spiro when possible.
Quote from: Josilyn on March 24, 2017, 01:01:00 AM
I finally got rid of those pesky testosterone making machines that kept getting in the way. I am so excited as well in a slight amount of pain, but ready to lower or eliminate my spiro when possible.
I'm happy for you! Can't wait for my turn. Unfortunately, my PCP says he's keeping me on spiro even after an orchie. He likes how it controls my blood pressure.
So did the charity thing today as Davina and to me was a success but the best thing was it let me be myself. I needed that and it makes me want to come out fully with confidence
Quote from: Denise on March 23, 2017, 05:49:58 PM
This may not sound like much, but my wife invited me to join her friends for dinner on Friday. Maybe there is hope.
Dinner tonight was with 11 other people. Everyone treated me as I was just one of the gang. Only a few pronoun mix-ups, not unexpected. The thing that was unexpected was my inner social anxiety - GONE. This is the one group that I always feel that I was acting. Not tonight. It was fun and we went out to drinks later and had a good time.
Time for bed since I have a laser treatment about 90 miles away on the other side of Chicago tomorrow morning.
I'm in love.. And she feels it too :)
Got my very first tattoo yesterday afternoon <3 It's one I've wanted for a very VERY long time, and now it's mine. Designed it myself, and my brother drew it up on his computer. Like most things, I slept through most of it. (Aside from making silly faces at my girlfriend across the parlor XP) There was very little in the way of pain, just a HOT sensation and vibration on the tattoo site from the gun. The artist was super nice too, we got to chit chatting about REPO! the Genetic Opera, and music/concerts.
Pics;
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,215541.msg1961720.html#msg1961720
I looked in the mirror this morning and saw a tiny spec of girl looking back at me. All my the work that I have done and the HRT seem to be finally catching up... /sohappy
I told yesterday a very old friend about my transition. I phoned him, and told him I have an important news for you. He answered back "did you become a grand father?" I said no so continued with the second question "Have you changed Gender?" I answered Yes. then he told "That was a joke!" He was very happy for me and he told me he was not surprised. Love him.
Have a nice day
Quote from: Angela Drakken on March 25, 2017, 09:54:20 AM
Got my very first tattoo yesterday afternoon <3 It's one I've wanted for a very VERY long time, and now it's mine. Designed it myself, and my brother drew it up on his computer. Like most things, I slept through most of it. (Aside from making silly faces at my girlfriend across the parlor XP) There was very little in the way of pain, just a HOT sensation and vibration on the tattoo site from the gun. The artist was super nice too, we got to chit chatting about REPO! the Genetic Opera, and music/concerts.
Pics;
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,215541.msg1961720.html#msg1961720
Looks great :)
Seeing myself in the mirror, wearing one of my new-ish outfits :3
Waking up with out dysporia or shame and loving the girl that I am :)
I think we found a new apartment today unless we think better of it before we sign the lease. It's in a nearby toney historical district. The nearest neighbors are a trolley museum, a maritime museum, several good restaurants and a gallery!
Went shopping, and the sales people were so nice to me. Small things matter.
Yesterday I had a great day in the Pride in Lake Worth FL. In the morning we paraded with all my local family. In the afternoon I was volunteering with th Compass GGC, the official Palm Beach district LGBT support.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on March 26, 2017, 02:45:08 PM
I think we found a new apartment today unless we think better of it before we sign the lease. It's in a nearby toney historical district. The nearest neighbors are a trolley museum, a maritime museum, several good restaurants and a gallery!
That's great news Dee. I am happy for you. I hope this signals an upturn in your affairs.
Hugs,
Jeanette
Went to the VW show yesterday wearing bra and panties, stretch jeans , and a ladies t top but hidden under a hoodie
Pizza+wine at work! I don't even know what the celebration was about :D
(most people would say "pizza+beer" and there certainly was but I don't like beer)
Quote from: JeanetteLW on March 27, 2017, 03:42:22 PM
That's great news Dee. I am happy for you. I hope this signals an upturn in your affairs.
Hugs,
Jeanette
Thank you! I'm really excited. There's ma restaurant across the street that does southern. They have oyster poboy, yum! Hope they have Turbodog.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on March 27, 2017, 08:16:16 PM
Thank you! I'm really excited. There's ma restaurant across the street that does southern. They have oyster poboy, yum! Hope they have Turbodog.
You mean oysters can be had some place other than Oregon? Never had an oyster po boy though, Nor have I had a Turbodog. (a beer or ale isn't it?) We have a Ma's restaurant up here but probably not the same as yours.. Methinks thou liveth in a strange place. LOL
Just glad you've got a roof over your head.
Hugs,
Jeanette
I put on a bra and panties and didn't feel ashamed!
Finishing another two 2 hour long electrolysis sessions. The sessions didn't make me happy; the final results did.
My upper and lower lip, chin, and left cheek from jawline to top of the ear are completely clear, and the right cheek is clear to the bottom of the ear. I'm so happy right now I keep crying a bit from joy, and keep touching my face. It's tender but smooth.
And then "Wings" by Jeff Williams comes on:
"One life is not a long time; when you're waiting for a small sign..."
Time for a little wine and dark chocolate, I think.
I have been texting with a man I met on a dating site and tonight we met for drinks and dinner. It was a very enjoyable evening. We talked about our families, our jobs and lives. He was funny and very interesting. He laughed at all of my jokes and said he was having a great time. At the end of the evening he paid for dinner. He asked me out again for Friday night and I am looking forward to going out again. 😃
Michelle....Oh hell yes I can relate to the electrolysis....
I just finish having my Neck cleared and my left cheek. We spent most of the time on the cheek but she kept going and doing work on area under my jaw line
It feels great...a bit bumpy but smooth......it makes all the pain and discomfort worth while....I haven't shaved my next for 4 days as I wanted her to deal with anything left and she counted 30 hairs apart from some regrowth that after 4 days was still not long enough for her to work with...yahoo!!!!! It a great feeling to finally get that progress...congrats for you, it feels just great!!
Liz
It wasn't today per-se, but me and the girlfriend went shopping last night and I wore my new black stretch pants to the store.
Little steps, but I cant go "too far" in this town.
Quote from: JeanetteLW on March 27, 2017, 08:25:42 PM
You mean oysters can be had some place other than Oregon? Never had an oyster po boy though, Nor have I had a Turbodog. (a beer or ale isn't it?) We have a Ma's restaurant up here but probably not the same as yours.. Methinks thou liveth in a strange place. LOL
Just glad you've got a roof over your head.
Hugs,
Jeanette
"Ma" was a mistype, it was supposed to me "a". Turbodog is a beer, yes, and oyster poboy is a sandwich of fried oysters with remoulade. Cajun/Creole food. A strange and wonderful place, sadly with too much snow.
Braved it up, went shopping on my own. Loved driving with my new sunglasses on and the window/ roof open. Summer Sammie :)
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I was born in Virginia, but haven't lived there since I was 1 year old way back in 1964. The one piece of paperwork I was planning on never being able to change was my birth certificate. It turns out they changed the process in February and now it looks like I will be able to change everything!
Quote from: Yuusui on March 28, 2017, 07:45:35 AM
I was born in Virginia, but haven't lived there since I was 1 year old way back in 1964. The one piece of paperwork I was planning on never being able to change was my birth certificate. It turns out they changed the process in February and now it looks like I will be able to change everything!
Yay and congratz!! I changed my birth certificate last year after the HB2 fervor began sweeping the country. I had never planned on doing it, because it was unnecessary since I had my passport. But these dragonian bathroom bills made me go through the process. My Mom even encouraged me to get this done. I was fortunate to have been born in Denver, so the process was relatively easy. :)
Quote from: Inarasarah on March 28, 2017, 10:28:33 AM
Yay and congratz!! I changed my birth certificate last year after the HB2 fervor began sweeping the country. I had never planned on doing it, because it was unnecessary since I had my passport. But these dragonian bathroom bills made me go through the process. My Mom even encouraged me to get this done. I was fortunate to have been born in Denver, so the process was relatively easy. :)
Thanks! Up until recently I wasn't going to be able to do it since I do not plan on surgery.
Quote from: Floof on March 25, 2017, 04:24:59 AM
I'm in love.. And she feels it too :)
Amazing news, Floof! I'm so happy for you!!!
cheeked out Deed Poll for name change (UK government web site) and found its easy then checked a link to driving licence and found it also lists gender change!!!! Looks easy to sort then
Saw Craig David in concert tonight he looked directly at me and gave me a thumbs up as I pointed to him. I'm on cloud 9!
Two things happened today that made me really happy. I was completely dressed in the clothes of my true gender.
1.
I was in a department store and picked up a skirt to try on. I walked to the fitting room. The young lady there gave me a card with '1' written on it. I then turned to the left to walk into the fitting room. The young lady told me 'NO! You go right.' I had not noticed the sign indicating men to the left and women to the right. I assumed because I was in the women's clothing section of the store that I could have gone left or right.
2.
I was in a greengrocer's shop. The woman standing next to me reached out at the same time I did and went to pick up the same carrot. The was a mutual laugh and smile.
In neither case did either of the women show any sign of recognition as to who I was. I was really pleased and happy.
Happy hugs,
Bronwen.
I received my first correspondence addressed to "Dear Ms. Xxxxxxx" (sorry not sharing my last name). I've been called Alyssa quite a bit already but this is the first time I've had written communication from a company I do business with refer to me as Ms. Such a silly little thing but yet so huge in it's affirmation that I'm headed down the right road.
My stress level today is at an all time low.
Quote from: AlyssaJ on March 29, 2017, 10:52:33 AM
I received my first correspondence addressed to "Dear Ms. Xxxxxxx" (sorry not sharing my last name). I've been called Alyssa quite a bit already but this is the first time I've had written communication from a company I do business with refer to me as Ms. Such a silly little thing but yet so huge in it's affirmation that I'm headed down the right road.
Way Coooooool Ms Xxxxxxx! Yes I can see the smiles in your words Alyssa.
Hugs,
Jeanette
I filed the paperwork to change my name and gender today!
After 3 months of visiting my therapist, I attended my first local transgender group meeting in Minneapolis. I was very nervous before the meeting but the girls there were awesome and it was very well organized. I'm looking forward to the next meeting in two weeks.
I love support groups and would PM you to get the contact info about the Minneapolis group but that can't happen till you get 15 posts. I live in Oregon but grew up and visit Minneapolis frequently.
Good for you for getting out there girl!
Quote from: Ellen G on April 02, 2017, 07:38:07 AM
After 3 months of visiting my therapist, I attended my first local transgender group meeting in Minneapolis. I was very nervous before the meeting but the girls there were awesome and it was very well organized. I'm looking forward to the next meeting in two weeks.
I was the one that had to leave the meeting early. Glad you could make it!
And todays happiness is brought to you by my court date being scheduled for name and gender change on April 26th and my doctor has my ACT letter done for the date!
Quote from: Tessa James on April 02, 2017, 01:32:21 PM
I love support groups and would PM you to get the contact info about the Minneapolis group but that can't happen till you get 15 posts. I live in Oregon but grew up and visit Minneapolis frequently.
Good for you for getting out there girl!
I believe a newbie can reply to your PM, even before they get to 15.
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New color on the finger nails. Dark blue with a little sparkle. I like it.
I'm really feeling good about where I am in life.
As they say - Better living through Chemicals.
Big one for me today. I received my new full validity passport in the mail today, with the correct Female gender marker!
So excited, and relieved. The passport was the last big gender marker change that I am able to do pre-op.
I'm so relieved to have the passport stuff done. With the new US administration there was suddenly a very hot fire lit under my butt. And also nice to be done with all the legal crap. I would not wish that on anyone.
Congrats Brooke! I know that each time I received a new piece of ID, I was ecstatic! Many tears of joy were shed!
Quote from: islandgirl on April 04, 2017, 07:46:37 PM
Congrats Brooke! I know that each time I received a new piece of ID, I was ecstatic! Many tears of joy were shed!
Thank you! I can most certainly relate to the tears of joy. So interesting how meaningful and validating an ID can be. What is taken for granted by the vast majority is a complete game changer for us.
Definitely worth celebration!
Definitely! Enjoy!
I bought three new bras today. Not a big deal except that my old ones are compressive sports bras to minimize my assets under male clothes; the new ones are padded to enhance them under female clothes. Planning to go full-time in about three weeks! :)
I got my fingerprints done in preparation for my legal name change. I now have a document from the cops with my fingerprints, my new name (and the old one), and a little "F" in the box for sex! That F has no legal standing at all, it's just there because there was a box on the form, but I like it. :)
Submitted a HR Ticket for preferred name and gender change at work...
Quote from: sarah1972 on April 05, 2017, 10:52:13 AM
Submitted a HR Ticket for preferred name and gender change at work...
HUGE! Did they know ahead of time?
Quote from: Denise on April 05, 2017, 10:54:35 AM
HUGE! Did they know ahead of time?
Haha - No! Thought I surprise them a little bit. Discovered an option in our HR portal a few weeks ago to change the preferred name / gender and this morning I finally had the courage to do it.
Will be interesting to see what happens.
Quote from: sarah1972 on April 05, 2017, 12:27:51 PM
....
Will be interesting to see what happens.
OMG - TRIPLE WOW!
In my organization it changes EVERYTHING except payroll and medical. EVERYTHING changed including Email, chat, Security name lookup (If you forget your ID and need security to let you in.... you might want to check on that one), it might trigger a new ID badge request...
I at least warned everyone 10 days before I did it. Please let us know how it goes. I'm very excited for you.
Quote from: Denise on April 05, 2017, 12:57:28 PM
OMG - TRIPLE WOW!
In my organization it changes EVERYTHING except payroll and medical. EVERYTHING changed including Email, chat, Security name lookup (If you forget your ID and need security to let you in.... you might want to check on that one), it might trigger a new ID badge request...
I at least warned everyone 10 days before I did it. Please let us know how it goes. I'm very excited for you.
Ha - too late now. I already saw a ticket to update my email address. This really is happening. Totally excited right now! They did not even call or ask. Too funny.
Quote from: sarah1972 on April 05, 2017, 01:04:16 PM
Ha - too late now. I already saw a ticket to update my email address. This really is happening. Totally excited right now! They did not even call or ask. Too funny.
I have to admit I am also quite scared tonight after the initial excitement. Called a few important people and customers to give them a heads up. So far so good. The tough ones are still on my list...
I wrapped up a system install in record time today thanks to easily trained customers that aren't idiots. Which means I can take care of my other service call customer site a day early (these ones are actually idiots) and probably get home for a 3 day weekend.
I got my surgery recommendation letter today! Woohoo! I swear if someone told me how quickly the 1 year RLE would go I wouldn't believe them. So excited! Time to get some consults booked!
Today I went shopping for a plain top and couldn't resist buying this tee... [emoji4]
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I ran into a coworker in the elevator and she texted my coworker, her boss, to say "She looks so great today!" ^-^
My little brother called me this morning and said he was going to try try and fly in for my name and gender change hearing!
Quote from: Yuusui on April 06, 2017, 05:02:40 PM
My little brother called me this morning and said he was going to try try and fly in for my name and gender change hearing!
That's great!
I went to the dentist yesterday to reschedule my appointment and the long time receptionist was totally awesome and she gave me a fist pump saying "that's great you look great... How are you spelling Denise so I can reschedule your appointment?". (to bad I need them to know me by my legal name for insurance billing proposes)
Very welcoming!
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I was in a local second-hand clothing store that is having a going out of business sale. The old business has already been sold and is being staffed by the new owners to clear out the inventory. So we asked them what will be replacing it.
It's going to be a bra-fitting boutique! Being in boy mode at the time, I resisted the urge to shout "Woo-hoo!!" But I thought it. It will be a great addition to the area. I've got their opening date marked on the calendar, and I intend to be one of their first customers. :)
Had to go to the DMV to change my address on my drivers license. I made an appointment for this morning and it was a great experience. It only took about 15 minutes total time. I was able to get a new picture on my license.....not that I have changed much in the last couple of years.....
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Haha, that's great Jess
The new pic looks great.
Can't wait to update my own sometime in the future :D
I'm happy to have an interview with a job that has benefits. Feeling happy and hopeful.
Quote from: finallyheeled on April 07, 2017, 01:47:36 PM
I'm happy to have an interview with a job that has benefits. Feeling happy and hopeful.
Congratulations. Good luck!
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Quote from: Denise on April 07, 2017, 06:06:21 PM
Congratulations. Good luck!
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Thank you, Denise! I'm really upbeat about it. This will be the job I feel I can transition safely with.
Vera
Quote from: finallyheeled on April 07, 2017, 01:47:36 PM
I'm happy to have an interview with a job that has benefits. Feeling happy and hopeful.
I hope your interview is successful! ❤️❤️
Quote from: Brooke on April 06, 2017, 01:51:26 AM
I got my surgery recommendation letter today! Woohoo! I swear if someone told me how quickly the 1 year RLE would go I wouldn't believe them. So excited! Time to get some consults booked!
Woo Hoo girlfriend! Get them scheduled ASAP because of the wait times.
Quote from: p on April 06, 2017, 12:19:09 PM
I ran into a coworker in the elevator and she texted my coworker, her boss, to say "She looks so great today!" ^-^
What a great validating moment.
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on April 06, 2017, 08:28:32 AM
Today I went shopping for a plain top and couldn't resist buying this tee... [emoji4]
Love this shirt.
It sure is nice to see this thread continuing. I started this probably 3 years ago as a place to share good news. It makes me feel good that I'm sure this has helped lots of members including myself. My best to all of us. Life is good for me....
Went out with friends I've not seen in a while. Black sweater dress, black boots, black leggings, felt great and had as good time.
Did a little sun bathing in a sports bra this afternoon.
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My wife and I went out to the mall today to window shop. We entered a shop and the woman greeting us said to me, "I hope this isn't creepy, but you are very beautiful."
My wife responded good naturedly, "She's with me."
To which the woman says, "Jealous!"
I will point out that I was just wearing leggings and a tunic I never wear makeup.
My wife and i decided to have separate rooms. Now she moved out and today she got her things from our my room. I feel great having the room for myself. It is peaceful and a place to rest. I do love my wife but sexually we have separate agendas.
Quote from: Ella2Marques on April 09, 2017, 08:32:42 PM
My wife and i decided to have separate rooms. Now she moved out and today she got her things from our my room. I feel great having the room for myself. It is peaceful and a place to rest. I do love my wife but sexually we have separate agendas.
Damn. Cannot relate unless I read all your old messages. Good luck.
My amazing daughter got married this weekend.
Quote from: DawnOday on April 10, 2017, 10:59:19 AM
My amazing daughter got married this weekend.
Congratulations. Can you tell us what role you played? Walking down isle, first dance, toast...
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Quote from: Denise on April 10, 2017, 05:05:43 PM
Congratulations. Can you tell us what role you played? Walking down isle, first dance, toast...
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Nothing that elaborate. They wanted to make it legal to finish the purchase of their new home. And to get it done by time the baby comes in July. His mother is ordained. In the amount of time it took to sign some forms. It was all over. They have been together 8 years. They plan to have a formal one later in the year.
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I had my very first counseling/therapy session online. I'm feeling very optimistic, as she said that she can write the letter for me to begin HRT. Super excited! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧
Yesterday, I went for my first wedding dress fitting.. my dress is going to look stunning :D
Took a local lady who wants to transition out to lunch.
We had a proper nice time.
I filed the papers in court to change name and gender marker. Can't wait until the hearing!
Quote from: Josilyn on April 14, 2017, 12:17:36 PM
I filed the papers in court to change name and gender marker. Can't wait until the hearing!
Congratulations! My hearing is on the 26th and I can't wait!
Quote from: Yuusui on April 14, 2017, 01:46:46 PM
Congratulations! My hearing is on the 26th and I can't wait!
Good Luck.. I hope it all goes well! :)
I had my third shift at my part time job today and it was really quite fun :)
I'm cooking my favorite meal... Full blown turkey dinner. I've never done it alone. Please cross all fingers.
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I went out to lunch with a co-worker and her sister. The sister was the nanny of my first two children over 20 years ago. I hadn't seen her in probably 15 years. She couldn't believe how good I looked and gave me big hugs all throughout lunch. It was great seeing her again and her reaction to seeing me was priceless.
I GOT DRUGS!
HRT day 1, yay!
Today, 4th month anniversary HRT. Happy dance....
noleen111, what style is your wedding dress, going to show us pic of it soon?
Today I went to work for the first time after shaving my arms. Noticed some strange looks... I'm pretty sure that some people made comments in my back... But nobody asked me anything, everybody was friendly. It was business as usual. And it felt really good to finally have smooth arms...
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I'm a hostess at hamburger marys & I was telling the DJ a story about my transition and he got a shocked look on his face, said he had no idea I was trans & can usually tell bc most of his friends are trans performers, made me feel passable and happy
Was in Boy's town in Chicago this evening (alone). I was walking down the street (BUSY after a Cubs baseball game) and I was passed by a guy who said something to me (I typically ignore people on the street) and I just kinda grunted something back. He stopped turned around and as I looked back he said - be happy you look fabulous!
Happy with the comment, not happy at the same time. I guess in that part of town I don't pass very well as people are kinda expecting it.
I found out the my insurance will almost certainly pay for voice therapy and electrolysis. I will be trying to confirm it tomorrow.
Quote from: Yuusui on April 16, 2017, 09:24:41 PM
I found out the my insurance will almost certainly pay for voice therapy and electrolysis. I will be trying to confirm it tomorrow.
:o :o :o Lucky you!!! My policy seems to specifically exclude electrolysis as "cosmetic." Can you PM me the details of how you worked this out?
Congrats!!
Quote from: p on April 17, 2017, 03:30:57 PM
:o :o :o Lucky you!!! My policy seems to specifically exclude electrolysis as "cosmetic." Can you PM me the details of how you worked this out?
Congrats!!
I will post it here too since it might help others. Since WPATH recommends it as a treatment for gender dysphoria it should be covered. In my case, I need a doctors recommendation, which shouldn't be a problem since she has helped develop the standards of care. I talked with my insurance company and it wasn't covered unless medically necessary.
https://s3.amazonaws.com/amo_hub_content/Association140/files/Letter%20Re_Medical%20Necessity%20of%20Electrolysis_7-15-15.pdf
Two days ago I went to a first appointment at a hair clinic, in Paris, to plan my hair transplant. There was a female physician and her assistent, both quite young and pretty (early thirties I would guess). When the physician asked me where I would like my hairline, I very hesitantly said that I'm transgender and was looking for a hairline such that it would allow for a nice feminization after surgical hairline advancement (which I know I will need). And they both reacted so naturally, so friendly... It was my first public coming out!!! And it felt sooooo good! [emoji5]
In the meantime, I received an estimate... €4490 (about US $4815) for 6000 implanted hairs by the FUE method, in Budapest (Hungary), including a 3-night stay at a premium flat, lunches, medication and transfers from and to airport. The price is not inclusive of flight to Budapest, but from Brussels, a non-stop round trip would cost €130 ($140), so it's okay. I'm inclined to accept and I will probably doing it in Augustus, at the beginning of a 2-week vacation. Yippee!
Hugs, Sarah
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My previous attempt to post seems to have not posted, so sorry if I end up with two!
I bought my first scrunchie, some clips and a brush today. I don't even have long hair (got made to cut it as a teenager), just a wig when I get a chance. It feels nice though. It has made me happy :)
My first trip out doing errands around town, and I got gendered correctly two for two times. In the jeweller's to pick up a pendant that I had dropped off under my old name, I said I was there to pick up a pendant for Keith. She said he'd have to come in to sign for it himself. Then, taking our cat in for a checkup, the vet thought I was Keith's sister. ;D
Had my fifth laser session today, i have probably 90% gone already.
The girls are so nice to me too, I feel so normal in there.
She was asking if I have a female name and if I would want to change it on the system... How nice :')
Awwwww, that is so nice! Do you get a friendly reaction in most places?
I think that the first time somebody calls me Kaylin to my face, will be one of the happiest times of my life...
forms came from Northhampton GIC yesterday and booked appointment with the GP that's been handling it but that's a week next Wednesday. Got a phone call at work today ,can I call in at docs tonight and sign consent form as they have been sent a set as well, so did that and a different GP is going to fill them in over the weekend. She will call me to discuss them on Monday (have a day off) so they are pushing for me.
Over the last 2 days, 2 people at work said yes ma'am to me. Both from different departments, and both were not told by me about my transition. They did a double take and said sorry, so I don't know if it was habit as most other managers are female, or out of the corner of their eyes I registered female, or someone I told spilled it to them. No mater which way it was, it felt good.
I had to cancel my every two weeks electrolysis appointment- Not Enough Hair! Woohoo!
~Brooke~
Quote from: Kaylin on April 21, 2017, 02:30:03 PM
Awwwww, that is so nice! Do you get a friendly reaction in most places?
I think that the first time somebody calls me Kaylin to my face, will be one of the happiest times of my life...
Yea it really is nice, and yes so far I have only had positive reactions, hopefully that continues.
I received a lovely letter of support and acceptance from my younger brother. I had been worried how he would take my coming out, so I had tears of joy when I read it.
I bought some clip on earrings and a choker... it's the little things :)
I had to smile to myself today. I was in TKMAXX looking for a Summer top. I couldn't find anything in the Women's section, but I found a nice plain top in the men's section!! As I was going to the changing room to try it on, the assistant asked "How many items do you have?" I replied "One", then she said "Women's changing rooms to the right." The crazy thing is that I was dressed in my normal clothes ( skinny jeans, jacket, woolly hat and boots) and that I'm not on HRT yet.
What made me happy today? Coming out to my Aunt, Cousin and Granny today.
They wher all great about, I was shocked. I can't believe my granny, at 90 years old she is unreal :') so full of wisdom, she is just amazing.
They had known something was up, and so I finally came out about what was going on.
See good things happen, its like my sister and aunty and my mum all supportive. So I am happy that at the 5th attempt have managed to paint my nails nicely , well apart from the little finger on right hand that's a bit lumpy but not doing it again
Today has been an excellent day: two happies in the same day.
Someone on another forum I hang out on sent me this message today:
QuoteHi Kathy.
I pulled up your new profile image onto my screen and called my wife.
When she entered the room she immediately says to me "Oh, she is pretty, who is that?"!
The pic he is referring to is the same one that is my current avatar here.
Between my brother's letter (see earlier post) and this PM, I am floating! :)
I'm so happy I'm in tears!!!!!
I have my surgery date!!!! :icon_dance:
May 3rd, 2018 with Dr Bluebond-Langner
Congrats Sidney! Just had mine with Dr. Brassard. Look forward to hearing about your journey!
I bought some of these tight/jean legging things, not sure what exactly they're called but they fit nice and just a standard white tank top thing with a somewhat lose bottom and I nearly cried in the mirror when I put it on, it really gave me a feminine figure and was quite blown away.
Always had quite a big butt and thighs even after I got down to a normal BMI, made me very happy today but it also just adds another "maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't" transition question to add to my head.
Blah, bitter sweet. ???
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on April 24, 2017, 07:56:27 PM
I'm so happy I'm in tears!!!!!
I have my surgery date!!!! :icon_dance:
May 3rd, 2018 with Dr Bluebond-Langner
Congratulations Sydney ! Go do a happy dance.
Hugs,
Jeanette
I am happy this is my last full day with my birth name and gender!
I work in a university library. While sitting behind the front desk this morning a (female) student told me that I'm... really, I wouldn't lie to you... pretty.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on April 24, 2017, 07:56:27 PM
I'm so happy I'm in tears!!!!!
I have my surgery date!!!! :icon_dance:
May 3rd, 2018 with Dr Bluebond-Langner
Amazing news, Sydney! Congrats!!
I have my own little bit of news to share--made my first appointment with the gender therapist! :D
Quote from: p on April 25, 2017, 01:38:43 PM
Amazing news, Sydney! Congrats!!
I have my own little bit of news to share--made my first appointment with the gender therapist! :D
Wow p. That's great! I caught you trying to sneak you announcement right on by everybody.
Hey! Everyone, p has a FIRST gender therapy date set!! Be honest and dont be nervous p
Hugs,
Jeanette
Hair cut, brow threading and laser consultation. Good day :)
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My cousin Chloé found out I am trans now too, and she left me a big long message of support and love. I am so lucky to have people like her in my life :D
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on April 26, 2017, 09:49:23 AM
My cousin Chloé found out I am trans now too, and she left me a big long message of support and love. I am so lucky to have people like her in my life :D
I'm so very happy for you! You deserve to have the support and love. ❤️❤️❤️
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Quote from: Rachel_Christina on April 26, 2017, 09:49:23 AM
My cousin Chloé found out I am trans now too, and she left me a big long message of support and love. I am so lucky to have people like her in my life :D
Aw that's so cute, congrats on your coming out going so well!! :)
Just a silly little one (again),
at German universities (or mine at least) graffiti is so common it's almost encouraged! I was just in a bathroom stall and decided to scribble "Ich bin eine Frau" on the wall.
It means "I am a Woman" :P Gave me a reason to smile :)
Quote from: JeanetteLW on April 25, 2017, 10:17:13 PM
Wow p. That's great! I caught you trying to sneak you announcement right on by everybody.
Hey! Everyone, p has a FIRST gender therapy date set!!
Be honest and dont be nervous p
Hugs,
Jeanette
HA! I see what you're doing there, Jeanette! Don't think you can shift the focus onto me without reminding everyone of your MAKEOVER >:-)
Thanks Amber, and thanks Hannah,... You rebel you!! :')
Quote from: p on April 26, 2017, 12:11:02 PM
HA! I see what you're doing there, Jeanette! Don't think you can shift the focus onto me without reminding everyone of your MAKEOVER >:-)
I have no idea what you are talking about p, none at all. I just wasn't going to let your news pass by unnoticed. That's all. What makeover?
Happy thought this morning... Looking in my girl drawer deciding what I am going to wear today. I opted for skinny jeans and purple striped sweater. My flat sandals, my toes and nails are painted and I have a pendant necklace and earrings on. Life is good. Later I will get in disguise to go out and check the mail, the it's back to girl mode.
Hugs,
Jeanette
Jeez, what is it with my posts not showing up and having to repost hours later? :(
Today I made a GP appointment to get my referral to a gender identity clinic, which will be on Friday as I have another appointment with my university psychologist on Thursday and he is writing me a supporting letter. Also, he now officially calls me 'Kaylin' during our sessions, which is just really special :)
Quote from: Kaylin on April 26, 2017, 03:00:45 PM
Jeez, what is it with my posts not showing up and having to repost hours later? :(
Hi Kaylin,
I used to have this problem. What was happening to me is someone else posted before I hit my post button and this program stops your post to tell you that. Only problem is you do not see this message unless you scroll down a little. scrolling down further gives you the opportunity to hit post a second time and then your post will go through.
You just need to train yourself to scroll down a little to check for that message after you hit post.
Hope that helps.
Jeanette
Quote from: JeanetteLW on April 26, 2017, 03:14:10 PM
Hi Kaylin,
I used to have this problem. What was happening to me is someone else posted before I hit my post button and this program stops your post to tell you that. Only problem is you do not see this message unless you scroll down a little. scrolling down further gives you the opportunity to hit post a second time and then your post will go through.
You just need to train yourself to scroll down a little to check for that message after you hit post.
Hope that helps.
Jeanette
Jeanette, you star, thanks!
I am now legally Michaela Elizabeth and a girl!
Quote from: Yuusui on April 26, 2017, 04:04:19 PM
I am now legally Michaela Elizabeth and a girl!
Woot! Congrats, Michaela!
Congratulations, Michaela! What a grand event. Time to celebrate!
What made me happy today?
1) My therapist. Great ideas to deal with my sleep problems!
2) Sateen sheets. ☺️
Quote from: Yuusui on April 26, 2017, 04:04:19 PM
I am now legally Michaela Elizabeth and a girl!
Congrats Michaela that's great!
I called one of my female friends in Florida tonight and told her about me. It went well.
Hugs,
Jeanette
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on April 26, 2017, 09:49:23 AM
My cousin Chloé found out I am trans now too, and she left me a big long message of support and love. I am so lucky to have people like her in my life :D
Fantastic and many more to come :)
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Today I wore my charm bracelet with a sparkly 'K' charm for the first time. I wore it to my university's bioscience society AGM, including elections for next year's committee. I will be on the committee again this year, as Secretary this time, which is nice! Mostly though, wearing my charm bracelet made me happy. It might seem like a really petty thing but I am entirely in the closet, and that sparkly little K made me feel like I could express myself at least a little bit :)
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My wife and I visited our favourite second-hand clothing store today. The lady behind the counter knows me in my male disguise, and knows that I am trans and am building up my wardrobe. When we entered the store with me presenting as myself, she recognized my wife right away, but had no idea who I was. It took her a full minute to realize that I was me. ;D
I could dress as female for the first time in, like, 6 weeks.
Staff at the dentist are so nice, they call me by my not-yet-legal name and use female pronouns. Plus, the periodontist gave me good news today, my mouth is improving.
I was called ma'am twice at walmart today. That's a first for me. Usually people say sir to me, which I absolutely hate. But at least it's starting to change for me. ;D ;D ;D
Quote from: Jennifer RachaelAnn on April 27, 2017, 07:57:21 PM
I was called ma'am twice at walmart today. That's a first for me. Usually people say sir to me, which I absolutely hate. But at least it's starting to change for me. ;D ;D ;D
Isn't it amazing how people can make us happy by something totally normal to them and they don't even realize what they did. I remember well those early days of my transition when somebody ma'amed me, you might slowly get used to it but the sense of realness never goes away.
Hugs
-Jessica
Quote from: Kaylin on April 27, 2017, 03:58:13 PM
Today I wore my charm bracelet with a sparkly 'K' charm for the first time. I wore it to my university's bioscience society AGM, including elections for next year's committee. I will be on the committee again this year, as Secretary this time, which is nice! Mostly though, wearing my charm bracelet made me happy. It might seem like a really petty thing but I am entirely in the closet, and that sparkly little K made me feel like I could express myself at least a little bit :)
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It's the little things that bring comfort that count. ;)
Quote from: Yuusui on April 26, 2017, 04:04:19 PM
I am now legally Michaela Elizabeth and a girl!
That's so awesome for you!
I'm starting to actually like my body, at least parts of it. That's such a change.
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OK so im not crazy about that top. Just trying on some blouses my mom gave me a while back. :D
After a few days apart my wife and I are better again. Only time will tell how things progress.
Quote from: josie76 on April 28, 2017, 05:10:16 AM
I'm starting to actually like my body, at least parts of it. That's such a change.
(https://c1.staticflickr.com/3/2823/33507538113_009f748b25_k.jpg) (https://flic.kr/p/T3WTGn)_20170427_103408 (https://flic.kr/p/T3WTGn) by Josie H (https://www.flickr.com/photos/149006210@N03/), on Flickr
OK so im not crazy about that top. Just trying on some blouses my mom gave me a while back. :D
After a few days apart my wife and I are better again. Only time will tell how things progress.
Hi Josie,
I can see things be achanging and getting rounder, but someone seems to have lopped off your head... We would like seeing it too, girl.
Hugs,
Laura or Jeanette not sure yet
Today I secured two very important appointments:
1) June 30 will be my very first consultation with Dr. Bart van de Ven, in Antwerpen, Belgium, to discuss my needs in terms of FFS.
2) August 10-12 will be my hair transplantion (FUE, 6000 grafts) at the HairPalace Clinic, in Budapest, Hungary.
Slowly but surely becoming who I really am... :icon_chick:
First laser skin patch test, ready to start next week or so.
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Found out that the where I go to for being transgender offers Adams apple reduction and voice feminaztion surgery and from what I understand this is even covered by my insurance (not 100% sure though about the insurance part but im fairly certain)
Came out to one of my cousins. Things are going faster than I'd like and it had to be on the phone rather than f2f but it was positive and he was accepting. I wasn't expecting anything less from him anyway. We'll meet in two weeks' time and I guess we'll be able to talk deeper.
Lots of people know about me already, and I am yet to find a rejection. I kinda feel bad for all those people out there who find themselves suddenly isolated because no one would accept them :/
Sometimes alienation is your only choice if you want to live to see tomorrow.
My sister told me my slip was showing.. Ha ha! Fooled her they were pettipants LOL
Hugs,
Laurie? maybe
Things are good. Voice is coming along. Hair is getting longer. People are super friendly. I'm starting to get the pronouns (starting to dissociate with he/him/his/(old name)). Got a manicure today that is awesome. Had a voice support group meeting tonight that went well. My wife and I are getting along (had a big fight on something I screwed up on - big time.. My fault but... Another story).
Life is good.
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Tomorrow is one month for me on HRT. Last night I went to bed and noticed my left nipple felt a little sensitive or irritated. Woke up this morning and most of the lower portion of my left breast is sensitive to the touch and I'm starting to feel shades of the same on my right. Hoping this truly is a sign of the Hormones doing their thing.
Seems silly to be happy and excited about pain, but this is a good soreness to be sure (if it means what I think it means).
I told the another young friend (adult daughter (with 3 kids) of my friends in Missouri ) about me today. I opened with "Ever since I was a kid I have like to wear girl's clothes" her reaction to that was an "Oh really?" I then proceeded to tell her the rest. She is another accepting friend.
Laurie
Shopping for clothes with Randi has become routine, normal. I go into the ladies' room with no trepidation that someone is going to scream "man!' Yes, it still takes a little effort. No laser or electrolysis yet, so I have to shave closely and use makeup, but that's 20 minutes per day, tops. Life is good.
Went to church today and got lots of hugs from the ladies and even a couple of the men. Such a wonderfully friendly and accepting place, I love it!! I was in such a good mood that afterward I went shopping at a nearby Kohl's to get a new purse, some summery shirts and a pair of capri jeans. Almost everyone was super friendly, there were a couple shoppers who maybe kind of kept their distance but didn't say anything. And the cherry on top of all this??? I am now officially down to a size 6 in jeans!!!!
It was the trifecta of wonderfulness today :)
First thing this morning was a great first appointment with a voice therapist. I will be going weekly for the next 6 weeks with more afterwards if needed.
Stopped at the Social Security office to update my information too!
Quote from: Yuusui on May 01, 2017, 11:36:03 AM
First thing this morning was a great first appointment with a voice therapist. I will be going weekly for the next 6 weeks with more afterwards if needed.
Stopped at the Social Security office to update my information too!
Full day. Congratulations.
Today's fortune cookie was:
Allow yourself time -
you will reach success.
I thought that was a good thought for today
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Got lots of thumbs ups from people after this story aired last night on local TV.
Just a trans gal doing her job.
http://www.nbclosangeles.com/investigations/Alleged-Mastermind-Scammer-Makes-First-Court-Appearance-420953053.html
Quote from: I Am Jess on May 02, 2017, 01:51:57 PM
Got lots of thumbs ups from people after this story aired last night on local TV.
Just a trans gal doing her job.
http://www.nbclosangeles.com/investigations/Alleged-Mastermind-Scammer-Makes-First-Court-Appearance-420953053.html
A story about a scammer, did I miss something??
And today, my doctor supplied me with a letter about the medical necessity of facial hair removal for my insurance company! Pretty much the last thing I need to get it covered.
Quote from: Yuusui on May 02, 2017, 02:55:48 PM
And today, my doctor supplied me with a letter about the medical necessity of facial hair removal for my insurance company! Pretty much the last thing I need to get it covered.
Yay! That's big. I got letters from both my doctor and my therapist, just to make sure.
Quote from: KathyLauren on May 02, 2017, 03:20:45 PM
Yay! That's big. I got letters from both my doctor and my therapist, just to make sure.
Insurance covers Hair removal? News to me.
Quote from: Jessika on May 02, 2017, 03:43:56 PM
Insurance covers Hair removal? News to me.
Read your policy: they will vary. Ours specifically covers electrolysis for removal of facial hair on a doctor's prescription, if the hair would cause "extreme emotional trauma".
Quote from: KathyLauren on May 02, 2017, 04:27:11 PM
Read your policy: they will vary. Ours specifically covers electrolysis for removal of facial hair on a doctor's prescription, if the hair would cause "extreme emotional trauma".
Damn, so jealous. My insurance company's transgender policy just straight up says electrolysis and laser hair removal are cosmetic and therefore not covered.
Today, my younger sister, who lives quite far abroad and with whom I have little contact, sent me an e-mail. Apparently, my parents, who are having quite a hard time accepting me being transgender, outed me to her... And I was astonished with her reaction. She writes that she wasn't "that" surprised, but it still was a bombastic news. She told that she'd support my decision and that I can count on her, whatever my parents think. I don't remember crying so much while reading an e-mail... Tears of pure happiness. I don't subscribe to any religion, but at that moment I felt really blessed.
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Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on May 02, 2017, 04:50:51 PM
Today, my younger sister, who lives quite far abroad and with whom I have little contact, sent me an e-mail. Apparently, my parents, who are having quite a hard time accepting me being transgender, outed me to her... And I was astonished with her reaction. She writes that she wasn't "that" surprised, but it still was a bombastic news. She told that she'd support my decision and that I can count on her, whatever my parents think. I don't remember crying so much while reading an e-mail... Tears of pure happiness. I don't subscribe to any religion, but at that moment I felt really blessed.
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Oh wow very cool
Quote from: AlyssaJ on May 02, 2017, 01:59:48 PM
A story about a scammer, did I miss something??
I was the prosecutor who filed the charges against the scammer and was interviewed in the story.
Quote from: I Am Jess on May 02, 2017, 05:46:26 PM
I was the prosecutor who filed the charges against the scammer and was interviewed in the story.
Good for you Jess, wow I love positive stories, your a very capable woman, sure know how to handle yourself and reading that, made me happy today.
It wasn't today but last Monday...but that works anyway. I set a date for SRS surgery with Dr. Meltzer's office for the second week of November and I am kind of excited about it! - Anne
Quote from: Anne Blake on May 03, 2017, 09:49:50 PM
It wasn't today but last Monday...but that works anyway. I set a date for SRS surgery with Dr. Meltzer's office for the second week of November and I am kind of excited about it! - Anne
Congrats Anne! Your time is going to come.
Hugs,
Laurie
https://www.google.com/search?q=Your+Time+Is+Gonna+Come&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
Posted in the wrong section originally...didn't have my glasses on
My wife of 33 years used "She" pronouns when talking about me to my daughter today for the first time ever within my earshot...my stupid head wants to say it was accidental, but I don't care I'll still take it as a positive sign and a first...I didn't say anything but kissed her on the forehead and left her to her conversation ;D ;D
Quote from: Laurie on May 03, 2017, 11:14:21 PM
I think you are confused Liz. This is the "unhappy" thread not the silently ecstatic thread.
Hugs,
Laurie
Thanks Laurie
First post of the day and without my glasses...oh heck I wonder where else I posted...better go check....might be over there, under that pile of MAKEOVER requests projects. Who's name is that on the top.....
I got on the scale this morning and the answer she had for me was a lovely one. I'm down 12.4 pounds since I started HRT. More importantly I'm now at the lowest weight I have been since I was in my 20's. I'm down to 158 and hoping to lose 8 more pounds. At 5'10", 150 I'm hoping I might be able to fit into size 4 jeans. We'll see.
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Am very happy for you Michelle i just started my MTF 3 months a go because of medical research of mitochondrial disease i going to be a girl now to give me more to live for it is a big change for me but am looking forward to the new look of me Michelle i would like to know more about you if i can if its ok by you Michelle please.
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I started on hormones HRT i been on them for 3 months now i have seen my tits getting a bit bigger and sore is the soreness normal can any one answer me back please.
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Quote from: michaeltoppin88 on May 04, 2017, 10:36:37 PM
I started on hormones HRT i been on them for 3 months now i have seen my tits getting a bit bigger and sore is the soreness normal can any one answer me back please.
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Hi Michael,
Oh it's normal alright. Better get used to it as it will last awhile. Congratulations your metamorphosis is beginning!
Hugs,
Laurie
Made a post yesterday about my wife of 30 years finally gendering correctly...I wasn't sure if it was real or an accident...it was real...she did it again today and this time there was no mistaking it. she referred to me as her...god I love that woman!!!
COOOL Liz I know it makes you happy and you even got the right thread this time!!
LOL
Hugs,
Laurie
Interesting LGBT, emphasis on T, event with someone who has a rather rapidly evolving sense of transgender issues and politics, followed by a very nice dinner out punctuated with some rather brutal truths.
I'd call it a productive evening, though.
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Certainly, I am very happy to see positive results from the evening.
Thank you so much laurie for get back with your message it means a lot to me.
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Quote from: michaeltoppin88 on May 05, 2017, 08:52:44 AM
Thank you so much laurie for get back with your message it means a lot to me.
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Just have a clear nail varnish on at the moment, its a repair, strength and build (we shall see). Any way our tempery manager said he was disappointed I didn't have colour on ,made my day.
Got my very first wig today! I feel it was a good choice... What do you girls think? It's not properly styled yet, but it felt so good to look at the mirror! Almost 45 years-old, almost 3 months into HRT, good deal of beard already zapped... Not exactly Milla Jovovich, but it could have been worse, huh? [emoji39]
Hugs, Sarah
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Looks like a pretty good match with your natural colours. I think with some styling it will look really good..You have that nice V shaped face so you can probably pull off just about any length. ;D
Quote from: ElizabethK on May 06, 2017, 05:50:41 AM
Looks like a pretty good match with your natural colours. I think with some styling it will look really good..You have that nice V shaped face so you can probably pull off just about any length. ;D
Thanks Elizabeth! I was so unsure about the color and lenght. I decided to play it safe and ordered a medium length with a color that matched my eyebrows and natural hair. It's much more comfortable than I expected. I don't know if you use a wig, but when I saw myself in the mirror, I thought: "You ARE a girl... And the sky is the limit!" [emoji4]
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Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on May 06, 2017, 06:02:08 AM
Thanks Elizabeth! I was so unsure about the color and lenght. I decided to play it safe and ordered a medium length with a color that matched my eyebrows and natural hair. It's much more comfortable than I expected. I don't know if you use a wig, but when I saw myself in the mirror, I thought: "You ARE a girl... And the sky is the limit!" [emoji4]
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That is all my own hair in my Avatar...took a bit of relocating but every strand is mine LOL
Quote from: ElizabethK on May 06, 2017, 06:06:19 AM
That is all my own hair in my Avatar...took a bit of relocating but every strand is mine LOL
Wow! Lucky you! [emoji4] I've been growing my own hair (Finasteride+Rogaine) with very encouraging results, but I still have a patch of MPB (very triggering in terms of dysphoria). I have a hair transplant scheduled for august. I hope it will be enough, together with the hairline advancement.
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Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on May 06, 2017, 06:40:16 AM
Wow! Lucky you! [emoji4] I've been growing my own hair (Finasteride+Rogaine) with very encouraging results, but I still have a patch of MPB (very triggering in terms of dysphoria). I have a hair transplant scheduled for august. I hope it will be enough, together with the hairline advancement.
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Mine are implants so take heart they will be great ;D
Very nice and sexy!!
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Quote from: ElizabethK on May 05, 2017, 01:14:41 AM
Made a post yesterday about my wife of 30 years finally gendering correctly...I wasn't sure if it was real or an accident...it was real...she did it again today and this time there was no mistaking it. she referred to me as her...god I love that woman!!!
Hi Elizabeth!
Only now did I read the good news! Very happy for you! Been through that experience myself and I confirm that it feels really good. Normally when my wife talks to me, she doesn't say my name, she just talks and it's kind of implicit that she's addresing me. A couple of weeks ago, she called me Sarah... It felt so good and soothing. [emoji7]
Hugs, Sarah
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New Social Security card arrived!
I got asked to do our weekly Friday Fraud Alert video broadcast. I was video recorded for this Friday's Fraud Alert about fraudulent animal rescue organizations today. I may have to respond to press inquires on Friday. It's nice to be recognized for talent and work ability.
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Very nice sexy jess
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Electrolysis today. No, I'm in the right thread. 😃
I did my usual two 2 hour sessions, with the result that my left cheek, upper and lower lip, chin, and left and middle of neck are completely clear, not even any immature hair left. It is sooooo smooth!
I
Even better, the work was all done with a #3 probe with a small tip and extended insulation, at a current less than a third of what was used initially in my beard a year ago. There was almost no discomfort, and minimal redness afterward. This was all thermolysis by the way.
So, for those working through their first hours, know that it gets better.
I look forward to waking tomorrow with my cheek sliding across the pillowcase ever so smoothly.
Quote from: Michelle_P on May 08, 2017, 06:00:41 PM
Electrolysis today. No, I'm in the right thread. 😃
I did my usual two 2 hour sessions, with the result that my left cheek, upper and lower lip, chin, and left and middle of neck are completely clear, not even any immature hair left. It is sooooo smooth!
I
Even better, the work was all done with a #3 probe with a small tip and extended insulation, at a current less than a third of what was used initially in my beard a year ago. There was almost no discomfort, and minimal redness afterward. This was all thermolysis by the way.
So, for those working through their first hours, know that it gets better.
I look forward to waking tomorrow with my cheek sliding across the pillowcase ever so smoothly.
Fantastic...you have done incredibly well
I now have my name on my savings account, debit card and credit card. :)
I went into Home Depot today to get some lumber, presenting as Kathy for the first time there. You know how you can never find a sales person when you need one? I discovered that it is much easier when you are a woman. :) I didn't even have to pull the lumber off the stacks myself; the nice fellow did it for me and passed each piece to me to load on the car.
Okay, it's misogynistic as heck, but it was fun anyway.
Went grocery shopping in my local budget German supermarket and found 3/4 leggings at a silly price, wearing them now with my loooong to the floor split sided shirt dress . Comfy, also found some insoles for my ankle boots that I have been after for ages
Quote from: KathyLauren on May 09, 2017, 08:49:22 AM
I went into Home Depot today to get some lumber, presenting as Kathy for the first time there. You know how you can never find a sales person when you need one? I discovered that it is much easier when you are a woman. :) I didn't even have to pull the lumber off the stacks myself; the nice fellow did it for me and passed each piece to me to load on the car.
Okay, it's misogynistic as heck, but it was fun anyway.
Last winter one day I went to a Home Depot with my mother in law. We couldn't walk through a single section without somebody asking us if we needed help. I know I could not have passed that day but I had skinny jeans, a nice top with a cartagan sweater, sock hat, oh and deep purple nails. Yeh, it was a totally different experience.
I should title this WHOOPS... but I'm still smiling.
I walked down to the local Big-Box strip mall and went into Best Buy looking for a cable (man are they over priced!) then at PCs. I was/am wearing "men's sneakers", woman's jeans and a woman's jacket - Nothing but ma'am throughout the store. :)
Now the whoops - went to Marshall's (Discount clothes etc...) and found four tops I wanted to try on. WARNING - The Dressing rooms DO have a men's and woman's side. I didn't see the sign and Murphy's law wins out again...I went to the men's side. The attendant didn't know what to do. She was totally flustered when I went to the wrong side. The look on her face was one I'll not forget. I'm still laughing about it after walking home.
It made me smile.
Hello,
So I had to call the police yesterday to report something. I was extremely sick and my throat was so swollen that I could barely get any sound out. Even though I sounded like complete cr@p, the officer still gendered me female before I even old him my name! :) :) Even though I physically felt really bad, that made me really happy. Especially since I haven't had voice surgery or training and I hate how I sound on recordings. I guess I'm doing something right!
My mom saw one of those "Daughters Week" posts on Facebook (link below) and shared it with me and my two sisters via FB Messenger. Underneath the video she wrote "I love my precious daughters". Yes there were water works going over here after that.
https://www.facebook.com/Housekeeping101com/videos/1937595469845532/ (https://www.facebook.com/Housekeeping101com/videos/1937595469845532/)
How Cool is that...very special moment for you ;D
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How Cool is that...very special moment for you ;D
Yes despite the pain she's experiencing related to losing her son, my mom has been amazing. Felt so good today just to be referred to as one of her daughters.
Last night I went to a meeting of the local astronomy club as Kathy for the first time. Most of the people there were aware of my transition, since I had announced it on an email list that most of them are on.
One lady that I particularly wanted to talk to because she had been extra kind to me was busy talking to someone else when I came in, so I just sat down nearby waiting for the meeting to start. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder, and a voice saying "Hi there. I don't think we've met." I turned around and my friend did a double-take as I introduced myself as Kathy. ;D
She later apologized for not recognizing me. I told her not to worry, that it was actually quite flattering. We had a good laugh about it.
Stopped at a gas station on the way home from church today to get fuel and pickup some milk. I waited in line to check out. The cashier said "Hello can I help you" and in my best female voice (which I've been practicing) I replied "Hi how are you". Looking right at me, without missing a beat, she said "I'm good, happy Mothers' day".
Now I don't let my kids call me mom (that's been covered in another thread) out of respect for their mother. But this exchange was exciting to me because either she didn't clock me (at least right away) or if she did she still looked at me as female, at least enough so to wish me a happy Mother's Day.
Quote from: AlyssaJ on May 14, 2017, 10:48:22 AMLooking right at me, without missing a beat, she said "I'm good, happy Mothers' day".
But this exchange was exciting to me because either she didn't clock me (at least right away) or if she did she still looked at me as female, at least enough so to wish me a happy Mother's Day.
Wow congratulations girl!!! Gotta feel good.
My very BFF Moni, went through her pre-op SRS appointment with no problems and is now set for her surgery in June. This is something that will make her the woman she has always known she is and I am so happy for her that this final step for her is now in place.
Went out one on one with a gal that I have only ever been in group situations before. We had the most amazing time talking. Since starting hormones, I have not only come out of my shell, I have no idea where the shell is anymore.
As we were parting, she says, "New friends are the best!"
I couldn't agree more.
Watching the confusion on folks faces as they clock the nails and studs
The last two days have been pretty rough due to a family crisis. So today in my session with my therapist, first she gave me some good ideas for how I can try to help solve that crisis, but then she also gave me an assignment. She told me to go out and focus on the good things I could find for the rest of the day. So I did.
Today is the first really good weather day we've had this season, 80+ degrees and sunny. So on good thing I noticed that helped me feel better is just the joy of driving with the windows open and letting the wind blow through your hair. Now unfortunately "my hair" is still a wig when out as Alyssa, but it was still somehow enjoyable just the same.
The second thing I focused on was again enjoying the weather. This time it was sitting in the little gazebo next to the river that runs past my therapist's office. I sat for a little while just enjoying the sound of the nearby waterfall and looking at how green everything is now and it really lifted my spirits. So I decided to take a few pics.
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I told my entire Social work team at work (30 women and two guys) about a week ago that I was going to transition very slowly over the next twelve months but not my dressing style, as I see no reason to do so yet. But in time it will be tweaked to accommodate changes to my body.
Today the last person in the department/area I work with returned from her annual leave. She is the one I was most concerned with as she is an old school bible basher with extremely outdated ways of thinking about things. I watched her go into her office and hit play on a video I made for everyone, then I fled to see a client.
Before I left for the day she sent me the following in an email.
"Thank you for sharing this - it took guts and I respect that.
You are loved by this team and no one will treat you any differently you are a part of our little family now. But should ANYONE give you concern I assure you we are here beside you and it will be dealt with.
By the way I think you need to work on your eyebrows. I can recommend a very nice girl in town. I left you a gift too in the top drawer"
:) I am so relieved she was on board. Also the item was $20 dollars with a sticky note that read, "If you are not ready to dress differently then at least take this and when you feel it is time gets your ears pierced on me. It is a small gift but one you deserve."
What a lovely story, Sarah! Don't you love it when people surprise you in a good way?
My mother-in-law told me that she is really trying to remember to call me Jennifer. She said that she had known me for so long by my male name, that it was just a bit difficult to remember. Which is to be expected in my opinion. when you have known someone for almost 13 years under one identity, it can obviously be difficult to rewire everything. But at least she's trying!
Also, I wanted to post this before but I'm constantly forgetting to. I loaned her a book that could probably help a lot of people. Whether you read it for your own purposes or to loan to someone to help them understand is up to you.
Transsexuals: Candid Answers To Private Questions by Gerald Ramsey PhD.
I may have the exact title a bit wrong, but it should be easy to find. Amazon it or google it.
Revealing myself in front of another person besides looking in a mirror.
Quote from: AlyssaJ on May 16, 2017, 05:43:19 PM
The last two days have been pretty rough due to a family crisis. So today in my session with my therapist, first she gave me some good ideas for how I can try to help solve that crisis, but then she also gave me an assignment. She told me to go out and focus on the good things I could find for the rest of the day. So I did.
Today is the first really good weather day we've had this season, 80+ degrees and sunny. So on good thing I noticed that helped me feel better is just the joy of driving with the windows open and letting the wind blow through your hair. Now unfortunately "my hair" is still a wig when out as Alyssa, but it was still somehow enjoyable just the same.
The second thing I focused on was again enjoying the weather. This time it was sitting in the little gazebo next to the river that runs past my therapist's office. I sat for a little while just enjoying the sound of the nearby waterfall and looking at how green everything is now and it really lifted my spirits. So I decided to take a few pics.
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80 degrees is a real head sweater with a wig on. Glad you got to enjoy yourself even for a short while. I really admire your courage and your decision to seek a therapist. Makes all the difference in the world doesn't it.
It's the first really hot day since I transitioned and I get to wear a skirt to work.
:icon_dance: WOO HOO!!! :icon_dance:
Something I've been yearning to do for like forever!
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I went to the doctor today for a knee injury. They wanted to take an X-ray to make sure nothing severe was wrong. The first thing the tech asked me was, "Is there any chance you are pregnant?"
My cutie pie Cleopatra just went through a surgical intervention (thankfully it was a minor issue not involving any risk) and is already recovering at home really well!
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Isn't her one of the most gorgeous kitties you had ever seen? <3
She is indeed Wednesday!!! Glad she is on the mend!! So gorgeous!!! I have a little blind furry princess and our neighbor's orange male kitty has decided he likes it at our house better!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
Quote from: tgirlamc on May 19, 2017, 04:05:10 PM
She is indeed Wednesday!!! Glad she is on the mend!! So gorgeous!!! I have a little blind furry princess and our neighbor's orange male kitty has decided he likes it at our house better!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
Awww!! Got pics of them??? Wanna see!!!
Coincidence Cleo's today procedure was intended to remove a little scar/necrotic tissue from her right eye (cornea).
Quote from: Wednesday on May 19, 2017, 04:17:39 PM
Awww!! Got pics of them??? Wanna see!!!
Coincidence Cleo's today procedure was intended to remove a little scar/necrotic tissue from her right eye (cornea).
Hi Wednesday!!!!
Here ya go!!!.... Our little bond princess Katie Kat and our "neighbors" cat who eats multiple meals here everyday and spends the night about 5-6 notes a week!!!
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Picked up my print of Christina's World from the framers. I wish that I didn't have so much problems posting pictures, I would love to show everyone. I have had my prints and paintings moved around to give an opening for months, just have been looking for the right combination of matting and frame. It's perfect and I can't stop smiling. 😊
Quote from: tgirlamc on May 19, 2017, 07:10:50 PM
Hi Wednesday!!!!
Here ya go!!!.... Our little bond princess Katie Kat and our "neighbors" cat who eats multiple meals here everyday and spends the night about 5-6 notes a week!!!
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Aw, they're so cute!!! <3
I got a 2.28 mile walk in today with a short walk to the store.
No Moni it wasn't in heels. I did it in male mode.
Laurie
Bending the subject a little... Four different female friends (all know my history) asked where I shop for clothes because "I always look nice". That's what happens when you buy a complete wardrobe from scratch.
But the best complement was the first person I came out to at work (I'm full time now) stopped mid conversation leaned in closer for a better look and said "nice job on the make up. It looks natural and compliments your features well." Since she's one of the higher maintenance friends I have, it was an awesome compliment.
The past week has been awesome.
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After what was an amazingly horrible week (we had to put my beloved cat, Kitaro down), my new drivers license arrived! Now I can send off for my revised birth certificate!
Celebrating the second anniversary of my name and gender change!!
Yesterday was the first time I wore a dress since I came out. The weather was perfect for it and I felt amazing.
Just returned from a 45 minute walk en femme 2.3 miles in the public eye.
Hugs,
Laurie
Not trans related but I'm happy that work was over and I didn't tell my boss off for giving me more ridiculous projects that cannot be done because our software is one step above completely non-functioning.
Quote from: SapphireLotus on May 22, 2017, 11:37:57 PM
Not trans related but I'm happy that work was over and I didn't tell my boss off for giving me more ridiculous projects that cannot be done because our software is one step above completely non-functioning.
Looks like it's not your fault. If so, don't worry! I've learned to stop caring about the lack of competence and focus by the people Up There. I can deliver good stuff, but if asked sh*t, I can also deliver good sh*t. I get paid nevertheless.
What made me happy today, well working from home :)
I HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT!!!
I'm down almost 21 pounds since I started HRT back in March. I'm down 2 jeans sizes and 3 dress sizes since then. Nice healthy BMI of 21, I'm super excited!!
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My kitty got the stitches from her surgery removed this morning! She healed really nice!!! Watering in both eyes stopped completely and know she opens them fully! <3
Quote from: AlyssaJ on May 25, 2017, 12:11:56 PM
I HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT!!!
I'm down almost 21 pounds since I started HRT back in March. I'm down 2 jeans sizes and 3 dress sizes since then. Nice healthy BMI of 21, I'm super excited!!
Operation Bikini completed! :D
I'm still a few lbs ago from my BMI goal (18-19), but on my way!
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Operation Bikini completed! :D
I'm still a few lbs ago from my BMI goal (18-19), but on my way!
Aww yeah, you know it!! Now if I just had the boobs to fill one out :) Oh well, ain't gonna stop this girl.
Quote from: AlyssaJ on May 25, 2017, 12:57:07 PM
Aww yeah, you know it!! Now if I just had the boobs to fill one out :) Oh well, ain't gonna stop this girl.
:D Just have a little more patience!
Told my father and his wife todsy that I'm transgender and has started HRT. They were happy for me but said that I should have done this much earlier.☺
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Somehow managed to make it to 56
Quote from: I Am Jess on May 25, 2017, 10:49:10 PM
Somehow managed to make it to 56
Happy Birthday, Jess! !sseJ ,yadhtriB yppaH
Ther hope tou had a great birthday forward and backwards Jess.
Hugs,
Laurie
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!!! I hit the 56 mark about three weeks ago... Just a number!!! :)
Quote from: tgirlamcJust a number!!! :)
That is what I always say! :D
Quote from: tgirlamc on May 26, 2017, 12:53:39 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!!! I hit the 56 mark about three weeks ago... Just a number!!! :)
That's what all the 20 somethings say when they hit on me on the dating sites, usually followed up with "you're what 35." lol
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes. It was a fantastic day!!!
OMG I had a lot of good things happen to me today that made me happy:
- I went to the OB/GYN and she doubled my dosage putting me in-line with the clinical guides!
- I went shopping for new jeans today and bought my first ever pair of size 3 jeans!!
- I had 3 different women compliment me on my shoes, 2 of them told me they wished they could wear "sexy shoes" like them, including the phlebotomist
However the one I like the most I just noticed a little while ago. My health group like most out there uses Epic and have the MyChart web interface. So tonight I logged in to get the results of my bloodwork and noticed the system now greets me with "Hello Alyssa J <last-name>". How freakin' cool is that?!?!?
BTW, if anyone is interested, these are the shoes I wore today that got all the attention:
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Got my name and gender legally changed!!!
Quote from: Ejo on May 26, 2017, 09:56:37 PM
Got my name and gender legally changed!!!
Congratulations! I've got the paperwork ready to file - I'm not sure why I haven't started the process.
I realized today that I don't think about my gender anymore. Sure I think about all the trans-related stuff but the little voice saying "you should be a girl" have totally vanished and it HAS NOT been replaced by an evil twin.
My mother-in-law, a supportive person who's always been straightforward with me, said, "You know, you look much more like a girl than a boy now." Her way of saying my social transition is progressing, and my presence is more feminine than not.
Then, at the coffee klatch after UU church services, a friend told me that she admired my wardrobe choice, a tan-pink drape 3/4 sleeve t-top and matching wide-leg pant with a beige closed toe sandal. She also said that I seem much more feminine than when I first started going there last November. Wow!
On top of that, I tried on a new dress off the sale rack, and saw a woman in the mirror, not the formerly inevitable DIAD.
Nothing like a day of affirmation!
That does sound like an very affirming day Michelle... As well as some good wardrobe choices!!! I have spoken to a couple groups at our local UU church. I was very impressed... Great bunch of folks!!!
Ashley :)
I got spontaneously "Mam'ed" by a stranger ...All I could think was I got Mam'ed, I got Mam'ed, :icon_boogy: :icon_boogy: I got Mam'ed, I got Mam'ed, :icon_boogy: :icon_boogy: I got Mam'ed, I got Mam'ed :icon_boogy: :icon_boogy: I......GOT......MAM'ED!! ;D ;D
Yesterday it was my birthday, and it was amazing, first time any of my cousin's and Aunt or Granny seen me as a girl.
It was really great, I was even great by the guys as a girl.
This was how I was dressed
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I was afraid ther may be an awkward air, but it was super chill. The air was probably even more chill than usual, I was more relaxed as a girl.
My GF made an amazing cake for me, I had no Idea, she spent like two days making this while I played Xbox lol
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It was the best day ever, best birthday ever I can't believe my luck when it comes to my family, (my granny is 90 and accepting)
And to top all that I had my next appointment with the endocrinologist today early in the morning, health is perfect and my T has been at 0 from the very start, I have never needed a bigger dose.
She will also contact my SRS surgeon to talk with him about my plans. She knows him too.
They all called me she too. I do these activities as a girl now, I am so happy.
I just had to share this.
Rachel, what a nice birthday--so great that you were surrounded by accepting family! And that cake--wow!! Your GF really loves you a lot! Congratulations & a belated bonne anniversaire!
Liz, your comment made me laugh out loud! So happy for you.
Liz, that is so cool for you!
Christine, your birthday story made me so happy for you I cried a bit. :D I'm still getting used to a 4times E dose and adding P a week and a half ago.
Ok so my turn. This Saturday I helped move a bunch of furniture and setup an apartment for my wife a hour drive away where she is going to go to school. I know that sounds bad, but we are doing good right now. I woke up Sunday morning and made pancakes for her and our daughters. We had a good morning before I had to head back to return the rental Uhaul trailer. They will be driving back here later today. I can't stay there all the time now but maybe later in the year when she starts school I'll be able to be there too.
I got on the scale this morning and it read 155. The last time I saw that number was when I was 15 years old. When I started HRT I was 205 lbs, at the upper end of overweight. Now my BMI is 21.6. I never dreamed it would be possible to get my weight this well under control.
Conform and be dull. —James Frank Dobie, The Voice of the Coyote
WOW!!!!... What great posts to see first thing in the morning!!! This day is off to a great start thanks to all of you!!!
Elizabeth!... Thank you Ma'me :)
Rachel... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND!!!... Love the cake and your relaxed and happy pic... Isn't it amazing to live a lifetime in a family and then finally feeling that you can show them who you are?... I think you're journey is reaching that wonderful point when things change very quickly towards a life that will finally be your own... Savor every moment... You've earned it!!! :)
Josie!!! It sounds like you are facing life as part of a very loving family unit... And pancakes just make everything better!!! :)
Deborah!!! Congrats on getting where you want to be!!! Nothing like getting back to high school weight!!! :)
Onward we go my friends!!!
Ashley :)
I started to talk to my sister and she looks at me and says "You're getting bigger" and then She said "It won't be long and you'll be bigger than me" ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
My wife and I went to the AGM of a scottish dance group that we belong to. We skipped out of attending dance classes this spring while I transitioned, so none of them had met Kathy before. I gave the head teacher a heads-up by email, but everyone else was meeting me cold-turkey.
Quite a few people said they were wondering who the woman was who was sitting by my wife. So it seems that I am getting gendered correctly. I wouldn't go so far as to say that I pass, because my voice will give me away, but my appearance seems to give the desired impression. All the reactions when I introduced myself were positive.
It was a great confidence builder. We'll be back dancing with them in the fall.
Sometimes it's the little things, or even what doesn't happen that can mKe us happy.
The workmen finally cleared out from redoing the flashing on my condo's sliding doors. They reinstalled the old doors after cracking the frame on one and the trim on another, something for the HOA to deal with.
So, now that I could lock the doors, o went for a walk. I didn't get a single odd glance or stare, and was not misgendered at a coffee shop or grocery store.
This made me happy, as I realized that this was the first time I've gone for a long walk in a dress! I'm "blue jean femme" and that is what I'm almost always wearing. Today, though, it was warm and I was wearing a nice dress I got on sale around the apartment. (I was also never misgendered by the work crew!)
Holy Toledo! Did I just pass 100% in a dress today?
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I see many more dresses in your future... They really do look right on you Michelle!... Clear out some closet space and watch for sales!!! :)
Onward we shop!!!
Ashley :)
Well i was having a rough past couple of days and morning (tho, not the meltdowns i had before, just very uncomfortable past few days). Then today, around the lunch rush at work i snapped into my happy go luckyself and been quite chipper since then :)... and both tomorrow and friday are paydays (2 jobs) so yay for that :)
I thought this was going to be bad thing originally, but it seems like it will actually be a good thing.
For reasons, I'm not going in to, I had to cut my hair short. So I got a wig. I wasn't looking forward to it initially, but it's working out ok.
But now I can play with more styles, lengths and colors than I ever could before. So, I'm happy about it.
Now, if I only had enough money to buy all those styles and colors.
Of COURSE you passed! You're beautiful, and very femme!
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Surrounding the time I had spine surgery, I had gained 20 pounds. At my check-up yesterday, I was back to my original weight. The only down side is the jealousy of those that, for what ever reason, cannot lose weight.
I did something rather crazy last night....
I'm currently in my home country Switzerland for a few weeks to visit friends and family for the first time since I started transitioning. Everything has gone really well so far so I needed to step up my game a notch. A few weeks or even months ago I received an invitation to a college reunion dinner with a bunch of classmates which I haven't seen for over 15 years. Except for one guy, nobody knew that I came out as trans and transitioned so I decided to just drive there and show up without warning. I mean, what could possibly go wrong and what else would you do on a boring Thursday evening in central Switzerland, right?
So there I went to meet 9 guys and a girl who had no clue I would show up as Jessica. I just mentioned that I have a "little surprise". When I got there I noticed one of the guys, walked straight up to him and said: "Hi Dan, how are you?". He looked at me with a very confused face and just said: "Hi!" and then a few seconds later while checking me out he looked even more confused but managed to say:"You look somehow familiar but help me out, please!" My friend who knew was standing next to me laughing out loud so I told him that I used to be known as [dead name] and then you should have seen his eyes pop.... OMG it was so hilarious... Right then, another guy came and I wanted to greet him too but he walked straight up to me, said hi and gave me a long hug.... Now I was stunned...
Unfortunately (ok, not really), these were the most exciting encounters. Everyone else knew by then what was going on but it was not weird or awkward in any way, we just had a fun and interesting evening and while I was able to educate some of them on trans issues, most other discussions were just normal topics and nobody even cared about my "slightly different look" plus nobody misgendered me, it was pretty amazing. All in all, it was another great experience and showed me that the world has really progressed and my entire transition has been far smoother so far than I would have ever imagined. I'm very grateful for that.
That's amazing Jessica, I was gonna message you to see how it went.
Sounds like it went amazing. You have a lot of guts walking into that one blind!
Great to see no one was negative about it! Well done
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I did something rather crazy last night....
I'm currently in my home country Switzerland for a few weeks to visit friends and family for the first time since I started transitioning. Everything has gone really well so far so I needed to step up my game a notch. A few weeks or even months ago I received an invitation to a college reunion dinner with a bunch of classmates which I haven't seen for over 15 years. Except for one guy, nobody knew that I came out as trans and transitioned so I decided to just drive there and show up without warning. I mean, what could possibly go wrong and what else would you do on a boring Thursday evening in central Switzerland, right?
So there I went to meet 9 guys and a girl who had no clue I would show up as Jessica. I just mentioned that I have a "little surprise". When I got there I noticed one of the guys, walked straight up to him and said: "Hi Dan, how are you?". He looked at me with a very confused face and just said: "Hi!" and then a few seconds later while checking me out he looked even more confused but managed to say:"You look somehow familiar but help me out, please!" My friend who knew was standing next to me laughing out loud so I told him that I used to be known as [dead name] and then you should have seen his eyes pop.... OMG it was so hilarious... Right then, another guy came and I wanted to greet him too but he walked straight up to me, said hi and gave me a long hug.... Now I was stunned...
Unfortunately (ok, not really), these were the most exciting encounters. Everyone else knew by then what was going on but it was not weird or awkward in any way, we just had a fun and interesting evening and while I was able to educate some of them on trans issues, most other discussions were just normal topics and nobody even cared about my "slightly different look" plus nobody misgendered me, it was pretty amazing. All in all, it was another great experience and showed me that the world has really progressed and my entire transition has been far smoother so far than I would have ever imagined. I'm very grateful for that.
Fantastic...how much fun is that...I just did my old Nurses reunion...Lots of laughs and catching up with old friends. I have to say that first reaction you describe was priceless. It's that look that suddenly comes across their face as they realise LOL Glad you had fun
My transgender friend got his haircut short for the first time today!! He's really happy with it :P
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Realised I could do the bra clasp up behind my back :)
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I know it was so hard at first but a friend at VS DID my last sizing and I love The racer back style and the clasp in front bought 3 new ones and I am in love
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Finally getting comfortable with my Breast wearing my new bras to work and not feeling uncomfortable [emoji322]❤️
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I am attending a fire department convention this weekend. Lots of testosterone in the air, but a fair number of female firefighters too. Met up with my old buds from a previous department I used to serve in (they already knew about me) and they were all totally cool, as everyone else at the convention has been. No sideways glances: everyone treated me just like I was normal. Hmm, maybe I am. :)
Bonus benefit: There is usually a lineup at the men's washroom at these events. There was none at the ladies'. :D
Had first appointment with Dr Schechter for FFS this week. He thinks he can get me in this calendar year. I've already met all deductibles and out of pocket max. Therefore this should ALL be zero dollars out of pocket for FFS and BA. I'm excited.
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Had my first airline flight today for a trip down to Dallas. I was not particularly worried about TSA etc. except that my trip was for an electrolysis session and I had to sport a five day beard growth. My fears were to be sitting next to a 250 lbs redneck cowboy with a full transphobia complex. The good news was that everybody treated me well and with respect. My seatmate was a nice 19 year old gal that needed someone to talk to to help her with her fear of flying. We both got through it well. The bad news...well there wasn't any. I look forward to my flight home on Tuesday with a fully cleared face.
Quote from: Anne Blake on June 04, 2017, 07:16:10 PM
Had my first airline flight today for a trip down to Dallas. I was not particularly worried about TSA etc. except that my trip was for an electrolysis session and I had to sport a five day beard growth. My fears were to be sitting next to a 250 lbs redneck cowboy with a full transphobia complex. The good news was that everybody treated me well and with respect. My seatmate was a nice 19 year old gal that needed someone to talk to to help her with her fear of flying. We both got through it well. The bad news...well there wasn't any. I look forward to my flight home on Tuesday with a fully cleared face.
Hi Anne, let us know how it went when you return. I'm interested in this method of full clearing.
Randy
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Back in the States and I'm able to use my wigs again.
I may or may not be able to begin hormone treatment soon. Only time will tell. ლ(ಠ_ಠლ)
A woman asked me where I had bought my jeans. 😊
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My next door neighbor, who's been flirting with me, brought me over a beautiful purple flower from his garden. I wasn't home at the time but my friends said that he told them that it was for "the beautiful young lady who lives next door"......he's in his 70's so I am young to him. I don't believe that he knows I'm trans because he's asked about my ex-husband previously....
Even though it's not legally my name (yet) the doctors office changed my name on their files to Jennifer. That was a great boost. After I got my discharge papers and went over them, I noticed something that was a bit of a shock, but I loved and almost cried. In their files, and on my papers, they have me listed as female. The male past is starting to no longer exist. He is gone, and this girl is taking over. I'm still kinda tripped out (in a good way) about this. I don't even know what words to use to describe just how ecstatic I am.
I got a phone call from my sister today, that started with "Hi Sister" . It got better, she had us change to video chat, at which point she told my wife and I we were going to be Aunties, twice. She's pregnant with twins! And She called me an aunt!
It's pretty sad that I don't know which to be happier about.
Came out to my brother yesterday. I wasn't sure how he would take it but everything went well. In fact before we hung up he said good night sis.
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Came out to my brother yesterday. I wasn't sure how he would take it but everything went well. In fact before we hung up he said good night sis.
Awwww that's so cute! Congrats on a positive reaction :)
I was attending a corporate LGBT lunch today and was standing with a group of people who didn't know me but we're talking about me in the third-person. They had no idea I was the person they were referring. Since there are only a few of us (MtF) in the organization, I must blend in well.
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HAD MY NAME AND GENDER CHANGED ON MY DRIVERS LICENSE! AND A NEW PICTURE- YEY!
My 3.5 year old daughter put some of her cookie in her water bottle and called it cookie juice :D The water looked like dirt water but she was happy as a clam to drink it!
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Squeeee!
My first consult for GCS, the first meeting with the surgeon, has been moved up to July 26 from mid-August!
Of course this makes me happy. :)
Quote from: Michelle_P on June 08, 2017, 11:08:10 AM
Squeeee!
My first consult for GCS, the first meeting with the surgeon, has been moved up to July 26 from mid-August!
Of course this makes me happy. :)
Yay, mines is next Friday :)
Do you have any idea if they will check me out down there?? :S
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on June 08, 2017, 11:12:29 AM
Yay, mines is next Friday :)
Do you have any idea if they will check me out down there?? :S
I can't speak for your surgeon or medical system, but I have been given the expectation that the surgeon will want to check the donor material to determine how to best proceed, for scheduling purposes, and will be checking in this particular case for progress on electrolysis down there, as this surgeon has been bitten by patients showing up for their pre-op visit incompletely cleared.
I'll be ready! ;)
The fact that my presence upsets others
Quote from: Angieisalone on June 09, 2017, 10:22:11 AM
The fact that my presence upsets others
From what I've seen here and on
siteredactedduetoweirdrulesherebutitstartswithacolor, your hardheadedness and inability to see yourself as others see you is what generally ruffles feathers... nothing to do with your presence. You and Galaxy always upset me for being so cute and being so self-loathing. I pray that your self-acceptance has gotten better since your last visit.
Just to add: What made me happy today?
-The Frugal Gourmet- reruns on YouTube
I came out as bi to my best friend and he was really supportive :) We also spoke a little about trans issues and I can tell he's supportive of trans people too! I'm gonna wait until I'm face-to-face with him again before I come out as trans :P
This was a few weeks ago but the gender markers on all of my vital documents have been appropriately amended to female :D
Going to my first breast augmentation appointment!
Pride events, marches and parades for equality in my little town and across the the USA🌈
The only group I haven't consistently passed with in my area is gas station cashiers. Most of them seem to be Indian, Pakistani, or Sikh. Perhaps because of cultural differences they're more sensitive to gender queues, perhaps because I'm 5'10" and 200 pounds they seem most likely to misgender me. I realized today that for the past 2 or 3 weeks that hasn't been happening. I drive a lot for work so I buy gas almost every day.
Two things.
First-
One bug-a-boo off my shoulders today. It was close to 100 degrees F (37 C) today and my wife suggested going out to dinner. The place has outdoor seating and she HATES air conditioning. Therefore we were going to sit outside. I had a choice - jeans (long legged) or a skirt.
This is the first time in a skirt "in town" and with my wife at the same time.
Second-
My wife and I had a good chat about our relationship and when to separate/divorce. It was actually a very good conversation and I only shed one or two tears. Better than the last time when the waterworks were turned on! I let her know what my thoughts were and she was very receptive. We both end up in an okay place.
I did my usual two 2 hour sessions of electrolysis today. Last week and this week I did the first session in the stirrups, getting the South Pole cleared per the doctors orders for GCS. A hour and 20 minutes into today's session Jodie announced that she was out of hairs.
So, that was a total of 3 hours, 20 minutes to complete the initial clearing for GCS! Much faster than I expected. The made me happy!
(Not DONE done, or course, as fresh hairs will start their growth cycles. I'll be taking off a week on that, though, while we wait for new hairs to awaken.)
Quote from: Michelle_P on June 13, 2017, 01:28:15 AM
I did my usual two 2 hour sessions of electrolysis today. Last week and this week I did the first session in the stirrups, getting the South Pole cleared per the doctors orders for GCS. A hour and 20 minutes into today's session Jodie announced that she was out of hairs.
So, that was a total of 3 hours, 20 minutes to complete the initial clearing for GCS! Much faster than I expected. The made me happy!
(Not DONE done, or course, as fresh hairs will start their growth cycles. I'll be taking off a week on that, though, while we wait for new hairs to awaken.)
Wonderful Michelle! That is certainly reason to be happy
Hugs,
Laurie
Finally starting to enjoy or find ease in dilation ;D ontop of that starting to better understand my studies in Psychology of crime and rehabilitating offenders. :)
I got my HRT prescription today! :)
I got my HRT prescription yesterday and started last night. I am so excited today, running around the house like a crazy person. ;D
Quote from: Kara_Rae on June 13, 2017, 09:59:10 AM
I got my HRT prescription yesterday and started last night. I am so excited today, running around the house like a crazy person. ;D
Quote from: p on June 13, 2017, 09:47:05 AM
I got my HRT prescription today! :)
Congratulations to both of you! Starting HRT is a huge step.
Yesterday I attended to an interview a book signing by Janet Mock for her new book "Surpassing Certainty". Remarkable woman.
Also read this NYTimes article about trans autobiographies. https://mobile.nytimes.com/2017/06/13/books/review/critics-take-queer-writing.html
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My first male fail! Woah this is seriously something that everyone should go through!
While coming to work I went into a supermarket to get some cold drinks—we're having 38 ºC in Madrid these days. When going in, I put my laptop backpack inside the lockers as is customary in Spain (dunno elsewhere). So after paying for the drinks I went to grab it. The next customer was paying but he had not been in line behind me so he didn't know that the seemingly abandoned drinks were mine. When I was getting back there with the backpack I heard the cashier telling him "No, they are hers". I didn't react immediately, it was only a few second later while I was putting the bottles inside the bag, that it struck me. "Wow did she just say...", "I MUST ask her". So I waited for them to finish the transaction and I asked her. She was puzzled, obviously :D, and in order to make sure, I got to the point of telling her "but look, I am a guy". Then she started apologising, to my delight :) At that point I explained and she told me she was absolutely convinced I was a woman.
I was wondering if the fact that no one looked twice at me while in girl mode would be whether because I totally pass or because I am so obvious that no second look is even warranted. The male fail today strongly skews the chances in the good direction ^^
Quote from: p on June 13, 2017, 09:47:05 AM
I got my HRT prescription today! :)
And I missed this? How did you slip this by me p?
Congrats p and Kara may your boobies grow quickly and large!!
Enjoy the ride
Hugs,
Laurie
Received a call from the VA Coordinator that my case is a priority and I will be fast tracked thru the process for evaluation and on to Endo. 10 Mins later I received a call from mental heath for evaluation in the morning. Things are starting to happen faster! My spirit is lifted once again!
In Tim Horton's, the (male) server called me "dear". ;D
Now, in Nova Scotia, "dear" is a form of address commonly used by wait staff. It tends to be gender-neutral when used by female servers. However, at least one of the parties, either the server or the customer, has to be female. A male server would never call a male customer "dear". So, he gendered me correctly! As confirmation, he called the next (male) customer "pal".
Also, I went for my first ever bra fitting at a new lingerie store that opened this week. :D (The less great part of that is that, with padding, I am only a 38A. :( Without it, I'd be lucky to be an AA. Oh, well, at least I know they're there.)
Okay, forget my previous post. It is nothing compared to this: Bill C-16 passed!!!
This new law now prohibits discrimination on the basis of gender identity and gender expression at the federal level. (All provinces and territories already had this kind of protection.) It also enables prosecution of such discrimination as a hate crime if the circumstances warrant it.
I am really happy today!! :icon_dance: :eusa_clap:
After I got my blood tests and saw my endo on Wednesday Im a total convert to estrogen implants as I have better E levels than I ever had with tablets and it made me feel great...
Cheers Tracy
I found out that my insurance will cover liposuction because of my gender dysphoria! Bye bye tummy!
OH, and apparently I have been on E for 7 months now! I feel great!
Quote from: Ⓥ on June 09, 2017, 03:18:27 PM
From what I've seen here and on siteredactedduetoweirdrulesherebutitstartswithacolor, your hardheadedness and inability to see yourself as others see you is what generally ruffles feathers... nothing to do with your presence. You and Galaxy always upset me for being so cute and being so self-loathing. I pray that your self-acceptance has gotten better since your last visit.
Nope, it hasn't really gotten better. People are annoyed with me because they don't like how I bring facts on subjects that has to with transitioning.
I went to a trans* beach party today and got poured on. Obviously that stopped the party and we all left. Two hours later I kept getting comments that people liked my hair. I got caught in the rain!
Actually it does look pretty good. Maybe I'll spend less time on it and let mother nature do something right for once.
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I had dinner out with my 26 year old youngest daughter. Even better, she hugged me when we met and when she left. All major breakthroughs!
I also had a nice phone call from my son and text message from my older daughter, both of whom live well out of the area.
I'm happy.
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Quote from: Michelle_P on June 18, 2017, 07:23:46 PM
I had dinner out with my 26 year old youngest daughter. Even better, she hugged me when we met and when she left. All major breakthroughs!
I also had a nice phone call from my son and text message from my older daughter, both of whom live well out of the area.
I'm happy.
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That's great Michelle, seen you in the fabulous thread, looking sharp too!
It's nice when things start to work
So finally i have met all three in the team that evaluates if I'm transgender or not. They came to the same conclusion as me. ☺
Referral to endo is already written and hopefully i can start laser soon as well.
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Had my five-monthHRT checkup today. T level was double last time, but still well below the normal female level. Estradiol level was half what it was last time, a bit below target range. So I got a reduction in spiro and an increase in estradiol. I'm happy with both changes. The big spiro tab was a bitch to swallow, I was dehydrated all the time, and my blood pressure was low (90/65). And my boobs have been dormant for the last two months, so hopefully more E will wake them up. My kidneys have apparently been processing the S just fine, so my potassium and sodium levels are good.
What made me happy today was the date. It is my 40th anniversary of having SRS.
Yay me! ;D
My partner who three years ago doubted she could stay with me is now sharing trans supportive stuff on Facebook.
:
April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
I'm feeling better this evening after having emergency oral surgery last Thursday! Though I mention that because I've spent a lot of time over the past several days resting and taking in my image. I feel this sense of pride I've never felt before and a sense of happiness I've never had. Sure I've been loving myself more and more since I started transitioning but now I realize something different and I really love this person I've become! Plus it's the beginning of summer! :0)
We are getting a load of firewood delivered and the guy wants to be paid in cash. No prob, except the amount is over my daily limit for the machine. So I went in to see the teller.
I give her my bank card, she swipes it, and then stares at the computer screen for a bit, with a puzzled look on her face. Then she says, "This card you gave me, it isn't yours."
Me: "Yes it is. My legal name still is <deadname>. I haven't been able to get it changed yet."
Her: "Oh, no, it's not that. It's the age. You aren't 62."
Me: "Yes, I am 62."
Her: "Oh, I'm terribly sorry."
Me: "Don't apologize, dear, you just made my day!"
She then asked what name I wanted listed in the computer as my preferred name. People here are just so darned nice! :)
This was yesterday....
I got back on the tennis court for the first time after two and a half months post op! I hit with my partner for over an hour. Felt great. I am very rusty but I am sure that my game will come back. It was so great to be back at it. I feel like all I do is 'follow the schedule'.
Quote from: KathyLauren on June 20, 2017, 02:29:32 PM
The big spiro tab was a bitch to swallow,
FYI . . . been taking Spiro in a divided dose for years; a Tab in the morning and one in the early evening. It keeps the level more constant in my system and you don't have to swallow any horse pills. . .;-) I also do the same with Estradoil, again, to keep the levels in my system more even throughout the day . . . .
Surgery Date is set, Flights are booked, got my 1st Referral Letter in the mail yesterday and my 2nd is in the mail from the 2nd Psychologist. Hectic Travel planning is in full force. lol :)
Quote from: Jessika on June 22, 2017, 02:18:21 PM
Surgery Date is set, Flights are booked, got my 1st Referral Letter in the mail yesterday and my 2nd is in the mail from the 2nd Psychologist. Hectic Travel planning is in full force. lol :)
Congrats Jessika!!
Once you're post op you can have a happy moment like I had this morning. I was kind of tired when I first woke up this morning and headed into the bathroom to go pee. I sat down and for some reason I reached down out of 50 years of habit to push willy back and then started laughing because there is no willy to push.....I haven't done that since right after my surgery.
Quote from: I Am Jess on June 22, 2017, 03:44:31 PM
Congrats Jessika!!
Once you're post op you can have a happy moment like I had this morning. I was kind of tired when I first woke up this morning and headed into the bathroom to go pee. I sat down and for some reason I reached down out of 50 years of habit to push willy back and then started laughing because there is no willy to push.....I haven't done that since right after my surgery.
Hey Girl,
Thank you!
LOL, that is pretty funny. ;D
I'm betting I will have that same "issue" Post-Op. ;)
This was yesterday,
FDNY ambulance with a Pride flag attached to the back.
My Boyfriend finally said the magic words after one year of being together. I love you and not during sex. After he left to go his place, I as in Happy Tears mode for almost an hour.
Quote from: amrisa loftus on June 24, 2017, 01:32:09 PM
My Boyfriend finally said the magic words after one year of being together. I love you and not during sex. After he left to go his place, I as in Happy Tears mode for almost an hour.
That's so cute girl, congrtz
For me today it was realising that I have been on HRT for 6 months and getting happier with myself it has gone by fast
Today marks the one year mark for me on hormone therapy, and I am loving it! My wife bought me flowers to celebrate. Anne
Well I'm by myself for a few days so I went to Walmart to get a couple of things. First I realized that a single layer shirt, even a big tee shirt will no longer hide my chest. ;) Secondly I picked up a 6 pack of my favorite Mexican beer. I get to the checkout line, the lady scanned the beer, looked at me and asked for my ID. Now I know Walmart's policy is card anyone that looks under 40 but I have not been carded for a long time there.
I'm celebrating "Michelle Is Single Day" today. It's going well so far...
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I'm pretty much going down the "things you aren't allowed to do" list and doing them.
I also made an appointment to get my brows done. [emoji78]
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Well, my concise guide to why I am happy this work week.
1) I got to ride on my companies' float in the San Francisco gay pride parade, as a woman. Was very cool.
2) Went shopping!
3) Met with my group's boss and he already knew and has no issues about transition.
4) Again met with HR and they are fine with a transition date of August 1, 2017.
5) One of my friends got a date for her SRS and I am ecstatic for her!
-Lee.
I got ma'amed at a drive through for the first time! Achievement unlocked.
I also got ma'am'd in a conversation, twice. I had a mile-wide smile for a few hours. ;D
My wife and I got stopped on our dog walk by a female motorist who was lost and needed directions. She said, "Excuse me, can you ladies help me?" I was wearing women's sunglasses, a men's hiking shirt, a padded bra, women's shorts, pink striped socks and turquoise sneakers with orange laces, but no wig and no makeup.
Yay for getting gendered correctly! :)
Got a call from my surgeon's office yesterday, they offered to move my surgery date up a couple of months. New date, September 12... oh my gosh, that is less than three months away, so much to do, so many ways to panic.... oh yes, hurray, only 77 more days! I don't expect to be as much of a basket case as Moni but who can tell. At least Laurie is off on the east coast hounding her and won't be around to harass me.
Anne
A lady customer said my (blue) nails were much better than hers and that's after failing her Range Rover for a badly cut tyre and a brake calliper that had a bolt missing (dangerous ) and get paid tomorrow so in my lunch break getting some ear rings to cheer myself up not that I need to after last weekend
Just found out that the KNBC report on my transition took 2nd place for LGBTQ reporting at the Los Angeles Press Association awards dinner
I got the old brows waxed, plucked, and trimmed. One more item on the Forbidden List taken care of.
Now, where's that online dating app for older lesbians? [emoji79][emoji78]
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Quote from: I Am Jess on June 27, 2017, 06:30:55 PM
Just found out that the KNBC report on my transition took 2nd place for LGBTQ reporting at the Los Angeles Press Association awards dinner
That's fantastic Jess!!!... Is there anywhere we can see it??
Hugs!!!
A :)
Quote from: tgirlamc on June 28, 2017, 12:13:03 AM
That's fantastic Jess!!!... Is there anywhere we can see it??
Hugs!!!
A :)
Here is the report that they did. It aired a year ago.
http://www.nbclosangeles.com/news/local/Prosecutor-Shares-Transgender-Journey_Los-Angeles-381459911.html
Quote from: I Am Jess on June 28, 2017, 09:38:25 AM
Here is the report that they did. It aired a year ago.
http://www.nbclosangeles.com/news/local/Prosecutor-Shares-Transgender-Journey_Los-Angeles-381459911.html
way cool i love it you look great and did get congratulations.
Got back from work today to find my letter to start HRT on my doormat. GP appointment made... I should be starting on or very near my birthday, now that's a present!
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It made me happy to take a break from work and get some sun on my legs ☀️
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Quote from: meganjames2 on June 28, 2017, 11:17:09 AM
Got back from work today to find my letter to start HRT on my doormat. GP appointment made... I should be starting on or very near my birthday, now that's a present!
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How cool is that! 😊
Quote from: natalie.ashlyne on June 28, 2017, 10:05:25 AM
way cool i love it you look great and did get congratulations.
Thanks Natalie!!
Quote from: I Am Jess on June 28, 2017, 09:38:25 AM
Here is the report that they did. It aired a year ago.
http://www.nbclosangeles.com/news/local/Prosecutor-Shares-Transgender-Journey_Los-Angeles-381459911.html
Bravo Jess!!!... That was awesome and well done!!! I'm so proud of you! Stuff like this is so important and does untold good for all of us and for all who will follow!!!
Onward we go with pride in our step!!!
A :)
One of my friends mentioned that she might have something for me. ??? Today after services at church her wife handed me a little bag and said it was from her.
They're packing for a move, and my friend decided to clean out her jewelry collection. Inside the bag were rings, bracelets, and a dozen pairs of earrings, all hand-crafted one of a kind sort of pieces! This triggered my 'happy crying' upgrade, and I can't wait for the ears to heal up properly so I can try some of these out.
Michelle, any kind of crying or emotional expression is great but getting opportunities to exercise that "Happy crying upgrade" is awesome. Enjoy
well today my girl friend saw me today for the first time in real life dressed up and she gave me compliments and said a was pretty I know I still have a lot of work to do on that though.
Quote from: natalie.ashlyne on July 03, 2017, 10:37:59 PM
well today my girl friend saw me today for the first time in real life dressed up and she gave me compliments and said a was pretty I know I still have a lot of work to do on that though.
It's nice to have an honest friend. You are pretty
Quote from: Dee Marshall on July 04, 2017, 06:35:14 AM
It's nice to have an honest friend. You are pretty
Aww Thank you
Hi Girls!
Several things happened today:
- First appointment with gender therapist, which was very liberating. This was mostly for her to know me better. I was very pleased with her questions and comments. Can't wait for next session, next week.
- First appointment with endocrinologist. He examined me minutiously and told me I was having a good evolution towards feminization. He also told me that considering my hormonal levels, which are fine, I should continue taking the same (self-prescribed [emoji16]) regimen; that felt really good!
- Well, this didn't happen today but a few days ago. I had my initial appointment with Dr. Bart Van De Ven in Antwerpen to take a look at what would be feasible in terms of FFS. And all I can say is OMG! He made a simulation, which he said was very, very close to what could realistically be expected and... well... I think I'm in love with the Sarah-to-become! [emoji7] The honoraria asked were around what I expected (about 20.000€), so no big jaw-dropping surprise there.
So now I must really begin making concrete plans (with approximate dates) for the "metamorphosis". That's how I call that 2 or 3-month leave I'm planning to take just (literally minutes) after coming out at work and before returning back as an (almost) full-fledged Sarah, both physically and legally. After that, only SRS and perhaps a few minor cosmetic procedures (tummy tuck? butt lift?) will remain. This journey is so incredible... if it's a dream, I which I'll never wake up!
Wish me luck... [emoji6]
Sarah
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Congratulations Sarah you are doing good
Michelle, the happy cry is awesome isn't it!! I had that the other day. My older brother was over and said something to my mom about his little sis. Then he looked at me all surprised as to why I was starting to cry. :D
Sarah, that is great for you to be able to move forward so much at once.
Natalie you are pretty!
Ok so far as me today, I was up in the city for my therapist appointment and afterward happened to land a consult for laser hair removal this afternoon. The doctor almost sounded like she might have time for the first session even. Fingers crossed.
Another lab result in... It's working...
Name TESTOSTERONE, ULTRASENSITIVE, LC MS/MS
Standard range <=75 ng/dL 😇
6/9/16 661
7/20/16 251
9/9/16 7
12/4/16 6
2/5/17 7
7/3/17 <5 💁
I had the most amazing date with my boyfriend last night. We have been seeing each other for six months and its been going really well, but there was a great opening up of hearts last night and discussions for future etc. Really love him.
Seeing Sara (coldheart) has posted a picture
Quote from: davina61 on July 07, 2017, 01:45:37 PM
Seeing Sara (coldheart) has posted a picture
That was my happy thing too!!!! :)!!!!!!
Had my first facial laser hair removal. :D It wasn't near as bad as everyone said. Mostly less painful than when I started with an IPL. The doctor could tell that I had patches they the IPL had actually cleared. When she got around my chin though OUCH alot more hair there. I thought it was kinda strange seeing how some hairs had actually popped out of my skin. I go back in a month for the next burn!
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on July 04, 2017, 09:45:36 PM
Hi Girls!
Several things happened today:
- First appointment with gender therapist, which was very liberating. This was mostly for her to know me better. I was very pleased with her questions and comments. Can't wait for next session, next week.
- First appointment with endocrinologist. He examined me minutiously and told me I was having a good evolution towards feminization. He also told me that considering my hormonal levels, which are fine, I should continue taking the same (self-prescribed [emoji16]) regimen; that felt really good!
- Well, this didn't happen today but a few days ago. I had my initial appointment with Dr. Bart Van De Ven in Antwerpen to take a look at what would be feasible in terms of FFS. And all I can say is OMG! He made a simulation, which he said was very, very close to what could realistically be expected and... well... I think I'm in love with the Sarah-to-become! [emoji7] The honoraria asked were around what I expected (about 20.000€), so no big jaw-dropping surprise there.
So now I must really begin making concrete plans (with approximate dates) for the "metamorphosis". That's how I call that 2 or 3-month leave I'm planning to take just (literally minutes) after coming out at work and before returning back as an (almost) full-fledged Sarah, both physically and legally. After that, only SRS and perhaps a few minor cosmetic procedures (tummy tuck? butt lift?) will remain. This journey is so incredible... if it's a dream, I which I'll never wake up!
Wish me luck... [emoji6]
Sarah
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Wow, that is freaking awesome.
Two things made me happy today.
1-That I have the house to myself all weekend :)
2-That I have my first appointment with a gender therapist on Monday!
My wife said she is seeing the changes in my face.She said I look androgenous. Also said I went from an attractive man to an unattractive woman. lol She quickly followed it with, "well that's a good thing right?". I did have to agree.
My voice therapist said my voice was really great and I am much further along than she would have expected. I don't have another session for at least 3 months and only then if I want it. I have all the tools I need to produce an authentic voice. She says my pitch and tone sounds appropriate for my body size and shape for a woman of my age. Can't ask for more than that can I ;D
Feeling good enough about myself to post a photo at long last.
Sara.
Quote from: coldHeart on July 08, 2017, 03:59:44 AM
Feeling good enough about myself to post a photo at long last.
Sara.
Seeing Sara say that something made her happy today!!!!
Love Ya Sister!!!!
Ashley :)
You Ashley & a few other girls, Sara is not going to hide no more.
Quote from: coldHeart on July 08, 2017, 07:49:26 AM
You Ashley & a few other girls, Sara is not going to hide no more.
Sara!!!
Now that's what courage and determination to get to where you need to be sound like!!!
Onward you go brave sister!!!
Hugs and Love!!!
Ashley :)
I saw a women today and think, "hey, she's dressed pretty. I hope she gets closer so that I can check her out," then I realize it's a mirror at the end of the hallway and that's it's me.
(Why is she walking right towards me? We're going to crash!)
I was standing at the front desk at work with the receptionist and the Business Office Manager having a chat and picking up my paycheck. A guy came in from a local repair company and said "good morning ladies" even though I was presenting as male. My coworkers are aware, and gave me a quick look, I just smiled. I don't know if he intended to include me or not, but it felt nice anyway.
Sad thing is that most people still call me sir.
Being in semi girl mode and no one bothering,and getting a hug from my wonderful daughter on Sunday
Stepping on the scale and seeing I've dropped about 15 lbs from earlier this year. Only another 25 to go.....
(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20170712/aaaf679a2c708d35ff0fcdd1021ef70d.jpg)Very first box ever of this one (yes, officially prescribed by my new endo)... Do I need to say more? [emoji4]
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Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on July 12, 2017, 04:45:18 AM
(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20170712/aaaf679a2c708d35ff0fcdd1021ef70d.jpg)Very first box ever of this one (yes, officially prescribed by my new endo)... Do I need to say more? [emoji4]
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Androcur 💕
Yesterday I received my second referral letter for gcs and sent it into my surgeon's office. Today I got confirmation from their office that they have all they need prior to surgery currently September 12, 62 days away. This was my opportunity to experience "Happy crying upgrade" right in the middle of a restaurant during lunch. - Anne
I can totally relate to that! When I finally got all the last bits in, letters and final tests, I experienced such relief that crying came naturally. Then the Dr.'s office only gave me two weeks once the date was set. What a rush!
My package arrived from Old Navy. Going out of town tomorrow so would have been another 11 days before I got to open it if it didn't come today.
Everything fit great, the tall sizes are perfect! Just wish the stores carried them.
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It made me happy today at work when they let me do a job at the pie factory I work at, that is normally done exclusively by women. In the same day however,I was insulted & hurt when a woman I work with unknowingly asked me to help her lift something heavy,and then told me she knew I could lift it cause I am a "manly man". I was so hurt by that,but didn't say anything cause I don't want to come out as trans at work yet. I've been on HRT for 4 months,but some people still see me as very masculine I guess. :'(
Quote from: Lois17 on July 14, 2017, 05:47:24 PM
It made me happy today at work when they let me do a job at the pie factory I work at, that is normally done exclusively by women. In the same day however,I was insulted & hurt when a woman I work with unknowingly asked me to help her lift something heavy,and then told me she knew I could lift it cause I am a "manly man". I was so hurt by that,but didn't say anything cause I don't want to come out as trans at work yet. I've been on HRT for 4 months,but some people still see me as very masculine I guess. :'(
Hey Lois!
Don't be put down be this incident. That other employee probably didn't intend to hurt you. HRT does change some aspects of our face, but 4 months is not a lot yet and if you want to be seen as a woman, feminization must involve other aspects as well.
Are you already taking care of your beard? That makes a huge difference to how people perceive you - when you look at someone without beard of gray area, without considering other clues, you will most probably think "woman" or "male or female preteen".
Taking good routine care of your skin is also very important. I clean my face with cleansing milk 2 times a day and I apply a night cream and a day cream. This has made a big difference.
There are many other clues you may work on and which will facilitate been seeing as woman (or at least androgynous, certainly no "manly man").
Big hug and be brave! [emoji4]
Sarah
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It's Friday! And I had a good week! two big male files (no longer allowed in the mens room), talked with friend I have not heard from for a long time, sitting on Amtrak, watching the sun set and think "Life is good. Sarah is happy this moment"
Sarah.VanDistel Thanks so much for your advice.Its reassuring to know that someone else has had similar experiences and has came through it,and can relate to me. Yes the woman at work didn't mean anything by it,and she is a nice person to work with.She is just from a conservative rural area and is in her 50's,so probably has never though about or met someone who is transgender before.I am trying to gradually project more & more of my feminine side at work,and gradually change my appearance,so that many of them will be able to figure it out about me before I actually tell them and come out.
My therapist is now working on my letter to give to the docs to let me begin HRT! Woohoo! ^_^
I got called ma'am several times today. It was the same gentlemen each time. He was one of my residents, and he called me ma'am multiple times in the conversation that we had. I don't think my natural voice is anywhere near passing but apparently, to an 80+ year old man, I have enough markers to pass as a woman.....at least to a person who is suffering from the ravages of age.....it felt good anyway.
Artesia, I've noticed that with older folks as well. I consistently correctly gendered by them long before younger people did. I have theories but no genuine idea why.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on July 16, 2017, 01:19:16 PM
Artesia, I've noticed that with older folks as well. I consistently correctly gendered by them long before younger people did. I have theories but no genuine idea why.
I would say that they, like children, see both the real world and the spirit world at the same time. Even before starting HRT one of my residents told me I looked like a woman.
My Fitbit dashboard told me that I had over 118,000 steps last week and I had over 1,400 active minutes (i.e. Exercise). I hope I can keep this up.
When I was growing up I had a favourite Aunty who was always there for me, she always had my back. I don't know why but she herself never married and concentrated on her career. We kept touch and she was one of the few of my Aunties or Uncles that were able to fly to Australia for my wedding. So our relationship has always been very special.
Last year I sent out a heap of coming out letter to the family and she is one of the people who I never heard back from. My father told me she was fine with me and that she would email me soon...that was over 9 months ago and I really had given up on hearing from her.
30 minutes before walking out the door to have my face Zapped my Mobile goes and it is My Aunty ringing to see how I was and apologise about the emails. I couldn't help myself I burst into tears when I heard her voice then she was upset because she made me upset busy apologising and eventually we got ourselves back under control and chatted for about 30 minutes. She was so supportive and we chatted briefly about my childhood. It is clear that she had a good chat yesterday to my parents and some very specific questions for me, even so it was a real lift and made me very happy...hearing from her was like getting a gift completely "out of the blue" :)
"What made you happy today?"
This:
Quote from: Artesia on July 16, 2017, 07:36:39 PM
I would say that they, like children, see both the real world and the spirit world at the same time. Even before starting HRT one of my residents told me I looked like a woman.
:)
Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn Marie on July 18, 2017, 06:00:36 AM
"What made you happy today?"
This:
:)
Hugs, Devlyn
Thank you. It is what I believe, but as with most beliefs I can't prove it. My observations, however, seem to show that both the elderly and the very young, see things that are not visible to others. So do pets. Have you ever noticed a child, a dog, and/or a cat all looking at and following the same thing, and you couldn't see it? One of my nieces had and "imaginary friend" who had the name of my deceased mother in law, and she had never met her, seen picture of her when she was young, or heard her real name; but her description of her friend was that of her when she was young. My niece has since gotten to old to see her anymore.
Something sticking out of my chest made it tough to find a good sleeping position last night where nothing gets squished... A very nice subtle reminder of the body changes on HRT :-)
I was misgendered.
Stopped by where a friend works. She told people there I am an ex and we remain close friends. Someone apparently asked her if I am female, they were not 100% sure. The thing is, I had driven from my office in male mode.
That made my day. Been a good week.
Depending on situation I have found getting misgendered is either extreme, searingly painful or feels awesome. I'm starting to realize what those among us who are comfortably and permanently androgynous deal with on a daily basis. They are stronger than I am.
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Got my first pack of oestrogen patches from the chemists today :)
Happy is an understatement
I was stressing out over not being able to get my hormone refill tomorrow but then some awesome people pitched in at gave me the money to buy them. Also I'm sick and just ordered she-crab soup. Spending the rest of today doing self-care. :)
Randi and I were in a local diner finishing dinner when the man at the next table piped up. "Can I ask you a question?", he directed at me.
"Uh oh!", I thought and nodded my head.
"Are you in radio?" He said I had a voice for radio, at least he didn't say that I had a FACE for radio. We had a nice conversation. His wife grew up near where I did.
I stopped to get gas this morning and a lady at the other pump said to me "Excuse me but I just wanted you to know you are beautiful. I wish I was that tall." It really made my day.
Yesterday: Went to the doctor to start HRT, and a woman in the waiting room said "Ma'am? You have such beautiful skin, do you use a lotion or something?" :o It was in reference to my arms (upper, I imagine), which I don't use anything on at the moment! My skin care in the last few months has been primarily focused on my face. I have tended to avoid being outside and especially out of the sun for most of my life, though.
Also yesterday, used the ladies room for the first time. The world did not end!
Today: Actually started HRT!!!! :D :D :D
Nice! A twofer!
Hugs, Devlyn
Yesterday I had my second speech therapy appointment. I managed to hit 189Hz, so lower end to middle of the female range. She said I was doing pretty well for only having one other session. Progressed to paragraphs in the single sitting without a drop back into the male range. ;D
At the end of a pretty hectic work day, I was notified that I had won a pretty prestigious TV Award earlier this year. Now have to order a shiny statue :-) Happy Dance
Last night the hopeless thoughts came for awhile and I started crying. My wife does that sometimes, so I thought, it's my turn. So I had a good long cry. I have felt so good today!!! xhucnk
Well I went out to get a coke from Mac Donalds and I think I was hit on by some guy we where talking he gave me his number and email and called me baby which made me melt. He is a very muscular 23 year old really good looking guy from guatemala. This was the first time I was out in public dressed fully. Question for anyone does that count as a date we talked for an hour in the parking lot and 2 hours on the phone so I know It is not a fake number.
Quote from: Artesia on July 18, 2017, 06:26:58 AM
Thank you. It is what I believe, but as with most beliefs I can't prove it. My observations, however, seem to show that both the elderly and the very young, see things that are not visible to others. So do pets. Have you ever noticed a child, a dog, and/or a cat all looking at and following the same thing, and you couldn't see it? One of my nieces had and "imaginary friend" who had the name of my deceased mother in law, and she had never met her, seen picture of her when she was young, or heard her real name; but her description of her friend was that of her when she was young. My niece has since gotten to old to see her anymore.
There is far more to our existence than that which we see with our eyes
I had my initial appointment with my GCS surgeons today, Drs Thomas (Urology), Selim (reconstructive surgery), and Gurjala (reconstructive, microsurgery).
I was briefed on the procedure. The surgery site was examined and evaluated (ow). I was assigned a date.
October 20, 2017.
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Quote from: Michelle_P on July 19, 2017, 11:43:45 PM
I had my initial appointment with my GCS surgeons today, Drs Thomas (Urology), Selim (reconstructive surgery), and Gurjala (reconstructive, microsurgery).
I was briefed on the procedure. The surgery site was examined and evaluated (ow). I was assigned a date.
October 20, 2017.
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That's just awesome Michelle and I like your sinister note. It looks like Clyde is about to have company.
Hugs
Laurie
Quote from: sarah1972 on July 18, 2017, 06:55:03 AM
Something sticking out of my chest made it tough to find a good sleeping position last night where nothing gets squished... A very nice subtle reminder of the body changes on HRT :-)
Congrats Sarah! I too began to seriously feel that, a few weeks ago. [emoji39] Never has discomfort (albeit mild) been so pleasant... lol Hugs, Sarah
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Quote from: Kendra on July 18, 2017, 11:54:29 AM
I was misgendered.
Stopped by where a friend works. She told people there I am an ex and we remain close friends. Someone apparently asked her if I am female, they were not 100% sure. The thing is, I had driven from my office in male mode.
That made my day. Been a good week.
Depending on situation I have found getting misgendered is either extreme, searingly painful or feels awesome. I'm starting to realize what those among us who are comfortably and permanently androgynous deal with on a daily basis. They are stronger than I am.
Hallo Kendra!
That was totally awesome! I'm really happy for you!
You're comment provoked a "click" in my mind... [emoji849] As you may remember, I'm presently in the course of coming out to this big anonymous open world, mostly with little steps (lately a bit bolder), but one thing I noticed is that I presently feel more comfortable and secure as a declaredly androgynous person than as someone desperately (and unsuccesfully, I fear) trying to pass as a ciswoman. I don't really have a clear idea of my present degree of "passability", so I still feel that I'm driving in the midst of a dense fog. Now, this is not what I want. I want to become comfortable with the image I transmit as a woman and to stop being androgynous. And it is that crucial wall that I am now trying to demolish. I even know than from the moment when I convince myself that I pass, actually passing will be much easier.
However, I can now easily understand someone who wishes to stay androgynous - in fact, a year ago I'd never think it could be so easy... Strange thing is, I don't mind whatsoever people giving me funny second looks because of the ambiguity of my androgynous mode (I even find it funny), but I still feel a little uncomfortable when I get the same looks as I'm in Sarah's mode. Human psyche is weird... lol Anyways, I'm not gonna let things stay that way, that's for sure! [emoji135] Thanks for reading my rambling...
Hugs, Sarah
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Secured my first appointment for voice therapy (03/08). First consultation is for assessment. Yippee! [emoji4]
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Quote from: Sarah_P on July 19, 2017, 11:52:47 AMYou have such beautiful skin, do you use a lotion or something?" :o It was in reference to my arms (upper, I imagine), which I don't use anything on at the moment!
I get that sometimes and then they touch my arm on say, "OMG! It's so soft too. What do you use?"
Ahh, hormones?
Quote from: Michelle_P on July 19, 2017, 11:43:45 PM
I had my initial appointment with my GCS surgeons today, Drs Thomas (Urology), Selim (reconstructive surgery), and Gurjala (reconstructive, microsurgery).
I was briefed on the procedure. The surgery site was examined and evaluated (ow). I was assigned a date.
October 20, 2017.
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Priceless... :D
I just received my legal name change certificate. I am now officially Kathleen Lauren Walker. :icon_dance:
Quote from: KathyLauren on July 21, 2017, 09:34:00 AM
I just received my legal name change certificate. I am now officially Kathleen Lauren Walker. :icon_dance:
Lovely! Congratulations :icon_birthday: :icon_birthday:
Six weeks after coming out at work, I just received my new Sarah business cards :-) :eusa_dance:
Quote from: sarah1972 on July 18, 2017, 06:55:03 AM
Something sticking out of my chest made it tough to find a good sleeping position last night where nothing gets squished... A very nice subtle reminder of the body changes on HRT :-)
This is a problem for me every night now. I purchased a 2" thick mattress pad that helped. But my chest bumps are still growing so now the pad is good for only a while. I am thankful for this like you... :)
Quote from: KathyLauren on July 21, 2017, 09:34:00 AM
I just received my legal name change certificate. I am now officially Kathleen Lauren Walker. :icon_dance:
Yay!! Congratulations!! :icon_clap:
Quote from: KathyLauren on July 21, 2017, 09:34:00 AM
I just received my legal name change certificate. I am now officially Kathleen Lauren Walker. :icon_dance:
Congratulations!
Quote from: KathyLauren on July 21, 2017, 09:34:00 AM
I just received my legal name change certificate. I am now officially Kathleen Lauren Walker. :icon_dance:
congratulations It finally happened after all your problems you had with it so happy for you
Quote from: natalie.ashlyne on July 21, 2017, 02:50:16 PM
congratulations It finally happened after all your problems you had with it so happy for you
Thanks, everyone! :)
Yes, it was strange. I had resigned myself to the entire process taking six months due to the need to replace immigration documents. But last week, I got a phone call that they did not require the immigration documents after all, and that my application was being processed immediately. And, to top it off, the immigration documents that they no longer need came through this week as well.
Quote from: KathyLauren on July 21, 2017, 09:34:00 AM
I just received my legal name change certificate. I am now officially Kathleen Lauren Walker. :icon_dance:
Congratulations! That's a magic piece of paperwork, isn't it?
Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: sarah1972 on July 21, 2017, 10:01:41 AM
Six weeks after coming out at work, I just received my new Sarah business cards :-) :eusa_dance:
Victory is yours! :)
Hugs, Devlyn
I got to visit with yet another of Susan's denizens today. If my count is right Kendra was my twelfth person I've had the pleasure to spend time with in person from here. If you have the opportunity to meet someone you know from these rooms no matter how little , all I can say is go for it. You will find it rewarding sharing your stories.
What made me happy - meeting and seeing Laurie living full time as her true self. I aspire to do the same in the near future.
Today, one month in on hormones, I did my makeup. Before I took hormones that was a way to connect to who I wished I was. Today, starting to see the effects, it just made me see the first bits of the girl in the mirror more. Fun moment. I wonder personally though...how much is the hormones and how much is what I'm now "allowing" myself to see?...
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Well I admit I was skeptical, Some one said wait until it happen and it will make your day. I didn't think it would happen to me. Oh I have heard it before when I was with others on my road trip but this time I was alone in a grocery store doing a little shopping. I was at the deli counter waiting for my turn when one of the women behind the counter she "What can I get you Ma'am?" No makeup just me in my wig, jeans, and a cute top. I know she was politely doing her job but it was the first time I, myself, had been "Ma'amed" and it felt nice. I smiled every few minutes when I thought about it for the rest of my shopping. Check out was okay and polite but no ma'ams to be had.
Hugs,
Laurie
Had my GT tell me that whenever I was ready to start HRT, she was willing to give me the Dr. number and write me the letter!
Quote from: Laurie on July 24, 2017, 12:34:01 AM
Well I admit I was skeptical, Some one said wait until it happen and it will make your day. I didn't think it would happen to me. Oh I have heard it before when I was with others on my road trip but this time I was alone in a grocery store doing a little shopping. I was at the deli counter waiting for my turn when one of the women behind the counter she "What can I get you Ma'am?" No makeup just me in my wig, jeans, and a cute top. I know she was politely doing her job but it was the first time I, myself, had been "Ma'amed" and it felt nice. I smiled every few minutes when I thought about it for the rest of my shopping. Check out was okay and polite but no ma'ams to be had.
Hugs,
Laurie
Laurie, it was just a matter of time. Once you decided to accept you and own being you, the "mam" follows. Isn't it the way a woman is supposed to be addressed? - Tia Anne
Quote from: Anne Blake on July 24, 2017, 02:07:20 AM
Laurie, it was just a matter of time. Once you decided to accept you and own being you, the "mam" follows. Isn't it the way a woman is supposed to be addressed? - Tia Anne
Yes Ma'am it is.
Thanks Tia
While it was just a little thing, it meant a ton to me. I went out today with my nails polished and wearing my women's jeans, and T-shirt. I wore a pair of sandals. No one batted an eye at the nail polish.
Sadly, I was still sir'd though. :(
Probably because of the lack of makeup. Maybe next week I will go with makeup on.
I'm not taking it off today either, going to wear it to work tomorrow.
My granddaughter is one month old.
I posted one of my astro-photos recently on an astronomy Facebook page. (You can see the image here: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,222247.msg2006756.html#msg2006756 (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,222247.msg2006756.html#msg2006756)) I got comments from a couple of my FB friends. One said that it looked like a woman reaching for the stars, and that he liked it "on many levels." another said " Or an athlete celebrating as she crosses the finishline".
I often find that subtlety goes over my head, but I can tell that they are referring to me. It makes me weepy with joy to think that I have that kind of support, from people I don't even know that well!
Quote from: Artesia on July 25, 2017, 07:57:22 PM
While it was just a little thing, it meant a ton to me. I went out today with my nails polished and wearing my women's jeans, and T-shirt. I wore a pair of sandals. No one batted an eye at the nail polish.
Sadly, I was still sir'd though. :(
Probably because of the lack of makeup. Maybe next week I will go with makeup on.
I'm not taking it off today either, going to wear it to work tomorrow.
Awesome! Well done lovely woman. I'm proud of you.
Realizing how much support I have on Susan's & friends to keep on my case all the time.
Artesia don't you dare take that nail varnish off girl.
Sara
Quote from: coldHeart on July 27, 2017, 07:49:52 AM
Realizing how much support I have on Susan's & friends to keep on my case all the time.
Artesia don't you dare take that nail varnish off girl.
Sara
Waking up to see Sara's selfie avatar back!!!!! :)
Just seeing all you lovely folk , keeping my battered nail varnish on till Sat night
I am now at the lowest weight I've been since I started my transition. Slow and steady progress for this gal. I am about halfway to my goal weight. It's been a combination of diet and exercise that has got me this far. I have been pretty dedicated to trying to get in at least a 3 mile run every day as well as walking over 23,000 steps a day. I've tried to limit my calorie intake to 1,500-1,600 calories a day. So far I am down 25 pounds since the end of May!
I have had a blog written about me, and the place i work, for pride. Definitely made me happy, but its making me sad because I want to share it, and don't know how or were.
Quote from: ButterflyVickster on July 27, 2017, 04:42:46 PM
I have had a blog written about me, and the place i work, for pride. Definitely made me happy, but its making me sad because I want to share it, and don't know how or were.
If it conforms to the TOS, you may put it in your profile. If there isn't a space for it, then it could go in your personal web site. If none of those apply, then your signature is an option.
Randi made a post about our vacation last night and for the first time called me "she" on Facebook!
:
April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Quote from: I Am Jess on July 27, 2017, 03:51:15 PM
I am now at the lowest weight I've been since I started my transition. Slow and steady progress for this gal. I am about halfway to my goal weight. It's been a combination of diet and exercise that has got me this far. I have been pretty dedicated to trying to get in at least a 3 mile run every day as well as walking over 23,000 steps a day. I've tried to limit my calorie intake to 1,500-1,600 calories a day. So far I am down 25 pounds since the end of May!
Congrats Jess! I'm trying to do a bit the same myself! Good luck!
Sarah
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Quote from: I Am Jess on July 27, 2017, 03:51:15 PM
I am now at the lowest weight I've been since I started my transition. Slow and steady progress for this gal. I am about halfway to my goal weight. It's been a combination of diet and exercise that has got me this far. I have been pretty dedicated to trying to get in at least a 3 mile run every day as well as walking over 23,000 steps a day. I've tried to limit my calorie intake to 1,500-1,600 calories a day. So far I am down 25 pounds since the end of May!
Jess, Congratulations! Slow and steady is the correct way.
In the mid 1990s my weight was out of control. At age 32 I weighed 238 pounds (108kg) and was adding 10 pounds per year (I am 5'7" / 170cm). I started running, and during a year reached 3 miles each run and kept it there. After a couple years my pace settled in at 21 minutes for 3 miles after losing 80 pounds (32kg) and keeping it off. My waistline is now 16 inches (40cm) smaller and has been for 20 years. So Jess - I know how rewarding but difficult your achievement is.
Quote from: I Am Jess on July 27, 2017, 03:51:15 PM
I am now at the lowest weight I've been since I started my transition. Slow and steady progress for this gal. I am about halfway to my goal weight. It's been a combination of diet and exercise that has got me this far. I have been pretty dedicated to trying to get in at least a 3 mile run every day as well as walking over 23,000 steps a day. I've tried to limit my calorie intake to 1,500-1,600 calories a day. So far I am down 25 pounds since the end of May!
Good Job! That is a lot of weight. I am lucky to lose 10lbs a month.
Waking up with a plastic patch on my hip.
Nothing. That may sound terrible, but nothing needs to make me happy in a day-to-day basis anymore. I'm Denise and that's the way it is.
Oh one other thing I've decided, unless my 3:00 appointment runs long, to file name change on Monday. This living in a dual world out full time but id saying (dead name) is starting to get complicated.
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:D happy to still be alive , thanfull for another day with the sun on my face and the wind in my hair. Things can allways be worse. And happy that I have hips and a cup boobs, I do have to admit that when some republican minded folks give me dirty looks, it puts a smile on my face , because the fact that I'm different bothers them. It's good to be free.:-) It don't brother me that I will never just blend in , stand at 6 2. And have lots of scars.
It was nice to sit up in bed early this morning and look down at these perky (well, I wear mostly B-cup bras - snugly) C-cups and newly-fatty hips (I sleep naked) and see the body of the shapely female that I have dreamed of being for over 30 years. Kinda stressful though. I have to quickly worry about what to wear to hide these girls and keep everyone's mind on business at work. It's getting tougher every day. Still, good to be alive and not so sadly depressed every single day like I used to be. Depressed only sometimes now...
For me as odd as it sounds getting my nails done. They aren't as long as I would like but heck it works for now. They at subtle French tips with a nice gloss - I love gel nails. I would truly love to have them painted the same colors as my toes but that will come in time. I guess you can say it was also having the confidence to say eff it this is who I be and I am not going to worry about it.
I got the letter from my therapist so I can begin HRT!! :D
Quote from: SiobhánF on July 29, 2017, 12:52:56 AM
I got the letter from my therapist so I can begin HRT!! :D
That my dear is reason to celebrate!!
Congratulates
hugs,
Laurie
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Got my brows done for the first time! Still not out at work so we went conservative for now.
I have been on estradiol for four months. Had my hormone levels checked a few days ago and as a result today I took my first dose of spiro!
Yes Coleen, do dem brows.
I have been a year on HRT and still have not done them lol
4 more months and I'm out and I will have my brows done :D
Sounds like we're on similar schedules, you just got a head start. (or maybe I'm just impatient) ;D
Even with as much as is left she still took about half off. These things were HUGE.
Quote from: Laurie on July 29, 2017, 12:54:33 AM
That my dear is reason to celebrate!!
Congratulates
hugs,
Laurie
Thanks, Laurie! It sure is! ^_^
At the computer store over lunch: "Soo Madam, what are you doing with the rest of your day"...
and again: no makeup and just wearing a loose top, capris and sneakers...
Not bad...
Sarah that is so awesome!!! Your post made me happy.
Woohoo! Go Sarah!
Quote from: sarah1972 on July 31, 2017, 04:37:51 PM
At the computer store over lunch: "Soo Madam, what are you doing with the rest of your day"...
and again: no makeup and just wearing a loose top, capris and sneakers...
Not bad...
That's fantastic, Sarah! Not just a pass, but a pickup line. :D
I was so puzzled I did not even realize the pickup line until I was back in the car... Shed some happy tears right there...
;D
Quote from: KathyLauren on August 01, 2017, 06:10:49 AM
That's fantastic, Sarah! Not just a pass, but a pickup line. :D
Pretty much every little thing in my life is making me happy these days.
Just life...
In two weeks I'm going to have another appointment with my endo, and finally start HRT!! ^_^
I've been looking forward to this day for years, and I hope this will be a road to a more positive life.
Galyo, congratulations on your upcoming appointment!
You just described my July leading to my first endo appointment a week ago.
Thank yooooooouu! <3 Also congrats to you for having started!
Even this week I was suffering a lot from depressive moods, and I'm really sick of it controlling my life as much as it has. I'm ready to finally be happy with myself.
I went on my own (boy mode of course) to buy girls clothes and makeup in a store for the first time ever. At the till the woman looked at the lipstick I was buying and said "just your shade!" I know she was having a laugh but it genuinely made me quite happy haha!
Then when I got home I took some pictures and I really liked them! I felt really pretty for the first time in a long, long time.
Oh, and the lipstick was my shade ;) x
This morning while driving on Lake Shore Speedway, I mean Drive (Chicago), the cop pulled the guy next to me over, not me!
I think I'll slow down. My ID is still M. It would not be comfortable.
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Quote from: Hannah Samira on August 02, 2017, 12:47:40 PM
I went on my own (boy mode of course) to buy girls clothes and makeup in a store for the first time ever. At the till the woman looked at the lipstick I was buying and said "just your shade!" I know she was having a laugh but it genuinely made me quite happy haha!
Then when I got home I took some pictures and I really liked them! I felt really pretty for the first time in a long, long time.
Oh, and the lipstick was my shade ;) x
That's great Hannah.
I never bout anything female as guy, I was always too scared
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on August 02, 2017, 01:36:53 PM
That's great Hannah.
I never bout anything female as guy, I was always too scared
This was my first time, I was so scared but it was actually fine! People just assume you're shopping for someone else :P
Quote from: Denise on August 02, 2017, 12:58:31 PM
I think I'll slow down. My ID is still M. It would not be comfortable.
When ever I have to show my old ID, I just say "I haven't had a chance to update it yet."
Today I came out to my boss. [emoji4] We sat at a café, in de Grote Markt of a typical belgian small city and he read the letter I wrote for him. And... He was very happy that I came out to him and said that everybody needs to find her/his path to a happy life and if in my case that meant transitioning from male to female,"...then by all means, do it!", he said smiling. He assured me that the reaction of my coworkers will be nothing but positive... I'm so relieved and happy! And what a boost of courage this gave me! Tomorrow, I'll be coming out to a few other work colleagues.
Hugs, Sarah
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Awesome! Congratulations. I am so happy for you and of you having such a great experience. You go girl!
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on August 02, 2017, 03:03:22 PM
Today I came out to my boss. [emoji4] We sat at a café, in de Grote Markt of a typical belgian small city and he read the letter I wrote for him. And... He was very happy that I came out to him and said that everybody needs to find her/his path to a happy life and if in my case that meant transitioning from male to female,"...then by all means, do it!", he said smiling. He assured me that the reaction of my coworkers will be nothing but positive... I'm so relieved and happy! And what a boost of courage this gave me! Tomorrow, I'll be coming out to a few other work colleagues.
Hugs, Sarah
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Quote from: KarynMcD on August 02, 2017, 01:47:18 PM
When ever I have to show my old ID, I just say "I haven't had a chance to update it yet."
Yesterday I asked for my "genderpasje" (gender pass in Dutch). It's a document issued by the Transgender Infopunt at the University Hospital of Ghent, Belgium.
From the site:
QuoteThe Transgender Infopunt has started publishing gender passes that you can use if your appearance does not match the data on your identity card.
A gender pass does not in itself have any legal value, but is merely meant to help clarify the identity of its owner. This can be the case in any situation where confusion about the identity may exist, such as police checks, postal records, customs checks, etc. This card can certainly be recommended when the photo on the ID card differs significantly from the Changed appearance.
On the inside, a picture of how someone look like in his original appearance (male or female) as similar as possible with the picture shown on the official ID. In addition, there is room for a picture of the modified appearance. In three languages (Dutch, French, German), both pictures show one and the same person, and that the appearance may be different from your identity card because you are transgender.
The official name and first name are given, and, if applicable, the new chosen first name, followed by the applicant's signature and registration number at the Transgender Infopunt. The registration number only applies to situations where controlling authorities would request more information from us. The personal data will not be used for any other purpose and will not be disclosed to third parties"
Interesting, hum? I should get in the mail tomorrow. I'm very curious! [emoji4]
Hugs, Sarah
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Found a 15 page PDF titled "Gender Transition Guidelines for Colleagues" on the HR website at work today.
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Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on August 02, 2017, 03:03:22 PM
Today I came out to my boss. [emoji4]
YESSS!!!! You just made me happy
Well done sarah
Quote from: Hannah Samira on August 02, 2017, 12:47:40 PM
I went on my own (boy mode of course) to buy girls clothes and makeup in a store for the first time ever. At the till the woman looked at the lipstick I was buying and said "just your shade!" I know she was having a laugh but it genuinely made me quite happy haha!
Then when I got home I took some pictures and I really liked them! I felt really pretty for the first time in a long, long time.
Oh, and the lipstick was my shade ;) x
I have done the same when I bought some BB cream and some beauty blenders and the lady at the register (older British lady) said to me while smiling, after considering the items I had put down in front of her, "You're very brave." It didn't register to my brain until I looked up at her. I blushed, smiled, and said, "thank you." Mind you, this was at a military shopping mall (BX/PX/NEX). I wasn't sure if she thought it was for me or if I was buying it for someone else, but I'll take it. lol
Asking a cis girl for help when buying some foundation for the first time, then my ex wife taking me clothes shopping.
Sara.
Today I discovered that my hair is now long enough for a pony tail (of about 3") :)
Only taken about a year of growth :o
Got a call from my older brother today. I don't have much to do with him as he works an executive position for a large multinational and barely gets time to scratch himself. I was trying to update my address book and I sent a family wide message asking for an address and he replied telling me how busy he has been and after a couple of TXT's, my phone went and he ended up calling me.
We have a very special relationship and always have had. It is the first time I have had a chance to speak to him since Xmas so I was really happy to talk to him. Better yet he is coming to Adelaide and Making time to see me and my family in a few weeks. I am nervous, but a little excited, as he has never met Liz ;)
He is a great guy and I love him dearly
Quote from: Hannah Samira on August 02, 2017, 01:41:05 PM
This was my first time, I was so scared but it was actually fine! People just assume you're shopping for someone else [emoji14]
Mostly true except when I bought my first pair of heals at DSW. This was very early, when I was still trying to sort out if I was trans and before I started seeing a therapist for it. The nice older lady at the register sussed out that they were for me and we had a wonderful conversation. No comments from anyone on any other early clothes purchased and now I get gendered correctly even without makeup so the fearful days are over.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Hooked my bra strap correctly on first try without having to drag and rotate the clasp around to the front and then back. Took 2 seconds instead of a very long minute of fumbling. Everything gets easier over time.
Kendra, you must be more agile than me. I get the hooks done quickly and correctly once a month or so with no improvement as time goes by. The rest of the time it is connect and rotate. But with my girls filling the cups, I don't really mind.
Anne
Well I managed to undo mine without turning it to the side tonight (have trouble reaching behind my back!!)
Little bit at a time it's fun to do things I noticed girlfriends doing in the past. I finally managed to attach the bra-clasp in place by almost not thinking about it. Many of us (myself included) are learning things others did much earlier in life - I have to keep reminding myself to be patient.
The other one is removing a bra without removing your shirt - I finally figured out how. First time I saw a girlfriend do that I thought it was magic.
Quote from: Kendra on August 03, 2017, 02:34:38 PM
Hooked my bra strap correctly on first try without having to drag and rotate the clasp around to the front and then back. Took 2 seconds instead of a very long minute of fumbling. Everything gets easier over time.
I have always been a back fumbler...finally got it...dam missed again, LOL I did a lot of that
Quote from: Kendra on August 03, 2017, 02:34:38 PM
Hooked my bra strap correctly on first try without having to drag and rotate the clasp around to the front and then back. Took 2 seconds instead of a very long minute of fumbling. Everything gets easier over time.
I was at the hairdressers having my hair washed as I can no longer raise my arms above my chest (post my neck surgery) and I was telling the girl of my struggles in fastening my bra, suddenly I had three other women chirping in about difficulties and solutions. There are some way creative ways of fastening bras!!
Personally I thought that the three man approach was my favourite, now I have to find three men. >:-)
I have been quiet down lately, struggling to accept myself, times I wonder is it really right to do this and all.
But last night I had a video call with mum, I was amazed to how much more she is on my side now.
She is really angry with dad because h won't talk to me.
But seeing her like this makes me so happy.
She was even calling me Rachel, and I never once asked her too.
I'm so happy it makes me want to cry :')
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on August 04, 2017, 04:55:22 AM
I have been quiet down lately, struggling to accept myself, times I wonder is it really right to do this and all.
But last night I had a video call with mum, I was amazed to how much more she is on my side now.
She is really angry with dad because h won't talk to me.
But seeing her like this makes me so happy.
She was even calling me Rachel, and I never once asked her too.
I'm so happy it makes me want to cry :')
So happy for you Rachel! I love hearing how families accept our true selves!
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Thanks Vicki, I have been really struggling this past month, I don't let on. But it's getting me down.
I haven't talked to my dad in 8 months, and we used to talk everyday.
It's really hard.
Hearing mam really take my side, and calling me by my name like that has lifted my spirits today :)
I got the chance to be with my Granddaughter again. I held her and fed her over a couple hours. I don't know who got the most out of it me or her.
Dawn
Quote from: DawnOday on August 04, 2017, 12:36:14 PM
I got the chance to be with my Granddaughter again. I held her and fed her over a couple hours. I don't know who got the most out of it me or her.
Dawn
That is wonderful news Dawn. Cherish it.
Perhaps I can say the same someday.
Hugs,
Laurie
Having my make up done properly by the ex, for the first time ever looking in a full length mirror & thinking " I might be ablke to pull this off perhaps "
Sara
Quote from: coldHeart on August 04, 2017, 06:28:24 PM
Having my make up done properly by the ex...
Sara - that's great and by your ex no less. That's great.
Cindy, you got me LOL'in on that. But at the same time I do wish you the best on your surgery recovery - that does not sound easy (because it isn't).
Rachel, here is a big hug, you need that. And your mom is awesome. You have inspired so many others, I hope we can return the favor.
Dawn, Laurie is right - time with your granddaughter is so precious.
And Sara!!! Heck yeah you can pull that off! We all know it, zero doubt. The most difficult part I think is convincing you what you really can do. ;)
Quote from: coldHeart on August 04, 2017, 06:28:24 PM
Having my make up done properly by the ex, for the first time ever looking in a full length mirror & thinking " I might be ablke to pull this off perhaps "
Sara
That's my girl :)... I KNOW you can pull this off!!!! :)!!!!!!
Quote from: coldHeart on August 04, 2017, 06:28:24 PM
Having my make up done properly by the ex, for the first time ever looking in a full length mirror & thinking " I might be ablke to pull this off perhaps "
Sara
Sara,
This is one of those positive things you ca do for yourself. Golly gee girl, and you are a girl, of course you can pull this off. I told you before you do not look bad! With a little makeup I'll bet you are a knockout. Do we get to see the finished product? Just sit back and enjoy the feeling and I hope you are taking mental notes so you can do it for yourself.
I would love to see the results Sara as would everyone here.
Hugs,
Laurie
Quote from: Kendra on August 04, 2017, 08:52:02 PM
Rachel, here is a big hug, you need that. And your mom is awesome. You have inspired so many others, I hope we can return the favor.
Thank you Kendra, it's funny shes starting to step up just in time.
I love my mam, I need her to be on my side.
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on August 04, 2017, 12:12:09 PM
Thanks Vicki, I have been really struggling this past month, I don't let on. But it's getting me down.
I haven't talked to my dad in 8 months, and we used to talk everyday.
It's really hard.
Hearing mam really take my side, and calling me by my name like that has lifted my spirits today :)
I am so happy for you that you Mum has come round, It is a very validating experience...Glad you are feeling better.
Hugs
Liz
Quote from: coldHeart on August 04, 2017, 06:28:24 PM
Having my make up done properly by the ex, for the first time ever looking in a full length mirror & thinking " I might be ablke to pull this off perhaps "
Sara
Excellent...you
can pull this off ;)
Thanks Liz, and has been a slow battle, but I think I'm winning :')
Sorry to hear about your parents Rachel, it might take a little time but hopefully your mother will give your father a good stern talking to & he WILL see sense.
Sara
Thanks Sara, she ate the head off him the last day :')
Still he is defiant
Don't right him off just yet
Sara x
Seeing Sara having a good time, yippee . Treated myself tonight to a full body shave and lotion , best dress ect and a glass of red.
Went grocery shopping with my friends, but since it was out of town, I could go as me! This was actually my first time shopping as Sarah. I think I got an odd stare or two, but no problems. In fact, a handsome young man who worked there smiled at us & asked 'How are you ladies today?' :D :D
What made me happy today? Reading Sarah's post. This is great!
Quote from: Cindy on August 04, 2017, 03:19:40 AM
I was at the hairdressers having my hair washed as I can no longer raise my arms above my chest (post my neck surgery) and I was telling the girl of my struggles in fastening my bra, suddenly I had three other women chirping in about difficulties and solutions. There are some way creative ways of fastening bras!!
Personally I thought that the three man approach was my favourite, now I have to find three men. >:-)
That's just one match away for you. :laugh:
Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: davina61 on August 05, 2017, 03:08:38 PM
Seeing Sara having a good time, yippee . Treated myself tonight to a full body shave and lotion , best dress ect and a glass of red.
So Davina you only shave if I have a good time, god girl you must be like a monkey by now.
Sara.
Quote from: Kendra on August 05, 2017, 05:41:53 PM
What made me happy today? Reading Sarah's post. This is great!
Thanks Kendra! I had a big grin on my face for the rest of the trip. :icon_biggrin:
Went to a party tonight. The attendance was 28 gay men, 1 cis woman and me. The instant I walked in the cis woman, who I didn't know, kept looking over at me. Eventually we started up a conversation and all evening she was basically hitting on my. If it wasn't for her over-bearing (she kept rolling her eyes at him) 6 foot plus 230 pound boy friend ..... hey, it give me hope that there is a chance for a relationship going forward with someone.
Friends from Missouri knocked on my door.
Pizza and hot wings delivered... It's my weekend and I enjoy the little things :)
Now if I can find a good movie I can maybe go from happy to totally content.
Yes it's 4am but I work nights so technically my days end at 10am and start at 5pm - that makes me happy too :icon_razz:
Verification also just made me happy, "I think so" is not an accepted response to "are you human". I'll try a simple yes. :)
Watching the Breaking Bad marathon on AMC all day today. It's my biggest guilty pleasure! ::)
I got a new avatar for the forum :) I like this one a lot more, my former one was depressing to look at. This one is a lot more comfortable to post with for some strange reason, it makes it easier to just put my thoughts out there.
I filed my name change paperwork today!
Unfortunately it's a month until the one day per month that the judge hears civil cases out here in hicksville, then a minimum of three weeks more to out myself to the world via the local paper. The ladies at the courthouse were super friendly and totally awesome about it. Nothing more than a semi surprised eyebrow lift when she got to the reason part saying "give me girl name because me girl." I was not presenting female at all. Yet again, I got all nervous for nothing.
Colleen, congratulations on filing for your name change. I am starting to think about doing the same along with gender marker etc.
On a virtually related note, Rachel Lynn's forum name changed to just Rachel today and that makes me happy.
Rachel is a cornerstone of this place. Her post "MTF in need of help" which began 5 years ago inspired me to be more bold with my transition. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,133631.0.html
Thanks Kendra. Rachel inspired me as well along with a few other people. I'm in an "I'm tired of this so let's get it over with" mode right now. After the name comes birth cert, then passport, then finally driver's license.
Quote from: Colleen_definitely on August 07, 2017, 03:55:43 PM
I filed my name change paperwork today!
Unfortunately it's a month until the one day per month that the judge hears civil cases out here in hicksville, then a minimum of three weeks more to out myself to the world via the local paper. The ladies at the courthouse were super friendly and totally awesome about it. Nothing more than a semi surprised eyebrow lift when she got to the reason part saying "give me girl name because me girl." I was not presenting female at all. Yet again, I got all nervous for nothing.
Colleen, that's great. I'm on the same timeline as you. Filed last week, newspaper today and the next two weeks then a court date on October 11. I can't wait. Living full-time with male ID is risky.
Good luck.
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Congrats on the progress!
I'm not even going full time until New year's. I travel for work and already make the TSA people eyeball me pretty hard since hair removal and HRT have changed my appearance noticeably. Having to explain three or four times a week is not something I want to do so I'm getting zee papers done first.
Watching "People of Earth" on TBS last night.
There is an unavoidable and somewhat comic analogy to be drawn between alien abduction and the struggle of TG life, disclosure to friends and family as well as publicly, uncertainty initially of the reality of it.
Don't take me too literally here.
Steph
Slowly tearing down the system makes me happy.
Riding my bike home from work today, a guy waved at me. Then later another guy drove passed me real slow, turned around, and drove passed me going back the way he came, then waved at me and smiled.
Still not interested in guys, but it was nice being waved at anyway, never happened before.
Starting to see some breast development! :D ;D :D ;D
A friend of mine who sells LuLaRoe just gave me two items: a shirt and a dress. On top of that, she gave me some LipSense. She's been wanting to give me some things, but felt awkward about it, but I assured my wife that she has nothing for which to feel awkward, since I'm open to discussing things (which, I think, is why she feels awkward about it) and that I think she's a really cool person. The next time we went over to her house, she brought me to her product room and told me to pick out two items and not to worry about paying for them.
On top of that, yesterday, Old Navy was having a 15% off everything deal and I bought a bunch of shirts and jeans. ^_^
Found a new GP close to work (yay!) and after meeting with her yesterday took my first dose of spiro+finesteride. E starts in 2 weeks after checking a few things out. Cloud 9 exciting after pushing it off soooo long
Quote from: p on August 09, 2017, 10:43:07 AM
Starting to see some breast development! :D ;D :D ;D
That's GREAT Patti. Let them grow.. let them grow.. let them grow.
Boobies yeah!
So you'll be sporting a fine rack when we meet again?
Hugs,
Laurie
Went Shopping Got a NEW dress.
I saw an awesome apartment in Chicago on Monday - going again on Sunday - but today, my wife (at least for now she is) has agreed to join me to give it a once over with a non-emotional eye.
SO... If ya'll come to Chicago, let me know and maybe we can do lunch.
First day of my two-day hair transplantation treatment, in Budapest, Hungary. Arrived 2 days ago together with my wife and two boys and extensively visited the city. Really pleasant and beautiful, despite temperatures of 37°C! Local goulash is reaaaally delicious!
First hair session, today, went super good. A few pricks from the local anesthesia and absolutely no pain anymore... amazing! Tomorrow is the second and last session. I'm doing the FUE technique, with 6000 grafts, my priority being to fully cover the lateral receding hair lines and maximizing the density in the middle; if any advancing of the hair line is possible, fine, but only after the two first objectives are fullfilled, because I'm having surgical hairline advancement anyways.
They let me choose a movie to watch during the procedure. I chose The Danish Girl... [emoji4]
Life is good... and despite being for the moment a bald girl, I'm happy! [emoji136]
Hugs, Sarah
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Wow Sarah.v
Watching the Danish girl while having a hair transplant.. You must be hardcore girl.
Sara.
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
I'm happy for you with the progress you've made. X
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Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
Proud of you doing this Sara. I know it will not be easy but it sure can be rewarding. More positives from you please.
Hugs,
Laurie
Sara darling , nice one. The first of many and you have a friend that wont judge you (your dog!!!)
Quote from: davina61 on August 11, 2017, 02:46:34 PM
Sara darling , nice one. The first of many and you have a friend that wont judge you (your dog!!!
How do you know my dog Davina, has she been gossiping about me to you.
Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
That's my girl!!!!! I'm so proud of you dear sister!!!! :)!!!!!!
Onward We Go!!!
A :)
Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
Congrats girl!! What a major accomplishment. ;D
Sara this is so great to hear!!! WOW
Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
That is fantastic and a tough thing to do for the first time. I must admit I did find going full-time a huge psychological relief. I hope you have fund and enjoy all the "first time" sensations and challenges of being out and about fulltime.
Thanks ladies
I nearly never made it to this point if it won't for a few fairy godmother's on here so thanks again,
No doubt I will have bad days but if you ever get as low as I have, you might see a tiny little light shinning way in the distance but run like hell towards it, glad it & never let it go.
Sara.
Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
GO GIRL!!! Still haven't made it there myself, but the current plan is for October of next year.
Awesome to hear Sara! ;D
Well today I went to the orthopedic doctor for a follow up from an MRI. Let me set the scene. On entry there is a check in desk with a check out side next to it. I followed an older lady in and her daughter about my age. We were standing in line which had backed up behind me a few people. So the girl at the checkout desk motioned toward me and said MAM! The lady in front of me thought she was talking to her as did I at first but the girl at the check in desk was just finished with the person before her. The girl on the check out desk said no I meant HER behind you. I'm sure they don't get many trans women by there, and I've only been there twice before but she remembered me coming in. Funny, the couple of times before I just had on old man work jeans and a tee shirt. This time I had a tee shirt and some Levi's 515 boot cut that followed my legs shape. My hair and glasses are still the same. Although it is currently colored a real stand out deep red color under the floresent lights or in the sun. Just barely getting long enough I don't have to wear a ball cap anymore. I ought to get the back trimmed as its longer than the sides and front but I can't bring myself to do that yet. Maybe when my sides get down to shoulder length I'll get a cut to even it all out.
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on August 11, 2017, 08:51:47 AM
First day of my two-day hair transplantation treatment, in Budapest, Hungary. Arrived 2 days ago together with my wife and two boys and extensively visited the city. Really pleasant and beautiful, despite temperatures of 37°C! Local goulash is reaaaally delicious!
Budapest is an amazing city. The Irish Cat Pub used to have good food but I was there in 2001, so who knows now.
Quote from: TonyaW on August 02, 2017, 03:40:14 PM
Found a 15 page PDF titled "Gender Transition Guidelines for Colleagues" on the HR website at work today.
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My company has the same document. Ours is 10 pages. 3+ in terms and definitions, 2 paragraphs for the transitionee, 6+ pages for everyone else.
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Quote from: sophie1904 on August 03, 2017, 05:45:15 AM
Today I discovered that my hair is now long enough for a pony tail (of about 3") :)
Only taken about a year of growth :o
That would make me very happy. I can get most of it but the stubborn few up front aren't long enough. Oh the wait...
Congestions.
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Quote from: Denise on August 12, 2017, 11:11:07 AM
My company has the same document. Ours is 10 pages. 3+ in terms and definitions, 2 paragraphs for the transitionee, 6+ pages for everyone else.
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Not a lot of ours pertains to the transitioner either really. A decent "to do" checklist but a lot of that gets triggered automatically when there is a legal name change. Most was for manager and definitions etc for the "colleagues that are transitioning with you".
Might not be an exact quote.
Whole thing came in handy as a way to approach my manager. Left a copy of it on her desk last Thursday night (I was off Fri-Sat-Sun) along with a note about needing to talk to her about it.
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Dropping a dress size, I'm now an size 8. yippie💖
Quote from: coldHeart on August 11, 2017, 01:24:35 PM
My first day trying full time, even walked the dog fully dressed got one or two double takes, one man even put his hand up (sorry love one lesbian here) but it felt SOOOO GOOD.
Sara
Sara, just saw this, I am so happy for you.
Moni
Quote from: coldHeart on August 13, 2017, 06:23:38 PM
Dropping a dress size, I'm now an size 8. yippie💖
Sara, I'm jelly. Put a 1 in front of that 8 and you have mine. congrats girl.
Hugs,
Laurie
Quote from: coldHeart on August 13, 2017, 06:23:38 PM
Dropping a dress size, I'm now an size 8. yippie💖
Congrats! Wish I could get down to that!
I'm trying to get back to my old avatar size but little miss fatty here had been comfort eating, now its fruit fruit fruit.
Sara
Quote from: coldHeart on August 14, 2017, 05:10:08 AM
I'm trying to get back to my old avatar size but little miss fatty here had been comfort eating, now its fruit fruit fruit.
Sara
You are not fat. You are Beautiful! My 262Lbs behind is fat, and my size 18W-20 is far larger than your size. I would die to get into a size 8.
Quote from: TonyaW on August 13, 2017, 09:05:49 AM
Not a lot of ours pertains to the transitioner either really. A decent "to do" checklist but a lot of that gets triggered automatically when there is a legal name change. Most was for manager and definitions etc for the "colleagues that are transitioning with you".
Might not be an exact quote.
Whole thing came in handy as a way to approach my manager. Left a copy of it on her desk last Thursday night (I was off Fri-Sat-Sun) along with a note about needing to talk to her about it.
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I love it. What a great way to break the ice. Any chance you boss would have any idea or will this be a total surprise?
Good luck Monday (today).
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Yesterday my wife (soon to be ex) and I had a fantastic day. She cut her morning activities short to drive 70 miles to look at apartments with me. We had a good lunch then spent all evening cleaning and "dividing" the crap, I mean stuff, up that 32+ years will create.
Then this morning I put in an application for an apartment in Chicago. And my credit rating came back 25 points higher than expected.
What a good way to start a Monday!
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Wow Denise that's great that you & your ex are still friend's.
Artesian
You are not fat girl you have curves & they look great.
My weight continues to drop and I am only 1 pound away from having a 1 instead of a 2 as the first number. I have now lost 30 pounds since the end of May and I'm only 20 pounds away from my target weight. Yesterday I was able to fit into a pair of size 10 Calvin Klein skinny jeans. ;D
Quote from: Laurie on August 10, 2017, 04:44:48 PM
That's GREAT Patti. Let them grow.. let them grow.. let them grow.
Boobies yeah!
So you'll be sporting a fine rack when we meet again?
Hugs,
Laurie
Let's hope so, Laurie! :D
Quote from: Denise on August 14, 2017, 05:41:00 AM
I love it. What a great way to break the ice. Any chance you boss would have any idea or will this be a total surprise?
Good luck Monday (today).
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Worked quite well. This was last week actually, so talked to her on Tuesday. She was prepared, had a managers version of the packet. Policy has that manager and HR are supposed to then inform other employees, I did not have to be present for that though I could be. She took it upon herself (okd by me) and told everyone else (15 of us total at our location) on Wednesday morning. So far no one's asked questions but have been calling me TJ since. Going to use my initials professionally to start with anyway. Some of my family did so before I came out to them so it's familiar to me also.
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Officially I exist. I just received 4 copies of my updated birth certificate and it was an original instead of an amended copy. Now the only items not in my new name are my grade school and high school records which I am not worried about. I may have set a record for the longest time to update my birth records at 35 years after surgery.
Congratulations, Dena! That's long enough to satisfy even the Brits.
I suspect you have covered any RLE requirements LOL :D
^ Awesome! ^
Congratulations, Dena!
I realize that I have a very supportive spouse and very thankful for that everyday. :-)
Realizing the supply on hand is sufficient and I will never have to order a refill of my spironolactone. [emoji4]
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Next Wednesday 23 August, I'm scheduled to see surgeon to set up FFS. What will be done and SCHEDULE SURGERIES! I'M AS EXCITED AS H. E. DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS!
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Had my first conversation in the ladies' room. Talking to another woman waiting for the single stall. Continued the conversation while she went into the stall and peed. Feeling accepted. :)
Girl talk with my doctor's nurse assistant when she had been all business before. It was the first time I went there as myself. I told her it was one of my favorite surprises I've discovered since going full time.
;D ;D ;D
Hugs,
Laurie
Girl talk is the best! What I have learned about all my cis female neighbors in the past 3 month is just amazing...
Congratulations! What a sign of acceptance:-)
Quote from: Laurie on August 15, 2017, 09:52:10 PM
Girl talk with my doctor's nurse assistant when she had been all business before. It was the first time I went there as myself. I told her it was one of my favorite surprises I've discovered since going full time.
;D ;D ;D
Hugs,
Laurie
Got an invite for a social networking event for women in the Computer industry... Seems my updated LinkedIn profile passed well :-)
Slanan built up the courage and had a very important conversation, came out to wife. Reading that made my day.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,227143.msg2015289.html
My dentist has agreed to give me freezing shots for my upper lip when it comes time to electrocute them do electrolysis on them.
All my Old Navy clothes came in and they all fit nicely! My wife commented about my pants being cute and I was pretty chuffed. Two pairs of skinny jeans and a tall & curvy pair, along with four shirts. I would definitely recommend shopping at Old Navy online, since they do have a tall and curvy section that is meant to fit us tall girls. ^_^
So at dinner tonight my wife and I were discussing our upcoming 20th anniversary next March. We are wanting to renew our vows. Tonight she mentioned having the wedding at the zoo that she works at. She couldn't decide if she wants it at the flamingo island or inside the boat that houses the saltwater aquarium. She said that if we do the flamingo island that she wants us and the chaplain on the island with the birds while everyone else is outside the fence. What got me was that she said being on the island might ruin our dresses. "Our dresses". My heart went into a flutter and I was so happy to hear her say that. I'm now on cloud nine because of one little comment.
Hi girls 🙋🏼 Two things made me happy today. The first one was making an appointment with a group meeting of transgender women at my healthcare facility. Second I bought a cute pair of Gloria Vanderbilt jeans.
Hugs, Jessica 💁
What made me happy a few days back was taking a picture of myself and being so happy with it, I'm using it as my new avatar.
Smiles, Jessica 💁
Yes Jessica, that avatar pic looks great!
Thank you so much Rachel_Christina, it made me cry when I took it.
Kisses, Jessica 🙋🏼
I got my doctor's letter for the US passport office today, with the correct language to get a 'permanent' 10 year passport! Time to head to the postmaster's office..
What a great moment! So happy for you! Even more: congrats on 20 years going strong! Renewing vows is a big step.
Quote from: RobynTx on August 17, 2017, 06:55:37 PM
So at dinner tonight my wife and I were discussing our upcoming 20th anniversary next March. We are wanting to renew our vows. Tonight she mentioned having the wedding at the zoo that she works at. She couldn't decide if she wants it at the flamingo island or inside the boat that houses the saltwater aquarium. She said that if we do the flamingo island that she wants us and the chaplain on the island with the birds while everyone else is outside the fence. What got me was that she said being on the island might ruin our dresses. "Our dresses". My heart went into a flutter and I was so happy to hear her say that. I'm now on cloud nine because of one little comment.
Quote from: sarah1972 on August 18, 2017, 07:15:18 AM
What a great moment! So happy for you! Even more: congrats on 20 years going strong! Renewing vows is a big step.
Thank you. I just can't wait to go wedding gown shopping. I do plan on something rather simple. :)
I just finished my appointments with my endocrinologist and therapist. This is the first time I've gone completely dressed, and they were thrilled to "see" me. Black top with big flowers, black knee-length a-line skirt, 2" heels, wide-brim floppy hat ( to hide the thinning hair on top), shiny clear nail polish. Oh, and my Mom's old wedding ring on my little finger (more on that in a different thread).
I had good news for my therapist about coming out to Mom and sister with a great outcome, and the endocrinologist had great news for me. He's doubling my spiro and tripling my estradiol! I also showed him a printout of the web page for Gliaglis ( the self-occluding numbing cream that Kendra discovered, and he put in a prescription for it. He's never heard of it and wants me to report back. Once I get it it'll be time to start the laser treatments for the dark hairs, followed by electrolysis for all those gray ones.
After that I took a bunch of deep breaths, and due to my therapists urging, I'm now sitting in a restaurant and eating lunch. This is my first time out alone fully dressed, and so far everything is normal except my heart rate. I'm keeping my nose in my phone trying to be inconspicuous. Admittedly I'm cheating a bit. This is a known-friendly part of town.
I just wiped my face and got lipstick on the napkin. This is so cool!!
- Stephanie [emoji68]🏼[emoji538]
This actually happened yesterday, but I didn't get home until very late and I didn't have time to post it.
Several great things:
Drove up to Kansas City for my therapist appointment (as Sarah), and ended up walking a bit around Westport (it's a VERY LGBT+ friendly area).
Went to several stores (solo) - Target, Kohls, and even the mall!
Young lady working at the shoe store said 'You're looking beautiful today.' :D, and we had a nice little chat.
Ate dinner out with friends, then went to a movie. My first time doing both of those things as Sarah.
The only odd look I got the entire day was the woman running the self-checkout lane at Target, who looked a little nervous as she had to give me the spiel for their discount card (that could have been unrelated to me, though!).
Oh, and I got two new pairs of shoes! :D :D
Also, yesterday marked one month on HRT!
I got my first pair of skinny jeans today!! They really help with dysphoria and just make me feel more feminine [emoji4]
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I'm happy that I have my wife especially after my terrible day. She has been nothing short of amazing ever since I dropped the trans bomb a couple of months ago. She has come leaps and bounds since that first talks when I was pretty sure we weren't going to make it. She is now going to a therapist to deal with being a trans wife and I am starting to feel our whole relationship strengthening by the day. I'm so proud of her! She also starts a new job that she's really excited for and she's earned it!
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This morning, after 4 months living full-time, I took all my old boy clothes to the charity recycling drop. They've been sitting in my room, a bit like a ghost, but gone now [emoji5].
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Hi gang!
Got my BA done this past Tuesday and everything is going great! Minimal pain, just some tightness, and so grateful for an awesome surgeon. :-)
M
Since having my ears pierced I have only worn studs, bought some hook in lozenge shape dangly ones and put them in tonight . What a nice feeling , defo getting some more . Got complemented on my nails and studs in the post office by the lady behind the counter (see my diary for more info ;) )
Quote from: Laurie on August 15, 2017, 09:52:10 PM
Girl talk with my doctor's nurse assistant when she had been all business before. It was the first time I went there as myself. I told her it was one of my favorite surprises I've discovered since going full time.
;D ;D ;D
Hugs,
Laurie
That's super, Laurie! It's so cool when you get such a surprise! It brightens up your whole week!
Hugs, Sarah
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Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on August 19, 2017, 02:11:17 PM
That's super, Laurie! It's so cool when you get such a surprise! It brightens up your whole week!
Hugs, Sarah
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It was just what the doctor ordered, Sarah. LOL
Hugs,
Laurie
Quote from: Lizabelle on August 18, 2017, 08:54:15 PM
I got my first pair of skinny jeans today!! They really help with dysphoria and just make me feel more feminine [emoji4]
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Feels good, right? I wore some of mine today, too.:)
My wife referred to me as she today when we were talking! I don't think she's ready to use female pronouns every day but it's a start! Love her!!!
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Quote from: VickiBlue on August 20, 2017, 05:00:39 PM
My wife referred to me as she today when we were talking! I don't think she's ready to use female pronouns every day but it's a start! Love her!!!
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Isn't that just the greatest feeling?! Wain until she refers to you as she to someone else.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
I know right!?
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Three of the texts I received in two exchanges this weekend this weekend after I came out to my best friend and golfing buddy
"I kinda figured but makes no difference to me. You are still my friend"
"Yep still willing to golf with you"
"I will never see you any differently. You will always be my best friend forever"
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Currently watching the sun being blotted out! (I'm in a 96% totality area)
Quote from: TonyaW on August 21, 2017, 07:55:16 AM
Three of the texts I received in two exchanges this weekend this weekend after I came out to my best friend and golfing buddy
"I kinda figured but makes no difference to me. You are still my friend"
"Yep still willing to golf with you"
"I will never see you any differently. You will always be my best friend forever"
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That's awesome!
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Size 10 long Super Skinny jeans from Old Navy....
Quote from: I Am Jess on August 21, 2017, 02:18:15 PM
Size 10 long Super Skinny jeans from Old Navy....
Yass! That's what I wear! I love 'em! :3
Quote from: I Am Jess on August 21, 2017, 02:18:15 PM
Size 10 long Super Skinny jeans from Old Navy....
Quote from: SiobhánF on August 21, 2017, 04:51:15 PM
Yass! That's what I wear! I love 'em! :3
Love the longer jeans at Old Navy but not quite a size 10 for me.
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I'm a little to much of an 'old lady' for skinny jeans yet! I'm just happy that I'm about full time now! Now I know why every woman I've ever known looks in her closet and says 'I have nothing to wear'! Mine are coming along a piece at a time. Still trying to figure out what sizes I wear.
I don't know if I'll ever have the body type that can pull off skinny jeans. I do hope to expand my wardrobe soon with some more feminine styles in women's jeans. Also, I have to figure out my size too.
Just received a big box from UPS... A shiny golden statue for the work award I received earlier this year.. Reminds me a bit of myself after coming out... having wings and tossing a big ball around... Just has a bigger cup size than I have
My cosmetologist friend is giving me a makeover, pedicure, and hair trimming tonight!
I'm a little nervous letting anyone near my hair with scissors, even though I know she's not going to chop it all off. It's only 4 months of growth, but I don't want to lose it!
Oooh have fun Sarah!!!
Passed my second of three exams for my current PME, yesterday, and I got my assignment notification for Luke AFB, today. Good changes happening. :)
My wife got me my own women's underwear that I wore all day at work, does that count? I am not out yet but it was nice having something female to wear under my crap boy stuff.
Quote from: Charlene2017 on August 23, 2017, 04:12:10 PM
My wife got me my own women's underwear that I wore all day at work, does that count? I am not out yet but it was nice having something female to wear under my crap boy stuff.
Of course it counts! Every little bit is a good thing.
Quote from: p on August 23, 2017, 02:28:55 PM
Oooh have fun Sarah!!!
It was fun!! And my feet are so soft now! :icon_walk:
I had my first conference with HR and it went GREAT!
Yeah! Congratulations. Get ready everyone, Colleen is coming!!
Quote from: Colleen_definitely on August 23, 2017, 07:25:24 PM
I had my first conference with HR and it went GREAT!
Thanks! Now I really need to get cracking on work clothes shopping.
Started estradiol last night. Felt wonderful mentally today! Probably placebo effect, but I will take it! So calm, focused and productive. I feel like a person for the first time !!
On my second international flight since going full time. Made it through customs, immigration and security check in a skirt (still have my male passport). So far no problems waiting for boarding to start... so happy right now...
Today I was hit on by a guy on Facebook who was talking about how "fine" I was and how great I look in my pictures. He hadn't figured out I was trans until I asked him if he saw that in my profile. He disappeared quickly but damn was that affirming to be hit on like I was any other woman :)
Ha! You better get used to it... men are strange 🤣
(And yes, I still smile about the first time I got hit on)
Quote from: AlyssaJ on August 24, 2017, 07:52:22 PM
Today I was hit on by a guy on Facebook who was talking about how "fine" I was and how great I look in my pictures. He hadn't figured out I was trans until I asked him if he saw that in my profile. He disappeared quickly but damn was that affirming to be hit on like I was any other woman :)
I ordered a pair of high-waisted skinny jeans in an Australian size 18 (a US size 14(?)), thinking I would need the larger size to fit me. I figured they might fit my waist, but not my thighs/legs, when I ordered them.
They arrived and I put them on.
They fit! But they were too big! (for skinny jeans)
I cried. I fell on my bed and cried. I'm keeping them since they're comfy and I cried in them (I'm emotionally attached now :D), but I'm going to try and find a pair of size AU 16 (US 12(?)) locally this weekend ;D Needless to say I was ecstatically happy all of today thanks to that morning delivery.
What made me happy today: reading Julia's post. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,227596.msg2018400.html#msg2018400
Had my ears pierced for the first time in my life. Almost didn't hurt. Little blue and white gemstones forming a cute flower... I'm supposed to leave them on for 6 weeks. Which means that Sunday I'm going to work wearing them! Hahaha! Well, they're a fine match for my blue surgical cap! [emoji28] And I feel kind of cute... [emoji39]
Hugs, Sarah
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Quote from: sarah1972 on August 24, 2017, 05:04:54 PM
On my second international flight since going full time. Made it through customs, immigration and security check in a skirt (still have my male passport). So far no problems waiting for boarding to start... so happy right now...
Oh my, Sarah! I admire you, girl! You're already at such an advanced level! And it must be so great! What a feeling! [emoji4] For me, hopefully in 9 months I'll be able to complete such a challenge... Congrats to you, Sarah!
Sarah... ☺
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I met some old friends today that I had not seen in over a year. When I first walked into the room they claimed they didn't recognize me because of the "big changes." They both asked what I have done to "look so much younger!" The other one backed up that statement with, "You look 10 years younger! What have you done?" They kept insisting "something has changed" but I gave no clue about my 16 months HRT (I cannot recognize any changes to my face. Apparently they did). I am sure they also noticed the big changes to my chest but they didn't ask about that (thankfully). I just thanked them for the compliments and changed the subject as best I could. Later, one of them returned to the original subject and said, "You've lost a lot of weight!" I'm already skinny so I can only assume that because of the "extra" weight on top that my proportions have changed a lot, making it appear that I have lost weight elsewhere, I guess. Anyway, made my day in a really good way... ;)
Celebrating my one-year anniversary of getting GCS!
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on August 25, 2017, 12:29:22 PM
Had my ears pierced for the first time in my life. Almost didn't hurt. Little blue and white gemstones forming a cute flower... I'm supposed to leave them on for 6 weeks. Which means that Sunday I'm going to work wearing them! Hahaha! Well, they're a fine match for my blue surgical cap! [emoji28] And I feel kind of cute... [emoji39]
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Lucky girl! I'm dying to get my ears pierced, but I'm worried about explaining them to people at work (not my coworkers, the public I work with). Within the next month or so my hair should be long enough to cover them, though!
Went to my psychology appointment today. First time going out with my purse and mascara on in my home town. Went to work with my nails polished, mascara on, and using my still a bit rough female voice. My psychologist keeps saying she can't see my beard, but I can. One of my subordinates said I looked a bit more feminine today. Less than a week of employment left. I am thinking of piercing my ears tomorrow. Need some encouragement, because I am afraid of needles. Like terrified of them. I can't watch people put earrings in their ears, in the holes that are already there. The thought of it is both terrifying and exhilarating at the same time.
Only had one odd look, but most of my coworkers were already aware.
I'll admit I had some fear getting my ears pierced last year, ironic after all those hours of electrolysis. Some of my electrolysis has been slightly inside the ear with no numbing stuff, my electrologist doesn't even ask - if she spots a stupid white hair sticking out of my ear she kills it. I think that's the key - if she asked I'd get nervous but she dives in and it's not that bad.
If you're getting ears pierced by a professional everything will be fine. A regular ear piercing is very easy. Other locations higher up the ear are not as easy. From what I hear.
I've also had my navel done. Yeah that's probably illegal for someone my age but what the heck. The anticipation for any of these piercings is far worse than the actual sensation. And my navel ring made three people happy - myself, my boyfriend and my girlfriend (they are a married couple).
Sarah - if you are concerned about issues at work get a pair of "invisible" ear studs in advance. I've seen gals working at the local Starbucks wear them for some of the more radical piercings (above the lip etc), they are flesh tone and almost invisible. I don't think all piercing places have them in stock but you should be able to find a set online and take them in with you. Just make sure the material isn't too cheap with a fresh piercing - ideally you want something hypoallergenic.
I walked into a room with 1200 people just like me.
Quote from: Kendra on August 25, 2017, 07:28:18 PM
Sarah - if you are concerned about issues at work get a pair of "invisible" ear studs in advance. I've seen gals working at the local Starbucks wear them for some of the more radical piercings (above the lip etc), they are flesh tone and almost invisible. I don't think all piercing places have them in stock but you should be able to find a set online and take them in with you. Just make sure the material isn't too cheap with a fresh piercing - ideally you want something hypoallergenic.
I didn't there was such a thing, though it makes perfect sense! Thanks Kendra!!
Quote from: Kendra on August 25, 2017, 07:28:18 PM
Sarah - if you are concerned about issues at work get a pair of "invisible" ear studs in advance. I've seen gals working at the local Starbucks wear them for some of the more radical piercings (above the lip etc), they are flesh tone and almost invisible. I don't think all piercing places have them in stock but you should be able to find a set online and take them in with you. Just make sure the material isn't too cheap with a fresh piercing - ideally you want something hypoallergenic.
Kendra,
How invisible are those studs really? I'm going to the Southern Comfort convention in Ft. Lauderdale in September, where I'll be full-time for two whole days, and I'd love to get them pierced while I'm there. But I'm not out yet in the outside world, and I wonder whether I can get away with it.
Steph
I went upstairs this morning and took out my new skinny jeans. I tucked and put them on.
Proceed to a 20 minute anguish montage of me checking how they look in the mirror, how my tuck is going (TMI though I'm not well endowed so I've not had to worry to much there, even though I do. Constantly -_-)
Once I'm comfortable with how they look, and once I convince myself my parents won't think anything of them, I go downstairs as if I'm not wearing a pair of jeans, something I haven't done in probably 10 years.
My mother does indeed notice, does a literal double take, and goes on a three to five minute talk on how they suit me and how well they fit me. She gets me to do a twirl, comments on their fit, asks how I got them, and says she loves that I found a pair of jeans that finally fits me (What she doesn't know is that they're women's skinny jeans, and I like to think that I never found a pair that I liked or that fit me because I'd always looked in the wrong section).
After soaking in all that I had to excuse myself because I couldn't hide my smile, which grew exponentially larger after I was out of sight ;D
Jamie, awesome! You made me smile.
Quote from: Sarah_P on August 25, 2017, 05:18:34 PM
Lucky girl! I'm dying to get my ears pierced, but I'm worried about explaining them to people at work (not my coworkers, the public I work with). Within the next month or so my hair should be long enough to cover them, though!
Well, Sarah, I'm doing it because I'm finally out at work and there's already a vague timetable of my transition in people's mind, and they're fine with it. They expect slight changes in the upcoming months and a big change around February-March 2018 (FFS + BA + official name change), so I don't expect any big reaction about my earrings... perhaps a bit of curiosity, a smile or two... but that should be it. About the public I work with, they're my patients and I don't expect any questions from them. If they ask, my plan is to tell them the truth: "I am transgender and this is just a step in my transition from manhood to womanhood. In case you wonder, this does not change anything about the doctor I am and I'm still going to take very good care of you." ☺
Anyways, my hair wouldn't be of any help. After my recent hair transplantation, I look more like GI Jane... [emoji6] I have nothing to hide my ears! I anticipate that I shouldn't expect to have a satisfactorily long hair before a good 2,5-3 years from now... Lengthwise, I'm looking for something along these lines...
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Any idea of how long it will/would take to grow such a beautiful head cover? [emoji7] Do you think 3 years is overly optimistic?
Hugs, Sarah
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I am attending a woman's retreat where I am going to learn to surf.
Quote from: Sarah.VanDistel on August 26, 2017, 09:46:24 AM
Well, Sarah, I'm doing it because I'm finally out at work and there's already a vague timetable of my transition in people's mind, and they're fine with it. They expect slight changes in the upcoming months and a big change around February-March 2018 (FFS + BA + official name change), so I don't expect any big reaction about my earrings... perhaps a bit of curiosity, a smile or two... but that should be it. About the public I work with, they're my patients and I don't expect any questions from them. If they ask, my plan is to tell them the truth: "I am transgender and this is just a step in my transition from manhood to womanhood. In case you wonder, this does not change anything about the doctor I am and I'm still going to take very good care of you." ☺
Anyways, my hair wouldn't be of any help. After my recent hair transplantation, I look more like GI Jane... [emoji6] I have nothing to hide my ears! I anticipate that I shouldn't expect to have a satisfactorily long hair before a good 2,5-3 years from now... Lengthwise, I'm looking for something along these lines...
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Any idea of how long it will/would take to grow such a beautiful head cover? [emoji7] Do you think 3 years is overly optimistic?
Hugs, Sarah
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After they shaved my head for my FUE, it took about 14 months to get to a passable short bob. At 18 months, it's way past the bottom of my ears, and heading to my shoulders.
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Quote from: meganjames2 on August 26, 2017, 10:32:06 AM
After they shaved my head for my FUE, it took about 14 months to get to a passable short bob. At 18 months, it's way past the bottom of my ears, and heading to my shoulders.
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So about 2 years until what I have in mind... Very encouraging! Thanks Megan! [emoji4]
Hugs, Sarah
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I've just updated my original post with some before and after pics.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=205939.0
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Quote from: meganjames2 on August 26, 2017, 11:34:32 AM
I've just updated my original post with some before and after pics.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=205939.0
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Just one thing to say: WOW! I hope the gods of hair will be so generous with me! I initially thought of going to Turkey for my hair transplantation, but after the recent turmoil I chose Hungary instead and so far I'm quite happy with the recovery. May I ask if you had only your vertex implanted? How many hairs? As you, I did FUE (6250 hairs) but it was just the frontal area, as my vertex still has a very good density. OMG... I was so happy when I saw your pics! ☺
Hugs, Sarah
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I had 4000 just to the Crown area. It's still thin there, and at the front, but just about good enough with the right styling. I will NEVER let anyone shave my head again, but there is UFUE, if I ever win the lottery.
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Sarah,
My transplant physician said 3 to 6 months for the transplanted hairs to enter their growth cycle. I have both heard and experienced around 0.5 inches or ~13 mm per month hair growth rate. I have to guess that the picture you showed had about 10 inches or 25 cm length so somewhere around 18 to 20 months. My point of reference is the hairs that I had transplanted at the beginning of March are now between 1.5 and 2 inches in length (4 to 5 cm). Obviously ymmv. I am 69 years old and take daily supplements of Biotin for hair and nails but have no data to prove that it works.
By the way, I just love your continued stories of your journey. You give such a fine testimony of what life can be like when you decide to reach out and grab it. Enjoy the ride!
Anne
Quote from: I Am Jess on August 26, 2017, 10:03:46 AM
I am attending a woman's retreat where I am going to learn to surf.
Good luck at the woman's retreat learning how to surf Jess. I've always been very impressed with anyone that can actually surf. It seems like a really difficult skill to master.
The rate of body hair growth is down something like 40%. :) I've figured out the best way to shave my upper lip too, good since about 25% of the black hairs are still there and when I don't grind them down it's obvious I'm up to something, not that I care exactly.
Quote from: Sarah_P on August 25, 2017, 05:18:34 PM
Lucky girl! I'm dying to get my ears pierced, but I'm worried about explaining them to people at work (not my coworkers, the public I work with). Within the next month or so my hair should be long enough to cover them, though!
Sarah,
I work with some very nosey busy-bodies. No one noticed when I did mine or at least they didn't say anything.
The joy and comfort that the piercings gave me is indescribable. I actually, for me, put piercing my ears next in line behind growing boobs. It was that powerful of a experience. It just felt right and Nobody cared. Lots of guys have pierced ears.
BTW it took almost 8 months before I could just put in a new pair without searching for the hole.
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Quote from: Denise on August 26, 2017, 05:21:11 PM
Sarah,
I work with some very nosey busy-bodies. No one noticed when I did mine or at least they didn't say anything.
The joy and comfort that the piercings gave me is indescribable. I actually, for me, put piercing my ears next in line behind growing boobs. It was that powerful of a experience. It just felt right and Nobody cared. Lots of guys have pierced ears.
BTW it took almost 8 months before I could just put in a new pair without searching for the hole.
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Funny... I never got my ears pierced or felt any big need to do it... Once in a while I think I should but I guess that feeling hasn't been enough to get me somewhere to get it done... Maybe one of these days!!!
Onward we go!!!
Ashley :)
I just went to a voice thing and the instructors were complementary that I'm sounding pretty good. And these people tell it like it is.
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Okay, yesterday, but had to share.
I needed something at work related to my transition. So i wrote an email to the person who could help me - fretted about it, probably spent a couple hours rewriting it, deleting it, restarting it, etc. I'm not out at work. I prayed for discretion in the person receiving it.
Finally I sent the dang thing. The response coming back was fairly slow, which surprised me somewhat but I attributed it to someone who didn't know how to handle a trans person and was nervous or something. Then I got the response after waiting what seemed like forever.
The person disclosed that they too were trans and they understood (also said some really helpful stuff). I ended up crying. I'm glad I work much of the time from home because my coworkers probably would have been very worried about me.
I went shopping for clothes at a thrift store today with my SIL. I got out of my truck and put my keys in my pocket, turned around and she was gone! She was there for my moral support but I thought to myself, just do it. I did and it was a blast! And those stores are great for figuring out what sizes I need.
A girl friend and I had a girl's day out shopping trip today! :icon_chick: Went to lots of great stores, and we had a ton of fun trying on different clothes!! We even ended up buying the same dress! :o
Charming Charlies, Nordstrom Rack, Bath & Body Works, and several other wonderful stores, plus a delicious lunch at Panera Bread. Oh, and some desert at Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory. I am now firmly of the opinion that it takes a certain minimum level of estrogen to truly appreciate chocolate. :D
One of the (if not THE) funnest days I've ever had!
Finally came out to some of my family members. The plan going in was only telling my two sisters. Well both nephews got involved and now they know. All of them are for it so that was a good thing. I had a feeling they would be ok with it all. Now I just need a way to tell my mother. That one won't be easy.
Quote from: RobynTx on August 27, 2017, 06:01:12 AM
Finally came out to some of my family members. The plan going in was only telling my two sisters. Well both nephews got involved and now they know. All of them are for it so that was a good thing. I had a feeling they would be ok with it all. Now I just need a way to tell my mother. That one won't be easy.
Great news...well done, congratulations, taking that first step is always the hard part. :D
This is going to sound like a strange thing to be happy about, but after being my own furnace for all these years, this makes me happy. I feel the cold way more now. Today our house is 17 degrees C and I am sitting wearing long sleeve PJ's instead of my usually shorts and t-shirt. Used to be anything over 15 required shorts.
Was looking at my shirts I wear to work...not one of them is long sleeves. I haven't worn long sleeves since ever. I do have a few sweaters for those -20 to -30 days on the drive to work but never wore them in the office. I think this winter it is going to be different. :)
Quote from: ElizabethK on August 27, 2017, 06:42:12 AM
Great news...well done, congratulations, taking that first step is always the hard part. :D
Exactly, the hardest part was telling my wife. After that it's gotten easier each time.
It's been a while since I've posted anything. The last few weeks, quite a bit has happened.
During my vacation in late July, I went out as Victoria for the first time. It was very special and I'm still smiling about it. (Thank you Jessica [emoji847])
After some consultation with my endo, I doubled my spiro dosage and finally this week, I took my first E pill! I'm starting with a low dose, but I have been smiling inside ever since! [emoji4][emoji4][emoji4]
Less than a week in...I can definitely understand how powerful the placebo effect is! LOL
The wife is partially on board but still very anxious about it, so I'm not showing all smiles yet, but I am buzzing [emoji4][emoji4][emoji4]
On an unrelated note, if anyone knows how to change my name on Susan's, please Let me know...I just can't figure it out - LOL.
Thanks for all the support on the site!
Victoria [emoji274][emoji274]
On an unrelated note, if anyone knows how to change my name on Susan's, please Let me know...I just can't figure it out - LOL.
Thanks for all the support on the site!
Victoria [emoji274][emoji274]
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Hi Amber42,
Members are permitted a max of 2 screen name changes a year
You can put your request in this thread where someone will see if the change is possible. Then it will enter the process to change it or work with you if there is a problem with it. Also your email needs to be up to date so you can receive notification of the change being done and active the new name.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,196460.0.html
I hope that helps you.
Hugs,
Laurie
I went to a town hall for our senator and made four new friends, both for myself and Randi. I was never so outgoing prior to HRT.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
I've always had what my mother calls "footballer thighs", big and thick (even though I despise the sport). It made finding pants that fit just that bit extra exasperating, and was one of the things that made me so very self-conscious. This was one of the many driving factors for why I hadn't worn jeans in 10 years, and why all my pants were overly baggy and looked sack-ish.
But that's a changin' ;D
So yesterday I went to two stores looking for more skinny jeans (yes, my happiness has been derived from stretch denim of late). I got super self-conscience at the first store (a little girl kept staring at me -_-) so I moved on to the next store, which I knew would be busy, but in general I feel comfortable there (it helps they have self-serve checkouts). I managed to find two pairs of size AU 16 jeans, one pair mid-rise and one that said it was 'super skinny' and sculpting. I crossed my fingers and bought them, without trying them on (hate changing rooms)... I was hoping the smaller size would fit since my first pair were too big in the larger size.
I rushed home and tried them on. And I have to say, I've always liked my arse, even before coming to grips with everything that I have, but dayum do I like it even more now! :laugh: I was so happy to see my bum the way I've always wanted to see it, caressed in denim :D It also made me really aware of the amount of mass my legs have shed, something I hadn't noticed from the clothes I had been wearing ;D
So very, very, very happy right now!
These new liberating clothes (I've never thought of clothing as being liberating until now), even though they're not many yet, has made my coming out to my mother even more important as I can't go back to wearing my old clothes.
Quote from: Laurie on August 27, 2017, 01:07:37 PM
On an unrelated note, if anyone knows how to change my name on Susan's, please Let me know...I just can't figure it out - LOL.
Thanks for all the support on the site!
Victoria [emoji274][emoji274]
Hi Amber42,
Members are permitted a max of 2 screen name changes a year
You can put your request in this thread where someone will see if the change is possible. Then it will enter the process to change it or work with you if there is a problem with it. Also your email needs to be up to date so you can receive notification of the change being done and active the new name.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,196460.0.html
I hope that helps you.
Hugs,
Laurie
Thank you [emoji4]
Quote from: Anne Blake on August 26, 2017, 12:55:49 PM
Sarah,
My transplant physician said 3 to 6 months for the transplanted hairs to enter their growth cycle. I have both heard and experienced around 0.5 inches or ~13 mm per month hair growth rate. I have to guess that the picture you showed had about 10 inches or 25 cm length so somewhere around 18 to 20 months. My point of reference is the hairs that I had transplanted at the beginning of March are now between 1.5 and 2 inches in length (4 to 5 cm). Obviously ymmv. I am 69 years old and take daily supplements of Biotin for hair and nails but have no data to prove that it works.
By the way, I just love your continued stories of your journey. You give such a fine testimony of what life can be like when you decide to reach out and grab it. Enjoy the ride!
Anne
Hallo Anne!
Thank you so much for your feedback! The timetables presented by you and others are very encouraging! I'm 45 yo and am also taking supplements (biotin and silicium) because... you never know! I've been also using a self-concocted topical cocktail of minoxidil 5% + caffeine 5%, but I had to interrupt it 2 weeks before the transplantation and can only resume it quite a few weeks afterwards (don't know by heart). Despite being under full dose HRT, including Androcur, I'm still taking the remainder of my Propecia (even if physiologically that doesn't make much sense, lol). Like you, I'm trying hard to maximize growth, with proven and unproven (but relatively safe) solutions... [emoji4]
Thanks for your kind words about my stories. Writing about my little adventures is very therapeutic for me and I also read with much delight the stories of this nice community. I'm very indebted to all of you... You probably already know that it was thanks to many of you that Sarah, here, is now bravely conquering her little new world! [emoji6]
Hugs, Sarah
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Went to a big box electronics store yesterday evening. I got nothing but ma'am and miss the entire time.
However; I had the little voice telling me that the guy that helped me in the TV section was a trans-guy. If that's true, he would be the only other transpersonal in my town that I've run into.
Still, felt good, which also means my voice is starting to pass. Happy dance.
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In spite of a head cold and weird side effects from analgesics and EMLA cream, I got through two more 2 hour electrolysis sessions. But, the best part...
A short while before the scheduled end of the session, my electrologist said,
Well, that's it. I don't see any more hairs.
Squeeee!
Now we just do weekly cleanups and adjust the hours and schedule to the rate new hairs wake up. Oh, and I quit shaving. ;D
Anyone want a half-empty COSTCO package of razors?
I was selling off some... boy-mode things(?)... and was at the counter while I was waiting for the owner to come back with a price. I happened to knock something off the counter and before I could turn around and pick it up the father of the boy standing next to me said to the effect of "Son, pick it up for the nice lady" ;D I had my hair up in a ponytail and somewhat androgynous clothing.
It didn't last long, as when I started to turn around he 'corrected' himself from lady to man and apologised (though I was still young in both cases, which was nice). But I was immensely pleased and happy for the remainder of the day thanks to that :D
Quote from: Michelle_P on August 28, 2017, 08:02:09 PM
A short while before the scheduled end of the session, my electrologist said,
Well, that's it. I don't see any more hairs.
Squeeee!
Now we just do weekly cleanups and adjust the hours and schedule to the rate new hairs wake up. Oh, and I quit shaving. ;D
Oh wow, that is flipping awesome!! :eusa_dance: My heart is bursting at how brilliant that is. I currently cry from shaving (both dysphoria and sensitivity issues) so it is so encouraging reading things like that ;D
Excuse me while I go and daydream about not shaving. Can't wait to start my hard work :D
Quote from: Michelle_P on August 28, 2017, 08:02:09 PM
Well, that's it. I don't see any more hairs.
Squeeee!
Wow, congratulations Michelle!
Quote from: Michelle_P on August 28, 2017, 08:02:09 PM
Well, that's it. I don't see any more hairs.
Wow, that is amazing, Michelle. Congratulations! I don't know how you were able to stand four hours of electro in one day, for weeks or months, but it was obviously worth it.
Quote from: Michelle_P on August 28, 2017, 08:02:09 PM
Well, that's it. I don't see any more hairs.
Amazing Michelle, unfortunately I can take the razors :( lol
Congrats on 100% clear, Michelle!!!
This past weekend, 2 of my friends from college got married. It was my first social event with my college friends since I started transitioning ~ 6 months ago. I was sooo nervous about it (stress dreams the whole week before), but thankfully it went really well! I hadn't told most of my close friends yet since I don't run into them around town, so step 1 was calling my close friends beforehand to let them know about my transition--which was in itself a great, positive step. One of them helped me to spread the word of my name/pronoun change to the other guests whom I don't know as well. The day of the wedding, I was just one of the girls, and everyone seemed to have my new name and pronouns down without asking or batting an eye. I got a lot of compliments on my new look, and some of my closer friends took me aside for some very sweet personal chats to affirm their support and affection for me. When I got back to my room at 5 AM, I cried so many happy tears! It was a very powerful experience that leaves me feeling more whole, more loved & more supported than ever. I owe this experience in no small part to everyone here at Susan's--you all give me the courage to be myself.
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I just got the most awesome news today. My GCS surgery with Dr Rachel Bluebond-Langner has been move up to November 2nd. So that's in just over 9 weeks. OMG I can't believe this is finally happening :icon_dance:
I've already changed my signature to reflect the change :D
Amazing news, Sydney!!!
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I just got the most awesome news today. My GCS surgery with Dr Rachel Bluebond-Langner has been move up to November 2nd. So that's in just over 9 weeks. OMG I can't believe this is finally happening :icon_dance:
I've already changed my signature to reflect the change :D
Can't wait to hear how it goes. I've been Intending to approach her. She's the nearest one that my insurance covers.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Quote from: Dee Marshall on August 29, 2017, 04:21:54 PM
Can't wait to hear how it goes. I've been Intending to approach her. She's the nearest one that my insurance covers.
I've seen in person two outcomes of GCS and one revision and every one of them came out amazingly. She also has some of the best bedside manners I've seen as my friend who had the revision was staying with us during her recovery.
OK! No idea how I'll pay my portion, but it's time for a consultation.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
I was buying a bottle of sweet red wine and a bottle of Prosecco from a local bottle shop. As I was walking up the the counter to pay, the woman behind the cash register was really paying attention to me. As soon as I got to the counter, even before I could put the bottles down, she said "I'm going to need some ID hon", which I have gotten use to, since shaving what little facial hair I have makes me look a lot younger than I am. They usually look at it and hand it back.
She studies my ID. Like, really studies it. At one point she did a double-take. A literal double-take :laugh: She gave it back and said "Well you don't look anything like your age. Way younger. You should be thrilled!". DAY MADE! ;D ;D ;D
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Also, my mother and I got to talking about trans and same sex marriage issues thanks to the first TV commercial against SSM, which was a horrible ad (Australia is going through some >-bleeped-< political absurdity at the moment, which will hurt people during the whole process - something my mother and I have also talked about a fair bit), and she actively started talking about a gender-queer individual she saw speaking and being spoken to on a TV program she watched the other day :) I'm currently writing some letters ;)
I got a "you have lovely hair"... You look pretty today... and a she did it
The pretty was from my therapist so it only counts for 1/2
Today is my last day in uniform. I will officially be retired from the Canadian Armed Forces. Now I will start my transition. I can't wait till I start HRT.
Quote from: Kelly1ca on August 30, 2017, 08:05:37 AM
Today is my last day in uniform. I will officially be retired from the Canadian Armed Forces. Now I will start my transition. I can't wait till I start HRT.
Congratulations on retiring...and the first steps of transition.
Are you seeing a therapist? Hopefully where you are, you have access to services.
Visited a make up store a few days ago. Been struggling to find a foundation that works. Been buying online good pruducts but the wrong color. Went and asked one of the young ladies who worked there to help me. Even told her that I'll transition. She just smiled at me in a really friendly way and helped me try some different products. Got Loreal 3w which really matches my skin tone. She gave me some advice afterwards and told me that I was welcome back. So happy the way this worked out. Was a bit nervous before.
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It was time to buy a new car as my 2011 Hyundai Sonata has 180,000 miles on it. I found a silver 2017 Sonata Sport with the equipment I wanted at a local dealership. The sticker was almost $26,000 and they were advertising it at $3,000 off sticker. There was also a $4,000 rebate being advertised. Hyundai offers a $500 veteran discount and they had a $750 rebate if financed through Hyundai. I got them to include an additional $1,000 event rebate. My out the door price including tax and license was $18,361 for the car. I put some additional money down and financed it for 3 years for less than $400 a month. The total finance charge is just about equal to the finance rebate effectively giving me 0% interest. This is a much nicer version of my old Sonata which I paid more for back in 2011. I did the happy dance all the way home.....
Quote from: I Am Jess on August 30, 2017, 02:16:09 PM
It was time to buy a new car as my 2011 Hyundai Sonata has 180,000 miles on it. I found a silver 2017 Sonata Sport with the equipment I wanted at a local dealership. The sticker was almost $26,000 and they were advertising it at $3,000 off sticker. There was also a $4,000 rebate being advertised. Hyundai offers a $500 veteran discount and they had a $750 rebate if financed through Hyundai. I got them to include an additional $1,000 event rebate. My out the door price including tax and license was $18,361 for the car. I put some additional money down and financed it for 3 years for less than $400 a month. The total finance charge is just about equal to the finance rebate effectively giving me 0% interest. This is a much nicer version of my old Sonata which I paid more for back in 2011. I did the happy dance all the way home.....
I think you just charmed the salesperson to get a lower price. lol Enjoy you new wheels Jess.
Hugs Laurie
Quote from: I Am Jess on August 30, 2017, 02:16:09 PM
It was time to buy a new car as my 2011 Hyundai Sonata has 180,000 miles on it. I found a silver 2017 Sonata Sport with the equipment I wanted at a local dealership. The sticker was almost $26,000 and they were advertising it at $3,000 off sticker. There was also a $4,000 rebate being advertised. Hyundai offers a $500 veteran discount and they had a $750 rebate if financed through Hyundai. I got them to include an additional $1,000 event rebate. My out the door price including tax and license was $18,361 for the car. I put some additional money down and financed it for 3 years for less than $400 a month. The total finance charge is just about equal to the finance rebate effectively giving me 0% interest. This is a much nicer version of my old Sonata which I paid more for back in 2011. I did the happy dance all the way home.....
Ooo I love a deal, good work!
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Talking cars I am well chuffed with my Skoda Yeti , Its a 2011 ,101 k miles and cost £7000 but a lot better than my 96 audi a4 with 173k and starting to feel tired. Almost top spec as well, heated leather seats, xenon headlights, 170 hp 4x4 . I can over take now!!!!
Quote from: davina61 on August 30, 2017, 03:32:31 PM
Talking cars I am well chuffed with my Skoda Yeti , Its a 2011 ,101 k miles and cost £7000 but a lot better than my 96 audi a4 with 173k and starting to feel tired. Almost top spec as well, heated leather seats, xenon headlights, 170 hp 4x4 . I can over take now!!!!
That's a nice ride. I've got an Octavia which I'm very happy with.
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Oh boy, I've had quite an exciting past few weeks! I was supposed to start hormones August the 16th, but because of an administrative error I never got the appointment-letter, which led me to miss my appointment with my endo. The rest of the week, I got into a biiiiiiig depression, because the hospital basically told me that in order to make a new appointment with my endo, I would have to wait some three or so months. I was so done with everything. It was the one day I was looking forward to. I didn't have much else to live for anymore, other than the little hope I had of transitioning. I called sick from work and spend the entire upcoming week home, sleeping, and generally being useless.
Now comes the unexpected turn: my therapist, with whom I've communicated through e-mails, called up the hospital to explain the whole situation. She's amazing at talking to people, and behold: the hospital staff actually found a date I could visit my endo again! This time the 31th! So, yesterday I've visited the hospital and went through the entire business of getting my body checked, having a blood sample taken etc. and I can finally pick up my hormones! I've decided to go for estrogen bandaids; according to my endo they work just as well as regular pills, but without the added risk of blood-clots. Considering that my dad's side of the family has a history of such things, I'm glad I went for bandaids. The testosterone-blockers are small pills, and I need to take one half each day after supper.
Even though I've only technically been on hormones for one day, I can already feel a lot more comfortable! I feel a lot more at peace, and a lot less mentally stressed (which I used to be pretty much all day). I'm not sure if this is a placebo effect or an effect of the hormones, but either way it's great!
Today I've actually started coming out as trans to some of my colleagues. Even though I don't know a lot of my colleagues particularly well, I still want them to know who I am and address me as Rachel instead of my boy name. Things are finally starting to look up again. It's a small progress, but to me it's a huge one considering I was pretty much at rock bottom before.
Quote from: Galyo on September 01, 2017, 04:11:54 PM
Oh boy, I've had quite an exciting past few weeks!
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I'm sorry you had that upset, but I'm glad everything worked out! Welcome to the E-Club!
We're not really sure if it's the hormones or placebo effect either. Some believe one, some the other, but many of us have felt it. Welcome sister!
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Quote from: Sarah_P on September 01, 2017, 04:53:49 PM
I'm sorry you had that upset, but I'm glad everything worked out! Welcome to the E-Club!
Thank you! Yaay! E-club is best club. :D
I've also started taking pictures of my face using my webcam, so I can document any changes so I can hopefully feel as good as some of the other girls here at some point in the future. :D
Quote from: Dee Marshall on September 01, 2017, 05:11:17 PM
We're not really sure if it's the hormones or placebo effect either. Some believe one, some the other, but many of us have felt it. Welcome sister!
That makes me feel so comfortable, knowing that other t-girls are experiencing / have experienced similar feelings!
Congrats on passing in gender neutral clothes, that's surely a confidence-booster!
Getting my prescription filled for the 1st time.
I just opened today's mail.
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Squeee!
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Yay Michelle!! You're officially you now! :eusa_dance: :icon_joy: :icon_dance:
I came out to my cousin and his fiancé today and I still have them in my life :D I'm visiting them in a couple weeks and I'm so happy right now to be buying plane tickets for the trip ;D Like ridiculously happy :icon_joy:
Quote from: JamieLee on September 02, 2017, 04:16:37 AM
I came out to my cousin and his fiancé today and I still have them in my life :D I'm visiting them in a couple weeks and I'm so happy right now to be buying plane tickets for the trip ;D Like ridiculously happy :icon_joy:
Congratulations, well done, coming out to anyone is stressful. It such a great feeling when people are supportive and I am glad you had such a positive experience...I hope you enjoy your trip ;)
I'll preface the good news with a short note on the last three days. I got hit with a really bad dysphoria attack that had me so low that the bottom looked like up. At one point I was ready to flush all the pills and give up on it all. I don't know what triggered it, or how I crawled out, but last night things were improving to the point where life was just gray instead of totally black.
Then the first good thing happened. I had told a friend who is part of my "support team" that it would be ok to tell another old friend, who I knew I could trust, about me. We are all pilots who used to fly together, and out of the blue I got this text message:
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I am SO going to envy you! Do you have any idea how bad-ass the title, "Aviatrix," is? [emoji2]
I really needed something like this. Not only have I gained a new ally, but I was reminded that I have other dear friends who have my back.
The second thing that helped pull me out is related to one of my intense dysphoria triggers: my receding hairline. I know that once the follicles are dead there's nothing that can bring them back. The hormones can only stop any new loss. I've been hiding it so far with hats, but the future is going to be either wigs - which would be very uncomfortable in Florida - or very expensive transplants.
In my brain, among the most defining attributes of femininity is hair. I've had a long ponytail for about 20 years now. It was a semi-socially-acceptable thing I could get away with to help stave off the dysphoria. Having it start to fall out was devastating.
But then the second thing happened last night that helped pull me out of my funk. I looked in the mirror and something looked strange. O...M...G... There is peach fuzz growing out of my forehead (which was on the way to becoming a fivehead). In some places as much as 2" below the existing hairline. All the follicles that I thought were dead for good are reactivating. I woke my wife up and cried on her shoulder yet again, but this time they were happy tears. What a great birthday present. I keep checking to verify that I'm not hallucinating... yup, still there. The hormones are truly magic.
So things are definitely looking up. My wife is taking me out for another "practice session" this afternoon. I'm shedding my boy suit and going shopping for a few more things for my new wardrobe, then out to dinner. Still have to wear a hat, but that's SOP for being outside in Florida anyway. And maybe in six months it won't be quite so necessary any more.
I'm trying not to get overly excited about it, since it's unknown just how thick or strong the regrowth will be, but for right now... with the text message and the hair thingy: Happy dance! [emoji1380] [emoji724] [emoji145]
Steph
Congrats Stephanie.
I share the hair problem and your feelings about it. Only my hair loss is far worse, beyond hope probably for even transplants. It's just one more issues I have yet to learn to live with. Congrats on coming out of that archaic condition. I'm not sure the younger folk have even heard the word 'funk" let alone know what it is. We,re showing our age Stephanie. *sigh*
laurie
Had a text from my cousin last night saying she had seen the perfect T shirt for me ,it says the future is female. Well went shopping after work and bought it (wearing it!!! ) The future is in black on a grey T and FEMALE is in 1 1/2 inch high red glitter raised letters . Also got one with " one day it will all make sense " on it (ha ha) , an orange top that's long enough to wear as a short dress or over jeans/leggings and a nice soft blouse . Its white/cream with black outline butterfly's and flowers and sits nice in my cleavage and exaggerates the breasts (forms) . Got earrings to match my cherry red nail varnish as well , dangly ones .waggle, waggle . Retail therapy works , much happier now.
Quote from: Laurie on September 02, 2017, 02:06:46 PM
Congrats on coming out of that archaic condition. I'm not sure the younger folk have even heard the word 'funk" let alone know what it is. We,re showing our age Stephanie. *sigh*
Ya mean the whippersnappers and rapscallions don't get down and get funky no more? No more zoot suits with reet pleats that wow the bejabbers offa 'em? They was the bee's knees!
Sheesh. What's this world coming to?
23 Skidoo!
Steph (celebrating the 30th anniversary of my 29th birthday tomorrow)
Hit the -30 pounds lost mark today. I felt comfortable enough last night to go out bare midriff to a club. I got a lot of compliments on how I'm now looking. 😊
Quote from: Steph2.0 on September 02, 2017, 04:00:15 PM
Ya mean the whippersnappers and rapscallions don't get down and get funky no more? No more zoot suits with reet pleats that wow the bejabbers offa 'em? They was the bee's knees!
Sheesh. What's this world coming to?
23 Skidoo!
Steph (celebrating the 30th anniversary of my 29th birthday tomorrow)
You kids these days...
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I made my first laser hair removal appointment this morning :D It's the only place in town that uses current technology, so if not for them I would have to travel four hours to the closest best option.
I'm looking forward to a future of not crying when I shave.
Had a friend who saw me in a dress for the first time: It will take some getting used to but you make a pretty women...
Wife surprised me with some new clothes in my drawer the other day. She also wrote a note that said "For when you need to feel like you.❤️". Broke down into tears and I'm not even on hormones yet[emoji23]. I would have bet 3 houses that I didn't own that she wouldn't/couldn't do something like that when I first came out. The journey she has taken in such a short time! Love my woman!
Oh and been in womens underwear and sports bra all day today and have loved it!
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Quote from: VickiBlue on September 04, 2017, 09:24:57 PM
Wife surprised me with some new clothes in my drawer the other day. She also wrote a note that said "For when you need to feel like you.❤️". Broke down into tears and I'm not even on hormones yet[emoji23]. I would have bet 3 houses that I didn't own that she wouldn't/couldn't do something like that when I first came out. The journey she has taken in such a short time! Love my woman!
Yesterday was my birthday. For what seems like my entire adult life, my hope when I opened a present was to find something pretty inside, and I had to paste on a fake smile when it wasn't.
Yesterday I found two beautiful tops in the gift from my wife. Yes, we both experienced ocular leakage, too.
Congrats on having a great wife, Vicki. Mine is pretty special, too.
Stephanie
Happy belated Birthday Steph!
Yes we do have special ladies!
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I have a middle name!
I expected a disaster when I came out to my parents in July. (This thread (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,226090.0.html) in the Coming Out forum). My prediction was so wrong... they were immediately supportive and in favor of my decision.
I visited this weekend, figured it would be a nice gesture to have my parents choose my middle name. In 1963 they chose my birth name (Ken) because it fits two cultures and has a Japanese Kanji character (my dad's ancestry is Welsh). I expected them to come up with a Japanese middle name as a counterpart to Kendra.
I told them to take their time, no rush - and my dad immediately said "Faye. Your middle name should be Faye with an e." I wasn't ready for that answer. His middle name is Fay and he has always hated his own middle name... and I reminded him of that. But his problem was having that name as a male, kids in school teased him because the word's origin is Fairy. He sincerely thinks it's a beautiful name for his daughter. My mom agrees. Now that I think about it, what a great way to have my dad finally feel good about his middle name 86 years after his parents thought of it. And mine.
Transition has been one surprise after another.
Kendra Faye F0wles
What a sweet gesture! Passing a name across generations is a sign of pride. By him chasing his middle name in a female variant shows he is still very proud of you! Congratulations...
Hugs Sarah
Quote from: Kendra on September 05, 2017, 12:07:08 AM
I have a middle name!
I expected a disaster when I came out to my parents in July. (This thread (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,226090.0.html) in the Coming Out forum). My prediction was so wrong... they were immediately supportive and in favor of my decision.
I visited this weekend, figured it would be a nice gesture to have my parents choose my middle name. In 1963 they chose my birth name (Ken) because it fits two cultures and has a Japanese Kanji character (my dad's ancestry is Welsh). I expected them to come up with a Japanese middle name as a counterpart to Kendra.
I told them to take their time, no rush - and my dad immediately said "Faye. Your middle name should be Faye with an e." I wasn't ready for that answer. His middle name is Fay and he has always hated his own middle name... and I reminded him of that. But his problem was having that name as a male, kids in school teased him because the word's origin is Fairy. He sincerely thinks it's a beautiful name for his daughter. My mom agrees. Now that I think about it, what a great way to have my dad finally feel good about his middle name 86 years after his parents thought of it. And mine.
Transition has been one surprise after another.
Kendra Faye F0wles
I went to WalMart today. Mascara, and purse in mostly my lady clothes. Only T-shirt and shoes were male. No one said anything, or even let on that they noticed. The lady at the register told me she didn't believe I was 43, and thought I was 30 or so. She also called me baby doll as I left. ;D Either she was being really nice, or My voice is doing great, and I am somewhat more passable than I think I am.
A fun time again today. Went to Applebee's with my friend and my wife. I had my mascara on, and carried my purse, but all my exterior clothing was male. The waitress came to the table and asked how us ladies were doing. Happy face ;D Still going.
Yesterday I went to the Trans Health Philadelphia conference and learned a lot that is super applicable right now, and heading back today as well. Yesterday was also the first time I was out, in public, as my true self.
Of course I found out that one of my friends spotted me in a newscast in the evening about the event, but at least I'm already out to that person.
Felt so good, natural and right to me and was very confirming of the path I'm on.
Quote from my sister to me.
"Are you growing that butt?"
I have reconnected with my friend Evie. I kind of erked her because I commented on Milania's choice of stilettos over boots.
Quote from: jill610 on September 08, 2017, 04:30:36 AM
Yesterday I went to the Trans Health Philadelphia conference and learned a lot that is super applicable right now, and heading back today as well. Yesterday was also the first time I was out, in public, as my true self.
Of course I found out that one of my friends spotted me in a newscast in the evening about the event, but at least I'm already out to that person.
Felt so good, natural and right to me and was very confirming of the path I'm on.
Went to Gender Odyssey a couple weeks ago. 1300 people just like me. It was my first experience in public outside the doctors office. Isn't it a wonderful experience to be with people like ourselves and learn from them? Have a great time.
Went to GP this morning and she is happy to do my blood tests for the private HRT , booked for next Thursday. Another step closer!!!!
Quote from: davina61 on September 08, 2017, 03:00:36 PM
Went to GP this morning and she is happy to do my blood tests for the private HRT , booked for next Thursday. Another step closer!!!!
Happy for you. X
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My hair sometimes has a mind of it's own. For the past two days it has looked like crap. this morning I get up and rake my fingers through it and it looks perfect! It's exactly the shape I have been trying for so long to get! I guess I have changed more than I thought. Happy Dance!
Quote from: R W on September 08, 2017, 04:24:21 PM
My hair sometimes has a mind of it's own. For the past two days it has looked like crap. this morning I get up and rake my fingers through it and it looks perfect! It's exactly the shape I have been trying for so long to get! I guess I have changed more than I thought. Happy Dance!
Yay! I know exactly how you feel.
I can generally not do anything with my (real) hair. It just sticks out wherever & no amount of mousse, gel, or paste can change it's mind. Then some days (like today!) it just randomly decides to be perfect.
Quote from: Laurie on September 08, 2017, 01:14:22 PM
Quote from my sister to me.
"Are you growing that butt?"
What made me happy today? Laurie is feeling better.
Stephanie
Quote from: Steph2.0 on September 08, 2017, 07:51:53 PM
What made me happy today? Laurie is feeling better.
Stephanie
Thank you Stephanie, it has been a has been a pretty good day. This evening hasn't been too bad either.
I told a nephew we seldom see that I was transitioning and he was enthusiastically accepting and happy for me.
Hugs,
Laurie
My wife saw me dressed for the first time last night. She told me I am lucky for having a perky butt.
Quote from: Laurie on September 09, 2017, 04:22:02 AM
Thank you Stephanie, it has been a has been a pretty good day. This evening hasn't been too bad either.
I told a nephew we seldom see that I was transitioning and he was enthusiastically accepting and happy for me.
Hugs,
Laurie
That's great Laurie! I'm happy you're feeling better. :)
Quote from: Sarah_P on September 09, 2017, 11:19:20 AM
That's great Laurie! I'm happy you're feeling better. :)
Thank You Sarah. Today is looking even better as I have another post for here.
Flowers! Birthday flowers!
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I was at the Philly Trans Health Conference today. I was walking around and realized I am a good way into my transition. I feel so much better and knew a bunch of people at the conference. I did not feel out of place when in community for the past 3 days. I felt really good.
I went off my diet and got a philly cheese with fried onions and ketchup. I went to the same vendor I went to last year. Last year he said thank you sir. This year he just said thank you. I never get sir when I buy things. I stopped at 711 the past three mornings and never go sir. Anytime I but something I never get Sir. WOW, that is huge and feels great.
Quote from: OutsideMe on September 09, 2017, 06:08:03 AM
My wife saw me dressed for the first time last night. She told me I am lucky for having a perky butt.
That's awesome that you were able to show your wife more of who you are.
For me, my happy today story - I came out to a long time friend (27 years of friendship). I spent 5 minutes saying I needed to talk about something without talking about anything. Finally when I made it through that I blurted out something that had the words transgender and woman and me in there, probably in a non-grammatically correct order.
He just said, "That's what I thought you were going to say." And he was very cool about it. :) He's not seen me dressed, I am very careful about trying to look fairly masculine in public and around him, etc, so I was really shocked, but equally it was really validating. I also didn't lose him as a friend, which is awesome.
Just completed my first Triathlon! Wind, rain and some hideous hills couldn't stop me, and despite being misgendered by almost everyone, I'm literally crying tears of happiness. [emoji23]
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Megan, that's awesome. I've always been impressed with those that can do triathlons. My sister is one. I am not.
On the other hand. My scale told me I'm at 155.2 this morning. That made me happy for sure. I also met with another girl from Susan's last night for dinner. We talked about being trans in public and damn if that didn't make me happy. No stares, no weird looks, just normal trans girls in drab having a friendly dinner and conversation.
Quote from: meganjames2 on September 10, 2017, 12:13:45 PM
Just completed my first Triathlon! Wind, rain and some hideous hills couldn't stop me, and despite being misgendered by almost everyone, I'm literally crying tears of happiness. [emoji23]
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Awesome !!!!!!!
Wind and rain, I thought it was summer in the UK?
Quote from: Cindy on September 10, 2017, 01:37:26 PM
Awesome !!!!!!!
Wind and rain, I thought it was summer in the UK?
Yes, and yes!
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"She wants to know if you need to talk to her". A coworker referring to me while on the phone. They've all been pretty good with the name but not the pronouns so very cool to hear that.
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Quote from: meganjames2 on September 10, 2017, 01:55:06 PM
Quote from: Cindy on September 10, 2017, 01:37:26 PM
Awesome !!!!!!!
Wind and rain, I thought it was summer in the UK?
Yes, and yes!
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Nice, Megan! :)
Hugs, Devlyn
Megan, I will second that. I have always wanted to have that kind of endurance and drive but never made it past a 5k run. You really impress me, go girl!
Quote from: Anne Blake on September 10, 2017, 06:26:26 PM
Megan, I will second that. I have always wanted to have that kind of endurance and drive but never made it past a 5k run. You really impress me, go girl!
At the end I promised myself I'd never do another, and yet today I find myself already thinking about the next one. I need professional help lol.
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Reconnected with a friend I haven't spoken to in 5 years. He was totally cool with my big news, and then we started chatting just like we'd never been apart!
I also have mixed results on pronouns. If it gets really bad, I just show up in a skirt for the next meeting :-) I am always happy to hear a "she" in calls...
Quote from: TonyaW on September 10, 2017, 02:01:48 PM
"She wants to know if you need to talk to her". A coworker referring to me while on the phone. They've all been pretty good with the name but not the pronouns so very cool to hear that.
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I got pellets inserted today, no more e pills. That made me scared and happy. I'm mostly happy though;)
I have been waiting for quite some time to make this post, very much looking forward to it actually. I woke up this morning after having yesterday's surgery, with my body matching my soul, heart and mind. I can't verify it in a mirror yet but, "my name is Tia Anne and I am a woman!". Yay!!!!!!!!
Tia Anne
Big hug! Good on ya!
Hugs, Devlyn
YES!!! Congratulations
Quote from: Anne Blake on September 13, 2017, 02:51:55 PM
I have been waiting for quite some time to make this post, very much looking forward to it actually. I woke up this morning after having yesterday's surgery, with my body matching my soul, heart and mind. I can't verify it in a mirror yet but, "my name is Tia Anne and I am a woman!". Yay!!!!!!!!
Tia Anne
Congratulations, and best wishes for a smooth recovery. X
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Congrats! Have a smooth recovery! I remember that feeling well. Hugs!
Quote from: Anne Blake on September 13, 2017, 02:51:55 PM
I have been waiting for quite some time to make this post, very much looking forward to it actually. I woke up this morning after having yesterday's surgery, with my body matching my soul, heart and mind. I can't verify it in a mirror yet but, "my name is Tia Anne and I am a woman!". Yay!!!!!!!!
Tia Anne
Congratulations!!!
Congratulations Anne!!!!
Congratulations Anne! Hope to get there too. You go girl!!
Quote from: Anne Blake on September 13, 2017, 02:51:55 PM
I have been waiting for quite some time to make this post, very much looking forward to it actually. I woke up this morning after having yesterday's surgery, with my body matching my soul, heart and mind. I can't verify it in a mirror yet but, "my name is Tia Anne and I am a woman!". Yay!!!!!!!!
Tia Anne
Oh heck I might as well say congrats too Tia.. I am happy for you.
Hugs
Laurie
Quote from: Anne Blake on September 13, 2017, 02:51:55 PM
I have been waiting for quite some time to make this post, very much looking forward to it actually. I woke up this morning after having yesterday's surgery, with my body matching my soul, heart and mind. I can't verify it in a mirror yet but, "my name is Tia Anne and I am a woman!". Yay!!!!!!!!
Tia Anne
Considering your struggle I am jubilant to say the least....its great to see you finally achieve the symbiosis you were looking for. ;D Congrats
Quote from: Justarandomname on September 14, 2017, 03:48:26 AM
First time ever leaving the house presenting as female. It was strangely uneventful. lol, probably the last time i'll be doing that in a while.
Obligatory photo post :P https://imgur.com/WOqictm (https://imgur.com/WOqictm) (I have no idea how to use make up)
Psssst....smile ;)
You look great...good on you!!
There is a guy in my office that I used to work with but haven't really seen in awhile. He's walked by my desk since I've transitioned, so I thought he knew about me.
Well, yesterday, he was getting off the elevator as I was getting on and I smiled at him thinking he knew who I was. Well, I found out today that he was then asking around, "who's that pretty, new girl?"
Oh dear! He didn't know who I was when I smiled at him. He just thought that some new girl found him attractive!
Wow - cool!
Hi girls 🙋🏼 I am so happy today because I can definitely say my breast buds have started to develop. They both feel to be about a 1/2" round ball. I've never been so excited to have pain!
Hugs (yow!), Jessica 💁
Quote from: Jessica on September 14, 2017, 01:46:38 PM
Hi girls [emoji1384] I am so happy today because I can definitely say my breast buds have started to develop. They both feel to be about a 1/2" round ball. I've never been so excited to have pain!
Hugs (yow!), Jessica [emoji136]
Yeah, Jessica!
About a week ago I was helping a friend move appliances and bumped my chest on the fridge. Eeyowtch! That made me check on things, and whoa, there's something going on in there. I'm not completely out yet, and my friend (who's trans herself) pointed out that I'd better be more careful what shirts I choose, saying, "Girl, you're starting to show!"
I got out the tape this morning and I'm up an inch! Just sitting here typing, they're making themselves known with a little aching.
So high five! [emoji1384] (No chest bumps, please.)
Stephanie
Thanks Steph! I'm hoping I'm right behind you by just several weeks.
This makes me feel like I really am ready to be female. Taking each step before the next is all you can do. Hopefully my path heads in the way Anne is on.
Hugs, Jessica 💁
Today I went to the electrologist and for the first time it did not hurt. However when I finished my face looked like a cheese pizza. Starting to calm down now three hours later.
Today I'm getting off work early at 5, early for me. And I was able to schedule a last minute electroligist appt for tonight. I am one happy girl.
Dawn that's great you were able to have a pain-free (or relatively pain-free) electrology session today.
After repeated electrology sessions I found the same area of skin starts to adapt and looks better, eventually to the point there is very little discoloration when you leave. I know it's challenging right now - but is sooo worth it.
My car needed brakes and our other car ended up in the shop yesterday so I took the day off to deal with it. Turns out it would take four times the amount I had budgeted and through the weekend. I was completely at a loss, crying and depressed. I called the regional director to tell him I couldn't work for the foreseeable future. He told me not to worry and that he would call me back. An hour later he called to say he was going to loan me his personal car and that he would bring it by in a couple of hours and I would need to drive him home. After he picked me up as we were driving to his home the executive director called me. He said the company would loan me the money to be taken out of my paycheck at a very reasonable rate and no interest. He said I should authorize the work and get him the info he needs to pay the bill. That man makes me cry every time I speak to him and it's always happy tears! As I was leaving the regional director he told me there was no rush to get the car back to him. I work for the best people!
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
That's amazing Dee! I don't think I've ever worked for someone that would do something like that for anyone!
Quote from: Sarah_P on September 14, 2017, 09:01:55 PM
That's amazing Dee! I don't think I've ever worked for someone that would do something like that for anyone!
I never have either, except for one individual. There was actually more but I'm supposed to keep that part quiet. Not easy, not easy at all!
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Catching up on this thread and reading such wonderful events in everyone's lives.
Congratulations to one and all.
After fighting with the medical community for months i finally am being treated for the, previously undiagnosed but very apparent, ADHD that I suffer from. Having tried all nonstimulant options, to much side effect chagrin, my Dr finally prescribed me Adderall. On a day when I was cranky tired and didn't even want to fight about it. No issues with insurance about it. I went to the pharmacy expecting to hear about it awaiting prior authorization, and was told, "oh we have it ready for you." I haven't been so excited to take a pill since I first received estradiol.
Also, my wife complimented my hair, which never happens. Life just wants me to have a good day it seems. Who am I to argue?
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Quote from: Dee Marshall on September 14, 2017, 07:57:13 PM
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OH WOW! I thought I worked for wonderful people. This is amazing. This is the type of company I want to give ALL of my business. Is the company something that we can support as consumers either in person or on-line?
Quote from: Denise on September 15, 2017, 12:44:44 PM
OH WOW! I thought I worked for wonderful people. This is amazing. This is the type of company I want to give ALL of my business. Is the company something that we can support as consumers either in person or on-line?
Sadly no. We provide support services for people with traumatic brain injuries. The men I talked about are both doctors of psychology.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Hi girls 🙋🏼 I've been happy two days in a row! Today I shaved my mustache off. It was virgin hair. My upper lip hasn't seen sunlight in 50 years. To match my avatar all I need is some fat to be added to my cheeks. I think I'll be pretty.
Smiles, Jessica 💁
Quote from: Jessica on September 15, 2017, 10:30:14 PM
Hi girls [emoji1384] I've been happy two days in a row! Today I shaved my mustache off. It was virgin hair. My upper lip hasn't seen sunlight in 50 years. To match my avatar all I need is some fat to be added to my cheeks. I think I'll be pretty.
Smiles, Jessica [emoji136]
Those little steps are priceless aren't they[emoji4], I hope your lip is enjoying the fresh air!
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Quote from: Jessica on September 15, 2017, 10:30:14 PM
Hi girls 🙋🏼 I've been happy two days in a row! ...
Jessica,
That's fantastic. My sister called those "Bankable Days." Those days you wish you could put away in a vault and when you are having a bad day you could withdraw one to turn the frown into a smile. But after a few roller coaster hills I found myself committing to memory the feelings of those good days and the euphoria I was feeling. When I would have a bad day I could stop what I was doing and draw upon those "banked days". It sounds corny but for me it worked.
Remember those good days and those to come. Eventually you'll get to 50:50 then eventually 99:1 on good:bad days. I figure I'm at the 13:1 spot (one bad day per every two weeks.)
Keep it up - I'm routing for your team!
This was last week, but I wanted to share as I've now got the pictures!
A newly formed initiative called EDIS (equality, diversity and inclusion in science and research) had their innagural symposium in London. There were 250+ attendees from across the UK, including yours truly up on stage as part of a panel on reverse diverse mentoring. I even squeezed into a dress for the occasion!
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I love the pics, Megan. You should post them in the Fabulous thread.
Quote from: KathyLauren on September 16, 2017, 10:11:02 AM
I love the pics, Megan. You should post them in the Fabulous thread.
Aww thank you hun, but I'm only 3 months on HRT and a work still very much in progress! I'm confident in myself, but don't see myself as either passable or even that feminine yet.
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Quote from: meganjames2 on September 16, 2017, 10:14:54 AM
Aww thank you hun, but I'm only 3 months on HRT and a work still very much in progress! I'm confident in myself, but don't see myself as either passable or even that feminine yet.
Think again, Megan. Of course, still pictures don't tell the whole story, but we're our own worst critics, so take Kathy's word for it. You look great; I'm envious.
And thank you for putting yourself out there and representing us!
Stephanie
Quote from: Steph2.0 on September 16, 2017, 10:31:02 AM
Think again, Megan. Of course, still pictures don't tell the whole story, but we're our own worst critics, so take Kathy's word for it. You look great; I'm envious.
And thank you for putting yourself out there and representing us!
Stephanie
Steph, thank you, it's hard to see past our old selves.
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Went to the electrologist and am 300 hairs closer to my goal. 10,200 down, 10,000 to go.
Changed our phone company and reduced our cost by 50-70%.
Also: noticed that fewer and fewer of my posts in this thread have anything to do with being trans.
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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!
Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.
They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
Think outside the voice box!
Went to a Warhammer 40K tournament as Claire. ;D Got my tush handed to me in every game, came in dead last. Why was that a happy thing you might ask? Well, I was me, in a public forum around 30+ gamers, and only 1 used he, all the remaining 30 either used ma'am or no pronouns, and all but my best friend used Claire. He is still getting used to the name, so I forgive him. One person even said that another player "almost lost to a girl". ;D ;D :icon_joy: It was a pleasant experience, and I even managed to stay using my feminine voice for most of the day. All told about 13 hours of my girl voice, longest stretch, only willingly breaking it at lunch alone with my friend, mostly for comfort, I know I dropped a time or two, but they were polite and didn't mention it. Now I've got to take a few days off from speaking at all, my throat is uncomfortable, I may have over did it a touch. Drinking a lot of water, any suggestions for easing a sore throat?
The only real bummer part, my makeup started to melt off, lots of windows at this place, and the sun was beating through them, onto gamer skin, yeah not good. I know I need to get a better makeup so sweat doesn't pull it off. At least I don't sweat like a guy, my gamer funk is a touch less now.
Quote from: Artesia on September 16, 2017, 11:37:07 PM
from speaking at all, my throat is uncomfortable, I may have over did it a touch. Drinking a lot of water, any suggestions for easing a sore throat?
Try Throat Coat tea. I use it when my voice gets sore from extended use / practice. Congrats on using your voice that long!
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The only real bummer part, my makeup started to melt off, lots of windows at this place, and the sun was beating through them, onto gamer skin, yeah not good.
It burns usss!! ;D
My wife and I went shopping. She helped let me know what looked okay and what didn't. Afterwards she said she had fun and is glad to have someone to shop with. I let her know I had a lot of fun as well.
I talked to some friends of mine today that I haven't seen in a couple of months. I was a little worried about their reaction to me now, but it was just a blip in the conversation! Made my day!
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Jacqui